7/30/2019 A pray of A gay
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You cry alone , in your darkest hours. On the corner of your
room.
Try to stop it, but can you? That tears just keep flowing wthout
permission. That eyes,
ears, already had enough to heard , saw him in distance laughing
at you with his friends.
You try to gave up so mamy times do nt you? You try so hard to
forget, but you cant.
His face, smile, voice is like trigger. It keeps make you cry
also smile. Living like the
dead. Though everyone mock you. You kept on standing, alone. In
the middle of nowherewaiting for unseen creature. Even you cant
tell when will that creature turn his back for
you. And stay for sometime.
After a hard rain, rainbow come after it.
But in your case, the rain hasnt stop since long time, hasnt
yet. Hasnt yet. Still raining
hard. Your rainbow need to wait for little longer. That happy
ending of yours seems not
comimg seeing your rain still falling hard.
Though you cant have your story end happily , your kept
fighting.
Even everybody mocking and bullying, that faith you have you
still hold on it.
Maybe if you could say, you would tell us :
This is hard for me. Dont you guys know how hard is it for
me?
Am just a victim. Cant you guys give me a little support. I
thought were friend. Oh , No .
Sorry I forget, you guys kicked me out from it dont you?
Hahahaha... am all alone from the start. All alone since I
started this.
I hope you guys live happily and have happy relationship. Not
like mine, thought
What expression should I put on now? Big smile? Hard face? Long
face?
I dont know. My heart felt numb. Looks like Ill fell nothing
soon. Maybe I should be glad
if thats happened. Good grief, my sorrow I wouldn;t never felt
it again if thats so. Seeing
him with her, is just kill my heart.
Dont you guys judge me. I have right to fell love, speak, and
also threatned her. You guys
just didnt know her. Because I know her that much, I spoke like
this.
Am I Wrong? In my eyes shes bitch. Am much better than her. Just
he cant see it.
Hes blind for now, but I believe one day hell crawling to my
feet.
I have that faith. So I dont care whether you still considered
me as your friend or not. Am
not going to live with you guys after all. Looks like I care
about it. So?
You guys know the answer of course. Thanks for this time
being.
Hundreds of time youve been shouting this to him dont you? :
I dont know how many times should I tell you about how much I
love you?Am willing to against my parents just to be with you? Do
you think she will? SHE WONT!
I love you! I love you more than she love you! Does she willing
to die for you? I am! Does
she have the guts to against her parents and lose everything
just to be with you? I will! I
dont need anything else. I just need you. You, just you. Is that
sounds that friegnthening
for you? Thats hurt me.
Many people said, ours wont work till the end of world. You
didnt think like that too
dont you? I know what you thought. Just the same as mine. Live
together happily.
Iknow we can. No matter how many obstacle we should passed, for
me if its with you. Its
fine.
Sarangahae, Aku cinta kau, I love You, Aisiteru.
I f just, if just, if just ...No, that is not right.
7/30/2019 A pray of A gay
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*chuckled*
I dont know where am livin at now. Neither in real world nor
dream world. I guess you
cause this error.
And everyone keep judging like theyre God. Even my God dont say
a thing about me
being in love with you. Why they bother?I try to ended this up.
Do you know am waiting
for you in beach?I sited there , feels like forever waiting for
you. *chuckle* You dontcame though. Irony.
Its all started since I was born.
I show you, i tell you, i gave you. But nothing from you. Does
every girls in this world
suffer like this when they try to defend their love? Being a
girl is hard.
Every night before what i wsh to God?
God, please in my next life let me born as a girl. So that in my
next life I met him, were
be together till death tear us apart. Amen
Thats a beautiful pray, things i hope to come true
A pray Of A Gay.
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By: indah novitasari.
