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Star Trek
HERITAGE _____
How to Fall in Love in Three
Easy* Steps (*May be Harder Than it Sounds)
By Captain Tristan I. McGregor
C.O. – U.S.S. Panther, NX-90261
As Re-told by T.L. Shull
This short story is a fan written work and is not intended to infringe upon the
copyrights of Paramount Pictures, CBS Corporation, or Pocket Books. It is provided free of charge to all fans for your enjoyment. Unauthorized copying or reproduction
is prohibited. “Star Trek” is a registered trademark of Paramount Pictures and CBS
Corporation.
STEP ONE: Lose Motor Function and Key
Communication Skills the Moment You See Her
"Tell me Lieutenant Commander, what d'ye know
'bout Gallegos and Riker?” asked my long-time friend
and fellow Red Squad mate, Captain Brian Shaughnessy.
He had a thick Irish brogue, shaming my own faint
Scottish lilt. He had a full head of auburn hair and a
freckle-matted face that somehow always seemed to
belie his age. The damn bastard always did manage to
look a decade younger than me. He had been the CO of
the U.S.S. Jaguar for over a year and had already built a
reputation that seemed to come to all of those who
commanded one of the Panthera-class defense ships – he
was a fearsome and formidable commander and fighter,
there was no doubt.
Shaughnessy and I graduated from the Academy
together but he always seemed to manage catching the
promotions ahead of me. Not that I minded really,
Brian‟s own self-confidence lent itself to being seen
first. It‟s not that I‟m not self-confident; I‟m just not
quite as loud about it as Shaughnessy was. In any case,
when Shaughnessy got bumped to the Oberon his career
shot off.
I however got stuck on an exploratory – the U.S.S.
Tallinn – a Helsinki-class deep-space exploratory no
less. In the years I served on her, battle was rarely
encountered therefore there wasn‟t a lot for a tactical
officer to do to show off his tactical skills. Peace was
just part of the plan back then and I was all right with
that.
But Shentaria‟s attacks changed everything.
Exploratories were summoned home and I finally got
a chance to show off the skills that the Red Squad had
pummeled into me; skills that had brought me here, to
this table, talking to my friend who had recommended
me for my new position and assignment – Second
Officer and Tactical Chief of Shaughnessy‟s sister ship
the U.S.S. Panther – the "Pride of the Cats."
I picked up my Andorian tea and took a sip of the
bitter root suspension before looking towards the fire-
eyed captain once again. “Only the tales Captain,” I
answered. “Gallegos has a reputation for being the most
formidable CO on any defense-ship. Seems to be an
understatement considering the ship‟s most recent
skirmishes with the Shents...”
“You‟re right about that I‟ll tell ye,” Shaughnessy
said after setting his own cup of herbal tea back on the
table in the lounge on Starbase 17. It was where all the
Cats were meeting and where I would assume my new
role. He continued, “Gallegos is the best there is Mac.” I
knew that Shaughnessy meant this with every fiber in his
being. Brian only dropped the pretenses when he wanted
to put a fine point on his opinions. “He‟s fair, brilliant
and tough. The Panther leads the Cats and there‟s no one
better t‟ lead the Panther than Gallegos.”
“Seventeen sorties since the invasion of the crabs and
not one ship lost? I‟d say that‟s as good as it gets.” I
replied.
„Crabs‟ was the term most of us had picked up and
used since the species known as Shentarians had begun
their attacks on the Alpha Quadrant. It may not have
been politically correct or very Starfleet-like, but they
weren‟t the typical enemy either. They had made battle
bloody again – somewhat like the generation before us
that had to deal with the Dominion, but these creatures
made the Jem‟Hadar look like amateurs. We were
dealing with a different kind of war. It was a scrappy,
disjointed, multi-fronted effort with heavy casualties on
both sides; and all over a horrible, regrettable and
innocent misunderstanding. I shook my head to empty
the anger.
“Aye…” Shaughnessy said with a bent smile of pride
and mixed admiration. “We haven‟t lost one yet
McGregor - and I don't plan on lettin‟ him down.”
I couldn‟t help but smile at my friend‟s show of
loyalty. I‟m not sure who it said more about - him or
Gallegos.
“But what d‟ya know about Riker?” he asked and I
could see a certain mischievous gleam in his eye. I had
seen that look before and I wasn‟t sure what he was
playing at.
“Other than the fact that she‟s Admiral Riker‟s
daughter? Not much,” I replied honestly, but was
surprised to see my friend grimace immediately after I
said it.
He dropped his voice low. “Do yourself a favor
McGregor and never, ever let those words come out o‟
your mouth…especially if you‟re within a parsec of „er.
Because she‟ll make ye eat 'em…and through a different
orifice than you released 'em.”
Although it was a friendly warning, I could see he
meant it. “I hadn‟t heard she was a hard-ass…” I said
honestly and he laughed out loud.
Shaughnessy looked down to his tea cup and turned it
in a clockwise rotation - three times - some strange
nervous habit or superstition he picked up in the
Academy and never let it go. He smirked weakly. “She‟s
not really. She‟s simply the best I've seen in a long, long
time Mac.”
Again, the reverence in his voice took me aback. “Are
you serious?” I asked.
Brian was the best judge of character I had ever
known. For him to say someone was good was a
compliment…this…this was more than just a
compliment from him. This was as close to adoration I
had ever seen from them man.
“Aye,” he said quietly. “You sound like you don‟t
believe me.”
I licked my lips, not sure how to word my next
sentence then leaned forward to keep my voice from
carrying through the subdued lounge. “Aw come on Irish
- ya canna tell me she got where she is, at the age she is
without a just a little help from the poppa.”
Again Shaughnessy grimaced. “Aye, I am Mac.
You‟re Red Squad…you remember how they treated
legacies, right?”
My stomach actually turned. “I do. Legacies were
made to be broken and usually were.”
Shaughnessy smiled. “So what does it mean to you
when you hear that not only was she Red Squad, but
Leader?”
Commander Elizabeth Riker had graduated six years
after us and I had been too busy to remain in touch with
the RS teams besides my own. I had heard a rumor a
legacy had made Squad Leader, but I hadn‟t realized it
was her.
The Red Squadron took legacies as a challenge – a
person who was meant to be cut down; none of us
wanted to member-up with a "gimme" - someone who
didn‟t actually earn their way in. Legacies always paid
for their familial relationships with a taste of the real
world. For a legacy to not only make the final cut for the
Squad, but to become Leader meant something pretty
unique; she would have undergone some pretty awful
treatment from the brass – but she would have to have
been so impressive she was voted in as Squad Leader by
her peers.
I shook my head with admiration. “I didn‟t realize she
was the one.”
Brian smiled brightly and sat back in his chair.
“Mac…ye should know…Beth Riker‟s me best friend.”
This admission was astonishing. Brian Shaughnessy
was notoriously close-to-the-vest when it came to his
private life. Hell, he considered me a close friend, but
there were still things he and I never talked about. For
him to call anyone his best friend meant things I would
never dare to assume. The look on my face must have
said it all because Brian smiled gently and sipped his tea.
“If that‟s tellin‟ye annathin‟…”
I nodded my head weakly. “Aye – that it does
Irish…” I said as I picked up my tea to sip and ponder
over my new superiors. “…that it does.”
“Well I‟ll be!” Shaughnessy whispered gleefully as he
pushed back from the table. “They‟re early!” he said and
rushed away from his chair.
“Captain?” I asked as I watched him walk away
briskly through the enormous lounge, dodging servers
and patrons alike.
Brian moved straight toward someone I couldn‟t see
from the angle I was sitting, but realized quickly that he
had actually hugged that person and had turned around
and was heading back towards our table. I stood
habitually, first because I could tell that the person was
following him and second because I was so bloody
curious as to whom Irish could be hugging. He was not a
hugging-type person.
But when I stood up, I was almost knocked back flat
by a pair of onyx eyes surrounded by the most beautiful
head of chocolate-tinted satin hair I had ever seen.
I‟m sure Brian said something but to this day I‟ll
never know what it was.
Her smile was genuine yet professional and perfect. I
know I shook her hand and I think I may have muttered
something about pleasure meeting or serving with her or
something, but the only thing that went through my brain
as my heart kick-started back on was –
McGregor ol’ boy? You sir, are in deep, deep trouble.
Step Two
Become Friends (This May be Easier Said Than Done)
My initial reaction to Beth wore off within minutes of
boarding my new ship.
I have a confession to make here and I know that Beth will
forgive me because it‟s really something we have in
common…but…I fell in love with the Panther before I fell in
love with Beth.
There, I said it. It‟s out there. It‟s true.
Beth‟s a CO. She knows exactly what I‟m talking about.
When you‟re born for command like we were, your true love
will always be the ship you call home. There is nothing
simpler than that. My parents talked like that all the time. I
just didn‟t comprehend what they meant until I stepped into
the Panther’s corridors the first time. She was simply…
Made for me.
I don‟t know how else to explain it. I knew she‟d be mine.
I knew it. I didn‟t know how or when and I really didn‟t care
– I just simply knew that the Panther was destined to be mine
until I retired or died.
There were times I knew Beth caught me at the tac station
actually caressing the panels in front of me. I saw her smirk. I
saw her smile, but not once did she ever look at me as if I
were crazy. It was then I began to realize that maybe she
understood it too.
Strangely, I never caught Beth looking at the Panther that
way. Captain Gallegos - God rest his soul – he fawned over
her. His hands were all over her; the doorways, the panels, his
desk, the jambs and especially the command chair. He was
always saying hello or goodnight to her and always seeking
that connection with her that I knew I had as well. In an odd
way – as I sit here in the ready room, in the chair Gallegos
once occupied, I actually know that the Panther misses him
too.
Well…back to what I was saying. Beth loved the Panther
yes, but not like Gallegos and not like me. It was more of a
professional respect I guess. Beth‟s dedication to the crew was
never in question but Beth hadn‟t quite found her home like I
knew I had.
I wanted so badly for Beth to find her home that I pushed
my rising feelings for her deep down and ignored them. I
ignored them because I wanted her to find that same kind of
joy, that same sense of belonging that she deserved so much.
Months passed. Battles were fought and the reasons for
Shaughnessy‟s admiration of his friends and counterparts
became crystal clear: Gallegos and Riker were simply the
finest executive team I had ever seen. They never once
demanded loyalty. They didn‟t need to. By the time Isla
Deneb rolled around…
Isla Deneb…
That‟s a whole other story…as was Telanus…maybe one
day I‟ll talk about those battles, but not here, not now. This is
a happier tale.
Again, by the time Isla Deneb occurred, there was a back-
log of people requesting transfers to the Panther. Gallegos
had managed to become the single-most desired CO in
Starfleet defense-ship history. Only Captain Brint of the
U.S.S. Enterprise counted more requests than…
...
Sorry. I had to break away from writing for a bit.
Sometimes remembering how I fell in love with Beth reminds
me of how amazing it is we were able to find the capacity to
love at all in the midst of all of the death we were facing.
Maybe that‟s why we became friends. I don‟t know.
All I know is that I loved Beth as a friend first.
And I remember the day that I pledged my friendship to
her. She never knew of course, until now, if she ever reads
this.
Some months before that infamous battle we had begun
mok‟bara exercises together in the gym. At first it was a way
to discuss the tactical situation on the Panther without fear of
the constant interruptions we always seemed to get in the
ready room when she had the conn. Staff meetings never gave
us the one-on-one time that Gallegos had trained us all to not
only use, but to actually desire. So we both agreed that our
command briefings would be more affective in the gym and it
worked brilliantly.
But three weeks before Isla Deneb, Beth came to the gym
looking like I had never seen her before. She was sad and
preoccupied to the point of distraction when we began the first
set of flowing mok‟bara moves as we stood side by side.
Normally her stance was balanced and even, but that morning
she went through the moves with no thought, no grace and no
real effort.
I began to speak quietly, “Llewellyn and Actell believe
that the refurb on torpedo tube seven will take less than a day
Commander. I‟ve ordered more quantums and have received
confirmation of their delivery at SB 37. So we‟ll be fully
stocked once again.” I turned to face her and noticed that she
seemed „far away‟. The mok'bara movements were always the
same, but her eyes were focused elsewhere. “Commander?”
She shook her head and then made eye contact with me for
the first time since she had entered the room. Her ink-black
eyes appeared glassier than I had ever seen. “I‟m sorry. Were
you saying something Commander?” she asked.
I smiled kindly, “I was just giving you the morning
briefing Commander. Do you want me to start over?”
She stopped her obviously rote movements and brought
her hand to her eyes and rubbed them softly. “I‟m so sorry
McGregor. I guess my mind was somewhere else. Please go
ahead.”
“Fine,” I replied and the two of us began the second series
of movements again. “As I was saying, the weapons supply
should be at full tilt when we reach Starbase 37. We‟re going
to be down a Weapons Specialist at midship if you don‟t
select one and have him or her on board by the time we depart
the starbase. Did you not get the list of candidates I forwarded
to you for final cut?” Once more her eyes weren‟t on me and
she was definitely not listening. I cleared my throat.
“Commander?”
I ceased moving and found myself watching her instead.
Her soft, thick wavy hair was pulled back and braided into her
usual style, just a braided rope looped and held at the base of
her head. She continued to move without real purpose, only
from the pure memorization of the routine.
“Beth.”
It was probably the first time I called her by her first name.
She stopped cold and looked right at me.
“What‟s bothering you?” I asked.
“What?” she asked.
“I asked…what‟s bothering you? You haven‟t been
listening to a word I‟ve said. Now I know something‟s wrong.
What‟s bothering you?”
Beth looked embarrassed. It was the first time I think I
remember seeing a real look of discomfort cross over her
olive-complexioned skin. It brightened quickly with her blush.
“I‟m so sorry Commander.”
“Look, you can call me Tristan, you know.”
She smiled softly and I could feel my heart start to melt
once again. What kept me from moving my hand to that
lovely cheek and taking her into my arms at that moment I
will never know, but it was one of hardest things I had ever
had to do. This was no longer about attraction, it was
everything about…well…her.
Once again, I asked her, “You can trust me Beth. What‟s
bothering you?”
Her deep, dark eyes lifted sadly to mine and I noticed that
they had filled with tears. “My brother.”
I had never seen her guard down before. There, standing in
front of me, trusting me, allowing me in was the most
beautiful person I had ever known and she was in pain.
“What happened Beth?”
“He‟s missing Tristan. They can‟t find him.” She said with
such torment, such sadness that I found myself feeling it along
with her. I hadn‟t yet met her brother. I only knew he was an
archaeologist with the Daystrom Institute and that he spent
most of his time traversing the galaxy from dig-site to dig-
site.
I didn‟t know what to say. My mind raced for something -
anything - but it would have all fallen out so trite that my
mind found away to kill every syllable before they escaped
my lips. I found myself reaching for and taking her hands in
mine and leading her over to the corner of the gym where the
rest-bench was located. I sat her down and then sat next her,
resting her hands back on her knees. “Start from the beginning
Beth.”
And she did.
It was the most glorious gift she could have given me, that
trust. She told me everything. How her brother was the only
sibling she had left since her sister defected, how she felt like
she had wasted time with him over a hurtful and regretful
fight they had had in their late adolescence, how they had
grown so close since their reparations that she wasn‟t sure
how she would function if he didn‟t survive.
I listened. That‟s all. Just listened.
Four days later they found Bill. He was fine – he had just
been shuttled home by his friend, a rather nefarious trader
named Mel Dwyer that he had gone to school with. Dwyer‟s
ramshackle ship never did have reliable communications and
the Institute finally came across his barely operational craft on
the edges of the Neutral Zone. Luckily they were all safe, if
not a little drunk, and no interstellar political incident
occurred. But Beth‟s relief was apparent.
The day after her brother was found she came to my
quarters. It would be the first of many times we would visit
one another over the course of the next two years; but on that
day she came to my quarters with a bottle of champagne, a
huge and gorgeous grin and the words, “Thank you for being
my friend,” on her lips.
Lips that from that day on I had to fight to keep from
kissing.
Step Three
Don’t Waste Time (Or Learn from My Mistakes)
Without getting into too much detail, the Battle of Isla
Deneb changed my perspective on a lot of things. While my
love for Beth only deepened, making it an issue fell by the
wayside. We both received field promotions after Gallegos‟
death and making my feelings known seemed more
impossible than ever; but it was alright, Beth was still near me
and that was enough to sustain me, although it shouldn‟t have
been.
You see, I almost lost her at Telanus…
Wow – still amazing how just mentioning the word brings
such a strong reaction from my gut. Nothing can describe
how…awful…that was.
Nothing.
Beth was in a coma for a long time. Only once had I made
it to her hospital room when it was free of visitors – usually at
least one of her family members was in the room when I came
to call. I took advantage of the quiet…and I held her soft hand
and allowed my hand to touch her amazing hair and found
myself choking back my tears when I realized it felt softer
than I had ever imagined. The only thing missing was being
able to look into those shattering black eyes.
I whispered to her. I told her how I felt…but she wasn‟t
conscious. I said goodbye to her. I told her it was okay to go. I
told her it was…
Sorry, it‟s still pretty tough to think about those days…the
days I thought she was gone forever. I hadn‟t cried like that
before…
Well, in terms I will only describe as being
overwhelming...Beth didn‟t die. She woke up the following
day and I thought I could never be happier. She returned to
the Panther and our routines started over again – except Beth
started to act differently. Something had changed and my
heart started to wonder – I started to wonder – maybe, just
maybe, she might actually have the same feelings towards me.
Our mok‟bara briefings lasted just a little bit longer; her gazes
toward me were just a little bit stronger; her smiles were just,
amazingly, a little bit sweeter.
If Telanus should have taught us anything, it should have
taught us not to waste time. I should have told Beth right then
and there that I loved her, but "duty" and "Starfleet" and
"professionalism" – they took precedence but I‟m not so sure
love needed to be squelched because of it.
The Panther was still leading sorties against the Shents
and the ever-burgeoning threat of the Thraiin. We couldn‟t
afford to lose ourselves. Maybe we could have, I don‟t know.
I only know that I did what I thought was right at the time.
But I‟ll be honest with you here; don‟t waste your time
like I did. Somehow I think if I had admitted my love for her
sooner – it still would have worked out.
So don‟t waste time. Give in when you can. Don‟t put it
off.
I probably would have lived like that for the rest of my life
– never telling her and just taking her presence as the gift.
Frankly, I began to believe that was just how things were
going to be – until a day when she called me to report to her
ready room.
I turned the conn over to Llewellyn and walked into the
compact office just off the bridge. She was standing behind
her desk and looking rather pale and in shock. I was worried
immediately.
“Captain?” I asked hesitantly as I approached the desk and
the door whooshed closed behind me.
I don‟t think I‟ll remember her looking quite so fragile or
beautiful as she did right then. Her expression was the most
delicate blend of melancholy, distress and joy I had ever seen.
“Commander,” she whispered, “please come in.”
I moved forward and thought about taking a seat but I
wasn‟t sure if she was going to faint or not so I stood right in
front of her desk. “Captain?” I asked again. That‟s when I
noticed that her hand was beginning to tremble and my
concern exploded. “Beth…what is it?”
Her gorgeous smile erupted on her face and she blurted a
laugh that took my breath away. Her laugh never ceased to
make anyone smile. “She‟s mine Tris…” she whimpered. “Oh
Gods…oh Deities! They actually gave her to me…”
Any other person may have had to ask her what she meant,
but I didn‟t. I knew what she meant. The look in Beth‟s eyes
could only mean one thing – it was the look I am sure I had in
my eyes when I strolled the corridors of the Panther the first
time…Beth had just been handed the keys to her home.
While I should have been shattered, most peculiarly, I
wasn‟t. If you could have seen the look on her face – you
might have understood. I found myself feeling a sense of
relief for her. I had been home for three years already; Beth
had been looking for her place for over a decade. Having her
close to me suddenly didn‟t matter anymore. I had yearned
only to see her with that look of …oh what is it?
Completeness? Wholeness? I don‟t know – something like
that.
I cleared my throat, knowing I would be saying goodbye to
her and while the pain washed over me it was back-filled by
my joy for her. “What‟s her name Beth?” I asked.
Beth looked to me and I was stunned to see a tear trickle
from her ebony eye as she whispered so softly …
“Enterprise.”
The word struck me like a cannonball.
I allowed myself to release the laugh that it had loosed
from my gut. I didn‟t need to say anything more. Not only had
Beth found her home, she found her dream home. It didn‟t
surprise me in the least.
Somewhere in the back of my mind something snapped. A
strange sense of freedom crashed into me and at that point I
realized that there might actually be more of a chance for our
love to survive now that she was leaving Panther. I wanted
the shot at that prospect to come as quickly as possible. “I‟ll
lay in a course for Earth Captain.”
Beth could barely mutter a word. “Thanks.”
Seeing her leave the Panther wasn‟t easy and the surprise
of my own promotion only seemed to be a salve in an un-
healing wound. Worse yet – I couldn‟t be with her to see her
take the command of the Federation flagship as we had to get
back out on patrol.
Over the following weeks I found myself most frequently
in my new quarters – quarters that had once been hers and
filled with her things, things I found myself missing almost as
much as I missed her, and I made myself a promise to myself.
That promise was that if I was ever given the gift of
another opportunity to tell her how I felt I wouldn‟t waste it
like I had before.
And I didn‟t.
She may not be in my bed every night but she‟s mine now.
How we got together is for another tale. This is just a
lesson for you – just in case you‟re not sure what to do when
you get knocked flat by the love of your life.
1) Let yourself take joy in being run over.
2) Let yourself take joy in being a real friend.
3) Don‟t waste time. Revel in every small moment for
precious – so precious – they are.