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People who face hardshipand trauma often use
metaphors to describe theirexperiences. They are tryingto express the unimaginable,the inexpressible, and somust draw upon comparisonsto other, more expressible,realities.
Some say that the journey
from trauma to transcendencerequires one to changemetaphors: to identify themetaphors of hurt and lossthat dominate their lives,and to find new metaphorsof hope and wholeness thatwill guide them into thefuture.
Metaphor, in short, plays an
important role in making senseout of hardship and findingways to transcend it.
This exhibit exploresmetaphors of suffering andtrauma from both sides ofcrime: metaphors used bysurvivors of violent crime
to express their experiences,and metaphors used bylife-sentenced prisoners todescribe the sentences theyare serving.
Photographs and interviews byHoward Zehrfrom the booksTranscending: Reflections of Crime
Victims, and Doing Life: Reflectionsof Men and Women Serving Life
Sentences.
Paintings and reflections byManas Ghanem andJudah Oudshoorn.
Thanks to Kate Kessler for her advisoryrole in this project.
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EXPLORING
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FACING LIFE AFTER VIOLENCE:
The men and women in this section are survivors of violent crimes.
This part of the exhibit focuses on their metaphors of trauma and loss.
Further reflections on their journeys to transcend this trauma may be found in the book,
Transcending: Reflections of Crime Victims (Good Books).
For me, the principle virtue in life is courage. I live life like a soldier in battle.I have to charge up the hillagainst darkness, human viciousness, ignorance.Im a soldier for peace.
Josephs sister, with whom he was very close, was murdered. Although the family is certain that the
murderer was her husband, the state has never been able to prove it.
We will face difficulties in life
and in our journey towards
transcending. We should believe
and be guided by the light: the
limit is the sky.
Our journey towards peace,
home, God, truth and reconciliation
is scary and so difficult. However,we keep moving on with courage.
Pain and fear should not stand
in our way. Lots of paths are
available but they are hidden.
We only need to start the journey
and find our wayagainst the
darkness.
Manas Ghanem
Josep
hBar
etta
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Leland Kent
Offenders make a ripple in someones life, but have no clue about the damage
theyve done. And their lives mean nothing to the criminal justice system either.
Leland first learned he had a brother when he was 19. Five years later, his brotherwas murdered.
It is so important to tell the truth. Thats what the book I wrote is aboutgetting thecleansing through the truth.... Writing that book cleansed me and made me feel whole.
I am a victim and I am a triumphant survivor. At first I was really a zombie, awalking dead woman. Now Im alive.
Sandys abusive ex-husband stalked her and shot her in the face with a shotgun.
Sandy tells us the story of a
walking dead woman turned
triumphant survivor. Despite all
the pain and the trauma, she is
still amazingly strong, beautiful
and authentic. It reminds me ofgold that does not lose its true
value no matter what happens.
The golden color is a life full
of hope, care, and it is welcoming
but it is still okay to feel pain.
It takes time to recover and put
yourself together! But it is time
to get up and reclaim your life.
Manas Ghanem
Sand
raMu
rphy
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I cant reorder anything because if I did, I would just pick up the scrambled pieces andput them back in order. Its more likeall the rungs on a ladder are removed. Im atthe bottom and have to start all over. You build, you create a new life. I have a coupleof pieces from my old life that I have to fit in.
Lynns children, Jen and Dave, were murdered by her ex-husband on Christmas eve.
He then killed himself.
already cracked and broken in
numerous places. Stepping on the
branches would have resulted in
another violent fall, a tumble back
into the shadows. This tree is, for
me,a ladder without rungs.
Judah Oudshoorn
What if you were violently shoved
into the lowest, darkest of depths?
And what if there was a ladder
before you, offering a way out?
But what if it wasa ladder
without rungs? For some, this isnot a what ifit is a reality.
While contemplating this I came
across a tree in Virginia that
reminded me of this poignant
metaphor. Cutting back and forth
across the path leading up to this
tree were countless shadows of
other trees, almost appearing like
tangled ladder rungs. Yet they were
only shadows creating a confusing
facade. Looking up from these
pretentious shapes I saw this tree.
A glorious tree. A ladder. A way
out of the shadows.
The branches were inviting,
eagerly awaiting grasping hands
followed by lively feet, saying,
come out of the shadows and
climb. However, as I came closer
to the tree I realized climbing
would not be wise for the branches
were not secure; rather, they were
LynnShine
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At first, grief is so heavy and dark that you just want to get away from it. Then youunderstand that the grief is not ever leaving you. Finally, youve carried it so long thatyou dont notice it. You are like one of thoseladies from Africa with the pots onher head: she carries a massive pot so well that she doesnt even notice it anymore.
I found when the girls died, everything waspeeled awayand I had no excuses.Im stripped down to the bare bones and yet I sense that in the tragedy, Ive been givenan opportunity. Great, now Ive got to feel good about this.
There is a God, I swear there is. He will help you find your way, but you gottalook for it. You gottascratch it out, but hell help you.
Barbaras two teenage daughters, along with two other teenage girls, were found naked and bound
in the charred remains of a yogurt shop where several of them worked.
Despite a great deal of pain, and
the heavy burden of grief that she
has, her strength keeps pushing her
to move on through the difficulties.
TheAfrican ladies walk with
the massive heavy burdens over
their heads, but it does not seem
like a big deal for themthey
barely notice it. They are facing
the challenges of life with pride
and confidence. The pain and grief
that we carry should not prevent
us from moving forward. The light
is the sign for us to keep hoping
and to find peace.
Manas Ghanem
BarbaraA
yres
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There is a certain worldview that
speaks of bonds between human
beings; that is, it suggests thathumanity is interconnected. A
common adage of this worldview
is that the harm of one is the harm
of all; put another way, what
happens to individuals has an effect
on communities as well.
People who have been victims
of violent crime speak of extreme
isolation following these tragicexperiences. The event itself,
compounded by lack of community
care, creates a great deal of pain.
So, the tree in this painting
stands alone. No one can fully
comprehend its pain. Pain is so
fierce that the bark haspeeled
awayfrom the tree, leaving it
stripped to the bone. It is fullyexposed. Beyond voyeuristic
curiosity, does anyone want to at
least try to understand its trauma?
Does anyone want to address its
needs? The painting leaves this
question unresolved. What is clear
is that the harm of this one tree
the dark shadowsreaches the
at-a-distance community of trees.Indeed, the shadows are long
in this painting. They stretch
almost from one edge to the other
and even start in places outside
the borders of the canvas.
Judah Oudshoorn
As I stood at the bottom of this
incredible waterfall, I was
struck by the power of the water.
It arrives from one river, yet
descends the rock in a multitude
of directions. The water cuts itsown path. Over time, the water
has found many routes down the
side of the cliff, even carving new
ways when one is blocked. In a
way, bit by bit, it isscratching
the wayinto and through the
rock. It is finding new ways of
being and journeying.
As I look at this painting, Iimagine myself to be the tree:
intrigued by the water but still
distant from it. I am leaning
towards the water. What is the
water saying? I must get closer. I
want to hear the water. Where is
the water going? I must get closer.
I want to see the paths that it is
taking and to ultimately journeyalongside it to where it ends up.
What will it take to uproot
myself and move in this direction?
Judah Oudshoorn
Metaphor painting for Barbara and Lynn
Metaphor painting for Barbara and Lynn
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Offenders makea ripple in someones life, but have no clue about the damagetheyve done. And their lives mean nothing to the criminal justice system either.
Leland first learned he had a brother when he was 19. Five years later, his brother was murdered.
The blazing light of a setting sun
touches everything in its line of
sight. Evidence of it shows in
clouds, in trees and likewise across
water. Clouds that are normally
grey include yellows. Trees of
green show orange and the usual
blue of water is wrinkled with red.
Far away from the sun itself, many
other forms reflect its fiery glow.
Offenders makea ripple in
someones life. The trauma of
being the victim of a violent crime
is searing like a setting sun. It
touches many areas of a persons
life, rippling out from the event
itself. People victimized frequently
speak of physical harms and even
beyond to worldviews being
shattered and emotions disrupted.
I wanted to paint a scene that
is typically viewed as beautiful.
But rather than only express this,
I wanted it to also represent the
ugly, the painful. I find so much
of life to be a paradox: joy
wrapped up with sorrow, healing
at the same time as hurting, and
hope in the midst of despair.
I believe Leland Kent sums this
up in part when he says he gets
joy out of helping people when
they are most vulnerable, because
he has personally experienced
how offenders make a ripple in
someones life.
Judah Oudshoorn
Leland
Kent
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Youve just completed this beautiful puzzle. All of a sudden, someone comes alongand just swishes it off the table and you have to start putting it back together. Thentheres a piece missing that you just cant find anywhere.... Im a butterfly person,just flapping my wings and going. Now Im hoping to make a difference in peopleslives. Ive gotten involved in victim services because.... Im hoping to make a differencein someones life, not by giving advice, but by walking through it with them, by beinga leaning post.
Joannes sister was killed by a drunken driver, a repeat offender.
The butterflyis a survivor. It
faces the world with all the charm
of its beauty, flapping its wings in
the face of lifes difficulties andproblems. It travels, crossing vast
spaces and distances toward light
and hope.
The journey can lead to
other horizons that are much
brighter and prettier than what it
experienced before. The butterfly
remains beautiful; its beauty
forces whoever sees it to thinkwith hope. It leaves a smattering
of smiles on tired faces.
Manas Ghanem
Jo
anne
Vogt
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FACING A LIFE SENTENCE:
The men and women in this section were convicted of being directly or indirectly involved
in a murder. They are now serving life sentences; they have virtually no possibility of
being released. Many came to prison when they were quite young. Most have been in for
many years. This part of the exhibit focuses on their experiences of life sentences.
Other issues they discussed may be found in the book, Doing Life: Reflections
of Men and Women Serving Life Sentences (Good Books).
The sentence of life without parole is nothing short ofexecution by installment,the death penalty in slow motion.... Every time I watch the space shuttle go up, I thinkof taking a walk in space and being left up there, waiting for time to end. Thats whata life sentence is like.
Tyrone began his life sentence in 1976.
Tyrone
Werts
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Its aslow, torturous death.... I look at the electric chair as more humane thanbeing tortured like this. Yet I dont believe in the death penalty because its got to stopsomewhere. Violence doesnt solve anything.
Benjamins life sentence began in 1976.
Slowly, steadily, viciously, over
time, a magnificent rock can
be broken apart and reduced
piece-by-piece to indecipherable
rubble. This is nothing shortofexecution by installment.
Rains come and erode the rock.
The ground freezes, plant life
dies, the rock shifts, cracks and
slowly breaks apart. For the rock, it
is aslow, torturous death. And it
does not end until every last bit is
crushed.
This painting has dull qualities:there is very little color and the
subjectthe rockis portrayed
from a tedious angle. For me, this
drabness represents hopelessness.
In addition there are frustrating
features to this painting: shapes
and lines are blurred, and fore-
ground merges with background
in an almost two-dimensionalfashion. This speaks to anguish.
Hopelessness and anguish: two
life-taking emotions for those
serving life sentences.
Significantly, by installment
usually means something being
received (in exchange for payments).
On the contrary, the outcome
of execution by installment issomething takena life. No, it
is not the death penalty per se;
nonetheless, according to Tyrone
Werts it is the death penalty in
slow motion, a slow, torturous
death.
Judah Oudshoorn
Benjam
inVela
sQuez
Metaphor painting for Tyrone and Benjamin
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A life sentence isa glass bottle. Youre planted in this foreign soil, this culturalabyss. They want you to grow, but in growing, if you arent careful, you begin to takethe shape and form of your environment. One of my proudest accomplishments is thatI have managed to grow without taking the shape of my environment.
Bettys life sentence began in 1984.
Lifers exist in prison as if in dark
glass bottles. They were put there
once, a long time ago, and will
stay there forever. We dont know
what is going on in there. We label
the bottles as bad or dangerous
and forget about the person. We
forget about the human being
inside.My soul is green and is growing
out of the bottle towards light.
Light is hopehope that someone
will care, that someday I will be
able to right what I did wrong and
contribute to my community. It is
so hard to see light in here, it is
just too dark. But am I dreaming
again? Is it a real string of lightthat my soul is following? Or is it
an illusion created in my imagina-
tion to hang on to?
Manas Ghanem
Betty
Heron
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Its like fishing. The river looks calm and you forget to drop anchor. You dont realizeyour boat has started to drift into rapids. Then you getstuck in a whirlpool. You getsucked under and then come back to the surface. Other people go by and they miss it,but youre stuck in that whirlpool. Just about the time you think youll be able to breakfree of this, the water sucks you right back.
Marilyn began her life sentence in 1973. She was originally sentenced to death.
As I look at this painting I am
drawn to the place where the
waterfall collides with the river.
Indeed, our eye is often pulled
towards the place of greatest
contrast in an image.
Water is at times beautiful
and peaceful, yet it can also be
extremely murky and violent.
It takes on many contrasting
forms: water is deafening while
other times inaudible, rapidly
flowing yet sometimes still,
liberating and also entrapping,
life-giving and life-taking. Marilyn
Dobrolenski evocatively describes
the trauma of a life sentence in
terms of the darker, crueler side
of water. She says it is like getting
stuck in a whirlpool. As a
whirlpool viciously pulls one
towards it, similarly Gaye Morley
suggests that serving a life sentence
is likea vacuum: a process where
everything is sucked out, leaving
one with nothing.
Nothing.
Judah Oudshoorn
MarilynDobro
lenski
Metaphor painting for Marilyn and Gaye
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A life sentence isa vacuum. Everything is trying to be sucked out of me, leaving mewith nothing. I know I have to fight that. I have to create a whole world within myselfand hopefully be able to spread that to those around me.
Gaye has been serving her life sentence since 1991.
Everything is just too huge and
strong. The storm and the winds
are blowing everything away.
It is even trying to take life from
this lonely tree. How long can this
tree hang on like this? Wind is
still blowing everything away,
leavinga vacuum, nothing but alonely tree that is trying to stay
alive, holding onto some of its
leaves and reaching out to light.
Manas Ghanem
GayeMorle
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Its a tunnel without light at the end. It just goes nowhere. An endless black holethat keeps sucking everything in.... What makes it tolerable is hope.... You cant existwithout hope.
Bruce began his life sentence in 1982.
Drain pipes are rarely noticed.
I have walked by so many in my
lifetime without acknowledging,
let alone being aware, of them. I
do not really consider this a
faultdrain pipes are meant to
be hidden, covertly tucked into
landscapes so as not to be seen.
Sometimes they are expediters of
excess, sometimes of waste.
Lifers are rarely noticed. Theirs
is a world of drain pipes. People
serving life sentences exist within a
tunnel without light at the end, a
place of no hope. Does living in
such a place mean that these are a
people without hope? Bruce
Bainbridge still has hope: from
within, and from friendships.
This, for him, is what makes
an endless black hole that keeps
sucking everything intolerable.
This painting, for me,
expresses human life interacting
with systems. Sometimes systems
are like rocks. They allow us
blades of grassa concrete
foundation to reach new heights
together. Conversely, at times
these rocks suffocate life, by
blocking sunlight. Then there are
drain pipes: systems that are like
a tunnel without light at the end.
How far down a drain pipe can
grass grow?
Judah Oudshoorn
BruceBain
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Its like arabbit up in the cornerthat cant get out. It keeps trying, but eventuallyit just dies there.
I was running wild, like an animal. I was violent because it seemed nobodyunderstood me. I couldnt explain myself and it came out like violent storms.Then I started getting in touch with myself by being alone. Thats what made mehappy, so I just stay alone.
Trinas life sentence began in 1977.
She has been staying there for
so long, arabbit in a corner.
Her feet are blended with the floor.
She lost her facial features, almost
lost the color of life. She is so
vulnerable. But what to do? There
is no way out. Everything looks
dark and there is nothing but
memories that flash from the past.
Wait, is there hope somewhere
up there? Does someone recognize
her sitting there in the corner?
Manas Ghanem
TrinaG
arnett
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When lifer Irvin Moore says,
A life sentence is like an
insect encased in amber,
the word like lets us know
he is making a comparison.
A life sentence and an insect
in amber are not identical, but
they have some things in
common. He is using a simile
or analogy to help us under-
stand a life sentence.
A metaphor also comparesone thing to another, but the
speaker does not say that it
is a comparison. Instead, the
speaker seems to equate the
two, making one thing stand
for another. When lifer Gaye
Morley declares that A life
sentence is a vacuum,she is using a metaphor.
In this project we are using
the term metaphor loosely,
including all of these forms
of comparison.
Distribution is made possible through
Mennonite Central Committee.
www.mcc.org
ON
METAPHOR
THE
ARTISTS
Howard Zehr is Co-Director of theCenter for Justice & Peacebuilding (CJP)
at Eastern Mennonite University. Judah
Oudshoorn is doing restorative justice
work in Ontario, Canada with people
who have committed sexual offenses.
Manas Ghanem is working for the U.N.
with refugees as a Protection Consultant
in her home country of Syria, and around
the Middle East. This exhibit was
developed while Manas and Judah were
completing their MA degrees at CJP.