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A LIFE KILLED OFF

An exposition based on real accounts

by

Anonymous Voice

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Foreword

This exposition does not explore questions or ideas in ways that are exceptionallyliterary. It presents the accounts in it as factually as possible as related to the events and

their activities that have surrounded me for many years. With limited elegance andfines in the writing, this exposition is written in sections as a different expression of the

events would have it told as a story. And this was not my intention. The names of people and places mentioned in this exposition have at times beenchanged from their true names or not mentioned at all while some are referred to by

their true names. I have done this to protect the identity of those who may come to be

harassed for their mention here, and also to protect my own identity from being

discovered. As much as I have shared the story of my victimization with people over

the years, it has happened that those who have been tampering with and sabotagingmy efforts in life have at times sought out the people and places I mention in the

accounts of my victimization. The result has been these people being harassed and orintimidated, some of them telling me over the years they can no longer stay in contact

with me for fear of what might be done to them; it is a case of duress.

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Preface

Before reading this exposition you must be clear on the point that I have been a targetand victim to efforts against me for over a decade. It is very possible you will be fed

information to lead you to think the worst of me, and that is assuming my true identitybecomes known, however keep in mind I am a target and victim which explains such

secretive attempts to discredit me. This is not an autobiography nor a chronological account of events, but rather itis a presentation of happenings to help understand the impact my victimization has

had on my life. The accounts are from about 2000 although in some cases the events

go back to beyond this date, however it was around 2000 the activities which have

targeted me started in a pronounced and evident way. And they have continued until

today, the last days of February, 2012. As of today I face what is by all indications theend of my time unless some drastic change in my life is offered to me through the

compassion and humanity of others. In my third career as a writer having writtenseveral novels, but not having received a penny from the sales of them to-date, I had

moved on from my former two careers out of necessity: the efforts targeting me

required me to leave my first, professional, career, and my second which saw meworking abroad for nearly ten years. I now find myself faced with a path that only

makes one option available to me in continuing this destroyed life, and it is a grossly

compromising consideration while I continue to be either taken advantage of or

compromised in the things I do: it is a case of abuse.

The only option of employment offered to me is work-from-home programswhich would have me post advertisements for consumer products and services on theInternet. And while those offering these programs to me may consider the gesture tobe helpful, it is a debatable point. And you will see as you read further on in this

exposition why I say that. From my perspective it is a very demeaning prospect that

still leaves me in a terrible circumstance day to day and in my life overall. Having saidthat, I have always been and still am a supporter of the activities of commerce and the

production and marketing of consumer products. My former career was in the

manufacture of consumer products where I supported the production and marketing

of them. And to avoid any misunderstandings, it is the lack of consideration for my

training, experience, and accomplishments in this only offer extended to me thatcauses me to react to it with disinterest. I am on the verge of being penniless where the consideration of applying forbankruptcy passed many years ago, and my final attempt to publish my latest novel has

been met with suppressive efforts. Soon it will be several weeks since my first

correspondences to have the novel self-published, but I have not been able to moveahead with this for problems that have suddenly and suspiciously shown themselves;

print on demand publishers have refused me as a paying customer who wants to

publish a novel when they have not even seen the manuscript, and another print on

demand publisher accepted to publish the book through a beta program which

required more time than I have to wait, and when I decided to bypass the programand take up their offered service which accepted payment for the publication of a

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novel, they refused to publish my book and without having seen the manuscript. WhileI looked forward to some personal fulfillment in putting the novel in peoples hands, it

has also been my hope to earn money from the sales of it. I shall be penniless soon. My writing of this exposition is not a ruse to sway the opinion of an agent orpublisher to get my book published, it is a last effort to share a story with people which

will become part of my legacy, and hopefully help save my name when I am gone

through those who know my true identity. My pleas to people for assistance in safe accommodation and the provision offunds to live with have gone unanswered, and this includes the option of assistance

from my government in Canada. At one time I would never consider receiving

government benefits, having been regularly employed since graduating with my degreeand even before that time, working on a part-time basis. On numerous occasions in my

life I received the compliment of having a good work ethic, and the consideration of

receiving government benefits is entirely a last desperate effort on my part to find away of earning income with some stability and reliability. Also, it offers the chance to

me to stay clear of those situations which are problematic and hinder my ability to

function in life in a normal or decent manner. However even in this final plea to mygovernment I received replies from them which were of little assistance in helping me

understand if the option is viable for the circumstances that surround me, leaving me

to take a considerable risk in returning to my country of origin to reside. As you read

further on in this exposition you will appreciate how complicated the entire matter ofmy circumstances can be, and have been for many years. With no money, no reasonable option for employment, no safe place to live fromthe harassment that targets me, and no concrete assistance offered for either of these, I

look ahead to what, in short time, will be a logical and difficult to refute situation thatwill see the end of my days; my death. It is because of my victimization that I have lost

everything in life my child, my family and friends, the chance to experience thefulfillment of working in the field I am trained for, the chance to be recognized for my

success in the things I do, the chance to be shown dignity and respect, and any hope

for a future that will offer these. To continue within my circumstances is not reasonable any longer, and anyonewho does not see this should consider themselves a person who is showing their naivete

about such matters. The following famous saying is so apropos for anyone who tries to

judge me without understanding my victimization Dont judge a man until youve

walked a mile in his shoes? Perhaps this is a chance for such people to form a better understanding of theseproblems among us, albeit it comes at the expense of my life. And as you read further

you will come to appreciate the circumstances I refer to and how they create a

situation which, in my case, is not worth continuing on in for the victimization aspects

of it which include widespread monitoring, regular harassment in the forms of

stalking and antagonism, oppression, being denied dignity and respect, andopportunistic attitudes toward me that benefit from my actions without me being

permitted the same opportunity. And as I have said, I will soon be penniless having

received no financial support after pleas for it, and the option of working to earn, as I

have done throughout my adult life, is no longer realistic or reasonable for mycircumstances.

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Contents

1 I Am More Credible Than People Would Lead You To Believe2 My Marriage3 Why Did I Leave Canada?4 The Mystery Of The Jewelry

5 Why Earning Income Has Been A Problem

6 The Difficulties In Living Day To Day7 Why? Footnotes Appendix

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I Am More Credible Than People

Would Lead You To Believe.

One of the most difficult obstacles in my one dozen plus years as a target and victimhas been the display of unfounded and unjustified arrogance toward me. And that is

to say people have acted toward me to show they have (or have revealed to have) an

exaggerated sense of their own importance or abilities, and which is what arrogance is

despite any other connotative meanings given to it. In this section I will impress upon

you the credibility of my words, and also how the words and actions of others againstme as part of my victimization have been illegitimate and spawned from intentions to

discredit and suppress me. If you are familiar with the term (gang) stalking, which theWhitehouse has issued a public statement about regarding the necessity for improved

awareness of people about it, you will understand that my above comment about

actions to discredit me are forms of gang stalking. This is an excerpt from the Whitehouses pubic statement. Persistent stalkingand harassment can lead to serious consequences for victims, whose lives may be

upended by fear. Some victims may be forced to take extreme measures to protect

themselves such as changing jobs, relocating to a new home, or even assuming a new

identity. Firstly let us consider the simplistic and childlike manner of many smears againstme over the years, and which have boldly asked to see evidence of claims of mine onlyto attempt to further discredit me by questioning the proof shown and in irrational

ways. For instance, in the case of my undergraduate degree diploma, my antagonizers

have at times over the years said I have not actually studied to earn my degree. Theseare the same people who are not capable of understanding enough about my degree

for their limited mental capacity that they cannot make an informed comment about

it, and hence only deny the fact and accuse that my diploma is fake as they have shown

to be incapable of doing much more than that. My undergraduate degree is in the field of engineering and I earned thatbachelors degree in Canada. A four year program, the degree is recognized by the

Canadian government, and while different names are given to the many variousdegrees available, my degree is among them and is recognized by other countries as

well. Without this degree I could not have been accepted to a Masters program or a

graduate program. Incidentally, the college I studied my graduate program at is thesame college I later was an instructor at. My list of academic achievements include my

degree; my Masters studies; my graduate studies; other certificates in managing skills

and areas of business, and more technical techniques. And add to this a list of

approximately one dozen training courses and seminars in various areas of personal

and professional skills development, and psychology courses in my formal studies andother reading in that field.

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One highlight in my studies is scoring not only at the top of my university class ina particular course: a grade in the ninety-ninth percentile, but my grade was in the

ninety-five to one hundred percent range, A++. And while this may be of interest

purely for academic reasons, it is also significant for what the course taught about andthe skills required to be successful in it. This particular course required students to

work with various ideas and concepts in developing a business model, and while the

nature of the course material was oriented to business and the manufacture ofproducts, it fundamentally tested students in their ability to apply various ideas and

concepts and work with the relationships between them. This is as per the courses

description. My success in this area appears to support a later finding when I was

assessed by the method of Myers-Briggs Personality Type Indicator (MBTI). As per the MBTI assessment I was found to be in a grouping that applies only toa small percentage of people. This testing was part of professional development

training and was offered to dozens of managers, supervisors, and team leaders by alicensed psychologist at a Fortune multi-national company. I later received the same

testing by another licensed practitioner of MBTI as part of the outplacement services

offered by another Fortune multi-national company upon the end of my work withthem. And again I was assessed to be in the same grouping/category. Why should this

be significant? It is significant because many others often find it an arduous effort to

interact with people in this category, who tend to see things in a very rational manner

and bring with them a natural confidence. This is not a comprehensive look at thepersonality type, but suffice it to say people often find those in this group not easy to

relate to. Perhaps another way of saying this is that people often find it difficult to

understand those in this grouping. And while this does not mean the people in this

grouping have anything wrong with them or that they communicate poorly they infact have the strong trait of making rational evaluations and judgements it does

highlight the differences between people and how some find it difficult to deal withothers who are different than themselves. This should offer some insight as to why

others can be intimidated by, or at times have difficulty understanding or interacting

with, people in this category despite them being very rational. One vocation where this

personality type is often found is in the position of executive, and others are vocationswhere strong skills of imagination, creativity, and rational thinking are helpful. So as

much as I offer this is an example of my credibility in the things I say and do, it also

helps explain smears against me and attempts to discredit me by those who simply are

not capable of understanding me. It has been a long standing burden of mine to try to create understanding inpeople I have interacted with about the differences among people, and how they donot imply there is anything wrong with a person who is different than another, but

rather how it merely shows people are different in some way. Intolerance toward

anything different than oneself is an ugly trait leading to prejudice and even racism.

And for the sake of clarity pertaining to how the word prejudice is used in thisexposition and different than the more common connotative meaning of it

prejudice is defined as a preconceived opinion that is not based on reason or actual

experience, and it occurs when a dislike, hostility, or unjust behavior is formed on such

a basis. I interject here an additional thought about another burden I have had to carry

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for years as a result of my victimization, and which has been my ongoing and tiresomediscussions with people in trying to get them to fully understand the workings of my

victimization as they apply to a t/v who suffers for them. I look at this point again

further in this exposition where it becomes evident the matter comes down to peoplenot understanding, and likely for either their indifference, which may stem from

intolerance toward that which they do not know of, or their laziness, or more simply a

lack of caring. For all the self-serving excuses I have heard over the years about my victimizationthat try to justify a person's inability to appreciate something they do not know of very

well, or is simply different than them, lets consider the case of things being done

'properly' versus making excuses to avoid having to do such. It is a subjective areaespecially for those who try to defend their position which is based on intolerance for

not understanding something or because something is different, but when a life is at

stake I think the time has arrived to look at the matter without any bias that attemptsto cover up an undesirable trait in people. Many successful and progressive organizations in the world provide training totheir staff in the area of personality types with the intention of having people trainedto be able to work effectively with others, regardless of the differences among the

people involved. Granted, an objective of this training is to ensure the right fit between

people working together is found, and that people are in an area of work which fits

with their personal traits. However in looking at an ideal situation which utilizes thistraining, a person would be able to get along with anyone they must work with. That

person who has difficulty getting along with someone, in this ideal scenario, would

have a shortcoming in their skills or abilities in working with someone who is different

than them in some way. Hence the situation where they do not like someone, findsomeone difficult, or simply feel they cannot work with someone. In this ideal situation

it is not to label the person who another has trouble working with, they are who theyare, however it is to identify the shortcoming in the person who cannot work with

them. Many successful leaders and people have been able to get along, so to speak,

with whomever they must interact with in their area of work. That is to say they have

mastered the ability to get along with everyone despite any differences with the peopleinvolved. In conceptual or analogous terms, if we look at this problem as a matter of doingthings 'properly' versus not, we see how there is a way to avoid the slighting of people

in attitudes and opinions while dealing with differences among people, as opposed tooutlooks and actions that resemble prejudice for the reason a person is not trying to be

objective. It is in trying that one strives for the proper way, which is effective as itavoids what resembles prejudice and moves to create an effective relationship with

people that includes a sense of acceptance of it by both parties. I put the word

properly in quotes as the idea of doing something a best way can be subjective

depending on a situation and who is involved in it, but we must accept there arecertain fundamental objectives to be met in doing something. And this would apply to

the interactions between people that are also based on certain fundamental objectives.

Societies, organizations, and nations depend on this in order to have people live

together in a civilized manner. Anyone who does not agree with this is likely the typeof person whose fundamental beliefs are what would be considered questionable,

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especially given that a life is at stake as a result of the problem in this case. If a personhas this different moral fiber they will likely be among those who fight the ideas in this

exposition, when it is telling the story of a person's life killed off for no good reason

and for the presence of intolerant attitudes, which could be considered prejudice. AndI think that says it all.

When excuses are made to cover up the gap between existing ways and theproper way, we find ourselves challenged without want for it by situations that areembarrassing if not ugly and that create difficulties and problems. A good example to

consider in this is the SARS epidemic, Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome. And while

it is not specific to interactions between people, in an analogous way it is about doing

something properly as should be done in the interactions among, and in thedevelopment of attitudes toward, people. The SARS epidemic that threatened the world could go down in history as anexample of how the norms that have developed among us are detrimental to peopleand the world. Within the idea of doing things 'properly' versus not, in the case of the

SARS breakout and epidemic, it was shown that approaches which preferred to cater

to hiding the truth for the sake of saving face caused the infliction of the disease onthousands of people around the world. And had the World Health Organization not

become involved, the deaths would have been higher with the spread of SARS

reaching even further across the globe. In basic terms this problem which saw

thousands of people inflicted and nearly 1,000 dead from it was facilitated by peopleand groups that hid the truth about the initial reported cases of SARS. The problem

was there, and people were dying as a result of it, but instead of applying sound and

rational approaches to resolve the problem, the matter was purposely played down to

appear to not be significant, with little reasonable effort to find the root cause of theproblem and control the problem once it was known of. We ended up with a global-

scale epidemic for the actions of those who chose to not try to do things 'properly'. Perhaps this also serves to reinforce my comment about the burden I havecarried in trying to create understanding in people about this subject, that is to say

people making excuses to defend themselves when their actions are based on

intolerance. And as I write this I am compelled to share this quote by the Americanauthor Elbert Hubbard (who wrote the essay A Message to Garcia in 1899). Genius

may have its limitations, but stupidity is not thus handicapped. This is to say actions

and decisions that are not based on intelligence or good sense can continue without

bounds. It could be said the authorities initially involved with the mismanagement of theSARS outbreak were intolerant of other ways of handling the problem, as it meantdoing things in a different way than they were accustomed to or willing to consider,

despite the alternative being more effective. Some may wave the flag of culture in

defense of the actions and behaviors of the people and groups involved, however given

the disastrous result is now known such a claim only serves to embarrass the concept ofculture as applied here, as well as those who try to cover up the matter with the excuse

of culture. A good example I would say of making excuses to cover up the fact that

little or no effort to do things 'properly' was made. And as a result thousands of people

were infected with nearly 1,000 dying. This example while offering a look at ideas that are relevant to my point about

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intolerance, at the same time is a bit personal to me as I was among those who werethreatened by the SARS epidemic while those who invited me to the foreign country

took no action to ensure my safety. To my point about getting along with those different than us, the excuses that tryto cover up the intolerance of people toward those that are different, and the lack of

trying to be effective in face of the differences, serve to reinforce those actions which

bring harm to others. In this case the attitudes have helped facilitate the killing off of aperson's life. Where has it ever been shown that the killing of people is permitted in

the name of culture? Where has it ever been shown that culture supersedes laws? And

for those who will argue this point with the defense of religion or faith and the beliefs

therein that permeate a culture, I challenge them to make it publicly known that theycondone the killing of people who have done no wrong nor present any harm and

who are simply different. I suggest the excuse of culture in this manner will fail as the

admission exposes an ugliness which is not accepted in the civilized world. And if theworld has changed to become uncivilized to accept such monstrous thinking, the

killing of innocent, harmless people for no other reason than they are different, I

would say it is a good time for a person to reassess living in it. I have always enjoyed watching movies for the entertainment provided in them,while being shown the many different aspects of the world around us in different

creative ways. But, I think the subject at hand which can be looked at as a matter of

societal norms, and the straying of those norms from what are considered good things,has created a problem in the appreciation of the messages offered in the stories of

movies. An incidental problem in this discussion, but at the same time a problem I

suggest, is the result of the inability or unwillingness (or intolerance) of people to strive

to see and understand things more properly. The well-known lecture given by the character Gordon Gecco in the movie WallStreet II where he talks to an auditorium of students is telling. He says Now I havebeen considered a pretty smart guy when it comes to finance. Maybe I was in prison

too long, but sometimes it is the only place to stay sane, looking out from the bars and

saying, hey is everyone out there nuts? It is clear as a bell to those who pay attention.

The mother of all evil is speculation. Leverage debt. The bottom line is borrowing tothe hilt. And I hate to tell you this, but it is a bankrupt business model. It will not work.

It is septicemic, malignant and its global. Like cancer, it is a disease. Granted the passage refers to matters of finance, but what is fundamentally saidby it is how people have taken to do things which have shown to be bad for societyand ultimately themselves. These things are so bad in fact that in the passage they are

referred to as septicemic, malignant and cancerous. Yet, people do them. My look at intolerance through the SARS example and doing things properlymay be somewhat esoteric, and to help the understanding of it, in fundamental terms

just as the practices that put peoples lives at risk occurred while better practices were

available, but not used because those involved were not willing to consider (or tolerate)views, beliefs, or behaviors that differed from their own: this can be described as an

intolerant culture in this case the people who are not willing (or tolerant) to

understand others who are different than them in some way chose to take this outlook

while better outlooks that do not threatened the life of a person for their beingdifferent are available.

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People have tried to defend this outlook of non-willingness which takes place inmany if not most people by claiming that is how people are, meaning it is an inherent

trait in people and as such it represents a case where that is simply how things are, so

to speak. And while this could be said, at the same time it reinforces my point which isthat the overwhelmingly seen trait of unwillingness as applied against someone like

me, in my case has helped kill off my life. While people try to excuse the harmful trait

by saying it is natural in a way, I maintain it is the thinking that tries to excuse it whichadds to the problem of it not receiving proper attention. When all is said and done a

persons life and they them self will have been killed off for the intolerance of people,

in part, to try or be willing to consider something different than themselves. An ugly

traits is still an ugly trait regardless of excuses that try to make it appear to be anythingelse. And the concept of norms is looked at later in this exposition. I share this excerpt from Flirting With Disaster, The same norm of politicstrumps safety led to the destruction of Challenger, delayed the deployment of FEMAresources to New Orleans after Kartina, and turned Cheryonbil from a local accident

to a large-scale disaster whose consequences spanned national borders and passed

radioactive toxins down to succeeding generations.[1] And while the specific normreferred to is how the activities of politics supersede safety, in my look at norms it is

this same idea of norms, which is how people take to practices that are harmful, and

continue with them such that more people conform to them, that when applied to

peoples trait of unwillingness to understand or to try to understand a person who is abit different, it has served to create part of my victimization. I look at the concept of normality later in this exposition, but here I will pointout there are many different norms as applied to people. A norm, a standard or

pattern especially of social behavior that is typical, and as the quotes about this in thisexposition show, the norms that have developed among people in our societies are far

from what is considered good. This excerpt is from a manual for MBTI. How others may see the personalitytype This personality type loves, and is energized by, stimulating interactions with

people. They often challenge statements and behaviors, expecting that others will

defend them and that, as a result, mutual learning will take place. It is my estimate that a likely problem in my victimization has been that while Ilook at interactions as a way of learning, there appears to be little interest in these

times to learn in this manner. A strong movement toward social norms which prefer to

save face and become sensitive to anyone that challenges a person, even if it is merelyin the casual exchange of words in a conversation, has created a preference to not

appreciate the communication style, regardless of it being rational, fair, and objective.There have been those who have shared their concerns about a dumbing down effect

showing itself in the world, and that many societies and their norms have moved more

to am attitude of anti-intellectualism. Reports have been made about military groups spraying chemicals into theatmosphere with the intention of impairing the use of peoples memories. And if a

persons ability to speak and act intelligently stems from what they know (or learned),

be it short-term memory or long-term memory, I would say if a persons memory is

affected they can be considered to be dumbed-down, let alone intellectual. Suggestionshave been made this technique, referred to as chemtrails, is spoken of in bills in the

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United States government, however the matter is officially denied. I find it interesting and noteworthy that Stephen Hawking, arguably one of themost intelligent people on the planet, is in the news at times to say he has a preference

to teach children than adults, as adults are not very interested to listen to his ideas. The thinking which keeps to the same approaches and tries to hide the fact thatthe objectives sought continue to not be met leads me to share this quote about

behaviors and expectations. Insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, butexpecting different results. These are the thoughts of Albert Einstein, the German-

American physicist who discovered special relativity in 1905 and general relativity

1915-1916, and explained photoelectric effect and Brownian motion. He also won the

Nobel Prize in Physics in 1921. But back to Introduction to Type which says The personality type prefers thatthings be settled and clear, but their love of ideas can pull them into wide-ranging

intuitive exploration and discussion. Their verbal fluency, decisiveness, self-confidence,and urge to organize others can overpower people at times. A bizarre and boggling

aspect of my victimization at times has been the situation where people have tested me

in staged situations to determine if I am the type of person I say I am. If I shared withsomeone that I have a particular trait about myself, I then faced staged situations with

people and activities I was involved with that were for the purpose of testing me to

verify my claim. What purpose does this serve? To consider that those treating me like

a rat in an experiment were satisfied that I am as I had said, only adds that much moreconfusion and disorientation in my life which still is headed toward its end. It would

seem there are those involved in my victimization who are playing the role of mad

scientist, so to speak, treating me like an experimental object while watching my life be

destroyed and doing nothing to help it, only antagonize it. I think a most revealing aspect of attitudes and impressions toward people of mypersonality type is shown in the following excerpt from Introduction to Type. Othersusually see the personality type as direct, challenging, decisive, objective, fair, and

stimulating. If I am seen as objective and fair what is this saying about those who

smear and try to discredit me for my actions and words because of our differences?

They apparently do not appreciate one who speaks and acts with objectiveness andfairness, leaving themselves to be biased or even prejudiced, or simply put, unjust. I think the methods of people who intentionally try to smear me speak forthemselves, as cyber stalking, spying on a persons home, and their activities and

conversations in the area the live in, and all of it done in secret without allowing thetarget of their activities, me, to properly defend myself against gossip that smears me,

reveals the duplicity and questionable actions of these people. Simply put, why do theysmear and discredit from hiding and in a way that does not allow me to defend

myself? Turning to my work history, it has offered me the chance to work for some of themost successful companies in the world where I held management positions,leadership roles, and rose to manage people and entire departments. And it happened

in this first career of mine where I was promoted in world-class calibre companies,

that I was first informed about a noteworthy ability some thought I had. I was referred

to as a secret weapon by my boss at the time who was in an executive position at thisFortune multi-national company and who was responsible for an entire country. And it

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was while working for this company that I was invited to participate in meetingsregarding global business initiatives, where I sat with people from countries around the

world including Vice Presidents in working through business model development

exercises. During that career in which I worked mainly in Fortune multi-nationalcompanies, I was responsible for directly leading initiatives that improved business

performance to the amount of approximately one million dollars per annum. Iinterviewed and hired staff and even conducted interviews at one of Canadas most

well respected Universities. My positions were in global scale companies that produce

many of the popular consumer products people across the world enjoy. These are

complicated environments that bring together technologies, mechanical processes,materials, people, and information in producing high-quality products to designated

specifications. My personal and professional references throughout my career have included aformer Vice President who is a P. Eng., and a personal friend from as far back as my

youth who today is a Professor at an Ivy League University. And an additional

reference, which is more a case of praise for my performance in providing languagecommunication skills training, was by a former student who was a corporate lawyer for

an international company operating in China. He said I was the best trainer he ever

had a compliment which is golden among the many smears, half-truths, misleading

statements, misrepresentations, and outright lies made against me over the years. And finally, before you venture ahead into this exposition to read the accounts init, I will state that numerous people who know of my victimization have suggested that

I take my own life to escape the indecent prison-like circumstances unfairly forced on

me.

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2

My Marriage

I write this section for the possibility the failing of my marriage may in some way be

either a part of the cause of my victimization, or may have served to add to the

problems I have faced in it. I cannot be entirely certain about this, however the

suggestions have been made and therefore I write about it here. My uncertainty in thisstems from the fact the person or group that has made it their mandate to kill ones life

off does not step up to say it is they who are doing it. If they did, they would be in jail

for their actions. If I have been held to blame for some reason to do with my marriage and as aresult this has contributed to my victimization, I share the following with you to reveal

the truth against any malicious smears against me regarding this unfortunate event inmy life. In one phrase my marriage can be summed up as a heartbreaking experience: itwas a mockery of my love and caring in it. It was when the relationship faced its end

that it showed the true essence of my wifes feelings toward me and the marriage.When the time required words and actions that showed the commitment promised in

the marriage, what was instead revealed was the truth about words spoken as

promises. And when it became clear the relationship was based on sentiments

expressed but not sincerely meant was when the beginning of the end of it started.When a showing of care and an emotional expression of love was required, what was

seen was a facade that gave the impression it was incapable of these when in truththey were in fact capable of being shown. It is still boggling as to why my ex-wife would deny our relationship the intimacyand emotional support it needed, and while we did have moments of closeness at

times, it was her later revelation that she could have offered more but did not thatexposed the matter as another falsehood. When I was presented with an opportunity to advance my career and my ex-wiferesponded to the situation with a childlike tantrum and emotional collapse, was when

she showed her loyalty was to other things and not to her promises made to me, ourrelationship, and our marriage. I will add that her setting of priorities created very

strong limitations on my ability to have a successful career, and all the while I wasproviding the main income which we lived with. It became a matter of one not being

permitted to have the tools they need to fulfill the expectation of them. And as the

truth revealed itself at the crux of the relationship, my ex-wife confessed she married

me for the things I could offer her because of my career and yet she denied us thebenefit of my career, at one point forcing a potential breakup because of her

preference to not follow opportunities for advancement in my work to other cities.

This undermining of our marriage was further fueled when she shared that she was

falling out of love with me, as she put it, before fully admitting she never really did loveme, but was attracted by the thought of the money I would earn in my career.

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Hindsight offers clarity about things which have happened in the past, and I nowknow the falsehoods the relationship was based on were confused by my blind love for

my wife. I never really had a chance in the marriage. The best option would have been

to not marry her at all. As in many marriage breakdowns people take sides and self-servingly twist thefacts and happenings to serve their opinion, and so I defer the matter of the reasons

for the end of my marriage and pursuant divorce to the professionals. After visitingtwo relationship/marriage counsellors on three different occasions, the outcomes

showed the reasons for the end of our marriage. And I as I think back to my ex-wifes

actions in these efforts to save our marriage, I cringe for the embarrassment I feel over

it. How could I have been so blind? The one counsellor who as an MD (medicaldoctor) wrote in his file, the marriage is over, the wife has nothing to say. The other, a

female social worker/relationship counsellor, sat wide-eyed when hearing my wife's

suggestion that buying a bigger house was a way to address the emotional void in ourmarriage and its breakdown. However, the one good thing to come from my marriage is my son. In him myname can continue. Of the siblings in my family he is the only male offspring tocontinue with my family name. A bit nostalgic perhaps, but when all else is taken from

a person's life the thought of a remembrance of them having been there is comforting. I did what I could to have a relationship with my son and it was an effort madedifficult for his young age and my having relocated out of the city afterwards. Thetrips from about a half hour away were not so bad that we could spend good time

together on weekends, however when I was forced to take work back in my hometown

which was several hours away the regular commutes became a problem. I remember

the words of friends who said I would run myself into the ground for the many hours Ispent driving, even into the night, to spend time with my son. A Friday night saw me

drive about a half dozen hours to bring my son back to where I lived so he couldspend time with his grandparents. These were short visits as Sunday came quickly and

another trip of many hours awaited me before I was soundly back home. I hope I established some type of decent familiarity toward me by my son, aslater years saw him talk with me less and less for problems from the separation anddivorce. I found I could only try and try, but if there was no desire to reciprocate the

effort I could not do much else to get him to stay in touch. And the problems created

by my circumstances served as a negative influence on him to stay in touch with me I

believe, like many who have become influenced by some type of duress on them formy victimization. However yet while this was a problem for people like my son to stay

in touch with me, this apparent fact was apparently never considered by many whostill deny the truth of my victimization. How sad. So how does my marriage fit into my victimization? The breakdown of mymarriage served to strain relationships with people in my family, an aspect of my

circumstances which progressively became worse to leave me more and more isolated.After my separation I saw darker times for the onslaught of opinion against me from

some in my family, and there was nothing I could do to save the marriage having

made several attempts to do so. I became depressed, a feeling that lasted about one

year. And after pulling myself out of it with the help of a few and getting on with mylife, I later went abroad in search of a new one. The reasons for leaving my country

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are explained later in this exposition. As the years passed as I was abroad my relationships with those from my pastbecame progressively distant. There were those I knew from my youth and my young-

adult life, who naturally one loses touch with over time as their life takes its owndirection, and then there were those who were closer friends and family. In most cases

of these relationships, save one or two, my circumstances and past events in the

relationships left them to deteriorate drastically over the years. There are those whocannot appreciate my circumstances as a target/victim (t/v) which makes it perilous to

speak with them about it; then there are those who have betrayed my trust, members

of my sibling family who invaded my privacy and were talking with others in my

family about me behind my back, or who told lies about me to authorities in Canada;and then there are those who I lost touch with for the years that passed, making it

somewhat unreasonable to redevelop the same relationship as years earlier. And as I

say, there are one or two with whom I have a relationship which I consider trustworthy,but in the face of my circumstances and the void of the possibility they can be of

assistance, the satisfaction in talking about inconsequential matters when faced with

grave decisions becomes little, and over time, frustrating. One particular case where a friend who stayed in touch with me over the yearsand who knew of my circumstances was forced to stop corresponding with me. His

support was appreciated so much over the years where I could talk somewhat to the

problems made for me, however he later explained he could no longer stay in touchwith me as he and his wife had a child, with the suggestion he feared his child might

suffer in some way for his speaking with me. What monsters are behind my

victimization they would harm the young and defenseless innocent?With respect to my efforts to stay in touch with my son after going abroad, andeven my parents, having gone so far as installing a web cam on my computer in my

parent's home the web camera was never used and we only talked if I called, withmy PC later thrown out in the trash after my parents death and without my knowing

it. From my perspective I felt like I was forgotten. I did the same with my son and his

home computer, but we never had a web cam chat. I called and called from Japan,

only to be subjected to abusive words and insults by my ex-wife who showed to haveno interest in influencing my son to maintain a relationship with me. Over time my

emails to him were not responded to and calling on the phone became what appeared

to be more of a bother to my ex-wife and the home she created. So I stopped. I cannot

explain how disheartening it was to try to be a part of my sons life when the feelingyou are not wanted was so overwhelming. And as much as many have the natural

instinct to argue in such a situation, it has been my experience a person cannot forceanother to truly care for them, facades based on fear aside. My son had over the years

chatted with me by Internet however it was only from a city which appears to be what

can be considered a safe city from the duress that has followed my circumstances. This

makes it a case where my son was also under a type of duress that kept him fromspeaking with me, and which implies I could not realistically get him to talk with me.

But from my perspective, again in my life I felt forgotten, and isolation is an objective

of my victimization.

All I wanted was to at least have the chance for a relationship with my son after amarriage that did not appreciate my love for it. And so as per my marriage and my

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victimization, as Stephen Covey himself explains in his teachings about relationships,there does come a time when a person must chose the option of leaving for not being

appreciated where they are.

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3

Why Did I Leave Canada?

Since living abroad people have suggested on several occasions I return to Canada. I

write this section to explain why it is not viable or realistic for me to do so, and also to

highlight a development among us that appears to have motivated this suggestion. And

as much as this is a hush hush topic, one of those that exists but for different reasonspeople do not talk much about, I have nothing to lose in revealing this. By all

indications I will see the end of my days shortly, unless drastic changes are permitted

to me in my life. I want to be clear in saying the discussion at this point is not a rationalizationwhich tries to point a finger at Canada, but the fact of the matter is my victimization

did start there. If a persons life is left to be killed off and actions are permitted tohappen that facilitate this, someone in the complexity of the circumstances must

accept a responsibility for letting situations deny a person their rights and a right to

security whereby they an their life are destroyed. Therefore in consideration of my

victimization having started in Canada I must say this and talk about my reasons forleaving that country. But first in looking at the development among us I refer to I jump ahead to my

years in China after having left Canada. It was while in China some people there were

made to leave the country for imitating and misrepresenting themselves as journalists.And also, some Internet bars were asking customers to show their passport as a way of

validating the identity of people who used their services. Further, years later when inThailand, a selection of location for its lesser cost of living which accommodated my

dwindling funds, and which offered a warm climate that was more conducive to my

health, I was involved in a conversation (with a foreigner) which was quite revealing. It

revealed that a portion of people living in the United States had no passports. And thisstatement was later supported by the comments of another (foreigner) who was heard

saying that about 30% of the United States population is of questionable origin, as in

to say they are not originally from the US and their ultimate place of origin is

unknown. These are bizarre statements, certainly, and their validity could beconsidered questionable, however the happenings over the years of my victimization

have seen mysterious and suspicious people show up as per this topic, and I mention itfor any influence it may have on my circumstances. It was prior to leaving Canada that I witnessed a person who might be referredto as a look-like; it was a person who remarkably resembled a person I saw before. If

this person is part of the same group which is this inexplicable situation of mysteriouspeople with questionable identities and origin, it seems they are found to be in

different countries around the world. This estimate is also supported by two sightings

of people who have been reported to look like me. One account was by a (foreign)

friend I made in Beijing, and the other by a Chinese woman I befriended also inBeijing. Both sightings were in Beijing.

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The suggestion of some considers this a situation whereby people haveinexplicably come to be where they are and in the vocations they are. If this is true or

not remains unknown to me, however I believe the suggestion that I return to my

hometown in Canada is driven by this situation. And in saying this, you mustunderstand that some have accused me of not being who I am, which while

preposterous, indicates there does exist a belief among some that mysterious people

are in fact among us. How else could such an accusation be made of me unless it isbelieved people who are misrepresenting themselves are among us. This has caused

problems for me over the years as people who know me from my past are in Canada,

and not in the countries and cities abroad where I have lived for many years. This has

left me victim to the suspicions of those who believe there are fake people, orimpostors, among us. And by my returning to my country of origin, the idea is it

would be seen by those who watch me and my activities who would then accept I am

who I say I am. An experience of mine which appears to have fueled the suspicion I am not whoI say I am is the past processing of my passport. I hold more than one passport for the

fact I am a citizen of more than one country, a common enough occurrence amongmany who have relocated to a different country or have their origins from a different

country than where they grew up. It was in applying for my passport that it was

officially issued to me by the authorities of that country and with information in it

indicating I have no children. I offered the necessary information about my son frommy former and only marriage, but for some reason the official I spoke with did not

want it. The passport was therefore issued to me as stating I have no children. I am

unaware of the reason for which the office that issued my passport did this, however I

am not an expert in government regulations and procedures as pertaining to passports,especially for matters that cross from one country to another. At a later date while in

China my passport became lost: this was an accidental matter whereby my girlfriend atthe time forgot my portfolio case in a taxi after her and I got out of the cab. The

passport was lost and I applied for a new one through my embassy and received a

replacement passport with the same information in it as the original. The passport I

now hold has a reference number to the original passport. However the problem that has arisen over the last several years is people havenoted my passport as showing I do not have children, when I do. And for this reason

there have been unofficial accusations, misinformed gossip, toward me of not being

who I am and that my passport is not genuine, when it is and that I fall into thegroup of fake people estimated to be among us, when I do not. I can physically return to Canada without fear, however to reside and restart mylife there is no longer realistic. I tried this several years ago when living in another part

of the country than my hometown and the complications associated with my

circumstances as a t/v made it unrealistic. I made the effort for one year to resettle in

Canada, but the results showed it was not going to happen without me being takenadvantage of and treated unfairly by government groups there and their procedures

for their nonacceptance of my circumstances. Also, the problems in living that stem

from my circumstances once again showed themselves, albeit in a different part of

Canada than where I am originally from. But back to the point of this section. In hindsight it appears what I experienced

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in Canada, which I refer to as my circumstances, is part of my victimization that hasspanned the globe to follow me to different continents and countries within them. In

the years since initially leaving Canada in 2001 I have received several suggestions by

people who have tried to explain why I have been forced into my circumstances. Thetheories range from me having been in some type of program all my life, a program

that monitors me and my life and tests me; to another which maintains I am part of a

secretive program which has been referred to as industrial espionage; to yet anotherthat submits my circumstances are the result of my divorce or the matter of child

support payments, which became a problem for my inability to earn due to my

circumstances; and still a fourth that suggests I am part of a secretive experiment that

started later in my life for (social) research purposes of some sort. What is the answer?I do not fully know. However the inexplicable and strange happenings that have

plagued my activities, and by extension my life, have managed to destroy it and any

realistic or reasonable chance to continue in it. Is Canada the culprit given my circumstances initially became apparent andevident there? I do not know exactly, but considering some of the theories about the

cause of my victimization the suggestion that my country of origin is responsible doesfit. And then again, considering explanations offered about collaborations between

groups in different countries that victimize people, it is possible another group is

responsible for my circumstances. In this case Canada and other countries have

facilitated my victimization while not necessarily ultimately responsible for creatingthem. However, regardless of what group is behind the creation of my circumstances,

the effects of them on me and my life made it no longer reasonable or realistic to

reside in Canada. It became a matter of self-preservation.Without going into extremely detailed and technical explanations here abouthow the workings of my victimization happen, and I will mention that in the past any

evidence that has been offered was simply ignored or smeared for no good reason:people simply denied what was shown to them without a reasonable consideration of

it, I do share some information about it later in this exposition. In this section I present

accounts which show the effects of my victimization on my life in Canada. You must understand it is the mentality of denial which creates situations wherea person is not believed to be who they are despite overwhelming evidence. People

simply deny what is presented and with no good reason for it, making it self-serving

prejudice. I have numerous pieces of identification from my past, with photos, and

copies of diplomas, including my actual degree diploma in its large frame-size, dozensof business cards from people I have worked with and for positions I have held in the

past, copies of correspondence from former employers, and personal references fromvery credible people. However, despite all this evidence of who I am, it is not believed

by some and for no good reason as far as I know. Perhaps this is pointing a finger

somewhat at the limited intelligence and general awareness of some who make claims

that I am not who I am. And this is one of the many aspects of my victimization thathave been dangerous to me, to have people make wrong judgements about me when

so much evidence exists to the contrary. As subjective as it is to describe what constitutes a decent life, let alone a happyone, I suggest a person's sense of feeling safe and secure is an important consideration.Prior to my initial departure from Canada my life eroded due to my circumstances

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and it no longer offered that sense of safety and security to me. And while mybiological and physiological needs were met air, food, drink, shelter, and warmth,

for a person who was at one time addressing issues at the top level, self-actualization,

in Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs, this was not enough to consider a decent or adequatelife. And in this decision was the fact that my safety needs, in so far as my well-being,

were not met either. It is a matter of the perspective of one who sees their life from

looking out from a higher level in Maslow's pyramid. I look at Maslows model ofhuman motivation later in this exposition. However, irrespective of my situation

having started in Canada, in the scenario where it would have been another country

where my victimization started, I suggest the massive and forced compromise in my

life would still cause a rational person to reevaluate it. My physical safety was not an immediate issue in Canada, although it didbecome an issue later after relocating to other countries, but my personal (emotional)

well-being, as a safety need, was threatened. For the most part the relationships I hadwith people close to me or who I knew well became dysfunctional. And this was not

simply a matter of bad relationships or relationships that were not as good as they

could have been, but it was a situation where I suffered because of it, either in myreputation and credibility or in experiencing feelings of depression as a result of them. I found, for some inexplicable reason, people began behaving strangely wheninteracting with me. At times this phenomena showed itself as people repeating

portions of conversations, verbatim, and which I had with them or others days before,and at other times as people simply not understanding my comments and thoughts

shared in conversation. The situation of people not understanding another's ideas in

conversation goes back to my comments about personality types and the respective

styles of communication, and then there is the fundamental matter that at times aperson just does not understand what is told to them. I have known others who have

suffered for this same type of problem where people did not understand the personscommunication style, and as a result cast an unfavorable opinion on the person. An

innocent comment made as an observation of something is mistaken as an opinion,

which in these instances in question has led to people taking issue with the comment

and the person making them, as those who have mistaken the comment hold adifferent preference than what they consider to be the other persons opinion. But it is

not the others opinion, instead it is a mere observation shared in an attempt to make

conversation: no harm is intended when harm, so to speak, is incorrectly taken by the

other. However, the inexplicable accounts of people repeating portions of previousconversations, many of which were private, is perplexing. The matter of peoplemisunderstanding my comments in conversation created an additional problem when

I sought the helpful ear of someone as a way of dealing with the strange occurrence.

The person I sought out for understanding in my problem accused there was

something wrong with me. However the truth of the matter is the accusation camefrom a person who has no qualification or reasonable experience in making such

accusations, not that would be officially accepted by anyone, leaving their opinion to

be uninformed and a smear based on prejudice in that there was no reason for it, with

their understanding of the matter being ineffective. I have never in my entire life undergone any professional assessment as would be

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properly performed to tests a persons mental health, while I have had friends andmade acquaintances with people who are from the field of psychology, including one

who is a professor of psychology at a top ranked University in the United States. I will

add to this, to create some perspective about the invalidity of the smear against me,that I later went on to hold positions of responsibility in large international-size

organizations, and which included managing staff and providing training in language

communication skills to professionals. This leaves the accusation of there beingsomething wrong with me as nothing other than an attempt to smear and discredit in

spite of the truth, and this is an objective of the victimization of a t/v. If you are familiar with the term gang stalking, within that topic it has beenreported by others who are victims to it to have been on the receiving end of what isreferred to as scripting. In basic terms this is when a person repeats the words of a t/v

back to them. In its more extreme accounts such happenings have included people in

different cities than the t/v repeating the target's words back to them fromconversations the target previously had with other people: it remains an inexplicable

and incredible phenomenon. If you are the type of person who enjoys solving a

complex problem or thinking through an involved scenario, my comments here maylead you to consider how such a thing could happen. And later in this exposition I will

share information that lends to the possible explanations for such bizarre happenings. Another aspect of gang stalking is a concept called gas-lighting whereby a victimis made to think something is not the way it really is, which can include somethingabout the victim them self. In worst cases an attempt is made to make the victim think

there is something wrong with them when in truth there is not. When the victims

interactions are forced to take place within a network of people who are participating

in victimizing him/her, these people continually reinforce the idea something is wrongwith the victim, who over time can come to believe it if they become vulnerable to the

tactic, when in fact there is nothing wrong with the victim. The victim has been gas-lighted to believe something that is not true. Another very odd occurrence which took place at that time in Canada was howpeople reacted strangely and inexplicably to conversations I had alone in my home.

The matter entailed me speaking a phrase or singing a portion of a song whichincluded a key word in it, like brother, and shortly after, around 10 to 15 minutes later,

my brother showed up at my door for no apparent reason. This phenomenon was so

bizarre I tested it, finding with certainty the behavior of the person in question was

dictated by my comments about them in my home. That is to say the personrepeatedly showed up at my door after my comments in my home, and their visits

were for no apparent reason: they just showed up. This may explain why some in myfamily suggested I not come back after leaving for Asia. Perhaps it was a way of

protecting themselves from the bizarre happenings that started, but at the same time a

sentiment that was cruel to the person suffering because of them, and who faced

leaving their home forever. I do not mind sharing with you this small personal insight which was my visit tothe graves of my grandparents prior to my departure from Canada. I wept like I had

not done since years prior when the fallout of my divorce created problems in a later

relationship I was in. It seemed I would never get passed the problems that came frommy getting divorced, and then with the aspects of my victimization that turned my life

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into a surreal type of existence, in ways analogous to something out of the TwilightZone, I had to accept I needed to leave for my own well-being. For anyone not familiar with the Twilight Zone program, its name, whileintended to represent the program, also holds this meaning. Twilight zone a sphereof experience that appears sinister or dangerous because of its uncertainty,

unpredictability, or ambiguity. My situation deteriorated prior to my leaving, to the point strange happeningswere occurring with people at my work, among my friends, and with members of my

family, and as a result I began experiencing feelings of depression. This is why I say

my well-being was threatened. In such a situation it would, in all probability, happen

that the more time that passed the more I would continue to be discredited andsmeared for trying to bring attention to my victimization, and all the while suffering

for it. I was asked at one time years later why I did not go to the Police before leaving

Canada, and my reasons for not doing so at the time were for a complete loss ofconfidence in my environment. If you have no experience with or knowledge of

depression or an understanding of what it is like to be a victim in these circumstances,

some research into these areas will help inform you when you will come to realize thebad situation it was for me. I contacted the local Police force around this time to inquire about employmentwith them, thinking a career change to a field that could offer some security to me

could help my circumstances, but I received no reply to my inquiry even afterfollowing it up. However with the hindsight of what would be future happenings and

reports to authority bodies, it was shown nothing came from them and in all likelihood

nothing would have come from speaking to the Police at the time, except perhaps my

being discredited for something which has shown to be considered so sensitive andhush hush it is denied in spite of evidence to support it. For all my conversations with

authority groups and human rights groups nothing has come from my reports to themalthough some have acknowledged my circumstances. In a Canadian Embassy I spoke with a member of their staff who explained apaper trail should be kept for the happenings I suffered for. This would provide a

record of the details of the incidents. And it was while I spoke with the woman in thewaiting area of the embassy that a young man came into the embassy to sit nearby

and begin staring at her to try to get her attention: he followed me into the building. It

was an incident similar to another at an Italian Embassy where a suspicious man in

the waiting area was asked firmly by a Carabiniere to take care of his matter with aclerk and then leave. On another occasion at an Italian Embassy, a matter involving myself and agroup that broke the law in dealing with me, saw a clerk at the embassy try to facilitate

what appeared to be a staged situation I was being forced into: instead of the group

being dealt with for breaking the law, a situation was being created where I would have

to talk with the group in spite of the fact I already suffered for their illegal actions. Theperson who ran the embassy later met with me personally to assure me they would

notify the local police to act on the matter which was then properly investigated. The high-wire balancing act a t/v must walk in talking about their victimizationis a serious consideration for them. Despite the previous accounts about authoritygroups that have supported my victimization, it can and has happened that they deny

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the happenings outright and as a result make a discrediting accusation toward the t/v,and others who are not in these groups, family and friends, can also become

antagonistic toward the t/v or unsporting of them in their refusal to accept what the

t/v is claiming. It is a difficult and risky undertaking. In simpler terms it is like a personwho suffers from a condition attending support groups with others who share the same

condition. These people understand what others with the same condition are

experiencing and feeling and are in a better position to appreciate their words. Otherswithout the condition may struggle to appreciate and understand what the victim is

saying, experiencing, or feeling, and in this inability to have empathy for the victim the

t/v stands to suffer for uninformed opinions against them. A point to consider in my targeting at that time in Canada is that much of itrevolved around the use of the English language, and how people did to me what

could be called the opposite of eavesdropping. This situation saw people, who, instead

of listening to my conversations from nearby, were speaking from nearby so I couldhear them. And the comments from these people carried meaning in them as they

related to aspects of my life and my activities. Over time the regular use of this

method on me created feelings of confusion and finally fatigue for the constant racingmy mind did in piecing together the bombardment of comments and their meanings.

In hindsight I think because this was the first time such a method was used on me I

was not prepared to deal with it, albeit a method of questionable principles

considering the nature of it. One aspect of this happening is the attention given totrying to recall where a comment was taken from in a previous conversation of mine.

Not only was I piecing together the meanings of the comments and what they referred

to in the different aspects of my life, and the possible results, impacts, changes, or

considerations I should associate with those aspects, but I was also trying to determinewhere the comments were spied from me. If a person has never been subjected to such

a testing situation I imagine they would find it difficult to appreciate the complexityand degree of tiredness the victim of it can suffer. In my years as a t/v the explanation

of such situations has received odd reactions from people for the obscure nature of it

and the rare occurrences of it among most people. And it is possible this rarity lends to

a theory about my targeting which suggests a form of experimentation was, and is,being done on me. I cannot know for certain, but the happenings are telling. What was

later confided in me by a lifelong friend is that the actions of another friend, which

were detrimental to me at the time as they were participating in severely scripting me,

were well intended. I am not sure how such actions which are duplicitous andinherently suspicious in nature could be considered helpful, however this is what was

said to me by my lifelong friend. The use of the word theory in this exposition, as in to say, in theory, in referringto an idea is not meant to imply the idea is factual as in to say it is known to be true. It

is a theory which is defined as in theory, used in describing what is supposed to

happen or be possible, usually with the implication that it does not in fact happen. With my knowing the use of the English language was helping create theproblems of reverse eavesdropping and scripting came the decision to relocate to a

non-English speaking country, and which was partly based on the fact people on the

streets there would not speak English. And the strategy did indeed work. My first fewmonths abroad were good ones. I began to get passed the ill feelings I had in Canada

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and enjoyed some happiness which was denied me for a long time. However, in shorttime, even in the new country, the same problem of reverse eavesdropping started with

foreigners around me, with the aspect of scripting by foreigners being much more

predominant. At this point I am compelled to comment on what appears to be amisunderstanding about the condition of depression. Some are of the belief that like

Alzheimer's disease, depression is also caused by some type of mental irregularity. Andthis is wrong. While Alzheimers is a progressive mental deterioration that can occur in

middle or old age, due to generalized degeneration of the brain, depression is not

caused by any deterioration or degeneration of the brain. It is caused by stimulus

acted on a person from their environment, be it a traumatic event in a persons life ora suffering for the treatment of others toward them, depression is not caused by any

naturally occuring deteriotation or degeneration of the brain as is the case with

Alzheimers. And as in my case, when I removed myself from the environment thattargeted me in Canada I no longer experienced feelings of depression. But back to the discussion of Canada. My parents home was apparently notprivate as conversations in it and over its phone came to be known by others. Andafter moving out of my parents home, having stayed there temporarily after relocating

back to my home town after almost 20 years, and dealing with the inherent

readjustments that went with that, the same invasion of privacy and monitoring

happened there, affecting my phone conversations, Internet use, and conversationswhile in the apartment. With so much happening scripting, reverse eavesdropping,

people showing up on queue to the words I spoke, and other odd behavior in people

such as members of my family talking about me while I stood in the room or nearby,

but not including me in the conversation: a rude manner they never exhibited in thepast, and which at its worst times was essentially like being surrounded by people who

behaved noticeably out of character where my interactions with them becameawkward, it came to the point I found myself cautious about my interactions and

relationships with them. This victimization in the different areas of my life created a

surreal aspect to it for which I was suffering. And again, it was in a way analogous to

being stuck a story of the Twilight Zone, but for real. This next account goes back several years prior to my leaving Canada. At thetime I lived with a former girlfriend and was working in my field in a division of a

Fortune multi-national company. It was on a weekend away with friends in the north

of the province in cottage country that a group of young men began following me. Aswe were boating, this group of about three appeared on shore nearby to watch our

boat and specifically me. I recall my girlfriend reacting to the sighting of these strangepeople by saying, 'Oh my God! There are people following {my name}'. These same

types again showed up, this time near my hometown, and followed me to a public park

about 20 minutes away by car where I had fled to for some privacy. With my

apartment listened in on, people following me in the city, and friends and family actingquestionably in my interactions with them, I sought the privacy and peace of the park

to read at. And as I sat in a gazebo reading a novel, one of these people who appeared

to be from the group that followed me on the cottage weekend walked through the

park searchingly until they saw me sitting in the wooden structure. These same peoplelater showed up in the countries I relocated to, however I do not believe it has been the

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provincial government regarding a small business program I had inquired about, atwhich time it was seen I did not receive mail sent to me by him. He made a phone call

to look into the matter at the local post office and the following day I received a stack

of mail at my home which had been withheld and not delivered. And on the subject ofgang stalking, this is one of many methods used on targeted people as a way to disrupt

their life. Another account from that same city occurred several months after I relocatedfrom it, when I commuted passed the area regularly to visit my son from my former

marriage. On one occasion I made a visit to my family doctor who was in the town,

and in our conversation I said I would go to a pharmacy nearby to get the medication

he prescribed for, as I recall, my flu symptoms. But his reaction to my comment wasnot a usual one. And you must understand that prior to arriving at his office I noticed

strange people along the street who appeared to be staged for me to see them. These

people made eye contact with me as I drove my car, before some of them offered aslight grin as if to acknowledge I saw them. I did not know these people or know of

them at all, yet they appeared to know me, or of me, in some way. Possibly a

coincidence, but when I said to my doctor I would go to a pharmacy in town he gave acautionary, nervous reaction to my comment, as if to indicate I should not go into

town, leaving me to wonder if something was not right in the area the odd people

who appeared to be staged, and the doctor's reaction to my suggestion of going into

town. This seems to support another point made in this exposition about myvictimization where I explain that a place seems to remain infected, so to speak, with

odd happenings taking place after I relocate from it. Some years later while still in Canada I was offered a job interview at FederalExpress. Upon arriving at their office and sitting in the reception area, a friend andformer university classmate of mine who worked for the company walked passed me. I

greeted him and we chatted briefly as I explained I was there for an interview when hisreaction was one of surprise. He then went on to speak in a way that made it clear to

anyone in the area who might hear our conversation that he did not help me get the

interview. An inconsequential happening perhaps, but different than the usual

situation where a friend offers to put in a good word for another friend who isinterviewing at their company. And add to this that he and I spoke previously about

me applying for a position with Federal Express, when his attitude at that time was

interested. As the matter ended up the interview went terribly. The interviewers were

antagonistic with the odd derogatory remark toward me, as I sat astonished at the lackof professionalism in what is supposed to be a world-class company. In my years of

working for multi-national companies, where I sat for interviews and gave many ofthem myself, I never experienced such a situation. I do not say this to slight big

companies, but more so to highlight the possibility that the strange happening may

have been due to my victimization, which, in this outlook, would mean they neither

are immune to the effects of it by those who target me. Prior to this time in Canada I worked for a company where I discovered that asubordinate of mine had knowledge of my personal emails sent from my home

computer. I had been corresponding socially with a person in the Ukrain as I recall, to

find my coworker repeating back to me portions of that correspondence as we spokein our workplace. The odd circumstance may have been known by others in the

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workplace who purposely disassembled this coworkers work area partly such that hehad no privacy as he sat at his desk. While others sat at their desks to be enclosed by

the surrounding walls of their work area, which offered privacy, the continuous design

of the layout was broken at his desk where people could see him as he sat to do hiswork. The situation may have been a sort of poetic justice where the coworker was

denying me my privacy and so in return he was denied his own. I cannot be

completely certain of this, but the strange situation was easily seen. It was also at the same company where other staff that reported to me beganbehaving strangely. As we sat in meetings, when I spoke about a matter one of my staff

immediately reacted in a somewhat frantic manner in instructing others in the meeting

to follow my thoughts on the subject at hand. It was a very strange behavior on thepart of this person and which he had never exhibited in the past, and it also managed

to capture the attention of others in the room who stared at him noticeably for his odd

behavior. This next account took place in the latter part of my career while still inCanada. I was working for a consulting company that put me at a facility of a Fortune

multi-national company in the automotive industry. My work responsibilities includedworking in the area of the final testing of completely assembled automobiles. I used

data analysis and statistical methods with the data available for the area of work to

help decision making about problems that needed attention, and highlight the likely

causes of those problems. The existing approach used was heavily based on makingguesses without much reliable data to support them. And when the two approaches

were presented to the (engineering) manager responsible for that area, his reaction was

to hide the information I provided as it revealed the existing approach, and those using

it, to be at a lesser level in effectiveness: their work, or its style, was to a lower standardin comparison to mine. Not long after I was taken off the assignment and let go from

my position, as opposed to being recognized for my work which was to a higherstandard. This account leads into an overall circumstance that arose in the latter part ofmy career in Canada. With several movements to new assignments and from one

company to another, it seemed I was utilized by people who directed my workopportunities and passed me from one group to another without my knowing it. The

assignments I received saw me doing work which I had already surpassed in my career,

with the apparent intention of using me to make others look bad in the performance

of their work. Or the assignments were complicated and politically sensitive, makingthem difficult to the point they were unpopular and unwanted. In one instance which

was my final work assignment in Canada, the standard approaches to the workinvolved in this multi-national company, which was managed by standard practices as

per the quality management program ISO 9000, International Organization for

Standardization, as applied to this industry and within the context of engineering

practices were not used. It appeared other motives and intentions were at play whichwould require me once again to become involved in a difficult and sensitive matter,

when it did not need to be that way. This put my career at risk, and given the targeting

of me outside of my work it also put me at risk. Again, I was being used for the

reputation of my skills, which was apparently known by people while kept a secretfrom me, and for my abilities in my work. It appeared I was used for these different

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purposes more and more to satisfy the motives of others. Either I was overqualified forthe work or the assignment posed a risk to me while not being properly assigned to me.

It came to the point I was fed up with being taken advantage of and compromised and

in a way that was beyond the usual problems seen in the management of people asresources and combined with all the aspects outside of my work that plagued me

and my life, I began considering leaving my career in Canada, and Canada entirely,

for a life elsewhere. If you happen to be piecing together the events in this exposition inchronological order as a story, rest assured I tried finding a position in my field in other

parts of the country. And as you can see, I ended up leaving Canada which indicates

there was no realistic chance of relocating to another part of it. But I did try, findingthe aspects of my life that were victimized still continued to pose problems in a

national job search. Namely, people simply did not reply to me. Beyond my departure from Canada in the fall/winter of 2001 my victimizationhas progressively worsened to become more severe in approaches used to victimize me.

As of today, February 26, 2012 in Thailand, I am stalked daily by a strange group of

people who resemble people I have known or have seen before, and this includes thestrange types I first saw while cottaging in Canada, as well as other groups that behave

suspiciously stalking me and knowing of my personal activities. It is a confusing

and complicated collection of people who stalk me and w

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