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Near the end of her essay “Wyschogrod’s Hand: Saints,
Animality, and the Labor of Love,” Virginia Burrus writes,
I would suggest … that saints are the monsters among us
animals—ominous portents, oversaturated signs, abysses of
meaning. We point at them and they point us beyond
ourselves. As Wyschogrod puts it, the saint’s task is both
“to construct a content, necessarily extreme, … to reach for
what is inherently refractory to representation,” and “to
‘show’ unrepresentability itself…. 1
I want, here, to point at saintly monsters, and to
gaze in the direction at which they are pointing.
Etymologically, monsters both warn us away and demand our
gaze.2 Being (made) monstrous, they are bodies made for
seeing. Placed in the monstrance, the transfigured host
commands attention, sometimes continuous and adoring
attention. The monstrance positions the body, however unlike
a body it looks, for a central display. Most monstration is
more marginal, and indeed we may know monsters because we
1 Virginia Burrus, "Wyschogrod's Hand: Saints, Animality, and theLabor of Love," in Philosophy Today, 55:4 (November 2011), 412-21,at 419.2 De-monstrare, root monstrare, to point out, indicate, frommonstrum, divine omen or wonder; monstrum root of monster, rootmonare, warn.
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stare at them from the corners of our eyes, trying not to be
caught in the act of looking, trying not to embarrass
ourselves or to humiliate those upon whom we want to gaze.
Something about these strange bodies, maybe
everything, is a little out of bodily place. Such a body may
have wrong parts: a human body with fangs or fur or the
hindquarters of a horse, a reptile body to enormous scale
and equipped with wings. A monster may be misproportioned.
But perhaps its most significant strangeness is that it
shows us, reminds us, of a coincidence of margin and heart
that we can encounter, but cannot ever quite understand. By
this puzzle and paradox, our urge to know is insistently
pulled, and we keep looking, whether or not we think that we
should.
Behold, the monster shows us a mystery.
Classically, mysteries are secrets. The mysterion may be
text or doctrine or, more commonly, rite. What characterizes
it is not genre but esotericism: it is not to be revealed to
the uninitiated. The mystery is what is secret, and its
revelation is forbidden. We, most of us, are not supposed to
look, and so we want to.
In the Symposium, Plato deepens the meaning of mystery.
After laying out the lesser mysteries of love, Diotima
teasingly remarks, “Even you, Socrates, could probably come
to be initiated into these rites of love. But as for the
purpose of these rites when they are done correctly—that is
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the final and highest mystery, and I don’t know if you are
capable of it” (210A).3 She then leads him, and us, through
the ascent from lust for a single beautiful body to
philosophia itself. Yet Socrates in his Diatomic drag
surprises us by going beyond the love of wisdom to a higher
or better object still, one that in the perfect simplicity
of its beauty eludes exact description (211A-211D). From
that which is guarded from telling by the constraints of
rite and rule, the mystery of divinity becomes that which is
guarded from telling by impossibility itself, by the limits
of our very language and even of our capacity to experience.
As soon as we know that we can’t or shouldn't say,
as soon as we learn not to look, we want to do exactly that.
In his exhortation to the Greeks, Clement of Alexandria
extensively describes and condemns the practices of non-
Christian mystery cults. Knowing full well that he isn’t
supposed to discuss these mysteries, he declares defiantly
that he shall “thoroughly lay [them] bare” and “display
them” for “spectators of the truth.”4 He will “tell openly
the secret things” (EGII). Having done so, he immediately
goes on to compare these mysteries to orgies, in both the
3 Plato, Symposium, trans. Alexander Nehamas and Paul Woodruff(Indianapolis: Hackett Publishing, 1989)4 Exhortation to the Greeks,http://www.theoi.com/Text/ClementExhortation1.html; a similarexhortation occurs in the first two books of the Exhortation to theHeathens.
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sexual and the more broadly frenzied sense.5 Lest we assume
that the rites are purely symbolic, Clement assures us that
“when night is for those who are being initiated a
temptation to licentiousness, talk abounds, and the torch-
fires convict unbridled passions.” (EGII).
Why else, the accusers seem to wonder, would the
practices be kept secret, if not because they are shameful?
The famous chronicler of heresies Irenaeus accuses several
of the Christians he calls heretics both of excessive
secrecy and of varied licentiousness. His invective against
the Valentinians is exemplary: they “yield themselves up to
the lusts of the flesh with the utmost greediness…” (AH,
1.6.3.5), and “are in the habit of defiling those women to
whom they have taught the doctrine…,” or “…having become
5 Continuing in Exhortation to the Greeks: Demeter provides particularlyvivid examples, as her mysteries commemorate her “amorousembraces” with her son Zeus, “on account of which she is said tohave received the name Brimo (the Terrible One); also thesupplications of Zeus, the drink of bile, the tearing out theheart of the victims, and unspeakable obscenities.” If notappalling, these rituals are laughable: “If I go on further toquote the symbols of initiation into this mystery they will, Iknow, move you to laughter....” (II) While Demeter mourns theloss of her daughter, a woman called “Baubo, having receivedDemeter as a guest, offers her a draught of wine and meal. Shedeclines to take it, …on account of her mourning. Baubo is deeplyhurt, thinking she has been slighted, and thereupon uncovers hersecret parts and exhibits them to the goddess.” Note here an intriguing reversibility—display can shame, but itcan insult as well. It's hard, however, to insult a goddess:“Demeter is pleased at the sight, and now at least receives thedraught, – delighted by the spectacle! These are the secretmysteries of the Athenians!” (II).
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passionately attached to certain women seduce them away from
their husbands, and contract marriages of their own with
them” (ibid.)
It is hard to tell, sometimes, if what infuriates the
opponents of “heresy” is a particular practice or just the
fact that it is hidden. In a quite remarkable passage, again
on the Valentinians, Tertullian writes,
These individuals care about nothing more than to conceal
what they teach--if indeed anyone who conceals can be said
to teach. Their duty of guardianship is a duty brought on by
their guilty consciences. … Consequently the mystagogues
make entry difficult and perform long initiation rites
before they accept the devotee; they put him on probation
for five years in order to increase his anticipation by
suspense and in this manner cause the awesomeness of their
rites to match the desire which has been elicited. Their
duty of secrecy is a natural consequence; they guard closely
what they are finally to reveal. Then--the entire godhead of
the sanctuary, the object of devoted sighs, the secret
signed on all tongues: the image of a penis.6
The Valentinians seem in fact to have been mildly
ascetic, deeply literate, and carefully Christian. But these
6 Tertullian “Tertulliani Adversus Valentinianos,” Translationby Mark T. Riley, 1971, in Gnostic society library, athttp://gnosis.org/library/ter_val_riley.htm
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facts have little power against the notion that they worship
the image of a penis, the object of desire cultivated and
intensified by prolonged anticipation. Somehow alive,
detached from the rest of the body, the penis presents a
monstrous picture: no wonder, Tertullian implies, that its
pitiful obscenity is kept so long concealed.
The accused, these early defenders of Christian
orthodoxy suggest, both conceal and reveal too much. They
conflate two senses of the forbidden—the naughty with the
secret—and then conflate both with the truly unknowable
divine mystery. I want to suggest, however, that seeking the
unknowable through the forbidden is not a fallacious
conflation, but a mystical approach—particularly where
mysticism is at its most incarnational. The sense that the
body itself is mysterious, that it is or has or harbors
secrets, draws some Christian practitioners into spectacular
acts that may come closer to some senses or forms of
forbidden practice than the accused groups ever came. It
draws them, particularly, into practices most strangely
related to others' stares. Here are the tropes of popular
monstrous humans: blood poured out and eagerly drunk,
evoking vampires; bodies covered in hair, like werewolves;
the dead who live again, like zombies.
The desire to draw others’ gazes, particularly upon
what could or should marginalize or shame, is found
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especially in ascetic practices of humiliation.7
Humiliation is not the same as humility, though
(particularly within monasticism) the latter may include the
capacity—usually acquired in a difficult habituation—to
withstand humiliating acts, on the model of the supreme
humiliation of a God tortured and executed as a criminal, or
the more approachable model of Paul, who took "pleasure in
infirmities, in insults, in persecutions.”8 Monastic
habituation to humiliation could be fabulously challenging,
but once truly acquired, humility might not require much
effort, unless the humiliating other is highly creative. I
have long thought that Nietzsche was right about at least
some aspects of the ascetic will: it is strong and easily
bored. No doubt most of those in monastic communities
endured humiliation reluctantly and for the sake of humility
—but there are others, and not only monks, who have sought
it for its own sake, whether or not they thus labeled it.
They have sought humiliation as a sign of the depths of
their humility and more—in their pleasure in insults, in
persecutions. They make us look, and wonder.
Hagiographies and popular stories of these ascetics,
many of whom become saints, often emphasize their 7 Including those of the “holy fools,” who, like the Cynicsbefore them, make strong yet subtle statements in their nudityand filth. (this, like note 5, is really a reminder to myself forexpansion.)8 John Chrysostom, in "Homily Addressed to the People of Antioch,Concerning the Statues," athttp://www.ccel.org/ccel/schaff/npnf109.xix.iii.html
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attractiveness. In some instances, it is even read as a sign
of God's goodness,9 but for most, matters are less neatly
aligned. In their youth, many of these future saints enjoy
beauty and the attention that it brings. In the 17th
century, St. Veronica Giuliani notes in her autobiography
that she enjoyed public display of her beauty, and enjoyed
the mask-wearing and cross-dressing considered quite sexy in
her day10—“With this transvestism,” she declares, “I was
enormously satisfied; it made me noticed by more people."11
Likewise pleased with her own youthful beauty is Margaret of
Cortona, a 13th century Franciscan tertiary who later
becomes conspicuous instead in her asceticism.12 Those who
are not especially pretty, such as Catherine of Siena, still
learn to adorn their faces and dye their hair, or dress to
impress and delight.
More professionally attentive to her appearance is
Pelagia of Antioch, one of the “holy harlots” whom Burrus
discusses vividly in The Sex Lives of Saints. Pelagia’s
biographer, the deacon Jacob, not only specifies many
details of her clothing, but emphasizes her attractive 9 When the future ascetic known as Pelagia first appears as astunningly beautiful actress, for instance, the local bishopbelieves that “the woman’s ‘carnal beauty’…is the manifestationof her actual spiritual power.” Virginia Burrus, The Sex Lives ofSaints: An Erotics of Ancient Hagiography (Philadelphia: University ofPennsylvania Press, 2004), 141. 10 Rudloph Bell, Holy Anorexia (Chicago: University of ChicagoPress, 1987), 67. 11 Bell, 67. Citations from 1st version of autobiography, 5:17).12 Bell, 96.
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power: “Thus it was that her beauty and finery lured
everyone who saw her to stare at her and at her
appearance.”13 Even the bishop, Nonnos, is impressed, and he
urges the other monks to be impressed too: “To be honest,
fathers, did not the beauty of this prostitute who passed in
front of us astonish you?”14 An intensely focused
attentiveness to the flesh as it appears, as it is visible,
is vital in all these instances; beauty may not be necessary
to it, but does undoubtedly prove useful in enticing that
initial awareness.
Even those who enjoy their beauty early on, however,
come to regard it more warily later. Catherine eagerly cuts
her bleached blonde hair to the roots as a sign of her
religious devotion. 15 Others go further--the 15th century
Franciscan nun Eustochia burned her face and discolored it
with herbs.16 When Jacob is sent by his bishop, after many
years, to see Pelagia in the desert, he does not know who 13 Burrus, Sex Lives, 139. Citing Life of Pelagia, 5.14 Burrus, Sex Lives, 140. Citing Life of Pelagia, 7.15 The Sisters of Penance respond with caution to Catherine’smother’s petition that she be allowed to join, finally agreeingthat they will see her and allow her entrance only if she is nottoo pretty. (As by that time Catherine had had disfiguring pox,she was not at great risk of this (Bell, 45).) Catherine herselfis eager by then to be rid of adornment. When she persuades thepriest of the sincerity of her religious vows, he answers that ifshe is truly serious, she should cut off all of her bleachedblonde hair. She jubilantly hacks it to the roots (Bell, 41). 16 Geronima Vaccari and Cecilia de Ansalono, La leggenda della beataEustochia da Messina, Testo volgare del sec. XV restituito all’ originaria lezione, 2nd
ed., Michele Catalono (Messina, 1975), 74-76. Cited thus in Bell,143.
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she is. “Her astounding beauty had all faded away, her
laughing and bright face that I had known had become ugly,
her pretty eyes had become hollow and cavernous as a result
of much fasting….”17 Her asceticism has won out over her
beauty. Ascetic women resist beauty as a temptation to pride
and a sign of attention to wordly matters, even as their
biographers insistently point it out.
One’s own shame and pride are not the only risks of
being beautiful—beauty may also arouse the desire of others.
Late in the 16th century, Rose of Lima “became afraid that
her beauty might be a temptation to someone, since people
could not take their eyes off her. Therefore, she rubbed her
face with pepper until it was all red and blistered.”18
Margaret of Cortona outgrew her youthful delight in
appearance, and wished to cut her nose and lips with a
razor, “because with the beauty of my face I did harm to
many souls. Therefore, [I wish] to do justice upon myself,
by myself, for this offense to God and to transform the
beauty of my body into ugliness….”19Appearing with the
balanced propriety of beauty, these bodies become monstrous
by their power to entice the attention of others, and so
they must be marked as monsters, made to warn of the dangers
implicit in that at which we are drawn to stare.
17 Burrus, Sex Lives, 144. PCM notes how weird gender gets here.18 <http://www.catholic.org/saints/saint.php?saint_id=446>19 Bell, 99. Citing Antica leggenda 2:15.
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Beauty is often bared. Angela of Foligno is
particularly striking here: in a famous vignette, she strips
entirely before a church’s crucifix and offers herself to
Christ. Mary of Egypt, centuries earlier, had been
beautifully ornamented in her youth, but later she wanders
the desert clad only in her own long hair, a sort of saintly
Godiva—or werewoman. Her hair seems to preserve some measure
of her modesty, providing the concealment that the eager
monk Zosimas will refuse to her speech, as he asks her an
entire biography’s worth of questions, attempting to draw
into words some truth deeper than the skin. If Mary's body
isn't naked enough, perhaps her psyche can be.20
In Saving Shame, Burrus recounts a story strikingly
reminiscent of a popular trope in present-day humiliation
pornography, in which the monk Serapion "tests" the humility
of a virginal devotee to God by insisting first that she
appear in public, then that she disrobe and walk through the
city. "When she protests that others will think her 'insane
and demon-ridden,' he asks why she should care… [and]
translates her apparent modesty into a manifestation of
pride, claiming that she considers herself 'more pious than
others'…" (37.16).21
20 Burrus, Sex Lives, 151, notes how determined this drawing-outbecomes: "At this point, the woman begs to be allowed to end hershameful narrative, lest Zosimas himself be corrupted.Fortunately for him, it is too late. ‘Speak, my mother, in thename of the Lord,’ he cries out desperately.”21 Burrus, Saving Shame, 92.
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Others more deliberately seek public exposure. Our
Margaret, no longer so beautiful, gains notice for “the
exceptional humility with which she shouted out publically
her sins.” But shouting is not quite enough. Wearing “a cord
tied around her neck in place of the jewelry she once had
worn,” she asks public forgiveness during the Sunday mass.
“Had her confessor not refused to allow it …. Her wish was
to be led around blindfolded by a woman who should cry out:
‘“Here is Margaret, dear citizens! Here is she who once
carried herself with such airs, and with her vanity and bad
example did so much harm to the souls in this town!" Thus,”
she says, “I will be deemed crazy by those before whom I
boasted with my words and my looks.’”22 A similar story
appears in Angela’s account of her own life: “I even enjoyed
imagining how I could make public my iniquities,
hypocrisies, and sins. I wanted to parade naked through
towns and public squares with pieces of meat and fish
hanging from my neck and to proclaim: ‘Behold the lowest of
women, full of malice and deceit, stinking with every vice
and evil.’”23
This nakedness is a deliberate dispossession and
renunciation, less of objects—that is, clothing—than of a
state of self-containment. It is the loss of a boundary, and
22 Bell, 96. Citing Antica leggenda della vita e de’ miracoli di s. Margherita diCortona scritta dal di lei confessore Fr. Giunta Bevegnati, ed. Lodovico daPelago, (Lucca, 1793) 2:14; 4:2; 8:4.23 Angela of Foligno: Complete Works, trans. Paul Lachance andRomana Guarnieri (Mahwah, NJ: Paulist Press, 1993), 219.
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a literal revelation. By it some small secret is told, some
loss of isolation endured. This loss is particularly that of
unknowness, of not being exposed. Such stripped-down
asceticism seeks some truth of corporeality—a truth that
sustains the will to know precisely by being unfindable. Yet
the will seeks, staring at the body stripped to the skin.
Those hungry for humiliation seek the secret too, even if
they are blindfolded--this gaze is not unidirectional, of
which I shall shortly say more.
Those paying even the least attention have undoubtedly
registered the potent element of abjection—displacement,
filth, boundary loss--in these humiliations. In Pelagia's
tale, this becomes explicit: she soaks the bishop's feet
with her tears, wiping the dirt onto herself. She calls
herself debased and debasing names: a "ravenous vulture” [a
carrion eater, a consumer of rot]. "A disgusting stone on
which people have tripped up"--but upon which they must
first be walking, with those dirty feet. "A deep ditch of
mire," which scarcely requires elaboration. "O I am a
destructive moth," she says, "and I have gnawed into many
bodies," feeding upon the flesh not meant for food; "I am an
abyss of evils." She then begs the bishop to strip her of
her dirty clothing, so that she may be redressed for
baptism.24 It is a scene, as Burrus rightly notes, so loaded
with abject terms that it risks self-parody.
24 Burrus, Sex Lives, 142.
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And yet that desire to know, to see the secret beneath
the skin, the mystery behind the image of the penis, is
unsatisfied. Humiliation may intrude more deeply: we also
find a deeper stripping, or an opening, of the skin itself.
Margaret of Cortona sought permission to slash her face;
Eustochia's blisters make smaller but painful openings. The
humiliations of martyrdom open wounds or even cut off body
parts.25 (Though it is not my focus here, it is worth
noting that more overtly sexual or pornographic depictions
of humiliation focus frequently upon the body’s orifices—not
always the expected ones--and upon opening them as widely as
possible.) [note: in the presentation, the image here is of
a nostril hook in use]
Bodily fluids may also cross boundaries, both
physical and social. The fourth-century saint Thaïs is
portrayed in her Vita as an unusually desirable Egyptian
courtesan. When a suspicious monk visits her to see who has
caused so much quarrel and bloodshed among those seeking her
favors, he asks if she does not fear for her soul, “as well
as those of the young men she has led to damnation.”
Suddenly overwhelmed, Thaïs begs the monk for a suitable
penance. Obligingly, he burns all of her goods and seals her
into a small monastic cell, “and when she asks the monk
25 Among others, Burrus cites Elfpidius, who "reached such a highdegree of mortification and so wasted away his body that the sunshone through his bones" (48.3), not opening the body to touch,but revealing its interior to those who gaze at it in the light(Saving Shame, 87).
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where she is to urinate he charitably responds, 'In the
cell, as you deserve.'" Thaïs accepts this and further
humiliation. After three years, the monk himself seeks
advice from St. Antony, and in a vision, learns that Thaïs
has been forgiven. Taken from her cell, she dies in about
two weeks.26
Of course, saintly bodies sometimes open or exude of
their own accord—or in unexpectedly beneficial ways. Mary of
Egypt’s modesty may be protected by her hair; that of the
third century Roman Anastasia is more unexpectedly veiled.
Under torture, she praises God. “When they stripped her
naked, to humiliate her, she cried to the judge: 'Whip me
and cut at me and beat me; my naked body will be hidden by
wounds, and my shame will be covered by my blood!' She was
whipped and beaten and cut about….Then her breasts and
tongue were cut off. ... She was finally beheaded with the
sword outside the city.” Here the display of the flesh is
covered by what is more commonly covered and held in, kept
concealed, by that flesh, the blood from the newly opened
wounds, even as the body is wounded again to the point of
dismemberment.27
Bodies, and particularly bodily fluids, may cross from
one to another with or without wounds. In later versions of
her autobiography, Veronica tells a childhood story of
looking at a painting of Mary breastfeeding Jesus. She 26 http://www.lib.rochester.edu/camelot/whthaintro.htm 27 http://orthodoxwiki.org/Anastasia_the_Roman
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writes, “I began to undress. That done, I took off the
little corset I had and said: ‘My Jesus, leave those
breasts. Come take milk here from me.’ And I offered my
breast. He detached from that of the Virgin and attached to
mine. Oh God! I cannot find words to tell how I felt... At
that moment the Babe seemed not painted, but in the
flesh.”28
When the medieval devotions to the Passion and wounds
of Christ emerge, many saints-to-be pay particular attention
to the spear wound in the side, entering into it as a
sheltering space or drinking from it as from the breast.
Catherine of Siena is among those who do both, or wish to;
she envisions entering Christ's body through the wound, and
declares that God "showed me from far away his holy side,
and I cried with great desire to place my lips on the most
sacred wound.”29 She will attempt to fulfill some measure of
this desire by drinking the fluid from the sores of lepers,
themselves both abject and wounded.
As these bodily boundaries blur, other boundaries too
are troubled, most noticeably those of, and between,
subjects. This becomes clearer when we consider
humiliation’s strange reversibilities—particularly that of
the gaze itself.
28 2nd. Rel, 1:2-4; 3rd rel., 5-36-37. 2nd & 3rd autobios from OresteFiorucci, ed., ‘Un Tesoro Nascosto’ ossia diario di S. Veronica Giuliani, 5vols., [Città di Castello, 1969-1974]). Thus in Bell, 60.29 Raymond of Capua, Legenda, 191. Thus in Bell, 30.
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As optical theory develops, the middle ages take up the
ancient theories of a double emission and penetration of
light to present us with a more “scientifically” grounded
reversibility. Combining the ideas of intromission and
extramission—visual “power” traveling from object to eye or
vice-versa—medieval theorists held that both were true.
Vision is neither purely active nor purely passive; it is an
exchange moving across the between.30 Rather than
maintaining a disinterested aesthetic distance, vision
entails here a double penetration—all the more so before the
flesh. This sense of the dual gaze returns to a considerable
degree in the 20th century with Lacan, for whom gazing (not
simply seeing) is at once anxious and pleasurable, active
and passive: the object of the gaze, without ceasing to be
object, nonetheless gazes back, tells me of my self (it
makes me self-conscious). Lacan associates this reversible
gaze with both the voyeuristic will to see and the
exhibitionistic will to be seen .31The knowledge-demanding
gaze of the one who humiliates, who stares and asks and
demands, seeks to go beyond the limits of vision not only by
invading the known body, but by reversing and thereby
doubling the seeing gaze: seeking the secrets of the bared
30 Thomas F. Glick, Steven John Livesey, Faith Wallis, Medieval
Science, Technology And Medicine: An Encyclopedia, (New York: Routledge,2005), 373-74. 31 Jacques Lacan, Four Fundamental Concepts of Psychoanalysis, trans. Alan Sheridan (New York: W.W. Norton and Co., 1981), esp. 181–183.
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and opened body, the body at the margins rendered abject and
monstrous, the voyeur looks into the heart of the flesh,
seeking out the secrets of his own. Cary Howie and Bill
Burgwinkle write in Sanctity and Pornography in the Middle Ages, “…in
the case of the ecstatic or pornographic body,…we are
encouraged to view the image… using a kind of surgical gaze
that tries to touch the surface or even invade it, all with
the intent of opening up the viewer him- or herself to
potential invasion.” (S&P, 20). But that viewer sees only
that the sought is unseeable; abjection, as Georges Bataille
long ago told us, cannot be seen, any more than it can be
named in description; the flesh continues to conceal its
mysteries. Howie and Burgwinkle explicitly note the
doubleness of seeing, the “medieval sense that visual
penetration always goes both ways.”32 But this penetration
runs into something, no thing, not quite a barrier, not
quite a limit, not even, quite, a deflection, but the non-
visible and unknowable.
Both the one who exhibits, opening the body to
scrutiny, and the one who looks, staring straight or
glancing sideways at the heart, are doing a great many
things, of course, but one thing they are doing is trying,
with the desperation of all impossible desires (which is to
say: with the fervor of all religion) to see and to show. To
see the mystery, to show the secret: to know what cannot be
32 Howie and Burgwinkle, 38.
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known. The beautiful body attracts the gaze; eager hands
strip it bare; assistive technologies and divine
interventions alike serve to open it up—yet it eludes us.
Writing of Bataille, Maurice Blanchot remarks, “The sacred
is what cannot ultimately be touched, rejoined, repaired or
redeemed.”33 Nor, in this dismemberment and elusion, can it
be seen, or known. The urgent search for revelation is at
once enticed and foreclosed by mystery.
Humiliation as exhibition writes the body large. It
involves a sort of monsterizing, an abjection, pushing to
the margins what nonetheless remains at the heart,
intensifying the gaze. We cannot quite identify humiliation
with shame, but neither can we disentangle the two: shame is
no small component of the affective element of humiliation,
but while shame is, as Eve Sedgewick persuasively argued,
readily and involuntarily shared, humiliation is at its
strongest when it is not shared at all. If the voyeur is
embarrassed and turns away, humiliation is broken. If the
viewer in these instances is ashamed, even just a little
embarrassed, the tensely balanced desire of the one
humiliated is neither satisfied nor sustained. The one
humiliated likewise seeks to know, to find and to share.
“Shame,” as Burrus writes, “does not merely guard the
boundary between the public and the private, the political
and the personal, the inter- and intrasubjective, but also
33 Maurice Blanchot, The Book to Come, need page #
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constantly traverses those boundaries—even very nearly
dissolves them. This traversal—this near-dissolution—binds
shame tightly to the erotic. … the plunge into the abjection
of flesh-and-soul … undoes identity, giving rise to both
wild joy and abysmal humility—courting the arrival of grace"
(SS 152).
We approach, then, another Bataillean construction,
that of communication, which is no simple information
transfer but a bleeding-over at the site of wounds, an
opening so deep as to present a mortal risk to knowledge and
the knowing subject. At times, both the entrapment within
oneself and the distance crucial to the proximity of the
known are too much. The desire to know is too strong. The
impossible pulls.
In the double penetration of the gaze, in the
reversibility of shame, in the enticement of the desire to
know as it is drawn to the unknowable, in the urge to escape
the boundaries of the very self, humiliation is seductive:
it entices without satiation, it is drawn without the
satisfaction of ending. Hagiographic accounts often end
rather startlingly after the body is humiliate or opened
(even if opened and healed) as much as possible: even if an
interval of years is noted, we generally skip straight to
death, where the body itself hovers at the boundary and
begins to leak, becoming itself the abject corpse. (The
zombie, of course, plays upon this particular monstrosity:
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what if the body in its purest materiality, the corpse
itself, without ceasing to hold together, nonetheless lived,
like us, reminding us of how much we too are like it?) There
is no completion. Blanchot links the secret not to death,
but to the impossibility of knowing-dying, as “the
inevitable accomplishment of what is impossible to
accomplish—and this would be dying itself.” (SNB 107, cited
in Massie, 34). But the secret is always in excess—of life,
to be sure, but of dying too. The glory of resurrection and
the horror of the zombie both entice us toward it.
Writing of the re-living of the once dead flesh, not as
a leaking zombie but reconstructed to a perfection beyond
its former unity, Paul declares, “Behold, I show you a
mystery.” But he doesn’t, quite: in the story of these
bodies he shows us, as sanctified glory and abject monsters
show us alike, that a mystery is. We might suspect the
secret of being simply absent—that is, of being a fiction,
indeed a lie. But the absence of the secret is not of a sort
that reduces it; rather, it is at the heart of its presence.
No wonder we are so unsuccessful in pushing it away, in
making it fully marginal. "There is nothing secret,
anywhere;” writes Blanchot, “this is what the secret always
says.- All the while not saying it. For, with the words
'there is' and 'nothing,' the enigma continues to rule,
preventing installation and repose." The secret is more at
home (which is to say: as unsettled and unsettling, as
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enduringly homeless, as marginal and central) in a
thoroughly apophatic theology, in which no thing is God,
than in a simpler positivism. The mystery remains: in our
remains, in our remainder—the site and nonsite of our
abjection, our introjection of otherness, our extrajection
of self, our own impossible divinity. The remainder, a
concept that contemporary theorists have taken up primarily
from Julia Kristeva’s discussion of abjection, is that in
identity and representation which nonetheless eludes them.
As Jacob Rogozinski makes clear, it is particularly that
aspect of myself which is at once constitutive of me and
persistently other than me, that of which I attempt to rid
myself by projection, extrajection—abjection. At the heart
and the center, it attracts us as unknowable; at the limit
and the margin, it repels us in its familiarity, as
intriguing and as horrifying as a seamonster from the
depths.
The elusive form of sanctity removes itself from the
orderliness of classical beauty into a riskier and more
enticing monstrous non-formation. I cannot help wondering if
perhaps this is something like the bizarre forms that
unsettle Augustine’s meditations on the underpinnings of the
beautiful material world. There is, for instance, some
sense of monstrosity--parts mixed and out of place,
proportions off--in the unusual bodies he describes in City
of God, such as those of people with the heads of dogs, or
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no heads at all; or a single eye or leg; or multiple sexes.
He is careful to keep this monstrosity away from the beauty
of glorified bodies, but it slips in a little bit anyway,
and it proves to be strangely difficult to place precise
boundaries on the matter that resurrection incorporates. The
body perfected returns to itself much of the abjected
remainder. Only the monster, it seems, could be perfect.
The incomprehensibility and discomfort of the oddly
formed or malformed is picked up and in turn trans-formed by
Bataille in his late, appropriately incomplete thoughts on
the informe, which in turn informs Kristeva's reading of
abjection. Related to, yet not quite so simple as that which
is deformed, the informe refuses formation; it will not stay
in place even long enough for us to figure out what it is.
Like the abject, it seems always to be shifting out of the
line of our intellectual—and physical—sight. It seems always
in its elusion to be leading us somewhere—always to be just
on the verge of showing us a mystery.
Such unsettledness characterizes not only abjection,
but the mysterious secret itself, in which our very selfhood
is unsettled. Jacques Derrida links the unsettledness of
secrets to an element of reversibility that will return us
to the ascetics and martyrs. The “secret of secrecy,” he
says is “that it is not a matter of knowing and that it is
there for no-one. A secret doesn’t belong, it can never be
said to be at home or in its place. The question of the
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self: ‘who am I’ not in the sense of ‘who am I”’ but rather
‘who is this “I”’ “ that can say ‘who’? What is the ‘I’ and
what becomes of responsibility once the identity of the ‘I’
trembles in secret?”34 (I should here admit
straightforwardly that I, trembling in secret or not, will
not be addressing that last question today.)
If the secret is that there is no secret, and we know
that, then that there is simply no secret is not the secret—
not, at least, as the secret is mysterious, truly non-
knowable, and not simply knowledge reserved to a few. This
does not mean that there is some thing that is the secret,
whether that thing is a fact or a technique or an object; as
Blanchot reminds us, that there is no-thing is as enigmatic
as any thing can be. It means rather that the secret has the
character of retreat or regression, that it always pulls
further away from the known (and thus beyond or behind those
once-secrets that we have come to know): we cannot track it
down, because its pushed-away abjection at the same time
tugs it more tightly into the heart of ourselves and our
knowledge. Such drawing, I have elsewhere argued, is
characteristic of seduction, a pleasure as much in
enticement as in desire’s satisfaction and death. And
seduction void of stopping point, pulling what can into what
cannot be known, seen, told—pulling together present and
absent—is characteristically divine. 34 Jacques Derrida, The Gift of Death (Chicago: University of ChicagoPress, 1995), 92.
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Humiliation in this complexity, so strangely sought out
and caught up in desire, is revelation, a revealing with all
of its theological overtones in place. Hungry for reversible
seeing, touching, knowing, the humiliated and the humiliator
alike seek the truth in repeated query, in stripped bodies,
in opened flesh, in commanded confessions, as if we could
find the mystery in the forbidden publicizing of skin, as if
the interior were somehow a findable secret site, and not
another shifting and changing layer. In this very
elusiveness, however, the humiliated body, always
withdrawing its truth from even the most sadistically or
lasciviously attentive gaze, is a revelation of mystery: not
of the answer to the question, but of the infinite immanence
of the question itself. Saintly monstrosity interrogates us
in the strange displacement of the body and the terrors of
its interior which fail to display the mystery they de-
monstrate.
The monstrosity of all bodies forces our attention to
the forms and objects and sites associated with abjection,
with the shameful and excremental that we would marginalize
or do away with altogether. But we must be careful not to
confuse any object with the abject, with abjection, itself—
not to slip from association and attention to reification.
(In fact, this is a criticism sometimes made of Kristeva's
use of the concept: that she too strongly associates, and so
risks identifying, the genuinely unspeakable abject with the
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merely forbidden, the impure or polluted object.) Abjection
is not a thing that is simply displaced or out of place,
which might yet be returned to propriety, but the troubling
act and instance of the wholly unplaceable, of what refuses
inside or out, of the remainder that is nonetheless the
trace of myself, of my own monstrousness. What we seek to
see or hear in humiliation, through that urgent reversible
double gaze, is not the urine in the cell, the blood on
skin, the shame written, if not on the flesh, at least on a
placard hung around the naked body, or the improbable detail
of an astonishing life. It is, rather, the unplaceable
movement and space of the incarnate mystery. We seek to make
the resistant into the speakable, into the knowable and
properly conceptualizable, not into this irritatingly
slippery confrontation with what eludes us. We gaze avidly,
or avidly draw the gaze, to shame and remnant and the very
interior of the flesh, to the dual interrogations of the
monstrous. Yet only further questions open.
And they open all the way into the heart of the matter
of the world. Neither quite deformed nor simply malformed,
the Bataillean informe threatens the order of forms
themselves, reminds us of how close we may always be to dis-
integration. I cannot help being reminded here of
Augustine’s monstrous imaginings in Book 12 of the
Confessions, in which unformed matter, the first of all
creation, eludes his capacity for images; he imagines,
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rather, monstrous forms. “Was it not you, O Lord, who taught
me that before you fashioned that formless matter into
various forms, there was nothing – no colour, no shape, no
body, no spirit? Yet there was not complete and utter
nothingness: there was this formless matter entirely without
feature” (Confessions 12.3). Augustine’s desperate attempt to
picture this formlessness used to lead, he admits, to
picture images: “I used to picture it to myself in countless
different forms, which means that I did not really picture
it at all, because my mind simply conjured up hideous and
horrible shapes…I took ‘formless’ to mean, not something
entirely without form, but some shape so monstrous and
grotesque that if I were to see it, my senses would recoil
and my human frailty quail before it” (12.6). In the
formless is the possibility of all that can then be created—
but that possibility is too terrifying to be known, to be
registered by our senses.
In matter unordered by form, all parts are dis-placed;
all space becomes betweenness, but there are no stable
subjects and objects to mark the limits of the between. The
lowest becomes the highest. Blanchot writes,
... if base things, actions of which it is not proper to
speak, suddenly impose themselves on us as charged with the
highest value this assertion, the instant it reaches us…
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touches us scandalously, however liberal we may be regarding
what seems degraded or exalted.
The efforts we make to theoretically isolate the point
where scandal touches us (calling, for instance, on what we
know of the sacred, object of desire and horror), are like
the work of blood cells to restore the wounded part. The
body returns to normal, but the experience of the wound
remains. One cures the wound, one cannot cure the essence of
a wound.35 (MB, Book to Come, 190).
The “essence of the wound” is no definable something. It is
the space of a secret, left where non-knowledge might once
have crossed.
It is also, according to Bataille, the site of
communication—which is not of facts, of what can be imparted
and known, but exactly of what can be shared only without
comprehension. The saints opened all the way up share only
mystery.
The secret that there is no secret, drawn to the flesh
that speaks it, twists just enough to reveal the secret that
there are always more secrets. All people by nature desire
to know, but some people perversely desire to have that
desire gratified, and frustrated, and sustained, all at
once. Such people are drawn to mystery. And where a faith is
founded in the joining of word to flesh, its followers may
35 Blanchot, The Book to Come, 190.
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well seek to understand, to comprehend and take hold of, the
murmur of almost-meaning, the whisper of not-quite silence,
in the literalized layers of the body itself. In the play
between the unsayable and the not-to-be-said, between the
unshowable forbidden and the invisible secret, a mystery is
drawn out and it draws us in, in a reversible and no longer
perfectly closable opening. The secret would be lost if it
could be told. Body displayed, flesh broken tells the very
secret that it keeps. It seems to display the divine
corporeal secret for us, setting as in a monstrance the body
we can scarcely recognize. But in fact the secret stays
silent, and the monstration is both attractant and warning
marking the out-of-bounds: here there be mysteries. If
monstrosity is the unsettled, unsettling, always-displacing
strangeness of bodies, then we are all monsters, and
beautiful. We cannot quite look away.
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