Myotonic booklet

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Wrong Turn

Must have Made a wrong turnsoMewhere on the way

Back then I dIdn’t know Itand I’M stIll not sure today

Must have Been a warnIngsoMe kInd of hIdden sIgn

how could I not have notIced?why was I so BlInd?

so thIs Is where I ended upIt’s not what I had planned

no turnIng Back. no second chanceand I stIll don’t understand

everyone I cared forthat I Met along the way

I never Meant to hurt theMBut I hurt theM every day

so thIs Is where I ended upIt’s not what I had planned

no turnIng Back. no second chanceand I stIll don’t understand

Must have Made a wrong turnsoMewhere on the way

Back then I dIdn’t know Itand I’M stIll not sure today

the questIon keeps returnIngas I lIe awake at nIght

what could I have accoMplIshedIf I’d only got It rIght?

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The AirplAne Song

as our plane explodes In MId-aIrthe entIre rIght sIde rIpped awaythe oxygen Masks dangle Before MeBut the sky sure Is Blue todayyou graB My hand and ask Me“Is thIs the end? Just lIke thIs?”I thInk for a second, then turn to youand say “I’M afraId It Is”

and as our plane spIns out of controlwe can regret all we’ve ever doneBut who can say how to lIve your lIfe?you never know how or when It Is gone.I can the regret the MIstakes that I’ve MadeIf I forget what I Made theM forregret that I’ve wasted too Much tIMeor that I dIdn’t waste It More

we’re fallIng at MaxIMuM speed nowI’M sure It won’t Be longBut stIll, to dIe By your sIdesounds so Much Better In a songthe nearest exIt May Be BehInd youBut lookIng Back Is always tougheven If you are a frequent flyeryou stIll feel you haven’t flown enough

If I don’t wake froM thIs dreaMI’ll never wake up agaIn

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WhAT You Are

you can walk your way aloneyou can have the strength to Beara thousand heavy Blowsyou can take It all In strIdeyou can hold the paIn InsIdeso sure It never shows

stIll the day wIll coMewhen everyone wIll knowexactly what you are

you can show theM that you’re strongyou can Make theM all agreeeven when you’re wrongyou can stand up for your rIghtyou can tell yourself agaInyou were Meant to wIn the fIght

stIll the day wIll coMewhen everyone wIll knowexactly what you are

you can act lIke you’re not thereyou can run away and hIdepretend that you don’t care

stIll the day wIll coMewhen everyone wIll knowexactly what you areeverythIng you are

everythIng you are

Feeding MY SuSpicion

really, It’s kInd of a shaMeI was doIng alrIght for a whIle

turnIng the thoughts In My headslowly atteMptIng a sMIle

soMethIng caMe up as we spokesoMethIng I don’t want to see

scarIng the hell out of Meas It keeps on

feedIng My suspIcIonfeedIng My suspIcIon

that It’s all a trIck, It’s all a gaMeBut not a gaMe that I can learn to play

In any useful wayfeedIng My suspIcIonfeedIng My suspIcIon

once agaIn

and so It happens agaInwhatever goes on In My MInd

leavIng Me lost and afraIdravIng and legally BlInd

I can’t expect you to knowI only hope that you see

that thIs Is real to Meas It keeps on

feedIng My suspIcIonfeedIng My suspIcIon

that It’s all a trIck, It’s all a gaMeBut not a gaMe that I can learn to play

In any useful wayfeedIng My suspIcIonfeedIng My suspIcIon

once agaIn

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The SAMe MiSTAke

If thIs hand of MIneonly had a gentle touchI would Move the world

But I wouldn’t Move It that Muchand I know It’s true

when they say thIs too shall passMake no sudden Moves

everythIng Is Made of glass

do you IMagIneIf It’s IMportant

It cannot Break?and It’s a shaMe

But have you notIcedIt tears My heart out

to Make the saMe MIstake?But stIll I do

I walk a frozen fIeldBreak the surface where I go

and the tracks I MadewIll Be there as long as the snow

If thIs love of ourscan endure the shock of Me

then I’d have to sayIt should last eternally




to Make the saMe MIstake?

But stIll I do declare todayI could reduce the ancIent wonders

of the world to BurnIng ruBBleIn the twInklIng of an eye

oh, you Just watch Meyou Just watch Me




to Make the saMe MIstake?But stIll I do 5

Think You knoW The AnSWer

I used to sIt for hoursas you told Me what It’s all aBout

so wIse and full of InsIghtyou never seeMed to douBt

you thInk you know the answerever sInce you saw the lIght

you thInk you know the answerand the answer’s always rIght

I apprecIate ItBut here’s what I don’t get:

could you repeat the questIon?‘cause I dIdn’t ask It yet

dId you ever wonderIf what you knew applIed to Me?

you taught My eyes to opennow I Must teach Myself to see





I MIght need a lIfetIMeto take My MInd off thIs and that

who needs a destInatIonwhen you don’t know where you’re at?





FAil BeFore You TrY

lIke a Joke you’ve heard a hundred tIMes BeforeIt’s Just not funny anyMoreall doors are open If you only fInd the waywell at least that’s what they say

tell us once agaInwe can all learn to flyand watch us faIlBefore we tryfaIlBefore we try

they’re everywhere – you get theIr Message loud and clearthey fIll you up wIth hope and fearyou hope that you too can do anythIng at allBut stIll you fear that you May fall

you’ve got yourself to BlaMeand there Is no reason whyyou faIlBefore you tryfaIlBefore you try

tell us once agaInwe can all learn to flyand watch us faIlBefore we tryfaIlBefore we try

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deAd on iMpAcT

a hundred years froM nowevery thought I have wIll Be gonelIke the paIn I feel InsIdeand lIfe goes on

and I wIll never knowthe reason why or what good dId It doto hurt Myself thIs wayhurtIng you

a BIrd falls froM the skydead on IMpact – dead on IMpactcrashIng to the sIdewalkdead on IMpact – dead on IMpactand no-one knows what for

a hundred years froM nowsoMeone who’s not even Born todaywIll walk these streetsfeelIng the saMe way

she won’t know My thoughtsthere’s no way she can even know My naMeshe’ll never guess that here todayI felt the saMe

a BIrd falls froM the skydead on IMpact – dead on IMpactcrashIng to the sIdewalkdead on IMpact – dead on IMpactand no-one knows what for

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WhY

you try to fIgure out the rulesBut only fInd confusIonlIke every plan you ever MadeIs rooted In delusIonand though you feel so certaIn that you knowyou’d Better let It go

and stIll you wonder whythIs really had to happenand stIll you wonder whyIt only goes to showand stIll you wonder whyyou need to have a reasonand nothIng that your lIfe wIll BrIngwIll ever Be the saMe untIl you know

and It’s a Mystery to Mewhat really lIes BehInd Itand though there Is no poInt at allcan’t help But try to fInd ItthIs gaMe of chance that we can’t tolerateIs Bound to Be our fate

and stIll you wonder whythIs really had to happenand stIll you wonder whyIt only goes to showand stIll you wonder whyyou need to have a reasonand nothIng that your lIfe wIll BrIngwIll ever Be the saMe untIl you know

poor You

every MornIng he got updreadIng each MoMent he had to Be awake

the clock would tIck and tIMe would slowthere wasn’t anywhere he wouldn’t go

to avoId havIng to see anyonehe’d sIt In a chaIr and lean agaInst a wallBut that dIdnt seeM to Matter Much at all

But late at nIght he had a savIourIn hIs sleep, In hIs dreaMs

she caMe to hIM and she saId“poor you, poor you

no one understands youpoor you, poor you”

and every word that everyone would saygot MuMBled up In hIs head

lIke MuMBle-JuMBle and everywhere he wentIt seeMed lIke everyone was sayIng to hIM,

“Blah Blah Blah”

But late at nIght, he had a MIstressIn hIs dreaMs, In hIs sleep

and she would say “poor you, poor you”no one understands you

poor you”

thIs story, though, not well toldIs not that old

It’s not that funny, It’s not that greatBut I know It to Be true

Because late at nIght, I have an angelIn My dreaMs, In My sleep

and as she runs her fIngers through My haIras I lay on her lap

and she says, “poor you, poor youno one understands you, poor you

poor you”

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Be like ThoSe guYS

so once agaIn they tell youthat everythIng you know Is wrongand you’ll never Be lIke those guysyou know you’re not that strong

But then agaIn – could they do what you do?If they trIed - you thInk that they’d know how?If they dared - walk a MIle In your shoeswhere would they Be now?

they never fought your Battlesthey never won your warthey don’t know what It cost youor what you dId It for

so you could – try to Be lIke those guysthen you’d know – the kInd of Joy they feelor stay the saMe. If that Makes you unhappyat least you know It’s real.

and then agaIn – could they do what you do?If they trIed - you thInk that they’d know how?If they dared - walk a MIle In your shoeswhere would they Be now?

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reAllY noT To BlAMe

you haven’t chosenthe way you started out

But you May change along the waysoMe are deterMIned

they Must Make It to the topsoMe Just hope to Be okay

no Matter what they saIdIt’s all InsIde your head

your guIlt and shaMeyou’re really not to BlaMe

wIth all that you’ve Been throughyou dId what you could do

It’s all the saMeyou’re really not to BlaMe

we’re only huManand we do the Best we canwIth opportunItIes to faIl

every one of ushas seen the gates of hell

But Most have lIved to tell the tale

no Matter what they saIdIt’s all InsIde your head

your guIlt and shaMeyou’re really not to BlaMe

wIth all that you’ve Been throughyou dId what you could do

It’s all the saMeyou’re really not to BlaMe

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everY noW And Then

no-one told youthat there were no answersto the Many questIonsthat they Just keep askIng youand no-one everthought of changIng anythIngBecause It’s always Been that wayand you Just take your tIMe

But stIll you feelevery now and thenyou’ll never Make ItanywayBut then agaInevery now and thenyou feel you dIdBut you’re not certaIn what It Means

I can stIll recall the days I spentIn sIlent wonder at the thIngsyou told Me you could doand we were youngand we were so Much BrIghter thenBut now those days are overwe have no excuses left

and stlll you feelevery now and thenyou’ll never Make ItanywayBut then agaInevery now and thenyou feel you dIdBut you’re not certaIn what It Means

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perforMed and produced By

STATe oF Mind.

words and MusIc By

kiM BüloW BonFilS.

except “poor You”: words and MusIc By

dAniel JohnSTon, © eternal yIp eye MusIc/MIsty MusIc aB.

Mastered By

JAn eliASSon, audIoplanet

desIgn and artwork By MArk Toxværd.

photo credIts:

ToMMY oShiMA (www.rayon-vert.coM):

cover front and Back, cd laBel,

Booklet front and page 6, 7.

kiM BüloW BonFilS: Booklet page 2, 3, 4, 5 and 9.

STeen TronSgAArd: Booklet page 10.

MArk Toxværd: Booklet page 11.

www.stateofMInd.eu

pupkin recordS pup002

2010

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