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Publication Date: 2010

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Haley cox(12-13-1995) Hello, my name is haley.I like the color clear. i love the smell of the air, and myfreinds name is no name. My storys so long and complicated. some no it, butsome dont even care. i dont wright poems to get noticed. i do it to make myselffeel better, and for people to read them and no there not alone with theiremotions. so please Comment, suggest, read or enjoy. My current stream ofpoems have stopped because so has my source of hurt. but ill still wright non theless :)

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A Broken Heart Has No Cure There is no cureFor what has been doneI cannot hideI cannot runFrom the marks that paint my armI cannot hideI cannot run.....From him Haley cox


A Horse Of A Different Color Yellow is the sunWho always seems to run, Blue is for the oceanwhitch never will have a notion Purple is a lightning stormWhitch always makes me feel warm Orange is a tigers furblack to sure Gold is the fish itselfgold and grand a fish is Red is the brilliant bloodThat cover my razors Haley cox


A Lovers Lost Soul My soul is a lost lovers soulLost in the sea of cold darknessOnce your in you can only come back out onOne condition,You leave some of your soul behindAnd for people whoExperience savere heartbreak,The tolls even higherThe ocean wants more of your soul,Depending on the pain you enduredAs for me,My souls running on empty Haley cox


Always Im always counting on that callThat will never comeI wait up but the phone never rings Haley cox


Angel/Devil He used to be my angelThe one person i could run toRun to his loveNow he is my devilThe person i run fromRunning from his hurtIn a never ending circleThe worst kind,The one that never ends Haley cox


As I Hang Up As i hang up the phone,I reach for my glass.No,Not sharp enough.Were's my razors?Ahhh there they areMy little helpersI'll start with my right wrist,Save the best one for lastI put my blanket in my mouthSo no one will here my screamsI put the razor over the vainAnd push downHarder than i ever have beforeAnd unlike my other cuts,These will run parallel with my vainsThe brillaint scarlet red,On the bare white of my arm is so beautiful,Yet scary, For what i have done cannot be reversedI scream a blood curdling screamOnce the cut on my right arm is gushing blood,I quickly switch to my left armBefore i loose the strength to cut theLast cut that will end myMisorable excuse of a lifeAnother scream bubbbles up on my lipsBut i fight it backAs the blood flows freely from my left arm Haley cox


As The Rain Falls As the rain fallsSo do blood dropplets from my newly made cutsThey fall freely,Cause they have minds of there own My tears sting my eyesMake my vision blurMake my eyes red with regret All for a personA boyMatthew My friendLoverAnd the man of my dreams He used to love meMy heartMy soul Then he hurt meTour my heart outThrew my love away But it's okIll still love himForever Haley cox


At First At first i thought he could be all mine I was wrong At first things were amazing Then she came in Now things arent amazing Now he cant be all mine Because of her Haley cox


Behind The Light Behind the light,Theirs always the darknessWaitingWhatchingFor the perfect time to strikeAt the happiest point,Is your darkest fallout.You'll never know when ts going to comeuntill its to late and your surroundedYou cant see,You cant thinkFor behind the light,The darkness will always be waiting Haley cox


Blinded When you walk into love,You walk into the unknownYou can't see,You can't think,Your just along for the ride. You blindly reach out,And grab the first person you feelYou take what you getNo second chances So you try it out,If it's a keeperYou take him/her home and meet the familyIf there a dud,It's out with the trash Haley cox


Blink Blink,And things could get betterBlink,And whatch everything you loved dissolveBlink,To see againTo see the light thats never beenBlink,Before its lost forever Haley cox


Blood And Tears Tears from my eyes=Blood from wristsThe more tears i shedThe more the blood flowsThe very first cut hurts the mostBut then the glass keeps cutting more,Again and again now meaningBlood from my wrists=Tears from my eyes Haley cox


Care He says he still cares.is that aLie?OrThe truth?I want to believe him,But the truth always hurtsAndWhat if iDont want him to care about me anyMore? Haley cox


Care About My Cuts I wish i knew how it feltTo have some one care about my cutsTo stroke them and know there storyTo kiss them and never cause anymoreVow to love me, and them, foreverForever and more Haley cox


Circles We keep goingIn sickly little circlesWill he ever make things right?Or am i just wasting my'I love you's'On the wrong person? Haley cox


Crimson I lie hear pouring crimson regretFor something i will never getSomething i will never beSomewhere i will never seeHe sits there right infront of meHolding out the only keyThe one that i will never getIf i continue to poyr this crimson regret Haley cox


Criss Cross Things will always be criss crossedI will love him,He wont love meThan he'll choose to love meBut i'll choose not to love himI'll want to talkHe wont awnserThan he'll callAnd i'll 'accidentally' leave my phone in my roomI'll come to seattle,He'll be busyI wanted to marry himI guess he doesnt want to marry me Haley cox


Dark Waters Yonder These dark watersBenieth my skinCoursng threw my viensEasily more blue than the oceanThe waves hit me and i tumbleThe breath forcfully leaves meAnd my eyes see the darknessIs that him i see?Here with me during death?Comforting me for the last time,He holds my handAnd i hear him sayThis is the endBut the rest is lostIn the crashing sound of the wavesI stare into his eyesSearching for a sanity forclosureBut his eyes are the dark blue surroundingIm well below the surfaceThe point of no returnbut yet he staysSinking down to the bottom with meUntill im laying in the sandHe kisses me softlyAnd the salty water fills my mouthHe releases my handAnd rises upwardsI watch untill hes goneI scream out butTheir lost in the black abissWere ill stayWere im boundForever more With out him


Alone Slipping away ............................................................ Haley cox


Death I may not have had an acual near death experienceBut i no how it feelsDeath is my metaphor for how i feel about himDeath, Death and Darkness all around.Nothing but the eery silenceI no all to well Haley cox


Death Of Me I can never prove these scars to youYou have to trust me when i say their there You tour me downAnd then you build me up For to long i faked like things were okAnother sacrafise on your behalf You tell me you can heal these scarsBut im still bleeding Cause you'll be the death of me Haley cox


Do Wrong What did i do wrong?We built up wonderful walls,Then they came tumbling down,December 1st,9: 10 pmHe meant everything to meHe held me up and supported me,Then, He just let goHe dropped me, back down to the earthWere people wait to eat me upHe held me above all of them,Then let me dropp right back into reality,The last place i wanted to be Haley cox


Envy Im green with envy,For threeVery lucky girlsThat i will never be.They have exrerienced his warmth,They have had his physical loveHis hugs, His kissesI, have notSo, I envy these lucky girlsFor they have something i never will Haley cox


Even Though Even though my luck has changed,The razor still cuts my skinIs it because i have become what i never wanted to happened?Addicted.....?I wanted him backI gotted thatSo why do i still see the blood?I here his voice so often nowBut the scarlet lines still cover my armsIf i have become addicted,What do i do?He's mine nowIntell our next fall outBut shouldent his voice and prescenceBrought an end to my pain escape?But my arm still bleeds blood redThe cuts are still newI though he would make things betterBut i have realized,I am addictedTo cuttting Haley cox


Everyday everyday i look around my house,And see knifes,Razors,Bath tubs,Guns,And think to myself how myUnknowng family supplys soMany helpful utenslsThat could and my life Haley cox


Exquisit Sweet kisses in the blue summer moonlightWords said softly in a whisper,from the heartHold me tightly in your arms,From the cold winter chillsYour gentle touch linguresQuietly on my bare flushed chestThe wisp of lips on my cheekLeave me aching for moreThe notes of your laughter floatsIn the air like baby butterflysMy fingures drag overYour most sucluded placesWe fall back into the caress of sleepAnd dream about what tamaro will bring Haley cox


Fading His love fades every dayI can feel it draining from my bodyLeaving my soulThe marks on my arms fade as wellI can see them leaving my skinBut they'll be backThat much i knowBut his love won't beOnly his pain Haley cox


Fly To Him Birds, though im not oneare luckyThey can fly 62 miles to himWhile i stay grounded in OlympiaAnd he stays unknowing in SeattleCome take me away to him birdsTake me to my love Haley cox


Glass Glass shards are my best friendsThey wont leave me tell the endThey always help me threw the worstTell the end, intell i burst Haley cox


Haven My safe haven no longer exist,Because it chose to leaveSo many words, yet countless unsaidThe air bag that sofened my falls,Has now up and walked awayIm falling faster now andWhen i reach the bottomOnly death will be there to meet me,With a smile on it's faceI scream, but no ones heresEspecially not himFor he tunes me outAnd keeps on walkingFarther awayFarther into my darkness and pastFarther into his light and future Haley cox


He Is.... I need him, for he is my air,Sun, water, universe.I used to be his to.Intell i got raped, and wanted to dieI commanded that he kill me, get me out of my misoryHe left me to protect me,He left me and i died any ways........................ Haley cox


Heart The peices of my broken heartAre so small thatThey can be passed threw the eye of a needleI miss you like the sun misses the flowerIn the depthes of winterMy heart hardens like theFrozen wastland your absence has banished me to Haley cox


Heaven And Hell Heaven and Hell both hurt the sameHeavens only good for alitttle whileWhen that ends, Theirs hellSo there the sameToMe Haley cox


Heavy Heart I must go on,While carrying a heavy heart.It's the burden i must bareFor wanting to share,My heart with some one who,Dident want to share his back Haley cox


His Random Love For Me As we talk on the phoneIn the privacy my homeHe declares his random love for meAnd this may beOn the best nights of my lifeWe both remaniseIn our own quite blissAs he wisps meIn a totaly 360turn for the bestAs he declares his random love for me Haley cox


His Warm Embrace If i could hace experienced his warming embrace,I would be alot colder now,Because i woulda experienced whatI'd now have to live withoutSo in some ways,The distance that separates him and I,Isent so bad Haley cox


Hold The Ocean Dip your hands into the oceanAnd hold the world in your handsSmell the salt and wonder,Just dont leave in a blunderSplash it on your faceAnd start to make your paceCup the blue magnifacenceAnd turn to walk awayWith your own small worldAt your fingure tips Haley cox


How? How can i ever get over all this?This heartbreak of no return?There always will be a holeOne that cant be filled with sorry's,Forgive me's or fake loveIt will remain forever. Forever their,Making itself known. EverdayIntell i cant breath. Cant breath anymoreA simple task i cant do anymoreBecause the movment pushes againstMy unrepairable heart Haley cox


I Cut Because... I cut to focus when myBrain is racing.I cut to make physicalWhat feel inside.I cut to see bloodBecause i like it.I dont like to cutBut i cant give it up Haley cox


I Dreamnt I Had A Place In His Heart I dreamnt he still loved me still the sameI dreamnt he took my hand in hisAs he pledged his faith in meI dreamnt that you love me still the sameNo matter what thy had doneI took his hand in myAnd pledged my faith in himI Deamnt he took me to a land of loveWere we shall be together forever and alwaysWere you would love me all the sameI dreamnt that you savithed thee,fromm my darkness of never ending surroundnessMy world was dark shades of purpleThat transformed into blues, yellows and orange Haley cox


I Hope I hope when i cry, He crysI hope when i die, a part of him dies toI hope when i cut, He feels the painI hope when he starts to love me again, I will know how to say no Haley cox


I See Him I see him thereWith a look of despareOn his Handsome face.I want to take the SpaceBetween us,And make it disapearI rech out to touch him,But he pulls awayAnd says he wont hurt me againI need him now,More than everI see him there with a look of dispareOn his handsome face Haley cox


Imortal Love imortal loves amazingIntell the other person goes and screws it upWe coulda gone foreverIntell he diceded to driveA knife threw my heartI dident no one personCould survive thatBut im lving proofIts possibleI loved him,But he always suprises meWith the worst Haley cox


Into The Sunset, Outa This World Walk me into a sunset,And outa this worldMy sweet dear,That leaves me with tearsWisk me away,Taday.Into the Tower,This very hourThat will start our Togetherness,Forever blissShall come our way,Walk me into the sunsetMy dear Haley cox


Just Outa Reach He's just outa my reachEven in my dreams,I reach out but he just disolves.I sink down to the groundAnd let my tears go.I feel something wipe my tears away,But look up and only see the wind swaying the trees,He's gone i tell myself,He's really gone Haley cox


Keep Letting Him I keep letting him say'He loves me'I keep letting myself thinkIts trueI keep letting himSubdue the hurtBut the more i let him,The harder im going to fall this time Haley cox


Lies He said he'd never hurt meHe sayed He'd always love meBut what a suprise,Those were all just liesTo an extentHis love was always over Haley cox


Losing I dident want to let you goBut you were occupiedYou dident want me to slip awayBut i was tired of waitingI tried to make you understandBut you just couldent get itYou said hold on a little longerBut to me, thats to longI want to let goBut you said noYou said hold on 1 more dayBut to me, one day is more than i have Haley cox


Love I thought his love would never leaveBut once again i was deceivedFrom my eyes the tears shall fallAnd as alwaysI must atand tall Haley cox


Love Is A Lullaby If love is a lullaby,Then thats what my love with him used to beNow,It's hard metal (metaphor) Haley cox


Make Sure I run to the window,Are they gone?Yes my parents finally left the houseI'll try something new taday,Not the bath tub, not even my glassBut something that resinse in my kitchen,Knives. Knives of all kind.I need to find somewhereWhere the blood can go,And wont make a mess.My parents jacuzi bath should suite me fineSo i snatch my knives and run to there bathroomI position myself in the bath and roll up my sleevesI try not to look at my scars,For they bring many memorysI made sure to pick my sharpestSo this could be my lastI close my eyes and apply presure,And when i feel the sting,I no my cut was successfulI open my eyes, one by one,To find a beautiful stream of blood,Flowing, and not stopping,From the veins in my armsThese cuts have his name all over themA dedication you could call it Haley cox


Marks O the marks that paint my armThey may be grand but cannot be undoneTo the extent, all for himAndThe funny part is?He will never see them Haley cox


Matthew How fast the end must come and goHow much i really need him soHe really never will noHow much i really need him soO how boys so often come and goBut this one if you must noMade a special mark in meAnd now only heCan fix the damage he has doneAs to an end all love shall come Haley cox


Medicine I finally got the medicine,The sweet medicine for my heart,I got to hear his voiceEven though what came out of his mouth,Wasent what i wanted to hear Haley cox


More Than Love Hes more than a manAnd this is more than loveThe reason my hearts split in twoThe hurts rollin inSettaling inside my chestI hope he can here me cryinAnd feel that i am dyingInside my own world of hurtHe might as well take a gun and put it to my headGet it over withI dont want to feel this,AnymoreNo, No Haley cox


Music Music helps ans music doesn'tIcy forest are beautifulBut remind me so much of himThe sun is brilliant, as is heAnd the December air is cold, As was his love Haley cox


My After Death My after death is a 6th Dimension of life He's there holding me in His arms forever I breath in his Scent and sigh I look into his blue Eyes and melt He takes my hand As we walk He sings my song All day long We lay in a Flower filled meadow He lays my head On his chest We breath our breaths Together as one (My 6th dimension with him) Matthew&Haley


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Never Again I hope the Kisses you gave to herTurn her mouth greenI hope every hug you Gave herMakes her stumach hurtI hope all you 'i loves you's' to her were real,Cause now,Mine wont be Haley cox


Never Knowing Never knowingWhat coulda beenFrom the softness of his handsTo the warmth of his bodyThe scent of his skin Haley cox


New Outlook I have a new outlook on lifeI once again enjoy the rising of the sunOr being around my familyI am getting bettterThats for sureI dont feel dark all the timeThough i know that iWont ever be the sameThe razors lay doormantTucked safely awayFor another rainy dayHis voice no longer haunts meThe sight of his face doesnt bring me to tearsThe thoughts of our happy times sharedDont make me fall,They make me stronger,Make me smile So if your wondering,YesI do believe i am better Yes i do believe i got over my heavy waves of depresionI still long for himBut not so much it makes me crazy Im living proof anyone can survive a heartbreak I encourage all who read this to readThe poems from the start of my struggleTo nowSo you to can witness my triumpMy winningOver the horrible monster And i must thank all who helped me threwWithout these peopleI couldent have possibly survived


So thank you for reading:) *In memory of Matthew And Haley Cox* Haley cox


No More Meanings As i see it, Their are no more meanings for meMy great time is expiredI cant even escape toThe matthew in my dreamsBecause from there, He has also been erasedThe only reminder of him,Is my right arm and these many poems of sadness Haley cox


Our Love How cruelly it was goneHow fast the end was doneI really thought he loved meBut they were all just cruel, cruell liesI really thought i had this oneBut as usual, I am wrongI really thought he loved me,How fast the end must come Haley cox


Over My Head I slip into the bath waterThe ice cold bath waterNow only my mouth and nose are above the waterI hold my breath causeAlthough i want this to end my life,I dont want it to be because my lungs filled with waterMy breath is held,So now i submerge my noseMy last breathing sourceMy head soon becomes light headed,And my vsion starts to blurMy lungs sream for me to breath,I ignore the erdgeI sigh out my last breathAnd whatch as the bubbles quiver there way to the surfaceMy eyes roll back in my head,And i smile....Because i just got my revengeIf he can't be mineI wont allow me to be his Haley cox


Point Proven Every conversation proves more of my pointThe point that he should return to meI need him back, now Haley cox


Rays The rays of sunShine into my bedroom,Dancing on my floorPlaying trix on my eyesThere so beautifulThey give warmth to meOn the coldest of daysThey give me hopeOn the worst of daysThe days were i feelSo alone, So unloved by himThey pick up my soulAnd help me go on,The little rays of sun,That shine on the floor in my room Haley cox


Sleep, Dreams And Nightmares Sleep is my only plac away,Safe from him, Intell,Dreams come along, involving himThat turn into nightmaresShowing, Telling and Reminding meOf times shared between usMy own black holeForever spinning,Never stopping the pain...Ever Haley cox


Slipping Away My last breath is spewing over my lips,Escaping from my lungsLeaving my body. This is the last movment my lungs will makeThey shall not rise or fall again My heart speeds up to slow downIt feels as if it has hellicopter wingsTrying to cut open my chest and leave forever He wont try and stop it,For he's the one who caused thisMy slipping away Haley cox


So.... Everything Im so coldIm so aloneBut will he ever know,What im really feeling inside?He may not even careBut does he dare,To confront the pain he's inflicked?No, i dont think he will Haley cox


Somethings Theirs somethings you cant get overHeartbreak is one, ButRape is worseAnd i'v experienced bothThats one thing no one can ever help me get over Haley cox


Stare Into The Fire Stare into the fireEmbrace the flamesDon't let them leave your sightBecause they will rage into the nightTouch them while their yellowAnd let out a bellowBlow them while there orangeAnd let them forageLeave them when there redAnd go crawl into bedStare into their brillanceEmbrace their beauty Haley cox


Still There Suicide thoughts still float aroung in my head,Every day matthew's with her,My suicide thoughts growSome days its all i think about,About how easy it would beTo let my razor cut my arm deeper than normal,Then the blood would flow, And he would noHow it feels to go on without the flow of my loveThe only flow he would get would be the blood from my wrstMy soul finally fled,As i lay lifless on my bedAs the thoughts of suicide still float around in my head Haley cox


Summerland A place to be freeTo get lostBut dont over stay your welcomeIt can become addictingGo to often,And you'll never come backLet your mind wonder and the universe will become yoursThink of a flower and you'll get a sea of themThink about a mountain and you'll see a range of them before youIts a place to get awayNow,The only problem is getting there Haley cox


Surrender O matthew,SurrenderSurrender into my loveMy love that flows like a river,Surrender to the sound of my heart,My heart that beats like a fast paced drum for youSurrender to what you know is right,MePlease surrender yourself to meAnd promise forever and alwaysYou'll be mine Haley cox


Sweet Disposition A moment alone with him was my only wish(A silent tear)The first kiss with him lost(A Silent cry for him)The fisrt time holding his hand(A silent wimper)Our very first time making beautiful love(now a long lost dream) Matthew (my insperation for each and every one of my poems) Haley cox


Take It! ! ! ! ! Take it! ! !Take my crumbled heartFor i know longer what the tollOf having such a heavy burden in my chestYou break it,You buy itIn this case its freeSo take it,I do not want itAny more Haley cox


Taken From This Earth, If Only In My Dreams To be taken from this earth,If only in my dreamsShall they come true When i leave this place of despareAnd hopfully go Where life is betterHe'll take me there,My sweet loveHe'll take me, hand in handTo the place,Known only in the sweetest of dreams Haley cox


The Earth At Your Side Walk into the eery forestDont be afraidTurn in circles and gaspFor some trees are as tall as mastsSome as small as youThey look at you tooBecause you are newOf a sight for them alsoTouch there barkSo different from a larkWalk out of the forestDon't be sadThey will always be hereTo reach out and take your hand Haley cox


The Game Of Love If you play, You play for keepsSimple as that Haley cox


The Phone I will sit and stare, at my phoneHoping for it to show one name MatthewAs it will cry its lonely ringI will simply sit and singTo myself this poem of heartbreakAs it plays its sad lonely ring Haley cox


The Wish That Never Happened He's my wish that never happenedMy wish upon a star that burned outMy wish that got lost in the never ending galexiesLost, and never coming back Haley cox


To Fall Asleep In His Arms To fall asleep in his arms would keep the bad dreams away To Kiss him forever would be amazing To never leave his side would be the best To finally see him again would bring a smile to my face/ To see his face makes my day To hear his voice is my heavenly parodox And if these things Should happen to vanish This would be my heart beat.......................................................................................................................... Haley cox


Undieing Love He said we had undieing loveBut out the truth had finally comeHe finally said said that it would never workThe 62.5 miles that split us up Haley cox


Untill Please dont love me untill it kills meOnly hold my hand untill it bleedsKiss my lips with words unspokenWalk by my side untill we're invisbleMake love to me as sweet as sugarTouch me like im made of glassCarry me away like its my last Haley cox


Was I Not? Was i not good enough for you?Is that why you said good bye?Were you tired of my love?Were you sick of my sweet kisses?What were your reasons for pulling my heart outAnd throwing it away? Haley cox


Wearin' It To me,My hearts worn on my left armAll scratched up, all turnI promised myself thatThis woulb be my last heartbreakSo no boy shall enter my heartNot even oneNone can be trustedNor can they be lovedI wear my Heart on my left arm Haley cox


Will He Ever Know? Will he ever know what he has done?Will he ever face his hurtful actions?Will he ever know the pain of cutting?NoNoNoWill he laugh about this with his friends?Will this make no matter to him?Will he simply forget?YesYesYes Haley cox


Wipe The Tears My Child Of The Dark Wipe the tears my child of the darkDo not waste them on meFor i will always be thereThough thats not always as it feelsIll stick with youMy other halfMy sagnificant otherYou'll always be in my heartNo matter whatChild of the dark Haley cox


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