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I N S E PA Grain of Wheat

I N S E PI tell you the truth, unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains

only a seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.

John 12:24

Christ,the One Grain,diedto produce us,the Many GrainsinHis Resurrection!

ContentsEditorial 1

The Blessings of Taking SPM BIBLE KNOWLEDGE 2

Growing Up in CF 3

An Epitome of Servanthood 4

Leadership by Example 6

From a Sparrow to an Eagle 7

In Christ Alone, I Place My Trust 9

Thank You God...! 11

Musings of a new principal at a silent retreat 12

Be Still and Know that I AM GOD 14

The Second Best became the Best 15

In Partnership 22

Life isn’t about finding yourself, it’s about discovering who

God �eated y� to be

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Editorial CommitteeIndyrany KannaiyaLiew Nyuk LanDaniel Gan Kim JinGoh Hai Bee Lee Sok YanDebbie Tan Tee HwaSophia Sim Kwan HoonJenny Loh Kee AiAnita Wong Voon Ying

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The Psalmist said “I have inherited Your testimonies forever, for they are the joy of my heart” (Ps 119:111 NASB). The testimonies of the Lord are our inheritance. A testimony is the written or spoken record of anything God has done in history. It is about what GOD

has done in and through the lives of His people. In our context, they are those who serve tirelessly in the influential mountain of education.

Every story written here is a testimony of the power, hope, revelation and faithfulness of our living God. It does not matter if you have failed your SPM examination, God is a God of redemption and He is able to turn every failure into a success.

Do not despise or be discouraged by the days of small beginnings. As you testify of His goodness in the little things, He will be able to accomplish far greater testimonies than what each of us can ever think or imagine. We see that in the stories of those who have retired, in o ce as well as in the classrooms.

A direct, powerful way to demonstrate the reality of Jesus is through Christian Fellowships and Bible Knowledge. May we continue to be reminded to intentionally invest into these far reaching ministries for the extension of His Kingdom. We will surely reap what we have sown in His fullness of time.

Each testimony is about relationships. God calls us into seasons of working, warring and waiting on Him. In each season, God reminds us of His power, goodness and victory in and through us.

Personally, I would like to pen my tribute to Miss Goh Hai Bee who has been a great mentor, friend and a big sister to me. Professionally, she has influenced me to follow esus’ style of servant leadership and to always remember it is all about pointing people to the Master Teacher. May the Lord continue to use her powerfully as His testimony in the next phase of her journey.

There is just so much power in our testimonies because it is simply sharing Jesus with others. We encourage you to likewise share your story with us as they have the power to transform lives. For the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy (Revelation 19:10).

Enjoy!Sophia Ho

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Sophia has been in schools for 13 years. This year the Lord has graciously granted her desire for a sabbatical in Hong Kong, together with her husband.

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�e Blessings of TakingSPM BIBLE KNOWLEDGE

By John Seeni

Dear parents,

Greetings in the Name of our Lord Jesus Christ!Taking Bible Knowledge is a God-given opportunity for all Malaysian Christians to imprint the Word of God in our children.

The Old Testament states in Deuteronomy 11:18-20: “You shall therefore impress these words of mine on your heart and on your soul; and you shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontals on your forehead. “You shall teach them to your sons, talking of them when you sit in your house and when you walk along the road and when you lie down and when you rise up. “You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.”

God grants us the freedom, knowledge and wisdom to choose. Our God is not an overbearing God. He is ultimately gracious in all He does. Oftentimes, we fail to acknowledge God for Who He is! Most times we only take mental cognizance of Him.

When both my boys Jonah and Jonathan were taking Bible Knowledge in SPM they were discouraged by their teachers and friends with the common comment, “It will deprive you of your straight A’s and your JPA scholarship is gone! You are good students. Think carefully! Knowing this fact and still wanting to sit for Bible Knowledge is sheer

foolishness!” The comments were endless! However, one thing was very clear to me from Matthew 6:33, “But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

As a father, I encouraged my two sons to sit for SPM Bible Knowledge and I was their teacher. My elder boy, Jonah Seeni got B3 for his Bible Knowledge (4A1, 4A2 and 3B3’s). In

, he will be finishing his Medical degree from Volgograd State Medical University, Russia on a JPA scholarship.

My younger son Jonathan Seeni got 11 A’s for his SPM (4A+, 5A and 2A-). He got an A- for his SPM Bible Knowledge. By the grace of God, he obtained a scholarship for his first year at INTI International University and after two years in INTI he is now pursuing Aeronautical

Engineering (Twinning Programme of 2 + 3 years) in Wichita State University, Kansas, America.

God willing, he will complete his studies in December 2015. He has a part-time job in America. I only pay his semester fee that God provided through my Public Mutual savings and their insurance. When they graduate, God would have freed me from the financial commitment to their education.

As parents, we are so anxious about our children’s academic achievements to the extent that we compromise and sacrifice their spiritual development. When they leave our homes, we are so concerned about their lives because they are not spiritually strong and might stumble and fall. When the Word

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of God is nurtured in their hearts and minds, we will have peaceful sleep even though they are far away. The Word of God indwells them.

This is a testimony of the greatness of Almighty God we worship! Encourage your children and loved ones to take Bible Knowledge and put their total faith in our Lord Jesus Christ. He WILL lead in the unknown sacred pathways ahead.

John Seeni is the visionary principal of SMK Sungai Pari, Ipoh, Perak.

By Serena Chan

I started going to CF when I was in Form 1. Although I was born into a Christian family, I was not a committed Christian. I only attended CF to earn co-curricular points. Nonetheless, there was something about CF that made me always want to return week after week. It must have been all the lovely people and their cheerful disposition that kept me going back. Little did I know, God had planted a seed of

curiosity in me. It was an extremely slow but gradual change. I began to know Him more and more. I decided that I wanted to have a real relationship with Him.

This year, I started serving God in CF as the PA Coordinator. I had mixed feelings about it initially. I was rather reluctant as I was aware of the huge responsibilities involved. I was unsure if I was ready for it. Moreover, it could be taxing at times, since there were only four of us handling the PA system. We were expected to be present every week and to work effectively and e ciently. While I might have the experience, I still felt inade uate and un ualified to be a committee member. I felt I was not good enough.

I believe the committee members are the leaders of the CF. In addition to performing our duties during CF hours we have to exhibit Christ-likeness in our lives all the time. I am fearful of tarnishing the image of the CF unintentionally. Sometimes, I worry if all this effort makes me no better than the hypocritical Pharisees two millennia ago.

However, I realised that my situation was not going to change. I could either keep worrying about all these things or I could rise up and work towards being the person I wished to be. I understand that it is not going to be easy. But you know what? YOLO. You Only Live Once. Nothing in this world really has any substantial meaning in the context of eternity, has it? I gained a new perspective on life and started to realise what truly matters in this world. God matters. Therefore, I am going to make Him matter in my life.

Since then, I have new hopes for CF - hope in the new committee and hope in those who will come after us. Imperfect I may be, I shall do my job and do it to the best that I can. Should I stay true to this, I believe I can live with no regrets.

CF

Growing Up in CF

Serena has moved on beyond SMK Seafield, Selangor for her tertiary education.

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By Melissa Mae Gabriel

A Tribute to Miss Goh Hai Bee

It was a cool breezy morning. Pacing quickly to the quadrangle for the school assembly, each

step reminiscent of the fondest memories of my five years as a St Marian, my heart was heavy because it was the last assembly our dear principal Miss Goh would be addressing.

In her usual quaint, charming voice, she would say, “Close your eyes. Think of something to be grateful for. Make it bigger, make it brighter and add sound effects to it. Thank God for a brand new day.” I will never forget the preamble we would start our Monday morning assembly with.

Right from the first day we proudly called ourselves St. Marians. Miss Goh constantly shared and instilled in us a spirit of thanksgiving, notwithstanding colour, creed or belief. I never realised until later that thanksgiving prepared the fertile ground for experiencing God’s abundant blessings.

Miss Goh Hai Bee was the principal of St. Mary’s Secondary School, Kuala Lumpur from 16 December

2005 to 6 January 2015. She truly lived to the saying ‘the heart of education is education of the heart’. I believe many would vouch for Miss Goh’s dedication and commitment to the school.

She was a dreamer who envisioned the best for the school. Among the many projects she initiated were the outstanding musicals Phantom of the Opera and Mamma Mia, the centenary gala dinner and the Education Fund. Staying true to St. Mary’s motto I Serve, she was

a sterling example of servant leadership. Many times when we were facing storms in life, she gave us words of encouragement, courage and most of all taught us what it meant to be still and depend on God.

Miss Goh taught me Literature when I was in Forms 1 and 5. They were certainly some of the best classes for me. She had the ability to read poems with such graceful intonation and expressions, bringing each word to life and transporting us right into the story. She ignited the fire of learning in us by showing us videos, demonstrations and telling us stories from life experiences. This not only enhanced our understanding of the subject but also taught us precious lessons in life.

She never really pushed us to achieve superb academic results, although that was always an aspiration. More importantly, she wanted us to receive a holistic education by striving for excellence in our God-given talents. “It’s a blue ocean” she would say. “So seize every opportunity to learn and grow.”

Oftentimes, when I faced challenges, Miss Goh was my mentor who guided and encouraged me with wisdom and the Word of God. Her assuring prayers comforted me and led me to understand God’s directions better.

It is ecstatic to know her ‘other side’ too. For instance, the hilarious moments during fellowship at the mamak stall, sleeping on table tops during camps and EATING Milo after overnight prayer meetings! Those are

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Portrait done by Tan Pooi Ling, a former student of SMK St. Mary

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Tributedefinitely moments that I will cherish for years to come.

Miss Goh has many gifts but one of them really leaves me in awe. It is her remarkable network and ability to connect people from different vocations. She is indeed virtual Yellow Pages. She could give you the contact number of almost anybody from psychologists, chefs, contractors, clergyman to lorry drivers! You name it, Miss Goh has it! She could fuse the strengths of different individuals. No matter who it was, she would try to go the extra mile to help. A quote which she shared, “the extra mile is never congested” will always be etched in my mind and heart.

It is uncommon to find students close to their school principals or find a friend in them. However, as for me and for every St. Marian, Miss Goh has always been a wonderful person to associate with. She has not been just an educator, but a supportive friend and not to mention an encyclopedia of the history of the school. Miss Goh was a pillar to St Mary’s Secondary School. Her dedication to get things done for the betterment of the school and her zeal to keep the school as part of church are certainly beyond earthly rewards. She was a teacher-principal whose contribution to the ethos of

the school will remain for many years to come. Indeed, she was a great influence on thousands of students over the years.

Miss Goh inspired me to see beyond the horizon, into the world of infinite wonders. She was the painter in the canvas of our hearts and spirit, a quiet yet determined person, creating beauty in things unseen with a touch of passion and compassion.

A legend in her own right, Miss Goh will always be remembered for her inspirational acronyms. Perhaps the three letters of her surname would say a little of who is this amazing person:

G – God’s graceO – Overcomer H – Honourable

Melissa was a school prefect and CF Chairman of SMK St. Mary. She is now pursuing her A-level in Methodist College Kuala Lumpur.

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I am very thankful to have worked under the principalship of Miss Goh for the past six years. I will remember her as a principal who listens to her staff and considers their needs. I

remember an occasion when I needed to attend to an emergency at home when there was a meeting in school. She not only graciously allowed me to leave immediately but even prayed for me before I left. Her gesture touched me so much that it shall be a sweet reminder of a compassionate principal who cares for her staff.

Miss Goh’s humility has shown me what servant leadership is all about. She was not aggressive and did not force her ways upon her staff. Instead her quiet and gentle leadership won sincere support not just from me but from the whole staff.

Miss Goh believes in life-long learning. She was so full of energy, always striving to improve her skills and encouraging us to do the same. She even brought us on educational trips which I always looked forward to. Truly, I believe she finds her strength in the Lord.

I will definitely miss her but I know that I have found a friend, a mentor, a sister in Christ, a leader by example and a spiritual coach in my former principal.Miss Goh, continue to impact lives. Your humility makes friendships and strengthens relationships.

God bless you Miss Goh!

Miss Goh Hai Bee.G – God-fearing principalO – Obedient unto the LordH – Humble servant of the Lord

H- Honest and openA-A+ principal with character and calibreI - Inspiring at all times

B-Beautiful and warm-heartedE- Encouraging words and a sweet smileE- Energetic even at 60

Leadership by ExampleBy Grace Chin Mei Foong

Grace Chin is an experienced Chemistry teacher with a hunger for reality and growth in the Lord. She is the CF adviser of SMK St. Mary.

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Tribute

By Yap Kok Keong

The St. Mary’s StoryAt a time when most of the 465 or so mission schools throughout the country are fast losing their Christian character and standing in the local community, the St. Mary’s success story stands out as a beacon of hope for mission schools. This success story is the fruit of fervent prayers, of commitment by the Church,

the Board of Governors under the persevering leadership of Dato’ Stanley Isaacs and the support of parents and teachers. A crucial element in the St. Mary’s story is the appointment and succession of good Christian principals to helm the school thus enabling the best traditions of mission schools to flourish.

Good Christian PrincipalsNine years ago, I attended Goh Kai Lian’s farewell assembly as principal of SMK St. Mary and was so impressed by the outpouring of affection and appreciation by students, teachers and school Board that I wrote a brief article about it for IN STEP. On 14 January 2015, it was her sister Hai Bee’s turn to retire as principal from the same school. Both sisters had readily acknowledged the wonderful opportunity to build on the strong foundation of Christian school culture and high standards established through the 21-year long devoted leadership of Esther Richards, the principal before them who, in turn I am sure would have built on the sacrifice of others before her.

Goh Hai Bee - Fashioned to LeadFrom the very beginning, Hai Bee had embraced her vocation as a calling from God. Her teaching career began in 1979 - 5 years in SM Tun Habab (Kota Tingi, Johor), 10 years in Maktab Tentera Di Raja (K.L.), 3 ½ years in SM(P) Air Panas (K.L.), 3 years in SM Pandan Jaya (Selangor), 4 years in SMK Puterijaya .L. and finally years in SM St. Mary. The diverse experience in various types of school environment taught her many useful lessons. There were of course, the usual high points and low points - times of joy and frustration and temptations to side-track her along the way.

These experiences, particularly the frustrating and painful ones God used to prepare and equip Hai Bee for her crowning assignment as principal of St. Mary’s. Hai Bee’s inner quality is her insatiable quest to learn, to be a better person spiritually and professionally. Her continual reflection on her life experiences and her readiness to seek God’s counsel enabled her to keep growing as a person. God honoured this. Her passion for professional development took her to IAB and Bristol, England where she gained her M. Ed. in school management, language teaching and mentoring. Reading is her passion and great books with great ideas a valuable resource. Her desire for spiritual growth kept her faithful in church, Bible Study Fellowship (BSF) and other Christian activities. Undergirding all these is the conviction of being a follower of Jesus Christ and living out her Christian faith in her vocation and beyond.

It was therefore very natural for Hai Bee to gravitate towards TCF where for many years she was Publicity Secretary and subsequently Deputy Chairman. The many conferences and seminars, particularly those relating to faith and the teaching vocation organized by TCF and the fellowship and encouragement of fellow travellers made up the rich ingredients which helped Hai Bee to become a woman of substance after God’s heart.

A school is like a mobile – ever in motion. Hai Bee’s growing conviction was that “in all the uncertainty and change there is one constant –people - and their immense value and potential.”• People created in God’s own image with dignity and worth• People looking for mission and purpose in their work• People are creative, productive and want to contribute• People are increasingly looking to the work environment for fulfillment, security perhaps even for relief from the confusion in their personal lives

From a Sparrow to an Eagle

Dato’ Stanley Isaacs, Chairman of Board of Governors, SMK St. Mary

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• People are seeking to understand the WHY and not just the HOW of their job• People have a growing appetite for more participation and ownership of the outcome of their labour(Adapted from The Soul of the Firm by C.William Pollard)

That explains a great deal of her school management style. Besides the passion to make St. Mary’s a school of excellence, Hai Bee carried with her into the school the agape love of people. People, irrespective of background, race and religion, whether students or colleagues, are won over by genuine a rmative love. Love begets love and “love never fails.”

Our capacity to love and show compassionate understanding to others depends a lot on our own upbringing and background experiences. Hai Bee was from a relatively poor and needy family. It was therefore easier for her to empathize with her students, many of whom were the weak and needy as well. She was blessed with caring and God-fearing maternal grandmother and parents who contributed to her growing up into a prim and proper lady, with a great deal of self-discipline and high personal standards – a cygnet which became a swan, a sparrow which soared like an eagle. She is ever grateful for what God has done in her life. Her gratitude to God and her desire to reach out and give back to others motivated her to go that extra mile; and it is the extra mile which counts the most.

A Fond Farewell

At Hai Bee’s farewell assembly, I was deeply impressed by the sincere outpouring of appreciation and affection from the Board Chairman and the teaching staff. Most telling of all was the spontaneous and rapturous applause of the students whenever some aspects of their retiring principal’s character or contribution were mentioned. Although the girls sat on the hard floor for almost two hours, they were disciplined, focused and responsive throughout. Amazing!

Hai Bee’s farewell address was extraordinary. It was interestingly presented with accompanying

PowerPoint slides - exemplifying the work and heart of a true teacher to the end. The content of her address was thought provoking, heartfelt, reflecting a humble spirit - giving credit to her God, her grandmother, parents and those who had contributed to her own professional and spiritual journey especially during her last nine years at St. Mary’s. That morning, there were just so many exemplary life lessons for the students of St. Mary’s to take home which more than compensated for the ‘loss’ of formal lessons. The applause at the end was truly overwhelming.

What a wonderful way to conclude 36 years of teaching service. For Goh Hai Bee, I am sure the best is yet to be.

PostscriptTCF is fully aware and thank God for the many dedicated Christian teachers who never had the opportunity to head a school but had nevertheless served their calling in the classrooms and the playing fields with dogged dedication and commitment. During their long years of service, they would have touched more young lives for the better and for eternity than they would ever realize. These are the unsung heroes of the faith in the teaching profession.

However, schools especially mission schools and children of our land are crying out for not just good Christian teachers, but good Christian heads who can make such a big difference. If you are still in the battle field, why not bring this matter before God and consider taking the first step to head a school – sign up for NP EL National Professional ualifications for Educational Leaders) course!

Yap Kok Keong is the Chairman of the Malayan Christian Schools Council (MCSC) and the former Chairman and General Secretary of Teachers’ Christian Fellowship (TCF)

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Past principals of SMK St. Mary

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My Journey

In Christ Alone, I Place My Trust

Jeremiah 29:11 reverberates in my mind as I reflect on how God has led me in the last three years. “I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”

Remember me? The confused teacher whom God told to go over to the primary school after having taught in secondary school for a good 20 years? After a period

of adjustment, I found myself enjoying my work and getting fond of the environment, doing and accomplishing things that I never thought possible. The blessings were countless.

As I sit back and trace the journey, I realise that it was all part of God’s greater plan for me. He provided the environment, situations, personnel and opportunities for me to learn, interact, experiment, discover and excel. There were invaluable experiences

that I would never have received if I had stayed put in the secondary school. The experience has put me in a privileged position of having taught, struggled and survived in both the primary and secondary school systems. I have come out of it a more confident teacher equipped with a clear comprehensive knowledge of the school system which not many teachers can boast of and more importantly which I can fall back on for the task that is ahead of me.

Well, I have survived three years and am humbled by God’s ways. I am back to share with you as I discover part two of God’s greater plan which He slowly and patiently revealed to me.

In 2015, I am faced with yet another change in my career path. This time I have learned to be still as in the words of the song: “I will be still and know you are God”. The previous experience has taught me well. The Lord will never forsake those who seek Him. He never does! In His grace and mercy, He will

lead, guide and provide. A few months ago, I was told to apply for the post of the School Improvement Specialist Coach (SISC), something which I was not very keen to pursue as the position would take me out of school to work in the district education department as a trainer. I would have to work from 8 – 5 pm and my life would be totally turned around. Feeling very troubled, I asked the Lord where he was leading me. The very next morning, He led me to read Genesis 41:1-37 about Joseph who was thrown into prison and told to interpret Pharaoh’s dream. “I cannot do it,” Joseph replied to Pharaoh, “but God will give Pharaoh the answer he desires.”(Genesis 41:16)

I could hear God’s voice speaking through the commentary which said, “God knows your future and He has placed you where you are in preparation for what is ahead. Do not waste the opportunities that are yours today because God is using them to prepare you for greater things that are going to happen in the coming days.” I was completely overwhelmed - God had spoken loudly and clearly!

Joseph might not have understood the reasons for his two years in prison. However, the prison days were not wasted. God was in full control. He allowed Joseph to be falsely accused and thrown into prison where he met the cupbearer who eventually connected him to Pharaoh. This connection eventually led him to be the second in command over Egypt.

The parallel between Joseph’s situation and mine jolted my troubled mind. It was God’s plan that I move to the primary school – and that was why all the efforts to stop the move failed!! I fought the move with all my might without realising that it was God’s will I was contending with and not human folly! In my foolishness and usual impulsiveness, I thought I knew myself better than my Maker. I suddenly

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realised that the 3 years there were not wasted. It was my training ground and preparation for what is ahead. God moved me and then, nurtured me patiently so that He could mould me into what He wants me to be.

Most importantly, these 3 years of sojourn has been a time for me to reckon with the Lord. It has brought me to His feet, committing my daily affairs into His hands, learning to listen to His voice, trusting Him as He led me each step of the way. I never felt alone even though I was in the minority group. God always reminded me that He is ever present in the company of the righteous.

This period has brought me closer to the Lord and helped me to echo the words of David in Psalm 16:2, “You are my Lord: apart from you I have no good thing.” He has become so real and so personal. As I recall the contentment and security I have in the Lord I realise that being used by God is what makes life meaningful. For that to happen, I have to put my faith in Him for all my needs and in whatever circumstances I find myself.

To date, I do not know what is ahead of me. I am still waiting for news of my application for the SISC post and also my DG52 Guru Cemerlang (Excellent

Teacher) post. I trust the Lord will lead and guide me and when the time comes I am assured that I will not be alone. He is in full control of my life.

I echo Psalm 16:5-11 as my tribute to the Lord:

Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup;

you have made my lot secure.The boundary lines have fallen for me in

pleasant places;surely I have a delightful inheritance.

I will praise the LORD, who counsels me;even at night my heart instructs me.

I have set the LORD always before me.Because he is at my right hand, I will not be

shaken.Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue

rejoices;my body also will rest secure,

because you have not abandoned me to the grave,

nor will you let your Holy One see decay.You have made known to me the path of life;

you will fill me with joy in your presence,with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

Yap Yoke Chin is a specialist coach for English based in Mentakab, Pahang.

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My JourneyI failed 7 out of 10 subjects at Form 5. I was

considered a poor student. Thoughts about pursuing my studies never crossed my mind. Besides, I was in a small town with no

opportunities for further studies after Form 5. So, I just start working.

After 12 years as a kindergarten teacher I moved from my hometown to Kuala Lumpur. When I was given the opportunity to take up a diploma course in Early Childhood Education at Methodist College Kuala Lumpur (MCKL), I said “Yes!”

On my first day back at school’ I was filled with fear and trembling. How do I write an essay? How do I complete an assignment? What is group assignment all about? I cried out to God and God sent wonderful lecturers to help me. As days went by, I was able to adapt to life at college.

I was always reminded of Matthew Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you” during my study at MCKL. I told God that I would not serve Him less due to the study workload from college. I would continue to serve Him without taking off from any ministries in church during the three years of study.

God is truly no man’s debtor. The first encouragement God gave me was my first exam results at college. When I received my exam papers from my lecturer, I was utterly shocked by the marks that my lecturer gave me for my first attempt in answering an essay question. I scored full marks for that essay! It was impossible to score full marks for an essay! God gave it to me to encourage me and it was my first academic reward from the Lord! Indeed, it was a significant milestone for me to remember God’s faithfulness!

As I continued to seek Him and serve Him, He never failed to bless me with a good mind and encouraging results. Each time I received my results, I said, “Thank you Jesus”, because deep inside me I knew that I was not a smart student at all. All the A’s and B’s

that He gave, I could only say, “Thank You Lord!” His sustaining power enabled me to complete the course.

During my graduation in August 2014, I emerged the top student and was given the honour to give the valedictory speech. I was reminded of His promise from the Bible - to give me “a hope and a future”. It is a good future! God is good!

I also want to say, “Thank You God for bringing me to a godly college.” MCKL is a place which is filled with the presence of God. I still remember the comment made by a non-believer classmate of mine in college: “There is something about this place that gives me peace, love and joy”. It is the presence of God! There are daily prayers offered by Christian lecturers. It is a place where godly people serve God wholeheartedly. They place us, the students first before their own personal agendas in life. They always go the extra mile for the students. They never put down anyone but keep believing in each one of us. Their work place is their mission field. Each one of them is my godly role model. They inspire me to be a better teacher - to believe in each child, to pray for them and to be the teacher with the difference who does not just say “You can do it” but “Let’s do it together! I’m here with you!”

As I reflect on my time at MC L, I am reminded that prayer does the things our hands cannot do! As the lecturers come together to pray, God’s hands move to touch and transform the lives of the students in the college. Truly, it is vital for the saints of God to gather together to pray. God hears and God commands the blessing as they are united together!

I would like to conclude by saying “With God all things are possible”. Never underestimate what God can do in your life and through your life! What I need to do is remember “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths” Proverbs 3:5-6 (NKJV).

�ank You God...!By Yeo Lee Cheng

Yeo Lee Cheng is a passionate kindergarten teacher in the private sector. She has recently begun pursuing her Master in Education.

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Musings of a new principal at a silent retreat

By Anonymous

“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus who has blessed us in the heavenly realms … God will work out everything in conformity with the purpose of His will. (Ephesians 1:11)

At the end of 2013, a mission Education Council Secretary called me and said she was suggesting my name as replacement for a retiring principal in an all girls’ mission

school. However, I was posted to an all boys’ mission school instead. Man proposes but God disposes. Man can plan but it is God who decides. I was mentally unprepared, but I took it as God’s assignment to go.

God makes no mistakes. There were many nagging questions especially when the going was tough - Why place me in this school? Why from an all girls’ to an all boys’ school? Why after 23 years in a high performing, elite school to a low socio-economic under-performing school? It was a culture shock.

When I first stepped into my new position, I thought I was in a rural school! There was neither a telephone nor a computer in the principal’s o ce. There were no computers in the staff room and classrooms! In my previous school, I was the FROG VLE mover but here ‘FROG’ was not jumping at all! The school was without a functioning school bell and a punch-in card recorder! Teachers and students came sauntering in to the morning assembly. Having been without a school bell for 3-4 years, the culture of tardiness was rife; it was the culture of rubber time!

Lessons were delayed and deadlines not met! Funds were low. So much to do but no money! The Board of Governors fund had all been exhausted. I could not believe my eyes when I saw the financial report that

all the “Pakej Rangsangan Kerajaan” (an allocation given to mission schools , was in deficit.

or the first three months, I was numbed and wallowed in self-pity. What kind of school have I inherited? A pastor told me, “Thank God it’s rock bottom. It can’t drop any further; it can only go up!” He was trying to comfort and encourage me. However, I was overwhelmed with what I saw; so much poverty and deprivation, and the clouds of disillusionment hover over me. I kept comparing the blessed state in my previous school with the poverty I saw - poor school ethos and students who were poor materially, academically and spiritually. 33% of the boys were from the hard core poor (family income below RM1500), 12% from dysfunctional homes (single parent due to divorce or deaths). Students were weak in values –the majority of students did not know their basic “Ps and Qs”. The students could not understand me when I spoke in English. Thus, I feel like a fish out of water when I had to speak mainly in the national language. I could not help but feel flabbergasted!

It was in this frame of mind that I came to the silent retreat longing to hear from God and find my footing. I was very noisy on the inside; it took a while for me to be still. It was di cult to detach myself from everything that distracted me to being present with God. After the first six hours of silence and solitude, the wandering heart and questioning mind were slowly quelled by the still, small voice of God speaking through His Word. READ, REFLECT and

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RESPOND. READ, REFLECT and RESPOND! Only then could my mind, soul, spirit and will be soaked in Christ.

Up in Fraser’s Hill, God dealt with my ‘cultural shock’ and how I lamented the drastic changes I had to cope with. God brought an awakening in my heart that broke me down. What I was going through was nothing compared to the great ‘cultural shock’ that our Holy Lord Jesus went through. He left heaven’s glory, a perfect place and took on the form of man when He is the Almighty to walk amongst sinners. What a great sacrifice! My Lord and my God, has set the example; He can empathise with me. What a comfort!

“It was a cultural shock for you, Lord. How did you cope?” The answer I received from the Lord: They may be one as we are one (John 17:11). The greatest comfort is to be assured that I am not alone; God is with and in me to face every situation, every challenge! I was reminded to “Look to Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. For consider him who has endured such hostility by sinners against himself, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.” (Hebrews 12: 2-3). My strength to overcome weariness and quitting is to consider Him, Christ who has endured such opposition, persecution from sinful men. He is my inspiration and strength!

During the retreat, God rea rmed his guidance and that He had actually prepared me prior to putting me in this school. He was mentoring my inner life- “Nothing to prove, nothing to lose and nothing to hide” (gems from Edmund Chan) had been my meditation the month prior to my promotion to the school.

“Nothing to prove – a state of deep security in God.

Nothing to lose – a state of absolute surrender to God.

Nothing to hide – a state of true integrity before God”

When everything is dreary and uncertain, I shall find security in God. The key to living with nothing to prove is humility (Phil 2:3). Surrendering to God, not giving up but giving in to God. True security comes when I find satisfaction only in Christ. When I came to such a realisation, I could only surrender all and live with nothing to lose. When Christ is absolutely everything; then Christ alone is absolutely enough. Yes, indeed God has proven His su ciency in every circumstance. Glory be to God!

Anonymous was humbled by God to serve Him better.

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The first day of the silent retreat was a struggle as it was uite an effort for me to be silent for such a long time. I had di culties focusing on God’s Word let alone listening to Him. I

found myself feeling sleepy. The next day, I prayed earnestly asking God to reveal Himself to me during this retreat. I sang and took a number of long walks during the day. Slowly, I began to enjoy the quietness and conversations with God. As the days passed, I had an amazing encounter with God.

While reading His \Word, I could hear Him speaking to me and we even had a few ‘debates’ over a number of issues. I wrote and wrote. Words just flowed. I saw pictures of my past: my broken self and how God lifted me up. Tears just flowed. I felt so intimate with God. My, what an encounter!

I want to thank God for His love for me. For those who have never been to any silent retreats, do make

an effort to attend one. Go with an open heart and mind. You will be amazed at what God can do.

Jesus O Jesus

Jesus O JesusMy Saviour, my redeemerWho am I to deserve your amazing love?Who am I to be chosen as your child?A sinner I amUnworthy of your loveYet in all your glory, power & majestyYou came to earth to die on the cross for my sin.

As a child, You know how unhappy I was,Unloved, unpopular, unkemptI was lost, drifting along aimless, seeking…You were then far away.

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A quiet weekend getaway to recuperate, re-energized and be refreshed physically and spiritually. A time just for the Lord and I.

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In my adulthood, You found meI was then at my pit bottomDiscouraged, broken, confusedHaving no hope in mankindYou revealed Yourself to meThrough Your Word.

O Lord,Such joy, such revelation & such hope.My life was turned around.It was never the same again.

I want to thank you LordForYour patience in teaching me Your Word Your faithfulness in lifting me when I fallYour gentleness in disciplining me when I go astrayYour loving Hand in moulding me to who I am today.

No word of mine can express How much I need YouHow much I love YouAnd how much I worship You.

It is my prayer that I will stay strong in You, Lord.Help me to put on daily the amour of GodAgainst the devil’s schemes.To stand firm Withthe belt of truththe breastplate of righteousness the feet fitted with the gospel of peacethe shield of faiththe helmet of salvation And,The tsword of the Spirit which is the Word of God.

Together with You as my helper,I want to run my race pleasing You.Like Paul,I want to echoTo live is Christ, to die is gain.All glory be God, Amen.

Grace Ngieng was a Guru Cemerlang for Science in Sibu, Sarawak. She is now enjoying her new season as a retiree.

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How I became a teacherFrom an early age, teaching had never been in my mind. I was more interested in electronics and had wanted to take up Electronics engineering which was my first choice in my application to the universities, but my father advised me to put Teaching as my second choice. Heeding my father’s advice I chose Science with Education.

When the results were released, I was disappointed that I could not get into Electronics engineering. However, there was a pleasant surprise! I was offered second year Science with Education at the University of Malaya. I was interested in the course but not really passionate about teaching.

Not much inherent quality to be a teacherLooking back, there was not much in me that would make me a good teacher. When I mentioned that I was training to be a teacher, one of my uncles remarked that my students would probably climb on my head. I don’t think he wanted to discourage me. Rather, he must have been surprised that a non-assertive person like me would choose teaching as a career.

The years in DungunMy first posting was to Dungun. I consider myself fortunate to be in a town whereas some of my friends were posted much further away to some small, rural villages. In my first year of teaching, my father passed away. I felt the loss and was burdened to be back home with my mother and the other siblings. I tried to apply for a transfer but failed each time.

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Conducting Kursus Perdagogi Fizik 2007

Recipient of Tokoh Guru JPWPKL 2013

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Though they were di cult days, I enjoyed the companionship of fellow teachers in Dungun. I took up tennis and went jogging along the beach in the evening. We had dinner together and good fellowship.

It was there that I met a Christian couple who opened their home to us, bachelors. I remember being in their home for dinner and their warm hospitality. It was also during this time that I was seeking to find out more about Christianity. I attended church a few times.

I believe that God brought me to Dungun for the purpose that I may know Him. He brought me into the midst of Christian friends and set me wondering about life’s purpose and who Jesus is. How awesome is this God!

Experiences in Royal Military College (RMC) At the end of February 1983, I was informed that my application to transfer back to KL had been successful. It came as a great surprise that I had been transferred to RMC

RMC was a different environment. I had a taste of working in a military setting where discipline was used in building student character. I guess that exposure also toughened me a bit.

There was also opportunity to help out in the Christian Fellowship at RMC. It was at this time that I learnt about the work of TCF and attended several TCF conferences.

In fact in one year, the boys’ passing-out parade was held at the same time as the TCF conference in Cameron Highlands. Being a young Christian then, I prayed to the Lord to enable me to attend the conference so that I could learn about youth ministry. God answered prayer my prayer. The date of the passing-out parade was rescheduled, making it possible for me to attend the conference.

I joined TCF as a member and was later elected to be an executive committee member. Later, I was appointed TCF treasurer for about two years.

Promotional OpportunitiesIn 1991, I was transferred to SMK Bukit Bandaraya where I was made the discipline master! Perhaps the principal then thought that teachers from RMC would be able to anchor school discipline! More responsibilities were added on my platter. I was also appointed as sports secretary to organise the first school sports!

Much assistance was given to me by my colleagues and principal. Apart from that, I was the handyman for the

electrical system in the new block which was subjected to constant tripping of power supply. I willingly performed these odd jobs. I was also the treasurer for PIBG for a year. In hindsight, I wonder how I managed all those different portfolios! Surely it was the Lord who granted me strength and perseverance amidst growing responsibilities!

It was some time in 1994 that the post of Guru Cemerlang (Excellent Teacher) was created. The principal encouraged me to apply for the post. I replied that I was neither ualified nor worthy of the post. However, with her encouragement, I did apply for the position.

The day for the observation came. Personally, I think that the inspector came on a wrong day. There was no electrical supply to the Physics laboratory! I was supposed to conduct a class on Electricity and also do an experiment. At the last minute, I opted for batteries instead of power pack that used the main supply.

Thank God everything went on well. The inspector spoke to the principal and other administrative staff members as part of the grading process. Students and teachers were also given evaluation forms. I was deeply encouraged that the teachers and students fully supported me. Time passed without any outcome of the evaluation and by that time I had obtained a transfer to SMK Kepong Baru to be nearer home.

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It was on the 21 January 1995 that I received the good news. I rejoiced in God’s gift of promotion to Guru Cemerlang. At the same time, I was wary of the responsibilities and high expectations from the Education ministry. We were to be good role models as well as to produce results and turn around schools which had problems in the subject of specialization.

I was just 4 months in SMK Kepong Baru when I was posted to SMK Maxwell as part of the condition for promotion as Guru Cemerlang. I felt the pressure to produce results especially in Physics and the high expectations from teachers and principals. As expected, there were added responsibilities such as being the chairman of the staff club, PIBG and being in charge of various school programmes for academic excellence. At times, I felt like becoming a normal teacher again and having less stress. However, I thank God that He enabled me to persevere and press on when the going was tough.

Later, I was appointed the Yang Di Pertua (Chairman) for Majlis Guru Cemerlang in Wilayah Persekutuan Kuala Lumpur from 1991 to 1992 and again from 1999-2001 and also the honorary treasurer of Majlis Guru Cemerlang Malaysia from 2005 to 2010. These responsibilities kept me busy attending meetings and being involved in organising the annual National Conference for Guru Cemerlang. These activities and other programmes with the state education department took me out of classrooms and school for many days. Thus, I had to conduct extra classes in the afternoon and during school holidays.

It was in SMK Maxwell that I was promoted to GC DG 54 and was posted to SMK Puteri Wilayah in 2005. As Guru Cemerlang, I sourced for materials and prepared my lessons to make them interesting and easy to understand. I offered guidance to other Physics teachers and also those who sought assistance in IT.

I applied for Special Grade (GKC) twice but failed both times. I was happy as I was at Grade 54. However, through the encouragement of the principal and other teachers I tried again for Special Grade. During the evaluation process I was much helped by God. The students were cooperative. The inspectors received positive reports all around.

At the state level, I was involved with Continuing Professional Development (CPD) of Physics teachers, conducting training seminars organised by the state education department. In 2010 I received the appointment letter for Special Grade. In 2012, I retired after serving 32 years. I have no regrets as a teacher.

Lessons learntI have learnt a few lessons as I reflect on my experiences as a teacher. Firstly, one needs to be available and willing to accept responsibilities. The normal tendency is to avoid or give excuses when given a responsibility or task. The second factor is to be sincere in carrying out tasks given to the best of my ability. Thirdly, a teacher needs to be helpful to other teachers. This is related to the first factor of being available to others, whether our students or fellow teachers. Sometimes, when I was busy at work and a teacher or student approached me, I would set my work aside, in order to assist or advise.

ConclusionLooking back at my life as a teacher I stand amazed at God’s goodness to me. What was second best became my best career choice. All glory be to God for His overarching guidance and undergirding blessings. Indeed, I learnt that God’s grace is truly su cient for my every need! Glory be to God!

Tan Kar Seng was a Guru Cemerlang for Physics and Tokoh Guru WPKL 2014. He has a quiet, unassuming spirit.

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1. Kuching Teacher’s DayDate: 9 May, SaturdayTime: 6.30 pm - 10.30 pmVenue: Imperial HotelTopic: “Storing Up Treasures in Heaven”Speaker: Ms. Seah Jiak ChooContact person: Dr Tan Ming Tang at 016-9772720

2. Klang Valley Teacher’s DayDate: 16 May, SaturdayTime: 3.00 – 5.00 pmTopic: “From Sparrows to Eagles”Speaker: Ms. Goh Hai BeeVenue: St Paul’s ChurchContact person: Ms Goh Hai Fong at 56375623 or 012-2877566

3. Penang Teacher’s DayDate: 16 May, SaturdayTime: 3.00 pm - 6.00 pmVenue: Sunway Hotel GeorgetownTopic: “Shining Like Stars in School”Speaker: Mr. Koh Gim LamContact person: Ms Queenie Lo at 016-4833775 and Mr Lim Boon Chye at 011-20485022

4. Malacca Teacher’s DayDate: 22 May, FridayTime: 2.00 pmVenue: SMJK Notre Dame, Jalan Gajah Berang, 75200 MelakaSpeaker: Ms Khoo Seok LinContact person: Mr. Rodney Tan at 013-3236771

5. Johor Bahru Teacher’s DayDate: 22 May, FridayTime: 6.30 pm - 9.00 pmVenue: SMJK Notre Dame, Jalan Gajah Berang, 75200 MelakaTopic: “Teaching, a Labour of Love”Speaker: Ms Khoo Seok LinContact person: Mr. Rodney Tan at 013-3236771

6. TCF-ICM Silent Retreat for EducatorsDate: 29-31 May, Friday - SundayCheck-in by 6.00 pm on 29 May. End with lunch on 31 May.Venue: The Methodist Bungalow, Fraser’s Hill.Topic: To Touch LivesSpiritual director: Dr Alex TangCost: RM 225 (triple-sharing), RM 295 (twin-sharing) and RM 360 (single)This includes accommodation and all 3 meals.Contact person: Ms Goh Hai Fong at 56375623 or 012-2877566

7. TCF HolidayDate: 31 May – 2 June, Sunday - TuesdayCheck-in after 1.00 pm on 31 May. End with lunch on 2 June.Venue: The Methodist Bungalow, Fraser’s Hill.Programme: Free and easy.Contact person: Ms Goh Hai Fong at 56375623 or 012-2877566

8. Taiping Teacher’s DayDate: 20 June, SaturdayTime: 4.00 pm - 6.00 pmVenue: Hotel PerdanaSpeaker: Mr. Cheli TamilselvamContact person: Ms Leow Keok Fong at 012-4631831

9. Sitiawan Teacher’s DayDate: 4 July, SaturdayTime: 9.00 am - 12.00 pmVenue: Wesley Methodist ChurchSpeaker: Ms. Seah Jiak ChooContact person: Mr. Tan Ying Kee at 017-5117519

10. Ipoh Teacher’s DayDate: 4 July, SaturdayTime: 4.00 pm - 6.00 pmVenue: Ipoh Chinese Methodist ChurchSpeaker: Ms. Seah Jiak ChooContact person: Ms Goh Kai Lian at 012-3713364 or Mr Lee Swee Ming at 016-5318680

11. TCF Holiday cum Mission Trip to CambodiaDate: 22-26 September, Tuesday - SaturdayVenue: God’s Family Church, Phnom PenhSpeaker: Mr Cheli Tamilselvam

Programme:-22 Sept – Fly from KL to Phnom Penh on MH 754 at 0930.All team-members are required to buy their own air-tickets and to inform Indy. Free and easy day in Phnom Penh.23 Sept – Free and easy24 Sept - TCF Cambodia National Conference Day 1 (optional)25 Sept – Conference Day 2 26 Sept – Conference ends. Fly back to KL on MH 763 at 1710.Estimate ground costs:USD 250 per person (meals, hotel and transportation)Contact person: Ms Goh Hai Fong at 56375623 or 012-2877566

12. MCT Life CampFor Mandarin-speaking teachersDate: 7-10 December, Monday - ThursdayVenue: St. Anne’s Hostel, Bukit MertajamSpeaker: Mr Chan Chee Weng at 016-5929480

TCF Schedule of Events for 2015

TO TOUCH LIVESA Retreat for EducatorsABOUT THE RETREATTo teach is to touch lives. This retreat which integrates times of reflection, silence and prayer will lead us into a deeper experience with God, the Ultimate Teacher who touches all lives and all of life!

TCF Malaysia and TRAC Institute for Christian Ministry (ICM) invite all teachers & educators from both the private and public institutions to carve aside this weekend to sit (and walk) with the Lord Jesus Christ. Allow Him to attend to you in your deepest places. Come and learn from Him, the Greatest Teacher of all times!

What: A contemplative-silent retreat

When: May 29 - 31, 2015 (Friday - Sunday)

Where: Rumah Methodist, Frasers

Fees: RM225 (Triple)/RM295 (Twin)/RM360 (Single)

Retreat Director: Dr Alex Tang is a Consultant Pediatrician who is an active-contemplative of the Presbyterian tradition. Other than teaching at Monash University’s Medical School in Malaysia, he manages a private hospital, leads and teaches spiritual formation, blogs and writes regularly.

Registration: indyrany@gmail.com or www.trac.org.myEnquiries: TCF 03-56375623 or ICM 03-7954 2836

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Life is Cyclical

Day and night, hot, dry and rainy seasons or spring, summer, autumn and winter, sunrise and sunset, as well as the rich diversity of our Malaysian festivals.

The teaching profession is also cyclical – novice, apprentice, experienced, expert, distinguished and finally retired teacher! Even our own Malaysian education system has gone through different blueprints and transformation cycles to cope with changing demands and needs.

Through it all, we get bumped and battered privately and professionally in the University of Hard Knocks. We all attend the twin colleges of this university of needless knocks and needful knocks but we never graduate from it!

Likewise in TCF, life is also cyclical as we celebrate our peaks in smart partnerships, spiritual renewals and jubilee celebration. We now face our doldrums in succession planning and intentional disciple-making and leadership mentoring.

In all these spiraling cycles of life where change is constant and fears abound, we need to return to the living and active Word of God and let God speak. We need to pause and be still in order to discern God’s still, small voice and blueprint for our respective destinies in the different seasons of life.

Interestingly, in the book of Leviticus, everything is very cyclical, too – the ritual regulations, the moral/ethical commands, the ceremonies, feasts, sacrifices and different types of offerings.

However, the refrain is always “You shall follow my rules and keep my statutes and walk in them. I am the LORD your God. You shall therefore keep my statutes and my rules; if a person does them, he shall live by them: I am the LORD.” (Leviticus 18: 4-5).

Therefore, I think herein lies God’s call to REALIGN ourselves to follow God’s blueprint for us, for our schools or our respective spheres of

influence in the different cycles and seasons of life. God’s blueprint when followed and obeyed by every Christian educator/parent/guardian/care-giver through the twin processes of intentional disciple-making and leadership mentoring will surely

see a redefining success for the supportive TCF ministry as a whole and IN STEP in particular.

They are cyclical processes where TCFers need to return to the basics and apply God’s truths: to start small and grow deep in God’s Word and allow God’s Spirit to teach/speak and lead/share from inside out

in joyful service until He comes again!

Let us journey together with faith in our hearts and take small, incremental steps with the LORD as well as with sojourners of kindred spirit. Let us desire to receive God’s commendation that we have “done all things well…. even [made] the deaf hear and the mute to speak” (Mark 7:37) to the praise of His glory!Maranatha!

Goh Hai BeeFormer TCF Vice-Chairman