As much as I hate my life I can’t do anything to end it prematurely. As much as I agree with

the common notion, of life being worthless and all, but when it comes to my life things in my

perspective tend to change. Well, here is what happened.

The other day, on my way to the grocery store, I bumped into an old friend of my from way

back. We talked for a while, shared some information about our lives up to this current

moment, and as we were about to part, she turned around and suggested that we do little sky

diving together. Apparently she was a pro and I was about to make one of the biggest

mistakes of my short life. I foolishly agreed to do it, knowing full well that I am terrified from

heights. But when it is for a woman, there is no limit to the idiocy one might exert while

under her spell.

Well, we scheduled our jump for next Sunday. A small amount of time, in which I can make a

will. There is nothing much to leave really, just my car and maybe some collectible figurines.

I am going to die like a cockroach, squished into a bloody puddle. And what have I done with

my life? Absolutely nothing worth mentioning. I have practically wasted 20 years drinking

and having fun, while pretending that I was an adult.

Well, deal or no deal, I am not jumping of a moving aircraft, soaring through the air at speeds

exceeding 500 km p/h. I know it is the wrong thing to do, after all I am not some sort of a

maggot who can’t handle his adrenaline. I am concerned however for my life. What if the

parachute doesn’t open in time or my lines get entangled? I cannot afford to loose my life, not

just yet. I still have a lot of stuff to do, and I am not planning on ditching all that

responsibility to myself by dying.

I agree that once you get pass your fears, it is not that dangerous! I just might reconsider this

whole situation, but no… I will start from the very bottom, like bungee jumping for example.

I can become good at that and later, if I am still feeling man enough, I can even do a little bit

of sky diving. We must conquer our fears someday, right? Why not today?

Well, today I am busy. I have to clean my home from top to bottom; it was just that time of

the month. Last night I took care of all the minor stuff, like dusting and vacuuming, however I

left the scrubbing for a today, for it required quite the concentration.