Elliot Rodger, Santa Barbara mass shooting suspect, "My Twisted World" manifesto

8/12/2019 Elliot Rodger, Santa Barbara mass shooting suspect, "My Twisted World" manifesto

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Funkijty… Kcc gl ny sullhrjia gi tfjs wgrcm fks dhhi kt tfh fkims gl funkijty, pkrtjeuckrcy wgnhi.

Jt fks nkmh nh rhkcjzh oust fgw drutkc kim twjsthm funkijty js ks k sphejhs. Kcc J hvhr wkithm wks tg ljt

ji kim cjvh k fkppy cjlh kngiast funkijty, dut J wks ekst gut kim rhohethm, lgrehm tg himurh ki hxjsthieh

gl cgihcjihss kim jisjaijljekieh, kcc dhekush tfh lhnkchs gl tfh funki sphejhs whrh jiekpkdch gl shhjia

tfh vkcuh ji nh.

]fjs js tfh stgry gl fgw J, Hccjgt Tgmahr, eknh tg dh. ]fjs js tfh stgry gl ny hitjrh cjlh. Jt js k mkr` stgry

gl skmihss, kiahr, kim fktrhm. Jt js k stgry gl k wkr kakjist eruhc jioustjeh. Ji tfjs nkaijljehit stgry, J wjcc

mjsecgsh hvhry sjiach mhtkjc kdgut ny cjlh, hvhry sjiach sjaijljekit hxphrjhieh tfkt J fkvh pucchm lrgn ny

suphrjgr nhngry, ks whcc ks fgw tfgsh hxphrjhiehs fkvh sfkphm ny vjhws gl tfh wgrcm. ]fjs trkahmy mjm

igt fkvh tg fkpphi. J mjmi‚t wkit tfjias tg turi gut tfjs wky, dut funkijty lgrehm ny fkim, kim tfjsstgry wjcc hxpckji wfy. Ny cjlh mjmi‚t stkrt gut mkr` kim twjsthm. J stkrthm gut ks k fkppy kim dcjssluc

efjcm, cjvjia ny cjlh tg tfh lucchst ji k wgrcm J tfguaft wks aggm kim purh…

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Gi tfh ngrijia gl Oucy 4=tf, ;::;, ji k Cgimgi fgspjtkc, J wks dgri. J drhktfhm ji tfh ljrst drhktf gl

cjlh ks J hithrhm tfjs wgrcm, whjafjia gicy 8.= pguims. Ny pkrhits nust fkvh dhhi ljcchm wjtf fkppjihss

kim prjmh tfkt mky. ]fhy fkm oust wjtihsshm tfh djrtf gl tfhjr ljrst efjcm, kim tfhy iknhm nh Hccjgt Gcjvhr

Tgdhrtsgi Tgmahr.J wks dgri tg yguia pkrhits. Ny lktfhr, Rhthr Tgmahr, wks gicy 4< wfhi fh jnprhaikthm ny ngtfhr,

Efji, wfg wks 52. Rhthr js gl Drjtjsf mhsehit, fkjcjia lrgn tfh prhstjajgus Tgmahr lknjcy0 k lknjcy tfkt

wks gieh pkrt gl tfh whkctfy upphr ecksshs dhlgrh tfhy cgst kcc gl tfhjr lgrtuih murjia tfh Arhkt

Mhprhssjgi. Ny lktfhr‚s lktfhr, Ahgrah Tgmahr, wks k rhigwihm pfgtgogurikcjst wfg fkm tk`hi vhry

lkngus pfgtgarkpfs murjia tfh Uhegim Qgrcm Qkr, tfguaf fh lkjchm tg rhkequjrh tfh lknjcy‚s cgst

lgrtuih. Ny ngtfhr js gl Efjihsh mhsehit. Ufh wks dgri ji Nkckysjk, kim ngvhm tg Hiackim kt k yguia

kah tg wgr` ks k iursh gi shvhrkc ljcn shts, wfhrh sfh dheknh lrjhims wjtf vhry jnpgrtkit jimjvjmukcs ji

tfh ljcn jimustry, jiecumjia Ahgrah Cueks kim Uthvhi Upjhcdhra. Ufh hvhi mkthm Ahgrah Cueks lgr k sfgrt

tjnh.

Ny ngtfhr kim lktfhr fkm dhhi nkrrjhm lgr k egupch gl yhkrs dhlgrh ny ngtfhr dheknh prhaikit

wjtf nh. Ji lket, fhr prhaikiey wks ki keejmhit. Ufh fkm dhhi tk`jia pjccs tg prhvhit prhaikiey, dut

wfhi sfh vjsjthm ny lktfhr gi gih gl fjs ljcn shts, sfh lhcc jcc kim tfh nhmjektjgi sfh tgg` lgr tfkt jccihss

tfwkrthm tfh hllhet gl tfh kitj-prhaikiey pjccs, kim sg tfhjr cgvhnk`jia murjia tfjs phrjgm rhsucthm ji ny

cjlh.

Gicy k egupch gl ngitfs klthr ny djrtf, J whit gi ny ljrst vkektjgi. Ny pkrhits tgg` nh gi k dgkt tg

Lrkieh. J wks kcrhkmy k trkvhchr! Gl egursh, J fkvh ig nhngrjhs gl tfjs trjp. Ny ngtfhr skjm tfkt J erjhm k

cgt.



Kt tfh tjnh tfkt J wks dgri, ny ngtfhr kim lktfhr whrh cjvjia ji k fgush ji Cgimgi, dut sfgrtcy klthr

ny djrtf tfhy mhejmhm tg ngvh tg tfh eguitrysjmh. Qh ngvhm tg k ckrah fgush nkmh gl rhm drje` ji tfh

eguity gl Uusshx, wjtf vkst arkss ljhcms surrguimjia jt. ]fh fgush hvhi fkm k iknh? ]fh Gcm Thetgry.

]fjs wks wfhrh J sphit ny hkrcy efjcmfggm, tfh ljrst ljvh yhkrs gl ny cjlh, kim jt wks dhkutjluc. ]fh

nhngrjhs J fkvh gl tfjs phrjgm krh gicy nhngrjhs gl fkppjihss kim dcjss.

Ny lktfhr wks k prglhssjgikc pfgtgarkpfhr kt tfh tjnh, oust ji tfh stkah gl dhegnjia k mjrhetgr. Ny

ngtfhr akvh up fhr iursjia ekrhhr tg stky kt fgnh kim cgg` klthr nh. Ny arkimnk gi ny ngtfhr‚s sjmh,

wfg J wgucm ekcc Kf Nkf, ngvhm ji wjtf us tg fhcp gut ny ngtfhr. J wgucm sphim k cgt gl tjnh wjtf Kf

Nkf murjia tfhsh yhkrs.

]fjs wks k tjnh gl mjsegvhry, hxejthnhit, kim lui. J fkm oust hithrhm tfjs ihw wgrcm, kim J ìhw

igtfjia gl tfh pkji jt wgucm drjia nh ckthr gi. J hiogyhm cjlh wjtf jiigehit dcjss. J eki rhnhndhr pckyjia

ji tfh ljhcms kim agjia gi cgia wkc`s wjtf Kf Nkf tg pje` dhrrjhs. Ufh wgucm kcwkys wkri nh igt tg

tguef tfh stjiajia ihttchs tfkt sgnhtjnhs arhw ji gur ljhcms, dut ny eurjgsjty agt tfh dhtthr gl nh, kim J

agt stuia k lhw tjnhs. ]fhrh wks k swjia ji tfh dke` gl gur ykrm, wfjef J fkm nkiy aggm tjnhs gi.

]fh ljrst djrtfmky J rhnhndhr wks ny 5rm djrtfmky. Ny pkrhits tfrhw k pkrty lgr nh ji gur ljhcm. J fkm

k fhcjegpthr djrtfmky ek`h. J eki rhnhndhr gih gl ny lrjhim‚s pkrhits euttjia gll tfh ljrst pjheh kim

ajvjia jt tg ny lrjhim. J tfrhw k tkitrun dhekush J wks hxphetjia tg aht tfh ljrst pjheh… Jt wks ny

djrtfmky klthr kcc. Ny lktfhr dguaft nh k tgy trketgr tfkt J egucm rjmh krguim ji, kim J wgucm pcky wjtf jtkcc tfh tjnh klthr tfkt.

Ugnhtjnh klthr ny 5rm djrtfmky, wh kcc whit gi k vkektjgi tg Nkckysjk, ny ngtfhr‚s fgnh eguitry. J

fkvh gicy lcksfhs gl nhngry gl tfkt vkektjgi. J hiogyhm jt vhry nuef. Qh vjsjthm k lhw gl ny ngtfhr‚s

rhcktjvhs.

Lgr prhsefggc, J wks hirgcchm kt Mgrshtt Fgush, ki upsekch kcc-dgys prjvkth sefggc ji tfh eguitrysjmh,

ihkr wfhrh wh cjvhm. J wks lgrehm tg whkr k uijlgrn, wfjef J fkthm dhekush J fkm tg whkr

uiegnlgrtkdch sge`s up tg ny ìhhs. J wks vhry ihrvgus kim J erjhm gi ny ljrst mky tfhrh. J eki

rhnhndhr twg lrjhims J nkmh dy iknh, Ahgrah kim Mkvjm. J wgucm kcwkys pcky ji tfh skimpjt wjtf tfhn.

J mjmi‚t cj`h sefggc kt Mgrshtt Fgush vhry nuef. J l guim tfh ruchs tg dh tgg strjet. Ny chkst lkvgrjth

pkrt gl jt wks tfh lggtdkcc shssjgis. J ihvhr uimhrstggm tfh aknh kim J egucm ihvhr `hhp up wjtf tfhgtfhr dgys ji tfh ljhcm, sg J kcwkys stggm dy tfh agkc-`hhphr kim prhthimhm tg dh tfh –shegim agkc-

`hhphr„. Ny lkvgrjth pkrt wks pckyjia ji tfh wggms klthr cuief. ]fhrh wks k pkrtjeuckr ecjndjia strueturh

tfkt J fkm k cgt gl lui wjtf.

Ny prhsefggc eckss gieh whit gi k ljhcm trjp tg tfh pkr`, wfhrh J fkm tfh njslgrtuih gl ahttjia cgst.

Ks ny eckss wks hktjia cuief, J vhiturhm gll tg kigtfhr krhk gl tfh pkr`, kim wfhi J rhturihm, ny eckss

fkm ngvhm gi. J rhnhndhr pkije`jia kim ks`jia strkiahrs lgr fhcp. Jt wks k thrrjlyjia hxphrjhieh lgr

nh. J wks hvhitukccy chm tg ny eckss dy tfh strkiahrs J tkc`hm tg.

J rhnhndhr gih luiiy jiejmhit wfhi wh whrh tk`jia sefggc pjeturhs. ]fhy lgrehm us tg sjt ergss-

chaahm, wfjef J fkthm mgjia, sg J kdsgcuthcy rhlushm tg sjt tfkt wky lgr tfh pjeturh. ]fh thkefhrs

hvhitukccy egiehmhm, kim tfh pjeturh wks tk`hi wjtf nh dhjia tfh gicy gih sjttjia mjllhrhitcy.

]fh fgcjmky shksgi wks tfh dhst pkrt gl tfh yhkr lgr nh. Jt nust fkvh dhhi vhry egcm ji Hiackim, dut J

mgi‚t rhnhndhr tfh egcm. J oust rhnhndhr fgw nuef lui J fkm. J wks ljcchm wjtf ogy wfhi jt stkrthm

sigwjia gutsjmh ― J cgvhm pckyjia ji tfh sigw. Ny lktfhr fhcphm nh dujcm k sigwnki gieh. Qh wgucm

stkrt wjtf cjttch sigwdkccs, kim rgcc tfhn krguim gur ljhcm uitjc wh lgrnhm tfh dgmy, kim tfhi wh wgucm

mhegrkth jt.

Murjia Efrjstnks, ny pkrhits kcwkys fkm pkrtjhs kim aktfhrjias. Ny lktfhr‚s dhst lrjhim, Efrjstgpfhr

Dhss, wfg wks kcsg ny agmlktfhr, eknh tg gur fgush lrhquhitcy. Qh wgucm glthi ag tg ny lktfhr‚s

pkrhit‚s fgush ji Unkrmhi, @hit. J wgucm ekcc ny arkimngtfhr gi ny lktfhr‚s sjmh –arkimnk Ojix„. Ny



nhngrjhs gl ny arkimlktfhr, Ahgrah Tgmahr, krh lkjit0 fh fkm lkcchi vhry jcc kt tfjs phrjgm. Ny lktfhr‚s

drgtfhr, uiech Ogiiy, fkm k sgi gih yhkr yguiahr tfki nh, wfg wks iknhm Ahgrah, klthr ny

arkimlktfhr. J kcwkys pckyhm aknhs wjtf egusji Ahgrah ji arkimnk Ojix‚s akrmhi. ]fh twg gl us agt

kcgia whcc.

Gi Ihw Zhkr‚s Hvh gur ihjafdgrs gieh sht up k dgiljrh pkrty ji tfh ljhcm ihxt tg gur fgush. J wks

lksejikthm dy fgw dja tfh ljrh wks. J fkm ihvhr shhi kiytfjia cj`h jt, kim jt kstguimhm ny cjttch njim. ]fjs

wks kcsg tfh ljrst tjnh J skw ljrhwgr`s. Ny lktfhr akvh nh gih gl tfgsh spkr`chrs tg pcky wjtf, wfjef J

wks hirkpturhm dy.

]fhrh wks gih vhry sphejkc pckeh tfkt ny lktfhr wgucm glthi tk`h nh tg. Jt wks kt tfh tgp gl k rkiah

gl dhkutjluc rgccjia fjccs tfkt J thrnhm tfh –Cgimgi Fjccs„, dhekush J tfguaft tfkt Cgimgi wks gi tfh

gtfhr sjmh gl tfhn. Qh wgucm ag tfhrh tg lcy `jths. J eki rhnhndhr tfhsh hxphrjhiehs vjvjmcy. ]fh fjccs

whrh lucc gl tkcc strkw-cj`h arkss, kim tfh whktfhr wks kcwkys wjimy ― phrlhet lgr jth lcyjia.

Jt wks k tjnh gl utngst fkppjihss kim ogy lgr nh. Ny lktfhr tkuaft nh tg lcy k `jth dy nyshcl. ]fh

wjim wks sg strgia tfkt J lhkrhm jt wgucm cjlt up ny lrkjc cjttch dgmy kim ekrry nh jitg tfh ecgums. Gieh J

agt tfh fkia gl jt, jt wks hxfjckrktjia. Qh wgucm lcy gur `jths tgahtfhr kim rui wjtf tfh wjim. J wjcc ihvhr

lgraht tfkt pckeh.

Ny lkvgrjth efjcmfggm ljcn wks ]fh Ckim Dhlgrh ]jnh. J ushm tg wktef tfkt ngvjh kcc tfh tjnh wjtf Kf

Nkf. Jt wks kdgut k dkdy mjigskur iknhm Cjttchlggt wfg fkm oust cgst fjs ngtfhr kim wks ogurihyjia

tfrguaf k mkiahrgus wgrcm tg ljim tfh –Arhkt \kcchy„, k ckim gl prgsphrjty kim phkeh. J rhnhndhr tfh

lhhcjia gl utthr skmihss J lhct murjia tfh sehih wfhi fjs ngtfhr mjhm, kim tfh trjunpfkit kim fkppy

hngtjgis tfkt swhpt gvhr nh wfhi fh ljikccy mjsegvhrhm tfh Arhkt \kcchy, klthr agjia tfrguaf kcc tfh

fkrmsfjp tg aht tfhrh. J wktefhm tfjs ngvjh sg nkiy tjnhs tfkt oust tfji`jia kdgut jt drjias tfh hngtjgis

dke`. Jt wks k dja pkrt gl ny efjcmfggm.

Kcrhkmy k wgrcm trkvhchr, J whit gi k trjp tg Upkji wjtf ny pkrhits kim ny pkrhit‚s lrjhims Rktrje`

kim Cuph. Jt wks tfh lgurtf eguitry J‚vh dhhi tg kt suef k yguia kah. Qh stkyhm ji ki hxqujsjth ekstch-

cj`h fgush tfkt J dhcjhvh wks gwihm dy k lrjhim gl gurs. ]fh fgush fkm k tgwhr tfkt J wks hxtrhnhcyeurjgus kdgut. Kt gih pgjit, ny pkrhits kim tfhjr lrjhims vhiturhm up tg tfh tgp gl jt, dut tfhy nkmh nh

stky dhcgw dhekush J wks tgg yguia. J wks sgrhcy mjskppgjithm. Ks tfhy whrh ecjndjia tfh tgwhr J whit

gutsjmh tg cgg` kt tfh eketj surrguimjia tfh fgush. ]fhsh eketj kcsg spkr`hm ny eurjgsjty, kim J lggcjsfcy

mhejmhm tg tguef k eketus. J himhm up ahttjia eketus ihhmchs kcc gvhr ny fkim, kim jt tgg` k cgia tjnh lgr

ny ngtfhr tg rhngvh tfhn.

Ufgrtcy klthr ny trjp tg Upkji, wh whit gi kigtfhr trjp tg Arhheh. Qh stkyhm kt k fgthc ihkr tfh

dhkef. Jt wks vhry fgt tfhrh. ]fh whktfhr wks ihw tg nh, ks J wks ushm tg tfh egcm Drjtjsf ecjnkth.

]fh trjp tg Arhheh wks sjaijljekit dhekush murjia tfjs tjnh, ny lktfhr rhehjvhm tfh ihws gl tfh mhktf

gl ny arkimlktfhr Ahgrah Tgmahr. Fh mjhm gl ikturkc ekushs gi ny =tf djrtfmky, kt tfh kah gl 61. Jt wks

tfh ljrst hxphrjhieh J fkm gl tfh mhktf gl k ecgsh rhcktjvh, kim tfh ljrst tjnh J skw ny lktfhr ery. Ny =

yhkr gcm shcl egucm igt jnkajih ny lktfhr hvhr eryjia, kim sg wfhi J skw fjn ery tfkt mky, J ìhw fgw

sfk`hi fh wks. Jt wks k vhry skm mky lgr kcc gl us. Qh jnnhmjkthcy lchw fgnh.

J dhcjhvh tfkt jt wks murjia tfh tjnh klthr ny = tf djrtfmky tfkt ny lktfhr eknh tg tfh mhejsjgi tg

hvhitukccy ngvh tg tfh Xijthm Utkths. Ks fh wks oust dhegnjia k mjrhetgr, fh dhcjhvhm Cgs Kiahchs

wgucm gllhr ngrh gppgrtuijtjhs. Qh tgg` k sfgrt trjp tg Ekcjlgrijk tg akji ki jijtjkc cgg` kt jt. J mgi‚t

rhnhndhr nuef gl tfjs trjp, dut J mg rhnhndhr fkvjia k aggm tjnh. Kt tfh kah gl =, J, Hccjgt Tgmahr, fkm

kcrhkmy dhhi tg sjx mjllhrhit eguitrjhs. Qfg eki eckjn tfkt, hf7 ]fh Xijthm @jiamgn, Lrkieh, Upkji,

Arhheh, Nkckysjk, kim tfh Xijthm Utkths.



Jt wks kcsg murjia tfjs tjnh tfkt ny ngtfhr dheknh prhaikit kakji. J wks agjia tg fkvh k sjdcjia. Ny

pkrhits mhejmhm tg fkvh kigtfhr dkdy, tfjs prhaikiey dhjia pckiihm, sg tfkt J eki fkvh k sjdcjia tg argw

up wjtf. Qh ckthr mjsegvhrhm jt wks agjia tg dh k ajrc.

Dhlgrh ny 8tf djrtfmky, ny ngtfhr whit jitg ckdgr tg mhcjvhr tfh dkdy. J eki rhnhndhr tfh ijaft

vjvjmcy. J wks vhry jcc tfkt ijaft, k dkm gnhi. J stkyhm kt fgnh wjtf Kf Nkf wfjch ny ngtfhr kim lktfhr

whrh kt tfh fgspjtkc, kim wh wktefhm ngvjhs tgahtfhr. J wks lrkuaft wjtf kitjejpktjgi tfh wfgch tjnh.

Kim tfhi ny pkrhits eknh dke` ckth ji tfh ijaft, kim wjtf tfhn tfhy drguaft k cjttch dcke`-fkjrhm dkdy

wrkpphm ji k duimch. J fkm k dkdy sjsthr, kim tfhy iknhm fhr Ahgrajk.

J fkvh ig nhngrjhs gl wfkt fkpphihm gi ny 8tf djrtfmky. Ufgrtcy klthr jt, wh whrh nk`jia pckis tg

phrnkihitcy ngvh tg tfh Xijthm Utkths. ]fh ihws hxejthm nh, dut J wks skm kt tfh prgsphet gl chkvjia

ny cjlh ji Hiackim dhfjim. Ny lktfhr tgg` k sfgrt trjp tg tfh X.U. dy fjnshcl tg segut gut fgushs. J

rhnhndhr tkc`jia gi tfh pfgih tg fjn wfjch fh wks tfhrh. Fh tgcm nh fh lguim k vhry ijeh fgush lgr us

tg ngvh tg. J ks`hm fjn jl jt fkm k swjnnjia pggc, kim fh skjm jt mjm. ]fjs ihws nkmh nh vhry fkppy.

Kim tfhi tfh tjnh eknh. Qh stkrthm pke`jia hvhrytfjia up kt tfh Gcm Thetgry. Gi ny ckst mky kt

Mgrshtt Fgush sefggc, ny thkefhr wks ajvjia kcc gl us ekimjhs wfhi ny ngtfhr eknh tg pje` nh up

hkrcy. J skjm aggmdyh tg kcc tfh lrjhims J fkm tfhrh. ]fkt wks tfh ckst tjnh J skw tfhn.

Ny lktfhr wks ajvhi tfh gllhr tg duy tfh Gcm Thetgry lgr kdgut =22,222 Rguims (wh whrh gicy rhitjiajt kt tfh tjnh), dut fh mhecjihm, k mhejsjgi fh wgucm rharht ckthr gi, ks jt wgucm fkvh dhhi k wgrtfy

jivhstnhit.

J erjhm ks wh mrgvh kwky lrgn tfh Gcm Thetgry. Kcc tfh hxphrjhiehs J fkm tfhrh0 pckyjia ji tfh ljhcms,

mrjvjia ny tgy trketgr, thimjia tg ny akrmhi, agjia gi wkc`s wjtf Kf Nkf, swjiajia gi tfh swjia0 kcc

tfgsh hxphrjhiehs whrh agih. J wks kdgut tg stkrt k ihw cjlh. Qh dgkrmhm tfh pckih kim tgg` gll tg

Knhrjek.

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Argwjia up ji Knhrjek

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]fh pckih rjmh wks cj`h k mjnhisjgi dhtwhhi wgrcms. J wks kdgut tg hithr k wfgch ihw wgrcm. K

wfgch ihw cjlh. Dut igih gl tfkt whit tfrguaf ny cjttch 8 yhkr gcm fhkm kt tfh tjnh. J schpt lgr ngst gl

tfh ogurihy tfhrh, kim J eki rhnhndhr cgg`jia gut tfh wjimgw kt tfh vkst strhtef gl ecgums dhcgw us. J

wgimhrhm wfkt jt wgucm dh cj`h tg ag mgwi tfhrh kim rui kcgia tfhn ks jl tfhy whrh k ckimnkss, igt

tfji`jia kdgut tfh lket tfkt J wgucm lkcc rjaft tfrguaf!

Qfhi wh krrjvhm ji Knhrjek, J wks vhry tjrhm. Qh egcchethm gur cuaakah kim cgkmhm tfhn gitg k ihw

UX\ tfkt ny lktfhr rhithm. ]fh jnkah gl us mrjvjia gut gl tfh kjrpgrt js stjcc lrhsf ji ny njim. J glthi

tfji` gl jt ks ny ljrst sthp jitg ny ihw cjlh ji tfh X.U.

J wks sg schhpy wfhi wh rhkefhm gur ihw fgush tfkt J mjmi‚t hvhi dgtfhr tg cgg` krguim yht. ]fh

fgush wks pkrtcy lurijsfhm, kim wh kcrhkmy fkm k sglk kim k thchvjsjgi. ]fh ljrst tfjia wh mjm wks wktef

k ngvjh. ]fh ngvjh wks Jimhphimhieh Mky, kim J lhcc kschhp kt sgnh pkrts, dut nkikahm tg wktef ngstgl tfh ngvjh.

Ji tfh ngrijia J wks lucc gl hihray. J hkahrcy eckngrhm up tfh stkjrs tg shkref lgr ny ihw rggn. J

cgg`hm kt kcc tfh rggns dhlgrh sjiacjia gut tfh gih tfkt J wkithm ks njih. Qfhi J tgcm ny ngtfhr kdgut

ny mhejsjgi, sfh tgcm nh tfkt tfh rggn J pje`hm wks nhkit tg dh ny sjsthr Ahgrajk‚s rggn. J agt k djt

upsht, dut hvhitukccy shttchm lgr tfh rggn ihxt tg jt.

]fh fgush wks qujth dja, wjtf wfjth wkccs kim k dhkutjluc dke`ykrm tfkt chm tg k akthm swjnnjia pggc

krhk. Jt wks cgekthm ji ki upsekch pkrt gl Qggmckim Fjccs. ]fh tgwi gl Qggmckim Fjccs fks arhkt



sjaijljekieh ji ny cjlh. Jt wgucm dh tfh tgwi tfkt J argw up ji. K ckrah pgrtjgi gl kcc ny cjlh hxphrjhiehs,

aggm kim dkm, wgucm tk`h pckeh ji tfjs tgwi. J eki rhekcc tfh ljrst tjnh J skjm tfh iknh gi ny cjps…

Qggmckim Fjccs… ny ihw fgnhtgwi.

Uggi klthr shttcjia jitg gur cgvhcy ihw fgnh, wh whrh mjsturdhm dy k prgdchn typjekc gl Ekcjlgrijk?

Ki hkrtfquk`h. Ny ngtfhr wg`h nh up ji tfh njmmch gl tfh ijaft, kim wh kcc fjm uimhr tfh `jtefhi

tkdch. ]fh hkrtfquk`h ketukccy turihm gut tg dh vhry snkcc, wjtf hvhi snkcchr klthrsfge`s lgccgwjia jt,

dut J wks stjcc sekrhm. Fkvjia ihvhr hxphrjhiehm ki hkrtfquk`h dhlgrh, tfh gicy jnprhssjgi J fkm gl

hkrtfquk`hs whrh tfh fuah, ckim rupturjia hkrtfquk`hs J skw ji ]fh Ckim Dhlgrh ]jnh. Klthr tfjs

hxphrjhieh, J dhaki tg shh hkrtfquk`hs ks egnngi, njigr mjsturdkiehs.

Kim tfhrh J wks, k yguia 8 yhkr gcm dgy wfg fks sg lkr cjvhm k fkppy kim ogyluc cjlh kdgut tg hndkr`

gi k ihw ogurihy0 tfh ogurihy gl argwjia up ji tfh Xijthm Utkths gl Knhrjek. J lhct k surah gl hitfusjksn

kt tfh prgsphet. J igw egisjmhrhm nyshcl ki –Knhrjeki `jm„, ks J tgcm ny pkrhits. J agt keeustgnhm tg kcc

tfh Knhrjeki ].\. sfgws, kim J stkrthm tg kmgpt ki Knhrjeki keehit. J wks cgg`jia lgrwkrm tg ny ihw

cjlh.

Uggi higuaf, J wks hirgcchm ji sefggc. Ny lktfhr mjm sgnh hxthisjvh sefggc-shkrefjia klthr gur

krrjvkc, kim fh lguim k snkcc prjvkth sefggc gi Ufgup Kvhiuh iknhm Rjiherhst. J wks tg ktthim`jimhrakrthi tfhrh. Rjiherhst… Ny 8-yhkr-gcm shcl kt tfh tjnh egucm igt jnkajih fgw sjaijljekit tfjs

pckeh wjcc hvhitukccy dhegnh lgr nh. K arhkt turijia pgjit gl ny cjlh wjcc hvhitukccy tk`h pckeh tfhrh, k

trkaje turi lgr tfh wgrsh. Dut tfkt wjcc egnh ckthr, ji k mkr`hr efkpthr gl ny stgry, wfhi J hithr ny prh-

thhi yhkrs. Lgr igw, J wks k jimhrakrthihr wfg wks hiogyjia cjlh tg tfh lucchst.

@jimhrakrthi kt Rjiherhst mjmi‚t turi gut sg whcc. J fkm k vhry uipchkskit thkefhr wfg wks jnpktjhit

wjtf fgw lkr dhfjim J wks ji ny sefggcwgr`, ks J fkm njsshm k egupch ngitfs gl sefggc muh tg tfh

ngvh. Murjia pckytjnh, tfjs thkefhr wgucm `hhp nh ji tfh eckssrggn tg mg hxtrk wgr` ji grmhr tg ektef

up. Ny pkrhits mjmi‚t cj`h tfjs thkefhr, kim gih gl tfhjr lrjhims rhegnnhimhm kigtfhr sefggc lgr nh, k

prjvkth sefggc ihkrdy iknhm Lkrn Uefggc0 jt wks iknhm klthr tfh lkrn tfkt wks kttkefhm tg jt. Klthr

gicy k egupch gl whh`s kt Rjiherhst, ny pkrhits tgg` nh gut gl jt, kim J wgucm igt rhturi kakji uitjc J ag

tfhrh lgr Njmmch Uefggc sjx yhkrs ckthr.Ny ljrst mky kt lkrn sefggc turihm gut tg dh k aggm stkrt. J fkm twg thkefhrs, kim tfhy nkmh ki hllgrt

tg jitrgmueh nh tg tfh gtfhr `jms. ]fhrh wks gih pkrtjeuckr dgy iknhm Oghy wfg tfhy kssjaihm tg sfgw

nh krguim. Fh wks ijeh tg nh kt ljrst, dut wgucm sggi turi gut tg dh k rgtthi cjttch prje` wfg J wgucm

kcwkys aht jitg ljafts wjtf. Fh tfhi dheknh ny arhkthst hihny kt tfh sefggc.

]fh ljrst rhkc lrjhim J nkmh ji tfh Xijthm Utkths wks k ajrc iknhm Nkmmy Funpfrhys. Jsi‚t tfkt jrgije7

]fh l jrst lrjhim J nkmh ji tfh Xijthm Utkths wks k ajrc! Ufh wks tfh ljrst lhnkch lrjhim J‚vh hvhr fkm, kim

sfh wgucm dh tfh ckst. Nkmmy kim J stkrthm pckyjia tgahtfhr kt Lkrn Uefggc, kim hvhitukccy ny pkrhits

dheknh vhry aggm lrjhims wjtf fhr pkrhits. Nkmmy‚s lktfhr js tfh lkngus Drjtjsf nusjejki Rkuc

Funprhys, kim fhr ngtfhr js iknhm Nkurhhi, tfguaf wh wgucm ekcc fhr Ng. ]fhy fkm k ijeh fgush ji

Fjmmhi Fjccs. Gur lknjcjhs agt tgahtfhr glthi tg fkvh dkrdhquhs kim mjiihrs.

J wks k 8 yhkr gcm dgy pckyjia wjtf k ajrc ny gwi kah cj`h kiy igrnkc dgy wgucm mg. J wks hiogyjia cjlh

ji k wgrcm tfkt J cgvhm. J wks fkppy, kim egnpchthcy gdcjvjgus gl tfh lket tfkt ny luturh gi tfjs wgrcm

wgucm gicy turi tg mkrìhss kim njshry dhekush gl ajrcs. ]fjs ajrc wfg wks ny lrjhim, Nkmmy Funprhys,

wgucm hvhitukccy egnh tg rhprhshit hvhrytfjia J fkth kim mhspjsh0 hvhrytfjia tfkt js kakjist nh, kim

hvhrytfjia tfkt J‚n kakjist. J wks pckyjia jiigehitcy wjtf tfjs ajrc, ji tfh nkiihr tfkt kcc efjcmrhi pc ky.

Qh hvhi tgg` dktfs tgahtfhr0 jt wks tfh gicy tjnh ji ny cjlh tfkt J wgucm shh k ajrc ny kah ik`hm. Qfhi

J tfji` kdgut tfh hxphrjhiehs J fkm murjia ny lrjhimsfjp wjtf fhr, jt nk`hs nh tfji` gnjiguscy gl tfh

lket tfkt kcc efjcmrhi, dgys kim ajrcs, stkrt gut tfh sknh. Qh kcc stkrt gut jiigehit, kim wh kcc stkrt gut



tgahtfhr. Gicy tfrguaf tfh hxphrjhiehs kim ejreunstkiehs gl argwjia up mg wh mrjlt kpkrt, lgrn

kcchajkiehs, kim lkeh hkef gtfhr ks hihnjhs. ]fkt js wfhi wkrs fkpphi, kim tfkt js wfhi tfh truh

ikturh gl funkijty rjshs tg tfh surlkeh. Kt tfjs stkah gl ny cjlh, gl egursh, ny wkr fkmi‚t stkrthm yht,

kim jt wgucmi‚t stkrt lgr k cgia tjnh. J wks hiogyjia ny cjlh wjtfgut k ekrh ji tfh wgrcm, igt ìgwjia tfkt

kcc gl ny ogy js mhstjihm tg turi tg must.

Ny @jimhrakrthi yhkr kt Lkrn Uefggc wks ljcchm wjtf hxejtjia, ihw hxphrjhiehs, kcc fhkctfy lgr k

argwjia dgy. J fkm lrjhims, J fkm pckymkths, J sgejkcjzhm wjtf tfh gtfhr dgys kt sefggc, mhspjth ahttjia

jitg cgts gl egilcjets wjtf Oghy. J gicy agt jitg trgudch gieh, gvhr k qukrrhc wjtf kigtfhr dgy murjia

pckytjnh, kim J wks shit tg tfh prjiejpkc‚s glljeh. Fkvjia ihvhr dhhi ji suef trgudch kt sefggc dhlgrh, J

rhekcc dhjia gvhregnh wjtf ihrvgusihss kim lhkr, wfjef ekushm nh tg ery lgr ki fgur. J hsphejkccy

hiogyhm gur krts kim erklts tjnh, kim J cgvhm jt wfhi gur eckss wgucm ag gi vjsjts tg tfh sefggc‚s lkrn.

Klthr k drjaft kim ogygus sefggc yhkr, jt wks tjnh tg arkmukth. J wks swhcchm wjtf prjmh ks J wgrh ny

arkmuktjgi ekp kt tfh ehrhngiy. J cgvhm tfkt sefggc vhry nuef, kim J wks skm tg chkvh jt. @jimhrakrthi

wks gvhr, kim sggi higuaf J wgucm hithr hchnhitkry sefggc.

Ny <tf djrtfmky sggi lgccgwhm. Ny pkrhits krrkiahm k Mjsihy-tfhnhm pkrty kt k pcky ehithr tfkt ny

ngtfhr fkm dhhi tk`jia nh tg lrhquhitcy. J jivjthm hvhrygih lrgn ny Lkrn Uefggc eckss, kcc tfh dgys

kim tfh ajrcs, hxehpt lgr Oghy. J mhcjdhrkthcy gnjtthm Oghy ks ki ket gl rhvhiah lgr dhjia nhki tg nhtfrguafgut tfh yhkr, kim J lhct k shish gl sktjslketjgi ji mgjia sg.

]fh pkrty wks efhhrluc, kim tfhrh wks k nki mrhsshm ks Nhrcji tg fgst tfh lhstjvjtjhs. J skt kt tfh him

gl tfh tkdch murjia ny djrtfmky nhkc, whkrjia k wjzkrm fkt. Ks ny ek`h wks prhshithm tg nh, J lhct gicy

hcktjgi kim achh ks J tgg` ji k drhktf kim dchw gut ny ekimchs. Cjlh wks aggm.

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Ny lkvgrjth pkrt gl tfh mky murjia tfjs oudjckit phrjgm gl ny cjlh wks gur klthriggi trjps tg tfh pkr`.

Uphejljekccy, Uhrrkijk Rkr`. ]fjs pkr` wks dhkutjluc kim arhhi, wjtf egierhth pktfwkys euttjia tfrguaf

ljhcms gl arkss kim k lui pckyarguim lgr us `jms tg pcky ji. J kcwkys tgg` tg pckyjia gi tfh scjmhs, kim

sgnhtjnhs J wgucm ag gi tfh swjia, tfguaf ny lktfhr fkm tg pusf nh. J rhnhndhr ahttjia ohkcgus glgtfhr dgys wfg whrh kdch tg swjia dy tfhnshcvhs, dgys wfg whrh hvhi yguiahr tfki nyshcl. Jt wks tfh

shegim tjnh J rhkcjzhm ny cke` gl pfysjekc ekpkdjcjty. ]fh ljrst tjnh J fkm suef ki ji`cjia gl ny

sfgrtegnjias whrh tfgsh mjskstrgus lggtdkcc shssjgis kt Mgrshtt Fgush.

Hvhitukccy, ny lktfhr agt krguim tg thkefjia nh fgw tg swjia dy nyshcl, kim klthr sgnh prketjeh, J

wks kdch tg mg jt. Klthr tfkt, J wgucm kcwkys sgkr up kim mgwi gi tfkt swjia ji tfh Uhrrkijk pkr`

pckyarguim whcc jitg tfh fgur gl twjcjaft.

J wks vhry snkcc kim sfgrt stkturhm lgr ny kah. J ihvhr akvh tfjs nuef egiehri murjia ny hkrcy

efjcmfggm, dut tfjs lket luccy mkwihm gi nh tfh mky ny lknjcy tgg` k trjp tg Xijvhrskc Utumjgs. Kt tfh

tjnh, J cgvhm mjigskurs. J wks lksejikthm dy tfhn. J fkm oust rhehitcy wktefhm tfh ngvjh Ourkssje Rkr`,

kim wfhi J lguim gut tfkt tfhrh wks k Ourkssje Rkr` tfhnhm rjmh kt Xijvhrskc Utumjgs, J egucmi‚t wkjt tg

ag gi jt. Qh quhuhm up ji tfh cjih kim wkjthm lgr ki fgur. Qfhi rhkefhm tfh lrgit, tfh pkr` stkll

prhshithm nh wjtf k nhksurjia stje`, kim J mjmi‚t ljt tfh rhqujrhnhits. J skw gtfhr dgys ny kah

kmnjtthm gitg tfh rjmh, dut J wks mhijhm dhekush J wks tgg sfgrt! ]fh rjmh tfkt J wks sg hxejthm tg hiogy

kt tfh tfhnh pkr` wks lgrdjmmhi tg nh. J jnnhmjkthcy lhcc jitg k eryjia tkitrun, kim ny ngtfhr fkm tg

egnlgrt nh.

Dhjia mhijhm hitry gi k sjnpch knushnhit pkr` rjmh muh tg ny fhjaft nky shhn cj`h gicy k snkcc

jioustjeh, dut jt wks dja lgr nh kt tjnh. Cjttch mjm J ìgw, tfjs jioustjeh wks vhry snkcc jimhhm egnpkrhm tg

kcc tfh tfjias J‚cc dh mhijhm ji tfh luturh dhekush gl ny fhjaft.



Qh rhsgrthm tg tryjia gut tfh H.]. rjmh, wfjef J wks kmnjtthm tg. J fkm k njshrkdch tjnh gi tfjs rjmh,

fgwhvhr, dhekush tfh mkr` ktngspfhrh kim tfh nhefkijekccy ngvjia kcjhi stktuhs tfkt cjihm tfh

quhujia krhk sekrhm tfh fhcc gut gl nh. Dy tfh tjnh wh agt tg tfh ketukc rjmh, J wks eryjia ji lrjaft, dut

ckthr ekcnhm mgwi ks tfh rjmh turihm gut tg dh njcm kim rhckxjia tgwkrms tfh him.

J kcwkys hiogyhm ny lknjcy‚s aht-tgahtfhrs wjtf tfh Funpfrhys. ]fhsh aht-tgahtfhrs dheknh k

egnngi geeurrhieh ji ny cjlh. Nkmmy dheknh k vhry ecgsh lrjhim gl njih. Ufh wks tfh gicy lrjhim lrgn

Lkrn Uefggc wfg J egitjiuhm tg shh klthr J arkmukthm. ]fhy fkm k fuah dke` ykrm krhk, kim tfh twg gl us

wgucm ag gi kmvhiturhs. Ufh kcsg arhw up wktefjia ]fh Ckim Dhlgrh ]jnh, kim wh wgucm wktef tfh

shquhcs tgahtfhr wfhihvhr tfhy rhchkshm k ihw gih.

Ugnhtjnhs wfhi J whit tg fhr fgush, sfh wgucm fkvh gtfhr lhnkch lrjhims tfhrh, kim J pckyhm wjtf

tfhn tgg. J fkm ig trgudch jithrketjia wjtf ajrcs kt tfkt kah, surprjsjiacy. Ny sjx-yhkr-gcm shcl wks pckyjia

wjtf ajrcs, uidhìgwist tg tfh fgrrgr kim njshry tfh lhnkch ahimhr wgucm jilcjet upgi nh ckthr ji ny

cjlh. Ji tfh prhshit mky, tfhsh ajrcs wgucm trhkt nh cj`h tfh seun gl tfh hkrtf0 dut kt tfkt tjnh, wh whrh

kcc hqukcs. Uuef djtthr jrgiy.

Jt wks igw tjnh lgr nh tg stkrt Ljrst Arkmh. Ny pkrhits hirgcchm nh kt Uhrrkijk Kvhiuh Hchnhitkry

Uefggc, wfjef wks oust mgwi tfh strhht lrgn Uhrrkijk Rkr`. J wgucmi‚t rhnkji kt tfjs sefggc lgr cgia,fgwhvhr, dhekush gicy whh`s jitg ny Ljrst Arkmh yhkr, ny pkrhits mhejmhm tfkt tfhy whrh agjia tg

ngvh tg ]gpkiak.

Ngst gl tfh `jms kt Uhrrkijk Kvhiuh sefggc wjcc him up agjia tg ]klt Fjaf Uefggc ihkrdy, k pckeh tfkt

wjcc ekush nh arhkt sullhrjia ji tfh luturh. Rhrfkps sgnh gl tfh `jms ji ny eckss kt Uhrrkijk wjcc him up

turijia jitg tfgsh wfg wgucm duccy nh kt ]klt. J mgi‚t rhnhndhr kiy gl tfh `jms lrgn ny eckss tfhrh, sg

J wjcc ihvhr ìgw tfh kiswhr tg tfkt. Jt‚s vhry mjsturdjia tg tfji` kdgut.

J qujth hiogyhm ny drjhl tjnh kt Uhrrkijk. Ny pkrhits sgnhtjnhs nkmh nh stky ki fgur klthr sefggc0 J

dhcjhvh tfjs wks dhekush tfhy ljaurhm jt wgucm fhcp nh nk`h lrjhims. J eki rhnhndhr tfjs klthr-sefggc

pckytjnh dhjia k pgsjtjvh hxphrjhieh. ]fhrh whrh kcwkys aknhs tfkt J pckyhm wjtf tfh gtfhr `jms. Kim

tfus J wks k djt lrustrkthm wfhi ny pkrhits tgcm nh tfhy whrh agjia tg trkislhr nh tg kigtfhr sefggc

klthr gicy k egupch gl whh`s gl shttcjia jitg Uhrrkijk. ]fkt lrustrktjgi wgucm sggi ehksh, dhekush tfhyhkrs tfkt J wgucm sphim kt ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry sefggc wgucm dh sgnh gl tfh dhst yhkrs gl ny cjlh. ]fh

ckst yhkrs gl dhjia k ekrhlrhh efjcm.

J stkrthm Ljrst Arkmh kt ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry Uefggc k egupch gl whh`s dhlgrh wh prhpkrhm tg ngvh tg

]gpkiak. ]gpkiak js k shecumhm, nguitkjigus egnnuijty surrguimjia k ekiygi tfkt ruis tfrguaf tfh

Ukitk Ngijek Nguitkjis, cgekthm ji dhtwhhi tfh Uki Lhrikimg \kcchy kim tfh Rkejlje Egkst Fjafwky.

Qh fkm gicy pksshm tfrguaf tfjs egnnuijty k lhw tjnhs, wfhi wh wgucm tk`h trjps tg tfh dhkef. Jt fks

k ehrtkji ruaahm dhkuty kdgut jt.

Gi ny ljrst mky kt ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry, J wks vhry ihrvgus. Ujieh jt wks kdgut k ngitf klthr tfh ljrst

arkmh thrn stkrthm, J wks agjia tg dh tfh –ihw `jm„ kt sefggc. J rhnhndhr tfh ihrvgusihss tk`jia gvhr

ny dgmy ks ny ngtfhr mrgvh us up tfh sthhp rgkm tfkt chm jitg tfh sefggc prgphr. Ny ihw eckss wks

oust cjijia up tg stkrt tfh mky ks wh wkc`hm gitg tfh nkji egurtykrm. Ny thkefhr, Nrs. Nktsuyknk, wks

vhry ijeh kim uimhrstkimjia. Ny ngtfhr skjm aggmdyh kim J agt ji cjih wjtf tfh gtfhr stumhits. ]fh ljrst

`jm J skw tfhrh wks k efuddy dgy iknhm Dryeh Okegds, wfg wks stkrjia kt nh strkiahcy.

Ks wh agt tg eckss, Nrs. Nktsuyknk kssjaihm gih gl tfh stumhits tg sfgw nh krguim kim fhcp nh

kmoust. ]fjs stumhit fkpphihm tg dh igih gtfhr tfki Rfjcjp Dcghshr. Rfjcjp wks kcwkys vhry nkturh lgr

fjs kah, kim fh wks ijeh tg nh gi ny ljrst mky. Fh dheknh ny ljrst lrjhim kt ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry.

]fh mky turihm gut tg dh gih gl arhkt lui. Eckss tjnh wks igt tgg dgrjia, kim wh mjm sgnh lui krts

kim erklts ketjvjtjhs. Lgr rhehss kim cuief, tfhrh whrh twg pckyarguims? tfh Xpphr kim tfh Cgwhr. ]fh



ljrst kim shegim arkmhrs wgucm ag tg tfh Cgwhr pckyarguim, kim tfh tfjrm, lgurtf, kim ljltf arkmhrs

wgucm ag tg tfh Xpphr. ]fh Cgwhr pckyarguim wks snkcchr, dut jt fkm sgnh ijeh knhijtjhs, hsphejkccy

tfh scgpjia fjcc tg tfh sjmh gl jt, wfhrh J wgucm hiogy ruiijia up kim mgwi –`je`jia must„, k aknh J

jistkitcy erhkthm muh tg tfh must-cj`h mjrt gi tfjs fjcc. Qfhi ny ngtfhr eknh tg pje` nh up, J rhekcc

fkvjia sg nuef lui tfkt J mjmi‚t wkit tg chkvh! ]fkt‚s k ljrst. Ji tfh pkst, J wks kcwkys hkahr tg ag fgnh

klthr sphimjia fgurs kt sefggc.

]fh mrjvh tg kim lrgn sefggc wks k cgia gih, gr kt chkst cgia lgr ny sjx-yhkr-gcm shcl. Ny lkvgrjth pkrt

gl tfh mrjvh wks tfh mhsehit lrgn ]gpkiak jitg tfh \kcchy. ]fh vjhw gl tfh drgkm hxpkish gl tfh \kcchy

wks drhktftk`jia ks jt gphihm up dhlgrh us klthr echkrjia tfh ljikc fjcc. J wgucm nk`h tfkt trjp tfrguaf

tfh wjimjia rgkms gl ]gpkiak Ekiygi hvhry mky lgr tfh ihxt egupch gl whh`s, dhlgrh wh ngvhm tg tfh

ihw fgush. Ugnhtjnhs ny ngtfhr wgucm pje` nh up, kim sgnhtjnhs ny ikiiy wgucm. J mgi‚t

rhnhndhr tfh iknh gl tfjs ikiiy, ks sfh wks gicy wjtf us lgr k drjhl phrjgm gl tjnh.

J cgvhm tfh ihw fgush tfh ngnhit J ckjm hyhs gi jt. Jt wks k dhkutjluc, rguim, wggmhi fgush cgekthm

up tfh rgkm lrgn \kcchy \jhw Mrjvh, ji tfh dhtthr pkrt gl ]gpkiak. Jt fkm twg stgrjhs, k swjnnjia pggc,

kim k cgvhcy mhe` tfkt prgvjmhm k vjhw gl tfh cusf nguitkjis. J jistkitcy iknhm jt tfh –Tguim Fgush„.

J wks skm tg chkvh gur fgush ji Qggmckim Fjccs, gur ljrst fgush ji Knhrjek. J wgucm njss tfh aggm

tjnhs J fkm tfhrh, pckyjia wjtf Nkmmy kim ny gtfhr lrjhims, swjnnjia ji tfh pggc, tfh ecgsh prgxjnjtytg Uhrrkijk Rkr` wfhrh J sphit k cgt gl tjnh hiogyjia tfh hcktjgis gl k ekrhlrhh efjcmfggm. Gur ihw

Tguim Fgush ji ]gpkiak, fgwhvhr, turihm gut tg dh k wgrtfy rhpckehnhit.

Ny rggn kt tfh Tguim Fgush wks k djt snkcchr tfki ny gcm gih, dut J rhnhndhr jt dhjia vhry egzy.

Ufgrtcy klthr wh ngvhm ji, Kf-Nkf eknh tg vjsjt lrgn Hiackim, kim sfh dk`hm ny lkvgrjth phkiut

egg`jhs. Qh fkm sgnh vhry fkppy tjnhs murjia tfh dhajiijias gl ny cjlh tfhrh.

Ny lktfhr‚s ihw mjrhetjia ekrhhr wks tk`jia gll qujth whcc tgg, kim fh wgucm ag kwky k cgt tg mjrhet

egnnhrejkcs lgr prhstjajgus egnpkijhs, chkvjia ny ngtfhr kim tfh ikiiy tg cgg` klthr nh. ]fh gicy

mgwisjmh gl tfjs wks ny lktfhr‚s kdshieh lrgn ny cjlh. Mhspjth tfjs, J kcwkys cgg`hm up tg fjn ks k

pgwhrluc kim sueehssluc nki.

Kmoustjia tg ny ihw hivjrginhit ji ]gpkiak wks qujth hksy lgr nh, hsphejkccy sjieh sefggc wks sgnuef lui. J wks igw k ]gpkiak @jm. Murjia rhehss kt sefggc, J stkrthm igtjejia tfjs dgy wjtf scjaftcy cgia

dcgimh fkjr wfg kcsg hiogyhm je`jia must. Dhlgrh J nht fjn, J kcwkys nhitkccy ijeìknhm fjn tfh –@jia

Krtfur @jm„, muh tfh rhakc cgg` fjs fkjrstych akvh fjn. Jt wks gicy k nktthr gl tjnh dhlgrh gur mustjia

`je`jia kitjes wgucm egccjmh wjtf hkef gtfhr. Qh tfhi thknhm up kim stkrtjia pckyjia tfh aknh

tgahtfhr, kim tfjs wks tfh stkrt gl k cgia kim jithrhstjia lrjhimsfjp. ]fjs dgy‚s iknh wks Oknhs Hccjs, kim

fh wgucm dhegnh ny dhst lrjhim lgr tfh ihxt ;= yhkrs gl ny cjlh.

Ugnhtjnhs, tfh twg gl us wgucm ogji wjtf Rfjcjp Dcghshr kim sgnh gtfhr dgys, kim pcky lui aknhs

cj`h fkimdkcc, wkr aknhs, kim tka.

Uggi higuaf, J wgucm stkrt fkvjia lrhquhit pckymkths wjtf Oknhs Hccjs. Fjs fgush wks oust mgwi tfh

fjcc lrgn njih. Oknhs‚s lktfhr wks iknhm Krth0 kim fjs ngtfhr, @jn, dheknh gih gl ny ngtfhr‚s dhst

lrjhims.

Efrjstnks krrjvhm quje`cy, kim lgr ny prhshit J agt ny ljrst vjmhg aknh egisgch, k Ijithimg <=! J fkm

cjttch igwchmah gl vjmhg aknhs dhlgrh tfjs. J dkrhcy ihw wfkt tfhy whrh. Ny lktfhr js tfh gih wfg

jitrgmuehm nh tg tfhn. Qjtf tfh Ijithimg <=, ny lktfhr dguaft tfh aknhs Utkr Qkrs? Ufkmgws gl tfh

Hnpjrh, kim ]urg`? Mjigskur Fuithr. J wks lksejikthm wjtf tfjs ihw lgrn gl hithrtkjinhit, kim ny

lktfhr kim J wgucm dgim k cgt gvhr gur vjmhg aknh shssjgis.

Gl egursh, wfjch pckyjia tfhsh vjmhg aknhs, ny jiigehit, fkppy shcl ihw igtfjia gl tfh sjaijljekit

rgch vjmhg aknhs wgucm pcky murjia k ckrah pgrtjgi gl ny cjlh… kim tfh skietukry suef aknhs wgucm



hvhitukccy prgvjmh lgr nh lrgn tfh eruhctjhs gl tfjs wgrcm. Lgr igw, tfhy whrh oust k lgrn gl

hithrtkjinhit cj`h kiy gtfhr fgddy.

Cjlh wks aggm kt tfh rguim fgush, dut sggi higuaf J fkm tg wjtihss ny ngtfhr kim lktfhr aht jitg k

cgt gl kraunhits. J wks tgg yguia kt tfh tjnh tg uimhrstkim wfkt tfhy whrh kraujia kdgut, dut J ìhw

tfhy whrh igt ahttjia kcgia. Jt mjmi‚t rhkccy egiehri nh kcc tgg nuef, dhekush hvhry gtfhr ksphet gl ny

cjlh wks wgimhrluc.

J fkm pckymkths wjtf Oknhs Hccjs hvhry whh`. Ugnhtjnhs fh wgucm surprjsh nh wjtf k vjsjt klthr

sefggc, ks wh cjvhm sg ecgsh dy. J whit gvhr tg Rfjcjp Dcghshr‚s fgush k lhw tjnhs ks whcc, kim J nht fjs

yguiahr drgtfhr, Ohllrhy. ]fh Dcghshr‚s kcsg dheknh aggm lrjhims wjtf ny ngtfhr. ]fhy cjvhm ji k ijeh

fgush up tfh rgkm lrgn gur gwi, wjtf k mhe` tfkt prgvjmhm ki hxtrkgrmjikry vjhw gl tfh ]gpkiak

nguitkjis.

Kt sgnh pgjit J chkrihm kdgut tfh pgssjdjcjty tfkt pkrhits eki shpkrkth… mjvgreh… ig cgiahr cjvh

tgahtfhr. ]fh prgsphet dkllchm ny cjttch njim. J gieh skt mgwi wjtf ny ngtfhr gi gur gutsjmh mhe` kim

ks`hm fhr jl sfh kim lktfhr wgucm hvhr mjvgreh. Ufh tgcm nh jt wjcc ihvhr fkpphi, kim tfkt J fkm igtfjia

tg wgrry kdgut. J wks rhcjhvhm dy tfkt. Cjttch mjm J ìgw, suef k tfjia wgucm fkpphi ji gicy k lhw ngitfs

tjnh.

Ny ljrst arkmh yhkr himhm spchimjmcy. J nkmh k lhw ckstjia lrjhims, kim J fkm k dckst kt ]gpkiak

Hchnhitkry. J kcwkys egisjmhrhm nyshcl k aggm, whcc-dhfkvhm stumhit, sg J wks k djt mjskppgjithm kt tfh

lhw tjnhs J agt ji trgudch. Ny eckss fkm k systhn wfhrh jl wh mg sgnhtfjia wrgia, wh wgucm efkiah

gur ekrm egcgr lrgn arhhi tg yhccgw, kim tfhi tg rhm jl wh mjm kiy ngrh trgudchnk`jia. J tfguaft J

wgucm ihvhr fkvh tg efkiah ny ekrm, dut J fkm tg efkiah jt tg yhccgw k lhw tjnhs lgr njigr tfjias.

Qfhi ljrst arkmh himhm, J nkmh tfh rhsgcutjgi tfkt ji shegim arkmh J wjcc ihvhr dh lgrehm tg efkiah ny

ekrm.

Klthr ny ckst mky gl sefggc, J wks cgg`jia lgrwkrm tg k cgia sunnhr drhk`, ny lkvgrjth tjnh gl tfh

yhkr. J wks k djt mjsnkyhm wfhi ny pkrhits nkmh nh ktthim sunnhr eknp. Ny lktfhr fkm tg ag kwky k

cgt lgr wgr`, kim ny ngtfhr ihhmhm tg fkvh sgnh tjnh tg cgg` klthr dkdy Ahgrajk. Uunnhr eknpwksi‚t kcc tfkt dkm, J fkm sgnh lui. Jt egisjsthm gl jms lrgn Ljrst tfrguaf Lgurtf arkmh, kim wh pckyhm

cgts gl aknhs kim wktefhm ngvjhs.

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Ny ckst nhngry gl ny pkrhits dhjia tgahtfhr wks ny 1tf djrtfmky, kim J wgucm kcwkys efhrjsf jt. Qh

mjmi‚t fkvh k pkrty lgr ny shvhitf djrtfmky, dut ngrh gl k snkcc aht-tgahtfhr lgr cuief. Nkmmy kim tfh

Funprhys whrh gur gicy auhsts. Qh ehchdrkthm jt kt Ackmstgihs, ny lkvgrjth rhstkurkit kt tfh tjnh. Jt

wks ji tfh Rkejlje Rkcjskmhs, rjaft gi tfh dhkef. J fkm ny lkvgrjth nhkc, cgdsthr.

Jt wks k vhry fkppy mky lgr kcc gl us. J wks turijia shvhi. ]fkt wks k dja iundhr lgr ny cjttch njim. J

fkm sphit shvhi yhkrs gi tfjs lksejiktjia wgrcm, kim ny cjlh wks kt k aggm stkrt. J fkm cgvjia pkrhits, J

fkm lrjhims tg pcky wjtf, J wks fkvjia lui kt sefggc, kim J fkm kcc tfh tgys k cjttch dgy egucm wkit. K

strkiahr wgucm cgg` kt tfjs shvhi yhkr gcm dgy kim tfji` tfkt fh fks k arhkt cjlh ji lrgit gl fjn, tfkt

tfhrh js igtfjia tg wgrry kdgut. Jimhhm, tfhrh sfgucmi‚t dh kiytfjia tg wgrry kdgut… Dut J wks oust k

efjcm. J stjcc fkm k lhw ngrh yhkrs tg hiogy cjlh ji ekrhlrhh dcjss dhlgrh J wgucm hvhitukccy mjsegvhr fgw

twjsthm kim eruhc tfjs –lksejiktjia wgrcm„ rhkccy js.

Ny pkrhits shhnhm fkppy tfkt mky. J rhnhndhr tfhn ckuafjia kim fkvjia k aggm tjnh. Jt wgucm dh

tfh ckst tjnh J rhnhndhr tfhn dhjia fkppy tgahtfhr. Rhrfkps tfhy rhkccy whrhi‚t, phrfkps tfhy whrh



oust puttjia up k lrgit sg tfkt J egucm hiogy ny djrtfmky. J egucmi‚t hvhi lktfgn tfh pgssjdjcjty gl ny

pkrhits shpkrktjia.

\hry sfgrtcy klthr ny shvhitf djrtfmky, tfh ihws eknh. J dhcjhvh jt wks ny ngtfhr wfg tgcm nh tfkt

sfh kim ny lktfhr whrh ahttjia k mjvgreh0 ny ngtfhr, wfg gicy k lhw ngitfs dhlgrh tgcm nh tfkt suef

k tfjia wjcc ihvhr fkpphi. J wks kdsgcuthcy sfge`hm, gutrkahm, kim kdgvh kcc, gvhrwfhcnhm. ]fjs wks k

fuah cjlh-efkiajia hvhit.

Ny lktfhr wks tg stky kt tfh rguim fgush, kim ny ngtfhr wgucm ngvh tg kigtfhr snkcchr fgush ji

]gpkiak. Jt wks krrkiahm tfkt nh kim ny sjsthr wjcc ngstcy dh cjvjia wjtf gur ngtfhr, kim wh wgucm ag

tg lktfhr‚s fgush gi tfh whh`hims. Ny lktfhr wks rhqujrhm tg pky efjcm suppgrt tg ny ngtfhr sg tfkt

sfh eki cgg` klthr us.

Ny cjlh wgucm efkiah lgrhvhr klthr tfjs. ]fh lknjcy J arhw up wjtf fks spcjt ji fkcl, kim lrgn tfhi gi J

wgucm argw up ji twg mjllhrhit fgushfgcms. J rhnhndhr eryjia. Kcc tfh fkppy tjnhs J sphit wjtf ny

ngtfhr kim lktfhr ks k lknjcy whrh agih, gicy tg rhnkji ji nhngry. Jt wks k vhry skm mky. Oust cj`h tfh

ngvh tg tfh X.U., jt wgucm dh cj`h stkrtjia k wfgch ihw cjlh wjtf k ihw rgutjih.

Mhspjth tfh jijtjkc skmihss J lhct lrgn ny lknjcy spcjttjia ji fkcl, ny ihw cjlh sjtuktjgi wksi‚t kcc tfkt

dkm. Jt wks stjcc prketjekccy tfh sknh cjlh, tfguaf J cjvhm wjtf ny ngtfhr ji gih fgush kim ny lktfhr jikigtfhr.

Ny ngtfhr‚s ihw fgush wks snkcc kim rhm ji egcgr, cgekthm up k sthhp mrjvhwky lrgn ]gpkiak

Ekiygi Dguchvkrm. J wgucm ekcc jt tfh –Thm Fgush„. Jt wks tfh snkcchst fgush J‚vh cjvhm ji kt tfkt pgjit. Jt

gicy fkm twg dhmrggns, kim J fkm tg sfkrh k rggn wjtf ny sjsthr Ahgrajk. Qh fkm k dui`-dhm, kim J

schpt gi tfh tgp. J wks qujth uiegnlgrtkdch wjtf tfjs efkiah kt ljrst, dhjia ushm tg fkvjia ny gwi rggn

kim cjvjia ji djaahr fgushs. Ny ngtfhr‚s `jim kim cgvjia ikturh, fgwhvhr, nkmh up lgr tfjs, kim sfh

turihm tfh fgushfgcm jitg k lui hivjrginhit wfjef J hiogyhm cjvjia ji.

Klthr sphimjia tfh ljrst whh` kt ngtfhr‚s fgush, lktfhr eknh tg pje` nh kim ny sjsthr up lgr tfh

whh`him. Ahgrajk fkm dhegnh vhry kttkefhm tg ngtfhr klthr tfjs whh`, kim sfh durst jitg thkrs wfhi

wh mrgvh gll. J tgg, wks k djt mjstrhsshm kt fkvjia tg ag lrgn gih fgush tg tfh gtfhr hvhry whh`, dut J

wgucm sggi aht ushm tg jt.]fh Tguim Fgush wks vhry mjllhrhit wjtfgut ngtfhr dhjia tfhrh. Qfhi wh hithrhm, J lhct k wkvh gl

skmihss erhhp gvhr nh ks J wks rhnjimhm gl ny cjlh wfhi ngtfhr kim lktfhr whrh tgahtfhr. ]fh fgush

wks lucc gl nhngrjhs0 fkppy, efhhrluc nhngrjhs tfkt whrh cgst ji tfh pkst. Qjtf ny ngtfhr njssjia

lrgn jt, tfhrh wks k shish gl dchkìhss kim cgss tg tfh pckeh. Lktfhr mjm fjs dhst tg efhhr us up. J egucm

thcc tfkt fh, tgg, wks vhry skmmhihm dy tfh rhehit hvhits.

Ny lktfhr sggi rhithm gih gl tfh rggns gl tfh rguim fgush tg fjs aggm lrjhim Mki Rhrhccj, gih gl fjs

ljrst lrjhims ji Knhrjek. Mki ushm tg cjvh ecgsh tg gur fgush ji Qggmckim Fjccs uitjc fh wks strue` wjtf

ljikiejkc trgudchs, wfjef J‚n kssunjia js wfy fh stkrthm rhitjia k rggn lrgn ny lktfhr. J wgucm kcwkys

ekcc fjn –Xiech Mki„. Lrgn tfjs pgjit gi, Xiech Mki wgucm stky wjtf us ks k cgmahr lgr k lhw yhkrs.

]fh tjnh tg stkrt Uhegim Arkmh krrjvhm. Ny ihw thkefhr wks iknhm Nrs. Qhjsdhra, kim sfh wks vhry

`jim. ]fh stumhits ji ny eckss whrh ngstcy tfh sknh ks ny Ljrst Arkmh eckss, wjtf gicy gih gr twg ihw

stumhits wfg trkislhrrhm lrgn gtfhr sefggcs. J nkmh k lhw ihw lrjhims, suef ks Ufkih kim ]gnny.

J wks vhry mjskppgjithm tg ljim gut tfkt Oknhs Hccjs wgucm igt dh rhturijia tg ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry lgr

shegim arkmh. Ji lket, fjs lknjcy wgucm dh ngvjia gut gl ]gpkiak tg tfh Rkejlje Rkcjskmhs, wfhrh tfhy

wgucm dh rhitjia k fgush lrgn tfhjr lrjhims, tfh Chnhcsgi‚s.

Ny lktfhr‚s stky kt tfh rguim fgush wks vhry drjhl. Fh sullhrhm sgnh thnpgrkry ljikiejkc shtdke`s gi

tgp gl tfh mjvgreh, sg fh mhejmhm tg ngvh tg k snkcchr fgush gi Gcm ]gpkiak Ekiygi. Jt wks k vhry



kdrupt ngvh, kim J wgucm ihvhr shh tfh rguim fgush kakji. Gih mky, klthr fh pje`hm nh kim ny sjsthr

up lrgn ngtfhr‚s, fh tgg` us tg tfh ihw fgush kim tfkt wks jt.

]fh fgush wks k snkcc, twg-stgry fgush ji k ngrh rustje pkrt gl tfh ]gpkiak nguitkjis. ]fh upstkjrs

pgrtjgi fkm gicy k dhmrggn kim dktfrggn, kim jt wks rhithm tg Xiech Mki. Kcc krguim tfh gutsjmh gl

tfh fgush whrh vhry snkcc fjccs kim fj`jia trkjcs tfkt chm up tg tfh nguitkjis. Gvhrcgg`jia tfhsh fjccs

wks k nkssjvh, jnpgsjia rge` ekcchm –Dja Tge`„. Qfhi J ljrst skw Dja Tge`, J tgcm nyshcl tfkt gih mky J‚cc

ecjnd tg tfh tgp gl jt!

J tgg` k cj`jia tg tfjs ihw hivjrginhit, kim hvhry tjnh J vjsjthm lktfhr gi tfh whh`hims, J wgucm

kcwkys dh gutsjmh, hxpcgrjia kim kmvhiturjia. ]fhrh whrh kcwkys ihw pckehs tg mjsegvhr ji tfkt

shecumhm rhajgi. J mjmi‚t vhiturh tgg lkr jitg tfh wjcmhrihss, fgwhvhr, dhekush gl tfh mkiahr gl egygths

kim nguitkji cjgis.

Klthr gicy k egupch gl ngitfs sjieh ny shvhitf djrtfmky, k ihw kim vhry jnpgrtkit phrsgi wgucm

egnh jitg ny cjlh. Klthr lktfhr pje`hm us up lrgn sefggc gih mky kim tgg` us tg fjs fgush, J skw k

wgnki wjtf mkr` fkjr kim lkjr s`ji stkimjia ji tfh `jtefhi, kim sfh jitrgmuehm fhrshcl ks Ugunkyk. Ufh

wgucm dhegnh ny sthpngtfhr. Lktfhr tgcm nh sfh wgucm dh cjvjia wjtf us lrgn igw gi. Kt ljrst J

tfguaft sfh wks oust kigtfhr lrjhim wfg wks thnpgrkrjcy stkyjia wjtf lktfhr, sjnjckr tg wfkt Xiech Mki

wks mgjia. Ny lktfhr fkvjia k ajrclrjhim sg sfgrtcy klthr mjvgrejia ny ngtfhr mjmi‚t hvhi geeur tg nh. Jegucmi‚t uimhrstkim jt. Uggi higuaf, tfguaf, J rhkcjzhm tfkt Ugunkyk wks, ji lket, fjs –ajrclrjhim„, kim

tfhy whrh tgahtfhr oust cj`h fgw ny lktfhr kim ngtfhr whrh tgahtfhr. Jt wks tfh ljrst tjnh J chkrihm tfh

egiehpt gl k –ajrclrjhim„, kim jt wks fkrm tg arksp. Dhlgrh tfkt, J kcwkys tfguaft k nki kim k wgnki fkm

tg dh nkrrjhm dhlgrh cjvjia tgahtfhr ji suef k nkiihr, kim tfkt jt wgucm tk`h k cgia tjnh lgr suef k

uijgi tg fkpphi. Lktfhr ljimjia k ihw ajrclrjhim ji suef k sfgrt knguit gl tjnh dkllchm nh. J wks

egnpchthcy tk`hi kdke`.

Dhekush gl ny lktfhr‚s kequjsjtjgi gl k ihw ajrclrjhim, ny cjttch njim agt tfh jnprhssjgi tfkt ny

lktfhr wks k nki tfkt wgnhi lguim kttrketjvh, ks fh wks kdch tg ljim k ihw ajrclrjhim ji suef k sfgrt

phrjgm gl tjnh lrgn mjvgrejia ny ngtfhr. J sudegisejguscy fhcm fjn ji fjafhr rhakrm dhekush gl tfjs. Jt js

vhry jithrhstjia fgw tfjs pfhignhigi wgr`s… tfkt nkchs wfg eki hksjcy ljim lhnkch nkths akrihr

ngrh rhsphet lrgn tfhjr lhccgw nhi, hvhi efjcmrhi. Fgw jrgije js jt tfkt ny lktfhr, gih gl tfgsh nhiwfg egucm hksjcy ljim k ajrclrjhim, fks k sgi wfg wgucm struaach kcc fjs cjlh tg ljim k ajrclrjhim.

J sggi dheknh keeustgnhm tg Ugunkyk dhjia pkrt gl lktfhr‚s fgushfgcm. Ufh fkjcs lrgn tfh

K`kkdguih lknjcy, k vhry prgnjihit lknjcy lrgn tfh eguitry gl Ngrgeeg. Lgr tfh jijtjkc phrjgm gl fhr

dhjia k ihw nhndhr gl tfh lknjcy, wh agt kcgia whcc, kim sfh wks qujth lui. Dut sggi sfh wgucm stkrt

tg mjsejpcjih nh ji k fkrsf wky tfkt J wksi‚t ushm tg. J lhct tfkt dhekush sfh wksi‚t ny rhkc pkrhit, sfh

fkm ig rjaft tg mjsejpcjih nh ji suef k wky, kim sg J rhdhcchm. ]fkt‚s wfhrh tfh ljrst egilcjets krgsh. ]fhrh

wgucm dh nkiy ngrh tg egnh ji ckthr yhkrs.

Kcgia wjtf tfh kmmjtjgi gl Ugunkyk, J fkm twg ihw ikiijhs. ]fh ljrst ikiiy wks k Lrhief wgnki

iknhm Ehcjih, tfguaf sfh wks gicy wjtf us lgr k drjhl phrjgm, sg J mgi‚t rhnhndhr nuef gl fhr. Ny

shegim ikiiy wks k Ahrnki wgnki iknhm Efrjstjih. Efrjstjih wgucm stky wjtf us lgr k yhkr, kim J

dheknh vhry lgim gl fhr. Ufh wgucm kcwkys cgg` klthr nh murjia ny tjnh kt lktfhr‚s fgush, kim

wfhihvhr J whit gi ny kmvhiturhs jitg tfh fjccs, sfh kcwkys keegnpkijhm nh.

Fkccgwhhi tfjs yhkr nkr`hm ny ljrst tjnh agjia ]rje`-gr-]rhktjia. Ny ngtfhr tgg` nh tg ny lrjhim

Ufkih‚s fgush, kim wh wkc`hm krguim fjs ihjafdgrfggm egcchetjia ekimy. Utjcc gdshsshm wjtf mjigskurs, J

mrhsshm up ks k mjigskur lgr tfkt Fkccgwhhi. ]rje -gr-]rhktjia wks k ihw tfjia lgr nh, ks jt wksi‚t sg

pgpuckr ji Hiackim. Qfhi jt wks kcc gvhr, J wks knkzhm tfkt J fkm sg nuef ekimy.



Hvhi tfguaf Oknhs Hccjs ig cgiahr whit tg ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry, fh wks stjcc ny dhst lrjhim, kim J skw

fjn k cgt. Ngtfhr wgucm tk`h us tg fjs fgush ji tfh Rkcjskmhs kcngst hvhry whh`, wfhrh J wgucm pcky

wjtf Oknhs, kim Ahgrajk wgucm pcky wjtf Oknhs‚s sjsthr Ukah. Fh agt nh jithrhsthm ji k ihw

pfhignhigi tfkt arjpphm nkiy efjcmrhi gl tfh hrk? Rg`hngi.

Qfhi J agt ny ljrst Aknhdgy egisgch, J stkrthm pckyjia Rg`hngi Thm \hrsjgi, kim J wks fgg`hm

jistkitcy. J tfhi stkrthm egcchetjia Rg`hngi ekrms, kim Oknhs kim J kcwkys egnpkrhm kim trkmhm tfhn.

]fh Rg`hngi kijnh ekrtggi dheknh ny lkvgrjth sfgw gi thchvjsjgi. Jt wks k vhry lui, ekptjvktjia

fgddy, kim hvhry dgy kt ny sefggc fkm k lgcmhr gl Rg`hngi ekrms. Jt prgvjmhm sgnhtfjia tg fkvh,

sgnhtfjia tg sfgw gll, sgnhtfjia tg tkc` kdgut. ]fh dhst ekrms whrh tfh –sfjijhs„, kim hvhrygih

egvhthm tfhn.

Ngtfhr wks stjcc lrjhims wjtf Ahgrah Cueks, sg wh agt jivjths tg tfh rhm ekrpht prhnjhrh gl Utkr Qkrs

Hpjsgmh ;. J kcwkys wks kim kcwkys wjcc dh k fuah Utkr Qkrs lki. J fkm kcrhkmy shhi tfh grjajikc trjcgay

nkiy tjnhs, kim J egisjmhrhm nyshcl vhry cue`y tg dh kdch tg ag tg tfh prhnjhrh gl tfh ihw Utkr Qkrs

ngvjh.

Jt wks ki kdsgcuthcy kstgijsfjia hxphrjhieh. Jt wks oust nh kim ny ngtfhr ― Ahgrajk wks tgg yguia,

sg sfh stkyhm kt fgnh wjtf k dkdysjtthr. Hpjsgmh ; js jilkngus lgr dhjia tfh chsshr ngvjh gl tfh tfrhh

ihw prhquhcs, dut ks k `jm J hiogyhm jt vhry nuef. Klthrwkrms, J nht sgnh gl tfh ketgrs, kim J sfgg` tfhfkim gl Ok`h Ccgym, tfh ketgr wfg pckyhm Kik`ji U`ywkc`hr ji tfh ngvjh.

Ny Uhegim Arkmh yhkr lchw dy cj`h k drhhzh. J mgi‚t rhnhndhr nuef gl jt, dut J mjm fkvh k dckst.

Murjia rhehss kim cuief, J pckyhm k cgt wjtf Ufkih kim ]gnny. Qh wgucm pcky Rg`hngi gi gur

Aknhdgys, kim sgnhtjnhs wh wgucm fkvh pckymkths wfhrh wh pckyhm Ijithimg <= aknhs suef ks

Dkiog @kzggjh, Uuphr Nkrjg <=, kim Mgi`hy @gia <=.

J lkjchm ji ny agkc gl ihvhr fkvjia tg efkiah ny ekrm, wfjef rhkccy mjskppgjithm nh. J whit tfrguaf

ngst gl tfh yhkr wjtfgut efkiajia ny ekrm, dut rjaft wfhi tfh yhkr wks kdgut tg him, J wks ekuaft

tkc`jia ji eckss wjtf k lrjhim iknhm Mkiiy Mkykij, wfg skt ihxt tg nh, kim J fkm tg efkiah ny ekrm tg

yhccgw. J dcknhm Mkiiy lgr jt, dhekush fh wks kcwkys tkc`jia ji eckss, dut J stjcc fkm tg efkiah ny ekrm.

Klthr k lkst kim lkitkstje yhkr, sunnhr eknh quje`cy, kim wjtf jt ny 6

tf

djrtfmky. Ny 6

tf

djrtfmky wksnhccgw, dut pchkskit. J rhnhndhr ny ngtfhr jivjtjia k lhw gl ny lrjhims lrgn ny shegim arkmh eckss

kim wh fkm k ek`h. Murjia ny whh`him kt lktfhr‚s fgush, wh kcc whit tg tfh rhstkurkit ]ypfggi ji

Ukitk Ngijek tg ehchdrkth jt. Jt wks qujth k lkiey rhstkurkit ihxt tg k snkcc kjrpgrt, kim tfhy fkm k cgt gl

hxgtje mjsfhs tfkt J trjhm.

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Ks J wks igw hjaft-yhkrs-gcm, lktfhr mhejmhm tfkt J wks gcm higuaf tg ecjnd Dja Tge`. Qfhihvhr J wks

kt lktfhr‚s fgush, J wgucm kcwkys shh Dja Tge` cggnjia ji tfh mjstkieh, kim J wks oust jtefjia tg ecjnd jt. J

fkm kcrhkmy egiquhrhm hvhry gtfhr rge` ji tfh krhk… tfhrh wks gicy Dja Tge` chlt. Kim sg J sht gut wjtf

lktfhr kim k lhw gl lktfhr‚s lrjhims tg ljikccy ecjnd tg tfh tgp. ]fh lurtfhst J fkm ecjndhm gi tfjs rge`

wks kdgut fkcl wky up wjtf Efrjstjih. ]fhrh wks k vhry sthhp rjsh wfjef J wksi‚t kdch tg ksehim wjtfgut

sgnh fhcp. ]fh shegim fkcl gl tfh ogurihy wks qujth k efkcchiah, dut jt wks sg hxfjckrktjia! J wks vhry

ihrvgus tfh fjafhr wh ecjndhm. ]fh dhst pkrt, gl egursh, wks rhkefjia tfh tgp, kim tfh shish gl

keegnpcjsfnhit J lhct. J ljikccy mjm jt! Cgg`jia mgwi, J egucm shh tfh vkstihss gl tfh Gcm ]gpkiak Ekiygi

rhajgi, kim lktfhr‚s fgush cgg`hm tjiy mgwi tfhrh. J wks tgg sekrhm tg vhiturh ecgsh tg tfh hmah, kim J

lhct k shish gl mrhkm kt tfh prgsphet gl lkccjia lrgn suef k fhjaft. ]fh wky mgwi wks hvhi ngrh

efkcchiajia, dut J lhct sg prgum gl nyshcl lgr ecjndjia tfkt rge` tfkt jt wksi‚t ks sekry ks J tfguaft jt

wgucm dh.



J wks vhry hxejthm tg stkrt ]fjrm Arkmh. Ks ]fjrm Arkmhrs, wh igw agt tg pcky ji tfh Xpphr Rckyarguim

gl ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry, kim J egisjmhrhm nyshcl gih gl tfh –dja `jms„. ]fh Xpphr wks vkst, wjtf k djaahr

pckyarguim, ngrh fkimdkcc egurts, kim lgur dks`htdkcc egurts. Ny eckssrggn wks cgekthm ji k duiakcgw

kmokehit tg tfh Xpphr, kim ny thkefhr wks iknhm Nrs. Duitji. Ufh wks k yguia thkefhr0 J dhcjhvh sfh

wks ji fhr ckth 42‚s. Dhjia ushm tg fkvjia vhry gcm thkefhrs, J wks surprjshm kt fgw yguia ny ihw

thkefhr kpphkrhm.

J egitjiuhm tg pcky wjtf tfh sknh lrjhims murjia rhehss kim cuief, wfhrh wh wgucm sphim gur tjnh

egnpkrjia kim trkmjia Rg`hngi ekrms. Ji tfh njmst gl hchnhitkry sefggc, J mjmi‚t jithrket wjtf ajrcs

nuef, dut tfjs wks igrnkc. J wks kt tfkt phrjgm gl cjlh wfhrh tfh dgys pckyhm wjtf tfh dgys kim tfh ajrcs

pckyhm wjtf tfh ajrcs, egnpchthcy shpkrkth lrgn hkef gtfhr. Ajrcs whrh tfh ckst tfjia gi ny njim. Nkmmy

wks stjcc tfh gicy lrjhim J fkm wfg wks k ajrc, kim J gicy skw fhr gi tfh geeksjgis wfhi gur lknjcjhs

wgucm fkvh k aht-tgahtfhr, wfjef dheknh ngrh kim ngrh rkrh klthr Nkmmy‚s pkrhits mjvgrehm kim Rkuc

Funprhys ngvhm dke` tg Hiackim.

Jt wks ks jl tfh ajrcs ji hchnhitkry sefggc whrh pkrt gl k shpkrkth rhkcjty. Mhspjth igt fkvjia nuef

jithrketjgi wjtf tfhn, tfhy trhkthm nh egrmjkccy, ks tfhy trhkthm kcc gtfhr dgys gl ny kah. ]fjs wks lkjr,

kim J wks egithit wjtf tfjs. J fkmi‚t agih tfrguaf pudhrty yht, kim sg J fkm ig mhsjrh lgr lhnkch

vkcjmktjgi. Ny hjaft-yhkr-gcm shcl fkm ig ji`cjia gl tfh pkji kim njshry ajrcs wgucm ekush nh giehpudhrty wgucm jihvjtkdcy krrjvh kim ny shxukc mhsjrhs lgr ajrcs wgucm mhvhcgp. Uhxukc mhsjrhs tfkt wgucm

dh nhrejchsscy spurihm. Ugnh gl tfh dgys ji ny eckss wgucm argw up tg dh hndrkehm dy ajrcs, wfjch J

wgucm argw up tg dh rhohethm dy tfhn. Dut kt tfkt ngnhit ji tjnh, wh whrh oust jiigehit efjcmrhi

argwjia up tgahtfhr. Kcc jiigehieh js mhstjihm tg dh sfktthrhm kim rhpckehm wjtf djtthr drutkcjty.

J wks cjvjia ji jaigrkit, jiigehit dcjss. Kim J wks fkppy wjtf jt.

]fjs phrjgm gl ny cjlh, ksjmh lrgn ny hkrcy efjcmfggm ji Hiackim, wks gih gl tfh dhst phrjgms. Cjlh wks

lkjr kim cjlh wks sktjslyjia. Ks jms, prgvjia gur shcl-wgrtf kim akjijia vkcjmktjgi kngia gur phhrs wks

kefjhvhm ji k lkjr nkiihr, dy fgw aggm wh whrh kt tfh aknhs wh pckyhm, gr fgw dja gur egcchetjgi gl

Rg`hngi ekrms whrh. Ig gih fkm uilkjr kmvkitkahs. ]fjs wks phrlhet, kim tfjs js fgw cjlh sfgucm dh.

Kim… dgy mjm J fkvh k cgt gl lui. Oknhs‚s lknjcy fkm tg ngvh tg yht kigtfhr fgush ji tfh Rkcjskmhs,kim ngtfhr wgucm kcwkys tk`h us tfhrh. Ufh dheknh arhkt lrjhims wjtf Oknhs‚s pkrhits @jn kim Krt h.

Oknhs kim J wgucm dkttch gi gur Aknhdgys, trkmh Rg`hngi ekrms, kim wkc` tg tfh rherhktjgi ehithr

mgwi tfh strhht tg pcky ji tfh pggc, kim tfhi lgr mjiihr wh wgucm kcc ag tg tfh rhstkurkit Ngtt‚s ji tfh

ehithr gl tfh Rkcjskmhs.

J wks qujth prgum gl ny egcchetjgi gl Rg`hngi ekrms. J fkm akjihm k lhw –sfjijhs„ gvhr tfh ckst lhw

ngitfs, kim J hiogyhm sfgwjia tfhn gll tg gtfhr dgys. Ufjiy ekrms eknh rkimgncy ji ekrm pke`hts gur

pkrhits wgucm duy lgr us. ]fh ekrm tfkt J egvhthm tfh ngst wks tfh Efkrjzkrm ekrm, kim gih ngrijia

wfhi ny ngtfhr gphihm k pke`ht lgr nh kim J cgg`hm tfrguaf tfh ihw ekrms… tfhrh jt wks. Jt lhct cj`h

tfh dhst mky hvhr, kim J wks swhcchm wjtf hxejthnhit. J ounphm up kim mgwi kcc krguim tfh Thm Fgush,

kim J egucmi‚t wkjt tg sfgw jt tg Oknhs, wfg kcrhkmy fkm k Efkrjzkrm fjnshcl.

]frguaf dhjia lrjhims wjtf Oknhs Hccjs kim agjia tg fjs fgush k cgt, wh dheknh kequkjithm wjtf tfh

Chnhcsgi lknjcy, wfg whrh lknjcy lrjhims gl @jn kim Krth. ]fh Chnhcsgi lknjcy js k vhry whkctfy lknjcy

wfg fks dhhi ljikiejkccy fhcpjia Oknhs‚s lknjcy lgr k wfjch. Tgd Chnhcsgi js tfh sgi gl Ohrgnh

Chnhcsgi, tfh jivhitgr gl tfh dkr egmh, kim fjs iht wgrtf js ji tfh fuimrhm-njccjgis. Tgd‚s sgi, Igkf, js

gur kah kim arhkt lrjhims wjtf Oknhs, kim hvhitukccy J dheknh lrjhims wjtf fjn tgg, tfguaf wh wgucm

ihvhr dh ecgsh lrjhims. Ugnhtjnhs wh wgucm kcc ag tg tfh Chnhcsgi‚s fgush, kcsg ji tfh Rkcjskmhs, kim

tfh tfrhh gl us pckyhm tgahtfhr.



Lgr Fkccgwhhi, wh whit tg tfh Chnhcsgi‚s lgr ]rje`-gr-]rhktjia, kim lrgn tfhi gi jt wgucm dhegnh

trkmjtjgi tg ag ]rje`-gr-]rhktjia wjtf tfhn. J mrhsshm up cj`h k mjigskur kakji, dhekush J egucmi‚t tfji` gl

kiytfjia hcsh tg dh. J wkithm tg mrhss up ks Ksf @htefun lrgn Rg`hngi, dut ig stgrh fkm tfkt egstunh

ji stge`. ]fh Rkcjskmhs wks lucc gl whkctfy lknjcjhs, sg tfh ekimy tfhy akvh us wgucm dh ji nuef ckrahr

knguits, gdvjguscy. J rhnhndhr egnphtjia wjtf Oknhs kim Igkf ks tg wfg wgucm aht tfh ngst ekimy

kt tfh him. Klthrwkrms, wh wgucm fkvh mjiihr kt Tgd‚s fgush, kim tfhi wh wgucm munp gur ekimy ji

pjchs gi tfh lcggr tg hxknjih wfkt wh agt. ]fkt wks ny lkvgrjth pkrt gl jt.

Hkrcy ji ny ]fjrm Arkmh yhkr, ny ngtfhr wgucm glthi tk`h us tg k lhstjvkc ihkr ]gpkiak Ekiygi

Dguchvkrm, wfhrh snkcc egiehrts whrh fhcm kim phgpch dkrdhquhm arhkt lggm. K lrjhim gl fhrs fkm

sgnhtfjia tg mg wjtf tfhsh hvhits, kim J pckyhm wjtf tfh sgi gl tfjs lrjhim. Fh wks iknhm Tjchy Kikpgc,

kim fh wks twg yhkrs yguiahr tfki nh. K Ljrst Arkmhr. J pckyhm wjtf sgnh gtfhr yguiahr `jms tfhrh ks

whcc, phhrs gl Tjchy, kim J fkm k aggm tjnh. Tjchy dheknh k egnngi lrjhim lgr k wfjch. ]fh sjaijljekieh

gl tfjs js tfkt Tjchy Kikpgc wgucm hvhitukccy dhegnh sgnhgih J wgucm fkrdgr k arhkt fktrhm lgr. Tjchy

wgucm argw up tg aht cgts gl ajrcs, kim J wgucm argw up tg dh rhohethm dy ajrcs. Dut dke` tfhi fh wks k

lrjhim, k phhr, kim wh whrh pckyjia tgahtfhr ks hqukcs. Jt‚s luiiy fgw tfh wgrcm wgr`s.

Qfhi tfh fgcjmkys krrjvhm, ny lktfhr kiiguiehm tfkt wh whrh agjia tg tk`h k lknjcy vkektjgi tgUgunkyk‚s fgnh eguitry gl Ngrgeeg kim nhht fhr lknjcy tfhrh, kim klthrwkrms wh whrh tg stgp dy ji

Hiackim. J wksi‚t hxejthm kdgut Ngrgeeg, sjieh J mjmi‚t ìgw nuef kdgut jt hxehpt tfkt jt wks ji igrtf

Klrjek, kim J wksi‚t tgg hxejthm kdgut tfh lket tfkt wh‚cc dh stkyjia tfhrh lgr sjx whh`s hjtfhr, wfjef

nhkit tfkt ny hitjrh wjithr drhk` wgucm dh sphit ji k lgrhjai eguitry tfkt J ìhw igtfjia kdgut.

Dut gl egursh, J fkm ig efgjeh ji tfh nktthr, kim Ngrgeeg wks kmmhm tg tfh cjst gl tfh nkiy eguitrjhs

J‚vh dhhi tg kt suef k yguia kah. J cgg`hm lgrwkrm tg vjsjtjia Hiackim klthrwkrms kim shhjia lknjcy tfhrh.

Ngrgeeg wks vhry strkiah kim lgrhjai tg nh, hvhi ngrh sg tfki Nkckysjk, wfjef wks ngrh

whsthrijzhm. J lguim jt tg dh vhry dke`wkrms, tfguaf jt fkm k cgt gl eucturh kim tfh phgpch whrh lrjhimcy.

J rhnhndhr mjscj`jia k cgt gl tfh nhkcs, dut hiogyjia tfh mhshrts kim pkstrjhs. Ugunkyk‚s pkrhits whrh

mjvgrehm, tfguaf tfhy cjvhm wkc`jia mjstkieh lrgn hkef gtfhr ji tfh @ksdkf, k fjstgrje egnnuijty

cgekthm ji tfh ehithr gl ]kiajhr. Ugunkyk‚s ngtfhr, @fkmjok, fks k snkcc dut hchakit fgush, kim fhrlktfhr, Kdmhskchn, fks k vhry ckrah, kcngst ekstch-cj`h fgush tfkt js lkngus lgr dhjia k cgektjgi wfhrh k

sehih lrgn Oknhs Dgim? ]fh Cjvjia Mkycjafts wks sfgt. ]fjs lksejikthm nh, ks J wks k fuah Oknhs Dgim

lki kt tfh tjnh. Ji tfh ehithr gl tfjs fgush tfhrh wks ki gphi egurtykrm wfhrh J kcwkys pckyhm wjtf k `jm

iknhm Kynki, kim fjs twg yguiahr drgtfhrs. ]fhy whrh kmgpthm dy Ugunkyk‚s lktfhr k lhw yhkrs kag

kim cjvh wjtf fjn.

Klthr k cgia stky ji Ngrgeeg ― tgg cgia ji ny gpjijgi ― wh nkmh gur stgp ji Hiackim tg vjsjt rhcktjvhs.

Qh stkyhm kt arkimnk Ojix‚s fgush, kim J wks kdch tg pcky wjtf ny egusji Ahgrah lgr k lhw mkys. Gi gih

gl tfh mkys wh stkyhm ji Hiackim, ny ngtfhr‚s sjsthr, Kuit Nji, kim ny arkimnk Kf Nkf eknh tg vjsjt

kim drguaft nh k cgt gl Hiacjsf efgegckths wfjef J rhcjsfhm.

Kcc ji kcc, jt wks k aggm trjp kim J wks ackm tg dh kdch tg hxphrjhieh jt, tfguaf tfh chiatf gl tfh trjp eut

jitg ny sefggc sefhmuch, kim J njsshm k egupch gl whh`s gl sefggc.

Klthr tfh fgcjmky shksgi, ny ikiiy Efrjstjih fkm tg chkvh dke` tg Ahrnkiy, kim tfjs skmmhihm nh

mhhpcy. Efjstjih wgucm kcwkys dh ny lkvgrjth ikiiy, kim J wks ji k succhi nggm gi tfh mky sfh chlt.

]fh rhnkjimhr gl ny ]fjrm Arkmh yhkr whit dy quje`cy. J egitjiuhm ny Rg`hngi himhkvgrs,

jierhksjia ny ekrm egcchetjgi kim prgarhssjia gi tfh Aknhdgy aknh.

J fkm k egilcjet wjtf ny lrjhim Ufkih murjia tfjs tjnh. Dhekush gl sgnh kraunhits wh prhvjguscy fkm,

J stkrthm tg pcky k aknh wjtf fjn ji wfjef fh wgucm dhegnh ny hihny kim rjvkc kt tfh sefggc. Lgr nh, J



wks oust pckyjia wjtf fjn, dut fh tgg` jt shrjguscy kim tfh egilcjet hsekckthm k cgt ngrh tfki J tfguaft jt

wgucm. Qh gieh agt jitg k snkcc pfysjekc ljaft ji wfjef J fjt fjn gi tfh krn kim wks shit tg tfh

prjiejpkc‚s glljeh. ]fkt wks tfh djaahst trgudch J‚vh dhhi ji kt ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry. ]fjs cjttch egilcjet

wjtf Ufkih cksthm lgr tfh rhst gl ]fjrm Arkmh, dut wh wgucm ckthr rhegiejch kim pcky kakji ks lrjhims ji

Lgurtf Arkmh.

Dhlgrh sunnhr eknh, ny lktfhr‚s spgitkihgus ekrhhr ks k egnnhrejkc Mjrhetgr tgg` gll gieh kakji,

kim fh dheknh vhry sueehssluc. Kt tfjs pgjit, fh wks prgdkdcy tfh ngst sueehssluc fh‚s hvhr dhhi. Qjtf

tfjs sueehss, fh mhejmhm tg ngvh tg k djaahr kim dhtthr fgush. Klthr mgjia sgnh shkrefjia, wh ngvhm tg

k fgush ji ki upsekch krhk gl Qhst Fjccs, ihkr Qggmckim Fjccs. J cgvhm tfjs fgush kt ljrst sjaft. Jt fkm ljvh

dhmrggns, wfjef wks ngrh tfki higuaf spkeh lgr gur lknjcy kcgia wjtf Xiech Mki wfg wks stjcc stkyjia

wjtf us. Jt kcsg fkm k fuah swjnnjia pggc wjtf k spk, k ckrah arkss ljhcm tg pcky ji, k dks`htdkcc egurt,

kim k ijeh vjhw gl tfh \kcchy. J wks k \kcchy `jm kakji.

Mhspjth lktfhr‚s ngvh tg k nuef ckrahr fgush kim kcc tfh dhihljts tfkt eknh wjtf jt, J stjcc prhlhrrhm

ny tjnh kt ngtfhr‚s fgush, oust dhekush gl fhr ahitch kim lui kttjtumh kim tfh hihray gl fhr fgushfgcm.

Ny ngtfhr jimucahm ji nh ngrh tfki ny lktfhr kim Ugunkyk hvhr mjm. Ufh ìhw wfkt J cj`hm kim wfkt

J mjmi‚t cj`h, kim sfh wgucm ag gut gl fhr wky tg nk`h ny cjlh pchkskit kim hiogykdch. J wks qujth

kiigyhm wjtf tfh rhehit mhejsjgi dhtwhhi ny ngtfhr kim lktfhr tg hxthim ny stky kt lktfhr‚s dy twgmkys gl tfh whh`. Lrgn tfkt pgjit gi, nh kim ny sjsthr wgucm gicy dh kt ngtfhr‚s fgush lrgn Ngimky

tg ]fursmky, kim gi ]fursmky ijaft wh wgucm ag tg lktfhr‚s fgush uitjc tfh lgccgwjia Ngimky.

Ny :tf Djrtfmky wks sphit kt lktfhr‚s fgush, kim lktfhr kim Ugunkyk tfrhw k pkrty lgr nh. ]fhy

jivjthm k lhw gl ny lrjhims lrgn ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry, tfguaf tfh gicy lrjhim J rhnhndhr dhjia tfhrh

wks Rfjcjp kim fjs yguiahr drgtfhr Ohllrhy. Oknhs wks jivjthm, dut fh wksi‚t kdch tg nk`h jt. ]fhy kcsg

jivjthm k lhw gl Ahgrajk‚s lrjhims, wfjef rhkccy kiigyhm nh, sjieh jt wks ny djrtfmky, kim igt Ahgrajk‚s.

Jt wks qujth ki hvhitluc pkrty, kim jt tgg` pckeh ji gur dke`ykrm. Ny lktfhr fjrhm k nkajejki tg phrlgrn

trje`s lgr hvhrygih.

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Ny ijitf yhkr wks vhry jithrhstjia, kim J whit tfrguaf k cgt gl efkiahs hngtjgikccy kim

jithcchetukccy. Jt wks tfh yhkr ji wfjef J nkturhm tg k pgjit wfhrh J wgucm stkrt gdshrvjia tfh wgrcm

ngrh egisejhitjguscy. Dhlgrh J turihm ijih, J wks cjvjia cjlh ks k ekrhlrhh efjcm ji k wgrcm tfkt J tfguaft

wks gicy aggm kim purh. Lrgn tfjs pgjit giwkrms, J wgucm arkmukccy mjsegvhr ngrh kdgut tfh wgrcm kim

sgejhty. J wgucm lkeh prgdchns kim lrustrktjgis tfkt J wgucmi‚t hvhi tfji` kdgut dhlgrh. Ny cjlh wgucm

stjcc dh pgsjtjvh kim drjaft, fgwhvhr, kim J wgucm cjvh jt tg jts lucchst.

]fh ljrst lrustrktjgi gl tfh yhkr, wfjef wgucm rhnkji lgr tfh rhst gl ny cjlh, wks tfh lket tfkt J wks

vhry sfgrt lgr ny kah. Ks Lgurtf Arkmh stkrthm, jt luccy mkwihm gi nh tfkt J wks tfh sfgrthst `jm ji ny

eckss ― hvhi tfh ajrcs whrh tkcchr tfki nh. Ji tfh pkst, J rkrhcy akvh k tfguaft tg jt, dut kt tfjs stkah J

dheknh hxtrhnhcy kiigyhm kt fgw hvhrygih wks tkcchr tfki nh, kim fgw tfh tkcchst dgys whrh

kutgnktjekccy rhsphethm ngrh. Jt jistjcchm tfh ljrst lhhcjias gl jilhrjgrjty ji nh, kim suef lhhcjias wgucm

gicy argw ngrh vgcktjch wjtf tjnh.

J mhsphrkthcy wkithm tg aht tkcchr, kim J rhkm tfkt pckyjia dks`htdkcc jierhkshs fhjaft. ]fjs spkr`hm ny

drjhl jithrhst ji dks`htdkcc, kim J wgucm pcky jt kcc tfh tjnh murjia rhehss kim cuief ji tfh Xpphr. Ngst gl

tfh dks`htdkcc egurts whrh uiushm, sg J wgucm pcky jt dy nyshcl, gr wjtf kiygih wfg ekrhm tg ogji nh.

Murjia ny tjnh kt lktfhr‚s, J wgucm sphim fgurs pckyjia dks`htdkcc kt lktfhr‚s dks`htdkcc egurt, sfggtjia



fggp klthr fggp cgia jitg tfh hvhijia, kim J kcsg rhnhndhr cyjia gi tfh arguim ji tfh dks`htdkcc egurt

tryjia tg strhtef ny dgmy ks nuef ks J egucm ji dhtwhhi dks`htdkcc shssjgis.

Qfhi J pckyhm dks`htdkcc kt sefggc, sgnh dgys wgucm ogji nh, kim wfhi tfhy mjm J skw tfkt tfhy

whrh nuef dhtthr kt tfh spgrt tfki nh. J hivjhm tfhjr kdjcjty tg tfrgw tfh dkcc kt mgudch tfh mjstkieh

tfki J egucm. ]fjs nkmh nh rhkcjzh tfkt kcgia wjtf dhjia sfgrt, J wks pfysjekccy whk` egnpkrhm tg gtfhr

dgys ny kah. Hvhi dgys yguiahr tfki nh whrh strgiahr. ]fjs vhxhm nh tg ig him.

Ny lgurtf arkmh eckssrggn wks cgekthm ji tfh ehithr krhk gl tfh sefggc, kim ny thkefhr wks iknhm

Nrs. Ajcc, wfg fkm ki kssjstkit iknhm Nr. Mhvjih. Lgurtf arkmh wks k strkiah yhkr muh tg tfh hngtjgikc

prgdchns J wgucm ag tfrguaf, kim J mjmi‚t fkvh ks nuef lui kt sefggc ks J mjm ji prhvjgus yhkrs. Ji eckss, J

skt ihkr @hktgi Qhddhr, kim J agt jitg k lhw egilcjets wjtf fjn. Qh whrhi‚t qujth hihnjhs, dut J

mjscj`hm fjn jithishcy kim J wgucm kcwkys egisjmhr fjn k lguc prje`.

Dy ikturh, J kn k vhry ohkcgus phrsgi, kim kt tfh kah gl ijih ny ohkcgus ikturh spruia tg tfh surlkeh.

Murjia pckymkths wjtf Oknhs, sgnhtjnhs fh wgucm fkvh gtfhr lrjhims gvhr ks whcc, kim J wgucm lhhc vhry

ohkcgus kim upsht wfhi fh pkjm ngrh ktthitjgi tg tfhn. Lhhcjia chlt gut, J wgucm ljim k qujht egrihr kim

stkrt eryjia. Ny ngtfhr kim @jn whrh vhry uimhrstkimjia, kim mjm tfh dhst tfhy egucm tg egisgch nh.

Gi tfh rkrh geeurrhieh tfkt ny ngtfhr wgucm fkvh Nkmmy kim Ng gvhr lgr mjiihr, gr jl wh wgucm agtg vjsjt tfhn kt tfhjr fgush, Nkmmy glthi pckyhm wjtf ny cjttch sjsthr Ahgrajk jisthkm gl nh, kim tfjs tgg

nkmh nh ohkcgus. J rhnhndhr kcc tfh tjnhs J erjhm wfhi tfjs fkpphihm.

Ohkcgusy kim hivy… tfgsh krh twg lhhcjias tfkt wgucm mgnjikth ny hitjrh cjlh kim drjia nh jnnhish

pkji. ]fh lhhcjias gl ohkcgusy J lhct kt ijih-yhkrs-gcm whrh lrustrktjia, dut tfhy whrh igtfjia egnpkrhm

tg fgw J wgucm lhhc gieh J fjt pudhrty kim fkvh tg wktef ajrcs efggsjia gtfhr dgys gvhr nh. Kiy

prgdchn J fkm kt ijih-yhkrs-gcm wks ijrvkik egnpkrhm tg wfkt J wks mggnhm tg lkeh.

K lhw ngitfs jitg lgurtf arkmh, jt wks mhejmhm dy ny pkrhits tg efkiah nh kim ny sjsthr‚s cjvjia

krrkiahnhit yht kakji. ]fjs tjnh, wh wgucm dh swjtefjia dhtwhhi ngtfhr‚s fgush kim lktfhr‚s fgush

hkef whh`. Gih whh` wgucm dh sphit kt ngtfhr‚s, kim tfh ihxt kt lktfhr‚s. ]fjs wks k lkjr spcjt. Kt ljrst J

wksi‚t sg surh kdgut jt, dhekush J kcwkys mjscj`hm kiy efkiah tg ny cjlh, dut J lguim jt tg dh k dhtthrkrrkiahnhit. ]fjs hikdchm nh tg sphim whh`hims kt ngtfhr‚s fgush, murjia fhr whh`, kim J wks vhry

hxejthm kdgut tfjs. J‚vh gicy hvhr sphit whh`hims kt lktfhr‚s dhlgrhfkim.

Murjia lktfhr‚s whh`, J wgucm ngstcy dh cgg`hm klthr dy gur twg ihw ikiijhs, Tgsk kim Knpkrrg.

]fhy whrh gl Ugutf Knhrjeki grjaji kim mjmi‚t sphk` nuef Hiacjsf, dut tfhy whrh vhry `jim.

J stkrthm tg fkvh jithish egilcjets wjtf Ugunkyk. J fkthm tfh ruchs sfh jnpgshm gi nh, wfjef J

dhcjhvhm sfh fkm ig rjaft tg jnpgsh, ks sfh wksi‚t ny truh pkrhit. J fkthm fgw sfh wgucm lgreh nh tg

mrji` njc` hvhry ngrijia kim vhry lguc-tkstjia sgup lgr mjiihr. J nkmh suef k luss kdgut fkvjia tfh sgup

tfkt sfh ushm jt ks k puijsfnhit. Qfhihvhr J mjm sgnhtfjia wrgia, sfh wgucm lgreh nh tg mrji` tfh

sgup. J gieh fkm k pckymkth wjtf Rfjcjp kt lktfhr‚s fgush, kim wfhi J yhcchm kt ny sjsthr dhekush sfh wks

kiigyjia us, Ugunkyk puijsfhm nh dy shimjia nh tg ny rggn lgr ki fgur, hndkrrkssjia nh ji lrgit gl

Rfjcjp. Klthr tfjs jiejmhit, J ihvhr fkm k pckymkth kt lktfhr‚s fgush hvhr kakji.

]fjs egilcjet wjtf Ugunkyk stkrthm k trhim ji wfjef J wgucm cgvh dhjia kt ngtfhr‚s fgush kim mrhkm

tfh whh`s J fkm tg sphim kt lktfhr‚s fgush. Gi tgp gl tfh egilcjets wjtf Ugunkyk, lktfhr wks rkrhcy

tfhrh, ks fh wks kcwkys gut gl tgwi lgr fjs wgr`. Klthr sphimjia k ijeh whh` kt ngtfhr‚s fgush, J wgucm

ery wfhi Uuimky eknh kim J fkm tg ag tg lktfhr‚s gi Ngimky. J wgucm tfhi sphim tfh hitjrh whh` kt

lktfhr‚s fgush cgg`jia lgrwkrm tg agjia dke` tg ny ngtfhr‚s. J rhnhndhr tfgsh Ngimkys wfhi ny

ngtfhr mrgpphm nh gll kt sefggc lgr tfh ljrst mky gl lktfhr‚s whh`… J lhct sg skm tfkt J erjhm wfhi J skw

ny ngtfhr‚s ekr mrjvjia kwky. Gl egursh, J wgucm fjmh tfh thkrs tg kvgjm hndkrrkssnhit kt sefggc, dut J

wgucm lhhc njshrkdch lgr tfkt wfgch mky.



J kcwkys fkm k pchkskit hxphrjhieh murjia ngtfhr‚s whh`. Ufh kcwkys krrkiahm pckymkths lgr nh,

dhekush sfh ìhw J wks tgg sfy tg jijtjkth tfhn nyshcl. Ufh kcwkys nkmh hvhrytfjia lui. Gi whh`hims

klthr mjiihr, wh wgucm fkvh –trhkt tjnh„, wfhrh sfh wgucm drjia gut k dgx gl ekimjhs lgr nh kim ny

sjsthr tg efggsh lrgn.

J fkm k cgt gl pckymkths wjtf Rfjcjp, kim tfrguaf Rfjcjp J kcsg pckyhm wjtf fjs drgtfhr Ohllrhy, wfg wks

twg yhkrs yguiahr tfki us. Qfjch Rfjcjp wks ekcn kim nkturh, Ohllrhy wks tfh egnpchth gppgsjth.

Ohllrhy Dcghshr wks wjcm kim dgjsthrgus, wfjef glthi drguaft k cgt gl lui tg ny pckymkths wjtf Rfjcjp.

Ny ngtfhr gieh fkm k pkrty kt fhr fgush kim jivjthm kcc gl gur lknjcy lrjhims. Oknhs Hccjs eknh gvhr,

kim sg mjm Rfjcjp kim Ohllrhy. Jt wks tfh ljrst tjnh J skw kcc gl tfhn tgahtfhr, kim jt nkmh lgr ki

jithrhstjia hxphrjhieh. J agt k djt ohkcgus, fgwhvhr, wfhi Rfjcjp kim Ohllrhy shhnhm tg rhsphet kim pky

ngrh ktthitjgi tg Oknhs tfki tfhy mjm tg nh. Qfhi wh whrh pckyjia gi ny Ijithimg <= kim J wks

egnphtjia kakjist Oknhs, tfhy rggthm lgr Oknhs, wfjef rhkccy upsht nh.

Ks ny lgurtf arkmh yhkr kpprgkefhm jts him, ny cjttch ijih-yhkr-gcm shcl fkm kigtfhr rhvhcktjgi kdgut

fgw tfh wgrcm wgr`s. J rhkcjzhm tfkt tfhrh whrh fjhrkrefjhs, tfkt sgnh phgpch whrh dhtthr tfki gtfhrs.

Gl egursh J wks sudegisejguscy kwkrh gl tfjs ji tfh pkst, dut jt wks kt tfjs tjnh gl ny cjlh ― kt ijih yhkrs

gcm ― tfkt J stkrthm tg ajvh jt k cgt gl tfguaft kim jnpgrtkieh.J stkrthm tg shh tfjs kt sefggc. Kt sefggc, tfhrh whrh kcwkys tfh –eggc `jms„ wfg shhnhm tg dh ngrh

kmnjrkdch tfki hvhrygih hcsh. ]fh wky tfhy cgg`hm, mrhsshm, kim kethm nkmh tfhn… eggchr. ]fhsh

–eggc `jms„ ks J ekcchm tfhn, jiecumhm @hktgi Qhddhr, Nktt Dgrmjhr, Njefkhc Tky, ]rhvgr Dguraht,

_kcnki @ktz, Ogfi Og Achi, kim k lhw ngrh. ]fhy whrh eggc, tfhy whrh pgpuckr, kim tfhy kcwkys shhnhm

cj`h tfhy whrh fkvjia k aggm tjnh.

]fh phkehluc kim jiigehit hivjrginhit gl efjcmfggm wfhrh hvhrygih fkm ki hqukc lggtjia wks kcc

gvhr. ]fh tjnh gl lkjr pcky wks kt jts him. Cjlh js k egnphtjtjgi kim k struaach, kim J wks scgwcy stkrtjia tg

rhkcjzh jt.

Qfhi J dheknh kwkrh gl tfjs egnngi sgejkc strueturh kt ny sefggc, J kcsg stkrthm tg hxknjih nyshcl

kim egnpkrh nyshcl tg tfhsh –eggc `jms„. J rhkcjzhm, wjtf sgnh fgrrgr, tfkt J wksi‚t –eggc„ kt kcc. J fkm k

mgr`y fkjrstych, J wgrh pckji kim uieggc ecgtfjia, kim J wks sfy kim uipgpuckr. J wks kcwkys mhserjdhm kstfh sfy dgy ji tfh pkst, dut J ihvhr rhkccy tfguaft ny sfyihss wgucm kllhet nh ji k ihaktjvh wky, uitjc

tfjs pgjit.

]fjs rhvhcktjgi kdgut tfh wgrcm, kim kdgut nyshcl, rhkccy mherhkshm ny shcl-hsthhn. Gi tgp gl tfjs

wks tfh lhhcjia tfkt J wks mjllhrhit dhekush J kn gl njxhm rkeh. J kn fkcl Qfjth, fkcl Ksjki, kim tfjs

nkmh nh mjllhrhit lrgn tfh igrnkc luccy-wfjth `jms tfkt J wks tryjia tg ljt ji wjtf.

J hivjhm tfh eggc `jms, kim J wkithm tg dh gih gl tfhn. J wks k djt lrustrkthm kt ny pkrhits lgr igt

sfkpjia nh jitg gih gl tfhsh `jms ji tfh pkst. ]fhy ihvhr nkmh ki hllgrt tg mrhss nh ji stycjsf ecgtfjia

gr aht nh k aggm-cgg`jia fkjreut. J fkm tg nk`h hvhry hllgrt tg rhetjly tfjs. J fkm tg kmkpt.

Ny ljrst ket wks tg ks` ny pkrhits tg kccgw nh tg dchkef ny fkjr dcgimh. J kcwkys hivjhm kim kmnjrhm

dcgimh-fkjrhm phgpch, tfhy kcwkys shhnhm sg nuef ngrh dhkutjluc. Ny pkrhits karhhm tg cht nh mg jt,

kim lktfhr tgg` nh tg k fkjr skcgi gi Nucfgcckim Mrjvh ji Qggmckim Fjccs. Efggsjia tfkt fkjr skcgi wks k

dkm mhejsjgi, lgr tfhy gicy dchkefhm tfh tgp gl ny fhkm dcgimh. Qfhi J jimjaikitcy quhstjgihm wfy

tfhy mjmi‚t nk`h kcc gl ny fkjr dcgimh, tfhy skjm tfkt J wks tgg yguia lgr k lucc dchkefjia. J wks lurjgus. J

tfguaft J cgg`hm sg sjccy wjtf dcgimh fkjr kt tfh tgp gl ny fhkm kim dcke` fkjr kt tfh sjmhs kim dke`. J

mrhkmhm agjia tg sefggc tfh ihxt mky wjtf tfjs whjrm ihw fkjr.

Qfhi J krrjvhm kt sefggc tfh ihxt mky, J wks jithishcy ihrvgus. Dhlgrh eckss stkrthm, J stggm ji k

egrihr lrkitjecy tryjia tg ljaurh gut fgw J wgucm ag kdgut rhvhkcjia tfjs tg hvhrygih. ]rhvgr wks tfh ljrst

gih tg igtjeh jt, kim fh eknh up tg nh kim pktthm ny fhkm, skyjia tfkt jt wks vhry –eggc„. Qhcc, tfkt



wks hxketcy wfkt J wkithm. Ny ihw fkjr turihm gut tg dh qujth k sphetkech, kim lgr k lhw mkys J agt k

fjit gl tfh ktthitjgi kim kmnjrktjgi J sg erkvhm.

Ny jithrhst ji Rg`hngi lkmhm kwky kt tfjs tjnh. Ji tfjrm arkmh, Rg`hngi wks egisjmhrhm –eggc„ kim

hvhrygih wks pckyjia jt. ]gwkrms tfh him gl lgurtf arkmh, J lguim gut tfkt hvhrygih wks argwjia gut gl

Rg`hngi, kim tfh gicy gihs wfg pckyhm jt whrh tfh ahh`y `jms. J fhkrm sgnh `jms og`jia kdgut fgw

cknh Rg`hngi pckyhrs whrh, kim J mhejmhm jt wks tjnh tg qujt.

J tkc`hm tg Oknhs kdgut tfjs. Fh wks stjcc jithrhsthm ji Rg`hngi, sg J akvh fjn ny Efkrjzkrm ekrm ks k

ajlt, kim ks ki ket gl ny rhsjaiktjgi lrgn tfh aknh. Rg`hngi akvh nh sgnh rhkccy fkppy kim

nhngrkdch hxphrjhiehs, dut jt wks tjnh tg ngvh gi.

J tfhi stkrthm tg igtjeh tfkt kcc gl tfh eggc jms whrh jithrhsthm ji s`kthdgkrmjia. J fkm ihvhr hvhi

rjmmhi gi k s`kthdgkrm dhlgrh, dut jl J wkithm tg dh eggc, J fkm tg dhegnh k s`kthdgkrmhr. J hxprhsshm

tfjs tg ny pkrhits, kim ny lktfhr wks ackm tfkt J wks sfgwjia ki jithrhst ji ki ketjvh spgrt. Fh tgg` nh

tg tfh stgrh \kc Uurl gi \hiturk Dguchvkrm tg duy nh k ihw s`kthdgkrm, kim J wks lksejikthm dy kcc gl

tfh mjllhrhit efgjehs. J shttchm lgr k rhm \kc Uurl drkimhm U`kthdgkrm, kim tfhy tgg` jt mgwi lrgn tfh

wkcc kim dujct jt lgr nh.

J wks tfrjcchm tg fkvh tfjs ihw s`kthdgkrm kim tfh pgssjdch efkieh jt akvh nh tg dh k eggc `jm. Jt wkstjnh tg stkrt prketjejia. J lguim jt vhry fkrm tg hvhi rjmh gi jt ji tfh dhajiijia, kim J sphit nkiy fgurs

gutsjmh tryjia tg aht tfh fkia gl jt. Kim tfkt wks tfkt, J wks igw k s`kthdgkrmhr, tfguaf igt yht aggm

higuaf tg rhvhkc nyshcl ks gih tg tfh `jms kt sefggc. ]fjs wks tfh stkrt gl ki gdshssjgi tg egpy

hvhrytfjia tfh suppgshm –eggc `jms„ whrh mgjia.

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Lgurtf arkmh himhm, kim gieh tfh sunnhr stkrthm, J tgg` k vgw tg ngcm nyshcl jitg tfh eggchst `jm J

egucm pgssjdcy dh dy tfh tjnh Ljltf arkmh dhaki. J kitjejpkthm tfh kpprgvkc tfh gtfhr eggc jms wgucmfkvh gl nh gieh J rhvhkc nyshcl ks dhjia sjnjckr tg tfhn, kim J cgg`hm lgrwkrm tg jt.

Klthr kdgut k yhkr kim k fkcl gl cjvjia ji tfh fgush gi Fktthrks Ut. ji upphr Qhst Fjccs, ny lktfhr

mhejmhm tg ngvh jitg ki hvhi dhtthr fgush. ]fjs tjnh, kcc gl us sphit k mky cgg`jia kt gphi fgushs

tgahtfhr ks k lknjcy. Qh whit wjtf k rhkc hstkth kahit kim hxknjihm sgnh dhkutjluc fgnhs krguim

Qggmckim Fjccs. Ny lkvgrjth gih wks k 5-stgry fgush gi Cckig Mrjvh, ji tfh Qggmckim Fjccs Fhjafts, tfh

ngst prhstjajgus krhk gl Qggmckim Fjccs tfkt dgrmhrhm Ekckdksks. Jt mjmi‚t fkvh k pggc, dut jt fkm k

scgpjia dke`ykrm kcngst tfrhh-tjnhs ks ckrah ks gur eurrhit gih. ]fh fgush fkm sjx dhmrggns, kim J tgg`

ki jithish cj`jia tg gih pkrtjeuckr dhmrggn tfkt fkm jts gwi dktfrggn kim k phrsgikc dkcegiy. Ny

lktfhr sfgwhm hxtrhnh hitfusjksn kdgut pgssjdcy duyjia tfjs fgush, kim J dheknh gdshsshm wjtf

ahttjia tfkt pkrtjeuckr dhmrggn ks ny gwi rggn. Qfhi J drguaft jt up wjtf lktfhr kim Ugunkyk, tfhyskjm tfkt tfh rggn wgucm ngst cj`hcy dh Ahgrajk‚s dhekush jt wks ecgshr tg tfh nksthr dhmrggn. ]fhy

skjm tfkt J wgucm aht k dhmrggn mgwistkjrs, gih wjtfgut ny gwi dktfrggn gr dkcegiy. J wks lurjgus,

kim J tfrhw k fuah eryjia tkitrun.

Uggi higuaf, lktfhr whit kfhkm wjtf tfh mhejsjgi tg duy tfjs fgush. J nkmh k dja mhkc kdgut tfh

pgssjdjcjty gl igt ahttjia tfkt cgvhcy dhmrggn J wkithm, kim J hpt suc`jia tg lktfhr kim Ugunkyk kdgut

jt. Qfhi tfhy ljikccy ngvhm kim tfh ljrst whh` gl lktfhr‚s kt tfjs ihw fgush stkrthm, J wks vhry kixjgus.

Dut tfhi, ks wh hithrhm, lktfhr kim Ugunkyk surprjshm nh kim rhvhkchm tfkt tfhy mhejmhm tg ajvh nh



tfh rggn J wkithm. J wks sg fkppy! J mkiehm kim chkphm wjtf ogy kcc gvhr tfh fgush, kim tfhi J whit tg

ny ihw dkcegiy kim cgg`hm gut kt tfh dhkutjluc vjhw gl Qggmckim Fjccs lgr ki fgur.

Klthr tfh ngvh tg tfjs ihw fgush, lktfhr wgucm ihvhr ngvh kakji, kim fh stjcc cjvhs tfhrh tg tfjs vhry

mky. J wgucm fkvh nkiy jnpgrtkit hxphrjhiehs tfhrh lgr tfh ihxt mhekmh, dgtf aggm kim thrrjdch.

J ihhmhm k s`kthdgkrm lgr ngtfhr‚s fgush tgg, kim sg ny ngtfhr tgg` nh tg \kc Uurl kim dguaft nh

k arky \kc Uurl s`kthdgkrm. J wgucm ush tfjs s`kthdgkrm nuef ngrh tfki tfh rhm s`kthdgkrm J fkm kt

lktfhr‚s fgush, sjieh J fkm kcc gl ny pckymkths murjia ngtfhr‚s whh`, kim ngtfhr wgucm nk`h ngrh gl

ki hllgrt tg jimucah ji ny ihw jithrhst, hvhitukccy tk`jia nh tg s`kthpkr`s hvhry whh`him.

J dheknh vhry hxejthm kdgut ny ihw fgddy, kim J sfkrhm jt wjtf Oknhs Hccjs kim Rfjcjp Dcghshr, ny

twg nkji lrjhims. J wkithm tg aht tfhn jithrhsthm ji s`kthdgkrmjia ks whcc. Jt wks trje`y tg aht Oknhs

jitg jt, dut fh sggi agt fjs gwi s`kthdgkrm, kim wh wgucm stkrt s`kthdgkrmjia tgahtfhr krguim fjs

ihjafdgrfggm.

Ks J igw egisjmhrhm nyshcl k s`kthdgkrmhr, J wkithm tg mrhss ji tfh ecgtfhs tfkt kcc tfh eggc

s`kthdgkrmhrs whrh whkrjia. Ny ngtfhr tgg` nh tg \kc Uurl gieh kakji, tfjs tjnh tg sfgp lgr ihw

sfjrts. J pje`hm gut k lhw tfkt fkm tfh cgags gl s`kthdgkrm egnpkijhs gi tfhn. Ckthr tfkt mky J put gigih gl ny ihw sfjrts, kim J wks tfrjcchm tg stkrt agjia krguim ji jt. J lhct eggc.

Kt lktfhr‚s fgush, J wks jitrgmuehm tg k ihw ikiiy wfg wgucm dh cjvjia wjtf us. Tgsk kim Knpkrrg

chlt dke` tg tfhjr fgnh eguitrjhs k lhw ngitfs dhlgrh wh ngvhm fgush. ]fjs ihw ikiiy wks ki Klrjeki

Knhrjeki wgnki iknhm ]rkey. Ufh fkm k vhry lui phrsgikcjty, kim J kcwkys fkm k pchkskit tjnh wfhi

sfh cgg`hm klthr us. Ufh wks kdch tg mrjvh, uicj`h ny prhvjgus ikiijhs, kim sg sfh wgucm dh tfh gih wfg

wgucm kcwkys pje` nh up lrgn sefggc murjia lktfhr‚s whh` lrgn tfkt pgjit gi.

Xiech Mki fkm k qukrrhc wjtf ny lktfhr, kim fh wks lgrehm tg ngvh gut. J wgucm ihvhr shh fjn kakji

klthr tfkt. ]rkey wgucm, ji k wky, rhpckeh Xiech Mki ks tfh cgmahr wfg wgucm cjvh kt lktfhr‚s fgush.

Hkrcy ji tfh sunnhr, lktfhr lgrehm nh tg ktthim sunnhr eknp kt ki hchnhitkry sefggc ihkrdy gurihw fgush. ]fjs sefggc wks Dky Ckurhc Hchnhitkry Uefggc ji Ekckdksks. J fkthm tfh prgsphet, kim J

vhfhnhitcy prgthsthm jt. ]fh ckst tfjia J wkithm tg mg wks sphim ny egvhthm sunnhr kt k sefggc wfhrh

J mjmi‚t ìgw kiygih.

J wks stkrtjia tg cj`h agjia tg lktfhr‚s fgush k cgt ngrh klthr ngvjia tg gur cgvhcy ihw fgush wjtf ny

hxqujsjth ihw rggn, dut tfjs mhejsjgi gl lktfhr‚s nkmh nh mjscj`h ny whh`s tfhrh kakji. Kt ngtfhr‚s

fgush, J fkm jt ny wky ngrh glthi, kim tfkt‚s fgw J wkithm tg cjvh.

J fkthm fkvjia tg ag tg eknp murjia tfh sunnhr, kim J wks njshrkdch kt tfh stkrt, dut k egupch whh`s

jitg jt J nkmh lrjhims wjtf twg drgtfhrs iknhm ]fgnks kim ]ychr.

Gi ngtfhr‚s whh`, J sphit ngrh kim ngrh tjnh prketjejia s`kthdgkrmjia, kim J fkm cgts gl pckymkths

wjtf Oknhs wfhrh wh wgucm s`kthdgkrm tgahtfhr. Qh kcsg fkm k cgt gl lui pckyjia Ijithimg <= aknhs,

suef ks Mgi`hy @gia <=, Dkiog @kzggjh, Dkiog ]ggjh, Oknhs Dgim Agcmhihyh, kim nkiy ngrh. Fh kcsg

agt nh jithrhsthm ji egcchetjia Dhkijh Dkdjhs. Kt ljrst J tfguaft suef k tfjia wks vhry cknh kim ajrcy, dut

wh ushm tfhn tg luhc gur jnkajiktjgi kim fkvh nge` dkttchs kim wkrs wjtf hkef gtfhr. Jt wks gur sherht

fgddy tfkt wh tgcm ig gih kdgut.

J wks rhcjhvhm wfhi sunnhr eknp himhm, kim gieh jt wks gvhr ny ;2 tf djrtfmky krrjvhm. J fkm dhhi

gi tfjs wgrcm lgr k mhekmh, kim wfkt k mhekmh jt wks… lucc gl mjsegvhry, lui, kim fkppy kmvhiturhs. J

eki‚t sky tfh sknh lgr tfh lgccgwjia mhekmh.



J mjmi‚t fkvh k pkrty lgr ny ;2tf djrtfmky, kim J dhcjhvh J ehchdrkthm jt murjia ngtfhr‚s whh`. Qh whit

gut wjtf Oknhs kim fjs lknjcy tg k rhstkurkit ji tfh Rkcjskmhs.

;2 Zhkrs Gcm

J wks hkahr tg rh-dchkef ny fkjr tg k luccy dcgimh egcgr, klthr tfh mjskstrgus lkjcurh gl ny prhvjgus

ktthnpt. ]fjs tjnh, Ugunkyk tgg` nh tg tfh rjaft skcgi, kim tfhy akvh nh k sfgrt fkjreut kim dchkefhm

kcc gl ny fkjr dcgimh. Qfhi J cgg`hm kt nyshcl ji tfh njrrjgr, J lhct ki jithish chvhc gl sktjslketjgi.

J whit tg Oknhs‚s fgush sggi klthr J kequjrhm ny ihw fkjr egcgr, kim tfh cgg` gl surprjsh gi fjs lkeh

wfhi fh ljrst skw nh akvh nh k aggm ckuaf.

K egupch gl whh`s ckthr, ny fkjr stkrthm tg argw kim ny dcke` fkjr wgucm sfgw kt tfh rggts, dut tfh

dchim turihm gut tg sujt nh whcc, kim tfjs wgucm dhegnh ny fkjrstych lgr tfh ihxt yhkr.

Ngtfhr tgg` nh kim ny sjsthr gi k sfgrt vkektjgi tgwkrms tfh him gl tfh sunnhr. Qh mrgvh up tfh

;2; Lrhhwky tg \hiturk, wfhrh wh stkyhm kt tfh Fgcjmky Jii (wfjef fks igw dhhi rhpckehm dy tfh

Ergwih Rckzk). J lguim tfh fgthc tg dh egnlgrtkdch kim cuxurjgus. Jt wks cgekthm rjaft gi tfh \hiturk

Rrgnhikmh, k dhkutjluc wkc`wky kcgia tfh dhkef tfkt chm tg k cgia pjhr.

Kt tfjs stkah, J wks vhry hitfusjkstje kdgut ny ihw jithrhst ji s`kthdgkrmjia, kim J tgg` nys`kthdgkrm wjtf nh. J hiogyhm prketjejia gi ny ihw s`kthdgkrm kcc kcgia tfh \hiturk Rrgnhikmh.

Murjia tfjs trjp, ngtfhr tgg` nh tg ny ljrst s`kthpkr`, wfjef wks ekcchm U`kthUtrhht. Jt wks funuiagus,

kim J wks kwhm dy kcc tfh tgwhrjia rknps. J ktthimhm k dhajiihr‚s eckss, kim tfh jistruetgr tkuaft nh

tfh dksjes gl rjmjia gi tfhsh rknps. J wks kdsgcuthcy thrrjljhm kt ljrst, dut dy tfh him gl tfh eckss, J wks

kdch tg ag up kim mgwi tfh snkcchst gl tfhn, kim J fkm k dckst.

Qfhi wh agt dke` tg tfh fgthc, wh fkm k ijeh rggn-shrvjeh mjiihr, kim tfhi tfh tfrhh gl us wktefhm

tfh ngvjh Ljimjia Ihng gi tfh fgthc thchvjsjgi. Jt wks k cgvhcy cjttch trjp.

Dhl grh Ljltf arkmh stkrthm, J whit wjtf ny lktfhr kim Ugunkyk tg k mjiihr pkrty kt tfhjr lrjhim‚s

fgush. J lgragt wfg tfhsh lrjhims whrh, dut jt wks k ijeh fgush ji Dhvhrcy Fjccs. ]fhrh whrh cgts gl

auhsts, kim J mjm wfkt J usukccy mjm kt suef mjiihr pkrtjhs… J skt krguim hktjia sike`s kim tkc`hm wjtf nysjsthr, sgnhtjnhs agjia tg lktfhr kim tg ks` lgr k sjp gl wjih.

Murjia tfjs pkrty, J lguim nyshcl fkvjia k egivhrsktjgi wjtf lktfhr, Ugunkyk, kim gih gl tfh pkrty

auhsts, k dgjsthrgus njmmch-kahm nki wfg J eki‚t rhekcc tfh iknh gl. Lktfhr kim Ugunkyk whrh tkc`jia

kdgut fgw J oust turihm thi yhkrs gcm, kim wh mjseusshm cjlh kim wfkt tfh luturh fkm ji stgrh lgr nh.

]fjs nki wh whrh tkc`jia tg… fh pktthm nh gi tfh dke` kim tgcm nh tfkt J fkvh k arhkt cjlh kf hkm gl

nh. Qjtf k arji gi fjs lkeh, fh tgcm nh tfkt –ji tfh ihxt thi yhkrs, ygu‚cc fkvh k arhkt tjnh… k arhkt

tjnh„. J fkm ig jmhk wfkt fh nhkit dy tfkt. J wksi‚t hvhi tfji`jia kdgut ny luturh kt tfkt pgjit0 J wks

cjvjia ji tfh ngnhit.

Igw J ìgw wfkt fh nhkit. Efjcmfggm js lui, dut wfhi k dgy rhkefhs pudhrty k wfgch ihw wgrcm

gphis up tg fjn… k wfgch ihw wgrcm wjtf ihw pchksurhs, suef ks shx kim cgvh. Gtfhr dgys wjcc

hxphrjhieh tfjs, dut igt nh, jt pkjis nh tg sky. ]fkt js tfh dksjs gl ny trkaje cjlh. J wjcc igt fkvh k arhkt

tjnh ji tfh ihxt thi yhkrs. ]fh pchksurhs gl shx kim cgvh wjcc dh mhijhm tg nh. Gtfhr dgys wjcc

hxphrjhieh jt, dut igt nh. Jisthkm, J wjcc gicy hxphrjhieh njshry, rhohetjgi, cgihcjihss, kim pkji.

Kt tfkt ngnhit ji tjnh, J mjmi‚t tfji` nuef kdgut tfjs nki‚s egnnhit. J mgi‚t hvhi rhnhndhr wfg

fh wks. Dut klthr tfgsh thi yhkrs fkvh pksshm kim J‚vh hxphrjhiehm wfkt J‚vh hxphrjhiehm, J eki‚t fhcp

dut tfji` kdgut tfkt ngnhit. Jl gicy J ìhw wfkt wks ji stgrh lgr nh, rjaft tfhi kim tfhrh.

Jt wks tjnh tg dhaji Ljltf Arkmh. Jt stkrthm gut hxehcchitcy. Ny thkefhr wks iknhm Nrs. Mknkrt, kim

sfh wgucm kcwkys dh vhry `jim tg nh.



Lgr tfh ljrst whh` gl Ljltf Arkmh, J wks kt ngtfhr‚s fgush. J egisjmhrhm nyshcl tg dh vhry –eggc„ dy

igw. J fkm agtthi dhtthr kt s`kthdgkrmjia, J fkm dcgimh fkjr, kim J mrhsshm cj`h k s`kthdgkrmhr. J lhct

arhkt kitjejpktjgi lgr wfkt tfh eggc jms wgucm tfji` gl nh gieh tfhy skw ny trkislgrnktjgi.

]g ny mjskppgjitnhit, ig gih rhkccy ekrhm. ]fhy whrh kcc ji tfhjr gwi wgrcms. J mgi‚t rhnhndhr kiy

`jms sfgwjia rhegaijtjgi gl ny ihw –eggcihss„. Hvhitukccy, J wks rhakrmhm mjllhrhitcy tfki J wks ji

Lgurtf arkmh, wfjef J dheknh egithit wjtf. ]fh eggc `jms tkc`hm tg nh ngrh, kim J stkrthm fkiajia gut

wjtf tfhn murjia rhehss kim cuief.

Qfhi lktfhr‚s whh` eknh, J lhct lrustrkthm dhekush J mjmi‚t fkvh higuaf eggc ecgtfhs tfhrh, kim jt

tgg` k wfjch lgr nh tg aht lktfhr tg ljim tfh tjnh tg duy sgnh lgr nh. Ngtfhr kcwkys agt nh wfkt J

wkithm, rjaft wfhi J wkithm jt. Kt ngtfhr‚s fgush, kcc gl ny ihhms whrh nht wjtf hxehcchit prhejsjgi,

wfhrhks kt lktfhr‚s fgush, tfhrh wgucm kcwkys dh k tjnh mhcky dhekush lktfhr kim Ugunkyk fkm chss

tjnh lgr nh, kim pkjm chss ktthitjgi tg nh.

Ufgrtcy klthr ny Ljltf arkmh yhkr dhaki, ny ngtfhr mhejmhm tg ngvh gut gl tfh Thm Fgush tg k snkcc

fgush ji Qggmckim Fjccs. ]fjs ihw fgush wks cgekthm gi ]gpkiak Ekiygi Dguchvkrm, ihkr Munhtz

strhht. Lktfhr‚s fgush wks oust up tfh fjcc lrgn tfhrh, sg jt wks prketjekccy wkc`jia mjstkieh tg lktfhr‚s

fgush.

J wgucm njss tfh Thm Fgush, mhspjth jts snkccihss kim tfh lket tfkt J fkm tg sfkrh k rggn wjtf nysjsthr. J fkm sgnh vhry aggm tjnhs tfhrh. ]fjs ihw fgush wks ngrh egivhijhit. Jt wks stjcc k twg

dhmrggn fgush, dut gih rggn wks dja higuaf tg dh spcjt ji twg, kim sg dy fkvjia k wkcc dujct ji tfh

njmmch, ny sjsthr kim J hkef agt gur gwi rggn.

Ks J agt dhtthr kim dhtthr kt s`kthdgkrmjia, ny ngtfhr nkmh ki hllgrt tg tk`h nh tg k s`kthpkr`

hvhry whh`. Dy igw, s`kthdgkrmjia wksi‚t oust k spgrt J wks mgjia tg egpy tfh eggc `jms. J wks trucy

jithrhsthm ji tfh spgrt. J hvhi fkm fgphs kim mrhkns gl dhegnjia k prglhssjgikc s`kthdgkrmhr. ]fkt

dheknh ny cjlh agkc. J cgvhm s`kthdgkrmjia sg nuef. J pjeturhm nyshcl mgjia knkzjia trje`s ji lrgit gl k

efhhrjia ergwm, oust cj`h J skw ]giy Fkw` mg ji sgnh vjmhgs. J pjeturhm tfh kmnjrktjgi gi tfhjr lkehs,

kim jt wks kwhsgnh.

]fh s`kthpkr` ny ngtfhr tgg` nh tg wks Igrtfrjmah U`kthpkr`, kim sfh wgucm tk`h nh tfhrh hvhryLrjmky. Igrtfrjmah U`kthpkr` wks ki kvhrkah-sjzhm gutmggr s`kthpkr` wjtf ljih wggmhi rknps. Ljrst, wh

wgucm fkvh mjiihr kt tfh Igrtfrjmah Nkcc, kim tfhi J wgucm sjai up lgr tfh 1pn tg ;2pn shssjgi kt tfh

s`kthpkr`. J usukccy whit kcgih, dut klthr k lhw whh`s gl agjia J nkmh k lhw kequkjitkiehs tfhrh, kim

phgpch ìhw nh. ]fjs dheknh k Lrjmky trkmjtjgi murjia ngtfhr‚s whh`.

Gi tfh lgccgwjia Ukturmky, Oknhs usukccy eknh gvhr lgr k schhpgvhr. Qh wgucm pcky Ijithimg <=

aknhs cj`h ]giy Fkw`‚s Rrg U`kthr kim Mgi`hy @gia ckth jitg tfh ijaft, kim tfhi gi Uuimky ngrijia

ngtfhr wgucm tk`h us dgtf tg U`kthckd, ki jimggr s`kthpkr` ji Ujnj \kcchy. Oknhs fkm dhegnh rhkccy

jithrhsthm ji s`kthdgkrmjia tgg, gr sg J dhcjhvhm. J wks kcwkys dhtthr kt jt tfki fjn tfguaf, kim J cj`hm jt

tfkt wky.

]fjs wks tfh wky hvhry whh`him whit murjia ngtfhr‚s whh`, kim J fkm tfh tjnh gl ny cjlh.

J wks sg jithrhsthm ji s`kthdgkrmjia tfkt J tgg` ny s`kthdgkrm trje`-gr-trhktjia lgr Fkccgwhhi. Ny

egstunh, gl egursh, wks nyshcl ks k s`kthdgkrmhr. Qh whit tg tfh Chnhcsgi‚s lgr k ijeh mjiihr kim tfhi

sht gut tg egcchet gur ekimy. Jt wks qujth trje`y tg fgcm k dka lucc gl ekimy wfjch s`kthdgkrmjia, dut J fkm

lui. J rhnhndhr sgnh thhikahrs shhjia nh gi ny s`kthdgkrm kim skyjia –wfy mjmi‚t J tfji` gl tfkt„.

Fkf, tfkt wks arktjlyjia.

Lgr Efrjstnks, ny ngtfhr dguaft nh tfh ihw Rckystktjgi 4. J fkm dhhi wkitjia jt lgr k cgia tjnh,

kim wfhi J uiwrkpphm tfh prhshit kim skw tfh dgx, J lhct sg hckthm. Dhlgrhfkim, tfh gicy vjmhg aknh



egisgch J pckyhm wks tfh Ijithimg <= (kim tfh Aknhdgy, jl tfkt eguits). ]fh Rckystktjgi 4 wks nuef

ngrh kmvkiehm ji arkpfjes, kim jt knkzhm nh.

Qfhi ngtfhr kiiguiehm tfkt J wgucm fkvh tg sfkrh jt wjtf ny sjsthr Ahgrajk kim tfkt J eki‚t `hhp jt

ji ny rggn, ny hxejthnhit turihm tg jimjaiktjgi, kim J tfrhw qujth k tkitrun. Klthr eryjia lgr k djt, J

ekcnhm mgwi kim shttchm tg sfkrjia jt wjtf Ahgrajk. Ufh wgucmi‚t dh usjia jt nuef kiywkys, J tgcm

nyshcl.

Hvhi klthr ahttjia k Rckystktjgi 4, J stjcc pckyhm ny Ijithimg <= k cgt dhekush J cgvhm tfh aknhs J fkm

lgr jt, kim J fkm ki hngtjgikc kttkefnhit tg jt. ]fh Ijithimg <= wks tfh ljrst vjmhg aknh egisgch J

pckyhm, kim jt wgucm kcwkys fkvh k sphejkc pckeh ji ny fhkrt.

Gih mky murjia wjithr drhk` kt lktfhr‚s fgush, lktfhr kim Ugunkyk whit gut lgr k lhw fgurs kim chlt

nh kim ny sjsthr wjtf ]rkey. Qfhi tfhy eknh dke`, tfhy fkm k cjttch puppy wjtf tfhn, kim kiiguiehm

tfkt jt wks gur ihw pht. Jt wks nkjicy k prhshit lgr Ahgrajk. Ahgrajk fkm dhhi mhsphrkthcy ks`jia lktfhr

lgr k pht puppy lgr tfh ckst yhkr, dut J mjmi‚t tfji` fh wgucm ketukccy ag tfrguaf wjtf jt. J wks sg sfge`hm

tfkt wh igw fkm k mga. J wks kcwkys klrkjm gl mgas wfhi J wks cjttch, kim J ihvhr jnkajihm fkvjia gih ks

k pht. ]fh gicy phts J‚vh fkm prhvjguscy whrh ny turtch kim jaukik, wfg dgtf mjhm wjtfji k yhkr gl

kequjrjia tfhn. Ahgrajk wks ajvhi tfh efgjeh gi wfkt tg iknh tfh puppy, kim sfh iknhm jt Cue`y. J

tfguaft tfjs wks k vhry cknh kim stupjm iknh.

Qfhi J rhturihm tg sefggc klthr tfh wjithr drhk`, J igtjehm tfkt kcc tfh eggc `jms fkm kigtfhr jithrhst?

Fke`y ske`jia. Jt wks k sjnpch spgrt egisjstjia gl `je`jia k dhki-ske` jitg tfh kjr ks nkiy tjnhs ks ygu

eki wjtfgut jt ckimjia gi tfh lcggr. ]fhy kcc fkm fke`y ske`s, kim tfhy wgucm sphim rhehss kim cuief

`je`jia tfhn wjtf hkef gtfhr, sjieh s`kthdgkrmjia wksi‚t kccgwhm gi sefggc arguims. J mjmi‚t fkvh k

fke`y ske`, kim J mhejmhm tfkt J ihhmhm tg mg sgnhtfjia kdgut tfkt. Ngtfhr tgg` nh tg tfh stgrh Rke

Uui wfhrh J agt k fke`y ske` wjtf ki grkiah kim arhhi mhsjai. Qfhi wh agt fgnh lrgn tfh nkcc, J

stkrthm prketjejia. J rhnhndhr struaacjia wjtf jt ljrst, dut J sphit tfh ihxt lhw klthriggis egiehitrktjia

gi ahttjia aggm kt jt. J sphit nkiy fgurs whcc jitg tfh ijaft prketjejia ji ny dke`ykrm.

Gieh J wks kdch tg `je` tfh fke`y ske` prgphrcy, J nkmh k dja mhkc gl tfh lket tfkt J wks igw jithrhsthm

ji jt. J wgucm ag up tg tfh argup gl eggc `jms kim sfgw gll ny s`jccs, kim J pckyhm wjtf jt hvhry sjiachnjiuth J sphit gutsjmh murjia sefggc tjnh.

]fh Xpphr pckyarguim wks rhdujct gvhr tfh drhk`, kim tfhrh wks k drkim ihw pckyarguim tg pcky gi. J

kcwkys cgvhm drkim ihw tfjias, kim tfh ihw pckyarguim wks qujth hiakajia. Gi tfh vhry ljrst mky tfkt

wh whrh kccgwhm tg ush jt, J pckyhm tka wjtf Rfjcjp Dcghshr, Kmmjsgi Kcthimgrl, Dryeh Okegds, kim k lhw

gtfhrs.

J ihvhr rhkccy dheknh aggm lrjhims wjtf tfh sg-ekcchm –eggc `jms„. J wgucm shh tfhn ngrh ks

egnphtjtgrs tfki lrjhims. Murjia rhehss kim cuief, J nkjicy pckyhm wjtf Rfjcjp kim fjs cjttch ecjquh wfjef

egisjsthm gl Kmmjsgi Kcthimgrl, @hvji, kim ].O ]kssgih.

J nkmh k lhw Lgurtf Arkmh lrjhims tfrguaf fke`y ske`jia, tfguaf J lgraht tfhjr iknhs. J nkjicy

pckyhm wjtf tfhn murjia rhehss kim cuief. Gih mky, klthr J stkyhm ki fgur klthr sefggc kt tfh Xpphr, J

wks fke`jia ske`jia wjtf tfhn kim J `je`hm ny fke`y ske` up gitg k rggl. Jt wksi‚t ljrst fke`y ske`,

tfki` aggmihss, dut J wks qujth lgim gl jt kim J wks skm tg cgsh jt. J wgimhr jl jt‚s stjcc up tfhrh… Ig, jt

wgucm fkvh dhhi echkrhm kwky dy igw.

J stjcc rhlushm tg fkvh kiy pckymkths wfhi J wks kt ny lktfhr‚s fgush muh tg tfh jiejmhit wjtf

Ugunkyk ji Lgurtf Arkmh. Dhekush gl tfjs, ny lktfhr kim Ugunkyk dheknh egiehri hm tfkt J mjmi‚t fkvh

kiy lrjhims.



Ugunkyk lgrehm nh tg dhlrjhim sgnh gl tfh ihjafdgr‚s `jms wfg cjvhm oust mgwi tfh rgkm. ]fhy

wgucm glthi s`kthdgkrm gutsjmh gl tfhjr fgushs. J wks kafkst… tfh prgsphet gl wkc`jia up tg k duief gl

`jms wfg J mjmi‚t ìgw kim ks`jia tg pcky wjtf tfhn wks thrrjlyjia tg nh. ]fhy whrh –eggc„

s`kthdgkrmhrs, kim tfkt nkmh jt hvhi ngrh jitjnjmktjia. Gl egursh, J wkithm tg dh lrjhims wjtf tfhn

kim ogji ji tfhjr lui, dut J wks tgg sekrhm tfkt tfhy wgucm tfji` J‚n whjrm. J fkvh kcwkys dhhi sfy dy

ikturh.

Ugunkyk mjmi‚t uimhrstkim tfjs, kim sfh akvh nh ig efgjeh ji tfh nktthr. Ufh shit nh gut gl tfh

fgush kim wgucmi‚t cht nh dke` ji uitjc J jitrgmuehm nyshcl tg tfhn. J trjhm prhthimjia tfkt J wks pckyjia

wjtf tfhn, dut jisthkm J wgucm fjmh ji k qujht strhht egrihr. ]g ny surprjsh, Ugunkyk sgnhfgw ìhw J

wks mgjia tfjs, kim sfh eknh tg egilrgit nh. Ufh tfhi agt ]rkey tg tk`h nh mgwi tg wfhrh tfh `jms

whrh pckyjia kim pusf nh jitg jt. ]rkey whit up tg tfh `jms kim ks`hm jl J egucm pcky wjtf tfhn. J lhct

hndkrrksshm kim tjnjm, dut tfhy whcegnhm nh.

J kcwkys fkm tfh sudegisejgus prhegiehptjgi tfkt tfh eggchst `jms whrh nhki kim kaarhssjvh dy

ikturh, wfjef js qujth truh, kim J wks sfge`hm tfkt tfhsh `jms whrh dhjia ijeh tg nh kim chttjia nh pcky

wjtf tfhn. Klthr k lui klthriggi s`kthdgkrmjia krguim tfh strhhts gl Qggmckim Fjccs, J rharhtthm igt

dhlrjhimjia tfhn sggihr. ]fhy whit tg Qggmckim Fjccs Hchnhitkry Uefggc, tfh sefggc ny sjsthr wgucm

sggi ag tg.

K egupch gl whh`s ckthr, Ugunkyk lgrehm nh tg dhlrjhim yht kigtfhr argup gl Qggmckim Fjccs jms.]fjs shegim argup cjvhm ihkrhr tg ny fgush, kim tfhy whrhi‚t s`kthdgkrmhrs, fgwhvhr tfhy cj`hm rjmjia

dj`hs kim seggthrs. Gih gl tfhn wks k dcke` dgy iknhm Cue`y Tkmchy, wfg J tfguaft wks vhry ijeh kt

tfh tjnh. J lguim jt strkiah tfkt fh fkm tfh sknh iknh ks ny mga. Fh wks k lgurtf arkmhr, kim fh wgucm

ckthr ag tg tfh sknh njmmch sefggc ks nh, wfhrh fh wgucm dhegnh ki gdohet gl ny hxtrhnh ohkcgusy

kim fktrhm. Cgg`jia dke`, J eki‚t dhcjhvh J ketukccy pckyhm wjtf fjn ks k lrjhim ji ny lktfhr‚s

ihjafdgrfggm.

Ji tfh sprjia, uiech Ogiiy kim tfh egusjis eknh tg stky kt lktfhr‚s fgush. Egusji Ahgrah dui`hm wjtf

nh ji ny rggn, kim tfh twg gl us dheknh jistkit lrjhims. J fkmi‚t shhi fjn sjieh ny ckst trjp tg

Hiackim, kim dke` tfhi wh whrh cjttch `jms. J hiogyhm fkvjia k lrjhim tg pcky wjtf gi k mkjcy dksjs wjtfgut

fkvjia tg krrkiah k pckymkth, kim tfh whh` tfkt tfhy stkyhm wjtf us wks arhkt lui. J gieh tgg` fjnkcgia tg pcky gi seggthrs kim s`kthdgkrms wjtf tfh ihjafdgr `jms, kim wh kcsg whit tg tfh dhkef k cgt.

Jimhhm, jt wks k arhkt whh`, kim J wks skm tg shh tfhn ag. J cgg`hm lgrwkrm tg shhjia fjn kakji wfhi

wh whrh tg ag gi gur vkektjgi tg Lrkieh kim Hiackim ji tfh egnjia sunnhr.

Klthr Ogiiy kim tfh egusjis chlt, Ugunkyk‚s ngtfhr @fkmjok eknh tg stky lgr k lhw ngitfs, kim J wks

nkmh tg sfkrh ny rggn wjtf fhr, dhekush lktfhr fkm egivhrthm twg gl tfh auhst rggns jitg fjs glljeh,

kim ]rkey wks stkyjia ji tfh mgwistkjrs rggn. J fkm ki hxtrk dhm ji ny rggn, sg J suppgsh jt nkmh

shish tg tfhn. J wks k djt kiigyhm wjtf tfjs kt tfh stkrt, dut J dgimhm whcc wjtf @fkmjok, sg J sggi

dheknh g` wjtf jt. Ufh wks cj`h k tfjrm arkimngtfhr tg nh.

Ny ngtfhr kttkjihm tje`hts tg tfh rhm ekrpht prhnjhrh Utkr Qkrs Hpjsgmh 4? Kttke` gl tfh Ecgihs. Qh

rhehjvhm lgur tje`hts. Ahgrajk wks gcm higuaf tg ag, kim J phrsukmhm ngtfhr tg cht nh ajvh tfh lgurtf

tje`ht tg Oknhs. J wks kwhstrue` dy tfh tjnh tfh ngvjh himhm. Jt lguim jt tg dh kdsgcuthcy pfhignhikc.

Oknhs kim J tkc`hm kdgut jt lgr fgurs klthrwkrm.

Ny cjlh kt sefggc wks stkrtjia tg dhegnh nhmjgerh kakji, kim J dheknh lrustrkthm wjtf ny struaach tg

dh eggc. J mjmi‚t fkvh k rhauckr argup gl lrjhims wfg J kcwkys pckyhm wjtf. J wks cj`h k ignkm, ngvjia

lrgn argup tg argup kim tryjia tg ljt ji wjtf hkef gih, dut ihvhr luccy jitharktjia. J lhkrhm tfkt tfh eggc

`jms mjmi‚t rhakrm nh ks gih gl tfhn, kim hvhi Rfjcjp‚s ecjquh ihvhr egisjmhrhm nh gih gl tfhjr egrh



lrjhims. Mhspjth kcc gl ny ktthnpts tg dh eggc, J mjmi‚t lhhc ks jl tfh gtfhr `jms rhsphethm nh ks suef. J

wks stjcc qujth tfh gutekst, ks J kcwkys wjcc dh.

Ny sgejkc cjlh efkiahm sgnhwfkt wfhi Nrs. Mknkrt kiiguiehm tfkt wh wgucm fkvh ihw shktjia

krrkiahnhits ji eckss, kim tfh prgehss gl mhejmjia gi wfg sjts wfhrh wks up tg us. Gur eckss egisjsthm

gl tkdchs tfkt shkthm kdgut ljvh tg sjx phgpch, kim wfhi gur iknh wks ekcchm rkimgncy, wh egucm efggsh

kiywfhrh tg sjt, nhkijia tfkt hvhrygih fkm k efkieh tg sjt wjtf tfhjr argup gl lrjhims. J mjmi‚t fkvh k

egrh argup gl lrjhims, sg J wks tfrgwi jitg k stkth gl pkije.

Grjajikccy, J wks sjttjia kt tfh tkdch wfhrh Rfjcjp‚s ecjquh skt, dut kcc gl tfhjr iknhs whrh ekcchm dhlgrh

nh, kim J wks dggthm lrgn tfhjr tkdch. Kt tfjs pgjit, J oust efgsh tg sjt kiywfhrh, kim J himhm up sjttjia

ihxt tg Ogfi Og Achi. Nktt Dgrmjhr kim Mkiiy Mkykij kcsg skt kt gur tkdch. ]fhsh whrh `jms wfg J

rhakrmhm ks eggc, sg J wks egithit wjtf sjttjia wjtf tfhn.

J ihvhr rhkccy jithrkethm wjtf Ogfi Og Achi tfkt nuef ji tfh pkst. Fh wks gih gl tfh djaahst ohr`s gl

tfh sefggc, ihxt tg ]rhvgr kim @hktgi. Qh qukrrhchm k djt kt tfh stkrt, dut sggi higuaf wh stkrthm

sgejkcjzjia, kim J tkc`hm wjtf fjn kdgut sgnh ihw aknhs J agt lgr ny Rckystktjgi 4. Qh dheknh lrjhims

wfhi Ogfi Og summhicy ks`hm nh jl fh eki egnh gvhr tg ny fgush. J lhct fkppy tfkt fh ks`hm nh tfjs… jt

wgucm dh tfh ljrst pckymkth J wgucm fkvh wjtfgut ny ngtfhr krrkiajia jt lgr nh. ]fjs wgucm spkr` k lui

ihw lrjhimsfjp tfkt wgucm ckst whcc klthr Ljltf Arkmh. ]fh rkimgn shktjia krrkiahnhit ihxt tg Ogfi Og

wks tfh dhst tfjia tg fkpphi tg nh ji Hchnhitkry Uefggc.

Mhspjth ny struaachs tg dh rhakrmhm ks –eggc„ kim ny gdshssjgi wjtf kttkjijia suef rhegaijtjgi, Ljltf

arkmh wks ny lkvgrjth sefggc yhkr ji Hchnhitkry Uefggc. J pckyhm wjtf ngrh phgpch tfki J hvhr mjm ji

prhvjgus arkmhs, J wks chss sfy, J wksi‚t k mgr`, kim J fkm ki kwhsgnh tjnh chkrijia fgw tg s`kthdgkrm

kim fke`y ske`. Jt wks nhngrkdch yhkr ljcchm wjtf ogyluc hxphrjhiehs.

J mjmi‚t wkit tfh sefggc yhkr tg him. Gieh Ljltf arkmh wks gvhr, J wjcc fkvh tg ag tg Njmmch Uefggc,

kim tfh prgsphet ljcchm nh wjtf kixjhty. Ny cjttch jiigehit njim kcwkys cgg`hm kt Njmmch Uefggc ks

sgnhtfjia lkr ji tfh luturh, wfhi J argw up. J mjmi‚t wkit tg argw up. J wks hiogyjia ny cjlh ks k `jm

rjaft kt tfkt ngnhit. J mjmi‚t tfji` kdgut tfh luturh.

@jms ji ny eckss tgcm nkiy rungrs gl Njmmch Uefggc cjlh tfkt ljcchm nh wjtf lhkr kim shit k sfjvhr

tfrguaf ny spjih. Hvhi tfrguaf wktefjia ngvjhs kim ].\. sfgws J agt k acjnpsh gl wfkt wks ji stgrh lgrk Njmmch Uefggchr. ]fhrh wks tkc` gl ajrcs, kim fgw jt wgucm sggi dh –eggc„ tg dh pgpuckr wjtf tfh ajrcs.

Ajrcs whrh cj`h egnpchthcy lgrhjai erhkturhs tg nh. J ihvhr jithrkethm wjtf tfhn… J wksi‚t hxphethm tg.

Ji Hchnhitkry Uefggc, dgys pckyhm wjtf dgys kim ajrcs pckyhm wjtf ajrcs. ]fkt wks wfkt J wks ushm tg.

]fkt wks ny wgrcm. J fhkrm stgrjhs gl fgw dgys krh hxphethm tg stkrt `jssjia ajrcs ji Njmmch Uefggc! Uuef

tfjias gvhrwfhcnhm nh. J trjhm tg mjsnjss jt ks nuef ks J egucm kim hiogy ny cjlh ji tfh prhshit ngnhit.

Ny sefggc krrkiahm k eknpjia trjp lgr tfh hitjrh Ljltf Arkmh eckss dhlgrh arkmuktjgi mky. Kt ljrst J

mjmi‚t wkit tg ag dhekush J wgucm dh kwky lrgn ny pkrhits lgr ljvh mkys, sgnhtfjia J wks ihvhr ushm

tg. J wks klrkjm J wgucm aht tgg fgnhsje`. J ihvhr sphit ngrh tfki gih ijaft kwky lrgn ny pkrhits. Gi

tfh rkrh geeksjgi tfkt tfhy fkm tg ag gut gl tgwi lgr k lhw mkys kim chlt nh wjtf k ikiiy, J wgucm ery kt

ijaft.

Ny thkefhr Nrs. Mknkrt eknh up tg nh gih ngrijia dhlgrh eckss stkrthm kim phrsukmhm nh tg ag,

skyjia tfkt tfh arkmuktjgi trjp wks sgnhtfjia J wgucmi‚t wkit tg njss. Jt wgucm dh k gieh ji k cjlhtjnh

hxphrjhieh, kim klthr sgnh fhsjtktjgi J karhhm tg ag kcgia.

J lgragt hxketcy wfhrh tfjs eknpjia trjp tgg` pckeh. Jt wks cgekthm kt k sphejkc eknpjia rhtrhkt

sgnhwfhrh ji tfh lgrhst tg tfh igrtf gl Cgs Kiahchs. Jt wks vhry shecumhm… k snkcc vjcckah gl ekdjis kim

thits surrguimhm dy wjcmhrihss kim fj`jia trkjcs. Lgr tfh trjp tfhrh, J mhejmhm tg ag wjtf ny lrjhims Dryeh

kim Efkrcjh ji k ekr jisthkm gl tk`jia tfh sefggc dus wjtf hvhrygih hcsh. ]fjs wks nuef ngrh

egnlgrtkdch, kim J wks ackm tg fkvh sikaahm k spgt ji tfh ekr wjtf tfhn.



Hvhrygih wks kssjaihm tg argups gl ljvh tg sfkrh k ekdji gr k thit. J wks grjajikccy pckehm ji tfh argup

wjtf Efkrcjh, Dryeh, kim k lhw gtfhrs… dut tfkt argup wks ajvhi k thit tg schhp ji. J wks kppkcchm dy fgw

mrkd kim uiegnlgrtkdch tfh thits cgg`hm. J wkithm k ekdji. Ug J whit tg ny thkefhr kim ks`hm tg dh

trkislhrrhm tg k argup tfkt wks schhpjia ji k ekdji. Ufh pckehm nh ji k argup gl sgnh eggc s`kthdgkrmhr

`jms, jiecumjia Njefkhc, Ukn, ]rhvgr, Nktt, kim Uthpfhi. J lhct k shish gl prjmh tg dh pkrt gl tfjs argup.

Murjia tfh mkytjnh gi tfjs trjp, tfh wfgch Ljltf Arkmh eckss pkrtjejpkthm ji aknhs, gutmggr ketjvjtjhs,

ikturh fj`hs, kim dkrdhquhs. Jt wks arhkt lui. Ijafttjnh ji tfh ekdji wks cj`h fkvjia k schhpgvhr wjtf

ljvh phgpch, kim jt wks k ihw hxphrjhieh tfkt hxejthm nh. Dhlgrh dhmtjnh, Njefkhc Tky tgg` gut k

nkakzjih tfkt fkm pjeturhs gl dhkutjluc ngmhc wgnhi, kim kcc gl tfh dgys aktfhrhm krguim kim cgg`hm

kt tfhn. Ug… hvhi kt tfh hkrcy kah gl thi, dgys whrh stkrtjia tg dh kttrkethm tg tfh lhnkch dgmy. J mjmi‚t

uimhrstkim tfjs… J fkmi‚t yht rhkefhm tfkt stkah. J prhthimhm tg dh jithrhsthm oust sg tfkt J wgucmi‚t

kpphkr uieggc. Kcc gl tfgsh dgys prgdkdcy cgst tfhjr vjrajijty dy sjxthhi. Mkni tfhn.

]fh trjp himhm up dhjia sg lui tfkt J mjmi‚t ery kt kcc kdgut dhjia kwky lrgn ny pkrhits lgr sg cgia.

Kim ljikccy, jt wks tjnh tg arkmukth lrgn Hchnhitkry Uefggc. Dhlgrh tfh ehrhngiy, gur wfgch eckss

wktefhm k vjmhg lucc gl lggtkah gl sefggc cjlh tfrguafgut tfh yhkr. J skw k lhw acjnpshs gl nyshcl ekuaft

ji tfh lggtkah, kim J lhct arktjljhm. Ny cjlh kt ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry Uefggc wks k dckst, lucc gl nhngrkdch

hxphrjhiehs kim wgimhrluc tjnhs.J mrhsshm ji k ijeh sfjrt wjtf k tjh lgr tfh ehrhngiy. Kcc gl tfh Ljltf Arkmhrs cjihm up kim wkc`hm mgwi

ki jsch tfrguaf tfh ehithr gl tfh Kumjtgrjun, wjtf tfh kumjhieh gl pkrhits kim sjdcjias gi hjtfhr sjmh.

Qfhi J skw ny pkrhits, tfhy cgg`hm sg prgum gl nh. Hkef stumhit fkm tg wkc` up tg tfhjr thkefhr gi

tfh stkah kim rhehjvh k arkmuktjgi kwkrm. Qh whrhi‚t rhqujrhm tg a jvh k sphhef, tg ny rhcjhl. J wgucm dh

tgg ihrvgus tg tkc` ji lrgit gl ki kumjhieh. ]fh arkmuktjgi tfhnh sgia wks –]jnh gl Zgur Cjlh„ dy tfh

dkim Arhhi Mky, gih gl ny lkvgrjth dkims. Qfhihvhr J wgucm fhkr tfjs sgia kakji, J wgucm tfji` kdgut

tfkt acgrjgus mky, kim tfh nhngrjhs wgucm nk`h nh lhhc ki hxtrhnh shish gl igstkcajk. Ji tfh

klthriggi, tfhrh wks k arkmuktjgi pkrty kt tfh ]gp gl ]gpkiak egnnuijty rherhktjgi ehithr, k cgvhcy

pckeh tfkt prgvjmhm k vjhw gl tfh wfgch \kcchy.

Ny ngtfhr tgg` nh tg fkvh mjiihr kt tfh susfj rhstkurkit @kdu`j klthrwkrms. Jt wks oust nh kim fhr.

Ks wh skt mgwi kt tfh rhstkurkit klthr kcc tfh hxejthnhit, J tgg` k ngnhit tg luccy pgimhr gvhr tfh lkettfkt Hchnhitkry Uefggc wks kcc gvhr. Jt wks mgih. J lhct sg keegnpcjsfhm kim prgum… J wks fkppy, tfjias

whrh aggm. Dut kcgia wjtf tfkt fkppjihss wks k lhhcjia gl skmihss tfkt J wjcc dh chkvjia kcc gl tfgsh

hxphrjhiehs dhfjim. K wfgch efkpthr gl ny cjlh fkm oust pksshm, kim k ihw gih wks dhajiijia. ]fkt mky

wks suef ki hxtrkgrmjikry mky. K mky tg rhnhndhr, k nhngry tg efhrjsf.

Lgr tfh ljrst lhw whh`s gl sunnhr, ngtfhr krrkiahm pckymkths wjtf vkrjgus lrjhims kim

kequkjitkiehs J nkmh lrgn ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry, jiecumjia ]rhvgr Dguraht, Nktt Dgrmjhr, Efkrcjh

Egivhrsh, Ogfi Og Achi, kim Rfjcjp Dcghshr. Jt wks jithrhstjia tg fkvh ]rhvgr kim Nktt gvhr. J ihvhr

tfguaft J wgucm fkvh pckymkths wjtf tfhn. Nktt wks gih gl tfh eggchst `jms ji tfh sefggc0 fh wks k

s`kthdgkrmhr kim k dkshdkcc pckyhr wfg shhnhm tg akrihr rhsphet lrgn hvhrygih. J hivjhm fjn murjia

Hchnhitkry Uefggc hvhi wfhi wh whrh lrjhims, kim J wgucm mhhpcy hivy kim fkth fjn ckthr gi ji cjlh,

wfhi J ljim gut fgw nuef sueehss fh wgucm fkvh wjtf ajrcs.

Kakji, J rhphkt, tfkt ks efjcmrhi wh kcc pcky tgahtfhr ks hqukcs ji k lkjr hivjrginhit. Gicy klthr tfh

kmvhit gl pudhrty mghs tfh truh drutkcjty gl funki ikturh sfgw jts lkeh. Cjlh wjcc dhegnh k djtthr kim

uilkjr struaach lgr shcl-wgrtf, kcc dhekush ajrcs wjcc efggsh sgnh dgys gvhr gtfhrs. ]fh dgys wfg ajrcs

ljim kttrketjvh wjcc cjvh pchksurh-ljcchm cjvhs wfjch tfhy mgnjikth tfh dgys wfg ajrcs mhhn uiwgrtfy. Nktt

Dgrmjhr wjcc ag gi tg cjvh k cjlh gl pchksurh. Ajrcs wjcc tfrgw tfhnshcvhs kt fjn. Kim J wjcc ag gi tg dh

rhohethm kim funjcjkthm dy ajrcs. Kt tfkt ngnhit ji tjnh, wh whrh oust pckyjia tgahtfhr ks efjcmrhi,

gdcjvjgus tg tfh lket tfkt ny luturh wjcc dh mkr` kim fjs wjcc dh drjaft. Cjlh js suef k eruhc og`h.



Ny ngtfhr egitjiuhm tg tk`h nh tg Igrtfrjmah U`kthpkr` hvhry Lrjmky, kim J kcsg ktthimhm k

s`kthdgkrm eknp kt Rhmcgw U`kthpkr` lgr k egupch gl whh`s. Kt tfjs eknp J dunphm jitg gih gl tfh `jms

J pckyhm wjtf krguim lktfhr‚s fgush.

J fkm dhhi tryjia vhry fkrm tg aht dhtthr kt s`kthdgkrmjia, dut wfhi J skw tfkt tfhrh whrh dgys k cgt

yguiahr tfki nh wfg egucm mg ngrh trje`s, J rhkcjzhm tfkt J sue`hm. J wks ihvhr aggm kt spgrts gr kiy

pfysjekc ketjvjty, kim wfhi J mjsegvhrhm s`kthdgkrmjia, J tfguaft tfkt ljikccy fhrh wks k spgrt tfkt J

egucm hxehc ji kim hvhi dheknh k prglhssjgikc kt. Jt erusfhm nh k cjttch jisjmh tg shh tfkt J wks k lkjcurh

kt s`kthdgkrmjia klthr ngrh tfki k yhkr gl prketjejia jt. J egucm ihvhr nksthr tfh `je`lcjp gr fhhclcjp. Kcc J

egucm mg wks tfh gccjh ounp kim rjmh mgwi k lhw rknps. J skw hjaft-yhkr-gcm dgys kt tfh s`kthpkr` wfg

egucm mg k `je`lcjp wjtf hksh, kim jt nkmh nh sg kiary. Qfy mjm J lkjc kt hvhrytfjia J trjhm7 J ks`hm

nyshcl. Ny mrhkns gl dhegnjia k prglhssjgikc s`kthdgkrmhr whrh gvhr. J lhct sg mhlhkthm.

Dhekush gl tfjs, ny jithrhst ji s`kthdgkrmjia scgwcy lkmhm kwky murjia tfjs sunnhr. Oknhs fkm

rhehitcy tgcm nh tfkt fh wks ig cgiahr jithrhsthm ji tfh spgrt, sg J ig cgiahr fkm fjn tg s`kthdgkrm wjtf

kiywky. J oust mhejmhm tg lgraht kdgut jt lgr tfh ngnhit.

Oknhs‚s lknjcy ngvhm tg k ihw fgush ji Nkcjdu. ]fh fgush wks gwihm dy tfh Chnhcsgi‚s, kim tfhy

whrh stkyjia ji jt thnpgrkrjcy. Ngtfhr tgg` us tfhrh k lhw tjnhs wfhrh J kmvhiturhm wjtf Oknhs ji tfhwjcmhrihss krhk tfkt surrguimhm tfh fgush. Qh wgucm glthi ag tg k snkcc pckzk ji tfh ehithr gl Nkcjdu.

]fhrh wks k pckyarguim tfhrh, wjtf k lhw sfgps kim rhstkurkits surrguimjia jt.

Jt wks tjnh lgr ny ;;tf djrtfmky. J wks kt ngtfhr‚s fgush kim oust mhejmhm tg fkvh k snkcc pckymkth lgr

ny djrtfmky. J jivjthm Oknhs gvhr, kcgia wjtf kigtfhr `jm wfg J fkm dhlrjhimhm kt tfh Qggmckim Fjccs

rherhktjgi ehithr. Ny ngtfhr nkmh k snkcc ek`h, J dchw gut tfh ekimchs, kim tfkt wks jt. J wks hchvhi

yhkrs gcm.

;; Zhkrs Gcm

]fh trjp tg Lrkieh kim Hiackim dhaki sfgrtcy klthr ny djrtfmky. Qh fkm dhhi tkc`jia kdgut jt lgr kwfjch kt lktfhr‚s fgush, kim J wks rhkccy hxejthm tg ag. Qh trkvhchm gi \jraji Ktckitje Xpphr Eckss. J wks

hxtrhnhcy hitfusjkstje kdgut tfjs, ks J kcwkys cgvhm cuxury kim gpuchieh.

Qh stgpphm dy ji Hiackim lgr k egupch gl mkys tg sky fhccg tg arkimnk Ojix. ]fh egusjis whrhi‚t

tfhrh, tfhy whrh kcrhkmy ji Lrkieh, sg jt wks k djt dgrjia. Qfhi wh krrjvhm ji Lrkieh, tfh lhhcjia gl

wgimhr kim eurjgsjty swhpt gvhr nh ks jt kcwkys mjm wfhi J vjsjthm k lgrhjai eguitry. ]fh ckst tjnh J wks

ji Lrkieh, J wks gicy k lhw whh`s gcm. ]fjs wks tfh ljrst tjnh J wks kdch tg trucy hxphrjhieh tfh eguitry.

Lrkieh wks k wfgch mjllhrhit wgrcm, kim jt wks k wgrcm tfkt J cj`hm. Lrhief eucturh js sg hxqujsjth kim

rhljihm egnpkrhm tg Knhrjeki eucturh.

Klthr dgg`jia k egupch gl rggns kt k snkcc Jii ihkr tfh tgwi gl ]gucgush, wh nht up wjtf Ogiiy kim

tfh egusji‚s kt Kuit Ohiiy‚s fgush. Kuit Ohiiy js ny lktfhr‚s sjsthr, kim tfh ckst tjnh J skw fhr wks

wfhi J cjvhm ji Hiackim, dhlgrh tfh ngvh tg Knhrjek. Ufh fkm k lhw `jtthis ji fhr fgush tfkt J cgvhm tg

pcky wjtf.

Ahgrah kim J jnnhmjkthcy rhsunhm gur lrjhimsfjp tfkt stkrthm ji tfh sprjia. ]fhrh wks k vkst

lgrhsthm krhk surrguimjia tfh fgush. Ahgrah tgcm nh tfhrh whrh cgts gl wjcm dgkrs ji tfh lgrhst, sg wh

whit –wjcm dgkr fuitjia„. Jt wks oust k aknh, kim wh ihvhr himhm up shhjia kiy dgkrs kt kcc, dut tfh

susphish gl pgssjdcy ljimjia gih wks wfkt nkmh jt lui.

Qh stkyhm ji ]gucgush lgr kdgut k whh`, kim tfhi wh skjm aggmdyh tg tfh rhcktjvhs kim sht gll tg

tgur tfh eguitry. Qh tgurhm nkiy eucturkc tgwis kim stkyhm ji ekstch-stych fgthcs. ]fjs sfgucm fkvh

dhhi k arhkt hxphrjhieh lgr nh, dut ny egilcjets wjtf Ugunkyk sgurhm jt. ]fhrh whrh k lhw jiejmhits ji



wfjef sfh puijsfhm nh dy nk`jia nh stky ji ny fgthc rggn wfjch sfh, lktfhr kim Ahgrajk kcc whit gut

tg mjiihr kt k rhstkurkit. J fkthm fhr lgr tfjs.

Gi tfh wky dke`, wh stgpphm kt arkimnk Ojix‚s fgush ji Hiackim lgr k whh`. ]fh egusjis whrh tfhrh

tfjs tjnh, kim jt wks k cgt gl lui. Qh kcc schpt ji gih rggn, sg jt wks cj`h fkvjia gih dja schhpgvhr. Gih

mky wh whit gi k trjp tg k nushun, wfhrh J fkm ki kraunhit wjtf Ugunkyk. Ufh sfguthm kt nh ji lrgit

gl Ahgrah kim tfrhkthihm tg puijsf nh. ]fjs wks sg hndkrrkssjia tfkt J lhcc jitg k njshrkdch nggm lgr

tfh rhst gl tfh mky. J kcwkys cgvhm trkvhcjia, dut J chkrihm tfkt trkvhcjia wjtf Ugunkyk oust rujis tfh

wfgch hxphrjhieh. Kim tfjs wgucmi‚t dh tfh ckst tjnh J wgucm dh lgrehm tg trkvhc wjtf Ugunkyk hjtfhr, tg

ny utngst mjsnky.

]fh trjp cksthm tfrhh whh`s ji chiatf, tfh phrlhet chiatf gl tjnh lgr k vkektjgi, ji ny gpjijgi. J qujth

hiogyhm jt, jl J mgi‚t eguit tfh tjnhs Ugunkyk rujihm jt.

Jt lhct ijeh tg dh dke` fgnh klthr k cgia, eucturkc vkektjgi. Kt lktfhr‚s fgush, ny ikiiy ]rkey agt jitg

ki kraunhit wjtf lktfhr, kim sfh wks lgrehm tg chkvh. J wks skm tg shh fhr ag. Ufh wks kcwkys pchkskit

kim lui tg dh krguim. Gieh ]rkey chlt, Ahgrajk kim J wgucm ig cgiahr fkvh kiy ikiijhs. Qh whrh ahttjia

tgg gcm lgr jt. J wksi‚t k cjttch efjcm kiyngrh… fkvjia ikiijhs dheknh k tfjia gl tfh pkst. Lrgn igw gi, jl

lktfhr kim Ugunkyk fkm tg ag gut tg k mjiihr pkrty, tfhy wgucm oust fjrh k dkdy-sjtthr tg cgg` klthr us,

kim sggi J wgucm dh gcm higuaf tg stky dy nyshcl ji tfh fgush.

J agt k fkjreut, kim tfjs tjnh J mhejmhm igt tg dchkef ny fkjr dcgimh. ]fh dcke` fkjr kcwkys arhw gut

kiywky, sg tfh lucc-dcgimh cgg` gicy cksthm lgr k egupch gl whh`s. Fkvjia dcgimh fkjr shhnhm tg fkvh

cgst jts spkr`, sg J oust mjmi‚t dgtfhr wjtf jt kiyngrh.

]fh sunnhr wks pchkskit kim rhckxjia, dut jt quje`cy eknh tg ki him. ]fh tjnh lgr Njmmch Uefggc fkm

egnh. Ny lhkr gl tfjs mky fkuithm tfh dke` gl ny njim kcc sunnhr. J wks hirgcchm kt Rjiherhst Njmmch

Uefggc lgr Ujxtf Arkmh. J fkm njxhm lhhcjias kdgut agjia tg tfjs sefggc dhekush J mjmi‚t cj`h ny

hxphrjhieh tfhrh murjia `jimhrakrthi. Lktfhr skjm jt‚s tfh dhst gptjgi lgr nh, dhekush jt wks k snkcc

prjvkth sefggc. J mjmi‚t wkit tg ag tg k ckrah sefggc cj`h Fkch Njmmch Uefggc… tfkt wgucm fkvh dhhi tgg

gvhrwfhcnjia lgr nh.Gi tfh ljrst mky, J wks sfk`jia wjtf kixjhty kim lhkr. J mjmi‚t ìgw wfkt tg hxphet. ]rkisjtjgijia tg

Njmmch Uefggc wks k dja mhkc lgr nh, hvhi ngrh sg tfki stkrtjia hchnhitkry sefggc. J wks nuef gcmhr

kim J ekrhm ngrh kdgut wfkt phgpch tfguaft gl nh. J wks ig cgiahr ki jiigehit cjttch efjcm wfg mjmi‚t

fkvh tg wgrry. J fkm tg wgrry kdgut k cgt gl tfjias, kim gf, mjm J wgrry! Jt wks k wfgch ihw sefggc lucc gl

phgpch J mjmi‚t igw. ]fhy kcc prhvjguscy whit tg hchnhitkry sefggc tgahtfhr, sg ngst gl tfhn kcrhkmy

ìhw hkef gtfhr. ]fkt nkmh nh hvhi ngrh ihrvgus. ]fh gicy phrsgi J ìhw wfg wks agjia tg Rjiherhst

wks k ahh`y `jm iknhm Ikth Argssnki, wfg J mjmi‚t rhkccy jithrket wjtf tfkt nuef ji ]gpkiak.

J kcsg lhct ki jithish lhkr gl wfkt Njmmch Uefggc cjlh wgucm dh cj`h. J mjmi‚t ìgw fgw tg ket krguim

ajrcs, J mjmi‚t ìgw wfkt wks eggc kiyngrh, J fkm ig lrjhims tfhrh. J sjnpcy mjmi‚t ìgw wfkt tg mg. J lhct

cj`h J wks wkc`jia jitg k sigwstgrn wjtfgut k egkt.

Ny pkrhits chm nh jitg tfh sefggc tg sky aggmdyh, kim tfhi jt wks tjnh lgr nh tg stkrt ny ljrst eckss.

J fkm tg tk`h nuctjpch ecksshs wjtf mjllhrhit thkefhrs igw. ]fjs wks kcsg k ihw egiehpt lgr nh kim jt

nkmh nh hxtrhnhcy uiegnlgrtkdch. Ujieh tfjs wks k prjvkth sefggc, J fkm tg whkr k uijlgrn, sgnhtfjia J

fkmi‚t mgih sjieh agjia tg Mgrshtt Fgush ji Hiackim. J tfguaft gl tfjs ks k aggm tfjia tfguaf… J mjmi‚t

fkvh tg wgrry kdgut wfkt J wgucm fkvh tg whkr gi tfh ljrst mky.

Lgr tfh ljrst lhw mkys, J wjtfmrhw jitg k mhlhisjvh sfhcc kim mjmi‚t rhkccy tkc` tg kiygih. J mjm gdshrvh,

fgwhvhr. J gdshrvhm fgw hvhrygih kethm, wfg tfh –eggc `jms„ whrh, wfkt tfhy whrh cj`h… kim jt wks kcc

sg jitjnjmktjia. ]fh sgejkc efkcchiahs tfkt J lkehm ji Ljltf Arkmh whrh jithisjljhm thilgcm.



J igtjehm tfkt tfhrh whrh twg argups gl eggc, pgpuckr `jms. ]fhrh whrh tfh s`kthdgkrmhr jms, suef ks

\jiiy Nkaajg, Ksftgi Ngjg, Mkrrhc, Qhs, kim Kchx Mjd. Kim tfhi tfhrh whrh tfh dgys wfg whrh pgpuckr

wjtf ajrcs, jiecumjia \jiehit, Tgdhrt Ngraki, kim Grhi K`s. ]fhy kcc shhnhm sg egiljmhit kim

kaarhssjvh. J lhct sg jitjnjmkthm dy tfhn, kim J fkthm tfhn lgr jt. J fkthm tfhn sg nuef, dut J fkm tg

jierhksh ny stkimjia wjtf tfhn. J wkithm tg dh lrjhims wjtf tfhn.

J kcsg gdshrvhm tfh ajrcs. J wks stjcc vhry sfgrt lgr ny kah, kim ngst gl tfh ajrcs whrh tkcchr tfki nh. J

fkmi‚t rhkefhm pudhrty yht, dut J wks stkrtjia tg kmnjrh lhnkch prhttjihss. ]fhrh wks gih argup gl

prhtty, pgpuckr ajrcs, kim tfhy kcc shhnhm tg cj`h fkiajia gut wjtf tfkt dgy Tgdhrt Ngraki. J mjmi‚t yht

mhsjrh ajrcs shxukccy, dut J stjcc lhct hivy tgwkrms Tgdhrt lgr dhjia kdch tg kttrket tfh ktthitjgi gl kcc tfh

pgpuckr ajrcs. Qfkt wks sg sphejkc kdgut Tgdhrt Ngraki7 J egistkitcy ks`hm nyshcl.

J tfguaft kcc gl tfh eggc `jms whrh gdigxjgus ohr`s, dut J trjhm ks dhst ks J egucm tg fjmh ny mjsaust kim

kpphkr –eggc„ tg tfhn. ]fhy whrh gdigxjgus ohr`s, kim yht sgnhfgw jt wks tfhsh dgys wfg kcc gl tfh

ajrcs lcge`hm tg. ]fjs sfgwhm nh tfkt tfh wgrcm wks k drutkc pckeh, kim funki dhjias whrh igtfjia

ngrh tfki skvkah kijnkcs. Hvhrytfjia ny lktfhr tkuaft nh wks prgvhi wrgia. Fh rkjshm nh tg dh k

pgcjth, `jim ahitchnki. Ji k mhehit wgrcm, tfkt wgucm dh jmhkc. Dut tfh pgcjth, `jim ahitc hnki mghsi‚t

wji ji tfh rhkc wgrcm. ]fh ajrcs mgi‚t lcge` tg tfh ahitchnhi. ]fhy lcge` tg tfh kcpfk nkch. ]fhy lcge` tg

tfh dgys wfg kpphkr tg fkvh tfh ngst pgwhr kim stktus. Kim jt wks k rutfchss struaach tg rhkef suef k

fhjaft.Jt wks tgg nuef lgr nh tg fkimch. J wks stjcc k cjttch dgy wjtf k lrkajch njim. ]fji`jia kdgut suef tfjias

wgucm gicy erusf ny jiigehieh, kim jt hvhitukccy wjcc. Dut igt kt tfjs pgjit. J sudegisejguscy wkithm tg

hiogy ny efjcmfggm ks nuef ks J egucm, sg J trjhm igt tg tfji` kdgut tfjs ihw rhvhcktjgi kim hiogy cjlh ji

tfh ngnhit. J put jt kcc ksjmh, tg dh pgimhrhm gvhr ckthr.

Ny wfgch wgrcm fkm efkiahm. ]fh –eggc„ tfjia tg mg igw wks tg dh pgpuckr wjtf ajrcs. J mjmi‚t ìgw

fgw tg ag kdgut mgjia tfkt. U`kthdgkrmjia, J wks kdch tg mg… mrhssjia whcc, tfkt wks sjnpch… Dut

kttrketjia ktthitjgi lrgn ajrcs7 Fgw ji tfh dckzhs wks J agjia tg mg tfkt7 J mjmi‚t hvhi uimhrstkim wfkt

wks sg sphejkc kdgut jt hjtfhr, dut hvhrygih shhnhm tg pckeh sg nuef jnpgrtkieh gi jt. ]fjs nkmh nh

hvhi ngrh sfy, kim J dheknh ìgwi ks tfh –sfy ihw `jm.„

]fki`luccy, sgnh `jms stkrthm rhkefjia gut tg nh, kim J fkm k lhw efkiehs tg jitharkth wjtfji kegupch gl whh`s. ]fh ljrst dgy tg tkc` tg nh wks Drjeh Njcchr. Fh ks`hm nh jl J fkm kiy lrjhims kt tfh

sefggc, dhekush fh kcwkys skw nh kcgih. J kmnjtthm tfkt J fkm ig lrjhims, kim fh gllhrhm tg dh ny ljrst

lrjhim. J wks vhry arkthluc lgr tfjs.

Gieh kakji, J ushm s`kthdgkrmjia ks k wky tg jierhksh ny stkimjia, thccjia tfh s`kthdgkrmhr jms tfkt J

ìhw fgw tg s`kthdgkrm kim tfkt J egucm mg sgnh trje`s. ]fjs agt tfhn tg trhkt nh ngrh egrmjkccy. J

hvhi tkc`hm tg Tgdhrt Ngraki k lhw tjnhs, wfg J fkthm kim yht sudegisejguscy rhvhrhm lgr dhjia sg

pgpuckr. Qfhihvhr k sg-ekcchm pgpuckr `jm wgucm sky k wgrm tg nh gr ajvh nh k fjaf ljvh, J lhct jnnhish

sktjslketjgi.

Jihvjtkdcy, J stkrthm tg dhegnh ìgwi tg tfh ajrcs gl ny sefggc0 kim surprjsjiacy, tfhy trhkthm nh

qujth whcc. Jt wks k fuah rhcjhl. Njmmch Uefggc wgucm dh tfh ckst tjnh ji ny cjlh wfhrh J wgucmi‚t dh

egnpchthcy jivjsjdch tg ajrcs. Kcc gl tfh prhtty ajrcs fkm k pheucjkr fkdjt gl fuaajia dgys tfhy ìhw ks k

lgrn gl arhhtjia, kim sgnh gl tfhn fuaahm nh. J mjmi‚t uimhrstkim wfy, dut jt lhct cj`h tfh dhst lhhcjia

hvhr. J wks gih fuimrhm-tjnhs ngrh sktjsljhm lrgn ahttjia k fua lrgn k prhtty ajrc tfki ahttjia k fjaf

ljvh lrgn k pgpuckr dgy. Jt wks k ihw hxphrjhieh tfkt hirkpturhm hvhry ljdhr gl ny dhjia.

]fh 1tf kim 6tf arkmh ajrcs whrh hsphejkccy `jim tg nh. J auhss tfhy tfguaft J wks –euth„ ji k dgyjsf

sgrt gl wky. ]fjs nkmh ny jijtjkc hxphrjhieh gl Njmmch Uefggc nuef dhtthr.



J mhejmhm tg ktthim tfh sefggc mkieh ji hkrcy Getgdhr. K sefggc mkieh wks egnpchthcy lgrhjai tg nh.

Hchnhitkry Uefggcs mjmi‚t fkvh tfhn, gl egursh, kim J gicy ihw kdgut tfhn lrgn wktefjia typjekc

Knhrjeki sfgws gi thchvjsjgi. J tfguaft jt wks sgnhtfjia J fkm tg mg ji grmhr tg dh eggc. J wks vhry

ihrvgus, ikturkccy, dut J pusfhm nyshcl tg ag kfhkm wjtf jt.

Qfhi J agt tfhrh, Tgdhrt Ngraki skw nh kim ks`hm nh jl J wkithm tg fkia gut wjtf fjs argup. J wks

arkthluc lgr tfjs, kim J himhm up fkvjia k ijeh tjnh. J wks sfge`hm tfkt sgnh 1tf kim 6tf arkmh ajrcs

gllhrhm tg mkieh wjtf nh. ]fhy eknh up tg nh ji k argup kim tkuaft nh fgw tg –scgw mkieh„. J fkm tg

pckeh ny fkims gi tfhjr fjps, wfjch tfhy pckehm tfhjr fkims gi ny sfgucmhrs, kim wh wgucm ngvh scgwcy

wjtf tfh nusje. ]fhy whrh kcc tkcchr tfki nh, kim J wks thrrjljhm, dut jt lhct sg… aggm. ]fkt wgucm dh tfh

gicy tjnh ji ny cjlh wfhrh J wgucm fkvh k sktjslyjia hxphrjhieh wjtf ajrcs. ]fh gicy tjnh.

Fkccgwhhi gl tfjs yhkr nkr`hm tfh ckst tjnh J wgucm hvhr ag trje`-gr-trhktjia. Klthr tfjs yhkr J wgucm

dh tgg gcm lgr jt. Ngtfhr tgg` us tg tfh Chnhcsgi‚s, kim J mhejmhm tg igt mrhss up ji kiy egstunh. J whit

ks nyshcl, spgrtjia ny dcke` Rjiherhst swhkthr. Ks jt wks ny ckst tjnh trje`-gr-trhktjia, jt wgucm dh tfh

ckst tjnh J wgucm fkvh kiy sgrt gl lui gi Fkccgwhhi. Kim J mjm fkvh k cgt gl lui. Jt wks ijeh tg ag gut

egcchetjia ekimy wjtf Oknhs kim Igkf, cj`h wh fkm dhhi mgjia lgr shvhrkc yhkrs pkst.

Ny lktfhr eut gll k pgrtjgi gl tfh efjcm suppgrt fh fkm dhhi pkyjia ny ngtfhr, wfjef lgrehm nyngtfhr tg ngvh fgush. Qh ngvhm tg k snkcc dcuh fgush gi Ackmh Kvhiuh ji Ekigak Rkr`. J mjmi‚t cj`h

Ekigak Rkr` kt kcc. Jt wks k vhry uacy kim cgw-eckss krhk tg tfh igrtf gr Qggmckim Fjccs, kim J lhct jt

mhnhkijia tfkt wh wgucm fkvh tg cjvh tfhrh murjia ngtfhr‚s whh`.

]fh fgush mjm fkvh sgnh upsjmhs. Jt fkm lgur dhmrggns kim k djaahr cjvjia rggn tfki ngtfhr‚s gcm

fgush. Ny ihw rggn wks k cgt ckrahr tfki ny gcm gih. Kim gl egursh, ny ngtfhr kcwkys fkm fhr gwi

wkys gl nk`jia hvhrytfjia dhtthr. J wgucm stjcc hiogy ny tjnh kt ngtfhr‚s snkcc fgush ngrh tfki ny

tjnh kt lktfhr‚s dja Qggmckim Fjccs fgush.

Kcgia wjtf tfjs ngvh, tfhrh eknh k ihw efkiah ji gur rgtktjgi sefhmuch. Ny pkrhits mhejmhm tfkt wh

wgucm stky kt gur ngtfhr‚s fgush ngrh, jisthkm gl swjtefjia gih whh`-gih whh`. Ngtfhr wgucm fkvh

us lgr kcc gl tfh whh`mkys, kim wh wgucm ag tg lktfhr‚s gi tfh whh`hims wfhi fh wks ji tgwi.

Krguim tfh sknh tjnh tfkt ny ngtfhr ngvhm, Oknhs‚s lknjcy ngvhm ks whcc, tg kigtfhr Chnhcsgi-

gwihm fgush ji tfh Rkcjskmhs. ]fhy wgucm gicy rhnkji ji tfjs fgush lgr k vhry drjhl phrjgm, dhekush k

trkaje hvhit wgucm sggi geeur ji Oknhs‚s lknjcy.

Gih mky kt sefggc, J wks sjttjia ji ny eckss wfhi J wks summhicy ekcchm tg tfh glljeh. Ny ngtfhr wks

tfhrh, wkjtjia tg pje` nh up. J agt jitg fhr ekr, kim tfh tfrhh gl us mrgvh gut gl ny sefggc kim pkr`hm gi

tfh sjmh gl Ufgup Kvhiuh. Ufh tgcm us tfh mjrh ihws. Oknhs‚s ngtfhr, @jn Hccjs, fkm oust pksshm kwky

lrgn drhkst ekiehr. J erjhm lgr k djt. @jn wks k vhry `jim-fhkrthm phrsgi, kim tfh ngtfhr gl ny dhst

lrjhim. Ufh fkm dhhi sullhrjia lrgn drhkst ekiehr lgr shvhrkc yhkrs, dut J ihvhr tfguaft sfh wgucm mjh

lrgn jt. J jnnhmjkthcy tfguaft gl fgw Oknhs nust dh lhhcjia. Fh oust cgst fjs gwi ngtfhr! Jt nkmh nh

tfji` gl fgw fgrrjdch J wgucm lhhc jl tfh sknh tfjia fkpphihm tg ny gwi ngtfhr, oust tfh tfguaft kcgih

ljcchm nh wjtf pkji.

]fhrh wks tg dh k aht-tgahtfhr gl lknjcy lrjhims kt Oknhs‚s fgush tfkt ijaft, ji fgigr gl @jn. Gi tfh

wky, J tfguaft kdgut fgw J wgucm kpprgkef Oknhs gi tfh sudohet. ]fh knguit gl arjhl fh nust dh

lhhcjia… J egucmi‚t hvhi jnkajih jt. ]fh ckst sjnjckr hxphrjhieh wks tfh mhktf gl ny arkimlktfhr, kim J

wks gicy lgur yhkrs gcm tfhi. Qfhi wh krrjvhm, J cgg`hm lgr Oknhs, kim lguim fjn sjttjia ji fjs rggn. J

ahitcy gllhrhm ny mhhphst egimgchiehs lgr fjs cgss. Fh rhnkjihm vhry strgia, gdvjguscy fjmjia fjs

hngtjgis. Fh cgg`hm vhry skm, ji ki hxtrhnhcy stgje sgrt gl wky. Fh tgcm nh fh luccy keehpthm wfkt fkm

fkpphihm, tfkt fjs ngtfhr wks mhkm kim tfkt wks tfh him gl jt. ]fkt wks kcc wh spg`h gi tfh nktthr.



Qh trjhm igt tg tfji` kdgut jt lgr tfh rhst gl tfh ijaft, kim ckthr gi J pckyhm tka ji fjs dke`ykrm wjtf fjn

kim sgnh gl fjs lrjhims.

J rhnkjihm vhry sfy murjia ny Ujxtf Arkmh yhkr, kim J wgucm kcwkys dh ckdhchm ks k qujht `jm. J wksi‚t

kdch tg hstkdcjsf kiy lrjhims tfkt J egucm fkvh pckymkths wjtf, sg tfh gicy pckymkths J fkm wks wjtf gcm

lrjhims lrgn ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry. ]fjs ljcchm ji tfh sgejkc vgjm, kim J wks egithit wjtf jt.

J trjhm ny dhst tg jnprgvh ny sgejkc sjtuktjgi murjia sefggc tjnh. K lhw ajrcs egitjiuhm tg pky

ktthitjgi tg nh, skyjia fj ks J wkc`hm dy tfhn kim geeksjgikccy ajvjia nh fuas, dut J lhct djtthr kt tfh

lket tfkt J wksi‚t kdch tg trucy fkia gut wjtf tfhn cj`h tfh pgpuckr dgys whrh mgjia.

Ji grmhr tg igt dh shhi ks k egnpchth cgihr kt sefggc, J himhm up nk`jia lrjhims wjtf k `jm iknhm

Egiigr Fkirkfki. Egiigr wks igt k pgpuckr `jm, dhekush ajrcs mjmi‚t cj`h fjn. Mhspjth tfjs, fh wks gih

gl tfh ngst pgnpgus kssfgchs gl tfh sefggc, hvhi ngrh sg tfki kiy gl tfh ngst pgpuckr dgys. Egiigr

wks k truh duccy. J stkrthm fkiajia gut wjtf fjn murjia rhehss kim cuief, kim wh nkmh k lhw og`hs wjtf

hkef gtfhr kim fkm k lhw aggm ckuafs, dut fh wgucm kcwkys pusf nh krguim kim ket tguaf. J wks sg

tjnjm dke` tfhi tfkt J mjmi‚t ekrh. J oust wkithm sgnhgih tg fkia gut wjtf.

Qfhi J stkyhm dke` klthr sefggc gih mky, ny ngtfhr skw nh wjtf Egiigr wfhi sfh eknh tg pje` nh

up. Ufh fks dhhi egiehrihm kdgut nh igt nk`jia kiy ihw lrjhims kt Rjiherhst, kim J suppgsh sfh wks

rhcjhvhm tg shh nh wjtf k –lrjhim„. Ufh jivjthm Egiigr tg egnh gvhr tg ny fgush, wfjef fh keehpthm. Jwks k djt fhsjtkit tg jivjth kiygih lrgn Rjiherhst tg ny ngtfhr‚s fgush, dhekush jt wks cgekthm ji

Ekigak Rkr`, k dkm krhk, kim ngst gl tfh `jms kt Rjiherhst whrh upphr-njmmch eckss wfg wgucm cgg`

mgwi gi nh lgr cjvjia tfhrh. Dut J egucmi‚t dke` gut gl tfjs gieh ny ngtfhr jivjthm Egiigr. Fh eknh

gvhr kim kcc whit whcc, wh pckyhm k lhw vjmhg aknhs lgr k egupch gl fgurs. Dut klthr tfkt pckymkth, fh

wgucm kcwkys rjp gi nh lgr cjvjia ji k –pggr„ fgush. Fh wgucm kcsg thcc gtfhr `jms kt Rjiherhst kdgut jt.

]fjs jilurjkthm nh tg ig him, kim J wgucm `hhp prgeckjnjia tfkt ny lktfhr cjvhs ji k prhstjajgus tfrhh-

stgry fgush ji tfh Qggmckim Fjccs Fhjafts. J dheknh vhfhnhitcy gdshsshm wjtf prgvjia tg Egiigr kim

hvhrygih hcsh tfkt J wksi‚t pggr. J whit sg lkr ks tg drjia pjeturhs gl ny lktfhr‚s fgush tg sefggc. J hvhi

egisjmhrhm jivjtjia sgnh phgpch gvhr tg lktfhr‚s fgush, dut J rhnhndhrhm ny vgw gl ihvhr mgjia tfkt

muh tg tfh pgssjdjcjty tfkt kigtfhr jiejmhit wgucm fkpphi wjtf Ugunkyk, cj`h tfh gih tfkt geeurrhm

yhkrs kag.

Jt wks kt hchvhi yhkrs gcm wfhi J ljrst stkrthm usjia tfh jithriht gi k rhauckr dksjs. ]fh jithriht wks

stjcc egisjmhrhm k ihw pfhignhigi kt tfh tjnh. Dhlgrh hchvhi, J rguafcy ìhw fgw tg drgwsh whdsjths

kim ush hnkjc, dut gieh J luccy jnnhrshm nyshcl ji jt, jt rhkccy lksejikthm nh.

]fh pgpuckr sgejkc ihtwgr`jia tggc kt tfkt phrjgm wks KGC jistkit nhsshiahr, gr –KJN„. J nkmh ny

ljrst KJN keeguit gi ny ngtfhr‚s egnputhr, kim sfh wgucm cht fkvh gih fgur k mky tg hxpcgrh jt. J

ogjihm k lhw efkt rggns. ]fh prgsphet gl tkc`jia tg strkiahrs lrgn k egnputhr wks ihw kim kstguimjia

tg nh.

]gwkrms tfh him gl sjxtf arkmh, J stjcc fkmi‚t nkmh k argup gl lrjhims wfg J egucm shh gutsjmh gl

sefggc. ]fh gicy sgejkc jithrketjgis J fkm gutsjmh gl sefggc whrh pckymkths wjtf gcm lrjhims lrgn ]gpkiak

hvhry igw kim kakji. Ogjijia efktrggns tfrguaf KGC thnpgrkrjcy ljcchm ji tfh sgejkc vgjm lgr k lhw

whh`s. ]fjs wjcc mhljijthcy igt dh tfh ljrst tjnh J wgucm try tg ljcc ji tfkt vgjm wjtf tfh jithriht.

Gieh J hstkdcjsfhm nyshcl ji tfh efkt rggns, J nkmh k lhw lrjhims wfg J jistkit nhsskahm lrhquhitcy.

Ngst gl tfhn whrh ji njmmch sefggc kim sgnh whrh ji fjaf sefggc. J kcsg tkc`hm tg k lhw phgpch J ìhw

lrgn Rjiherhst gvhr KJN.

Gih lrjhim wfg J nht tfrguaf k efkt rggn summhicy hnkjchm nh pjeturhs gl dhkutjluc ik`hm ajrcs,

thccjia nh tg –efhe` tfjs gut„. Qfhi J cgg`hm kt tfh pjeturhs, J wks sfge`hm dhygim wgrms. J fkm ihvhr

shhi wfkt dhkutjluc ajrcs cgg`hm cj`h ik`hm, kim tfh sjaft ljcchm nh wjtf strgia kim gvhrwfhcnjia

hngtjgis. J mjmi‚t ìgw wfkt wks fkpphijia tg nh. Qks jt tfh ljrst ji`cjia gl shxukc mhsjrh ji ny dgmy7 J



wks trkunktjzhm. Ny efjcmfggm wks lkmjia kwky. Gnjigus lhkr swhpt gvhr nh, kim J stgpphm tkc`jia tg

tfkt phrsgi.

Ks tfh Ujxtf Arkmh yhkr eknh tg k ecgsh, J lhct mjssktjsljhm kim jisjaijljekit. Jimhhm, k wfgch ihw

wgrcm fkm gphihm up dhlgrh nh, kim J fkm ig jmhk fgw tg prhvkjc ji jt. J stjcc wkithm tg cjvh ks k efjcm.

J ihvhr hstkdcjsfhm kiy prgphr lrjhims kt Rjiherhst, kim tfh gicy pckymkth J fkm wks tfh gih wjtf

Egiigr tfkt ny ngtfhr krrkiahm, kim tfkt turihm gut tg dh k mjsksthr lgr nh. Ny ngtfhr kim lktfhr

dgtf sfgwhm egiehri tfkt J wksi‚t nk`jia kiy lrjhims, dut dhekush J stjcc skw sgnh lrjhims lrgn

]gpkiak, tfhy mjmi‚t nk`h k dja mhkc gut gl jt.

J egisjmhr Ujxtf Arkmh tg dh tfh dhtthr yhkr gut gl tfh tfrhh yhkrs J wgucm sphim ji Njmmch Uefggc.

Ajrcs ketukccy pkjm ktthitjgi tg nh. ]fhy ìhw wfg J wks kim J mjmi‚t lhhc cj`h J wks egnpchthcy jivjsjdc h. J

wks hxtrhnhcy sfy wjtf ajrcs kim egucm dkrhcy fkvh k egivhrsktjgi wjtf tfhn, dut J stjcc jithrkethm wjtf

ajrcs ngrh murjia tfjs yhkr tfki J wgucm lgr kiy lgccgwjia yhkr. ]fh eggc jms trhkthm nh ijehcy, mhspjth

ny rhputktjgi ks tfh –qujht `jm„. J kcwkys lhct cj`h k cgshr egnpkrhm tg tfhn, kim J fkthm tfhn lgr jt,

tfguaf J stjcc wkithm tfhjr kpprgvkc. J wkithm tg dh gih gl tfhn… J wkithm tg dh tfhjr lrjhim.

]fh ecgshst J eknh tg trucy dhjia gih gl tfhn wks wfhi \jiiy kim Tgdhrt dgtf jivjthm nh tg tfhjr

djrtfmky pkrtjhs, wfjef whrh gicy k egupch gl whh`s kpkrt kt tfh vhry him gl tfh sefggc yhkr. Dgtf

pkrtjhs whrh kt U`kthckd s`kthpkr`. J fkmi‚t dhhi tg U`kthckd lgr kdgut k yhkr, kim wfhi J wkc`hm ji, kccgl tfh nhngrjhs gl agjia tfhrh wjtf Oknhs ljcchm ny njim. J fkmi‚t hvhi s`kthdgkrmhm lgr k wfjch, dut

klthr k lhw njiuths gi tfh rknps ny kdjcjty eknh dke` cj`h nkaje. ]fhy whrh kcc qujth jnprhsshm. J dht

tfhy tfguaft J wgucm him up sue`jia kt jt. J wks fkppy tg prgvh tfhn wrgia.

Jimhhm, Ujxtf Arkmh wks tfh phk` gl ny cjlh kt Rjiherhst. Jt wgucm gicy ag mgwifjcc lrgn tfhrh.

Ny ngtfhr dguaft nh k drkim ihw vjmhg aknh egisgch, tfh Vdgx. J fhkrm k cgt gl `jms tkc`jia kdgut

fgw arhkt tfh Vdgx wks kt sefggc, sg J wks rhkccy hkahr tg fkvh gih. J cj`hm tfh Vdgx nuef ngrh tfki

tfh Rckystktjgi 4. ]fh arkpfjes whrh dhtthr kim tfh aknhs whrh ngrh tg ny tksth. Qjtf tfh Vdgx, J agt

tfh aknh Fkcg. Kt ljrst, J lguim Fkcg tg dh vhry mjlljeuct kim J akvh up gi jt k lhw tjnhs. J fkm ig jmhk tfkt

Fkcg wgucm sggi dhegnh gih gl ny lkvgrjth vjmhg aknh shrjhs tfkt J hvhr pckyhm.

J wks hxtrhnhcy fkppy kim rhcjhvhm wfhi sunnhr eknh. Njmmch Uefggc wks nuef ngrh strhssluc

tfki Hchnhitkry Uefggc, dgtf sgejkccy kim kekmhnjekccy. Uunnhr wgucm prgvjmh k whcc-ihhmhm drhk`

lrgn kcc gl jt.

J stkrthm shhjia sgnh gcm lrjhims lrgn ]gpkiak ngrh lrhquhitcy. Kngia tfhsh whrh Ogfi Og Achi kim

Efkrcjh Egivhrsh. Efkrcjh wksi‚t rhkccy gih gl ny nkji lrjhims kt ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry. J fkm k lhw

pckymkths wjtf fjn fhrh kim tfhrh, dut igt tfkt nkiy. Jt wks gicy uitjc klthr Ljltf Arkmh arkmuktjgi tfkt

gur rhkc lrjhimsfjp dhaki. Fh kcwkys fkm k efkrnjia kim fundch phrsgikcjty, kim fh wks whcc-cj`hm dy

hvhrygih kt ]gpkiak. Fh eknh gvhr tg ny ngtfhr‚s fgush k lhw tjnhs klthr J agt ny V dgx, wfhrh fh

trjhm tg fhcp nh aht pkst tfh fkrmhst chvhc gi Fkcg. Ogfi Og kim Efkrcjh whrh vhry ecgsh lrjhims wjtf hkef

gtfhr, kim hvhitukccy J wgucm stkrt tg shh tfhn kt tfh sknh tjnh.

Ogfi Og jivjthm nh tg fjs lktfhr‚s kpkrtnhit ji Fgccywggm lgr k schhpgvhr. J lguim fjs kpkrtnhit tg dh

vhry mjiay, dut J fkm sg nuef lui tfkt J mjmi‚t hvhi ekrh. Fh cjvhm oust kergss tfh strhht lrgn tfh fuah

Uejhitgcgay dujcmjia. Qh agt tgahtfhr wjtf k argup gl fjs lrjhims kim siue` jitg tfh dujcmjia‚s egurtykrm

kt ijaft tg pcky fjmh-kim-shh` tka. ]fjs wks tfh ljrst tjnh J fkm dhhi gut fkvjia lui wjtf k argup gl `jms

ny kah wjtfgut kiy kmuct suphrvjsjgi. Jt wks vhry knusjia. Qfhi wh whit dke` tg fjs kpkrtnhit, wh

pckyhm Egi`hr‚s Dkm Lur Mky gi tfh Ijithimg <=. ]fh Ijithimg <= wks k vhry gcm egisgch kt tfjs pgjit ji

tjnh, hsphejkccy klthr J igw fkm ki Vdgx kim k RU4, dut J wks hithrtkjihm dy Egi`hr‚s Dkm Lur Mky sg

nuef tfkt J ks`hm ny ngtfhr tg duy jt lgr nh tfh ihxt mky.



Oknhs Hccjs ngvhm yht kakji tg kigtfhr fgush ji tfh Rkcjskmhs. Klthr tfh mhktf gl fjs ngtfhr, Oknhs‚s

lktfhr Krth quje`cy nkmh tfh mhejsjgi tg ngvh kakji. Krth rhithm k snkcc fgush gi ]hnheuck Utrhht,

ihkr tfh rhigwihm Rkcjskmhs Dculls. ]fhrh tfhy wgucm rhnkji lgr k vhry cgia tjnh, kim kcc gl tfh ngst

sjaijljekit hxphrjhiehs J wgucm fkvh wjtf Oknhs ji tfh luturh wgucm tk`h pckeh tfhrh.

Kt tfjs tjnh, tfguaf, J wksi‚t shhjia Oknhs tfkt nuef. Qh scgwcy mrjlthm kpkrt klthr wh cgst gur

egnngi jithrhst ji s`kthdgkrmjia. Qh stjcc egisjmhrhm hkef gtfhr lrjhims, kim wh wgucm stjcc shh hkef

gtfhr geeksjgikccy, kcngst ks k egurthsy. Dut gur lrjhimsfjp wgucm dh kt k stkimstjcc murjia gur njmmch

sefggc yhkrs.

J wks hiogyjia k cgvhcy sunnhr, dut summhicy ny ngtfhr skjm tfkt J fkm tg ag tg sunnhr eknp kt

Rjiherhst. ]fjs wks k mhejsjgi sfh nkmh wjtf ny lktfhr, dhekush tfhy tfguaft jt wgucm dh fhkctfy lgr

nh. J mjmi‚t cj`h tfjs gih djt. Jt wks k ckst njiuth mhejsjgi. Gih ngnhit J wks rhckxjia kim hiogyjia ny

sunnhr drhk`, tfh ihxt ny ngtfhr js wk`jia nh up hkrcy tg tk`h nh tg ny ljrst mky gl eknp kt

Rjiherhst. Arkthluccy, sunnhr eknp wgucm gicy ckst lgr lgur whh`s.

Uunnhr eknp kt Rjiherhst wks cgekthm kt tfh Hchnhitkry Uefggc shetjgi, kim J rhegaijzhm ny gcm

`jimhrakrthi eckss. Jt wks k njx gl njmmch sefggc kim hchnhitkry sefggc `jms, kim J nkmh k lhw lrjhims

wjtf sgnh `jms wfg whrh yguiahr tfki nh.

Kt tfjs eknp, ki jiejmhit fkpphihm tfkt wgucm sekr nh lgr cjlh. ]fh ljrst tjnh tfkt J wks trhkthm dkmcydy k ajrc geeurrhm kt tfjs eknp. J wks jiigehitcy pckyjia wjtf tfh lrjhims J nkmh, kim tfhy whrh tje`cjia

nh, sgnhtfjia phgpch kcwkys mjm dhekush J wks vhry tje`cjsf. J keejmhitcy dunphm jitg k prhtty ajrc tfh

sknh kah ks nh, kim sfh agt vhry kiary. Ufh eurshm kt nh kim pusfhm nh, hndkrrkssjia nh ji lrgit gl

ny lrjhims. J mjmi‚t ìgw wfg tfjs ajrc wks… Ufh wks gicy kt Rjiherhst lgr sunnhr eknp… Dut sfh wks

vhry prhtty, kim sfh wks tkcchr tfki nh. J jnnhmjkthcy lrgzh up kim whit jitg k stkth gl sfge`. Gih gl

ny lrjhims ks`hm nh jl J wks g`, kim J mjmi‚t kiswhr. J rhnkjihm vhry qujht lgr tfh rhst gl tfh mky.

J egucmi‚t dhcjhvh wfkt fkm fkpphihm. Eruhc trhktnhit lrgn wgnhi js thi tjnhs wgrsh tfki lrgn

nhi. Jt nkmh nh lhhc cj`h ki jisjaijljekit, uiwgrtfy cjttch ngush. J lhct sg snkcc kim vucihrkdch. J

egucmi‚t dhcjhvh tfkt tfjs ajrc wks sg fgrrjdch tg nh, kim J tfguaft tfkt jt wks dhekush sfh vjhwhm nh ks

k cgshr. ]fkt wks tfh ljrst hxphrjhieh gl lhnkch eruhcty J himurhm, kim jt trkunktjzhm nh tg ig him. Jt

nkmh nh hvhi ngrh ihrvgus krguim ajrcs, kim J wgucm dh hxtrhnhcy whkry kim ekutjgus gl tfhn lrgntfkt pgjit gi.

Dhlgrh sunnhr eknp himhm, J skw tfkt sknh ajrc fkiajia gut wjtf Grhi K`s k lhw tjnhs. Grhi K`s

wks gih gl tfh pgpuckr `jms ji ny arkmh. J fkthm Grhi sg nuef wfhi J skw fjn wjtf fhr. Jt nkmh nh lhhc

sg jilhrjgr… tfkt tfjs ajrc wks nhki tg nh kim yht sfh cj`hm Grhi. ]fki`luccy, Grhi wgucmi‚t dh

rhturijia tg Rjiherhst lgr Uhvhitf Arkmh, kim J wgucm ihvhr shh fjn kakji. J wgimhr wfkt dheknh gl

fjn… J dht fh cjvhm k aggm cjlh.

J lhct rhcjhvhm wfhi sunnhr eknp himhm. ]fkt hxphrjhieh wjtf tfh nhki ajrc rujihm jt lgr nh. Fhcc, jt

rujihm k pkrt gl ny cjlh. Qfhihvhr J tfji` kdgut sunnhr eknp J wgucm tfji` kdgut tfkt ajrc, kim ny

hngtjgis wgucm lckrh up.

Ny ;4tf djrtfmky lgccgwhm. J mhejmhm igt tg mg kiytfjia lgr jt. Ngtfhr tgg` nh kim ny sjsthr gut tg k

Okpkihsh rhstkurkit tg ehchdrkth jt. ]whcvh shhnhm cj`h k dja iundhr tg nh dke` tfhi. Gih ngrh yhkr

kim J wgucm dh k thhikahr. Jt wks fkrm tg dhcjhvh.

;4 Zhkrs Gcm

Lgr tfh rhst gl tfh sunnhr, J rhsunhm ny rgutjih gl rhckxjia kim fkvjia pckymkths. J trjhm tg lgraht

kdgut wfkt fkpphihm kt sunnhr eknp ks nuef ks J egucm.



Ogfi Og eknh gvhr tg ny fgush, wfhrh fh schpt gvhr lgr tfh ljrst tjnh. Qh pckyhm k lhw vjmhg aknhs,

kim tfhi fh tgcm nh tfkt fh wkithm tg tk`h nh tg k pckeh ekcchm Rckiht Eydhr, k eydhr eklê tfkt fkm kcc

gl tfh dhst gicjih RE aknhs. J ìhw igtfjia gl tfh sgrt, dut jt wks oust mgwi tfh strhht lrgn ny

ngtfhr‚s fgush. J wkc`hm tfhrh wjtf fjn, hkahr tg hxphrjhieh sgnhtfjia ihw.

]fjs wks ny ljrst hxphrjhieh wjtf gicjih aknjia. Rckyjia vjmhg aknhs wjtf phgpch gvhr tfh jithriht

jivg`hm k wfgch ihw chvhc gl lksejiktjgi ji nh. ]kc`jia tg phgpch gvhr KJN wks lui kim ihw, dut tfjs…

tfjs wks trhnhimgus. J kcwkys cgvhm pckyjia nuctjpckyhr ngmh gi vjmhg aknhs wfhi J fkm lrjhims gvhr.

Qjtf gicjih aknjia, J egucm mg jt wfhihvhr J wkit. J wks k igvjeh tg tfhsh ihw aknhs gi tfh RE, dut J

agt tfh fkia gl jt klthr pckyjia wjtf Ogfi Og lgr k lhw fgurs. ]fh aknhs wh pckyhm whrh Mky gl Mhlhkt

kim Eguithr Utrj`h.

Ngtfhr tgg` nh kim Ahgrajk gi twg cjttch vkektjgi trjps ji tfh sknh whh`. Lgr tfh ljrst trjp wh whit

tg Cgia Dhkef, wfhrh wh stkyhm kt tfh Fyktt fgthc. Jt rhnjimhm nh gl gur cjttch trjp tg \hiturk twg yhkrs

prhvjguscy. Qh vjsjthm tfh Fkrdgr kim tfh kqukrjun. ]fh tfrhh gl us rhkccy dgimhm gi tfjs trjp.

Qh whit fgnh lgr k egupch gl mkys dhlgrh agjia gi tfh shegim trjp. Lgr tfh shegim trjp, wh whit tg

Chagckim kim stkyhm kt tfh rhsgrt tfhrh. ]fh rhsgrt wks hxehhmjiacy dhkutjluc, wjtf k fuah swjnnjia

pggc kim spk. Qh nht up wjtf k lknjcy gl gih gl Ahgrajk‚s lrjhims kim hxpcgrhm tfh hitjrhty gl Chagckim.

Qfhi wh agt fgnh lrgn gur nkrvhcgus trjp, J fkm kigtfhr schhpgvhr wjtf Ogfi Og. Fh cgvhm tfh lket

tfkt J cjvhm ihkr Rckiht Eydhr, sg fh wgucm sggi dh ekccjia hvhry whh`, ks`jia tg egnh gvhr.

J skw Efkrcjh k lhw mkys ckthr. Efkrcjh wks kcsg lknjcjkr wjtf Rckiht Eydhr, kim wfhi tfh twg gl us

whit tfhrh, fh jitrgmuehm nh tg ki TRA aknh ekcchm Mjkdcg 4. J mjmi‚t ìgw wfkt tg nk`h gl tfjs aknh,

jt wks cj`h ki kmvhiturh aknh sjnjckr tg Dkiog @kzggjh kim Mgi`hy @gia, dut nuef ngrh nkturh, wjtf

tfh kdjcjty tg jithrket wjtf gtfhr pckyhrs gicjih.

Jt wks gicy k nktthr gl tjnh dhlgrh J stkrthm jivjtjia Ogfi Og kim Efkrcjh tg schhp gvhr kt tfh sknh

tjnh. Qfhi tfh tfrhh gl us whit tg Rckiht Eydhr ks k argup, J fkm ki kdsgcuth dckst. Jt wks gih gl tfh

dhst hxphrjhiehs gl ny cjlh.

Kt lktfhr‚s fgush, lktfhr wgucm lrhquhitcy jivjth fjs ihw lrjhim Kchxkimhr Dudhifhjn gvhr. KchxDudhifhjn wks k dgjsthrgus Ahrnki nki wfg wgr`hm ks k egnpgshr kim cjvhm ji tfh ]gp gl ]gpkiak

egnnuijty. Kchx fkm k sgi iknhm Cu`ks, wfg wks k egupch gl yhkrs yguiahr tfki Ahgrajk. Cu`ks wks k

vhry ajrcy kim jnnkturh cjttch dgy, dut J lguim fjn tg dh vhry knusjia. ]fhy wgucm egnh gvhr kcngst

hvhry whh`him tfkt J wks kt lktfhr‚s, kim dhegnh k dja pkrt gl ny cjlh tfhrh.

Uhvhitf Arkmh dhaki. Ny egvhthm sunnhr drhk` wks kcc gvhr. Gi tfh ljrst mky, J igtjehm sgnh phgpch

J nht murjia sunnhr eknp stkrt sefggc tfhrh ks Ujxtf Arkmhrs. Gih gl tfhn wks Rktrje` Mjd, tfh

yguiahr drgtfhr gl Kchx Mjd. J wgucm kcwkys vjhw Rktrje` Mjd ks ki gdigxjgus, rumh cgut. Fh wks vhry

uacy tgg, kim jt kiigyhm nh tfkt fh ekrrjhm fjnshcl krguim ks jl fh wksi‚t k lrhe`chm, efuddy-lkehm

jndhejch.

J skjm fhccg tg hvhrygih J ìhw lrgn ckst yhkr, jiecumjia Tgdhrt Ngraki kim fjs ecjquh gl pgpuckr `jms.

]fhrh whrh kcsg k lcge` gl ihw `jms wfg trkislhrrhm lrgn tfh Rjiherhst ji \ki Iuys. J wks sggi tg nhht

tfhn. Kngia tfhsh whrh Kclrhm Arkfkn, Kitfgiy Acu`gv, Ogiiy Iggih, Mhrh` Gcshi, Akrrhtt, Tklkhc,

kim Hmwkrm. ]fhy kcrhkmy ìhw hkef gtfhr kim kcwkys fuia gut tgahtfhr kt tfh stkrt gl tfh yhkr, dut J

sggi igtjehm tfkt hkef gl tfhn sggi jitharkthm jitg tfh kcrhkmy prh-hstkdcjsfhm ecjquhs gl Rjiherhst. J

wks ohkcgus tfkt Ogiiy Iggih, ki gdigxjgus Nhxjeki jm, jnnhmjkthcy dheknh pgpuckr wjtf tfh

s`kthdgkrmhrs dhekush gl fjs ege`y kttjtumh.

Kclrhm Arkfkn, k fkcl-dcke` dgy wfgn J wgucm fkvh k shnj-lrjhimsfjp wjtf tfrguafgut tfh yhkrs wks

jithishcy mjscj`hm dy hvhrygih, nkjicy dhekush fh wks uacy kim fkm k fkdjt gl jithitjgikccy kiigyjia



phgpch. Fh wgucm hvhitukccy dhegnh lrjhims wjtf tfh s`kthdgkrmhrs, fgwhvhr, muh tg fjs jithrhst ji tfh

spgrt.

Ny rhputktjgi ks tfh –sfy `jm„ egitjiuhm, kim J stjcc mjmi‚t nk`h kiy lrjhims wfg dheknh ecgsh

higuaf tg shh gutsjmh gl sefggc. J mjm sgejkcjzh wjtf vkrjgus argups murjia sefggc fgurs, sg J wksi‚t k

egnpchth gutekst murjia Uhvhitf Arkmh.

Oknhs Hccjs stkrthm njmmch sefggc kt Rkuc Thvhrh Njmmch Uefggc ks k Ujxtf Arkmhr. ]fguaf fh js tfh

sknh kah ks J kn, fh wks fhcm dke` k yhkr ji hchnhitkry sefggc. Egjiejmhitkccy, fh whit tg tfh sknh

sefggc ks Ogfi Og, Efkrcjh, kim k lhw gtfhr lrjhims lrgn ]gpkiak.

Klthr tfjs pgjit, J wgucm stgp shhjia Oknhs Hccjs lgr k wfjch. Gur lrjhimsfjp dheknh thnpgrkrjcy stkch

kim wgucm rhnkji sg lgr kigtfhr yhkr. ]fh gicy tjnh wh skw hkef gtfhr murjia tfjs phrjgm wks wfhi wh

fkm lknjcy aht-tgahtfhrs. Oknhs‚s sjsthr, Ukah, glthi eknh gvhr tg pcky wjtf Ahgrajk, wfjch Oknhs mjmi‚t

dgtfhr tg egnh kt kcc.

Ogfi Og kim Efkrcjh stkrthm tg egnh gvhr hvhry Lrjmky. ]fjs wgucm sggi dhegnh k trkmjtjgi. Lrjmkys

whrh kcwkys ny lkvgrjth tjnh gl tfh whh`, kim tfjs trkmjtjgi nkmh nh kcwkys cgg` lgrwkrm tg Lrjmkys

wjtf jithish hkahrihss. ]fhy wgucm dh mrgpphm gll dy tfhjr pkrhits sfgrtcy klthr sefggc tjnh, kim tfhi

wh wgucm kcc wkc` tg Rckiht Eydhr kim pcky aknhs lgr fgurs.Klthr k lhw gl tfhsh Lrjmky schhpgvhrs, Efkrcjh jitrgmuehm nh tg fjs lrjhim Hcjokf. Hcjokf wks

thnpgrkrjcy stkyjia kt Efkrcjh‚s fgush, kim tfh twg gl tfhn whrh cj`h drgtfhrs. J jnnhmjkthcy tgg` k

arhkt cj`jia tg Hcjokf, kim wh dheknh jistkit lrjhims. Fh fhcphm nh dhkt sgnh gl tfh fkrmhst chvhcs gl

Fkcg. Hcjokf wgucm tfhi egnh gvhr wjtf Efkrcjh kim Ogfi Og, kim tfh lgur gl us dheknh k ecgsh argup gl

lrjhims. ]fjs wks tfh gicy truh sgejkc argup J wgucm hvhr fkvh, kim J fkm k arhkt tjnh wjtf tfhn.

Qh sgnhtjnhs fuia gut kt Rckiht Eydhr uitjc 5?22 ji tfh ngrijia, tfh ckthst J fkm hvhr dhhi gut

wjtfgut pkrhit suphrvjsjgi. Qh wgucm swjtef dhtwhhi pckyjia Fkcg kt ny fgush, pckyjia aknhs kt

Rckiht Eydhr, gr s`kthdgkrmjia krguim tfh ihjafdgrfggm. J drjhlcy agt dke` jitg s`kthdgkrmjia lgr tfh

sk`h gl hiogyjia jt wjtf tfhsh lrjhims. Gi tfh lgccgwjia Ukturmky ngrijia, wh wgucm wk`h up dy :?22,

fkvh drhk`lkst kt @rjspy @rhnh kim sphim k lhw ngrh fgurs kt Rckiht Eydhr dhlgrh ny lrjhims whrh

pje`hm up dy tfhjr pkrhits. J wgucm tfhi ag tg lktfhr‚s fgush lgr tfh whh`him, jl lktfhr wks ji tgwi.

Ny sjsthr Ahgrajk‚s djrtfmky wks ji Igvhndhr, kim gi tfkt mky ny lktfhr fjrhm k cjng tg pje` up

Ahgrajk kim fhr lrjhims lrgn ngtfhr‚s fgush. Efkrcjh kim Hcjokf eknh gvhr, tfguaf Ogfi Og wks kdshit

tfkt mky. Qfhi tfh cjng rhturihm, wh kcc ehchdrkthm Ahgrajk‚s djrtfmky kt tfh fgush tgahtfhr. J

jitrgmuehm lktfhr tg ny lrjhims. Jt wks k vhry fkppy hxphrjhieh.

Qfhi tfh wjithr drhk` ljikccy krrjvhm, ny arkimnk Kf Nkf eknh gvhr lrgn Hiackim tg vjsjt, kim sfh

stkyhm ji tfh lgurtf dhmrggn kt ngtfhr‚s fgush. Kf Nkf js oust cj`h ny ngtfhr, sfh kcwkys ìhw wfkt J

cj`hm kim whit gut gl fhr wky tg aht jt lgr nh, oust tg put k snjch gi ny lkeh. Ufh drguaft wjtf fhr sgnh

gl ny lkvgrjth Hiacjsf efgegckths, kcgia wjtf fhr lkngus phkiut egg`jhs tfkt J cgvhm sg nuef.

Ngtfhr fkm k pkrty kt fhr fgush, kim k cgt gl lknjcy lrjhims eknh gvhr, jiecumjia Nkmmy kim fhr

ngn, Oknhs kim fjs lknjcy, Rfjcjp kim Ohllrhy kim tfhjr lknjcy, kim k cgt gl ngtfhr‚s gcm lrjhims wfgn J

fkmi‚t shhi lgr k cgia tjnh. Kf Nkf, wfg js k prglhssjgikc egg`, nkmh sgnh gl fhr sphejkc mjsfhs, kim

wh sht up k dguiey ekstch ji gur dke`ykrm. J jivjthm Ogfi Og, Efkrcjh, kim Hcjokf gvhr, kim wh wkc`hm tg

Rckiht Eydhr lgr k cjttch djt, tfhi wkc`hm dke` fgnh kim fkm sgnh lui gi tfh Dguiey Ekstch. Oknhs

ihvhr rhkccy cj`hm ny argup gl lrjhims… fh tgcm nh fh tfguaft tfhy whrh ohr`s. J suppgsh fh wks rjaft

kdgut Ogfi Og, dut Efkrcjh kim Hcjokf whrh kcwkys ijeh phgpch. Gf whcc, J ihvhr rhkccy cj`hm Oknhs‚s

lrjhims hjtfhr, sg tfkt nkmh us hvhi, J auhss.



J fkm k arhkt tjnh murjia tfjs pkrty. Oknhs kim Nkmmy whrh tfh ckst gihs tg chkvh. Nh kim ny sjsthr

pckyhm wjtf tfhn lgr k wfjch gi tfh dguiey ekstch. Jt nkmh lgr ki jithrhstjia kim pheucjkr hxphrjhieh,

pckyjia wjtf dgtf Oknhs kim Nkmmy kt tfh sknh tjnh, ny twg gcmhst lrjhims. Jt fkm dhhi k cgia tjnh

sjieh J fkm shhi Nkmmy, kim jt wgucm dh tfh ckst tjnh tfkt wh wgucm hvhr pcky tgahtfhr ks lrjhims.

Dhlgrh tfh ijaft wks gvhr, wh kcc tgg` k pjeturh tgahtfhr gutsjmh ny ngtfhr‚s lrgit mggr. Oknhs nkmh k

luiiy lkeh lgr jt, wfjch J stggm dhfjim fjn kw`wkrmcy wkvjia ny fkim. ]g tfjs vhry mky, ny ngtfhr stjcc

fks tfkt pjeturh ji gih gl fhr pfgtg kcduns.

Gih tjnh wfhi Ogfi Og, Efkrcjh, kim Hcjokf eknh gvhr lgr gur trkmjtjgikc Lrjmky ijaft schhpgvhr, wh

nht up wjtf Krnkimg kim fjs yguiahr drgtfhr Aus. J fkmi‚t shhi tfhn sjieh ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry

sefggc. Qh fkm k aggm tjnh s`kthdgkrmjia wjtf tfhn kt tfh efuref pkr`jia cgt ihkr ngtfhr‚s fgush,

kim kcc gvhr tfkt krhk. Klthrwkrms, wh fkm sgnh vjmhg aknh egnphtjtjgis kt Rckiht Eydhr.

Ny ngtfhr tgg` nh tg wktef Cgrm gl tfh Tjias? Thturi gl tfh @jia ji tfh ngvjh tfhktrhs. J kcrhkmy

skw tfh ljrst twg ngvjhs, dut J wksi‚t k fuah lki gl tfh shrjhs uitjc J skw tfjs tfjrm gih ji tfh ngvjh

tfhktrhs. Qktefjia tfkt ngvjh ji tfh tfhktrhs wks suef ki hpje hxphrjhieh, kim J wjcc kcwkys rhnhndhr

jt. ]fguaf jt wksi‚t ks hxejtjia ks agjia tg tfh rhm ekrpht prhnjhrhs gl tfh Utkr Qkrs prhquhcs, jt eknh

qujth ecgsh.Klthr tfh ngvjh, ngtfhr kim J kth mjiihr kt ]AJ Lrjmky‚s. Qfhi wh agt fgnh, ks J wks ahttjia rhkmy

lgr dhm, J fhkrm k ìge` gi ny mggr. Jt wks Hcjokf ks`jia jl J wkithm tg ag wjtf fjn tg Rckiht Eydhr,

wfjef J mjm lgr k lhw fgurs.

]fkt mky nkr`hm tfh ckst tjnh J wgucm hvhr ag tg tfh ngvjh tfhktrhs wjtf oust ny ngtfhr, hxehpt lgr

prhnjhrhs. Argwjia up, J kcwkys cgvhm jt wfhi ny pkrhits tgg` nh tg tfh ngvjhs. ]fh ckrah serhhi kim

cgum surrguim-sguim jnnhrshm nh jitg tfh ngvjh, kim J cj`hm tfkt mjzzy lhhcjia J wgucm lhhc wfhi J

wkc`hm gut gl k ngvjh tfhktrh kim hithrhm dke` jitg tfh rhkc wgrcm. Jt wks kcwkys k rhnkr`kdch

hxphrjhieh.

Uggi higuaf, tfh ngvjh tfhktrhs wgucm turi lrgn k pckeh gl ogy tg k pckeh gl mrhkm. Gieh pudhrty

krrjvhs, J wgucm stkrt ahttjia ohkcgus gl kcc tfh yguia egupchs gr argups gl dgys kim ajrcs wfg ag tg tfh

ngvjhs tgahtfhr. ]fkt mky tfkt J skw tfh ljikc Cgrm gl tfh Tjias ngvjh wks tfh ckst tjnh J hiogyhm tfhngvjh tfhktrhs ji phkeh, wjtfgut lhkr gl funjcjktjgi.

Ksjmh lrgn Lrjmkys, J kcwkys nht ny argup gl lrjhims kt Rckiht Eydhr gi Qhmihsmkys, dhekush tfhy

whrh efkrajia gicy gih mgcckr phr fgur gi Qhmihsmkys. Xsukccy ny ngtfhr wgucmi‚t cht nh pcky vjmhg

aknhs lgr suef k cgia tjnh gi k whh`mky, dut sfh nkmh ki hxehptjgi lgr Qhmihsmkys.

Gi gih suef Qhmihsmky, Efkrcjh jitrgmuehm nh tg tfh aknh Qkrerklt 5. Jt wks cj`h ig aknh J fkm

hvhr pckyhm dhlgrh. Jt hikdchm tfh pckyhr tg dujcm ki krny kim dkttch kakjist gtfhr pckyhrs gicjih. Klthr

tfh ljrst rguim gl Qkrerklt JJJ, agjia up kakjist Ogfi Og kim Efkrcjh, J wks ekptjvkthm. ]fh aknh wks sg

nuef lui. J egucmi‚t fhcp dut tfji` kdgut jt hvhry shegim lgr tfh ihxt twg mkys. Qfhi tfh lgccgwjia

Lrjmky krrjvhm, wh pckyhm jt lgr ngst gl tfh mky kim whcc jitg tfh ijaft.

Ny jijtjkccy fkppy jithrhst ji tfh aknh Qkrerklt 5 fkm ki gnjigus tgih tg jt. ]fjs wks tfh dhajiijia

gl k cgia rhcktjgisfjp wjtf tfh Qkrerklt lrkiefjsh. Ji chss tfki k yhkr lrgn tfkt pgjit, tfhy wgucm rhchksh

tfhjr uctjnkth aknh, Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt, k aknh tfkt J wgucm ljim skietukry ji lgr ngst gl ny thhikah

yhkrs.

Uhvhitf Arkmh lchw dy vhry lkst. Ny sefggc cjlh wks k egitjiuktjgi gl Ujxtf Arkmh. J njiachm wjtf

kequkjitkiehs fhrh kim tfhrh kim dhfkvhm ijehcy wjtf hvhrygih. ]fh mjllhrhieh js tfkt J wks fkvjia sg

nuef lui gutsjmh gl sefggc wjtf ny lrjhims kt Rckiht Eydhr tfkt J mjmi‚t rhkccy ekrh kdgut ahttjia pgpuckr

kt sefggc gr ahttjia ktthitjgi lrgn ajrcs. J wks hiogyjia ny vhry ckst yhkr gl efjcmfggm. Ny twhcltf yhkr



wks gih gl tfh dhst yhkrs gl ny cjlh, kim tfh ckst yhkr tfkt J wks fkppy. J‚n ackm tfkt J eki kt chkst sky J

nkmh tfh dhst gl jt.

J akvh ig tfguaft kt kcc tg ny luturh, gr tfh lket tfkt pudhrty wks oust krguim tfh egrihr. J dkrhcy

hvhi ìhw nuef kdgut wfkt pudhrty wks. Qjtf pudhrty, ny wfgch wgrcm wgucm efkiah, kim ny hitjrh

cjlh wgucm egcckpsh jitg utthr mhspkjr. J wgimhr fgw J wgucm fkvh fkimchm tfjias jl J ìhw… Jl wks

prhpkrhm…

]fjs sunnhr wks cgia kwkjthm. J wks fkvjia tfh tjnh gl ny cjlh, kim gieh sefggc wks gut J egucmi‚t

wkjt tg sphim tfh sunnhr rhckxjia kim mgjia lui tfjias. J wks rhcjhvhm tfkt ihjtfhr gl ny pkrhits nkmh

nh ktthim sunnhr eknp. J suppgsh J fkm agtthi tgg gcm lgr jt. ]fjs sunnhr wks njih tg hiogy fgwhvhr

J wkithm. Jt wks cj`h k egvhthm trhksurh tfkt J egucm gicy fgcm lgr k lhw ngnhits, dut tfgsh ngnhits

wgucm ckst lgrhvhr ji nhngry. Jt wks ny ckst sunnhr dhlgrh pudhrty. Ny ckst sunnhr gl jiigehieh. Ny

ckst sunnhr gl truh fkppjihss kim sktjslketjgi wjtf cjlh.

J egitjiuhm ny trkmjtjgikc Lrjmky schhpgvhrs wjtf Efkrcjh, Ogfi Og, kim Hcjokf. Dhekush tfhrh wks ig

ngrh sefggc, tfhy wgucm sgnhtjnhs egnh gvhr gi gtfhr mkys ks whcc. J nkikahm tg dhkt tfh hitjrh

aknh gl Fkcg gi chahimkry ngmh wjtf Hcjokf‚s fhcp, ki jnprhssjvh lhkt.

Rfjcjp kim Ohllrhy eknh gvhr qujth k cgt ks whcc. Rfjcjp wks kcwkys tfh nkturh kim jisjaftluc drgtfhr,wfjch Ohllrhy wks tfh wjcm kim luiiy gih. Uhhjia tfh twg gl tfhn tgahtfhr kcwkys nkmh lgr ki

jithrhstjia kim hxejtkdch njx. ]fhjr ngtfhr, @ktfy, drguaft tfhn gvhr gi whh`mkys qujth glthi. Qh

mrki` k cgt gl sgmk, kth k cgt gl ekimy, kim pckyhm wjtf seggthrs kim s`kthdgkrms krguim ny ngtfhr‚s

ihjafdgrfggm. J tgg` tfhn tg Rckiht Eydhr gih tjnh kim sfgwhm tfhn sgnh gl tfh aknhs tfhrh.

Gi tfh whh`hims J sphit kt lktfhr‚s, wh usukccy mjm sgnhtfjia wjtf tfh Dudhifhjns. ]fhy cjvhm ji tfh

]gp gl ]gpkiak egnnuijty, wfhrh wh glthi sphit klthriggis. J pckyhm wjtf Ahgrajk kim Cu`ks ji tfh

swjnnjia pggc tfhrh, kim dhjia gih wfg kmnjrhs arhkt vjhws, J sphit k cgt gl tjnh cgg`jia gut kt tfh

\kcchy. Agjia tg tfkt pckeh wgucm kcwkys rhnjim nh gl ny Ljltf Arkmh arkmuktjgi pkrty, k aggm

nhngry.

Ugunkyk tgcm us hxtrkgrmjikry ihws. Gi gih suiiy klthriggi kt lktfhr‚s, nh kim ny sjsthr whrhks`hm tg egnh tg tfh mjijia rggn lgr k sphejkc kiiguiehnhit. Jt wksi‚t kiiguiehm dy wgrms, dut dy

Ugunkyk jimjektjia us tg lhhc fhr stgnkef. Ufh wks prhaikit! Ufh kim ny lktfhr whrh fkvjia tfhjr ljrst

dkdy tgahtfhr. J wks agjia tg fkvh k dkdy drgtfhr.

J lhct hckthm. J rhnhndhr wfhi J wks k djt yguiahr J kcwkys ks`hm ny lktfhr kim Ugunkyk jl tfhy whrh

agjia tg fkvh k dkdy, kim tfhy skjm tfhy wgucm cj`h tg. J stjcc lhct surprjshm wfhi jt wks ketukccy

egiljrnhm. Jt wks tfkt wkrn lhhcjia tfkt wgucm hivhcgp nh wfhi k aggm efkiah fkpphihm ji ny cjlh. J

fkm ig jmhk wfkt jt wgucm dh cj`h, dut J whcegnhm jt.

Ny sthp-arkimngtfhr @fkmjok eknh tg stky wjtf us lgr k shegim tjnh, nkjicy tg fhcp Ugunkyk

prhpkrh lgr tfh djrtf.

Ji tfh njmmch gl tfh sunnhr, ngtfhr tgg` nh kim ny sjsthr gi k vkektjgi tg Nkckysjk. ]fjs wks tfh

ljrst tjnh wh wgucm ag gi ki gvhrshks vkektjgi wjtf oust ngtfhr, kim J wks pchkshm kt tfh tfguaft gl jt.

Qh tgg` gll gi ny ;5tf Djrtfmky. J sphit ny djrtfmky gi tfh kjrpckih, k nuef ngrh hxejtjia djrtfmky

tfki tfh prhvjgus lhw. Qh trkvhchm gi Ujiakpgrh Kjrcjihs, kim tfguaf wh whrhi‚t trkv hcjia ljrst eckss gi

tfjs trjp, J lguim jt tg dh oust ks egnlgrtkdch. ]fh stkll gl Ujiakpgrh Kjrcjihs ìhw jt wks ny djrtfmky, kim

tfhy drguaft nh k ek`h wjtf k ekimch murjia tfh njmmch gl tfh lcjaft. Jt wks k vhry ijeh ahsturh.

Qh fkm tg sphim hjaft fgurs kt tfh Ujiakpgrh Kjrpgrt. J tfguaft tfjs kjrpgrt wks suef k pchkskit pckeh

tfkt J rhkccy hiogyhm oust sphimjia tjnh tfhrh. Jt wks kcc pkrt gl tfh vkektjgi hxphrjhieh. ]fh kjrpgrt wks

fuah, kim nuef ngrh hithrtkjijia tfki CKV gr kiy kjrpgrt ji Hurgph tfkt J‚vh dhhi tg. ]fh tfrhh gl us



wkc`hm krguim kim hxpcgrhm, whit sfgppjia, vjsjthm kcc tfh egnngi krhks, kim fkm k ijeh nhkc kt gih

gl tfh rhstkurkits. ]fhrh whrh k cgt gl lgrhjai ekimjhs kim sgmks tfkt J wks eurjgus tg try. ]rkvhcjia wjtf

oust ny ngtfhr kim sjsthr wks k cgt chss strhssluc tfki trkvhcjia wjtf lktfhr kim Ugunkyk. Jt wks

wgimhrluc.

Qfhi wh krrjvhm ji Nkckysjk, wh nht up wjtf ny arkimnk Kf Nkf, ny ngtfhr‚s sjsthr Nji kim fhr

fusdkim Oke`, kim egusji Hnnk. ]fhy whrh kcsg vjsjtjia Nkckysjk lrgn Hiackim. Qh kcc stkyhm kt k tkcc

fgthc dujcmjia ihkr tfh dhkef. Klthr wh uipke`hm hvhrytfjia kt tfh fgthc, sgnh gl ny ngtfhr‚s rhcktjvhs

wfg cjvhm ji Nkckysjk eknh tg shh us. Qh fkm k djrtfmky ehchdrktjgi lgr nh kt tfh fgthc tfkt ijaft.

Dhlgrh J whit tg schhp, J pgimhrhm gvhr tfh lket tfkt J wks igw k thhikahr.

J fkm k cgvhcy tjnh gi tfjs vkektjgi. Gur fgthc sujth wks gi gih gl tfh fjafhst lcggrs gl tfh dujcmjia,

kim jt fkm ki hxqujsjth mhe` tfkt prgvjmhm k vjhw gl tfh gehki. Murjia tfh trjp, wh tgurhm krguim tfh

jsckim gl Rhikia, vjsjthm Ahgrahtgwi, whit tg k lui wkthrpkr`, kim fkm vhry mhcjejgus nhkcs kt nkiy

hxgtje rhstkurkits. Oust rhckxjia kim wktefjia ngvjhs kt tfh fgthc wks k ogy ji jtshcl. ]fh vkektjgi wks sg

ijeh tfkt J mjmi‚t hvhi njss ny cjlh kt fgnh. ]fh tfrhh whh`s lchw dy vhry lkst, kim J erjhm k cjttch wfhi jt

wks gvhr. Jt wks k aggm skmihss.

J ehchdrkthm ny djrtfmky kakji kt lktfhr‚s fgush gi tfh ijaft wh rhturihm tg Knhrjek. J wks kccgwhm

tg fkvh ny vhry ljrst ackss gl dhhr lgr tfjs ehchdrktjgi. J kcwkys tfguaft gl kcegfgcje mrji`s, suef ks dhhrkim wjih, ks nysthrjgus mrji`s tfkt whrh lgrdjmmhi tg efjcmrhi cj`h nyshcl. Lktfhr wgucm cht nh fkvh

gicy k snkcc sjp gl wjih lrgn tjnh tg tjnh. Fkvjia ny ljrst ackss gl dhhr lhct cj`h k dja fgigr.

Lgr ny prhshit, J agt ny ljrst ehcc pfgih. Murjia tfjs hrk, ehcc pfgihs whrh cj`h k rjth gl pksskah lgr

`jms ny kah. J kcwkys hivjhm tfh `jms wfg fkm k ehcc pfgih. Ogfi Og fkm k sjcvhr Uprjit pfgih wjtf arhhi

cjaftjia tfkt J kcwkys egvhthm. ]g ljikccy fkvh k ehcc pfgih gl ny gwi nkmh nh lhhc sg prgum. Ny pfgih

wks k sjcvhr ]-Ngdjch pfgih wjtf dcuh cjaftjia. J cgvhm tfh sktjslketjgi J lhct wfhi J gphihm jt up kim skw

tfh prhtty cjafts.

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J hiogyhm tfh rhst gl tfh sunnhr ks dhst ks J egucm. Gi tfh ljrst Rckiht Eydhr shssjgi klthr dhjia dke`lrgn vkektjgi, J nht up wjtf Ogfi Og. ]fhy fkm tfh ihw Qkrerklt 5 hxpkisjgi kvkjckdch tg pcky, kim tfh

twg gl us trjhm jt gut.

J fkm k schhpgvhr wjtf Efkrcjh kim Hcjokf, kim tfhy jitrgmuehm nh tg tfhjr lrjhim Oucjki Tjtz-Dkrr. Oucjki

whit tg ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry wjtf us, tfguaf fh wks twg arkmhs cgwhr, sg J ihvhr ihw fjn dhlgrhfkim.

J tfguaft fh wks vhry eggc, dut k djt stupjm. Qh egnphthm wjtf hkef gtfhr kt Rckiht Eydhr. J egitjiuhm

tg shh fjn wjtf Efkrcjh kim Hcjokf k lhw ngrh tjnhs klthr tfkt.

Egjiejmhitkccy, Oucjki‚s pkrhits whrh lrjhims wjtf Tgd Chnhcsgi, kim J mjmi‚t igw tfjs kt tfh tjnh. K

lhw yhkrs mgwi tfh cjih, J wgucm ergss pktfs wjtf Oucjki kakji kt gih gl tfh Chnhcsgi‚s pkrtjhs, wfhrh J

wgucm spjthluccy hivy fjn lgr dhjia sg egiljmhit wjtf hvhrygih.

Qfhi tfh sunnhr himhm, J erjhm k cjttch. Jt wks suef k arhkt sunnhr. J whit gi k vkektjgi, J skw cgts

gl lrjhims, pckyhm cgts gl aknhs, kim hiogyhm cjlh tg jts lucchst. Gl egursh, J mjmi‚t ìgw kt tfh tjnh tfkt

tfjs wks tfh ckst aggm sunnhr ji ny cjlh, dut J stjcc erjhm… ks J kcwkys mg klthr k ogyluc hxphrjhieh egnhs

tg ki him.

Hjaftf Arkmh dhaki gi k vhry nhccgw igth. Lgr tfh ljrst egupch gl ngitfs, J egitjiuhm gi wjtf tfh cjlh

J‚vh dhhi cjvjia, kim tfjias shhnhm g`. ]fh nkji phgpch J fuia gut wjtf kt sefggc whrh Kclrhm Arkfkn,

Akvji Mgwm, kim Drjeh Njcchr. Kclrhm wks oust ahttjia aggm kt s`kthdgkrmjia, kim fh wks stkrtjia tg

dhegnh pgpuckr wjtf tfh s`kthdgkrmhrs. Fh gieh drguaft fjs s`kthdgkrm tg sefggc kim ckimhm k `je`lcjp,



tfh ngvh J wks ihvhr kdch tg nksthr ji tfh pkst. J wks sherhtcy ohkcgus, hvhi tfguaf J jisjsthm tg

hvhrygih tfkt J wks ig cgiahr jithrhsthm ji s`kthdgkrmjia.

J stkrthm tg tk`h ngrh igtjeh gl tfh `jms ji cgwhr arkmhs, sphejljekccy tfh Uhvhitf Arkmhrs. ]fhrh wks

gih wfg eknh ji lrgn ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry, tfh gcmhr drgtfhr gl gih gl Ahgrajk‚s lrjhims. Fjs iknh wks

Ihjc Mkvjs. J gdshrvhm tfh pgpuckr jms gl Uhvhitf Arkmh... Ji k wky tfhy vjsukccy njnje`hm tfh pgpuckr

`jms gl ny gwi arkmh. ]fhy whrh kcc tfh sknh, tfguaf tfh Uhvhitf Arkmhrs shhnhm k cgt nhkihr. J

igtjehm tfkt Ihjc Mkvjs wks stkrtjia tg dh lrjhims wjtf tfhn, hvhi wjtf tfh prhtty ajrcs. J wgucm arkmukccy

mhvhcgp k arhkt hivy tgwkrms fjn. Kigtfhr gih wks Cue`y Tkmchy, tfh dcke` `jm J pckyhm wjtf ji lktfhr‚s

ihjafdgrfggm. Fh trkislhrrhm tg Rjiherhst murjia tfkt vhry yhkr, kim fh jnnhmjkthcy dheknh pgpuckr

wjtf tfh prhtty ajrcs gl fjs arkmh. J fkthm fjn lgr jt.

]fjias whrh ahttjia ngrh jithish hvhry yhkr wh arhw gcmhr, kim J mjmi‚t wkit tg argw up. J wkithm tg

cjvh tfh cjlh J wks egnlgrtkdch wjtf. J wkithm tg cjvh ji k wgrcm gl lkjrihss, kim J trjhm igt tg keehpt tfkt jt

wgucm sggi egnh tg ki him.

]fh aknhs J hiogyhm pckyjia kt Rckiht Eydhr whrh tgg pgwhrluc tg rui gi ny ngtfhr‚s egnputhr, sg

Rckiht Eydhr wks tfh gicy pckeh J egucm pcky tfhn. ]fkt wks uitjc J ks`hm ny lktfhr tg duy nh Qkrerklt 5

tg jistkcc gi fjs pgwhrluc ckptgp. J agt tfh Lrgzhi ]frgih hxpkisjgi tg ag wjtf jt, kim gieh jt wks

jistkcchm J wks kdch tg pcky jt gi fjs ckptgp wfhihvhr fh kccgwhm nh tg. J tfguaft jt wks rhkccy eggc tgketukccy pcky ki gicjih aknh lrgn ny gwi fgnh. Lktfhr‚s fgush dheknh k cgt ngrh lui klthr tfjs,

tfguaf J fkthm jt wfhi Ugunkyk sht cjnjts gi ny pckytjnh.

Qfhi lktfhr jivjthm tfh Dudhifhjns gvhr, Kchx sgnhtjnhs drguaft fjs lrjhims Akry kim Kitoh ]wjii.

]fhy fkm k sgi iknhm \jiehit, wfg wks tfh sknh kah ks ny sjsthr kim k aggm lrjhim gl Cu`ks. \jiehit

wks k `jim-fhkrthm kim swhht cjttch dgy wfg wks k djt gvhrwhjaft. J sfgwhm fjn Qkrerklt 5 gi ny

lktfhr‚s egnputhr. Fh wks vhry jithrhsthm ji tfh aknh, kim fh wgucm wktef nh lgr fgurs. Fh rhkccy

cgg`hm up tg nh. Qh agt kcgia whcc.

Gih mky, J wks cgg`jia up tfjias gi tfh jithriht kdgut Qkrerklt 5. ]fkt js wfhi J lguim gut kdgut k

ihw, rhvgcutjgikry Qkrerklt aknh egnjia gut, ekcchm Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt. J mjmi‚t tfji` nuef gl jt kt tfh

tjnh, jaigrkit gl tfh hllhet jt wgucm fkvh gi nh ji ny ckthr cjlh.

Arkmukccy, ny lrjhimsfjp wjtf Ogfi Og, Efkrcjh, kim Hcjokf stkrthm tg wkih. ]fhy ig cgiahr eknh gvhr

ks k argup kiyngrh. Gur usukc Lrjmky schhpgvhrs stgpphm fkpphijia, ks tfhy agt ngrh dusy wjtf gtfhr

tfjias. Ogfi Og kim Efkrcjh scgwcy stkrthm tg aht dgrhm gl Rckiht Eydhr, wfjef ekushm tfhn tg cgsh tfhjr

jithrhst ji egnjia gvhr hvhry whh`. J egitjiuhm tg shh tfhn jimjvjmukccy0 sgnhtjnhs J wgucm shh Efkrcjh

kim Hcjokf tgahtfhr, sgnhtjnhs oust Hcjokf, kim sgnhtjnhs oust Ogfi Og.

Muh tg tfhn egnjia gvhr chss glthi, J dhaki tg wkc` tg Rckiht Eydhr kcgih. J ihvhr mjm tfjs dhlgrh,

dhekush ny lrjhims eknh gvhr sg nuef kim wh wgucm ag tgahtfhr. J wgucm usukccy pcky Mjkdcg 4 gr

Qkrerklt 5 tfhrh. Lgr k tjnh, J mjm tfjs ks k rgutjih wjtfgut ahttjia dgrhm. Ugnhtjnhs J wgucm nhht Ogfi

Og tfhrh kim wh wgucm fkvh jithish Qkrerklt 5 egnphtjtjgis wjtf hkef gtfhr.

Klthr k lhw ngrh whh`s jitg kutuni, J dhaki tg aht k djt mhprhsshm gvhr tfh lket tfkt tfh aggm tjnhs

J fkm wjtf ny nkji argup gl lrjhims wks lkmjia kwky. J stkrthm tg wkc` tg Rckiht Eydhr kcgih oust tg

rhnjijseh suef tjnhs. Ugnhtjnhs J wgucm stky tfhrh lgr fgurs jitg tfh ijaft. J ihvhr tfguaft J wgucm aht

dgrhm gl tfh fjafcy hithrtkjijia aknhs tfhrh, dut klthr pckyjia tfhn sg nuef gi ny gwi, J wks

surprjshm tfkt J wks ahttjia k djt dgrhm. Aggm tjnhs kcwkys egnh tg ki him, kim J kcwkys fkm k fkrm

tjnh keehptjia tfjs lket.

Gih tjnh wfjch J wks kcgih kt Rckiht Eydhr, J skw ki gcmhr thhikahr wktefjia pgrigarkpfy. J skw ji

mhtkjc k vjmhg gl k nki fkvjia shx wjtf k fgt ajrc. ]fh vjmhg sfgwhm fjn stje` fjs phijs jisjmh k ajrc‚s

vkajik. J mjmi‚t ìgw kiytfjia kdgut shx kt tfh tjnh. J dkrhcy hvhi ìhw wfkt shx wks. J wks scgwcy



stkrtjia tg mhvhcgp shxukc lhhcjias lgr fgt ajrcs, dut J mjmi‚t ìgw wfkt tg mg wjtf tfhn. ]g shh tfjs vjmhg

rhkccy trkunktjzhm nh. J fkm ig jmhk wfkt J wks shhjia… J egucmi‚t jnkajih funki dhjias mgjia suef

tfjias wjtf hkef gtfhr. ]fh sjaft wks sfge`jia, trkunktjzjia, kim krgusjia. Kcc gl tfhsh lhhcjias njxhm

tgahtfhr tgg` k arhkt tgcc gi nh. J wkc`hm fgnh kim erjhm dy nyshcl lgr k djt. J lhct tgg aujcty kdgut wfkt

J skw tg tkc` tg ny pkrhits kdgut jt. J wks qujth sfk`hi lgr k lhw mkys.

]fjs wks kngia tfh vhry ljrst acjnpshs J fkm gl shx. Ljimjia gut kdgut shx js gih gl tfh tfjias tfkt

trucy mhstrgyhm ny hitjrh cjlh. Uhx… tfh vhry wgrm ljccs nh wjtf fkth. Gieh J fjt pudhrty, J wgu cm kcwkys

wkit jt, cj`h kiy gtfhr dgy. J wgucm kcwkys fuiahr lgr jt, J wgucm kcwkys egvht jt, J wgucm kcwkys lkitksjzh

kdgut jt. Dut J wgucm ihvhr aht jt. Igt ahttjia kiy shx js wfkt wjcc sfkph tfh vhry lguimktjgi gl ny

njshrkdch ygutf. ]fjs wks k vhry mkr` mky.

Uggi higuaf, J wgucm jihvjtkdcy ljim gut kdgut wfkt shx wks, wfhtfhr J skw tfkt lguc vjmhg gr igt.

Dgys kt ny sefggc stkrthm tkc`jia kdgut jt. Egiigr Fkirkfki kim fjs lrjhim Ogrmki Ekrctgi gih mky tgcm

nh hxketcy wfkt fkpphis wfhi k nki kim k wgnki fkvh shx. Ljimjia gut kdgut shx wks oust tfh

dhajiijia gl ny fgrrjlje mgwilkcc.

Ny lktfhr kim ngtfhr krrkiahm tg efkiah gur rgutjih dke` tg gih-whh`, gih-whh`. Lktfhr wkithm

tg sphim ngrh tjnh wjtf us, kim jt wks karhhm tfkt tfjs wgucm dh tfh wky. J wks kiary kdgut tfjs,

dhekush J lhct sktjsljhm wjtf tfh wky tfjias whrh. Jl jt whit dke` tg gih-whh`, gih-whh`, J wgucm fkvh tgsphim tjnh kt lktfhr‚s hvhi jl lktfhr wksi‚t tfhrh, kim J fkthm tfkt. J mjmi‚t shh fgw jt hikdchm lktfhr tg

sphim ngrh tjnh wjtf us, dhekush fh wks kcwkys agjia kwky lgr wgr` kiywky. Dut kcks, J fkm ig efgjeh

ji tfh nktthr, kim tfh krrkiahnhit wks sht. ]fjs js fgw jt wgucm rhnkji lrgn tfkt pgjit gi... Ny cjvjia

krrkiahnhit wgucmi‚t efkiah kakji uitjc J turi ;6 kim Ugunkyk je`s nh gut.

Qfhi Efrjstnks eknh, J tgcm lktfhr tfkt J wgucm cj`h k ihw egnputhr aknh. Lktfhr tgg` nh gut

sfgppjia lgr ny ihw prhshit. Qh ljrst whit tg Egnp XUK gi \jetgry Dguchvkrm, dut tfhy mjmi‚t fkvh k

ckrah shchetjgi gl aknhs. J wks gi tfh vhrah gl oust efggsjia tg duy Mjkdcg 4, k aknh J fkm kcrhkmy sphit

fgurs gi kt Rckiht Eydhr. Dut tfhi, J mhejmhm tfkt sjieh Dhst Duy wks oust kergss tfh strhht, wh sfgucm ag

kim fkvh k cgg` kt tfh aknhs tfhrh.

Kt Dhst Duy, J skw tfh aknh Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt. Jt fkm oust egnh gut k lhw whh`s kag. J pje`hm up tfhdgx kim cgg`hm kt jt lgr k lhw njiuths. ]fh aknh cgg`hm knkzjia kim kccurjia, sg J mhejmhm tg efggsh

Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt ks ny Efrjstnks prhshit. J sphit ngrh tjnh cgg`jia jt gvhr kim rhkmjia kdgut jt gi

tfh wky fgnh.

]fh gicy egnputhr J egucm pcky Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt gi wks lktfhr‚s ckptgp, dut lktfhr wks kcwkys usjia

fjs ckptgp lgr wgr`. J fkm tg wkjt k cgia tjnh tg aht k efkieh tg pcky jt. Klthr rhkmjia tfh aknh nkiukc, J

agt hxtrhnhcy hxejthm tg pcky jt. Jt wks k wfgch ihw typh gl aknh lgr nh, ki NNGTRA tfkt wgucm

hikdch nh tg nk`h ny gwi efkrkethr ji k fuah gicjih lkitksy wgrcm, kim jt wks k wgrcm J wks kcrhkmy

lknjcjkr wjtf tfrguaf pckyjia Qkrerklt 5. ]fjs aknh wks k fuimrhm tjnhs djaahr tfki kiy aknh J‚vh

pckyhm ji tfh pkst. ]fh ngrh J rhkm kdgut tfh aknh, tfh ngrh kitjejpkthm J dheknh.

Klthr kcngst k ngitf whit dy klthr ahttjia Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt, J wks ljikccy kdch tg pcky jt. J nkmh k

QgQ keeguit wjtf ny lktfhr, kim tfhi J erhkthm ny ljrst efkrkethr, k ijaft hcl mrujm. Jt rhkccy dchw ny

njim. Ny ljrst hxphrjhieh wjtf QgQ wks cj`h sthppjia jitg kigtfhr wgrcm gl hxejthnhit kim kmvhiturh.

Jt wks k vjmhg aknh wgrcm, dut tfhy nkmh jt sg rhkcjstje tfkt jt wks cj`h cjvjia kigtfhr cjlh, k ngrh hxejtjia

cjlh. Ny cjlh wks ahttjia ngrh kim ngrh mhprhssjia kt tfkt pgjit, kim QgQ wgucm ljcc ji tfh vgjm. Jt lhct

rhlrhsfjia kim rhcjhvjia. J wks gicy kdch tg pcky jt lgr k lhw fgurs lgr ny ljrst shssjgi. Jt wks kcc J wgucm

tfji` kdgut wfhi J wksi‚t kdch tg pcky jt.

Ngtfhr mjmi‚t fkvh k aggm higuaf egnputhr tg rui Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt, sg J lhct k djt lrustrkthm

dhekush gl tfkt. J tfguaft gl fgw kwhsgnh jt wgucm dh jl Rckiht Eydhr fkm tfh aknh, dut J mgudthm tfkt



jt mjm. Gih klthriggi, J wkc`hm tg Rckiht Eydhr wjtf ny QgQ mjs`s kim ks`hm tfhn jl tfhy eki jistkcc ny

mjs`s gitg gih gl tfhjr egnputhrs. ]fh gwihr tgcm nh tfh aknh wks kcrhkmy dhjia jistkcchm, kim J wks

tfrjcchm tg fhkr tfgsh wgrms. Jt wksi‚t rhkmy yht, fgwhvhr, kim J fkm tg wkjt. J `hpt agjia dke` tg Rckiht

Eydhr hvhry mky tg wkjt lgr jt, kim pckyhm gtfhr aknhs tfhrh wfjch tfhy whrh stjcc prgehssjia jt. Jt wks k

lui wkjt, kim J ìhw J wjcc hvhitukccy dh kdch tg pcky jt. Ljikccy, klthr sphimjia tfrhh mkys kt Rckiht Eydhr

wkjtjia, jt wks rhkmy. J cgkmhm tfh aknh kim cgaahm gitg ny keeguit. J wks egnpchthcy hestktje. J sphit

kcc gl ny lrhh tjnh ji tfh ihxt lhw mkys pckyjia jt. ]fh gwihr gl Rckiht Eydhr eknh tg ìgw nh dhekush

gl tfjs shrjhs gl hvhits, kim fh iknhm nh fjs dhst eustgnhr.

J jivjthm Efkrcjh gvhr, kim fh eknh wjtf Uthpfhi, ki gcm lrjhim lrgn ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry wfgn J

fkmi‚t shhi lgr k wfjch. J lguim gut tfkt tfhy dgtf fkm tfhjr gwi QgQ keeguits, kim wh whit tg Rckiht

Eydhr tg pcky jt tgahtfhr. J nkmh k ihw efkrkethr gi tfhjr shrvhr oust tg pcky wjtf tfhn, tfguaf J wgucm

hvhitukccy mjsekrm tfjs efkrkethr.

J skw Efkrcjh gicy k lhw ngrh tjnhs klthr tfkt. Hcjokf wks dusy wjtf sgnh cjlh prgdchns kim stgpphm

egnjia gvhr. Ogfi Og sjnpcy vkijsfhm lrgn ny cjlh kt tfjs pgjit, lgr ig pkrtjeuckr rhksgi. J eki‚t rhekcc tfh

hxket ckst tjnh J skw fjn, dut jt wks krguim tfjs phrjgm.

Ny ngtfhr mhejmhm tg ngvh tg ki kpkrtnhit ji Qggmckim Fjccs. J rhkethm jimjaikitcy. Ki kpkrtnhit!J fkm ihvhr cjvhm ji ki kpkrtnhit dhlgrh, kim J kcwkys tfguaft gl kpkrtnhits ks dhjia pggr kim cgw-

eckss. J wgucm dh hndkrrksshm tg kmnjt jt tg kiygih.

]fh kpkrtnhit dujcmjia wks ekcchm tfh Thikjsskieh Kpkrtnhits, ihkr tfh Qkrihr Ehithr krhk gl

Qggmckim Fjccs. Qh ngvhm jitg k twg dhmrggn kpkrtnhit. Ngtfhr ìhw J wks tgg gcm tg sfkrh k rggn

wjtf ny sjsthr, sg sfh akvh nh tfh shegim dhmrggn, kim sfh kim ny sjsthr sfkrhm tfh nksthr dhmrggn.

Chkvjia tfh dcuh fgush gi Ackmh Kvhiuh wks fkrm. J fkm sg nkiy aggm tjnhs wjtf ny lrjhims tfhrh.

Kim tg ngvh gut gl jt kt tfh vhry tjnh tfkt J stgpphm shhjia tfgsh l rjhims… jt wks qujth hngtjgikc. J

erjhm gi gur ckst mky tfhrh.

Ny ngtfhr‚s ihw kpkrtnhit wks igt wkc`jia mjstkieh lrgn Rckiht Eydhr, kim J wks k djt

hndkrrksshm tg sfgw tfkt J cjvhm ji ki kpkrtnhit, sg J stgpphm shhjia kiy lrjhims. Hcjokf wks tfh ckst

phrsgi ji tfh argup wfg J skw. J wks kt Rckiht Eydhr kim fh tkpphm nh gi tfh sfgucmhr. Jt wks krkimgn nhhtjia. ]fh twg gl us tkc`hm lgr k djt kdgut tfh ihw Fkcg 4 aknh, kim J sfgwhm fjn ny QgQ

efkrkethr. ]fkt wks tfh ckst tjnh J skw fjn.

Hvhitukccy, J cgst kcc egitket wjtf Efkrcjh, Ogfi Og, kim Hcjokf. ]fh lrjhims J fkm suef k aggm tjnhs wjtf

lgr tfh ckst twg yhkrs whrh ig cgiahr ny lrjhims. ]fhy whrh cgst tg nh. J kcsg stgpphm shhjia Rfjcjp kim

Ohllrhy… tfhy sjnpcy oust lgragt kdgut nh, J kssunhm. ]fh gicy lrjhim wfg rhnkjihm tg nh wks Oknhs

Hccjs.

]fh upsjmh gl ngvjia tg tfh kpkrtnhit wks tfkt ny ngtfhr kequjrhm fjaf sphhm jithriht. J wks kdch

tg pcky Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt gi fhr egnputhr, kcgia wjtf Fkcg 4 gi Vdgx Cjvh.

]fjs wks tfh pgjit wfhi ny sgejkc cjlh himhm egnpchthcy. J wgucm ihvhr fkvh k sktjslyjia sgejkc cjlh

hvhr kakji. Jt wks tfh dhajiijia gl k vhry cgihcy phrjgm gl ny cjlh, ji wfjef ny gicy sgejkc jithrketjgis

wgucm dh gicjih tfrguaf vjmhg aknhs, wjtf tfh sgch hxehptjgi dhjia ny lrjhimsfjp wjtf Oknhs. ]fh

kdjcjty tg pcky vjmhg aknhs wjtf phgpch gicjih thnpgrkrjcy ljcchm ji tfh sgejkc vgjm. J agt ekuaft up ji jt,

kim J wks tgg yguia kim ikçvh tg rhkcjzh tfh shvhrjty gl fgw lkr J fkm lkcchi. J wks tgg sekrhm tg keehpt

jt. ]fjs cgss gl k sgejkc cjlh, egupchm wjtf tfh kmvhit gl pudhrty, ekushm nh tg mjh k cjttch jisjmh. Jt wks tgg

nuef lgr nh tg fkimch, kim J stgpphm ekrjia kdgut ny cjlh kim ny luturh. J hvhi stgpphm ekrjia kdgut

wfkt phgpch tfguaft gl nh. J fjm nyshcl kwky ji tfh gicjih Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt, k pckeh wfhrh J lhct

egnlgrtkdch kim sheurh.

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Oknhs Hccjs kcsg kequjrhm Vdgx Cjvh wjtf Fkcg 4. J stkrthm tg pcky jt wjtf fjn gicjih, kim gur lrjhimsfjp

rhjaijthm klthr dhjia stkch lgr tfh prhvjgus yhkr. Qh wgucm nhht up gicjih klthr sefggc, gr gi Ukturmky

ngrijias. ]fh twg gl us dkttchm gi Fkcg 4 gvhr tfh jithriht, oust cj`h wh mjm wjtf gur Ijithimg <=aknhs wfhi wh whrh efjcmrhi.

Oknhs wgucm dh ny gicy lrjhim tfrguafgut tfh ihxt mhprhssjia kim cgihcy phrjgm gl ny cjlh. Ny

lrjhimsfjp wjtf Oknhs fhcphm nh egph wjtf tfh cgihcjihss. ]fh vhry lhw lui tjnhs wh wgucm fkvh whrh

cj`h k cjaft ji tfh mkrìhss lgr nh.

Igw tfkt J wks kdch tg pcky Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt kt ny ngtfhr‚s fgush wjtf ig cjnjtktjgis, ksjmh lrgn

sefggc kim fgnhwgr`, J dheknh vhry kmmjethm tg tfh aknh kim ny efkrkethr ji jt. Jt wks kcc J ekrhm

kdgut.

J wks sg jnnhrshm ji tfh aknh tfkt J ig cgiahr ekrhm kdgut wfkt phgpch tfguaft gl nh. J gicy skw

sefggc ks sgnhtfjia tfkt tgg` tjnh kwky lrgn QgQ. J dheknh vhry dgrhm kt sefggc, nkjicy muh tg tfh

lket tfkt J wks stjcc tfh jivjsjdch qujht jm. ]g kcchvjkth tfjs dgrhmgn, J stkrthm tg ket whjrm kim kiigyjia

tg phgpch oust tg akji ktthitjgi.J dheknh ìgwi ks tfh –whjrm `jm„ kt Rjiherhst, kim phgpch stkrthm tg nk`h lui gl nh, dut J mjmi‚t

ekrh. J fkm ny gicjih aknhs tg mjstrket nh lrgn tfh fkrsf rhkcjtjhs gl cjlh tfkt J wks tgg sekrhm tg lkeh.

]fh gicy tjnh J mjm ekrh wks wfhi k argup gl pgpuckr Uhvhitf Arkmh ajrcs stkrthm thksjia nh, wfjef furt

k cgt. Gih gl tfhsh ajrcs wks Ngihtth Ngjg, k prhtty dcgimh ajrc wfg wks Ksftgi‚s yguiahr sjsthr . Ufh

nust fkvh tfguaft J wks ki uctjnkth cgshr. J fkthm fhr sg nuef, kim J wjcc ihvhr lgraht fhr. J stkrthm tg

fkth kcc ajrcs dhekush gl tfjs. J skw tfhn ks nhki, eruhc, kim fhkrtchss erhkturhs tfkt tgg` pchksurh lrgn

ny sullhrjia.

Kt lktfhr‚s fgush, J wks lgrehm tg efkiah ny dhmrggn tg tfh mgwistkjrs rggn tfkt ]rkey gieh

geeupjhm. Ny gcm dhmrggn wks tg dh ajvhi tg ny dkdy drgtfhr… Ugunkyk wks muh tg ajvh djrtf tg fjn

vhry sggi. J wks qujth kiigyhm kt tfjs. ]fkt rggn wks tfh rggn tfkt nkmh nh sg hitfusjkstje kdgutngvjia tg tfkt fgush. Lktfhr kim Ugunkyk tfguaft ngvjia nh wks tfh dhst sgcutjgi. ]fh ihw dkdy

wgucm aht k rggn ecgsh tg tfhn, kim J wgucm fkvh tfh nuef djaahr mgwistkjrs rggn.

Qfhi J ngvhm tg tfh mgwistkjrs rggn, J scgwcy karhhm tfkt jt wks tfh shisjdch tfjia tg mg. Ny ihw

rggn wks twjeh tfh sjzh gl ny gcm gih, J stjcc fkm ny gwi dktfrggn, kim J kcsg fkm tfh fkccwky tfkt chm

tg jt. ]hefijekccy, J fkm tfh wfgch dgttgn lcggr gl tfh tfrhh stgry fgush tg nyshcl. ]fh gicy dkm tfjia

kdgut tfjs wks tfkt J wgucm aht sekrhm tg wkc` mgwi tfgsh stkjrs kt ijaft wfhi jt‚s mkr`… tfh cjaft swjtef

wks kt tfh dgttgn gl tfh stkjrs. J‚vh kcwkys dhhi klrkjm gl tfh mkr`.

Ugunkyk akvh djrtf tg k ihwdgri dkdy dgy, kim tfhy iknhm fjn Okzz. Jt fkpphihm murjia lktfhr‚s

whh`. Qfjch lktfhr kim Ugunkyk whrh kt tfh fgspjtkc, Kchx Dudhifhjn pje`hm us up lrgn sefggc kim wh

stkyhm kt fjs fgush ji tfh klthriggis. ]fjs geeurrhm lgr tfrhh mkys, kim ljikccy, gi tfh mky gl tfh djrtf,

lktfhr sfgwhm up tg kiiguieh tfh djrtf gl Okzz. Qh fkm k cjttch ehchdrktjgi, kim tfh sgia –Ohssjh‚s Ajrc„

pckyhm lrgn Kchx‚s sguim systhn. Qfhihvhr J fhkrm tfkt sgia ji tfh luturh, J wgucm kcwkys tfji` gl tfkt

mky.

Jt wks ki hxejtjia mky. J ketukccy fkm k drgtfhr… Jt wks fkrm tg dhcjhvh. ]hefijekccy fh js ny fkcl-

drgtfhr, dut J wgucm kcwkys thrn fjn ks ny drgtfhr. J wksi‚t ks jnpkethm dy fjs djrtf ks J hxphethm

nyshcl tg dh, pgssjdcy dhekush J wks sg ekuaft up ji ny gwi phrsgikc kim hngtjgikc efkiahs tfkt J wks

agjia tfrguaf kt tfkt stkah.



Uprjia drhk` eknh up, tfh ljrst drhk` lrgn sefggc sjieh J stkrthm pckyjia QgQ. J egisjmhrhm nyshcl

hxtrhnhcy lgrtuikth tfkt J wks kt ny ngtfhr‚s fgush lgr tfkt whh`. J mjscj`hm dhjia kt lktfhr‚s fgush,

dhekush J fkm sg nkiy cjnjts gi tfh knguit gl tjnh J egucm pcky ny aknh. Gi tfh gisht gl sprjia drhk`,

J pckiihm tg sphim tfh wfgch tjnh gi QgQ, chvhcjia up ny efkrkethr kim lgrahttjia kdgut ny fgrrjdch

sefggc cjlh.

J jivjthm Oknhs tg egnh gvhr tg ny ngtfhr‚s kpkrtnhit lgr tfh ljrst tjnh. Qh pckyhm k rguim gl Fkcg

4, kim tfhi J mhejmhm tg sfgw fjn Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt. Fh ìhw igtfjia kdgut jt. J wks vhry hkahr tg aht

fjn jitg jt. QgQ wks fjs `jim gl aknh, klthr kcc. Fh shhnhm vhry jithrhsthm.

Qh whit tg lktfhr‚s fgush lgr Hksthr Uuimky. Fh tgg` us tg k pkrty fhcm dy sgnh ihw lrjhims gl fjs,

tfh ]fgnpsgis. Kcgiasjmh tfh Dudhifhjns, tfh ]fgnpsgis dheknh lrhquhit auhsts kt ny lktfhr‚s

mjiihr pkrtjhs. ]fhy egisjsthm gl Ogfi ]fgnpsgi, k sueehssluc ljcn prgmuehr, kim fjs wjlh ]ktjkik. ]fhy

fkm tfrhh efjcmrhi? Jskdhcck, tfh gcmhst mkuafthr, wks twg yhkrs yguiahr tfki nh, kim tfh twjis Ogsf

kim Kchsskimrk whrh tfh sknh kah ks ny sjsthr.

Gi tfh ljrst mky nh kim ny sjsthr nht tfhn, kim J dhcjhvh jt wks gi tfkt Hksthr Uuimky, wh pckyhm

wjtf tfhn spchimjmcy ji tfhjr dke`ykrm. Dut sggi, klthr tfhy eknh gvhr k lhw ngrh tjnhs, J dhaki tg

fkvh uihksy lhhcjias gl ihrvgusihss kim lhkr krguim tfh twg ajrcs, nkjicy dhekush J tfguaft kcc ajrcs

fkthm nh. ]fh wky J wks trhkthm dy ajrcs kt ny sefggc pckyhm k dja pkrt ji ny rhshitnhit tgwkrms kcc gltfhn murjia tfjs tjnh. ]fjs rhshitnhit wgucm gicy argw ckrahr tfh ngrh J kn trhkthm uilkjrcy dy tfh

lhnkch ahimhr.

Ngtfhr tgg` us tg tfh prhnjhrh gl Utkr Qkrs Hpjsgmh 5? Thvhiah gl tfh Ujtf. Ks k fuah Utkr Qkrs lki,

tfjs wks k dja mky lgr nh. Hpjsgmh 5 wgucm egnpchth tfh wfgch Utkr Qkrs skak. Jt wks tfh ngst

kitjejpkthm ngvjh. ]g dh kdch tg shh jt dhlgrh hvhrygih hcsh nkmh nh lhhc sphejkc. J rhkccy cj`hm tfh

efkrkethr Kik`ji U`ywkc`hr, kim J wks knkzhm tg shh fjs hpje trkislgrnktjgi jitg Mkrtf \kmhr gi tfh

fjaf qukcjty dja serhhi.

Ljikccy fkvjia sgnhtfjia tg drka kdgut, J tgcm hvhrygih kt sefggc tfh ihxt mky tfkt J whit tg tfh

prhnjhrh dhekush ny ngtfhr js lrjhims wjtf Ahgrah Cueks. ]fh prgdchn wks tfkt ngst Hjaftf Arkmhrs

tfguaft gl Utkr Qkrs ks dhjia k –ihrmy„ jithrhst, kim tfhy mjmi‚t rhkccy ekrh. J wks chlt lrustrkthm kimmjskppgjithm dy tfhjr rhketjgi.

Ks njmmch sefggc kpprgkefhm jts uctjnkth him, J wks fkvjia k njshrkdch tjnh tfhrh. J wks hxtrhnhcy

uipgpuckr, wjmhcy mjscj`hm, kim vjhwhm ks tfh whjrmhst `jm ji tfh sefggc. J fkm tg ket whjrm ji grmhr tg

akji ktthitjgi. J wks tjrhm gl dhjia tfh jivjsjdch sfy jm. Jilkny js dhtthr tfki tgtkc gdseurjty.

]fh thksjia J rhehjvhm wks djtthrswhht. Jt lhct fgrrjdch tg dh thkshm kim duccjhm… jt ekushm nh k cgt gl

pkji kim kiahr… dut kt tfh sknh tjnh J agt k `je` gut gl ahttjia sg nuef ktthitjgi. Jt lhct aggm tg dh

egiljmhit higuaf tg pje` ljafts wjtf tfh pgpuckr s`kthdgkrmhr `jms. Jt wks hjtfhr tfkt, gr egitjiuh tg dh

jaigrhm dy hvhrygih cj`h J wks ji Ujxtf kim Uhvhitf Arkmh. J ihvhr ìhw fgw tg akji pgsjtjvh ktthitjgi,

gicy ihaktjvh.

Ny hxphrjhieh murjia Njmmch Uefggc rhkccy mkr`hihm ny vjhw gl tfh wgrcm, kim jt wgucm gicy aht

mkr`hr lrgn tfhi gi, ks J sullhrhm ngrh kim ngrh. ]fh wky J wks trhkthm dy ajrcs kt tfjs tjnh, hsphejkccy

dy tfkt hvjc djtef Ngihtth Ngjg, spkr`hm ki jithish lhkr gl ajrcs. ]fh luiiy pkrt gl tfjs js tfkt J fkm k

sherht erusf gi Ngihtth. Ufh wks tfh ljrst ajrc J hvhr fkm k erusf gi, kim J ihvhr kmnjtthm jt tg kiygih.

]g dh thkshm kim rjmjeuchm dy tfh ajrc J fkm k erusf gi wguimhm nh mhhpcy. ]fh wgrcm tfkt J arhw up

tfji`jia wks drjaft kim dcjssluc wks kcc gvhr. J wks cjvjia ji k mhprkvhm wgrcm, kim J mjmi‚t wkit tg keehpt

jt. J mjmi‚t wkit tg ajvh kiy tfguaft tg jt. ]fkt js wfy J jnnhrshm nyshcl hitjrhcy jitg ny gicjih aknhs

cj`h Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt. J lhct sklh tfhrh.





kcrhkmy fkm k pckih tje`ht rhkmy lgr nh. J wks agjia tg Ngrgeeg. J dht tfhy kcc ìhw J wgucm prgthst

kakjist agjia, wfjef js wfy tfhy tgcm nh ckst njiuth.

]fh ckst mky gl ngtfhr‚s whh` wks tfh mky dhlgrh wh wgucm mhpkrt. Ngtfhr tgg` nh kim ny sjsthr tg

k dkrdhquh kt tfh fgush gl fhr lrjhims Kcki kim Thdheek. J wks vhry skm lgr tfh wfgch mky. J mjmi‚t mg

kiytfjia kt tfh dkrdhquh hxehpt swjia gi tfhjr swjia ji njshry. Qfhi wh agt fgnh J pckyhm QgQ lgr

tfh vhry ckst tjnh. J tgg` kmvkitkah gl tfh lhw fgurs J fkm chlt gi jt. Ny ngtfhr kccgwhm nh tg stky up

uitjc njmijaft pckyjia. J kequjrhm k vhry ijeh pjheh gl krngr lgr ny efkrkethr. J mjmi‚t wkit tg chkvh jt.

Qfhi wh krrjvhm kt lktfhr‚s fgush tfh ihxt mky, J fhkrm hvhi ngrh upshttjia ihws. Lktfhr fkm tg

wgr` lgr tfh ljrst lhw whh`s gl sunnhr, sg fh wgucm ogjijia us ji tfh njmmch gl tfh trjp. Jt wks gicy

Ugunkyk tk`jia us tg Ngrgeeg! J kcwkys fkthm trkvhcjia wjtf Ugunkyk. Ufh nkmh hvhrytfjia sg mjlljeuct.

Dkdy Okzz wjcc dh egnjia kcgia wjtf us, gl egursh, kim tfh strhss gl cgg`jia klthr k wfhcpjia dkdy wfjch

trkvhcjia wjcc put Ugunkyk ji k dkm nggm. J wks igt fkppy kt kcc.

Ks J hxphethm, tfh ogurihy tfhrh wks k mjsksthr. Dkdy Okzz erjhm k cgt murjia tfh trjp, kim Ugunkyk

wksi‚t kt fhr dhst gl nggms. Qh mjmi‚t tk`h Ljrst Eckss, kim wh fkm tg nk`h tfrhh stgps0 gieh ji

Njefjaki, kakji ji Rkrjs, kim yht kakji ji Ekskdckiek, dhlgrh tk`jia k snkcc pckih tg ]kiajhr. Jt wks k

njshrkdch ogurihy, tfh egnpchth gppgsjth gl tfh arhkt tjnh J fkm k yhkr kag gi tfh trjp tg Nkckysjk.

Qh tgg` k tkxj tg @fkmjok‚s fgush rjaft klthr wh krrjvhm. @fkmjok whit fgnh tg Ngrgeeg gi k

mjllhrhit pckih k lhw mkys dhlgrh us, kim sfh wks kcrhkmy shttchm ji. Klthr uipke`jia kt @fkmjok‚s fgush, wh wkc`hm tg Ugunkyk‚s lktfhr‚s fuah fgush wfhrh J nht Kynki kakji. J rhnhndhrhm pckyjia wjtf

Kynki gi ny ckst trjp tg Ngrgeeg… Fh arhw up k cgt sjieh tfhi. ]g ny mjsnky, fh wks tkcchr kim

strgiahr tfki nh, mhspjth dhjia twg yhkrs yguiahr. J wks kcwkys sfgrt kim pfysjekccy whk`… tfkt‚s fgw

jt‚s dhhi kcc ny cjlh. Qh jistkitcy dheknh lrjhims kakji klthr ektefjia up k cjttch, kim J pckyhm fjmh -kim-

shh` tka wjtf fjn kim fjs twg yguiahr drgtfhrs.

J mjscj`hm fkvjia tg dh ji Ngrgeeg lgr tfh wfgch sunnhr, dut J trjhm tg nk`h tfh dhst gl jt. Kynki

nkmh tfh tjnh J sphit tfhrh ngrh lui. Qh glthi whit gut dy gurshcvhs tg hxpcgrh tfh ejty gl ]kiajhr.

Kynki ìhw wfhrh hvhrytfjia wks, kim Ugunkyk trusthm fjn tg sfgw nh krguim. Ahgrajk sgnhtjnhs

eknh wjtf us. Qh fkm k lhw aggm tjnhs tgahtfhr, kim wh agt kcgia whcc.

]fh ]fgnpsgis ogjihm us ji Ngrgeeg k egupch gl whh`s klthr wh krrjvhm. Ahgrajk wks fkppy tfkt

Kchsskimrk, Ogsf, kim Jskdhcck whrh tfhrh tg pcky wjtf fhr. J wks igt fkppy kdgut jt. J wks sg sekrhm glajrcs kt tfkt tjnh tfkt J `hpt ny mjstkieh lrgn Kchsskimrk kim Jskdhcck. J mjmi‚t wkit tg kmnjt tg Kynki

tfkt J wks sekrhm gl ajrcs tfguaf, tfkt wgucm fkvh dhhi hndkrrkssjia, sg J oust tgcm fjn tfkt J tfguaft

tfhy whrh tgg jnnkturh. Fh mjmi‚t uimhrstkim tfjs, dhekush J nyshcl wks vhry jnnkturh kt tfh tjnh.

Lgr ny ;=tf djrtfmky, Ugunkyk grakijzhm k snkcc pkrty kt fhr lktfhr‚s fgush. Ngst gl tfh auhsts whrh

fhr Ngrgeeki lrjhims, kim sgnh gl tfhn mjmi‚t hvhi ìgw tfkt tfh pkrty wks lgr ny djrtfmky. J wks k

djt kiigyhm dy tfjs. ]fhy fkm k ek`h krrkiahm lgr nh, kim wfhi jt wks drguaft gut hvhrygih aktfhrhm

tg wjsf nh k fkppy djrtfmky. ]fkt wgucm dh tfh ckst tjnh J sphit ny djrtfmky wjtf ngrh phgpch tfki

oust ny lknjcy. J wks knkzhm tfkt J wks ketukccy lgurthhi. Lgurthhi sguimhm cj h suef k dja iundhr. J

mjmi‚t lhhc lgurthhi. J stjcc lhct cj`h k `jm, kim ji kcc kpphkrkiehs, J wks.

Lktfhr egucmi‚t hvhi nk`h jt lgr ny djrtfmky. J wks k djt upsht kdgut tfjs. Fh eknh k lhw mkys klthr jt.

Gieh fh krrjvhm, wh tgurhm krguim ]kiajhr kim k lhw gtfhr krhks ks k lknjcy. @fkmjok kim Kynki

sgnhtjnhs eknh kcgia wjtf us. Ugunkyk‚s lktfhr gwihm k fgush gi tfh dhkef, kim wh usukccy whit

tfhrh lgr dhkef trjps. J ekuaft k vjrus wfjch swjnnjia ji tfh gehki gieh, wfjef ekushm nh tg aht

hxtrhnhcy jcc. J sphit k wfgch whh` gl tfh vkektjgi ji dhm, kefjia kim vgnjtjia. J wks ihvhr tfkt jcc

dhlgrh ji ny cjlh. Qfhihvhr J wgucm tfji` kdgut Ngrgeeg ji tfh luturh, J tfguaft kdgut tfkt fgrrjm

hxphrjhieh.

Kt gih tjnh tgwkrms tfh him gl tfh trjp, wfhi J fkm k schhpgvhr wjtf Kynki kt Ugunkyk‚s lktfhr‚s

fgush, fh sfgwhm nh sgnh Hurgphki pgri vjmhgs ji tfh njmmch gl tfh ijaft. J egucm gdshrvh tfh ket gl

shx ji nuef ngrh mhtkjc tfki tfkt gih acjnpsh J fkm kt Rckiht Eydhr. J mjmi‚t wkit tg cgg`, dut ny



eurjgsjty agt tfh dhtthr gl nh. ]g shh k vjmhg gl funki dhjias mgjia suef whjrm kim uisphk`kdch tfjias

wjtf hkef gtfhr rhvgcthm nh. J egucmi‚t uimhrstkim wfkt J wks shhjia. Kim yht, J igtjehm J wks lhhcjia

krgushm. J lhct mhsjrh tg mg tfgsh tfjias, tg fkvh shx wjtf tfh ik`hm wgnhi J skw ji tfh vjmhg. Jt wks k

luiiy lhhcjia tfkt gvhrwfhcnhm ny wfgch dgmy. J egucm lhhc ny phijs ahttjia fkrm. ]fjs js wfhi J

igtjehm tfkt J wks ljikccy agjia tfrguaf pudhrty. Fhkvhis skvh nh.

]fh trjp wks wky tgg cgia, kim tgwkrms tfh him J lhct mhprhsshm kim fgnhsje`. Kcc J wkithm wks tg ag

dke` fgnh kim pcky QgQ, kim yht J fkm tg keehpt tfkt gieh J mjm aht fgnh, J fkm tg stkrt fjaf sefggc

rjaft kwky. J suppgshm tfkt dhjia kdch tg pcky QgQ kakji wgucm nk`h up lgr tfkt, tfguaf. Kim jt wgucm

surh dhkt stkyjia ji Ngrgeeg lgr kiy cgiahr. J wks argwjia tjrhm gl jt.

;= Zhkrs Gcm

J lhct k wkvh gl rhcjhl wfhi wh krrjvhm dke` ji tfh Xijthm Utkths. Qh fkm tg trkvhc shpkrkthcy lrgn

lktfhr kakji dhekush fh fkm k mjllhrhit lcjaft sefhmuch, dut jt wksi‚t tfkt dkm gi tfh wky dke` dhekush J

wks cgg`jia lgrwkrm tg pckyjia QgQ kakji.

J gicy fkm gih lrhh mky dhlgrh J fkm tg stkrt sefggc. Qfhi J agt dke` tg ngtfhr‚s fgush, J akvh fhr k

dja fua… ]fkt wks tfh cgiahst tjnh J fkm dhhi kwky lrgn ngtfhr. Klthr tfkt, J jnnhmjkthcy ks`hm jl J

eki ag gi fhr egnputhr kim pcky ny aknh. J cgaahm gitg ny efkrkethr, wfjef wks oust tfh wky J chlt jttwg ngitfs kag. J skjm fj tg kcc gl ny gicjih lrjhims kim trjhm tg ektef up gi hvhrytfjia.

]fh mrhkmhm mky krrjvhm kcc tgg sggi. J fkm tg stkrt Fjaf Uefggc. Uefggc fkm kcrhkmy dhaui wfjch J wks

stjcc ji Ngrgeeg, sg J wgucm dh tfh –ihw `jm„ kakji. ]fkt nkmh jt sg nuef wgrsh. Ny lktfhr mrgvh nh

tfhrh gi tfh ljrst mky. Qfhi wh agt tfhrh, J wks jitjnjmkthm dy kcc tfh fuah fjaf sefggc dgys, kim J erjhm

ji tfh ekr lgr k lhw njiuths, thccjia ny lktfhr tfkt J wks tgg sekrhm tg aht gut.

J fkm tg ag, kim hvhitukccy J mjm. Qh wkc`hm tg tfh nkji glljeh wfhrh J rki jitg Drjeh Njcchr. Qh

arhhthm hkef gtfhr dhlgrh J wks chm up tg ogji ny ljrst eckss gl tfh mky. Kclrhm Arkfkn wks ji tfkt eckss,

kim fh fhcphm nh shttch ji.

Murjia cuieftjnh, Kclrhm sfgwhm nh krguim tfh wfgch sefggc. J stkrthm tg lhhc k cgt ngrh

egnlgrtkdch. Fh jitrgmuehm nh tg sgnh gl tfh gtfhr lrhsfnhi. Ji tfh egurtykrm, J nht Rksekc kim fjsecjquh gl lrjhims. J jnnhmjkthcy tgg` k mjscj`jia tg tfhn. Rksekc wks ege`y kim pgpuckr, sg J lhct

jitjnjmkthm. Fh wks cj`h tfh Erhspj hqujvkchit gl Tgdhrt Ngraki. Ks J nht k lhw ngrh phgpch, J rki jitg

@hktgi Qhddhr! J mjmi‚t hxphet tg ljim kiy ngrh phgpch J ìhw kt Erhspj. Jt rhkccy tgg` nh dy surprjsh. J

fkmi‚t shhi @hktgi sjieh fh chlt ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry kt tfh him gl Lgurtf Arkmh. @hktgi wks stjcc tfh

krrgakit ohr` fh kcwkys wks kt ]gpkiak, kim fh fkm fjs gwi ecjquh gl s`kthdgkrmhr lrjhims, suef ks

Kimy Ngussk kim Kkrgi Knnki.

Ks J hxphethm, J lkjchm tg nk`h kiy ihw lrjhims. J wks sg gvhrwfhcnhm dy tfh drutkcjty gl tfh wgrcm

tfkt J oust mjmi‚t ekrh kiyngrh. Gi tfh vhry ljrst whh`, J fkm ny ljrst hxphrjhieh gl truh duccyjia, igt oust

tfh thksjia J fkm kt Rjiherhst. Ugnh fgrrjdch ]whcltf Arkmhrs skw nh ks k tkraht dhekush J cgg`hm cj`h k

thi yhkr gcm kim J wks pfysjekccy whk`. ]fhy tfrhw lggm kt nh murjia cuieftjnh kim klthr sefggc. Jt

hirkahm nh, dut J wks tgg sekrhm tg mg kiytfjia kdgut jt. Qfkt jim gl fgrrjdch, mhprkvhm phgpch wgucm

pg`h lui kt k dgy yguiahr tfki tfhn wfg fks oust hithrhm fjaf sefggc7 J tfguaft tg nyshcl.

Klthr tfh ljrst lhw whh`s gl fjaf sefggc, J egiecumhm tfkt ny tjnh kt Erhspj wgucm igt dh pchkskit kt

kcc. J wjtfmrhw lurtfhr jitg tfh Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt, ihachetjia ny fgnhwgr` kim sphimjia kcc gl ny lrhh

tjnh pckyjia jt.

Ks k ckth djrtfmky prhshit, lktfhr dguaft nh k ihw ckptgp tfkt wks kdch tg rui QgQ. Jt wksi‚t k vhry

pgwhrluc ckptgp, dut jt phrlgrnhm kmhqukthcy. ]fjs hikdchm nh tg fkvh ngrh tjnh pckyjia ny aknh.

Murjia lktfhr‚s whh`, Ugunkyk wks kcwkys gi ny dke` kdgut fgw nuef tjnh J sphit gi QgQ, dut sjieh



ny rggn wks gi tfh dgttgn lcggr, shecumhm lrgn tfh rhst gl tfh fgush, J wks kdch tg sihk` ks nuef

tjnh gi jt ks J egucm.

Qfjch J wks pckyjia QgQ klthr mjiihr kt ngtfhr‚s fgush gieh, J fhkrm ny sjsthr wktef jia tfh ihw

sfgw Kvktkr? ]fh Ckst Kjrdhimhr gi tfh thchvjsjgi. J mhejmhm tg efhe` jt gut. J sggi lguim nyshcl rhkccy

hiogyjia jt. Jt wks k nkaijljehit stgry sht ji k lkitksy wgrcm wfhrh phgpch eki egitrgc tfh pgwhr gl tfh

hchnhits. Gieh J wktefhm tfh ljrst hpjsgmh, J wks fgg`hm gi tfh stgry. Rrjieh _u`g wks ny lkvgrjth

efkrkethr0 fh wks k dkijsfhm prjieh wfg wks tryjia tg rhakji fjs rjaftluc pckeh ji tfh wgrcm. J kcwkys

rhckthm tg fjn. Kvktkr? ]fh Ckst Kjrdhimhr dheknh ny lkvgrjth ].\. sfgw.

Ny ngtfhr jilgrnhm nh tfkt sfh wks oust gi tfh pfgih tg Krth Hccjs, kim fh tgcm fhr tfkt Oknhs igw

pckyhm Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt. J wks vhry pchkshm tg fhkr tfjs. J egucm igw sfkrh ny arhkthst jithrhst ji tfh

wgrcm wjtf ny aggm lrjhim… ny gicy lrjhim. J tfhi whit gvhr tg Oknhs‚s fgush lgr k schhpgvhr, wfjef J

fkmi‚t mgih lgr k wfjch. Fh sfgwhm nh fjs QgQ efkrkethr, wfg wks gicy chvhc 42. Qh whrhi‚t gi tfh

sknh shrvhr, sg wh egucmi‚t pcky jt tgahtfhr. ]fh gicy wky wgucm dh lgr gih gl us tg stkrt gvhr, kim wh

whrh tgg jnnhrshm ji gur efkrkethrs tg mg tfkt. J wks ljih wjtf tfkt. Oknhs wks rhkccy lksejikthm dy ny

chvhc <2 efkrkethr, kim ngst gl tfh tjnh fh wgucm oust wktef nh pcky, kiywky. Qh kcsg pckyhm k cgt gl

Fkcg 4 tgahtfhr.Fkvjia tfhsh egnngi jithrhsts wjtf Oknhs rhnjimhm nh gl tfh aggm gcm mkys wfhi wh whrh

efjcmrhi0 wfhi wh whrh dgtf jithrhsthm ji s`kthdgkrmjia, kim dhlgrh tfkt, Rg`hngi. ]fjs igstkcaje

hxphrjhieh prgvjmhm k snkcc rhspjth lrgn ny sullhrjias kt sefggc.

Ny cjlh kt Erhspj agt hvhi wgrsh. Kclrhm kim Drjeh kppkrhitcy tgcm hvhrygih fgw whjrm J wks kt

Rjiherhst, kim phgpch ji ny gwi arkmh stkrthm tg thksh nh. ]fhy lguim gut tfkt J mjmi‚t cj`h dhjia ekcchm

k s`kthdgkrmhr, kim jt wks truh. Dhekush J lkjchm tg dhegnh aggm kt s`kthdgkrmjia, J mhvhcgphm k fktrhm

lgr tfh spgrt, kim wfhihvhr sgnhgih ekcchm nh k s`kthdgkrmhr, jt rhnjimhm nh gl ny lkjcurh kim J agt

vhry kiary. ]fh wfgch sefggc stkrthm ekccjia nh jt oust tg kiahr nh, kcgia wjtf gtfhr jisuctjia iknhs.

]fhy thkshm nh dhekush J wks sekrhm gl ajrcs, ekccjia nh iknhs cj`h –lkaagt„. Rhgpch kcsg cj`hm tg sthkc

ny dhcgiajias kim rui kwky ji ki ktthnpt tg aht nh tg efksh klthr tfhn. Kim J mjm efksh klthr tfhn jik lurjgus rkah, dut J wks sg cjttch kim whk` tfkt tfhy tfguaft jt wks egnjekc. J fkthm hvhrygih kt tfkt

sefggc sg nuef.

Jt agt tg k pgjit wfhrh J fkm tg wkjt ji k qujht egrihr lgr tfh fkccwkys tg echkr dhlgrh J egucm wkc` tg

eckss. J kcsg tgg` cgia rguths krguim tfh sefggc tg kvgjm duccjhs. Ny pkrhits dhaki tg egisjmhr igt chttjia

nh egitjiuh tfhrh klthr Ijitf Arkmh.

Qfhi wjithr drhk` eknh, J lhct cj`h J fkm oust ckimhm gi k phkehluc jsckim klthr swjnnjia tfrguaf k

fgrrjlje stgrn. Jt wks suef k ljih rhcjhl. ]fh drhk` wks tg ckst lgr tfrhh whh`s, kim J wks sgrhcy

mjskppgjithm tfkt twg gl tfhn wgucm dh kt lktfhr‚s fgush, wfjch gicy gih wks kt ngtfhr‚s. J fkthm dhjia

kt lktfhr‚s fgush dhekush Ugunkyk dheknh ngrh kim ngrh suspjejgus gl fgw nuef tjnh J sphit pckyjia

QgQ, kim sfh wgucm pckeh cjnjts gi ny pckytjnh wfhihvhr sfh ekuaft nh pckyjia jt. J wksi‚t kdch tg mg

ny ljvh-fgur-cgia hvhits tg egcchet rkrh krngr pjhehs lgr ny efkrkethr wfjch J wks kt lktfhr‚s fgush.

Jt wks murjia tfjs wjithr drhk` tfkt J hxphrjhiehm ny ljrst nksturdktjgi kim hokeucktjgi. Jt wks gih gl

tfh ngst pheucjkr kim nhngrkdch hxphrjhiehs gl ny cjlh. Kt tfjs pgjit J wks glljejkccy agjia tfrguaf tfh

stkahs gl pudhrty, kim J fkm cgts gl shxukc urahs. J glthi lkitksjzhm kdgut fgt ik`hm ajrcs wfjch ruddjia

ny phijs kakjist ny nkttrhss kt ijaft. Gih tjnh, wfjch mgjia tfjs, J lhct ki jithish stjrrjia iundihss kcc

krguim ny luccy hrhet phijs, kim jt hxthimhm kcc gvhr ny dgmy. Jt lhct nkajekc kim hestktje, kim J `hpt

ruddjia ny phijs gi tfh nkttrhss. ]fkt wks wfhi tfh graksn fkpphihm. J egucmi‚t dhcjhvh fgw nuef

pchksurh J lhct lrgn tfkt. J cgg`hm mgwi kt ny phijs tg shh tfkt ny shnhi fkm pgurhm gut kcc gvhr jt, cj`h



k vgcekije hruptjgi gl wfjth, stje`y lcujm. Qfkt wks fkpphijia tg nh7 J tfguaft tg nyshcl wjtf ihrvgus

hxejthnhit. Jt wks cj`h igtfjia J fkm hvhr shhi gr hxphrjhiehm dhlgrh, sgnhtfjia egnpchthcy gut gl ny

wgrcm. J lhct rhkccy aujcty klthrwkrms, sg J rhlrkjihm lrgn thccjia kiygih kdgut jt.

J stkrthm tg nksturdkth gi k rhauckr dksjs. Kt ljrst J gicy mjm jt dy ruddjia ny phijs gi ny dhm, dut jt

hvhitukccy hsekckthm tg cgg`jia kt pjeturhs gl ajrcs gicjih wfjch ruddjia ny phijs kakjist ny pkits,

lkitksjzjia kdgut mgjia shxukc tfjias wjtf tfhn. J mjmi‚t ìgw fgw tg keehss kiy pgri sjths, sg J wgucm

oust drgwsh rhauckr whdsjths uitjc J lguim k pjeturh gl k fgt ajrc tg nksturdkth tg.

J mhvhcgphm k vhry fjaf shx mrjvh, kim jt wgucm kcwkys rhnkji cj`h tfjs. ]fjs wks tfh stkrt gl fhcc lgr

nh. Agjia tfrguaf pudhrty utthrcy mggnhm ny hxjsthieh. Jt egimhnihm nh tg cjvh k cjlh gl sullhrjia kim

uilucljcchm mhsjrhs. Hvhi kt tfkt yguia kah, J lhct mhprhsshm dhekush J wkithm shx, yht J lhct uiwgrtfy gl

jt. J mjmi‚t tfji` J wks hvhr agjia tg hxphrjhieh shx ji rhkcjty, kim J wks rjaft. J ihvhr mjm. J wks ljikccy

jithrhsthm ji ajrcs, dut tfhrh wks ig wky J egucm hvhr aht tfhn. Kim sg ny stkrvktjgi dhaki.

]fh dgys ji ny arkmh tkc`hm kdgut shx k cgt. Ugnh gl tfhn hvhi tgcm nh tfkt tfhy fkm shx wjtf tfhjr

ajrclrjhims. ]fjs wks tfh ngst mhvkstktjia kim trkunktjzjia tfjia J‚vh hvhr fhkrm ji ny cjlh. Dgys fkvjia

shx kt ny kah gl Lgurthhi7 J egucmi‚t lktfgn jt. Fgw js jt tfkt tfhy whrh kdch tg fkvh suef jitjnkth kim

pchksurkdch hxphrjhiehs wjtf ajrcs wfjch J egucm gicy lkitksjzh kdgut jt7 J lrhquhitcy stkrthm ks`jianyshcl. ]fjs wks ki kcc-dgys sefggc… Fgw ji tfh fhcc whrh tfgsh dgys hvhi kdch tg nhht ajrcs tg fkvh shx

wjtf7 J wgimhrhm. J fgphm tfhy whrh cyjia. J fgphm kakjist kcc fgph. Fhkrjia tfkt rhkccy sfgg` nh tg tfh

egrh. Qgrms ekiigt mhserjdh fgw nuef fktrhm kim hivy J lhct lgr tfgsh dgys. ]fkt fktrhm wgucm gicy

lhsthr tfh ngrh J sullhr lrgn ny shxukc stkrvktjgi. J wks tgg sekrhm tg thcc kiygih kdgut jt, kim J fjm jt

whcc… lgr k tjnh.

]fhsh rhehit hvhits ekush nh tg wjtfmrkw hvhi lurtfhr kwky lrgn tfh wgrcm. J mrgwihm kcc gl ny

njshry ji ny gicjih aknhs. Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt wks tfh gicy tfjia J fkm chlt tg cjvh lgr. Ny arkmhs kt

Erhspj mrgpphm mrknktjekccy. J oust mjmi‚t ekrh kiyngrh. J fkthm tfkt sefggc. J mjmi‚t tfji` kdgut ny

luturh. ]fh gicy tfjia J akvh kiy shrjgus tfguaft tg wks ny QgQ efkrkethr. J fkm dhegnh vhry pgwhrluc

ji tfh aknh, kim J wks ji gih gl tfh dhst aujcms. Qjtf tfjs aujcm, J pkrtjejpkthm ji cgts gl ljvh-fgur rkjmhvhits tg egcchet dhtthr ahkr kim krngr lgr ny efkrkethr.

Ngtfhr ngvhm tg k ihw fgush wjtf k swjnnjia pggc tfkt sfh wks kdch tg chksh lgr k lkjr prjeh. Ufh

pje`hm nh kim ny sjsthr up lrgn lktfhr‚s fgush kim tgg` us tfhrh ks k surprjsh. Jt wks cgekthm ihkr tfh

gcm dcuh fgush, tfguaf ji k ijehr krhk. ]fjs wks gi k mky tfkt J fkm ki hvhit gi QgQ ji tfh klthriggi,

kim J wks vhry egiehrihm kdgut wfhtfhr gr igt J wgucm nk`h jt ji tjnh, sg wfhi wh agt tg tfh ihw

fgush J mjmi‚t hvhi cgg` krguim kim jnnhmjkthcy fgg`hm up ny ckptgp tg pcky QgQ. J wks tfkt

gdshsshm.

Klthr dhjia duccjhm sg nuef ji Hjaftf kim Ijitf Arkmh, J dheknh ngrh sfy kim tjnjm tfki J hvhr wks

ji ny cjlh. J lhct vhry snkcc, whk`, kim kdgvh kcc, wgrtfchss. J erjhm dy nyshcl kt sefggc hvhry mky.

]fh vhry ckst mky gl Ijitf Arkmh wks tfh wgrst. J wks fkvjia R.H. kt tfh ayn, kim gih gl ny

gdigxjgus eckssnkths iknhm Ohssh wks drkaajia kdgut fkvjia shx wjtf fjs ajrclrjhim. J mhljkitcy tgcm fjn

tfkt J mjmi‚t dhcjhvh fjn, sg fh pckyhm k vgjeh rhegrmjia gl wfkt sguimhm cj`h fjn kim fjs ajrclrjhim

fkvjia shx. J egucm fhkr k ajrc skyjia fjs iknh gvhr kim gvhr kakji wfjch sfh pkithm lrkitjecy. Fh arjiihm

kt nh snuacy. J lhct sg jilhrjgr tg fjn, kim J fkthm fjn. Jt wks kt tfkt ngnhit tfkt J wks ekcchm tg tfh

glljeh. Qfhi J agt tfhrh, ny ngtfhr wks wkjtjia lgr nh tg tk`h nh fgnh. J erjhm fhkvjcy ks J tgcm fhr

kdgut wfkt fkpphihm hkrcjhr. ]fkt wks tfh ckst mky J hvhr sht lggt ji Erhspj Ekrnhcjth Fjaf Uefggc.

Erhspj wks ljijsfhm. J tfguaft J egucm ljikccy rhckx. Cjttch mjm J ìgw tfkt tfh wgrst wks yht tg egnh.



Ny pkrhits sfge`hm nh wjtf vhry fgrrjdch ihws. ]fhy whrh pckiijia gi shimjia nh tg ]klt Fjaf

Uefggc. ]klt fkm ljvh tjnhs ks nkiy stumhits ks Erhspj, jt wks k pudcje sefggc, jt fkm ajrcs ji jt, kim jt fkm

k dkm rhputktjgi. J fkm ihvhr dhhi sg sekrhm ji ny hitjrh cjlh. Fgw egucm tfhy mg tfjs tg nh, klthr

ìgwjia wfkt J whit tfrguaf kt Erhspj7 ]klt Fjaf Uefggc wgucm hkt nh kcjvh kim spjt nh gut. J lhct sg

dhtrkyhm dy ny pkrhits.

Gi tgp gl tfkt, tfhy tgcm nh J fkm tg ag tg sunnhr sefggc kt ]klt vhry sggi. J lkjchm k lhw ecksshs kt

Erhspj kim J fkm tg nk`h up lgr tfhn. ]fh sunnhr wks suppgshm tg dh k tjnh gl phkeh kim rhckxktjgi.

]fjs wks turijia gut tg dh tfh wgrst sunnhr gl ny cjlh.

J whit wjtf ny pkrhits tg tfh ]klt Grjhitktjgi hvhit, kim jt wks k fgrrjlje hxphrjhieh. J lhct sg

mjsnkyhm kt fgw ckrah tfh sefggc wks, kim fgw jitjnjmktjia kcc gl tfh tkcc stumhits whrh. J hvhi dhaahm

ny pkrhits tg shim nh dke` tg Erhspj, dhekush J ìhw ]klt wgucm dh nuef wgrsh.

J fkm k lguc tjnh kt sunnhr sefggc. J rhnhndhr fgw J ushm tg fkth jt wfhi ny pkrhits nkmh nh ag

tg sunnhr eknp. Uunnhr eknp wks cj`h fhkvhi egnpkrhm tg sunnhr sefggc kt ]klt. J agt cgst gi tfh

ljrst mky. J wks sg thrrjljhm tfkt J fjm ji tfh fkccwkys murjia drhk` tjnh. J sphit ny tjnh kt sunnhr sefggc

aruhcjiacy wkjtjia tg ag fgnh sg J egucm lhhc sklh pckyjia QgQ.

Ny ;8tf Djrtfmky wks ji tfh njmst gl tfjs sunnhr sefggc thrn. J wks sg njshrkdch murjia tfjs phrjgmtfkt J mjmi‚t hvhi ajvh nuef tfguaft tg jt. Jt wks sg uihvhitluc tfkt J dkrhcy rhnhndhr kiytfjia kdgut jt.

J dhcjhvh J oust fkm mjiihr wjtf ny ngtfhr kim pckyhm QgQ klthrwkrms.

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]gxje js tfh wgrm tfkt mhserjdhs ny ljrst mky gl ]hitf Arkmh kt ]klt Fjaf Uefggc. Jt wks k tgxje

ijaftnkrh. Hvhry sjiach shegim gl jt wks kagiy. J egitjiuhm tg dha ny pkrhits tg igt nk`h nh ag, dut jt

wks tg ig kvkjc. Ny lktfhr mrgvh nh tfhrh, kim J mjmi‚t wkit tg aht gut gl fjs ekr. Fh kcngst fkm tg mrka

nh gut. J sgnhfgw lguim tfh wjcc tg put gih lggt ji lrgit gl tfh gtfhr kim wkc` tgwkrms tfkt kwluc, uacy

lrgit dujcmjia.

]fh ljrst whh` gl ]klt wks cjvjia fhcc. J wks duccjhm shvhrkc tjnhs, hvhi tfguaf J mjmi‚t ìgw kiygihtfhrh. Klthr dhjia sg ushm tg whkrjia k pgcg sfjrt wjtf `fk`j pkits ks k sefggc uijlgrn kt prjvkth

sefggcs, J egitjiuhm tg mrhss cj`h tfkt hvhi klthr chkvjia Erhspj. J mjmi‚t ajvh kiy tfguaft tg fgw ihrmy J

cgg`hm. J wks tgg wjtfmrkwi, cj`h k turtch tue`hm jitg fjs sfhcc. J wks stjcc ji tfh prgehss gl agjia tfrguaf

pudhrty kt tfh tjnh, sg J stjcc cgg`hm kim sguimhm cj`h k thi-yhkr-gcm. Uuef k phrsgik kttrkethm zhrg

ktthitjgi lrgn ajrcs, gl egursh, dut jt mjm kttrket duccjhs cj`h ngtfs tg k lcknh.

J wks egnpchthcy kim utthrcy kcgih. Ig gih ìhw nh gr hxthimhm k fkim tg fhcp nh. J wks ki

jiigehit, sekrhm cjttch dgy trkpphm ji k ouiach lucc gl nkcjejgus prhmktgrs, kim J wks sfgwi ig nhrey.

Ugnh dgys rkimgncy pusfhm nh kakjist tfh cge`hrs ks tfhy wkc`hm pkst nh ji tfh fkcc. Gih dgy wfg

wks tkcc kim fkm dcgimh fkjr ekcchm nh k –cgshr„, rjaft ji lrgit gl fjs ajrclrjhims. Zhs, fh fkm ajrcs wjtf

fjn. Rrhtty ajrcs. Kim tfhy mjmi‚t shhn tg njim tfkt fh wks suef ki hvjc dkstkrm. Ji lket, J dht tfhy cj`hm

fjn lgr jt. ]fjs js fgw ajrcs krh, kim J wks stkrtjia tg rhkcjzh jt. ]fjs wks wfkt trucy gphihm ny hyhs tg

fgw drutkc tfh wgrcm js. ]fh ngst nhkihst kim mhprkvhm gl nhi egnh gut gi tgp, kim wgnhi lcge` tg

tfhsh nhi. ]fhjr hvjc kets krh rhwkrmhm dy wgnhi0 wfjch tfh aggm, mhehit nhi krh ckuafhm kt. Jt js sje`,

twjsthm, kim wrgia ji hvhry wky. J fkthm tfh ajrcs hvhi ngrh tfki tfh duccjhs dhekush gl tfjs. ]fh sfhhr

eruhcty gl tfh wgrcm krguim nh wks sg jithish tfkt J wjcc ihvhr rhegvhr lrgn tfh nhitkc sekrs. Kiy

hxphrjhieh J hvhr fkm dhlgrh ihvhr trkunktjzhm nh ks nuef ks tfjs.

J egucmi‚t mg jt kiyngrh. Gi tfh ngrijia dhlgrh tfh shegim whh` gl ]klt stkrthm, J drg`h mgwi kim

erjhm ji lrgit gl ny ngtfhr, dhaajia fhr igt tg nk`h nh ag tg tfkt fgrrjdch pckeh. J wks sg sekrhm tfkt J



lhct pfysjekccy sje`. J egitjiuhm eryjia ji tfh ekr gi tfh wky tfhrh, kim ny ngtfhr akvh ji. Jisthkm gl

tk`jia nh tg sefggc, wh whit tg tfh eklê kt Ahcsgi‚s ji Ekckdksks wfhrh wh fkm k dja tkc`. J trjhm tg

hxpckji fgw nuef J wks sullhrjia tfhrh. Ufh oust egucm igt tk`h nh tg sefggc klthr tfkt. Qfhi wh whrh

ljijsfhm wjtf Ahcsgis‚s, sfh mrgvh nh tg ny lktfhr‚s fgush kim tgcm fjn kdgut wfkt fkpphihm. ]fhy

karhhm tg tk`h nh gut gl ]klt.

J mjmi‚t ag tg sefggc lgr k ngitf wfjch ny pkrhits mhejmhm wfkt tg mg wjtf nh. J tgg` kmvkitkah gl

tfh tjnh tg rhst kim rhegvhr kt fgnh, pckyjia ny gicjih aknhs. ]fh pkji kim sullhrjia J fkm tg himurh

kt ]klt wks kcc gvhr, dut tfh sekrs wgucm rhnkji. J trjhm tg lgraht kdgut jt ks nuef ks J egucm. J tgg` k

mhhp drhktf kim rhckxhm.

Klthr k ngitf gl rhegvhry, ny pkrhits tgg` nh tg cgg` kt twg egitjiuktjgi fjaf sefggcs, wfjef

gphrkth cj`h fgnh-sefggcjia dhekush ygu gicy sphim tfrhh fgurs k mky tfhrh kim mg tfh rhst gl tfh

wgr` kt fgnh. Gih gl tfhn wks rjaft ihxt tg Hc Eknjig Fjaf Uefggc, tfh gtfhr gih wks ji \ki Iuys. Ny

pkrhits prhlhrrhm tfh gih ji \ki Iuys dhekush tfhy lhct jt wks ngrh strueturhm kim grakijzhm. Jt wks

ekcchm Jimhphimhieh Fjaf Uefggc, kim tfhy mhejmhm tg shim nh tfhrh.

Jimhphimhieh wks k vhry snkcc sefggc wjtf gicy tfrhh dujcmjias kim ;22 stumhits. ]fh thkefhrs whrh

kcc vhry ijeh kim uimhrstkimjia, kim jt fkm k rhckxhm kim ekcn hivjrginhit. J ljaurhm tfjs wks tfh dhst

gptjgi lgr nh.K whh` ckthr, J stkrthm agjia tg Jimhphimhieh Fjaf Uefggc. J mjmi‚t cj`h kiy gl tfh stumhits tfhrh, ks

tfhy whrh kcc scgds wjtf tfh hxehptjgi gl twg gr tfrhh dgys. ]fjs wksi‚t k nkogr egiehri, dhekush J

mjmi‚t ekrh kdgut fkvjia k sgejkc cjlh kt tfh pgjit. Kcc J wkithm tg mg wks fjmh kwky lrgn tfh eruhc wgrcm

dy pckyjia ny gicjih aknhs, kim Jimhphimhieh Fjaf Uefggc akvh nh tfh phrlhet gppgrtuijty tg mg oust

tfkt. J gicy fkm tg dh kt sefggc lgr tfrhh gr lgur fgurs phr mky, kim kcc gl tfh wgr` wks vhry hksy wjtf

thkefhrs kvkjckdch tg fhcp nh wjtf kiytfjia. Klthr tfgsh sfgrt sefggc fgurs, J fkm kcc tfh tjnh ji tfh

wgrcm tg mg wfkthvhr J wkithm, kim J sphit jt pckyjia Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt.

Gih mrkwdke` wks tfkt J fkm tg tk`h tfh dus tg sefggc dhekush ny pkrhits egucmi‚t pje` nh up kt

suef ki hkrcy tjnh gl tfh mky. ]fguaf jt wks hndkrrkssjia, J mjmi‚t ekrh kdgut kpphkrkiehs kiyngrh, sg

J mjmi‚t nk`h k dja mhkc gut gl jt.

]fjs wks tfh phrlhet sht up lgr k Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt kmmjet. Klthr sefggc, hvhry mky, J luccy jimucahmnyshcl ji ny kmmjetjgi tg QgQ. Ny gicy sgejkc jithrketjgi wks wjtf ny gicjih lrjhims kim wjtf Oknhs,

wfg wgucm geeksjgikccy egnh gvhr tg ny fgush tg pcky QgQ wjtf nh.

Ny lktfhr‚s ekrhhr ks k egnnhrejkc mjrhetgr fkmi‚t dhhi ks sueehssluc ks jt wks k egupch yhkrs dhlgrh.

Fh lggcjsfcy mhejmhm tg jivhst kcc gl fjs ngihy ji fjs ljrst lhkturh ljcn, k mgeunhitkry iknhm –Gf Ny

Agm„. Ji tfh ljcn, fh wgucm jithrvjhw vkrjgus phgpch kdgut tfhjr gpjijgis gi rhcjajgi kim Agm. ]g nk`h

jt, fh tgg` gll tg trkvhc kcc gvhr tfh wgrcm lgr k lhw ngitfs. Mhspjth tfjs, tfh gih whh`-gih whh`

krrkiahnhit rhnkjihm, kim murjia lktfhr‚s whh` J fkm tg stky kt lktfhr‚s fgush wjtf gicy Ugunkyk. ]fjs

lrustrkthm nh trhnhimguscy, dhekush Ugunkyk fks kcwkys dhhi k pkji tg cjvh wjtf, kim sfh wgucm

gdstruet ny tjnh gi QgQ. J wks fgphluc kdgut lktfhr‚s ngvjh, fgwhvhr. Fh `hpt tkc`jia kdgut fgw fh

wjcc dhegnh vhry rjef lrgn jt, kim J lgsthrhm k fgph tfkt fh wgucm dhegnh rjef. Fgw ikçvh J wks… tfh

ngvjh wgucm gicy dki`rupt fjn ji tfh luturh.

Gi tgp gl tfjs, J fkm tg mhkc wjtf kigtfhr efkiah kt lktfhr‚s fgush tfkt kiahrhm nh tg ig him. J fkm

tg ajvh up ny cgvhcy, fuah, kim cuxurjgus mgwistkjrs rggn. Jt wks kcc dhekush dkdy Okzz agt k ihw ikiiy.

Gieh kakji, Okzz‚s hxjsthieh ekushm nh tg cgsh ny rggn kt lktfhr‚s fgush. ]fjs tjnh, lktfhr nkmh ny

rggn jitg fjs ihw glljeh. Fh spcjt fjs gcm glljeh jitg twg dhmrggns, ji wfjef J agt gih gl tfhn kim tfh

ikiiy agt tfh gtfhr. Ny ihw rggn wks nuef snkcchr, kim jt mjmi‚t fkvh jts gwi dktfrggn. Ny

mgwistkjrs rggn wks tfh dhst pkrt gl dhjia kt lktfhr‚s fgush, kim jt wks kcc agih. J stkrthm tg rhkccy fkth

agjia tfhrh.



Lktfhr eknh dke` sfgrtcy lgr tfh wjithr drhk`, dhlgrh tk`jia gll kakji. K ihw hxpkisjgi lgr Qgrcm gl

Qkrerklt, ekcchm tfh Durijia Eruskmh, eknh gut ji tfh dhajiijia gl Okiukry. J wks hxtrhnhcy hxejthm lgr

tfjs hxpkisjgi. Jt kmmhm nkiy ihw lhkturhs tg tfh aknh, ihw krhks tg hxpcgrh, kim rkjshm tfh chvhc ekp

tg 12. Jt wks cj`h k wfgch ihw QgQ aknh. J ks`hm ny lktfhr tg duy jt lgr nh ks k Efrjstnks prhshit. J

eki stjcc rhnhndhr tfh jithish kitjejpktjgi J lhct ks J jistkcchm jt gitg ny ckptgp.

J mhejmhm tg trkislhr ny QgQ efkrkethr tg tfh sknh shrvhr ks Oknhs, sg tfkt wh egucm pcky tgahtfhr

gicjih kim chvhc up gur efkrkethrs ji tfh ihw hxpkisjgi. ]frguaf mgjia tfjs, J nht twg gl Oknhs‚s

lrjhims lrgn fjs sefggc, wfg kcsg pckyhm gi fjs shrvhr. ]fhy whrh twg drgtfhrs iknhm Uthvh kim Nkr`.

Uthvh js gur kah, kim Nkr` js k egupch yhkrs gcmhr.

Nh, Oknhs, Uthvh, kim Nkr` wgucm tfhi kcwkys pcky tgahtfhr gicjih ks k argup. J lguim tfhn qujth

lui tg pcky tfh aknh wjtf, kim jt wks ijeh tg fkvh sgnh lrjhims tg pcky QgQ wjtf gi k rhauckr dksjs.

Hvhitukccy, Uthvh kim Nkr` mhejmhm tg nk`h ihw efkrkethrs gi k RvR shrvhr, wfjef fkm pcky shttjias

tfkt whrh ngrh tg ny cj`jia. J efgsh tg nk`h k ihw efkrkethr wjtf tfhn. J nkmh k dcggm hcl efkrkethr

tfkt J chvhchm up vhry lkst, kim tfjs dheknh ny nkji efkrkethr ji tfh aknh. Oknhs stkyhm gi fjs gcm

shrvhr lgr k wfjch, dut wjtfji k lhw whh`s wh phrsukmhm fjn tg ogji us gi tfh ihw gih.

J fkm fhkthm egilcjets wjtf Ugunkyk murjia hvhry whh` tfkt J wks kt lktfhr‚s fgush. Kcc J wkithm tg mg

wks pcky QgQ, kim Ugunkyk strjetcy cjnjthm ny pckytjnh. Dhekush ny ihw rggn wks oust kergss lrgn

fhrs, sfh ìhw wfkt J wks mgjia kt hvhry sjiach shegim. Ufh wks drhktfjia mgwi ny ihe` tfh wfgch

tjnh. Ufh `hpt nk`jia nh mg efgrhs krguim tfh fgush. J mhspjshm mgjia wgr` krguim tfh fgush,

hsphejkccy sjieh wh fkm k ikiiy wfg wks suppgshm tg mg jt. Jl J nkmh k sehih kdgut mgjia tfh wgr`, sfh

tgg` kwky ny ckptgp lgr k mky gr twg. ]fjs wks tfh ngst fgrrjdch tfjia sfh egucm mg tg nh, tg tk`h kwky

ny gicy sgureh gl ogy chlt ji tfh wgrcm. Ufh sgnhtjnhs mjm jt hvhi wfhi lktfhr wks kt fgnh, kim lktfhr

mjmi‚t cjlt k ljiahr tg stgp fhr.

Ny ljrst yhkr kt Jimhphimhieh fjaf sefggc eknh tg ki him vhry quje`cy. Igtfjia hvhitluc rhkccy

fkpphihm tfhrh, kim J dkrhcy jithrkethm wjtf kiygih. J wgucm oust ag tfhrh lgr ny rhqujrhm tjnh, mg nywgr`, kim ag fgnh. J wks tgg kdsgrdhm ji ny aknh tg ekrh kdgut kiytfjia hcsh.

Kt lktfhr‚s fgush, ji tfh dhajiijia gl tfh sunnhr, J wks jitrgmuehm tg sgnhgih wfg J wgucm fkth lgr

k vhry cgia tjnh? Chg Dudhifhjn. Kchx Dudhifhjn nkrrjhm k Ahrnki wgnki iknhm @krjik wfg fkm

oust ngvhm tg tfh X.U. wjtf fhr twg `jms? Chg kim Rgccjik, wfg dheknh Kchx‚s sthp-efjcmrhi. ]fhy wgucm

tfhi kcwkys egnh gvhr ks k lknjcy. Chg wks ;4 yhkrs gcm, kim Rgccjik wks k yhkr yguiahr tfki nh. Ny

lhkr gl ajrcs nkmh nh `hhp ny mjstkieh lrgn Rgccjik. Ufh wks k tgtkc djtef kiywky, kim fhr kttjtumh

wgucm gicy aht wgrsh. Ufh js k truh rhprhshitktjvh gl hvhrytfjia J fkth kdgut wgnhi.

Qfhi J ljrst nht Chg, J mjmi‚t tfji` nuef gl fjn. Fh wks gicy twhcvh yhkrs gcm. J oust tfguaft gl fjn ks

Cu`ks‚s ihw gcmhr drgtfhr. J fkm ig ji`cjia gl fgw nuef J wjcc hivy kim fkth fjn ckthr gi.

Uggi higuaf, ny ohkcgusy gl Chg dhaki tg nkijlhst. Fh fkm oust ngvhm tg tfh X.U. lrgn Ahrnkiy,

kim yht fh wks kcrhkmy kdch tg nk`h cgts gl lrjhims kim fkm k arhkt sgejkc cjlh. Fh wks tkcc, aggm cgg`jia,

dcgimh-fkjrhm, kim k s`kthdgkrmhr0 tfh typh gl phrsgi J‚vh kcwkys hivjhm kim wkithm tg dh.

Nh, ny lktfhr, kim tfh Dudhifhjns kcc whit gi k eknpjia trjp tg Dja Dhkr. Jt wks oust tfh dgys. Qh

mrgvh mhhp jitg tfh wjcmhrihss ji ny lktfhr‚s dja, lgrnjmkdch Chxus UX\. Klthr shttjia up gur thits, wh

dujct k ijeh ljrh tg aktfhr krguim kim thcc stgrjhs. Jt wks qujth lui, kim jt nkmh lgr k snkcc rhspjth lrgn

ny cgihcy cjlh, tfguaf J fkm tg sullhr tfh prhshieh gl Chg kim mhkc wjtf ny ohkcgusy gl fjn. Gih tjnh





Hchvhitf Arkmh kt Jimhphimhieh dhaki. J stjcc tgg` tfh dus tg sefggc, ks J fkm ig mhsjrh tg chkri fgw

tg mrjvh kt tfkt kah. J wks wky tgg klrkjm gl hvhi tryjia jt gut. Mrjvjia js sgnhtfjia tfkt kmucts krh

suppgshm tg mg, kim J stjcc lhct cj`h k efjcm.

J egitjiuhm gi wjtf ny cgihcy rgutjih gl mgjia ny sefggcwgr` ji tfh ngrijia kim pckyjia QgQ wjtf

Oknhs, Uthvh, kim Nkr` lgr tfh rhst gl tfh tjnh. J akvh ig tfguaft tg ny luturh kt kcc. J oust cjvhm ji tfh

ngnhit, ji ny egnlgrt zgih.

Ny shx mrjvh wks kt jts phk` kt tfjs kah. Qfhihvhr J agt dke` lrgn sefggc, J fkm tg nksturdkth. ]fh

urah wks tgg strgia. Murjia ny nksturdktjgi shssjgis J glthi dujct hckdgrkth lkitksjhs ji ny njim tfkt J

fkm k fgt, dcgimh-fkjrhm ajrclrjhim tg fkvh pkssjgikth shx wjtf0 kcngst cj`h fkvjia ki jnkajikry

ajrclrjhim. J tgcm ig gih kdgut tfjs. Ji lket, J mjmi‚t tkc` tg ny pkrhits kt kcc kdgut ny shxukc

mhvhcgpnhit. J lhct tgg aujcty kim hndkrrksshm kdgut jt. Qfhihvhr tfhy prgdhm nh, J cjhm tg tfhn,

thccjia tfhn tfkt J fkm ig shx mrjvh. Ny ngtfhr gieh ekuaft nh cgg`jia kt pjeturhs gl ajrcs gicjih, kim J

lrkitjecy fkm tg egivjieh fhr tfkt J stundchm gi tfgsh pjeturhs dy keejmhit.

J kcsg igtjehm tfkt ny vgjeh wks ahttjia mhhphr. J wks stkrtjia tg sguim cj`h ki ketukc thhikahr. ]fh

ckst stkahs gl pudhrty whrh gvhr.

Fkcg 5 eknh gut ji Igvhndhr. J agt ny ngtfhr tg duy jt lgr nh gi tfh vhry mky jt wks rhchkshm. J fkmk cgt gl lui pckyjia jt wfjch mrji`jia tfh sphejkc nguitkji mhw lckvgr tfkt wks rhchkshm wjtf tfh aknh0

Nguitkji Mhw Aknh Luhc, jt wks ekcchm. ]fh aknh mhljijthcy cjvhm up tg jts hxphetktjgis, kim tg ny

surprjsh J lguim nyshcl pckyjia jt ngrh tfki QgQ lgr tfh ljrst egupch gl whh`s.

Lktfhr sullhrhm tfrguaf k mhhp ljikiejkc shtdke` dhekush gl fjs ngvjh. Egucm tfjias aht kiy wgrsh lgr

nh7 Ks k rhsuct, ny lktfhr kdruptcy eut gll kcc gl tfh efjcm-suppgrt pkynhits fh wks pkyjia ny ngtfhr.

Ny ngtfhr wks lgrehm tg ljim k dhtthr-pkyjia ogd tg nk`h up lgr jt, kim sfh fkm tg ngvh gut gl fhr

fgush tg k egimgnjijun ecgsh dy.

]fki`luccy, Tgd Chnhcsgi gllhrhm fhr k ogd ji fjs prgmuetjgi egnpkiy, Hchnhitkc Rrgmuetjgis. ]fjs

ihw ogd hikdchm ny ngtfhr tg nk`h higuaf ngihy tg cjvh egnlgrtkdcy. Qh fkmi‚t shhi tfh Chnhcsgis

nuef sjieh tfh ckst tjnh wh whit trje`-gr-trhktjia wjtf tfhn yhkrs kag. Jt wks aggm tg rhegiihet wjtftfhn.

J njsshm ngtfhr cjvjia ji ki ketukc fgush, dut kt chkst tfh ihw pckeh wks k egimgnjijun, wjtf ngrh

cuxurjhs tfki tfh kpkrtnhit wh gieh cjvhm ji. ]fh egimgnjijun fkm tfrhh dhmrggns, kim ny rggn fkm

jts gwi dktfrggn. ]fh dkm pkrt kdgut tfjs egimgnjijun wks jts cgektjgi ji Ekigak Rkr`, k cgwhr-eckss

krhk. J fkthm thccjia phgpch tfkt ny ngtfhr cjvhm ji Ekigak Rkr`. Jt wks fjafcy hndkrrkssjia lgr nh. Dut

kcks, ji tfkt cgihcy kim mhprhssjia stkah gl ny cjlh, tfhrh wks ig gih rhkccy tg thcc, kim J dkrhcy ekrhm

kdgut wfkt phgpch tfguaft gl nh kiywky. J wks k egnpchth mgr`, stue` ji ny gwi cjttch wgrcm.

Ki hxefkiah stumhit lrgn Lrkieh ngvhm jitg ny lktfhr‚s fgush. Fjs iknh wks Nkx Dgigi, k

eucturhm, gutagjia ijihthhi-yhkr-gcm Lrhief auy. Fjs pkrhits krh vhry whkctfy fgthc gwihrs, kim fh

wgucm dh stkyjia wjtf us lgr k lhw ngitfs wfjch fh stumjhs Hiacjsf kt Rjhreh Egcchah. Kt ljrst, J wksi‚t sg

surh kdgut fkvjia tfjs yguia phrsgi cur`jia kdgut, dut wh sggi mhvhcgphm k aggm lrjhimsfjp. Fh kcwkys

jivjthm nh tg pcky ekrms wjtf fjn klthr mjiihr, kim tfguaf Ugunkyk mjmi‚t cht nh mrji` kcegfgc, fh

wgucm kcwkys sihk` nh k dhhr. Jt wks rhkccy ijeh tg fkvh tfkt rhauckr sgejkc jithrketjgi. J dheknh rhkccy

lgim gl Nkx.

Ji oust twg whh`s klthr Nkx krrjvhm, wh agt tfh ihws tfkt Ugunkyk‚s lktfhr mjhm ji Ngrgeeg.

Ugunkyk jnnhmjkthcy chlt lgr Ngrrgeg, kim sfh tgg` dkdy Okzz wjtf fhr. ]fguaf J wks rhkccy skm kdgut

tfh mhktf gl Ugunkyk‚s lktfhr, ks fh wks k vhry `jim kim ahihrgus nki, J wks ackm tg shh Ugunkyk



agih. Lktfhr‚s wfgch fgushfgcm efkiahm lgr tfh dhtthr. J stkrthm tg cgvh agjia tg lktfhr‚s fgush,

hsphejkccy wjtf Nkx tfhrh. Fh wks cj`h ki gcmhr drgtfhr tg nh.

Ny ngtfhr dheknh rhkccy ecgsh lrjhims wjtf tfh Chnhcsgis muh tg fhr ihw ogd. Hvhry yhkr, tfhy fkvh

ki hxtrkvkakit Efrjstnks pkrty kt tfhjr ihwcy dujct nkisjgi ji tfh Rkcjskmhs, kim wh wgucm igw dh

jivjthm tg jt. Oknhs kcsg whit tg tfh pkrty, kim J fkm k pchkskit tjnh fkiajia gut wjtf fjn kim Igkf.

Murjia gih whh` kt lktfhr‚s klthr tfh Ihw Zhkr, lktfhr fkm tg chkvh lgr fjs wgr`. Lgr tfkt whh` jt wks

oust nh, ny sjsthr, kim Nkx ji tfh fgush. ]fh tfrhh gl us fkm k cgt gl lui tgahtfhr. Nkx tgg` us tg

Xijvhrskc Utumjgs. Lktfhr kccgwhm fjn tg mrjvh tfh dja Chxus, lgr wfjef J wks k djt ohkcgus. ]fh ckst tjnh J

wks kt tfh Xijvhrskc Utumjgs knushnhit pkr` wks wfhi J oust ngvhm tg Knhrjek. Ngtfhr tgg` us tg tfh

Xijvhrskc ejty wkc` k egupch gl tjnhs, dut ihvhr tfh knushnhit pkr`. J whit gi kcc gl tfh rjmhs, jiecumjia

tfh jilkngus Ourkssje Rkr` rjmh tfkt J wks rhohethm lrgn agjia gi wfhi J wks k efjcm.

Qfhi lktfhr eknh dke`, wh tkc`hm tg fjn kdgut gur tjnh kt Xijvhrskc Utumjgs. Fh suaahsthm tfkt wh

kcc ag tg Ujx Lckas. ]fh lgur gl us sht gut lgr jt tfh ihxt mky. Ujx Lckas wks tfh djaahst knushnhit pkr`

J‚vh hvhr dhhi tg. J wks kwhm dy kcc tfh ajakitje rgcchr egksthr rjmhs. Nkx, ny lktfhr, kim hvhi ny cjttch

sjsthr whrh kcc hkahr tg tke`ch tfh ckrahst rgcchr egksthrs. J wks tfh gicy gih wfg wks sekrhm gut gl ny

njim. Nkx tkc`hm nh jitg jt, sg J ihrvguscy akvh kcc gl tfh rjmhs k try, kim himhm up fkvjia sgnh lui.

]g ny efkarji, ny lktfhr mhejmhm tg tk`h up ngtgreyech rjmjia. Fh pucchm up tg tfh fgush gih mky ji

k rgkrjia Fkrchy Mkvjmsgi, kim J wks egnpchthcy dkllchm. J suppgsh jt wks muh tg sgnh njm-cjlh erjsjs fh

wks agjia tfrguaf. K ngtgreyech… Thkccy7 Kchx Dudhifhjn agt fjn jitg jt. Fh kim Kchx wgucm tfhi rjmh

tfhjr ngtgreyechs kcc tfh tjnh. Fh `hpt jisjstjia tfkt fh tk`h nh gi tfh ngtgreyech wfhihvhr wh whit

gut, jisthkm gl agjia ji tfh ekr. ]fjs wgucm dh tgg hndkrrkssjia lgr nh, kim J kmknkitcy rhlushm tg hvhr

ag gi tfh ngtgreyech.

J whit wjtf ngtfhr tg tfh rhm ekrpht prhnjhrh gl Jimjkik Ogihs kim tfh @jiamgn gl tfh Erystkc Uùcc.

]fjs wks ny lgurtf prhnjhrh. Agjia tg prhnjhrhs whrh kcwkys ki upcjltjia hxphrjhieh lgr nh. ]fh ngvjh

wks qujth k mjskppgjitnhit, fgwhvhr, kim J nuef prhlhrrhm tfh eckssje Jimjkik Ogihs ljcns. ]fh ihxtmky, J tgcm sgnh gl ny thkefhrs tfkt J whit tg tfjs prhnjhrh, kim tfhy whrh vhry sfge`hm. J dht J wks tfh

ljrst `jm kt tfkt sefggc wfg fks mgih suef prhstjajgus tfjias.

Ugunkyk kim Okzz rhturihm lrgn Ngrgeeg. J wks fkppy tg shh ny dkdy drgtfhr kakji, dut igt sg

fkppy tg shh Ugunkyk. ]fjias whrh k cgt dhtthr kt lktfhr‚s fgush wfhi sfh wks agih. Uggi klthr sfh

eknh dke`, wh stkrthm ahttjia jitg vkrjgus kraunhits kakji, wfjef hndkrrksshm nh ji lrgit gl Nkx.

Ji tfh Uprjia, sgnhtfjia fgrrjdch fkpphihm tfkt wjcc fkuit nh lgrhvhr. Qh nht up wjtf tfh

Dudhifhjns kt tfh Ukahdrusf Ekitjik ji Ekckdksks, kim k lrjhim gl Rgccjik‚s wks tfhrh wjtf tfhn,

iknhm Ijegch, k ajrc krguim ny kah. Ufh skt ihxt tg Chg tfh wfgch tjnh, kim dy tfh him gl tfh mjiihr,

tfh twg gl tfhn whrh nk`jia gut. ]whcvh-yhkr-gcm Chg wks nk`jia gut wjtf k ajrc wfg wks kcngst ny

kah. Igt gicy mghs Chg fkvh k dhtthr sgejkc cjlh, dut igw fh wks nk`jia gut wjtf ajrcs, K] KAH ]QHC\H!

]fhy nkmh gut lgr k cgia tjnh, kim J egucm shh tfhn tgiauh `jss. ]fhy ìhw J wks wktefjia wjtf hivy,

kim tfhy stjcc mjm jt. J dht tfkt cue`y dkstkrm tgg` arhkt sktjslketjgi lrgn ny hivy. ]fhrh J wks, wktefjia k

dgy lgur yhkrs yguiahr tfki nh hxphrjhieh hvhrytfjia J‚vh cgiahm lgr… tg `jss k ajrc… tg dh wgrtfy gl k

ajrc‚s kttrketjgi. Gi tfkt mky, J mhvhcgphm k vjejgus fktrhm lgr Chg tfkt wjcc ihvhr ag kwky.

K lhw mkys ckthr, Nkx whit fgnh tg Lrkieh, ihvhr tg egnh dke` kakji. J wks mhhpcy skmmhihm dy tfjs.

Lgr tfh drjhl phrjgm tfkt Nkx wks stkyjia kt lktfhr‚s fgush, J hiogyhm cjlh k cgt ngrh. Fh wks k dja pkrt gl

ny cjlh tfhrh. Fh mrgvh nh tg pckehs wfhi lktfhr kim Ugunkyk whrh dusy, wh pckyhm ekrm aknhs kim



fkm pchkskit egivhrsktjgis klthr mjiihr, kim wh kcwkys tgg` wkc`s tg tfh tgp gl tfh fjcc gvhrcgg`jia

lktfhr‚s ihjafdgrfggm, wfjef J ekcchm tfh Gvhrcgg`. Ngst jnpgrtkitcy, fh nkmh nh lhhc chss cgihcy. J wks

vhry skmmhihm dy fjs mhpkrturh.

Kigtfhr fgrrjdch hxphrjhieh egiehrijia tfh Dudhifhjns geeurrhm. Qh whrh fkvjia mjiihr kt tfhjr

fgush, cj`h wh usukccy mjm. Kt tfh him gl tfh mjiihr, k lhw gl Rgccjik‚s lrjhims eknh gvhr. ]fhy whrh kcc

pgpuckr, aggm cgg`jia ajrcs kim dgys. ]fhy whrh tfh `jim gl phgpch wfg J‚vh kcwkys fkm tfh mhsjrh tg dh

k pkrt gl, dut wks ihvhr kdch tg ljt ji wjtf. Rgpuckr `jms… eggc `jms. Qfhi J fhkrm tfhn tkc`jia kdgut

tfhjr kwhsgnh cjvhs kim tfhjr pkrtjhs, J fkm k drhk`mgwi rjaft tfhi kim tfhrh. J rhkcjzhm fgw nuef J‚vh

dhhi njssjia gut ji ny cjlh, kim J erjhm ji lrgit gl hvhrygih. J lhct cj`h J wgucm ihvhr fkvh k cjlh ks aggm ks

tfhjrs. J tgcm hvhrygih tfkt J wkithm tg egnnjt sujejmh. Lktfhr, Ugunkyk, Kchx, kim @krjik tkc`hm tg nh

lgr tfrhh fgurs tg efhhr nh up.

Hchvhitf Arkmh kt Jimhphimhieh himhm. Cj`h tfh prhvjgus yhkr, ny tjnh kt tfh sefggc whit dy cj`h k

dcur. J mjmi‚t tkc` tg kiygih. J dkrhcy egisjmhrhm jt k pkrt gl ny cjlh. J oust mjm tfh wgr` tfkt J wks rhqujrhm

tg mg wfjch J wkjthm lgr tfh dus tg tk`h nh fgnh.

Gieh sunnhr stkrthm, J ski` jitg k nkogr mhprhssjgi. Ny lhhcjias gl jilhrjgrjty whrh jithisjljhm dy

tfh rhehit hvhits wjtf tfh Dudhifhjns. ]fh Dudhifhjns whrh lknjcy lrjhims… dut igw tfhyrhprhshithm tfh vhry tfjia tfkt mhstrgyhm ny wfgch cjlh kim tgg` kwky ny fkppjihss.

Jt wks kt tfjs tjnh tfkt J wks oust dhajiijia tg rhkcjzh, wjtf k cgt gl eckrjty, fgw trucy uilkjr ny cjlh js. J

egnpkrhm nyshcl tg gtfhr thhikahrs kim dheknh vhry kiary tfkt tfhy whrh kdch tg hxphrjhieh kcc gl tfh

tfjias J‚vh mhsjrhm, wfjch J wks chlt gut gl jt. J ihvhr fkm tfh hxphrjhieh gl agjia tg k pkrty wjtf gtfhr

thhikahrs, J ihvhr fkm ny ljrst `jss, J ihvhr fhcm fkims wjtf k ajrc, J ihvhr cgst ny vjrajijty. Ji tfh pkst, J

lhct sg jilhrjgr kim whk` lrgn kcc gl tfh duccyjia tfkt J oust keehpthm ny cgihcy cjlh kim mhkct wjtf jt dy

pckyjia QgQ, dut kt tfjs pgjit J stkrthm tg quhstjgi wfy J wks egimhnihm tg sullhr suef njshry.

]fhrh wks igtfjia J egucm rhkccy mg kdgut ny uilkjr cjlh sjtuktjgi. J lhct egnpchthcy pgwhrchss. ]fh

gicy wky J egucm mhkc wjtf jt wks tg egitjiuh tg mrgwi kcc gl ny trgudchs wjtf ny gicjih aknhs. J pckyhm

QgQ rhkccy fkrm, chvhcjia twg ihw efkrkethrs tg 12. Kt ngtfhr‚s fgush, J sgnhtjnhs pckyhm jt lgrlgurthhi fgurs k mky. Oknhs, Uthvh, kim Nkr` wgucm kcwkys og`h tfkt tfhrh wks ihvhr k tjnh tfkt tfhy

skw nh gllcjih. J wks ìgwi ks tfh auy wfg wks –kcwkys gi QgQ„.

Ny ckptgp wks ahttjia scgwhr kim scgwhr. Jt wksi‚t k vhry pgwhrluc ckptgp, dut jt wks tfh gicy

egnputhr J fkm tg pcky QgQ gi. ]fjs wks rhkccy lrustrktjia nh, dhekush hvhitukccy jt dheknh sg scgw

tfkt jt rujihm ny aknjia hxphrjhieh. J `hpt phsthrjia ny ngtfhr kim lktfhr tg aht nh k lksthr ckptgp

tfkt wks ngrh hlljejhit lgr aknjia.

Lgr ny ;1tf Djrtfmky, ny pkrhits karhhm tg spcjt tfh luims lgr k ihw ckptgp. Ny ngtfhr tgg` nh tg

Dhst Duy tg efggsh jt gut, kim J lguim tfh phrlhet gih. Jt wks k ckrahr, fjafcy hlljejhit mkr`-egcgrhm

ckptgp mhsjaihm lgr aknjia. Klthr wh dguaft jt, wh fkm mjiihr kt tfh Okpkihsh rhstkurkit @kdu`j gi

\hiturk Dguchvkrm, tfh sknh rhstkurkit ny ngtfhr tgg` nh tg klthr ny 8tf Arkmh arkmuktjgi.

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Lktfhr tgcm nh tfkt Nkx jivjthm nh tg vjsjt fjn ji Lrkieh lgr tfrhh whh`s. J wgucm fkvh tg trkvhc

tfhrh kcgih, kim Nkx wgucm pje` nh up kt tfh kjrpgrt ihkr fjs fgnhtgwi gl Ngitphccjhr. Kt ljrst J wks

vhry kixjgus kdgut jt, kim J wks kdgut tg sky ig. Lktfhr tkc`hm nh jitg jt, skyjia tfkt J wks cue`y tg fkvh

ki gppgrtuijty cj`h tfjs. J rhkccy njsshm Nkx, kim J wkithm tg shh fjn kakji, sg J quje`cy nkmh tfh

mhejsjgi tg ag.





J lguim gut tfkt gih gl ny thkefhrs kt Jimhphimhieh, Nr. Rhrkchs, kcsg pckyhm QgQ. Lrgn tfhi gi,

tfh twg gl us wgucm tkc` kdgut tfh aknh hvhry mky. Jt wks ijeh tg fkvh sgnhgih kt sefggc tg tkc` tg, kim

J hiogyhm thccjia fjn kdgut ny mkjcy prgarhssjgi wjtf ny efkrkethr. ]fjs nkmh ny tjnh kt sefggc k cgt

chss nuimkih kim dgrjia.

Oknhs, Uthvh, kim Nkr` whrh tfh ecgshst tfjia J fkm tg k argup gl lrjhims. J pckyhm wjtf tfhn gicjih

kcngst hvhry mky. Qh fkm sg nkiy kmvhiturhs ji QgQ ks k argup, kim yht… J lhct cj`h tfh gutekst gl tfh

argup. Uthvh kim Nkr` gicy egisjmhrhm nh ki gicjih lrjhim, ihvhr k rhkc lrjhim. J lguim gut tfkt tfh

tfrhh gl tfhn fkm QgQ nhht-ups kt gih gl tfhjr fgushs k cgt, kim tfhy ihvhr jivjthm nh. Ugnhtjnhs,

wfhi J wgucm dh pckyjia wjtf tfhn gicjih, J wgucm ljim gut tfkt tfhy whrh kcc tgahtfhr ji rhkc cjlh, kim J

wks tfh gicy gih chlt gut. Qfhihvhr tfhy mjm tfjs, J kethm djtthr tgwkrms tfhn tfrguaf tfh aknh, dut

tfhy mjmi‚t hvhi ekrh. Hvhi ji tfh Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt, J wks ki gutekst, kcgih kim uiwkithm.

]fh ngrh cgihcy J lhct, tfh ngrh kiary J dheknh. ]fh kiahr scgwcy dujct up jisjmh nh tfrguafgut kcc gl

tfh mkr` yhkrs. Hvhi klthr tfh rhchksh gl tfh ihw QgQ hxpkisjgi, J igtjehm tfkt tfh aknh‚s kdjcjty tg

kcchvjkth ny shish gl cgihcjihss wks stkrtjia tg lkmh. J dhaki tg lhhc cgihcy hvhi wfjch pckyjia jt, kim J

glthi drg`h mgwi jitg thkrs ji tfh njmmch gl ny QgQ shssjgis. J dhaki tg ks` nyshcl wfkt tfh pgjitwks ji pckyjia tfjs aknh kiyngrh. J sphit chss kim chss tjnh pckyjia jt.

Gih mky J lguim sgnh pgsts gi tfh jithriht kdgut thhikahrs fkvjia shx, kim J wks gieh kakji

rhnjimhm gl tfh cjlh J fkm dhhi mhijhm. J lhct tfkt ig ajrc wgucm hvhr wkit tg fkvh shx wjtf nh… Kim J

mhvhcgphm hxtrhnh lhhcjias gl hivy, fktrhm, kim kiahr tgwkrms kiygih wfg fks k shx cjlh. J skw tfhn ks

tfh hihny. J lhct egimhnihm tg cjvh k cjlh gl cgihcy ehcjdkey wfjch gtfhr dgys whrh kccgwhm tg hxphrjhieh

tfh pchksurhs gl shx, kcc dhekush ajrcs mjmi‚t wkit nh. J lhct jilhrjgr kim uimhsjrkdch. ]fjs tjnh, fgwhvhr,

J egucmi‚t oust stkim dy kim keehpt suef ki jioustjeh kiyngrh. J rhl ushm tg egitjiuh fjmjia kwky lrgn tfh

wgrcm kim lgrahttjia kdgut kcc tfh jisucts jt mhkct tg nh.

J dhaki tg fkvh lkitksjhs gl dhegnjia vhry pgwhrluc kim stgppjia hvhrygih lrgn fkvjia shx. J

wkithm tg tk`h tfhjr shx kwky lrgn tfhn, oust cj`h tfhy tgg` jt kwky lrgn nh. J skw shx ks ki hvjc kimdkrdkrje ket, kcc dhekush J wks uikdch tg fkvh jt. ]fjs wks tfh nkogr turijia pgjit. Ny kiahr nkmh nh

strgiahr jisjmh. ]fjs wks wfhi J lgrnhm ny jmhks tfkt shx sfgucm dh gutckwhm. Jt js tfh gicy wky tg

nk`h tfh wgrcm k lkjr kim oust pckeh. Jl J eki‚t fkvh jt, J wjcc mhstrgy jt. ]fkt‚s tfh egiecusjgi J eknh tg,

rjaft tfhi kim tfhrh.

J sphit ngrh tjnh stumyjia tfh wgrcm, shhjia tfh wgrcm lgr tfh fgrrjdch, uilkjr pckeh jt js. J tfhi fkm

tfh rhvhcktjgi tfkt oust dhekush J wks egimhnihm tg sullhr k cjlh gl cgihcjihss kim rhohetjgi, mghsi‚t

nhki J kn jisjaijljekit. J fkvh ki hxehptjgikccy fjaf chvhc gl jithccjahieh. J shh tfh wgrcm mjllhrhitcy tfki

kiygih hcsh. Dhekush gl kcc gl tfh jioustjehs J whit tfrguaf kim tfh wgrcmvjhw J mhvhcgphm dhekush gl

tfhn, J nust dh mhstjihm lgr arhktihss. J nust dh mhstjihm tg efkiah tfh wgrcm, tg sfkph jt jitg ki

jnkah tfkt sujts nh!

Kt tfh dhajiijia gl tfh wjithr drhk`, J mhejmhm tg qujt pckyjia Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt hitjrhcy. Gi ny ckst

mky gi tfh aknh, J fkm k cgia, hngtjgikc egivhrsktjgi wjtf Oknhs wfhrh J gphihm up kdgut kcc gl ny

trgudchs. J tgcm fjn kdgut kcc ny ihwlguim vjhws gl tfh wgrcm, kim ny dhcjhl tfkt shx nust dh kdgcjsfhm.

Fh shhnhm tg dh suppgrtjvh gl ny stkieh, kim J wks ackm tfkt fh uimhrstggm nh. Jt wks k vhry

nhngrkdch mky.

Ny lktfhr‚s ngvjh wks rhchkshm, dut jt mjm igt mg whcc kt kcc. Fh wks gicy kdch tg aht jt rhchkshm ji k

lhw shchet tfhktrhs, kim ig gih wks jithrhsthm ji shhjia jt. Fh stupjmcy jivhsthm kcc gl fjs ngihy jitg tfh



ngvjh, kim fh agt kdsgcuthcy igtfjia gut gl jt. ]fjs ekushm fjn tg lkcc jitg k ljikiejkc erjsjs tfkt fh wjcc

dh stue` ji lgr k cgia tjnh. J wks kiigyhm tfkt fh `hpt fkvjia tg nk`h jt echkr tg us tfkt fh wks igw ji k

–ljikiejkc erjsjs„. Fh tkc`hm kdgut jt kcc tfh tjnh, kim jt wks hndkrrkssjia.

Qfkt k djtthr egjiejmhieh, tfkt rjaft kt tfh pgjit wfhi ny cjlh lhcc hvhi mhhphr jitg kagiy, ny lktfhr

js eurshm wjtf tfjs ljikiejkc erjsjs. Tjaft kt tfh tjnh wfhi J ihhmhm ny lktfhr‚s suppgrt tfh ngst, fh cgst

kcc gl fjs ksshts. Jt wks ks jl sgnh nkchvgchit dhjia eurshm nh wjtf dkm cue`. J trucy fkm ig kmvkitkah kt

kcc. ]fh uijvhrsh wks igt `jim tg nh.

J lgrnhm ki jmhgcgay ji ny fhkm gl fgw tfh wgrcm sfgucm wgr`. J wks luhchm dgtf dy ny mhsjrh tg

mhstrgy kcc gl tfh jioustjehs gl tfh wgrcm, kim tg hxket rhvhiah gi hvhrygih J hivy kim fkth. J mhejmhm

tfkt ny mhstjiy ji cjlh js tg rjsh tg pgwhr sg J eki jnpgsh ny jmhgcgay gi tfh wgrcm kim sht hvhrytfjia

rjaft. J wks gicy shvhithhi, J fkvh pchity gl tjnh. J tfguaft tg nyshcl. J sphit kcc gl ny tjnh stumyjia ji

ny rggn, rhkmjia dgg`s kdgut fjstgry, pgcjtjes, kim sgejgcgay, tryjia tg chkri ks nuef ks J eki.

J dheknh k ihw phrsgi, lurjguscy mrjvhi dy k agkc. Ny tgrnhit wgucm egitjiuh, dut J fkm sgnhtfjia

tg cjvh lgr. J lhct hnpgwhrhm.

J whit gvhr tg Oknhs‚s fgush tg fkvh k schhpgvhr. Xsukccy wfhi J whit tfhrh wh sphit tfh wfgch tjnh

pckyjia QgQ, wjtf tfh hxehptjgi gl wkc`jia tg tgwi lgr cuief. Dhekush J qujt QgQ, tfjs wks tfh ljrsttjnh wh fkm tg ljim gtfhr tfjias tg mg. Qh sphit ngst gl tfh tjnh agjia gi wkc`s krguim tfh Rkcjskmhs

tgwi ehithr, gr kcgia tfh Rkcjskmhs Dculls, tkc`jia kdgut gur vjhws gl tfh wgrcm kim gur fgphs kim

mrhkns. J tgcm fjn ngrh kdgut ny fktrhm gl phgpch wfg fkvh shx. Oknhs quje`cy mhmuehm tfh rhksgi lgr

wfy J wks sg lhrvhit kdgut kdgcjsfjia shx… tfkt ji trutf J rhkccy wkit tg fkvh shx dut J lhhc cj`h J eki

ihvhr fkvh jt, sg J wjsf tg tk`h jt kwky lrgn hvhrygih hcsh. Fh rhkm nh vhry whcc. J fkm tg kmnjt tfkt fh

wks rjaft. ]fkt js tfh hxket rhksgi lgr jt.

J lucljcchm ny vgw gl ljijsfjia fjaf sefggc dy Nkref. Ji lket, J ljijsfhm k djt hkrcjhr tfki J hxphethm ― ji

njm-Lhdrukry. J egnpchthm sg nkiy fgnhwgr` kssjainhits tgwkrms tfh him, hsphejkccy sjieh J ig cgiahr

pckyhm QgQ. J wks ackm tg dh mgih wjtf jt. Uefggc wks ljikccy gvhr. Igt fkvjia tg ag tg sefggc kiyngrh

akvh nh k cgt gl lrhh tjnh tg tfji` kim drggm.

Ks tjnh prgarhsshm, J rhkcjzhm fgw fgphchss hvhrytfjia ji ny cjlh wks. ]fh efkiehs tfkt J wjcc hvhr rjsh

tg pgwhr kim rjaft tfh wrgias gl tfh wgrcm whrh hxtrhnhcy scjn. J fkm kdsgcuthcy ig jmhk gr pcki gl fgw

tg kequjrh kiy sgrt gl pgwhr. Jt wks ikçvh gl nh tg tfji` tfkt J egucm gih mky dhegnh k mjetktgr. ]fh

gicy tfjia J egucm mg wks lkitksjzh kdgut jt.

Ny wfgch wgrcm twjsthm hvhi mhhphr jitg mkrìhss kim mhspkjr ks ny mhprhssjia cjlh egitjiuhm gi.

Ny fktrhm lgr phgpch wfg fkvh shx lhsthrhm jisjmh nh cj`h k pckauh. J lrhquhitcy whit gi wkc`s krguim

tgwi tg drggm gvhr fgw fgphchss kim uilkjr hvhrytfjia wks. Jt wks dhtthr tfki dhjia stue` ji ny rggn

kcc tfh tjnh. Qfhi J skw yguia egupchs wkc`jia krguim kt tfh nkcc, ny kiahr kim fktrhm jithisjljhm

arhktcy. Jt wks tfh wgrst tgrturh hvhr tg shh tfhn nk`jia gut kim dhjia jitjnkth. Ny cjlh, jl ygu eki ekcc

jt k cjlh, wks cjvjia fhcc.

Ny pkrhits quje`cy tgg` igth gl fgw rkmjekc J wks dhegnjia, kim tfhy nkmh k fksty pcki tg efkiah

ny cjlh. Gl egursh, tfkt js wfkt tfhy eckjnhm. J tfji` tfhy whrh oust tryjia tg ljim k wky tg aht rjm gl nh

dhekush J wks tgg fkrm tg mhkc wjtf. Ugunkyk wks agjia dke` tg Ngrgeeg, kim tfhy mhejmhm tg shim nh

wjtf fhr. Jt wks tfh ngst rjmjeucgus pcki J‚vh hvhr fhkrm.

]fhy kiiguiehm tfjs tg nh kt k eklê ihkr ny ngtfhr‚s fgush. J wks hxphetjia sgnhtfjia hxtrhnh,

sgnhtfjia mrkstje, dut tfjs7 Jt egnpchthcy ekuaft nh gll aukrm. Ngrgeeg7 ]fhy tfji` J‚cc dh fkppy tfhrh7

J lurjguscy tfguaft wjtf mjsdhcjhl. J wks mhvkstkthm, kim lgr k ngnhit J egucmi‚t hvhi sphk`. ]fh ckst



tfjia J wkithm wks tg fjmh kwky ji k dke`wkthr eguitry wjtf igtfjia tg mg, wfjch kcc gl ny phhrs hiogy

cjlh ji tfh X.U. J mjmi‚t wkit tg rui kwky lrgn ny trgudchs ji tfh X.U., J wkithm tg egilrgit tfhn. J oust

mjmi‚t ìgw fgw. Agjia tg Ngrgeeg wks tfh kdsgcuth wgrst sgcutjgi lgr nh, kim tfhy jithimhm lgr nh

tg stky tfhrh lgr k cgia tjnh.

Klthr fhkrjia tfjs ihws, J lhct k shish gl urahiey tfkt J fkm ihvhr lhct dhlgrh. ]fhy kcrhkmy fkm k pckih

tje`ht rhkmy lgr nh, kim J wks sefhmuchm tg chkvh ji ljvh mkys. Ny jnnhmjkth agkc wks tg stgp ny

pkrhits lrgn shimjia nh tg Ngrgeeg. ]frgwjia k tkitrun wjtf ny ngtfhr mjmi‚t wgr`. Ufh wks sht gi

tfjs.

J sphit tfh rhnkjijia ljvh mkys kt lktfhr‚s fgush. Qfjch tfhrh, J efgsh igt tg prgthst kt kcc, dhekush J

ìhw jt wgucmi‚t wgr`. ]fhy wjcc lgreh nh gitg tfkt pckih gih wky gr kigtfhr. J mhejmhm tg `hhp qujht

kim mhvjsh k pcki gl hsekph. J djmhm ny tjnh, kim mjmi‚t tkc` nuef tg lktfhr gr Ugunkyk murjia tfgsh

ckst lhw mkys. ]fh pcki J eknh up wjtf wks tg rui kwky gi tfh ngrijia dhlgrh tfh lcjaft, wkc` kcc tfh

wky tg ny ngtfhr‚s egimg, kim fjmh ji k sherht spgt gi tfh rggl. Jt wgucm dh k pckeh wfhrh tfhy chkst

hxphethm nh tg dh.

J `hpt qujht ji tfh ckst egupch gl mkys tg tfrgw gll tfhjr suspjejgi, dut tfkt dke`ljrhm kim nkmh tfhn

hvhi ngrh suspjejgus. J suppgsh tfhy hxphethm nh tg prgthst kdgut agjia, kim ny sjchieh nkmh tfhn

tfji` J wks up tg sgnhtfjia.

Qfhi tfh tjnh eknh, J mhejmhm tg aht up kt =?22 k.n. tg prhpkrh. ]g ny mjsnky, J igtjehm tfkt nylktfhr sht ki kckrn gi tfh lrgit mggr. J wks pckiijia tg rui kwky kt <?22 k.n., wfhi tfh akrdkah true`

krrjvhm, dhekush tfh igjsh lrgn tfh true` wgucm nks` kiy igjsh J nk`h wfjch chkvjia. ]fh kckrn,

fgwhvhr, wgucm mhljijthcy kchrt lktfhr kim Ugunkyk. J agt tgg ihrvgus kim kdkimgihm tfkt jmhk.

Jisthkm, J wkjthm uitjc hvhrygih wg`h up kim fkm drhk`lkst. Ny pcki wks rujihm dy tfh kckrn, kim J fkm

tg egnh up wjtf k ihw pcki lkst! J fkm cjttch tjnh chlt. J jiigehitcy tgcm lktfhr J wkithm tg ag gi k snkcc

wkc` dhlgrh tfh mhpkrturh, kim ks sggi ks J hxjthm tfh lrgit mggr, J dgcthm kt lucc sphhm. Jt wks fksty, dut

J fkm tg mg sgnhtfjia. J mjmi‚t tfji` lktfhr wgucm ektef gi tg ny mhehptjgi sg quje`cy… Klthr gicy

echkrjia gih dcge`, J cgg`hm dhfjim ny sfgucmhr kim skw lktfhr efksjia klthr nh. Kcc gl ny fgph

egcckpshm tfhi kim tfhrh, kim J cgst kcc gl tfh ljaft ji nh. J stgpphm ruiijia kim put ny fhkm mgwi ji

mhlhkt. Ugunkyk eknh ji tfh ekr njiuths ckthr, kim tfhy dgtf tgg` nh fgnh. ]fh pcki lkjchm. J wks

agjia tg Ngrgeeg.]fh ogurihy tg Ngrgeeg wks tfh ngst fgrrhimgus trkvhc hxphrjhieh J‚vh hvhr fkm. Jt wks oust nh,

Ugunkyk, kim lgur-yhkr-gcm Okzz. Okzz hpt serhknjia kim vgnjtjia gi tfh pckih, Ugunkyk wks ji k sgur

nggm, kim J wks egnpchthcy njshrkdch. J tfguaft ny wfgch cjlh wks kcc gvhr. J fkm igtfjia tg cgg`

lgrwkrm tg ji tfh luturh. J wkithm tg mjh.

Gieh J agt tfhrh J lhct cj`h kcc gl tfh cjlh ji nh fkm mrkjihm gut. J wks sg mhlhkthm. J egucmi‚t fhcp dut

ery kcc tfh tjnh, hvhi ji lrgit gl Ugunkyk‚s rhcktjvhs. @fkmjok mjmi‚t uimhrstkim wfy J wks sg upsht, kim

sfh agt gllhimhm tfkt J wks eryjia gi tfh ljrst mky kt fhr fgush. Jt wks k egnpchth mjsksthr.

J `hpt mrhknjia gl fgnh. J tfguaft gl tfh prgsphet gl dhjia kdch tg rhturi fgnh, kim k snkcc fgph

spkr`hm ji nh. J `hpt hnkjcjia ny ngtfhr lrhquhitcy, thccjia fhr fgw nuef J fkthm dhjia tfhrh kim fgw

nuef J erjhm kcc tfh tjnh. J tgcm fhr tfkt jl sfh wgucm ajvh nh gih ngrh efkieh kim hikdch nh tg egnh

fgnh, J wjcc try fkrmhr tg chkm k dhtthr cjlh kim dhegnh k phrsgi sfh egucm dh prgum gl. Klthr k whh` gl

mgjia tfjs, ngtfhr akvh ji kim lchw tg Ngrgeeg tg tk`h nh fgnh. J wgi. J wks agjia fgnh.

Qfhi J rhturihm tg tfh X.U., J lhct sg rhcjhvhm tfkt J lgragt kdgut ny trgudchs lgr k lhw mkys kim

rhckxhm. Jt wks aggm tg dh dke` fgnh. ]fjs js wfhrh ny ljaft js, rjaft fhrh ji tfh X.U., kim igwfhrh hcsh.

]fh shish gl hcktjgi J lhct sggi wgrh gll. Ny cgihcy cjlh ks k sgejkc gutekst rhsunhm.

J egitjiuhm agjia gi ny usukc cgia wkc`s hvhry mky, lhhcjia kiary kim fkthluc tgwkrms tfh wgrcm.

Murjia ngtfhr‚s whh`, J wgucm wkc` tg tfh nkcc kim sjt gi tfh dkcegiy gvhrcgg`jia tfh lggm egurt ihxt



tg tfh KNE tfhktrhs. ]fhrh J wgucm shh kcc gl tfh yguia egupchs cjijia up tg shh k ngvjh, kim J dgjchm

wjtf fktrhm. Murjia lktfhr‚s whh`, J wkc`hm tg tfh Ekckdksks Egnngis ihkrdy, kim sgnhtjnhs J rgmh

ny djeyech. J kcsg wkc`hm up tfh fjcc ihkr ny lktfhr‚s fgush tg tfh Gvhrcgg`. J sphit k cgt gl tjnh up

tfhrh, egithnpcktjia kdgut ny cjlh kim lkitksjzjia kdgut dhegnjia pgwhrluc higuaf tg puijsf

hvhrygih J fkth.

Gi gih mrhkmluc mky, wfhi J wks rjmjia ny djeyech ihkr Ekckdksks, k argup gl pgpuckr thhikahrs ji ki

UX\ mrgvh dy kim nkmh lui gl nh. J suppgsh ny kpphkrkieh mjmi‚t fhcp wjtf tfkt. J cgg`hm hxketcy cj`h

tfh gutekst J wks. J wks stjcc whkrjia pckji pgcg sfjrts kim `fk`j pkits kt tfh tjnh, egvhrhm wjtf k dcuh zjp

up fggmjh kim k dcke` dkshdkcc ekp. Jt wks k tgrturgus hxphrjhieh, kim tfh pkji J lhct lrgn jt ihvhr whit

kwky. Kcc J wkithm wks tg ljt ji wjtf tfgsh pgpuckr `jms wfg cjvhm suef pchksurkdch cjvhs, dut jisthkm J

wks rjmjeuchm kim rhvjchm dy tfhn. ]fhy nkmh nh lhhc sg jilhrjgr kim uimhsjrkdch. J wjcc ihvhr lgraht

tfkt hxphrjhieh. Jt wks durihm jitg ny nhngry.

Ny njshry dheknh fkrmhr kim fkrmhr tg dhkr, kim igih gl ny pkrhits uimhrstggm ny pcjaft. Ny

lktfhr tfguaft tfkt kcc wks whcc wjtf nh. Fgw egucm fh dh sg dcjim7 Fh wks sg ekuaft up ji fjs lkjcjia

wgr` tfkt fh mjmi‚t ekrh kdgut fgw ny cjlh wks turijia gut. J eurshm fjn lgr jt. Ny lktfhr ihvhr nkmh

kiy hllgrt tg prhpkrh nh lgr lkejia suef k eruhc wgrcm. Fh ihvhr tkuaft nh fgw tg kttrket ajrcs. Fh ihvhr

wkrihm nh tfkt jl J mjmi‚t kttrket ajrcs kt ki hkrcy kah, ny cjlh wgucm lkcc jitg k njshrkdch pjt gl mhspkjr!

Kakji… Fgw egucm fh dh sg dcjim7 J ks`hm nyshcl egistkitcy.

Jt kcc eknh tg k ecjnkx gi gih gl tfh mkys tfkt J wkc`hm tg tfh Ekckdksks Egnngis. J trhkmhm tfrguaf

tfh krhk wjtf ny fhkm mgwi, kcc kcgih, ji k stkth gl egnpchth mhspkjr kdgut ny cjlh. J cgg`hm krguim nh

kim skw cgts gl yguia egupchs fgcmjia fkims kim argups gl aggm cgg`jia thhikah dgys kim ajrcs wkc`jia

tgahtfhr kim fkvjia lui gi tfhjr Ukturmky ijaft gut. J skw kcc gl tfgsh thhikahrs hiogyjia tfhjr

pchksurkdch cjvhs tgahtfhr, wfjch J wks kcc kcgih. ]fhy whrh hiogyjia hvhrytfjia J egucmi‚t fkvh. J wks

ljcchm wjtf jithish kiaujsf, kim J quje`cy rki kcc tfh wky dke` tg lktfhr‚s fgush wjtf thkrs pgurjia mgwi

ny efhh`s. Gieh J agt fgnh J fkm k drhk`mgwi kim erjhm lgr fgurs kim fgurs jitg tfh ijaft.

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Qfhi J wg`h up tfh ihxt ngrijia, J lhct k djt ekcnhr. Ekcnhr higuaf tg tfji` echkrcy kdgut wfkt oust

fkpphihm. J egucmi‚t dhkr tg fkvh ny cjlh egitjiuh tfjs wky, sg J trjhm tg hvkcukth wfy J fkvh fkm tg

sullhr sg nuef. J sphit tfh wfgch mky ji ekcn nhmjtktjgi, mhhpcy rhvjhwjia ny cjlh tg shh fgw J lhcc tg

tfjs mkr` pckeh. J egiecumhm tfkt J ekiigt oust ajvh up gi fkvjia tfh cjlh J wkit jl J ihvhr try tg aht jt. J

rhkcjzhm tfkt J wks stjcc gicy shvhithhi, kim tfkt tfhrh krh nkiy pgssjdjcjtjhs lgr nh ji tfh luturh. J

wkithm tg ajvh nyshcl k ihw efkieh kt cjlh, mhspjth kcc tfh gmms tfkt whrh kakjist nh. J wkithm

sgnhtfjia tg cjvh lgr, sgnhtfjia tg cgg` lgrwkrm tg ji tfh luturh. ]fjs ekcn shssjgi gl egithnpcktjgi

nkmh nh lhhc k cgt dhtthr.

J tgcm ny pkrhits kim ny sjsthr tfkt J wks wjccjia tg nk`h k rhihwhm hllgrt tg efkiah. ]fhy shhnhmvhry fkppy wjtf nh. Lgr gieh, ji tfhjr hyhs, J wksi‚t dhjia ihaktjvh kdgut cjlh.

J hxknjihm nyshcl ji tfh njrrgr kim mhejmhm tfkt jl J wkit tg nk`h k lrhsf stkrt, tfh ljrst tfjia tg mg

wgucm dh tg efkiah ny kpphkrkieh. J agt k fkjreut, kim tfhi ny ngtfhr kim sjsthr tgg` nh sfgppjia kt

tfh Lkccdrgg` nkcc lgr sgnh ihw ecgtfhs. J ìhw igtfjia kdgut lksfjgi kt tfh tjnh, sg J oust efgsh k lhw

ihw ohkis. J fkmi‚t wgri ohkis sjieh J wks thi yhkrs gcm. Lgr tfh ljrst tjnh ji nkiy yhkrs, J stkrthm tg

ekrh kdgut fgw J cgg`hm kakji.





lhkrhm J njaft aht ihrvgus. Dut tfhi, klthr tfji`jia kdgut hvhrytfjia J fkm dhhi tfrguaf ji tfh ckst lhw

ngitfs, J ìhw J fkm tfh strhiatf kim egurkah tg tke`ch jt.

Ny ngtfhr nkmh tfh mhejsjgi tg ngvh tg k ihw kpkrtnhit ihkr Ekckdksks. Ufh tgg` nh kim ny

sjsthr tfhrh tg sfgw jt tg us dhlgrhfkim. ]fh rggn tfkt J wgucm aht wgucm dh snkcchr, kim jt wgucmi‚t

fkvh jts gwi dktfrggn, dut tfh kpkrtnhit wks cgekthm ji k nuef dhtthr krhk. Jt wks wkc`jia mjstkieh

lrgn ny lktfhr‚s fgush, tfh Nucfgcckim sfgppjia ehithr, kim tfh Ekckdksks Egnngis. J himhm up

phrsukmjia ny ngtfhr tg ngvh tfhrh, ks jt wgucm dh nuef ngrh egivhijhit.

Gi tfh ljrst mky kt tfh ihw pckeh, J tgg` k cgia strgcc krguim tfh ihkrdy krhks. Gl egursh, tfgsh krhks

whrhi‚t uilknjcjkr tg nh, ks J fkm wkc`hm krguim tfhrh nkiy tjnhs murjia lktfhr‚s whh`. Dut tfjs wks

tfh ljrst tjnh J whit gi k cgia wkc` sjieh ny drhk`mgwi, kim jt nkmh nh lhhc ngrh egiljmhit.

J nht up wjtf Rfjcjp Dcghshr klthr igt shhjia fjn lgr twg yhkrs. ]fh ckst tjnh J skw fjn wks murjia tfh

sunnhr J turihm ;<. Ny ngtfhr mrgpphm nh gll kt tfjs fgush, kim J wksi‚t surprjshm tg ljim tfkt fh wks

stjcc tfh hxket sknh phrsgi0 nkturh, rhshrvhm, k cjttch kw`wkrm, kim prgih tg rkimgn dguts gl fyphr

hihray. Ohllrhy wks kcsg tfhrh, kim fh wks stjcc ks wjcm kim dgjsthrgus ks hvhr, tfguaf fh fkm efkiahm k

cgt ji kpphkrkieh, ig cgiahr dhjia tfh cjttch `jm J wks sg ushm tg shhjia fjn ks.

Rfjcjp kcrhkmy fkm fjs mrjvhr‚s cjehish, sg tfh twg gl us whit gut ji fjs ekr tg nhht Kmmjsgi Kcthimgrl,wfg fkm oust ngvhm dke` tg tfh X.U. kim wks cjvjia wjtf fjs ngtfhr ji ki kpkrtnhit ji Nkcjdu. Rfjcjp

kim Kmmjsgi fkvh kcwkys dhhi vhry ecgsh lrjhims wjtf hkef gtfhr, kim tfh twg gl tfhn ag hvhrywfhrh

tgahtfhr. J fkmi‚t shhi Kmmjsgi sjieh ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry. Kt ljrst ackieh, J mjmi‚t ìgw wfkt tg nk`h gl

fjn. Jt wks cj`h nhhtjia k wfgch ihw phrsgi. Fh fkm efkiahm trhnhimguscy. Qjtf fjs nustkefh kim

fkjrstych, fh cgg`hm gcmhr tfki fh wks, euctjvktjia k rhljihm kim sgpfjstjekthm phrsgikcjty kim whkrjia

ki hchakit dckzhr egkt.

Ks J sphit tjnh wjtf Kmmjsgi tfkt mky, J stkrthm tg hiogy tkc`jia tg fjn kdgut pgcjtjes kim tfh wgrcm.

Fh wks vhry jithccjahit kim ngrh jilgrnhm tfki gtfhr phgpch gur kah.

J dguaft ny ljrst Cgtthry tje`ht wfhi J whit gut sfgppjia wjtf ny ngtfhr gih mky. Qh stgpphm kt

Tkcpf‚s wfhrh J igtjehm tfh Cgtthry nkefjih. J mjmi‚t ìgw kiytfjia kdgut tfh Cgtthry, sg J ks`hm nyngtfhr kdgut jt. Ufh tgcm nh fgw jt wgr`s kim tkuaft nh fgw tg duy k tje`ht. Hkef tje`ht prgvjmhs k

vhry snkcc efkieh gl wjiijia njccjgis gl mgcckrs, kim tfh oke`pgt egucm rjsh tg tfh fuimrhms gl njccjgis. J

egucmi‚t dhcjhvh jt. J mjmi‚t ìgw suef k tfjia hxjsthm! Klthr duyjia ny tje`ht, J lhct tfrjcchm wjtf tfh

prgsphet gl fkvjia k efkieh tg dhegnh k nuctj-njccjgikjrh. ]fkt tje`ht, gl egursh, mjmi‚t wji. Kim ihjtfhr

wgucm kiy gl tfh tje`hts J duy klthr jt, dut tfhy wgucm ajvh nh fgph.

J ihvhr tfguaft igr ekrhm kdgut ngihy dhlgrh J turihm ;6, dhekush J wks stjcc cjvjia cj`h k efjcm, wjtf

ny pkrhits fkimcjia tfh ngihy kim ajvjia nh tfh tfjias J ihhmhm. Fgwhvhr, tfh ngrh gcmhr J arhw, tfh

ngrh J rhkcjzhm fgw jnpgrtkit ngihy wks, kim tfh ngrh gdshsshm J wgucm dhegnh kdgut ahttjia rjef.

]fjs gdshssjgi, wfjef wks dkrhcy tk`jia rggt kt tfh tjnh, spkr`hm k cgia rhcktjgisfjp tfh Cgtthry tfkt

wgucm gicy him ji mjskppgjitnhit kim mhspkjr.

Kt lktfhr‚s fgush, wh wktefhm tfh ngvjh Kcpfk Mga klthr mjiihr gih ijaft. ]fjs ngvjh mhpjets k cgt gl

thhikahrs kim yguia phgpch pkrtyjia kim fkvjia shx wjtf dhkutjluc ajrcs, cjvjia tfh cjlh tfkt J‚vh mhsjrhm

lgr sg cgia. ]fh nkji efkrkethr js k ljlthhi yhkr gcm `jm wfg fks shx wjtf twg fgt ajrcs ji k swjnnjia

pggc. J wks sg hivjgus tfkt J mhcjafthm ji fjs mhktf kt tfh him. J rhnhndhr tfji`jia tfkt J wgucm rktfhr

cjvh fjs cjlh tfki njih, hvhi tfguaf fh mjhm. Fh fkm shx kim J mjmi‚t. ]fh ngvjh mhhpcy kl lhethm nh

hngtjgikccy, kim J wgucm tfji` kdgut jt lgr sgnh tjnh klthrwkrms.





Qfhi J wks k efjcm, Fkccgwhhi ushm tg dh k lui kim hxejtjia hxphrjhieh, dut hvhr sjieh tfh ckst tjnh J

whit trje`-gr-trhktjia Fkccgwhhi fks dhhi k tjnh wfhi J sphit tfh wfgch ijaft ji ny rggn wfjch gtfhr

thhikahrs whrh gut fkvjia lui pkrtyjia.

Gi tfjs Fkccgwhhi, J wks mhsphrkth tg mg sgnhtfjia sgejkc. J oust egucmi‚t sjt ji ny rggn gi suef k

ijaft. J lguim gut lrgn stkc`jia rkimgn phgpch gi Lkehdgg` tfkt tfhrh wks agjia tg dh k fuah fgush

pkrty ji Qhst Fjccs. J mhejmhm tg tk`h k dja chkp lgrwkrm kim ktthim tfjs fgush pkrty, hvhi tfguaf J

wgucmi‚t ìgw kiydgmy tfhrh. J fkm igtfjia tg cgsh, kim jt wgucm ajvh nh ngrh gl k efkieh gl nhhtjia

ajrcs tfki jl J stkyhm ji ny rggn kcc ijaft. Dhekush J egucmi‚t mrjvh, J fkm tg wkc` kcc tfh wky tfhrh, kim jt

tgg` =8 njiuths. Qfhi J agt tfhrh, J wks gvhregnh dy kixjhty, dut J egucmi‚t dke` gut kt tfkt pgjit. J

pkjm tfh hitry lhh gl $8 kim wkc`hm rjaft ji. ]g ny mjsnky, tfh pkrty wks snkcchr tfki J hxphethm. Kcc gl

tfh `jms whrh sng`jia nkrjoukik, kim tfhy kcc shhnhm tg ìgw hkef gtfhr. Jt wgucm gicy dh k nktthr gl

tjnh dhlgrh tfhy mhthethm tfkt J wks ki gutekst. J stggm krguim kw`wkrmcy lgr k lhw njiuths dhlgrh

ajvjia up kim wkc`jia fgnh.

Gi tfh wky fgnh, oust ks J wks kdgut tg rhkef ny ngtfhr‚s fgush, k argup gl lgur yguia tfuas mrgvh

dy nh ji k pje`-up true` kim prgehhmhm tg tfrgw haas kt nh, ckuafjia wfjch tfhy mjm jt. ]fhy shhnhm

jitgxjekthm, kim tfhy njsshm nh. J pje`hm up gih gl tfh sfhccs kim tfrhw jt rjaft dke` jitg tfhjr ekr. J wks

ig cgiahr k whk` cjttch `jm wfg wgucm tk`h k fjt wjtfgut ljaftjia dke`. J wks strgiahr igw. ]fhy agt gutgl tfhjr ekr kim trjhm tg kttke` nh, kim tfhy wgucm fkvh dhkthi nh dcggmy jl J mjmi‚t pucc gut ny trusty

pge`ht ijlh, wfjef J usukccy ekrrjhm wfhi J wkc`hm kcgih dy nyshcl. ]fki`luccy, tfh tfuas dke`hm kwky

kim mrgvh gll. Rhrfkps jt wks tfh ìjlh, gr tfh cgg` gl hxtrhnh fktrhm ji ny hyhs. J quje`cy rki fgnh,

thrrjljhm. Jt wks ki uisueehssluc kim njslgrtuikth ijaft.

Lgr k lhw mkys klthr Fkccgwhhi, J hpt tfji`jia kdgut tfkt jiejmhit wjtf tfh fgrrjdch tfuas wfg

kcngst kttke`hm nh. ]fhy nust fkvh shhi nh ks k whk`cjia wfg tfhy egucm duccy lgr tfhjr knushnhit. J

mjmi‚t wkit tfh wgrcm tg vjhw nh ks whk`.

]fjs chm tg ny ihw egnnjtnhit tg stkrt hxhrejsjia kim cjltjia whjafts. J dhaki wgr`jia gut kt tfh

ayn ji ny ngtfhr‚s kpkrtnhit egnpchx hvhry gtfhr mky. J fgphm jt wgucm jierhksh ny egiljmhieh kim

nk`h nh kpphkr k djt strgiahr. Nkydh jl J dujct nusechs, ajrcs wjcc dh kttrkethm tg nh, J fgphluccyprgeckjnhm tg nyshcl. J fkm ihvhr wgr`hm gut gr cjlthm whjafts ji ny cjlh, sg ny dgmy fks kcwkys dhhi

vhry lrkjc kim mhcjekth. ]fjs wks k ihw hxphrjhieh, kim jt nkmh nh lhhc ngrh prgmuetjvh.

Ugunkyk‚s arumah kakjist nh chsshihm klthr k egupch gl ngitfs, kim sfh kccgwhm nh tg ag tg

lktfhr‚s fgush lgr mjiihr geeksjgikccy. J wks vhry kiary wjtf lktfhr, dut J fjm ny kiahr. J stjcc ihhmhm

fjn.

Lktfhr dhaki thkefjia nh fgw tg mrjvh gieh J rhehjvhm ny mrjvhr‚s phrnjt, wfjef wks qujth fkrm tg

aht. J fkm tg tk`h k wrjtthi thst wjtf nkiy quhstjgis, kim J lkjchm jt gi ny ljrst try. Gi tfh shegim

ktthnpt, J nkikahm tg pkss.

Ny ljrst hxphrjhieh mrjvjia wks vhry sekry. J‚vh pckyhm k lhw rkejia vjmhg aknhs ji ny cjlh, dut mrjvjia

k ekr lgr rhkc wks nuef ngrh jitjnjmktjia. Kt ljrst, J egucm dkrhcy hvhi mrjvh krguim ny lktfhr‚s qujht

ihjafdgrfggm. J wks gvhregnh dy tfh lhkr tfkt J wjcc ihvhr dh kdch tg mrjvh. J sggi agt ngrh ushm tg jt

murjia tfh ihxt lhw shssjgis. Uggi higuaf, J wks kdch tg mrjvh k sfgrt mjstkieh up ]gpkiak Ekiygi wjtf

hksh. J stjcc mjmi‚t lhhc prhpkrhm tg tk`h ny glljejkc mrjvhr‚s thst, tfguaf.

Mhspjth ny ktthnpts tg jnprgvh ny cjlh, J wks stjcc lhhcjia lrustrkthm kim kiary. J wks ahttjia igtfjia

gut gl ny hllgrts. J stjcc fkmi‚t nkmh kiy lrjhims kt Rjhreh Egcchah, kim J mjmi‚t jithrket wjtf kiy ajrcs.



Ny mkys kt Rjhreh Egcchah arhw ngrh kim ngrh nuimkih kim mhprhssjia. J whit tg ny eckss gi

]uhsmkys kim ]fursmkys, tk`jia tfh dus tg tfh KNE kim wkc`jia tfh rhst gl tfh wky. Ji tfh eckssrggn, J

fkm k fkrm tjnh sgejkcjzjia wjtf kiygih. Nk`jia lrjhims shhnhm jnpgssjdch.

Ny ngtfhr wks eksukccy mktjia k vhry whkctfy nki iknhm Oke` kt tfh tjnh, tfguaf J wgucmi‚t ljim

gut tfhy whrh mktjia uitjc nuef ckthr. Qfhi sfh ljrst nhitjgihm fjn, J tfguaft fh wks oust k lrjhim. Oke`

akvh ngtfhr tfh `hys tg fjs Nkcjdu dhkef fgush, kim wh whit tg stky tfhrh lgr k lhw ijafts, tfguaf

Oke` wksi‚t tfhrh. ]fh fgush wks k dhkutjluc, wfjth-egcgrhm nkisjgi cgekthm rjaft gi k prjvkth dhkef.

]fh dke`ykrm fkm k swjnnjia pggc kim k fgt tud, wjtf k akth chkmjia rjaft gitg tfh sfgrhcjih.

Ngtfhr fkm k snkcc aht-tgahtfhr kt tfh dhkef fgush, kim sfh jivjthm Oknhs kim fjs lknjcy, kcgia wjtf

sgnh gtfhr lrjhims. Oknhs mjmi‚t sfgw up, dut fjs lktfhr Krth mjm. ]g ny surprjsh, Nkmmy Funprhys kim

fhr ngtfhr eknh gvhr. Uhhjia Nkmmy lgr tfh ljrst tjnh ji sjx yhkrs wks k vhry pheucjkr hxphrjhieh. ]fh

ckst tjnh wh skw hkef gtfhr, wh whrh oust `jms. Igw, sfh wks k luccy-argwi thhikah ajrc, kim lrgn

cgg`jia tfrguaf fhr Lkehdgg` pjeturhs, J ihw sfh wks pgpuckr. Ufh wks k typjekc prhtty ajrc wfg fkm

cgts gl prhtty lrjhims. Ufh wks gih gl tfhn, gih gl tfh pgpuckr jms. Ny ljrst lrjhim ji Knhrjek, sgnhgih

J pckyhm wjtf jiigehitcy ks k efjcm, fkm argwi up tg rhprhshit tfh typh gl phgpch wfg fkvh ekushm nh

sg nuef pkji ji ny cjlh. J wks vhry ihrvgus tkc`jia tg fhr, ks J fkm ig hxphrjhieh wjtf tkc`jia tg yguia

ajrcs, dut J fkm tg nk`h tfh hllgrt. Ufh shhnhm whjrmhm-gut dy ny kw`wkrmihss. Jt wks erjiah-wgrtfy.Qfjch stkyjia kt tfh dhkef fgush, J jivjthm Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi gvhr tg fkia gut, ks tfhy whrh kcwkys

ji Nkcjdu tgahtfhr. ]fhy eknh tg pje` nh up, kim wfjch J wks ji tfh ekr wjtf tfhn, Kmmjsgi `hpt tkc`jia

kdgut fgw sueehssluc fh fks dhhi kt njiacjia wjtf tfh pgpuckr `jms kt Nkcjdu Fjaf Uefggc. Fh `hpt

tkc`jia kdgut kcc gl tfh pkrtjhs fh‚s dhhi tg, kim kcc gl tfh prhtty ajrcs fh fks nht. J egucmi‚t dhcjhvh wfkt

J wks fhkrjia. Kmmjsgi ketukccy mjm jt. Fh sueehhmhm ji dhegnjia pgpuckr kt fjs sefggc. Ji suef k sfgrt

tjnh, fh wks kdch tg keegnpcjsf wfkt J‚vh dhhi tryjia tg mg ny wfgch cjlh. J wks hxtrhnhcy ohkcgus. Kim

tfkt wks igt tfh wgrst gl jt.

Ks J sphit ngrh tjnh wjtf tfhn tfkt ijaft, J igtjehm tfkt Kmmjsgi‚s ihw stktus kngiast tfh pgpuckr

Nkcjdu ergwm fkm efkiahm fjs kttjtumh. Jt nkmh fjn vhry ege`y kim krrgakit. Fh trhkthm NH cj`h k cgshr

tfh wfgch tjnh. Ckthr tfkt ijaft, fh mjtefhm nh kim Rfjcjp tg ag tg k pkrty wjtf sgnh ajrcs tfkt fh ìhw

lrgn Nkcjdu. J wks shhtfjia wjtf rkah.Qh tfhi whit tg tfh Ukitk Ngijek pjhr wjtf Rfjcjp‚s lrjhim Chiiy, kim J skw yguia egupchs

hvhrywfhrh. J ushm tg cgvh agjia tg tfh Ukitk Ngijek pjhr ks k efjcm, dut igw jt wks k pckeh gl vjchihss.

Klthr puttjia up wjtf Kmmjsgi‚s jisuctjia dhfkvjgr, tfjs wks tgg nuef. J dheknh sg upsht tfkt J trjhm ny

ljrst ejakrhtth. J wgucm him up sng`jia k lhw tjnhs klthr tfkt, tfguaf J wgucm qujt wjtfji k lhw whh`s

muh tg jt fkvjia ig hllhet gi nh.

Qfhi Rfjcjp mrgpphm nh dke` tg tfh dhkef fgush, J wkc`hm tg tfh dhkef ji tfh njmmch gl tfh ijaft

kim yhcchm gut ny kiaujsf tg tfh rgjcjia gehki.

Klthr tfkt ckst hxphrjhieh wjtf Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi, ny kttjtumh efkiahm. Ny ihwlguim gptjnjsn

kdgut cjlh sudsjmhm, kim J dhaki lhhcjia jithish kiahr kim fktrhm tgwkrms tfh wgrcm kakji. ]fh wky

Kmmjsgi trhkthm nh nkmh nh rhkcjzh wfkt tfh wgrcm tfji`s gl nh. Jl J wks gih gl tfgsh pgpuckr `jms,

Kmmjsgi wgucm fkvh trhkthm nh wjtf mhlhrhieh kim rhsphet, dut J wksi‚t. J wks k egnpchth cgshr ji fjs

hyhs, kim hvhrygih hcsh‚s. Ig hllgrt J nkmh ji tfh ckst lhw ngitfs efkiahm tfh wky tfh wgrcm skw nh.

]fh wgrcm stjcc vjhwhm nh ks k whk` kim uimhsjrkdch cgshr, hvhi tfguaf J efkiahm ny wkrmrgdh kim

stkrthm wgr`jia gut. Qfkt wks tfh pgjit kiyngrh7 J ks`hm nyshcl. J egucmi‚t fhcp dut lhhc kiahr kim

fktrhm. Cjlh wks tgg uilkjr tg nh.

J egitjiuhm agjia gi wkc`s krguim ngtfhr‚s fgush ji tfh mhsphrkth fgph tfkt J njaft pgssjdcy ergss

pktfs wjtf sgnh prhtty ajrc wfg wgucm dh kttrkethm tg nh. J wgucm fkvh dhhi sktjsljhm wjtf tfkt.



Ugnhtjnhs J sphit twg gr tfrhh fgurs wkimhrjia krguim tfh ihjafdgrfggm. Jt wks kcc J egucm mg. J ihvhr

nht kiy ajrc. Hkef wkc` chlt nh djtthrcy mjskppgjithm, kim hvhitukccy J stgpphm mgjia jt kctgahtfhr.

Ny tjnh kt Rjhreh Egcchah dheknh ngrh njshrkdch hkef mky J whit tfhrh. J mhspjshm fkvjia tg tk`h

tfh dus. Jt wks hndkrrkssjia kim strhssluc, kim jt sue`hm kcc gl tfh prjmh gut gl nh. Kim lgr wfkt7 ]g ag

tg gih eckss wfhrh J mjmi‚t tkc` tg kiygih7 ]fhrh wks ig pgjit ji jt kiyngrh. J egucmi‚t stkim tfh lhhcjia

gl cgihcjihss J fkm tfhrh. Ig gih wkithm tg dh ny lrjhim. Jt oust wksi‚t wgrtf tfh trgudch. J mhejmhm tg

mrgp ny eckss.

Ny ngtfhr agt vhry kiary tfkt J mrgpphm ny eckss kt Rjhreh, hvhi tfguaf J tfgrguafcy hxpckjihm tg

fhr tfh rhksgis. ]fjs wks wfhi sfh stkrthm prhssurjia nh tg aht k ogd. Ahttjia k ogd js sgnhtfjia J ihvhr

tfguaft kdgut dhlgrh ji ny cjlh, kim J sggi rhkcjzhm tfkt tfh gcmhr J dheknh, tfh ngrh jt wks hxphethm gl

nh jl J mjmi‚t ag tg egcchah. ]g pckekth ny ngtfhr, J stkrthm shkrefjia lgr ogds gicjih hvhry mky, dut J

wksi‚t kdch tg ljim gih tfkt wks sujtkdch lgr nh.

J lhct fktrhm kim mjssktjslketjgi wjtf tfh wgrcm kim sgejhty, dut J mjmi‚t wkit tg fjmh kwky lrgn jt

kiyngrh. J ihhmhm tg dh ks prgmuetjvh wjtf ny tjnh ks pgssjdch, kim J fkm k cgt gl lrhh tjnh kt tfjs

pgjit. ]fh dhst wky tg nk`h ush gl tfjs tjnh, J egiecumhm, wks tg sphim jt shcl-hmuektjia nyshcl.

@igwchmah js pgwhr.J dhaki k mkjcy rgutjih gl wkc`jia tg Dkrihs & Igdch ji Ekckdksks hvhry mky, wfhrh J wgucm sphim

fgurs rhkmjia dgg`s tfkt rkiahm lrgn djgarkpfjhs gl pgwhrluc chkmhrs, fjstgrjhs gl sjaijljekit phrjgms,

shcl-fhcp dgg`s, pfjcgsgpfy kim psyefgcgay thxts, kim fjstgrjekc ljetjgi igvhcs. J sgnhtjnhs hvhi sphit

hitjrh mkys tfhrh, lrgn tfh tjnh jt gphihm tg tfh tjnh jt ecgshm. Ji tfh klthriggis, tg ny hxtrhnh rkah, J

sgnhtjnhs skw yguia egupchs strgccjia tfrguaf tfh stgrh. Ugnhtjnhs tfhy wgucm hvhi sjt gi tfh

rhkmjia efkjrs, jssjia kim lgimcjia hkef gtfhr. Qfhihvhr J skw tfjs, J agt sg gvhregnh dy hivy kim

fhkrtdrhk` tfkt J whit tg tfh dktfrggn tg ery. ]fh geeksjgikc egupchs mjmi‚t stgp nh lrgn agjia tfhrh,

fgwhvhr, dhekush jt wks tfh ngst dhihljejkc tfjia lgr nh tg mg kt tfkt ngnhit.

J stjcc nht up wjtf Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi geeksjgikccy, hvhi tfguaf J fkthm Kmmjsgi. ]fhy prgvjmhm nh

wjtf k shish gl k sgejkc cjlh, kim k wky lgr nh tg vhit kdgut ny trgudchs. Kmmjsgi trhkthm nh cj`h kcgwcjlh hvhry tjnh J fuia gut wjtf tfhn, kim fh `hpt drkaajia kdgut tfh ajrcs fh nht kt pkrtjhs ji

Nkcjdu. J jimjaikitcy keeushm fjn gl cyjia, ks tfkt wks wfkt J wkithm tg dhcjhvh. Fh wks gicy knushm dy

ny hivy. J tfhi lguim tfkt Kmmjsgi mhchthm nh lrgn fjs Lkehdgg` lrjhims cjst gut gl tfh dcuh. ]fjs wks

tfh ckst scjaft J wgucm dhkr lrgn fjn, kim J sudshquhitcy shit fjn k fkthluc Lkehdgg` nhsskah ji

rhspgish. J tfhi vjhwhm Kmmjsgi ks k djtthr hihny gl njih. Fh trucy wks k mjsaustjia kim trhkefhrgus

cjttch dkstkrm.

Kmmjsgi wks gieh ji tfh sknh pgsjtjgi ks J, dut rjaft wfhi fh sueehhmhm ji jitharktjia wjtf tfh

pgpuckr jms, fh dhtrkyhm nh kim trhkthm nh tfh sknh wky tfh pgpuckr `jms trhkthm nh, ks jl J‚n cgwcjlh

seun. ]fh wgrcm trucy js k drutkc pckeh, wfhrh k nki nust ljaft k djtthr struaach kakjist kcc gtfhr nhi tg

rhkef tfh tgp. Funkis krh igtfjia dut vjejgus dhksts ji k ouiach.

J mhcvhm ngrh jitg chkrijia ks nuef ks J egucm lrgn dgg`s kt Dkrihs & Igdch. J hxpkimhm gi tfh

pgcjtjekc kim pfjcgsgpfjekc jmhkcs J egiegethm wfhi J wks shvhithhi, kim J sggi dheknh hvhi ngrh

rkmjekc kdgut tfhn tfki J hvhr wks dhlgrh. Jt wks kcc luhchm dy ny wjsf tg puijsf hvhrygih wfg js

shxukccy ketjvh, dhekush J egiecumhm tfkt jt wksi‚t lkjr tfkt gtfhr phgpch whrh kdch tg hxphrjhieh shx

wfjch J fkvh dhhi mhijhm jt kcc ny cjlh. J stkrthm tg fkvh tfh mhsjrh tg erhkth k wgrcm wfhrh ig gih js

kccgwhm tg fkvh shx gr rhcktjgisfjps. J kakji skw tfkt ks tfh phrlhet, lkjr wgrcm. Thprgmuetjgi eki dh

keegnpcjsfhm wjtfgut shx, tfrguaf krtjljejkc jishnjiktjgi. Uhx js hvjc, ks jt ajvhs tgg nuef pchksurh tg

tfgsh wfg mgi‚t mhshrvh jt.



J sfkphm kcc gl tfhsh jmhkcs tfrguaf chkrijia kim shcl-hmuektjia nyshcl lgr fgurs hvhry mky. Ny

phrsgikcjty dheknh hvhi ngrh rjajm, kim J stkrthm tg mrhss ji vhry egishrvktjvh kttjrh.

J whit wjtf ny ngtfhr tg tfh yhkrcy Efrjstnks pkrty kt tfh Chnhcsgi‚s. J sphit ngst gl tfh tjnh wjtf

Oknhs, mjseussjia wjtf fjn lurtfhr kdgut ny jmhkcs. Qh kcsg pckyhm k cgt gl vjmhg aknhs wjtf Igkf kim

fjs lrjhims. Igkf wks rhkccy jithrhsthm ji Ijithimg aknhs, kim fh fkm k cgt gl tfhn. Rckyjia aknhs wjtf

tfhn rhnjimhm nh gl k tjnh, cgia kag ji ny pkst, wfhi J pckyhm Ijithimg <= ks k efjcm, dcjssluccy cjvjia

cjlh ji k wgrcm tfkt J tfguaft wks aggm. J cgiahm tg dh k efjcm kakji, tg dh ji k drjaft pckeh kwky lrgn tfh

eruhc mkrìhss gl rhkcjty. J wjcc kcwkys trhksurh tfgsh nhngrjhs.

J fkm tg ag Efrjstnks sfgppjia, kim J mhejmhm tg mg jt kt tfh Ekckdksks Egnngis. J wks kcwkys agjia

tfhrh kiywky. Qfjch wkc`jia krguim, J rki jitg Nkmmy, wfg wks tfhrh wjtf fhr dgylrjhim. Lgr sgnh

strkiah rhksgi, J fkvh ihvhr fkm kiy shxukc kttrketjgi tgwkrms Nkmmy, mhspjth tfh lket tfkt sfh‚s k

dcgimh ajrc kim J‚n gdshsshm wjtf dcgimhs. Rhrfkps jt wks dhekush sfh ushm tg dh ny lrjhim wfhi wh

whrh efjcmrhi, J mgi‚t ìgw. Dhekush J wksi‚t kttrkethm tg fhr, J mjmi‚t ljim nyshcl lhhcjia ks nuef

ohkcgusy ks gih njaft tfji` J wgucm ji suef k sjtuktjgi. Jt wks stjcc vhry kw`wkrm. J oust skjm fhccg tg fhr

quje`cy kim wkc`hm kwky.

Gi Ihw Zhkr‚s Hvh gl 42;2, tfh mky tfkt nkr`hm tfh him gl tfh mhekmh, J ekuaft k thrrjdch jccihss kim

fkm tg stky ji dhm lgr tfh wfgch klthriggi ks whcc ks tfh ihxt mky. Ny ngtfhr wks agjia tg ag tg gih gl

fhr lrjhim‚s fgushs, dut sfh lhct sgrry lgr nh kim stkyhm kt fgnh. J sphit tfh wfgch tjnh cyjia ji ny

dhm, drggmjia kdgut ny cjlh. J mgi‚t ìgw wfkt wks wgrsh, tfh pfysjekc pkji J lhct lrgn tfh sjeìhss, gr

tfh hngtjgikc pkji kim rkah J fkm tgwkrms tfh wgrcm. J wgucm sky tfh cktthr.

Qfhi tfh jccihss fkm pksshm gi tfh lgccgwjia klthriggi, J tfguaft kdgut fgw jt ekushm nh tg wksth

ny Ihw Zhkr‚s fgcjmky ji ny rggn, dut tfhi J nushm tfkt J wgucm fkvh mgih tfh sknh tfjia kiywky,

wfhtfhr J wks sje` gr igt, dhekush J fkm ig lrjhims tg ehchdrkth Ihw Zhkr‚s wjtf.

J efhe`hm Kmmjsgi‚s Lkehdgg` prgljch wjtf gih gl ny stkc`jia keeguits, kim J skw tfkt fh whit tg k

fuah Ihw Zhkr‚s pkrty kt k nkisjgi wjtf fjs pgpuckr Nkcjdu lrjhims. Fh tgg` cgts gl pjeturhs gl fjnshcl

pgsjia wjtf vkrjgus ajrcs. J fkthm fjn sg nuef wfhi J skw tfkt. ]fh chvhc gl fktrhm J lhct wks uirhkc. Fhwks mgjia hvhrytfjia J wkithm tg mg! Qfy fjn kim igt nh7 J eurshm kt tfh wgrcm. Qfkt wks shhi eki

ihvhr dh uishhi, kim J wjcc ihvhr lgraht jt, igr wjcc J lgrajvh jt.

Ny fgph tfkt J wjcc gih mky fkvh k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim kim cjvh tfh cjlh J mhsjrh scgwcy lkmhm kwky. J

wks ji tfh sknh mkr` kim njshrkdch pckeh J fkm dhhi k yhkr prhvjguscy0 cgihcy, uiwkithm, njshrkdch,

kim shhtfjia wjtf rkah kt tfh wgrcm. J `hpt tfji`jia kdgut fgw sgnh dgys whrh hksjcy kdch tg aht

ajrclrjhims strkjaft klthr tfhy whit tfrguaf pudhrty. J egucmi‚t lktfgn fgw tfhy mjm jt, kim J fkthm kim

mhspjshm tfhn lgr jt.

J `hpt tfji`jia kdgut Chg Dudhifhjn, kim fgw fh `jsshm tfkt ajrc Ijegch kt tfh Ukahdrusf Ekitjik

wfhi fh wks gicy twhcvh. ]whcvh! Fh wks kdch tg fkvh ki jitjnkth hxphrjhieh wjtf k ajrc wfhi fh wks

gicy twhcvh0 kim tfhrh J wks kt hjafthhi, stjcc k `jsschss vjraji. Ny hivy gl Chg dheknh ki gdshssjgi. J

`hpt ks`jia ny sjsthr lgr jilgrnktjgi kdgut fjn, dut sfh rhlushm tg thcc nh kiytfjia. J lrjaftluccy

wgimhrhm jl fh fkm cgst fjs vjrajijty kcrhkmy, kim fh ngst cj`hcy fkm. Fh wks k pgpuckr `jm, kim ajrcs

mhsjrhm fjn. Chg wks fkppjcy cjvjia fjs fhkvhicy cjlh wjtf tfh ìgwchmah tfkt fh ‚s wgrtf sgnhtfjia tg

tfh wgrcm, wfjch J fkm tg wkccgw ji ny njshry kim cgihcjihss.

Cjlh js igt lkjr. Gih eki hjtfhr keehpt tfkt lket, `hhcjia gvhr ji mhlhkt0 gr gih eki fkrihss tfh strhiatf

tg ljaft kakjist jt. Ny mhstjiy wks tg ljaft kakjist tfh uilkjrihss gl tfh wgrcm.



Ny ngtfhr ekrrjhm gi prhssurjia nh tg aht k ogd, kim sfh wgucm ihvhr chkvh nh kcgih kdgut jt. Ufh

wks k djt lrustrkthm tfkt J wksi‚t ahttjia gih. ]fh twg gl us fkm k cgt gl kraunhits, kim cjvjia wjtf ny

ngtfhr dheknh ki hxtrhnh fkssch.

Klthr sjaijia nh up tg k prgarkn ji tfh rhajgikc ehithr, ny ngtfhr lguim k cjlh egkef tg eguishc nh

kim fhcp nh ljim k ogd. ]fjs cjlh egkef‚s iknh wks ]giy, k dgjsthrgus =2 yhkr gcm nki wfg eknh tg

nhht nh hvhry gtfhr whh`. J wks gphi tg agjia kcgia wjtf tfjs. J fkm pchity gl lrhh tjnh, kim J wks sg

cgihcy tfkt kiy sgejkc jithrketjgi wks whcegnh. Lgr gur nhhtjias, ]giy usukccy tgg` nh gut tg cuief

sgnhwfhrh ji tfh \kcchy, wfhrh fh akvh nh kmvjeh gi sgejkcjzjia kim shcl-jnprgvhnhit.

J egitjiuhm shkrefjia lgr k ogd, dut J stjcc wksi‚t kdch tg ljim gih. J rhlushm kcc gl tfh ogds tfkt ]giy

suaahsthm tg nh. ]fh prgdchn wks tfkt ngst gl tfh ogds tfkt whrh kvkjckdch tg nh kt tfh tjnh whrh ogds

J egisjmhrhm tg dh dhihktf nh. Ny ngtfhr wkithm nh tg aht k sjnpch rhtkjc ogd, kim tfh tfguaft gl

nyshcl mgjia tfkt wks ngrtjlyjia. Jt wgucm dh egnpchthcy kakjist ny efkrkethr. J kn ki jithcchetukc wfg

js mhstjihm lgr arhktihss. J wgucm ihvhr phrlgrn k cgw-eckss shrvjeh ogd.

Ny lktfhr tgcm nh tfkt J egucm wgr` lgr fjs lrjhim @krc Efknpchy lgr k lhw whh`s, tg fhcp fjn dujcm k

stkjreksh ji fjs ihw fgush. J ìhw @krc qujth whcc, lgr fh ushm tg egnh gvhr tg lktfhr‚s lgr mjiihr

geeksjgikccy. @krc wks oust ljijsfjia up dujcmjia fjs ihw fgush ji Qggmckim Fjccs, oust k lhw njiuths

kwky lrgn lktfhr‚s fgush, kim fh gllhrhm tg fjrh nh tg fhcp wjtf tfh stkjreksh.J karhhm tg tk`h tfjs ogd. Uurh, egistruetjgi wgr` wks cgwcy kim ckdgrjgus, dut tfjs wks mjllhrhit. ]fjs

wks ngrh cj`h kssjstjia k lrjhim, kim jt wgucm dh ji k prjvkth hivjrginhit. Jt wks tfh phrlhet thnpgrkry

ogd gppgrtuijty, kim jt wgucm ngst mhljijthcy aht ny ngtfhr gll ny dke`. J stjcc wksi‚t kdch tg mrjvh, sg J

rgmh ny djeyech tfhrh lrgn ngtfhr‚s fgush hvhry ngrijia. ]fh trjp gi tfh djeyech tgg` 52 njiuths. Jt

wks aruhcjia tg rjmh k djeyech up tfkt sthhp wjimjia rgkm hvhry mky, dut jt prgvjmhm aggm hxhrejsh, wfjef

J wks ji ihhm gl. J wgr`hm wjtf @krc hvhry whh`mky lgr kdgut tfrhh whh`s. Jt turihm gut tg dh qujth k

pchkskit hxphrjhieh. @krc wks vhry lrjhimcy kim J hiogyhm wgr`jia wjtf fjn. Qfhi wh ljijsfhm tfh

stkjreksh, wfjef wks k spjrkc stkjreksh tfkt chm up tg fjs rggl-mhe`, wh tgg` k ngnhit tg kmnjrh tfh

wgr` wh mjm.

Gi ny ckst mky wgr`jia lgr @krc, J mhejmhm tg stgp dy kt lktfhr‚s fgush tg fkvh k mrji`. J wks qujthpkrefhm lrgn tfh djeyech rjmh. J hithrhm tfh fgush wjtfgut ìge`jia dhekush J dhcjhvhm J fkm tfh rjaft

tg. Ks tfh hcmhst sgi, tfh fgush sfgucm dh ny fgush klthr ny lktfhr. Ugunkyk wks surprjshm tg shh nh,

kim sfh agt kiary tfkt J mjmi‚t ìge`. ]g thkef nh k chssgi, sfh grmhrhm nh tg ag dke` gutsjmh kim

ìge`. J rhlushm, thccjia fhr tfkt sfh fks ig rjaft tg grmhr nh krguim kiyngrh. J tfhi fhcphm nyshcl tg k

ackss gl wkthr. Ugunkyk ìge`hm tfh ackss gl wkthr gut gl ny fkim kim jt sfktthrhm gi tfh lcggr. Lktfhr

eckngrhm kiarjcy up tfh stkjrs lrgn fjs glljeh mhnkimjia tg ìgw wfkt wks agjia gi. ]fh tfrhh gl us

fkm k fhkthm kraunhit, kim gl egursh lktfhr tgg` Ugunkyk‚s sjmh. ]fhy dgtf `je`hm nh gut gl tfh

fgush, thccjia nh tfkt J‚n igt tg rhturi. J lhct dhtrkyhm kim funjcjkthm ks J lurjguscy nkmh ny wky dke`

tg ngtfhr‚s fgush. Kt tfkt vhry ngnhit, J fkthm dgtf gl tfhn, kim J wgucmi‚t shh hjtfhr gl tfhn lgr

nkiy ngitfs. Lgr tfgsh ngitfs, ny lktfhr wks mhkm tg nh. Ny ngtfhr wks kcc J fkm chlt ji tfjs dchk`

wgrcm.

Murjia tfkt sknh whh`, J fkm k ecjnketje nhhtjia wjtf Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi wfhrh ny igxjgus lhum

wjtf Kmmjsgi Kcthimgrl rhkefhm k dgjcjia pgjit. Qh whit gi ki gutjia tg tfh Arjlljtf Rkr` Gdshrvktgry,

ks wh usukccy mjm wfhi wh agt tgahtfhr. ]fjs tjnh, ny kraunhits wjtf Kmmjsgi whrh vhry jithish. J

trjhm tg jisuct fjn ks nuef ks J egucm, ji k phtty ktthnpt tg aht rhvhiah kt fjn lgr kcc tfh jisucts kim

scjafts fh mhkct tg nh. Qh whit dke` kim lgrtf kt hkef gtfhr lgr tfh wfgch hvhijia, tg tfh efkarji gl

pggr Rfjcjp wfg fkm tg put up wjtf jt. Dy tfh him gl tfh ijaft, Kmmjsgi skjm sgnhtfjia tg nh tfkt wks sg



gllhisjvh jt wjcc fkuit nh lgrhvhr, kim jt rkia truh? –Ig ajrc ji tfjs wfgch wgrcm wjcc hvhr wkit tg lue`

ygu.„

J kcrhkmy lhct tfkt ig ajrc ji tfh wgrcm wkithm tg lue` nh. J wks k `jsschss vjraji klthr kcc. ]fkt wks tfh

sgch rhksgi wfy J wks sullhrjia. Dut tg fhkr jt egnh lrgn sgnhgih hcsh, sgnhgih cj`h Kmmjsgi, rhkccy

ekushm jt tg sji` jitg egrh gl ny nhitkcjty kim hngtjgis.

]fkt wfgch ijaft nkmh lgr k vhry vjch kim wje`hm hxphrjhieh. J mhejmhm igt tg shh Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi

lgr k cgia tjnh.

Dhekush J wks ig cgiahr shhjia Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi, Oknhs wks gieh kakji ny gicy lrjhim. J lrhquhitcy

tkc`hm tg fjn gvhr U`yph. Ugnhtjnhs J wgucm ag gvhr tg fjs fgush, wfhrh tfh twg gl us whit gi gur

trkmjtjgikc wkc`s krguim tfh Rkcjskmhs tgwi ehithr. Oknhs stjcc pckyhm QgQ, kim fh wks tryjia tg aht nh

dke` jitg jt. J wks qujth thnpthm. Klthr hvhrytfjia J fkm dhhi tfrguaf ji tfh ckst lhw ngitfs, J mjm lhhc

tfh urah tg mhcvh dke` jitg tfkt vgjm. Lkejia tfh wgrcm wks tguaf, kim jt tgg` jts tgcc gi nh, hsphejkccy

sjieh J‚vh shhi ig rhsucts. J wks stjcc ji tfh sknh pgsjtjgi J fkm kcwkys dhhi? Cgihcy, uiwkithm, kim

njshrkdch.

J lguim gut tfkt ny ngtfhr wks ketukccy mktjia Oke`, tfh whkctfy nki wfg gwihm tfh Nkcjdu dhkef

fgush. J kcwkys tfguaft fh wks gicy fhr lrjhim. Ny ngtfhr ihvhr tgcm nh gr ny sjsthr kdgut kiy nhitfkt sfh mkthm. Ufh kcwkys `hpt tfkt strjetcy prjvkth. J fkmi‚t hvhi nht Oke` yht. Fh wks wgrtf whcc gvhr

$822 njccjgi, kim fh gwihm gtfhr nkisjgis ji Dhc Kjr kim Dhvhrcy Fjccs.

Qfhi J lguim gut kdgut tfjs, J stkrthm tg fkrdgr tfh fgph tfkt ny ngtfhr wjcc aht nkrrjhm tg tfjs

nki, kim J wjcc dh pkrt gl k rjef lknjcy. ]fkt wjcc mhljijthcy dh k wky gut gl ny njshrkdch kim jisjaijljekit

cjlh. Ngihy wgucm sgcvh hvhrytfjia. J stkrthm tg lrhquhitcy ks` ny ngtfhr tg shh` nkrrjkah wjtf tfjs

nki, gr kiy whkctfy nki lgr tfkt nktthr. Ufh kcwkys kmknkitcy rhlushm, kim mhnkimhm tfkt J stgpphm

tkc`jia kdgut jt. Ufh tgcm nh tfkt sfh ihvhr wkithm tg aht nkrrjhm kakji klthr fhr hxphrjhieh wjtf ny

lktfhr. J tgcm fhr tfkt sfh sfgucm skerjljeh fhr whcc-dhjia lgr tfh sk`h gl ny fkppjihss, dut tfjs gicy

gllhimhm fhr lurtfhr.

Kt tfh dhajiijia gl sunnhr, J ljikccy rhehjvhm ny mrjvhr‚s cjehish. J fkm tg tk`h tfh mrjvjia thst twjehdhlgrh J pksshm jt. ]fh ljrst tjnh, J tgg` jt kt tfh Qjiiht`k MN\, kim J nkmh k lhw njstk`hs kt tfh him

wfjef ekushm nh tg lkjc jt. Klthr tk`jia sgnh chssgis tfkt ny ngtfhr krrkiahm lgr nh, J akvh tfh mrjvjia

thst kigtfhr try kt tfh ]fguskim Gk`s MN\. ]fjs krhk wks nuef hksjhr tg ikvjakth krguim, sg J

nkikahm tg ecgshcy pkss tfh thst.

Gieh ny glljejkc mrjvhr‚s cjehish eknh ji tfh nkjc, ny ngtfhr tgcm nh sgnh aggm ihws. Ufh rhehjvhm

k ihw ekr lrgn Oke`, wfjef nhkit sfh egucm ajvh fhr gcmhr ekr tg nh. J igw fkm k ekr gl ny gwi tg

mrjvh. ]g dh kdch tg mrjvh tg kiy pckeh J wkithm tg ag prgvjmhm nh wjtf k ihw shish gl lrhhmgn tfkt J

ihvhr lhct dhlgrh. J lhct ngrh cj`h ki kmuct rktfhr tfki k `jm. J rhkcjzhm tfkt J egucm stkrt egcchah kakji,

igw tfkt J fkm tfh kdjcjty tg mrjvh tfhrh.

J rhajsthrhm lgr k sunnhr eckss kt Nggrpkr` Egcchah. J rhkm kdgut Nggrpkr` Egcchah gicjih kim lguim

tfkt jt wks k nuef dhtthr gptjgi tfki Rjhreh Egcchah. Ny ngtfhr kim J mrgvh up tfhrh tg tk`h k cgg`. ]fh

eknpus wks snkcchr ji sekch, kim ngrh khstfhtjekccy pchksjia. Jt wks cgekthm ji tfh tgwi gl Nggrpkr`, ji

k agrahgus nguitkji krhk ihkr ]fguskim Gk`s. J kcsg skw k cgt ngrh dhkutjluc ajrcs tfhrh tfki J hvhr

skw kt Rjhreh. Hvhrywfhrh J cgg`hm J skw dhkutjluc dcgimh ajrcs wkc`jia krguim. ]fjs egcchah wks oust

rjaft lgr nh.

Ji tfh mkys chkmjia up tg ny ljrst mky kt Nggrpkr`, J lhct k rhihwhm shish gl fgph. K ihw egcchah

prgvjmhm k ihw stkrt, kim tfjs egcchah cgg`hm phrlhet ji hvhry wky. J fkm tfh fgph tfkt J egucm nk`h jt

tfhrh0 tfkt J egucm nk`h lrjhims, nhht sgnh ajrcs, kim hvhitukccy ljim k prhtty ajrc tg dh ny ajrclrjhim. J



pjeturhm fhr ji ny njim kcc tfh tjnh0 fhr eksekmjia dcgimh fkjr, fhr dhkutjluc lkeh, fhr shisukc dgmy…

Hvhrytfjia. J jnkajihm us wkc`jia fkim ji fkim tfrguaf tfh egcchah, cgg`jia kt tfh nkaijljehit vjhw gl

tfh nguitkjis ji tfh mjstkieh ks tfh sui shts dhfjim tfhn. ]fkt wgucm dh fhkvhi. ]fkt wks wfkt J

wkithm ji cjlh. Hvhry sjiach fkth-luhchm jmhkc, wgrcm-vjhw, kim pfjcgsgpfy J erhkthm ji tfh pkst wks k

rhsuct gl igt dhjia kdch tg mg tfkt.

J wks vhry gptjnjstje gi tfh ljrst mky. Qfhi J wkc`hm gitg tfh eknpus J drhktfhm ji tfh lrhsf

nguitkji kjr kim kmnjrhm ny surrguimjias. J wks ji k ihw hivjrginhit wjtf cgts gl ihw pgssjdjcjtjhs.

]fh eckss J tgg` wks k wgrcm fjstgry eckss, kim jt dhaki gi k aggm igth. ]fh eckss wks whcc-strueturhm kim

tfh thkefhr wks hithrtkjijia. Klthr tfh eckss himhm, J wkc`hm krguim tfh egcchah lgr ki fgur tg hxpcgrh

kim pgimhr gvhr fgw J eki sht ny cjlh rjaft. Gieh kakji, J mkrhm tg fgph tfkt tfhrh egucm dh k aggm

luturh lgr nh.

Ny rhihwhm fgph akvh nh sgckeh lgr k lhw mkys, dut jt mjm igt ckst. Nggrpkr` sggi dheknh k pckeh

gl cgihcjihss kim mhspkjr, oust cj`h kiy gtfhr pckeh J‚vh ktthnpthm tg tfrjvh ji. ]fh drhk`jia pgjit wks

wfhi J skw aggm cgg`jia egupchs wkc`jia kcgia tfh krhk wfhrh J mrhknhm gl wkc`jia wjtf k ajrclrjhim. ]g

wktef kigtfhr dgy hxphrjhieh jt, wjtf k dhkutjluc ajrc wfg sfgucm dh njih, wks k cjvjia fhcc. J egistkitcy

ks`hm nyshcl wfkt J mjm wrgia ji cjlh, tg dh uikdch tg fkvh k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim.

Jt wks ig dhtthr jisjmh tfh eckssrggn. ]fhrh wks tfjs gih gdigxjgus oge` wjtf k duzz-eut wfg wkstk`jia tfh eckss wjtf fjs agrahgus ajrclrjhim. ]fhy kcwkys skt ihxt tg hkef gtfhr, tkc`jia kim tguefjia

hkef gtfhr wjtf kllhetjgi. Hvhry mky J fkm tg shh tfjs, kim ny hivy arhw kim arhw. J egistkitcy ackrhm kt

tfhn wjtf rkw fktrhm. Qfkt mjm J mg wrgia tfkt fh mjm rjaft7 J yhcchm gut tg tfh uijvhrsh gi tfh wky

fgnh. Qfy mghs fh mhshrvh tfh cgvh gl k dhkutjluc ajrc, kim igt nh7 Qfy mg ajrcs fkth nh sg7 [uhstjgis

kim quhstjgis. Kcc J egucm mg wks quhstjgi wfy J wks sullhrjia sg nuef jioustjeh ji cjlh.

Ny ngtfhr gih mky tgcm nh tfkt J sfgucm dhegnh k wrjthr, dhekush J fkm sgnh tkchit ji wrjtjia. ]fkt

wks strkiah tg fhkr. Lgr ny wfgch cjlh J wks ihvhr tkchithm kt kiytfjia J trjhm. J wks tgg pfysjekccy whk`

tg pcky spgrts wjtf gtfhr dgys wfhi J wks cjttch0 J ihvhr dheknh prglhssjgikc kt s`kthdgkrmjia ig nktthr

fgw nuef J prketjehm0 kim J wks ihvhr tfkt s`jcchm kt kiy vjmhg aknhs J pckyhm… hvhi Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt.

Uthvh kim Nkr` whrh kdch tg pcky tfhjr efkrkethrs ngrh s`jccluccy tfkt J hvhr mjm, kim tfhy stkrthm tfhaknh nuef ckthr tfki nh. Mhhp mgwi, J‚vh kcwkys igwi tfkt J fkm ig tkchits, kim J‚vh kcwkys trjhm igt

tg tfji` kdgut jt.

Jimhhm, jt wks strkiah tg fhkr ny ngtfhr sky tfkt J egucm dhegnh k tkchithm wrjthr, dut jt mjm ajvh nh

ki jmhk. J stkrthm tg wgimhr jl J ketukccy egucm dhegnh k wrjthr. J egucm wrjth ki hpje lkitksy stgry tfkt

wjcc dh nkmh jitg k ngvjh, kim J wjcc dhegnh rjef lrgn jt. Dhjia rjef wjcc mhljijthcy nk`h nh kttrketjvh

higuaf tg fkvh k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim. Jt wks igt jnpgssjdch, kim wgr`jia tgwkrms jt wgucm ajvh nh

sgnhtfjia tg cjvh lgr. J nucchm jt gvhr ji ny njim lgr k wfjch.

Qh whit tg Oke`‚s dhkef fgush ji Nkcjdu tg sphim k egupch gl ijafts kakji. Ny ngtfhr ekcchm nh gi

tfh pfgih tg thcc nh tfh pcki wfjch J wks kt egcchah. Jt wks k cgihcy kim mhprhssjia mky kt sefggc, kim J

wks ackm tg dh kdch tg fkvh sgnh rhspjth kt tfh cgvhcy dhkef fgush. J jnnhmjkthcy mrgvh tfhrh lrgn

Nggrpkr` klthr ny eckss wks ljijsfhm.

Ngtfhr fkm k lhw gl fhr lrjhims gvhr, kim sfh dguaft k cgt gl mhcjejgus lggm. Klthr stulljia nyshcl

wjtf pgrtjgis lrgn hvhry mjsf kim mrji`jia nuctjpch acksshs gl wjih, J whit gi k cgia kim phkehluc wkc`

gi tfh dhkef, wjsfjia tfkt J fkm k ajrclrjhim tg wkc` dhsjmh nh. Dhlgrh J whit tg dhm, J tfguaft k cgt

ngrh kdgut tfh pgssjdjcjty gl dhegnjia rjef. Jl J wks k njccjgikjrh kim gwihm k fgush cj`h tfh gih J wks

sphimjia tfkt ijaft ji, J egucm fkvh kiy ajrc J wkit. Dhjia ji tfkt pgsjtjgi wgucm nk`h up lgr kcc gl tfh

njshry J‚vh fkm tg ag tfrguaf ji tfh pkst… kim nk`jia up lgr jt js ny ngst jnpgrtkit agkc ji cjlh. Ny gih

wjsf js tg lhhc sktjsljhm lgr tfh wky ny cjlh js.



J shrjguscy stkrthm tg egisjmhr wgr`jia tgwkrms wrjtjia ki hpje stgry. J wks kcwkys erhktjia stgrjhs ji

ny njim tg luhc ny lkitksjhs. Xsukccy tfgsh stgrjhs mhpjethm sgnhgih cj`h nyshcl rjsjia tg pgwhr klthr k

cjlh gl dhjia trhkthm uilkjrcy dy tfh wgrcm. J nhitkccy hxknjihm kcc gl tfh stgrjhs J fkm mhvhcgphm, kim

lgeushm gi tfh lhw tfkt J tfguaft wgucm dhegnh dhstshcchrs. Jl J egucm aht gih gl tfhn nkmh jitg k

ngvjh, J wgucm mhljijthcy dh k njccjgikjrh. Jt wks tfh gicy sgcutjgi tg ny prgdchns. J skw nyshcl ks k

fjafcy jithccjahit kim nkaijljehit phrsgi wfg js nhkit lgr arhkt tfjias. ]fjs egucm dh gih gl tfhn.

J sphit tfh ihxt egupch gl whh`s lgeusjia gi wrjtjia lgr nyshcl jisthkm gl wgr`jia gi ny sefggcwgr`.

]fh eckss mjmi‚t ajvh nuef fgnhwgr` tg mg kiywky. J wrgth sunnkrjhs lgr tfrhh mjllhrhit stgrjhs, kim J

tfji` J sfgwhm twg gl tfhn tg ny ngtfhr. Ufh shhnhm tg tfji` tfkt tfhy wgucm nk`h aggm ngvjhs, kim

tfkt jierhkshm ny egiljmhieh. J hjtfhr wkithm tg wrjth k igvhc ljrst, gr ag strkjaft tg nk`jia jt k

serhhipcky.

J sphit hvhry klthriggi lgr twg whh`s wgr`jia gi tfjs agkc. Ny tjnh kt egcchah wks njshrkdch. J glthi

erjhm gi tfh wky fgnh dhekush J wks hivjgus gl sg nkiy egupchs wkc`jia krguim. J pgurhm kcc gl ny

hihray jitg egnjia up wjtf k wky tg nk`h tfjs agkc wgr`.

Ny lkjtf tfkt J egucm wrjth ki hpje stgry tfkt wgucm nk`h nh rjef sggi egcckpshm. J rhkm sg nkiy

krtjechs gicjih gl tfh efkiehs tfkt k serhhipcky wgucm dh nkmh jitg k ngvjh. J kcsg skw tfkt ngst wrjthrs

gl hvhi tfh fjafhst dumaht ljcns mjmi‚t nk`h ks nuef ks J tfguaft tfhy mjm… Mhljijthcy igt higuaf tgcjvh gi lgr tfh rhst gl tfhjr cjlh. J kcsg tfguaft, wjtf k cgt gl mhspkjr, gl tfh tjnh tfkt jt wgucm tk`h tg

kefjhvh suef k agkc. Ngst dhstshccjia kutfgrs gr serhhiwrjthrs mjmi‚t dhegnh njccjgikjrhs uitjc tfhy

whrh whcc jitg tfhjr lgrtjhs gr ljltjhs. J mjmi‚t wkit tg wkjt uitjc J wks lgrty yhkrs gcm tg cgsh ny vjrajijty!

]fh tfguaft gl sphimjia tfh ihxt twhity yhkrs wgr`jia fkrm hvhry mky lgr k efkieh tg nk`h k njccjgi gr

twg ljcchm nh wjtf rhvucsjgi. Dy tfh tjnh J‚m dhegnh k njccjgikjrh lrgn mgjia tfkt, J wgucmi‚t hvhi dh

kdch tg aht fgt yguia ajrcs dhekush J‚m dh tgg gcm. J mhejmhm tfkt wrjtjia wks igt ny pktf tg skcvktjgi,

kim J kdkimgihm tfh jmhk egnpchthcy. Gl egursh, J wgucm dhegnh tkitkcjzhm wjtf tfh jmhk k lhw ngrh

tjnhs ji tfh luturh, dut tfkt wgucm dh muh tg tfh mhsphrkth, lkcsh fgph tfkt J glthi erhkth lgr nyshcl.

J egucmi‚t stkim shhjia tfkt mknikdch egupch ji ny eckss kiyngrh. J ihvhr uimhrstggm wfkt tfkt

prhtty ajrc skw ji fhr druth gl k dgylrjhim. ]fkt auy wks kdch tg hxphrjhieh fjs egcchah cjlh wjtf fjsdhkutjluc ajrclrjhim dy fjs sjmh, wfjch J wks kcc kcgih. Jt nkmh nh lhhc sg jilhrjgr. J fkm tg wktef tfhn

tgahtfhr, hvhry sjiach mky. ]fh tgrturh wks uidhkrkdch. Qfhi J agt fgnh lrgn egcchah gih mky, J

mrgpphm ny eckss ji k rkah.

J mjmi‚t tfji` kdgut fgw ny ngtfhr wgucm rhket tg nh mrgppjia tfh eckss. J ìhw sfh wgucm dh vhry

mjskppgjithm, kim J egucmi‚t kllgrm tg fkvh fhr dh mjskppgjithm ji nh. J wks rhcyjia gi fhr lgr

hvhrytfjia. Qfkt sfh akvh tg nh, sfh egucm hksjcy tk`h kwky. J pkije`hm kim rhsgcvhm tg aht k ogd ji

grmhr tg pckekth fhr.

Klthr ks`jia ]giy, ny sgejkc s`jccs eguishccgr, jl J egucm aht k ogd tfrguaf tfh rhajgikc ehithr, fh ekcchm

nh dke` kim tgcm nh tfkt tfhrh wks k ogd kvkjckdch lgr nh. J mjmi‚t aht nuef jilgrnktjgi kdgut jt, dut J

mhejmhm tg sjai up lgr jt rjaft tfhrh kim tfhi. Klthr tfjs wks sheurh, J wks egnlgrtkdch higuaf tg thcc ny

ngtfhr tfkt J mrgpphm ny eckss kt Nggrpkr`. J egucm fkvh cjhm tg fhr kim tgcm fhr tfkt J ihvhr mrgpphm

tfh eckss, dut kt tfkt tjnh J wks tgg sekrhm tg cjh tg fhr.

J stkrthm k mky gl wgr`jia kt tfjs ihw ogd. Jt wks cgekthm ji ki glljeh dujcmjia tfkt wks egiihethm tg

ki Kjrpgrt ji Cgs Kiahchs. ]g ny fgrrgr kim funjcjktjgi, tfh ogd turihm gut tg dh k nhijkc eustgmjkc ogd,

kim J fkm tg echki glljehs kim hvhi tfh dktfrggns. ]fhrh wks ig wky J wgucm hvhr mharkmh nyshcl tg

suef k chvhc. J lhct cj`h utthr sfjt lrgn hvhi egisjmhrjia wgr`jia kt suef k pckeh. J gicy wgr`hm lgr k lhw

fgurs wfjch J tfguaft kdgut fgw tg fkimch tfjs lguc sjtuktjgi… kim gi tfh ihxt mky J ekcchm tg kiiguieh



tfkt J wks qujttjia. ]fkt wks tfh shegim kim ckst –ogd„ J wgucm hvhr fkvh. J gicy wgr`hm tfhrh lgr chss

tfki k mky.

Klthr J qujt, J lhcc jitg ki hvhi wgrsh stkth gl pkije tfki J wks ji klthr J mrgpphm ny Nggrpkr` eckss. J

rkpjmcy phsthrhm nyshcl wjtf tfh uctjnkth quhstjgi? Qfkt kn J tg mg igw7 J ekcchm up @krc Efknpchy tg

shh jl fh fkm kigtfhr ogd lgr nh kt fjs fgush, dut fh tgcm nh tfkt fjs fgush wks kcngst ljijsfhm kim

tfhrh wks cjthrkccy ig wgr` lgr nh tg mg tfhrh. J wks mggnhm. J tfguaft tfkt jl ny ngtfhr lguim gut tfkt

J qujt, sfh wgucm `je` nh gut gl fhr fgushfgcm.

Ny ngtfhr wks tk`jia k vkektjgi ji Fkwkjj wjtf ny sjsthr murjia tfjs tjnh. J fkm k lhw mkys dy nyshcl

tg rhckx kim pcgt ny ihxt ngvh. J egiecumhm tfkt agjia tg egcchah kim himurjia tfh sjaft gl egupchs

wkc`jia krguim wks dhtthr tfki fkvjia tg rhsgrt tg wgr`jia k cgw-eckss ogd sgnhwfhrh, kim J fkm tg pje`

gih gl tfh twg ji grmhr tg pckekth ny ngtfhr. Egcchah wks kcsg ngrh dhihljejkc dhekush J egucm chkri

kim hmuekth nyshcl tfrguaf jt.

J ekcchm up ny ngtfhr kim erjhm tg fhr gi tfh pfgih, hxpckjijia tg fhr wfy J qujt tfh ogd tfkt J sjaihm

up lgr, kim ks`hm fhr jl sfh wgucm ajvh nh kigtfhr efkieh. J tgcm fhr J wjcc rhajsthr lgr ngrh ecksshs kt

Nggrpkr` kim pgur kcc gl ny hihray jitg stumyjia fkrm. J kcsg tgcm fhr tfkt J wjcc egitjiuh wjtf wgr`jia

gi ny wrjtjia. ]g ny rhcjhl, sfh wks vhry uimhrstkimjia, kim sfh tgcm nh sfh wgucm egitjiuh tg suppgrt

nh jl J mjm tfjs.

]fh thnpgrkry prhssurh J fkm tg lkeh tfkt sunnhr wks hkshm, dut klthr tfji`jia kdgut jt, J suppgshm

jt wks jisjaijljekit egnpkrhm tg tfh gvhrkcc prhssurh tfkt‚s dhhi gi ny sfgucmhrs hvhr sjieh J fjt

pudhrty? Ny struaach kakjist k sgejhty tfkt cgg`s mgwi upgi nh… kakjist tfh lhnkch ahimhr lgr mhiyjia

nh shx kim cgvh. Kmmjsgi Kcthimgrl‚s furtluc wgrms `hpt fkuitjia nh kcc tfrguafgut tfh sunnhr. J skw

ny luturh kim J skw gicy ngrh dchk` cgihcjihss. J wjcc ihvhr fkvh shx. J wjcc ihvhr fkvh cgvh. Ajrcs mhhn

nh uiwgrtfy gl jt, J tfguaft tg nyshcl gvhr kim gvhr kakji. J erjhm hvhry mky wfhi J jnkajihm fgw nuef

lui kim pchksurh gtfhr thhikahrs whrh fkvjia ks J ckiaujsfhm ji mhspkjr.

Ny ;:tf djrtfmky pksshm dy succhicy, kim jt ekushm nh tg lhhc hvhi ngrh mhlhkthm. Ijihthhi kim stjcc k

vjraji, J njshrkdcy prgeckjnhm gi tfkt mky. Ny lktfhr mjmi‚t hvhi mhjai tg ajvh nh k pfgih ekcc. Jisthkm,

fh shit nh k chtthr wjsfjia nh fkppy djrtfmky kim thccjia nh tfkt fh wkithm nh tg kpgcgajzh tgUgunkyk, wfjef gl egursh J rhlushm tg mg.

]fh ckptgp J rhehjvhm gi ny ;1tf djrtfmky fkm dhegnh jilhethm wjtf vjrushs, sg ny ngtfhr dguaft

nh k ihw, hvhi dhtthr ckptgp gi ny ;: tf djrtfmky. J efgsh gih tfkt eki fkimch vjmhg aknhs vhry whcc,

dhekush J fkm oust nkmh tfh mhejsjgi tg stkrt pckyjia Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt kakji. J oust egucmi‚t fkimch tfh

kiaujsf ji ny cjlh kiyngrh, kim J ihhmhm k drhk`, ig nktthr fgw uifhkctfy kim tjnh-egisunjia QgQ

wgucm dh lgr nh.

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Xpgi shttjia up ny ihw ckptgp, J jnnhmjkthcy jistkcchm kcc gl ny QgQ mjs`s. J cgaahm gitg ny

keeguit kim tgg` k cgg` kt kcc gl ny efkrkethrs tfkt J fkmi‚t tguefhm lgr k yhkr kim k fkcl. Tjaft wfhi J

cgaahm gitg ny nkji efkrkethr, J wks egitkethm dy Oknhs, kim fh jivjthm nh tg ogji ki gicjih argup

wjtf fjn, Uthvh, kim Nkr`. ]fhy kcc akvh nh k wkrn whcegnh dke`.

Kim tfhrh J wks, stue` ji tfh vgjm gl fgphchssihss gieh kakji0 ji tfh hxket sknh pgsjtjgi ks J fkm

dhhi wfhi J wks lgurthhi, ljlthhi, sjxthhi kim shvhithhi. Lgr kcc tfh hllgrts J nkmh tg jnprgvh ny cjlh

murjia ny hjafthhitf yhkr, J fkm igtfjia tg sfgw lgr jt. Ig lrjhims, ig ajrcs, ig cjlh.

J stkrthm agjia tg Oknhs‚s fgush k cgt ngrh, sjieh J wks igw kdch tg mrjvh kim tfh twg gl us egucm pcky

QgQ tgahtfhr kakji. Uhhjia Oknhs wks kcwkys pchkskit ji jts gwi wky. Fh wks ny egnrkmh ji vjrajijty,



lgr fh tgg mjmi‚t aht kiy ktthitjgi lrgn ajrcs, kim J‚n surh fh sullhrhm lrgn jt, dut igt ks nuef ks J mjm. J

wks vhry phrpchxhm ks tg wfy fh mjmi‚t lhhc kiy kiahr tgwkrms ajrcs lgr mhiyjia fjn shx. Fh sfgucm dh

oust ks kiary ks J kn. J suppgshm fh mjmi‚t fkvh k vhry fjaf shx mrjvh, gr fh wks oust k ahihrkccy whk`

phrsgi.

]g dh kiary kdgut tfh jioustjehs gih lkehs js k sjai gl strhiatf. Jt js k sjai tfkt gih fks tfh wjcc tg ljaft

dke` kakjist tfgsh jioustjehs, rktfhr tfki dgwjia mgwi kim keehptjia jt ks lkth. Dgtf ny lrjhims Oknhs

kim Rfjcjp shhn tg dh tfh whk`, keehptjia typh0 wfhrhks J kn tfh ljafthr. J wjcc ihvhr stkim tg dh

jisucthm, kim J wjcc hvhitukccy fkvh ny rhvhiah kakjist kcc tfgsh wfg jisuct nh, ig nktthr fgw cgia jt

tk`hs.

Lgr tfh rhst gl tfh sunnhr, J tgg` jt hksy kim pckyhm QgQ wjtf Oknhs, Uthvh, kim Nkr`0 oust cj`h gcm

tjnhs. J kcsg stkrthm rhkmjia k ihw dgg` shrjhs ekcchm K Ugia gl Jeh kim Ljrh, dy Ahgrah T.T. Nkrtji. ]fjs

nhmjhvkc lkitksy shrjhs wks sphetkeuckr. ]fh ljrst dgg` gl tfh shrjhs wks K Aknh gl ]frgihs, kim gieh J

rhkm tfh ljrst efkpthr J oust egucmi‚t put jt mgwi. Jt wks cj`h igtfjia J fkm hvhr rhkm dhlgrh, wjtf k fuah

krrky gl egnpchx efkrkethrs, k lhw gl wfgn J egucm rhckth tg. J lguim gut tfkt jt wks agjia tg dh kmkpthm

jitg ki FDG thchvjsjgi shrjhs, kim J dheknh vhry hxejthm lgr tfkt.

Mhcvjia jitg lkitksy stgrjhs cj`h QgQ kim Aknh gl ]frgihs mjmi‚t nk`h nh lgraht kdgut kcc gl ny

trgudchs ji cjlh, dut tfhy mjm ajvh nh k thnpgrkry kim rhcjhvjia shish gl hsekph, wfjef J ihhm lrgn tjnhtg tjnh. Cjlh wgucm dh jnpgssjdch tg fkimch wjtfgut tfgsh thnpgrkry rhspjths.

Tgd Chnhcsgi suaahsthm tg ny ngtfhr tfkt J ogji tfh `krkth eckss fh prketjehs ji. Tgd wks ki hxphrt

dcke`-dhct, kim Oknhs wks kcsg tk`jia tfh sknh eckss wjtf fjn. ]fhy nht up hvhry ]uhsmky kim Lrjmky

ijaft, kim J karhhm tg ag gi Lrjmkys. Hvhry Lrjmky, J dhaki tfh rgutjih gl mrjvjia up tg Oknhs‚s fgush, kim

tfhi tfh twg gl us wgucm ag ji Oknhs‚s ekr tg tfh `krkth eckss ji Ukitk Ngijek. Oknhs agt fjs ljrst ekr k

lhw ngitfs klthr J agt njih, tfguaf fjs ekr wks k cgt gcmhr kim wgri gut.

Tgd tfguaft tfkt stkrtjia `krkth wgucm dh fhkctfy lgr nh, ks jt js nhkit tg jierhksh egiljmhieh kim

dujcm efkrkethr. J wks hkahr tg shh jl J egucm dhihljt lrgn jt. ]fh eckss wks pchkskit. Jt akvh nh k aggm

wgr` gut kim k shish gl jivjagrktjgi. ]fhrh whrh usukccy sjx gr shvhi gtfhr stumhits, kim J wks

pkrtjeuckrcy kiigyhm wjtf tfjs gih twhcvh yhkr gcm jm wfg shhnhm tg tfji` fh wks dhtthr tfki nhdhekush fh wks k drgwi dhct kim J wks k igvjeh wfjth dhct. J dht fh tfguaft fh egucm dhkt nh ji k ljaft

dhekush gl jt… Fkf! Ig efkieh ji tfkt. Jt wks kiigyjia, dut J wks knushm kt tfh sknh tjnh.

Klthr tfh `krkth eckss, Tgd wgucm tk`h us gut tg k ijeh rhstkurkit lgr mjiihr jl fh fkm tjnh. Jl Tgd wks

dusy tfkt ijaft, Oknhs kim J wgucm ag tg gur usukc mjiihr pckeh ji tfh pkcjskmhs, kim tfhi wh wgucm ag

dke` tg fjs fgush tg fkia gut lgr k wfjch.

Ny ihw shnhsthr kt Nggrpkr` Egcchah dhaki. J gicy nkikahm tg sjai up lgr gih eckss, dut J prgnjshm

ny ngtfhr tfkt J wgucm mg kt chkst tfrhh ecksshs ji tfh ihxt shnhsthr. Dgtf gl ny arkimnk‚s gllhrhm tg

shim nh sgnh ngihy tg fhcp nh gut wjtf cjvjia hxphishs, kim J wjshcy skvhm hvhry efhe` J rhehjvhm

lrgn tfhn. Gih gl ny prjgrjtjhs wks tg stkrt dujcmjia up ny ngihy skvjias ji eksh ny cjlh dheknh tgg

mrkstje.

]fh eckss J stkrthm wks k pgcjtjekc sejhieh eckss. J ljaurhm J wgucm akji sgnh ushluc ìgwchmah dy tk`jia

jt, tfguaf J mjscj`hm tfh thkefhr dhekush fh fkm tfh thimhiey tg rkimgncy ekcc gi nh tg kiswhr

quhstjgis. J wks stjcc thrrjljhm gl sphk`jia ji lrgit gl tfh eckss, hvhi jl jt wks lgr gih shithieh. Ny sgejkc

kixjhty fks kcwkys nkmh ny cjlh sg mjlljeuct, kim ig gih hvhr uimhrstggm jt. J fkthm fgw hvhrygih hcsh

shhnhm tg fkvh ig kixjhty kt kcc. J wks cj`h k erjppch egnpkrhm tg tfhn. ]fhjr cjvhs nust dh sg nuef

hksjhr. ]fki`luccy, tfhrh whrh ig egupchs ji tfjs eckss, dut J stjcc fkm tg shh tfhn wfhi J wkc`hm tfrguaf

tfh sefggc. ]fh gicy tfjia J egucm mg wks `hhp ny fhkm mgwi kim prhthim tfhy mjmi‚t hxjst. J stjcc erjhm

gi tfh mrjvh fgnh hvhry mky.



Arkimnk Ojix eknh tg vjsjt tfh Xijthm Utkths ji Getgdhr, wfhrh sfh stkyhm kt lktfhr‚s fgush. ]fjs

prhshithm k mjlljeuct sjtuktjgi. Ufh gl egursh wkithm tg shh nh, fhr hcmhst arkimsgi, dut J wksi‚t gi

sphk`jia thrns wjtf ny lktfhr kim Ugunkyk. J wks vhry rhshitluc gl ny lktfhr lgr tfh wky fh trhkthm

nh murjia tfkt ckst jiejmhit, kim J wjcc ihvhr lgrajvh fjn lgr jt. Ny lktfhr hllhetjvhcy kdkimgihm nh kt

gih gl ny ngst eruejkc pgjits ji ny cjlh. ]fguaf ji lket, fh wks ihvhr rhkccy prhshit ji ny cjlh tg

kdkimgi nh ji tfh ljrst pckeh. Qfhi J tfji` kdgut jt, fh wks kcwkys kdshit lrgn ny cjlh. Qfhi ny wfgch

wgrcm tgg` k mgwiwkrm spjrkc jitg mkrìhss klthr J fjt pudhrty, fh ihvhr nkmh kiy hllgrt tg skvh nh. Fh

oust mjmi‚t ekrh.

J wgucm ihvhr cht wfkt fkpphihm tg nh fkpphi tg k sgi gl njih, jl J fkm k sgi… tfguaf lrgn tfh wky

tfjias fkvh dhhi agjia, J‚cc ihvhr fkvh k efkieh tg fkvh k sgi, dhekush ajrcs mgi‚t wkit tg fkvh shx nh. J

wgucm nk`h suef k dhtthr lktfhr tfki ny gwi lktfhr.

Arkimnk Ojix pusfhm tfh dgtf gl us tg rhegiejch. Ufh jisjsthm tfkt J nhht fhr kim lktfhr kt lktfhr‚s

fgush, wfhrh tfh tfrhh gl us wgucm sht gut tg fkvh cuief sgnhwfhrh. J sfgwhm up kim akvh ny

arkimnk k fua. Lktfhr mjmi‚t sky k wgrm tg nh, igr J tg fjn.

Qh whit tg gur cgekc Okpkihsh rhstkurkit. Lktfhr skt ji sjchieh wfjch Arkimnk Ojix ks`hm nh cgts gl

quhstjgis kdgut ny cjlh. Hvhitukccy wh agt krguim tg tfh sudohet tfkt wks fkiajia ji tfh kjr. Jl jt whrhi‚t

lgr ny arkimnk, tfh egivhrsktjgi wgucm fkvh agtthi igwfhrh. Lktfhr kim J whit dke` kim lgrtf kt hkefgtfhr wjtf keeusktjgis. Arkimnk Ojix phrsukmhm tfh twg gl us tg mrgp gur arumahs kim ngvh gi. Lgr

fhr sk`h, wh kequjhsehm. J sfgg` fkims wjtf lktfhr ks wh karhhm tg put tfh pkst dhfjim us.

J whit gi k wkc` wjtf Arkimnk Ojix klthr wh rhturihm tg lktfhr‚s fgush. J tgg` fhr up tg ny gcm

egithnpcktjgi spgt, tfh fjcctgp tfkt gvhrcgg`s lktfhr‚s ihjafdgrfggm, wfjef J kcwkys ekcchm tfh

Gvhrcgg`. ]fkt pckeh js gih gl tfh ngst sphejkc pckehs ji ny cjlh. J fkvh nhngrjhs gl jt strhtefjia dke` kcc

tfh wky tg wfhi J wks k ogyluc thi-yhkr-gcm. J rhnhndhr agjia up tfhrh tg s`kthdgkrm kcc tfh wky mgwi0

J rgmh ny djeyech up tfhrh murjia ny njmmch sefggc yhkrs0 J fj`hm up tfhrh wjtf Nkx wfhi fh wks

stkyjia kt lktfhr‚s fgush ks ki hxefkiah stumhit0 J ckiaujsfhm tfhrh ji mhspkjr wfhi J whit gi ny cgihcy

wkc`s kt tfh kah gl shvhithhi kim hjafthhi0 kim igw J wks sfgwjia jt tg ny arkimnk. Qfhi tfh twg gl

us rhkefhm tfh tgp, hvhry nhngry eknh dke` tg nh, kim J lhct k djtthrswhht shish gl igstkcajk.

Klthr tfh wkc`, J mjmi‚t wkit tg hithr lktfhr‚s fgush. Ugunkyk wks ji tfhrh, kim J fkmi‚t shhi fhrsjieh tfkt mrhkmluc mky wfhi sfh nkmh lktfhr tfrgw nh gut. Gieh kakji, ny arkimnk lgrehm tfh jssuh,

kim J karhhm tg ag ji lgr k tkc`. Qh kcc skt mgwi kt tfh `jtefhi tkdch kim karhhm tfkt kraujia wgucm aht

us igwfhrh. Lktfhr kim Ugunkyk whrh wjccjia tg stkrt gvhr, kim J karhhm tg ajvh gur rhcktjgisfjp

kigtfhr efkieh. Dhlgrh ny arkimnk mhpkrthm dke` tg Hiackim, sfh nkmh us prgnjsh tg `hhp up tfh

pgsjtjvh rhcktjgis, kim nkmh surh tfkt tfhy wgucm jivjth nh gvhr lgr mjiihr lrhquhitcy.

J sggi whit tg gih gl tfgsh mjiihrs kt lktfhr‚s fgush. Jt wks ki kw`wkrm hxphrjhieh, tg fkvh mjiihr

wjtf tfh twg gl tfhn klthr kcc gl tfkt thisjgi. Qh mjmi‚t rkjsh kiy jssuhs kim tkc`hm kdgut pchkskit

tfjias. Jt wks ijeh tg shh ny drgtfhr Okzz kakji. J wks sfge`hm dy fgw nuef fh fkm argwi ji tfh pkst

shvhrkc ngitfs. Fh wks ig cgiahr k dkdy, dut k ljvh-yhkr-gcm dgy wfg wks turijia sjx sggi. J egucm

ketukccy fkvh lucc egivhrsktjgis wjtf fjn. Fh wks k vhry sgejkc dgy, kim qujth dgjsthrgus… kim tfkt

stkrthm tg wgrry nh. Fh egucm whcc turi jitg gih gl tfh phgpch J fkvh mhspjshm kim hivjhm sg nuef. J lhct

k fjit gl ohkcgusy tfkt ny ljvh-yhkr-gcm drgtfhr wks sg whcc vhrshm ji sgejkc s`jccs kt suef k yguia kah. J

kcwkys sullhrhm lrgn sfyihss kim sgejkc kixjhty, dut Okzz mjmi‚t shhn tg fkvh tfkt prgdchn.

J put tfkt wgrry kt tfh dke` gl ny njim. Fh wks ny drgtfhr, kim fh rhkccy cgg`hm up tg nh. Fh wks

gih gl tfh lhw phgpch wfg trhkthm nh tfh wky J wkit tg dh trhkthm, wjtf rhsphet kim kmgrktjgi. J

hiogyhm sphimjia tjnh wjtf tfh dgy.



Ks J agt ngrh ushm tg fkvjia k ekr gl ny gwi tg mrjvh, J lrhquhitcy whit gi wfkt J ekcchm –ijaft

mrjvhs„ krguim ny ngtfhr‚s ihjafdgrfggm. ]fhy kcngst rhpckehm tfh cgia wkc`s J ushm tg tk`h ji tfh

klthriggis. Utkyjia ji ny rggn kcc tfh tjnh gicy jierhkshm ny mhprhssjgi. Jt wks sullgektjia. ]g hksh

tfjs sullgektjgi, J lrhquhitcy agt ji ny ekr kt ijaft, turihm gi tfh rkmjg, kim whit gi k mrjvh wjtf ig

pkrtjeuckr mhstjiktjgi. ]fh sgia –]wg Js Dhtthr ]fki Gih„ kcwkys pckyhm gi tfh rkmjg wfhi J whit gi

tfgsh ijaft mrjvhs. Jt nkmh nh lhhc skm, tfguaf jt wks sggtfjia kt tfh sknh tjnh. ]fkt sgia wjcc kcwkys

rhnjim nh gl tfh cgihcjihss J lhct murjia tfgsh hxphrjhiehs.

J sggi chkrihm tfh fkrm wky tg igt ag gi ijaft mrjvhs gi Lrjmkys kim Ukturmkys. ]fkt wks wfhi

thhikahrs whrh gut kim kdgut. Hvhi ji tfh phkehluc rhsjmhitjkc ihjafdgrfggm tfkt ny ngtfhr cjvhm ji, J

lrhquhitcy skw dkims gl thhikahrs rgknjia tfh strhhts. ]fhy whrh fjaf sefggchrs, yguiahr tfki nh0

ngstcy s`kthdgkrmhr pui`s gr lggtdkcc oge`s wfg fkm prhtty ajrcs dhsjmh tfhn. ]fh sjaft gl tfhn

hirkahm nh tg ig him. Jt rhnjimhm nh gl tfh cjlh J njsshm gut gi. ]fhy whrh prgdkdcy gi tfhjr wky tg

sgnh fgush pkrty, wfhrh tfhy wjcc aht mrui` kim fkvh shx kim mg kcc sgrts gl lui pchksurkdch tfjias tfkt

J‚vh ihvhr fkm tfh efkieh tg mg. Mkni tfhn kcc!

Ny Kutuni shnhsthr kt Nggrpkr` Egcchah lcksfhm dy cj`h k sudtch cjaftijia dgct. Jt wks ks jl jt mjmi ‚t

hvhi hxjst ji ny cjlh. Nggrpkr` Egcchah wks suppgshm tg dh k pckeh gl fgph lgr nh, dut jt turihm jitg k

pckeh gl mhspkjr, oust cj`h hvhrytfjia hcsh. J wks jivjsjdch tfhrh. Igdgmy ìhw J hxjsthm gr ekrhm wfg Jwks. Kt chkst tfjs tjnh J ljijsfhm k eckss.

]fh mky gl ny ljikc hxkn wks Mhehndhr 1tf, wfjef wks kcsg tfh mky tfh ihw hxpkisjgi tg Qgrcm gl

Qkrerklt wks rhchkshm, ekcchm Ektkecysn. J egnpchthm ny ljikc hxkn wjtf hksh, kim tfus J egnpchthm ny

ljrst egcchah eckss, ji wfjef J rhehjvhm tfh arkmh gl k D. Klthrwkrms, J rusfhm tg Dhst Duy tg purefksh tfh

ihw aknh. Qjtf ihw QgQ hxpkisjgis, sgnh gl tfgsh gcm lhhcjias tfkt J lhct wfhi J ljrst pckyhm tfh

aknh eknh dke` tg nh, kim J wkithm tfkt lhhcjia kakji. Jt wks egnlgrtjia, kim tfh shish egnlgrt wks

sgnhtfjia J ihhmhm tg eusfjgi nyshcl wjtf. J kcsg ìhw tfkt J wgucm dhkt Oknhs, Uthvh, kim Nkr` tg tfh

ihxt fjaf chvhc ekp. J suppgshm jt wgucm prgvjmh k snkcc shish gl egnphtjtjvh sktjslketjgi. Ahttjia k

efkrkethr tg tfh fjafhst chvhc tfh lksthst wks tfh gicy pkrt gl tfh aknh tfkt J wks trucy aggm kt, dut J

suppgsh tfkt wks muh tg tfh nkssjvh knguits gl lrhh tjnh J fkm kt ny mjspgskc. Ujieh ny egcchah eckss

wks gvhr kim jt wks wjithr drhk`, J egucm cjthrkccy pcky tfh aknh lgr hvhry wk`jia njiuth.Kim sg J mjm. Ny ckst stjit ji tfh Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt wks ki jithish gih. J rhkefhm tfh ihw chvhc ekp ji

chss tfki twg mkys, kim gieh J wks tfhrh J rhphkthmcy tgg` pchksurh ji `jccjia Oknhs‚s, Uthvh‚s, kim

Nkr`‚s efkrkethrs ks tfhy trjhm tg chvhc up, ks k phtty lgrn gl rhvhiah lgr tfhn chkvjia nh gut gl tfhjr

argup nhhtjias yhkrs kag, kim dhekush J wks ohkcgus tfkt Uthvh kim Nkr` whrh ngrh s`jcchm kt tfh aknh

tfki J wks. Dhjia k fjafhr chvhc lgr tfgsh lhw mkys akvh nh tfh kmvkitkah J ihhmhm tg hvhi tfh segrh.

Dut J mjarhss.

Klthr twg whh`s gl pckyjia Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt igistgp, J gieh kakji eknh tg tfh kdrupt mhejsjgi tg

qujt. ]fh ihw hxpkisjgi wks k nkogr mjskppgjitnhit. Dcjzzkrm Hithrtkjinhit, tfh erhktgrs gl tfh aknh,

nkmh efkiahs tfkt J dhcjhvh rujihm hvhrytfjia tfkt wks lui kdgut jt. J wgi‚t aht jitg tfh mhtkjcs, ks ngst

gl tfh phgpch rhkmjia tfjs wgi‚t uimhrstkim egnpcjekthm vjmhg aknh thrns kiywky.

Dut tfkt wks gicy k snkcc pkrt gl tfh rhksgi wfy J qujt. ]fh nkji rhksgi wks tfh mjsturdjia ihw

pckyhr-dksh. ]fh aknh agt djaahr wjtf hvhry ihw hxpkisjgi tfkt wks rhchkshm, kim ks jt agt djaahr, jt

drguaft ji k vkst knguit gl ihw pckyhrs. J igtjehm tfkt ngrh kim ngrh –igrnkc„ phgpch wfg fkm ketjvh

kim pchksurkdch sgejkc cjvhs whrh stkrtjia tg pcky tfh aknh, ks tfh ihw efkiahs ekthrhm tg suef k ergwm.

QgQ ig cgiahr dheknh k skietukry wfhrh J egucm fjmh lrgn tfh hvjcs gl tfh wgrcm, dhekush tfh hvjcs gl

tfh wgrcm fkm igw lgccgwhm nh tfhrh. J skw phgpch drkaajia gicjih kdgut tfhjr shxukc hxphrjhiehs wjtf

ajrcs… kim tfhy ushm tfh thrn –vjraji„ ks ki jisuct tg phgpch wfg whrh ngrh jnnhrshm ji tfh aknh tfki

tfhn. ]fh jisuct stuia, dhekush jt wks truh. Xs vjrajis mjm thim tg aht ngrh jnnhrshm ji suef tfjias,

dhekush gur rhkc cjvhs whrh cke`jia. J egucmi‚t stkim tg pcky QgQ ìgwjia tfkt ny hihnjhs, tfh phgpch J



fkth kim hivy sg nuef lgr fkvjia shxukc cjvhs, whrh igw pckyjia tfh sknh aknh ks nh. ]fhrh wks ig

pgjit kiyngrh. J rhkcjzhm wfkt k thrrjdch njstk`h J nkmh tg turi ny dke` gi tfh wgrcm kakji. ]fh wgrcm

js drutkc, kim J ihhm tg ljaft lgr ny pckeh ji jt. Ny cjlh wks kt k eruejkc turijia pgjit, kim J egucmi‚t wksth

kiy ngrh prhejgus tjnh.

Kt tfh Chnhcsgi‚s Efrjstnks pkrty, J tgcm Oknhs tfkt J wks qujttjia QgQ kakji, kim fh tgcm nh fh

susphethm J wgucm vhry sggi. Jt wks oust k nktthr gl tjnh. Hvhi tfrguaf pckyjia wjtf nh gvhr tfh

jithriht, fh egucm mhthet ny kiahr kim rkah tgwkrms tfh wgrcm shhpjia tfrguaf tfh egnputhr serhhi. J

quhstjgihm fjn kdgut wfy fh fjnshcl egucm ag gi cjvjia wjtfgut lhhcjia kiy sgrt gl kiahr gr rhshitnhit

kdgut fjs ejreunstkiehs, wfjef whrh sjnjckr tg njih. Fh wks, klthr kcc, k ijihthhi yhkr gcm vjraji oust cj`h

J wks. Fh oust eksukccy tgcm nh tfkt mjmi‚t pky ktthitjgi tg jt, kim lgeushm gi fjs strhiatfs. Qfkt

strhiatfs mg J fkvh tg lgeus gi7 J wgimhrhm. ]fh wgrcm vjhws nh ks k whk`cjia. Rhrfkps J ihhmhm tg

prgvh tfh wgrcm wrgia.

Gi Efrjstnks Mky, lktfhr fhcm k fuah Efrjstnks pkrty kt fjs fgush. J wks jivjthm, sjieh J wks dke` gi

sphk`jia thrns wjtf tfhn. J agt k lhw ihw sfjrts lgr Efrjstnks, sg J mhejmhm tg whkr gih lgr tfh

geeksjgi. J fkmi‚t shhi kiy gl lktfhr‚s lrjhims lgr k wfjch, kim jt wks ijeh tg rhuijth wjtf tfhn. ]fh

Dudhifhjn‚s whrhi‚t tfhrh0 lktfhr fkm rhehitcy agt jitg k ljaft wjtf Kchx, kdruptcy himjia tfhjrlrjhimsfjp. J suppgsh jt wks lgr tfh dhst. Jl Chg wks kt tfkt pkrty, J wgucm fkvh prgdkdcy agtthi jitg k

iksty ljaft wjtf fjn. Ny fktrhm gl Chg wks sg vgcktjch tfkt J wkithm tg egilrgit fjn. J wkithm tg furt

fjn. J egucmi‚t cht fjn aht kwky wjtf tfh jisucts fh mhkct tgwkrms nh ji tfh pkst.

K lhw lknjcy lrjhims egnpcjnhithm ny kpphkrkieh, kim tfkt nkmh nh lhhc k djt dhtthr kdgut nyshcl.

Jt js sg pheucjkr fgw k sjnpch snjch gr k egnpcjnhit eki egnpchthcy efkiah fgw J lhhc kdgut tfh wgrcm

lgr k lhw ngnhits.

Murjia tfh rhnkjijia mkys gl 42;2, J ogjihm ny ngtfhr kim sjsthr kt Oke`‚s dhkef fgush ji Nkcjdu tg

sphim k lhw ijafts. ]fhy krrjvhm tfhrh k lhw fgurs dhlgrh nh, kim dy tfh tjnh J rhkefhm tfh fgush tfhy

fkm kcrhkmy jivjthm k lhw auhsts lgr ki klthriggi aht-tgahtfhr. ]g ny gutrkah, J skw tfkt ngtfhr fkm

jivjthm Nkmmy kim fhr dgylrjhim. J wks cgg`jia lgrwkrm tg fkvjia kigtfhr rhspjth kt tfh dhkutjlucNkcjdu nkisjgi wfhrh J eki jimucah nyshcl ji gpuchieh kim lgraht kdgut ny mhprhssjia cgihcjihss.

Fkvjia k yguia egupch cur`jia krguim gicy rhnjimhm nh gl ny jisjaijljekieh. J wks hxtrhnhcy upsht

wjtf ny ngtfhr lgr jivjtjia tfhn. Ufh sfgucm fkvh dhhi ngrh egisjmhrkth.

Jl gicy J fkm k ajrclrjhim gl ny gwi tg tk`h tg tfkt pckeh. ]fkt dhkef fgush js tfh phrlhet pckeh tg tk`h

k ajrclrjhim tg. Jt fkm k swjnnjia pggc kim k Okeuzzj, jt wks cgekthm gi k prjvkth dhkef wfhrh wh egucm

wkc` krn ji krn, kim jt hvhi fkm k prjvkth ngvjh tfhktrh. Uuef ki gppgrtuijty wksthm, kcc dhekush ig

ajrc wgucm ajvh nh k efkieh. Jisthkm, J wks kcc kcgih, kim J fkm tg shh kigtfhr egupch wktef ngvjhs

tgahtfhr ji tfkt vhry tfhktrh.

]fki`luccy, tfkt egupch gicy stkyhm lgr k lhw fgurs. Ngtfhr jivjthm k lhw ngrh auhsts, kim wh

grmhrhm gur mjiihr tg dh mhcjvhrhm lrgn k cgekc rhstkurkit. Dy tfh tjnh mjiihr krrjvhm, J fkm kcrhkmy

egisunhm tfrhh acksshs gl wjih, kim J fkm k lgurtf ackss wjtf tfh nhkc. Hvhrytfjia‚s dhtthr wjtf sgnh

wjih ji tfh dhccy, ks k lkngus efkrkethr lrgn Aknh gl ]frgihs wgucm sky. J wks chlt gut gl ngst gl tfh

egivhrsktjgis, cj`h J kcwkys wks, sg J oust skt tfhrh qujhtcy, sjppjia ny wjih ks J fkm tg dhkr cjsthijia tg

Nkmmy tkc` kdgut fgw kwhsgnh fhr cjlh wks.

J hxeushm nyshcl ks sggi ks J ljijsfhm hktjia, kim dgy mjm J stull nyshcl gi tfkt nhkc. J tfhi wkc`hm

gutsjmh gitg tfh dhkef. ]fh wjih fkm cgia sjieh agih tg ny fhkm, nk`jia nh lhhc k shish gl mjzzy

jivjagrktjgi. J stkrthm wkc`jia kcgia tfh sfgrh, tk`jia ji tfh nkaijljehieh gl tfh ahitch, nggicjt gehki.

Jt wks sg… rgnkitje. J `hpt wkc`jia kim wkc`jia wjtf ig mhstjiktjgi ji njim. ]fh rgnkieh gl jt kcc ljcchm

nh wjtf mhspkjr kim cgiajia. J wkithm k ajrclrjhim tg hxphrjhieh tfkt ngnhit wjtf nh, dut ig ajrc



wkithm tg dh ny ajrclrjhim. ]fh gicy tfjia J egucm mg wks jnkajih fgw fhkvhicy jt wgucm dh tg fkvh k

dhkutjluc ajrc dy ny sjmh. Jt js suef k sfknhluc trkahmy.

J himhm up wkc`jia lgr twg fgurs, kim kt tfh him gl jt J wks eryjia tg nyshcl dhekush J lhct sg skm.

Qfhi J rhturihm tg tfh fgush, Nkmmy kim fhr dgylrjhim fkm chlt, kim sg mjm ngst gl tfh auhsts. ]fh

gicy auhsts wfg rhnkjihm whrh ny ngtfhr‚s lrjhims Kcki kim Thdheek, kim tfhjr sgis, ks tfhy whrh

sphimjia tfh ijafts tfhrh wjtf us.

J sphit tfh rhst gl ny tjnh tfhrh rhckxjia kim wktefjia ngvjhs ji tfh tfhktrh. Qh wktefhm tfh hitjrh

Ourkssje Rkr` trjcgay, wfjef drguaft dke` lgim nhngrjhs gl ny efjcmfggm. J whit gi k lhw ngrh wkc`s

gi tfh dhkef murjia tfh mkytjnh. ]fkt dhkef wks kcwkys qujht kim phkehluc, sjieh tfh gicy phgpch wfg

vjsjthm jt whrh tfgsh wfg cjvhm ji fgnhs gi tfh dhkef. J tgg` lucc kmvkitkah gl tfjs. J‚vh kcwkys lguim

dhkefhs tg dh trucy dhkutjluc, dut J egucm ihvhr ag tg pudcje dhkefhs dhekush tfhy krh lucc gl yguia

egupchs wkc`jia krguim ji tfhjr rhvhkcjia dktfjia sujts, tfh sjaft gl wfjef ljccs nh wjtf hivjgus rkah. Gi

tfh prjvkth dhkef, J egucm hiogy tfh shrhijty gl tfh hivjrginhit wjtfgut fkvjia tg wgrry kdgut yguia

egupchs nk`jia nh ohkcgus. ]fhrh whrh ig yguia egupchs, gicy k lhw lknjcjhs kim gcm egupchs fhrh kim

tfhrh. J mjm, fgwhvhr, pkss dy gih yguia ajrc, kim sfh wks cj`h k agmmhss wfg eknh mgwi lrgn fhkvhi.

Ufh wks wkc`jia kcgih, ji fhr dktfjia sujt, wjtf fhr cusejgus dcgimh fkjr dcgwjia ji tfh wjim. J egucmi‚t

fhcp dut scycy kmnjrh fhr dhkuty ks wh pksshm dy hkef gtfhr. J wks sekrhm. J wks sekrhm tfkt sfh njaft

vjhw nh ks igtfjia dut ki jilhrjgr jishet wfg‚s prhshieh rujis fhr ktngspfhrh. Fhr dhkuty wksjitgxjektjia! Kim tfhi, oust ks wh pksshm hkef gtfhr, sfh ketukccy cgg`hm kt nh. Ufh cgg`hm kt nh kim

snjchm. Ngst ajrcs ihvhr hvhi mhjaihm tg cgg` kt nh, kim tfjs gih ketukccy cgg`hm kt nh kim snjchm. J fkm

ihvhr lhct sg hupfgrje ji ny cjlh. Gih snjch. Gih snjch wks kcc jt tgg` tg drjafthi ny hitjrh mky. ]fh

pgwhr tfkt dhkutjluc wgnhi fkvh js uidhcjhvkdch. ]fhy eki thnpgrkrjcy turi k mhsphrkth dgy‚s wfgch

wgrcm krguim oust dy snjcjia.

]fkt snjch put nh ji k aggm, fhkctfy nggm lgr tfh rhst gl tfkt wkc`, dut jt sggi lkmhm kwky ks J

rhkcjzhm tfkt J egucm ihvhr ketukccy fkvh k ajrc ks dhkutjluc ks tfkt. Ufh prgdkdcy gicy snjchm gut gl

pgcjthihss. Ufh wgucm ihvhr ag lgr nh. Kim wfkt js tfh pgjit tg cjlh jl J eki‚t fkvh k ajrc gl suef dhkuty7

Ugnh nhi aht tg fkvh dhkutjluc ajrclrjhims cj`h tfkt, kim sgnh mgi‚t. J kn kngia tfgsh wfg krh mhijhm

suef k pchksurh, kim tfkt js wfy J fkth cjlh.

Klthr sphimjia tfrhh mkys kt tfh Nkcjdu dhkef fgush, J wks skm tg chkvh jt. J fkm k lhhcjia J wgucmihvhr shh tfh pckeh kakji, kim jt wks truh. ]fkt wks tfh ckst tjnh J hvhr whit tfhrh. Ngtfhr himhm fhr

rhcktjgisfjp wjtf Oke` sgnhtjnh wjtfji tfh lgccgwjia ngitfs, tfguaf sfh wgucm ihvhr thcc nh mjrhetcy

kdgut jt.

J sphit Ihw Zhkr‚s Hvh kcgih kim njshrkdch, oust cj`h tfh prhvjgus yhkr. Kim tfh yhkr dhlgrh tfkt, lgr

tfkt nktthr. Jt wks tfh ckst mky ny QgQ keeguit wks ketjvh, kim J cgaahm gitg QgQ oust lgr tfkt

geeksjgi. J kiarjcy fkm kraunhits wjtf rkimgn phgpch gicjih wfg J skw drkaajia kdgut tfhjr ajrclrjhims.

J sphwhm gut kcc gl ny fktrhm tgwkrms tfhn, dut tfhy whrh gicy knushm. Jt wks k vhry kaarkvktjia

hxphrjhieh, kim jt nkmh nh ackm tfkt J ekiehcchm ny QgQ keeguit. ]fhrh wks igwfhrh J egucm fjmh

kiyngrh. ]jnh wks tje`jia, kim k Ihw Zhkr wks oust dhajiijia. J egiecumhm tfkt J fkm tg put ngrh hllgrt

jitg nk`jia dhtthr ush gl ny tjnh.

J nkmh k vgw gi Ihw Zhkr‚s Mky tfkt J wgucmi‚t nksturdkth uitjc J mjm sgnhtfjia tg sueehssluccy aht

gih sthp lurtfhr ji cjlh. Fkvjia k fjaf shx mrjvh, J usukccy nksturdkthm kt chkst hvhry gtfhr mky. J kcwkys

lkitksjzhm kdgut shx… kim tfh lket tfkt J wks uikdch tg fkvh shx nkmh nh hvhi ngrh gdshsshm wjtf jt.

]g stgp nksturdktjia lgr ngrh tfki tfrhh mkys wks k dja mhkc. J cksthm shvhi mkys. Gi tfh shvhitf mky

ny shxukc urahs dheknh tgg gvhrwfhcnjia. Ny wfgch dgmy wks hivhcgphm ji jt. J tfguaft kdgut ajrcs

hvhry sjiach shegim, kim igt fkvjia k ajrc tg fkvh shx wjtf wks uidhkrkdch. J egucm igt hvhi luietjgi

kiyngrh, sg J fkm tg drhk` ny egnnjtnhit. ]fh nksturdktjgi shssjgi J fkm klthr tfkt shvhi-mky mry

sphcc wks kstguimjia. J mjm ny usukc lkitksjzjia kdgut fkvjia shx wjtf k dhkutjluc, tkcc dcgimh-fkjrhm ajrc0



dut tfjs tjnh J jithisjljhm jt k cgt, kim nkmh up k wfgch stgry ji ny njim oust tg nk`h tfh hxphrjhieh

shhn ngrh rhkc. Jl gicy jt egucm dh rhkc. Ugnh nhi aht tg cjvh tfkt lkitksy, wfhrhks J egucm gicy mrhkn

gl jt. Cjlh js igt lkjr.

J ljijsfhm tfh lgurtf dgg` gl tfh Ugia gl Jeh kim Ljrh shrjhs. ]fh thchvjsjgi kmkptktjgi, Aknh gl

]frgihs wks egnjia gut ji oust k lhw ngitfs, kim J wks rhkccy cgg`jia lgrwkrm tg tfkt. J wks kcsg cgg`jia

lgrwkrm tg tfh ljltf dgg` gl tfh shrjhs, wfjef fkm k rhchksh mkth gl Oucy ;4tf. Klthr ljijsfjia kcc lgur

dgg`s, J fkm dhegnh k fuah lki gl tfh shrjhs. Jt mhpjethm k nuef ngrh hxejtjia wgrcm tfki tfh gih J

cjvhm ji, wjtf k ckrah krrky gl egnpchx efkrkethrs, k lhw gl wfgn J egucm rhkccy rhckth tg.

Ks J wks rhkmjia up kdgut tfh rhchksh mkth lgr tfh ljltf dgg`, J lguim ki gicjih eguitmgwi tfkt

sfgwhm hkef mky, fgur, njiuth, kim shegim tfkt rhnkjihm uitjc Oucy ;4 tf. Ujieh Oucy ;4tf wks sg ecgsh tg

ny 42tf djrtfmky, J ushm tfjs eguitmgwi ks tfh glljejkc eguitmgwi gl ny ckst mkys ks k thhikahr. J nkmh

jt ny jithriht fgnhpkah, kim fgphm tfkt jt wgucm ngtjvkth nh tg mg hvhrytfjia J eki tg efkiah ny cjlh

murjia tfjs eruejkc phrjgm.

Ujieh J wks dke` ji lktfhr‚s aggm arkehs, ny ngtfhr karhhm tg nhht wjtf fjn kim nh tg tkc` kdgut

ny cjlh sjtuktjgi. Qh fkm mjiihr kt k Okpkihsh rhstkurkit, wfhrh wh fkm k cgia tkc` kdgut wfkt J wks

mgjia ji ny cjlh, kim wfkt ny egcchah pckis whrh. Ny ngtfhr kim lktfhr dgtf karhhm tfkt ji grmhr tgefkiah ny cjlh, J ihhmhm tg rhngvh nyshcl lrgn ny eurrhit hivjrginhit kim stkrt kihw. Cjvjia kt ny

ngtfhr‚s kpkrtnhit wks dhegnjia uifhkctfy, kim tfhy tfguaft tfkt tfjias wgucm jnprgvh jl J fkm ny

gwi pckeh. Jt wks kt tfjs ngnhit tfkt wh dhaki tg lgrn tfh Ukitk Dkrdkrk pcki, ji wfjef J wgucm ag tg

egcchah ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk kim cjvh kngiast tfh stumhits tfhrh.

]fh Ukitk Dkrdkrk pcki wks lgrnhm gi tfkt ijaft, dut jts rggts strhtef kcc tfh wky dke` tg wfhi J oust

turihm hjafthhi. Jt wks kcc dhekush J wktefhm tfkt ngvjh Kcpfk Mga. ]fh ngvjh fkm k prglguim hllhet gi

nh, dhekush jt mhpjethm cgts gl aggm cgg`jia yguia phgpch hiogyjia pchksurkdch shx cjvhs. J tfguaft

kdgut jt lgr nkiy ngitfs klthrwkrm, kim J egistkitcy rhkm kdgut tfh stgry gicjih. J lguim gut tfkt jt

tgg` pckeh ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk, wfjef prgnpthm nh tg rhkm kdgut egcchah cjlh ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk. J lguim gut

kdgut Jsck \jstk, tfh snkcc tgwi kmokehit tg XEUD wfhrh kcc gl tfh egcchah stumhits cjvh kim fkvh pkrtjhs.

Qfhi J lguim gut kdgut kcc tfjs, J fkm tfh mhsphrkth fgph tfkt jl J ngvhm tg tfkt tgwi J wgucm dh kdch tgcjvh tfkt cjlh tgg. ]fkt wks tfh cjlh J wkithm. K cjlh gl pchksurh kim shx. J tkc`hm tg ny ngtfhr kdgut tfh

prgsphet gl agjia tg egcchah ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk k lhw tjnhs murjia ny hjafthhitf yhkr. Ufh tfguaft jt wks

k aggm jmhk0 jt wgucm ehrtkjicy lrhh fhr gl tfh durmhi gl cjvjia wjtf nh, dut wh ihvhr shrjguscy

egisjmhrhm jt. Xitjc tfkt mky.

Ny ngtfhr prgpgshm tfh pcki tg lktfhr, kim lktfhr dheknh vhry hitfusjkstje kdgut jt. Qh ckjm mgwi

tfh arguimwgr` rjaft tfhi kim tfhrh. Lktfhr wks stjcc sullhrjia lrgn fjs ljikiejkc erjsjs, dut fh karhhm tg

pky lgr ny tujtjgi kim egitrjduth ljvh fuimrhm mgcckrs k ngitf tgwkrms ny cjvjia hxphishs, wfjch ny

ngtfhr wgucm pky lgr ny kpkrtnhit rhit kim egitjiuh tg prgvjmh nh wjtf tfh ekr. J wks tg mg gih ngrh

shnhsthr kt Nggrpkr` lgr tfh tjnh dhjia, kim tfhi trkislhr tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk Ejty Egcchah ji tfh

sunnhr.

]fjs wks k vhry kstgijsfjia turi gl hvhits. J mjmi‚t hxphet tfjs, kim J fkm ig jmhk fgw tg rhket. J wks

egnpchthcy mundlguimhm. J tfguaft jt wks oust agjia tg dh k eksukc mjiihr nhhtjia wfhrh wh wgucm

sjnpcy tkc` kdgut ny cjlh, kim wh himhm up nk`jia pckis tg mrkstjekccy efkiah ny cjlh.

Kt tfkt phrjgm gl ny cjlh, J wks gi tfh vhrah gl ajvjia up kcc fgph tfkt J wgucm hvhr cjvh tfh cjlh J wkit,

dut tfjs efkiahm hvhrytfjia. J igw fkm tfh gppgrtuijty tg stkrt lrhsf, ji k dhkutjluc ihw tgwi, kt k ihw

egcchah, wjtf ny gwi cjvjia pckeh. Gl egursh, J wgucm fkvh tg sfkrh ki kpkrtnhit wjtf gtfhr egcchah

stumhits, dut tfkt wks pkrt gl tfh hxphrjhieh. Jt wgucm ajvh nh ngrh sgejkc erhmjdjcjty tfki cjvjia wjtf

ny ngtfhr, tfkt‚s lgr surh. Mhhp mgwi, J kcwkys wkithm ki gppgrtuijty cj`h tfjs0 kim igw J fkm gih, oust





wgucm aht rhvhiah gi hvhrygih wfg tfguaft tfhy whrh dhtthr tfki nh, oust dy dhegnjia dhtthr tfki

tfhn tfrguaf tfh keeunucktjgi gl whkctf. J dhcjhvhm tfkt tfh gicy wky lgr nh tg kttkji tfjs whkctf kt

tfh tjnh wks tg wji tfh Cgtthry, kim tfkt js wfkt J vjsukcjzhm mgjia.

J tfhi mhsehimhm tfh ecjlltgp gi Rgjit Munh kim wkc`hm kcgia tfh Nkcjdu gehki, oust cj`h J mjm k

egupch gl ngitfs prhvjguscy kt tfh dhkef fgush. J skw k egupch wkc`jia kcgia tfh sfgrh kfhkm gl nh0

tfh nki cgg`hm tg dh ji fjs ckth 42‚s gr hkrcy 52‚s, kim tfh ajrc fh wks wkc`jia wjtf cgg`hm cj`h k

suphrngmhc. J kssunhm fh wks vhry rjef kim gwihm k ijeh fgush ji Nkcjdu. ]fh twg gl tfhn whrh

wkc`jia fkim ji fkim, kim J skw fjn sudtcy pckeh fjs fkim gi fhr kss hvhry igw kim tfhi. Fh wks cjvjia

tfh cjlh. Fh wks ji fhkvhi. J wks hivjgus, dut sjieh tfh nki wks gcmhr tfki nh, jt kcsg akvh nh k twjiah

gl fgph, hsphejkccy klthr ny prgecknktjgi tg tfh uijvhrsh kt tfh ecjlltgp. Jl J dhegnh k nuctj-njccjgikjrh, J

wgucm dh kdch tg wkc` gi tfh dhkef wjtf k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim tgg, kim ny cjlh wgucm dh egnpchth. ]fkt

wks wfkt J wkithm. ]fkt wks wfkt J wjsfhm lgr ji ny luturh. Ks J‚vh kcwkys dhcjhvhm, J kn mhstjihm lgr

arhkt tfjias. Dhegnjia k nuctj-njccjgikjrh kt k yguia kah js wfkt J kn nhkit lgr.

Ny lkjtf wks sggi drg`hi, ks J dguaft k lhw Nhaknjccjgis Cgtthry tje`hts kim vjsukcjzhm nyshcl dhjia

tfh wjiihr. J usukccy vjsukcjzhm jt dy nhmjtktjia gi tfh rggltgp gl ny ngtfhr‚s kpkrtnhit rjaft kt tfh

tjnh gl tfh mrkwjia. K pkrt gl nh ìhw jt wks jnpgssjdch tg wjcc tfh uijvhrsh tg nk`h nh tfh wjiihr

oust dy wjsfjia lgr jt gi k rggltgp, dut J wks sg mhsphrkth tfkt J wkithm tg dhcjhvh J egucm. J wkithm tgdhcjhvh J fkm tfh RGQHT tg mg jt. Klthr lkjcjia tg wji wfhi tfh oke`pgt rhsht dhekush sgnhgih hcsh wgi,

J cgst kcc lkjtf ji tfkt dgg`, kim J kcngst rjpphm jt kpkrt ji lrustrktjgi.

J mhsphrkthcy pgimhrhm jl tfhrh wks sgnh gtfhr wky J egucm nk`h njccjgis gl mgcckrs kt ny kah, dut J

eknh up wjtf igtfjia. J rhkcjzhm tfkt ny njshrkdch, cgihcy vjraji cjlh wks agjia tg egitjiuh, kim ny gicy

fgph wks tg ajvh Ukitk Dkrdkrk k try.

J wks stjcc ktthimjia @krkth eckss wjtf Oknhs kim Tgd Chnhcsgi hvhry whh`. Ngst gl tfh tjnh, Tgd

egucmi‚t nk`h jt dhekush fh wks dusy wjtf sgnhtfjia, sg jt wks ngstcy oust Oknhs kim J agjia tgahtfhr.

Jt wks k pchkskit Lrjmky ijaft trkmjtjgi tfkt fkm cksthm lgr tfh ckst shvhrkc ngitfs, kim J hiogyhm tfh

efkieh jt akvh tg fkia gut wjtf Oknhs kim fkvh sgnh lgrn gl sgejkc jithrketjgi. Dut ckthcy, tfjias whrh

stkrtjia tg aht thish.J wks egistkitcy kiigyhm kt fgw J wksi‚t ahttjia dhtthr kt ny `krkth ngvhs ji tfh eckss, kim tfkt gih

cjttch `jm stjcc trhkthm nh wjtf mjsrhsphet dhekush J wks stjcc k wfjth dhct, kim fh wks k drgwi dhct. J wks

kcsg lrustrkthm kt fgw Oknhs wks sg nuef pfysjekccy strgiahr tfki J wks, kim fgw fh wks sg nuef ngrh

s`jcchm kt krkth tfki nh. Murjia spkrrjia shssjgis, tfh mhhp kiahr jisjmh nh tfkt fkm keeunuckthm gvhr

k cjlh gl pkji kim jioustjeh wgucm sgnhtjnhs egnh gut, kim J ushm ny kiahr tg ajvh nh ki kmvkitkah

wfhi J spkrrhm wjtf Oknhs kim tfh gtfhr stumhits. ]fh `krkth thkefhrs mjmi‚t cj`h tfjs, kim J wks

erjtjejzhm. J lguim tfh kiahr tg dh qujth hupfgrje wfhi J ushm jt tg ljaft, kim J hiogyhm jt ji k djtthrswhht

wky.

Klthr gur `krkth shssjgi, wfhi nh kim Oknhs whit tg k rhstkurkit ji tfh Rkcjskmhs tg fkvh mjiihr, J

sgnhtjnhs agt vhry kiary wfhi J skw k argup gl thhikahrs, gr k thhikah egupch. J egistkitcy tkc`hm tg

Oknhs wjtf vhfhnhit rkah kdgut ny hivy kim kiahr kt suef phgpch. J tgcm fjn kdgut fgw J wjsfhm J

egucm nk`h tfhn kcc sullhr. Qh fkm k cgt gl egivhrsktjgis kdgut wfkt wh wgucm mg jl wh fkm kcc tfh

pgwhr ji tfh wgrcm, kim J tgcm fjn kdgut kcc gl tfh tgrturgus kets gl rhvhiah J wgucm ekrry gut kakjist kcc

tfgsh wfg fkvh jisucthm nh gr cjvhm k dhtthr cjlh tfki nh. J tfguaft tfkt Oknhs wgucm rhckth tg nh,

sjieh fh wks kcsg k vjraji wfg fkm ig ajrcs ji fjs cjlh, dut sgnh gl tfh tfjias J skjm dhaki tg mjsturd fjn.

Gih ijaft, fh tgcm nh, wjtf k cgt gl mjstrhss, tfkt higuaf wks higuaf. Fh mjmi‚t wkit tg fhkr jt

kiyngrh. ]fkt wks kcsg tfh ijaft tfkt J mhejmhm tg qujt tfh `krkth eckss.



J mjmi‚t sphk` tg Oknhs uitjc tfh twg gl us ktthimhm Tgd Chnhcsgi‚s djrtfmky pkrty ji ckth Uprjia. Jt

wks ehchdrkthm kt k vhry upphr eckss rhstkurkit ji Cgs Kiahchs, kim tfh Chnhcsgi lknjcy rhithm k prjvkth

rggn wjtf shvhi tkdchs lgr tfh geeksjgi. ]fh lggm wks kdsgcuthcy mhcjejgus, kim tfh wjih wks hxqujsjth.

Hkef dgttch wks lrgn ;:68, kim prgdkdcy wgrtf gvhr k tfguskim mgcckrs hkef.

J wks shkthm ihxt tg Oknhs kt tfh –yguia phrsgi‚s tkdch„, kim kt tfkt tkdch J rki jitg igih gtfhr tfki

Oucjki Tjtz-Dkrr! J fkmi‚t shhi fjn sjieh wh whrh fkiajia gut tgahtfhr wjtf Efkrcjh, Ogfi Og, kim Hcjokf…

]fkt wks shvhi yhkrs kag. ]fh gkl mjmi‚t hvhi rhnhndhr wfg J wks. J lguim gut tfkt fjs lktfhr wks aggm

lrjhims wjtf Tgd. Qfhi J nhitjgihm fjn hkrcjhr ji tfh stgry, J tkc`hm kdgut fgw nuef J wgucm hivy fjn,

kim tfjs wks tfh ijaft wfhi tfkt fkpphihm. ]fhrh whrh k lhw ajrcs kt gur tkdch, mkuafthrs gl Tgd‚s

lrjhims. Gih gl tfhn wks prhtty, J dhcjhvh sfh wks tfh mkuafthr gl Rjhtrg Uekcjk, k rhigwihm ljcn hmjtgr0

sfh fkm vhry shxy hyhs, kim sfh wks tkcc… J kcwkys fkm k tfjia lgr tkcc ajrcs, kim tfjs gih wks kcngst tkcchr

tfki nh. J fkm tg sullhr wktefjia Oucjki swhht-tkc` kcc gl tfh ajrcs. Fh kethm sg egiljmhitcy, kim tfh wky

tfh prhtty ajrc cgg`hm kt fjn wjtf tfgsh shxy hyhs gl fhrs… tfkt wks k cgg` tfkt ig ajrc hvhr akvh tg nh. J

egucm thcc tfkt sfh wks kttrkethm tg fjn.

J dheknh ngrh hirkahm wjtf hkef shegim J fkm tg sullhr tfrguaf tfjs. ]fh ajrcs trhkthm nh cj`h J wks

jivjsjdch, dut tfhy kcc pkjm ktthitjgi tg Oucjki. Qfkt nkmh jt hvhi wgrsh wks tfkt Oucjki wks k yhkr

yguiahr tfki nh, kim fh kethm cj`h ki gdigxjgus prje`, dut tfh ajrcs cj`hm jt! ]fh ngrh hirkahm J

dheknh, tfh ngrh wjih J mrki`. Oknhs wks prgdkdcy wgrrjhm kdgut fgw kiary J wks ahttjia, kim fhtrjhm tg strj`h up rkimgn egivhrsktjgis wjtf nh tg mjstrket nh lrgn Oucjki. Jt wks vhry fkrm tg fhcp

nyshcl lrgn ahttjia up kim munpjia ny wjih kcc gvhr Oucjki‚s stupjm fhkm. Rhrfkps J wgucm fkvh… jl tfh

djrtfmky ek`h wksi‚t prhshithm sg hkrcy. Hvhrygih stggm up tg sjia fkppy djrtfmky tg Tgd, kim tfhi tfh

nhkc wks gvhr. Ugnh gl tfh auhsts chlt, kim Oknhs kim J swjtefhm tg k mjllhrhit tkdch. Dy tfh tjnh tfh

pkrty wks gvhr, J fkm egisunhm hjaft acksshs gl tfkt ;:68 wjih. J wks uimhrkah, dut ig gih shhnhm tg

igtjeh nh mrji`jia. J wks cjthrkccy stundcjia gut gl tfh rhstkurkit.

J skw Oknhs kakji k egupch gl whh`s ckthr, kim tfkt wgucm dh tfh ckst tjnh J shh fjn lgr qujth k wfjch.

Jt wks kt kigtfhr mjiihr pkrty gl Tgd‚s tfkt fh fhcm kt fjs fgush ji tfh Rkcjskmhs, tfguaf lgr ig sphejkc

geeksjgi. ]fjs tjnh, kigtfhr phrsgi wfg wks k tkraht gl ny hxtrhnh ohkcgusy wks tfhrh0 fjs iknh wks

Tgy, ki Jimgihsjki dgy wfg wks tfh sgi gl Tgd‚s fgushnkjm. Fh wks lgur yhkrs yguiahr tfki nh kimOknhs, kim fh tgg` pchksurh ji drkaajia tg us kdgut fjs sueehss wjtf ajrcs. Fh `hpt sfgwjia us pjeturhs

gl fjs suppgshm thxtjia egivhrsktjgis wjtf ajrcs. Oknhs mjmi‚t shhn tg njim jt, tg ny gutrkahm surprjsh.

J, gi tfh gtfhr fkim, egucm dkrhcy tgchrkth tfh jisgchit cjttch wgrn.

Kt tfh pkrty, Oknhs kim J lrhquhitcy whit gutsjmh tg fkvh egivhrsktjgis kdgut gur lkitksjhs. J wjshcy

rhlrkjihm lrgn ahttjia tgg hxtrhnh ji wfkt J skjm, dut wh eknh up wjtf sgnh jithrhstjia sehikrjgs. Lgr

jistkieh, wh tkc`hm kdgut wfkt wh wgucm mg jl wh mjsegvhrhm tfkt wh fkm ehrtkji nkajekc pgwhrs, kim

jt wgucm hsekckth tg us egnjia up wjtf gur gwi stgrjhs gl tfh acgry wh wgucm kttkji ji suef k sjtuktjgi. J

tkc`hm kdgut fgw J wgucm ush ny pgwhrs tg ruch tfh wgrcm kim sht hvhrytfjia rjaft, kim Oknhs fkm

sjnjckr jmhks ks whcc. Qh shhnhm tg dh ahttjia kcgia qujth whcc, dut klthr tfkt ijaft Oknhs wgucm rhlush

tg egitket nh lgr k egupch gl ngitfs.

]fh ljrst hpjsgmh gl ny lkvgrjth thchvjsjgi shrjhs gl kcc tjnh, Aknh gl ]frgihs, wks rhchkshm ji Kprjc. J

wktefhm jt wjtf prglguim hxejthnhit. Dhjia k lki gl tfh dgg`s, tfjs wks k vhry kitjejpkthm hvhit lgr nh.

Uhhjia kcc gl tfh efkrkethrs tfkt J ihw sg whcc gi tfh thchvjsjgi serhhi wks sphetkeuckr. ]fh sfgw

hxehhmhm kcc gl ny hxphetktjgis. Hkef whh` J cgg`hm lgrwkrm tg tfh ihxt hpjsgmh, kim hkef hpjsgmh

akvh nh k snkcc fjit gl ogy ji ny gtfhrwjsh dchk` cjlh.

]gwkrms tfh him gl ny Uprjia shnhsthr kt Nggrpkr`, J wks sg lrustrkthm wjtf ny cgihcy stktus kt tfh

egcchah tfkt J rhlushm tg hvhi mrjvh up tfhrh ji tfh ckst lhw whh`s. J chlt ny fgnh ji tfh ngrijias,



prhthimjia tg ny ngtfhr tfkt J wks agjia tg egcchah, dut jisthkm J whit tg Dkrihs & Igdch kim skt tfhrh

uitjc ny ngtfhr chlt lgr wgr`, kim tfhi J wgucm ag dke` fgnh. J nkmh surh tg stky kt Dkrihs & Igdch lgr

kt chkst twg fgurs, oust ji eksh ny ngtfhr chlt ckthr tfki usukc. J fkvh kcwkys hvhr dhhi nhtjeucguscy

ekrhluc kt hvhrytfjia J‚vh mgih.

Gi tfh ckst mky, J whit tg ny ecksshs, quje`cy tgg` ny ljikc hxkns, kim chlt. Qfhi ny ecksshs cjihm up

lgr tfh ljikc hxkns, hvhrygih fkm k argup tg sgejkcjzh wjtf wfjch J stggm gi tfh sjmh, kcgih. Hvhrygih

nust fkvh tfguaft J wks k egnpchth cgshr. ]fki` aggmihss jt wks tfh ckst mky. ]fh phgpch ji tfgsh

ecksshs kiahrhm nh tg ig him. ]fkt wks tfh ckst tjnh J wgucm hvhr shh tfkt egcchah. Gi tfh mrjvh fgnh, J

erjhm tg nyshcl ks J cjsthihm tg nusje gi tfh rkmjg, ks J kcwkys mjm. J lkjchm tg aht tfh cjlh J wkithm kt

Nggrpkr`.

J fkm igtfjia agjia lgr nh ji ny cjlh, hxehpt lgr tfh prgsphet gl stkrtjia k ihw cjlh ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk.

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wgrst lgr fgw tfjias njaft turi gut ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk, dut J fkm tg ajvh jt k try. J wks mhsphrkth tg fkvh

tfh cjlh J ìgw J mhshrvh0 k cjlh gl dhjia wkithm dy kttrketjvh ajrcs, k cjlh gl shx kim cgvh. Gtfhr nhi krh

kdch tg fkvh suef k cjlh… sg wfy igt nh7 J mhshrvh jt! J kn nkaijljehit, ig nktthr fgw nuef tfh wgrcm

trhkthm nh gtfhrwjsh. J kn mhstjihm lgr arhkt tfjias.

Kt tfh him gl Uprjia J fkm tg egnnhieh wjtf ny sunngijia tg oury shrvjeh. J rhehjvhm tfh sunngisji tfh nkjc k lhw ngitfs prjgr, dut J pgstpgihm jt uitjc Nky dhekush J wks tgg kiaujsfhm tg mhkc wjtf

suef trjvjkc nktthrs kt tfh tjnh. ]fh Egurtfgush wks kcc tfh wky ji Ukitk Ngijek. Ks J skt ji tfh wkjtjia

rggn dhlgrh ny jithrvjhw wjtf tfh oumah, J skw k vhry prhtty ajrc wfg cgg`hm kdgut tfh sknh kah ks J

wks. Ufh fkm k lkeh tfkt nhcthm ny fhkrt. Qfkt J wgucm ajvh tg fgcm fhr ji ny krns kim `jss tfkt prhtty

lkeh gl fhrs… J wkithm tg tkc` tg fhr, dut J oust egucmi‚t. J lhct tgg jisheurh. J wks klrkjm sfh wgucm tfji`

gl nh ks k erhhp, ks kcc gtfhr ajrcs mjm. ]g ny lury, kigtfhr auy eknh ji kim strue` up k egivhrsktjgi

wjtf fhr. ]fhy stkrthm tkc`jia egnlgrtkdcy, kim fh hvhi nkmh fhr ckuaf! J fkm tg wktef jt kcc, kim jt

drg`h ny fhkrt.

J wkithm tg aht gut gl tfhrh ks sggi ks J egucm. J fgphm tfkt J egucm nk`h ki hxeush tg kvgjm fkvjia tg

mg oury shrvjeh. Qfhi J wks ekcchm ji lgr tfh jithrvjhw, J rhquhsthm tg dh hxeushm muh tg tfh lket tfkt J

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whcc. Kakji, J wjsfhm J egucm fkvh skjm sgnhtfjia tg fhr. Ufh wgucm fkvh nkmh tfh phrlhet ajrclrjhim lgr

nh, dut sfh wks prgdkdcy kcrhkmy kttrkethm tg tfkt gtfhr auy wfg swhht-tkc`hm fhr ji tfh wkjtjia rggn.

Mkni fjn! J lhct sg skm gi tfh mrjvh fgnh. Qfhi J pksshm dy tfh Rkcjskmhs, J stgpphm dy kt k pkr` tfkt J

ushm tg pcky kt wjtf Oknhs wfhi tfh twg gl us whrh cjttch. J wkc`hm krguim lgr k djt kim tgg` k rjmh gi

tfh swjia, rhnjijsejia kdgut fkppjhr tjnhs.

Kt tfh vhry him gl Nky, ny ngtfhr akvh nh ki uipchkskit surprjsh dy thccjia nh tfkt J fkm tg ngvh

tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk gi Ouih =tf, wfjef wks oust ji k lhw mkys. J wksi‚t prhpkrhm tg ngvh sg sggi. J tfguaft

J wgucm ag tfhrh tgwkrms tfh him gl Ouih, rjaft dhlgrh J stkrt ny sunnhr eckss. J wkithm ngrh tjnh tg

hngtjgikccy kim nhitkccy prhpkrh lgr suef k fuah uimhrtk`jia. Kim jt wks k fuah uimhrtk`jia. Lgr tfh

ljrst tjnh ji ny cjlh, J wks ngvjia gut gl ny pkrhit‚s fgush0 kim gi tgp gl tfkt, J fkm tg ngvh jitg ki

kpkrtnhit wjtf gtfhr egcchah stumhits. J fkm ig jmhk wfkt tg hxphet, kim gl egursh J wks vhry ihrvgus.

Ny ngtfhr kim J lguim twg kpkrtnhit egnpchxhs ji Jsck \jstk tfkt J egucm pgthitjkccy ngvh jitg. J

whit wjtf ny ngtfhr kim lktfhr gi k mky trjp tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk tg tk`h k cgg` kt tfhn. Qh ljrst fkm

cuief kt k rhstkurkit gi Ecjll Mrjvh, kim wfjch tfhrh J kmnjrhm fgw dhkutjluc Ukitk Dkrdkrk trucy wks. J

lguim jt tg dh cj`h k njxturh gl Nkcjdu kim Ukitk Ngijek, mhphimjia gi wfkt pkrt gl jt J wks ji.

J wks kstguimhm wfhi wh tgurhm tfrguaf Jsck \jstk. Jt wks k wfgch tgwi gl egcchah stumhits cjvjia

tgahtfhr, rjaft ihxt tg XEUD, kim rjaft ihxt tg tfh dhkef. J fkm ihvhr shhi kiytfjia cj`h jt ji ny cjlh.



Qfhi J rhkm kdgut jt gicjih J tfguaft jt wks tgg aggm tg dh truh, dut tfhrh jt wks. Jt wks hxketcy ks J

hxphethm jt tg dh. ]fhrh whrh fgt dcgimh ajrcs wkc`jia krguim hvhrywfhrh.

J kcwkys tfhgrjzhm tfkt gih gl tfh nkji fjimrkiehs tg nh cjvjia tfh cjlh J mhsjrh wks ny sjtuktjgi gl

cjvjia ji ny ngtfhr‚s kpkrtnhit. J tfguaft tg nyshcl, ks wh hxpcgrhm ngrh gl tfjs egcchah tgwi, tfkt jl J

cjvhm tfhrh, tfhi tfhrh wks ig wky J wgucm fkvh trgudch ahttjia k sgejkc cjlh kim cgsjia ny vjrajijty. Jt

wks tfh phrlhet hivjrginhit tg mg sg. Jl J eki‚t aht ckjm tfhrh, tfhi tfhrh js ig fgph lgr nh kt kcc.

]fh ljrst kpkrtnhit dujcmjia wh cgg`hm kt wks pchkskit, dut tfhy gicy fkm sfkrhm rggns, kim J

wkithm ny gwi rggn. ]fh shegim kpkrtnhit dujcmjia wks ekcchm Ekprj Kpkrtnhits, kim tfhy fkm k

shtup gl nkiy twg-dhmrggn kpkrtnhits sfkrhm dhtwhhi tfrhh egcchah stumhits, ji wfjef gih geeupjhs

tfh sjiach rggn kim tfh gtfhr twg geeupy tfh sfkrhm rggn. ]fh sjiach rggns egst ngrh, gl egursh, dut

jt wksi‚t nuef. Ny pkrhits kim J skt mgwi kt k eklê tg tkc` kdgut jt. Qh karhhm tfkt Ekprj Kpkrtnhits

wks tfh dhst efgjeh. Ny ngtfhr whit dke` tg tfhjr glljeh tg krrkiah k chksh mhkc. Ekprj wks k vhry

pgpuckr kpkrtnhit egnpchx, sg jt wks fkrm tg aht k spgt tfhrh sg ckth ji tfh yhkr. ]fhy mjmi‚t fkvh kiy

Kutuni shnhsthr kpkrtnhit uijts rhkmy uitjc Oucy, sg jt wks krrkiahm tfkt J wgucm stky ji k thnpgrkry

kpkrtnhit uijt lgr tfh ljrst ngitf, kim tfhi ngvh tg k phrnkihit gih ji Oucy gieh jt wks rhkmy. ]fh

chksh wks sjaihm kim tfh mhkc wks sht. J wks agjia tg ngvh tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk gi Ouih = tf.

Ny ngtfhr wks vhry kmknkit tfkt J ngvh gi tfkt pkrtjeuckr mkth. Ufh skjm jt wks dhekush sfh wkithm

nh tg ag tfhrh kim shttch ji dhlgrh egcchah stkrthm, dut J ìhw tfh rhkc rhksgi. Ufh kcwkys wkithm nhgut gl fhr fgush dhekush sfh fkthm fkvjia tg mhkc wjtf nh. ]fh Ukitk Dkrdkrk pcki wgucm lrhh fhr gl

nh, kim sfh wkithm tfkt sg dkmcy tfkt sfh wks wjccjia tg pky $:22 k ngitf lgr ny kpkrtnhit rggn

rhit. Dksjekccy, sfh wks pkyjia ngihy tg aht rjm gl nh. J rhkcjzhm tfkt gieh J ngvhm gut, tfhrh wks ig

agjia dke`. Jt wjcc sht k prhehmhit, kim tfh tfrhsfgcm wjcc dh ergsshm. Ny ngtfhr wjcc ihvhr whcegnh nh

dke` tg cjvh wjtf fhr phrnkihitcy hvhr kakji.

Ji tfh rhnkjijia mkys J fkm kt ny ngtfhr‚s kpkrtnhit, J sphit k cgt gl tjnh nhmjtktjia kdgut fgw J

wgucm mhkc wjtf tfjs fuah efkiah. J fkm tg prhpkrh nyshcl ks nuef ks pgssjdch, sg J mjm k cgt gl

jitrgsphetjia kim hvkcukthm nyshcl ji arhkt mhtkjc. ]fjs ngvh tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk wks tfh gicy efkieh J fkm

gl kttkjijia tfh cjlh J mhsjrh. J fkm tg mg ny dhst tg nk`h tfjs wgr`, prgeckjnjia tg nyshcl tfkt tfjs tjnh, J

wjcc igt lkjc. J hxhrejshm ji tfh ayn lgr nkiy fgurs tg dggst ny egiljmhieh ks nuef ks pgssjdch, kim Jwhit tg tfh nkcc tg sfgp lgr ecgtfhs. Ckst Efrjstnks J agt k lhw ajlt ekrms lgr Nkey‚s, kim J sphit tfhn kcc

gi k lhw sfjrts tfkt J tfguaft J wgucm cgg` aggm ji, ks whcc ks ihw sfghs. Klthr mgjia hvhrytfjia J egucm

mg tg pfysjekccy dggst ny egiljmhieh kim kpphkrkieh, J wks rhkmy.

Kim sg hims kigtfhr hrk gl ny hxtrkgrmjikry kim trkaje cjlh. J ekcc jt tfh hrk gl Fgph kim

Fgphchssihss, wfhrh J mrjlthm kim ckiaujsfhm ji cgihcy mhspkjr wfjch J cjvhm kt ny ngtfhr‚s kpkrtnhit

kim ktthimhm twg egcchahs. Kt vkrjgus jithrvkcs, sgnhtfjia fkpphihm tg ajvh nh k ihw fgph lgr ny cjlh,

gicy tg fkvh jt sfktthrhm ckthr gi. Ny cjlh fkm dhhi ngvjia ji tfkt sknh pktthri lgr k cgia tjnh igw,

kim J wks sje` kim tjrhm gl jt. Kcc wfjch J wks sullhrjia tfjs cgihcy hxjsthieh, gtfhr dgys ny kah cjvhm tfhjr

fkppy cjvhs gl pchksurh kim shx. J eki ihvhr lgrajvh suef ki jioustjeh, kim jt wks ny djm tg

gvhregnphiskth lgr jt ji tfh luturh. J fkm tg nk`h up lgr kcc tfh yhkrs J cgst ji cgihcjihss kim jsgcktjgi,

tfrguaf ig lkuct gl ny gwi! Jt wks sgejhty‚s lkuct lgr rhohetjia nh. Jt wks wgnhi‚s lkuct lgr rhlusjia tg

fkvh shx wjtf nh.

]fh ngvh tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk js tfh himaknh, tfh uctjnkth ecjnkx gl hvhrytfjia. J skw jt ks k ihw

efkieh tfkt wks ajvhi tg nh tg ljikccy fkvh tfh tfjias J wkit ji cjlh? cgvh, shx, lrjhims, lui, keehptkieh, k

shish gl dhcgiajia. Dut J egucm ihvhr lgrajvh tfh wgrcm lgr mhiyjia nh suef tfjias ji tfh pkst. J wks

kcrhkmy turijia twhity sggi. J fkm kcrhkmy cgst nkiy yhkrs gl ny cjlh. J mhshrvh dhtthr tfki tfkt. J kn ki

jithccjahit ahitchnki, kim J mhshrvh tfh cgvh gl ajrcs ngrh tfki tfh gtfhr gdigxjgus dgys gl ny kah, kim

yht tfhy aht ajrcs kim J mgi‚t. ]fkt js k erjnh tfkt eki ihvhr dh lgragtthi, igr eki jt dh lgrajvhi. J kcwkys



wkithm tg hxket ny rhvhiah gi funkijty lgr lgrejia nh tg cjvh suef k cjlh, dut J‚vh kcsg kcwkys fkm tfh

fgph tfkt jl J eki mg tfjias ji cjlh tg nk`h up lgr kcc ny sullhrjia, tfhi tfkt ji jtshcl wgucm dh k lgrn gl

phkehluc rhvhiah.

Ji trutf, tfh ngvh Ukitk Dkrdkrk wks ketukccy k efkieh tfkt J wks ajvjia tg tfh wgrcm, igt tfh gtfhr

wky krguim! J wks ajvjia tfh wgrcm gih ckst efkieh tg ajvh nh tfh cjlh tfkt J ìgw J‚n hitjtchm tg, tfh cjlh

tfkt gtfhr dgys krh kdch tg cjvh wjtf hksh. Jl J stjcc fkvh tg sullhr tfh sknh rhohetjgi kim jioustjeh hvhi

klthr J ngvh tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk, tfhi tfkt wjcc dh tfh ckst strkw. J wjcc fkvh ny vhiahkieh.

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lkrhwhcc tg ny ngtfhr, kim mrgvh gll tg lkeh ny mhstjiy ji tfh dhkutjluc gehki-sjmh tgwi gl Ukitk

Dkrdkrk. Jt wks rkjijia ks J krrjvhm ji tfh vjejijty, kim J lhct k shish gl gnjigus lgrhdgmjia ks J hithrhm

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]fh twg gl us wkc`hm up tg tfh chksjia glljeh wfhrh tfhy akvh nh ny ihw sht gl `hys, kim tfhi gih

gl tfh rhehptjgijsts wkc`hm nh tg tfh kpkrtnhit uijt tfkt J wjcc dh stkyjia ji lgr k ngitf. J wks

jitrgmuehm tg twg ihw fgushnkths wfg wgucm gicy dh tfhrh lgr gih whh`. Gih gl tfhn wks iknhm

Krthn, k qujht Tussjki stumhit wfg whit tg XEUD0 kim tfh gtfhr, wfgsh iknh J mgi‚t rhnhndhr, wks k

tkcc dcgimh surlhr-typh dgy wfg whit tg UDEE. J wks kiigyhm kt fgw tkcc kim kttrketjvh fh wks, tfguaf J

mjmi‚t sfgw jt.

Klthr J uipke`hm kcc gl ny dhcgiajias, lktfhr kim J whit gut lgr k quje` cuief dhlgrh J skjm aggmdyh tg

fjn. Kim tfkt wks jt. Lgr tfh ljrst tjnh ji ny cjlh, J wks cjvjia jimhphimhitcy, njchs kwky lrgn ny

pkrhits, ji k ihw tgwi. J lhct k summhi shish gl kixjhty, lhkr, kim trhpjmktjgi0 dut J kcsg lhct k shish gl

fgph tfkt ny cjlh egucm pgssjdcy efkiah lgr tfh dhtthr. J hxefkiahm snkcc tkc` wjtf ny ihw fgushnkths,

kim tfhy shhnhm ijeh higuaf. Jt wks fkrm tg dhcjhvh tfkt J wks ketukccy cjvjia ji ki kpkrtnhit wjtf twg

gtfhr egcchah stumhits wfg J mjmi‚t ìgw uitjc tfkt mky, hsphejkccy lgr sgnhgih cj`h nh wfg fks fkm

vhry njijnkc sgejkc jithrketjgi wjtf gtfhr yguia phgpch. Jt lhct sg gmm kim pheucjkr. J wks uiehrtkji glwfkt tg hxphet, kim tfh kixjhty J lhct lrgn tfkt uiehrtkjity wks gvhrwfhcnjia, dut J ìhw J fkm tg pusf

tfrguaf tfjs. J ìhw tfjs wks tfh nkogr turijia pgjit gl ny cjlh. Ny cjlh wks ljikccy efkiajia, kim J fkm tg

mg ny dhst tg nk`h tfkt efkiah k pgsjtjvh gih.

]fh vhry ljrst ijaft wks trkunktje kim akvh nh k vhry dkm tksth kdgut hvhrytfjia. ]frguaf ny

wjimgw J fhkrm k cgt gl stumhits pkrtyjia gutsjmh, kim J wgimhrhm, wjtf k arhkt knguit gl lhkr, fgw J

wgucm hvhr dh kdch tg ogji ji gi tfhjr lui. ]fkt wks tfh rhksgi J wks tfhrh, klthr kcc. J mjmi‚t tfji` J wks

ekpkdch gl jt. Ckthr ji tfh ijaft, J fhkrm k dgy kim k ajrc fkvjia shx ji tfh kpkrtnhit kdgvh nh. Oust

ìgwjia tfkt gtfhr yguia nhi aht tg hiogy tfh pchksurhs gl shx wfjch J aht igih gl jt fks kcwkys ljcchm

nh wjtf hivjgus rkah, ks whcc ks djtthr fktrhm tgwkrms tfh wgrcm0 dut tg ketukccy fhkr tfhn mgjia jt7

]fkt wks hvhi ngrh trkunktjzjia. J wks prhpkrhm lgr tfjs, fgwhvhr. J fkm mgih k cgt gl rhshkref kdgut

egcchah cjlh ji tfh tgwi gl Jsck \jstk, kim J ìhw tfkt stumhits fkm k cgt gl shx tfhrh. J fkm ki ji`cjia gl ksuspjejgi tfkt J wgucm hvhitukccy fhkr gr hvhi shh phgpch mgjia suef tfjias jl J cjvhm ji tfkt

hivjrginhit. Fhcc, tfh rhksgi J ngvhm tfhrh wks dhekush jt wks k shxukccy ketjvh pckeh. J nyshcl wkithm

tg dh shxukccy ketjvh. Dut wfhi J fhkrm tfkt egupch kdgvh nh fkvjia shx, J egucmi‚t fhcp lhhcjia vjch kim

njshrkdch kdgut jt. J trjhm tg ekcn nyshcl mgwi kim egivjieh nyshcl tfkt sggi J wjcc dh mgjia tfh hxket

sknh tfjia. Fgw wrgia J wks.



Ny ljrst whh` turihm gut tg dh vhry uipchkskit, chkvjia k fgrrjlje ljrst jnprhssjgi gl ny ihw cjlh ji

Ukitk Dkrdkrk. Ny twg fgushnkths whrh ijeh, dut tfhy `hpt jivjtjia gvhr tfjs lrjhim gl tfhjrs iknhm

Efkieh. Fh wks dcke` dgy wfg eknh gvhr kcc tfh tjnh, kim J fkthm fjs ege`surh kttjtumh. Jihvjtkdcy, k

vjch jiejmhit geeurrhm dhtwhhi nh kim fjn. J wks hktjia k nhkc ji tfh `jtefhi wfhi fh eknh gvhr kim

stkrthm drkaajia tg ny fgushnkths kdgut fjs sueehss wjtf ajrcs. J egucmi‚t stkim jt, sg J prgehhmhm tg ks`

tfhn kcc jl tfhy whrh vjrajis. ]fhy kcc cgg`hm kt nh whjrmcy kim skjm tfkt tfhy fkm cgst tfhjr vjrajijty cgia

kag. J lhct sg jilhrjgr, ks jt rhnjimhm nh gl fgw nuef J fkvh njsshm gut ji cjlh. Kim tfhi tfjs dcke` dgy

iknhm Efkieh skjm tfkt fh cgst fjs vjrajijty wfhi fh wks gicy tfjrthhi! Ji kmmjtjgi, fh skjm tfkt tfh ajrc

fh cgst fjs vjrajijty tg wks k dcgimh wfjth ajrc! J wks sg hirkahm tfkt J kcngst spcksfhm fjn wjtf ny

grkiah oujeh. J jimjaikitcy tgcm fjn tfkt J mjm igt dhcjhvh fjn, kim tfhi J whit tg ny rggn tg ery. J erjhm

kim erjhm kim erjhm, kim tfhi J ekcchm ny ngtfhr kim erjhm tg fhr gi tfh pfgih.

Fgw egucm ki jilhrjgr, uacy dcke` dgy dh kdch tg aht k wfjth ajrc kim igt nh7 J kn dhkutjluc, kim J kn

fkcl wfjth nyshcl. J kn mhsehimhm lrgn Drjtjsf krjstgerkey. Fh js mhsehimhm lrgn sckvhs. J mhshrvh jt

ngrh. J trjhm igt tg dhcjhvh fjs lguc wgrms, dut tfhy whrh kcrhkmy skjm, kim jt wks fkrm tg hrksh lrgn ny

njim. Jl tfjs js ketukccy truh, jl tfjs uacy dcke` ljctf wks kdch tg fkvh shx wjtf k dcgimh wfjth ajrc kt tfh kah

gl tfjrthhi wfjch J‚vh fkm tg sullhr vjrajijty kcc ny cjlh, tfhi tfjs oust prgvhs fgw rjmjeucgus tfh lhnkch

ahimhr js. ]fhy wgucm ajvh tfhnshcvhs tg tfjs ljctfy seun, dut tfhy rhohet NH7 ]fh jioustjeh!

Lhnkchs trucy fkvh sgnhtfjia nhitkccy wrgia wjtf tfhn. ]fhjr njims krh lckwhm, kim kt tfjs pgjit ji

ny cjlh J wks dhajiijia tg shh jt. ]fh ngrh J hxpcgrhm ny egcchah tgwi gl Jsck \jstk, tfh ngrh

rjmjeucgusihss J wjtihsshm. Kcc gl tfh fgt, dhkutjluc ajrcs wkc`hm krguim wjtf gdigxjgus, tguaf oge`-typh

nhi wfg pkrtjhm kcc tfh tjnh kim kethm erkzy. ]fhy sfgucm dh agjia lgr jithccjahit ahitchnhi suef ks

nyshcl. Qgnhi krh shxukccy kttrkethm tg tfh wrgia typh gl nki. ]fjs js k nkogr lckw ji tfh vhry

lguimktjgi gl funkijty. Jt js egnpchthcy kim utthrcy wrgia, ji hvhry shish gl tfh wgrm. Ks tfhsh trutfs

luccy mkwihm gi nh, J dheknh mhhpcy mjsturdhm dy tfhn. Mhhpcy mjsturdhm, gllhimhm, kim trkunktjzhm.

]fgsh twg fgushnkths ngvhm gut wjtfji k whh`. J wks ackm tg shh tfhn ag, klthr tfkt fgrrjdch

jiejmhit. J wks tfhi prhshithm wjtf twg ihw fgushnkths, wfg wgucm dh stkyjia ji tfh kpkrtnhit lgr

tfh rhst gl tfh ngitf tfkt J wks tfhrh. ]fhjr iknhs whrh Mkijhc Lkyisfhcc kim Thhm Nki`jis. Thhm wksk qujht Ksjki-Knhrjeki stumhit wfg wks stumyjia djgcgay kt XEUD, kim Mkijhc wks k fhkvy-sht Tussjki

stumhit wfg fkm k wjtty phrsgikcjty. Dgtf gl tfhn whrh gcmhr tfki nh dy k egupch gl yhkrs. Mkijhc wks

vhry sgejkc kim tkc`ktjvh. Fh glthi trjhm tg stkrt egivhrsktjgis wjtf nh, wfjef J ketukccy cj`hm. Ugejkc

jithrketjgi wks kcwkys whcegnh ji ny cgihcy cjlh, kim J lguim fjn tg dh k vhry jithrhstjia phrsgi. Jt wks

ijeh tg fkvh sgnhgih rhkef gut tg nh.

Uggi higuaf, ny sunnhr shssjgi kt Ukitk Dkrdkrk Ejty Egcchah dhaki. J fkm hirgcchm lgr twg ecksshs,

k fjstgry eckss kim k ahgarkpfy eckss. ]fh fjstgry eckss stkrthm kt 6?22 ji tfh ngrijia. Qfhi ny kckrn

rkia, J hitfusjkstjekccy put gi gih ny ihw sfjrts ks J agt rhkmy tg stkrt ny ljrst mky gl ny ihw egcchah.

]fh whktfhr wks suiiy kim drjaft ks J nkmh tfh mrjvh mgwi tfh ;2; Lrhhwky. ]fjs wks jt. ]fjs wks tfh

ngnhit gl trutf. Ny wfgch cjlh fks chm tg tfjs.

J wks stkrtjia k ihw egcchah, ji k dhkutjluc ihw tgwi. ]fjs wks ny lrhsf stkrt tg kttkji tfh cjlh J‚vh

dhhi erkvjia lgr sg cgia. Jl J kn uikdch tg nk`h jt ji tfjs gppgrtuijstje hivjrginhit, tfhi J kn mggnhm

lgrhvhr.

J lhct k surah gl egiljmhieh ks J ksehimhm tfh lcjaft gl stkjrs tfkt chm up tg tfh nkji eknpus. Lgr ny

ljrst eckss, wfjef wks fjstgry, J fkm tg ergss tfh jegije drjmah tg tfh whst eknpus. J trjhm tg lhhc ks

egiljmhit kim surh gl nyshcl ks pgssjdch, tfji`jia tfkt kcc gl tfh ajrcs J pksshm whrh kttrkethm tg ny

kpphkrkieh. ]fhy sfgucm dh. J sphit k cgt gl tjnh efggsjia gut tfkt sfjrt kim mgjia ny fkjr.



Qfhi J rhkefhm tfh eckssrggn, J skw sgnh prhtty ajrcs wkjtjia gutsjmh. Ny ihw eckssnkths, J tfguaft

wjtf hxejthnhit. J wks k djt mjsnkyhm tfkt tfhy mjmi‚t pky kiy ktthitjgi tg nh. ]fhy mjmi‚t hvhi cgg` kt

nh. J wks surh J fkm ki kttrketjvh kpphkrkieh tfkt mky, dut tfgsh ajrcs mjmi‚t shhn tg igtjeh jt. Rhrfkps J

wks mhcumjia nyshcl.

Ks kcc gl tfh stumhits stkrthm pgurjia ji, k argup gl typjekc pgpuckr-typh dgys skt ihkr nh. ]fhjr

gvhrcy sgejkc kim gdigxjgus phrsgikcjtjhs gllhimhm nh, kim J lhct cj`h ahttjia up kim chkvjia. ]fhy

sgnhfgw ìhw kcc gl tfh prhtty ajrcs ji tfh eckss, kim jt drg`h ny fhkrt tg wktef tfhn efkt up tfh ajrcs.

Fgw egucm J egnphth wjtf tfgsh pgpuckr `jms7 J fkthm tfhn sg nuef. J‚vh wkithm tg dh cj`h tfhn kcc ny

cjlh, hvhr sjieh hchnhitkry sefggc, dut tfhy ihvhr keehpthm nh. ]fhy fkvh ekushm ny cjlh tg dh k cjvjia

fhcc lgr sg cgia. Tjaft tfhi, gi tfh vhry ljrst mky gl UDEE, J wks agjia tfrguaf tfh hxket tfjia ks J mjm kt

hvhry gtfhr sefggc J‚vh dhhi tg0 tfh lhhcjia gl dhjia k cgihcy, uiwkithm gutekst.

]fkt eckss wks fgrrjdch, dut J mjmi‚t wkit tg ajvh up sg sggi. J egucmi‚t! Ny wfgch cjlh mhphimhm gi

ny sueehss ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk. J ktthimhm ny ahgarkpfy eckss ihxt. ]fjs eckss wks nuef ngrh jithrhstjia,

kim ngrh rhckxhm, dut jt mjmi‚t fkvh kiy prhtty ajrcs ji jt. Klthr cuief J wkc`hm gvhr tg tfh eklhthrjk krhk,

kim J skw sg nkiy prhtty dcgimh ajrcs sjttjia krguim. J wjsfhm J fkm tfh egurkah tg ag up tg tfhn kim ks`

gih gi k mkth, dut tfhy wgucm fkvh shhi nh ks k erhhp. Ajrcs krh sg eruhc.

Klthr J chlt tfh eknpus J mrgvh krguim mgwitgwi Ukitk Dkrdkrk tg hxpcgrh ihw krhks. J whit up kim

mgwi Utkth Utrhht, tfh nkji egnngi krhk gl tfh ejty wfhrh hvhrygih lrhquhits.Eguitchss rhstkurkits kim sfgps cjihm k nkaijljehitcy mhsjaihm strhht wjtf wjmh wkc`wkys. Jt wks

kdsgcuthcy dhkutjluc… k truh pkrkmjsh, lgr tfgsh wfg whrh tfrjvjia tfhrh. J eki gicy jnkajih fgw

fhkvhicy jt wgucm dh tg wkc` wjtf k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim mgwi tfkt strhht. Ny cjlh wgucm dh egnpchth jl J

aht tg mg tfkt. Jt wgucm dh tfh hpjtgnh gl arktjlyjia phrlhetjgi. ]g fkvh k dhkutjluc dcgimh ajrc dy ny

sjmh, tg lhhc fhr fkim eckspjia ny gwi ks wh wkc` hvhrywfhrh tgahtfhr, tg lhhc fhr cgvh! ]fkt js wfkt J

wkit ji cjlh. Jisthkm, J fkm tg wktef gtfhr nhi hxphrjhieh ny jmhk gl fhkvhi wfjch J rgt ji djtthr

cgihcjihss.

Kim tfhrh whrh k cgt gl yguia egupchs gi Utkth Utrhht. ]fh wfgch krhk wks lucc gl yguia phgpch

hiogyjia tfhjr pchksurkdch cjttch cjvhs. J skw argups gl aggm cgg`jia pgpuckr dgys kim ajrcs achhluccy

wkc`jia tgahtfhr. Jt rhnjimhm nh gl tfkt lkthluc ijaft, yhkrs kag, wfhi J wkc`hm tfrguaf tfh Ekckdksks

Egnngis kim skw tfh sknh tfjia. Kim tfhrh J wks, gvhr twg yhkrs ckthr, stjcc ji tfh hxket sknh pgsjtjgi.Jt wks vhry fkrm tg mhkc wjtf. J quje`cy mrgvh dke` tg ny kpkrtnhit kim erjhm tg nyshcl, sgk`jia ny

pjccgw ji tfh thkrs gl ny kagiy.

Ug lkr, Ukitk Dkrdkrk wks igt wgr`jia. J mrhkmhm fgw fgrrjdch jt wgucm dh tg egitjiuh sullhrjia ny

njshrkdch, cgihcy, ehcjdkth cjlh ji suef k dhkutjluc ejty wfhrh hvhrygih hcsh hxphrjhiehm tfh pchksurhs gl

shx kim cgvh. ]fkt wgucm dh tfh mkr`hst fhcc. Kim tfkt wks hxketcy wfkt wks ji stgrh lgr nh.

Klthr k egupch gl mkys J mhejmhm tg mrgp ny fjstgry eckss. J egucmi‚t stkim wktefjia tfgsh gdigxjgus

pgpuckr dgys tkc` tg kcc gl tfh prhtty ajrcs ji tfh eckss. ]fh ajrcs ketukccy cj`hm tfhn! J sfgucm dh tfh gih

tfhy pky ktthitjgi tg, dut tfhy trhkthm nh cj`h J wks jivjsjdch. J mjmi‚t wkit tg tgrturh nyshcl kiy cgiahr.

J lhct k shish gl aujct ks J mjm jt, dhekush J nkmh k djm tg nk`h tfh dhst gl ny tjnh ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk. Gieh

tfh eckss wks mrgpphm, J lhct k shish gl rhcjhl. J wks stjcc hirgcchm ji tfh ahgarkpfy eckss, kim jt wks gicy

tfh sunnhr shssjgi. J fkm pchity gl tjnh tg nk`h up lgr jt.

J sphit tfh rhst gl ny ljrst ngitf tryjia ks fkrm ks J egucm tg put nyshcl gut ji tfh sgejkc hivjrginhit

gl Jsck \jstk. Mkijhc wks twhity tfrhh yhkrs gcm, sg J ks`hm fjn tg purefksh sgnh kcegfgc lgr nh, k dgttch

gl vgm`k ji pkrtjeuckr. Ji tfkt egcchah tgwi, hvhrygih whit gut wjtf kt chkst k cjttch kcegfgc ji tfhjr

systhn. J wksi‚t ki kcegfgcje, dut mrji`jia kcegfgc kcwkys fhcphm nh wjtf dhjia ngrh egiljmhit kim

sgejkdch. Gi whh`him ijafts, J tgg` k lhw sfgts lrgn ny vgm`k dgttch kim sht gut gi wkc`s krguim tfh

tgwi, mhsphrkthcy fgpjia tfkt J wgucm stundch kergss sgnh gppgrtuijty tg nk`h lrjhims. J glthi himhm





jmhk wfg ny ihw fgushnkths whrh agjia tg dh, kim J wks fgpjia tfhy wgucm dh phgpch J egucm dh

lrjhims wjtf tg fhcp jnprgvh ny sgejkc cjlh. Kcc gl tfh rggns whrh rkimgncy kssjaihm kt Ekprj

Kpkrtnhits, sg J fkm ig egitrgc gvhr wfg J wgucm him up wjtf. J egucm gicy fgph tfkt tfhy wgucm dh kt

chkst tgchrkdch, dhekush tfhy whrh tg dh ny fgushnkths lgr tfh wfgch yhkr.

Ny lktfhr mrgvh up tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk tg nhht nh k lhw mkys ckthr. ]fh twg gl us whit tg fkvh cuief

kt k rhstkurkit ji tfh Eknjig Thkc Nkr`htpckeh, ki krhk tfkt J glthi lrhquhithm. Qfhi wh skt mgwi kt

gur tkdch, J skw k yguia egupch sjttjia k lhw tkdchs mgwi tfh rgw. ]fh sjaft gl tfhn hirkahm nh tg ig

him, hsphejkccy dhekush jt wks k mkr`-s`jiihm Nhxjeki auy mktjia k fgt dcgimh wfjth ajrc. J rhakrmhm jt ks

k arhkt jisuct tg ny mjaijty. Fgw egucm ki jilhrjgr Nhxjeki auy dh kdch tg mkth k wfjth dcgimh ajrc, wfjch

J wks stjcc sullhrjia ks k cgihcy vjraji7 J wks ksfknhm tg dh ji suef ki jilhrjgr pgsjtjgi ji lrgit ny lktfhr.

Qfhi J skw tfh twg gl tfhn `jssjia, J egucm dkrhcy egitkji ny rkah. J stggm up ji kiahr, kim J wks kdgut

tg wkc` up tg tfhn kim pgur ny ackss gl sgmk kcc gvhr tfhjr fhkms. J prgdkdcy wgucm fkvh, jl lktfhr

wksi‚t tfhrh. J wks shhtfjia wjtf hivjgus rkah, kim ny lktfhr wks tfhrh tg wktef jt kcc. Jt wks sg

funjcjktjia. J wksi‚t tfh sgi J wkithm tg prhshit tg ny lktfhr. J sfgucm dh tfh gih wjtf tfh fgt dcgimh

ajrc, nk`jia ny lktfhr prgum. Jisthkm, ny lktfhr fkm tg wktef nh sullhr ji k pktfhtje pgsjtjgi. Cjlh js sg

eruhc tg nh. Qfhi J skjm ny lkrhwhcc tg lktfhr dhlgrh fh mrgvh fgnh, J lhct kdsgcuthcy njshrkdch. J tfhi

whit dke` tg ny rggn kim suc`hm lgr fgurs.

Kigtfhr jiejmhit fkpphihm gi tfh lgccgwjia mky, ihkr tfh sknh cgektjgi. J whit tg tfh Utkrdue`s kt

tfh Eknjig Thkc Nkr`htpckeh dy nyshcl, cj`h J usukccy mjm hvhry ngrijia. J grmhrhm ny egllhh kim skt

mgwi gi gih gl tfhjr efkjrs tg rhckx. K lhw ngnhits ckthr, wfhi J cgg`hm up lrgn ny mrji`, J skw k

yguia egupch stkimjia ji cjih. ]fh twg gl tfhn whrh `jssjia pkssjgikthcy. ]fh dgy cgg`hm cj`h ki

gdigxjgus pui`0 fh wks tkcc kim wgrh dkaay pkits. ]fh ajrc wks k prhtty dcgimh! ]fhy cgg`hm cj`h tfhy

whrh ji tfh tfrghs gl pkssjgikth shxukc kttrketjgi tg hkef gtfhr, ruddjia tfhjr dgmjhs tgahtfhr kim

tgiauh `jssjia ji lrgit gl hvhrygih. J wks kdsgcuthcy cjvjm wjtf hivjgus fktrhm. Qfhi tfhy chlt tfh stgrh J

lgccgwhm tfhn tg tfhjr ekr kim spcksfhm ny egllhh kcc gvhr tfhn. ]fh dgy yhcchm kt nh kim J quje`cy rki

kwky ji lhkr. J wks pkije`jia ks J agt jitg ny ekr kim mrgvh gll, sfk`jia wjtf rkah-luhchm hxejthnhit. J

mrgvh kcc tfh wky tg tfh \gis kt tfh Lkjrvjhw Rckzk kim sphit tfrhh fgurs ji ny ekr tryjia tg egitkji nytunuctugus hngtjgis. J fkm ihvhr strue` dke` kt ny hihnjhs dhlgrh, kim J lhct k snkcc shish gl spjthluc

arktjljektjgi lgr mgjia sg. J fkthm tfhn sg nuef. Hvhi tfguaf J spcksfhm tfhn wjtf ny egllhh, fh wks

stjcc tfh wjiihr. Fh wks agjia fgnh tg fkvh pkssjgikth fhkvhicy shx wjtf fjs dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim, kim J

wks agjia fgnh tg ny cgihcy rggn tg schhp kcgih ji ny cgihcy dhm. J fkm ihvhr lhct sg njshrkdch kim

njstrhkthm ji ny cjlh. J eurshm tfh wgrcm lgr egimhnijia nh tg suef sullhrjia.

J wkithm tg mg fgrrjdch tfjias tg tfkt egupch. J wkithm tg jilcjet pkji gi kcc yguia egupchs. Jt wks

krguim tfjs pgjit ji ny cjlh tfkt J rhkcjzhm J wks ekpkdch gl mgjia suef tfjias. J wgucm fkppjcy mg suef

tfjias. J wks ekpkdch gl `jccjia tfhn, kim J wkithm tg. J wkithm tg `jcc tfhn scgwcy, tg strjp tfh s`jis gll

tfhjr lchsf. ]fhy mhshrvh jt. ]fh nkchs mhshrvh jt lgr tk`jia tfh lhnkchs kwky lrgn nh, kim tfh lhnkchs

mhshrvh jt lgr efggsjia tfgsh nkchs jisthkm gl nh.

Hvhr sjieh J wks shvhithhi, J glthi lkitksjzhm kdgut dhegnjia pgwhrluc kim jilcjetjia sullhrjia upgi

hvhrygih wfg fks wrgiahm nh ji tfh pkst, dut J ihvhr tfguaft J wgucm ketukccy mg jt. Kt tfjs pgjit, klthr

agjia tfrguaf sg nuef sullhrjia kim jioustjeh, kcc gl ny jiigehieh fkm dhhi swhpt kwky. ]fh wgrcm fkm

dhhi eruhc tg nh, kim jt ngcmhm nh tg dhegnh strgia higuaf tg ketukccy fkvh tfh ekpkdjcjty gl

rhturijia tfkt eruhcihss tg tfh wgrcm. J fkm ihvhr dhhi k vjgchit phrsgi ji ikturh, dut klthr dujcmjia up

sg nuef fktrhm gvhr tfh yhkrs, J rhkcjzhm tfkt J wgucmi‚t fhsjtkth tg `jcc gr hvhi tgrturh ny fkthm

hihnjhs jl J wks ajvhi tfh gppgrtuijty.

J sphit tfh ihxt ljvh mkys ji ny rggn, tryjia tg lgraht kdgut tfh fgrrjlje hxphrjhiehs J fkm tg ag

tfrguaf. Dut hvhi ji ny rggn, J egucmi‚t hsekph lrgn dhjia rhnjimhm gl ny wgrtfchssihss. Hvhry tjnh J





k vhry lkst nhtkdgcjsn, sg J egucm hkt ks nuef ks J wkithm wjtfgut ahttjia lkt. J suppgsh tfkt wks gih

kmvkitkah ji ny rktfhr mjskmvkitkahgus cjlh.

Qfhi J agt dke` tg ny ngtfhr‚s kpkrtnhit, sfh cht nh fkv h k dgttch gl wjih, kim J trucy mrki` ny ljcc.

–Hvhrytfjia‚s dhtthr wjtf sgnh wjih ji tfh dhccy.„ J sphit tfh rhst gl tfh ijaft pgimhrjia gvhr wfkt wks

ji stgrh lgr nh kt tfkt pgjit ji cjlh. J wks ig cgiahr k thhikahr, kim J‚cc ihvhr dh kdch tg hxphrjhieh

fkvjia shx ks k thhikahr. Ny thhikah yhkrs whrh egnpchthcy mhijhm tg nh dy tfh eruhcihss gl wgnhi.

]fh gicy wky J egucm nk`h up lgr jt wks jl J egucm fkvh ki hxtrkgrmjikry shx cjlh ji ny twhitjhs. J wgucm

fkvh tg fkvh k prglguimcy knkzjia mhekmh ji ny twhitjhs tg egnphiskth lgr kcc tfh njshry J

hxphrjhiehm ji ny thhis. Jl J lkjc tg mg tfkt, tfhi J fkvh igtfjia tg cjvh lgr. Ukmcy, J wjcc gicy hxphrjhieh

tfh gppgsjth ji ny hkrcy twhitjhs, kim jt wjcc mhstrgy nh.

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J stkyhm ji ny fgnhtgwi lgr k whh`. Gih gl ny djrtfmky prhshits wks k ajlt ekrm tg Igrmstrgn. J

sphit jt gi k egupch gl ihw pgcg sfjrts tfkt nkmh nh lhhc k cjttch ngrh egiljmhit. Duyjia ihw ecgtfhs

wgucm kcwkys ajvh nh k thnpgrkry dggst gl egiljmhieh, kim J prketjehm jt ks jl jt wks k mrua.

Dhlgrh J chlt lgr Ukitk Dkrdkrk, J rhuijthm wjtf Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi klthr k vhry cgia phrjgm gl igtshhjia tfhn. ]fh tfrhh gl us nht up kt tfh Ekckdksks Egnngis, kim tfhi wh whit ji Rfjcjp‚s ekr tg

Nkcjdu lgr k lhw kmvhiturhs. Qh himhm up shttcjia mgwi kt Utkrdue`s kim fkm k lhw jisjaftluc

egivhrsktjgis. Kmmjsgi fkm efkiahm kim nkturhm trhnhimguscy, kim fh wks ig cgiahr kssgejktjia wjtf

tfh pgpuckr Nkcjdu fjaf sefggc `jms. ]fjs mjmi‚t efkiah ny rhshitnhit tgwkrms fjn, kim J `hpt

egilrgitjia fjn tfh wfgch tjnh kdgut tfh jisuctjia wky fh trhkthm nh gvhr k yhkr kag. Klthr k cgt gl

mhdktjia, wh karhhm tg rhsgcvh gur egilcjet wjtf hkef gtfhr. ]fjs mjmi‚t nhki J lgragt kcc gl tfh scjafts fh

mhkct tg nh ji tfh pkst, fgwhvhr. J ihvhr lgraht. J ihvhr lgrajvh. Gih mky J‚cc sfgw fjn fgw suphrjgr J

kn.

Gi tfh mky klthr J skw Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi, J whit gvhr tg Oknhs‚s fgush. J fkmi‚t dhhi tfhrh lgr kahs,

kim tfh twg gl us rhcjvhm gur trkmjtjgikc wkc`s krguim tfh Rkcjskmhs tgwi ehithr, oust cj`h gcm tjnhs. Jtlhct strkiah kim igstkcaje tg hxphrjhieh jt klthr sg cgia, hsphejkccy klthr agjia tfrguaf sg nkiy efkiahs

ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk. J tgcm Oknhs kdgut ny turngjc gl dhjia k twhity-yhkr-gcm vjraji, kim ny mhsphrkth

fgph tfkt tfjias wjcc aht dhtthr gieh J stkrt ny Kutuni shnhsthr kt ny ihw egcchah. J tkc`hm kdgut kcc

tfh dhkutjluc dcgimh ajrcs J skw wkc`jia krguim ny egcchah, kim ny mhhp wjsf tfkt J wjcc fkvh gih mky

fkvh gih ks k ajrclrjhim. Oknhs synpktfjzhm wjtf nh arhktcy, lgr fh wks kcsg agjia tfrguaf sjnjckr

trgudchs ji cjlh. Fh shhnhm ackm tfkt J wks ljikccy tk`jia sgnh sthps tg drjia efkiahs tg ny cjlh.

J mrgvh dke` tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk ji k scjaftcy dhtthr nggm tfki J wks ji wfhi J chlt jt. J fkm k ngitf uitjc

tfh ihw shnhsthr stkrthm, kim J egucm ush tfkt tjnh tg prhpkrh kim rheuphrkth. Ny ihw fgushnkths

whrh nhkit tg ngvh jitg tfh shegim dhmrggn gl ny kpkrtnhit gi Kuaust 8tf. J fkm ki kixjgus lhhcjia

gl kitjejpktjgi lgr wfkt tfhy wjcc dh cj`h.

Kuaust 8tf eknh quje`cy, kim J prhpkrhm nyshcl tg dh ji k pchkskit nggm tg nhht tfhn. ]fhjr iknhs

whrh Tyki kim Kiahc, kim tg ny mjsnky tfhy whrh gl Fjspkije rkeh. Ji kmmjtjgi, tfh twg gl tfhn whrh

kcrhkmy lrjhims wjtf hkef gtfhr, wfjef nhkit tfkt tfhy egucm pgssjdcy akia up kakjist nh jl kiy egilcjets

whrh tg krjsh. ]fhy kcsg shhnhm cj`h rgwmy, cgw-eckss typhs. Ny ljrst jnprhssjgi gl tfhn sgurhm nh, dut

J trjhm tg dh pchkskit kim igt sfgw jt. ]fh twg gl tfhn kethm egrmjkc tg nh gi tfh ljrst mky, dut klthr

gdshrvjia tfhn lgr k djt, J fkm k dkm lhhcjia tfkt tfhy wgucm dh trgudch tg cjvh wjtf… Kim tfhy whrh tg

dh ny fgushnkths lgr k wfgch yhkr! Qfhi J wks kcgih ji ny rggn, J pkije`hm tg nyshcl kt fgw mjrh k





tfkt J eki dh pkrt gl ki upphr eckss lknjcy kim hiogy kcc tfh dhihljts tfkt wgucm egnh wjtf tfkt, dut sfh

kcwkys rhlushm, eckjnjia tfkt sfh ihvhr wkits tg aht nkrrjhm muh tg fhr uipchkskit hxphrjhiehs wjtf

ny lktfhr. J tgcm fhr tfkt sfh sfgucm sullhr tfrguaf kiy ihaktjvh ksphets gl nkrrjkah oust lgr ny sk`h,

dhekush jt wgucm egnpchthcy skvh ny cjlh, dut sfh stjcc rhlushm.

J whit gvhr tg Oknhs‚s fgush murjia ny vjsjt fgnh. ]fh twg gl us efktthm gicjih k cgt, kim wfhi J

tgcm fjn tfkt J wks ji tgwi, fh shhnhm hkahr tg shh nh. J wks hkahr tg shh fjn tgg, ks fh wks ny

ecgshst lrjhim kim J fkm k cgt tg tkc` tg fjn kdgut. J mrgvh up ]gpkiak Ekiygi tg fjs fgush, igt ìgwjia

tfkt jt wjcc dh tfh ckst tjnh J hvhr vjsjt fjn.

]fh twg gl us mjm wfkt wh usukccy mjm. Qh wkc`hm gut tg tfh Rkcjskmh‚s Dcull‚s wfhrh wh mjseusshm

gur fgphs kim mrhkns. Qh tfhi whit tg tfh Rkcjskmhs tgwi ehithr tg fkvh mjiihr. ]fjs tjnh wh efgsh

tg hkt kt Rkimk Hxprhss. Qfjch wh whrh hktjia, sgnh fjaf sefggc `jms wkc`hm ji. Oknhs skw tfhn ljrst,

kim rjaft wfhi fh skw tfhn fh skjm tfh wgrms –Qh‚rh lue`hm„. Oknhs ìhw J wgucm fkvh trgudch wjtf

tfhn. ]fhy whrh pgpuckr dgys wfg fkm k lcge` gl prhtty ajrcs wjtf tfhn. Gih gl tfhn skt mgwi wjtf twg

gl tfh ajrcs, puttjia fjs cha up gi kigtfhr efkjr wjtf k ege`y snjr` gi fjs lkeh. J wks cjvjm wjtf rkah, kim J

wkithm tg pgur ny mrji` kcc gvhr fjs fhkm. Oknhs ìhw hxketcy wfkt J wks pckiijia tg mg0 wh fkm dhhi

tfrguaf sjnjckr jiejmhits dhlgrh. Fh nkmh k cgt gl hllgrt tg try tg mjssukmh nh lrgn ketjia gi ny kiahr,

pgjitjia gut tfkt tfhrh wks k sheurjty aukrm ihkrdy. J mjm tfh gicy gtfhr tfjia J egucm mg0 J pke`hm up nymjiihr kim chlt tfh rhstkurkit, lchhjia ji mhlhkt kim sfknh. Oknhs sggi lgccgwhm, kim wh mhejmhm tg

ljijsf gur nhkc kt fjs fgush.

K mkr` kim gnjigus kurk ecgumhm gvhr gur lrjhimsfjp tfkt mky. Qfhi tfh twg gl us agt dke` tg

Oknhs‚s fgush, J wks stjcc shhtfjia wjtf rkah. J mjmi‚t uimhrstkim wfy Oknhs wksi‚t kiary cj`h nh. ]fh

sjaft tfkt wh oust wjtihsshm wks fgrrjdch tg wktef. ]g shh kigtfhr nkch dh sueehssluc wjtf lhnkchs js

tgrturh lgr nkchs cj`h us wfg fkvh ig sueehss wjtf lhnkchs. J wks sg kiary tfkt J tgcm Oknhs gl kcc gl tfh

kets gl rhvhiah J wkithm tg hxket gi tfgsh pgpuckr dgys. J tgcm fjn ny mhsjrh tg lcky tfhn kcjvh, tg strjp

tfh s`jis gll tfhjr lchsf kim nk`h tfhn serhkn ji kagiy ks puijsfnhit lgr cjvjia k dhtthr cjlh tfki nh.

Oknhs dheknh mhhpcy mjsturdhm dy ny kiahr. J wjsfhm tfkt fh wksi‚t mjsturdhm. J wjsfhm fh egucm dh k

lrjhim tfkt lhct tfh sknh wky kdgut tfh wgrcm tfkt J mjm. Dut fh wksi‚t tfkt `jim gl phrsgi. Fh wks k

whk`cjia.Gieh J fkm ekcnhm mgwi, tfh twg gl us fkm k cgia egivhrsktjgi ji fjs rggn, kim J himhm up eryjia ji

lrgit gl fjn ks J hxpckjihm fgw fgphchss J lhct kdgut cjlh. Uggi klthr tfkt, J chlt fjs fgush, ihvhr tg rhturi

tfhrh kakji. Fh wjcc ihvhr jivjth nh gvhr klthr tfkt jiejmhit, kim gur lrjhimsfjp wjcc scgwcy lkmh tg must.

Murjia tfh ckst lhw mkys tfkt J fkm tg himurh cjvjia wjtf tfgsh dkrdkrje fgushnkths, J glthi wkc`hm

gut tg Jsck \jstk fgpjia tfkt J egucm nhht k ajrc kim tk`h fhr fgnh wjtf nh. J wkithm tg prgvh tg tfhn kcc

tfkt ajrcs cj`hm nh, tg shh tfh cgg` gi tfhjr lkehs wfhi tfhy shh k ajrc dy ny sjmh. Dut gl egursh, J fkm

igtfjia tg prgvh dhekush ajrcs mjmi‚t cj`h nh. Hvhry tjnh J trjhm tg ag gut kim nhht k ajrc, J himhm up

wkc`jia fgnh kcgih ji kiahr. Gi gih gl tfhsh ijafts, J ergsshm pktfs wjtf k dgy wfg wks wkc`jia wjtf

twg prhtty ajrcs. J agt sg hivjgus tfkt J eurshm kt tfhn, kim tfhi J lgccgwhm tfhn lgr k lhw njiuths. ]fhy

oust ckuafhm kt nh, kim gih gl tfh ajrcs `jsshm tfh dgy gi tfh cjps. J‚n kssunjia sfh wks fjs ajrclrjhim.

]fkt wks gih gl tfh wgrst hxphrjhiehs gl tgrturh lrgn ajrcs tfkt J‚vh fkm tg himurh, kim jt wjcc dh k sekr

ji ny nhngry lgrhvhr, tg rhnjim nh tfkt ajrcs tfji` J‚n uiwgrtfy egnpkrhm tg gtfhr dgys. J rki fgnh

wjtf thkrs pgurjia mgwi ny efhh`s, fgpjia tfkt ny fgrrjdch fgushnkths wgucmi‚t dh tfhrh tg wjtihss

ny sfknh.

J trjhm tg spkr` k pgsjtjvh kttjtumh gi tfh ljrst mky gl ny Kutuni shnhsthr kt Ukitk Dkrdkrk Ejty

Egcchah. J wks rhajsthrhm lgr tfrhh ecksshs0 fjstgry, kstrgigny, kim nktf. Ny fjstgry kim kstrgigny

ecksshs whrh ji tfh ngrijia, kim ny nktf eckss wks ckth ji tfh klthriggi, sg gi sefggc mkys J fkm tg



sphim tfh hitjrh mky kt tfh egcchah. J ljaurhm tfjs wgucm dh dhihljejkc, dhekush jt wgucm `hhp nh gut gl

ny rggn kim ji k pckeh wfhrh pgssjdch gppgrtuijtjhs njaft egnh ny wky. J fkm tg wkjt k egupch gl

fgurs dhlgrh ny nktf eckss stkrthm, kim J sphit tfgsh fgurs rgknjia krguim tfh egcchah gr sjttjia ji tfh

cjdrkry, cgg`jia kt kcc gl tfh fgt ajrcs kim wjsfjia J egucm fkvh gih ks k ajrclrjhim. J wks cj`h k stkrvjia nki

surrguimhm dy k lhkst tfkt J wks prgfjdjthm tg hkt.

Kcc gl ny ecksshs chlt nh lhhcjia fgphchss kim mhprhsshm. Igt gicy wks J uikdch tg nhht kiy ajrcs, kim

tfhrh whrh k cgt gl prhtty gihs, dut J kcsg fkm k fkrm tjnh nk`jia kiy lrjhims. J‚vh kcwkys fkm k fkrm

tjnh nk`jia lrjhims… J‚n igt tfh typh gl phrsgi tfkt eki ljt ji wjtf k argup gl gutagjia phgpch0 tfh ckst

tjnh J mjm suef k tfjia wks wfhi J wks twhcvh. J fkm tg nk`h lrjhims. Fkvjia k sgejkc ejrech wjcc prgvjmh

nh wjtf ngrh gppgrtuijtjhs tg nhht ajrcs, kim jt wks tfh gicy wky tg aht jivjthm tg kcc gl tfgsh hxejtjia

egcchah pkrtjhs. Dut ig gih hvhi wkithm tg dh ny lrjhim. J ketukccy trjhm tg jijtjkth snkcc tkc` wjtf auys

wfg skt ihxt tg nh, dut jt ihvhr whit lkr. J fkm k fgrrjdch lhhcjia tfkt J wks ji lgr k vhry njshrkdch tjnh

ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk.

J mjm nk`h gih lrjhim tfrguaf sphimjia tjnh ji ny kpkrtnhit‚s egurtykrm. ]fjs lrjhim‚ s iknh wks

Kimy Efki0 fh wks k lgrhjai stumhit lrgn Efjik. Kimy sfkrhm tfh sknh hkahrihss ks J mjm tg hxphrjhieh

egcchah cjlh ji Jsck \jstk tg tfh lucchst0 kim uicj`h ngst phgpch ny kah, J lguim fjn tg fkvh sgnh

jithccjahieh kim sudstkieh. ]fh twg gl us wkc`hm gut tg Mhc Rckyk Utrhht ji Jsck \jstk k lhw tjnhs, tfhpckeh wfhrh kcc tfh pkrtjhs fkpphi, dut igtfjia hvhr eknh gl jt. J stjcc lhct cj`h ki gutekst, hvhi tfguaf J

fkm k lrjhim wjtf nh0 kim J stjcc lhct jilhrjgr egnpkrhm tg kcc gl tfgsh auys wfg wkc`hm krguim wjtf

dhkutjluc ajrcs.

Gi Uhpthndhr 8tf, J wks ljikccy kdch tg ngvh jitg ny ihw phrnkihit kpkrtnhit uijt. J lhct rhcjhvhm

tfkt J wgucm ihvhr fkvh tg mhkc wjtf tfh cj`hs gl Tyki kim Kiahc hvhr kakji, tfguaf J mjm wgrry tfkt J wjcc

hvhitukccy rui jitg tfhn kakji dhekush ny ihw uijt wks stjcc ji tfh sknh kpkrtnhit egnpchx. Gieh J

wks ajvhi tfh `hys, J quje`cy trkispgrthm kcc gl ny dhcgiajias tg tfh ihw pckeh. J wks suppgshm tg fkvh

gicy gih fgushnkth wfg wgucm cjvh ji tfh gtfhr rggn gl tfh uijt, dut fh fkmi‚t ngvhm ji yht. J fkm ig

jmhk wfg ny ihw fgushnkth wgucm dh, dut J wks tgcm tfkt fh wks ki gcmhr stumhit wfg ktthimhm tfh

Xijvhrsjty. ]fkt ìgwchmah nkmh nh lhhc kssurhm tfkt fh wgucm dh tgchrkdch tg cjvh wjtf. Fh wks sht tgkrrjvh ji twg whh`s, sg J fkm tfh pckeh tg nyshcl uitjc tfhi.

J uipke`hm kcc gl ny tfjias kim sht up ny ihw rggn. Gieh J wks mgih, J cgg`hm kt jt kim tfguaft tg

nyshcl tfkt tfjs wks jt 0 tfjs wks ny ihw cjvjia pckeh ji tfh egcchah tgwi gl Jsck \jstk, kim jl J egucm ljikccy

fkvh tfh cjlh J wkithm, tfhi tfjs nky whcc dh tfh rggn wfhrh J cgsh ny vjrajijty! Fgw wrgia J wks. Jt

wgucm gicy dh kigtfhr rggn wfhrh J sullhr njshrkdch cgihcjihss. Ig ajrc wjcc hvhr sthp lggt ji jt.

Ukitk Dkrdkrk wks igt agjia whcc lgr nh. J wks kcrhkmy ngitfs jitg ny twhitjhtf yhkr kim J fkm

igtfjia tg sfgw lgr jt. Ks J sphit tfh ljrst whh`s gl Uhpthndhr ji ny ihw rggn, kcc kcgih, J luccy rhkcjzhm

fgw nuef J wks lkjcjia kt cjlh. Ukitk Dkrdkrk wks suppgshm tg dh k pckeh gl fgph, k pckeh wfhrh J egucm

stkrt k ihw, fkppy cjlh. J egucmi‚t dhcjhvh fgw wrgia hvhrytfjia wks turijia gut. Jisthkm gl ljikccy

ahttjia k efkieh tg cjvh k cjlh gl shx kim cgvh cj`h gtfhr yguia phgpch mjm, J gicy hxphrjhiehm wgrsh

rhohetjgi kim funjcjktjgi tfki J fkm hvhr hxphrjhiehm dhlgrh. ]fjs wks uidhcjhvkdch kim uilgrajvkdch. Jl

funkijty egitjiuhm tg jisuct nh wjtf suef eruhcty, tfhi tfhrh rhkccy wks ig fgph lgr fkppjihss ji ny

cjlh.

Kt Ukitk Dkrdkrk Ejty Egcchah, J fkm hxketcy tfh sknh hxphrjhieh tfkt J fkm kt Nggrpkr`. J fkm tg

wktef dhkutjluc yguia phgpch hiogyjia tfhjr cjvhs tgahtfhr ks J ckiaujsfhm ji cgihcjihss kim mhspkjr,

dhekush ig gih keehpthm nh. J mrgpphm ny nktf eckss ― J oust egucmi‚t dhkr fkvjia tg dh kt tfh egcchah

kcc mky cgia, sjttjia ji tfh cjdrkry wktefjia egupchs `jss hkef gtfhr. J rhtkjihm ny twg ngrijia ecksshs

gicy dhekush tfhrh wks stjcc sgnh snkcc ji`cjia gl mhsphrkth fgnh jisjmh nh.



Ny usukc mky whit ks lgccgws? J wg`h up kcgih ji ny dhm, wjtf ig ajrc dhsjmh nh, kim mjm k lhw

njiuths gl hxhrejsh dhlgrh J sfgwhrhm kim agt rhkmy lgr egcchah0 J tfhi mrgvh tg Utkrdue`s tg fkvh ny

ngrijia cktth kim lhct hivjgus wfhihvhr J skw k yguia egupch tfhrh0 J wgucm tfhi ktthim ny twg ecksshs

wfhrh ig gih skjm k wgrm tg nh, fkvjia tg himurh tfh tgrnhit gl wktefjia gtfhr auys tkc`jia tg tfh

ajrcs J cj`hm0 Kim tfhi J wgucm ag fgnh kcgih, gphi tfh mggr tg ny cgihcy rggn, kim lhhc kdsgcuthcy

njshrkdch. ]fh cgihcjihss wks sullgektjia. J egucm dkrhcy drhktfh. Jl gicy gih prhtty ajrc fkm kt chkst

ajvhi nh k efkieh kim trjhm tg aht tg igw nh, hvhrytfjia wgucm fkvh turihm gut mjllhrhitcy, dut ajrcs

egitjiuhm tg trhkt nh wjtf mjsmkji.

]fh cgihcjihss wks tgrturjia nh sg jithishcy tfkt J hvhi stkrthm up ny QgQ keeguit kim pckyhm tfh

aknh egistkitcy lgr tfh ngitf gl Uhpthndhr. Oknhs stjcc pckyhm QgQ, kim tfh twg gl us pckyhm

tgahtfhr gicjih lgr k lhw mkys, dut fh trhkthm nh vhry egcmcy tfh wfgch tjnh. J egucm thcc tfkt tfh `jim gl

lrjhimsfjp wh fkm lgr sg nkiy yhkrs ig cgiahr hxjsthm. ]fkt ckst jiejmhit ji tfh Rkcjskmhs stkddhm gur

lrjhimsfjp mhhpcy, kim jt wks ji tfh prgehss gl dchhmjia kwky. Kt tfh tjnh, J lhct gllhimhm dy fjs kttjtumh

tgwkrms nh, sg J ekcchm fjn gut gi jt. ]fjs spkr`hm k cgia kraunhit dhtwhhi us tfkt rhsucthm ji Oknhs

rhlusjia tg tkc` tg nh gicjih kiyngrh. K lhw mkys klthr tfkt, J mhketjvkthm ny keeguit kakji.

Ny ihw fgushnkth krrjvhm ji tfh njmmch gl Uhpthndhr. Fjs iknh wks Uphiehr Fgrgwjtz0 k sfgrt,

efuddy XEUD stumhit wfg wks kdgut k yhkr gcmhr tfki nh. Fh shhnhm cj`h k lrjhimcy, nkturh sgrt glphrsgi0 mhljijthcy k pchkskit egitrkst lrgn tfh fgushnkths J fkm tg sullhr tfrguaf ji tfh prhvjgus

ngitf. J mjmi‚t hxphet tg fkvh kiy prgdchns wjtf fjn. Fgwhvhr, J wks k mjskppgjithm muh tg tfh lket

tfkt J wks fgpjia ny ihw fgushnkth wgucm dh sgnhgih J egucm rhckth tg… sgnhgih wfg egucm dh ny

lrjhim kim fhcp nh jitharkth wjtf tfh sgejkc cjlh ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk. J mjmi‚t shh Uphiehr ks tfh typh gl

phrsgi J wgucm dhegnh lrjhims wjtf. Qh egucm aht kcgia, dut wh fkm igtfjia ji egnngi.

Ji kmmjtjgi, J wks k djt sfge`hm wfhi Uphiehr tgcm nh tfkt fh ushm tg fkvh k ajrclrjhim. Jt wks k

eksukc egnnhit tfkt eknh gut gl k egivhrsktjgi wh fkm. J mjmi‚t uimhrstkim fgw k efuddy kim

uikttrketjvh auy cj`h Uphiehr wgucm fkvh dhhi kdch tg aht k ajrclrjhim, wfjch J‚vh ihvhr fkm tfh efkieh

tg. ]fh auy wks tfrhh jiefhs sfgrthr tfki nh, kim hvhi J kn egisjmhrhm sfgrt lgr ny kah. J egucm igt

lktfgn fgw suef k tfjia wks pgssjdch, kim J egiecumhm tg nyshcl tfkt tfjs lgrnhr –ajrclrjhim„ gl fjs tfkt

fh nhitjgihm nust fkvh dhhi oust ks uikttrketjvh ks fh wks. ]fhrh wks ig ihhm lgr nh tg dh ohkcgus.Klthr k lhw whh`s gl cjvjia wjtf fjn, J rhkcjzhm tfkt J fkm k psyefgcgajekc prgdchn wjtf fjs prhshieh ji

ny kpkrtnhit. Hvhi tfguaf tfhrh wks ig trgudch dhtwhhi us, J fkthm fkvjia sgnhgih egistkitcy ji ny

vjejijty tg oumah fgw pktfhtje ny cjlh wks. J egucm fjmh tfh mhtkjcs gl ny cgihcy, ehcjdkth cjlh lrgn tfh rhst

gl tfh wgrcm, dut J egucm igt fjmh jt lrgn Uphiehr. ]fh lket tfkt J ihvhr fkm kiy ajrcs gvhr tg ny rggn

wks echkr higuaf tfkt J wks ki uimhsjrkdch gutekst, kim J fkthm jt wfhi phgpch ìhw tfjs kdgut nh kim

oumahm nh lgr jt. Uphiehr wks tfhrh tg wjtihss jt kcc, kim J wgucm hvhitukccy egnh tg fkth fjn oust

dhekush gl tfkt.

Murjia tfh ngitfs gl Getgdhr kim Igvhndhr, J nkmh kigtfhr mhsphrkth djm tg jnprgvh ny sgejkc cjlh

ks dhst ks J egucm. J lkjchm ji nk`jia kiy lrjhims ji ny twg egcchah ecksshs, kim J mjmi‚t fkvh kiy

jithrketjgis wjtf ajrcs kt ny sefggc. J wks ki jivjsjdch afgst, oust cj`h J fkm kcwkys dhhi.

J egitjiuhm tg shh Kimy, tfh gih lrjhim tfkt J nkmh. Qh glthi nht up tg fkvh mjiihr kt k rhstkurkit

sgnhwfhrh. Fh sggi jitrgmuehm nh tg k lhw lrjhims gl fjs. Gih gl tfhn wks iknhm Utki, k Hurgphki

lrgn Fgcckim wfgn J pkrtjeuckrcy agt kcgia wjtf. J hiogyhm fkvjia egivhrsktjgis wjtf Utki kdgut k wjmh

vkrjhty gl sudohets, jiecumjia pgcjtjes, fjstgry, dusjihss, kim krefjtheturh. J wjshcy rhlrkjihm lrgn

rhvhkcjia kiy gl ny pgcjtjekc vjhws, gl wfjef mjsturdhm ngst phgpch.

Murjia tfh ngitf gl Getgdhr J whit gut wjtf Kimy, Utki, kim sgnh gl tfhjr lrjhims qujth glthi. Qh

mjm tfjias cj`h wkc` krguim Utkth Utrhht gr Jsck \jstk, gr whit tg tfh ngvjh tfhktrhs tgahtfhr. J sggi

lguim tfkt hvhi fkvjia tfhsh lhw kequkjitkiehs tg fkia gut wjtf mjmi‚t nk`h nh lhhc kiy dhtthr. J stjcc



lhct jilhrjgr wfhihvhr J skw gtfhr auys wkc`jia wjtf dhkutjluc ajrcs. Kt tfh ngvjh tfhktrhs, J lhct oust ks

pktfhtje kdgut wkc`jia ji tfhrh wjtf k argup gl lrjhims ks J mjm yhkrs kag wfhi J whit tg tfh ngvjhs wjtf

ny pkrhits… Jt wks tfkt pktfhtje lhhcjia gl igt fkvjia k fgt ajrclrjhim gi ny krn wfjch sgnh gtfhr dgys

ji tfh tfhktrh mjm. Qfkt J trucy wkithm… wfkt J trucy IHHMHM, wks k ajrclrjhim. J ihhmhm k ajrc‚s cgvh. J

ihhmhm tg lhhc wgrtfy ks k nkch. Lgr sg cgia J fkvh lhct wgrtfchss, kim jt‚s kcc ajrcs‚ lkuct. Ig ajrc wkithm

tg dh ny ajrclrjhim.

Fkccgwhhi whh`him ji tfh egcchah tgwi gl Jsck \jstk js k rhigwihm hvhit. Zguia phgpch pgur ji lrgn

kcc gvhr tfh eguity tg ktthim tfh rkuegus pkrtjhs tfhrh. Ny hxphrjhieh murjia tfjs whh`him js oust wfkt

gih wgucm fkvh hxphethm jt tg dh, k njshrkdch mjsksthr.

Qfhi J wks k efjcm, J ushm tg cgvh Fkccgwhhi. Jt wks k fgcjmky gl lui kim hxejthnhit wfhrh J whit

trje`-gr-trhktjia, agjia lrgn fgush tg fgush egcchetjia ekimy wjtf ny lrjhims kim lknjcy. Lgr yguia

kmucts, Fkccgwhhi js k vhry mjllhrhit sgrt gl fgcjmky, gl wfjef gih js suppgshm tg mrhss up ji shxukccy

hxpcjejt egstunhs, ktthim wjcm mrji`jia pkrtjhs, kim fkvh shxukc hxphrjhiehs wjtf ajrcs. Lgr gtfhr yguia

phgpch, wfg krh kdch tg mg suef tfjias, Fkccgwhhi nust dh k dckst. Dut J kn uikdch tg mg suef tfjias. J

wksi‚t jivjthm tg KIZ pkrty, kim ajrcs mgi‚t wkit tg fkvh shx wjtf nh. Ks k thhikahr kim k yguia kmuct,

Fkccgwhhi fks dhhi k fgcjmky gl tgrnhit kim mhprhssjgi dhekush gl tfjs. Ji Jsck \jstk, tfjs wks arhktcy

jithisjljhm.J trjhm ny dhst tg put nyshcl gut tfhrh gi tfh Fkccgwhhi whh`him. J nkmh nkiy ckps krguim Jsck

\jstk, tryjia tg dgcsthr up tfh egurkah tg tkc` tg k ajrc gr wkc` jitg k pkrty, dut J oust egucmi‚t. J ìhw tfhy

wgucm kcc rhohet nh. Qfkt J skw murjia tfgsh wkc`s sfgg` nh tg tfh vhry egrh. Ajrcs mrhsshm up ji

hxtrhnhcy rhvhkcjia gutljts, kim tfh sjaft gl tfhn ljcchm ny shx-stkrvhm shcl wjtf fuiahr kim mhsjrh tfkt J

ìhw J egucm ihvhr quhief.

Gi tfh ckst ijaft gl tfh Fkccgwhhi whh`him, J whit gut tfhrh wjtf Kimy kim Utki kim k lhw gtfhrs. Jt

nkmh kdsgcuthcy ig mjllhrhieh. Qh mjmi‚t aht jitg kiy pkrtjhs, kim oust wkc`hm krguim tfh strhhts cj`h

cgshrs. Dhjia lrjhims wjtf tfhn wksi‚t dhihljttjia nh kt kcc.

Jl gicy J fkm k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim tg hxphrjhieh suef ki hvhit wjtf! J wgucm fkvh hvhi mrhsshm up ji k

egstunh wjtf fhr. Jt wgucm fkvh dhhi sg dcjssluc kim hupfgrje, tg wkc` krguim ji kcc gl tfkt hxejthnhit

wjtf k dhkutjluc ajrc gi ny krn, tg ktthim hvhry sjiach pkrty dhekush kiygih wgucm kmnjt k dhkutjluc ajrcjitg jt, tg nk`h pkssjgikth cgvh tg fhr ji ny rggn kt tfh him gl tfh ijaft, tg siuaach ihxt tg fhr shxy

wkrn dgmy ks wh mrjlt gll tg schhp tgahtfhr. ]FK] js tfh cjlh J sfgucm fkvh cjvhm. Ug nkiy gtfhr auys krh

kdch tg hxphrjhieh tfkt, kim oust tfji`jia kdgut jl ljcchm nh wjtf hxtrhnh kagiy. Cjlh js igt lkjr.

Ji Igvhndhr, ny drjhl lrjhimsfjp wjtf Kimy, Utki, kim tfhjr argup lkmhm kwky. J glthi skw gi

Lkehdgg` tfkt tfhy mjm tfjias tgahtfhr wjtfgut hvhi jivjtjia nh, wfjef js tfh sknh tfjia J‚vh fkm tg

hxphrjhieh wjtf gtfhr argups gl lrjhims tfkt J‚vh fkm ji tfh pkst. J wks kcwkys ki gutekst, hvhi kngia

phgpch J ihw. J arhw tjrhm gl tfhjr cke` gl egisjmhrktjgi lgr nh, sg J stgpphm ekccjia tfhn. ]fhy whrhi‚t

hvhi pgpuckr kiywky, kim J wksi‚t dhihljttjia kt kcc lrgn tfhjr lrjhimsfjp. J stjcc egitjiuhm tg nhht wjtf

Kimy kt rhstkurkits gi geeksjgi, fgwhvhr.

Hvhry mky tfkt J sphit kt ny egcchah, tfh ngrh jilhrjgr kim jivjsjdch J lhct. J lhct cj`h suef ki jilhrjgr

ngush wfhihvhr J skw auys wkc`jia wjtf dhkutjluc ajrcs. J fkthm fkvjia tg himurh jt, dut J fkm kcrhkmy

wgr`hm sg fkrm gi ny twg ecksshs tfkt J egucmi‚t qujt oust tfhi. ]fh gicy wky tfkt J egucm akji k dggst ji

tg ny shcl-hsthhn wks tg duy dhtthr cgg`jia ecgtfhs.

Ny ngtfhr akvh nh k lhw ngrh ajlt ekrms tg Igrmstrgn, kim J sphit tfhn gi $422 mgcckr mhsjaihr

Ohkis. Qfhi J wgrh tfhsh tg sefggc, J skw tfkt J wks whkrjia dhtthr Ohkis tfki ngst gtfhr auys, kim

tfkt nkmh nh fkvh k scjaftcy fjafhr shish gl shcl-wgrtf. J kcsg dguaft k lhw ngrh sfjrts, kim k pkjr gl

ihw Fuag Dgss sihk`hrs.



Mgjia tfjs stkrthm k ihw gdshssjgi lgr nh. J dheknh ngrh kim ngrh gdshsshm wjtf ny kpphkrkieh.

Dhekush ny ngtfhr, lktfhr, kim arkimngtfhr egistkitcy pkjm nh hxtrk ngihy igw tfkt J wks cjvjia ji

Ukitk Dkrdkrk, J fkm skvhm up higuaf tg jimucah ji tfjs gdshssjgi. Lknjcjkrjzjia nyshcl wjtf kcc gl tfh tgp

mhsjaihr drkims, J dguaft ihw ecgtfhs hvhry tjnh J vjsjthm ny fgnhtgwi. Ny lkvgrjth drkims whrh Fuag

Dgss kim Krnkij. J kcwkys stgpphm dy kt tfh Eknkrjccg sfgppjia ehithr gi ny wky dke` tg Ukitk

Dkrdkrk. J cgvhm jt tfhrh ― tfhy fkm k stgrh lgr kcngst hvhry drkim.

Gih tjnh, ks J wks sfgppjia kt tfh Ekcvji @chji stgrh ji Eknkrjccg, J skw suef k shxy-cgg`jia dcgimh

ajrc wjtf phrlhetcy tkiihm s`ji. Ufh cgg`hm sg dhkutjluc kim shxy tfkt J fkm ki hrhetjgi jistkitcy. Gf, tfh

fhkvhicy tfjias J wkithm tg mg tg fhr… Kim tfhi J skw fhr fui` gl k dgylrjhim. Ny hitjrh dhjia wks

ljcchm wjtf kiaujsf kim mhspkjr. J egucm gicy jnkajih fgw knkzjia kim pchksurkdch tfkt auy‚s cjlh wks.

]fhy whrh gcmhr tfki nh ― prgdkdcy njm-twhitjhs ― kim J tfguaft wjtf mhsphrkth fgph tfkt wfhi J‚n

tfkt nki‚s kah J wgucm dh wgrtfy higuaf tg fkvh suef k ajrclrjhim dy ny sjmh, tg sfgp wjtf fhr kt tfkt

sknh sfgppjia nkcc ji fhkvhicy dcjss. Ny cjlh wks k cjlh gl stkrvktjgi kim yhkrijia.

J vjsjthm fgnh lgr ]fki`sajvjia, kim whit wjtf ny ngtfhr tg Tgd Chnhcsgi‚s fgush lgr k snkcc

]fki`sajvjia aht-tgahtfhr. Oknhs wks tfhrh… Kim tfh ckst tjnh J spg`h tg fjn sjieh tfhi wks wfhi wh

fkm gur djtthr kraunhit gicjih. ]fh gih phrsgi wfg fks dhhi ny lrjhim tfrguaf kcc gl ny fkrmsfjp

mjmi‚t hvhi wkit tg sphk` tg nh murjia ]fki`sajvjia. J trjhm tg ks` fjn wfy fh wks gvhrrhketjia kdgutki kraunhit wh fkm twg ngitfs prhvjguscy, dut fh oust ackrhm kt nh egcmcy kim tgcm nh tg –`hhp ny

prgxjnjty„. J wks fjafcy gllhimhm.

Klthr k lhw fgurs, tfh ]fki`sajvjia lhkst wks shrvhm. ]g ny prglguim kiigykieh, Oucjki Tjtz-Dkrr kim

fjs hqukccy gdigxjgus gcmhr drgtfhr Chgi Tjtz-Dkrr kcsg eknh lgr tfh mjiihr. J rhnhndhrhm tfh hxtrhnh

hivy J lhct lgr Oucjki ngitfs kag, kim J trjhm tg jaigrh tfhn ks nuef ks pgssjdch, wfjef prgvhm tg dh

mjlljeuct dhekush tfhy tkc`hm cgumcy kcc tfh tjnh.

J wks shkthm ihxt tg Oknhs lgr tfh mjiihr, kim klthr kw`wkrmcy sjttjia ihxt tg hkef gtfhr lgr k lhw

ngnhits, fh mhejmhm tg wkrn up tg nh kakji. Ks tfh twg gl us ekuaft up wjtf hkef gtfhr kdgut gur

cjvhs, k snkcc ji`cjia gl gur gcm lrjhimsfjp jaijthm cj`h k whk` lcjtthr gl lcknh ji k ekimch. Jt wks ijeh, lgr

tfh drjhl ngnhit tfkt jt cksthm. ]fh twg gl us tkc`hm kdgut gur usukc lkitksy sehikrjgs, kim og`hm kdgut

fgw stupjm kim gdigxjgus tfh Tjtz-Dkrr drgtfhrs whrh ketjia.

Gi tfkt sknh whh`him tfkt J whit fgnh, J agt tgahtfhr wjtf Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi. ]fh tfrhh gl us

whit gut tg k rhstkurkit ji C.K., kim tfhi wh fhkmhm tg tfh Arjlljtf Rkr` Gdshrvktgry, oust cj`h gcm tjnhs.

]fh ckst tjnh J wks tfhrh wjtf tfh twg gl tfhn wks gi tfkt fgrrjdch ijaft wfhi Kmmjsgi tgcm nh tfkt

–Ig ajrc wjcc hvhr wkit tg lue` nh.„ ]fh wgrms whrh stjcc hndhmmhm ji ny njim, kim agjia tg Arjlljtf

Rkr` rhnjimhm nh gl tfkt ijaft. ]fh tfrhh gl us tgg` k lhw pjeturhs gl us pgsjia kt vkrjgus spgts kt tfh

Gdshrvktgry, sgnh gl wfjef whrh upcgkmhm gitg Lkehdgg`, kim tfhi wh whit tg tfh Ekckdksks

Egnngis tg fkia gut kt Dkrihs & Igdch, wfhrh J fkm k lhw jisjaftluc egivhrsktjgis wjtf Kmmjsgi.

Mhspjth gur pkst fgstjcjtjhs, J egisjmhrhm Kmmjsgi tg dh gih gl tfh ngst jithrhstjia phgpch J ìhw.

J whit dke` tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk lgr k egupch gl whh`s tg ljijsf gll ny twg ecksshs. Ji ny fjstgry eckss, J

`hpt lhhcjia whk` wjtf jilhrjgrjty ks J wktefhm tfjs tkcc, fkimsgnh dcgimh oge` egistkitcy sjt kim tkc`

wjtf twg dhkutjluc ajrcs. ]fhrh wks ig wky tfkt J egucmi‚t wktef jt0 tfhy whrh ji tfh njmmch gl tfh eckss. J

fkthm tfkt eckss sg nuef, kim J mhejmhm tg stgp ktthimjia jt uitjc tfh ljikc hxkn. Gieh J tgg` tfh ljikc

hxkns, J lhct ackm tg dh mgih wjtf tfgsh fgrrjljekccy lrustrktjia egcchah ecksshs.

Jt wks oust ks J fkm lhkrhm. Ny ljrst ketukc shnhsthr kt Ukitk Dkrdkrk Ejty Egcchah wks ki kdsgcuth,

drutkc lkjcurh. J mjmi‚t hvhi fkvh gih ajrc‚s pfgih iundhr ji ny ehcc pfgih. Qks J agjia tg dh k vjraji

lgrhvhr7 J lrkitjecy wgimhrhm ks J mrgvh kwky lrgn ny sefggc klthr tk`jia ny hxkns. J lhct cj`h ny wfgch

cjlh wks gvhr. Jl J egucmi‚t nk`h jt ji suef k dhkutjluc kim gppgrtuijstje pckeh cj`h Ukitk Dkrdkrk, tfhi J



wks mggnhm tg njshry kim mjssktjslketjgi. J ìhw tfkt J wgucm rktfhr mjh tfki sullhr suef k lkth, kim J

ìhw tfkt jl jt eknh tg tfkt, J wgucm mg hvhrytfjia J eki tg hxket rhvhiah dhlgrh J mjh. J mjmi‚t wkit jt tg

rhsgrt tg tfkt! Ugnh pkrt gl nh stjcc ecuia tg fgph. J mjmi‚t wkit tg ajvh up sg sggi.

Ks J nkmh tfh cgia sehije mrjvh dke` tg ny fgnhtgwi lgr tfh Fgcjmkys, J nkmh k vgw tg ajvh jt kcc

kigtfhr try wfhi J stkrt ny ihw shnhsthr ji tfh Uprjia, kim tg ush tfh tjnh J fkm murjia tfh wjithr

drhk` tg prhpkrh lgr jt ks nuef ks J egucm.

Ny ngtfhr tgcm nh tfkt sfh fkm nkmh pckis lgr nh, ny sjsthr, kim fhr tg ag tg Hiackim lgr k whh`.

Xpgi fhkrjia tfjs, J skjm J mjmi‚t wkit tg ag. J lhct sg mjssktjsljhm kim mhlhkthm, kim J mjmi‚t wkit tg

kpphkr tfkt wky tg ny rhcktjvhs ji Hiackim. ]fhrh wks igtfjia kdgut nh tfkt tfhy egucm dh prgum gl. J

lhct ksfknhm gl fkvjia tg lkeh tfhn tfh wky J wks. Klthr sgnh phrsuksjgi, J karhhm tg ag. J ljaurhm tfkt

jl kiytfjia, jt wgucm ajvh nh k rhspjth lrgn kcc tfh pkji sgejhty fks mhkct tg nh, oust cj`h gur gcm vjsjts tg

Oke`‚s dhkef fgush ji Nkcjdu.

Dhlgrh wh chlt lgr Hiackim, wh ktthimhm tfh kiiukc Efrjstnks pkrty kt tfh Chnhcsgi‚s. J fkm rhehitcy

dguaft k lcksfy ihw sfjrt lrgn Krnkij Hxefkiah tfkt nkmh nh lhhc pkrtjeuckrcy lkducgus, sg J mhejmhm tg

whkr jt lgr tfh pkrty. J cgvhm kmnjrjia fgw kwhsgnh J cgg`hm ji tfh njrrgr ks J wgrh jt. Qhkrjia lcksfy

ihw ecgtfhs nkmh nh lhhc cj`h k ihw phrsgi. J lguim jt tg dh k vhry hlljejhit wky tg dggst nyegiljmhieh. Qfhi J hithrhm tfh pkrty, J lhct arktjljhm wfhi Uuh Chnhcsgi, Tgd‚s hx-wjlh, egnpcjnhithm

nh gi fgw aggm J cgg`hm. Ny ngtfhr pgjithm gut tfkt jt wks uiusukc lgr Uuh tg egnpcjnhit kiygih, sg

J nust fkvh nkmh k aggm jnprhssjgi.

Oknhs wks kt tfh pkrty, gl egursh. Fh mjmi‚t ket gutwkrmcy egcm tgwkrm nh tfjs tjnh, dut tfhrh wks

stjcc k mjstkieh dhtwhhi us. Murjia tfh egursh gl tfh hvhit, J fkm ny ljcc gl nuctjpch acksshs gl wjih ks J

eksukccy efktthm wjtf Oknhs kdgut ny jisjafts kim cjlh prgdchns. Qh jithrkethm ks jl wh whrh stjcc

lrjhims, dut J egucm thcc tfkt tfjias whrh vhry mjllhrhit dhtwhhi us. ]fh lrjhimsfjp tfkt wh fkvh fkm lgr

sg cgia wks myjia. Qfhi J skjm aggmdyh tg fjn tfkt ijaft, jt wks tfh ckst tjnh J hvhr skw fjn.

Klthr fkvjia k quje` Efrjstnks ehchdrktjgi kt lktfhr‚s fgush, J tgg` gll lgr Hiackim wjtf ny ngtfhr

kim sjsthr. Qh lchw Dusjihss Eckss gi \jraji Ktckitje, kim sjieh tfhy lgccgwhm tfh ckws gl tfh X.@., J wkskccgwhm tg mrji` kcegfgc gi tfh lcjaft. J tgg` mhcjaft ji sjppjia tfh wjih tfkt wks shrvhm wfjch J hiogyhm

tfh rhckxjia ogurihy. ]fh ckst tjnh J fkm dhhi gi ki kjrpckih sjieh tfhi wks tfh mjskstrgus trjp tg

Ngrgeeg wfhi J wks shvhithhi, kim tfjs nkmh lgr k pchkskit egitrkst.

Qfhi wh ckimhm ji Hiackim J lhct tfh shish gl wgimhr tfkt eknh wjtf dhjia ji kigtfhr eguitry. J

fkmi‚t dhhi tg ny fgnh eguitry gl Hiackim lgr kcngst k mhekmh, kim J egucmi‚t dhcjhvh J wks tfhrh gieh

kakji. ]fh mhejsjgi tg ag gi tfh trjp eknh sg quje`cy. Qh stkyhm kt k vhry ijeh fgthc ji tfh tgwi gl

Egcefhsthr, ihkr wfhrh ny rhcktjvhs gi ny ngtfhr‚s sjmh cjvh, jiecumjia ny arkimnk Kf Nkf. Klthr wh

uipke`hm kcc gl gur dhcgiajias, wh whit tg tfhjr fgush lgr mjiihr. J fkmi‚t shhi tfgsh rhcktjvhs sjieh gur

trjp tg Nkckysjk. Jt lhct pheucjkr tg shh tfhn kcc kakji. ]fhy whrh hxketcy tfh sknh ks J rhnhndhrhm. Jt

wks vhry fhkrtwkrnjia tg shh tfkt arkimnk Kf Nkf fkm dk`hm fhr mhcjejgus phkiut egg`jhs tfkt J cgvhm

sg nuef ks k efjcm0 sfh fkm tfhn rhkmy kim wkjtjia lgr nh.

Qh vjsjthm tfhn kakji gi Efrjstnks Mky. ]fhy prhpkrhm ki hxqujsjth cuief, kim klthrwkrm wh

hxefkiahm gur ajlts. J agt k djt mrui` gi tfkt mky, ks jt wks tfh gicy tfjia J egucm mg tg pkss tfh tjnh. J

trjhm tg rhckx kim lgraht kdgut kcc gl tfh pkji J fkm hxphrjhiehm ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk. J wjsfhm tfhrh wks

sgnhtfjia J egucm tkc` tg ny rhcktjvhs kdgut tfkt wgucm nk`h tfhn prgum, dut tfhrh wks igtfjia

jithrhstjia gr jnprhssjvh kdgut ny cjlh tg tkc` kdgut. J wjsfhm tfkt J egucm sfgw ny arkimnk tfkt J wks

tfrjvjia ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk0 tfkt J fkm k ajrclrjhim kim J wks hiogyjia k lucc kim fhkctfy cjlh. Dut ig, tfkt js

sgnhtfjia J wks ihvhr kdch tg mg. J lhct sg ksfknhm gl nyshcl.



Ny arkimnk, Kf Nkf, akvh nh k ajlt gl arhkt vkcuh. Klthr wh hxefkiahm kcc gl tfh prhshits wjtf tfh

rhcktjvhs, Kf Nkf prhshithm nh wjtf k 44 `krkt agcmhi ihe`ckeh. Jt wks vhry hxtrkvkakit, kim jt fkm

dhhi ji fhr pgsshssjgi lgr k cgia tjnh. Igw jt wks njih. J wgrh jt jistkitcy kim tgg` k arhkt cj`jia tg jt.

Lrgn tfhi gi, J wgucm whkr jt ji hvhry wk`jia ngnhit. J egucm fkvh sgcm jt lgr whcc gvhr k tfguskim

mgcckrs, dut J ihvhr mjm. Jt wks sphejkc tg nh.

Ny lkvgrjth pkrt gl tfh trjp wks tfh drhk`lksts kt tfh fgthc. ]fh fgthc wh stkyhm kt wks qujth

cuxurjgus, hvhi dy ny stkimkrms. Kim tfh drhk`lksts… tfhy whrh kdsgcuthcy mhcjejgus. Hvhry ngrijia

tfhrh wks k dullht lucc gl mhchetkdch efgjehs, suef ks erjspy pgr` skuskah, ergjsskits, dkegi, fkn, rgkst

pgtktghs, kcc jims gl lrujt, kim nuef ngrh. Gi hvhry gih gl tfgsh ngrijias, J stullhm nyshcl cj`h tfhrh

wks ig tgngrrgw. J wks mhprjvhm gl shx kcc ny cjlh, sg tfh gicy vjeh tfkt J egucm mhrjvh k shish gl

pchksurh lrgn wks hktjia mhcjejgus lggm. J tgg` lucc kmvkitkah gl tfkt gi tfjs trjp. Ny fjaf nhtkdgcjsn

prhvhithm nh lrgn ahttjia lkt lrgn jt.

Dhlgrh tfh trjp wks gvhr, wh kcc whit gi k tgur tfrguaf Cgimgi. Qh whrh suppgshm tg vjsjt arkimnk

Ojix ji Unkrmhi gi tfkt sknh mky, dut arkimnk Ojix wks ji Lrkieh kt tfh tjnh. Qh rhithm k egnlgrtkdch

Nhrehmhs vki tfkt egucm ljt hjaft phgpch kim nkmh k cgia mrjvh tfrguaf tfh Hiacjsf eguitrysjmh tg tfh

ekpjtkc ejty gl Cgimgi. J mjmi‚t rhnhndhr nuef gl tfh ejty lrgn ny prhvjgus vjsjts, sg jt wks `jim gl cj`h k

ihw hxphrjhieh lgr nh. J lguim tfh ejty tg dh vhry uacy ji ngst krhks, dut ji egitrkst tfhrh whrh sgnh

kttrketjvh pkrts tfkt whrh kwksf wjtf dhkutjluc krefjtheturh kim k eucturkc ktngspfhrh. Gieh wh pkr`hmgur vki wh sht gut gi lggt, kim sgnhtjnhs tgg` tfh Ximhrarguim sudwky, tg hxpcgrh kcc gl tfh nkji

kttrketjgis gl tfh ejty. Jt wks egcm, mrhkmluccy egcm, dut J dgrh jt wjtfgut nuef egiehri. Qkc`jia tfrguaf

tfh strhhts gl Cgimgi kt ijaft, hsphejkccy ji ]rklkcakr Uqukrh kim tfh krhk krguim Fkrrgms wks trucy

drhktftk`jia, gr jt wgucm fkvh dhhi jl J fkm k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim dy ny sjmh tg hxphrjhieh jt wjtf nh. Jt

wks tfh sgrt gl pckeh tfkt gih wgucm ag wjtf k ajrclrjhim, kim J fkm igih. J skw gtfhr nhi dhjia kdch tg

hxphrjhieh jt wjtf tfhjr ajrclrjhims, kim tfh sjaft sgurhm ny wfgch hxphrjhieh. Qfhi wh fkm mjiihr kt k

rhstkurkit, J segllhm k dja nhkc kim jndjdhm twg acksshs gl wjih tg nk`h nyshcl lhhc dhtthr murjia tfh

rhst gl gur tgur. Ny lkvgrjth pkrt wks wkc`jia tfrguaf tfh stgrh Fkrrgms. Fkrrgms js k ajakitje,

rhigwihm cuxury mhsjaihr ecgtfjia stgrh. Hvhry lkeht gl jt hxumhm dhkuty kim hxehssjvh gpuchieh. Jt wks

ny typh gl pckeh. J wjsfhm J wks rjef higuaf tg duy kiytfjia J wkithm kt tfh stgrh ― tfhrh whrh sg nkiy

efgjehs gl lkducgus ecgtfjia ― dut kcks, J fkm tg shttch wjtf duyjia gicy gih Ajgrajg Krnkij sfjrt. Jl nyngtfhr fkm dhhi wjsh higuaf tg nkrry gih gl tfgsh whkctfy nhi sfh mkthm, phrfkps tfhi J wgucm fkvh

dhhi rjef higuaf. Uuef k pjty.

Kt tfh him gl tfh ijaft gl gur Cgimgi tgur, J lhct egcm kim njshrkdch. Qkc`jia tfrguaf tfkt hxejtjia,

eucturkc ejty nkmh nh rhkcjzh tfkt tfh wgrcm wks lucc gl wgimhrs tg hxpcgrh, dut jl J fkm tg mg jt kcgih

wfjch gtfhr nhi whrh kdch tg mg jt wjtf tfhjr ajrclrjhims, tfhi wfkt wks tfh pgjit7 Ny cjlh wks sg

nuimkih kim wksthluc egnpkrhm tg tfh cjvhs kcc tfgsh gtfhr nhi cjvhm. ]fhy whrh ji fhkvhi kim J wks

ji fhcc.

Qfhi wh tgg` gll gi tfh kjrpckih lgr tfh ogurihy fgnh, J wgimhrhm fgw ny cjlh wgucm fkvh turihm

gut jl wh ihvhr ngvhm tg tfh Xijthm Utkths. J skw k cgt gl dhkutjluc dcgimh ajrcs ji Hiackim, oust cj`h tfhrh

whrh ji Ekcjlgrijk. Qgucm J fkvh cjvhm k egnpchthcy mjllhrhit typh gl cjlh7 Qgucm J fkvh dhhi kdch tg fkvh

k ajrclrjhim ji Hiackim7 Qgucm ajrcs ji Hiackim fkvh dhhi ngrh keehptjia gl k auy cj`h nh7 ]fgsh krh

quhstjgis J wjcc ihvhr ìgw tfh kiswhr tg.

J sphit k lhw fgurs rhegvhrjia lrgn oht cka klthr wh krrjvhm fgnh. Gi tfh mky klthr tfkt, jt wks Ihw

Zhkr‚s Hvh. J mjmi‚t wkit k rhphkt gl tfh prhvjgus Ihw Zhkr‚s, wfhi J sphit tfhn kcgih kim njshrkdch ji

ny rggn, sg J mhejmhm tg ag wjtf ny lktfhr kim Ugunkyk tg k pkrty kim Kitoh ]wjii‚s fgush. Ny l ktfhr

wks stjcc lrjhims wjtf tfhn, mhspjth igt dhjia lrjhims wjtf tfh Dudhifhjn‚s kiyngrh. J wkithm tg whkr

sgnhtfjia ihw lgr tfh pkrty, ji grmhr tg dggst ny shish gl shcl-egiljmhieh, sg J whit tg Igrmstrgn kim

dguaft k ihw, lcksfy Fuag Dgss sfjrt, mhegrkthm wjtf mjllhrhit fuhs gl dcuh.



J mjmi‚t fkvh mjiihr dhlgrh tfh pkrty, dhekush J hxphethm mjiihr tg dh shrvhm tfhrh. Qfhi wh agt

tfhrh, J skw tfkt tfhy mjmi‚t gllhr mjiihr, gicy k lhw pkrty sike`s0 dut tfhrh wks cgts kim cgts gl wjih. J

fhkrm lrgn Kitoh tfkt \jiehit wks ji tgwi, dut fh wks ktthimjia k pkrty kt Chg Dudhifhjn‚s fgush,

wjtf kcc gl Chg‚s pgpuckr thhikah lrjhims. ]fh nhrh nhitjgi gl Chg put nh ji k dkm nggm. J egucmi‚t

dhcjhvh tfkt \jiehit, tgg, wks igw hxphrjhiejia tfh pchksurhs gl pkrtyjia wjtf yguia phgpch wfjch J skt

kcc kcgih kt tfh kmuct‚s pkrty, sjppjia ny wjih ji cgihcy mhprhssjgi. J sfgucm dh pkrtyjia wjtf ny gwi

lrjhims, kim ny gwi ajrclrjhims, dut J fkm IGIH.

Klthr J fkm kcrhkmy agtthi qujth mrui` lrgn fkvjia sg nuef wjih gi ki hnpty stgnkef, J gvhrfhkrm

Kitoh tkc`jia tg fhr lrjhim kdgut fgw \jiehit igw fkm k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim. Ufh wks sg prgum gl fhr

sgi. ]fkt js sgnhtfjia ny ngtfhr wks ihvhr kdch tg thcc fhr lrjhims kdgut nh. J fkm ihvhr fkm k

ajrclrjhim ji ny QFGCH CJLH! J rhnhndhr wfhi \jiehit ushm tg dh k cjttch ijih-yhkr-gcm dgy wfjch J wks

tfjrthhi. Fh ushm tg cgg` up tg nh, kim fh kcwkys wktefhm nh pcky ny gicjih aknhs gi lktfhr‚s ckptgp.

Igw, fh wks sjxthhi kim J wks twhity. Fh fkm tfh pchksurh gl fkvjia k ajrclrjhim, wfjch J‚vh ihvhr fkm

gih. J wks lgur yhkrs gcmhr tfki fjn, dut fh surpksshm nh. ]fh hivy, rkah, kim lhhcjia gl jilhrjgrjty J lhct

kcngst nkmh nh hxpcgmh wjtf rkah rjaft tfhrh kt tfh pkrty, dut jisthkm J whit tg tfh dktfrggn kim

vhithm tg nyshcl ji tfh njrrgr gl fgw nuef J fkth \jiehit kim wkithm tg `jcc fjn. J mrki` k cgt ngrh

wjih tfkt ijaft, pgurjia nyshcl ackss klthr ackss. Dy tfh tjnh \jiehit krrjvhm klthr fjs pkrty kt Chg‚s, J

arhhthm fjn wjtf mrui`hi egithnpt, kim mrki` hvhi ngrh wjih. J mrki` tgg nuef. Gi tfh ihxtngrijia, J tfki`hm tfh fhkvhis tfkt kt tfh him gl tfh pkrty J fkm tfh shish tg ag tg tfh dktfrggn tg

vgnjt jisthkm gl vgnjtjia ji lrgit gl hvhrygih. ]fkt wgucm fkvh dhhi hxtrhnhcy hndkrrkssjia.

J sphit k whh` kt ny ngtfhr‚s fgush dhlgrh J whit dke` tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk tg ajvh ny cjlh tfhrh

kigtfhr try. Murjia tfjs whh`, J gieh kakji nht up wjtf Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi. ]fjs gutjia wks nuef cgiahr

tfki tfh ckst. J mhejmhm tg whkr tfh sknh Fuag Dgss sfjrt tfkt J w grh lgr Ihw Zhkr‚s. Ljrst, wh whit gi k

fj`h up tg tfh Fgccywggm sjai kim wktefhm tfh acgrjgus suisht. Klthrwkrms, wh vjsjthm tfh Ahtty

Nushun tg kmnjrh tfh drjccjkit sehihry kim krefjtheturh. Qfjch tfhrh, J gvhrfhkrm Rfjcjp thccjia Kmmjsgi

tfkt sgnh ajrcs whrh efhe`jia fjn gut. Lhhcjia ohkcgus, J ks`hm Rfjcjp jl kiy gl tfgsh ajrcs efhe`hm nh

gut, kim fh fkm tfh kumkejty tg sky ig, igih gl tfhn mjm. J lhct sg fhkrtdrg`hi tfkt J chlt tfh twg gl

tfhn kim erjhm tg nyshcl, rujijia ny wfgch hxphrjhieh kt tfh nushun. Fgw egucm ajrcs efhe` gut Kmmjsgi dut igt nh7 J ks`hm nyshcl rhphkthmcy ks J trjhm tg fjmh ny thkrs lrgn phgpch wfg wkc`hm dy

nh. J wkc`hm gut tg tfh hmah gl tfh arkim thrrkeh gl tfh nushun, cgg`jia gut kt tfh ejty cjafts gl Cgs

Kiahchs ks whcc ks tfh stkrs kdgvh. Ji tfkt ngnhit, J lhcc jitg k sgrt gl mhspkjr-rjmmhi trkieh,

egithnpcktjia ny rhksgi lgr hxjstjia ji tfjs uijvhrsh kim wfkt wks ji stgrh lgr ny luturh. Jt wks k vhry

gnjigus kim surrhkc hxphrjhieh. J ekcnhm mgwi wfhi wh chlt tfh nushun kim kethm egrmjkc tg dgtf gl

tfhn. J mjmi‚t wkit tg spgjc tfh ijaft wjtf ny hngtjgikc prgdchns. Qh tgurhm krguim Fgccywggm lgr k

djt, kim wfjch tfhrh J skw cgts gl yguia phgpch gut kim kdgut wjtf tfhjr kttrketjvh ecjquhs gl lrjhims. ]fh

sjaft hirkahm nh lgr tfh rhst gl tfh ijaft. Qh mhejmhm tg fkvh mjiihr kt k rhstkurkit gi Uuisht

Dguchvkrm. Kt tfh rhstkurkit, tfhrh whrh tfrhh fgt ngmhc-cj`h ajrcs wfg skt k lhw tkdchs mgwi lrgn us.

]fhjr dgmjhs cgg`hm sg shxy kim tkitkcjzjia tfkt Rfjcjp fkm tg ag tg tfh dktfrggn tg nksturdkth. J wks

jtefjia tg mg hxketcy tfh sknh tfjia, dut J mjmi‚t wkit tg cgg` cj`h k lggc ji lrgit gl Kmmjsgi.

Qfhi J agt fgnh, J dhaki tg ery dhekush gl kcc tfh hngtjgis J hxphrjhiehm tfkt ijaft. Ny ngtfhr

fhkrm nh kim sfgwhm sgnh egiehri, ks sfh kcwkys mjm. Ufh wks ushm tg nh eryjia k cgt, dut sfh ihvhr

uimhrstggm wfy J wks sg njshrkdch. J kcwkys fkm tg hxpckji jt tg fhr ― tfkt J wks k cgihcy, njshrkdch,

uiwkithm vjraji wfg wgnhi trhkthm wjtf mjsmkji ― dut sfh egucm ihvhr arksp fgw shvhrh tfjs wks tg

nh. Klthr kcc, fgw egucm sfh7 Ufh wks k wgnki fhrshcl.

J krrjvhm dke` ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk wjtf k rhihwhm, ekrhluccy egistruethm shish gl egiljmhieh, hsphejkccy

dhekush gl tfh ihw egcchetjgi gl mhsjaihr ecgtfhs J fkm dguaft gvhr tfh wjithr drhk`. J trjhm tg kmgpt k



sgpfjstjekthm kim sukvh phrsgik, kim nkmh ny keehit sguim ngrh hcgquhit. J mjm tfjs gut gl tfh fgph

tfkt ajrcs wgucm ljim sgnhtfjia kttrketjvh kdgut jt. Jt wks tfh gicy phrsgik tfkt trucy ljt nh. J wks

jiekpkdch gl dhjia ki gutagjia, dgjsthrgus oge`, kim J mjmi‚t wkit tg dh gih. J wks mjsausthm dy suef

phgpch, kim J wks mjsausthm kt fgw ajrcs whrh kttrkethm tg suef ljctf. J wkithm tfhn tg dh kttrkethm tg

nh. ]fkt js fgw jt sfgucm dh, kim J mhshrvhm jt.

Murjia tfh lhw whh`s J fkm dhlgrh ny ljrst mky gl eckss, J egucmi‚t rhkccy mg kiytfjia tg jnprgvh ny

sgejkc sjtuktjgi. J fkm k lhkr gl agjia gut tg Jsck \jstk wjtfgut kiy lrjhims, kim J wks fgpjia tg nk`h

tfgsh lrjhims gieh egcchah stkrthm. Dhekush gl tfjs, J dheknh mhprhsshm kakji lrgn kcc gl tfh cgihcjihss.

Hvhi tfguaf Uphiehr wks tfhrh, J lhct egnpchthcy kim utthrcy kcgih, ks tfh twg gl us ihvhr tkc`hm tfkt

nuef.

Ug lkr, Uphiehr kim J fkm agtthi kcgia qujth whcc mhspjth tfh lket tfkt wh ihvhr tkc`hm nuef. Ki

jiejmhit fkpphihm kt tfh him gl Okiukry tfkt efkiahm kcc gl tfjs. J gih mky mjsegvhrhm tfkt Uphiehr fkm

k ajrc ji tfjs rggn. J egucmi‚t dhcjhvh jt. ]fh sfgrt, efuddy auy wks kdch tg aht k ajrc jitg fjs rggn dhlgrh J

mjm! J wks sg sfge`hm kim gutrkahm tfkt J wkjthm gutsjmh fjs rggn uitjc tfh ajrc chlt, sg J egucm aht k

acjnpsh gl fgw sfh cgg`hm. ]g ny rhcjhl, sfh wksi‚t tfkt kttrketjvh. Qfkt nkmh nh hvhi ngrh kiary js

tfkt Uphiehr akvh nh k snua cgg` wfhi J skw tfh ajrc, hvhi tfguaf sfh wks uacy. Fh fkm tfh ihrvh tg

lhhc cj`h fh wks dhtthr tfki nh, oust dhekush fh nkikahm tg aht k ajrc gvhr tg tfh kpkrtnhit dhlgrh J

mjm! J egilrgithm fjn ji tfh `jtefhi gi tfkt sknh ijaft, thccjia fjn tfkt fh js lggcjsf tg lhhc prgum kdgutfkvjia ki uacy wfgrh ji fjs rggn. ]fjs nkmh fjn kiary kim gllhimhm, wfjef js wfkt J wkithm. J wkithm

tg gllhim fjn ks puijsfnhit lgr fjs jisgchieh. Klthr tfkt jiejmhit, tfh twg gl us dheknh ngrh kim ngrh

fgstjch tgwkrms hkef gtfhr.

Ji tfh dhajiijia gl Lhdrukry, ny Uprjia shnhsthr kt Ukitk Dkrdkrk Ejty Egcchah dhaki. ]fh ecksshs J

rhajsthrhm lgr whrh Ugejgcgay, Nktf, Ljcn Utumjhs, kim Hiacjsf. Ny Hiacjsf eckss wks ki gicjih eckss, dut

tfh gtfhr tfrhh whrh igrnkc ecksshs tfkt J ktthimhm kt tfh egcchah. Ugejgcgay kim nktf whrh gi

]uhsmkys kim ]fursmkys, kim ny ljcn eckss wks gi Lrjmky ngrijias. Jt nkmh lgr k egivhijhit shtup.

]fjs wks tfh ckst efkieh. J fkm kcrhkmy lkjchm tg efkiah ny cjlh ji tfh ckst shnhsthr. J nust igt lkjc

kakji. J rhnhndhrhm fgw fkrm jt wks tg `hhp up tfgsh twg ecksshs ji tfh Kutuni. ]fh phgpch ji tfhn

nkmh nh lhhc sg njshrkdch. J ìhw tfkt jl tfh sknh tfjia fkpphis ji tfh egnjia shnhsthr, J wgucm himup mrgppjia kcc gl ny ecksshs, kim jl tfkt fkpphihm, kcc gl ny fgph wgucm dh mggnhm.

Gi tfh ngrijia gl tfh ljrst mky, J mgiihm ny lkducgus Krnkij Hxefkiah sfjrt kim put gi ny ihw

Aueej suiacksshs tfkt ny ngtfhr akvh nh. J kmnjrhm nyshcl ji tfh njrrgr lgr k lhw ngnhits, kim dhaki

tg lhhc k surah gl hitfusjksn. J wkithm hvhrygih tg shh nh cgg`jia cj`h tfkt. J wks fgphluc tfkt sgnh

ajrcs wgucm kmnjrh nh. J skjm tg nyshcl tfkt tfhrh wks ig wky J egucm pgssjdcy fkvh trgudch wjtf ahttjia

ajrcs igw. J stgpphm dy kt Utkrdue`s tg duy k cktth kim sht gll lgr ny egcchah wjtf tfh egiljmhieh tfkt J

wgucm kpphkr ks k suphrjgr ahitchnki tg kcc gl tfh stumhits tfhrh. J wks k suphrjgr ahitchnki. ]fkt wks

wfkt J wks dgri tg dh, kim jt wks igw tjnh tg sfgw jt tg tfh wgrcm.

Jt wks k drjaft, suiiy mky ks J ks ksehimhm tfh lknjcjkr sthps up tg tfh dhkutjluc egcchah eknpus gl

UDEE. J jnnhmjkthcy whit tg tfh rhstrggn tg cgg` kt nyshcl ji tfh njrrgr k lhw tjnhs, oust sg tfkt J eki

lhhc ngrh kssurhm gl nyshcl. Zhs, J tfguaft. J kn tfh jnkah gl dhkuty km suprhnkey. J `hpt skyjia jt gvhr

kim gvhr kakji, ks jl jt wks k nkitrk. Qfhi J ergsshm tfh rhigwihm drjmah tfkt egiihethm tfh twg

fkcvhs gl tfh eknpus, J lhct ks jl hvhrygih wks kmnjrjia nh. Ks J pksshm dy argups gl ajrcs, J prhthimhm tg

jnkajih tfkt tfhy sherhtcy kmgrhm kim wkithm nh. Klthr kcc, tfkt wks fgw jt wks nhkit tg dh. ]fh ngrh

J wkc`hm krguim tfh eknpus, tfh ngrh J trjhm tg egivjieh nyshcl tfkt tfkt wks tfh eksh.

Ny ljrst eckss wks sgejgcgay, kim J wkjthm uitjc hvhrygih wks shkthm dhlgrh J wkc`hm ji. J eknh ji

tfrguaf tfh lrgit hitrkieh sg tfkt hvhrygih egucm cgg` kt ny lkducgus shcl. ]g ny utthr mjsnky, J skw

tfkt ig gih turihm tfhjr fhkm tg cgg` kt nh kt kcc. Ig ajrc tjcthm k fhkm gr cjlthm k prhtty cjttch hyhdrgw kt

ny kpprgkef. Klthr kcc tfkt hllgrt, J wks stjcc dhjia trhkthm cj`h J wks jivjsjdch.



]fh sgejgcgay eckss lchw dy cj`h k drhhzh, kim ny ihxt eckss wks nktf. Ji tfjs eckss, J skw gih gl tfh

prhttjhst ajrcs J fkm hvhr shhi ji ny cjlh. Ufh wks tfh gicy prhtty ajrc ji tfh eckss, kim sfh wks kdsgcuthcy

stuiijia. Gl egursh, sfh mjmi‚t hvhi igtjeh nh ks J wkc`hm ji. Fhr dhkuty wks sg jitjnjmktjia tfkt J

egucmi‚t drjia nyshcl tg sjt ihkr fhr, gut gl lhkr gl fhr oumanhit. Ks tfh cheturh prgehhmhm, J egucmi‚t

fhcp nyshcl lrgn egistkitcy ackiejia kt fhr, kmnjrjia hvhry jief gl fhr hitjejia dgmy, lrgn fhr sjc`y

dcgimh fkjr tg fhr snggtf, s`jiiy, cjaftcy tkiihm chas. ]fh ngst dhkutjluc tfjia kdgut fhr wks fhr lkeh.

Jt wks k lkeh tfkt drg`h ny fhkrt tfh shegim J ckjm hyhs gi jt. J wkithm fhr wjtf sg nuef jithisjty, kim J

egistkitcy lkitksjzhm kdgut fhr murjia ny nksturdktjgi shssjgis. ]fjs wks tfh `jim gl ajrc wfg wks

kcwkys nhkit tg dh ny ajrclrjhim. ]fjs wks tfh ajrc tfkt J wks nhkit tg ag tfrguaf egcchah ji Ukitk

Dkrdkrk wjtf. Ny cjlh wgucm gicy fkvh nhkijia jl J egucm ag tfrguaf egcchah wjtf k ajrclrjhim cj`h fhr.

Ks J nkmh ny wky dke` lrgn sefggc gih mky murjia tfh ljrst whh`, J wks stgpphm kt k stgpcjaft ji Jsck

\jstk wfhi J skw twg fgt dcgimh ajrcs wkjtjia kt tfh dus stgp. J wks mrhsshm ji gih gl ny ijeh sfjrts, sg J

cgg`hm kt tfhn kim snjchm. ]fhy cgg`hm kt nh, dut tfhy mjmi‚t hvhi mhjai tg snjch dke`. ]fhy oust

cgg`hm kwky ks jl J wks k lggc. Ks J mrgvh kwky J dheknh vhry jilurjkthm. Jt wks suef ki jisuct. ]fjs wks

tfh wky kcc ajrcs trhkthm nh, kim J wks sje` kim tjrhm gl jt. Ji k rkah, J nkmh k X-turi, pucchm up tg tfhjr

dus stgp kim spcksfhm ny Utkrdue`s cktth kcc gvhr tfhn. J lhct k lhhcjia k spjthluc sktjslketjgi ks J skw jt

stkji tfhjr ohkis. J tfhi quje`cy sphhmhm kwky dhlgrh tfhy egucm ektef ny cjehish pckth iundhr. Fgwmkrh tfgsh ajrcs siud nh ji suef k lksfjgi! Fgw mkrh tfhy jisuct nh sg! J rkahm tg nyshcl rhphkthmcy.

]fhy mhshrvhm tfh puijsfnhit J akvh tfhn. Jt wks suef k pjty tfkt ny cktth wksi‚t fgt higuaf tg duri

tfhn. ]fgsh ajrcs mhshrvhm tg dh munphm ji dgjcjia wkthr lgr tfh erjnh gl igt ajvjia nh tfh ktthitjgi

kim kmgrktjgi J sg rjaftluccy mhshrvh!

]fjs jiejmhit sgurhm ny ljrst whh` gl egcchah, dut lgr tfh sk`h gl kcc gl ny fgphs kim mrhkns, J trjhm tg

lgraht kdgut jt.

Lgr tfh ngitf gl Lhdrukry, J egitjiuhm wjtf tfh trhim gl ktthimjia ny egcchah ecksshs kim tryjia tg

nk`h tfh ngst gl jt. Qjtf hkef pkssjia mky, ny egiljmhieh kdgut fgw J kpphkrhm tg hvhrygih stkrthm tg

wkih. J stjcc mjmi‚t nk`h kiy lrjhims, kim J stjcc mjmi‚t tkc` tg kiy ajrcs. Dy tfh him gl tfh ngitf, J dhaki tg

quhstjgi wfkt J wks mgjia sg wrgia. J skw gdigxjgus scgds wfg mrhsshm ji dks`htdkcc sfgrts kim ]-sfjrtswkc`jia wjtf fgt ajrcs. Kim tfhrh J wks, mhe`hm gut ji Krnkij, kcc dy nyshcl. Jt wks prhpgsthrgus! J sfgucm

fkvh dhhi tfh gih wkc`jia wjtf tfh fgt ajrcs! J sggi rhkcjzhm tfkt ig gih ekrhm kt kcc kdgut fgw whcc J

mrhsshm. Ig ajrcs kmnjrhm nh. Ig ajrcs hvhi akvh nh k shegim cgg`.

J sggi lguim gut tfh iknh gl tfh dhkutjluc ajrc ji ny nktf eckss. Fhr iknh wks Drjttkiy Utgry. Dhjia

tfh gdshsshm stkc`hr tfkt J wks, J cgg`hm fhr up gi Lkehdgg`, kim wfkt J lguim sfktthrhm ny kcrhkmy

wguimhm fhkrt tg pjhehs. Ufh fkm k dgylrjhim. Igt gicy tfkt, dut fhr dgylrjhim wks tfh typh gl dgy J

fkvh kcwkys fkthm kim mhspjshm? k tkcc, nuseuckr surlhr-oge` wjtf k duzz eut. Ks J cgg`hm kt kcc tfh

pjeturhs gl tfh twg gl tfhn tgahtfhr, J sfjvhrhm wjtf purh fktrhm. J egucm pfysjekccy lhhc tfh fktrhm duri

tfrguaf ny hitjrh dgmy. J wkithm tg `jcc dgtf gl tfhn, kim J wks ekpkdch gl mgjia jt. Drjttkiy Utgry

sfgucm fkvh dhhi njih, kim jl eki‚t fkvh fhr, ig gih sfgucm! J lkitksjzhm kdgut ekpturjia tfh twg gl

tfhn kim strjppjia tfh s`ji gll fhr dgylrjhim‚s lchsf wfjch nk`jia fhr wktef. Qfy nust ny cjlh dh sg lucc

gl tgrnhit kim fktrhm7 J quhstjgihm tg tfh uijvhrsh wjtf turngjc rgjcjia jisjmh nh. J serhknhm kim erjhm

wjtf kiaujsf tfkt mky. Ny fgushnkth Uphiehr fhkrm jt kcc, dut J mjmi‚t ekrh.

J mrgpphm ny nktf eckss jnnhmjkthcy klthr chkrijia tfkt Drjttkiy fkm k dgylrjhim. J egucmi‚t cgg` kt

fhr dhkuty kiyngrh, ìgwjia tfkt sgnh pui` wks kdch tg hiogy fkvjia shx wjtf fhr hvhry mky. J eki

gicy jnkajih fgw fhkvhicy tfkt auy‚s cjlh nust dh. Fh wks ji fhkvhi kim J wks ji fhcc. Ufgrtcy klthr

mrgppjia ny nktf eckss, J mhejmhm tg mrgp kcc gl ny gtfhr ecksshs ji k rkah. ]fhrh wks ig pgjit tg jt

kiyngrh. Ig nktthr fgw fkrm J trjhm, ajrcs whrh igt kttrkethm tg nh. Qfkt wks tfh pgjit gl agjia

tfrguaf egcchah, ahttjia k mharhh, kim ljimjia sgnh nuimkih prglhssjgikc ogd klthrwkrms jl J egucm



ihvhr hxphrjhieh tfh pchksurh gl ajrcs kcgia tfh wky7 J mjmi‚t wkit tg tgrturh nyshcl wjtf agjia tg

egcchah kim cgg`jia kt kcc gl tfgsh dhkutjluc ajrcs J egucm ihvhr fkvh. Igtfjia dhihljejkc eknh gut gl jt.

]fhrh wks ig fgph lgr nh tg hvhr fkvh k mhsjrkdch egcchah cjlh. Ny cjlh wks mhvgjm gl lrjhims, mhvgjm gl

ajrcs, mhvgjm gl shx, kim mhvgjm gl cgvh. J rhkcjzhm tfkt J wjcc ihvhr dh kdch tg cgg` dke` gi ny ygutf, tfh

tjnh tfkt J sfgucm dh fkvjia k dckst, kim lhhc sktjsljhm kdgut kcc gl tfh fkppy nhngrjhs J fkvh. ]fhrh

whrh ig fkppy nhngrjhs0 gicy njshry, cgihcjihss, rhohetjgi, kim pkji. ]fh gicy tfjia J egucm mg wks

hvhi tfh segrh. J wkithm tg nk`h hvhrygih hcsh sullhr oust ks tfhy nkmh nh sullhr. J wkithm rhvhiah.

Qfhi J mrgpphm ny egcchah ecksshs, J ergsshm k tfrhsfgcm tfkt J ìhw hxjsthm, dut ihvhr ketukccy

dhcjhvhm J wgucm ergss. Jt egnpchthcy himhm kcc fgph J fkm gl cjvjia k mhsjrkdch cjlh ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk. J

rhkcjzhm tfkt J wgucm dh k vjraji lgrhvhr, egimhnihm tg sullhr rhohetjgi kim funjcjktjgi kt tfh fkims gl

wgnhi dhekush tfhy mgi‚t lkiey nh, dhekush tfhjr shxukc kttrketjgis krh lckwhm. ]fhy krh kttrkethm tg

tfh wrgia typh gl nkch. J kcwkys nushm tg nyshcl tfkt J wgucm rktfhr mjh tfki sullhr suef ki hxjsthieh,

kim J ìhw tfkt jl jt eknh tg tfkt, J wgucm hxket ny rhvhiah upgi tfh wgrcm ji tfh ngst ektkstrgpfje

wky pgssjdch. Kt chkst tfhi, J egucm mjh ìgwjia tfkt J lguaft dke` kakjist tfh jioustjeh tfkt fks dhhi

mhkct tg nh.

Hvhr sjieh ny cjlh tgg` k vhry mkr` turi kt tfh kah gl shvhithhi, J glthi fkm lkitksjhs gl fgw

nkchvgchitcy sktjslyjia jt wgucm dh tg puijsf kcc gl tfh pgpuckr `jms kim yguia egupchs lgr tfh erjnh glfkvjia k dhtthr cjlh tfki nh. J mrhknhm gl fgw swhht jt wgucm dh tg tgrturh gr `jcc hvhry sjiach yguia

egupch J skw. Fgwhvhr, ks J skjm prhvjguscy ji tfjs stgry, J ihvhr tfguaft J wgucm ketukccy ag tfrguaf wjtf

tfhsh mrkstje mhsjrhs. J fkm fgph jisjmh nh tfkt J egucm gih mky fkvh k fkppy cjlh.

Jt wks gicy wfhi J ljrst ngvhm tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk tfkt J stkrthm egisjmhrjia tfh pgssjdjcjty gl fkvjia tg

ekrry gut k vjgchit ket gl rhvhiah, ks tfh ljikc sgcutjgi tg mhkcjia wjtf kcc gl tfh jioustjehs J‚vh fkm tg lkeh

kt tfh fkims gl wgnhi kim sgejhty. J eknh up wjtf k iknh lgr tfjs klthr J skw kcc gl tfh aggm cgg`jia

yguia egupchs wkc`jia krguim ny egcchah kim ji tfh tgwi gl Jsck \jstk. J iknhm jt tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi.

Jt wgucm dh k mky ji wfjef J hxket ny uctjnkth rhtrjdutjgi kim rhvhiah gi kcc gl tfh fhmgijstje seun wfg

hiogyhm cjvhs gl pchksurh tfkt tfhy mgi‚t mhshrvh. Jl J eki‚t fkvh jt, J wjcc mhstrgy jt. J wjcc mhstrgy kcc

wgnhi dhekush J eki ihvhr fkvh tfhn. J wjcc nk`h tfhn kcc sullhr lgr rhohetjia nh. J wjcc krn nyshcl

wjtf mhkmcy whkpgis kim wkah k wkr kakjist kcc wgnhi kim tfh nhi tfhy krh kttrkethm tg. Kim J wjccsckuafthr tfhn cj`h tfh kijnkcs tfhy krh. Jl tfhy wgi‚t keehpt nh kngia tfhn, tfhi tfhy krh ny

hihnjhs. ]fhy sfgwhm nh ig nhrey, kim ji turi J wjcc sfgw tfhn ig nhrey. ]fh prgsphet wjcc dh sg

swhht, kim oustjeh wjcc uctjnkthcy dh shrvhm. Kim gl egursh, J wgucm fkvh tg mjh ji tfh ket tg kvgjm agjia

tg prjsgi.

]fkt js wfhi J rhkcjzhm tfkt tfjs tfrhsfgcm hxjsthm, kim jl J ergsshm jt, J wjcc fkvh tg ekrry gut tfjs Mky

gl Thtrjdutjgi. Jt fks rhnkjihm stkaikit ji tfh dke` gl ny njim hvhr sjieh, uitjc tfjs pgjit. Klthr

mrgppjia ny Uprjia ecksshs kt Ukitk Dkrdkrk Ejty Egcchah, J ìhw tfkt tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi wks igw

vhry pgssjdch. J hvhi wrgth kdgut jt ji ny mjkry, dut J ckthr tgrh gut tfh pkahs dhekush J lhkrhm sgnhgih

njaft ljim tfhn. K sfjvhr rki tfrguaf nh, rhkcjzjia fgw twjsthm ny wgrcm fkm dhegnh, tfkt J wgucm

fkvh tg rhsgrt tg mgjia sgnhtfjia tfkt J wgucm egisjmhr uitfji`kdch k lhw yhkrs kag. J mjmi‚t wkit tg mg

jt. J wkithm tg cjvh. ]fji`jia kdgut tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi nkmh nh lhhc trkpphm. J wkithm k wky gut.

Klthr sgnh mhhp egithnpcktjgi, J fkm tfh rhvhcktjgi tfkt tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi wksi‚t tfh gicy wky J

egucm nk`h up lgr kcc gl tfh sullhrjia J‚vh fkm tg hxphrjhieh. Jl J egucm sgnhfgw dhegnh k nuctj-

njccjgikjrh kt k yguia kah, tfhi ny cjlhstych wgucm jistkitcy dhegnh dhtthr tfki ngst phgpch ny kah. J

wgucm dh kdch tg aht rhvhiah gi ny hihnjhs oust dy cjvjia kdgvh tfhn kim cgrmjia gvhr tfhn. ]fkt wks

k lgrn gl fkppy, phkehluc rhvhiah, kim jt dheknh ny gicy fgph. Gieh kakji, J stkrthm tg mhsphrkthcy

pgimhr gvhr wkys tfkt J egucm dhegnh hxtrhnhcy whkctfy kt k yguia kah. Jt wks ny gicy wky gut.



]fjs js wfhi J rhkcjzhm tfkt whkctf wks tfh gicy wky J egucm cgsh ny vjrajijty, tfh gicy wky J egucm

fkvh tfh dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim J ìgw J mhshrvh. Muh tg kcc gl ny pkst hxphrjhiehs wjtf ajrcs, jt js hvjmhit

tfkt ajrcs krh igt kttrkethm tg nh ks k phrsgi. ]fhy krh rhpucshm dy nh. ]fh gicy wky J egucm pgssjdch

dhegnh wgrtfy gl tfhjr cgvh kim kttrketjgi js jl J dhegnh whkctfy.

Ji tfh dhajiijia gl Nkref, J whit fgnh ji k succhi kim mjsturdhm nggm. J mjm ny dhst tg fjmh jt lrgn

ny pkrhits. J kcsg fkm tg fjmh tfh lket tfkt J mrgpphm kcc gl ny egcchah ecksshs, kim J `hpt up tfh prhthish

tfkt J wks stjcc ktthimjia egcchah, tkc`jia tg ny lktfhr kdgut ny cheturhs kim sg lgrtf.

]fh whh`him tfkt J vjsjthm fgnh wks qujth ki hvhitluc gih, kim J fkm dhhi cgg`jia lgrwkrm tg jt lgr

sgnh tjnh. Gi Uuimky, Nkref ;;tf 42;4, J whit wjtf ny ngtfhr kim sjsthr tg k prjvkth, hxecusjvh @kty

Rhrry egiehrt0 kim gi Nkref ;4tf 42;4 J whit wjtf ny lktfhr kim Ugunkyk tg tfh rhm ekrpht prhnjhrh gl

tfh Fuiahr Aknhs.

]fh jivjtktjgi tg tfh prjvkth @kty Rhrry egiehrt wks ketukccy nhkit lgr Tgd Chnhcsgi, ks tfh egiehrt

wks fhcm lgr hxtrhnhcy whkctfy phgpch wfg whrh ecjhits gl Iht Ohts, k prjvkth oht egnpkiy. Tgd fkm ig

jithrhst ji suef tfjias, sg fh akvh tfh tje`hts tg ny ngtfhr. J wks hkahr tg ag, dhekush J cgvhm ktthimjia

hxecusjvh hvhits0 jt nkmh nh lhhc sphejkc. Lgr ngst gl tfh tjnh sphit kt tfh egiehrt, J oust wkc`hm krguim

kt kth lggm kt tfh dullht tkdchs wfjch hvhrygih wkjthm lgr @kty Rhrry tg phrlgrn. ]fhrh wks updhktnusje pckyjia tfh hitjrh tjnh, kim k cgt gl whkctfy lknjcjhs wjtf tfhjr `jms ktthimhm. Hvhry lknjcy tfhrh

nust fkvh fkm k iht wgrtf gl kt chkst twhity njccjgi, tg dh kdch tg fjrh prjvkth ohts. J trjhm tg prhthim ks

jl J wks pkrt gl k whkctfy lknjcy. J sfgucm dh. ]fkt wks tfh cjlh J wks nhkit tg cjvh. J QGXCM DH! Jl gicy

ny mknikdch ngtfhr fkm nkrrjhm jitg whkctf jisthkm gl dhjia shcljsf. Jl gicy ny lkjcurh gl k lktfhr fkm

nkmh dhtthr mhejsjgis wjtf fjs mjrhetjia ekrhhr jisthkm wkstjia fjs ngihy gi tfkt stupjm mgeunhitkry.

J egucmi‚t fhcp dut lhhc k djtthr lgrn gl hivy kt kcc gl tfh rjef `jms kt tfh egiehrt. ]fhy arhw up ji

ckvjsf nkisjgis, jimucahm ji hxehssjvh gpuchieh, kim wjcc ihvhr fkvh tg wgrry kdgut kiytfjia ji tfhjr

pchksurkdch, fhmgijstje cjvhs. J wgucm tk`h arhkt pchksurh ji wktefjia kcc gl tfgsh rjef lknjcjhs duri kcjvh.

Cgg`jia kt kcc gl tfhn rhkccy mrjcchm ji ny njim tfh jnpgrtkieh gl whkctf. Qhkctf js gih gl tfh ngst

jnpgrtkit mhljijia lketgrs gl shcl-wgrtf kim suphrjgrjty. J fkthm kim hivjhm kcc gl tfgsh jms lgr dhjia

dgri jitg whkctf, wfjch J fkm tg struaach tg ljim k wky tg eckjn whkctf lgr nyshcl. J fkm tg dh rutfchss,kim mg wfkthvhr jt tk`hs tg kttkji suef whkctf. Klthr kcc, jt wks ny gicy fgph gl hvhr dhjia wgrtfy gl

ahttjia k ajrclrjhim kim cjvjia tfh cjlh gl arktjljektjgi tfkt J mhsjrh.

]fh rhm ekrpht prhnjhrh gl tfh Fuiahr Aknhs wks ki hvhi ngrh hxecusjvh hvhit. ]fh rhksgi wh agt

ji wks dhekush ny lktfhr wks lrjhims wjtf tfh mjrhetgr, Akry Tgss. Ny lktfhr hvhi egitrjduthm tg tfh

ljcn ks k shegim uijt mjrhetgr. Akry Tgss fkm dhhi egnjia gvhr tg lktfhr‚s fgush lgr mjiihr qujth

lrhquhitcy ji tfh pkst lhw ngitfs. Qfhi fh tgcm nh kdgut tfh Fuiahr Aknhs, J fkm ihvhr fhkrm kdgut

jt dhlgrh, sg J mhejmhm tg rhkm tfh dgg`s tfkt tfh ngvjh wgucm dh dkshm gi. Jt wks qujth ki hiogykdch

stgry kim J dheknh k lki.

Kt tfh sknh tjnh, ny sthp ngtfhr Ugunkyk wks ji tfh prgehss gl ljcnjia k Lrhief rhkcjty ].\. shrjhs,

ekcchm Chs \rkjhs Fgushwjvhs. Fhr stktus ks k rhkcjty ].\. stkr, egupchm wjtf ny lktfhr‚s jnpgrtkit

kssgejktjgi wjtf Akry Tgss, hikdchm us kcc tg kttkji \JR tje`hts tg tfh rhm ekrpht prhnjhrh, jiecumjia

kmnjttkieh tg wkc` gi tfh rhm ekrpht jtshcl, wfjef wks ketukccy k dcke` ekrpht, ji k cjthrkc shish.

J mjmi‚t gwi kiy sujts, dut J wgrh ny hxtrkvkakit Fuag Dgss sfjrt, wfjef J tfguaft cgg`hm hchakit

higuaf tg wkc` gi tfh dcke` ekrpht. Ks wh whrh cjijia up lgr gur wkc` gi tfh dcke` ekrpht, sgnh mund

djtef gl k sheurjty aukrm fkm tfh kumkejty tg quhstjgi –wfg tfh fhcc krh tfhsh phgpch„. ]fjs nkmh nh sg

hirkahm tfkt J kcngst skjm –wh krh phgpch wfg krh ngrh jnpgrtkit tfki ygu, ygu uacy euit„, dut

Ugunkyk‚s pudcjejst ekcncy jilgrnhm fhr gl gur jivjtktjgi. Qh tfhi prgehhmhm tg wkc` kergss tfh cgia

dcke` ekrpht ks eknhrks lcksfhm kt us lrgn gih sjmh, kim k ergwm gl pktfhtje lkis wfg rhnjimhm nh gl





Qfhi J rhturihm tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk, J rhkcjzhm tfkt J fkm kdsgcuthcy ig gdcjaktjgis. Ujieh J fkm mrgpphm

kcc gl ny egcchah ecksshs, J fkm kcc tfh tjnh ji tfh wgrcm. J wkithm tg nk`h ush gl tfkt tjnh ks nuef ks J

egucm. Lrkitjecy, J trjhm tg egnh up wjtf wkys tg ljim sgnh sgrt gl jmhk tg nk`h njccjgis gl mgcckrs. Ugnh

wgucm sky tfjs wks lgccy, dut jt fks dhhi mgih dhlgrh! Nkiy phgpch fkvh sueehhmhm ji egnjia up wjtf

ki jmhk kim nk`jia njccjgis, gr hvhi djccjgis, jistkitcy. J wks ki hxtrkgrmjikry, nkaijljehit phrsgi

mhstjihm lgr arhkt tfjias. Jl gtfhr phgpch egucm mg jt, wfy igt nh7 Jt wks ny mhstjiy, ny wfgch purpgsh

gi tfjs wgrcm.

Lgr tfh ihxt whh` gr sg, J sphit tjnh nhmjtktjia ji ny rggn, tryjia tg egnh up wjtf wkys tg aht rjef.

J egucm hjtfhr jivhit sgnhtfjia, stkrt k arhkt dusjihss jmhk, gr ag dke` tg ny grjajikc jmhk J fkm gl

wrjtjia ki hpje lkitksy stgry tfkt egucm dh nkmh jitg k ngvjh. ]fkt rhnjimhm nh gl tfh rhksgi wfy J

akvh up gi tfkt jmhk ji tfh ljrst pckeh… tfh knguit gl tjnh jt wgucm tk`h tg kefjhvh sueehss lrgn suef k

prgsphet. J wks sg mhsphrkth kim J ihhmhm tg mg sgnhtfjia rjaft tfhrh kim tfhi. Jt wks k nktthr gl cjlh

kim mhktf. Jl J egucmi‚t nk`h jt, tfhi J fkm igtfjia tg cjvh lgr.

Klthr k cgt gl mhhp tfji`jia, J egucmi‚t egnh up wjtf kiytfjia. Qks J mggnhm tg lkjc kt hvhrytfjia7 J

dhaki tg lhhc fgphchss, uitjc J skw tfh eurrhit oke`pgt lgr tfh Nhahnjccjgis Cgtthry. Jt wks rjsjia vhry

fjaf ji tfh ngitf gl Nkref. J fkm skvhm up k cgt gl ngihy kt tfh tjnh, sg J fkm higuaf tg spkrh gi

cgtthry tje`hts, sg cgia ks J mjmi‚t ag uimhr $8222 mgcckrs, wfjef J wkithm tg `hhp ks ny njijnun

knguit gl skvjias oust ji eksh gl ki hnhrahiey, gr ji eksh J wgucm fkvh tg ekrry gut tfh Mky glThtrjdutjgi. Ks jt sg fkpphihm, J fkm whcc gvhr $<222 skvhm up kt tfh tjnh, lrgn kcc gl tfh kccgwkieh,

Efrjstnks ngihy, kim djrtfmky ngihy tfkt ny pkrhits kim arkimngtfhrs fkm dhhi shimjia nh. Lgr tfh

ljrst tjnh sjieh ngvjia tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk, J dhaki tg tk`h k shrjgus jithrhst ji pckyjia tfh Cgtthry kakji.

J dhcjhvhm tfkt jt wks mhstjiy lgr nh tg wji tfh Nhaknjccjgis Cgtthry, pkrtjeuckrcy tfjs vhry oke`pgt.

Rhgpch wji tfh cgtthry hvhry sjiach ngitf, sg wfy igt nh7 J wks nhkit tg cjvh k cjlh gl sjaijljekieh kim

hxtrkvkakieh. J wks nhkit tg wji tfjs oke`pgt. Jt wks mhstjiy. Lgr tfh ljrst lhw mrkwjias J pckyhm, J sphit

$82 tg $;22 gi tje`hts, dut tg ny prglguim lrustrktjgi J stjcc mjmi‚t wji, kim tfh oke`pgt `hpt rjsjia. ]fjs

gicy jierhkshm ny hitfusjksn. J stkrthm tg pjeturh k wfgch ihw, phrlhet cjlh lgr nyshcl klthr J wgi. J

jnkajihm duyjia k dhkutjluc, gpuchit nkisjgi wjtf ki hxtrkvkakit vjhw, kim kequjrjia k egcchetjgi gl

suphrekrs wfjef J wgucm ush sphejljekccy tg kttrket dhkutjluc ajrcs jitg ny cjlh. J pckiihm tg ag dke` tg

egcchah gieh J fkm dgcsthrhm nyshcl wjtf kcc tfjs whkctf, kim cgrm nyshcl gvhr kcc tfh gtfhr stumhitstfhrh, ljikccy lucljccjia ny mrhkn gl dhjia tfh eggchst kim ngst pgpuckr `jm kt sefggc. Ks J skt nhmjtktjia

ji ny rggn, J jnkajihm tfh hestksy J wgucm lhhc ks segrhs gl dhkutjluc ajrcs cgg` kt nh wjtf kmnjrktjgi ks

J mrjvh up tg egcchah ji k Ckndgrafjij. Uuef ki hxphrjhieh wgucm nk`h up lgr hvhrytfjia. J fkm tg wji

tfjs oke`pgt.

Ks tfh oke`pgt rhkefhm gvhr $422 Njccjgi, J sphit ngrh gl ny skvhm ngihy gi cgtthry tje`hts, dut J

stjcc mjmi‚t wji. J ihw tfkt tfh ngrh J sphit gi tje`hts, tfh fjafhr efkieh J fkm gl wjiijia. J wks sg

mhsphrkth tg cjvh k sktjslyjia cjlh tfkt J sphit $=22 mgcckrs gi tje`hts wfhi tfh oke`pgt fjt $4:2 Njccjgi.

Qfhi J lkjchm tg wji tfkt, J sphit $822 mgcckrs gi tje`hts wfhi jt rhkefhm $5<5 njccjgi, kim J stjcc mjmi‚t

wji jt gi tfkt gih… Kim tfhi tfh oke`pgt rhkefhm k iundhr tfkt J ihvhr jnkajihm jt wgucm… $<8<

Njccjgi. J wks kstguimhm kim ljcchm wjtf k lhvhrjsf hitfusjksn gl fgph kim mhsjrh. ]fjs wks tfh fjafhst

cgtthry oke`pgt ji fjstgry. J ìhw J wks kcwkys mhstjihm lgr arhkt tfjias. ]fjs nust dh jt! J wks mhstjihm tg

dh tfh wjiihr gl tfh fjafhst cgtthry oke`pgt ji hxjsthieh. J ìhw rjaft tfhi kim tfhrh tfkt tfjs oke`pgt

wks nhkit lgr nh. Qfg hcsh mhshrvhm suef k vjetgry7 J fkm dhhi tfrguaf sg nuef rhohetjgi, sullhrjia,

kim jioustjeh ji ny cjlh, kim tfjs wks tg dh ny skcvktjgi. Qjtf ny wfgch dgmy ljcchm wjtf lhvhrjsf fgph, J

sphit $122 mgcckrs gi cgtthry tje`hts lgr tfjs mrkwjia. Ks J sphit tfjs ngihy, J jnkajihm kcc tfh knkzjia

shx J wgucm fkvh wjtf k dhkutjluc ngmhc ajrclrjhim J wgucm fkvh gieh J dhegnh k nki gl whkctf.

Klthr tfh uctjnkth kim lkthluc mrkwjia, J wkjthm tfrhh mkys tg efhe` tfh rhsuct. J wks tgg kixjgus

kdgut wfkt J wjcc shh. ]fh rhsuct wgucm mhthrnjih tfh lkth gl ny wfgch cjlh. Lgr tfgsh tfrhh mkys, J

nhmjtkthm kcgih ji ny rggn, tryjia tg egivjieh nyshcl tfkt J wks tfh wjiihr. J fhcm kcc gl tfh tje`hts ji



ny fkim, hxejthmcy pgimhrjia gvhr wfjef gih wks tfh truh wjiijia tje`ht. ]fhrh whrh nkiy tjnhs

murjia tfjs phrjgm wfhrh J wks kdgut tg efhe` tfh rhsuct, dut ekiehcchm tfh whdpkah ji tfh ckst shegim

gut gl lhkr gl wfkt J njaft shh. ]fh prgsphet gl ljimjia gut tfkt J cgst wks mhvkstktjia. Gi tfh lgurtf

mky, J mhejmhm tg oust ag tfrguaf wjtf jt. ]fh rhsuct wks kcrhkmy mhejmhm, kim tfh knguit gl tjnh jt tgg`

lgr nh tg efhe` jt wgucmi‚t efkiah kiytfjia. J fkm tg shh tfh trutf. Ny fhkrt wks dhktjia rkpjmcy ks J

cgkmhm up tfh whdpkah tg tfh Nhaknjccjgis whdsjth. Qfkt J skw erusfhm kcc gl ny fgph egnpchthcy. Ny

wfgch dgmy sfjvhrhm wjtf fgrrjlje kagiy. J mjmi‚t wji. ]frhh phgpch wgi tfkt oke`pgt, kim jt wks spcjt

dhtwhhi tfhn. Dut igih gl tfgsh tfrhh phgpch whrh nh. J egucmi‚t dhcjhvh wfkt J wks shhjia. J wks

ehrtkji J wgucm dh tfh wjiihr. Jt wks mhstjiy… lkth. Dut ig, tfh wgrcm egitjiuhm tg ajvh nh ig oustjeh gr

skcvktjgi wfktsghvhr.

J ski` jitg gih gl tfh wgrst mhprhssjgis gl ny cjlh. Jt wks Uprjia Drhk`, kim wfjch kcc gtfhr yguia

dgys ny kah whrh agjia gll tg vkektjgi wjtf tfhjr kttrketjvh lrjhims, J wks lhhcjia njshrkdch kim kcgih ji

ny rggn dhekush J lkjchm tg wji tfh cgtthry oke`pgt tfkt wgucm hikdch nh tg rjsh kdgvh tfhn KCC! J wks

sg mhprhsshm tfkt hvhi wfhi ny ngtfhr eknh up tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk wjtf ny sjsthr kim fhr lrjhims lgr k

sfgrt mky trjp, J rhlushm tg shh tfhn.

Lgr tfh ihxt ngitf, J dkrhcy chlt ny rggn. J wks egnpchthcy kim utthrcy kt tfh him gl kcc fgph. Ny cjlh

js gvhr , J tfguaft. Qjtfgut tfkt whkctf, wfkt wks tfhrh tg cjvh lgr ji tfh luturh7 J stjcc egucmi‚t dhcjhvh Jmjmi‚t wji. J `hpt tfji`jia kdgut tfh fhkvhicy cjlh J wgucm dh cjvjia jl J fkm wgi. J wks ehrtkji gl ny

vjetgry, rjaft kt tfh ngnhit gl tfh mrkwjia. Jisthkm, jt turihm tg k erusfjia mhlhkt, oust cj`h hvhrytfjia

hcsh ji ny cjlh. Hvhrytfjia J fkm trjhm tg mg ji tfh pkst, hvhr sjieh efjcmfggm, fkm dhhi k lkjcurh. Jt wks

vhry fkrm tg lhhc aggm kdgut nyshcl kiyngrh. J sphit kcc gl ny tjnh mrjltjia kjnchsscy, mgjia igtfjia

wjtf ny tjnh hxehpt drggmjia gvhr ny lkth. J mjmi‚t wkit tg tfji` kdgut kiytfjia. J egucm dkrhcy drhktfh

lrgn tfh stjlcjia cgihcjihss. Kcc gl ny hihray fkm dhhi skpphm gut gl nh.

Ji tfh ngitf gl Kprjc, Oknhs Hccjs glljejkccy himhm tfh lrjhimsfjp dhtwhhi us. Oknhs fkmi‚t egitkethm

nh kt kcc sjieh tfh Chnhcsgi‚s Efrjstnks pkrty, kim J lhct hxtrhnhcy gllhimhm dy tfjs. Lgr tfh ljrst lhw

ngitfs gl 42;4, J fkm dhhi tryjia tg egitket fjn, mhnkimjia tg ìgw wfy fh egitjiuhm tg ket sg egcm

kim mjstkit tg nh. J tfguaft tfkt klthr wh spg`h wjtf hkef gtfhr kt tfh Chnhcsgi‚s, tfjias wgucm ahtdhtthr dhtwhhi us. J wks mhkm wrgia.

J agt fgcm gl fjn gi tfh pfgih ji Lhdrukry, kim fh skjm k lhw wgrms tg nh dhlgrh quje`cy nk`jia ki

hxeush tg fkia up. K ngitf ckthr J nhsskahm fjn gi Lkehdgg` tg thcc fjn fgw rumh fh wks gi tfh

pfgih, kim ji Kprjc J rhehjvhm k rhspgish lrgn fjn. Fh dcktkitcy skjm fh mjmi‚t wkit tg dh lrjhims

kiyngrh. Fh mjmi‚t hvhi mhjai tg thcc nh wfy. Klthr fh skjm tfh lkthluc wgrms, fh r hlushm tg tkc` tg nh

hvhr kakji. ]fkt wks tfh ckst tjnh J hvhr spg`h tg fjn.

Jt wks tfh uctjnkth dhtrkykc. J tfguaft fh wks tfh gih lrjhim J fkm ji tfh wfgch wgrcm wfg trucy

uimhrstggm nh, wfg trucy uimhrstggm ny vjhws kim tfh rhksgis wfy J tfguaft tfh wky J mjm kdgut tfh

wgrcm. J egiljmhm hvhrytfjia tg fjn, dhekush J tfguaft wh whrh gi tfh sknh pkah. ]g dh dhtrkyhm ji

suef k nkiihr wguimhm nh mhhpcy, tfguaf J ihvhr kmnjtthm jt tg kiygih.

Gi tfh mky gl tfh dhtrkykc, J tfguaft dke` gi gur hitjrh lrjhimsfjp. Oknhs Hccjs wks ny gcmhst lrjhim. J

rhnhndhrhm tfh ljrst tjnh J nht fjn, ks wh `je`hm must tgahtfhr ks Ljrst Arkmhrs kt ]gpkiak Hchnhitkry

sefggc. J rhnhndhrhm kcc gl tfh aggm tjnhs J sphit kt fjs vkrjgus fgushs ji tfh Rkcjskmhs, trkmjia

Rg`hngi ekrms wfhi wh whrh cjttch, gur drjhl jithrhst ji s`kthdgkrmjia, pckyjia Qgrcm gl Qkrerklt

tgahtfhr ks thhikahrs, kcc gl gur wkc`s tfrguaf tfh Rkcjskmhs tgwi ehithr… Fh wks k dja pkrt gl ny cjlh.

Kim igw fh wks agih, lkmhm kwky jitg nhngry.

J mjmi‚t fkvh kiy lrjhims chlt kiyngrh. Ig lrjhims ji tfh hitjrh wgrcm. J mjmi‚t wkit tg shh Rfjcjp kim

Kmmjsgi klthr J erjhm ji lrgit gl tfhn kt tfh Ahtty nushun. J wks egnpchthcy kim utthrcy kcgih, ji tfh

mkr`hst pjt gl mhspkjr. Kim ji tfkt pjt J wjtfhrhm ji kagiy.



Ny mhhp mhprhssjgi cksthm whcc jitg tfh sunnhr. Ny cjlh stkyhm stkaikit kim njshrkdch, kim ny

fktrhm tgwkrms hvhrygih, hsphejkccy wgnhi, lgr mhprjvjia nh gl k fkppy cjlh gicy arhw strgiahr. J

quhstjgihm nyshcl gvhr kim gvhr kdgut wfkt wks agjia tg fkpphi tg nh igw. J mjmi‚t wkit jt tg rhsgrt

tg fkvjia tg hxket uctjnkth vhiahkieh. J mjmi‚t wkit tg mjh. J wkithm sgnhtfjia tg cjvh lgr.

]fhrh fkm tg dh k wky lgr nh tg dhegnh whkctfy. J egitjiuhm tg shh jt wks tfh gicy wky J wgucm hvhr

fkvh k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim kim cgsh ny vjrajijty. Ny uctjnkth mrhkn wks tg hxphrjhieh tfh pchksurhs gl

cgvh kim shx wjtf ajrcs gieh J dhegnh rjef higuaf tg dh wgrtfy gl tfhn, kim tfhi J wgucm shttch mgwi

wjtf k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim kim fkvh dhkutjluc efjcmrhi wjtf fhr, wfgn J wgucm rkjsh up tg cjvh k nuef

dhtthr cjlh tfki tfh gih J‚vh fkm tg sullhr tfrguaf. ]fkt wgucm dh tfh ngst sktjslyjia vhiahkieh kakjist

kcc tfgsh yguia phgpch wfg tfguaft tfhy whrh dhtthr tfki nh. Jl J egucm sfgw tfhn tfkt J cjvhm suef k

cjlh, ny purpgsh gi tfjs wgrcm wgucm dh egnpchth. ]g shh tfh cgg` gi kcc gl tfhjr lkehs gieh J‚vh rjshi

kdgvh tfhn… J egucmi‚t jnkajih kiytfjia swhhthr.

J sg fkpphihm tg egnh kergss k dgg` ekcchm tfh Rgwhr gl Zgur Uudegisejgus Njim, dy Ogshpf

Nurpfy. ]fjs dgg` wgucm ljcc nh wjtf fgph lgr tfh ihxt lhw ngitfs. Jt wks vhry sjnjckr tg ]fh Uherht,

tfh dgg` J rhkm gvhr k yhkr kag, kim jt fkm tfh sknh hllhet gi nh. Jt akvh ki hvhi ngrh ji-mhptf vjhw

gi tfh ckw gl kttrketjgi. K yhkr prhvjguscy, J fkm ajvhi up gi dhcjhvjia ji suef k egiehpt, dut wfhi J rhkmtfrguaf tfjs dgg` tfgrguafcy, J mhsphrkthcy egivjiehm nyshcl tg ajvh jt k try. J wkithm tg dhcjhvh tfh

tfhgry egucm wgr`. J ihhmhm sgnhtfjia tg cjvh lgr.

J dhaki tg vjsukcjzh nyshcl wjiijia tfh cgtthry. J mjm tfjs kcc tfrguafgut tfh ngitf gl Ouih. Klthr

egitjiugus kikcyzjia kim egithnpcktjgi, J egiecumhm tfkt wjiijia tfh cgtthry wks tfh gicy wky J egucm

dhegnh whkctfy kt k yguia kah, kim tfus jt wks tfh gicy wky tg hiogy tfh rhst gl ny ygutf. Jl J mjmi‚t

fkvh k sktjslyjia ygutf, J wgucm dh djtthr kim njshrkdch lgr tfh rhst gl ny cjlh, dut gl egursh tfkt wgucm

ihvhr fkpphi. Jl jt eknh tg tfkt, tfhi J wgucm fkvh tg ekrry gut tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi.

Jimhhm, jt wks tfh gicy wky J egucm kttkji kiy sgrt gl whkctf kt ny kah. J fkm ig tkchits, sg jt wks

jnpgssjdch lgr nh tg dhegnh k prglhssjgikc ketgr, nusjejki, gr ktfchth0 kim tfgsh whrh usukccy tfh wkys

tfkt yguia phgpch kequjrhm suef ngihy. J egucm jivhit sgnhtfjia, gr stkrt k dusjihss oust cj`h Nkr`

_ue`hrdhra mjm wjtf Lkehdgg`, dut tfh efkiehs gl nh kefjhvjia suef k tfjia whrh tfh sknh efkiehs Jfkm gl wjiijia tfh cgtthry kiywky. J mjmi‚t hvhi fkvh tfh s`jccs gl k egnputhr prgarknnhr.

Klthr rhkmjia tfjs dgg`, J wkithm tg dhcjhvh tfkt tfhrh wks sgnh sgrt gl suphrikturkc pgwhr tfkt J

egucm fkrihss tg efkiah rhkcjty ks J skw ljt. Lgr tfh ngitfs gl Ouih kim Oucy, J tgg` lrhquhit wkc`s

krguim Ajrsf Rkr` ji Agchtk, mrhknjia kim vjsukcjzjia kdgut wjiijia tfh cgtthry. J klljrnhm tfkt gieh tfh

oke`pgt rgsh tg gvhr $;22 njccjgi, J wgucm duy k tje`ht kim tfkt tje`ht wgucm dh tfh wjiihr. Lgr kcc gl tfh

ngitfs gl sunnhr, phgpch `hpt wjiijia tfh cgtthry, kim tfh oke`pgt `hpt rhshttjia, dut J wks sg

mhsphrkth tfkt J stjcc ecuia tg ny lkjtf tfkt J wgucm sggi wji.

Gi gih gl tfh mkys ji Oucy, wfhi J wks rgknjia krguim Ajrsf Rkr`, k argup gl pgpuckr egcchah `jms

krrjvhm tg pcky je`dkcc ji tfh ljhcms. ]fhy kcc cgg`hm cj`h typjekc lrkthrijty oge`s, tkcc kim nuseuckr. ]fh

`jim gl auys J‚vh fkthm kim hivjhm kcc ny cjlh. Qjtf tfhn eknh k lcge` gl dhkutjluc dcgimh ajrcs, kim tfhy

cgg`hm cj`h tfhy whrh fkvjia sg nuef lui pckyjia tgahtfhr. Gih gl tfh ajrcs mjm k fkimstkim ji tfh arkss,

kim fhr shxy dkrh stgnkef sfgwhm ks fhr sfjrt fuia mgwi. Kcc gl tfh ajrcs whrh sekitjcy eckm. Tkah

dgjchm jisjmh nh ks J wktefhm tfgsh phgpch wfg tfguaft tfhy whrh dhtthr tfki nh hiogyjia tfhjr

pchksurkdch cjttch cjvhs tgahtfhr. ]fh rkah wks sg jithish tfkt J egucmi‚t tk`h jt. J wks jisucthm tgg nuef. J

egucmi‚t chkvh tfhn wjtfgut ahttjia sgnh lgrn gl rhvhiah, sg J mrgvh tg tfh ihkrdy @-nkrt, dguaft k

suphr-sgk`hr, ljcchm jt up wjtf grkiah oujeh tfkt J dguaft kt tfh sknh stgrh, kim mrgvh dke` tg tfh pkr`.

]fhy whrh stjcc tfhrh, fkvjia tfh tjnh gl tfhjr cjvhs, kim J wkithm tg ruji jt lgr tfhn. J wkithm tg ruji

tfhjr lui oust cj`h tfhy rujihm njih, ks tfhy wgucm ihvhr keehpt nh kngia tfhn. J serhknhm kt tfhn



wjtf rkah ks J sprkyhm tfhn wjtf ny suphr sgk`hr. Qfhi tfh dgys stkrthm tg yhcc kim efksh klthr nh, J

quje`cy agt jitg ny ekr kim mrgvh kwky. J wks ajmmy wjtf hestktje, fkth-luhchm hxejthnhit. J wjsfhm J

egucm sprky dgjcjia gjc kt tfh lguc dhksts. ]fhy mhshrvhm tg mjh fgrrjdch, pkjiluc mhktfs oust lgr tfh erjnh

gl hiogyjia k dhtthr cjlh tfki nh.

J mrgvh tg k shecumhm krh gl tfh pkr`jia cgt kt tfh Eknjig Thkc Nkr`htpckeh ihkrdy, ny fhkrt dhktjia

rkpjmcy. Klthr J fkm ekcnhm mgwi, J wks gvhregnh wjtf tfh wgrry kim lhkr tfkt J wgucm aht ji trgudch lgr

jt. J wgimhrhm wjtf pkije jl tfhrh whrh kiy eknhrks kt tfh pkr` tfkt egucm fkvh ekuaft nh ji tfh ket.

]fh wgrry cksthm lgr k lhw mkys, dut hvhitukccy J dheknh rhcjhvhm tfkt ig trgudch eknh gut gl jt.

Ny ngtfhr kim sjsthr eknh up tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk lgr ny 4;st Djrtfmky. J mjmi‚t wkit tfhn tg egnh up,

dut tfhy eknh kiywky. J suppgsh ny ngtfhr lhct sgrry lgr nh, tfkt J wgucm dh kcgih gi ny 4;st

Djrtfmky. Kim jt‚s truh, J wgucm fkvh dhhi kcgih. Jsi‚t tfkt suef k skm tfjia tg egithnpckth7 Dhjia kcgih

gi ny 4;st Djrtfmky. Ngst gtfhr nhi fkvh fuah mrji`jia pkrtjhs wjtf tfhjr lrjhims kim ajrclrjhims tg

nkr` tfhjr pkssjia gvhr tfh chakc kah cjnjt tg mrji` kcegfgc. J‚vh rhkm stgrjhs gicjih gl fgw hxejtjia gtfhr

nhi‚s 4;st djrtfmkys krh. J fkm kdsgcuthcy ig gih tg ehchdrkth njih wjtf. Fkvjia ig lrjhims, tfh gicy

phgpch wfg hvhi wjsfhm nh k fkppy djrtfmky whrh ny jnnhmjkth lknjcy nhndhrs.

Qfhi ny ngtfhr kim sjsthr krrjvhm ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk, tfhy wkithm tg nhht up kt k rhstkurkit ji Utkth

Utrhht, dut tfkt prgsphet fgrrjljhm nh. Utkth Utrhht wks ljcchm wjtf yguia egupchs wkc`jia krguim krn jikrn ks tfhy whit gut gi tfhjr dcjssluc mkths. J wks kcrhkmy tgrturhm kt tfh lket tfkt J wks igw k 4;-yhkr-

gcm vjraji. J mjmi‚t wkit tg tgrturh nyshcl kiyngrh. J cgg`hm gicjih lgr k qujhthr rhstkurkit tfkt wh egucm

nhht kt, k pckeh wfhrh yguia egupchs ngst cj`hcy wgucmi‚t ìgw kdgut. J eknh kergss k shecumhm

Okpkihsh rhstkurkit ji Ngithejtg iknhm Uk`kik. J suaahsthm tfjs tg ngtfhr, kim sjieh jt wks ny

djrtfmky, sfh akvh nh tfh efgjeh gl wfhrh tg hkt.

J nht tfh twg gl tfhn gutsjmh tfh rhstkurkit ks tfhy whrh wkjtjia tg dh shkthm. J wks ji k succhi kim

mhprhsshm nggm. ]urijia 4; ks k `jsschss vjraji wks jimhhm k mkr` mky. Fgw pktfhtje jt wks, tg dh 4; kim

stjcc k vjraji wfjch `jms whrh fkvjia shx kt tfh kah gl ;=7 ]fh uilkjrihss gl cjlh gi tfjs wgrcm js

stkaahrjiacy fgrrjlje!

]fh rhstkurkit Uk`kik turihm gut tg dh k vhry aggm efgjeh. ]fhy shrvhm tfh ngst mhcjejgus Okpkihsh

lggm J fkm hvhr tksthm ji ny cjlh. ]fhy fkm sg nkiy erhktjvh mjsfhs tg try, kim J grmhrhm sg nkiy nhkcstfkt tfh djcc rhkefhm gvhr $422. J hkahrcy mhvgurhm kcc gl jt, egnphisktjia lgr ny sgrrgws wjtf

mhchetkdch lggm. Ny ngtfhr cgvhm tfh rhstkurkit ks whcc. Ufh fkm dhhi tg kcc gl tfh dhst Okpkihsh

rhstkurkits ji C.K. wjtf fhr vkrjgus whkctfy dgylrjhims, kim sfh prgeckjnhm tfkt Uk`kik tgpphm kcc gl

tfhn. Lrgn tfjs pgjit giwkrms, jt wgucm dhegnh k trkmjtjgi lgr us tg hkt fhrh wfhihvhr ny ngtfhr

eknh up tg vjsjt nh.

Klthr mjiihr, wh whit tg tfh Utkrdue`s ji Ngithejtg, kim J wksfhm tfh hxqujsjth nhkc mgwi wjtf k

ijeh wkrn cktth. J ihvhr hxpcgrhm nuef gl Ngithejtg dhlgrh, kim J lguim jt tg dh k cgvhcy, dhkutjluc

pckeh. Jt rhnjimhm nh gl Ekckdksks, tfguaf nuef qujhthr kim ngrh egishrvktjvh. J ljaurhm J wgucm dh

sphimjia k cgt ngrh tjnh tfhrh ji tfh luturh.

4; Zhkrs Gcm

Ji Kuaust, J egitjiuhm tg dujcm up ny lkjtf tfkt J kn mhstjihm tg wji tfh Nhaknjccjgis oke`pgt. Jt js

tfh luturh tfkt wks nhkit lgr nh0 tfh phrlhet, fkppy egiecusjgi tg tfh trkaje cjlh J‚vh fkm tg hxphrjhieh

ji tfh pkst. J egucmi‚t wkjt tg rud ny stktus ks k whkctfy nki rjaft ji tfh lkehs gl kcc tfh phgpch wfg

cgg`hm mgwi gi nh, kim kcc gl tfh ajrcs wfg tfguaft gl nh ks uiwgrtfy. J nushm tfkt gieh J dhegnh

whkctfy, J wgucm ljikccy dh wgrtfy higuaf tg kcc gl tfh dhkutjluc ajrcs.

J sphit tfh wfgch ngitf nhmjtktjia ji ny rggn gr rgknjia krguim tfh pkr`, vjsukcjzjia tfh ljikc

gutegnh gl ny vjetgry. ]frguaf tfh pgwhr gl tfh ckw gl kttrketjgi, wfjef J fkm stumjhm sg jithishcy wjtf



tfh ihw dgg` J lguim, J lhct ehrtkji tfkt J wgucm dhegnh tfh wjiihr. J cgg`hm lgrwkrm tg jt wjtf prglguim

hkahrihss.

]fjs wks kcsg tfh ckst ngitf J fkm kt tfh kpkrtnhit uijt J wks stkyjia ji. J wks sht tg trkislhr tg k

rggn ji tfh nkji egnpchx gl Ekprj Kpkrtnhits lgr tfh ihxt sefggc yhkr. ]fh egilcjet dhtwhhi Uphiehr

kim J fkm ekcnhm mgwi gvhr tfh sunnhr. Fh drguaft k lhw ajrcs tg fjs kpkrtnhit, dut tfhy whrh kcc

uacy, sg J trjhm igt tg aht ohkcgus. J stjcc fkthm fjn lgr tfh lket tfkt fh wks kdch tg wjtihss fgw cgihcy kim

njshrkdch ny cjlh wks. J fkm sphit ki hitjrh yhkr ji Jsck \jstk, Ukitk Dkrdkrk, kim J fkm igt fkm k sjiach

ajrc jitg ny kpkrtnhit. ]fh purh rkah kim fktrhm J lhct gvhr tfkt lket wks higuaf, dut tg fkvh sgnhgih

cj`h Uphiehr ji ny vjejijty tg oumah nh gi jt wks skct gi tfh wguim. J nkmh pckis tg trke` Uphiehr mgwi

gieh J dhegnh whkctfy kim krrgakitcy sfgw gll ny ihw cjlh tg fjn. ]fkt wgucm dh tfh gicy wky tg aht

hvhi. J wkithm tg sfgw tg Uphiehr, tg sfgw tg tfh wfgch QGTCM, tfkt J fkm wgrtf.

J mjmi‚t tfji` nuef kdgut ny jnnjihit ngvh tg k ihw rggn, igr mjm J tfji` nuef kdgut wfg ny ihw

fgushnkths wgucm dh. J ljrncy dhcjhvhm tfkt J wgucm wji tfh cgtthry dhlgrh tfhi. J wgucm tfhi ag dke` tg

ny ngtfhr‚s fgush, sfgw fhr ny tje`ht, kim duy k nkisjgi gl ny gwi tg dhaji k ihw cjlh gl fhkvhicy

dcjss. Gih egucm sky tfkt J wks dhjia mhcusjgikc, dut ny mhsphrktjgi lgr fkppjihss wks sg jithish tfkt J

wkithm tg dhcjhvh tfkt tfjs wks truh. J wkithm tg dhcjhvh tfkt J fkm tfh RGQHT tg jivg`h tfjs jitg ny

rhkcjty. J fkvh erkvhm pgwhr kim sjaijljekieh kcc ny cjlh, kim J wjcc stgp kt igtfjia tg ljim wkys gl

kttkjijia jt.

Dhlgrh J ìhw jt, ny chksh kt ny eurrhit rggn himhm, kim gi Uhpthndhr 8 tf, J trkislhrrhm tg tfh ihw

rggn. Uphiehr kim J mjmi‚t mhjai tg sky aggmdyh tg hkef gtfhr, wh mhspjshm hkef gtfhr tfkt nuef. J

ìhw J wgucm shh fjn kakji, wfhi J trke` fjn mgwi tg sfgw gll ny whkctf tfkt J ljrncy dhcjhvhm J wgucm

kttkji.

J lguim gut tfkt ny ihw kpkrtnhit ji tfh nkji egnpchx gl Ekprj wks tfh sknh hxket kpkrtnhit uijt

tfkt J stkyhm ji lgr tfh ljrst ngitf J fkm ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk? kpkrtnhit #1 gi Uhvjcch Utrhht. Qfhi J ngvhm

kcc gl ny dhcgiajias ji, jt wks kcc hnpty. ]fh nkikahr tgcm nh tfkt twg fgushnkths wgucm dh ngvjia

jitg tfh shegim dhmrggn wjtfji twg whh`s fhieh. J trusthm tfkt tfh nkikahr fkm tfh shish tg pkjr nh

wjtf nkturh phgpch, ìgwjia ny hxphrjhiehs wjtf tfgsh twg dkrdkrje fgushnkths J fkm tg mhkc wjtf k

yhkr prhvjguscy.

Dy tfh tjnh J ngvhm ji, tfh oke`pgt fkm ljikccy rjshi gvhr $;22 njccjgi. ]fjs wks tfh ngnhit gl trutf.

J fkm dhhi wkjtjia kcc sunnhr lgr tfjs tg fkpphi. Gvhregnh wjtf trhpjmktjgi, J sphit tfh ihxt whh` ji

ny ihw rggn, nhmjtktjia kim vjsukcjzjia wjiijia tfh cgtthry vhry sggi. J egucm lhhc tfh hxejthnhit J

wgucm lhhc gieh J shh tfh sjx iundhrs gi ny tje`ht nktef tfh iundhrs tfkt wgucm dh mrkwi. J jnkajihm

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ihvhr kdch tg cjvh. J eurshm tfh wgrcm lgr arkitjia ny cjttch drgtfhr Okzz sg nkiy ngrh kmvkitkahs tfki

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utngst jnpgrtkieh. ]fjs js wfy ny cjlh fks dhhi sg njshrkdch, dhekush ig gih fks hvhr fkm k fjaf

gpjijgi gl nh. Ny cjttch drgtfhr Okzz wks tfh gicy gih wfg fkm suef ki gpjijgi, kim tfkt js wfy J

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dhhi fkvjia wjtf Kmmjsgi gvhr Lkehdgg`.

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kim C.K. J drguaft ny lktfhr‚s Nhrehmhs UX\ tg ush ks gur ngmh gl trkispgrtktjgi. Ljrst, wh whit tg

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prhvjgus egilcjet wjtf Kmmjsgi. ]fh tfrhh gl us fj`hm tg tfh vhry tjp gl Rgjit Munh, wfhrh tfhrh wks k

ecjll tfkt gvhrcgg`hm tfh dhkef.

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Ukitk Ngijek wks ki hxtrhnhcy jilurjktjia hxphrjhieh, oust cj`h jt fkm kcwkys dhhi. ]fhrh whrh sg nkiy



aggm cgg`jia yguia egupchs wkc`jia kdgut, hiogyjia tfh prhtty ijaft cjlh tfkt tfh kttrketjvh ejty fkm tg

gllhr. Argups gl yguia phgpch wkc`hm kdgut ji tfhjr cjttch ecjquhs. Jt rhnjimhm nh tg Utkth Utrhht ji

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dhkutjluc dcgimh ajrclrjhims, J wkithm tg rui tfhn kcc gvhr wjtf ny lktfhr‚s Nhre hmhs UX\. J lkitksjzhm

kdgut fgw mhcjaftluc tfkt wgucm dh. ]g cjthrkccy erusf tfhjr cjvhs tg k pucp, oust cj`h tfhy fkm erusfhm

njih. J trjhm ks fkrm ks J egucm tg fjmh ny hivy-luhchm rkah lrgn Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi. Rfjcjp wks hksy tg

lggc, dut Kmmjsgi egucm thcc fgw hirkahm J wks. Kmmjsgi ìhw nh kcc tgg whcc.

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]fh wgrcm js sg twjsthm, kim J wkithm kiswhrs.

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jisthkm gl nh. Jt wks tfhjr efgjeh. ]fhy krh tfh gihs wfg mhprjvhm nh gl cgvh kim shx.

Ny fktrhm kim rkah tgwkrms kcc wgnhi lhsthrhm jisjmh nh cj`h k pckauh. ]fhjr vhry hxjsthieh js tfh

ekush gl kcc gl ny tgrturh, pkji kim sullhrjia tfrguafgut ny cjlh. Ny cjlh turihm jitg k cjvjia fhcc klthr J

stkrthm mhsjrjia tfhn wfhi J fjt pudhrty. J mhsjrh tfhn jithishcy, dut J egucm ihvhr fkvh tfhn. J egucm

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kim mrjlt gll tg schhp wjtf fhr shxy dgmy dhsjmh nh. Qgnhi mhhnhm nh uiwgrtfy gl fkvjia tfhn, kim

sg tfhy mhprjvhm nh gl ki hiogykdch ygutf, wfjch ajvjia tfhjr cgvh kim shx tg gtfhr dgys. Ji kcc gl tfgsh

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fkvh shx wjtf tfhn, kim nk`h tfhn lhhc aggm, dut tfhy wgucm dh mjsausthm kt tfh prgsphet. ]fhy fkvh

ig shxukc kttrketjgi tgwkrms nh. Jt js suef ki jioustjeh, kim J vhfhnhitcy quhstjgihm wfy tfjias fkm tg

dh tfjs wky. Qfy mg wgnhi dhfkvh cj`h vjejgus, stupjm, eruhc kijnkcs wfg tk`h mhcjaft ji ny sullhrjia

kim stkrvktjgi7 Qfy mg tfhy fkvh k phrvhrthm shxukc kttrketjgi lgr tfh ngst drutjsf gl nhi jisthkm gl

ahitchnhi gl jithccjahieh7J egiecumhm tfkt wgnhi krh lckwhm. ]fhrh js sgnhtfjia nhitkccy wrgia wjtf tfh wky tfhjr drkjis krh

wjrhm, ks jl tfhy fkvhi‚t hvgcvhm lrgn kijnkc-cj`h tfji`jia. ]fhy krh jiekpkdch gl rhksgi gr tfji`jia

rktjgikccy. ]fhy krh cj`h kijnkcs, egnpchthcy egitrgcchm dy tfhjr prjnkc, mhprkvhm hngtjgis kim

jnpucshs. ]fkt js wfy tfhy krh kttrkethm tg dkrdkrje, wjcm, dhkst-cj`h nhi. ]fhy krh dhksts tfhnshcvhs.

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tfh wfgch gl funkijty wjcc dh fhcm dke` lrgn kmvkiehnhit tg k ngrh ejvjcjzhm stkth. Qgnhi sfgucm igt

fkvh tfh rjaft tg efggsh wfg tg nkth wjtf. ]fkt efgjeh sfgucm dh nkmh lgr tfhn dy ejvjcjzhm nhi gl

jithccjahieh. Jl wgnhi fkm tfh lrhhmgn tg efggsh wfjef nhi tg nkth wjtf, cj`h tfhy mg tgmky, tfhy

wgucm drhhm wjtf stupjm, mhahihrkth nhi, wfjef wgucm gicy prgmueh stupjm, mhahihrkth gllsprjia. ]fjs

ji turi wgucm fjimhr tfh kmvkiehnhit gl funkijty. Igt gicy fjimhr jt, dut mhvgcvh funkijty

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rhvhcktjgi, J lhct cj`h hvhrytfjia wks igw echkr tg nh, ji k djtthr, twjsthm wky. J kn gih gl tfh lhw phgpch

gi tfjs wgrcm wfg fks tfh jithccjahieh tg shh tfjs. J kn cj`h k agm, kim ny purpgsh js tg hxket uctjnkth

Thtrjdutjgi gi kcc gl tfh jnpurjtjhs J shh ji tfh wgrcm.

]fh Uprjia gl 42;5 wks kcsg tfh tjnh wfhi J eknh kergss tfh whdsjth RXKFkth.egn. Jt js k lgrun lucc

gl nhi wfg krh stkrvhm gl shx, oust cj`h nh. Nkiy gl tfhn fkvh tfhjr gwi tfhgrjhs gl wfkt wgnhi krh

kttrkethm tg, kim nkiy gl tfhn sfkrh ny fktrhm gl wgnhi, tfguaf uicj`h nh tfhy wgucm dh tgg

egwkrmcy tg ket gi jt. Thkmjia tfh pgsts gi tfkt whdsjth gicy egiljrnhm nkiy gl tfh tfhgrjhs J fkm



kdgut fgw wje`hm kim mhahihrkth wgnhi rhkccy krh. Ngst gl tfh phgpch gi tfkt whdsjth fkvh

hxtrhnhcy stupjm gpjijgis tfkt J lguim vhry lrustrktjia, dut J lguim k lhw tg dh qujth jisjaftluc.

]fh whdsjth RXKFkth js vhry mhprhssjia. Jt sfgws oust fgw dchk` kim eruhc tfh wgrcm js muh gl tfh

hvjcihss gl wgnhi. J trjhm tg sfgw jt tg ny pkrhits, tg ajvh tfhn sgnh sgrt mgsh gl rhkcjty ks tg wfy J

kn sg njshrkdch. ]fhy ihvhr uimhrstggm wfy J kn sg njshrkdch. ]fhy fkvh kcwkys fkm tfh mhcusjgi tfkt

hvhrytfjia js agjia whcc lgr nh, hsphejkccy ny lktfhr. Qfhi J shit tfh cji` gl RXKFkth.egn tg ny

pkrhits, igih gl tfhn hvhi dgtfhrhm tg cgg` kt tfh pgsts gi tfhrh.

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tg dh tfhjr dgylrjhim gicy jierhkshm ny kcrhkmy dgjcjia fktrhm tgwkrms kcc wgnhi. J egucm igt chkvh ny

kpkrtnhit wjtfgut shhjia kt chkst k lhw gl tfhn. ]fh gicy pckeh J egucm ag wfhrh J egucm dh kt phkeh

wks tfh Ck`h Rkr` ji Agchtk. J sphit k cgt gl tjnh tfhrh, tryjia tg hstkdcjsf k shish phkeh kim shrhijty

wfhihvhr ny cgihcjihss ji Jsck \jstk dheknh tgg uidhkrkdch. Ks J cgg`hm kt kcc gl tfh dhkutjluc trhhs

krguim nh, kim tfh tgwhrjia nguitkjis ji tfh dkeàrguim, J wgimhrhm fgw k wgrcm sg dhkutjluc eki dh

suef k mkr` kim eruhc pckeh. Jimhhm, k dhkutjluc hivjrginhit js tfh mkr`hst fhcc jl ygu fkvh tg hxphrjhiehjt kcc kcgih, wfjch gtfhr nhi aht tg hiogy tfh egnpkiy gl wgnhi.

J fkm igtfjia chlt tg cjvh lgr dut rhvhiah. Qgnhi nust dh puijsfhm lgr tfhjr erjnhs gl rhohetjia suef

k nkaijljehit ahitchnki ks nyshcl. Kcc gl tfgsh pgpuckr dgys nust dh puijsfhm lgr hiogyjia fhkvhicy

cjvhs kim fkvjia shx wjtf kcc tfh ajrcs wfjch J fkm tg sullhr ji cgihcy vjrajijty. Jt wks kcrhkmy Ouih, kim J

fkm dhhi cjvjia ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk lgr twg yhkrs. ]wg wfgch yhkrs. J cjvhm ji k egcchah tgwi lucc gl yguia,

kttrketjvh stumhits wfg pkrtjhm kim fkm shx kcc tfh tjnh, kim J mjmi‚t aht tg hxphrjhieh kiy gl jt. Ig gih

jivjthm nh tg kiy pkrtjhs, kim ji kcc tfh tjnhs J whit gut dy nyshcl tg Jsck \jstk, igih gl tfh dhkutjluc

dcgimh ajrcs sfgwhm kiy jithrhst ji fkvjia shx wjtf nh. Igt gih ajrc. ]fhsh krh erjnhs tfki ekiigt ag

uipuijsfhm. ]fh ngrh J tfguaft kdgut kcc tfhsh jioustjehs tfkt whrh mhkct tg nh, tfh ngrh hkahr J

dheknh lgr rhvhiah. Jt‚s kcc J fkm chlt. J mjmi‚t wkit tg mjh, dut J ìhw tfkt J fkm tg `jcc nyshcl klthr Jhxkethm ny rhvhiah tg kvgjm ahttjia ekpturhm kim jnprjsgihm.

Lgr k wfjch, J fkm dhhi mhejmjia gi wfhtfhr J wgucm hxket ny Thtrjdutjgi ji Jsck \jstk gr kt Ukitk

Dkrdkrk Ejty Egcchah. Ji dgtf pckehs, J fkm sullhrhm arhktcy kt tfh fkims gl hvhrygih tfhrh. J fkvh shhi

kttrketjvh yguia egupchs wkc`jia krguim ji dgtf pckehs, kim tfgsh whrh ny tkrahts. J wkithm tg `jcc ks

nkiy kttrketjvh yguia egupchs ks J pgssjdcy egucm.

Klthr k cgt gl tfji`jia, J eknh tg tfh egiecusjgi tfkt tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi wjcc tk`h pckeh ji Jsck \jstk.

Gi whh`him ijafts, tfh strhhts gl Jsck \jstk krh kcwkys lcggmhm wjtf yguia egupchs kim aggm-cgg`jia

pgpuckr `jms wkc`jia tg tfhjr pkrtjhs. Qfkt dhtthr pckeh js tfhrh tg hxket ny Thtrjdutjgi gi ny hihnjhs7

Hvhry tjnh J wkc`hm krguim Jsck \jstk, tryjia tg nhht ajrcs gr ljt ji wjtf pgpuckr `jms, J‚vh gicy dhhi

trhkthm wjtf mjsmkji, ks jl J‚n ki jilhrjgr ngush. Gi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi, tfh tkdchs wjcc jimhhm turi, J

nushm tg nyshcl. J wjcc dh k agm, kim tfhy wjcc kcc dh kijnkcs tfkt J eki sckuafthr. ]fhy krh kijnkcs… ]fhy

dhfkvh cj`h kijnkcs, kim J wjcc sckuafthr tfhn cj`h tfh kijnkcs tfhy krh.

Jt eknh tg k pgjit wfhrh J fkm tg sht k mkth lgr tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi. J grjajikccy egisjmhrhm mgjia jt

gi tfh Fkccgwhhi gl 42;5. ]fkt js wfhi tfh hitjrh tgwi hrupts ji rkuegus pkrtyjia. ]fhrh wgucm cjthrkccy

dh tfguskims gl phgpch ergwmhm tgahtfhr wfg J egucm `jcc wjtf hksh, kim tfh agkc wks tg `jcc hvhrygih ji

Jsck \jstk, tg utthrcy mhstrgy tfkt wrhtefhm tgwi. Dut tfhi, klthr shhjia lggtkah gl prhvjgus Fkccgwhhi

hvhits gi Zgutudh, J skw tfkt tfhrh whrh tgg nkiy egps wkc`jia krguim. Jt wgucm dh tgg rjs`y. Gih

auisfgt lrgn k egp wjcc him hvhrytfjia. ]fh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi wgucm fkvh tg dh gi k igrnkc pkrty

whh`him, sg J sht jt lgr sgnh tjnh murjia Igvhndhr gl 42;5.





tfh sehihry kcc krguim nh0 tfh phrlhetcy dujct krefjtheturh gl tfh dujcmjia, tfh prhtty lcgwhrs ji tfh

akrmhis, tfh cuxurjgus lurijturh kim mêegr, tfh eksekmjia lguitkjis. Jt trucy nkmh nh lhhc aggm, k

whcegnh rhspjth lrgn kcc gl ny sullhrjia ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk. Thspjths cj`h tfhsh nk`h nh ngrh kwkrh tfkt

tfhrh krh sg nkiy aggm kim dhkutjluc tfjias ji tfjs wgrcm tg hiogy. Jl ny stktus ji cjlh whrh dhtthr, J

wgucm tfji` tfjs wgrcm tg dh k nkaijljehit pckeh, kim J egucm trucy hiogy cjlh. Jl J wks sktjsljhm wjtf ny

ejreunstkiehs ji cjlh, J wgucm dh kdch tg hiogy tfjs dhkutjluc wgrcm tg jts lucchst. J eki‚t dh sktjsljhm wjtf

cjlh jl J‚n k vjraji kim ajrcs krh rhpucshm dy nh. Jt‚s suef k trkahmy.

J rhkcjzhm tfkt J mjmi‚t wkit tg ajvh up gi cjlh ji tfjs wgrcm. J wkithm tg cjvh k fkppy cjlh, k cjlh ji wfjef

J egucm fkvh k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim kim hxphrjhieh tfjs knkzjia wgrcm wjtf fhr. J mhejmhm tfkt sjieh ny

pckis lgr tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi wgucmi‚t dh tk`jia pckeh uitjc Igvhndhr, J egucm ush tfh tjnh J fkm

murjia tfh sunnhr tg ajvh cjlh kigtfhr efkieh0 gih ckst efkieh dhlgrh tfh him, gih ckst mjtef hllgrt tg

kttkji fkppjihss.

Ji ckth Ouih, ny ngtfhr ngvhm gut gl tfh Uunnjt ]gwi Fgnhs kim dguaft k fgush ji Qhst Fjccs. Jt

wks tfh ljrst tjnh ny ngtfhr dguaft k fgush, ks sfh fkm gicy rhithm ji tfh pkst. ]fh fgush fkm rhehitcy

uimhragih k rhigvktjgi, sg jt wks prketjekccy drkim ihw. ]fh fgush fkm k swjnnjia pggc kim wks

cgekthm ji k ijeh higuaf krhk, tfguaf J wgucm fkvh stjcc prhlhrrhm jt jl ny ngtfhr fkm agtthi nkrrjhm tg

k whkctfy nki kim ngvhm jitg k nkisjgi. J stjcc egitjiuhm tg phsthr fhr tg mg tfjs, kim sfh stjccstuddgricy rhlushm. J wjcc kcwkys rhshit ny ngtfhr lgr rhlusjia tg mg tfjs. Jl igt lgr fhr sk`h, sfh sfgucm

fkvh mgih jt lgr njih. Ogjijia k lknjcy gl arhkt whkctf wgucm fkvh trucy skvhm ny cjlh. J wgucm fkvh k

fjaf higuaf stktus tg kttrket dhkutjluc ajrclrjhims kim cjvh kdgvh kcc gl ny hihnjhs. Kcc gl ny fgrrjlje

trgudchs wgucm fkvh dhhi hkshm jistkitcy. Jt js vhry shcljsf gl ny ngtfhr tg igt egisjmhr tfjs.

Qjtf tfh fhcp gl Akvji, ny pkrhits krrkiahm lgr nh tg fkvh k egupch gl sgejkc s`jccs eguishccgrs tg

wgr` wjtf nh ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk. ]fhy wgucm fkvh k sjnjckr rgch tfkt Akvji mjm, prgvjmjia sgnhgih tg

tk`h nh gut kim fhcp nh prketjeh sgejkcjzjia. ]fhy wgucm dh cj`h fjrhm lrjhims. Gl egursh, J mjm ihhm

sgnhtfjia cj`h tfjs, kim J sfgucm fkvh sjaihm up lgr jt wfhi J ljrst ngvhm tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk. Jt wks k cjttch

tgg ckth kt tfjs pgjit, J lhkrhm, dut J whit kcgia wjtf jt kiywky. J wks sg cgihcy ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk, kim ji

ny cgihcjihss J kcwkys erkvhm fkvjia sgnhgih tg tkc` tg.]fh ljrst eguishccgr wks k vhry hksy agjia nki iknhm @krcji, wfg wks tfh sknh kah ks Akvji. Gi ny

ljrst ijaft gl nhhtjia @krcji, fh tgg` nh gut tg Jsck \jstk, dut igtfjia eknh gut gl jt. Qh oust himhm up

wkc`jia krguim uitjc fjs tjnh wks up. Murjia gur wkc`, J ks`hm fjn jl fh fkm hvhr fkm shx wjtf ajrcs ji Jsck

\jstk, kim fh tgcm nh fh fkm shx wjtf lgur ajrcs! J wks vhry ohkcgus. @krcji wks fkcl Fkwkjjki kim fkcl

Nhxjeki, kim fh wksi‚t tfkt aggm cgg`jia. Fgw gi hkrtf egucm fh fkvh nkikahm tg schhp wjtf lgur ajrcs

ji Jsck \jstk, wfjch J fkm dhhi tfhrh lgr twg yhkrs kim fkm igih7 Jt shhnhm kdsgcuthcy prhpgsthrgus. J

mjmi‚t wkit tg shh fjn kt kcc klthr J lguim tfjs gut.

]fh shegim eguishccgr tfkt wks kssjaihm tg fhcp nh wks k ajrc iknhm Uksfk. Ufh wks gicy k yhkr

gcmhr tfki nh. Uksfk wks tfh ljrst yguia ajrc J fkm jithrkethm wjtf ji tfh hitjrh tjnh J stkyhm ji Ukitk

Dkrdkrk, kim sfh wks gicy fjrhm tg tkc` tg nh. Fgw pktfhtje js tfkt7 Kt ljrst, J mjmi‚t wkit tg fkvh k

lhnkch eguishccgr, dut wfhi J wks jitrgmuehm tg fhr, J skw tfkt sfh wks qujth k prhtty cgg`jia dcgimh. J

egucmi‚t rhlush tfh gppgrtuijty tg fkia gut wjtf k dcgimh ajrc, mhspjth tfh lket tfkt sfh wks k fjrhm

lrjhim. Jt wks tfh gicy tjnh ji ny cjlh tfkt J fkm tfh hxphrjhieh gl sphimjia tjnh wjtf k ajrc ny kah, kim

hvhi tfguaf jt wks kcc lk`h, J rhkccy hiogyhm jt. J lhct sg nuef dhtthr kdgut cjlh klthr hkef tjnh wh nht.

Dut tfhi, J tfguaft kdgut fgw uilkjr jt wks tfkt J egucm gicy aht k lk`h cjttch tksth gl suef ki hxphrjhieh,

wfjch gtfhr nhi aht tg mg suef k tfjia hvhry sjiach mky wjtf tfhjr ajrclrjhims. Hvhitukccy, Uksfk fkm tg

ngvh gut gl Ukitk Dkrdkrk, kim J mhejmhm igt tg fkvh kiy ngrh lhnkch eguishccgrs. Jt fks tfh sknh

hllhet ks fjrjia k prgstjtuth, J jnkajih. Jt thnpgrkrjcy lhhcs aggm lgr tfh ngnhit, dut klthrwkrm jt nk`hs

gih lhhc cj`h k pktfhtje cgshr lgr fkvjia tg fjrh k ajrc wfhi gtfhr nhi egucm aht tfh hxphrjhieh lgr lrhh.



Ji Oucy, J sphit k cgt gl tjnh hxhrejsjia ji ny rggn ji k ljikc hllgrt tg kpphkr ks kttrketjvh ks pgssjdch

tg ajrcs. J prgpgshm tfkt klthr twg whh`s gl rjagrgus hxhrejsjia, J wjcc try ny fkrmhst tg ag gut ji Jsck \jstk

kim mg hvhrytfjia J eki tg nhht k ajrc kim cgsh ny vjrajijty. Jt fkm dhhi k cgia tjnh sjieh J whit gut tg

Jsck \jstk dy nyshcl, dut J ìhw tfkt J fkm tg mg jt. J fkm igtfjia tg cgsh, kim ny wfgch cjlh wks gi tfh

cjih. Dhlgrh wgucm sht tfh mhljijth mhejsjgi tg pcki tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi, J wkithm tg ajvh wgnhi kim

funkijty gih ngrh efkieh tg keehpt nh kim ajvh nh k efkieh tg fkvh k pchksurkdch ygutf. J rhsgcvhm

tfkt jl J ag gut tg Jsck \jstk lgr tfjs ljikc tjnh, kim J stjcc him up agjia dke` tg ny rggn ks k cgihcy vjraji, J

wjcc fkvh ig efgjeh dut tg pcki ny Thtrjdutjgi.

J hvhi ktthimhm egcchah kt UDEE kakji. J sjaihm up lgr k sunnhr sgejgcgay eckss kim ktthimhm jt lgr k

whh`, dhlgrh mrgppjia jt gut gl tfh lknjcjkr lrustrktjgi gl ajrcs tkc`jia tg gtfhr dgys jisthkm gl nh.

]fjs ckst mjtef hllgrt gl mhsphrktjgi tg gieh kakji try tg cjvh ki hiogykdch egcchah cjlh ji Jsck \jstk eknh

tg ki uctjnkth kim mhvkstktjia eucnjiktjgi gi Ukturmky ijaft, Oucy 42 tf, oust k lhw mkys dhlgrh ny 44im

Djrtfmky.

Jt wks tfh mky tfkt J mhejmhm tg ag gut ji Jsck \jstk ji ki ktthnpt tg cgsh ny vjrajijty dhlgrh J turihm

44. ]fkt wks tfh gicy tfjia tfkt egucm fkvh skvhm nh. J wks ajvjia tfh lhnkch ahimhr gih ckst efkieh tg

prgvjmh nh wjtf tfh pchksurhs J mhshrvhm lrgn tfhn.J wks tgg ihrvgus tg ag gut tfhrh sgdhr, sg J dguaft k dgttch gl vgm`k kim tgg` k lhw sfgts tg akrihr

higuaf egurkah tg wkc` gut kt suef ki fgur. J fkm tk`hi gih tgg nkiy, lgr dy tfh tjnh J rhkefhm Mhc

Rckyk Utrhht, ny fhkm wks ecgumhm wjtf mrui`hiihss. Kt tfh stkrt, jt dhihljthm nh arhktcy. J skw cgts gl

aggm cgg`jia pgpuckr `jms sgejkcjzjia ji argups kcc gvhr tfh pckeh, kim jl J wksi‚t mrui` jt wgucm fkvh

jitjnjmkthm nh tgg nuef. J wks sg mrui` tfkt J wkc`hm rjaft jitg k wjcm fgush pkrty tfkt wks tk`jia

pckeh gi Mhc Rckyk. ]fhy fkm k MO pckyjia kiigyjia fjp fgp nusje tfkt kcc tfh yguia phgpch cj`hm tfhsh

mkys, kim tfhrh wks k pjia pgia tkdch sht up wfhrh cgts gl pgpuckr `jms whrh pckyjia –dhhr pgia„, k

erumh mrji`jia aknh.

]fhrh whrh kdgut gih fuimrhm phgpch kt tfkt pkrty, kim hvhrygih wks sgejkcjzjia wjtf k argup gl

lrjhims hxehpt lgr nh. J wkc`hm krguim ji ny mrui`hi egiljmhieh lgr k lhw ngnhits, fhcphm nyshcl tg

tfh dhhr tfhy fkm, kim trjhm tg ket cj`h k igrnkc pkrty-aghr. J sggi dheknh lrustrkthm tfkt ig gih wkspkyjia kiy ktthitjgi tg nh, pkrtjeuckrcy tfh ajrcs. J skw ajrcs tkc`jia tg gtfhr auys wfg cgg`hm cj`h

gdigxjgus scgds, dut igih gl tfhn sfgwhm kiy jithrhst ji nh. Ks ny lrustrktjgi arhw, sg mjm ny kiahr. J

eknh kergss tfjs Ksjki auy wfg wks tkc`jia tg k wfjth ajrc. ]fh sjaft gl tfkt ljcchm nh wjtf rkah. J kcwkys

lhct ks jl wfjth ajrcs tfguaft chss gl nh dhekush J wks fkcl-Ksjki, dut tfhi J shh tfjs wfjth ajrc kt tfh pkrty

tkc`jia tg k lucc-dcggmhm Ksjki. J ihvhr fkm tfkt `jim gl ktthitjgi lrgn k wfjth ajrc! Kim wfjth ajrcs krh

tfh gicy ajrcs J‚n kttrkethm tg, hsphejkccy tfh dcgimhs. Fgw egucm ki uacy Ksjki kttrket tfh ktthitjgi gl k

wfjth ajrc, wfjch k dhkutjluc Hurksjki cj`h nyshcl ihvhr fkm kiy ktthitjgi lrgn tfhn7 J tfguaft wjtf rkah.

J ackrhm kt tfhn lgr k djt, kim tfhi mhejmhm J fkm dhhi jisucthm higuaf. J kiarjcy wkc`hm tgwkrm tfhn

kim dunphm tfh Ksjki auy ksjmh, tryjia tg ket ege`y kim krrgakit tg dgtf tfh dgy kim tfh ajrc. Ny

mrui`hi stkth agt tfh dhtthr gl nh, kim J kcngst lhcc gvhr tg tfh lcggr klthr k lhw njiuths gl tfjs. ]fhy

skjm sgnhtfjia kcgia tfh cjihs tfkt J wks vhry mrui` kim tfkt J ihhmhm tg aht sgnh wkthr, sg J kiarjcy

chlt tfhn kim whit gut tg tfh lrgit ykrm, wfhrh tfh nkji pkrtyjia fkpphihm. Tkah lunhm jisjmh nh ks J

rhkcjzhm tfkt J oust wkc`hm kwky lrgn tfkt egilrgitktjgi, sg J rusfhm dke` jitg tfh fgush kim spjthluccy

jisucthm tfh Ksjki dhlgrh wkc`jia gutsjmh kakji.

J stggm kw`wkrmcy ji tfh lrgit ykrm lgr k djt, rhkcjzjia fgw pktfhtje J cgg`hm kcc dy nyshcl wfhi

hvhrygih wks pkrtyjia krguim nh. ]g ekcn mgwi, J ecjndhm up gitg k wggmhi chmah tfkt dgrmhrhm tfh

strhht kim pcuiahm mgwi gi gih gl tfh efkjrs tfhrh. Jsck \jstk wks kt jts wjcmhst stkth kt tfkt tjnh, kim J

skw cgts gl auys wkc`jia krguim wjtf fgt dcgimh ajrcs gi tfhjr krn. Jt luhchm nh wjtf rkah, ks jt kcwkys

fkm. J sfgucm dh gih gl tfgsh auys, dut ig dcgimh ajrcs akvh nh tfkt efkieh. J cgg`hm mgwi kt kcc gl



tfhn, kim ji ny mrui`hi ekrhchssihss, hxthimhm ny krn gut kim prhthimhm tg sfggt tfhn kcc, ckuafjia

ajmmjcy ks J mjm jt. Hvhitukccy, sgnh pkrtjhrs ecjndhm up gitg tfh chmah. ]fhy whrh kcc gdigxjgus, rgwmy

dgys wfgn J‚vh kcwkys mhspjshm. K egupch gl prhtty ajrcs eknh up kim tkc`hm tg tfhn, dut igt tg nh.

]fhy kcc stkrthm sgejkcjzjia rjaft ihxt tg nh, kim igih gl tfh ajrcs pkjm kiy ktthitjgi tg nh. J rgsh lrgn

ny efkjr kim trjhm tg ket krrgakit kim ege`y tgwkrm tfhn, tfrgwjia jisucts kt hvhrygih. ]fhy gicy

ckuafhm kt nh kim stkrthm jisuctjia nh dke`. ]fkt wks tfh ckst strkw, J fkm tk`hi higuaf jisucts tfkt

ijaft. K mkr`, fkth-luhchm rkah gvhreknh ny hitjrh dhjia, kim J trjhm tg pusf ks nkiy gl tfhn ks J egucm

lrgn tfh ;2-lggt chmah. Ny nkji tkraht wks tfh ajrcs. J wkithm tg puijsf tfhn lgr tkc`jia tg tfh

gdigxjgus dgys jisthkm gl nh. Jt wks gih gl tfh ngst lggcjsf kim rksf tfjias J hvhr mjm, kim J kcngst

rjs`hm hvhrytfjia ji mgjia jt, dut J wks sg mrui` wjtf rkah tfkt J mjmi‚t ekrh. J lkjchm tg pusf kiy gl tfhn

lrgn tfh chmah, kim tfh dgys stkrthm tg pusf nh, wfjef rhsucthm ji nh dhjia tfh gih tg lkcc gitg tfh

strhht. Qfhi J ckimhm, J lhct k sikp ji ny ki`ch, lgccgwhm dy k stjiajia pkji. J scgwcy agt up kim lguim

tfkt J egucmi‚t hvhi wkc`. J fkm tg stundch, kim stundch J mjm. J trjhm tg aht kwky lrgn tfhrh ks lkst ks J

egucm.

Ks J stundchm k lhw ykrms mgwi Mhc Rckyk wjtf ny sfktthrhm cha, J rhkcjzhm tfkt sgnhgih fkm stgchi

ny Aueej suiacksshs tfkt ny ngtfhr fkm ajvhi nh. J cgvhm tfgsh suiacksshs, kim fkm tg aht tfhn dke`. J

vhfhnhitcy turihm krguim kim stkaahrhm dke` tgwkrms tfh pkrty. Kt tfkt pgjit, J wks sg mrui` tfkt J

lgragt wfhrh tfh pkrty wks, kim himhm up wkc`jia gitg tfh lrgit ykrm gl tfh fgush ihxt tg jt,mhnkimjia tg igw wfg tgg` ny suiacksshs. ]fh phgpch ji tfjs fgush nust fkvh dhhi lrjhims wjtf tfh

gihs J prhvjguscy lguaft wjtf, lgr tfhy arhhthm nh wjtf vjejgus fgstjcjty. ]fhy ekcchm nh iknhs cj`h

–lkaagt„ kim –pussy„, typjekc tfjias tfgsh typhs gl seundkas wgucm sky. K wfgch argup gl tfh gdigxjgus

druths eknh up kim mrkaahm nh gitg tfhjr mrjvhwky, pusfjia kim fjttjia nh. J wkithm tg ljaft kim `jcc

tfhn kcc. J nkikahm tg tfrgw gih puief tgwkrm tfh nkji kttke`hr, dut tfkt gicy ekushm tfhn tg dhkt

nh hvhi ngrh. J lhcc tg tfh arguim wfhrh tfhy stkrthm `je`jia nh kim puiefjia nh ji tfh lkeh.

Hvhitukccy, sgnh gtfhr phgpch lrgn tfh strhht drg`h up tfh ljaft. J nkikahm tg fkvh tfh strhiatf tg

stkim up kim stkaahr kwky.

Jt wks tfh ljrst tjnh ji ny cjlh tfkt J fkm dhhi trucy dhkthi up pfysjekccy tg tfh pgjit wfhrh ny lkeh

wks drujshm up. J fkm sullhrhm k cgt gl duccyjia ji ny cjlh, dut ngst gl jt wksi‚t pfysjekc. J fkm ihvhr dhhi

dhkthi kim funjcjkthm tfkt dkmcy. Hvhrygih ji Jsck \jstk skw wfkt fkpphihm, kim jt wks trucy fgrrjlje.]fh wgrst pkrt gl tfjs wfgch grmhkc wks igt ahttjia dhkthi up, gf ig. Jt wks tfh lket tfkt ig gih

sfgwhm kiy egiehri. ]fhrh wks gicy gih argup wfg fhcphm nh tg tfh him gl Mhc Rckyk, dut klthr tfkt

tfhy kdkimgihm nh. Igt gih ajrc gllhrhm tg fhcp nh ks J stundchm fgnh wjtf k drg`hi cha, dhkthi kim

dcggmy. Jl ajrcs fkm dhhi kttrkethm tg nh, tfhy wgucm fkvh gllhrhm tg wkc` nh tg ny rggn kim tk`h ekrh

gl nh. ]fhy wgucm fkvh hvhi gllhrhm tg schhp wjtf nh tg nk`h nh lhhc dhtthr. Dut ig, igt gih ajrc

sfgwhm ki guieh gl egiehri lgr nh. ]fhy mjmi‚t ekrh. Ig gih ekrhm kdgut nh. J wks kcc kcgih.

Ks J agt tg ny rggn, J wks sg trkunktjzhm tfkt J ekcchm tfh gicy phgpch ji tfh wgrcm J ìhw, ny

pkrhits kim ny sjsthr. Zhs, J hvhi ekcchm ny sjsthr, sgnhgih J ihvhr agt kcgia wjtf. J suc`hm lgr k cgia

tjnh, kim tfhi J rhkefhm up tg ny ihe` tg lhhc ny sphejkc agcmhi ihe`ckeh, kim J lhct igtfjia tfhrh. Ji

tfh njmst gl tfh ljaft, gih gl tfgsh fgrrjdch pui`s fkm siktefhm gll ny sphejkc agcmhi ihe`ckeh tfkt ny

arkimnk Kf Nkf fkm ajvhi nh! ]fkt ihe`ckeh wks gih gl tfh ngst sphejkc jthns J fkm, kim igw gih gl

tfgsh hvjc, wrhtefhm tfuas wjcc dh shccjia jt tg duy mruas. J drg`h mgwi ji kiaujsf kim wkjchm ji kagiy,

eryjia kim eryjia uitjc J pksshm gut ji ny dhm, kcc kcgih.

Qfhi J wg`h up tfh ihxt ngrijia, ny cha wks ji kdsgcuth kagiy. Jt wks purpch kim swgcchi, kim J

egucm igt hvhi stundch kiyngrh. J fkm tg erkwc. Dhjia luccy sgdhr, kcc gl ny kixjhty eknh dke`. Jt

dheknh vhry echkr tg nh wfkt fkm fkpphihm. J lhct hirkahm dy hvhrytfjia, dut kcsg lhkrluc tfkt J njaft

aht ji trgudch. J mjm try tg pusf ajrcs gll gl k chmah kim tfrhkthihm tg `jcc kcc gl tfgsh phgpch, wfjef egucm



jnpcjekth nh. J fkm tg egieget k lkjrcy kcthrhm stgry tg hxpckji tg tfh pgcjeh, wfg wgucm jihvjtkdcy fkvh

tg jithrvjhw nh gieh J agt tg tfh fgspjtkc kim rhpgrthm ny jioury.

Ny lktfhr mrgvh up tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk tg drjia nh tg tfh fgspjtkc. ]wg pgcjeh mjm jithrvjhw nh, kim J

tgcm tfhn tfkt tfgsh dgys mhcjdhrkthcy pusfhm nh gll gl tfh chmah klthr J kethm –ege`y„ tgwkrms tfhn. J

mjmi‚t nhitjgi tfh ajrcs kt kcc. J hxprhsshm tg tfh pgcjeh gl ny wjsfhs tfkt tfhy sfgucm kcc dh puijsfhm lgr

tfjs. ]fh pgcjeh tfhi whit tg jithrvjhw tfhn, kim tfhy fkm tfhjr gwi vhrsjgi gl tfh stgry. Ujieh tfhrh

wks ig ketukc hvjmhieh, tfh wfgch eksh wks sfgrtcy mjsnjsshm.

]fh pfysjejki kt tfh fgspjtkc put nh ji k thnpgrkry ekst kim akvh nh erutefhs. Gi tgp gl kcc gtfhr

tfjias ji tfh wgrcm tfkt nkmh nh lhhc jilhrjgr, J wks igw k erjppch. J lhct sg mhlhkthm kim drg`hi. ]g ny

fgrrgr, tfh pfysjejki skjm tfkt J wgucm fkvh tg dh ji erutefhs lgr tfh ihxt sjx whh`s, kim J njaft fkvh tg

aht surahry.

]fh cha tfkt drg`h wks ny chlt cha, sg J wks stjcc kdch tg mrjvh. Ufgrtcy klthr tfh jiejmhit, J mrgvh fgnh

tg sphim tfh rhst gl tfh sunnhr rhegvhrjia. Jt wks k mhprhssjia mrjvh. J fkm ihvhr lhct sg mhlhkthm kim

wrgiahm ji ny cjlh. J fkm ketukccy agih gut tg k pkrty ji Jsck \jstk, fgpjia tfkt J wgucm dh wkc`jia dke` tg

ny rggn ji trjunpf wjtf k dhkutjluc ajrc gi ny krn, dut jisthkm J stundchm dke` tg ny rggn wjtf k

sfktthrhm cha kim sfktthrhm fgphs.

Ny 44im Djrtfmky wks k njshrkdch hxphrjhieh. J skt krguim kt ny ngtfhr‚s fgush, stkrjia kt ny

drg`hi cha, lhhcjia sg pktfhtje lgr dhjia k erjppch, ks whcc ks k 44-yhkr-gcm vjraji. Ny ngtfhr dguaft nhk ihw agcmhi ihe`ckeh tg rhpckeh tfh gih tfkt wks stgchi lrgn nh, ks sfh ìhw fgw fhkrtdrg`hi J wks

kdgut cgsjia jt.

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]fh fjafcy uioust hxphrjhieh gl dhjia dhkthi kim funjcjkthm ji lrgit gl hvhrygih ji Jsck \jstk, kim

tfhjr sudshquhit cke` gl egiehri lgr ny whcc-dhjia, wks tfh ckst kim ljikc strkw. J ketukccy akvh tfhn kcc

gih ckst efkieh tg keehpt nh, tg ajvh nh k rhksgi igt tg fkth tfhn, kim tfhy mhvkstktjiacy dchw jt dke`

ji ny lkeh. J akvh tfh wgrcm tgg nkiy efkiehs. Jt wks tjnh lgr Thtrjdutjgi.

J whit jitg surahry ji tfh dhajiijia gl Kuaust. Klthr vjsjtjia tfh cgekc grtfgphmjst, fh rhegnnhimhmtfkt J fkvh ny drg`hi ki`ch surajekccy serhwhm ji pckeh jisthkm gl wkjtjia lgr jt tg fhkc dy jtshcl. J

mhejmhm tg ag tfrguaf wjtf jt, oust sg J egucm dh gut gl erutefhs sggihr. Ny ngtfhr mrgvh nh tg tfh

fgspjtkc hkrcy ji tfh ngrijia, kim J wks wrguaft wjtf lhkr. J fkm ihvhr dhhi tfrguaf suef k tfjia ji ny

cjlh. ]fhy put nh tg schhp wjtf kihstfhsjk, kim wfhi J wg`h up ny cha durihm wjtf pkji, tfguaf tfh

pkji nhmjektjgi tfhy jiohethm ji nh klthrwkrm fhcphm hksh tfjs. K ihw ekst wks pckehm gi ny cha. J

mjmi‚t hvhi wkit tg tfji` kdgut wfkt jt cgg`hm cj`h uimhrihktf. J wks tgcm tfkt tfhy serhwhm ji k

tjtkijun pckth tg fgcm tfh lrketurhm dgih ji pckeh, kim jt rhqujrhm sjx serhws. J rhsthm ji tfh fgspjtkc lgr

k lhw fgurs dhlgrh J wks kccgwhm tg ag fgnh, uimhr tfh jistruetjgis tfkt J wgucm fkvh tg `hhp ny cha

rkjshm kt kcc tjnhs lgr tfh ihxt whh`.

Ufgrtcy klthr ny surahry, ny ngtfhr kim sjsthr whit gi k vkektjgi tg Fkwkjj. ]fhy fkm dhhi pckiijia

tfjs lgr k cgia tjnh, kim gl egursh J rhlushm tg ag wjtf tfhn wfhi tfhy jijtjkccy ks`hm nh ngitfs dhlgrh.

Ny ngtfhr mjmi‚t wkit nh tg stky ji fhr fgush kcc kcgih ji tfh erjppchm stkth tfkt J wks ji. ]k`jia ekrh

gl tfh fgush ji suef k egimjtjgi wgucm dh tgg mjlljeuct, kim tfhrh wgucm dh ig gih tfhrh tg prgvjmh

jnnhmjkth kssjstkieh ji eksh gl ki hnhrahiey. J ks`hm lktfhr jl J egucm stky kt fjs fgush, dut Ugunkyk

wks fkvjia sgnh gl fhr rhcktjvhs stkyjia lgr tfh sunnhr, sg sfh rhlushm tg cht nh stky tfhrh dhekush jt

wgucm dh –tgg nuef lgr fhr tg fkimch„, mhspjth tfh lket tfkt lktfhr‚s fgush fkm sjx dhmrggns kim

pchity gl spkeh lgr nh tg geeupy. Lktfhr, gl egursh, akvh ji tg Ugunkyk‚s ruchs ks fh kcwkys fkm. Ny

rhsphet lgr fjn wks kcrhkmy sg cgw tfkt jt egucmi‚t aht kiy cgwhr dhekush gl tfjs.



Muh tg tfjs cjttch mjlljeucty, ny ngtfhr dgg`hm nh k fgthc rggn kt Hxthimhm Utky Knhrjek ji

Qggmckim Fjccs. J wks egithit wjtf tfjs. ]fh fgthc wks egnlgrtkdch higuaf, kim ny ngtfhr stge`hm nh

wjtf k cgt gl lggm lgr tfh whh` tfkt J wgucm dh tfhrh. Jt prgvjmhm k ijeh ktngspfhrh tg rhegvhr lrgn tfh

fgrrjlje hxphrjhiehs J fkm oust rhehitcy himurhm. ]fh gicy tfjia J mjscj`hm kdgut tfjs fgthc wks tfkt jt wks

cgekthm rjaft kergss tfh strhht lrgn ]klt Fjaf Uefggc, sg wfhihvhr J cgg`hm gut tfh wjimgw J skw k pckeh

tfkt fkm ekushm nh arhkt sullhrjia ji tfh mjstkit pkst. J tfguaft kdgut tfh duccyjia J rhehjvhm kt ]klt,

kim ji k wky ny hxphrjhieh tfhrh wks qujth sjnjckr tg wfkt fkm oust fkpphihm tg nh gi tfkt lkthluc

ijaft ji Jsck \jstk. J wks duccjhm dy tfuas, kim tfh ajrcs kmgrhm tfh duccjhs jisthkm gl nh. Jimhhm, k vhry

sjnjckr sehikrjg.

Gicy igw, J wks rhkmy kim ekpkdch gl ljaftjia dke` kakjist tfh eruhcty gl wgnhi. Dke` wfhi J wks k

whk` kim tjnjm dgy kt ]klt Fjaf Uefggc, J wks pgwhrchss kim lrjafthihm, fkvjia tg rhsgrt tg fjmjia ji k

cjlh gl pckyjia vjmhg aknhs. Kcc gl tfh sullhrjia, cgihcjihss, rhohetjgi, kim funjcjktjgi J fkm tg hxphrjhieh

sjieh tfhi fkm strhiatfhihm nh. ]fh fktrhm tfkt lhsthrhm jisjmh nh ji kcc gl tfgsh yhkrs chkmjia up tg

tfjs pgjit fkm hnpgwhrhm nh ji k mkr`, twjsthm wky. J wks igw krnhm wjtf whkpgis, pgsshsshm arhkt

jithccjahieh kim pfjcgsgpfjekc jisjaft, wjtf tfh wjccpgwhr tg hxket tfh ngst ektkstrgpfje ket gl

vhiahkieh tfh wgrcm wjcc hvhr shh.

J sphit tfh ihxt whh` ji tfkt fgthc rggn drggmjia kdgut tfh jioustjehs gl cjlh kim ny pckeh ji tfhwgrcm. Jt luccy mkwihm gi nh tfkt J wgucm igw fkvh tg drjia kdgut tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi. ]fhrh wks ig

gtfhr fgph. J nushm tfkt gieh J mhsehim upgi Jsck \jstk, krnhm wjtf ny whkpgis kim ny durijia

fktrhm, J wgucm mhljijthcy nk`h surh tg tkraht tfh phgpch wfg cjvhm ji tfkt fgush J wks kttke`hm ji. ]fh

pcki wks tg mhstrgy tfh hitjrhty gl Jsck \jstk, kim `jcc hvhry sjiach phrsgi ji jt, gr kt chkst `jcc ks nkiy

pgpuckr yguia phgpch J egucm dhlgrh tfh pgcjeh krrjvh kim J‚m fkvh tg `jcc nyshcl.

J lhct sg sfge`hm kim gvhrwfhcnhm upgi rhkcjzjia tfkt jt wks mhljijthcy agjia tg rhsgrt tg tfjs. J wks

agjia tg mjh sggi, kim tfkt ji jtshcl wks fkrm tg keehpt. J mjmi‚t wkit tg mjh, dut J wgucm fkvh ig efgjeh.

\hiahkieh js tfh gicy pktf0 kcc gtfhr pktfs fkm dhhi ecgshm sfut. J tfguaft jt tg dh suef k trkahmy tfkt J

wks ketukccy agjia tg wkah wkr kakjist wgnhi kim kcc gl funkijty. Dut tfhi kakji, wgnhi‚s rhohetjgi

gl nh wks k mheckrktjgi gl wkr. ]fhy jisucthm nh dy mhhnjia nh jilhrjgr gl tfhjr cgvh kim shx. ]fhy

fkth nh, kim J wjcc rhturi tfkt fktrhm gih-tfguskim lgcm. J wjcc jilcjet sullhrjia gi hvhrygih ji Jsck \jstk, oust cj`h tfhy fkvh nkmh nh sullhr. Ji tfh pkst, J fkvh kcwkys dhhi kt tfhjr nhrey, kim J wks ajvhi igih.

Gi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi, hvhrygih wjcc dh kt ny nhrey, kim ji turi J wjcc sfgw tfhn ig nhrey kt kcc.

Ny Thtrjdutjgi wjcc dh sg mhvkstktjia tfkt jt wjcc sfk`h tfh vhry lguimktjgis gl tfh wgrcm.

Ny drg`hi cha wks k shtdke`, gl egursh. Hvhi wjtf surahry, J‚m fkvh tg dh ji erutefhs lgr sjx whh`s,

kim hvhi klthr tfkt jt wgucm tk`h k wfjch tg dh kdch tg wkc` igrnkccy kakji. J ljaurhm J wgi‚t dh wkc`jia

igrnkccy uitjc Getgdhr. ]fhrh wks ig wky J‚m dh whcc higuaf tg prhpkrh lgr tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi dy

Igvhndhr. ]fhrh wks tgg cjttch tjnh. J nkmh k ihw pcki tg sht tfh uctjnkth kim ljikc mkth lgr tfh Mky gl

Thtrjdutjgi tg dh kt tfh him gl tfh Uprjia gl 42;=. ]fjs wgucm ajvh nh pchity gl tjnh tg prhpkrh. ]fh

Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi wks igw ny wfgch rhksgi lgr cjvjia. Jt‚s kcc J fkvh tg cjvh lgr. ]fjs ket gl mhkmcy

vhiahkieh kakjist tfh phgpch wfg fkvh wrgiahm nh js ny sgch purpgsh gi tfjs wgrcm. J ihhmhm ks

nuef tjnh ks pgssjdch ji grmhr tg pcki jt hlljejhitcy.

Rgstpgijia tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi kcsg akvh nh k lhw ngrh ngitfs gl cjlh. Rhrfkps J wgucm kcsg ush

tfkt tjnh tg cgg` lgr k wky gut. J fkvh kcwkys dhhi jtefjia lgr k wky gut gl tfjs, kim hvhi wjtf tfh

rhehit hvhits tfkt fkm geeurrhm, k snkcc pkrt gl nh stjcc ecuia tg tfkt ji`cjia gl fgph.

Akvji eknh tg vjsjt nh kt tfh fgthc, kim fh wks whcegnh egnpkiy. Jt wks rhkccy ahttjia cgihcy tfhrh,

tfguaf jt wks mhljijthcy dhtthr tfki dhjia cgihcy ji Jsck \jstk. ]fh twg gl us skt mgwi lgr tfrhh fgurs ji

ny fgthc rggn tg fkvh ki jnpgrtkit egivhrsktjgi. J hxpckjihm tg fjn ny ljihcy kcthrhm vhrsjgi gl

hvhrytfjia tfkt fkpphihm gi tfkt ijaft ji Jsck \jstk. Fh mjmi‚t shhn surprjshm. Qfhi fh wks ny kah, fh



ushm tg ag up tg Jsck \jstk qujth glthi. Fh tgcm nh tfkt tfh `jim gl drutkc, rgwmy ktngspfhrh J‚vh

wjtihsshm wks pkrt gl tfh eucturh tfhrh. ]fh dgjsthrgus, wjcm lrkt dgys aht kcc gl tfh dhkutjluc ajrcs, kim

hvhrygih js cgg`jia lgr k ljaft, cj`h tfh vjejgus kijnkcs tfhy krh. Fh skjm jt wks k trutf J fkm tg keehpt,

kmvjsjia nh tg ngvh gut gl tfhrh. J egucmi‚t keehpt tfjs trutf, dhekush jt wks uioust. J egucmi‚t cht suef

hvjc hxjst, kim J wjcc igt rui kwky lrgn jt dy ngvjia gut gl tfhrh. J wjcc hjtfhr tfrjvh tfhrh, gr mhstrgy tfh

pckeh utthrcy. Ujieh J lkjchm tg tfrjvh tfhrh, J fkm ig efgjeh dut tg pcki ny Thtrjdutjgi.

Qfhi ny ngtfhr eknh dke` lrgn Fkwkjj, J whit tg stky kt fhr fgush lgr tfh ihxt ngitf, uitjc ny cha

fhkchm higuaf lgr nh tg cgsh tfh erutefhs. J mjmi‚t wkit tg ag dke` tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk wfjch stjcc ji

erutefhs, jt wgucm dh tgg funjcjktjia, kim J fkm lhct funjcjkthm higuaf tfhrh kcrhkmy.

Lgr tfh ljrst whh` klthr surahry, ny cha sullhrhm jithish shkrjia pkji, tfguaf tfkt shkrjia pkji wks

igtfjia egnpkrhm tg tfh fktrhm tfkt durihm ji ny fhkrt. Murjia tfkt tjnh, J egucm dkrhcy chkvh ny dhm,

dhekush wfhihvhr J mjm, tfh dcggm rusfhm tg ny cha kim trjaahrhm tfh pkji. Lgr tfh hitjrh tjnh tfkt J

wks ji tfh fgthc, J stkyhm ji ny dhm cj`h k vhahtkdch. Klthr tfkt jijtjkc whh`, tfh pkji sudsjmhm, kim J wks

kdch tg ngvh kdgut gi ny erutefhs wjtf arhkthr hksh. J glthi mjm ckps krguim ny ngtfhr‚s dke`ykrm ks k

wky gl vhitjia ny kiahr, sgnhtjnhs swjiajia ny erutefhs krguim ks jl tfhy whrh swgrms, scksfjia kt kcc

gl tfh hihnjhs wfg fkm wrgiahm nh ji cjlh.

]fh ngitf tfkt J sphit kt ngtfhr‚s fgush wks vhry rhckxjia, kim J trjhm ny dhst tg ekcn nyshcl mgwiks tjnh pksshm. J sphit k cgt gl tjnh wktefjia ngvjhs, rhkmjia dgg`s, jitrgsphetjia, kim egithnpcktjia

kdgut cjlh. J stkyhm ji tfh fgush kcc tfh tjnh, lgr J mhspjshm fkvjia tg ag gut kim dh shhi ks k erjppch. J

kcrhkmy lhct jisheurh higuaf kdgut nyshcl lgr dhjia k cgihcy vjraji. Dhjia shhi ks k erjppch wks tgg nuef

skct gi tfh wguim.

Akvji eknh tg vjsjt nh kakji, kim tfjs tjnh wh skt ji ny ngtfhr‚s mjijia rggn tg fkvh yht kigtfhr

jnpgrtkit egivhrsktjgi kdgut ny cjlh kim wfhrh J wks agjia. Fh trjhm tg kmvjsh nh kakji tg ngvh gut gl

Jsck \jstk, dut J rhlushm tg fhkr jt. J ngvhm tg Jsck \jstk wjtf tfh agkc gl cgsjia ny vjrajijty kim kttkjijia

tfh cjlh J mhsjrh. Jl J‚n uikdch tg fkvh jt, J wjcc mhstrgy jt. J wjcc ihvhr rui kwky ji mhlhkt.

Ny pkrhits krrkiahm lgr us tg fkvh k egilhrhieh wjtf ny Rsyefjktrjst, Mr. Efkrchs Ugpfy. J sht gut

wjtf ny ngtfhr tg nhht lktfhr gutsjmh Mr. Ugpfy‚s fgush ji Dhvhrcy Fjccs, kim wfhi wh agt tfhrh wh

whrh surprjshm tg shh tfkt Ugunkyk fkm egnh lgr tfh egilhrhieh tgg. ]fjs prhshithm k egilcjet, dhekushUgunkyk kim ny ngtfhr fkm rhehitcy fkm ki kraunhit muh tg Ugunkyk rhlusjia tg cht nh stky kt

lktfhr‚s fgush murjia ny ngtfhr‚s trjp tg Fkwkjj. Lgr ngrh tfki fkcl gl tfh egivhrsktjgi, tfh mgetgr

sphit tjnh rhsgcvjia tfjs phtty egilcjet jisthkm gl kmmrhssjia tfh trgudchs tfkt J wks agjia tfrguaf.

Qfhi wh ljikccy mjm aht tg ny sjtuktjgi, Mr. Ugpfy himhm up ajvjia nh tfh sknh ushchss kmvjeh tfkt

hvhry gtfhr psyefjktrjst, psyefgcgajst, kim eguishccgr fkm ajvhi nh ji tfh pkst. J mgi‚t ìgw wfy ny

pkrhits wksthm ngihy gi tfhrkpy, ks jt wjcc ihvhr fhcp nh ji ny struaach kakjist suef k eruhc kim uioust

wgrcm. ]fh mgetgr himhm up mjsnjssjia jt dy prhserjdjia nh k egitrgvhrsjkc nhmjektjgi, Tjsphrjmgih.

Klthr rhshkrefjia tfjs nhmjektjgi, J lguim tfkt jt wks tfh kdsgcuth wrgia tfjia lgr nh tg tk`h. J rhlushm

tg tk`h jt, kim J ihvhr skw Mr. Ugpfy kakji klthr tfkt.

]gwkrms tfh him gl tfh ngitf, ny ngtfhr jivjthm Nkmmy kim Ng Funprhys gvhr lgr mjiihr. Ngtfhr

fkm rhehitcy dhhi rhegiihetjia wjtf fhr gcm lrjhim Ng. Nkmmy fkm oust arkmukthm lrgn XUE, k

uijvhrsjty rhigwihm lgr jts kduimkieh gl spgjchm, drktty stumhits wfg pkrtjhm kcc tfh tjnh, vhry sjnjckr

tg XEUD. J glthi ekcc XUE tfh –Xijvhrsjty gl Upgjchm Euits„, oust cj`h J ekcc XEUD tfh –Xijvhrsjty gl

Ekcjlgrijk‚s Upgjchm Drkts„. Drjccjkit, ljttjia ijeìknhs! Dhlgrh Nkmmy eknh, J stkc`hm fhr Lkehdgg` lgr k

djt, kim J skw tfkt sfh wks tfh hxket jnkah gl hvhrytfjia J fkthm ji wgnhi. Ufh wks k pgpuckr, spgjchm

XUE ajrc wfg pkrtjhm wjtf fhr fgt, dhkutjluc dcgimh-fkjrhm ecjquh gl lrjhims. Kcc gl tfhn cgg`hm cj`h

kdsgcuth euits, kim ny fktrhm lgr tfhn kcc arhw lrgn hkef pjeturh J skw gi fhr prgljch. ]fhy whrh tfh

`jim gl dhkutjluc, pgpuckr phgpch wfg cjvhm pchksurkdch cjvhs kim wgucm cgg` mgwi gi nh ks jilhrjgr

seun, ihvhr keehptjia nh ks gih gl tfhn. ]fhy whrh ny hihnjhs. ]fhy rhprhshithm hvhrytfjia tfkt



wks wrgia wjtf tfjs wgrcm. Nkmmy wks ny ljrst lrjhim ji Knhrjek. Ks k efjcm, J pckyhm wjtf fhr ks ki

hqukc. Igw sfh wks ny hihny. J wgucm tk`h arhkt mhcjaft ji tgrturjia kim lckyjia fhr kim hvhry sjiach

gih gl fhr spgjchm, gdigxjgus hvjc lrjhims. Qfhi sfh kim fhr ngtfhr eknh tg hkt mjiihr wjtf us, J fkm

tg `hhp ekcn ks J fgddchm gut gl ny rggn gi ny erutefhs tg arhht tfhn.

]fkt rhckxjia ngitf kt ngtfhr‚s wks cj`h tfh egnlgrt dhlgrh tfh stgrn. Gieh J ag dke` tg Ukitk

Dkrdkrk, luccy rhegvhrhm, tfh ljikc mkr` efkpthr gl ny cjlh wjcc egnnhieh. J mrhkmhm wfkt wjcc egnh gl jt.

Klthr sjx whh`s gl fgddcjia kdgut gi erutefhs wfhihvhr J fkm tg ag sgnhwfhrh, J vjsjthm ny

grtfgphmjst, ks`jia jl jt wks ljikccy tjnh lgr nh tg wkc` wjtfgut tfhn. Klthr hxknjijia ny cha, fh karhhm

tfkt J eki prgehhm tg k –wkc`jia ekst„. ]fjs wgucm hikdch nh tg cjnp krguim, wjtfgut erutefhs, tfguaf J

wgucm fkvh tg ush k ekih. ]fguaf uiegnlgrtkdch, jt wks nuef, nuef dhtthr tfki fkvjia tg ag kdgut gi

tfgsh mknikdch erutefhs. Qfhi J agt fgnh, J mhcjafthmcy prketjehm ngvjia krguim wjtf tfjs ihw shtup.

Dhlgrh cgia, ny ngtfhr skjm J wks igw whcc higuaf tg rhturi tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk. Ny ihw egcchah

ecksshs whrh stkrtjia sggi kiywky, tfguaf sfh mjmi‚t ìgw tfkt J fkm gicy sjaihm up lgr gicjih ecksshs

lgr tfh Kutuni shnhsthr gut gl lhkr tfkt J njaft fkvh tg stkrt egcchah wfjch stjcc erjppchm. Ufh fkm argwi

tjrhm gl fkvjia tg mhkc wjtf nh, ks sfh kcwkys wks ji tfh pkst. J sphit k lhw ngrh mkys kt ngtfhr‚s wjtf

ny wkc`jia ekst kim ekih dhlgrh sfh nkmh nh ag dke` tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk, thccjia nh J eki rhturi tg vjsjt

ji twg whh`s.

J nkmh ny gnjigus mrjvh dke` tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk, kim ks J mrgvh J tfguaft kdgut kcc gl tfh jioustjehs J

fkm tg lkeh ji tfh ckst twg yhkrs J fkm sphit tfhrh. Jioustjehs tfkt fkm ihvhr dhhi sht rjaft. Igw wks tfh

tjnh tg sht tfhn rjaft. Igw wks tfh tjnh lgr Thtrjdutjgi.

Qfhi J agt dke` tg ny kpkrtnhit, J skw tfkt ny fgushnkths Efrjs kim Ogi fkm ngvhm gut. K pjty, ks

tfhy whrh tfh ngst pchkskit fgushnkths J egucm fkvh fgphm lgr. J lhkrhm wfkt ny ihw gihs wgucm dh

cj`h, kim J wks tgcm tfhy wgucm dh egnjia ji k lhw whh`s. J fkm tfh pckeh tg nyshcl lgr tfkt phrjgm, wfjef

sujthm nh whcc. J rhlushm tg chkvh ny rggn kt kcc uitjc J wks kdch tg kt chkst cgsh ny wkc`jia ekst. J sphit

tfh tjnh mgjia tfh sknh tfjia J mjm kt ngtfhr‚s fgush. J wktefhm k cgt gl ngvjhs, kim skt krguim

egithnpcktjia ny luturh.

Xpgi ny vjsjt fgnh, J whit tg shh ny grtfgphmjst lgr gih ckst tjnh, kim fh tgcm nh J eki ljikccy wkc`

wjtfgut kiy ekst krguim ny cha, tfguaf J wgucm ihhm tfh ekih lgr k lhw ngrh whh`s. J wks egithit wjtf

tfjs, ks J mjmi‚t njim tfh ekih tfkt nuef. Jt fkm k pheucjkr hchakieh kdgut jt.

Gi tfkt sknh whh`him, J nht up wjtf Rfjcjp kim Kmmjsgi. Qh fkm dhhi pckiijia tg nhht murjia tfh

sunnhr, dut J fkm tg pgstpgih jt dhekush gl ny thrrjdch jioury. J tgg` tfhn gut ji ny lktfhr‚s Nhrehmhs

UX\, kim wh whit gi kigtfhr gih gl gur kmvhiturhs krguim Cgs Kiahchs. Ljrst, wh whit tg ki hxqujsjth

Okpkihsh rhstkurkit gi Uuisht Dguchvkrm ji Qhst Fgccywggm. J wks tfki`luc J mjmi‚t shh kiy yguia

egupchs ny kah tfhrh, ngst gl tfhn whrh gcmhr tfki us. Klthrwkrms, wh whit tg Arjlljtf Rkr`

Gdshrvktgry, uimhr Rfjcjp‚s suaahstjgi. Agjia tfhrh drguaft dke` nhngrjhs, dgtf aggm kim dkm. Jt wks

hvhr k trkmjtjgi lgr tfh tfrhh gl us tg ag tfhrh, ks wh fkm dhhi sg nkiy tjnhs. ]fh pckeh prgvjmhm ki

hxpkisjvh vjhw gl tfh ejty gl C.K. Kt ijaft jt wks kdsgcuthcy hxqujsjth. ]fh Arjlljtf Rkr` Gdshrvktgry wks

trucy k wgimrgus pckeh tg kmnjrh tfh dhkuty gl tfh wgrcm… dut tfh wfgch hxphrjhieh wks rujihm, gl

egursh, dy tfh sjaft gl sg nkiy yguia egupchs jssjia tfhrh, rjaft uimhr tfh stkrs. ]fgsh dgys nust fkvh

dhhi ji fhkvhi, tg hxphrjhieh suef k pckeh wjtf tfhjr dhkutjluc ajrclrjhims.

Uhhjia kcc gl tfgsh yguia egupchs kt Arjlljtf Rkr` ljcchm nh wjtf rkah lgr tfh rhst gl tfh ijaft. Jt

rhnjimhm nh gl tfh jioustjehs J fkvh tg lkeh ji cjlh, kim ny wkr kakjist jt kcc. Qfhi J mrgvh mgwi tfh fjcc

lrgn tfh Gdshrvktgry, J skw ngrh yguia egupchs wkc`jia krguim, kim J fkm tfh mhsjrh tg rui tfhn gvhr

wjtf tfh Nhrehmhs ks k swhht ket gl rhvhiah. J kcrhkmy pckiihm tg ush tfh Nhrehmhs UX\ ks gih gl ny



whkpgis gi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi, sjieh Jsck \jstk gi whh`him ijafts wks kcwkys ljcchm wjtf ny

hihnjhs wkc`jia rjaft ji tfh njmmch gl tfh rgkm. ]fhy wgucm dh hksy tkrahts.

Klthr tfh mjskstrgus hxphrjhieh kt Arjlljtf Rkr`, wh mhejmhm tg tk`h k ckth ijaft trjp kcc tfh wky tg

Rkcgs \hrmhs, oust tg kmnjrh tfh sehihry. J fkm ihvhr dhhi mgwi tfhrh, kim Kmmjsgi tgcm nh jt wks k

phkehluc, qujht, kim hxqujsjth pckeh tfkt prgvjmhm ki hxtrkgrmjikry vjhw. Qfhi wh krrjvhm kt k dhkef

pkr` ji Rkcgs \hrmhs tfkt gvhrcgg`hm tfh gehki, Rfjcjp fkm lkcchi kschhp, sg jt wks oust nh kim Kmmjsgi

wfg whit gut tg wkc` krguim. J tgg` ki jistkit cj`jia tg tfh pckeh, kim hxpcgrhm jt ks nuef ks J egucm,

hvhi tfguaf J wks stjcc cjnpjia wjtf ny ekih. Ks tfh twg gl us cgg`hm up kt tfh stkrs, wh fkm k lhw

jisjaftluc egivhrsktjgis. Kmmjsgi tgcm nh ngrh kdgut fjs hxphrjhiehs kngia tfh pgpuckr jms gl Nkcjdu,

ji wfjef J stjcc hivjhm fjn arhktcy lgr. J tgcm fjn kdgut kcc gl ny ihwlguim pfjcgsgpfjekc vjhws rhakrmjia

wgnhi, kim fgw J dhcjhvh tfhy krh nhitkccy lckwhm kim ihhm tg dh egitkjihm. Fh mjmi‚t sfgw kiy fjit

gl fgw fh lhct kdgut tfjs. Kmmjsgi tgcm nh tfkt J wks k phrsgi gl fjaf jithccjahieh, kim tfkt J sfgucmi‚t

wksth jt dy mgjia sgnhtfjia –rksf„. J dhcjhvh fh fkm k suspjejgi tfkt J wks jimhhm pckiijia gi

nksskerjia ny hihnjhs kim tfhi `jccjia nyshcl. Gl egursh fh wgucm fkvh tfkt suspjejgi… Ji k wky J tfji`

fh ihw nh dhtthr tfki kiygih hcsh. J kn jimhhm ki jithccjahit phrsgi, dut tfh eruhcty gl tfjs wgrcm

ajvhs nh ig efgjeh dut tg hxket ny Thtrjdutjgi. J tketluccy tgcm Kmmjsgi tfkt J fkm ig jithitjgis gl –mgjia

kiytfjia stupjm„. ]fkt wks ny ckst egivhrsktjgi wjtf fjn. Jt wks kcsg tfh ckst tjnh J hvhr skw Rfjcjp kim

Kmmjsgi.

J kcsg whit tg nhht wjtf ny lktfhr‚s lrjhim Mkch Ckuihr gi tfkt whh`him. Mkch Ckuihr js k sueehssluc

Fgccywggm serhhiwrjthr kim prgmuehr wfg gwis k ijeh fgush ji tfh Rkejlje Rkcjskmhs. Mkch kim ny

lktfhr fkvh dhhi lrjhims lgr nkiy yhkrs. Qfhi J wks k efjcm, lktfhr sgnhtjnhs tgg` nh tg mjiihr

pkrtjhs kt fjs fgush. J fkmi‚t shhi Mkch sjieh J wks k efjcm, dut wjtfji tfh ckst lhw ngitfs J dhaki tg

fkvh hnkjc egivhrsktjgis wjtf fjn klthr fh lguim gut J wks fkvjia trgudch wjtf ajrcs. Fh wkithm tg fhcp

nh gvhregnh ny trgudchs dhekush fh js k sg-ekcchm hxphrt wjtf wgnhi. Fh hvhi sfgwhm nh pjeturhs gl

kcc gl tfh agrahgus wgnhi fh fks mkthm ji fjs cjlh, kim tfhrh whrh k cgt gl tfhn. ]fjs nki trucy cjvhm.

K lhw nhi wfg krh sueehssluc wjtf wgnhi fkvh gllhrhm nh fhcp kim kmvjeh kdgut tfjs ji tfh pkst,

dut igtfjia hvhr eknh gl jt. J suppgsh tfhy wkit tg fhcp dhekush jt wgucm dh k dggst tg tfhjr kcrhkmy dja

hags, kim kcsg dhekush tfhy lhhc sgrry lgr nh. Rhgpch sfgucm lhhc sgrry lgr nh. Ny cjlh js sg pktfhtje, kimJ fkth tfh wgrcm lgr lgrejia nh tg sullhr jt. J lhhc sgrry lgr nyshcl.

Ji trutf, tfhrh js igtfjia nhi cj`h Mkch eki rhkccy mg tg fhcp nh kttrket ajrcs kim cgsh ny vjrajijty.

]fhy eki‚t njim-egitrgc ajrcs tg dh kttrkethm tg nh. Jt‚s kcc ajrcs‚ lkuct lgr igt fkvjia kiy shxukc kttrketjgi

tgwkrms nh. Ny drjhl lrjhimsfjp wjtf Mkch wgucm, fgwhvhr, spkr` k lhw ngrh jithrhstjia hnkjc

egivhrsktjgis wfhrh J egiljmh tg fjn kdgut fgw eruhc J tfji` wgnhi krh dy ikturh. Fh wgucm gicy dh

knushm dy tfjs. Gl egursh fh wgucm dh knushm. Qgnhi whrh ihvhr eruhc tg fjn. ]fhy akvh fjn shx kim

cgvh kcc fjs cjlh.

J fkm ki kraunhit wjtf Ugunkyk wfjch J wks vjsjtjia lktfhr‚s fgush. Jt stkrthm wfhi sfh dhaki tg

dgkst tfkt ny drgtfhr Okzz wks rhehitcy sjaihm dy ki kahit tg ket ji ].\. egnnhrejkcs. Ufh skjm tfkt dy

tfh tjnh fh js ny kah, fh wjcc dh k sueehssluc ketgr. J tkc`hm kdgut fgw Okzz wks kcrhkmy sg sgejkccy skvvy

lgr fjs kah, kim fgw J‚vh kcwkys hivjhm fjn lgr jt. Ufh tgcm nh fh wjcc ihvhr fkvh kiy prgdchns wjtf

ajrcs, kim wjcc cgsh fjs vjrajijty wfjch fh‚s yguia. J fkm tg sjt tfhrh kim cjsthi tg tfh djtef thcc nh tfkt ny

cjttch drgtfhr wjcc argw up hiogyjia tfh cjlh J‚vh kcwkys erkvhm lgr, dut njsshm gut gi. Jt js vhry uilkjr fgw

sgnh dgys krh kdch tg cjvh suef pchksurkdch cjvhs wfjch J ihvhr fkm kiy tksth gl jt, kim igw jt fks dhhi

egiljrnhm tg nh tfkt ny cjttch drgtfhr wjcc dhegnh gih gl tfhn. Fh wjcc dhegnh k pgpuckr `jm wfg ahts

kcc tfh ajrcs. Ajrcs wjcc cgvh fjn. Fh wjcc dhegnh gih gl ny hihnjhs.

]fkt wks tfh mky tfkt J mhejmhm J wgucm fkvh tg `jcc fjn gi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi. J wjcc igt kccgw tfh

dgy tg surpkss nh kt hvhrytfjia, tg cjvh tfh cjlh J‚vh kcwkys wkithm. Jt‚s igt lkjr tfkt fh fks tfh efkieh tg



fkvh k pchksurkdch cjlh wfjch J‚vh dhhi mhijhm jt. Jt wjcc dh k fkrm tfjia tg mg, dhekush J fkm rhkccy

dgimhm wjtf ny cjttch drgtfhr ji tfh ckst yhkr, kim fh rhsphethm kim cgg`hm up tg nh. Dut J wgucm fkvh

tg mg jt. Jl J eki‚t cjvh k pchksurkdch cjlh, tfhi ihjtfhr wjcc fh! J wjcc igt cht fjn put ny chakey tg sfknh.

Ji grmhr tg `jcc Okzz, J wgucm fkvh tg `jcc Ugunkyk tgg, dut tfkt wjcc dh hksy. Kcc J wgucm ihhm tg mg js

tfji` kdgut kcc gl tfh furtluc tfjias sfh fkm skjm tg nh ji tfkt pkst ks J pcuiah ny ìjlh jitg fhr ihe`.

Dut wfkt jl lktfhr js ji tfh fgush tg stgp nh7 Qgucm J fkvh tg `jcc fjn tgg7 ]fkt wgucm dh tgg nuef. J

rhnhndhr, wfhi J wks k efjcm, J fkm mrhkns kdgut ny lktfhr myjia, kim J wg`h up eryjia tg ny ngtfhr,

ji wfjef sfh wgucm egnlgrt nh kim thcc nh tfkt jt wks oust k mrhkn. Fgw egucm ny cjlh fkvh rhsgrthm tg

tfh pgjit wfhrh J kn tfh gih tg `jcc ny gwi lktfhr7 J lhct sje` tg ny stgnkef.

J egiecumhm tfkt J wgucm fkvh tg sht tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi murjia k tjnh wfhi ny lktfhr js gut gl tfh

eguitry, gi gih gl fjs dusjihss trjps. Jt wgucm dh tgg rjs`y tg try tg `jcc fjn. J njaft fhsjtkth kt tfh ckst

shegim.

Qfhi J tfguaft kdgut kcc gl tfjs, J trucy mjm lhhc sje`. J lhct k sfjvhr rui tfrguaf nh. Ny wfgch wgrcm

fkm dhegnh sg twjsthm kim wrgia. J mjmi‚t wkit jt tg egnh tg tfjs. J mhsphrkthcy wkithm k wky gut.

]g nk`h nh lhhc ngrh egiljmhit, ny ngtfhr prgvjmhm nh wjtf k dhtthr ekr tg mrjvh ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk,

k DNQ 5 shrjhs Eguph. J fkm kcwkys wkithm tfjs, sjieh J ekrhm k cgt kdgut ny kpphkrkieh. J fkm dhhi

ks`jia ny pkrhits lgr k ngrh upphr-eckss ekr hvhr sjieh J lguim gut tfkt tfhrh wks k ekr fjhrkrefy, kimtfkt sgnh stumhits kt ny egcchah mrgvh dhtthr ekrs tfki gtfhrs. Igw J wks gih gl tfh stumhits wjtf k

dhtthr, fjaf-eckss ekr.

Fkvjia k ijehr ekr tfki ngst gtfhr stumhits ny kah mjm jimhhm nk`h nh lhhc ngrh egiljmhit. Ngtfhr

sfgucm fkvh dguaft tfjs ekr lgr nh wfhi J ljrst ngvhm tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk. Jt nkmh nh lhhc dhtthr kdgut

agjia gut ngrh wfjch J wks tfhrh. ]fjs, egupchm wjtf ny ihwcy fhkchm cha, akvh nh gih ckst twjiah gl

fgph ks tfh rhnkjijia ngitfs gl 42;5 pksshm.

Lgr tfgsh ckst rhnkjijia ngitfs, ny hxtrhnh mhsphrktjgi kim mhsjrh lgr fkppjihss tgg` fgcm gl nh,

ìgwjia lucc whcc fgw ny cjlh wjcc turi gut jl J mgi‚t aht wfkt J wkit. J whit gut hvhry sjiach mky, oust tg

put nyshcl gut tfhrh ji tfh wgrcm ji grmhr tg shh wfkt gppgrtuijtjhs krjsh. J hxpcgrhm tfh hitjrhty gl

Ukitk Dkrdkrk kim Ngithejtg, kim jt luccy mkwihm gi nh wfkt k dhkutjluc hivjrginhit J fkm dhhi cjvjiaji. Fgwhvhr, k dhkutjluc hivjrginhit js tfh mkr`hst fhcc jl J fkvh tg hxphrjhieh jt kcc kcgih. ]fkt lket tfkt

J fkm wksthm tfh ckst twg yhkrs ji suef k dhkutjluc pckeh ljcchm nh wjtf kiaujsf. J tfguaft kdgut wfkt ki

hiogykdch cjlh J egucm fkvh fkm, jl gicy ajrcs whrh kttrkethm tg nh.

]wg ihw fgushnkths ngvhm jitg ny kpkrtnhit lgr tfh Kutuni shnhsthr. ]fhy whrh twg lgrhjai

Ksjki stumhits wfg ktthimhm XEUD. ]fhsh whrh tfh djaahst ihrms J fkm hvhr shhi, kim tfhy whrh dgtf

vhry uacy wjtf kiigyjia vgjehs. Ny ckst twg fgushnkths, Efrjs kim Ogi, whrh ihrms ks whcc, dut kt chkst

tfhy whrh lrjhimcy kim pchkskit. ]fhsh twg ihw gihs whrh utthrcy rhpucsjvh, kim gih gl tfhn fkm k vhry

rhdhccjgus mhnhkigr kdgut fjn. Fh whit gut gl fjs wky tg stkrt kraunhits wjtf nh wfhihvhr J rkjshm

tfh jssuh gl tfh igjsh fh nkmh. Fhcc, hvhi cjvjia wjtf Uphiehr wks ngrh pchkskit tfki tfhsh twg jmjgts. J

ìhw tfkt wfhi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi eknh, J wgucm fkvh tg `jcc ny fgushnkths tg aht tfhn gut gl tfh

wky. Jl tfhy whrh pchkskit tg cjvh wjtf, J wgucm rharht fkvjia tg `jcc tfhn, dut muh tg tfhjr dhfkvjgr J

igw fkm ig rharhts kdgut suef k prgsphet. Ji lket, J‚m hvhi hiogy stkddjia tfhn dgtf tg mhktf wfjch

tfhy schpt.

J wks kssjaihm k ihw eguishccgr tg nhht wjtf nh hvhry whh` ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk, sjieh @krcji kim Uksfk

ig cgiahr wgr`hm lgr tfkt egnpkiy. Ny ihw eguishccgr wks iknhm Tgdhrt, k XEUD stumhit wfg js gih

yhkr gcmhr tfki nh. J fkm egllhh wjtf fjn k lhw tjnhs, kim wh whit vgcuithhrjia tgahtfhr twjeh, ji ki

hllgrt tg aht nh gut gl ny rggn kim mgjia ketjvjtjhs. Igtfjia egimuejvh tg kttkjijia tfh cjlh J mhsjrh



eknh gut gl tfhsh nhhtjias, dut tfh sgejkc jithrketjgi fh prgvjmhm wks pchkskit, kim jt akvh nh ki

gutcht tg hxprhss nyshcl.

J vjsjthm ny ngtfhr‚s fgush qujth glthi ji tfh Kutuni. ]g ny hxtrhnh rkah, J mjsegvhrhm tfkt ny

sjsthr igw fkm k dgylrjhim, kim tfkt sfh fkm cgst fhr vjrajijty. Ufh fkm eksukccy –mkthm„ dgys ji tfh pkst,

dut ihvhr tg tfh shrjgus hxthit tfkt sfh mjm wjtf tfjs gih. ]fjs gih wks k fkcl Qfjth, fkcl Nhxjeki

iknhm Uknuhc, kim J jnnhmjkthcy tgg` ki jithish mjscj`jia tg fjn wfhi J wks ljrst jitrgmuehm tg fjn. Fh

shhnhm cj`h tfh typjekc gdigxjgus scgd tfkt ngst yguia ajrcs krh shxukccy kttrkethm tg. Ahgrajk jivjthm

fjn tg ny ngtfhr‚s fgush kcc tfh tjnh, kim jt kiahrhm nh tg wktef fjn cur`jia kdgut, hktjia ny

ngtfhr‚s lggm kim mrji`s, kim nk`jia ush gl ny ngtfhr‚s fgush. Fh wks lrhhcgkmjia gll ny ngtfhr,

kim sfh mjmi‚t hvhi rhkcjzh jt.

J hvhitukccy arhw tg fkth fjn klthr J fhkrm fjn fkvjia shx wjtf ny sjsthr. J krrjvhm kt tfh fgush gih

mky, ny ngtfhr dhjia kt wgr`, kim fhkrm tfh sguims gl Uknuhc pcuiajia fjs phijs jitg ny sjsthr‚s vkajik

tfrguaf fhr ecgshm rggn mggr, kcgia wjtf ny sjsthr‚s ngkis. J stggm tfhrh kim cjsthihm tg jt kcc. Ug ny

sjsthr, wfg wks lgur yhkrs yguiahr tfki nh, nkikahm tg cgsh fhr vjrajijty dhlgrh J mjm. Jt rhnjimhm nh

gl fgw pktfhtje J wks, tfkt kt tfh kah gl twhity-twg, J wks stjcc k vjraji. J fkthm fhr dgylrjhim ks whcc. Ny

sjsthr skjm tfkt fh‚s dhhi wjtf gtfhr ajrcs dhlgrh fhr, kim J‚n surh fh cgst fjs vjrajijty kt k nuef yguiahr

kah. Jt js suef ki jioustjeh. ]fh scgd mghsi‚t hvhi fkvh k ekr, kim fh js kdch tg aht ajrclrjhims, wfjch J mrjvhk DNQ kim aht ig ktthitjgi lrgn kiy ajrcs wfktsghvhr.

Ny sjsthr hvhi sfgwhm nh k pjeturh gl gih gl fjs hx-ajrclrjhims, k prhtty druihtth wfjth ajrc. Ny

fktrhm tgwkrms fjn gicy jithisjljhm klthr tfkt. J rhlushm tg sphk` tg fjn wfhihvhr fh eknh gvhr, kim J

egistkitcy phsthrhm ny ngtfhr tg dki fjn lrgn tfh fgush, dut sfh rhlushm tg fhhm ny mhnkims. Hvhi

wgrsh, sfh egistkitcy tkc`hm kdgut fjn kmnjrjiacy. Fh rhnjimhm nh gl Chg Dudhifhjn, k typjekc

gdigxjgus dgy wfg fks dhhi kdch tg hxphrjhieh k arhkt shx cjlh lrgn k yguia kah. Ki hihny fkm igw

jiljctrkthm tfh fgushfgcm gl ny ngtfhr, tfh gih pckeh ji tfh wfgch wgrcm wfhrh J‚vh kcwkys sguaft

rhluah lrgn jioustjeh. ]fjias whrh ahttjia tgg gut gl fkim.

Arkimnk Ojix eknh tg vjsjt lktfhr‚s fgush ji ckth Getgdhr. Qfhi sfh ckst vjsjthm, sfh rhsgcvhm ki

jithish egilcjet dhtwhhi nh, ny lktfhr, kim Ugunkyk. Ji k wky, tfjs rhehit vjsjt pkrkcchchm tfh ckst gih,sjieh J wks fkvjia egilcjets wjtf Ugunkyk tfjs tjnh ks whcc, oust igt tg tfh sknh hxtrhnh.

J whit gvhr tg lktfhr‚s fgush tg shh ny arkimngtfhr. Ufh suaahsthm tfkt J tk`h fhr gut lgr k egllhh,

kim J ìhw oust tfh pckeh. J tgg` fhr tg Dkrihs & Igdch kt tfh Ekckdksks Egnngis, k pckeh gl arhkt

sjaijljekieh ji ny pkst. Qfjch tfhrh, J sfgwhm fhr kcc gl tfh spgts J fkm sphit tjnh kt yhkrs kag.

Klthrwkrm, dhlgrh J skjm ny aggmdyh, k lhhcjia gl skmihss swhpt gvhr nh, ks J ìhw tfkt wks ngst cj`hcy

tfh ljikc lkrhwhcc.

Gi Fkccgwhhi, J lguim jt fkrm tg dhcjhvh fgw lkst tjnh fkm agih dy. J rhnhndhr fgw gi tfh ckst

Fkccgwhhi J fkm egisjmhrhm hxketjia ny Thtrjdutjgi gi tfjs vhry mky. ]jnh jimhhm wjcc jihvjtkdcy pkss,

kim sggi higuaf ny lkth wjcc fkvh tg dh mhejmhm. J whit fgnh tg ny ngtfhr‚s gi Fkccgwhhi, gl egursh.

J wgucmi‚t dh kdch tg stkim dhjia kcgih ji ny Jsck \jstk rggn wfjch kcc gl tfkt pkrtyjia fkpphihm krguim

nh. Jt wks tfh hxket sknh sehikrjg ks ckst yhkr. Ji tfh klthriggi, J skw k ihw psyefgcgajst, Mr. Tkimy

Agcm. Ji trutf, fh wks ny gcm psyefgcgajst wfgn J vjsjthm drjhlcy wfhi J wks gicy tfjrthhi. ]fkt wks dke`

wfhi ny cjlh wks oust stkrtjia tg lkcc jitg tfjs mkr` pktf, kim igw J wks stjcc ji tfh sknh pgsjtjgi, hxehpt

tfkt tfh mkr` pktf wks sggi agjia tg rhkef jts ecjnketje him. Klthr ny tfhrkpy shssjgi, J agt mrui` ji ny

ngtfhr‚s fgt tud, tryjia igt tg tfji` kdgut kcc gl tfh lui kim shx tfkt gtfhr yguia phgpch whrh fkvjia

tfkt ijaft.



Igtfjia eknh gut gl ny mhsphrkth gutjias ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk murjia tfh ckst ngitfs gl 42;5. Ajrcs stjcc

mjmi‚t sfgw kiy jithrhst ji nh. J mrgvh tg UDEE k cgt, hvhi tfguaf J wks gicy sjaihm up lgr gicjih ecksshs.

Qfjch tfhrh, J skw gtfhr dgys wfg fkm jilhrjgr ekrs mrjvjia krguim wjtf fgt ajrcs ji tfhjr pksshiahr

shkts. J fkvh k DNQ kim ihvhr fkm kiy fgt ajrc ji ny pksshiahr shkt. Igt gieh. Jt gicy nkmh nh lunh

wjtf rkah. Ukitk Dkrdkrk wks suef k dhkutjluc tgwi, dut J egucm ag igwfhrh wjtfgut dhjia jisucthm dy

ny hihnjhs. ]fh nhrh sjaft gl tfhn hiogyjia tfhjr fkppy cjvhs wks ki jisuct tg nh, dhekush J mhshrvh jt

ngrh tfki tfhn.

Gih pckeh gl rhluah J glthi whit tg wks tfh Egllhh Dhki ji Ngithejtg. Jt wks cgekthm ji k dhkutjluc

cjttch tgwi ehithr, kim ngst gl tfh egupchs tfhrh whrh gcmhr tfki nh. Jt prgvjmhm k qujht kim phkehluc

pckeh lgr nh tg egithnpckth kim drggm.

Gi tfh hvh gl ny ckst mky ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk, dhlgrh J whit fgnh lgr tfh wjithr drhk`, J whit tg tfh

Ukimpjphr Agcl Egursh ji Agchtk tg wktef tfh suisht. Jt wks ny usukc suisht spgt, kim gi tfkt hvhijia

tfh sfkph gl tfh ecgums gi tfh fgrjzgi nkmh jt hxehptjgikccy dhkutjluc. J dks`hm ji jts rkmjkieh ks J stggm

tfhrh, wgimhrjia wjtf mhspkjr fgw k wgrcm sg dhkutjluc egucm dh sg eruhc. Kim tfhi, gih ljikc jisuct

eknh kcgia, ks jl tfh wgrcm wks tk`jia gih ckst spjthluc cksf kt nh. K yguia egupch eknh kim stggm ihkr

nh, nk`jia gut wjtf hkef gtfhr ks tfhy wktefhm tfh vhry sknh suisht. ]fhrh whrh cgts gl gtfhr phgpch

tfhrh ks whcc, lgr jt wks qujth k uijquh suisht. Kcc gl tfhn nust fkvh fkm tfguafts gl kmnjrktjgitgwkrms tfh egupch, kim tfguafts gl egithnpt tgwkrms nh dhekush J wks kcc kcgih kim uiwkithm. J

fkvh cjvhm suef ki uiikturkc cjlh, mhvgjm gl cgvh, shx, kim pchksurh. Qktefjia suishts wks gih gl tfh lhw

ogys J fkm chlt, kim igw tfkt tgg wks tk`hi lrgn nh. Fgw eki J hiogy k suisht kiyngrh, ìgwjia tfkt

gtfhr nhi aht tg hiogy tfhn wjtf tfhjr dhkutjluc ajrclrjhims kt tfhjr sjmh7 ]fhrh wks ig ngrh cjlh lgr nh

tg cjvh.

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stgry wjcc kt ckst egnh tg jts trkaje him. Ny ngtfhr kim sjsthr pckiihm kigtfhr trjp tg Hiackim kt tfh him

gl Mhehndhr, tfjs tjnh lgr twg whh`s. Lgr tfgsh twg whh`s, J stkyhm kt ny ngtfhr‚s fgush dy nyshcl,

tk`jia kmvkitkah gl tfh tjnh tg fkvh gih ckst phrjgm gl rhckxktjgi kim phkeh.

]fhy mhejmhm tg tk`h ny sjsthr‚s dgylrjhim Uknuhc tg Hiackim wjtf tfhn, kim upgi fhkrjia tfjs Jdheknh vhry jilurjkthm. Uknuhc wks ny hihny, sgnhgih wfg fks hiogyhm k fkppy cjlh gl shx wfjch J

fkvh stkrvhm lgr yhkrs. Kim igw ny gwi ngtfhr wks pkyjia lgr fjs tje`ht tg Hiackim, sgnhtfjia fh

mghsi‚t mhshrvh. J lhct sg dhtrkyhm dy ny ngtfhr dhekush gl tfjs. Ufh sfgucm fkvh dhhi ngrh

egisjmhrkth lgr fgw J wgucm lhhc. J kn fhr sgi, kim sfh sfgucm dh gi ny sjmh. Dut tfhi kakji, ny ngtfhr

js k wgnki, kim wgnhi krh kcc nhitkccy jcc. ]fhrh wks ig wky sfh egucm pgssjdcy uimhrstkim ny pgjit gl

vjhw.

J ktthimhm ny lktfhr‚s Efrjstnks pkrty murjia tfjs wjithr drhk`. Kt tfh pkrty, J rki jitg @krc

Efknpchy. J fkmi‚t shhi fjn sjieh fh fjrhm nh tg wgr` gi fjs fgush yhkrs kag, kim jt wks ijeh tg sphk`

wjtf fjn kakji. J lhct vhry djtthr kim ksfknhm, fkvjia tg kpphkr tg kcc gl ny lktfhr‚s lrjhims ks tfh sknh

kw`wkrm, uiwkithm gutekst J fkm kcwkys dhhi. Ugnh gl tfhn ks`hm nh kdgut ny cjlh ji Ukitk Dkrdkrk,

kim k lhw hvhi ks`hm jl J fkm k ajrclrjhim. J fkm tg sullhr fkvjia tg thcc tfhn tfkt ig, J mgi‚t fkvh k

ajrclrjhim dhekush ajrcs krh igt kttrkethm tg nh. J wjsfhm J egucm thcc tfhn kcc tfkt J fkm ki knkzjia cjlh

tfhrh, wjtf k ajrclrjhim wfg wgucm dh wjtf nh kt tfkt vhry pkrty. J wjsf J egucm fkvh nkmh tfhn kcc

prgum gl nh, dut gl egursh, J fkm igtfjia kdgut nh tg dh prgum gl. ]fh gicy sgckeh J fkm lgr tfkt sfknh

wks tfh igwchmah tfkt J wjcc sggi rhetjly hvhrytfjia gi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi.

Ny ngtfhr tgcm nh tfkt J eki fkvh gih dgttch gl wjih lrgn fhr pkitry wfjch sfh wks kwky, kim gi

Ihw Zhkr‚s Hvh J efgsh tg gphi tfh dhst gih ji tfh cgt, k ljih vjitkah tfkt J scgwcy sjpphm tfrguafgut tfh

ijaft ks J stkyhm kt ny ngtfhr‚s fgush, kcc kcgih. J ìhw tfkt gtfhr yguia pgpuckr phgpch whrh fkvjia

tfh tjnh gl tfhjr cjvhs tfkt ijaft, pkrtyjia tfh ijaft kwky. Ks J sjpphm ny wjih kcgih, ji tfh nggicjt



mkrìhss gl ny ngtfhr‚s dke`ykrm, J kssurhm nyshcl tfkt sggi J wjcc fkvh ny rhvhiah gi kcc gl tfgsh

yguia pgpuckr phgpch. Uggi…

Klthr k rhstchss schhp, J krgsh lrgn ny dhm hkrcy gi Ihw Zhkr‚s Mky, 42;=. ]fjs wks tfh ljikc yhkr. ]fjs

wks tfh yhkr ji wfjef hvhrytfjia wjcc egnh tg k ecgsh. Ji tfjs yhkr, J wjcc ljikccy fkvh ny ecgsurh, ny

vhiahkieh, ny rhtrjdutjgi! Ny wfgch trkaje cjlh fkm chm tg tfjs, kim J wks rhkmy.

J fkm dhhi rhohethm, jisucthm, funjcjkthm, ekst gut, duccjhm, stkrvhm, tgrturhm, kim rjmjeuchm lgr lkr tgg

cgia. Funkijty js k eruhc kim drutkc sphejhs, kim tfh gicy tfjia J egucm mg tg hvhi tfh segrh wks tg

rhturi tfkt eruhcty gih-tfguskim lgcm. Qgnhi‚s rhohetjgi gl nh js k mheckrktjgi gl wkr, kim jl jt‚s wkr

tfhy wkit, tfhi wkr tfhy sfkcc fkvh. Jt wjcc dh k wkr tfkt wjcc rhsuct ji tfhjr egnpchth kim utthr

kiijfjcktjgi. J wjcc mhcjvhr k dcgw tg ny hihnjhs tfkt wjcc dh sg ektkstrgpfje jt wjcc rhmhljih tfh vhry

hsshieh gl funki ikturh.

Jt wks tjnh tg pcgt hxketcy wfkt J wjcc mg gi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi. J wjcc dh k agm, puijsfjia wgnhi

kim kcc gl funkijty lgr tfhjr mhprkvjty. J wjcc ljihcy mhcjvhr tg tfhn kcc gl tfh pkji kim sullhrjia tfhy‚vh

mhkct tg nh lgr sg cgia.

]fh ljrst tfjia J fkm tg egisjmhr wks tfh hxket mkth jt wjcc tk`h pckeh. \kchitjih‚s Mky wgucm fkvh dhhi

vhry ljttjia, sjieh jt wks tfh fgcjmky tfkt nkmh nh lhhc tfh ngst njshrkdch kim jisucthm, tfh fgcjmky ji

wfjef yguia egupchs ehchdrkthm tfhjr fkppy cjvhs tgahtfhr. ]fh prgdchn wks tfkt \kchitjih‚s Mky wksgicy k ngitf kwky. J ihhmhm ngrh tjnh tfki tfkt. Kcsg, gi \kchitjih‚s Mky ngst yguia egupchs wjcc dh

sprhkm gut ji vkrjgus rhstkurkits ji tfh ejty jisthkm gl dhjia pke`hm tgahtfhr kt pkrtjhs ji Jsck \jstk.

Kigtfhr gptjgi wks Mhctgpjk, k mky ji wfjef nkiy yguia phgpch pgur ji lrgn kcc gvhr tfh stkth tg fkvh

k sprjia drhk` pkrty gi Mhc Rckyk Utrhht. J ljaurhm tfjs wgucm dh tfh phrlhet mky tg kttke` Jsck \jstk, dut

klthr wktefjia Zgutudh vjmhgs gl prhvjgus Mhctgpjk pkrtjhs, J skw tfkt tfhrh whrh wky tgg nkiy egps

wkc`jia krguim gi suef ki hvhit. Jt wgucm dh jnpgssjdch tg `jcc higuaf gl ny hihnjhs dhlgrh dhjia

mjspktefhm dy tfgsh mknikdch egps.

J wkithm tg sht ki hxket mkth, gi k igrnkc Jsck \jstk pkrty whh`him, kim gieh J sht tfkt mkth J wjcc

ihvhr efkiah jt. Klthr k cgt gl tfji`jia kim egisjmhrktjgi, J egiecumhm tg drjia kdgut tfh Mky gl

Thtrjdutjgi gi Ukturmky, Kprjc 4<, 42;=.

Ji tfh ljrst ngitfs gl 42;=, wfjef krh tfh ckst ngitfs gl ny cjlh, J trjhm tg nk`h tfh ngst gut gl hvhry

mky. ]fhrh wks ig k sjiach mky wfhrh J stkyhm ji ny rggn. Hvhry ngrijia, J sht gut ji ny DNQ tg ag gi

kmvhiturhs krguim tfh vjejijty gl Ukitk Dkrdkrk kim Ngithejtg, kim J wgucmi‚t rhturi uitjc ckth ji tfh

ijaft. J whit gi fj`hs ji tfh nguitkjis gl Ngithejtg, wkimhrhm krguim kjnchsscy ji dhkutjluc pkr`s,

tgg` strgccs kcgia tfh dhkef, sjpphm cktths kt vkrjgus eklhs, kim wktefhm tfh suisht kt ny nkiy

egithnpcktjgi spgts, stkyjia tfhrh uitjc tfh stkrs cjt up tfh ijaft s`y. Hvhry tjnh J mjm tfjs tfguaf, tfhrh

wks ig hsekpjia tfh sjaft gl yguia egupchs mgjia tfh hxket sknh tfjia tgahtfhr. Jt nkmh nh hvhi ngrh

hkahr lgr tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi tg egnh. Ny cjlh wks k cjvjia fhcc, kim tfkt fhcc ihhmhm tg egnh tg ki

him.

J fkm higuaf hxtrk ngihy skvhm up tg cjvh egnlgrtkdcy kim jimucahitcy dhlgrh J mjh. J mjmi‚t sphim kcc

gl jt tfguaf, lgr J stjcc ihhmhm suppcjhs tfkt whrh vjtkc tg ny pckis. Ljrst, J ihhmhm tg duy k tfjrm fkimaui,

oust ji eksh gih gl tfhn okns. J ihhmhm twg wgr`jia fkimauis kt tfh sknh tjnh, ks tfkt wks fgw J

pckiihm tg egnnjt sujejmh0 wjtf twg sjnuctkihgus sfgts tg tfh fhkm. J kcsg ihhmhm tg duy nkakzjih

ecjps kim knnuijtjgi, ks whcc ks ìjvhs kim ekrryjia ekshs lgr ny hqujpnhit.

Hvhi ji tfh ljrst ngitfs gl 42;=, chkmjia up tg tfh trkaje mky ji Kprjc, tfh cjttch twjiah gl fgph jisjmh

nh ihvhr lkmhm. Jt rhnkjihm, ks jl jt whrh tjiy, lcje`hrjia lcknh gl k ekimch ji k mkr` rggn. J suppgsh tfkt

cjttch lcknh js wfkt prgnpthm nh tg ketukccy ktthim tfh twg Uprjia Uhnhsthr ecksshs J rhajsthrhm lgr kt



UDEE. ]fkt cksthm k aggm twg whh`s, dhlgrh J rhkcjzhm fgw pgjitchss jt wks kim mrgpphm tfhn. ]fhrh

wks ig fgph igw, kim J fkm tg keehpt jt.

Klthr agjia tfrguaf hvhry sjiach lkitksy J fkm kdgut fgw J wgucm puijsf ny hihnjhs, J stkrthm tg

mhtkjc kcc gl ny hxket pckis lgr fgw tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi wjcc pcky gut.

Gi tfh mky dhlgrh tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi, J wjcc stkrt tfh Ljrst Rfksh gl ny vhiahkieh? Ujchitcy jccjia

ks nkiy phgpch ks J eki krguim Jsck \jstk dy curjia tfhn jitg ny kpkrtnhit tfrguaf sgnh lgrn gl

trje`hry. ]fh ljrst phgpch J wgucm fkvh tg `jcc krh ny twg fgushnkths, tg sheurh tfh hitjrh kpkrtnhit lgr

nyshcl ks ny phrsgikc tgrturh kim jccjia efkndhr. Klthr tfkt, J wjcc stkrt curjia phgpch jitg ny

kpkrtnhit, ìge` tfhn gut wjtf k fknnhr, kim scjt tfhjr tfrgkts. J wjcc tgrturh sgnh gl tfh aggm cgg`jia

phgpch dhlgrh J `jcc tfhn, kssunjia tfkt tfh aggm cgg`jia gihs fkm tfh dhst shx cjvhs. Kcc gl tfkt pchksurh

tfhy fkm ji cjlh, J wjcc puijsf dy drjiajia tfhn pkji kim sullhrjia. J fkvh cjvhm k cjlh gl pkji kim sullhrjia,

kim jt wks tjnh tg drjia tfkt pkji tg phgpch wfg ketukccy mhshrvh jt. J wjcc eut tfhn, lcky tfhn, strjp kcc

tfh s`ji gll tfhjr lchsf, kim pgur dgjcjia wkthr kcc gvhr tfhn wfjch tfhy krh stjcc kcjvh, ks whcc ks kiy gtfhr

lgrn gl tgrturh J egucm pgssjdcy tfji` gl. Qfhi tfhy krh mhkm, J wjcc dhfhkm tfhn kim `hhp tfhjr fhkms ji

k dka, lgr tfhjr fhkms wjcc pcky k nkogr rgch ji tfh ljikc pfksh. ]fjs Ljrst Rfksh wjcc rhprhshit ny

vhiahkieh kakjist kcc gl tfh nhi wfg fkvh fkm pchksurkdch shx cjvhs wfjch J‚vh fkm tg sullhr. ]fjias wjcc

dh lkjr gieh J nk`h tfhn sullhr ks J mjm. J wjcc ljikccy hvhi tfh segrh.]fh Uhegim Rfksh wjcc tk`h pckeh gi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi jtshcl, oust dhlgrh tfh ecjnketje nksskerh.

]fh Uhegim Rfksh wjcc rhprhshit ny Qkr gi Qgnhi. J wjcc puijsf kcc lhnkchs lgr tfh erjnh gl mhprjvjia

nh gl shx. ]fhy fkvh stkrvhm nh gl shx lgr ny hitjrh ygutf, kim akvh tfkt pchksurh tg gtfhr nhi. Ji

mgjia sg, tfhy tgg` nkiy yhkrs gl ny cjlh kwky. J ekiigt `jcc hvhry sjiach lhnkch gi hkrtf, dut J eki

mhcjvhr k mhvkstktjia dcgw tfkt wjcc sfk`h kcc gl tfhn tg tfh egrh gl tfhjr wje`hm fhkrts. J wjcc kttke` tfh

vhry ajrcs wfg rhprhshit hvhrytfjia J fkth ji tfh lhnkch ahimhr? ]fh fgtthst sgrgrjty gl XEUD. Klthr

mgjia k cgt gl hxthisjvh rhshkref wjtfji tfh ckst yhkr, J lguim gut tfkt tfh sgrgrjty wjtf tfh ngst

dhkutjluc ajrcs js Kcpfk Rfj Ugrgrjty. J ìgw hxketcy wfhrh tfhjr fgush js, kim J‚vh skt gutsjmh jt ji ny ekr

tg stkc` tfhn nkiy tjnhs. Kcpfk Rfj sgrgrjty js lucc gl fgt, dhkutjluc dcgimh ajrcs0 tfh `jim gl ajrcs J‚vh

kcwkys mhsjrhm dut wks ihvhr kdch tg fkvh dhekush tfhy kcc cgg` mgwi gi nh. ]fhy krh kcc spgjchm,

fhkrtchss, wje`hm djtefhs. ]fhy tfji` tfhy krh suphrjgr tg nh, kim jl J hvhr trjhm tg ks` gih gi k mkth,tfhy wgucm rhohet nh eruhccy. J wjcc sihk` jitg tfhjr fgush kt krguim :?22 p.n. gi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi,

oust dhlgrh kcc gl tfh pkrtyjia stkrts, kim sckuafthr hvhry sjiach gih gl tfhn wjtf ny auis kim ìjvhs. Jl J

fkvh tjnh, J wjcc sht tfhjr wfgch fgush gi ljrh. ]fhi wh sfkcc shh wfg tfh suphrjgr gih rhkccy js!

]fh Ljikc Rfksh gl tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi wjcc dh ny uctjnkth sfgwmgwi ji tfh strhhts gl Jsck \jstk.

Gi tfh ngrijia dhlgrh, J wjcc mrjvh mgwi tg ny lktfhr‚s fgush tg `jcc ny cjttch drgtfhr, mhiyjia fjn gl

tfh efkieh tg argw up tg surpkss nh, kcgia wjtf ny sthpngtfhr Ugunkyk, ks sfh wjcc dh ji tfh wky. Ny

lktfhr wjcc dh kwky gi gih gl fjs dusjihss trjps, sg tfki`luccy J wgi‚t fkvh tg mhkc wjtf fjn. Jl fh mjmi‚t

ag kwky gi tfkt trjp, J njaft hvhi fkvh tg pgstpgih tfh wfgch pcki dhekush gl ny lhkr tfkt J njaft

fhsjtkth jl J fkvh tg `jcc fjn. Gieh J‚vh tk`hi ekrh gl ny drgtfhr kim sthpngtfhr, J wjcc swjtef gvhr tg tfh

Nhrehmhs UX\, kim mrjvh jt dke` up tg Jsck \jstk. J wjcc ush jt ks gih gl ny `jccjia nkefjihs kakjist ny

hihnjhs. Ki UX\ wjcc ekush k cgt ngrh mknkah tfki ny DNQ eguph.

Klthr J fkvh `jcchm kcc gl tfh sgrgrjty ajrcs kt tfh Kcpfk Rfj Fgush, J wjcc quje`cy aht jitg tfh tfh UX\

dhlgrh tfh pgcjeh krrjvh, kssunjia tfhy wgucm krrjvh wjtfji 5 njiuths. J wjcc tfhi nk`h ny wky tg Mhc

Rckyk, spcktthrjia ks nkiy gl ny hihnjhs ks J eki wjtf tfh UX\, kim sfggtjia kiygih J mgi‚t spcktthr. J

eki gicy jnkajih fgw swhht jt wjcc dh tg rkn tfh UX\ jitg kcc gl tfgsh argups gl pgpuckr yguia phgpch

wfg J‚vh kcwkys wjtihsshm wkc`jia rjaft ji tfh njmmch gl tfh rgkm ks jl tfhy krh dhtthr tfki hvhrygih

hcsh. Qfhi tfhy krh wrjtfjia ji pkji, tfhjr dgmjhs drg`hi kim myjia klthr J spcktthr tfhn, tfhy wjcc luccy

rhkcjzh tfhjr erjnhs.



Gieh J rhkef Mhc Rckyk Utrhht, J wjcc munp tfh dka gl shvhrhm fhkms J fkm skvhm lrgn ny prhvjgus

vjetjns, prgeckjnjia tg hvhrygih fgw nuef J‚vh nkmh tfhn kcc sullhr. Gieh tfhy shh kcc gl tfhjr lrjhim‚s

fhkms rgcc gitg tfh strhht, hvhrygih wjcc lhkr nh ks tfh pgwhrluc agm J kn. J wjcc tfhi stkrt nksskerjia

hvhrygih gi Mhc Rckyk Utrhht. J wjcc pucc up ihxt tg k fgush pkrty kim ljrh ducchts kt hvhrygih pkrtyjia gi

tfh lrgit ykrm. J wjcc sphejljekccy tkraht tfh aggm cgg`jia phgpch, kim kcc gl tfh egupchs. Klthr J fkvh

mhstrgyhm k fgush pkrty, J wjcc egitjiuh mgwi Mhc Rckyk, mhstrgyjia hvhrytfjia kim hvhrygih. Qfhi J

shh tfh ljrst pgcjeh ekr egnh tg tfhjr rhseuh, J wjcc mrjvh kwky ks lkst ks J eki, sfggtjia kim rknnjia

kiygih ji ny pktf uitjc J ljim k sujtkdch pckeh tg ljikccy him ny cjlh.

]g him ny cjlh, J wjcc quje`cy swkccgw kcc gl tfh Vkikx kim \jegmji pjccs J fkvh chlt, kcgia wjtf ki knpch

knguit gl fkrm cjqugr. Jnnhmjkthcy klthr jndjdjia tfjs njxturh, J wjcc sfggt nyshcl ji tfh fhkm wjtf twg

gl ny fkimauis sjnuctkihguscy. Jl tfh auisfgts mgi‚t jcc nh, tfh mhkmcy mrua njxturh hvhitukccy wjcc. J

wjcc igt sullhr dhjia ekpturhm kim shit tg prjsgi.

J nust pcki tfjs vhry hlljejhitcy. Igtfjia eki ag wrgia. Jt ihhms tg dh phrlhet. ]fjs js igw ny sgch

purpgsh gi tfjs wgrcm. Ny pckis wjcc egnh tg lrujtjgi, kim J nusti‚t cht kiygih stgp nh.

Gi tfh whh` chkmjia up tg mkth J sht lgr tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi, J upcgkmhm shvhrkc vjmhgs gitg

Zgutudh ji grmhr tg hxprhss ny vjhws kim lhhcjias tg tfh wgrcm, tfguaf J mgi‚t pcki gi upcgkmjia ny

uctjnkth vjmhg uitjc njiuths dhlgrh tfh kttke`, dhekush gi tfkt vjmhg J wjcc tkc` kdgut hxketcy wfy J‚nmgjia tfjs.

J tjtchm gih gl tfh vjmhgs J upcgkmhm –Qfy mg ajrcs fkth nh sg nuef7„ ji wfjef J ks` tfh hitjrh

pgpucktjgi gl wgnhi tfh quhstjgi J‚vh wkithm tg ks` tfhn lgr sg nkiy yhkrs. Qfy mg tfhy fkth nh sg

nuef7 Qfy fkvh tfhy ihvhr lkiejhm nh7 Qfy mg tfhy ajvh tfhjr cgvh kim shx tg gtfhr nhi, dut igt nh,

hvhi tfguaf J mhshrvh tfhn ngrh7 Ji tfh vjmhg, J sfgw tfkt J kn tfh phrlhet, nkaijljehit ahitchnki,

wgrtfy gl fkvjia k dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim, nk`jia tfh wgrcm shh fgw uirhksgikdch jt js tfkt J‚vh fkm tg

struaach kcc ny cjlh tg aht k ajrclrjhim. Jt js ny ktthnpt tg rhksgi wjtf tfh lhnkch ahimhr, tg ks` tfhn

wfy tfhy fkvh njstrhkthm nh. J wks fgpjia J wgucm aht sgnh sgrt gl kiswhr lrgn ajrcs. Ji lket, k snkcc

pkrt gl nh wks hvhi fgpjia tfkt k ajrc wgucm shh tfh vjmhg kim egitket nh tg ajvh nh k efkieh tg ag gi

k mkth. ]fkt kcgih wgucm fkvh prhvhithm tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi, jl gih ajrc fkm oust ajvhi nh gih

efkieh. Dut ig… Ks hxphethm, J agt kdsgcuthcy ig rhspgish lrgn kiy ajrcs. ]fh gicy rhspgishs J agt whrhlrgn gtfhr nhi wfg ekcchm nh iknhs kim nkmh lui gl nh. Qgnhi mgi‚t ekrh kdgut nh kt kcc. ]fhy

wgi‚t hvhi mhjai tg thcc ny wfy tfhy‚vh njstrhkthm nh. ]fjs oust sfgws fgw hvjc kim skmjstje tfhy krh.

Gf whcc, tfhy wjcc rhkcjzh tfh arkvjty gl tfhjr erjnhs wfhi J sckuafthr tfhn kcc gi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi.

Fgw mkrh tfhy rhohet k nkaijljehit ahitchnki cj`h nh!

Ks Kprjc 4<tf mrhw hvhr ecgshr, J prhpkrhm nyshcl tg tfh lucchst hxthit. Kcc J fkm chlt tg mg wks ljijsf

wrjtjia tfjs stgry kim ljcn ny ljikc vjmhg. Dut tfhi, gi ]fursmky, Kprjc 4=tf, J wg`h up wjtf k thrrjdch

egcm. J rkrhcy hvhr aht egcms! J‚vh kcwkys fkm k strgia jnnuih systhn. Jt wks ks jl lkth jtshcl wks tryjia tg

stgp nh lrgn mgjia jt. Dut wfkt gtfhr rhksgi mg J fkvh lgr cjvjia7 Kcks, tfhrh wks ig wky J egucm ekrry

gut ny pckis jl J fkm k egcm. Hvhrytfjia fkm tg dh phrlhet. Ji kmmjtjgi, J lguim gut tfkt lktfhr fkm krrjvhm

fgnh twg mkys hkrcjhr tfki fh grjajikccy skjm fh wgucm, sg jl J fkm jimhhm whit lgrtf wjtf ny pckis, J

wgucm fkvh fkm tg `jcc ny lktfhr, wfjef J wgucmi‚t dh nhitkccy prhpkrhm lgr.

J fkstjcy mhejmhm tg pgstpgih jt tg Ukturmky, Nky 4=tf, 42;=. J wgucm mhljijthcy dh luccy rhegvhrhm lrgn

ny egcm dy tfhi. ]fjs wjcc kcsg ajvh nh k lhw ngrh whh`s gl cjlh, kim ngrh tjnh tg prhpkrh. K lhw mkys

hkrcjhr, J lhct sg rhkmy tg ljikccy strj`h dke` kt wgnhi kim funkijty, wjtf kcc ny rkah kim fktrhm. J wks

prglguimcy hkahr tg mg jt! Dut lgr sgnh strkiah rhksgi, fkvjia k lhw ngrh whh`s gl cjlh nkmh nh lhhc

rhcjhvhm. J tgg` ji k mhhp drhktf kim rhckxhm. Egupchm wjtf ny fkth-luhchm hkahrihss tg ekrry gut ny ket

gl rhvhiah, tfhrh wks kcsg ki hxtrhnh shish gl lhkr jisjmh nh. Rkrt gl nh stjcc mjmi‚t wkit tg mg jt. Jt wjcc

nhki ny mhktf, kim J fkvh kcwkys dhhi klrkjm gl mhktf.



J mjmi‚t wkit tg dh ji Jsck \jstk gi Kprjc 4<tf, tfh mky J prhvjguscy pckiihm gi ekrryjia gut ny pckis.

Fhkrjia kcc gl ny hihnjhs pkrtyjia kim fkvjia k aggm tjnh gi tfh mky J wks suppgshm tg `jcc tfhn kcc

wgucm dh tgg nuef tg dhkr. J jnnhmjkthcy ekcchm ny ngtfhr kim ks`hm fhr jl J eki stky kt fhr fgush lgr

tfh wfgch whh`him, hxkaahrktjia ny jccihss sg tfkt sfh wgucm cht nh. Qfjch tfhrh, J vjsjthm tfh mgetgr

tg ks` kdgut tfh egimjtjgi gl ny egcm, kim sphit tfh whh`him ji mhhp, phkehluc egithnpcktjgi.

Xpgi ny rhturi tg Ukitk Dkrdkrk, J kssurhm tg nyshcl tfkt tfjs wks jt. Nky 4=tf, 42;= wks tfh ljikc

mkth. ]fhrh js ig pgstpgijia jt kiyngrh, ig dke`jia gut. Jl J mgi‚t mg tfjs, tfhi J gicy fkvh k luturh ljcchm

wjtf ngrh cgihcjihss kim rhohetjgi kfhkm gl nh, mhvgjm gl shx, cgvh, kim hiogynhit. J fkvh tg mg jt. Jt‚s

tfh gicy tfjia J eki mg. Nky 4=tf, js tfh kdsgcuth ckst whh`him ji tfh Uprjia shnhsthr ji wfjef J eki ekrry

gut tfjs pcki hlljejhitcy. Klthr Nky 4=tf, tfh Uprjia shnhsthr kt UDEE wjcc him, kim kcc gl tfh UDEE

stumhits wjcc ag dke` tg tfhjr fgnhtgwis, wfjef nhkis chss hihnjhs tg `jcc ji Jsck \jstk. Uurh, XEUD

wgucm stjcc dh ji shssjgi, dut J wkit tg `jcc dgtf XEUD kim UDEE stumhits. ]fh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi js ny

sgch purpgsh gi tfjs wgrcm, kim J kn rhkmy.

Klthr gicy k whh` pksshm sjieh J upcgkmhm tfgsh vjmhgs gi Zgutudh, J fhkrm k ìge` gi ny kpkrtnhit

mggr. J gphihm jt tg shh kdgut shvhi pgcjeh glljehrs ks`jia lgr nh. Ks sggi ks J skw tfgsh egps, tfh

djaahst lhkr J fkm hvhr lhct ji ny cjlh gvhreknh nh. J fkm tfh strj`jia kim mhvkstktjia lhkr tfkt sgnhgihfkm sgnhfgw mjsegvhrhm wfkt J wks pckiijia tg mg, kim rhpgrthm nh lgr jt. Jl tfkt wks tfh eksh, tfh

pgcjeh wgucm fkvh shkrefhm ny rggn, lguim kcc gl ny auis kim whkpgis, kcgia wjtf ny wrjtjias kdgut

wfkt J pcki tg mg wjtf tfhn. J wgucm fkvh dhhi tfrgwi ji okjc, mhijhm gl tfh efkieh tg hxket rhvhiah gi

ny hihnjhs. J eki‚t jnkajih k fhcc mkr`hr tfki tfkt. ]fki`luccy, tfkt wksi‚t tfh eksh, dut jt wks sg ecgsh.

Kppkrhitcy, sgnhgih skw ny vjmhgs kim dheknh jistkitcy suspjejgus gl nh. ]fhy ekcchm sgnh sgrt gl

fhkctf kahiey, wfg ekcchm tfh pgcjeh tg efhe` up gi nh. ]fh pgcjeh tgcm nh jt wks ny ngtfhr wfg ekcchm

tfhn, dut ny ngtfhr tgcm nh jt wks tfh fhkctf kahiey. Ny ngtfhr fkm wktefhm tfh vjmhgs kim wks

vhry mjsturdhm dy tfhn. J mgi‚t suppgsh J‚cc hvhr ìgw tfh lucc trutf gl wfg ekcchm tfh pgcjeh gi nh. ]fh

pgcjeh jithrrgakthm nh gutsjmh lgr k lhw njiuths, ks`jia nh jl J fkm sujejmkc tfguafts. J tketluccy tgcm

tfhn tfkt jt wks kcc k njsuimhrstkimjia, kim tfhy ljikccy chlt. Jl tfhy fkm mhnkimhm tg shkref ny rggn…

]fkt wgucm fkvh himhm hvhrytfjia. Lgr k lhw fgrrjdch shegims J tfguaft jt wks kcc gvhr. Qfhi tfhy chlt,tfh djaahst wkvh gl rhcjhl swhpt gvhr nh. Jt wks sg sekry.

Jt wks kcc dhekush gl tfh vjmhgs. J nust fkvh hxprhsshm tgg nuef kiahr ji tfhn. J jnnhmjkthcy tgg`

ngst gl tfhn gll gl Zgutudh, kim pckiihm tg rhupcgkm tfhn k lhw mkys dhlgrh tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi.

]fjs jiejmhit nkmh nh rhkcjzh tfkt J ihhmhm tg dh hxtrk ekrhluc. J eki‚t cht kiygih dhegnh suspjejgus gl

nh. Kcc jt tk`hs js lgr gih phrsgi tg ekcc tfh pgcjeh kim thcc tfhn tfkt tfhy tfji` J‚n agjia tg phrphtrkth k

sfggtjia, kim tfh pgcjeh wjcc dh egnjia tg ny mggr kakji, mhnkimjia tg shkref ny rggn. Lgr tfh ihxt

lhw mkys, J lhct hxtrhnhcy lhkrluc tfkt tfhy egucm sfgw up kiytjnh. J `hpt gih gl ny fkimauis wjtf k lhw

cgkmhm nkakzjihs ihkr nh oust ji eksh suef k tfjia mjm fkpphi. Jl tfhy mjm sfgw up, J wgucm fkvh tg try

tg quje`cy sfggt tfhn kcc kim hsekph gut tfh dke` wjimgw. J wgucm tfhi fkvh tg phrlgrn k fksty

nge`hry gl ny pckis, wjtf tfh pgcjeh gi ny tkjc. ]fkt wjcc ruji hvhrytfjia. ]fki`luccy, kcc suspjejgi gl nh

wks mrgpphm klthr J tgg` mgwi tfh vjmhgs lrgn Zgutudh, kim tfh pgcjeh ihvhr eknh dke`.

Murjia tfh ckst lhw whh`s gl ny cjlh, J egitjiuhm ny mkjcy kmvhiturhs krguim tgwi, tryjia tg

hxphrjhieh ks nuef gl tfh wgrcm ks J egucm dhlgrh J mjh. Xpgi mgjia tfjs, J rhkcjzhm tfkt tfh gicy wgrcm J

eki pgssjdcy hvhr hxphrjhieh js k twjsthm wgrcm gl egistkit sullhrjia. Ig nktthr wfhrh J ag, J fkvh tg

lkeh kcc gl tfh sknh jioustjehs. Zguia egupchs krh hvhrywfhrh! ]fhy egistkitcy rhnjim nh gl wfkt J fkvh

cke`hm kcc ny cjlh. J ekiigt ag gut gl ny rggn wjtfgut shhjia k yguia egupch tfkt wgucm nk`h nh lhhc

hivjgus kim hirkahm. Fgw mkrh tfgsh ajrcs ajvh tfhjr cgvh kim shx tg tfgsh gtfhr nhi kim igt nh, J

egistkitcy tfji` wfhi J shh yguia egupchs. ]fhrh js igwfhrh ji tfh wgrcm J eki ag kiyngrh. ]fhrh js ig



ngrh cjlh tg cjvh. ]fh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi js kcc J fkvh. Jt js tfh ljikc sgcutjgi tg kcc gl tfh jioustjehs gl tfjs

twjsthm wgrcm. Dy mgjia tfjs, J wjcc sht rjaft kcc gl tfh wrgias J‚vh fkm tg lkeh ji ny sgrry hxeush gl k cjlh.

Hvhry sjiach tjnh J‚vh shhi k auy wkc` krguim wjtf fjs dhkutjluc ajrclrjhim, J‚vh kcwkys wkithm tg jcc

tfhn dgtf ji tfh ngst pkjiluc wky pgssjdch. ]fhy mhshrvh jt. ]fhy nust dh puijsfhm. ]fh nkchs mhshrvh

tg dh puijsfhm lgr cjvjia k dhtthr kim ngrh pchksurkdch cjlh tfki nh, kim tfh lhnkchs mhshrvh tg dh

puijsfhm lgr ajvjia tfkt pchksurkdch cjlh tg tfgsh nkchs jisthkm gl nh. Gi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi, J wjcc

ljikccy dh kdch tg puijsf tfhn KCC.

Qfhi J tfji` kdgut tfh knkzjia kim dcjssluc cjlh J egucm fkvh cjvhm jl gicy lhnkchs whrh shxukccy

kttrkethm tg nh, ny hitjrh dhjia duris wjtf fktrhm. ]fhy mhijhm nh k fkppy cjlh, kim ji rhturi J wjcc

tk`h kwky kcc gl tfhjr cjvhs. Jt js gicy lkjr.

J kn igt pkrt gl tfh funki rkeh. Funkijty fks rhohethm nh. ]fh lhnkchs gl tfh funki sphejhs fkvh

ihvhr wkithm tg nkth wjtf nh, sg fgw egucm J pgssjdcy egisjmhr nyshcl pkrt gl funkijty7 Funkijty fks

ihvhr keehpthm nh kngia tfhn, kim igw J ìgw wfy. J kn ngrh tfki funki. J kn suphrjgr tg tfhn

kcc. J kn Hccjgt Tgmahr… Nkaijljehit, acgrjgus, suprhnh, hnjihit… Mjvjih! J kn tfh ecgshst tfjia tfhrh js

tg k cjvjia agm. Funkijty js k mjsaustjia, mhprkvhm, kim hvjc sphejhs. Jt js ny purpgsh tg puijsf tfhn kcc. J

wjcc purjly tfh wgrcm gl hvhrytfjia tfkt js wrgia wjtf jt. Gi tfh Mky gl Thtrjdutjgi, J wjcc trucy dh k

pgwhrluc agm, puijsfjia hvhrygih J mhhn tg dh jnpurh kim mhprkvhm.

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Kim tfkt js fgw ny trkaje cjlh hims. Qfg wgucm fkvh tfguaft ny cjlh wjcc turi gut tfjs wky7 J mjmi‚t.

]fhrh wks k tjnh wfhi J tfguaft tfjs wgrcm wks k aggm kim fkppy pckeh. Ks k efjcm, ny wfgch wgrcm wks

jiigehit. Jt wksi‚t uitjc J whit tfrguaf pudhrty kim stkrthm mhsjrjia ajrcs tfkt ny wfgch cjlh turihm jitg

k cjvjia fhcc. J mhsjrhm ajrcs, dut ajrcs ihvhr mhsjrhm nh dke`. ]fhrh js sgnhtfjia vhry wrgia wjtf tfkt. Jt js

ki jioustjeh tfkt ekiigt ag uipuijsfhm. ]fhrh js ig wky J egucm cjvh k fkppy cjlh wjtf suef k sehikrjg.

Igt gicy mjm J fkvh tg wksth ny hitjrh ygutf sullhrjia ji cgihcjihss kim uilucljcchm mhsjrh, dut J fkm tg

cjvh wjtf tfh ìgwchmah tfkt gtfhr dgys ny kah whrh kdch tg fkvh kcc gl tfh hxphrjhiehs J erkvhm lgr. Jt js

kdsgcuthcy uilkjr kim uioust. Ji kmmjtjgi, J fkm tg sullhr tfh sfknh gl gtfhr dgys rhsphetjia nh chssdhekush J mjmi‚t aht kiy ajrcs. Hvhrygih ìhw J wks k vjraji. Hvhrygih ìhw fgw uimhsjrkdch J wks tg

ajrcs, kim J fkthm hvhrygih oust lgr ìgwjia jt. J wkit phgpch tg tfji` tfkt ajrcs kmgrh nh. J wkit tg lhhc

wgrtfy. ]fhrh js ig prjmh ji cjvjia ks k cgihcy, uiwkithm gutekst. J wgucmi‚t hvhi ekcc jt cjvjia.

J kn igt nhkit tg cjvh suef k pktfhtje, njshrkdch cjlh. ]fkt js igt ny pckeh ji tfjs wgrcm. J wjcc igt dgw

mgwi kim keehpt suef k fgrrjlje lkth. Jl funkijty wjcc igt ajvh nh k wgrtfy pckeh kngia tfhn, tfhi J

wjcc mhstrgy tfhn kcc. J kn dhtthr tfki kcc gl tfhn. J kn k agm. Hxketjia ny Thtrjdutjgi js ny wky gl

prgvjia ny truh wgrtf tg tfh wgrcm.

Ji tfh njmst gl ny sullhrjia, J fkvh dhhi kdch tg shh tfh wgrcm nuef echkrhr tfki gtfhrs. J fkvh vjsjgi

tfkt gtfhr phgpch cke`. ]frguaf ny sullhrjia, J fkvh dhhi kdch tg shh oust fgw twjsthm kim wrgia tfjs

wgrcm rhkccy js. ]fh eurrhit stkth gl funkijty js wfkt nk`hs jt wrgia. J cgg` kt tfh funki rkeh kim J shh

gicy vjchihss kim mhprkvjty, kcc dhekush gl ki ket ìgwi ks… shxukcjty…

Uhx js dy lkr tfh ngst hvjc egiehpt ji hxjsthieh. ]fh lket tfkt cjlh jtshcl hxjsts tfrguaf shx oust prgvhs

tfkt cjlh js lckwhm. ]fh ket gl shx ajvhs funki dhjias k trhnhimgus knguit gl pchksurh. Rchksurh tfhy

mgi‚t mhshrvh. Ig gih mhshrvhs tg hxphrjhieh sg nuef pchksurh, hsphejkccy sjieh sgnh funkis aht tg

hxphrjhieh jt wfjch sgnh krh mhijhm jt. Qfhi k nki fks shx wjtf k dhkutjluc wgnki, fh prgdkdcy lhhcs

cj`h fh js ji fhkvhi. Dut tfh wgrcm js igt suppgshm tg dh fhkvhi. Lgr sgnh funkis tg ketukccy dh kdch tg

lhhc suef fhjafts gl fhkvhicy pchksurh js shcljsf kim fhmgijstje.



]fh uctjnkth hvjc dhfjim shxukcjty js tfh funki lhnkch. ]fhy krh tfh nkji jistjaktgrs gl shx. ]fhy

egitrgc wfjef nhi aht jt kim wfjef nhi mgi‚t. Qgnhi krh lckwhm erhkturhs, kim ny njstrhktnhit kt

tfhjr fkims fks nkmh nh rhkcjzh tfjs skm trutf. ]fhrh js sgnhtfjia vhry twjsthm kim wrgia wjtf tfh wky

tfhjr drkjis krh wjrhm. ]fhy tfji` cj`h dhksts, kim ji trutf, tfhy krh dhksts. Qgnhi krh jiekpkdch gl

fkvjia ngrkcs gr tfji`jia rktjgikccy. ]fhy krh egnpchthcy egitrgcchm dy tfhjr mhprkvhm hngtjgis kim vjch

shxukc jnpucshs. Dhekush gl tfjs, tfh nhi wfg mg aht tg hxphrjhieh tfh pchksurhs gl shx kim tfh

prjvjchah gl drhhmjia krh tfh nhi wfg wgnhi krh shxukccy kttrkethm tg… tfh stupjm, mhahihrkth,

gdigxjgus nhi. J fkvh gdshrvhm tfjs kcc ny cjlh. ]fh ngst dhkutjluc gl wgnhi efggsh tg nkth wjtf tfh

ngst drutkc gl nhi, jisthkm gl nkaijljehit ahitchnhi cj`h nyshcl.

Qgnhi sfgucm igt fkvh tfh rjaft tg efggsh wfg tg nkth kim drhhm wjtf. ]fkt mhejsjgi sfgucm dh

nkmh lgr tfhn dy rktjgikc nhi gl jithccjahieh. Jl wgnhi egitjiuh tg fkvh rjafts, tfhy wjcc gicy fjimhr

tfh kmvkiehnhit gl tfh funki rkeh dy drhhmjia wjtf mhahihrkth nhi kim erhktjia stupjm, mhahihrkth

gllsprjia. ]fjs wjcc ekush funkijty tg dhegnh hvhi ngrh mhprkvhm wjtf hkef ahihrktjgi. Qgnhi fkvh

ngrh pgwhr ji funki sgejhty tfki tfhy mhshrvh, kcc dhekush gl shx. ]fhrh js ig erhkturh ngrh hvjc kim

mhprkvhm tfki tfh funki lhnkch.

Qgnhi krh cj`h k pckauh. ]fhy mgi‚t mhshrvh tg fkvh kiy rjafts. ]fhjr wje`hmihss nust dh egitkjihm

ji grmhr prhvhit luturh ahihrktjgis lrgn lkccjia tg mhahihrkey. Qgnhi krh vjejgus, hvjc, dkrdkrje

kijnkcs, kim tfhy ihhm tg dh trhkthm ks suef.

Ji luccy rhkcjzjia tfhsh trutfs kdgut tfh wgrcm, J fkvh erhkthm tfh uctjnkth kim phrlhet jmhgcgay gl

fgw k lkjr kim purh wgrcm wgucm wgr`. Ji ki jmhkc wgrcm, shxukcjty wgucm igt hxjst. Jt nust dh gutckwhm.

Ji k wgrcm wjtfgut shx, funkijty wjcc dh purh kim ejvjcjzhm. Nhi wjcc argw up fhkctfjcy, wjtfgut fkvjia tg

wgrry kdgut suef k dkrdkrje ket. Kcc nhi wjcc argw up lkjr kim hqukc, dhekush ig nki wjcc dh kdch tg

hxphrjhieh tfh pchksurhs gl shx wfjch gtfhrs krh mhijhm jt. ]fh funki rkeh wjcc hvgcvh tg ki hitjrhcy

ihw chvhc gl ejvjcjzktjgi, egnpchthcy mhvgjm gl kcc tfh jnpurjty kim mhahihrkey tfkt hxjsts tgmky.

Ji grmhr tg egnpchthcy kdgcjsf shx, wgnhi tfhnshcvhs wgucm fkvh tg dh kdgcjsfhm. Kcc wgnhi nust

dh qukrkitjihm cj`h tfh pckauh tfhy krh, sg tfkt tfhy eki dh ushm ji k nkiihr tfkt ketukccy dhihljts k

ejvjcjzhm sgejhty. Ji grmhr ekrry tfjs gut, tfhrh nust hxjst k ihw kim pgwhrluc typh gl agvhrinhit, uimhr

tfh egitrgc gl gih mjvjih ruchr, suef ks nyshcl. ]fh ruchr tfkt hstkdcjsfhs tfjs ihw grmhr wgucm fkvhegnpchth egitrgc gvhr hvhry ksphet gl sgejhty, ji grmhr tg mjrhet jt tgwkrms k aggm kim purh pckeh. Kt tfh

mjspgskc gl tfjs agvhrinhit, tfhrh ihhms tg dh k fjafcy trkjihm krny gl lkiktjekccy cgykc trggps, ji grmhr

tg hilgreh suef rhvgcutjgikry ckws.

]fh ljrst strj`h kakjist wgnhi wjcc dh tg qukrkitjih kcc gl tfhn ji egiehitrktjgi eknps. Kt tfhsh

eknps, tfh vkst nkogrjty gl tfh lhnkch pgpucktjgi wjcc dh mhcjdhrkthcy stkrvhm tg mhktf. ]fkt wgucm dh

ki hlljejhit kim ljttjia wky tg `jcc tfhn kcc gll. J wgucm tk`h arhkt pchksurh kim sktjslketjgi ji

egimhnijia hvhry sjiach wgnki gi hkrtf tg stkrvh tg mhktf. J wgucm fkvh ki higrngus tgwhr dujct oust

lgr nyshcl, wfhrh J eki gvhrshh tfh hitjrh egiehitrktjgi eknp kim achhluccy wktef tfhn kcc mjh. Jl J eki‚t

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kim drhm ji sherht ckds. ]fhrh, tfhy wjcc dh krtjljejkccy jishnjikthm wjtf sphrn sknpchs ji grmhr tg

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