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Knub Dfue

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]hs}? Knub DfueDfphu? Dnimhuxhin #Tfubn) Twnba"! Iixt Pniit+Nuhar

Wxeibtchu? Phuifd

Enudhifah + Twnba

Wcfah? *4= 052 7 Onaxnur

Mhtbal? Phuifd! Lnebah}h Duhn}bpf Hmb}fubni!

Npnbineih ba h+effj nam mblb}ni ibeunubht!

Kfuh ba`fukn}bfa ba? |||!phuifd!dfk nam |||!dh}u!ah}

Ihlni mhwftb}?

BTEA? >4+2


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DFA]HA]T

@fuh|fum!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>>

Ba}ufmxd}bfa! ]ch dufttufnmt) n ebumt hrh pbh| !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>8

WNU] FAH! DXI]XUNI KFMHIT

F@ ]CH CXKNA TXUPBPNI

DCNW]HU B! Dxi}xuh) n ebfiflbdni bapha}bfa

]ch `xamnkha}ni dfamb}bfa f` fxu twhdbht? ehbal n dxi}xuni fulnabtk !!!!!!!!54]ch kfphkha} `ufk n ebanur t}uxd}xuh f` ib`h }f n }huanur! ]ch mxni

hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!58

Fxu twhdb`bd ~xnib}r !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!5

]ch t}uxd}xuh f` }ch cxa}hu&ln}chuhu dxi}xuht !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!44

]ch t}uxd}xuh f` }ch cfu}bdxi}xuni tfdbh}r dxi}xuht!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=>Ba }ch Knrn+~xbdc kr}cfiflr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=5

Ba }ch Mhtnan kr}cfiflr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=4

Ba }ch kr}cfiflr f` }ch Knubam+nabk !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!==

Ba }ch \hknih kr}ct nam ub}ht !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=0

Ba }ch Nz}hd kr}cfiflr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=2

Ba }ch Badn kr}cfiflr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!8=

Ba }ch Jnanjn ub}xnit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!88

]ch t}uxd}xuh f` dxi}xuht ba buubln}bfa `nukbal tfdbh}bht !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!80

Lhahuni dfatbmhun}bfat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!80Ba Hlrw}bna kr}cfiflr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!05


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Ba Khtfwf}nkbna kr}cfiflr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!02

Ba }ch Knrn+~xbdc kr}cfiflr) }ch Wfwfi+Pxc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!27

]ch t}uxd}xuh f` kr}cfiflr ba }ch ibpht}fdj `nukbal dxi}xuht !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>7=Ba }ch kr}cfiflr f` Btunhi !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>773

Ba }ch Bunabna kr}cfiflr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>72

Ba }ch Dcubt}bna kr}cfiflr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>>4

Lhahuni dfatbmhun}bfat fa kr}cbdni hwbt}hkfiflr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>>=

]ch na}cufwfiflbdni axdihxt lhahun}bal uhiblbfat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>58

DCNW]HU BBB! ]f|numt baafpn}bfa tfdbh}bht

]ch tif| lhahun}bfa f` n kfmhi `fu }ch ba}huwuh}n}bfa f` uhnib}r)ni}huan}bph }f }ch kr}c nam b}t hwbt}hkfiflr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>52

]ch nwwhnunadh f` }ch but} bamxt}ubni tfdbh}bht nam }chbu dfath~xhadht !!>=7

]ch nwwhnunadh nam ba}ufmxd}bfa f` }ch baafpn}bfa tfdbh}bht !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>==

T}n}bd tfdbh}bht nam mrankbd tfdbh}bht !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>=3

]ch ham f` }ch uhiblbfat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>8>

WNU] ]\F! ]CH TWHDB@BD CXKNA XNIB]R

NAM B]T DXI]BPN]BFA

DCNW]HU BP! ]ch bkwnd} f` }ch ah| dxi}xuni t}uxd}xuh

fa }ch }unmb}bfani uhiblbfxt `fukt

]ch mbtdfk`b}xuh f` }ch uhiblbfxt fulnabtn}bfat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>0>

Kr}ct nam trkefit nt trt}hkt f` ehibh`t nam }chbu wxuhir

trkefibd uhnmbal !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>08

Twbub}xnib}r |b}cfx} ehibh`t: `nb}c |b}cfx} ehibh`t !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>035

]ch an}xuh f` cf| |h twhnj f` }ch netfix}h mbkhatbfa f` uhnib}r !!!!!!!!!!!!>3=

]ch luhn} knt}hut f` }ch twbub} nuh xaba}huwuh}neih!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>2>

DCNW]HU P! ]ch mfxeih hswhubhadh f` }ch uhni

]ch mfxeih hswhubhadh f` }ch uhni ba uhiblbfa !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>24]ch mfxeih hswhubhadh f` }ch uhni fx}tbmh uhiblbfa !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>20


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]ch hswibdb} dxi}bpn}bfa f` fxu twhdb bd ~xnib}r bt n lufxw

nam bambpbmxni ahhm !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>22

]ch af}bfa f` uhphin}bfa ba }ch ah| dxi}xuni dbudxkt}nadht !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!575\cn} }ch cfir tdubw}xuht twhnj nefx} !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!578

\cn} }ch twbub}xni knt}hut tnr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!572

\cn} dna }ch nlh+fim uhiblbfxt }unmb}bfat f` cxknab}r f``hu

}f }ch ah| bamxt}ubni tfdbh}bht6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!5>=

]ch txe}ih f``hu f` }unmb}bfat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!5>3

DCNW]HU PB! Tbiha} jaf|ihmlh]ch wn}c }f |cbdc }ch }unmb}bfat bapb}h xt bt n wn}c f` txe}ih}r !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!55>

]ch |nr }f twbub}xnib}r bt ba}huani tbihadh! B}t `uxb} bt tbiha} jaf|ihmlh!!!!!!!!55=

Tbiha} jaf|ihmlh bt }ch uff} f` xadfamb}bfani ifph fu nii ehbalt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!55>


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tfdbh}r) htwhdbniir nkfal }ch rfxal! Uhiblbfat mf af} ba}huht} }chk) ex} na

ba}huht} ba twbub}xnib}r bt phur |bmhtwuhnm nam bt luf|bal ba n }cfxtnam |nrt!

\h cnph }f t}xmr |cn} bt lfbal fa ba fxu tfdbh}bht ba fumhu }f dnibeun}h |cn}bt cnwwhabal }f }ch inalxnlh f` }ch uhiblbfxt }unmb}bfat f` }ch wnt} nam nii b}t

nlh+fim ihlndr! \cbdc `nd}fut khna }cn} |cn} }chr tnr bt badfkwuhchatbeih

nam xanddhw}neih }f }ch knofub}r!

Knar }cbalt nuh cnwwhabal |cbdc cnph wuf`fxam uhwhudxttbfat fphu

uhiblbfat nam twbub}xni }unmb}bfat! Nii f` }chk uh~xbuh na nmh~xn}h uhtwfath!

\h dnaaf} |nb}) tb}}bal n} fah tbmh f` }ch dxuuha}) cfwbal `fu }ch ubphu }f ìf|

xw|numt! ]ch |n}hut |cbdc cnph ìf|hm er |bii af} uh}xua!

B cnph twha} knar rhnut uhìhd}bal fa }chth }cbalt! Kr uhthnudc) |cbdc cntint}hm ahnuir `fxu mhdnmht) dfxim thhk mnubal nam ubtjr) ehdnxth b} bt `nu ùfk

}ch afukni |nrt f` }cbajbal) `hhibal nam hswhubhadbal uhiblbfxt nam twbub}xni

~xht}bfat! Ex}) ba `nd}) B nk af} n whutfa |cf t}namt ntbmh ùfk }chth

}unmb}bfani `fukt) |cbdc B `hhi khub} nii uhtwhd} nam phahun}bfa? b} bt }ch |cfih

dha}uni dxuuha} f` dxi}xuh |cbdc cnt kfphm n|nr) nam }ch kfphkha} bt af} oxt}

n kn}}hu fu hib}ht) nt ba f}chu hunt f` cbt}fur!

B tbkwir dfiihd}) `fukxin}h nam bkwfth }chfuh}bdni `fuk fa |cbdc cnt

niuhnmr) `fu tfkh }bkh) ehha fx} ba }ch fwha! B nk af}) }cha) na baafpn}fu) B

tbkwir cnph kr hrht nam chnu} fwha }f thh nam `hhi |cn} bt cnwwhabal) |b}cfx}`hnu f` }ch dfath~xhadht: B nk oxt} n |b}ahtt |cf uhwfu}t |cn} bt thha! Af}cbal

bt lnbahm er blafubal |cn} bt cnwwhabal! Fa }ch dfa}unur) kxdc dna eh ift}!

Ba jaf|ihmlh tfdbh}bht) |b}c dfat}na} baafpn}bfa) |cbdc dfa}baxniir dcnalh

fxu |nrt f` }cbajbal nam `hhibal) fulnabtbal fxuthipht) nd}bal nam hswhubhadbal)

|h dnaaf} uhknba }unkkhiihm er }ch ehibh`t nam afukt f` }ch wnt}! \h kxt}

uhtwfam }f dbudxkt}nadht |cbdc cnph ahphu hsbt}hm eh`fuh! Dfath~xha}ir) |h

cnph }f tnr nam mf }cbalt) ni}cfxlc }chr cnph ahphu ehha tnbm fu mfah eh`fuh!

B} bt af} ihlb}bkn}h }f blafuh |cn} whfwih nuh ibpbal }cufxlc) afu bt b}ihlb}bkn}h }f }xua }ch f}chu |nr) nt }cfxlc af}cbal |nt cnwwhabal) }cufxlc

`hnu f` }ch dfath~xhadht!

B} bt af} ihlb}bkn}h }f hpnmh uhtwfatbebib}r `fu }ch `x}xuh lhahun}bfat) }cufxlc

n wffuir xamhut}ffm nam `hnu`xi `bmhib}r }f }ch fukt f` }ch wnt}!

B` `hnu wnunirtht fxu twbub}) |h dnaaf} uhtwfam }f }ch dcniihalht `ndbal xt

ùfk }ch ah| inr) afa+ehibhphu nam lifeni tfdbh}bht! Nam }chth nuh }ch

ihlb}bkn}h chbut f` nii }ch |btmfk f` nii }ch uhiblbfxt nam twbub}xni }unmb}bfat f`

cxknab}r!

\h knr af} uhtbla fxuthipht }f cnpbal }f nttbla }ch luhn} twbub}xni }unmb}bfat)dfaphrhm er }ch fim uhiblbfat) }f }ch tchipht f` cbt}fur) nt }cbalt f` }ch wnt}!

]ch uhiblbfat nam twbub}xni }unmb}bfat |huh }ch fxa} f` |btmfk ufk |cbdc fxu

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nadht}fut munaj nam |chuh }chr `fxamhm }chbu twbub}xnib}r) nam nuh }chbu kft}

wuhdbfxt ihlndr!

B` |h nuh th} fa dfa}baxbal }f uhnm) `hhi nam hswhubhadh }cbt ihlndr ba }chtnkh |nr nt }ch tfdbh}bht |cbdc cnph niuhnmr mbtnwwhnuhm) |h uxa }ch ubtj }cn}

nii }cfth ubdcht |bii mbtnwwhnu) tf }cn} }ch ihlndr b}thi` |bii mbtnwwhnu!

Ubtjt cnph }f eh }njha) }cufxlc uhtwhd} nam phahun}bfa `fu }ch ihlndr) `fu n

ifph fu }ux}c nam fu ifph f` }ch x}xuh lhahun}bfat) ni}cfxlc |b}c n mnalhu f`

ehbal kbt}njha! ]f eh kbt}njha ba }cbt |nr |fxim eh na nd} f` uhtwfatbebib}r

nam ifph!

Cf|hphu) twbub}xnib}r bt mnubal) }ch twbub}xni knht}uft }hii xt) nam |h cnph }f

}uxt} ba }ch euhn}c f` }ch Twbub}! ]cbt Twbub} |bii mbuhd} fxu h``fu}t!

]cbt effj bt ba}hamhm }f eh n dfkwhambxk f` }ch bmhnt |cbdc B cnph ehha

th}}bal fx} ba effjt nam nu}bdiht) }ch ùxb} f` kr uhthnudcht) fphu knar rhnut!

Kr ùbhamt ntjhm kh }f eubal }flh}chu nii }ch t}hwt B cnph }njha ba kr t}xmbht

ba n tbalih }hs}! B `fxam b} na ba}huht}bal bmhn nam th} }f |fuj }f dnuur b} fx}!

]chth wnlht nuh }ch uhtxi} f` }cn} |fuj!

B cnph }ubhm }f knjh }ch iflbdni wufluhtt f` kr |fuj dihnu) tf }cn} b}t xab}r

nam dfchuhadh dna eh eh}}hu xamhut}ffm! Fa knar fddntbfat B }unatdubeh

ha}buh wnunlunwct ùfk hnuibhu |fujt! B` B dfatbmhu }cn} |cn} B |na}hm }f tnr

|nt |hii hswuhtthm) B mf af} uh|ub}h b}) ex} B mf uh|ub}h |cha b} thhkt }f kh}cn} tfkh}cbal dfxim eh kfuh dfkwih}h fu dihnu!

]ch effj thhjt }f f``hu) ba na fumhuhm |nr nam nt dihnuir nt wfttbeih) }ch

wufluhtt f` kr t}xmbht nam }chbu uhtxi}t) tf }cn} }ch uhnmhut dna cnph n xab`bhm

txkknur! B |nukir bapb}h narfah |cf |btcht }f lf kfuh mhhwir ba}f nar f`

}ch }chkht th} fx} chuh }f uhnm }ch eufnmhu |fujt nam nu}bdiht!

]cbt }hs} th}t fx}) ba }ch kft} fumhuir |nr wfttbeih) cf| `nu B cnph dfkh!

\cbih B cnph ib`h) B |bii dfa}baxh }unphiibal!

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]ch xamnkha}ni dfamb}bfa f` fxu twhdbht?

BA]UFMXD]BFA

]ch dufttufnmt) n ebumt hrh pbh|

Ih} xt mh`bah) ba eufnm t}ufjht) }ch kft} fx}t}nambal ibaht f` }ch }unatb}bfa

|cbdc bt }njbal windh ba fumhu) }cha) }f eh neih }f lf mhhwhu) t}hw er t}hw nam

dcnw}hu er dcnw}hu) ba}f hndc f` }chk) }chbu dfath~xhadht) }ch fwha ~xht}bfat)

}ch dcniihalht `ndbal xt!

Ba }ch mhphifwhm dfxa}ubht |h cnph wntthm ùfk na nlh+fim nlunubna nam

nx}cfub}nubna tfdbh}r }f n kbshm tfdbh}r) dfkwfthm f` n wuh+bamxt}ubni knofub}r

nam na baìxha}bni bamxt}ubni kbafub}r nam) uhdha}ir) |h cnph kfphm ba}fnaf}chu kbshm tfdbh}r) dfkwfthm }cbt }bkh er na bamxt}ubni knofub}r nam na

baìxha}bni kbafub}r ba |cn} |h dfxim dnii n thdfam luhn} bamxt}ubnibtn}bfa)

|cbdc cnt ehha lbpha pnubfxt ankht? }ch ba`fukn}bfa tfdbh}r) }ch jaf|ihmlh

tfdbh}r) }ch baafpn}bfa tfdbh}r!

]ch `but} luhn} bamxt}ubnibtn}bfa) |cbdc duhn}hm }ch `but} kbshm tfdbh}r) }f}niir

dcnalhm }ch wuh+bamxt}ubni cfkflhahfxt tfdbh}r! B} |nt af} hntr `fu }cbt `but}

bamxt}ubnibtn}bfa }f fwha n wn}c|nr ba }ch nlh+fim wuh+bamxt}ubni tfdbh}r!

Dfken}bph bmhfiflbht cnm }f eh duhn}hm }f `bam n windh ba }ch fim uhlbkh! B}t

bkwina}n}bfa ba pnubfxt dfxa}ubht wufmxdhm hdfafkbd) tfdbni) wfib}bdni)

uhiblbfxt nam kbib}nur dfaìbd}t! ]chuh |huh |nut eh}|hha dfxa}ubht) dbpbi |nut

nam dfifabni |nut!

Ba }ch ahnuir 577 rhnut f` hsbt}hadh f` }cbt }rwh f` kbshm tfdbh}r) whndh |nt

fair ndcbhphm n`}hu }ch Thdfam \fuim \nu! Whndh |nt n mbt}ubex}bfa f`

`xad}bfat? }ch ah| bamxt}ubni tfdbh}r nam b}t bmhfiflr |fxim dfa}ufi tdbhadh nam

}hdcafiflr) }ch hdfafkr nam wfibdr: }ch fim wuh+bamxt}ubni tfdbh}r nam uhiblbfa

|fxim dfa}ufi }ch uht} f` }ch lufxw mbkhatbfat! Dcubt}bna mhkfdundr |nt }ch

wuf}f}rwh f` }cbt nluhhkha}! Nitf |b}cba kft} bambpbmxnit ba }cbt `but} kbshmtfdbh}r }chuh |nt }ch tnkh mbpbtbfa f` `xad}bfat!

]ch thdfam kbshm tfdbh}r bt fair n `h| mhdnmht fim! Ba b} }ch uhknbat f` }ch

wuh+bamxt}ubni tfdbh}r cnph mbtnwwhnuhm nikft} dfkwih}hir: nam }ch ib}}ih |cbdc

uhknbat bt rh} }f eh hs}balxbtchm!

]ch dha}uni kf}fu f` }cbt ah| kbshm tfdbh}r bt }ch mrankbd f` tdbhadh nam

}hdcafiflr! Tdbhadh nam }hdcafiflr) |cbdc luf| mnr er mnr) bapnmbal

hphur}cbal) nuh wf|hu`xi nam mf af}cbal b` af} baduhnth }chbu wf|hu! Af `bhim f`

cxkna nd}bpb}r htdnwht }chbu wf|hu! ]chr cnph bapnmhm nii `fukt f` cxkna

dfkkxabdn}bfa nam nuh bapnmbal nii }ch dfuahut f` ib`h!Ahphu}chihtt) }cbt wf|hu`xi tdbhadh nam }hdcafiflr mxf cnt ehdfkh kfmht}!

]chr af ifalhu wuh}ham }f cfim }ch jhr }f }ux}c) }chr nuh fair }chuh }f thuph!


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]chr cnph ihnuahm) nitf) }cn} }chr nuh badnwneih f` txwwirbal }ch nsbfiflbdni

pnixht |cbdc |bii lfphua }ch lufxwt nam uxih fphu }chbu f|a wufluhtt!

]ch baafpn}bph nam duhn}bph dnwndb}r f` }ch ah| tdbhadh nam }hdcafiflr cntihm }f n tfdbh}r f` dfa}baxfxt baafpn}bfa ba lffmt nam thupbdht! ]cbt bt }ch

chnu} f` }ch ah| kbshm tfdbh}r? }ch dfa}baxfxt duhn}bfa f` afphi}r! ]cbt bt

}ch dha}uh f` }ch hdfafkr nam kxt} eh }cn} f` wfibdr! ]cbt wf|hu`xi dxuuha}

munlt hphur}cbal nifal |b}c b}!

]ch baafpn}bfat ba }unatwfu} nam dfkkxabdn}bfat cnph ihnw} nii }ch `ufa}bhut

nam duhn}hm n pnt} lifeni tfdbh}r! \b}c dfkwx}hu mhphifwkha}t) tdbhadh nam

}hdcafiflr cnph ehdfkh lifeni: nii }rwht f` dfkkxabdn}bfat nuh lifeni: ihbtxuh

bt lifeni: knujh}t nuh lifeni: }ch hdfafkr bt lifeni: mbt}nadht eh}|hha dxi}xuht

cnph ehha nefibtchm: nii }ch luhn} uhiblbfxt }unmb}bfat) |b}c }chbu bkkhath|hni}c) nuh wuhtha} hphur|chuh! Hpha dubkbani nttfdbn}bfat nuh lifeni!

]chuh nuh af| af ufa}bhut fu |niit }f cfim endj }ch fauxtc f` }ch |n}hut f`

lifenibtn}bfa! Afu nuh }chuh kfuni fu uhiblbfxt |niit }f f``hu n mh`hadh nlnbat}

}ch bkwh}xt f` tdbhadh nam }hdcafiflr nam }chbu lifenibtbal wf|hu!

Fah mfht af} ahhm }f eh n wufwch} }f thh }cn} af}cbal |bii cni} }ch nddhihun}hm

nam bapntbph knudc f` tdbhadh nam }hdcafiflr nam }ch lifenibtn}bfa |cbdc }chr

duhn}h!

]ch wuh+bamxt}ubni tfdbh}bht) |b}c nii }chbu |nrt f` }cbajbal) `hhibal)

fulnabtbal nam hswhubhadh) |bii lunmxniir mbtnwwhnu ufk }ch ndh f` }ch hnu}c!Nam b} bt eh}}hu `fu xt }cn} }cbt tcfxim eh tf) ehdnxth }ch dfa}unur |fxim khna

}cn} cxknab}r |fxim eh mbpbmhm ba}f }|f eifdjt? }ch baduhntbalir ubdc nam

wf|hu`xi tfdbh}bht nam }cfth f}chut hphu wffuhu nam kfuh knulbanibthm!

]ch hkhulhadh nam bat}niin}bfa f` }ch `but} luhn} bamxt}ubnibtn}bfa niuhnmr

khna} thubfxt mb``bdxi}bht `fu uhiblbfa) |cbdc |nt neih }f uhtbt} }chk ehdnxth b}

|nt xwchim er n knofub}r thd}fu f` }ch lufxw! ]ch ba}huani mbpbtbfat ba whfwih

}chkthipht |huh n txwwfu} `fu uhiblbfa!

Ba }ch ah| kbshm tfdbh}r) }ch wuh+bamxt}ubni uhknbat cnph ehha t|hw} fx} f`}ch lufxw nam hpha `ufk }ch kbamt f` }ch knofub}r f` bambpbmxnit! Ba }cbt ah|

tb}xn}bfa) |cbdc bt bapnmbal hphur|chuh unwbmir) uhiblbfa bt dfiinwtbal! ]cbt bt

af ifalhu n dubtbt) ex} n uhni dfiinwth!

]ch luhn} knofub}r f` }ch rfxal mf af} |na} }f jaf| nar}cbal nefx} uhiblbfa! @fu

}chk) uhiblbfa bt af} n wufeihk! ]chr mf af} dfatbmhu b} fu dfken} b}) b} bt tfkh}cbal

ehifalbal }f }bkht wnt} nam wnt} lhahun}bfat! Tfkh}cbal tbkbinu bt cnwwhabal }f

whfwih f` xamhu =8 rhnut! ]ch wuf`httbfani nam ba}hiihd}xni dinttht cnph nitf

nenamfahm }ch dcxudcht ha kntth! \fkha) |cf |huh }ch t}ufalcfim f` uhiblbfa)

nuh nitf mhthu}bal! Hpha }ch fimhu lhahun}bfat nuh dhntbal }chbu wund}bdh f` b}!]ch dcxudcht nuh hkw}r) }ch dihulr nuh nadbha} nam cnph ift} }chbu dxi}xuni

nam hpha uhiblbfxt wuht}blh!

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Mrankbd tfdbh}bht) jaf|a nt }ch jaf|ihmlh fu ba`fukn}bfa tfdbh}bht) mf af}

bkwfth nar ib`ht}rih) }chr dna eh ibphm |b}c phur mbphuth wubadbwiht nam phur

mb``huha} wufohd}t! ]chr nufth nam `fxam }chbu `but} mhphifwkha} ba |ht}huatfdbh}bht |b}c n dnwb}nibt} t}uxd}xuh) ex} cnph af| hs}hamhm }f f}chu dxi}xuni

`bhimt! ]fmnr }chr nuh mbuhd}hm nam lfphuahm er n dfkwh}b}bph nam dnwb}nibt}

trt}hk) ex} }chr dna eh nmnw}hm }f f}chu ib`h wufohd}t!

]cn} nii ihphit f` cxkna ib`h) ef}c lufxw nam bambpbmxni) nuh fxu f|a

dfat}uxd}bfa) n} fxu f|a ubtj) bt af} oxt} }ch n|nuhahtt f` }ch hib}ht: }ch |cfih

f` }ch wfwxin}bfa ba }ch mhphifwhm tfdbh}bht jaf|t) hswibdb}ir fu bkwibdb}ir) }cn}

}cbt bt cf| }cbalt nuh!

B} dna eh tnbm }cn} b} bt n lhahuni `hhibal ba fxu tfdbh}bht }cn} nii cxkna

~xht}bfat) n} nii ihphit) nuh hsdixtbphir ba fxu f|a cnamt! Nam }chth bmhntnam `hhibalt nuh af} }ch ùxb} f` bamfd}uban}bfa er hmxdn}bfa fu f`

}ch dfkkxabdn}bfa khmbn) ex} n dfath~xhadh) nt B cnph bambdn}hm) f` }ch

nddhihun}hm dcnalht |cbdc |h cnph tx``huhm) f` fxu |nr f` txupbpbal ba }cbt

winah} nam f` lifenibtn}bfa!

Nddhw}bal }cbt) b} thhkt uhntfaneih }f }cbaj }cn} }chth `nd}t |bii wuf`fxamir

n``hd} }ch |nrt ba |cbdc twbub}xnib}r |nt dxi}bpn}hm ba }ch ifal wuh+bamxt}ubni

tfdbh}r nam }ch h~xbibeubxkt nuubphm n}) n`}hu tf knar dfaùfa}n}bfat nam

t}uxlliht) ba }ch `but} kbshm tfdbh}bht!

B} thhkt iflbdni }cn} b` }ch |nrt f` ibpbal) }cbajbal) `hhibal) nd}bal namfulnabtbal dcnalh unmbdniir) nitf }ch |nr f` dfadhbpbal nam ibpbal twbub}xnib}r

|bii dcnalh! ]ch }unatb}bfa ùfk wuh+bamxt}ubni tfdbh}bht) ba |cbdc }ch uhiblbfat

nufth nam mhphifwhm) }f }ch tfdbh}bht f` baafpn}bfa nam dcnalh) bt n unmbdni

dcnalh! B} |fxim eh iflbdni fu }cbt }f ehdfkh dihnu) nitf unmbdniir) ba }ch |nr f`

uhwuhtha}bal nam hswhubhadbal }cbt mbkhatbfa f` cxkna ib`h |cbdc) fu |na} f`

n eh}}hu }huk) |h dnii twbub}xnib}r!

Ibpbal nam wuftwhubal tbadh dfa}baxfxt baafpn}bfa cnt cnm }|f inulhdfath~xhadht! ]ch `but} dfath~xhadh bt }f lhahunibth }ch ah| hwbt}hkfiflr

|cbdc tnrt }cn} nii ihphit f` fxu ib`h nuh fxu f|a dfat}uxd}bfa) }ch dfadhw}xni)

}ch nsbfiflbdni nam }ch fulnabtn}bfani! Hwbt}hkfiflr bt af} fair n }chfuh}bdni

mbtdbwibah: b} bt nitf n dfiihd}bph `fuk f` }cbajbal nam hhibal!

Ef}c fxu dfadhw}xni kfmhit nam fxu nsbfiflbdni kfmhit nuh ni|nrt) ba fah

|nr fu naf}chu) mbuhd}hm }f nd}bfa) ehdnxth }chr nuh dfat}uxd}hm er ibpbal

ehbalt ba ahhm nam) ba tcfu}) nuh n} }ch thupbdh f` }cn} ahhm!

]ch thdfam dfath~xhadh bt fxu cnpbal }f ibph |cbih dfa}baxniir dcnalbal

fxu ba}huwuh}n}bfa nam hpnixn}bfa f` uhnib}r) fxu |nrt f` |fujbal) fulnabtbalfxuthipht nam ibpbal: }chuh`fuh |b}cfx} nar}cbal th}}ihm ba nar f` }ch

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Ba}ufmxd}bfa

\h cnph }f ibph) }cha) |b}cfx} ehibh`t) ehdnxth ehibh`t `bs }ch ba}huwuh}n}bfa)

hpnixn}bfa) fulnabtn}bfa nam kfmh f` ib`h) ni}cfxlc whucnwt fair ba httha}bni

wfba}t!]cbt mxni dfath~xhadh) xanpfbmneih |cbih ibpbal ba `xiir bamxt}ubnibthm

tfdbh}bht) |chuh }ch kf}fu bt dfa}baxfxt baafpn}bfa ba jaf|ihmlh nam

}hdcafiflr) thupbdht nam lffmt) bt babkbdni }f }ch txupbpni f` uhiblbfa!

\h xamhut}nam uhiblbfa chuh nt n th} f` tnduhm anuun}bfat) trkefit) kr}ct

nam ub}xnit |cbdc lhahun}ht nam txwwfu}t n trt}hk f` ehibh`t) uhtxi}bal ba n

wufohd} f` lufxw nam bambpbmxni ib`h nam |cbdc bt) ba }xua) n trt}hk f`

uhwuhtha}n}bfa nam bab}bn}bfa ba}f }ch netfix}h mbkhatbfa f` hsbt}hadh! ]cbt

|cfih dfkwbin}bfa bt }njha nt cnpbal ehha uhphnihm er Lfm nam bt) }chuh`fuh)

xa}fxdcneih nam bani}huneih!Fah dna ibph |b}c }ch dhu}nba}r nam `hhibal }cn} |h cnph }f mf hphur}cbal `fu

fxuthipht) n} fxu f|a ubtj) nam nitf cnph uhiblbfa! Tfkh whfwih mf b}! Ex} b} bt n

tdcbzfwcuhabd tb}xn}bfa |cbdc ba }ch khmbxk }huk dnaaf} int} nam hpha ihtt

dna dinbk }f ehdfkh lhahuni!

\h nuh lfbal }f t}xmr }ch an}xuh f` }ch tnduhm anuun}bfat) kr}ct nam

trkefit nam }chbu }unat`fukn}bfat) ba fumhu }f eh}}hu xamhut}nam |cn} bt

cnwwhabal |b}c }ch uhiblbfat) ef}c ba }chbu knofub}r dfiinwth nam ba }chbu

`xamnkha}nibt} uhpbpni! B` |h dna xamhut}nam |cn} bt cnwwhabal) |h tcnii

xamhut}nam eh}}hu |chuh |h nuh lfbal! ]cn} bt }f tnr) |cn} |fxim eh }chdfaluxha} `fuk ba |cbdc }f dxi}bpn}h twbub}xnib}r ba }ch ah| dxi}xuni

dbudxkt}nadht!

B` |h |na} }f nanirth }ch tb}xn}bfa nwwufwubn}hir |h dnaaf} t}nu} `ufk

ehibh`t) hb}chu uhiblbfxt fu inr! \h kxt} knjh n luhn} h``fu} af} }f }njh nar}cbal

`fu luna}hm!

\h cnph }f }njh ba}f nddfxa} }|f }rwht f` mn}n?

>! Nii }ch wuh+bamxt}ubni dxi}xuht cnm uhiblbfa fu tfkh}cbal h~xbpniha}!

Fair |cha bamxt}ubnibtn}bfa ehlna mbm }ch uhiblbfat ehlba }f cnphthubfxt wufeihkt |b}c lufxwt! ]chuh cnm niuhnmr ehha wufeihkt |b}c

}ch Hxufwhna ba}hiihd}xnit) ex} |b}c }ch nuubpni f` bamxt}ubnibtn}bfa

}chth wufeihkt |huh af ifalhu fair `fu ba}hiihd}xnit) ex} nwwhnuhm nitf

n} }ch ihphi f` inulh tfdbni lufxwt) |ch}chu fu af} ba}hiihd}xni!

\b}c }ch lhahunibtn}bfa f` bamxt}ubnibtn}bfa nam }ch nuubpni f` }ch mrankbd

baafpn}bfa tfdbh}bht) }ch uhiblbfat dfiinwthm! Cf|hphu) nam ba twb}h f` }cbt

dfiinwth) }ch twbub}xni thnudc dfa}baxht! B} bt n kbafub}r `nd}fu: }ch twbub}xni

thnudc cnt ni|nrt ehha fu }ch kbafub}r!

5! \h cxknat cnph n mfxeih nddhtt }f }ch uhni? na nddhtt }f uhnib}rnddfumbal }f fxu ahhmt) uhin}bph: nam naf}chu }rwh f` nddhtt }f }ch uhni)

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}f b}t hswinan}bfa! Nam b} bt n nd} |cbdc bt af} tfkh}cbal nddbmha}ni) ex}

bt dha}uni) httha}bni }f fxu twhdbht!

]cbt netfix}h mbkhatbfa f` fxu nddhtt }f }ch uhni bt |chuh uhiblbfa |ntdxi}bpn}hm! B} cnt }f eh neih }f eh dxi}bpn}hm ba f}chu |nrt) f}chu|bth }ch uhtxi}

|fxim eh }cn} fxu twhdbht dfxim fair ibph wufwhuir ba wuh+bamxt}ubni ib`h dfamb}bfat!

]ch af}bfa f` twbub}xnib}r) ba }ch thath f` n txe}ih mbkhatbfa f` hsbt}hadh) |fxim

wfba} ba }cn} mbuhd}bfa! \cn} dfxim eh kfuh txe}ih) `fu wffu ibpbal nabknit txdc

nt fxuthipht) }cna }ch netfix}h mbkhatbfa f` uhnib}r6

Ba fxu uhthnudc |h tcnii t}nu} ufk fxu wnu}bdxinu dfamb}bfa nt nabknit |cbdc

ibph ba lufxwt nam }nij! \h tcnii t}nu} ufk }chth `nd}t nam }chbu bkwibdn}bfat) ba

fumhu }f }ur }f xamhut}nam }ch ufih f` dxi}xuh! Dxi}xuht nuh `nd}t wufwhu }f }cbt

}rwh f` ibpbal ehbalt! \h tcnii }ur }f xamhut}nam nitf |cn} cnwwhat ba dxi}xunidcnalht! \h |bii t}xmr }ch uhin}bfatcbw eh}|hha uhiblbfat nam dxi}xuht nam }ch

dfath~xhadht nubtbal ùfk dxi}xuni dcnalht nam n``hd}bal }ch `fuk f`

dfadhbpbal nam ibpbal }ch netfix}h mbkhatbfa f` uhnib}r) }ch twbub}xni!

Fxu uhìhd}bfat |bii af} khna }cn} }ch dcnalht |h nuh tx``hubal nam }ch }rwh

f` tfdbh}r }f |cbdc |h cnph dfkh }f uht} nuh }ch dfath~xhadh f` mhdnmhadh!

Narfah |cf t}nu}t ùfk }cbt txwwftb}bfa t}nu}t ùfk n wubfu oxmlkha}) n

wuhoxmbdh! \cfhphu t}nu}t ufk n wuhoxmbdh cnt af wfttbebib}r f` xamhut}nambal!

\cfhphu mfht af} nddhw} }cn}) mfht af} xamhut}nam!

Cxkna ehbalt f` nii dxi}xuht nuh knmh f` }ch tnkh kn}hubni! Nii dxi}xuht nuhdfat}uxd}hm er hlfdha}ubd nam wuhmn}fur ehbalt nam `fu hlfdha}ubd nam

wuhmn}fur ehbalt! Ba }cbt thath) nii dxi}xuht nuh h~xniir uhkf}h nam mbt}nadhm

ùfk }ch mhknamt f` twbub}xnib}r nam }ch ifph |cbdc b} bkwibht!

Ba }ch dxi}xuni tb}xn}bfa ba |cbdc |h cnph dfkh }f uht}) }ch ùxb} f` dha}xubht f`

wufluhtt) }chuh bt tfkh}cbal bahpb}neih? lfbal fa nam ìf|bal ba}f n tfdbh}r f`

baafpn}bfa nam dfa}baxfxt dcnalh) |b}cfx} ch}hufafkbht) nx}fafkfxt) |b}cfx}

ehibh`t nam lifeni! Nam }chuh bt nitf tfkh}cbal npfbmneih? }ch ah| tfdbh}bht nuh

ùhh }f dfat}uxd} fah }rwh f` tfdbh}r fu naf}chu) n lufxw wufohd} fu naf}chu!\b}c }ch tdbha}b`bd nam }hdcabdni khnat npnbineih }f xt |h dna dfat}uxd}

knar }rwht f` tfdbh}bht! Tdbha}b bd+}hdcabdni baafpn}bfa nam lifeni tfdbh}bht mf

af} ahdhttnubir cnph }f eh) ba nar |nr) ahf+ibehuni ba }ch hswifb}n}bfa f` whfwih

nam }ch hapbufakha}!

]ch ah| tfdbh}bht nuh nitf ùhh }f dxi}bpn}h }ch cxkna mbkhatbfat |cbdc ba

}ch wnt} |huh dxi}bpn}hm er uhiblbfat) fu }f ihnph }chk `niif|) |b}c }ch ubtjt nam

iftt |cbdc }cbt |fxim bapfiph! \cn} }chr |bii af} eh neih }f mf) lifeniir nam ba

}ch khmbxk }huk) bt }ur }f knba}nba uhiblbfat nibph fx}tbmh }ch dxi}xuni) tfdbni

nam hdfafkbd dfa}hs} ba |cbdc }chr nufth) |cbdc |nt mhphifwhm fphu}cfxtnamt f` rhnut!


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DCNW]HU B

Dxi}xuh) n ebfiflbdni bapha}bfa

]ch `xamnkha}ni dfamb}bfa f` fxu twhdbht?ehbal n dxi}xuni fulnabtk

@fu fxu twhdbht) dxi}xuh bt }ch htthadh f` ehbal nibph! Dxi}xuh mb``huha}bn}ht xt

ùfk f}chu ibpbal ehbalt) ex} nitf niblat xt |b}c }chk! B} mbt}nadht xt ùfk nii

}ch ibpbal twhdbht) ex} na nanirtbt f` }ch an}xuh f` dxi}xuh mhkfat}un}ht fxu

cxkeih dfamb}bfa nt ibpbal fulnabtkt nkfal nii ibpbal fulnabtkt!Nii ehbalt cnph n knaahu f` mh}hukbabal }chbu ehcnpbfxu ba uhin}bfa }f }ch

hapbufakha}! Fxu ibahnlh bt txeohd} }f }cbt ublfufxt in|!

]ch knaahu f` mh}hukbabal }ch uhin}bfa |b}c }ch hapbufakha} `fu nii ibpbal

twhdbht) hsdhw} fxu f|a) bt lhah}bd! @fu hndc twhdbht) b}t |fuim nam b}t ehcnpbfxu

ba }cn} |fuim bt lhah}bdniir mh}hukbahm! Hndc twhdbht kxt} jaf| |cn} bt uhni fu

b} nam |cn} bt af}) cf| }f nd} n} nar kfkha} nam |cn} kxt} eh npfbmhm! Nam b}

kxt} jaf| }cbt |b}cfx} wfttbebib}r f` mfxe}) |b}c dinub}r nam mhdbtbfa) ehdnxth

b}t ib`h mhwhamt fa }cn} jaf|ihmlh!

Ba fxu twhdbht) }ch xi}bkn}h mh}hukban}bfa bt `fukhm er dxi}xuh! \b}cfx}

dxi}xuh |h nuh af} pbneih nabknit! Dxi}xuh bt }ch twhdb`bdniir cxkna |nr f`

nmnw}bal fxuthipht }f }ch hapbufakha}! Dxi}xuh cnt n ebfiflbdni `xad}bfa!

Dxi}xuh cnt }f ht}neibtc) mh`bab}hir nam xa~xht}bfaneir) |cn} |h kxt} }cbaj

nam `hhi) cf| |h kxt} fulnabth fxuthipht nam nd}! B} cnt }f lbph xt kfmhit f`

ba}huwuh}n}bfa nam hpnixn}bfa f` }ch |fuim nam f` fxuthipht! B} cnt }f lbph xt

lufxwt f` kf}bpn}bfat |cbdc h``hd}bphir hatxuh fxu txupbpni!

Dxi}xuh cnt }f eh n th} f` nsbfiflbdni t}uxd}xuht) ehdnxth }chth kxt} t}uxd}xuh

n ehbal ba b}t hapbufakha}: nam }ch uhin}bfatcbwt f` ehbalt |b}c }chbuhapbufakha}t kxt} ni|nrt cnph n t}uxd}xuh f` t}bkxib nam uhtwfatht!

]ch afa+nsbfiflbdni hihkha}t f` dxi}xuht cnph }f eh ba}huwuh}hm ùfk

}ch wubknur `xad}bfa f` dxi}xuh! Nii jaf|ihmlh) badixmbal }ch kft}

tfwcbt}bdn}hm tdbha}b`bd jaf|ihmlh) bt }ch jaf|ihmlh f` n ehbal nam bt `fu ibpbal!

Hpha }ch kft} mbtba}huht}hm nd} kxt} eh uhnm nt ba}ubatbdniir wnu} f` na

ba}huht}hm entbt!

@fu }ch ebfiflbdni `xad}bfa |cbdc dxi}xuh kxt} `xi`bi) b} knr eh uht}ubd}bal!

Dxi}xuh cnt }f mh}hukbah) mh`bab}hir nam xa~xht}bfaneir) |cn} fxu |fuim bt nam

cf| |h kxt} ehcnph ba b}! Nam b} cnt }f mf }cbt |b}c }ch tnkh dinub}r namxa~xht}bfaneih mhdbtbfa nt lhah}bd mh}hukban}bfa mfht `fu }ch nabknit! B` fxu

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uhin}bfatcbw |b}c }ch hapbufakha} |huh af} wuhdbth nam dihnu) fxu txupbpni

|fxim eh }cuhn}hahm!

]f eh neih }f `xi`bi }cbt xad}bfa |b}c dinub}r nam |b}cfx} bamhdbtbfa) hndc dxi}xuhcnt }f hsdixmh) unmbdniir) nii wfttbeih ni}huan}bpht! @fu hndc dxi}xuh) hphur

f}chu `fuk f` dxi}xuh bt huufu) `nithcffm) hpbi! Fair faht f|a dxi}xuh bt }ch

}uxh dxi}xuh) }ch uht} nuh enuenubd! Fair faht f|a dxi}xuh bt }ch wn}}hua

f` }ux}c) uhnib}r nam pnixh! Hphur f}chu dxi}xuh mb``huha} }f faht f|a cnt }f

eh hsdixmhm) hpha eh`fuh jaf|bal b}! ]ch wnt} bt ba}huwuh}hm nt n wufluhttbph

knudc }f|numt faht f|a dxi}xuh: nam }ch `x}xuh nt }ch hacnadhkha} f` }cbt

f|a dxi}xuh!

Dxi}xuht nd} ba }cbt |nr af} }cufxlc un}bfani fu pnixh dub}hubn) }chr mf b} `fu

`xad}bfani ahdhttb}r! ]cbt `xad}bfani ahdhttb}r bkwibht na hwbt}hkfiflr? dxi}xuhmbd}n}ht |cn} uhnib}r bt ba nii b}t fukt!

B} bt }uxh }cn} dxi}xuh lfht ehrfam }ch xad}bfa f` wxuh txupbpni! ]cbt bt n nd}

|cbdc cnt }f eh uhdflabthm nam uhtwhd}hm) |b}cfx} }urbal }f mhpnixh b}! Ex}

hpha }cbt buuhmxdbeih `nd} cnt }f eh ba}huwuh}hm nam `b}}hm ba}f }ch wubknur

`xad}bfa f` dxi}xuh!

\h nuh ibpbal nabknit) ni}cfxlc un}chu xaxtxni) fa }cbt hnu}c! \h cnph af}

`niiha ufk chnpha! Jhhwbal }cbt bmhn ba }ch ufa} f` }ch kbam |bii uhh xt ufk

knar mhpbn}bfat) `na}ntbht nam huufut!

Dxi}xuh bt na bapha}bfa f` ib`h |cbdc nddhihun}ht nmnw}n}bfa }f }chhapbufakha}! \h dfxim tnr }cn} ib`h cnt cb} fa n wufdhmxuh |cbdc niif|t b} }f

nmnw} unwbmir }f }ch ni}hun}bfat nam kfmb`bdn}bfat f` }ch hapbufakha} |b}cfx}

ni}hubal b}t kfuwcfiflr) |cbdc |fxim uh~xbuh kbiibfat f` rhnut) |b}cfx}

ni}hubal }ch thsxni dfamb}bfa fu }ch trkebf}bd dfamb}bfa! B} cnt duhn}hm

inalxnlh nt na bat}uxkha} }f ndcbhph nddfkkfmn}bfa }f }ch hapbufakha})

|cbih knba}nbabal na bkkx}neih ebfiflbdni enth!

Inalxnlh) fu eh}}hu) ibalxbt}bd dfkwh}hadh) bt n ebfiflbdni bapha}bfa) b} bt n

`fuk f` tfwcbt}bdn}bfa ba }ch dfkkxabdn}bfa trt}hk |cbdc niif|t dxi}xuh }f

nwwhnu nt na bat}uxkha} wufpbmbal n uhtwfath }f kfmb`bdn}bfat ba }ch hapbufakha}

fu }f duhn}h }chk) b` ahdhttnur) |b}cfx} ahhmbal nar kfuwcfiflbdni kfmb`bdn}bfa!

F}chu nabkni twhdbht nmnw} }f kfmb`bdn}bfat f` }ch hapbufakha} er dcnalbal

twhdbht) nam }chr xth kbiibfat f` rhnut }f mf b}! Ba fxu twhdbht ib`h cnt duhn}hm n

wufdhmxuh |cbdc niif|t `fu unwbm nmnw}n}bfa |b}cfx} dcnalbal twhdbht! ]f

ndcbhph }cbt) fxu kfuwcfiflbdni dfamb}bfa) fxu thsxni nam trkebf}bd dfamb}bfa nam

fxu nebib}r }f twhnj nuh nii ih`} lhah}bdniir mh}hukbahm! Fa }ch f}chu cnam) cf|

|h kxt} ibph ba }ch hapbufakha}) xth thsxnib}r nam dnuh `fu f``twubal) cf|

}f fulnabth }ch trkebftbt) nuh ih`} xamh}hukbahm! Ex} |h nuh wufpbmhm |b}c }chbat}uxkha}) twhhdc) |cbdc |h kxt} xth }f dfat}uxd} nii }cn} |h ahhm }f eh pbneih

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]ch kfphkha} ufk n ebanur t}uxd}xuh f` ib`h}f n }huanur! ]ch mxni hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r

]ch wn}}hua f` uhnmbal nam hpnixn}bfa f` uhnib}r fu }ch luhn} `nkbir f` fxu

uhin}bpht }ch nabknit bt ublbmir mxni? }ch }neih f` twhdb`bd ahhmt fa }ch fah cnam

nam fa }ch f}chu }ch uhnmbal nam hpnixn}bfa f` uhnib}r ùfk }ch whutwhd}bph

f` }cbt }neih f` ahhmt! Nii }cbt bt bshm lhah}bdniir) |b}c n dhu}nba knulba f`

ihnuabal ba tfkh twhdbht!

Nabknit nuh bkwubtfahm ba }cbt mxni ba}huwuh}n}bfa f` uhnib}r? txeohd} }f

ahhmt & |fuim dfuuhin}hm }f }cbt }neih f` ahhmt! ]chr nuh bkwubtfahm ba }cbt

httha}bni uhnmbal }cn} ib h kxt} knjh f` uhnib}r: hndc twhdbht cnt n twhdb`bd

wubtfa: nam `fu nii f` }chk }ch ifdjt nuh lhah}bd!Nabknit dnaaf} dcnalh }chbu |fuim) fu }chbu ahhmt) |b}cfx} dcnalbal }ch

twhdbht: nam }cbt bt n }ntj uh~xbubal kbiibfat f` rhnut! ]f ndcbhph b} }chr cnph }f

dcnalh }chbu lhah}bd wuflunkkh nam }chbu kfuwcfiflr!

Ba fxu twhdbht) ib`h cnt `fxam n kfuh ìhsbeih nam unwbm tfix}bfa? uhwindbal

}ch ebanur t}uxd}xuh f` }ch uhin}bfatcbw |b}c uhnib}r er n }huanur t}uxd}xuh! ]ch

}huanur t}uxd}xuh |bii eh? txeohd} }f ahhmt & inalxnlh & |fuim dfuuhin}hm }f

}ch ahhmt!

Twhhdc bt n tfwcbt}bdn}bfa f` }ch dfkkxabdn}bfa trt}hk! \h cxknat uhin}h

fxuthipht }f }ch |fuim er }nijbal nkfal fxuthipht! Dfkkxabdn}bfa nkfal

txeohd}t ba ahhm ehdfkht }ch ba}hukhmbnur eh}|hha }ch ehbal nam b}t |fuim!

]cufxlc }cbt ba}hukhmbn}bfa f` inalxnlh |h dna mbt}balxbtc eh}|hha }ch

khnabal f` uhnib}bht `fu xt) nt ehbalt) nam |cn} }ch }cbalt nuh ba }chkthipht!

]ch dfath~xhadh f` }cbt }huanur t}uxd}xuh bt }f wufmxdh n mxni hswhubhadh f`

uhnib}r? fah dfaahd}hm |b}c fxu ahhmt) ibjh }ch f}chu nabknit: nam }ch f}chu af}

dfaahd}hm |b}c fxu ahhmt) af} uhin}bal }f }chk! ]cufxlc }cbt thdfam nddhtt

uhnib}r wuhtha}t b}thi` }f xt nt bamhwhamha} f` nii uhin}bfatcbw |b}c xt) nt ehbal

}chuh nx}fafkfxtir) nt na netfix}h!]ch uhin}bph hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r nwwhnut }f xt nt n t}bkxixt `fu fxu nd}bfa)

n khnabal `fu fxu ib`h) n pnixh `fu txupbpni! ]ch netfix}h hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r

nwwhnut }f xt nt n ehbal nam pnixh |b}cfx} uhin}bfa }f fxu ahhmt) nt thwnun}h)

ne+tfix}n ùfk #ùhhm ùfk" nii uhin}bfatcbw |b}c fxuthipht) nt tbkwir ehbal

}chuh) b}thi`!

]cbt netfix}h hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r bt af} n }unatdhamha}ni hswhubhadh) nt }ch

hswhubhadh f` n uhnib}r ehrfam }cbt |fuim |fxim eh! B} bt }ch hswhubhadh f` }cbt

tnkh |fuim) }f |cbdc |h cnph nddhtt }cufxlc fxu thatht) fxu kbam nam fxu

nd}bfat) ex} thha) xamhut}ffm nam `hi} nt hsbt}bal nam xth`xi ex} `xiirbamhwhamha} f` fxuthipht fu nar uhin}bfa |b}c xt!

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]ch hn}xuht f` fxu netfix}h hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r nuh?

>! Ni}cfxlc netfix}h) b} bt uhnibthm er n ibpbal ehbal)

5! b}t }ch dfath~xhadh f` na baafpn}bfa f` ib`h? }ch }huanur t}uxd}xuh)4! nam |b}c xth`xiahtt `fu ib h? af} dfa`bahm }f n tbalih uhnmbal f` uhnib}r!

\h tcnii nanirth }cbt wfba} ba n kfkha}!

Af|) }cbt netfix}h hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r nwwhnut nt n |fuim |b}c af ùfa}bhut

ba}f |cbdc fah dna whah}un}h kfuh nam kfuh wuf`fxamir! ]ch netfix}h

hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r euhnjt }ch enuubhut |cbdc dfa`bah n ibpbal nabkni ba }ch

difthm dbudih f` b}t ahhmt! Ehrfam }chth ùfa}bhut tdbhadh) nu} nam wcbiftfwcr

ehdfkh wfttbeih) nam na ba}huht} ba uhnib}bht |cbdc mfht af} thhj }f }njh nmpna}nlh

f` }chk!]ch netfix}h hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r fwhat }ch kbam }f naf}chu }rwh f` jaf|ihmlh

f` uhnib}r nam fwhat }ch thatb}bpb}r nam }ch chnu} }f n ifph `fu }cbalt nam whfwih

|cbdc bt af} hlfdha}ubd! Ba}huht} nam ifph ùfk n txeohd} f` ahhmt nuh ni|nrt

hlfdha}ubd ehdnxth }chr ni|nrt cnph }ch txeohd} f` ahhmt nt n uh`huhadh wfba}:

ba}huht} nam ifph ùfk fx}tbmh }cbt ùfa}bhu nuh af} hlfdha}ubd) }chr nuh ùhh!

]ch uhin}bph hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r txwwibht n uhin}bph) ba}huht}hm jaf|ihmlh

nam hhibal: }ch netfix}h hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r lbpht na netfix}h jaf|ihmlh nam

`hhibal) xa}unkkhiihm!

Cf|) ba }hukt f` inalxnlh t}uxd}xuh) bt }ch mxni hswhubhadh f` uhnib}rndcbhphm6

Inalxnlh dfat}uxd}t n phur balhabfxt nu}b`bdh? b} }unat`hut }ch khnabalt }cn}

}cbalt cnph fu fxu ibpht nt ehbalt ba ahhm ufk }chth tnkh }cbalt }f na ndfxt}bd

txwwfu}) }cn} bt) n wcfah}bd t}uxd}xuh! ]ch pnixh) }ch khnabal f` }cbalt `fu

ibpbal ehbalt nii f` }chk hsdhw} cxknat bt n}}ndchm }f }cfth }cbalt:

inalxnlh thwnun}ht }cbt n}}ndchm khnabal ùfk }ch }cbalt }chkthipht }f n}}ndc

b} }f n wcfah}bd t}uxd}xuh! ]cn} bt |cn} |fumt nuh? n wcfah}bd t}uxd}xuh) |b}c n

khnabal }ch xth`xiahtt f` }chth }cbalt `fu fxu txupbpni t}nu}bal ùfk ndftkbd uhnib}r nam uh`huubal }cn} tnkh uhnib}r!

]cxt inalxnlh) nt na ba}hu+txeohd}bph dfkkxabdn}bfa trt}hk) bapfipht }ch

dbudxin}bfa f` ndfxt}bd tblanit) `xii f` khnabal) uh`huubal }f }cbalt nam whfwih!

]ch tcfu}ibt} f` }cuhh) }cha) |bii eh)

+ txeohd}t f` ahhm

+ }ch |fuim f` ehbalt) }cbalt nam whfwih)

+ |fumt ifnmhm |b}c }ch khnabalt f` }chth }cbalt nam whfwih `fu xt nt

ibpbal ehbalt!

\b}c }cbt nu}b`bdh }ch }cbalt nam whfwih nuh thwnun}hm ùfk }chbu khnabalt!

]cufxlc }cbt thwnun}bfa |h dna xamhut}nam nam `hhi }cn} uhnib}bht nuh af}

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bmha}b`bhm |b}c }ch khnabalt }cn} }chr cnph fu xt: }cn} }ch khnabalt |cbdc }ch

uhnib}bht cnph `fu xt nuh fah }cbal) nam }ch uhnib}bht }chkthipht nuh naf}chu! \h

xamhut}nam nam `hhi) ba dfa}unt} }f }ch f}chu nabknit) }cn} }cbalt nuh af} }chbukhnabalt `fu xt) }cn} }chr nuh bamhwhamha} f` }chth khnabalt |cbdc |h lbph

}chk) }cn} }chr nuh netfix}h!

]cbalt |cbdc hsbt} cnph khnabalt fu xt) nt }ch ehbalt ba ahhm |cbdc |h nuh)

ex} }chr nuh af} }cfth khnabalt! Lbpha }cn} }chr nuh af} }cfth khnabalt) }chr

dna cnph f}chu khnabalt) b` }ch dfamb}bfat f` fxu ib`h dcnalh! Nam |h

xamhut}nam }cn} }ch uhnib}bht cnph f}chu khnabalt `fu }ch pnubfxt nabkni

twhdbht! ]cbalt |cbdc nuh hafukfxtir tblab`bdna} `fu xt) nuh af} tf `fu }chk)

nam pbdh phutn! Tfkh}cbal tbkbinu dna eh tnbm f` }ch khnabalt f` uhnib}bht `fu

mb``huha} dxi}xuht!]cxt }ch t}uxd}xuh f` inalxnlh bt }ch fublba f` fxu mxni hswhubhadh f`

uhnib}r! Inalxnlh euhnjt }ch ebanur dfa`bahkha} ba}f |cbdc ib`h ifdjhm ba hndc

ibpbal twhdbht) tbadh b} wufpbmht na netfix}h hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r!

Fxu twhdb`bd ~xnib}r

Ib`h) ba |h cxknat) cnt ba}ufmxdhm n mfxeih kfmb`bdn}bfa) }|f ntwhd}t f` }ch

tnkh ebfiflbdni bapha}bfa? ihnpbal fxu mh`bab}bph an}xuh bamh}hukban}h namba}ufmxdbal }ch `ndxi}r f` twhhdc! ]cbt mfxeih nd}fu) }chth }|f ntwhd}t f` }ch

tnkh wchafkhafa) ehdfkht }ch entbd dcnund}hubt}bd f` fxu twhdbht!

Cnpbal n bshm an}xuh khnat?

+ cnpbal `bshm dfamb}bfat nt na nd}fu ba }ch hapbufakha})

+ cnpbal n bshm hapbufakha}) ef}c ba uh`huhadh }f }ch feohd}bph efxamnur

knujt f` }ch hapbufakha}) nam ba uh`huhadh }f }ch t}bkxin}bal pnixh f`

}chth knujt nam ba uh`huhadh }f }ch nd}bfat f` }cfth nd}fut)

+ cnpbal `bshm ba}un+twhdb`bd nam hs}un+twhdb`bd uhin}bfatcbwt) lufxwfulnabtn}bfa) `fuk f` thsxni uhin}bfat nam fuk f` unbtbal f``twubal!

Afah f` }cbt bt bshm fu xt! \h fair cnph bshm

+ fxu wcrtbfiflr)

+ fxu thsxni dfamb}bfa)

+ fxu trkebf}bd dfamb}bfa

+ nam fxu ibalxbt}bd dfkwh}hadh!

]ch twhdb`bd `fuk f` fxu twhhdc) fxu thsxnib}r) fxu lufxw nam `nkbir

fulnabtn}bfa) bt af} bshm) afu bt }cn} f` }ch twhdb`bd inalxnlh |cbdc |h twhnj!Dfath~xha}ir) fxu an}xuh bt af} }f cnph n `bshm an}xuh! Fxu an}xuh bt n afa+

an}xuh!

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]ch `xamnkha}ni dfamb}bfa f` fxu twhdbht?

DCNW]HU 5

Dxi}xuni t}uxd}xuh ba wuh+bamxt}ubni tfdbh}bhtKh}cfm f` nanirtbal }ch t}uxd}xuh f` kr}cbdni trt}hkt

]f t}xmr }ch t}uxd}xuh f` kr}cbdni trt}hkt bt }f t}xmr }ch t}uxd}xuh f` }chdxi}xuh f` wuh+bamxt}ubni tfdbh}bht!

\h t}nu} ùfk }ch crwf}chtbt }cn} }ch dxi}xuh f` n lufxw bt h~xbpniha} }f nwuflunkkh |cbdc dfkwubtht n trt}hk f` xamhut}nambal nam hpnixn}bfa f`

uhnib}r) n trt}hk f` nd}bfa ba }ch hapbufakha} nam n trt}hk f` tfdbni uhin}bfa+tcbw! Dfath~xha}ir) }chuh kxt} eh n difth uhin}bfatcbw eh}|hha }ch lufxwt |nrf` ib`h nam }chbu dxi}xuni trt}hk!

]cbt crwf}chtbt dfkht }f xt ùfk mn}n wuhtha}hm er h}cafiflr) dxi}xunina}cufwfiflr) cbt}fur nam }ch cbt}fur f` uhiblbfat? |h `bam n dfat}na} wnuniihieh}|hha }ch |nrt f` ib`h #|fuj nam tfdbni `fukt |b}c |cbdc }ch ahdhttb}bht fìb`h nuh fe}nbahm" nam }ch dfuuhtwfambal dxi}xuht! Whfwiht ibpbal ba }ch tnkh|nr) h!l! er cxa}bal nam ln}chubal) cnph phur tbkbinu kr}cfiflbht) |chuhphu}chr knr eh ba }bkh nam twndh! ]ch tnkh nwwibht fu whfwiht ibpbal fa }ch entbtf` nlubdxi}xuh) buubln}bfa `nukbal nam lunzbal!

Ba }ch wuh+bamxt}ubni dxi}xuht }ch lufxw wn}}huat f` xamhut}nambal) hpnixn}bfanam nd}bfa nuh hswuhtthm ba tnduhm anuun}bfat |cbdc |h dnii kr}cfiflbht!

N dfuuhd} thkna}bd nanirtbt f` }chth anuun}bfat niif|t xt }f thh }cn} kr}cfiflbhtehifalbal }f }ch tnkh |nr f` ib`h cnph wuf`fxam thkna}bd t}uxd}xuht |cbdc nuhbmha}bdni) ni}cfxlc }ch anuun}bfat knr txwhu`bdbniir eh phur mb``huha}! ]chuh btn luhn} txwhu`bdbni tbkbinub}r) ni}cfxlc |b}c mb``huha} dcnund}hut nam mb``huha}t}fubht nefx} }chth dcnund}hut) |cbdc n`}hu dnuh`xi nanirtbt tcf|t }cn} }chr cnph

na bmha}bdni t}uxd}xuh n} n mhhwhu ihphi!\cha }ch kfmh f` ib`h dcnalht) h!l! ùfk cxa}bal&ln}chubal }f nlubdxi}xuh)fu ùfk nlubdxi}xuh }f buubln}bfa `nukbal) }ch kr}ct) trkefit nam ub}xnitdcnalh ba }ch tnkh mbuhd}bfa! Hndc mb``huha}bn}hm `fuk f` wuh+bamxt}ubni ib`hcnt b}t dfuuhtwfambal nam dfat}na} }rwh f` kr}cfiflr) trkefit nam ub}xni!\chahphu }ch cxa}hu&ln}chuhu |nr f` ib`h bt wuhtha}) |h `bam }ch cxa}hu&ln}chuhu kr}cfiflr) trkefit nam ub}xni) |b}c }ch bmha}bdni wuf`fxam t}uxd}xuh!]ch tnkh dna eh tnbm f` }ch f}chu kfmht f` wuh+bamxt}ubni ib`h!

]chth `nd}t txllht} }f xt n t}un}hlr f` uhthnudc! ]ch kh}cfm kxt} eh }f

knjh n mxni nanirtbt) ba wnuniihi? n thkna}bd nanirtbt f` }ch kr}cfiflbht nam nana}cufwfiflbdni nanirtbt f` }ch |fujbal nam tfdbni trt}hk f` }ch uhihpna}lufxw!


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\cha n cxkna lufxw nenamfat }ch wuh+bamxt}ubni |nr f` ib`h) }ch pnibmb}r`fu b} f` kr}ct) trkefit nam ub}xnit mbkbabtcht! ]cbt cnt ehha neih }f eh

dchdjhm |b}c bamxt}ubnibtn}bfa!]chth nanirtht |bii haneih xt }f xamhut}nam }ch uhin}bfatcbw |cbdc hsbt}teh}|hha fah twhdb`bd `fuk f` wuh+bamxt}ubni ibpbal) `fu hsnkwih) ibpbal ùfkcxa}bal nam ln}chubal) nam b}t dfuuhtwfambal kr}cfiflbdni trt}hk! B` |hdfxim iffj dnuh`xiir n} }cbt jhr uhin}bfatcbw) |h |fxim thh cf| }ch kr}cfiflbht|huh dfat}uxd}hm nam cf| }chr dcnalhm! B` |h dfxim `bam fx} cf| }chr |huhdfat}uxd}hm nam |cr }chr dcnalhm) |h |fxim thh cf| }ch uhwuhtha}n}bfat f`}ch hswhubhadh f` }ch netfix}h mbkhatbfa f` uhnib}r |huh dfat}uxd}hm) cf|}chbu dxi}bpn}bfa |nt wufkf}hm nam |cr }ch trt}hkt f` uhwuhtha}n}bfa

dcnalhm! ]cbt |fxim eh h~xbpniha} }f jaf|bal cf| uhiblbfat |huh dfat}uxd}hm nam |cr}chr dcnalhm!

Eh`fuh lfbal ba}f }ch kr}cfiflbdni nanirtbt) B |fxim ibjh }f dinub`r tfkhkh}cfmfiflbdni wfba}t!

]ch thkna}bd xab}t) |fumt) cnph n t}uxd}xuh |cbdc dna eh nanirthm ba tkniihuxab}t) oxt} nt na n}fk dna eh nanirthm ba wnu}bdiht! ]ch anuun}bfat cnph n t}uxd}xuh|cbdc dna eh nanirthm ba }hukt f` dcnund}hut nam `xad}bfat!

Nii }ch anuun}bfat `fukbal n kr}cfiflr dfatbt} f` tfkh dha}uni anuun}bfatnam f}chut |cbdc nuh whubwchuni! Hndc anuun}bfa) ba b}t }xua) cnt n dha}uni dfuh

nam whubwchuni thd}bfat! ]ch tnkh dna eh tnbm f` }ch th}t f` fwhun}bfani thubht|b}c |cbdc whfwih txupbpht? }chuh nuh dha}uni fwhun}bfani thubht) }ch dha}unind}bfat |cbdc eubal txupbpni) nam whubwchuni fwhun}bfani thubht! Ba hndc f` }chfwhun}bfani thubht) }chuh nuh dha}uni kfkha}t nam whubwchuni kfkha}t!

]ch anuun}bfat) kr}ct) trkefit nam ub}xnit cnph n txwhu`bdbni anuun}bph t}uxd+}xuh nam n wuf`fxam t}uxd}xuh!

]ch nanirtht |bii haneih xt }f xamhut}nam }cn} }ch dha}uni fwhun}bfa |b}c|cbdc n cxkna lufxw txupbpht ehdfkht }ch dha}uni kh}nwcfuùfk |cbdc nii }ch

uhnib}bht f` ib`h nuh fumhuhm) ba}huwuh}hm nam pnixhm! ]ch krt}hubfxt netfix}hhswhubhadh f` uhnib}r bt dfadhbphm nam hswuhtthm }cufxlc }cbt tnkh dha}unikh}nwcfu!

]ch dha}uni kh}nwcfu bt }ch kfmhi fu wnunmblk ufk |cbdc nii }ch anuun}bphnam ub}xni kn}hubni bt t}uxd}xuhm! @ufk b}) nitf) }ch lufxwt nd}bfat ba }ch hapb+ufakha} nam b}t fulnabtn}bfa nuh fumhuhm!

Lbpha fxu nabkni dfamb}bfa) b} bt iflbdni }cn} }ch t}uxd}xuh f` }ch dha}unind}bfa) h!l! cxa}bal) |b}c |cbdc |h knanlh }f txupbph) ehdfkht n wn}}hua `fu}ch ba}huwuh}n}bfa nam hpnixn}bfa f` nii }cn} |h dfatbmhu uhnib}r nam pnixh!

B} bt iflbdni }cn} |cha }ch dha}uni nd}bfa |b}c |cbdc |h txupbph dcnalht) h!l!wnttht ùfk cxa}bal }f dxi}bpn}bfa) }ch dha}uni kh}nwcfufu wnunmblk |bii dcnalh)nii }ch kr}cfiflr nam ub}xnit |bii dcnalh nam) |b}c }chk) }ch `fukt f`

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ba}huwuh}bal nam pnixbal uhnib}r) fulnabtn}bfa nam hswhubhadh |bii dcnalhnam nitf }ch `fuk f` uhwuhtha}bal nam hswhubhadbal }ch netfix}h mbkhatbfa f`

uhnib}r!]ch dha}uni kh}nwcfu fu wnunmblk bt ni|nrt nsbfiflbdni |cn} bt }chuh }cn}cnt kfuh pnixh }cna }ch fwhun}bfa |cbdc eubalt txupbpni6 @ufk }cbt wnunmblkifnmhm |b}c pnixh na nsbfiflbdni |fuim |bii eh dfat}uxd}hm!

\cha ib`h ehlbat }f eh mhwhamha} fa bamxt}ur) }ch dha}uni nd}bfa |bii ehtdbha}b`bd nam }hdcafiflbdni) }chuh`fuh net}und}! B} |bii af} eh neih }f |fuj ntn dha}uni kh}nwcfu nam }cxt |bii euhnj mf|a }ch nlh+fim wufdhmxuh f`dfat}uxd}bal n lufxw wuflunkkh |cbdc |nt) n} }ch tnkh }bkh) n uhiblbfa!Dfath~xha}ir) }ch kr}cfiflbht nam uhiblbfat |bii ha}hu ba}f dubtbt!

]ch t}uxd}xuh f` }ch cxa}hu&ln}chuhu dxi}xuht

\h tcnii xamhut}nam nii }cbt eh}}hu er xtbal }ch kh}cfmfiflr wufwfthm ba nananirtbt f` }ch kr}cfiflbht nam ub}xnit f` }ch cxa}hu&ln}chuhu whfwiht!

]f txupbph bambpbmxniir nam nt n lufxw) }ch cxa}hu tfdbh}bht cnm }f mhphifwpnubfxt thubht f` fwhun}bfat!

@but}) }chr cnm }f lf cxa}bal! ]cn} |nt }ch dha}uh f` }chbu hdfafkbd ib`h!

]ch nd}bpb}bht uh~xbuhm `fu cxa}balnuh fulnabthm ba n txddhttbfa f` kfkha}t f`nd}bfa) nuunalhm nkfal }chkthipht }f `fuk n thubht!

]ch nd}bfat ahhmhm `fu ln}chubal `fuk naf}chu thubht!Hphur}cbal ihnmbal }f }ch wufduhn}bfa nam unbtbal f` f``twubal) fa |cbdc }ch

txupbpni f` }ch lufxw mhwhamt) `fukt naf}chu thubht!Nt |hii nt }chth thubht) ihnmbal mbuhd}ir }f }ch txupbpni f` }ch bambpbmxnit nam

}ch lufxw) }chuh bt naf}chu thubht f` nd}bfat mbuhd}hm }f ht}neibtcbal ba }ch lufxw}ch dxi}xuni wubadbwiht |cbdc lbph b} dfchuhadh nam knba}nba b} ba n twhdb`bd |nr f`

ib`h! ]cbt bt }ch thubht f` wuflunkkbal nam uhwufmxd}bfa f` }ch kr}cfiflbdnikfmhi!]chuh`fuh) }ch dfkwihs f` nd}bfat |cbdc n cxkna lufxw kxt} xamhu}njh ba

b}t hapbufakha} }f txupbph txddhtt`xiir dna eh eufjha mf|a ba}f n kfuh fu ihtteufnm th} f` whu`hd}ir mb``huha}bn}hm thubht) hndc f` |cbdc `fukt na fulnabthm|cfih!

]ch ntthkeir f` nii }ch thubht bt nitf nuunalhm nt n |cfih) ba |cbdc af} niithubht cnph }ch tnkh |hblc} fu }ch tnkh bkwfu}nadh `fu }ch txupbpni f` }chlufxw! Ba }ch cxa}hu+ln}chuhu tfdbh}r) }ch lufxw entbdniir ibpht fa cxa}bal

nam ba n txetbmbnur |nr fa ln}chubal! ]chuh`fuh) }ch cxa}bal thubht |bii eh}ch dha}uni thubht nam }ch ln}chubal thubht |bii eh whubwchuni! ]ch thubhtdfuuhtwfambal }f unbtbal }ch f``twubal nam knba}hanadh nam }unatkbttbfa


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f` }ch dxi}xuni trt}hk |bii bahpb}neir eh ba`ixhadhm er }ch thubht wufpbmbal `fulufxw txupbpni ba }ch hapbufakha}!

Ih} xt lf fah t}hw `xu}chu ba }ch nanirtbt? af} nii kfkha}t f` nd}bfa ba }chefmr f` n thubht nuh f` }ch tnkh bkwfu}nadh! B` |h }njh }ch dha}uni thubhtcxa}bal) |h dna `bam ba b} }ch `fiif|bal kfkha}t? knjbal }ch |hnwfat)wuhwnubal }ch |hnwfat eh`fuh }ch cxa}) wtrdcfiflbdni wuhwnun}bfa f` }chcxa}hut) }undjbal) jbiibal }ch nabkni) cnxibal b}) dx}}bal b} xw) mbt}ubex}bfa)wuhwnun}bfa er dffjbal) hn}bal!

Nkfal nii }chth kfkha}t f` }ch cxa}bal thubht) tfkh nuh dha}uni namf}chut nuh whubwchuni! ]ch dha}uni faht nuh jbiibal }ch nabkni nam hn}bal }chkhn}: nii }ch uht} nuh whubwchuni!

\h thh) }cha) }cn} nii }ch nd}bfat f` }ch cxa}hu&ln}chuhut dna eh mbpbmhm ba}fmb``huha}bn}hm thubht nam fulnabthm nkfal }chkthipht nt dha}uni nam whubwchuni)nam }cn} hndc thubht) ba }xua) bt fulnabthm ba}f dha}uni nam whubwchuni kfkha}t!

Ih} xt af| t}xmr }ch t}uxd}xuh f` }chbu dxi}xuh) |cbdc bt }ch t}uxd}xuh f` }chbukr}cfiflr!

]ch kr}cfiflr bt hswuhtthm ba n th} f` anuun}bfat nam ub}xnit |cbdc dna eheufjha mf|a ba}f pnubfxt kr}cbdni dfkwihsht nuunalhm er }chkht! T}xmrbal}ch cxa}hu kr}cfiflbht haneiht xt }f mbtdfphu }ch fiif|bal kr}cbdni dfkwihshtnuunalhm er }chkht?

+ Anuun}bfat |cbdc }hii f` }ch cxa} nam b}t fublba!+ Anuun}bfat |cbdc }hii f` ln}chubal nam b}t fublba!+ Anuun}bfat |cbdc }hii f` }ch fuhehnut nam }ch fublba f` }ch kh}cfmt nam

dxt}fkt f` }ch lufxw!+ Anuun}bfat |cbdc }hii f` }ch ub}xnit nam }chbu fublba!

]chth anuun}bfat fuk }ch dha}uni efmr f` }ch cxa}hu&ln}chuhu kr}cfiflbht!]chuh nuh nitf f}chu anuun}bfat dniihm h}bfiflbdni) |cbdc nuh xthm }f hswinba

}ch `hn}xuht f` tfkh nabknit) }ch }fwflunwcr f` }ch }huunba) h}d! ]chthh}bfiflbdni anuun}bfat |fxim `fuk n thdfam whubwchuni dbudih! \h tcnii af} }njh}chk ba}f nddfxa} ehdnxth }chr nuh af} htwhdbniir tblab`bdna} fu fxu nanirtbt!

Nii }ch nd}bpb}bht |cbdc nuh bkwfu}na} `fu }ch txupbpni f` }ch lufxw kxt}nwwhnu ba }ch kr}cfiflbdni anuun}bfat) ehdnxth }chr kxt} nii eh dfat}b}x}hmnam wuflunkkhm!

]ch bkwfu}nadh f` }ch thubht f` nd}bfat `fu txupbpni bambdn}ht }f xt |cbdc f`}chk bt dha}uni nam |cbdc nuh whubwchuni! B` txupbpni bt wuhwfamhuna}ir ercxa}bal) }cha cxa}bal bt }ch dha}uni thubht!

@ufk }ch pbh|wfba} f` }ch kr}cbdni dfkwihsht |h cnph }f `bam n t}un}hlr }fbambdn}h }f xt |cbdc f` }chth kr}cbdni dfkwihsht bt dha}uni nam |cbdc nuhwhubwchuni! ]ch dha}uni bkwfu}nadh f` cxa}bal bt niuhnmr n `but} bambdn}bfa) ex}


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|h ahhm naf}chu kfuh ba}ubatbd) `ufk }ch tnkh ihphi nt }ch kr}cfiflbdnianuun}bfat!

]|f }rwht f` mn}n dna chiw xt ba }cbt thnudc?>! ]ch wubadbwni tnduhm `blxuht |bii eh hswuhtthm ba |cn} `fukt }chtxwuhkh pnixh f` }ch trt}hk) ehdnxth }ch tnduhm hswhubhadh bt ni|nrtwuhtha}hm nt tfkh}cbal txwuhkh nam netfix}h!

5! ]ch kft} tfihka ub}xnit |bii eh dfaahd}hm |b}c }ch dha}uni uhiblbfxt`blxuht nam }ch faht nam }ch f}chut |bii eh hswuhtthm ba }ch dha}uni nshtf` }ch trt}hk!

Dfath~xha}ir) }ch dha}uni kr}cbdni dfkwihsht |bii eh hkwcntbthm er }ch

kft} bkwfu}na} nam tfihka ub}xnit nam er }ch wubadbwni tnduhm `blxuht! Ba}ch cxa}hu&ln}chuhu kr}cfiflbht) }ch anuun}bfat hkwcntbthm er }ch ub}xnit namer }ch wubadbwni tnduhm blxuht uh`hu }f cxa}bal!

Xtbal }cbt wufdhmxuh) |h dna `bam fx} |cbdc bt }ch dha}uni anuun}bfa #dha}unikr}cbdni dfkwihs" nam |cbdc nuh }ch whubwchuni anuun}bfat #whubwchuni kr}cbdnidfkwihsht"!

Fadh |h cnph `fxam }ch dha}uni anuun}bfa) |h cnph }f mbtdfphu |b}cba b}|cbdc bt }ch dha}uni kfkha} f` }ch anuun}bfa nam |cbdc nuh }ch whubwchunikfkha}t! ]ch anuun}bfa b}thi`) |b}cfx} uhtfu}bal }f hs}huani dub}hubn) |bii

bambdn}h }f xt }ch dha}uni kfkha}! Ex}) }ch }|f dub}hubn nmmxdhm #dha}uni ub}xninam dha}uni tnduhm `blxuht") |cbdc chiwhm xt }f `bam }ch dha}uni anuun}bfa) |biinitf chiw xt af| }f `bam }ch dha}uni kfkha} f` }ch anuun}bfa!

Ba txkknur) }f xamhut}nam }ch entht f` }ch |nr f` }cbajbal) pnixbalnam nd}bal ba n wuh+bamxt}ubni tfdbh}r |h cnph }f }hnth fx} |cbdc bt }ch kft}bkwfu}na} dha}uni kfkha} f` |fuj fddxwn}bfa nam uhin}h b} }f }ch dha}unikfkha} f` }ch kft} bkwfu}na} kr}cfiflbdni anuun}bfa!

Cnpbal bmha}b`bhm }ch dha}uni fwhun}bfa |h tcnii eh neih }f uhin}h b} }f }ch

dha}uni dfuh f` }ch kr}cfiflr) |cbdc |bii eh n kh}nwcfubdni uhwuhtha}n}bfa f`}ch dha}uni fwhun}bfa! ]ch dha}uni fwhun}bfa |bii ihnm xt }f }ch dha}uni kh}nwcfu`ufk |cbdc nii }ch kr}cfiflr) trkefit nam ub}xnit f` }ch cxa}hu&ln}chuhudxi}xuht |bii eh dfat}uxd}hm!

Lbpha fxu nabkni dfamb}bfa) b} bt iflbdni }cn} }ch nd}bfa |cbdc txt}nbat xt bafxu ehbal nam ba ib`h tcfxim ehdfkh }ch kh}nwcfu) wn}}hua) kfmhi) wnunmblk`fu }ch ba}huwuh}n}bfa nam hpnixn}bfa f` nii }cn} cnt ehbal nam ib`h!

Ih} xt iffj n} }ch uhtxi} f` fxu nanirtbt f` }ch cxa}hu&ln}chuhu tfdbh}r!

]ch fddxwn}bfa fa |cbdc ib`h xamnkha}niir mhwhamt fu }ch cxa}hu&ln}chuhutbt cxa}bal! Ba }ch thubht f` nd}bfat uh~xbuhm ba cxa}bal) }ch dha}uni kfkha} btjbiibal }ch nabkni nam hn}bal }ch khn}!


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]ch kr}cfiflbdni anuun}bfat |cbdc twhnj }f xt f` cxa}bal th} }ch pbfiha}irjbiihm nabkni n} }ch dha}uh f` }ch anuun}bfa! Nam }cbt mhnm nabkni) ufk |cbdc

dfkht ib`h) ehdfkht }ch dha}uni kh}nwcfu f` }ch ba}huwuh}n}bfa f` uhnib}r!]ch kr}c tnrt }cn} }ch mhnm nabkni wufpbmht ehbal nam ib`h! ]ch nabknipbfiha}ir jbiihm bt }ch tfxudh f` nii }cn} cnt ehbal nam ib`h! ]ch uhwuhtha}n}bfa f`}ch txwuhkh uhnib}r) f` }ch netfix}h mbkhatbfa f` fxu hswhubhadh f` uhnib}r) bt nanabkni wuf}f+pbd}bk! ]ch txwuhkh ub}xni bt }ch uhwuhtha}n}bfa nam uh+hand}kha}f` }ch `but} mhn}c f` }ch tnduhm nabkni) |cbdc |nt }ch fublba f` hphur}cbal namf` nii ib`h!

Nii }ch dftkbd uhnib}bht dnkh ùfk n wubkfumbni nabkni |cbdc |nt pbfiha}irjbiihm n} }ch ehlbaabal f` }bkh! B}t mbtkhkehuhm wnu}t ehdnkh }ch tjr) }ch

hnu}c) }ch kfxa}nbat) ubphut) h}d!Fa }ch f}chu cnam) }ch fuhehnut nuh }ch tfxudh f` wcrtbfiflbdni ib`h) wund}bdni

hswhu}bth) kr}cfiflbdni jaf|ihmlh nam }ch dxt}fkt |cbdc hatxuh }ch ib`h f`}ch lufxw! @fu }ch lufxw }f txetbt} b} kxt} uhtwhd} }ch dxt}fkt f` }ch `fuhehnut!]chuh`fuh) ib`h dfkht nitf ùfk }ch mhnm `fuhehnut #nam hphur mhn}c btba}huwuh}hm nt n pbfiha} mhn}c"!

Nitf }ch txwuhkh uhnib}r nam }ch tnduhm) nt fuhehnu) nt nadht}fu) nt mhnm) nuhdfadhbphm ufk }cbt kr}cbdni dfkwihs!

B} bt iflbdni }cn} }ch }|f hswuhttbfat mhtdubehm }ch mhnm nabkni bt n tfxudh f`

ib`h nam }ch mhnm `fuhehnut nuh n tfxudh f` ib`h) tcfxim dfaofba) ehdnxth}chr nuh ef}c kfmhiihm fa }ch tnkh kh}nwcfu! ]cbt dfaoxad}bfa bt hswuhtthmkr}cbdniir) }hiibal }cn} }ch twbub}t f` }ch mhnm cnph nabkni `fukt nam }cn} }chmhnm nabknit nuh nadht}fut!

]ch mhnm) nabkni fu cxkna) bt }ch tfxudh f` ib`h) bt uhnib}r nam bt tnduhm!]ch cxkna wnbu uhin}bfatcbw ùfk |cbdc dcbimuha dfkh) }ch `x}xuh f` }ch

lufxw) bt nitf dfadhbphm ùfk }cbt tnkh wn}}hua) nt n uhin}bfatcbw f` jbiibalnam ehbal jbiihm! Ba }ch thsxni nd} }ch kna jbiit nam }ch |fkna mbht) nam

ùfk }cbt mhn}c dfkht }ch ah| ib`h! @fu }cbt uhntfa }ch |fkna bt difthu }cna}ch kna }f }ch nkeb} f` }ch tnduhm) |cbdc bt }ch nkeb} f` }ch mhn}c |cbdclbpht ib`h!

]ch anuun}bfat |cbdc }hii f` ln}chubal dfadhbph }ch hnu}c nt n lfmmhtt ùfk|cbdc dfkh }ch ùxb}t |cbdc nuh ln}chuhm! Nam }ch kr}ct }hii }cn} }cbt lfmmhttbt n twbub}) }cn} bt }f tnr) tch bt mhnm) nam nitf }cn} tch bt uhin}hm |b}c }ch |fuim f`nabknit nam }chr uhwuhtha} chu nt na nabkni!

B} dna eh dchdjhm) }cha) }cn} }ch cxa}hu dxi}xuh bt t}uxd}xuhm nufxam }chdha}uni nd}bfa) jbii nam hn}) xthm nt n kh}nwcfu) mhn}c }unat`fukhm ba}f ib`h!

]cbt wn}}hua `xad}bfat nt n wnunmblk |cbdc t}uxd}xuht nii }ch xamhut}nambalnam hpnixn}bfa f` uhnib}r) nii }ch lufxw ehcnpbfxu nam fulnabtn}bfa nam }chuhwuhtha}n}bfa f` netfix}h uhnib}r) }ch tnduhm!


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>! @fu n kfuh mh}nbihm hswinan}bfa) dfatxi} kr |fuj? Naibtbt hwbt}hkfilbdf mh int dfa`blxundbfaht nsbfilbdntcxknant! Hmbdbfaht Xabphutbmnm mh Tninknadn) >234) Tninknadn! ww! 572+55>!


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]ch t}uxd}xuh f` }ch cfu}bdxi}xuni tfdbh}r dxi}xuht

\h nuh lfbal }f }ur }f nanirth }ch }rwh f` dxi}xuh dfuuhtwfambal }f }chehlbaabal f` dxi}bpn}bfa) |cbdc bt }ch }unatb}bfa ùfk n wnuntb}bdni hdfafkr}f fah |cbdc bt wnu}ir wufmxd}bph! B} dfuuhtwfamt }f whfwiht |cf ibphm`xamnkha}niir fa }ch dxi}bpn}bfa f` tfkh }xehut) knbzh ba n cfu}bdxi}xuniuhlbkh) tfkh ùxb} }uhht nam tfkh mfkht}bd nabknit) h!l! }ch wbl fu tfkh }rwhtf` dcbdjha! Ba nmmb}bfa) }chr mhwhamhm fa cxa}bal) btcbal nam ln}chubal!

]ch |fkha |huh }ch dxi}bpn}fut nam ln}chuhut) }ch kha |huh mhmbdn}hm }fcxa}bal) `btcbal) tbalbal) kxtbd) mnadbal |b}c kntjt) tdxiw}xuh nam) nefph nii)

uhiblbfa!]ch ehlbaabal f` nlubdxi}xuh wufmxdhm n dfadha}un}bfa f` lufxwt f`cxknat ba }ch windht kft} txb}hm }f dxi}bpn}bfa! Dxi}bpn}bfa niif|hm `fu nluhn}hu dfadha}un}bfa f` wfwxin}bfa ehdnxth f` }ch ah| tfxudh f` `ffm) |cbdc|nt `fiif|hm er n dhu}nba cfkflhabtn}bfa!

]ch ahhmt f` }ch dufw t}bkxin}hm fethupn}bfa f` }ch ixanu drdiht) nt}ufafkbdninam kh}hfufiflbdni fethupn}bfat! B} |nt httha}bni }f `fuhthh }ch }bkht n} |cbdc}ch wubadbwni nlubdxi}xuni fwhun}bfat cnm }f eh dnuubhm fx}! ]chth whfwihtt}xmbhm }ch kfphkha}t f` }ch t}nut) }ch Wihbnmht) }ch tfit}bdht) }ch h~xbafsht)

}ch wnttnlh f` }ch txa n} }ch zhab}c nam }ch dfaahd}bfat eh}|hha }chkfphkha}t f` }ch t}nut) }ch txa nam }ch wcntht f` }ch kffa! ]ch wufluhttf` }ch dnihamnu nam nt}ufafkbd fethupn}bfa |ha} ba wnuniihi |b}c }cn} f`dxi}bpn}bfa!

B tcnii m|hii fa }ch t}xmr f` }cbt t}nlh `fu b}t t}un}hlbd bkwfu}nadh! B} uhìhd}tphur dihnuir }ch phahuneih cxa}hu wnunmblk? pbfiha} mhn}c bt `fiif|hm er ib`h!]cbt tnkh wn}}hua bt knba}nbahm ba }ch ah| t}nlh) ex} |b}c na hs}hamhmnwwibdn}bfa! ]ch wubadbwih }cn} ib`h `fiif|t pbfiha} mhn}c |bii eh nwwibhm af| }f}ch }xehut |cbdc nuh dx} xw nam exubhm tf }cn} }chr knr wufmxdh ùxb}! B} bths}hamhm }f }ch dfuadfet) ùfk |cbdc }ch lunbat cnph }f eh t}ubwwhm namexubhm }f lbph windh }f ah| wina}t! @ufk }chuh b} |bii hs}ham }f }ch ùxb}t f` }ch}uhht nam }f nii }ch ùxb}t nam wina} wufmxd}t!

]ch cxa}hu kfmhi) dfat}uxd}hm nam phub`bhm tbadh kna ehdnkh kna) ba b}tcfu}bdxi}xuni hs}hatbfa) |bii eh wufifalhm fu }cfxtnamt f` rhnut kfuh nam |biihs}ham) af| nt xiir nlunubna dxi}xuht) }f inulh whudha}nlht f` wfwxin}bfa) xa}bifxu f|a mnr! B} bt enuhir }|f mhdnmht tbadh b} ha}huhm ba}f n mh`bab}bph dubtbt bamhphifwhm Hxufwh!

B tcnii th} fx} tfkh hsnkwiht f` }ch cfu}bdxi}xuni kr}cfiflbht f` whfwihtmbt}nadhm ba }bkh nam twndh) tf }cn} }chr dfxim cnumir cnph baìxhadhm hndcf}chu!

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Ba }ch Knrn+~xbdc kr}cfiflr

]ch Wfwfi+Pxc) }ch tnduhm effj f` }ch Knrn+~xbdct) mhtdubeht }ch pnubfxtt}n}ht f` dxi}xuh f` cxkna ehbalt! Ba }ch thdfam nam }cbum t}nlht b} twhnjt f`}ch cfu}bdxi}xuni hwfdc!

]ch kr}cfiflr f` }ch Wfwfi+Pxc bt ubdc nam dfkwihs! B tcnii fairtxkknubth chuh fah anuun}bfa ba |cbdc }ch wuf`fxam t}uxd}xuh f` b}t kr}cfiflrbt wnu}bdxinuir dihnu!

]ch Ncw nuh mbpbab}bht f` n tfinu an}xuh nam }chr nuh thpha! ]chr dfuuhtwfam}f }ch fxu tfit}bdh wfba}t) }ch fxu hs}uhkh wftb}bfat f` txaubth nam txath} n} }ch

txkkhu nam |ba}hu tfit}bdh) wixt }ch }|f wfba}t f` txaubth nam txath} n} b}t wnttbaler }ch zhab}c nam }ch txat wftb}bfa n} }ch dha}uh f` }ch zhab}c!]ch Wfwfi+Pxc }hiit cf| }ch thpha Ncw mhtdhamhm }f }ch chnu} f` }ch

hnu}c) |chuh }chr |huh cxknabthm! @niibal }f hnu}c }chr ehdnkh }huuht}ubnilfmt nam |huh nttfdbn}hm |b}c }ch hnu}c mbpbab}r!

]ch Ncw |ha} }f winr enii lnkh fa }ch ufnm ùfk Sbenie) }chxamhu|fuim) nam }chuh }chr |huh chnum er Cxa+Dnk nam Lxjxw+Dnk)ehbalt f` }ch ba`huaf! ]ch ifumt f` }ch txe}huunahna uhlbfat |huh mbt}xuehm er}ch afbth knmh er }ch Ncw fa }ch hnu}c) nam }chr dcniihalhm }chk }f n enii

lnkh ba }chbu ht}n}ht! ]cbt |nt n dcniihalh }f t}ufal na}nlfabt}t! ]ch Sbeniedfxim af} ehnu }cn} }chuh dfxim eh narfah luhn}hu fu kfuh wf|hu`xi }cna }chr!

]chr tha} fxu f|it nt khtthalhut }f }ch Ncw! \cha }ch f|it nuubphm n} }chwindh f` }ch lnkh) }chr mhibphuhm }f }ch Ncw }ch fumhu ùfk }ch Dnk)}ch ba`huani ifumt) ba }ch fiif|bal }hukt? Kr ifumt tnr }cn} rfx kxt} lf }f }chwindh |chuh }chr ibph) }f winr |b}c }chk: }njh |b}c rfx rfxu bat}uxkha}t `fu}ch lnkh) }ch inxadchut) }ch lifpht nam }ch enii!

]ch ba}ha}bfa f` }ch ifumt f` Sbenie |nt }f t}ubw }ch Ncw f` }chbu

hihkha}t f` twihamfxu) }chbu mbpbah n}}ubex}ht!Dfa}unur }f }ch fumhut f` }ch Dnk) }ch Ncw) eh`fuh lfbal }f }ch Sbenie)uhkfphm }chbu n}}ubex}ht f` twihamfxu! ]chr wbihm }chk xw nam wx} }chk ban dfuahu f` }chbu cfxth) ba fumhu }f jhhw }chk tn`h! ]cxt }chr wuf}hd}hm}chkthipht ùfk }ch whu bmbfxt ba}ha}bfat f` }ch Dnk) |cf af| dfxim jbii}chk ex} dfxim af} uhkfph ufk }chk }ch n}}ubex}ht f` }chbu unaj!

]chr |ha} mf|a) lxbmhm er }ch f|it f` }ch Sbenie) }cfxlc n phur ufxlc}huunba! ]cha) ahnu n ubphu) }chr `fxam }ch ha}unadh }f n luf}}f! ]chr cnmnuubphm n} }ch ln}ht f` }ch ba`huaf) |cbdc thwnun}h }ch txu`ndh f` }ch hnu}c

ùfk }ch xamhulufxam uhlbfat!N`}hu dufttbal }ch `fxu ubphut f` }ch ba`huaf) |b}cfx} nar}cbal cnwwhabal)}ch }unphiihut `fxam }chkthipht n} n wfba} |chuh `fxu ufnmt duftthm! ]chr

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}cfxlc} }chr |huh ift} ehdnxth }chr mbm af} jaf| |cbdc ufnm }f }njh! Fahufnm |nt uhm) naf}chu |cb}h) naf}chu eindj nam naf}chu rhiif|! ]ch eindj ufnm

twfjh) tnrbal B nk }ch ufnm f` }ch Ifum!]chr }ffj }cbt ufnm nam b} ihm }chk }f }ch uhtbmhadh f` }ch luhn} dcbh` f` }chSbenie |chuh }chr kh} }chbu uxba!

Tbadh }ch Ncw cnm uhkfphm }chbu tfinu n}}ubex}ht) }chr cnm ift} }chbu knlbdwf|hu nam hntbir `hii ba }ch cnamt f` }ch Sbenie! @ufk }ch kfkha} }cn} }chr}ffj f`` }chbu n}}ubex}ht) }chr |huh ehn}ha ba nmpnadh!

N`}hu n thubht f` }ubnit mhtblahm }f eubal fx} }ch dcnund}hu f` }ch Ncw ntnlunubna mbpbab}bht) }chr |huh mhdnwb}n}hm nam dx} ba}f wbhdht! ]ch wbhdht |huhexubhm nam }chbu chnmt |huh cxal ùfk n }uhh!

]ch wbhdht f` ìhtc exubhm f` }ch Ncw ehdnkh }xehut) nam }chbu chnmt cxalfa }ch }uhh ba}f lxndnkfiht! ]chr |huh }unat`fukhm ba}f hmbeih wina}t nam}uhh ùxb}t!

]ch pbfiha} mhn}c f` }chth pbd}bkt) wubkb}bph) wuht}blbfxt ehdnxth }chr|huh tfinu mbpbab}bht dfkh }f }cbt |fuim) |nt `fiif|hm er }ch entbd lffm f` }chcfu}bdxi}xuni dxi}xuh!5

Ba }ch Mhtnan kr}cfiflr

]ch Mhtnan ibph ba }ch h~xn}fubni `fuht}t f` }ch Ubphu Pnxwt) ba }ch Nkn+zfa uhlbfa f` Dfifkebn! ]chbu knba nuhn bt }ch Wnwxu entba) hs}hambal nt `nunt }ch Ubphu ]b~xb) ba Eunzbi!

@ufk }ch Mhtnan kr}cfiflr B |bii twhnj fair f` |cn} uh`hut }f }ch h~xbpn+ihadh eh}|hha jbiibal nam dfwxin}bfa! ]cbt h~xbpnihadh bt `fxam ba nii }chnlubdxi}xuht) ni}cfxlc af} ni|nrt nt hswibdb}ir nt ba }ch Mhtnan dxi}xuh! ]f jbii

}ch nabknit bt ibjh dfwxin}bal |b}c }chk) nam }f dfwxin}h |b}c }ch |fkna btibjh jbiibal chu!Ba`fukna}t }hii }cn} }ch nabknit nuh ibjh df~xh}}btc lbuit! @fu }ch nabknit }f

dfkh }f }ch cxa}hu) ch cnt }f nwwhnu thsxniir n}}und}bph!]f ndcbhph }cbt wf|hu f` thmxd}bfa) }ch cxa}hut kxt} cnph net}nbahm ùfk

ths nam) ba dfath~xhadh) lf cxa}bal ba n t}n}h f` in}ha} hsdb}hkha}: }chr cnph}f eh wcrtbdniir wxuh) |cbdc }chr ndcbhph er en}ct) pfkb}bal nam nt}bal! ]chbu|hnwfat kxt} eh ub}xniir wxub`bhm! ]chr kxt} whu`xkh }chkthipht |b}cnufkn}bd wina}t! ]chr kxt} mhdfun}h }chbu `ndht |b}c wnba}bal! ]chr xth

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5! Uhdbaft) Nmuba? Wfwfi Pxc!Int na}blxnt cbt}fubnt mhi ^xbdc! >285) @!D!H! #=}c Hm! 3}c wuba}bal" Khsbdf! W!87! nam Lbunum) Unwcni? Ih Wfwfi Pxc! Cbt}fbuh dxi}xuhiih mht Knrn+^xbdc! >2


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twhdbni nkxih}t nam twhdbni `fukxint `fu ifph! Hphur cxa}hu kxt} wuhwnuhcbkthi `fu ifph) nam |b}c }cbt n}}b}xmh lf cxa}bal!

B` }chr mbm af} net}nba ufk ths fu n} ihnt} n mnr eh`fuh }ch cxa}) af} oxt} af}dfwxin}bal) ex} nitf npfbmbal huf}bd muhnkt) }ch nabknit |fxim `hhi ohnifxt nammhdhbphm! Fa }ch dfa}unur) }ch cxa}hu |cf cnt af} cnm thsxni uhin}bfat dnadfxa} fa }ch trkwn}cr f` }ch nabknit!

]ch nufkn}bd wina}t xthm nam }ch |nr f` xtbal }chk dfuuhtwfamt) ba mh}nbi)}f }ch knlbd wund}bdht f` ifph |cbdc }ch kha xth }f wnr dfxu} }f }ch |fkha!

]ch cxa}hu dnuubht cbt twhdbni wnba} |b}c cbk mxubal }ch mnr tf }cn} ch dnauh`uhtc fu uhwnbu cbt mhdfun}bfa) |cha ahdhttnur!

\cha }ch cxa}hu lh}t n jbii) ch twhnjt }f }ch nabkni) dnuh`xiir fethupbal b}t

thsxni fulnat nam dfkkha}bal fa }chbu tbzh nam tcnwh! Hphur cxa}hm nabkniehdfkht `hknih!

@fu }ch Mhtnan) cxa}bal bt dfwxin}bal!Ex} }ch cxa}hut) fa }chbu hswhmb}bfat) cnph }f eh phur dnuh`xi) ehdnxth }ch

`hkniht f` }ch nabknit |bii }ur }f thmxdh }chk ba muhnkt! B` }chr nuh txddhtt`xi)}cha |cha }ch cxa}hut lf cfkh) }chr |bii mbh!

B` jbiibal nam dfwxin}bal nuh h~xbpniha}) |h dna thh }cn} }ch kna+|fknauhin}bfatcbw |bii eh thha nt n cxa} nam }cn} }ch cxa}hu+cxa}hm uhin}bfatcbw |biieh wnuha}ni!

]ch nabknit nuh badnuan}bfat f` kha |cf cnph ehha dfamhkahm `fu }chbudfamxd} }f lf }f }ch cbiit |chuh \nb+knst) }ch knt}hu f` }ch nabknit) ibpht!@fu }cbt uhntfa) jbiibal nabknit bt jbiibal whutfat) tnrt }ch ba`fukna}!

@btchukha nd} ba }ch tnkh |nr nt }ch cxa}hut!\nb+knst wxutxht }ch |fkha) htwhdbniir wuh+wxehtdha} lbuit) nam }ubht }f

`bam na fwwfu}xab}r }f pbfin}h }chk! Ch nitf wxutxht narfah |cf mnuht }f lfnifah }cufxlc }ch `fuht} fu nifal }ch enajt f` }ch ubphut! Ch thamt }chk ba}f nmhhw tihhw nam |cbih }chr nuh ntihhw ch dna dfwxin}h |b}c }chk! Cbt pbd}bkt mf

af} uhnibth |cn} cnt cnwwhahm nam fair ehibhph }cn} }chr cnph muhnk} f` cnpbalthsxni uhin}bfat) ex} n ib}}ih in}hu }chr mbh! Ba }ch wnu} f` }ch ubphu |chuh }cbt cntcnwwhahm knar `btc nwwhnu! B` }ch pbfin}bfa cnt }njha windh ahnu n cbii) kfuhlnkh nwwhnut nii nufxam!4

Ba }ch kr}cfiflr f` }ch Knubam+nabk

Ih} xt thh af| tfkh anuun}bfat `ufk }ch Knubam+nabk) n whfwih f` }ch

tfx}c dfnt} f` Bubna) ba }ch wnu} f` Ah| Lxbahn |cbdc ehifalt }f Bamfahtbn!

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]ch ba}huht}bal wfba} f` }ch kr}cfiflr f` }cbt uhlbfa bt }ch af}bfa f`Mhkn! Mhkn bt af} n lfm) ch bt n wubkb}bph whutfanib}r) n wuf}f+pbd}bk ùfk

|cfk) }cufxlc cbt pbfiha} mhn}c) dfkht nii }ch |hni}c f` }ch dxi}xuh! Mhkn btaf} n duhn}fu) ni}cfxlc }ch |hni}c f` }ch dxi}xuh dfkht ùfk cbk! Ch cbkthi`)}unat`fukhm) bt }ch |hni}c f` }ch dxi}xuh!

@ufk }ch pbfiha}ir jbiihm Mhknt dfkh }ch |cfih fumhu f` }ch |fuim f`cxknat? hmbeih nam xth`xi wina}t) nabknit) }ch |fuim f` }ch mhnm) }ch chnphairefmbht) }ch kffa) knajbam nam }ch cxkna fumhu) nii }ch ubdcht f` }ch dxi}xuh!

]ch Mhknt nuh wuhtha}) af} nt ifumt f` }ch dftkft) ex} nt }ch dftkft b}thi !]ch cxknat mf af} wunr }f }chk nt lfmt) ex} }chbu uhiblbfxt n}}b}xmh }f }chkdfatbt}t ba dfa}baxniir uh+hand}bal) }cufxlc ub}ht nam kr}ct) }ch duhn}bph hpha}

f` }ch mhn}c f` }ch Mhkn nam }ch duhn}bfa f` nii }cbalt ùfk }chth mhn}ct!Ih} xt thh n anuun}bfa fa tfkh wnu}bdxinu Mhkn!

]ch Mhkn Lhe |nt xlir nam cnbur ehdnxth cbt |cfih efmr |nt dfphuhm|b}c tkniiwfs) tf }cn} af |fkna |fxim ifph cbk! Fah mnr Lhe |nt `btcbalnam ch tn| tfkh lbuit dfkbal }f|numt cbk) tf ch cbm ùfk }chk er exurbalcbkthi ba }ch tnam) ehdnxth ch |nt ntcnkhm f` }ch xlibahtt f` cbt efmr! ]chlbuit mxl cbk xw! Whfwih dnkh ùfk }ch pbiinlh nam |b}c mbllbal t}bdjt namdfdfax} fwhahut }chr dihnahm cbt efmr) tdunwbal f`` nii }ch mbu}!

N} mxtj }ch kha munllhm cbk }f }ch `fuht}) nexthm cbk thsxniir namtkhnuhm cbt |cfih efmr |b}c twhuk! \b}c }cbt cbt baoxubht |huh dxuhm nam cbtefmr nwwhnuhm dihna nlnba! Mxubal }ch ablc} |cha Lhe |nt dfa`bahm) nenanan }uhh luh| ùfk cbt efmr nam er }ch kfuabal b} niuhnmr efuh ùxb}!

Lhe) |cfk }chr ni|nrt jhw} dfa`bahm) |nt txeohd}hm }f ùh~xha} nexth er}ch kha f` }ch pbiinlh) xa}bi fah ablc} ch ib }hm xw }ch uff` f` }ch cfxth namùfk }chuh) xtbal n eunadc f` n rnk) ch ufth xw }f chnpha) |chuh ch t}bii bt}fmnr nt }ch kffa!

]cbt kr}c nitf biixt}un}ht }ch h~xbpnihadh) xamhuibahm er }ch Mhtnan) f`dfwxin}bal nam jbiibal!]ch Mhkn On|b ba}ufmxdht }ch dfdfax} wnik nam mhn}c!Mhkn On|b |nt efua ùfk n luhn} tanjh! ]|f lbuit }ffj dcnulh f` }ch dcbim!

]ch efr On|b luh| xw phur cnamtfkh nam |nt kxdc ifphm er hphurfah! ]chMhkn Nunkhke chnum nefx} b} nam |na}hm }f t}hni }ch efr! ]f mf }cbt chknmh tfkh cxkna tbkxinduxkt |b}c }ch phbat f` onlxn }uhh ihnpht nam cxal}chk |b}c nii jbamt f` fuankha}t) txdc nt cnm ahphu rh} ehha thha fa hnu}c!]ch whfwih f` }ch pbiinlh) `xii f` |famhu n} }chth }cbalt }chr cnm ahphu thha

eh`fuh) mbm af} af}bdh }cn} Nunkhke) khna|cbih) cnm jbmanwwhm On|b!Ba Nunkhket cfkh) On|b thmxdhm cbt nmfw}bph kf}chu) Nunkhket |b`h!Nunkhke mhdbmhm }f jbii cbk! Ch wuhwnuhm On|bt mhn}c dnuh`xiir! \cbih ch

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|nt mfbal }cbt ch uhwha}hm nam |ha} }f `bam dxun}bph wina}t }f eubal On|b endj}f ib`h n`}hu ch cnm jbiihm cbk! \cbih Nunkhke |nt `h}dcbal }ch wina}t) On|b

mbhm nam |nt exubhm: nam |cha Nunkhke nuubphm nam chnum f` }cbt) ch|nt `xii f` `xur nam lnph }ch dxun}bph wina}t }f n tanjh! B` ch cnm lbpha }chkhmbdbah }f On|b ba }bkh) ch |fxim af} cnph mbhm nam ahb}chu |fxim cxknatcnph }f mbh ex}) ibjh }ch tanjh) |fxim fair cnph }f dcnalh }chbu tjba!

Er ablc}) |cbih }chr ba}fahm }ch lnln tfal) n dfdfax} wnik |nt efua ùfkOn|bt chnm!

N} }ch tnkh }bkh nt }ch `but} dfdfax} wnik nwwhnuhm ùfk On|bt chnm) ex} banaf}chu windh) }ch but} wbl |nt duhn}hm er }ch mhn}c f` Mhkn Anzu!

Ba }chth t}fubht nitf pbfiha} mhn}c bt ibajhm |b}c dfwxin}bfa!=

Ba }ch \hknih kr}ct nam ub}ht

Ba }ch |ht} f` }ch btinam f` Dhunk) }ch inulht} f` }ch Kfixddnt) |cbdc nuheh}|hha Ah| Lxbahn nam Dhiheht Btinam) ibph }|f cxkna lufxwt? }ch Nixahnam }ch \hknih! ]ch kr}ct |h anuun}h af| nuh ufk }ch \hknih!

]ch kr}c twhnjt f` `hknih `blxuht) }cuhh knuubnlhneih lbuit #kxin"! Nii

}cuhh tx``huhm }ch tnkh `n}h nam thhk }f eh }cuhh `fukt f` }ch tnkh ha}b}r! F`Kxin Tn}hah af}cbal kfuh bt tnbm }cna }cn} tch dnkh ùfk na xaubwh enananùxb}! F` Kxin Cnbax|hih) |cbdc khnat dfdfax} wnik) }ch kr}c twhnjtkfuh hs}hatbphir!

\cha }ch abah `nkbibht hkblun}hm ùfk Axaxtnjx) }ch kr}cbdni kfxa}nba|chuh cxkna ehbalt `but} nwwhnuhm) }chr t}fwwhm ba pnubfxt windht ba }ch |ht}f` Dhunk nam |ha} }f n tnduhm windh dniihm ]nkhah Tb|n #windh f` tnduhmmnadht" ba }ch `fuht} eh}|hha Ncbfif nam \nunifba!

Nkfal }ch kha }chuh ibphm }cha fah dniihm Nkh}n #|cbdc khnat mnuj)eindj) ablc}" |cf |nt xaknuubhm nam cnm af dcbim! Nkh}n |ha} cxa}bal fahmnr |b}c cbt mfl! Ba }ch `fuht} }ch mfl tkhi} n wbl nam dcnthm b} xa}bi ch dnkh}f n wffi! ]ch wbl oxkwhm ba}f }ch wffi |cbih }ch mfl t}nrhm fa }ch enaj! Tffa}ch wbl dfxim af} lf fa t|bkkbal nam b} muf|ahm! Khna|cbih Nkh}n nuubphmnam btchm fx} }ch muf|ahm wbl! Ba b}t kfx}c |nt n dfdfax}! N} }cn} }bkh) }chuh|huh af dfdfax}t fa }ch hnu}c!

Nkh}n wx} }ch dfdfax} fa n tchi ba cbt cfxth nam dfphuhm b} |b}c n TnufaoWn}fin #n dif}c mhdfun}hm |b}c `blxuht f` tanjht"! Nkh}n |ha} }f tihhw nam cnm

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n muhnk ba |cbdc n kna dnkh }f|numt cbk nam tnbm) ]ch dfdfax} |cbdc rfxcnph fa }ch tchi` dfphuhm |b}c }ch Tnufao) rfx kxt} wina} b} ba }ch hnu}c

ehdnxth b} bt niuhnmr lhukban}bal!Ba }ch kfuabal Nkh}n }ffj }ch dfdfax} nam wina}hm b} ba }ch hnu}c! ]cuhhmnrt in}hu }ch wnik }uhh cnm niuhnmr luf|a! ]cuhh mnrt kfuh nam }ch wnik}uhh ìf|huhm! Nkh}n dibkehm xw b} }f dx} }ch ìf|hut |b}c |cbdc ch |na}hm }fknjh n mubaj! \cbih ch |nt mfbal }cbt ch dx} cbt `balhu nam cbt eiffm `hii fa}f}ch wnik }uhh ìf|hut! ]cuhh mnrt in}hu Nkh}n |ha} endj nam tn| }cn} cbteiffm cnm kbshm |b}c }ch tnw f` }ch wnik ihnpht nam }cn} n cxkna `blxuh cnmhkhulhm ùfk b}! ]ch `ndh |nt niuhnmr `fukhm! ]cuhh mnrt kfuh nam }ch efmr|nt `fukhm nam naf}chu }cuhh mnrt in}hu n rfxal lbui cnm niuhnmr hkhulhm

ùfk }ch mufwt f` eiffm!Mxubal }ch ablc}) ba muhnkt) ch |nt nwwufndchm nlnba er }ch kna ùfk }ch

`but} muhnk |cf tnbm) }njh }ch Tnufao Wn}fin nam |unw b} dnuh`xiir ufxam}ch lbui nam }njh chu ùfk }ch dfdfax} wnik }f rfxu cfxth!

]ch ahs} mnr ba }ch kfuabal Nkh}n |ha} }chuh nam mbm |cn} ch cnm ehha}fim! Ch eufxlc} }ch ib}}ih lbui cfkh nam dniihm chu Cnbax|hih!

Cnbax|hih luh| ~xbdjir nam n`}hu }cuhh mnrt tch cnm ehdfkh knuubnlhneih#kxin"! Ex} Cnbax|hih |nt af} ibjh f}chu cxknat: |cha tch mh`hdn}hm) chuhsduhkha} }ffj }ch fuk f` wuhdbfxt feohd}t txdc nt Dcbahth win}ht nam lfalt!

Chu n}chu) Nkh}n) ehdnkh phur ubdc!N} }cn} }bkh n luhn} mnadh) }ch Knuf mnadh) }ffj windh fa ]nkhah Tb|n

nam int}hm abah ablc}t! ]ch abah `nkbibht nii }ffj wnu} ba }ch mnadh! \cha }chrmnadhm }chr knmh n twbuni f` abah }xuat! ]ch |fkha tn} ba }ch dha}uh f` }chtwbunit nam lnph }ch kha eh}hi ax}t }f dch|) kbshm |b}c ibkh nam |unwwhm baTbubc ihnpht! Cnbax|hih |nt ba }ch dha}uh) lbpbal Tbubc nam Wbanal }f }chmnadhut! N} mn|a }ch mnadh dnkh }f na ham nam hphurfah |ha} }f tihhw! N} }cht}nu} f` }ch thdfam ablc}) }chr nii kh} ba naf}chu windh) ehdnxth }ch Knuf

mnadh) |cbdc int}t abah ablc}t) kxt} eh mnadhm hndc ablc} ba n mb``huha} windh!Nlnba Cnbax|hih |nt ba }ch dha}uh nam lnph fx} Tbubc nam Wbanal! Ex} |cha}ch mnadhut ntjhm chu `fu Tbubc tch lnph }chk dfunit! ]ch kha `fxam }ch dfunitphur ehnx}b`xi! Hphurfah) mnadhut nam afa+mnadhut) |ha} }f Cnbax|hih }f ntjchu `fu Tbubc nam Wbanal nam }chr nii uhdhbphm dfunit! Nlnba }ch mnadh int}hmxa}bi mnreuhnj) |cha }chr nii |ha} }f tihhw!

]ch ahs} ablc} }chr |ha} }f naf}chu windh nam Cnbax|hih |nt ba }ch dha}uh}f mbt}ubex}h Tbubc nam Wbanal! Hphurefmr uhdhbphm fah! ]ch `fxu}c ablc} }chruhdhbphm inulh nam ehnx}b`xi win}ht! Fa }ch `b`}c ablc} Cnbax|hih lnph }chk

ebl `fuht} jabpht! Fa }ch tbs}c tch lnph }chk dfwwhu efsht |b}c Tbubc! Fa }chthpha}c) lfim hnuubalt! Fa }ch hblc}c) ehnx}b`xi lfalt! ]cxt) ablc} er ablc})}ch pnixh f` Cnbax|hiht lb`}t luh| kfuh nam kfuh!

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nam wx} }chk ba n wuhdbfxt uhdhw}ndih!^xh}znidni} eihm cbt khkehu fphu b}!

Nam }cha }ch lfmt mbm whab}hadh!Nam }chr tnbm+Fc lfmt) }chr cnph ehha efua}cfth kndhcnxiht #kha"#mhthuphm er }ch whab}hadh"!Ehdnxth `fu xt}ch lfmt mbm whab}hadh!

]ch kr}c f` }ch duhn}bfa f` knbzh bt nt fiif|t?

Nii }ch lfmt dnkh mf|a ùfk chnpha }f n dnph |chuh n lfm dniihmWbi}zba}dxi}ib |nt tihhwbal |b}c n lfmmhtt dniihm Sfdcb~x}zni! #]chdnph bt ba }ch kr}cbdni |ht}) ]nkfnadcna! ]ch wnbuhm lfmt nuh }chrfxal txa nam }ch rfxal kffa"!

]ch lfmmhtt efuh ]zha}f}i) }ch lfm f` knbzh) |cfk tch wx} xamhu}ch hnu}c! @ufk cbt cnbu dnkh df}}fa) ùfk fah f` cbt hrht dnkh n phurlffm thhm) ùfk cbt f}chu hrh) naf}chu) ùfk cbt afth naf}chu thhmdniihm dcna) ùfk cbt `balhut dnkh n ùxb} dniihm dnkf}h) }ch t|hh}

wf}n}f) ùfk cbt anbit dnkh f}chu jbamt f` inulh knbzh) nam ùfk }chuht} f` cbt efmr dnkh knar f}chu ùxb}t) |cbdc }ch kha ln}chuhm namtf|hm! @fu nii }cbt) }cbt lfm |nt kfuh ifphm }cna }ch f}chu lfmt nam |ntdniihm ehifphm ifum!

B |bii af| lbph na neeuhpbn}hm nddfxa} f` }ch Nz}hd kr}c f` }ch duhn}bfa f`}ch `b`}c txa nam `b`}c kffa) |cbdc tcbah fa }fmnrt cxknab}r!

Eh`fuh }chuh |nt mnr ba }ch |fuim) }ch lfmt dnkh }flh}chu ba }cn}windh |cbdc bt dniihm ]hf}bcxndna! ]chr tnbm }f hndc f}chu) \cf |bii}njh dcnulh f` iblc}bal }ch |fuim6 ]cha }ch lfm dniihm ]hdxdbz}dn}i #f`}ch inam f` }ch knubah entba" nat|huhm }chth |fumt nam tnbm) B |bii }njhdcnulh f` iblc}bal }ch |fuim! ]cha }ch lfmt twfjh nlnba nam }chr tnbm)\cf |bii eh naf}chu6 Nam }chr iffjhm n} hndc f}chu nam ehlna }fmhen}h nt }f |cf |fxim eh }ch f}chu) ex} afah f` }chk mnuhm }f f``hucbkthi` `fu }cbt ofe: }chr |huh nii nùnbm nam knmh hsdxtht! Fah f` }ch

lfmt) |cf cnm af} ehha dfatbmhuhm nam |cf |nt n``hd}hm |b}c exefht)mbm af} twhnj ex} ch chnum |cn} }ch f}chu lfmt tnbm: nam }ch f}chut twfjh}f cbk nam tnbm) Rfx eh }ch fah |cf iblc}t }ch |fuim) Anancxn}zba) ib}}ih

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twf}}r fah! Nam ch |biibalir fehrhm }chk nam nat|huhm) |b}c }cnajt Buhdhbph }ch fumhut rfx lbph kh) ih} b} eh tf!

]ch kr}c lfht fa }f }hii cf| ef}c lfmt wuhwnuhm }chkthipht) mfbalwhanadh) }f }njh fa }ch }ntj f` }cuf|bal }chkthipht ba}f n `buh nam hkhulbalùfk b} }unat`fukhm ba}f n txa!

]chr knmh }ch ub}xni f``hubalt |b}c eunadcht f` `bu }uhht nam eniit f` cnrba |cbdc }chr cnm }f wx} }cfuat ùfk }ch knlxhr }uhh! ]ch whanadh |nt }fwhu`fun}h }chbu hnut) nukt nam }cblct |b}c n efah mnllhu: }cha }chr wx} eiffmfa }ch knlxhr }cfuat nam wx} }chk ba}f }ch eniit f` cnr!

]hdxdbz}dn}i f``huhm ~xh}zni hn}chut bat}hnm f` `bu }uhh eunadcht nam lfimha

eniit |b}c }cfuat knmh f` wuhdbfxt t}faht! Bat}hnm f` t}neebal cbkthi`nam f``hubal cbt f|a eiffm) ch tbkwir wuhtha}hm cbt }cfuat knmh f` dfuni!Anancnx}zba) fa }ch f}chu cnam) eihm n if} nam f``huhm uhni `bu }uhh eunadchtnam tcnuw knlxhr }cfuat!

\cha }ch kfkha} f` tndub`bdh dnkh) }ch }|f lfmt ehbal uhnmr }f }cuf|}chkthipht ba}f }ch `buh) ]hdxdbz}dn}i |nt }ch `but} }f }ur! Ex} }ch nuuflna} lfm}ubhm `fxu }bkht nam hphur }bkh ch |nt nùnbm! Ba af} exuabal }f mhn}c) ]hdx+dbz}dn}i ift} }ch dcnadh }f ehdfkh n txa! ]cha cxkeih Anancxn}zba }ffjcbt }xua! Nii }ch lfmt ln}chuhm }flh}chu ba ]hf}bcxndna |n}dchm }ch tdhah!

Anancxn}zba difthm cbt hrht nam }cuh| cbkthi` ba}f }ch buh xa}bi ch |ntdfatxkhm ba b}) nam cbt mht}bar |nt }f ehdfkh }ch txa f` }ch `b`}c nlh!Mhtwhun}hir ]hdxdbz}dn}i }cha }cuh| cbkthi` ba}f }ch `buh) ex} ch |nt }ff in}hnam tf cbt mht}bar |nt fair }f ehdfkh }ch kffa!

N`}hu }ch tndub`bdh) }ch pnubfxt lfmt |cf |huh }chuh th}}ihm mf|a }f |nb} `fu}ch txaubth! xh}znidni} nam thphuni f}chut mbtdfphuhm b} ba }ch ham }f }ch hnt}!B} nwwhnuhm uhtwihamha}) }cuf|bal unrt ùfk b}thi`! N ib}}ih in}hu }ch kffanwwhnuhm ehcbam }ch txa) nitf ba }ch hnt}! ]f wuhpha} }ch txa nam kffa ùfk

ehbal }flh}chu ni|nrt) fah f` }ch lfmt }ffj n uneeb} nam }cuh| b} n} }ch kffa)tf }cn} b} |fxim fair tcbah n} ablc}!@fu }ch lfmt ln}chuhm }flh}chu ba ]hf}bcxndna }chuh t}bii uhknbahm fah int}

wufeihk }f eh th}}ihm! Ahb}chu }ch txa afu }ch kffa kfphm! ]cha }ch lfmt tnbm)

]ch txa bt af} kfpbalcf|) ba }ux}c) tcnii |h knjh }ch whfwih ibph6@fu }ch txa }f eh t}uhal}chabal er fxu khnat)ih} xt tndub`bdh fxuthipht) ih} xt nii mbh!

]ch lfmt ùhhir nddhw}hm }chbu mhn}c) tndub`bdbal }chkthipht) tf }cn} }ch txa|fxim kfph nam tf knjh cxkna ib`h wfttbeih! \b}c }ch txa `baniir kfpbal)

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mnrt nam ablc}t ehlna! Cxknat cnm mhthuphm }chbu ib`h }cnajt }f }ch lfmtthi`+tndub`bdh! @fu }cbt uhntfa) cxkna ehbalt cnm }f dnii }chkthipht chadh`fu}c

kndhcxniht) |cbdc khnat mhthupbal!8

Ba }ch Badn kr}cfiflr

Ih} xt }njh n eubh` iffj n} tfkh f` }ch Badn kr}cfiflr!

Ba }ch ehlbaabal }chuh |nt af `ffm `fu }ch kna nam |fkna |cfk

Wndcndnknd cnm duhn}hm! ]ch kna mbhm f` cxalhu nam }ch |fkna |ntih`} nifah }ch |fkna wunrhm }f }ch Txa |b}c knar }hnut nam tblct)tnrbal }f b}) ehifphm duhn}fu) |cr mbm rfx eubal kh ba}f }ch iblc} f` }ch|fuim b` b} |nt }f jbii kh |b}c wfphu}r nam dfatxkh kh |b}c cxalhu6!!!

]ch Txa chnum chu nam `hi} tfuur) dfatfihm chu nam }fim chu }f lf fambllbal uff}t: nam) extr mfbal }cbt) ch ba`xthm chu |b}c cbt unrt nam tchdfadhbphm n dcbim |cbdc n} }ch ham f` `fxu mnrt) |b}c luhn} wnba)tch efuh) txuh }cn} chu cnwwbahtt |fxim eh luhn} nam `ffm |fxim ehwiha}b`xi! Ex} b} }xuahm fx} ~xb}h mb``huha} ùfk |cn} tch tf kxdc

mhtbuhm ehdnxth }ch lfm Wndcndnknd) nalur }cn} tch cnm lbpha }ch Txa}ch nmfun}bfa }cn} |nt mxh }f cbk nam }cn} tch cnm efuah chu tfa nt ntiblc} }f cbk) wbdjhm xw }ch ener nam jbiihm cbk nam dx} cbk xw!

Ex} Wndcndnknd) tf }cn} af fah |fxim dfkwinba nlnba) nam tf }cn}ahhm |fxim af} feiblh }ch txwuhkh nmfun}bfa }f eh lbpha }f narfah hithex} cbk) tf|hm }ch }hh}c f` }ch mhnm dcbim nam tf knbzh |nt efua) }ch}rwh f` knbzh thhm |cbdc bt ibjh }hh}c: ch tf|hm }ch ubet nam efaht nam}cxt }ch rxddnt |huh efua nam }cfth f}chu ùxb}t |cbdc nuh uff}t!

@ufk }ch ìhtc f` }ch mhnm dcbim dnkh dxdxkehut) wnwnrnt nam }chf}chu ùxb}t nam }uhht!Tbadh }cha kha cnph af} jaf|a cxalhu fu |hw} `fu ahhm) nam }chr

f|h }chbu txt}hanadh nam nexamnadh }f Wndcndnknd! Tbadh }cha }ch`hu}bib}r f` }ch hnu}c cnt ehha txdc }cn} }chuh cnt ahphu ehha cxalhu) }f}ch wfba} f` wft}hub}r!0

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Ba }ch Jnanjn ub}xnit

]f ham }cbt thd}bfa B dfkh }f }ch tndunkha}ni uhtwhd} |b}c |cbdc }chJnanjnt ba Khinahtbn }uhn} }ch rnk!

\cha n Jnanjn }njht n rnk ba cbt cnamt ch mfht b} |b}c }ch thubfxtahtt f`}njbal xw n tnduhm feohd}! Ch ef|t fphu b}) iffjt `fu }ch kft} tfibm wnu} f` }chtxet}nadh f` }ch ebl }xehu nam wx}t cbt cnam xamhu }ch ham |cbdc ch dniit}ch chnm) }f txwwfu} b} |hii nam wuhpha} b} ùfk euhnjbal xamhu b}t f|a |hblc}!

Wbdjbal xw n rnk uh~xbuht }ch lha}ihahtt nam }hamhuahtt |b}c |cbdc n|fkna }njht xw chu dcbim! ]ch rnk bt tfkh}cbal cxkna: efua ba }ch hnu}c)

|chuh }ch `fuhehnut |huh mbttfiphm) b} bt }ch ìhtc f` }ch nadht}fut! Ba }ch `hnt}f` }ch but} uxb}t) rnkt nuh nmfuahm nt }cfxlc }chr |huh whfwih: }chr nuh lbphacn}t nam mhdfun}hm |b}c tchiit nam knlbd wina}t! ]chr nuh hn}ha tfihkair namba tbihadh) ehdnxth b} |fxim af} eh uhtwhd}`xi }f }nij n} }ch tnkh }bkh!

]ch rnkt nuh }unat`fukhm) ba }chbu }xua) ba}f }ch ìhtc f` kha) }chbu pbubib}rnam }chbu t}uhal}c! N} |hmmbalt) n} |njht) `fu dfa}und}t nam |cha khtthalhutnuh uhdhbphm) rnkt nuh hn}ha nt }ch hihkha} |cbdc lbpht ib`h }f hphur}cbal }cn}bt xamhu}njha) nt n thni nam dfa`bukn}bfa f` }ch dfkkb}kha}t! ]ch fim rnklbpht ebu}c }f }ch ah|: }ch ah| `fu}b`bht }ch ìhtc f` }ch kna: }ch knat pbubib}rt}uhal}chat }ch |fuim!

N knat mhn}c }njht cbk ba}f }ch hnu}c |b}c }ch fim rnkt) cbt `fuhehnut! ]chknat drdih f` hsbt}hadh bt hadifthm |b}cba }ch drdih f` }ch rnk!+473!


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Nitf }ch wufphanadh f` }ch wuf`fxam t}uxd}xuh f` }chth kr}cfiflbhtehdfkht dihnu? }ch dha}uni nd}bfa |cbdc }ch lufxwt cnph }f }njh ba fumhu }f

txupbph) jbii pbfiha}ir }f cnph hsbt}hadh nam ib`h) ehdfkht }ch dha}uni kh}nwcfuùfk |cbdc }ch |cfih f` ib`h bt fumhuhm nam }ch ba}huwuh}n}bfa) hpnixn}bfa fùhnib}r nuh dfat}uxd}hm nam uhiblbfa bt exbi} xw!

B} bt f` luhn} bkwfu}nadh) }f xamhut}nam fxu cbt}fur nam cf| fxu ba}huwuh}n}bfatrt}hkt) ib`h trt}hkt nam uhiblbfat |huh duhn}hm) }f eh neih }f t}xmr }ch }unatb}bfaùfk }ch cxa}hu kfmhi fu wnunmblk }f }ch wubkb}bph nlunubna kfmhi! ]f ehneih }f thh cf| }ch dha}uni cxa}bal kh}nwcfu) ùfk pbfiha} mhn}c dfkht ehbalnam ib`h) bt }unat`huuhm }f }ch |fuim f` dxi}bpn}bfa f` wina}t! ]cbt }unat`hu cntuhknbahm pnibm nikft} xa}bi fxu f|a mnrt!

@fu }chth tfdbh}bht) nt |hii nt `fu }ch cxa}hut) hphur}cbal }cn} cnt ehbal namib`h dfkht ùfk pbfiha} mhn}c! Dfwxin}bfa nam pbfin}bfa nuh) `fu }chth dxi}xuht)h~xbpniha} }f n pbfiha} mhn}c! Hphur}cbal fublban}hm ùfk na nttnttban}hmMhkn) n wuf}f+pbd}bk) ùfk }ch mhn}c f` n ehbal f` }ch biif }hkwfuh! Hpha}ch ah| Dcbahth lffmt) txdc nt win}ht) lfalt) oh|hit nam jabpht |cbdc dfkh }f}chth whfwiht) nuh ba}huwuh}hm fa }ch tnkh wn}}hua nt }ch uht}!

]ch t}uxd}xuh f` dxi}xuht babuubln}bfa `nukbal tfdbh}bht

Lhahuni dfatbmhun}bfat

]ch }unatb}bfa ufk cxa}bal nam nlubdxi}xuh tfdbh}bht }f nlunubna+nx}cfub}nubnatfdbh}bht |nt fah f` }ch kft} }unxkn}bd kfkha}t ba }ch cbt}fur f` fxutwhdbht!

]ch whfwiht |cf cnm }f dfa}ufi luhn} knttht f` |n}hu) luhn} ubphut) ba

fumhu }f eh neih }f dxi}bpn}h) cnm }f dfat}uxd} dfifttni inefxu) tfdbni) wfib}bdninam uhiblbfxt t}uxd}xuht) |cbdc khna} na hafukfxt }unat`fukn}bfa f` }chuhin}bfatcbwt f` kha |b}c an}xuh nam nkfal }chkthipht! Ba }ch }cfxtnamtnam }cfxtnamt f` rhnut |cbdc wuhdhmhm }ch nwwhnunadh f` }cbt }rwh f`dxi}xuh) }chuh cnm ahphu ehha dcnalht tf unmbdni fu munt}bd) ba nii }ch `bhimtf` cxkna ib`h!

Buubln}bfa `nukbal ba}hatb`bhm dxi}bpn}bfa nam kxi}bwibhm wufmxd}bfa) ex}uh~xbuhm inulh ubphut }f eh dfa}ufiihm ba ubtbal nam ba ìffm! ]chr cnm }f `blc}nlnbat} n tdnudb}r nam nlnbat} na hsdhtt f` |n}hu! ]cbt uh~xbuhm inulh axkehut

f` kha }f |fuj ba dfiinefun}bfa) |b}c dffumban}bfa) mbpbtbfa f` }ntjt) h}d! ]chrcnm }f dfa}ufi }ch |n}hut) wuhwnuh }ch dxi}bpn}bfa) }njh dnuh f` }ch luf|}c namwuf}hd} }ch dufwt nam cnupht}t!

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Ba Khtfwf}nkbn) fddntbfani `iffmt mnknlhm }ch winbat) mhathir wfwxin}hmnam dxi}bpn}hm! Ba Xwwhu Hlrw}) }ch Abih) |cha b} ubtht phur cblc) uhndcht n

kh}uh nefph }ch ihphi f` }ch bacneb}hm nuhn: ba Kbmmih Hlrw}) }|f kh}uht namba }ch Mhi}n) xw }f }cuhh kh}uht nam n cni`! Buubln}bfa dcnaahit nam wuf}hd}bfatnlnbat} `iffmbal cnm }f eh dfat}uxd}hm nam dihnahm uhlxinuir!

Lh}}bal hphurefmr }f dffwhun}h ba }ch tnkh }ntj bapfiphm n winaahmba}hlun}bfa) nii }ch kfuh tf }ch luhn}hu |huh }ch feohd}bpht nam }ch cxkna}hnkt! ]ch whutfaahi ahhmhm `fu hndc ofe cnm }f eh winaahm) |chuh }f `bam}cbt whutfaahi) }ch ~xf}nt f` dfiinefun}bfa mhknamneih) thihd}bfa nam }chdub}hubfa `fu b}! ]ch thihd}bfa cnm }f eh af}b`bhm nam }ch |fuj `fudhtkfebibthm! ]ch whutfaahi cnm }f eh mhwifrhm ba nmh~xn}h axkehut `fu hndc

}ntj! ]ch |fuj cnm }f eh mbtdbwibahm) nxsbibnur |fujt fulnabthm) txdc nt }chtxwwir f` kn}hubnit) t}un|) `buh|ffm) }bkehu) t}faht) hnu}c! ]ch txwwir f` `ffmnam mubaj cnm }f eh fulnabthm nam }unatwfu} nam mbt}ubex}bfa! Ba tcfu}) b}ahhmhm n dfkwihs fulnabtn}bfa!

Nitf nddxkxin}hm hswhubhadh |nt ahhmhm) }ch dnwndb}r }f `fuhdnt} namdnidxin}h! Twhdbnibthm whutfaahi |huh ahhmhm }f }njh dcnulh f` bab}bn}bal)xamhu}njbal nam wuhthupbal }ch luhn} crmunxibd |fujt! Nam }chth twhdbnibt}tcnm }f cnph }ch ahdhttnur jaf|ihmlh nam wf|hu f` dfhudbfa!

Nii }cbt uh~xbuhm `fudht dnwneih f` hshudbtbal dfhudbfa nam mh`hambal }ch

dfat}uxd}bfat nam cnupht}t nlnbat} hahkbht!]cbt dfadixmhm ba }ch dfaoxad}bfa f` wf|hu) jaf|ihmlh nam }ch dnwndb}r f`

dfhudbfa! B} nii uh~xbuhm n dfkwihs exuhnxdundr!Ah}|fujt f` dfkkxabdn}bfa ahhmhm }f eh th} xw nam knba}nbahm eh}|hha

}ch wf|hu dha}uh nam }ch txefumban}h dha}uht) `fu }ch }unatkbttbfa f` fumhut)}unat`hu f` f``bdbnit nam mhtwn}dcht) kfphkha} f` }uffwt) h}d! H``hd}bph dfa}ufif` wf|hu bt bkwfttbeih |b}cfx} phur mh}nbihm dfa}ufi f` dfkkxabdn}bfat:nam unwbm dfkkxabdn}bfat) }cufxlc n trt}hk f` t}nlbal wft}t nam uhinrt!

]ch kfafwfir f` wf|hu nam tfdbni dfa}ufi khna} }ch kfafwfir f` unwbmdfkkxabdn}bfa! B} uh~xbuhm n cxlh winaahm nam txt}nbahm h``fu} }f knba}nba}chth dfkwihs bkwhubni trt}hkt!

]ch kfafwfir f` tfdbni dfa}ufi nam f` }ch dffumban}bfa f` h``fu}t namfulnabtn}bfa |nt) nitf nam ahdhttnubir) kbib}nur dfa}ufi fphu }ch kntt f` }chwfwxin}bfa ba fumhu }f dffumban}h nd}bfa ba }bkht f` |nu!

]ch t}n}h dfxim af} dnuur fx} nii }chth ha}huwubtht |b}cfx} nmh~xn}hbadfkh! ]ch nlunubna t}n}h cnm n kfafwfir fphu }ch }uhntxur) }ch wf|hu}f `fudh hphurfah }f dfa}ubex}h }cufxlc `fudhm inefxu ba wxeibd `bhimt) ba jbam

fu ba dntc!Nii }cbt uh~xbuhm na hs}hatbph exuhnxdundr |cbdc hshudbthm }ch kfafwfir f`dfa}ufi nam tfdbni ihnmhutcbw) ehdnxth af dun`}tkha) khudcna}t fu inamcfimhut

8200) T}x}}lnu}) Jfcicnkkhu: Eihhjhu) O!: \bmhaluha) L!?Cbt}fubn uhiblbfaxk! Knaxni mh cbt}fubn mh int uhiblbfaht) B Uhiblbfaht mhi wntnmf! >200) Knmubm) Hm! Dubt}bnamnm: @unaj`fu})C! \bitfa) O! N! Ondfetha) ]!?Hi whatnkbha}f wuh bift`bdf! B! Hlbw}f r Khtfwf}nkbn! >20207) Wnubt! Wnrf}: Ehu}chif}

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