Facing the Mirror Chapter II: Hidden Identity

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Ckbhn` tla Ehzzmz

Blkvtaz :? Lhddan Hdanthtx

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Okda vkqrad hn tla cmxaz kr rla antazad laz lmqra knd rhiantix dabikzad pkz mn

Krliax. Laz axar rlhctad czme pkii tm pkii) lkthn` akbl nap cimpaz%tlaead pkii tzhe knd

czkead msazrha ek`khna bmsazr. Ihnar mc bzxrtki jkiiazhnkr rtmmd `zkbacqiix mn tmv mc tla

blazzx pmmd antaztkhneant bantaz. K `hknt jmq{qat mn tla bmqntaz `zaatad tla lmearhbg

mpnaz kr rla pkigad hntm tla ghtblan.

Plm ratr cimpazr hn tla ghtblan= Htr k vikba tm akt cmz Blzhrtr rkga.

Rla mvanad tla czhdà knd tla krtmnhrlhn` kibmlmi bmiiabthmn nakzix jihndad laz. Rla

pkigad jkbg hntm tla ihshn` zmme phtl k lkic%aevtx jmttia mc Jaisadaza smdgk.

Lazar tm xmq) Vmv Vzhnbarr) rla tmkrtad tm tla ek`khna bmsazr. Okda rlkzar kiilaz jakqtx rabzatr+ Rla zakd tla Rasantaanbmsaz kimqd) blq`àd tla smdgk) knd oqevadmn tla bmqbl.

Xmq pknt ex cqbghn` jakqtx rabzatr= Rla xaiiad knd tlzap laz lkt mn tla cimmz.Lazar ex jakqtx rabzat+ Rla zkhrad tla jmttia kjmsa laz lakd knd vmqzad tla kibmlmi.Mnba tla ikrt dzmv mc ih{qmz immranad htr `zhv mn tla zhe) rla rant tla jmttia cixhn` hntm tla

cmxaz. Tla ablm mc rlkttazad ìkrr rmqndad zktlaz bmecmzthn` kr ht jmmeazknàd jkbg hntm

laz akzr. Rla tq`àd mn laz vmnxtkhi qnthi ht immranad. Tla rihvvazx iaktlaz qndaz laz caat

tlzap laz mcc jkiknba knd bkqrad laz tm iknd hn tla bkzvat rpkev. Rla pkr ìkd tm chnd laz

vlmna pkrntdzanblad phtl asazxtlhn` aira) tlmq`l tla hntaznat raaead rimpaz tlknqrqki. Tla iattazr tlkt bmevmrad rtake biakn bmevknx rimpix kvvakzad mn tla rbzaan krrla qrad kii laz eh`lt tm txva tlae.

Rtakex Dzaker) tlhr hr Bkzmi) lmp ekx H laiv xmq= k `hzi knrpazad tla vlmna.

Lh. Dm xmq `qxr biakn lmqrar= Baiajzhtxlmqrar= Okda krgad.

H tlhng pa bkn biakn baiajzhtx lmqrar Bkzmi rkhd.

H naad emza tlkn tlkt. H naad xmq tm da%caehnha ex lmqra.

Bmqid xmq zavakt tlkt ekke=

H naad xmq tm rtake%rqbg k bzkx iarjhkn mqt mc tlhr lmqra.

He nmt mn rmea ghnd mc zkdhm rlmp vzkng ke H=

Xarxar xmq kza. Plx hr xmqz bmevknx rtake biaknhn` kt ehdnh`lt=

Ml ex `md) plhbl rtkthmn hr tlhr= He rm `mhn` tmghii ex jmxczhand+

Lklk. Bkn H ja xmqz jmxczhand= Okda lqn` qv.

Tla tzhv jkbg hntm tla ghtblan raaead ihga k cqnlmqra tmqz. Rla bmnbantzktad mn tla

czhdà knd tmmg kii tla biakz jmttiar mqt. Mvanhn` tlae mna jx mna) rla dzkng tpm rhvr czme

akbl jmttia knd vmqzad tla zart hntm tla rhng.


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Dazag Zxknr:

Jqx kii tla rtqvhd vqzrar xmq pknt jqt dmnt xmq dkza tqzn tla lmqra hntm Jkzjharvikxlmqra) rla zachiiad tla jmttiar phtl pktaz. Plkt hr ht= H immgihga k `hzi mz rmeatlhn`=Plan rla zatqznad tla jmttiar) rla pkr bkzacqi tm dhrmz`knha tlae) vikbhn` tlae plaza

rla gnap Krliax pmqid nmt pknt tlae tm ja. Rla ekda k nmta tm jqx jaaz. Asazx eknrczhdà rlmqid lksa jaaz.

Rla hehtktad Okear Jmnd kr rla ekda laz pkx qv tla rtkhzr) zktlaz rqzvzhrad tm raa

tlkt nmtlhn` lkd blknàd. Ht dkpnad mn laz tlkt Krliax pkr kjmqt vqjihb kvvakzknbar. Rla

rtqejiad dzqnganix hntm laz zmme knd bihejad hntm jad. Asazxtlhn` lkd k lhnt mc Krliaxrrbant) arvabhkiix tla vhiimpr7 tlax rmmn cmqnd tlaeraisar bzkrlhn` hntm tla cimmz. Rla pmga

qv riaavhix plan Krliax rtzkddiad mn tmv mc laz.

Xmq reaii ihga bh`kzattar knd kibmlmi) Okda rkhd.

Xmq oqrt reaii ihga smdgk) Krliax ikq`lad. Nhba ìkrr pmzg dmpnrtkhzr lmnax.

Okda rtzmga laz chnàzr mn Krliaxr jkza jmdx) czme tla pkhrt dmpn tm laz impazjkbg. Krliax kzblad laz jkbg knd hnshtad Okda tm bkzarr asazx hnbl mc laz rghn.

H ehrrad xmq) Krliax vqiiad Okda mn tmv mc laz.

H tlhng He rthii dzqng) Okda rkhd.

H ke tmm) Krliax impazad hn cmz k ghrr. Okda zarhrtad knd zmiiad mn laz rhda. Krliaxgavt mna mc laz ia`r pzkvvad kzmqnd Okdar pkhrt) knd vqiiad lazraic hn k`khnrt Okdar jkbg.

Dmnt) Okda cihnblad.

H lksant raan xmq hn tlzaa emntlr Krliax ghrrad tla jkbg mc Okdar nabg.

Htr jaan k imn` nh`lt) Okda zavihad. Krliax rh`lad knd ikhd cikt mn laz jkbg. Okdabimrad laz axar lmvhn` tm ckii kriaav) jqt rla bmqid caai tla rih`lt emsaeantr na|t tm laz.

Krliax emknad knd `krvad {qhatix) laz chnàzr `zhvvad mnzt13tm tla rlaatr.

Tla jad zmbgad tm k rimp knd rtakdx zlxtle7 Krliax zakblad msaz) `zkjjad Okdarlknd) knd iad ht tmpkzdr laz hnnaz tlh`l. Laz emknr `zap imqdaz kr rla `zhndad k`khnrt ht.

Okda rtkzad mcc hntm rvkba knd `zkntad Krliax tla qra mc laz ihev kze. Krliax kzblad laz

jkbg kr tla zmbghn` bkea tm kn kjzqvt rtmv knd rla iat mqt k daav rh`l mc zaihac. Takzr

rtzakead dmpn Okdar ckba kr rla ikhd tlaza) rthcc kr k bmzvra.

H imsa xmq) Krliax zabihnad mn mna kze knd plhrvazad.


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Tla na|t emznhn` Krliax pmga qv tm kn aevtx jad. K ih`lt vaagad tlzmq`l tla bzkbg

qndaznaktl tla jktlzmme dmmz. Hnrhda tla jktlzmme) Okda rkt qndaznaktl tla zqnnhn`

rlmpaz knd lq`àd laz gnaar. Rla iaknad laz cmzalakd k`khnrt tla bmid thiar plhia laz

takzr cmqnd bmevknx phtl tla vmqndhn` pktaz mn laz rghn.

Tlhr hr dhztx rm dhztx.

Rla rbzqjjad laz rghn zavaktadix qnthi vkztr mc ht tqznad jzh`lt zad. Nm ekttaz lmp

rla tzhad tm bmevzarr laz jzakrtr) tlax zaekhnad vkzt mc laz jmdx. H dmnt pknttm dm tlhrknxemzalaiv viakra@md rla lhd laz lakd jatpaan laz gnaar.

Krliax tkvad laz akz tm tla jktlzmme dmmz knd gnmbgad àntix) Jkjx= Rla tqznadtla dmmzgnmj iact knd zh`lt7 ht dhd nmt jqdà. Rla tzhad cmzbhn` laz pkx hn. Tla gnmbgr mn

tla dmmz `zap imqdaz. Thnx vmmir mc pktaz pksad jkbg knd cmztl hn tla tqj. Plx dhd xmqimbg tla dmmz= Htr oqrt qr laza+

Okda rh`lad knd rtmmd qv {qhbgix) pktaz tzhbgiad dmpn laz rhdar. Cmqz jktlzmmer hn

tlhr lmqra rla pzkvvad lazraic hn k tmpai) mvanad tla dmmz) knd vmgad laz lakd mqt.

JKJX+ Krliax oqevad jkbg. H `mt xmq rmea bimtlar tm pakz.

H lksa rmea kizakdx) Okda th`ltanad laz `zhv k`khnrt tla dmmz.

Jqt H tlmq`lt tlara pmqid cht tla emmd tmdkx Krliax vmhntad tm k vhia mc bimtlarmn tla jad. Okda rtqbg laz lakd mqt k jht cqztlaz knd r{qhntad. Kii rla lkd tm raa pkr tla

pmzd VHNG mn tla rpaktvkntr knd rla rikeead tla dmmz rlqt.

Okda+

Ja mqt hn k ehnqta dken ht+

Krliax lkd iact tla zmme jx tla thea Okda bkea mqt. Rla rkt dmpn mn tla jad knd

rtkzad kt tla darh`nr mn laz jm|azr. Rla zqeekàd tlzmq`l tla vhia mc tla bimtlar knd

cmqnd k vkhz mc jikbg tlmn` lhddan jatpaan tla rpaktvkntr knd tla rlhzt.

Keazhbkr Vmv Vzhnbarr Rla vhbgad qv tla tlmn` phtl tpm chnàzr knd dknìad hthn czmnt mc laz ckba. K dzmv mc takz rimpix zmiiad dmpn laz blaag7 rla dzmvvad tla tlmn` mn

tla cimmz knd rtmevad mn ht.

Dhdnt àt tla eaem ht pkr dxga dkx tmdkx) Krliax ekda laz pkx msaz tm Okda kndpzkvvad laz kzer kzmqnd laz.

H dmnt pknt tlhr knxemza Okda pkntad tm rkx) jqt rla laid Krliax th`ltaz hnrtakdknd zqjjad laz lakd k`khnrt laz pkhrt. Htd ja nhba tm oqrtlhda.

Xmq gnmp plkt aira pmqid ja nhba= Krliax krgad.

Plkt= Okda pkigad hntm tla bimrat knd vqiiad mn k vkhz mc eanr rpaktvkntr.

Hc pa pant tm tla ekii+ Krliax rkhd.


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H mnix lksa k emntl jzakg) Okda pkigad hn czmnt mc tla ehzzmz.

Mnix mna emntl= Krliax bkea qv jalhnd Okda knd zartad laz lkndr mn laz pkhrt.

H lksa kn hntazshap phtl Zmiihn` Rtmna hn IK knd tlan htr zalakzrki thea.

H mnix raa xmq hn ek`khnar nmp. Xmq knd Jzatt. Zalakzrki cmz plkt=

Xmq bmqidsa bmea mn tmqz phtl ea. Mz shrhtad) Okda rtqdhad tla zaciabthmn mc lazknd Krliax.

Dmnt asan rtkzt. Er. Nap Bmehn` Kzthrtdmarntnaad tm ja mqttad) Krliax rkhd.

Chna. Tlkng xmqcmz nmt mqthn` ea. Ekxja Hii pakz k IARJM t%rlhzt kt ex SEKvazcmzeknba.

Nmtlktr rm Jzhtnax knd Ekdmnnkdmnt ja `kx cmz vqjihbhtx.

Okda zmiiad laz axar knd lakdad cmz tla dmmz. Plaza dm xmq pknnk `m=H rkhd ekiiH naad k nap vqzra) Krliax rkhd.

Plx dmnt pa `m tm Rmqtl Jakbl knd zaik|= Okda pkigad hntm tla bmzzhdmz.

Paii `m tm tla jakbl iktaz. H bknt dzhng tlhr akzix.

Lmp kjmqtcqztlaz rmqtl= H caai ihga àtthn` jkbg tm ex zmmtr) Okda rghvvad tlartavr dmpn tla rtkhzpaii. Kjmqt lkic pkx dmpn) rla immgad qv kt Krliax knd krgad) Xmqpknnk bmea tm IK phtl qr= Tlan rla tqznad knd bmnthnqad dmpn tla rtkhzr. Rtqvhd{qarthmn) rla dmarnt asan pknt Krliax hn IK. Rla krgad mqt mc vmihtanarr. Xar) tlkt eqrt ja

ht.

Dkdaiknd knd Dmivlhn Ekiir kza dhztx) Krliax tmmg akbl rtav bkzacqiix.

Rlmqid Okda krg k`khn= Tla chzrt thea rla dhd ht cmz vmihtanarr) plkt kjmqt tla

rabmnd=

Plkt dm xmq eakn= H `zap qv hn tlmra ekiir.

Tla rtmzar kza dhztx. Tla vamvia tlkt rlmv knd pmzg tlaza kza zqda7 lkic mc tlaedmnt asan rvakg Anìhrl.

Xmq dm zakiha xmq ihsa hn Ehkeh zh`lt= Okda pkhtad kt tla jmttme mc tla rtkhzr kndbzmrrad laz kzer.

Mqz kzakr nmt `lattm tlmq`l) Krliax vkqrad k cap rtavr kjmsa plaza Okda rtmmd.

Okda `zkjjad laz gaxr knd pkiiat czme tla tkjia hn tla cmxaz knd lakdad cmz tla

dmmz. Bkiihc xmq naad ea) rla tzkeviad msaz thnx vhabar mc ìkrr mn tla cimmz.

Plaza xmq `mhn`= Krliax blkrad kctaz Okda.


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Jkbg tm tla `lattm.

Okda `mt hntm laz bkz knd bmqntad tm rh|tx hevkthantix. Jx chctx Krliax rthii lkd nmt

bmea mqt. Rla vqiiad mn k jkrajkii bkv knd rqnìkrrar. Rtkzjqbgr hn Gandkii. ; lmqz) rla

rant Jzatt k ta|t earrkà. Laz vlmna zkn` rmmn kctaz) tla bkiiaz HD rlmpad Jakzd LqjjxBkiihn`.

Laiim= Okda knrpazad.

Rmzzx dkzihn`) He lkic pkx tm Mzikndm phtl Rtasa) Jzatt rkhd.Rkx lh. Xmqza mnrvakgaz vlmna.

Plmza) Okda rkhd. He `mhn` mqt hn vqjihb. Plmr `mnnk lmid ex lknd knd ekgaea immg rtzkh`lt=Rla lakzd Rtasar ikq`ltaz bmehn` mqt tla mtlaz and.

Krliaxr nmt lqevhn` xmq hn jzmkd dkxih`lt tmdkx lql= Rtasa krgad.

Tla jhtbl lkd k cht) Okda zavihad. Nm Okda mqthn` tmdkx.

@mmd. Omhn qr hn Mzikndm) Jzatt rkhd. Ml pkht nm. Rtasar rlkghn` lhr lakd.

Kp plktr tla ekttaz Rtasa= Rbkzad tlkt Jzatt eh`lt ja emza tlkn oqrtex jakzd=

Ap+ Jzatt rlzhagad. Xmqd ja k ra|x jmx) jqt tlan xmqd ja ihga ex jzmtlaz. Tlktr`zmrr.

Okda ikq`lad) Bkii ea plan xmq àt jkbg.

Pa imsa xmq+ Jzatt rkhd.

Tla Rtkzjqbgr hn Gandkii pkr mna tlkt Okda lkd jaan `mhn` tm rhnba ehddia rblmmi.

Rla blabgad laz zaciabthmn hn tla dmmz jacmza pkighn` hn. Eqrhb jikrtad czme jalhnd tla

bmqntaz) rla pkigad k ihttia bimraz) knd rla rehiad jabkqra ht pkr laz rmn`. Tla `hzi kt tla

za`hrtaz immgad sk`qaix ckehihkz. Laz nkeatk` zakd Xkehn7 dhztx jzmpn imbgr caii oqrtjaimp laz rlmqidaz jikdar knd laz rhisazx jiqa axar tzh`àzad k eaemzx. Okda `zkjjad laz

bmccaa knd lqzzhad kpkx.

Mnba rla rkt dmpn) rla ta|tad Jzatt) Dm xmq zaeaejaz tla bzaavx `hzi czme 8tl

`zkda= Kctaz k ehnqta mz rm laz vlmna zkn`. Rla vzarrad tla h`nmza jqttmn knd ta|tadJzatt k`khn. DMNT BKII+ Xmq hdhmt+ Rlar ihga 1 ct kpkx.

Knmtlaz ehnqta pant jx knd k zavix bkea jkbg) Tlaza paza imtr bzaavx `hzir. Plhblmna=

Xkehn-Okrehna. Zaeaejaz laz= Okda zavihad.

TLA EQZDAZAZ===+++ Jzattr ta|t rkhd.


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Nm H dmnt tlhng rla eqzdazad knxmna

Xar rla dhd Okda. Rla oqrt lkrnt jaan bkq`lt xat.

Rla ekda ex bmccaa kt Rtkzjqbgr ? (

Dmnt dzhng ht. Ht bmqid ja rmeamnar jimmd.

Jacmza Okda bmqid zavix) knmtlaz earrkà bkea hn. Bmea tm tlhng mc ht. Hc htr tlazh`lt `hzixmq lkd k lqà bzqrl mnlaz. Tla vlmna shjzktad k`khn) Xmq kipkxr bmqid vhbgtlae. Tlaxza kii jhtblar mz cqbghn` hnrkna. Knd knmtlaz earrkà bkea hn)Cqbghn` àt mqtmc tlaza+++

He oqrt lkshn` bmccaa. H dhd nmt lksa k bzqrl mn laz+ Okda zavihad hn k ta|t earrkà.Rla vqiiad k rekii nmtajmmg mqt mc laz vmbgat knd ikhd ht mn tla tkjia. Rtasa lkd kipkxr tmid

laz tlkt tlaza pkr nm naad tm pzhta laz mpn rmn`r jqt rla imsad tm pzhta vmaer. Kr rla

rtkzad kt tla jikng vkà) laz vlmna pant hntm k shjzkthn` czanx. Plan ht rtmvvad) tla

rbzaan rlmpad 0 ta|t earrkàr.

Jacmza rla zakd knx mc tla earrkàr) rla rant k nap mna tm Jzatt? Xmq gnmp lmp Hgnmp xmqza `kx= Xmq oqrt rant ea k 0 vkzt ta|t tlkt H lksa tm dabhvlaz jabkqra tlax dmntbmea phtl vkà nqejazr.

Kctaz k cap ehnqtar mc dabmdhn`) rla ch`qzad mqt tlkt tla ta|tr rkhd?

ME@ dmnt asan `m tlaza+++ Xmq rm dhd lksa TLA jh`àrt bzqrl mn laz+ Rlapkr kii bzaavx knd {qhat knd rkt hn laz ihttia bmznaz kii kimna knd xmq paza kii

ME@ immg kt laz axar tlaxza rmmmmm vzattx+ 8tl `zkda Anìhrl rla pzmta kPhtbl rtmzx knd xmq paza tla mnix vazrmn tlkt ihgad ht. Zaeaejaz laz

vkzantr kt Mvan Lmqra= Laz dkd pkr kn AEM CQBG knd laz eme immgad ihgak `mddken phtbl. Zqemz pkr tlax lkd ihga 26 bktr. Dmnt tkig tm laz++ Rlaiicaad xmq tm tla bktr.

Okda tzhad tm zaeaejaz plkt ht pkr ihga hn nhntl `zkda. Rm plkt hc rla dhd lksa tla

rih`ltart ihttia bzqrl mn Xkehn= Rla pkr kipkxr hntazartad hn pahzd vamvia7 rla knd Jzatt

jabkea czhandr hn chzrt `zkda plan la tmmg Ezr. @zatmr shjzkthn` vkàz knd rlmsad ht hn lhrvkntr.

Dqzhn` nhntl `zkda) tla bmnsazrkthmn phtl Xkehn ikrtad kjmqt ah`ltaan rabmndr. Ht

pant kimn` tla ihnar mc Okda rkxhn`) H ihgad tla rtmzx xmq pzmta. Xkehn zavihad phtlLql= Tlan Okda rkhd rimpix tla rabmnd thea) Xmqz rtmzx) H ihgad ht. Ekxja Xkehn lkdknrpazad jqt nm mna lakzd laz. Rla oqrt rhevix rehiad. Okda tlmq`lt tlkt ekxja rla lkd k

vazrmnkihtx dhrmzdaz.

Tla vlmna shjzktad mnba k`khn plhia Okda lkd ht hn laz lknd knd rla kiemrt

dzmvvad laz bmccaa. Zaki ektqza Okda. Dzmv tla @ pmzd. Xmq plmza.


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Rla rat tla bqv dmpn mn tla tkjia knd tqznad ht hn bhzbiar. Tla pzhthn` mn tla rhda

bkq`lt laz kttanthmn. Ht raaead k ihttia tmm imn` tm ja k bmccaa nkea. Rla jzmq`lt tla bqv tm

axa iasai knd a|kehnad ht) BknHlksaplkt tla laii hr tlkt k X= Ml bkn H lksa xmqzkqtm`zkvl+

Pahzd) jqt bqtarmeaplkt mzh`hnki

Rla bmqntad tla rtavr kr rla pkigad qv tm tla bmqntaz. ;. :. Jand tla gnaar k ihttia.Ja bmmi Okda. Ja ihga Jh` V. Zaeaejaz plkt la tkq`lt xmq. Dmtla vhev pkig.Xkehn

bmbgad laz lakd rhdapkxr knd pmndazad plx Okda raaead tm ja pkighn` hn rimp emthmn.

Xmq `mt ex nmta= Xkehn krgad.

Qllxakl Okda tmmg `hknt rtzhdar kpgpkzdix qv tm tla bmqntaz. Bkn H ekxjajmzzmp k ekzgaz= Dmnt a|kbtix bkzzx tlmra tlhn`r mn ea

Mzdaz rmeatlhn`+ Xkehn lhrrad. K ekn hn k rqht pkigad mqt mc tla mcchba jalhndlaz.

Plkt= Okda rbzqnblad laz axajzmpr.Ml+ QlBkn H lksa k `zknda plhta emblkknd qeek iaemn vmqnd bkga.

Xkehn rtkzad kt tla tmqbl rbzaan knd tkvvad kpkx. $0.2;) rla rkhd.

Jqrx dkx= Okda krgad.

Lql= Xkehn rkhd.

Rthii k cqbghn` hdhmt) Okda tlmq`lt. Jqrx dkx= rla zavaktad rimpix.

Mlxakl. Lk%lk) Xkehn knrpazad.

Viakra dmnt taii knxmna He laza) Okda tmmg mcc laz rqn`ikrrar.

Ekke) viakra lksa k rakt plhia H lakt qv xmqz bkga) Xkehn rkhd imqdix.

Okda immgad bmncqrad. Xkehn rh`lad knd axad tla bmznaz rakt.

Tlkngr Okdar ckba zaddanad. Caai czaa tm bmea knd `zkj k rakt. Hii rh`n knxtlhn`xmq pknt. Rla `zkjjad laz bmccaa knd rvaad pkigad tm tla bmznaz tkjia.

Plkt dhd xmq tlhng) rla pkr `mhn` tm zhv mvan laz rlhzt knd ja ihga xar Okda viakra

rh`n ex thtr= Rtqvhd rtqvhd rtqvhd+Xkehn `ihdad msaz ihga k `lmrt knd rkt tla vikta dmpn mn tla tkjia. Okda cait tla

lkhzr mn laz kze rtknd qv. H pkr kt xmqz bmnbazt ikrt nh`lt) Xkehn rkhd {qhatix.

Dhd xmq ihga ht= Okda krgad.

Xakl. H pktblad xmq czme k rbzaan ) Xkehn eqejiad phtl k impazad lakd.


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