Not Without My Nose Spray

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Not Without My Nose Spray

M.T.Vessel


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Prologue

All through my life I have believed in the existence of another dimension (at least one other, that is...).I remember telling my younger sister when we were children, "You know, right here, right now, theres another world around us, ha!!ening at the same time as ours, we ust cant see it..." #f course, most !eo!le, like mysister, arent very comfortable with the idea of ghosts $ other%worldlings being able to observe us while we cantsee them... Its too embarrassing having to face the fact that somebody might be staring at you when yourenaked or on the toilet... "&o, &''*"

+ut since I have had !ersonal ex!eriences which have confirmed my beliefs uite firmly, and have evenestablished what one might call a solid connection with some of those on "the other side" (not as if that wasanything one could achieve by his own efforts, its rather a gift, but once one has the gift, one has to use it, acton it, $ "establish" the contact), this book, which initially started out as an ordinary autobiogra!hy, has receivedan additional s!iritual slant, and that is the angelic view!oint of the same story.#riginally being an ins!iration to take u! -.. /ewis challenge to come u! with a heavenly counter!art to his"crewta!e /etters" (consisting of demonic instruction $ advice to a devils subdemons), the angelic remarks inthe book were at first a se!arate !roect $ then later sur!risingly successfully merged with the autobiogra!hic!roect.

I used to get the greatest kicks out of movies or books that suggested a merging of the dimensions0 be it thosemovies where cartoon characters interact with real !eo!le, certain issues in the more recent "tar 1rek" serials,or, to mention one book that fascinated me during my youth0 "turgeon Is Alive And 2ell" by cience 3ictionwriter 1heodore turgeon, with stories of !eo!le dro!!ing in and out of dimensions4

I have it on good authority that an actual merging of the dimensions is drawing close0 those of the other dimension are moving in on us, having all along taken a much larger !art in our history than most 5%dimensionthinkers will admit6 the veil that se!arates us is growing thinner, soon to erase all shadows of doubt that we arenot alone.

ince each of our lives are going to be o!en books before the entire universe sooner or later, there are only fewsecrets I have ke!t from the reader % of course, trying to remain within a frame of what would not be consideredtoo shocking or offensive by todays standards, although some !eo!le might be a!!alled by my o!enness $bluntness. If you ha!!en to be one of these, may this book serve as a reminder for you to live a life you needntbe ashamed of when your book will be o!ened...

If ever anyone should attem!t to make a movie out of this !lot, I would very much like it to be a blend of the7erman 3ilm 89er :immel ;ber +erlin,< which was remade as 8-ity of Angels< in the = version, and 8/ittle +ig>an,< the ?@s dramedy starring 9ustin :offman as a survivor giving the Indians version of -usters /ast tandat /ittle +ig :orn.3or many decades, 7eneral -uster was considered a hero, and American &atives were considered the cul!rits.2hite !eo!le were sus!icious of them, mistrusted them and sim!ly didnt like them. 1here were many !reudicesagainst them and their 8savage ways.< And yet time and !rogress have taken us to a !lace where most of uswould !robably agree that it would have been a lot fairer for the American government to have ke!t their !romises to the Indians and actually give them the land they originally !romised, and to ust leave them be,instead of committing that gross act of genocide that is rarely being dealt with in the movies, much less in thereal world nowadays.

1he new 8Indians< of this day and age that the !ublics !reudices rage against are religious minorities like the

grou! I !ertain to myself and of which I am going to tell. 2hile weve had some victims (like -uster) who areconsidered heroes whose books are !raised in the media, for the time being, we largely remain the cul!rits.2hat !eo!le tend to forget is that instead of being the big, universally guilty monster and source of all evil aswhich some folks tend to !ortray us at times, In reality were ust a ridiculously small minority, actually meaningno one any harm, and !erha!s the general consensus of the future may also decree some day that it might nothave been such a grave mistake to sim!ly leave us be, after all, in s!ite of our differences and 8savage< ways4

Youve heard the tales of the -usters. &ow heres the strange and other side of the story.

(Note: all words & terms marked with an asterisk are explained in the glossary at the end of the file.Most of the names of the persons mentioned in this account have been changed.)

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Chapter One

Gray

abriel here! "hief command# $ou two emissaries have been chosen to accompany another soul through hisearthly life. %hile you remember him and know a lot about him! you are fully aware that he will not know muchabout you until he will have reached the age of '. $ou also know that this is a very special time in earth history!and the goal is to train this one to become an elite trouper for our cause. he nemy will do everything in his

power to foil this mission! but the Master*s +ower will prevail. he environment he is being tossed into is one of darkness! confusion and disbelief. he ,ord purposely has chosen these - by earth terms seemingly impossibleconditions to show /is +ower & demonstrate what /e can achieve against the odds! for there will be those frommore favorable backgrounds accusing /im of having made it too hard on them. $ou will be receiving regular instructions according to the demand.0uring his early years the child will be plagued by nightmares! during which time you will have to whisper into hisears the words of comfort he will recogni1e later as the voice of truth. 2ow in him the seeds of love that will cast out all fear the nemy will initially try to overwhelm him with.odspeed! brethren# he love of our 3ing is with you on your 4ourney. ,ooking forward to be receiving you back victoriously! 2elah.

B I dont know if its the right time for this, but I enoy writing, $ now is as good a time as any to write down mystory.

1he beginning of my memories is gray. As gray as the sky above the industrial 'uro!ean city in which I was born$ raised. As gray as the river that ran through it, exce!t that it had been known to have different colors at times,like yellow $ green $ whatnot, because of the chemical factories wastes that were !oured into it. And the stenchtheir fumes !roduced is another story.I dont want to bore anyone with accounts of a sad childhood, as a lot of !eo!le had sadder childhoods $ stillturned out ha!!y in some cases. 1he only thing was, I have always been a sucker for love, which most kids are,es!ecially Aries kids, $ my !arents ust had so darn little of that stuff to give.1o make u! for it, I was very much loved by my grand!arents, the sim!lest $ tiniest folks you can imagine, !reyto any vice you can think of that falls into the legal category in most countries, but uite gaga over my blond littlea!!earance, while >om $ 9ad were way too busy being gaga over themselves.&ot that we never had any good times together. 2hen I consider how badly I turned out raising my own kids, Ireally cant criticiCe my mother, as she did s!end time with me $ my sis. #nce she showed us a book of thehorrendous atrocities that took !lace during 22D $ how :itler was really evil $ what the &aCis did to the Eews,the concentration cam!s, etc., which I thought was a really good thing of her to do. +ut then she said that, well,war was a necessary evil to reduce the 2orlds over!o!ulation. 2hat a great !hiloso!hy to rear a child on4+ut she did other good things with us, like make -hristmas decorations $, oh, yes, she taught us how to sing.he $ 9ad both sang in the church choir, and the citys o!era house choir $ she !layed the !iano not too badly.If theres one thing Ive got to thank her for its those hours she s!ent !laying the !iano $ teaching us how tosing. -hristmas carols, 7os!el songs, even Italian classical !ieces I didnt understand a word of. And she madeus !erform our songs in front of !eo!le./ittle did she know that this was going to be my !rofession one day. 2ell, little did 5 know.>usic wasnt anything to make money with in those days, at least not as far as the !itiful ignorant flatlanderswere concerned that I was surrounded by.

9etrimental to my moral u!bringing in the conservative sense was the fact that we had all kinds of erotic glossy

magaCines lying around in our four room a!artment, which did not contribute to my ability to kee! my thoughtsfrom wandering into fantasies about the other sex. And I was a nature freak. /oved the woods, animals $ all of 7ods creations, exce!t flies, $, of course, I didntreally believe in 7od, at least not anymore since I officially decided not to after I had become extremely u!setwith :im over something I cant remember4 Frobably something ridiculously trivial4 I still do that nowadays.

-ombine my !remature sexual ambitions instilled by my !arents semi%!ornogra!hic glossy magaCines with mylove for nature $ youll have a little school boy running out in the snow covered !ark on unday mornings beforeanyone else would get u!, stri!!ing com!letely naked $ running through the snow with one scary erection41here also was an incident where I got myself in trouble in Gindergarten when this other fellow tried to im!ressme by eating his boogers $ I thought it would be even more im!ressive if I !ulled out my 4 no, this is tooembarrassing to tell.

I guess some will say the !ervert must have been in my genes all along.1he -atholics hated me accordingly, $ thus I disliked them $ their 7od. And besides, I had figured it all out0 7odhadnt really made the 2orld, the 2orld had created itself by the !rocess of 'volution, $ I knew every darn age

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in the book as far as the gaCillions of years of the !rocess of evolution were concerned4 o, who needed 7odwhen you were as smart as 1:A1H*

Years later I came to this conclusion0

&ever before in history were there such a large number of dumb !eo!le thinking they were 1:A1 smart.

Chapter Two

Crushes

'ver since I can remember, through my childhood $ adolescence, I had crushes on some girl. In !rimary schoolit was a 9utch girl name -laudia, with su!er long braids, $ the smartest thing I could think u! to get her attentionwas to run across the school yard like a maniac, !ass her by $ !ull her braids $ go


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ome of the guys that got me into what you might call trouble were a year older than me. #ne of them was theolder brother of one of my class mates, who had invited me to his home $ for some reason his whole familyseemed to like me $ I s!ent many a night there, as it was infinitely more fun than slee!ing at home.

y sister $ I sle!t in bunk beds in the kitchen. 2edidnt get along s!ecially well, as she didnt really a!!reciate my stories about other dimensions in existenceright here, right now around us, $ its inhabitants could see us, but we couldnt see them, as they scared her.2ell, sometimes I was !retty scared myself, $ when I had been younger there were times I woke u! the wholeneighborhood with my screams after having stared into the darkness for so long until I actually saw someone. Ihad also been !lagued by nightmares sometimes, about demons $ monsters in the toilet, who were trying to !ullme into it. o, I decided to give my dreams some more !leasant head%starts by conuring u! some erotic semi%daydreams before going to slee!. +ut touching myself was taboo, ever since my mother caught me doing it once$ yelled at me, y mother left my dad and me when I was KK, taking my sister with her. he wanted to take me along, too, but Iinstinctively knew that my father, a very indifferent, but far less confrontational !erson than my mother, wouldgrant me a lot more freedom $ !eace than she would. he had always been the one com!laining about myfriends $ forbidding me to !lay with them. he even forbade me to see the handica!!ed boy she herself hadintroduced me to, who was a great lover of nature $ animals, after one incident where he got so u!set about!eo!le killing animals somewhere that he nearly !eed in his !ants.

2hen she found out I wasnt going to go with her but stay with my father, she got so furious at granting my father the satisfaction of being able to say


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Chapter Four

Events

6/ey! /a1iel & abriella! this is abe: 5 4ust received some exciting news from 2upreme "ommand! that your charge will soon be given the opportunity to receive our ,ord as /is 2avior. 7ccording to my information! in precisely 8 weeks he will meet a messenger from the 9amily on the street in his city. $our 4ob will be to prepare

his heart & refute the nemy*s lies & combat his influence on his life to an extent where the probability of your charge*s willingness will be higher to humble himself & receive the ,ord*s priceless gift (-which he will unfortunately not be able to recogni1e as such-).%e know that he will do so eventually! but as to the exact time of his salvation! it*s largely up to him. 5 understand from your reports that he*s uite proud! and has some naive & shy streaks. Not that he isn*t a total sheep! but he*s still uite concerned about what his peers or people in general might think about him.hanks to your excellent work we won the victory recently of helping him to see that there must be a "reator! &he let go of his ridiculous belief in the theory of volution. 7nd though initially he was uite eager to witness hisnewly found faith to others! the reactions of his friends uieted him down somewhat after a while! & dimmed hisexcitement. /e wasn*t all that prepared for ridicule! and the arguments he was armed with weren*t enough tocombat his friends* unbelief sufficiently.2o! prepare him for this important encounter! as! the sooner he*s in! the better. 5t will be a test! too! to see what*smore important to him: the ruth and spiritual matters! or his reputation & vanity. he nemy will fight furiously to

delay his salvation! as it will heavily reduce his power over him! & not only will he lose any claims to your chargefor eternity! but he knows it will also ultimately cause him the loss of others from his clutches.;e sure he won*t be too distracted with romantic matters! and try to keep him sober during that time. ;acchus< isstretching out his tentacles after him! and it will be uite a battle.$ou have been preparing our friend since his childhood! & he has always =known* that there is another %orld!coexisting with his! but has been too distracted by the beauty of his female peers to be more interested &inuisitive toward us. >f course! his church wasn*t very helpful in leading him to us! but rather chased him in theother direction & appalled him by their loveless sample! & was ultimately responsible for his sad period of atheism. 7nd the nemy*s amount of propaganda made its way into his hand a lot more easily than any pages of printed ruth./is evolution-based education choked his perception of our ,ord*s existence in /is creation (although you had laid a fine foundation by installing in him! throughout his childhood! a passion for nature).2o! unfortunately! he has received much more negative & destructive input during the past few years! than good.

?ust consider the barrage of dirt flooding him from the nemy*s dreadful device! the television! which already caused him to have frightful nightmares earlier on in his life! and implanted a pretty bleak outlook on life in hismind.his again! might make him reali1e more easily that he needs 2alvation! for which reason he is already searching at this uite young age! but 5 must prepare you for the fact that his conversion will reuire a miracle.5t*s sad in a way that! although so many of our charges our younger brothers & sisters! really 6instinctively6 know about us! they*re hardly ever sure enough to take the step to contact us & receive our guidance! which our beloved "ommander even promised to them in /is %ord.>r they think they*re not worthy of such extra-ordinary what they would call =supernatural* attention.his is a result of our opponent*s lies! obviously! which! due to their sinful state! they*re often much morereceptive to than our whispers! and which they have a much easier time hearing and believing.9or if they knew to what extent they are loved & cherished by our common 9ather! & how important they are to/im! yes! if they had but a glimpse of how much /e would like to communicate with them! and how /e longs tobe recogni1ed & acknowledged by them! they surely would make a much larger effort to find /im daily & get intouch with us.News has come in about the nemy*s tactics in attempting to direct your charge*s attention away from spiritual matters! and to inoculate him against any exposure to the message of 2alvation. 9or although the nemy*sintelligence isn*t nearly as sophisticated as ours! and his knowledge about certain times and events are minimal compared to the "ommander*s! he has gotten wind of some movement in our realm! which got his forces alert inrespect to your charge*s impending salvation.he time factor is one of his great reasons for envy! for he proclaims to his followers to be all-seeing and all-knowing! and he would like to believe that he is! but deep in the abyss of his dark heart he knows he*s a far cry from it. 5n fact! time is one of the great physical mysteries! which even the great scientists on earth have not yet been able to explain. 7nd the fact that even in all his power! 2atan can not stop it or do anything to prevent it from coming to an end! and even his soon coming great appearance on earth will be limited to the knownamount of days and not a minute more! makes him raving mad.ypical to his counterfeiter*s nature! he tries to play od & make certain things happen (or not happen! as in this

case) at times! and you know that his deeds are always evil! even though they may be camouflaged at times.;ut mostly he makes no big secret of his true nature toward his dedicated followers! be it in our realm or the physical. 7nd so he instructs them to commit atrocious crimes! assassinations which trigger world wars! and

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terrorist attacks at distinct! =magical* dates or hours. hat*s his way of acting out his =godhead* the pitiful! phony usurper. 2adly! we shall see much more of these atrocious acts.;ut your charge is still a long way from reali1ing these sorts of things. 7nd though he is aware of the fact that there are evil forces both in his world and ours! and he has read about demons and a little about the nemy of his soul from the Master*s ;ook! generally! his idea and concept of these matters are far too vague for him to beconscious of the fact that there are forces destined for the sole purpose of either causing him to fail his highest destiny or! as in your case! to succeed in attaining it. /is awareness of this fact would be extremely helpful to our cause! for which reason 2atan has even got him scared of the thought of one of you ever suddenly appearing to

him. Nonetheless he is still light years ahead of most of his peers! who! like most western! so-called civili1ed humans are duped into disbelief in the nemy*s mere existence. ,ike one of our earthly brethren wrote: =>ne of the greatest tricks the 0evil has pulled on mankind was to get them to believe that he doesn*t exist.* Mind you! heeven duped most of them into doubting our 9ather*s existence! which should be - without the slightest hint of adoubt so clearly evident in /is "reation! it practically 4umps in their face. ;ut like our ,ord said! =None are asblind as those who do not wish to see*.ven so! many humans who believe in our 9ather! nonetheless vehemently deny the nemy*s existence! yes!even "hristians do so! in spite of the evidence from the ;ook the Master gave them. his factor! of course!makes it infinitely easier for the nemy to do his dirty work in their lives! as he does so without them ever suspecting him to even be there. %hy! if it weren*t for us & our help in their lives! and the fact that in spite of theha1y & weak faith they*ve got (- it couldn*t be that strong if they even doubt the Master*s own %ords -)! they do pray every once in awhile! these people would be as utterly lost as the most stubborn unbeliever.2o! be on guard! my faithful warriors! for the time of the encounter draws near! and your sub4ect is yet completely unaware of the golden opportunity this will present in his life! as well as the fact that the nemy! as aroaring lion walketh about him! seeking to snatch that greatest of all ifts away from right before his nose.here is a substantial amount of saints praying for him! so! let*s hope for the best. 5n the end! we already know we will win the final battle for his soul! but the time factor will determine how many others he will bring with himwhen he comes. 2o! pray & stand radiant! my dear ones.6

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+efore my mother left, my !arents were taking an 'nglish language course with a teacher from York, named&ick. /ater my mother actually blamed &ick for breaking u! their marriage. 3or one thing, he re!laced theclassical music that was !layed in our home until then by more modern tunes. :e had long hair, was much morecheerful than the average grown%u! I had come across so far, $ had the flair of an actor, which my mother okingly said, he was. &ick even showed u! for my KD th birthday, !layed


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slow danced to the tones ur candidate didn*t make it yet# he price of giving up his reputation was 4ust too big for him to pay:to pray there! right in front of what he considered the whole world what if somebody passed who knew him!etc.;esides! he couldn*t really deal very well with the information he was given! about =asking ?esus to come into hisheart*. %ell! but he was receptive! and he was sincerely interested in visiting the "olony< in the nearby "ity!which 5*m afraid the nemy will make him forget about all too easily! but! nevertheless! the seed was sown! and next time those lines! 6%ould you like to pray to receive ?esus in your heart@6! won*t sound so utterly abstract &alien to him! and 5*ll try to arrange a situation for him to pray in a closed surrounding. 5 guess the street was 4ust too much for his self-consciousness! and the ever-present feeling of all eyes being focused on him! a terribledevice the nemy has implanted in many young teenagers like him. 7nd with the ever increasing presence of mirrors! As and maga1ines that teach them what they*re supposed to look like and to feel bad if they don*t not to mention the fact that young humans are more stuck on themselves than ever before because they don*t haveany serious responsibilities or challenges to distract them from themselves! this phenomenon will continue togrow.5 will check in with /eaduarters about the possibilities of leading our earthly emissaries from the 9amily to opena "olony in his hometown! as the "ommander confided to me that /e*s willing to go to any length to get thissheep into his fold. 2o! no worries! brethren! we*ve lost this battle! but we*re winning the war. /e flunked this onetest! but 5 have it on good 7uthority that somewhere along the track he*ll make the grade! and if the ;oss saysso! he must be worth it. 5n the meantime we*ll see to it that we can get a few more M>-,etters< into his hands by our people attacking his town on their faith trips. /e was uite fascinated by B,ovelightB! which he was given onthe street! recently! and he was actually trying to understand it! but more than anything he 4ust felt that something very special had happened simply due to the love he saw in our brother*s eyes! and you did very well inwhispering the truth of ?ohn C:D into his heart! although he never heard or read that verse yet! but it will meansomething to him when he will! and we all feel up /ere that it*s only a matter of arth-weeks! maybe months until he*s in the fold.5n the meantime! keep him from any excessive influence from his wolfish and goatish friends. 5f anything! maketheir influence and their interactions with him enhance his desire to look elsewhere for true love. /is young heart has already been broken a good few times for his age! and though this may be helpful in drawing him closer tothe ,ord! the nemy is also constantly telling him that the problem lies with him! that he*s the one something*swrong with! instead of them! which is the main reason he has been starting to drown his heartaches & sorrowsin his excessive consumption of alcohol & other toxicants./e is yearning for that all-fulfilling! all-satisfying spirit of love! which he vaguely! and subconsciously remembersfrom before his earthly mission! so! let*s make sure! friends! he*ll find it soon! 7men@5 had to chuckle recently! when 5 viewed your audio-visual report of the time after school he was expressing hisfeelings to one of his tamer class mates! & he exclaimed! =Man! sounds like you*re in love with love#*! whichdescribed it so well! as that*s exactly what it is: the human soul*s yearning for it*s "reator! the all-powerful 2pirit

of ,ove! of which all arthly aspects and manifestations are mere symbols! mere shadows! and which alone canever truly satisfy either us or them! and especially those of their kind who originated from our Eoyal ardens! asnothing else will give them even enough incentive to continue to live on arth.%e must get this kid in before he seriously starts contemplating doing something silly to himself. /e*s already indulging in that awful satanic anthem of that evil ;ritish band Fueen! with his favorite line =5 sometimes wish 5*d never been born at all...* 0oesn*t this make you weep for those poor tortured souls@6


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his heart & mind by the incidents of recent months: his trip to ngland! where we had arranged for him to meet &fall in love with an older girl from his home town (=coincidentally*)! who is already on our side! which created further openness in him for new contacts! new friends! new aspects! and the fact that his affection was reuited!restored his faith in the miraculous! supernatural power of ,ove! their /eavenly Ma4esties* all-powerful lixir# 9urthermore! his voyage has initiated his fall-out with his evil friend 5an! whose demonic behavior has driven himaway from his influence! hopefully for good.0uring his summer vacation with his father in "roatia! you also sowed some seeds of love in his life. /e received more glimpses of love! of togetherness! and you were even able to lead him in a beautiful conversation with the

slightly older "roatian girl who took a liking to him! during which he expressed his belief in the 9ather. $ou alsointroduced him to a sample of genuine humility! which was something uite new to him.hen! of course! we arranged for the ideal 9amily team to open up a "olony in his city! laid the groundwork of introducing him into a new circle of friends with a more genuine hippie spirit & interest in spiritual things! whichattracts him like a moth to a flame! and tomorrow he will find the true ,ight.5t was beautiful how you arranged his encounter & long conversation with 2amuel! who already knows our teamin town! and how you! step by step led the conversation toward the 9amily. %asn*t it grand how his heart & spirit lit up with excitement as soon as he heard about the way they live! radically practicing the ruth of our ,ord*s;ook! of living communally & by faith! in spite of all the members of the >ld "hurch can say! that that*s supposed to be impossible in this day & age@ %asn*t it sweet! how 2amuel didn*t even have to say or suggest anything!concerning a visit with the "olony@ he lamb was so excited! he said! B%hen can we go to see them@ /ow about [email protected] /e was making sure this is going to happen. %ell! so are we! 7men@ 5sn*t it precious tobehold one of our brethren find his way back to the /ouse of the 9ather! to the rue 2hepherd*s fold@5t was as though he instinctively knew that this was what he had been looking for! and we must see to it that hewon*t be disappointed tomorrow! but that he will be truly overwhelmed by a genuine sample of love.hanks to his parting with the demonic influence of some of his old friends! you*re having a stronger link with himnow! and you will be able to practically lead him by the hand! straight into the 3ingdom. +raise /is Name! 5 think we*ll have a party! & 5 shall organi1e a suitable reception committee and am sending you two new helpers tokeep you company from now on: 7madeus will exploit his hidden musical talents! which will blossom into many new! beautiful songs of the 2pirit! and Martinius will spark his love and desire for the 2criptures and guide himinto a deeper understanding of them.2adly! he won*t be uite ready to really digest and grasp the New %ine yet! as he will have to go through further breaking experiences first! before he will truly embrace the voice of his 9ather 0avid as his own! and we must be prepared for new! subtle tactics of the nemy! who will naturally be furious! haha# ;ut first! let*s en4oy this birth of a new soul & give him a welcome he won*t forget. BMany! yea! many more sheepwill enter the folds of 0avid through this one#B! the ,ord says! though it may take yet another arthly while for hisfinal destiny to come to fruition. ,et*s re4oice in this! and give /im praise! for /e has begun the good work and /e has wrought it! and /e shall continue it and bring it to a perfect end a story! so beautifully told! as only /ecan. +raise to our ,ord ?esus# he final victory is always ours. 7men.6

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At home I would continue to take advantage of my freedom after all, the old man didnt care much aboutwhere I s!ent my nights % $ tumbled on in my uest for love as I had determined $ even announced to one of my class mates, that that was the one thing I was a sucker for. >ark even exclaimed in re!ly, an, youre inlove with love*< o it was, but he was ust !retty hard to find around where I was. I had some brilliant goldeno!!ortunities as far as the !hysical manifestations of love go, but most fall into the category, acs y best friend was a boy from -hile, whose family had fled the country after the military cou! in the early [email protected] were a family of musicians. :is mother was actually a music teacher at our school, a dear sweet lady, $ hisdad a concert !ianist. 1he cool thing about -hente was, he had a folk band with his D older sisters. 1hey !layed!rotest songs on ocialist meetings or 7mnesty 5nternational events, all of which I attended to accom!any him $hear them !lay. -hente mainly !layed !ercussions back then $ sang a little, while his sisters !layed guitars $sang the lead vocals. :e was only a month older than me, but much more develo!ed4 he already had a lowvoice $ was starting to grow a moustache 4

:is family also received me with wide o!en arms, $ during our times together after school, -hente taught mehow to !lay the bongos, $ the first M chords on the guitar, or we listened to music or drew surrealistic !ictures. Iguess, of all my friends, his influence I can be most thankful for.

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responsibility over the "olony soon won*t show the necessary understanding! patience or sympathy for this kind of behavior.;rethren! 5 must tell you the truth in advance! so you won*t be too disappointed when it happens! but our nemy!in exchange for the exceptional means & lengths we were allowed to go to in order to get this brother /ome! hasbeen granted permission to pull out some extra big guns for his counter attack. Not only will a very subtle &deceptive book written by a erman philosopher turn out to be a key factor in luring his mind away from thesimplicity of the ospel! and the factor of the new shepherd replacing ?onas from one day to the next! play a rolein this! but the evil 2educer*s final punch and! 5 fear! a temptation our young brother won*t be able to withstand

is going to be the offer to 4oin a rock band! which will get him attention and access to circles which so far hehasn*t even dreamed of.

/e feels he has a higher calling & purpose in life! but unfortunately! like so many of his earthly brethren! he feelsthat this calling will have to be manifested in ways of worldly success. 0id you notice how disappointed he wasto find out that the 9amily solely consists of about GHHH members! when he had been expecting it to be a new ma4or movement on the hori1on of popular cultures@ /e hasn*t read the story of ideon yet./e also had to swallow hard when ?onas told him! B5 am a "hristian#B! as that term is extremely unpopular in hiscircles! and he shook his head in utter disbelief! almost in disgust. 2o! there is yet a lot our young friend will haveto learn. 0on*t be too discouraged if the shining & flickering light which he has been for the past few months will slowly flicker out. 5t will only be for a necessary time of learning and suffering! to get him to reali1e where theworld is really at! for in these aspects! he uite simply is still too naive at this point in time! and not as close tothe truth as would be necessary for him to abide faithful. 0elusion must be destroyed in order to build a firmfoundation of truth! and this! my beloved! will be your next task.%e defeated ;acchus in this stage of his life! but now +an< will be granted his slimy appearance on the scenewith all the temptations of the bewilderment of the mind! along with the temptations toward fame! reputation and attention! which could pretty much leave us again at ground 1ero. ;ut you know! Bod*s way up is downB! & all things work together for good to one as this! who loves od. /e 4ust needs to learn how to love od with all hisheart! mind & soul.6

B

I cant remember whether Arnie or amuel, whatever % told me to or if I did it instinctively, but I tossed awayany smoking materials I had on me that very night $ kicked the habit right there $ then. I didnt need that stuff anymore. I returned to 8the -olony< the following night, $ the next $ the one after that4 &ight after night Eonaswould s!end time talking to me, feeding me from the +ible, in a vivid, living, ins!ired way. And though only a fraction of all the things he told me really stuck with me, hit home or made sense4something was taking !lace here. >uch to the lament of my cliue in school, who moaned, BNot again#B ,as they had reoiced over the fact that I had gotten over the


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were before you4< And I knew what they had done to :im $ could only imagine what they would do to :imtoday, if :e came again as a mortal human4&o, all these things didnt shake my faith, but there is a sly, !owerful creature, in fact, so !owerful he thinks hecan !ut u! a match against 7od :imself0 A very mighty angel, once the carrier of the very light of 7od, :isname is /ucifer. And if theres one thing he cant stand, its little boys $ girls running around talking about Eesus,$ if he didnt get me to sto! through o!!osition, well, he had some other sly tricks u! his sleeve. After all, he had succeeded with the most !erfect $ first human cou!le ever created, $ he was surely going tosucceed with me.

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return to the 9ather*s house! be assured. 5 know! it may not look that way! but the 9ather! %ho seeth & knowethall things! has revealed it unto us.5t has been a pitiful 4ourney! one which must have caused you to bury your heads in each other*s embrace many a time... to see someone with such a high calling suander the inheritance he was given of the 9ather: his portion of the currency /e has given to all mortals! each according to his measure: time! that fleeting mystery!which has no meaning for us! but for them is all they*ve got. 7lmost any other thing can be stored or reproduced!but this one 4ust trickles by! unstoppable. 7nd some! like this one! do nothing but waste it.B2olomon the unwiseB! they called him! even in the "olony where /e had found 2alvation and days of heaven for

maybe half a year of their time! before 2atan lured him ever deeper into the pit. %henever a human being decides to serve our ,ord and actually snatches souls away from the evil one! we can expect his rage to befierce! and this one was not prepared for the onslaught. /e thought the good things happening to him were 4ust because of him! that he was simply so special! and that no matter what he did! he would find his path! his truth!his destiny or simply =himself*.5t was the deceitful lie from that evil book! concocted by one of the many confused minds of the century! about the life of ;uddha! with the philosophy of! B?ust let it flow! and no matter which way you turn! you*ll find theanswer...B 2o! he resolved to drifting these years! and is finding that the current has taken him ever lower into the depthsof meaninglessness & despair! where he did not want to go.>f course! as soon as the 0evil saw that the boy wasn*t posing any threat or danger to his =kingdom* anymore!his highly sophisticated new friends from that rock band! all of them nearly twice his age! dropped him like a hot potato. %here at the beginning he had indulged in the attention of his female counterparts once he was evenboasting of having girl friends at the same time! the vain little fellow he wound up all alone! not wanted by even one! in the end./is first episode of sexual intercourse resulted in a painful disease! and in all his looking and longing for love! hehas not found it not in that selfish attempt to fill his own desires & satisfy his own lusts.he friends who once hailed him and bore him on their shoulders on his CJ th birthday! now barely remember him!and the only few who still associate with him are the lowest of the low! drug addicts! KpunksK! alcoholics! thedregs of society.;ut invisible to him and way beyond the grasp of his conception! sometimes not even plainly visible in all clarity to some of our realm! even this path to the depths and the abyss of despair have been a part of the 9ather*s planand great workings. 9or it is this shattering of his illusions that will make him come to reali1e the truth more fully than ever before: the truth about the evil state his world is in and the role that ?esus has in it! and that of anyonewho wishes to be called by /is name! who wishes to be a true "hristian and follower of the ,amb slain beforethe foundations of the %orld. 0avid addressed this whole phenomenon in his epistle! Bhe ;enefits >f ;ackslidingB! which will comfort this one in due time.,ast night marked his final break with his former illusions and perceptions of things. he rose colored glasseshave been trampled to bits. he inhabitants of his state of hell have dropped their masks & revealed their truefaces. /e has seen not only where the circle of people he looked up to so far are really at! but we have allowed him a glimpse into our dimension! and that of the nemy! so that he would know that our realm! what they call the 2pirit %orld! is not only as real as his! but even much more so. /e has felt a glimpse of what it means whenwe touch! the way we feel a hair or a muscle a hundred times more intensely than anything he has ever experienced in his mortal body. hrough the amplified effects of the drugs he had been taking! he was allowed aglimpse of the colors we know! but which were completely foreign to him.=;lessed are they! which! having not seen! yet believe.* %ell! he has seen now! he is not one of those fools who push away spiritual realities with physical explanations of =hallucinations*! he knows he has experienced something supernatural. /e now knows we are real! and so are the demons which have sought to destroy him. 7nd he has become a little more aware of the fact that he can*t 4ust stand by and watch as they do so. his is aturning point in his life.

Now he will be ready for the next step. >ur ,ord has planned and laid the preparations for this moment. Now hewill remember that there was something else. ?ust when he will wish he had the courage to end his life! youmust remind him of the M>-,etters in his closet. $ou did well in preserving in him a holy respect for them! as!although he has parted with many other books and religious writings! you managed to keep a sense in him todistinguish that these were something special. hey will be a new fountain of life to him now. Now he will seek tounderstand.Now he will listen to his 9ather*s voice. Now you can teach him about the real meaning and application of the2criptures in his own day and age through the voice of the man who has been living them in his century! and through the key of 0avid. Now he will truly awaken.he seed that was sown in his life has survived the winter & will soon blossom into a beautiful new life which will attain heights this now wretched prodigal son of 0avid never would have dreamed of anymore. 2oon he will discover the meaning of the word 4oy. ,ead him gently by the hand! for the time of standing by and watching himsuffer the conseuences of his own folly are coming to a close. his does not mean he won*t make more

mistakes oh! plenty he will. ;ut you and 5 know that these are a mortal*s best teachers! yes! & even one of themain purposes of human existence. hey will let them see the contrast between their own way and our ,ord*s.6

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1he time that followed was a time of breaking. I had humiliated myself in front of the whole world, I figured, $ Ifelt like Eudas, having betrayed Eesus by turning my back on :im for all this time, $ I only regretted the fact thatI didnt have the guts to kill myself. 2ell, when youre at rock bottom $ at the end of your ro!e, thats when!eo!le usually remember to turn to 7od. =nlike all the Eehovahs 2itnesses books they had hea!ed on me,which I had canned when we moved, I had ke!t all my literature from the 3amily.1hose #%/etters


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'ven though I had gotten back in touch with the 3amily, $ had even visited a few colonies, or, as they werecalled now,


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and he was right back in the tentacles of ;acchus! seeking to satisfy his soul with every vice to intoxicate &benumb his mind! tranuili1ing his burning conscience. 7nd on the very last day! the day of decision! he wasready to take the same foolish step to take that powerful hallucinogenic drug! which opened his eyes to our Eealm! and this time it nearly cost him his life. he demon possessed maniac who was going to stab him drovehim clear to the edge of our world! and brought him to a place few mortals ever return from with a sane mind.%e were able to let him see a glimpse of what awaits him in our precious ,ord*s 3ingdom! let him see some of you who help him! before we had to allow +an to take him for a trip to the regions of nothingness! oblivion and confusion. 9or this was the bargain the 0evil had gotten in return for the guarantee that his life would be spared.

5t is of the MasterKs hand that the boy made these supernatural experiences! even though /e was using one of the nemyKs own tools to bring them to pass. >n his first out-of-his-world trip six earth months ago! we wereable to reveal to him the reality of the 2pirit %orld - the fact that we are 4ust as real! if not more so! than thematerial world he can see. >n this one - his very last ,20 trip in his life! be assured - we revealed to him & evenshowed him the vil one in all his splendor! and let the boy see the connection between 2atan and his creation!the essence of his childrenKs praise & worship! in their music. 5tKs a vehicle through which the foe & his minionsare able to move more speedily through the air waves into peopleKs minds to pollute their spirits! than by any other means. 7nd to have seen a manifestation of this will help your charge to comprehend & believe theaccounts of others who are even now trying to expose the 0evilKs arthly kingdom & their methods! only to bemet by disbelief & scorn from the large ma4ority of those! they were sent to warn./ow broken he is now. /ow absolutely shattered his entire concept of the %orld. "an you see the ,ord*s wisdomnow in allowing all this@ 9or now he knows beyond the shadow of a doubt that there is nothing! absolutely nothing that his world has to offer him anymore! and he 4ust wants to give his life over to the Master. %hat avictory out of seeming defeat. /e has also reali1ed the seriousness of it all! how close he was to death! and you*ve done well in communicating to him the knowledge that next time we won*t be able to protect him. iving up the poisonous habits this time around wasn*t as easy for him! either! as the first two times. /e*s had to fight hard for the victory! and he*s learning to claim 2criptures. /e came face to face with the heinous familiar spirit who has fought us and him for the most of his life! and the boy rebuked him in the face! diminishing 2atan*s power over his life tremendously.2o! now he is steadily working toward his xodus from gypt. /e is faithful on the 4ob his mother organi1ed for him! faithfully memori1ing 2criptures every spare minute he has! and only reading the %ord and learning 9amily songs in his free time. /e doesn*t know it yet! but those songs! and that seemingly insignificant talent of his! isgoing to become his great ministry and ticket to freedom! although it will present him also with new hurdles!temptations and challenges in his future for the ,ord. ;ut the immediate battle is won! brethren. 5 feel likeembracing you all! and the ,ord sends you G kisses of gratefulness and will show /is appreciation to each of you personally! shortly. May /e continue to strengthen your wings.6

B

I slowly recovered from this e!isode, although initially, again, I felt like wanting to die. 1o uit smoking the D nd (or was it the MrdH) time around wasnt that easy. +ut a verse from the +ible, one where it said,


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In >unich I was taught the art of restaurant singing. You went into a restaurant, asked the owner if you could !laya few songs, did your stuff $ then !assed the hat or tablet around. #nce I found out that I could earn moremoney that way than I could ever make at some ob back home, I called my mother $ told her I wasnt comingback. :er boss had offered me a com!uter a!!renticeshi! in his com!any a few weeks !rior $ my mother hadcalled me stu!id for turning it down. +ut I already knew that that wasnt what I wanted. I was still underage (K?),so, I needed my mothers !ermission to stay in >unich, but she eventually agreed.1hat was the beginning of my brand new life.

Chapter Eleven

Growing Pains

6oday the ,ord has given your charge a new name. ,ike the shepherd boy who played psalms unto his ,ord &learned that strength comes only from /im! his name shall be 0avid.,ike 3ing 0avid of old fell in love with ;athsheba when he first glanced on her! so this young 0avid lost his heart when he met +earl! one of the wives of Nathan! when she came to do the washing at his /ome! as you reported recently. 5t is her whom the ,ord will use to perfect his plan for the boy! in preparation for greater usefulness inthe future.9or he is growing weary of the battle in the cold! harsh! burned out fields< of his own country! where men have

hardened their hearts toward the %ords of the ,ord! and the sowing there is like sowing seeds onto stony ground.hey are truly children of the apostasy! the great falling away! which must come before our ,ordKs glorious returnunto /is own. 9or thousands of years! men have believed in the supernatural & spiritual origin of creation: heheavens! the sun! moon & stars! the beauty of nature... all this was evidence enough for them to see our 9atherKs hand & presence.>nly since manKs technological advances! the things we allowed them to discover or have revealed unto them!which enable them to get a close-up or Kmug shotK! as they say! of the creation! which should really only increasetheir respect for the intricate detail of the divine craftsmanship therein - they instead think that now theyKre smart enough to dismiss the spiritual! their "reator & all that goes with it. /aving been enabled to focus more intricately on the physical has closed their minds! hearts! eyes & ears to the spiritual. hatKs why the natural man is at enmity with od. he more they perceive of the carnal realm! the less they perceive of ours. 7ll the while they have let the nemy of their souls deceive them into believing his concoctions & lies. hey have made "hronos

their god. /aving been deceived by 2atan into actually believing and teaching their children that they all cameinto being by a process they call volution! in their minds! they have stretched the time of the age of their world to unbelievable! utterly ridiculous lengths! simply figuring that if they would give things enough time! they would 4ust be able to create themselves. 2omeday! when the war is over! we shall all have a few good laughs about all this.

2o! the ,ord has let 0avid fall in love with +earl so that he would follow her & her team to 2pain! where he will receive training in preparation for his future field of 2outh 7merica! where he will experience a receptivity of the people to the ,ordKs %ord entirely different from the spiritual barren desert he is in right now. 7nd he will travel to 2pain with +hilip and his wife Maria! to whom we have revealed that this young new soldier for the ,ord should henceforth be called 0avid... 7 curious little cycle of events is about to unfold which will hold many intriguing lessons! 5Km sure. ,etKs continue observing what will happen next. ,ove from everyone here at /F6

B

1he only !roblems I had were with brother 9an, my regular !artner for the one activity that was !robably thetoughest one earth around that time, the one thing which showed whether you were in the 3amily only for thelifestyle or because you were willing to, as the a!ostle Faul said, die daily to yourself, your !ride, to this world0,itnessing. 1he word litnessing was derived from the slightly better known term 8to witness,< which was the act of telling others about your faith, a very im!ortant factor in 3amily life $ doctrine, !ractically our excuse for living.1he re!lacement of the 8w< by an 8l< was derived from the word literature, which meant, we were !assing outliterature (tracts) on the streets, sometimes for free and sometimes in return for a donation. If I would have beende!endent on the donations I got through litnessing I would have starved a long time ago. 1he reason it was sotough $ killing was that everyone still knew the 3amily was the scandalous sex cult which had made headlines afew years earlier, $ everyone naturally thought that all the money we were getting in exchange for the literature,usually a 5%!age >#%/etter or comics version of such, would go straight to our guru >oses 9avid.

&evertheless, I survived that !eriod, and the !ockets filled with change I received for my singing at night wellmade u! for the crucifixion on the streets during the day.

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#ne day a fresh breeCe blew into our :ome, when a team of a brother $ two sisters !assed through to do their laundry. #ne of the sisters was called Fearl, $ she was the cutest%looking $ closest%to%my%age female humanbeing I had met in the 3amily so far. You !robably already know what ha!!ened0 right, >r. -rush was at it again.1he only !roblem was that Fearl (who was com!letely unaware of what was ha!!ening inside me, as I never exchanged a word with her) $ team were headed for !ain... and I was stuck here in >unich. 2ell, the /ordlooked down from :eaven $ had !ity on my love%struck heart $ sent along an American brother named Fhilli!.Fhilli! $ his wife >aria were living in a trailer on a cam!ground on the outskirts of >unich $ Fhilli! needed a!artner for restaurant singing. As soon as I heard that they were !lanning to go to !ain $ eventually team u!

with Fearl $ team, I was his man. After all, it was starting to get cold, $ !ain sounded really good, so, off we went, in &ovember KJS@0 Fhilli!,>aria, their son 7ideon $ me in an old white >ercedes and a trailer ust big enough to house the four of ushalfway comfortably... down to witCerland, where we met some beautiful !eo!le as we !assed through, thenthrough 3rance and finally... +arcelona.

Ill never forget the afternoon we rolled into +arcelona on a !rinci!al road with 5 or R lanes in each direction.1he car had gotten slower $ slower all the time ever since outhern 3rance, es!ecially on u!hill slo!es, and bythis time we were barely managing 5@ kmPh. o, on we rolled on this huge avenue, surrounded by millions of cars in the late afternoon traffic, ever so slowly towards a green traffic light on to! of a hardly noticeable u!hillslant. 1he car ke!t getting slower $ slower to where it felt like we were crawling towards that green light, slower yet, $ as we finally got to it the traffic light turned red.If you know anything about broken clutches, which at that time I didnt, $ neither did Fhilli!, you can guess whatha!!ened next0 As soon as the traffic light turned back to green, Fhilli! ste!!ed on the gas, but the car wouldntmove an inch forward. +ehind $ all around us hundreds of cars were honking simultaneously. 1o my dismay,after about the Mrd attem!t Fhilli! said, unich, +arcelona was more like, %hatcha want! ringos#@ ;eat it#In our des!eration we tried singing on the streets, something I had tried a few times in >unich, but withoutsuccess. And com!ared to +arcelona, street singing in >unich was like :eaven.'very now $ then an old lady dressed in black would toss a few !esetas into our guitar case, but that wasnteven going to get us one dinner, much less four. +ut the eternal /ord 2ho ruleth the heavens and the earth had!ity u!on us, his downtrodden $ dreadful children, yea, this one more time... As we were singing one of our roughly M@ standard songs, a man walked u! to us, interru!ting us rudely $started talking to Fhilli!. Annoyed, I ke!t on !laying, wondering about the manners of the !anish. After we werefinished, Fhilli! !acked u! his guitar contentedly $ said something about a ob. As it turned out, this man had ust hired us to !lay in an exclusive music club called iss American Fie" by 9on >c/ean, $ I could have listened all night, but I scarcely felt worthy. omehow, duringthis time, I still didnt feel very much as if I belonged, $ the only thing I had was my music. I wrote a lot of songsduring that time.1here was another incident which further contributed to my feelings on unworthiness and ke!t haunting me for years, when we visted an American 3amily cou!le once with their two !retty daughters :eaven and Fromise,who must have been around ? and R. 1hey were very !retty $ !robably the first 3amily kids who left a dee!

im!ression on me, although eventually they wound u! getting foolish. 1hey um!ed u! $ down on my la! $ oneof them asked me, "9o you have Eesus in your heartH" I said, "yes." +ut she said, "&o, you have the 9evil inyour heart." I re!lied "&o, Ive got Eesus is my heart*" +ut she ke!t fooling around $ said in a foolish voice, "&o,youve got the 9evil in your heart..." $ this went on. :er !arents $ the others ust stood by $ grinned.

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I ke!t wondering for years about this incident, thinking that !erha!s I was really bad inside, $ !erha!s I waseven the AntichristB... +ut I found out since that although at that !oint in time I still had to overcome a lot of hang%u!s from my life in the ystem, and we all kee! fighting the 9evil until the day we die, not every word thatever came out of a 3amily childs mouth was necessarily !ure gold, and that no matter how bad I thought I was,the /ord loved me in s!ite of it, and that :e !aid for my sins ust as :e did for everyone elses.

Chapter Twelve

Pearl

Bhe boy has begun to learn what love is. 2ome humans (and more & more of them! it seems! as =the love of many waxes cold* in these dark times)! live their whole lives without ever getting to know the beauty of what isreally the essence of the 9ather*s 2pirit! which permeates all of creation. /ow can they not see it@ /ow can they not fathom it! by beholding the daily beauty of a sunrise! the way its rays gently caress a flower*s petals! the way they kiss the earth! and forth comes the miracle of a new life@ /ow can they be so blind to refuse to see themanifestation of the 9ather*s love for them expressed in countless physical illustrations of what /e feels for them@>f course! one of the most outstanding of all these is the act of physical love! when man & woman become oneflesh! and they obey the first command the Master ever gave them! to be fruitful & multiply & replenish the arth.he beauty of this act should let each human stand in awe at the great love their heavenly 9ather has for them!but the world has become so wicked in these dark days ( and lo! the night is soon to fall -) that they have takenevery bit of beauty out of this original illustration of the ,ord*s love for them. %hy! they have even allowed thenemy to deceive them into hating /is greatest gift of all! the result of such a union! a little child. Nowadayschildren are not even considered a blessing anymore! much less appreciated for the priceless gift & honor & privilege the 9ather bestows on each one /e chooses to be a receptor of such a heavenly gift! but to them it hasbecome nothing but a burden! something they*re trying to avoid.0avid knows that there is no higher manifestation of the 9ather*s love in the physical realm than the act of making love! but he still needs to adopt a godly attitude toward the divine result of it! namely children./e has never even considered having children! neither does he consider it now! but you must prepare him! for indeed he will be father to some. 7ttempt to touch his heart whenever & wherever you can by the sample of thechildren he*s surrounded by. 7lthough there may be other! more imminent lessons he may have to learn first! youmust lay the ground work for his willingness to take that responsibility now! so! he*ll be ready for it when the timecomes.Eight now he*s still being initiated into the fine arts of love! the simple gift of learning to receive! and return out of mere gratitude! by our precious little priestess of love! +earl. he ,ord is allowing a special bond between thetwo! but we must be aware of counter attacks of the nemy. /e doesn*t 4ust stand by when two of od*s childrenlove & en4oy each other freely! especially when one of them has escaped his clutches so recently.here is still some of that scent of the hellish 2ystem cleaving to him! and he has so much more immersing todo! in the purifying waters of the %ord. /e is recogni1ing this need! and he is desperate enough to spend a lot of his free time soaking up the %ords and committing them to heart. $ou*re doing well in conveying theknowledge to him that this is all that will ever keep him from falling. ven so! he must learn not to set hisaffections on anything or anyone on earth too much! lest he neglect the ,over of his soul.he Master 4ust signaled me that we will have to stand back & let the nemy present him with a test for this very purpose. >ooh! 5 can smell the approach of this emissary of his... the foul stench of 4ealousy. %e*ll be on standby support for you dears.B B

1he only thing which was really pretty bad was my relationshi! with >aria, Fhilli!s wife. As I found out yearslater, she actually hadnt wanted to leave >unich. he was usually uite disres!ectful toward Fhilli!, and lessthan friendly towards me.1he /ord had already given me some sort of mini revelation once when :e sort of asked me in my mind, 82hatif Im ust allowing her to be that way in order to test youH< +ut it really didnt hel! very much at that !oint. Iguess I still had too much to learn4

Another thing that was a drag ad I didnt have the grace to do was bring it over me to em!ty the !orta !otty, our cam!ing toilet, so, I never ever used it, but !referred to look for !ublic toilets or run off to the bushes, even if itmeant climbing over fences into closed u! city !arks at night.2e were !lanning to team u! with &athan, Anna $ Fearl, who were actually a threesome, yes, thats right, adude with D wives, in alencia. 2e !assed through another cou!le of towns where we tried some singing moreor less successfully, $ finally, finally(###), got to alencia. :ere we also met a candinavian brother named

7abriel again, who had been at the cam!fire !arty in >unich the night I arrived there. :e was so kind as to showus around the scene of alencia a bit... which !laces to go singing, etc. And at last the moment came I was to meet Fearl again. 1hey were !arked somewhere in the middle of the townwith their huge cam!er, $ I said a casual hi , as not to give a clue to the emotion stocked u! beneath my lid...

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I dont know if she knew already that I had a crush on her, but it didnt matter. And the /ord was good to me, andso was &athan, her husband, as he shared her with me willingly almost from the very start, and let us enoy asweet little relationshi!.2e were cam!ed a few miles out of alencia, near the beach, a huge area which must have been !acked in thesummer but was now fairly deserted. I could have been the ha!!iest lad in the world if it hadnt been for the!roblems I was having with >aria, and I made the mistake to com!lain about her to Fearl. he, in turn told mycom!laints to &athan, and it was determined that I was a stinker .'verything went fairly well until -hristmas 've KJS@. A night I shall never forget $ Ive been long waiting to !ut it

down on !a!er, not so much for the significance of what ha!!ened as for the hilariousness of it, though at thattime it seemed anything but hilarious to me.2ed had a beautiful day, actually, with singing songs $ eating cookies $ cake, which the mommies had bakedthemselves dont ask me how% in their small cam!er kitchens. 2e had some wine, $ it was a little bit like thefirst evening I had come to visit Fhilli! $ >aria in their trailer in >unich, when I had sung some Fsalms and>aria came u! to me afterwards $ told me she had received from the /ord while I was singing those Fsalms thatmy name was to be 0avid . &ot like 3ing 9avid, but more like ,ittle 9avid, the she!herd boy, which I gladlyacce!ted, though no one else ever called me by that name until years later...

+ut that night was long gone, $ all I could see now in >aria was the bitter wife of the brother I was !laying with,the one who !ut too much garlic in the food ust to tease me (thats why I was a stinker), and, in short, somebodywho really made me wonder about the verse where Eesus said, aria... +ut the shock of the thought was still so dee! in my bones,and maybe it was the awkwardness off having two other !eo!le lying next to me while I was su!!osed to makelove, that I ust couldn*t.1o to! it all off, Fearl had had a wee bit too much wine, $ while the other two were already done $ !retending tobe slee!ing next to us, she was starting to tell me things like,


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supposed to have been! either! and also because he is evidently in love with +earl and still so young & immature!he wasn*t ready for that challenge yet. 7nd so! the ,ord couldn*t bless this - what was supposed to have been aloving come-union & celebration of the ,ord*s ,ove in remembrance of /is birth. %hat a disaster & heartache.;ut be assured! the truth of Eomans :8 applies even here# 7lthough the boy scarcely may see this clearly right now. 2trengthen him & lead him gently toward the upcoming changes & the next chapter of lessons on his path.2oon he will be reuired to stand and fight on his own again for a time.B

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2ell, as you can imagine, that was the last time Fearl $ I ever came close. 2e had ust been receiving amailing !ublished by 2orld ervices, (the 3amilys administrative a!!aratus) entitled


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#ne of the !rinci!al 3amily rules has always been to go two by two, to do things together, and not to do thingsalone, if !ossible. 2ell, two are definitely better than one, and when the right !eo!le are together in unity, itmulti!lies their !ower manifold $ Eesus even said that :ed be in the midst of any D or M of :is disci!les on'arth who would agree on anything to !ray for... +ut :e was ust about to show in me, that, sometimes, :e likesto make exceptions to :is rules, ust to show :es the +oss $ can do anything.I had to come u! with 5@@ Fesetas a day to cover my ex!enses in the :ome in 3uengirola, which was run by a

+elgian sister called >artha $ her !anish husband &oah. Fhilli! had given me D@@ Fesetas for starters, so I ust needed another D@@ to make it through my first day arthas assurance that I didnt have to do it, ary%Eoy, and it wasnt bad at all. 1he next day she took me along to >arbella, one of the fanciest !laces Id ever seen, where she introduced me to a +ritish friend of hers, who in turn introduced meto a young American who was living in the same building, and who I became friends with over the next fewmonths.>ary%Eoy had to leave again for >exico, and she would have liked to take me along, but I guess I wasnt nearlyas revolutionary as she. he never went anywhere by bus. 2hen she went somewhere, she hitch%hiked, and shenever got out of the car without !raying with the driver to have him receive Eesus in his heart.7od bless you, >ary%Eoy, wherever you are, you were the youngest of them all*

Chapter Fi&teen

'u(ith

I established some wonderful contacts down in 3uengirola, one of the best of which was the small, coCyrestaurant of a fat Irishman, of whom !eo!le said that his heart was as big as his belly. In his restaurant I met anumber of !eo!le, mainly 'nglish, who had settled down there on the -osta del ol. It was in their com!any thatvery uietly and in secret I turned KS, without telling a soul about it.I took freuent tri!s to >arbella, where I went busking in the harbor $ visited my American friend, who rigged u!D concerts for me at his school.

#ne night I was out in a !ub, busking away, and as I !assed the hat, I was invited for a drink by a young girl

named Eudith. :er mother was 7erman $ her father !anish. he was an Aries, like me, only with a !ersonalityinfinitely stronger than mine. he had a macho boyfriend, who was chasing other chicks during the summer, so,hed allow her to go out with me, and once again I !rom!tly fell in love.

I got into a circle of !laywrights $ actors who hired me for the o!ening of their newest !lay, followed by a fancybut rather decadent !arty at the !laywrights house, to which Eudith accom!anied me.

I guess I might have stayed in 3uengirola forever if it hadnt been for the fact that Eudith was exerting a stronger !ull on me than I was on her, and I ust :A9 to kee! going for the /ord. o, one fine day, I had the moneytogether for a train ticket to Eonas $ :annahs new !lace in outhern 7ermany, where I was !lanning to raise theneeded funds to get to outh America. 2e had communicated via mail $ !hone, and the day of de!arture wascoming close.

Eudith and I we!t like little babies in each others arms the night I told her that I had determined to leave !ain.+efore we !arted, I asked her if she wanted to receive Eesus, but her reaction was,


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Eudith accom!anied me to the train station in >alaga with my total of ? !ieces of luggage, which included myentire >#%/etter%olume library. 1he thing I didnt know before I got on the train was that this train was only oneof ?.It was one of those chea! student tickets, which meant I had to change trains in every maor city, and at everyborder. As I only found that out a few minutes before we got to our first sto!, along with the fact that we only hadabout D minutes to get on the next train, I lost my address book with all my addresses $ contacts I had made in!ain, and exce!t for Eudith, I com!letely lost touch with all the others, something I regretted very much. +ut itshows how futile everything in life is, and how sometimes you only have one chance to get through to somebody

in order to make sure youll see them again someday In :eaven.

Chapter Siteen

Shoving O&& 1he same girl who let me in on the fact that wed have to change trains several times (!icture a skinny little runtwith ? !ieces of luggage hanging from every !art of his body, running from !latform to !latform), turned out to bea former convict for drug trading who had ust been released from ail in >alaga, and thus the reason for customs officials dragged me out of the train at the wissP7erman border, since they must have thought we werebuddies.o, out of the train again, with my ? (+I7) !ieces of luggage to be stri!%searched by customs, and thus missingmy a!!ointment with Eonas $ :annah at the train station in Isny, a small town close to the farm where they hadfound their new :ome.I arrived in 7ermany com!letely broke, so I had to bum some coins from somebody to call Eonas $ let themknow what ha!!ened. All in all, the tri! had taken 5J (? x ?) hours, in seven different trains and... well, we had the !art about the luggage, which to me was a small but sure sign from the /ord that I was on the right track4

1he time that followed was actually uite a ha!!y time. I was back together again with my old !al 9an, withwhom I was sent out on faith trips to cities like Augsburg $ others, which were actually fun this time around.I had learned a few lessons in the meantime $ was a wee bit more mature than I had been a year earlier.In that farm house near Isny I was able to contem!late $ !onder all the things $ events which had ha!!enedduring my first year in the 3amily (of what was to become DJ, !resently) and I remember going out for a walkin the woods one day, sitting in the sun $ for the first time in my life crying tears of oy, as I realiCed that 7od hadfar sur!assed my wildest imaginations of how my life might turn out to be. 1he light, love $ oy I had come toknow was a truly miraculous contrast to the darkness of a life I emerged from only a year earlier.

#ne day a big fellowshi! meetingB was announced, which was ha!!ening on a cam!ground not too far awayfrom >unich. #ld familiar faces turned u! there... :abbakuk, the big she!herd that had scolded me for the error of my ways as a young teen of KM, shaking his head in disbelief when he it dawned on him who I was...amaria, an American sister I knew from the same time whom wouldnt you know it % Id had a crush on, withher husband..., the girl from :amburg that had been my room mate when I oined in >unich, and many others.

A video was being made of !eo!le introducing themselves to 9ad $ his wife, >ariaB on which I !erformed asong or two for them...+ut the most significant event was the a!!earance of a brother from -osta ica named Eeremiah +olivar, who,in fiery s!eeches, told everybody to get out of 'uro!e and to outh America... yes, even to his own house in-osta ica, if necessary.I remembered him as the father of a girl called huly, whom I had written when I was still a "atacomber


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I still havent been able to figure out exactly the reason why I sim!ly cannot agree with them.

Anyhow, all this had ha!!ened before the meeting with Eeremiah +olivar. After the meeting, Eonas $ :annah told me not to come back home with them to Isny, but to get my butt on theroad $ eventually to /atin America.>y next sto! was back in >unich, where things were ha!!ening which also would be totally unthinkablenowadays0 3amily folks were !ractically living on the side of ,eopoldstrasse (one of the main !romenadesdowntown >unch) in their trailers $ cam!ers, which they were trying to sell so they could leave for outh

America.It was almost as if >unich was one big 3amily :ome...1here I also met Qack $ Feace, who I decided to team u! with for +uenos ATres.Qack $ I went out busking together, but it didnt really go too well.2hen he showed me a !ostcard of +uenos ATres , which wasnt really my idea of what I had !ictured outh America to be like, I wasnt so sure anymore that this was where I wanted to go.#ne night, during one of those countless caravan fellowshi!s right on the main streets of >unich, I met 'than $GeCiah with their kids, who asked me if I didnt want to oin their team headed for -hile...&ot really having learned yet to consult the ,ord before decisions like this, I agreed $ was on a new team...

Chapter Seventeen

Swit)erlan(

Bhe cold winter of his life is over. 2pring is here! and he has felt it. 9or the first time he has felt our presence toan extent that it brought tears of 4oy to his eyes! and it won*t be the last time he will have experienced this. 5sn*t it a funny phenomenon@ /ow strangely & yet marvelously did our 9ather create these mortals! that when they areat the peak of their 4oy! that express it in the same way as sadness or bitter grief... 5 have seen the ,ord weep at times! even when the occasion was a 4oyful one.%ell! we have brought him back to his own country! only to take him to a truly far-flung field this time. he ,ord iscalling him to help reap the mighty harvest that*s awaiting us in ,atin 7merica! an adventure that will entail many new episodes of testing! which will eventually frame him into that what we know he shall become./e has made a sad mistake in despising the opportunity to fly to 7rgentina with this sweet & dedicated couplewho would have done him only good! but who weren*t flashy enough in his sight. 3e1iah! that stray daughter! hasenticed him to 4oin their team instead! a choice he will yet regret. ;ut all these experiences will only serve tocleanse their hearts & make them right before od. %hat they can*t see right now is that even their mistakes arean essential part of their mission! and those downward turns in the road of their lives actually bring them closer to the 9ather! praise /is name.$ou! of course! can tell! that the boy*s motives have strayed far from what one*s motives are supposed to be whowishes to serve the ,ord! and in a way /e has spoiled him a bit since he*s in the 9amily! to make up for the bleak childhood & youth he had so far. ;ut he has become less desperate & follows the leadings of his own mind! and looks at the outward appearance instead of the heart. 2ometimes the nemy has no better weapon to lead aman astray than some of his own brethren who ought to know better! and who ought to be a better sample! but he! like all of them needs to learn to look to the ,ord & obey /im alone. 5t*s been a while since he last seriously sought the ,ord! and you can tell by his shallow way of interacting with people. /e*s not witnessing nearly asmuch as he should be! and is involved in worldly music instead! which he sometimes recogni1es as a dangeroustrap! but at other times becomes slack about again & settles for compromise.Infortunately we*re even having to =cheat* a little bit in order to get them to obey & go to the mission field at all!otherwise they would never get anything accomplished for the ,ord. ;ut the sense of urgency we have created

by giving the message of impending doom & 4udgment is the only measure the ,ord has to make them obey. %eall know the threat is real! and 4udgment will come! but some will someday resent the fact that we have alarmed them so early! when there are actually still a few more years to go than they assume right now.9ather 0avid will clarify this to his flock in his talk Bod*s 9alse 7larmsB! but many won*t understand. he good thing is! that each of those who obey & follow od*s call to the mission field will be so richly rewarded that they won*t feel much like complaining about having been BtrickedB to go to the field by od. $our charge! for instance!will see happier days than he has ever before! accompanied by sorrow! yes! but one day he will look back at that time as the happiest of his life! so! it*s not like the ,ord is handing him a bad deal. Not at all.he next big lesson in his life will be the one regarding discerning between inner values and outward appearance! and finding out that that which outwardly looks good and appealing isn*t always what*s good on theinside. /e will get a bad surprise upon his arrival in "hile! but our provision & the ,ord*s care will make up for it &he will see that /e truly never takes anything away from /is children without giving them something better.very few centuries 5 actually catch myself being thrilled by this work in supervising you! who watch over our

human brethren! which 5 know you have experienced also. he picture the ,ord is painting is so perfect! youcan*t help but marvel at it in sheer bliss! periodically. +raised be /is eternal Name#B

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1he !lan was that GeCiah was going to go $ do 'scort ervice in /ondon, while I was to stay with 'than andtheir 5 kids in witCerland where I was basically su!!osed to take care of the kids and go busking with them.I had to get down to witCerland by myself, though, $ was su!!osed to meet them in Qurich.>y travel buddy Faul had given me a few !hone numbers of !eo!le I could contact in witCerland, so, the first:ome I contacted was one near A!!enCell, in the northeast of witCerland. I was uite sur!rised how far u! intothe boondocks I had to travel that night, $ finally wound u! at a !etite farm house /eidi & randpa style.

1he :ome he!herd was a friendly guy called am, friendly, but not overly enthusiastic. :is wife was havingtheir Mrd baby the very night I got there, a !rocess, which I was invited to observe on a video ta!e they hadbravely made during the delivery.+eing terribly biased on behalf of the looks and outward a!!earance of !eo!le, I didnt think much at all of >ary:eart, ams wife $ mother of their newborn baby and D other daughters. As usual, I showed off a bit of my guitar%abilities $ they even made a video of me !laying some of my originalsongs of which I had written uite a few by now, with all that heart%wrenching going during my time in !ain andelsewhere...)2hen I !arted, the brethren were so kind to drive me to a s!ot in t. 7allen from where I would be able to hitch%hike to Qurich. In the car, they !layed a ta!e with the most beautiful music Id ever heard. I enthusiasticallyasked


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+ut the /ord 7od Almighty also managed to get me through this crisis of the soul, and what in my head was thegreatest of my nightmares, turned out not to be that bad after all. In fact, >aria even a!ologiCed to me for her bad sam!le during our time together in !ain, $ we actually made !eace.

&ext on the schedule was a big fellowshi! meeting somewhere between +erne $ /ausanne, again on acam!ground. A meeting where I met some more of 7ods !eculiar !eo!le, some of which I havent seen againsince, but which Im sure Ill meet again someday.I also met a new !art of teven $ Gathys team0 a musical trio consisting of D 'nglish fellows, Eames, who was

to become my traveling !artner to outh America, am, a long tall blond $ !restigious s!ecimen of a moreexuisite brand of bards among 3amily troubadours, and his wife, Eoy, from the 3rench !art of witCerland.

As I found out later, in a bit of an awkward way, Gathy and am had fallen in love.#ne day Gathy called me into her mobile :ome, saying she had to talk to me... about my ealousy. he accusedme of being madly in love with her $ !ossessive of her $ ealous of her love for am, none of which wasanywhere remotely close to the truth, but a !ure concoction of her mind. After I managed to convince her of thatfact, everything was fine $ I was the new musical trainer of her kids.1hose were irginia, 1ina, $ /auren. Eamie, their youngest, was still too young. I didnt really have much of aclue back then, but after seeing a video someone had taken of me !erforming somewhere on the streets of witCerland with those kids, I realiCed that they actually couldnt carry a tune in a bucket. All they basically didwas scream the lyrics out in a rhythmic sort of way. &evertheless we had loads of fun. 2e even went on faithtri!s together on our own, without their dad (their mother was u! in 'ngland raising the main gist of fundsneeded for the tri! to -hile, working in an 'scort ervice agency).#ne time, we all sle!t in a youth hostel family room in +asel, when 1ina said,


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* Whole Nuther Worl(

1he rest of the team was going a different route, straight to -hile, but Eames had gotten us this su!!osedlychea! deal with -anadian Facific (an airline that doesnt exist anymore), of one%year valid round%tri! tickets to/ima via 1oronto, where we were to sto! over for a cou!le of days. 3rom /ima we would take a bus to -hile,where we would meet the others.>ilan struck me as !retty dirty, 1oronto was cold. It was 9ecember, $ a good bunch of degrees below Cero. 2echecked in to


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situation some !eo!le might have considered a nightmare, but the /ord was with me, and as soon as I !ut mythumb in the air I got a ride with a man % or an angel % (I guess Ill find out in :eaven), who dro!!ed me off rightin front of the door of my new :ome.>y new she!herds were an American Eewish cou!le I had met briefly before, on /eo!oldstrasse in >unich,where they had been waiting to sell their caravan. I think Eordan $ haron were their names, and retros!ectivelys!eaking, it was the hand of 7od that had brought me to them.I had to contribute an amount of money to the :ome every day that was twice the amount that my uota in the:ome in 3uengirola, !ain had been.

I was su!!osed to get the funds in through litnessing like everybody else, , which I tried for a cou!le of days,uite without success. It was there, on the treets of iVa del >ar, one of the richest cities in -hile, that for thefirst time I really got to know what hunger is. I remember being uite ha!!y when I had finally managed to gettogether my first cou!le of !esos $ then went $ s!ent them on a roll of white bread in the nearest bakery,hungrily devouring it. 'x!eriences like this teach you the significance of lines like ar $ al!araTso, and at first I made the mistakeof trying out al!araWso, the much !oorer fisher town, with mostly low class restaurants. I found a few !laceswhere I was able to sing, but after a week or so, I realiCed that iVa was a lot better. oon I was able tocontribute my share to the :ome $ was even able to !ay back my debt to brother Eames.

Chapter Twenty

*na Maria

I was the gardener of our :ome in Eeaca, the !restigious area we were living in, and my task consisted of !runing the trees $ flowers. 1here were a!ricots $ lemons growing in our garden, and !retty soon I was actuallyuite enoying life.1here were also lots of folks !assing through the :ome, and visitors came to find out more about us. #ne of thevisitors was a girl who ust sneaked into my room $ bed one night, after having esca!ed the advances of a9utch brother, whom she a!!arently didnt feel attracted to. he didnt want to make love, but !roceeded to grabmy best !art $ work on it until... And then to my amaCement rubbed the results into her secret !arts. A cou!le of days later she took me for a walk $ said she was !regnant.... he was actually hunting for a foreign husband,but as I made uite clear what my o!inion was about the whole matter, as I hadnt even really made love to her,nor made any advances on her, etc., she was !retty u!set, but gave u! on me. /ater I heard that she tried thesame trick on a few other guys.I had been given a room in the cellar, which had once been a recording studio, where I had a lot of !eace towrite songs $ slee! in after my late nights out singing, which sometimes brought me home around sunrise. Icame u! with many a good singing contact, one of them being a 3rench%wiss restaurant, run by a bald, friendlyman named Eaue, who a!!arently is still known by some -hileans. I !layed my usual stuff there, ,et 5t ;e, $songs by -at tevens or Eohn 9enver... 1hey didnt !reach an awful lot of our message, but got the funds in. Asa balance, I was still going out distributing literature now $ then in al!araTso, which was still tough on my !ride,but the !eo!le at least were more rece!tive than they had been in 7ermany or !ain.In one of the bars I was singing regularly I met a girl who was singing -hilean folk songs, $ we met sometimes.he was an Aries, and I was a bit to witness to her, from my ex!erience with Eudith... ust scared that shewouldnt receive it. I did tell her my testimony of how I had come to the /ord $ how :e had changed my life, but

I ust never had the courage to ask her if she wanted to receive the /ord. A few months later she not onlyreceived the /ord, but oined the 3amily and married Eames, who wasnt as scared as me to tell her the score...

&ew Years 've KJSK I teamed u! with a black sister called helly. 2e called our duo


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#ne evening we had some visitors from antiago, the ca!ital, and they brought a new disci!le with them.1o me, she was the most beautiful thing my eyes ever laid hold on, or at least so I thought, and when she lookedat me, after an initial stare $ most radiant smile, she broke out into tears for some inex!licable reason...

omehow we managed to exchange a few lines, and I got her mail address $ soon she and her com!anionswere gone again, and one more kid with a broken heart in this world was left behind.

A short while later I got a letter from Ana >aria ( as that was the beautys name), asking me to attend to somelegal business for her, about some school !a!ers for her two ten year old sons (twins), as they had beenattending school in iVa before, which I took care of, and we exchanged a few lines here $ there, never !re!aring me for what was to come.

Chapter Twenty+One

Men(o)a A large fellowshi! meeting in >endoCa, the nearest Argentinean city across the -hilean border, was !lanned toha!!en, so a lot of 3amily folks were going on a !ilgrimage eastward u! the Andes.2hile I distinctly remember getting there by bus or some vehicle, the tri! back I was told to make hitchhiking

with a brother from the =.. named Eesse. +ut let me not ski! what was in the middle, which was the meetingitself, !robably the largest fellowshi! meeting I had ever attended thus far, with a few hundred 3amily membersfrom the neighboring countries of Faraguay $ =ruguay, but mainly from -hile $ Argentina attending. ideo wasthe big thing in the 3amily at that time, $ we even made a BMusic %ith MeaningB % style video at the be

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