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FOREWORD

By Eve Frances Lorgen , M.A

In August of 1998, I met Andy Pero in Phi ade !hia, PA "hi e attending Bo# Eure$s%I&EAP grou!. At the time I "as schedu ed to #e a s!ea'er on my A ien A#ductionresearch. Preston (icho s a so !resented his materia that evening. Preston #roughtAndy Pero "ith him this evening as a sur!rise guest to share some of his )Montau'Boy* e+!eriences.After I first ectured, Andy "a 'ed u! to me to te me that he had #een in underground #ases, and reca ed a memory of "a 'ing do"n a ha "ay in

some underground faci ity, seeing "omen and chi dren in chic'en"ire cages,screaming for he !. e a so said he$d seen re!ti ians. After Preston ectured on hismateria , he handed over the f oor to Andy. Andy s!o'e a#out his Montau' timetrave e+!eriences, mind !rogramming, e ectroshoc' treatments, and trainingsessions to #e a mu ti-ta ented covert o!erative and assassin for his )secretgovernment* (a i mind !rogrammers. Andy descri#ed ho" his mind "as s! itthrough trauma, e ectroshoc', and so!histicated mind !rogramming techni/ues. eto d us a#out his training in 0i va Mind %ontro as a young #oy, and ho" he "as a# eto do e+traordinary human feats under mind contro !rogramming, such as um!ing

off high #ui dings "ithout in ury2hence the nic'name )0u!erman*. e a so had agood 'no" edge of the occu t and meta!hysica "or d and confirmed the !o"er of!rayer.

3hen Andy first )#ro'e !rogramming*, and memories surfaced of #eing a coverto!erative in a su#-!ro ect of the Montau' Pro ect, he "as )gung-ho* a#out "antingto ta'e do"n the "ho e )evi (a i Mind %ontro &egime*. e c aimed that he andthousands of others had #een victimi ed #y this ty!e of mind controe+!erimentation. e "as "e a"are of the &e!ti ian-4raco I uminati connectionand had a fe" run-ins "ith the &e!ti ian sha!eshifters himse f.

3hen the Bo# Eure$s ecture "as over, Andy, Preston, Bo# and myse f "ent out to aoca caf5 and ta 'ed into the "ee hours of the morning. 3e discussed many things,among them my Love Bite hy!othesis of a ien orchestrated re ationshi!s. Andy o'eda#out this and re ated a fe" comments a#out his recent s e" of e+-gir friends "homhe ater #e ieved to #e s ee!er mind contro ed agents sent into his ife. Every one ofthem "ere )#ad* re ationshi!s that "ere de i#erate set6u!s to steer Andy off coursefrom his recent )#rea'ing of !rogramming*. I "as im!ressed "ith Andy$s candorand his strong "i ed survivor s!irit. Andy "as a so good oo'ing, /uite muscu ar

and strong !hysica y. e "as confident2a most too much so2#ut that "as a so!art of his !rogramming2to #e a fear ess "arrior "ho "i sto! at nothing to

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accom! ish his mission. 3e , no" his mission "as to go !u# ic, e+!ose the enemyand ta'e them a do"n. At east, that is "hat he "anted to do2unti a series of)re!risa s ) occurred. I referred Andy to my friend 7anet &usse , "ho ran her o"noca Long Is and %a# e ta ' sho" ca ed Beyond the :ne+! ained. Andy met

7anet and com! eted a successfu #utt-'ic'ing intervie" that s!i ed ma or #eansa#out his victimi ation in a government mind contro ed !ro ect. he ne+t day afterthe sho"s #roadcast Andy said agents tried to 'i and 'idna! him, #ut they "ereunsuccessfu . Andy and I continued our corres!ondence #y te e!hone, as theseevents unfo ded. e 'ne" that his mind contro ers and )hand ers* "ou d 'ee!thro"ing things at him to get him #ac' into the fo d, #ut Andy "as resisting. e "asremem#ering more and more detai s of his mind contro ed o!s and he 'ne" he hade+traordinary a#i ities2#ut for some reason he cou d not get these a#i ities )#ac'*.; oo #ad he had not met Michae &e fe of he Mars &ecords, and tried de iverance

first< Andy "as doing a ot of se f-hea ing "or', trying to !urify his !hysica systemfrom the various !oisons he #e ieved aided in the mind contro ed state2such ase iminating microsco!ic =nanites* via a # ood c eansing device. Andy a so "ent to thechiro!ractor, "here one of his e+-gir friends "or'ed. Andy admitted to me that thise+-gir friend "as a Presidentia Mode , a Monarch !rogrammed mind contro edo!erative2"ho he "as trying to stay a"ay from. Andy to d me that "hen he "as infor a treatment at the %hiro!ractors office, his =e+-gir friend2the )!ro ect gir 2s!o'ea fe" trigger !hrases, "hich e icited a !re-conditioned ragefu res!onse from Andy.Andy$s angry out#urst directed at this "oman then resu ted in her fi ing a formacom! aint "ith the oca !o ice that Andy "as #eing )a#usive*.

In 0e!tem#er of 1998 Andy "as arrested in his (e" 7ersey home #y oca !o ice atthe instigation of the FBI and aided #y the com! aint from his )vengefu e+-gir friend*. hey had a court order to confiscate a handgun that Andy !ossessed,even though he "as com! iant in every "ay "ith the !o ice on this account. here"as a discre!ancy on the status of Andy$s firearm, "hich someho" resu ted in aheated argument #et"een Andy and the !o ice. hey !roceeded to arrest Andy onthis /uestiona# e charge, and used it as an e+cuse to indicate that Andy had #eena#usive and uncoo!erative to"ards them, resisting arrest.

Andy ended u! #eing remanded to a menta institute, from "hich he s!ent severa"ee's trying to e+tricate himse f. Luc'i y, Andy "as re eased from this hos!ita and"as determined to #e menta y sane. 3e corres!onded #y e-mai and te e!hone,even though Andy 'ne" he "as under constant survei ance. e #ecameincreasing y more !aranoid a#out his condition, #ecause it seemed as if every ste! ofthe "ay in his recovery !rocess and memory #rea'throughs, something "ou ddistract him. Andy disc osed many things to me during this time, and I "as a# e todo an intervie" "ith him unti things got too difficu t. ;>0ee Pro ect 0u!erman

intervie" fo o"ing this artic e<. Andy "as "i ing to do a radio intervie" for (ight0earch, #ut he ater recanted #ecause of a series of a#ductions, inc uding re!ti ianassau ts2and threats to his future "ife and son. A!!arent y, Andy rea i ed during



his )tota reca * !hase that he had a s!ecia sou mate that he "as #onded to, "ho"ou d ater #ecome his future "ife. e c aimed he had sired an 8-year o d son "iththis "oman, and that his )a#ductors?contro ers* used this against him to not go!u# ic or they "ou d #e 'i ed. Andy oved them and this "as the fina stra" that

si enced him from e+!osing his fu story. I /uestioned Andy a#out this sou matefuture "ife, "hether this cou d #e a ) ove #ite set-u!* designed to deceive him into #eing coo!erative "ith his contro ers not to go !u# ic any further. e insisted thatshe "as rea and the mother6son duo ived in some underground #ase some"here.Much of "hat Andy to d me is in my intervie" entit ed@ ) Pro ect 0u!erman *!u# ished in :n'no"n Maga ine, "inter 1999 issue. But there "ere other tid#itsAndy discussed "ith me, "hich I considered too un#e ieva# e, a though they cou d #e true, #ut not confirmed. hese incidents may very "e #e true, #ut I had no "ayof 'no"ing. 0ome of these memoirs "ere funny, others too horrid to re!eat.

ne such account is a memory Andy had a#out #eing in an underground #ase,escorted #y his human (a i hand ers to a grou! of ta reys. A!!arent y Andy had #een a# e to resist his !rogrammers to such an e+tent, that his hand er, an Aryanoo'ing man he ca ed )Ado !h*, #rought him into a room of C rey a iens. hesereys "ere used to reinforce mind contro more effective y for )resistant* s aves. ;Ichided "ith Andy that the a iens "ere the )Master Mind %ontro Programmers<Andy descri#ed seeing D reys sitting do"n at a ta# e "ith reys standing in frontof him. Andy heard one of the reys say te e!athica y, ) ou "i o#ey us.* Andyscreamed #ac' to the s'in-headed a iens, )Loo', 'noc' that off or I$ 'i youG* hea iens continued their demands of o#edience into Andy$s mind. Andy "arned thema second time, )I$ 'i youG* hen Andy focused his te e'inetic !si a#i ity to!hysica y thro" the commanding a ien u! against the "a , s! itting its head o!en.he other a iens stood u!, as Andy !ic'ed u! another a ien "ith his )mind

!o"ers*, unti the "ho e grou! of them scram# ed out of the room. 0ensing that thissituation "as getting out of contro , Ado !h gra##ed Andy and said, )Let$s get out ofhereG* Fu of adrena ine, Andy shouted #ac', )I don$t care, I$m indestructi# eG* Icou dn$t he ! #ut as' Andy, )3hat co or "as the a iens head$s insides that s! at aover the "a H 4id they have red # oodH* e to d me, )It "as "hitish grey "ith

greenish # ood.* 3e o'ed a#out that one, aughing it off as )a ien rey s! it !easou!G*;I mentioned this to an Internet ist grou! of )e+!eriencers* and they #ecamevery angry "ith me, "anting to defend the !oor a iens. hey eventua y 'ic'ed meoff the Mu!!et istG<

Andy did say he had #een a#ducted #y the a ien reys a fe" times, "here sam! es"ere ta'en from him for #reeding !ur!oses. ne of the more #i arre stories Andyre ated to me "as a#out his visit to a grou! of high eve I uminati, "ho "ere rea ysha!e shifting re!ti ians, that convened in an underground #ase not far from

&ochester, ( . his ha!!ened sometime in 1989-9 . e "as not sure of the e+actocation, #ut it "as an underground faci ity in a arge conference room "here a veryong, dar' "ooded conference ta# e sat. It "as a !arty gathering "here a grou! of

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ta , Aryan oo'ing@ o der ma es "ere having drin's. ne of the men "a 'ed over toAndy, and his human image !hased out, as if there "as an energetic interference thatcaused his ho ogra!hic image to shift. Andy oo'ed at the creature as he ad ustedsome #utton on a # ac' #o+ device attached to his "aist. he man$s image shifted

from a ta human to a J-foot ta , KC # i ard man, according to Andy. he re!ti ianshifted #ac' again to human, and then said, ) ere, I$ sho" you*. 0o he !ushes the #utton on his "aist device and his image shifts #ac' to the J-foot ta &e!toidcreature. A!!arent y, Andy thought that his energy fie d caused a momentary shiftin the ho ogra!hic human image that the &e!ti ian mas/ueraded. he artificiaho ogram "as maintained #y a device that they "ore on their "aist. I "ou dn$t haveta'en Andy$s story too serious y, e+ce!t for a simi ar re!ort from a Monarch s ave"ho descri#ed the same thing2the ong, "ooden conference ta# e, the same argevie" screen in the front of the room, and the ta Aryan humans "ho cou d a ter their

ho ogra!hic image via a #o+ he d at their "aist.ne of the more hi arious as!ects to Andy$s story "as his descri!tion of the chairsthat the sha!e-shifting re!ti ians sat in, around the ong conference ta# e. here "as avideo ty!e of screen at the front of the room, and each sitting area around the ta# ehad its o"n itt e ight and com!uter conso e that came out of the ta# e as if it "as #ui t in. he chairs "ere high #ac'ed, since the i ard men "ere a at east J feet ta .But a minor detai caught Andy$s attention a#out the chairs that these &e!ti ians satin. e oo'ed do"n to see that each chair had a s it in it, as if it "as a dou# e- #ottomed chair, i'e t"o #ig # oc's. 3hen Andy sa" one of them sit so"n, herea i ed that the s its in the chairs "ere so that they cou d sit do"n "ith their tai sunderneath themG ai or made conference chairs "ith s its in them for &e!ti ian tai sG3e aughed a#out that too, "ondering "hen this "ou d ever sho" u! on 0tar re'or Ba#y on C. hat e+!erience "as one of Andy$s first introductions to &e!ti ians.

n another occasion, Andy "as introduced to a &e!ti ian, and ta'en to a !rivateroom, again, in some 'ind of underground faci ity. his time, Andy #e ieves he musthave #een tested for his reaction to a horror scene. r !erha!s this may have #eendesigned for trauma s! itting !ur!oses2or even an im! anted memory. he

&e!ti ian invites Andy in his !rivate /uarters, that oo's i'e a fancy hote room. eis ready to have dinner in his !rivate room. A servant ro s a arge si ver cart in theroom, i'e a hote room service ty!e of cart. he &e!ti ian o!ens the tray to e+!ose K-C human #a#ies a ive and crying. Andy stood there as the &e!ti ian too' a huge #iteout of the ive infant, s! itting it in ha f, eating the #a#y a ive. orrified andnauseous, Andy #o ted to"ard the door. he &e!ti ian tried to gra# Andy #ut hemanaged to esca!e unti C rey a iens "ho stood guarding the door, a!!ed him"ith some device that 'noc'ed him out co d. 3e , that "as enough of the #a#yeating re!ti ian stories for meG I "anted to 'no" more a#out time trave , the

Montau' chair and am! ification of 'unda ini energy. 0o I as'ed Andy "hy do theydo such se+ua energy mani!u ationsH 3hy ma e Montau' chair o!erators and notfema esH Andy to d me a#out the 'unda ini energy activation and ty!es of se+ua





Andy re! ied, )7esus %hrist.* By mid "inter 1999, I had ost contact "ith Andy, asevents 'e!t !u ing him from one chaotic drama to the ne+t. I 'ne" that Andy "asta!!ing into his o"n re!ressed rage from a his mind contro ed a#use and he hadno"here to turn. e rea i ed ho" infi trated the :F community "as and even

those invo ved in mind contro research. e 'ne" his fami y "as !ro#a# y mindcontro ed too, adding to the security !ro# ems he had. e rea i ed at some !oint,that he had to 'ee! secret the memories that surfaced, #ecause if he s!o'e them toanyone, it seemed as if every ste! of the "ay he "as distracted or neutra i ed. Andy #ecame more !aranoid2and determined to )get his a#i ities #ac'.* e #e ieved inhimse f to the !oint of a!!earing grandiose and de usiona #ecause of his )su!ermana#i ities*.

I had nightmares of seeing Andy #eing #eaten, head thro"n against the "a "ith ahuge # ac' eye, that oo'ed a#norma . I 'ne" something "as terri# y "rong, #ut Icou d not find out, as I had ost contact. Later that s!ring I found out through a c osefriend that she had seen Andy, and he oo'ed entire y )different* from the "ay shehad 'no"n him #efore. Andy had something strange in one of his eyes, i'e anim! ant or something unnatura .

Months "ent #y, and then a year. I "as to d recent y #y Preston (icho s that not ongafter the s!ring of 1999, Andy trave ed to Ari ona and got invo ved in some cu t2!erha!s to stay hidden and )out of the system*. May#e he got re-!rogrammed #ycu t mem#ers. e then trave ed out of country to orea and to such e+otic ! aces as(e!a , i#et and at Man 4u. By mid-year D Andy returned to the states, out ofmoney. Andy "ent #ac' to (e" 7ersey to as' for money from his fami y, "hichresu ted in another unfortunate incident. is fami y refused to give him money, sohe too' "hat he needed, a car and cash, #y force. Andy$s fami y charged him "ithassau t and ro##ery. (ot ong after this, Andy "as arrested and sent to ai , and isno" a"aiting a tria some"here in Ar'ansas. (o one has heard from him2and as ofthe ate fa of D , Andy is sti in ai .

(ot a good ending to this saga. I$m sure it is on y !art of Andy$s rea story, and at

this !articu ar unction in his ife, he is in e+i e. I ho!e Andy can get the he ! he needs"hen or if he gets out of ai . 0o, for any of you out there "ho care a#out "hat isgoing on in this country "ith mind contro victims, ! ease !ray for his freedom.P ease !ray for others "ho are sti caught in the strongho ds of the enemy. I do #e ieve that if enough of us start caring, the tide "i turn in our favor.



INTRODUCTION

Memories are a strange thing, there are tangi# e memories that can #e!roven factua y, there are su!!ressed memories "hich are c ouded

reco ections of actua events, memories that are a mi+ture of rea andunrea events, memories #ased on imagination and !ossi# y mostfrightening of a , memories that have #een intentiona y)!rogrammed* "ithin the mind of a !erson, "hich might consist ofanything #et"een actua rea ife e+!eriences to entire y )designer*memories that may have #een inserted to )cover u!* e+!eriences thatare far more stranger than fiction. 7ust "here in the s!ectrum thee+!eriences of Andy Pero may fit, I do not 'no" e+act y, a thoughmany of the ! aces and !eo! e he descri#es 4 e+ist as evidenced #y

the in's that I$ve added... so at east a good num#er of his memoriesare a!!arent y accurate... #ut the /uestion is, are his re!ortede+!eriences "ith the a ien time?s!ace !ro ects as carried out in theMontau' #ases a so #ased on fact, and if so to "hat degreeH thershave made simi ar c aims a#out montau' a though these fantastice+!eriences do not a!!ear unti the ast fe" sections of Andy$s storyN ascan #e seen #y doing a 0EA&% of the Internet for other "ritings onthe Montau' Pro ect. 0o here then2for those very fe" readers "ho "ivie" this !age2is Andy Pero$s story... 6

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3hen "e thin' a#out ourse ves "e thin' a#out ho" advanced "e are as a societyand as human #eings. o" smart "e are, and ho" invinci# e "e are. he ru ers ofour o"n domain and a creatures iving "ith in it. et if you oo' at the history ofthe :niverse in re ative terms, man has #een in e+istence for ess than one mi ionthof the time it ta'es you to # in' your eye once, during the entire course of yourifetime. A(4 that is ust since the creation of the Earth. Modern man$s e+istence isagain a infinitesima fraction of the e+istence of omo sa!iens. et here "e are, a

'no"ing, and a !o"er fu . his demeanor on y reinforces the arrogance and the!om!osity of humanity.

If you oo' at everything in re ative terms. If you cou d cut the s'in off the earth, i'eand orange !ee , and aid it f at i'e a circ e. If this "as a ma! of (L our so arsystem. In re ative terms the Earth "ou d #e the si e of a grain of sand. A s!ec' ofdust f oating through s!ace. 7u!iter "ou d #e the si e of a !enny or mar# e, and the0un "ou d #e the si e of a vo ey #a . 0o that$s ho" #ig "e are. ne grain of sandhur ing around an o# ect the si e of a vo ey #a ! aced in the center of the entire

"or d as it is aid out f at i'e an orange s'in. If you then too' another 1 Bi ion ofthese )orange* s'ins and aid them end to end this "ou d ma'e u! on y our a a+yhen, if you too' another 1 Bi ion a a+y$s and stuc' them a together, you mayeven come c ose to having a fraction of the 'no"n :niverse. And here "e arethin'ing that "e are )Big 0hit* #ecause "e have the Internet.

3hen I "as gro"ing u! the te evision series )0tar re'* "as a far out science fictionfantasy sho" that "as the source of many adu t$s and chi dren$s dreams. he a#i ityto trave through s!ace "ith re ative comfort. o have "ea!ons that 'i ed "ith a

#eam of ight. o #e a# e to trans!ort !eo! e to different ! aces #y ta'ing theirmo ecu es a!art and then rearranging them e+act y in the same order some"here e seseemed to #e such fantasy that that "as a it cou d ever #e. 7ust a fantasy, #ecause toacce!t it as #eing a rea ity "ou d #e to acce!t something that is #eyond ourunderstanding. his of course cou d not #e !ossi# e #ecause "e are the mostadvanced society that this "or d has ever seen. And of course if "e can$t do it, ittherefor cannot #e done. his is the thin'ing that "e as a society have underta'en,thus sho"ing our gross arrogance as a s!ecies. hin' a#out this. hin' a#out "here"e are today. hin' of "here "e "ere C years ago, and thin' of "here "e "i #eC years from no". In the year 1K9J ;C years ago< the Portuguese e+! orer ascoda ama, "as ust eaving Lis#on "ith four shi!s to investigate the !ossi#i ity of asea route to India around the %a!e of ood o!e. 3e hadn$t even e+! ored the



entire ! anet yet, and "ere trave ing around in "ooden sai #oats. Imagine if aarrier 7et sudden y a!!eared over one of asco da ama$s shi!$s. 4o you thin' he"ou d have thought that this thing "as sim! y a (avy !i ot f ying in "hat is no" #ymodern standards to #e considered to #e out dated techno ogy. f course not, he

"ou d have thought that that "as some 'ind of )s!ace shi!* or something. May#e it"as even some sort of god. 3hyH Because as far as he "as concerned ;his time #asedsense of rea ity< his shi!s "ere at the cutting edge of techno ogy. e "e in contro ofthe most advanced techno ogies man'ind had ever seen. 0omething of this nature"ou d #e #eyond even his "i dest fantasies. et C years ater here "e are doing it.hat$s a#out 1 generations of humanity. hin' a#out that in terms of the :niverseand ho" augha# e of a time frame it rea y is. In C years "e have gone from"ooden #oats and trying to find a the and masses on our ! anet to having su!ercom!uters and are e+! oring #eyond our o"n "or d into the universe.

3hat "i the "or d oo' i'e in another C years. As I am "riting a this do"n on acom!uter. 3hen I #ought it "as the state of the art techno ogy. he sma est andfastest that money cou d #uy ;at east the techno ogy avai a# e to the !u# ic<. et essthen t"o years ater my com!uter is no" #ecome vast y outdated as com!uters!eeds have virtua y tri! ed, and have reduced in si e #y a most ha f from "hen I #ought mine. he !oint here is that the "or d is moving so fast right no", "ith su!ercom!uters, 4(A c oning, :F techno ogies, the idea of a "or d such as the one!ortrayed in the te evision sho" )star re'* "as once nothing more then a fantasy.he fact is that it "i #e here "ithin the ne+t C years. hat$s ess then 1

generations of humanity. In re ativity to the age of the :niverse, that$s ess then one #i ionth of the time that it ta'es you to # in' your eye once during the course of yourifetime.

3hat is going to ha!!en to the "or d during that time. As !ortrayed in many of thescience fiction movies there "i #e one "or d government to ru e the "or d. If yousto! and ta'e a oo' around you at "hat$s ha!!ening to the "or d you can see itha!!ening right in front of you. As cor!orations merge to form #igger and #iggercom!anies. As #an's merge to #ecome #igger and more !o"erfu financiainstitutions and a #ecome inter oc'ed as the si e of each cor!orate merger continuesto gro" at an e+!onentia rate. As "e "i a soon have on y num#er to identify us.3e "i need on y one card to do a of our financia transactions, for a of ouridentification needs, for everything his is "hat the introduction of "hat "e ca the)4EBI card* #y our financia institutions "as su!!osed to esta# ish. 0o, "ho isgoing to #e running the sho" "hen a this occursH he government and e ectedofficia sH he /uestion here is "ho "i rea y #e running the sho"H 3hen "e thin'a#out !eo! e or organi ations "ho o!erate outside the norma !arameters of "hatour society has esta# ished for itse f. 3e thin' of these !eo! e as crimina s or outcasts

of "hat )"e* deem as acce!ta# e #ehavior. 3e thin' of organi ations such as theMafia or drug carte s. 3e thin' of these organi ations in a negative manor #ecause ofthe re!utation that they #ring to the ta# e and the ty!e of !eo! e they are associated



"ith doing their #usiness. 3e thin' of them as #eing ty!ica y a )B ue %o ar*o!eration. hey dea in smugg ing, gam# ing, drugs, oan shar'ing and stea ing, etc.he si e of these o!erations can num#er in the hundreds and even thousands of

!eo! e "ho are invo ved "ith each organi ation, and "e genera y don$t have a great

an+iety a#out these !eo! e #ecause "e fee secure in that the !o ice or the FBI areafter them and their o!erations. But "hat a#out the )3hite %o ar* organi ationsHhe organi ations that 3( the !o ice and the FBI. 4o "e thin' that they cou d note+ist #ecause the u!sca e )"hite co ar* !rofessiona s ust "ou d not #e smartenough to organi e such an o!eration. 3e sim! y don$t thin' a#out this !ossi#i ity #ecause "e never hear anything a#out itG he reason "hyH It is #ecause theseorgani ations, "ho un i'e the Mafia "ho have imits to their !o"er, theseorgani ations are so !o"erfu that they rea y are the ones "ho contro the country.If they don$t "ant something to come out in the ne"s it sim! y doesn$t. 3hy,

#ecause they contro the ne"s !a!ers, and the te evision stations, and the !o ice andthe FBI and the !o iticians. hey contro everything, and they are "hite co ar.Instead of running drugs and #eing on the ne"s a#out it, they o"n vast shares ofstoc' in )B ue chi!* com!anies, and then run the drugs sim! y in a !o iticians!ersona ! aneG If something doesn$t go their "ay they send over the FBI or the state!o ice. If something doesn$t go their "ay and needs to #e changed ega y theysim! y ta ' to a the 0enators they need to to get the a"s changed in their favor.hese net"or's of the "hite co ar organi ations are so vast and !o"erfu that theyare in rea ity the !eo! e "ho run the "or d.

3e sim! y never hear a#out them #ecause that$s the "ay they "ant it. Are these!eo! e crimina sH It$s a good /uestion. he definition of a crimina is someone "ho #rea's the a". 0o ho" do "e contro the !eo! e "ho contro the !eo! e "ho ma'ethe a"s. he !eo! e "ho rea y do act )a#ove the a"* #ecause in rea ity they rea yare. 3hat is considered to #e murder and "hat is considered to #e )a !o iticao# ective*. It a de!ends on your !ers!ective. If you as' the citi ens of Ira/ if theythin' the :nited 0tates is an honora# e country for "hat they did in the u f "ar.hey a thin' that "e are a #unch # ood thirsty inso ent #astards. But here in the:nited 0tates, !u# ic y, "e have no !ro# em 'i ing tens of thousands of Ira/is asong it 'ee!s me from having to go co d in the "inter from a ac' of oi and #ecausethe ne" !eo! e say that "e must )to !reserve :& interests in the area*. Again, it$sa a matter of !ers!ective, and a matter of "hich side you are on. he "inning sideor the osing side. After the end of "or d "ar II, as the horror of "hat the (a i !artydoing to concentration cam! !risoners started to come into the ight. 3hen thee+!eriments the (a i doctors "ere conducting #egan to #ecome unrave ed. A he #egan to #rea' oose as the "ar effort "as ost. In the aftermath as ermanysurrendered, "hat did the :nited 0tates Army doH hey rounded u! a the (a idoctors and scientists "ho, for the !ast fe" years had #een !erforming horrific

e+!eriments on concentration cam! !risoners. And treated them i'e 'ings as the restof ermany starved. 3hyH hey "anted their 'no" edge, and "hat they haddiscovered.



As the :nited 0tates fina y got into s!ace and eventua y to the moon. "o of themain contri#utors "ere (a i scientist "ho had years ear ier tortured or used s avea#or to further their "or'. But no" that they "ere "or'ing for us they are hero$s.he first one "as the scientist 3ehrner on Braun "ho "as one of the chief

engineers for it er$s roc'et !rogram. Braun "as the chief engineer for the 0aturn roc'et that #oosted the (ei Armstrong and the A!o o 11 cre" to the moon. heother (a i scientist, "ho$s name esca!es me, "as res!onsi# e for the torture ofhundreds of !risoners #y ! acing them in a meta #o+ at high a titudes and then"ou d see ho" human #eings cou d survive unti the !ressure in their ear drums #ecame so severe that it drove them mad. he su# ects "ere driven to the !oint ofmadness and many !u ed their hair out and itera y ri!!ed the s'in off their sca !sin an attem!t to re ieve the #ui d u! of !ressure in their heads. et this man then hashis "ar history "i!ed c ean #y the :.0. Army and ended u! designing the s!ace

suite that (ei Armstrong "ore during his s!ace "a ' on the moon. (o" this manhas #ecome a hero.

0oG 3e must as' ourse ves the rea ity /uestionH Is that the e+tent of itH 3hat a#outthe rest of themH 4id the (a i$s sim! y disa!!earH he rea ity is that they have #eenhere a a ong. he truth is that they never rea y "ent a"ay. And the truth is thatthey have s o" y #een ta'ing over right in front off your eyes. here are manytheories a#out ho" the (a i !arty "as trans! anted to the "est after the end of"or d "ar II. o" the :nited 0tates government "or'ing in con unction "ith the(a i scientists ;as "e as the e ite )centra inner core* of the (a i !arty< after the"ar ended continued to e+! ore the usage of e ectromagnetic devices on humansu# ects fore the so e !ro!ose of )MI(4 % ( & L*. he most famous and ongoing!rogram is the !ro ect ca ed the M :L &A !rogram and the M ( A: !ro ect.he M :L &A !rogram is "here the %IA #egan their e+!eriments using L04 as"e as a series of other drugs to try and find )a truth drug* a "ay to contro !eo! esminds through mani!u ation and y!nosis. he !rogram "as su!!osed ysus!ended and (E E& "as to #e attem!ted on :.0. citi ens. As stated #y the formerdirector of the %IA &ichard e ms )3e do not target American citi ens*. he!rogram "as designed to not on y find a "ay to contro !eo! e$s minds #ut the: timate goa "as to contro them to the !oint of #eing a# e to ma'e them into)Manchurian %andidates*. he %IA says that it su!!osed y cut off the !rogram in19J "ithout having succeeded. Even though there have #een severa )Manchurian%andidate* ty!e assassinations and assassin attem!ts after 19J . 0uch as 4avid%ha!man "ho on 4ec 8 th 198 'i ed the #eet e 7ohn Lennon, or 7ohn inc' ey 7r."hen he shot President &eagen in 1981. A of these "ere hy!notic mind controty!es of assassination$s, and there are many other e+am! es such as the ennedyassassination and the ist goes on and on. hese !rograms "ere su!!osed ya#andoned, they "ere not. hey in fact #ecame more and more successfu , and as a

resu t of this moved higher and higher u! the security c earance eve s andeventua y under ground to the )0ecret 0ocieties* the )0ecret government*. ery!o"erfu grou!s "ho$s in's are to the (a i !arty and "ho$s net"or' of s!ies and



contacts reaches so far into the government, the media, the udicia system to the!oint that they are a most unsto!!a# e. 4o these grou!s rea y e+ist, and do they! ay a ma or ro e in the outcome of !o itics around the "or d. 4o these grou!s!ractice )MI(4 % ( & L* to try and mani!u ate !eo! e into doing their #idding.

%an these !eo! e create a )Manchurian %andidate* to use for their o"n !o itica!ur!oses.

Let me te you, A E %A(, A(4 E A&E 4 I( I &I ( 3. I'no" this #ecause it ha!!ened to me. I am a survivor on y for reasons "hich "i #ee+! ained ater. hese !eo! e, this organi ation, got ho d of me at a young age andthen continued to mani!u ate me through out my ife. A the "ay u! to the !resentmoment. 3ho are these !eo! e, E ILL:MI(A I. 3ho are the I uminatiH If youoo' on the #ac' of a one do ar #i , you "i see a !yramid "ith an )A seeing eye*

in the midd e of it. 0tating that "e are a "ays "atching you. he I uminati is thee ite of the e ite in secret societies. oing #ac' to a most #i# ica times these are thegrou!s "hich tru y contro the "or d. (o" "ith the era of modern techno ogy mindcontro has #ecome a rea ity as it has #een discovered that the human #rain can #emani!u ated to contro a as!ects of emotion ranging from fear, to anger, toha!!iness, sim! y #y transmitting at a fre/uency of KDC-KC M 3hich #y a veryoutrageous coincidence is the same fre/uency used as the .A.&.&.P. !ro ect goingon right no"G And if you don$t thin' they are doing it no" to you right no" thenyou are not in touch "ith "hat is rea y ha!!ening to the "or d "e ive in.

his is my story, and this is my ife. his is the time ine in "hich events occurred as"e as I can reca . As I s o" y regain my memory this is my ife as I can remem#erit. his is ho"ever ust a rough out ine and many of the !ara e time ines "hichcoe+ist during my ife have #een eft out of this document. As time goes #y more andmore of the !ieces "i fa into ! ace.

1963-

My father graduates from the :0 (ave Academy c ass of =Q ;Michae A. Pero 7r.<.

Aug 1966-Nov 1968-

My fami y is stationed at the %B$s %onstruction Batta ion %enter in ueneme,%a ifornia.

Nov 1968 -

My fami y moves to Fa on (evada. My father is the L . %ommander at the Fa on (ave Air 0tation in Fa on (evada.

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#ut I 4 remem#er as'ing him )"hy are you ta'ing me hereH* and he ans"ered)Because of your fatherG* )But my father "as in the (avy, "hy are you ta'ing me toan air #aseH* I as'ed again. And the man ans"ers )0on, a #ranches of the mi itary"or' very c ose y together.* )But he is no onger in the (avyH* I ans"ered. And he

said )3e are doing this as a =s!ecia $ favor for your father.* )3hy* I as'ed.)BE%A:0E 3E A E %A&E F :& 3(G* he says as his tone has changed, andthen he said )you sure do as' a ot of /uestions you itt e shit.* I remem#er this hurtmy fee ings #ecause I "asnSt trying to #e a itt e shit, I ust "anted to 'no" "hy there"ere ta'ing me to this strange ! ace. I don$t remem#er #eing inside of the air #ase, aI remem#er is the inside of a doctor$s room. An e+amining room. hey made me stri!do"n to my under"ear and sit on this shinny meta ta# e. I remem#er the ta# e #eingvery co d, so co d that I as'ed if I cou d move or get off it and a #ig #ooming voiceshouts out )4 ( M E A(4 4 ( 0PEA :(LE00 : A&E 0P E(

.* 0o I sat there "ith goose #um!s on my egs. I hear movement #ehind me and Ihear )is this the 'id* and a man comes over and starts e+amining me "ith his hands,"ith a stethosco!e, and hits my 'nee "ith a ru##er hammer. hat$s a I remem#er. I"as C years o d. I never rea y thought a#out it much, #ut as I #egan "riting a thisdo"n, I casua y as'ed my mother for the name of the air #ase in ermany "here I"ent to schoo in the afternoon. 0he said )you never "ent to any mi itary air #ase forschoo in ermany.* )&ea y* I said. ) hen "here did I go to schoo in ermanyH* Ias'ed her. )0ome schoo of the )Americus* at the university or something.* 0he said.)F & I(4E& A& E(GG* I said. )Mom that doesn$t ma'e any sense, I "ent to ami itary #ase for Eng ish schoo #ecause 4ad "as in the (avy, rightHHH* )4on$t #eridicu es, I$m your mother and I 'no" "here and "hen you "ent to schoo G* shesays. ) @ hen "hat "as the name of the schoo in ermany momG* I as'. And shethin's and thin's and she can$t remem#er the name. 3e then !roceed to have a hugeargument a#out this. 0he fina y "a 's a"ay and says she doesn$t "ant to ta ' a#outit any more. I had a "ays ust assumed that I "ent to the erman 'indergarten in themorning and then the air #ase in the afternoon, #ecause of the connection throughmy father and that Ss "hy I "as there. If I never had as'ed my mother for the nameof the air #ase, I never "ou d have thought t"ice a#out any of this. I never rea ythought a#out it much, #ut no" that I do thin' a#out it. I c ear y remem#er theerman 'indergarten, and c ear y I remem#er the air #ase and the e+amining room. Idon$t remem#er ever going to any other schoo or having any other friends from thatschoo or even #eing there. I do remem#er the conversation "ith the man as to "hythey "ere ta'ing me there, and I do remem#er the e+amining room. It Ss i'e a Csecond c i! of a 1 minute movie. 7ust a cou! e of seconds and then it sto!s, and yetyou someho" 'no" there is much more. 3hen I as'ed my father if he 'ne" "here I"ent to schoo in ermany. e re! ied )sure* the Mc ra" aserne Army roo! Air Base. 3hen I as'ed him a#out the e+aminations. e re! ied )"e "ere to d #y adoctor that you had a )heart murmur or heart noise*, it "as nothing serious #ut they

"anted to e+amine me severa times any"ay.* he thing is ater on after I graduatedco ege I "ent into see a cardio ogist. I had #een having chest !ains for years from themassive steroid in ections they had given me my freshmen year in co ege, I had

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deve o!ed arthritis in the carti age #et"een my ri#s from my ri# cage e+!anding sofast from the steroids. 3hen I as'ed a#out my )heart noise* the cardio ogist sho"edme my !rint out and sho"ed me that my heart #eat "as a#so ute y !erfect, and thereis a#so ute y no sign of A( )heart noise* "hat so everG

Aug 1976 -

3e move #ac' to (e" 7ersey, I #egin 1 st grade, again, in the oca schoo system. Mymother he d me #ac' #e ieving that I "ou d do #etter in my schoo ing if I "as one ofthe )o der* 'ids in the c ass rather than one of the )youngest* ;I guess my #irthday"as right on the #order and it cou d have gone either "ay<.

Sept 1979-

My !arents have #een #e igerent to"ard each other for some time no", and decideto get a divorce ;at this !oint they se!arate<. I am no" 9 years o d and am enteringthe Kth grade. As chi dren, the schoo system tests a chi dren$s IT eve s, I remem#er #eing to d that I "as an )a#so ute genius*. I don$t 'no" "hat my IT "as #ut this"as met "ith utter dis#e ief and I "as moc'ed and ridicu ed #y the !arents andteachers #ecause I "as the )Big dum# 7oc'*. As I "as #y far the #iggest 'id in thec ass, and the #est ath ete. o"ever I had a severe stuttering !ro# em. I "asconsidered to #e the c ass idiot, #ecause I never s!o'e, and I never did "e in schoo .noteR ironica y, my o"n father "as in the (avy, I "as a so he d #ac' a grade, and

did not do "e in schoo ... e+ce!t in arts, #ut in mathematics and simi ar su# ects ifai ed mistera# y - #rantonN 0o the fact that I "as this )genius* must have #een"rong, and the !arents of one of the most aff uent areas in (e" 7ersey "ou d notacce!t that this #ig stuttering idiot cou d !ossi# y #e smarter then their sons anddaughters so it "as dismissed. I had had the stuttering !ro# em for as ong as I canremem#er and a throughout my chi dhood I itera y cou d not s!ea' a com! etesentence, many time I cou d not even s!ea' a "ord. he thing is I cannot remem#er"hen or "hy I started stuttering, #ut I do remem#er #eing a# e to s!ea' ermanf uent y "ithout any !ro# em at a and having no s!eech !ro# ems erman or

Eng ish at a . I stuttered severe y from a#out the time "e got #ac' from ermany u!unti the age of DC.

March 1981-

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And you "i do "e , at "hat ever you choose to doG For myse f, someho" using the0i va Mind %ontro methods, I had the a#i ity to !icture myse f !erforminge+traordinary feats on the ! aying fie d, and then someho" accom! ishing them inrea ity "ith ease, ust i'e it "as second nature. 4on$t thin', ust do.

June 1982-

My !arents, "hen they "ere sti together, had invested in severa houses in the area,and rented them out as su!! ementa income. In 7une of 198D, my mother, my se f andmy sister move into the house "e used to rent out in &amsey, and !ut the house "e usteft on the mar'et for sa e ;#asica y my father moved into one house "e o"ned in3a d"ic', "e moved into the other house in &amsey , and my !arents so d the )#ig*house in o- o- us "e a used to ive in and s! it the money in the divorce<. ur)ne"* house in &amsey "as ocated on y a#out 1 minutes from the o d house in o-

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grade. A so starting in a ne" schoo .

July 11 th 1983-

My mother had #een dating a man "ho$s name "as 3a ter 7ohnson. hey had #eenseeing each other for the !ast D years or so and "ere engaged to #e married. My!arent$s had fina i ed their divorce ear ier that year, he had #een se!arated from his"ife for a#out K years. n 7u y 11 th 198 , Mr. 7ohnson "ent over to his soon to #e +-"ife$s house to sign and fina i e their divorce !a!ers. :n'no"n to Mr. 7ohnson, hissoon to #e +-"ife ;0a y 7ohnson< had sto en a . CJ magnum !isto from her #rother.3hat ha!!ened ne+t "as the fo o"ing, as Mr. 7ohnson "as hunched over at hisdes' in the #asement of his o d house signing the divorce !a!ers. 0a y 7ohnson cameu! #ehind him and said )If I cannot have you no one e se "i * and shot him in the #ac' of his head. e died instant y, and "hen the !o ice fina y found him t"o daysater his head had #een com! ete y # o"n off his #ody. E E& 3 &4 F I0

:(F & :(A EL I0 ALL &:E. is name again "as 3a ter 7ohnson. e "as the4irector for 0enior E+ecutive Personne for the EVV ( i %or!. (e" or' office.e "as 'i ed on 7u y 11 th 198 in &idge"ood, (e" 7ersey. e "as my mother$s

fiancee. My mother, for the ne+t severa years "as #eyond any rationa means ofdescri!tion in terms of hysteria, and grieving. er erman friend Astrid "as a greathe ! in her time of need. 3hat this did to me ho"ever "as the fo o"ing. As a 1Dyear #oy, coming home from schoo and seeing and hearing your mother cryingE E& 4A , A(4 ALL 4A and then ALL (I , A(4 E E& (I is veryhard on a 1D year o d #oy. 0he "as #eyond the "ord devastated. 0o, o#vious y at thetime, I$m not too an+ious to go home after schoo . For a "hi e I got into some trou# e;hanging out "ith the "rong cro"d that sort of thing<. hen I discovered my ne"!assion, "or'ing out and 3EI LIF I( G It #ecame an o#session. In the J th gradeI #egan "or'ing out everyday. I "ou d ride my #i'e u! to the high schoo every dayand "or'out for hours, and I mean D to hours E E& 4A ;anything to avoidgoing home<G

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and don$t come #ac' #ecause : 3ILL (E E& PLA E&E A0 L ( A0 I AME % A% .* he ne+t day he #rings me into the deans office and te s me to )/uit*

#ecause I "i never ! ay at &amsey igh schoo . I never /uit #ut for the ne+t t"oyears everyday at !ractice he "ou d scream at me to )get off his fie d* and I

"ou dn$t. (ot for any great ove for him or the game #y any means. It "as sim! ystay and get ye ed at or go home to my hysterica y crying mother. 0o I stayed andtoo' his a#use #ut he fe t so vio ated that I 'ne" "hat "as going on in his ife hedidn$t "ant me any "here near him, and of course I "as right ne+t to him foreverything #ecause I "ou dn$t /uit. his made him e+treme y hosti e to"ards me.his continued a through high schoo . he thing is, every no" and then, "hether it"as going into the oc'er room at ha f time or after the game getting #ac' on the #us,or at the trac' meets I &EMEMBE& seeing the same t"o mi itary men ;Mr. reen andMr. B ue<. I "ou d ! ay in 1 foot#a games !er year and thro" in a!!ro+imate y D

t"enty trac' meets a year. hin'ing #ac' I on y sa" these men D or times a year. o #e honest I on y remem#er seeing these men t"ice at foot#a games during my fouryears in high schoo . Both times I "as "a 'ing off the fie d after the game and Istarted oo'ing for my !arents and I oo'ed into the cro"d, and they "ere, uststanding there in the midd e of a sea of moving !eo! e oo'ing right at me. And Isaid the same thing )that$s odd, "hat the e are those t"o guys doing here.* Andagain I "ou d ust dismiss it. I "ou d main y see them at the trac' meets. Let mee+! ain, in igh schoo trac' there are t"o ty!es of meets. he trac' team schedu econsisted of 1 -1D )Bi or ri* meets, "hen our schoo com!etes against anotherschoo , or t"o other schoo s, in "hich case it is a tri meet. hese are sma meets and I(E E& sa" these men during one of them. he other ty!es of meets are the countymeets, re ay meets, and state meets. hese meets consist of D to EAM0 #eingthere. As such these are huge events. I "ou d say #et"een C, and 1 , !eo! e"ou d #e there ;I mean some of these things "ere : E events<. Any"ay, ho" did I!ic' out these t"o men among 1 , !eo! e. he "ay these meets "or' is everyonesort of goes to their o"n area. he !o e vo ters go to the !o e vo t area, the high um!ers go to the high um! !it, and each area has it$s o"n cro"d "hich then formsaround each area ;a the coaches of those ath etes, the !arents etc. etc.<. 0o, the shot!ut circ e usua y is over and off to the side some"here, #asica y c ear of everythinge se. As "e #egan to thro", a the com!eting ath etes, the coaches, and the !arents"ou d a sort of gather in the same area to "atch the event. At east once a year atone of these #ig meets my eye "ou d ust catch the odd site of these t"o men inuniform at these meets. I honest y convinced myse f that at east one of them had tohave a son that "as com!eting or something. It "asn$t unusua to see men inuniforms at the trac' meets #ecause other 'ids "ere going to go to schoo at themi itary academies and as the meets trans!ired I occasiona y sa" other men inuniforms "a 'ing around and ta 'ing to !eo! e. For e+am! e the shot !utter fromLodi "as going to go to 3est Point, and I sa" another man in a green uniform over

ta 'ing to him. 3hat made this a so "eird "as the t"o men I$m ta 'ing a#out "ereoo'ing at me and I didn$t 'no" "hy. I didn$t !ut it a together unti years ater.



T H R E E

May-1987 -

rac' season unior year, at one of the ma or re ay meets, it "as announced the !rior"ee' that there "as going to #e a )c ean and er' "eight ifting contest* s!onsored #ysome guy I had never heard of. I of course "as a e+cited, and trained that "ee' onmy techni/ue. As it turns out a it "as, "as a guy "ith some ru##er mats and aym!ic #ar#e set in the midd e of a grass fie d. I too' second ! ace "ith a ift of

DQC #s !o"er c eaned to the chest and then !ressed over my head. he 'id "ho "on"as a senior and did DJC. It "as ust sort of a )friend y* contest. I am 1J years o d

and in 11th

grade.

July-1987-

It$s summer time and I am training for foot#a . I get a ca from a coach I had nevers!o'e to #efore, coach imme H um eH Bur eH I can$t remem#er his e+act name orhis !hone num#er #ut I do remem#er that he is from some"here in %o orado.Any"ay, he is the :nited 0tates Po"er ifting team coach and he "ants me to dro!everything that I am doing and move to %o orado on a "hims notice, to go train forthe c ean and er'. I as'ed him in confusion "hy he "as ca ing me, I finished secondin the contestH e then says to me I finished second #ut the guy I ost to "as a yearo der #ut more im!ortant y he "as a so C !ounds heavier. 0o !ound for !ound I"as much stronger and as it turns out that in my age grou! and for my "eight ;1Jyears o d and #et"een D 1 and DD9 #s.< I "as ran'ed fifth in the country, in this one!articu ar ift. his may seem i'e a dream come true for me, #ut et me te you. 7usti'e "ith anything you do, even if you rea y en oy it, there can #e things you rea yhate a#out it as "e . he !o"er c ean and the c ean and er' "ere my a#so ute eastfavorite e+ercises. o #e # unt, I oved "or'ing out #ut I des!ised those !articu art"o e+ercises es!ecia y. his a ong "ith the fact that I cou d not ust )get u! andeave my mother.* 0he "as doing much #etter, #ut #y no stretch of the imaginationcou d her menta condition #e considered to #e )sta# e.* I am 1J years o d and a#outto enter the 1D th grade and I do not go to %o orado to train for the :.0. !o"er iftingteam.

Aug-1987-

Foot#a cam! senior year, I test in the #ench !ress 9 #s, in the s/uat C C #s, andin the !o"er c ean D8 #s. 3e finish the season Q- and are division cham!s. I #egin

"or'ing out again and I start to thin' a#out co ege.



Dec 1987-May 1988-

My "or'outs continue very "e . o"ever I deve o! a )ne" idea*. (o" "hen I gothrough my "or'out menta y at night I have added a ne" )t"ist*. 3hen I am do"n

on my ) eve * in my mind I have added a huge chair in the room in "hich I amstanding. :sing my 0i va mind contro I sit in the chair. n the eft hand side of thechair are some )air hoses* i'e you "ou d find in a auto garage. I imagine, that on #oth of my arms there are these )air hoses* coming out of my arms. Li'e an I- hosecoming out of your arm. his is my )!um! u! chair*. In my mind I connect the hosescoming out of my arms to the hoses on the side of the chair. I !ush a #utton ocatedon the right arm of the chair "ith my right inde+ finger and the chair activates. Li'ean air station I can fee the vi#rations as I sit in the chair. As I sit there I see my entire #ody start to s"e . Li'e # o"ing u! a #a oon. I menta y te my musc es to gro"and s"e i'e #a oons, A(4 E 4 G I do this for a#out si+ "ee's. his "or's so"e that many of the !arents and teachers thin' that I am no" doing steroids. I amnot, #ut the situation sno" #a s into some 'ind of )"itch hunt* and they ma'e meta'e a steroid test. 3hat ha!!ened "as as I am "or'ing out one day Father 7ac' ;theoca !riest "ho is a "ays hanging around the 'ids and the foot#a team< comes intothe "eight room as I am "or'ing out. e says to me )Andy, there is a ot of ta 'a#out your steroid usage, and if you admit it to me right no" every thing "i #e aright.* )Father 7ac'* I said )I donSt use steroids.* e says )I$m going to as' you onemore time to admit to using steroids.* I oo' him right in the eye and I say )Loo'Father, I 4 ($ use steroids.* And he got very angry and says to me and I "inever forget this )4onSt ever s!ea' to me again you f>c'ing iar, they are going tohang you #y you #a s and I am going to #e there to "atchG* A fe" days ater 7effBro"n ;one of the 'ids on the team< comes in to the "eight room and te s me thatFather 7ac' "ants to see me at the grammar schoo as soon as I am done. 3hen Ifinish my "or'out I go u! to the schoo and Father 7ac' is "aiting for meim!atient y. e gra#s my arm and I get #rought in front of some 'ind of !ane in the #asement of the grade schoo ocated do"n the street. here are four mem#ers of the!ane and the rest of the room is fi ed "ith teachers and !arents. 4r. Purri o "ho isthe chief ortho!edic surgeon at va ey hos!ita in Bergen county (e" 7ersey. Bergen

county is the third most aff uent area in the country, and the to"ns of 0add e &iverand &amsey are in the to! to"ns in the country in terms of "ea th. 4r. Purri o is aheavy heavy hitter in the area if you 'no" "hat I mean. 3hen President (i+on, "horesided in 0add e &iver #efore he died, hurt his 'nee ! aying tennis 4r. Purri o "asthe surgeon "ho !erformed the o!eration, and for a "hi e "as on the Presidentiaist of referra surgeons. I am standing in front of the !ane and he starts !ressing meto )admit* that I am doing steroids. And I 'ee! ans"ering that )I 4I4($ 4 I G*.e 'ee!s !ressing me saying that among the !ane they ho d seven P 4S0 and hethin's they 'no" "hat they are ta 'ing a#out so )ma'e it easy on yourse f and ust

admit it*. And I 'ee! te ing them that )I 4 ($ I E A 0 I 3 A : 0AA(4 I 4 ($ %A&E 3 :& A&E A(4 3 A :& %&E4E( IAL0 A&E, I4I4($ 4 I G* e te s me to ta'e off my shirt to the sho" the acne on my #ac',



#ut there is no acne. his sort of thing goes on for a "hi e and he fina y te s me to)ta'e off your shorts or admit to doing steroids*. 3hat cou d I do, so I too' off myshorts and I vo unteered to give a urine sam! e. I had to !iss in a cu! in front of the!ane as "e as everyone e se "earing on y my snea'ers. e is very !issed at me

and does not give me my shorts #ac' for /uite a "hi e. his "ho e time one of theother mem#ers of the #oard is 4r. Purri oSs friend. e is a Psycho ogist and #et"een the t"o of them they no" start saying that they are going oc' me u! in for #eing menta y insane if I donSt admit to ta'ing steroids. And again I say )L , I4I4($ 4 I G*. his goes on and on. I had gone through a "ho e defense !rovingthat I didn$t do it and no matter "hat I said and no matter "hat !roof I !resented I"as going to #e hanged "hether I did it or not. Fina y I say ) e me ho" you 'no"that I ta'e steroids, "hat$s your !roof, do you have a camera in my house orsomething, ho" do you 'no"H* Fina y after much !ersuasion from the cro"d and

from myse f re uctant y, he #egins to e+! ain that he has a degree in genetics, andthat he has #een studying my genetic code for years. e then goes on to e+! ain ho"his son$s genetic !attern is su!erior to mine in terms of dominate 4(A mar'ers. ehad #een doing a !rivate )thesis* study sho"ing ho" through su!erior genetic #reeding and steroid usage he cou d create a su!erior human #eing. e had a testsu# ect and a contro su# ect. is son "as the test su# ect and I "as the controsu# ect. e had #een in ecting his o"n son "ith steroids for years and since his son$s4(A !attern "as su!erior to mine, his son, in theory, shou d have #een more!hysica y deve o!ed then me. And since he "asn$t, 4r. Purri o$s on y e+! anation"as that I must have #een ta'ing steroids as "e , and he must !rove that I "as ore se his ife$s "or' "ou d have #een "asted. his "as a a great theory, ho"ever thefata f a" "here he had made his mista'e "as that he had assumed that I "as ofIta ian #ac'ground #ecause my ast name is )Pero*. 0o he "as com!aring my 4(A!atterns against the same ones he had used for his son "ho is Ita ian. e never #othered to as' if I "as Ita ian, I am ( . My #ac'ground is ungarian, &omanian,and % ech. his ma'es a the difference in the "or d, and I manage to get out ofthere unscathed.

3hen the test comes #ac', it is negative, and I te a those invo ved that they can go

)stic' it "here the sun doesn$t shine.* he "ho e e!isode is /uite funny as I turnedtheir )"itch hunt* into a circus, es!ecia y my defensive strategy. For the rest of theschoo year a the !eo! e "ho "ere at the tria a gave me the dirtiest oo'simagina# e. A #ecause I had the utter nerve to stand u! for my se f and say )I didnStdo itG* his "as &amsey (e" 7ersey, and the fee ing in the air "as that they didn$tcare if I "as fa se y accused they "ou d not stand for a chi d ta 'ing to them in thatmanner. It "as a videota!ed, and at one time there "ere severa co!ies f oatingaround. Any"ay, as a resu t of this, I sto! using this techni/ue for the !resent time.But that "as far from the end of 4r. Purri o. I am 18 years o d and in the second

ha f of my senior year of high schoo . his e+!erience "as very scary for the reasonthat I sa" the )adu t* "or d for "hat it rea y "as. As a chi d you gro" u! #e ievingthat a adu ts are )a 'no"ing* and are on to! of things. But as I stood there and 4r.



Purri o is te ing me that if I did$t admit to ta'ing steroids that he "as going to haveme committed to a menta institution and have a o#otomy !erformed on me. As Ioo'ed around ALL the other adu ts ust stood around i'e scared shee!. (ot one ofthem said a "ord in my defense. his "as the strangest fee ing, seeing the adu t

"or d as a chi d for "hat it rea y "as for the first time. I rea i ed then that adu ts aree+act y the same as the chi dren, on y they are #igger. here is one #u y that runs thesho", and everyone e se ust stands around scared to say anything. 7ust as they do aschi dren. (o" and for the !ast severa months co ege foot#a recruiters have #eenin contact "ith me #oth #y mai and !ersona visits as the se ection !rocess narro"s.I shou d have #een a ready )signed* #y a ma or :niversity. But since yman mademe disa!!ear from the co ege scouts for t"o years #y not ! aying me. I had fa enout of the )B ue chi! ath ete oo!* and I am no" scram# ing to find a schoo . I amta 'ing to t"o or three sma er division t"o and division three schoo s as "e as

Penn 0tate. Penn 0tate had #een "here I "anted to go a a ong #ut yman "astrying to cover for "hat he had #een doing to me #y ying to the Penn 0tate coachingstaff, sending them the "rong fi ms, te ing them different statistics things i'e that, #ecause he didn$t "ant to have to e+! ain "hy I didn$t ! ay at a as a so!homoreand hard y as a 7unior. Fina y he gets e+!osed, and Penn 0tate offers me ascho arshi! for my first year and then a )fu ride* after that. I "as going to get freeroom and #oard, a I had to !ay for "as #oo's and c asses ;an out of state student"as going to #e a#out W <. It is the trac' season, at the county trac' meet ;thecham!ionshi! meet<. I "in the discus and set the county and state record "ith athro" of 1QJ feet and 11 inches. I finish second in the shot !ut "ith a thro" of CJ feetand inches. A I0 MEE I I I4L &EMEMBE& 0EEI( E 3 ME( I(MILI A& :(IF &M0 3A % I( ME. hey "ere right there, for #oth events and"atched me set the record.

Ever since I had gotten my drivers icense I used to i'e to un"ind a itt e #eforegoing home. 0o I "ou d ride around the area and ! ay music in my car. A fe" daysafter the tria "hi e riding around a #ronco ty!e vehic e is f ashing their head ights atme from #ehind, so I !u over. his ha!!ened on 3est 0add e &iver &oad, and I!u ed into a sma !ar'ing ot right ne+t to the red #ui ding "here my ste! mother

used to se rea -estate. It is Mrs. Purri o driving the #ronco, she is an incredi# y #eautifu "oman ; ate thirties "ith a ot of ! astic surgery<. 0he "as at the tria andduring it ets ust say that I had made her # ush "hen I "as standing in on y mysnea'ers. here is another "oman "ith her. A "oman I had never seen #efore. 0hehad ong # ac' hair and dar' eyes she "as even more #eautifu that Mrs. Puri o.hey te me to get in the #ac' of the #ronco ;"hen you are 18 years o d and t"o ofthe most #eautifu "omen you have ever seen te you to get in the #ac' of their car itis difficu t to resist< so I ! ay a ong and I do. Mrs. Purri o hands me a sma ! asticshot g ass ; i'e something you "ou d see in a hos!ita < it has some 'ind of c ear

i/uid in it and she te s me that it$s "ater and I must #e thirsty and that I shou ddrin' it. I$m thin'ing to my se f )she has got to #e 'idding if she thin's I$m going tofa for that.* I ta'e the g ass and !retend to drin' it #ehind the high #ac' head rest of





!entatho and "ere no" going to get the )truth* out of me. I can #ar ey see him #ut I'no" it$s 4r. Purri o. e starts as'ing me /uestions. )Andy "hat 'ind of steroidsdo you ta'eH* )I don$t use steroids* I ans"er. I can hear him cursing as he as's meagain, )Andy, you "ou dn$t ie to me "ou d you, I$m going to as' you again, 3hat

'ind of steroids do you ta'e.* And again I ans"er )I a ready to d you I 4 ($ :0E0 E& I40G* and I hear him ranting and raving. is friend the !sycho ogist thencomes over and as's to ta'e a try. he ine of /uestioning changes from direct toindirect /uestions. e as's )Andy, te me, "here do you #uy your steroidsH* Ians"er )I have never #ought steroids.* e as's ) o" ong have you #een ta'ing thesteroidsH* and again I ans"er )I$ve never ta'en steroids*. 4r. Purri o is no"furious and he is ranting I$ get it out of him and he sta#s me in my right thigh "itha syringe and in ects me "ith more sodium !entatho . I thin' I ost consciousness fora "hi e and then the /uestioning #egins again. )3here do you #uy your steroidsH*

and again I ans"er )I don$t use steroids.* his goes on and on for a "hi e fina y the!sycho ogist comes over and as's me )Andy, if you don$t use steroids ho" do youe+! ain your a#norma !hysi/ueH* 0im! e, I ans"er )I % EA G* 3hat do you mean #y )you cheat* he as's. )I :0E E P 3E& F M MI(4 B:IL4 MM:0%LE0@ I 3 & 0 P&E 4.. 4 0E($ I H* and I remem#er a #ig smi ecoming over my face as I fe t !roud of "hat I cou d do. And they a come over to meand I then !roceed to e+! ain the 0i va Mind %ontro method that I use. o" I go tomy eve . he !sycho ogist as's me to do it no", and I find myse f e+! aining my tri!do"n into my mind. 3hen I get to my ) eve * I give them a tour of )my room*. heyare a ta 'ing in astonishment. )3AI * I say ) E&E I0 E BE0 PA& * and Ie+! ain to them the )!um! u! chair* I use to gro" my musc es, the undergroundstadium "here )I can do anything* on this )magic* fie d.

I hear the !sycho ogist ye ing at 4r. Purri o )And you "ant to give this 'id ao#otomy, I % :L4 MA E A F>% I( %A&EE& : F I0 I4GGG* e said

something i'e I "as the greatest !sycho!hsio ogic e+am! e, and that I had thegreatest Autogenic a#i ities he has ever seen ;or something i'e that<. e a so used aterm something i'e !sychoneuroimmuno ogy if that ma'es any sense. Any"ay, hethen te s me to o!en my hand and starts to ! ace o# ects in them. e te s me that I

am ho ding a #anana and he "ants me to crush it. I s/uee e the )#anana* and I fee it)s/uish* i'e a #anana. I hear everyone start murmuring in dis#e ief. I have no idea"hat they ! aced in my hand #ut I do 'no" it sure as he "asn$t a #anana. 0oonafter this I start to fee sic'. I fa off my chair. I am s"eating !rofuse y, and I startconvu sing as I #egin to thro" u!. As I am aying on my eft side on the f oorthro"ing u! on my se f. he !sycho ogist comes over to me and oo's into my eyes,he dro!s me and starts ye ing at 4r. Purri o ) 3 M:% 4I4 : I E IMG...3 M:% 4I4 : I E IMG I0 P:PIL0 A&E 4ILA E4 A(4 E (EE40 E 0PI AL &I ( 3GGG. ( 3 3 M:% 4I4 : I E

IMH* 4r. Puri o ans"ers )t"o thousand*. he !sycho ogist ans"ers ) : A EIM 3 :0A(4, A E : L 0 :& MI(4H* 4r. Purri o ans"ers)and then another t"o thousand "hen he "ou dn$t ans"er*. he !sycho ogist



ans"ers )F :& :0A(4G A E : (E ALL I(0A(EH. I0 I4A0 E 0PI AL &I ( 3G* Four thousand "hat I don$t 'no";mi igrams, mi i iters, %c$s< I don$t 'no", a I remem#er is the num#ers. I 'ee!thro"ing u! and I hear then arguing. he !sycho ogist is ye ing at 4r. Purri o

)you said you had a ! an, "hat$s your ! an*. 4r. Purri o ans"ers )I "as sure "e"ou d get it out of him that he "as ying, and then "e "ou d #e e+cused from ta'inghim #ecause he "as a ier.* ) A $0 I GGGH A 3A0 :& PLA(, I4(APA I4 A(4 E( ( (E 3 :L4 P&E00 % A& E0 BE%A:0E E 3A0L I( : AB : A I( 0 E& I40H : A E (E AB0 L: ELI(0A(EG* 4r. Purri o then says )3e "i ta'e him to my office and give him anEmergency o#otomy so he "i never te anyoneG* Mrs. Purri o then ste!s u! andsays )IF : :& A % IL4 I 3ILL ELLG* 4r. Purri o then turns to her ashe is aughing and says )3 A&E : I( ELLH* ) E P LI%E* 0 E

0A 0 )I 3ILL ELL E P LI%EG* e starts ca ing her a itt e #itch and ho" he isdisgusted that she "ou d turn against her o"n hus#and for this 'id. )I "i not a o"you to hurt that chi d* she says. e says )3ELL 4I4 : &EALL I( I 3A0 7:0 I( LE IM , AF E& 3 A E 4I4 ME A E &IAL.* )I3ILL ( ALL 3 : :& A % IL4* she re!eats. hen there is somediscussion as to "hat to do. Fina y the !sycho ogist comes over to me as I amcovered "ith vomit and #ar ey a# e to remain conscious. e starts s"inging this itt emeta #a on the end of a string in front of my face. I try to "atch it as he te s me toand then everything goes # ac'. I "a'e u!, and I am on the front ste!s of my houseand my car is !ar'ed on the street front of the house ;I 'no" I didn$t drive it home #ecause I a "ays !u into the drive"ay<. I have a ot of trou# e getting u!, it fee si'e I am drun' or something and I go right to #ed. he ne+t morning, I have trou# egetting u! in the morning and I can$t /uite ma'e it out #ut I had the "eirdest dreama#out #eing in a hote room, and 4r. Purri o "as there. I remem#ered most of theevents #ut it "as very foggy.

he "ee'end goes #y and then after my "or'out on uesday as I am driving aroundin the same s!ot there is the #ronco again. his time I remem#er "hat ha!!ened andI am !issed off. I get out and I s am the door and I start ye ing at Mrs. Purri o. As I

am ye ing at her and "a 'ing to"ards the car, she ro s do"n the "indo" and startsto say something, then the ne+t thing I 'no" is I am #ac' in the hote room again. I"as in some sort of hy!notic trance or something. I cou dnYt move, and the!sycho ogist then instructs me to start s/uee ing things again. e has this itt egauge and "hen I s/uee e the hand gri! I #rea' it. After he ran a of his tests, then it"as 4r. Purri oSs turn. e ma'es me act i'e a mon'ey and try and ic' myse f. Iremem#er um!ing around the room stretching i'e a mon'ey and fee ing verystu!id as they aughed at me. hen he ma'es me act i'e a chic'en and does manyother things to humi iate me. his goes on for hours. Fina y, the "omen "ho are in

the room te the men to get out #ecause they no" "ant to have )their* fun "ith me.he "omen "ith the # ac' hair no" comes over to me. 0he says a fe" "ords to me. Idon$t 'no" "hat they "ere #ut a of a sudden I fe t a fee ing i'e I had never fe t



#efore, I fe t i'e an anima , territoria , i'e a !rima #east, I got u! and started"a 'ing around the hote room !acing #ac' and forth. My musc es are a !um!edu!, my arms a musc ed and out to the side and my chest is fu y e+!anded as I strutaround the room. I am oo'ing to defend my air against any ma e "ho may come

near. If I see another ma e I "i 'i him. As I oo' over to one of the #eds the "omanin the # ac' hair is na'ed and on her hands and 'nees. 0he has her #ac' arched and is"aving her #utt around i'e she is some #itch in heat. I see her and get an instanterection. I "a ' over to her, ri! off my shorts and start, e+cuse the term, f>c'ing theshit out of her. I !ic' her u! i'e she is a five year o d and ust started "ai ing intoher. I fe t i'e a !rima anima . I f>c'ed her i'e I "as some sort of a #east from thestone age. And she "as oving every minute of it. I "asn$t reaching c ima+, I "as ustnai ing the shit out of this "oman. It "asn$t ! easure I "as fee ing it "as more of aterritoria act if that ma'es any sense. After a "hi e I !u ed out and itera y tossed

her aside "hen I sa" Mrs. Purri o sitting na'ed in a chair in the cornermastur#ating as she "atched me nai her friend. I gra# her #y the hair and thro" heron the #ed and re!eat the same !rocedure "ith Mrs. Purri o. his "ent on forhours as the "omen had me )f>c' them* in different !ositions, in their aginia as"e as their anus. %arrying out every sic' fantasy they had, I "ou d do "hat everthey to d me to do to them. I an f>c'ing the "oman "ith the # ac' hair in a chair inthe corner. 0o hard that she has !assed out, I didn$t care I ust 'e!t right on goingunti I heard voices coming from #ehind me, ma e voices. I hear )3 A E F>%A&E : I&L0 4 I( * and then I hear Mrs. Purri o say )"e "hat did youthin' "e "ere going to do "ith him*. )I don$t 'no"H I thought you "ere going toma'e him act i'e a chic'en or something* I hear him say. I !u out of the "oman"ith the # ac' hair and toss her onto the f oor. I turn and see 4r. Purri o and a fe"other men #y the door. 3ithout thin'ing I reach do"n and gra# the chair #y the eg"ith my eft hand, I stand u! and gra# the other eg "ith my other hand and ri! thechair a!art i'e #rea'ing a "ish#one. It "as i'e the chair "as made out of tooth!ic'sor something #ecause it too' no effort at a , I ust ri!!ed it a!art. I no" had a chaireg in my eft hand and I toss the rest of the chair off to the side. I start "a 'ing

to"ard the men "ith my )c u#* my )"ea!on*. Mrs. Purri o #ecomes frantic andstarts ye ing ) E 3ILL ILL :G E : ( 3G. E 3ILL ILL :* to 4r.Purri o and she runs to"ard me to give the men time to get out, I !ush her asideand the men are scurrying out the door. hey eft in such a hurry they didn$t c osethe door. I "asn$t running to"ard them, ust "a 'ing very fast, "hen they eft Ididn$t go after them I ust "anted them out of )my air*. I s am the door c osed, oc'and chain it, toss my c u# aside and gra# Mrs. Purri o and toss her onto the #ed. Iremem#er fee ing anger as she "as )diso#edient* and I nai ed her as hard as I cou dunti she had !assed out. hen the "oman "ith the # ac' hair comes over again andthis goes on and on. I don$t 'no" ho" it ended #ut the ne+t thing I 'no" is I amaying on my front ste!s again, and again my car is !ar'ed on the street and not in

my drive"ay. ver the ne+t fe" "ee's I "ou d find myse f sto!!ing at the sames!ot a#out once a "ee'. I don$t 'no" "hy, #ut some times I "ou d ust !u the carover. he ne+t thing I 'no" is I$m #ac' in the hote room. his time there are four



"omen ;Mr. Purri o, the "oman "ith the # ac' hair, and t"o others I had neverseen #efore<. I remem#er fee ing i'e )an anima * again. As I "as !ounding one ofthe "omen against the head #oard I hear voices #ehind me. his time there are ateast ten !eo! e "atching. I see t"o of the "omen I had a ready had se+ "ith on their

'nees giving a # o" o# to one of the men ;I thin' it "as the hus#and of the "omen I"as scre"ing at the time<. hese sic' !eo! e are no" getting off "atching me scre"their "ives. And again I thro" the "omen I am scre"ing aside and go after the men.And again the "omen run interference so the men can get out the door. I "a'e u!and I am trying to get into my house. Another time everything is # ac' and a Iremem#er is hearing ) >4 4AM( I G E$0 (E 0 F A AI(G*. I strugg e too!en my eyes and I am aying on my #ac', there is a "oman on to! of me. 0he "as a #it heavier then the other t"o and not /uite as good oo'ing. I !ush her off of me as Itry and get u!. As I am coming around immediate y the "oman "ith the # ac' hair

comes over to me and te s me to oo' her in her eyes, to focus and to oo' at her. Iremem#er oo'ing at her and then after that a is # ac' again. his time I "a'e u! inthe #ac' seat of my car "hich is !ar'ed on the street in front of my house.

Another time the "oman "ith the # ac' hair and Mrs. Purri o decide to ta'e me tothe "oman "ith the # ac' hair$s house. hey must have #een drugging me as "e ashaving me in a hy!notic trance #ecause they "ere trying to get me out of the car andI cou d not move. I "as as im! as a rag do and these t"o "omen "ho "eighed nomore then 11C !ounds each are trying to get me, a D !ound 'id, out of the #roncoand into the house. I remem#er them having a very hard time and #eing draggedacross the ground u! the front ste!s and into the house. I remem#er this #ecausesomeone had ca ed the Po ice and they sho" u! at the house a#out five minutesater. he t"o "omen are frantica y trying to figure out "hat to do. hey sit me onthe ste!s going to the u! stairs. he "oman "ith the # ac' hair te s me that Mrs.Purri o is my mother and you ust had your tonsi s out and your are sti groggyfrom the anesthetic. 0he o!ens the door for the Po ice and te s him the story ho"Mrs. Purri o cannot go home yet #ecause her house is #eing !ainted, and her son issti groggy from #eing under anesthetic. he co! as's me if I am a right, and I tehim that I$m fine and I confirm the "omen$s story. he co! eaves and they c ose the

door. hey start te ing me ho" I "as )such a good #oy*. I remem#er them te ingme ho" they are going to do treat me )e+tra s!ecia * for #eing such a good #oy. hey"ere trying to get me u! the stairs and they "ere com! aining #ecause I "asn$the !ing them enough. I 'e!t te ing them )I$m tryingG "hat have you done to meH*)(othing AndyG* they said. I remem#er them thro"ing me on the #ed and then I fe tthem trying to get my c oths off, after that everything is # ac'. o this day Iremem#er "hich house they #rought me to, and "here it is.



F O U R

May 1988-June 1988-

he recruiting )scuff e* has #asica y !ast and I have my co ege se ections narro"eddo"n to t"o or three schoo s. My heart is set on going to Penn 0tate. In the maimysterious y comes a etter from 3est !oint stating I "as schedu ed to have my!hysica ta'en to continue my a!! ication !rocess for acce!tance into 3est !oint. Inever had discussed attending 3est !oint "ith anyone. At first I thought it "as myfather ! aying some 'ind of sic' of o'e. I s!o'e to him and he 'ne" nothing a#out it.he !hysica date comes and goes. A#out a "ee' ater another etter comes stating

that I have #een )reschedu ed* for another !hysica a!!ointment at 3est !oint. hisdate comes and goes. A fe" days ater I get a !hone ca , the !erson as's "hy I hadnot gone for the !hysica . I te him that had no interest in attending any mi itaryacademy much ess 3est !oint since my father "as an Anna!o is graduate. A#out a"ee' ater another etter arrives, this one states that my !resence is no" re/uested atthe :0 (ave Academy to have my !hysica ta'en for admittance into the :0 (aveAcademy. his date a so comes and goes. hat "as the ast incident invo ving theacademies ho"ever since my academic record and my 0A scores "ere not evenc ose to academy standards the "ho e incident is very sus!icions.

4r. Purri o comes to my house, rings the #e and te s me he "ants to s!ea' "ithme out on the street. e !roceeds to te me that he has )made a great mista'e*. Afterrechec'ing my 4(A !attern against the correct hereditary #ac'ground it turns outthat I am the one "ith the su!erior 4(A code. In fact, he says "e used your code todetermine dominance of some un'no"n mar'ers. e 'no"s of my situation "ithPenn 0tate and tries to give me WK,Q . he money "as for co ege for me. I te him Idon$t "ant his money ;I a so 'ne" that if I had acce!ted that money as )!ayment*for damages done that I cou d not sue him atter, I thin' that this "as his ! an andthat$s "hy he had gotten so mad "hen I "ou d not acce!t it<. After my fina e!isode"ith Mrs. Purri o and the "oman "ith the # ac' hair they have a "ad of cash forme. )Andy ta'e itG. ou$ve more that earned it* she says. I te her I don$t "ant herdirty money and I ho!e she cho'es on it.

A fe" days after that 4r. Purri o sho"s u! again at my house, te s me to "a ' "ithhim to the street again. e te s me that )he has #een discussing it "ith this!sycho ogist friend and that my mind functions in such a "ay in the su#consciousA E %A( MA E ME E M 0 P 3E&F:LL MA( I( E 3 &L4*. e

then te me to get into his car and he "ants to ta'e me to his office to do this for me.I say )&EALL H. .. I$ go, #ut on y if my mother comes "ith me... %an my mothercome "ith meH* e says that this is ust #et"een )us men*. I te him to go f>c'

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himse f and start "a 'ing to"ards my house. e starts ta 'ing ) our a very smart'idG you had a C ?C chanceG "e "ere going to get drun' and then decide "hether toma'e you the most !o"erfu man in the "or d or give you a o#otomy.* I sto! andturn to him and say )do you rea y thing I$m going to #e ieve you "hen you te me

that : are going to ma'e ME the most !o"erfu man in the "or dH you might dothis #ut (L if you cou d contro me, if you cou d not contro me then you "ou dhave to destroy meG 4o you thin' I am that stu!idH (o" get the fuc' out of here #efore I ca the co!sG.* e then says )as I said you are one smart 'id*. e gets in hiscar and drives a"ay. he schoo year is no" "inding do"n and I sti have not mademy fina decision as to "hat schoo I am going to attend. From out of the # ue at theend of the schoo year a coach from the :niversity of &ochester sho"s u! and "antsme to attend.

My father and I sit do"n to discuss that schoo I am going to attend. 3e are at a%hinese restaurant on route 1J north in &amsey. My father sits me do"n and hestarts ta 'ing. e said, )Andy, I have nothing against Penn 0tate, it$s a fine schoo .o"ever, "hy are you going to co egeH o get an education or to ! ay foot#a H* Isaid )to get an education*. e said ) ood, no" "hat are the odds of you #ecoming a!ro foot#a ! ayerH* I said )s im to none*. e said ) ood, so since you are going toschoo to get an education and not to ! ay foot#a don$t you thin' you shou d go tothe #est schoo you can !ossi# y getintoH* I said )4ad, I 3A( PE((0 A E*. hen he said )I$m going to #e the one !aying for your schoo , IF :4 ($ E :(I E&0I F & % E0 E& I 3ILL ( PA (E I(4IME F & :& 0% L A(4 I 3ILL (E E& 0PEA : A AI(, 4: EA& MEG (o" &ochester is a much #etter schoo and I$m sure you "i #e

much ha!!ier there, I$m going to !ay for it and that$s that*.

0o, I end u! turning do"n a division 1 scho arshi! to attend a division schoo andend u! !aying W18, do ars a year to attend the :niversity of &ochester. For theongest time I a#so ute y hated my father for ma'ing me go to the :niversity of

&ochester. I su!!ose I cou d have come u! "ith the W , do ars on my o"n, #ut it"as the fact that he said that )he "ou d never s!ea' to me again* if I didn$t do "hat

he "anted "as "hat rea y !issed me off. And then on to! of a this then he s!ringson me that I "i have to ta'e out a student oan in my name to he ! !ay for going toschoo at &ochester. I remem#er this as c ear as day, #ecause after that I remem#er Is"ore that I "ou d never et anyone te me "hat to do "ith my ife again. hestrange thing is that$s not ho" he remem#ers it at a . e denies ever saying that tome, #ut I remem#er s!ecifica y #ecause I "as heart #ro'en that I "asn$t going to goto Penn 0tate. he strange thing is I remem#er my father, at a#out the same time,ma'ing a o'e that he had #een out of the (avy for 1C years and for some reason they"anted him to come in to give him a !hysica . e doesn$t remem#er that either.

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Aug 1988-

Foot#a cam! starts at the :niversity of &ochester. hings seem to go "e . Let$s ustsay that I am E& focused on !erforming "e on the foot#a fie d. I had trained

very hard a summer and I "as in the #est sha!e of my ife. I do e+treme y "eduring the training cam!. I$m sure not #y coincidence, I get my freshman yearroommate, "e "i ca him Brian. Brian is a so a freshman and is an offensive anddefensive ineman. e is Q-1 and DKC #s. e is huge, I mean I thought I "as muscu arunti I sa" this guy. e ta 's o!en y a#out his steroid usage, and even goes so far asto te ho" that "hen he came to cam! )the coaches didn$t recogni e me, "hen I"a 'ed into the coaches office, they said "ho are youH* and I said )I$m BrianVVVVVV from Ironda/uite* ;he "as su!!osed y a oca 'id, Ironda/uite is a ocato"n<. e ta 's a#out ho" as a senior in high schoo he "eighed 18C #s, #ut thenstarted doing ) uice* as he "or'ed out "ith the (e" or' state !o"er iftingcham!ion. e goes from 18C #s to DC #s in 1D "ee's. As a freshman he is thesecond strongest 'id on entire the team, I am the third.

Sept 1988-May 1989

%am! is over, and c asses #egin. I get an )odd* message stating that the dean of thePsycho ogy de!artment "ants to see meHHHH 0o I go in to see him. I sit in a high #ac'green eather chair and I am facing him as he is sitting #ehind his #ig des'. e as'sme if I "ou d i'e to !artici!ate in some 'ind of s!ecia )study* the :niversity is

conducting. I te him ) ave you ever heard of a 4r. Purri o* his face sudden y #ecomes "hite and e+!ression ess. I cou d te that he had, at that moment I hear avery s ight cree' from #ehind my eft shou der. I get out of the chair and there is adoor on the "a . I o!en it, inside this )c oset* the dean has a "et #ar. But therecrouching on the f oor is 4r. Purri o. I instant y gra# him #y his throat and te himthat if I ever see him again I am going to 'i him, he starts to #eg for his ife, and Ithro" him into the #ar. I "a ' over to the deans des' and from the #ottom I !ic' itu! and f i! it over onto him and I ye something at him i'e )you stay a"ay from meyou ying f>c'ing !iece of shit*. And I run out of the office. A fe" days ater I get a

message saying that the dean of !sycho ogy "ants to see me again. I ignore it anddon$t go. A fe" days after that I get a third message from him te ing me that if Idon$t come in to see him he is going to thro" me out of the schoo . I$m saying tomyse f )f>c' this*, Brian is insisting that I go. )4ude, he is going to thro" you out ofschoo , go in and do "hat ever he says*. )F>c' you* I te Brian. I decide to go in andgive this ass ho e a !iece of my mind. As I "a ' to his office I am furious and I amgoing to 'ic' his ass. I remem#er "a 'ing in, #ut I don$t remem#er eaving. Afterthat I "as a different !erson. I fe t i'e I had # inders on )tunne vision.* I remem#er!eo! e thought I "as the #iggest )ass ho e* #ecause they "ou d say )he o* to me as

I "ou d "a ' to c ass and I "ou d "a ' right #y them. Li'e they "eren*t even there,I "as off in my o"n itt e "or d o# ivious to my surroundings.





second c i! of a 1 minute movie. In the room I remem#er aying there, "e discussedmy 0i va mind contro as "e as many other things. he instructor instructs me to goto my ) eve .* And then "ou d #egin his "or', im! anting the various differentideas and suggestions they "ere researching "ith my reactions and res!onses. For

some reason the Li#rary a so gives me the )cree!s.*

o" you use the )0i va method* is as fo o"s. ou c ose your eyes, re a+, "ith every #reath you are #ecoming more and more re a+ed. he chair you are aying in is #ecoming softer and softer and you sin' further and further into it as it soft y "ra!saround your #ody. ou fee "arm and safe as your #ody #ecomes tota y re a+ed.Picture yourse f standing on the edge of an ocean. he s'y is # ue, the ocean is # ueyet a most green from the sun ight. It$s an a#so ute y gorgeous day. Picture yourse ff oating, u!"ard as you eave your #ody. ou oo' do"n and see your #ody as yousoar to"ards the s'y. ou are not afraid, and you can soar as high as you "ant andyou start across the ocean. ou oo' #ac' at your #ody and it #ecomes sma er andsma er unti you cannot see it any onger. ou turn #ac' and a that is ahead of youis # ue s'y and # ue ocean, and i'e a god you are f ying among the c ouds. Ahead ofyou is a very arge c oud "ith a structure on it. As you get c oser you can see that it$san e evator. ou and on the c oud, touching do"n as soft y as a feather touchingyour s'in. he c oud is as so id as roc'. It is #ecause you say it is, this is your mind, itis a ! ace "here you can do A( I( : 3A( and 3 E&E A( I( I0P 00IBLE. he on y imits here are the imits of your o"n imagination. 3a ' over tothe e evator. here is on y one red #utton, !ush it. he doors o!en, get in. urnaround there is a contro !ane , !ush the #ottom #utton. he doors c ose and thee evator sudden y starts to descend. ou oo' u!, the e evator is made out of a graystee cage. here is no roof. he e evator starts to descend faster and faster. ou oo'u! and see the "a s of the e evator shaft are #ri iant y co ored roc' "ith s"ir s oforange, # ac', "hite and si ver. ou see a huge num#er )1 * !ainted on the side ofthe roc' go "hi ing #y as the e evator is no" fa ing faster and faster. ou oo' u!and see the num#er )9* go #y. As the num#ers go #y you are going dee!er anddee!er into the center of your mind. he center of the universe. 8, J, you$re #ecomingmore and more re a+ed Q, C, you fee the !o"er of your mind surge as you go dee!er

and dee!er, your mind #ecomes more and more !o"erfu "ith every moment K, , Dthe e evator automatica y starts to s o" do"n, 1. he doors o!en, you ste! out ontoa "hite cement ! atform. It is Q feet "ide and Q feet ong. B ac'ness is a around you.here is a sma si ver rai ing to the eft. 3a ' to the edge and oo' over. ou see

nothing #ut a huge # ac' ho e. A s"ir ing vorte+ suc'ing everything into it. 7um! offinto the vorte+ i'e a s'ydiver. ou are fa ing, turn your se f around and oo' #ac' atthe #ottom of the ! atform as it get sma er and sma er. ou are not afraid, stuff is"hi ing #y you as you fa a giant c oc', a car, !eo! e you 'no", off to the eft yousee a huge neon sign go f ying #y )1C *. ou fa faster and faster and you fee

yourse f going dee!er and dee!er into your mind. )1K *, )1 *, )1D *, "hen youget to )1 * you "i automatica y s o" do"n. B ac'ness is every"here and you cansee nothing. ou fee your foot touch the ground as gent y as ste!!ing onto a !i o".





and it is high y unsta# e. 3E 4 ($ ( 3 3 A I 3ILL 4 :GGG EEPI I( A E& 0AFE PLA%EG 4 : :(4E&0 A(4H I ans"ered )yes* and then!roceeded to create this rea y )cheesy* oo'ing sign and stand "hich I then )duc'ta!ed* to the side of my fountain. It "as made of !oster #oard and a "ooden sta'e.

3ith my rea y #ad hand "riting I "rote in # ac' mar'er )4 ( :0E.. B&EA(L I( A LIFE & 4EA 0I :A I (.* And under this I )duc' ta!ed* thegreen test tu#e to the !oster #oard, and then )duc' ta!ed* the sign and sta'e to theoutside "a of the fountan. 0ort of off to the side and out of the "ay. It "as # atant yan eye sore to the room, #ut this "as M res!onsi#i ity, and it "as M sigh and it"as M room. 0o there it "ent, and there it stayed. here "ere other suggestions as"e of course, i'e te ing me ho" to )turn on and off my !ain rece!tors* i'e a ights"itch, ho" to contro my adrena ine g ands and #e a# e to turn them )on and off*i'e a faucet. o" to contro fear. I a so remem#er them testing me a ot "ith these

!u e # oc's I had to assem# e to match the !icture, connect the dots for time, "ordassociation, a 'inds of these )mind !u es*, ;IT testing ty!e !u es<. his is "hatI remem#er from room )1 1*.

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I remem#er #eing tied to a meta ta# e and them ! acing e ectrodes on my #ody.hey #egan to shoc' me at different interva s and increased the vo tage "hen I

"ou dn$t cor!orate "ith them. he thing is these inso ent #astards 'e!t as'ing me)3hy are you so hosti e to"ard usH 3hy are you fighting usH* My ans"er "ou da "ays #e )If you thin' I$m hosti e no" ust "ait unti I get oose you (a imotherf>c'ersG* I tried my #est to #e #rave, and I fought #ac' "ith a I had. 3hen Icame to I found my se f tied to a chair "ith my hands tied #ehind me. hey #egan"or'ing me over. I 'no" I had to #e drugged #ecause the !unches for some reasondidn$t hurt. hey a "ays "ore g oves or hit me "ith a ru##er hose as not to eaveany mar's. And the more they hit me the more it didn$t hurt. here "as a so a metacart ne+t to me "ith a 'inds of surgica instruments on it. here "ere a 'inds ofsyringes there as "e . his is a so "hy I assume they drugged me. I remem#er then! acing need es in my eye#a s and a so in my ear drum in order to shoc' me into

su#mission. hey #eat me in this sma room severa times, I remem#er Mr. reen"as there, this (a i guy and his #uddies.

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short s eeve shirt in &ochester ( after a#or day. 0o I start sassing him a#out hisshirt and ho" the on y t"o ty!es of !eo! e "ou d "ear a ye o" short s eeve shirt in&ochester, either he is a homose+ua or he is a foreigner "ho is trying to oo'American, it$s one of the #asic s i! u!s s!y$s ma'e ;a fashion # under<, and he "as

!ro#a# y erman #ecause ermans i'e their !aste $s that a ong "ith the !sychoticoo' in his eye to d me that he "as some ty!e of )Master &ace* genetic frea'. I "as #asica y !u ing stuff out of my ass #ut I figured "hy not. e is going to #eat the shitout of me any"ay, I might as "e try and ! ay "ith his mind, it "as the on yoffensive "ea!on I had. As he starts !unching. I$m ca ing him a (a i #astard, te inghim ho" "e American$s 'ic'ed their ass in the "ar. But "hen I insu ted Ado !hit er, and ca ed him a faggot, and an idiot. his guy starts frea'ing out and ye ingat me in erman )# ah..# ahG # ahG Miene Fuhurer..# ah ..# ah*. )3hat do you 'no",he is ermanG* I say. I had #ro'e him menta y. For some reason his !unches didn$t

hurt, #ut he "as hitting me so hard that he "as 'noc'ing me over in my "oodenchair. 3hat "as ha!!ening "as every time he 'noc'ed me over "ith a !unch he"ou d "ea'en the egs on the chair. My taunting in com#ination "ith the fact that hecou dn$t seem to hurt me "ith his !unches rea y got under his s'in. 0o he goes overand gets a #ase#a #at off the meta she f and is going to hit me "ith it. hat$s "hen Irea y feared for my ife, and I !u ed at my ro!es "ith a my strength. 0ome ho" I #ro'e free, and s!ent a fe" seconds getting the ro!es off and everyone seemed to #ein shoc' that I had #ro'e out of the chair and they a sort of stood around. I go afterthe (a i "ho had #een #eating me and "ho had the #at. I fee itera y that I amfighting for my ife and to this day I don$t 'no" "here I got the strength #ut they a um!ed on me and I f ung them off me i'e they "ere five year o ds. I got to the guy"ith the #at !unched him once he dro!!ed the #at I !ic'ed it u! and struc' himt"ice in the head, "hi e his head "as !ressed against a ta# e #asica y crushing hiss'u . I started s"inging the #at around and I hit t"o other guys in the head "ith the #at and I sa" ots of # ood coming from their head as they ay on the f oor. hen theya rush me at once and they are trying to !in me do"n #ut they cannot and I manageto get over to the on y "indo" in the room, I thro" it o!en and I am a#out to ea!out "hen I see "here I am. I oo' out and it$s straight do"n at east a hundred feet.our not going to #e ieve this and I 'no" that it sounds a#so ute y cra y #ut I am inthe to! of the Li#rary oo'ing do"n at the #a fie d. I 'no" I "as in the i#rary firstfrom the vie" and second from the sha!e of the room one side "as a most rounded,and no" "ith the vie" there is on y one ! ace it cou d #e and that is the to! of thei#rary ;the ocation of the a#s are enc osed in the dra"ing on the other dis'ettes<. I'noc'ed out severa more guys #ut there "ere ust too many of them and eventua ythey got me do"n and stuc' a need e in my #utt and then I "as out. hey gave mesevera #eatings and severa e ectric shoc' sessions there. hat$s a I remem#er of thesessions. hey "ere trying to #rea' me, #ut I "ou dn$t et them, so the #eatingscontinued at night. I remem#er te ing my roommate the ne+t morning that I fe t i'e

my face had #een hit #y a truc', #ut yet I had no idea "hy my face "as hurting.





I #rea' a"ay from Ado !h A(4 I 0 A& &:((I( . I ran as fast as I cou d for thestairs. he stairs "ere a#out C yards a"ay, I reach them unmo ested. I turn #ac' andoo' to see if they are chasing me. hey are not, as I oo' #ac' a the men have gotten

#ac' in the car and I ust catch a g im!se of the ast car door c osing. I !ause, thin'ing

the car is going to come to"ards me, the tires s/uea #ut in &E E&0E. I thin', it hitsme, they are going to cut me off at the to! of the stairs. A A M ME( for thesecond time I fe t the )the rush.* he first time "as "hen the man "as going to hitme "ith the #ase#a #at. But for the first time in my ife I fe t i'e I "as running formy ife. hat if they #eat me to the to! of the stairs it "as a over. By )the rush* Imean the adrena ine rush, your mind c oses i'e having # inders on and the surge of!o"er your #ody fee s "hen it$s ife or death. If you have never #een in a situation"here you tru y )feared for your ife.* ou rea y cannot understand the fee ing I amta 'ing a#out. I #ounded u! those stairs, three of four stairs at a time. At the to! is a

car !ar'ed right in front of the stairs, it$s maroon #ut it$s facing the "rong "ay. Icrouch ne+t to the rear fender and I see the first car a#out D yards a"ay and I hearthe engine rev as the driver f oors it. F ying over the s!eed #um!s. he car !asses the!ar'ed car and I dart across the road. ut of my eft ear I hear the screech of tiress'idding, as I oo' the car has sto!!ed and I see the drivers eyes in the rear vie"mirror. It is turning around. I get on the side"a ' and then feet onto cam!usground. For some reason I fee safe and I sto! running in order to )# end in*. hereare many !eo! e around "a 'ing to c ass. I oo' #ac' at the car, it oo's i'e it$s goingto um! the cur#. It does and A the students scatter i'e ants see'ing cover. I$m eftstanding there #y my se f. A gir , "ho I had never met #efore, "hen a the others rana"ay, for some reason she ran to me. 0he gra#s my arm and "ithout saying a "ordte s me that she is not afraid. hat instant seemed to ast forever.

I hear the driver gun it. As the rear "hee s no" um! the cur#. 3ith my right hand Igra# her eft hand as I scream &:(G I turn and run for the nearest #ui ding. My rightarm ags "ay #ehind me after t"o or three ste!s as her eft arm is stretched as farfor"ard as it can go. 0he is not fast enough. 3e are not going to ma'e it. 3ith myright hand I et go, I !oint to the right and ye )&:(.* ut of my right eye after oneor t"o ste!s, I don$t see her. I s o" do"n and turn to oo' #ac'. 0he has sto!!ed

running. 0he turned and is facing the oncoming car ! acing herse f right #et"een meand the cars !ath #e ieving they "i sto! or turn to avoid her. 0he is a#out C yards #ehind me, I am at the #ase of the ste!s of the #ui ding. A I hear is the engine as thedriver f oors it. 0he has no chance, I have no chance of saving her. his a ha!!ens ina s! it second. I turn #ac' to"ard the #ui ding and ea! u! the stairs. he car is right #ehind me. I um! from the stair to the rai ing to side of the #ui ding, scurry u! as Ihear the crash #e o". 0omeho" I$m on the roof. I ta'e a /uic' oo' around and thereis nothing #ut !i!es coming u! out of the tar and a sing e door. I run for the doorand "hen I get there it is oc'ed. I hear someone ca ing my name, I go #ac' and oo'

over the edge. here are t"o cars #e o" me, the Linco n is crashed into the #ui ding,the maroon car that I hid #ehind for a s! it second is undamaged #ehind it. he man"ith the "hite hair is standing there oo'ing u! at me. e starts ta 'ing, he is



sta ing, he says )Andy, that "as very im!ressive, very im!ressive indeed. 4o youhave any idea "hat you ust did.* e #ac's do"n the stairs and gets a runningstart... he #ui ding is a !erfect s/uare. he first f oor a the "ay around is g ass.From there u! is a mar# e. n the corners are #ig s/uare !i ars. 3hich stic' out 9

degrees from the side of the #ui ding forming a !erfect right ang e. I had um!edfrom the stair rai ing to the side of the !i ar to the side of the #ui ding #ac' to theside of the !i ar a the "ay u! to the to! ; eft, right, eft, right a the "ay<. ra##edthe rai ing and ea!ed over. e tries to get to me the same "ay I came u! the side ofthe #ui ding, comes c ose #ut s ides #ac' do"n the side again. I$m oo'ing right intohis eyes as he s ides #ac' do"n. e is ye ing at me )I$m very im!ressed Andy, youhave e+tra ordinary a#i ities*. I ye #ac' )F>% :*. e continues, ) ou ust did"hat "e ca a five ste! 9 degree vertica c im#, ho" do you e+! ain thatG* I ye #ac' )I$M 3EA&I( M (I E$0.* he instant I said that I hear a chuc' e #ehind

me, I s!in around. here are four guys on the roof snea'ing u! #ehind me. he manon the ground 'ee!s ye ing for me to come #ac' to the edge, I ignore him. he fourmen no" have s!read out. hey are moving very s o" y to"ards me. hey say theyare my =friends$. I say )if you are my friends sto! and don$t come any c oser.* hey'ee! moving c oser. "o of them reach in their ac'ets and !u out !isto s.

At that !oint I say )F>c' this* and unge at the guy on far right ;he "as the sma est<.I get #y him and run for the no" o!en roof access door. he men "ith the !isto sshoot at me. hey cou dn$t have missed #ecause it "as a range of on y Q or J feet.here "as no sound, and the guns oo'ed a itt e )funny*. hey "eren$t shooting

#u ets, it "as some sort of dart gun, or !e et gun. I don$t 'no" "hat it "as, a I'no" is it "asn$t #u ets #ecause they shot me and I ust 'e!t running. here are t"omore guys right inside the door. hey have the same guns. I # o" #y them and theyshoot me too. I ma'e my "ay do"n to the first f oor. he "rec'ed car is to my eft"ra!!ed around the !i ar. I see a # oody hand under the car and # ood is see!ingout from under the car every"here. I run out the door to my right, do"n the stairs,and out onto the /uad. I$m running as fast as I can. I oo' #ac' and they A&E chasingme this time. I run into 3i son commons ;a huge o!en mu ti eve g ass #ui ding"hich is the student center<. I 0 P running and casua y #egin "a 'ing among the

cro"d. I fee safe "ith !eo! e around. I$m inside the #ui ding. "o men in suits runin #ehind me, I start running again. 3i ison commons is #asica y a si+ story g ass #o+. he entire midd e is o!en. here is a s!ira staircase "hich runs a ong one sideof the #ui ding. here are three "ays to enter the #ui ding. From the to!, "hich isconnected to the /uad #y a "a ' "ay. From the main entrance "hich #rings you tothe main f oor, or through the #asement ;cafeteria eve <. It is easi y a 1 foot dro!from to! to the very #ottom.

I$m at the to! "ith t"o men #ehind me. I go for the stairs and start going do"n. I get

three eve s do"n and enter on to the main f oor. he man "ith the "hite hair iscoming right to"ards me "ith three other guys in suits. I turn and run #ac' u! thestairs. he other t"o men are right there. I$m tra!!ed. I turn to my eft and ea! over





I "a'e u!, and it$s in the afternoon. I$m sti in some sort of shoc'. I am not a right, Ican fee it. I get dressed and head right for the #ui ding. I$m sti in some 'ind ofda e. Everything is one #ig # ur. I get to the #ui ding. here is no sign of anydamage. (o #ro'en g ass, no crac'ed mar# e # oc', no mang ed rai ing. (othingG I

go to the mar# e # oc' "here the car crashed, e+amine it, I find nothing. I go to therai ing it$s i'e ne". It oo's out of ! ace a most, too ne", I oo' at it carefu y, it$sfresh y !ainted. I !ut my finger to it and that !aint is sti )tac'y*. I go to the otherrai ings and they are a sti tac'y. But "hat I noticed "as the cement around the"ho e area "as )"hite*. sounds i'e a itt e =rea ity engineering$ ta'ing ! ace there - #rantonN

he cement "hich he d the other rai ings in ! ace matched the "hite cement!erfect y. I go #ac' to the damaged rai ing and oo' do"n. he cement ho ding thatone in ! ace is not even c ose I I0 &A . I !ut my finger to it. It$s dry and hard #utvery gray and oo's too ne" ;it had sort of a g oss to it<. I go #ac' to the mar# e # oc', again I see nothing. I !ut my hand to it and I thin' I fee something. I ta'e mystudent I.4. out and run the edge a ong the # oc'. I hear a )c ic'* or )s'i!*, "hen Ioo'ed very c ose y you cou d see a hair ine crac' running a the "ay through the

# oc'. I retrace my ste!s a the "ay #ac' to 3i son commons. I get to the commonsand I enter. It$s cro"ed, as I start "a 'ing through the cro"d, there seems to #e some'ind of commotion, everyone is oo'ing at me. 3hen I ma'e eye contact "ith them,they oo' a"ay. I turn the corner into the main room. I oo' at the s!ot from "hich Ihad um!ed, and there are men in suits MEA0:&I( "ith one of those ong ta!emeasureSs they use in s!orting events ;it$s i'e a #ig "hee and you cran' it toretrieve the ta!e<. hey are measuring a the distances. From ho" far I um!ed toho", to ho" far I ran, everything. hen I see a grou! of men in suits ;Q to 8< are"a 'ing to my eft. ne of the men sees me and as he te s someone e se he !oints tome. he man "ith the "hite hair emerges from the !ac', and i'e a deer caught inthe head ights I F&EEXE. I cannot move as I "atch him "a ' to"ard me. My instinctte s me to run #ut I am !ara y ed "ith fear. e "a 's right u! to me, and that$s a Ican remem#er.

hat night, I sat in my room "ith my e #o"s on my 'nees and my head #et"een myhands. As I thin' a#out the events "hich had ha!!ened, the room #egins to s!in. I$mvery scared, I don$t 'no" "hat to do. I "ant to ca home. I "ant to ca my mother. Ican$t remem#er the num#er. I$m oo'ing for it. I find my address #oo' and I find thenum#er. 4ia ing the num#er seems fami iar, #ut it fee s odd. As the !hone starts toring, Brian o!ens the door and enters the room. e stic's his finger on the !hone andI am disconnected. e starts to s!ea' to someone in the ha , they enter, it$s the manin green and the man in # ue and Ado !h. he sight of these men in my room,s!ea'ing to Brian. hey 'no" each other, and they 'no" "here I ive, I$m thin'ing.

his causes such fear in me that the room s!ins out of contro and I # ac' out as thet"o rea ities came crashing together.



#he .*g %a&

After that I "as not the same !erson, and they #egan ta'ing me to a a#. "o men inovercoats "ou d 'noc' on my door, I or Brian "ou d o!en it, they "ou d say t"o or

three "ords, I "ou d dro! "hat ever I "as doing, get my coat and go "ith them. Ihad no say, I had no contro . hat "as it I ust did it, I don$t 'no" "hy, it "as usti'e "hen I !u ed the car over for Mr. Purri o. hey had a car outside, I "ou d getin the #ac' and ust sit there "ith a # an' stare in my eyes. he a# "as, I "ou destimate, from to 9 minutes a"ay. I say this #ecause the first fe" tri!s Iremem#er the tri!. I remem#er getting on a divided t"o ane high"ay, it had to have #een the (e" or' state thru"ay ;the on y divided high"ay around< and "e roadfor a "hi e. I remem#er them as'ing me if I 'ne" "here I "as, as'ing me if I 'ne""hat time it "as, "as it night or day, and "ith a #ig smi e I said )of course I 'no""here I am* as I "as !roud for out smarting them #y remem#ering andmar's andremem#ering "here "e "ere going and ho" "e got there. After that I remem#er themen in the car )dou# ing #ac'* one e+it on the thru"ay, and "hen "e arrived theman "ith the "hite hair and # ac' eather coat "ou d as' me again )do you 'no""here you are* and again I "ou d te them e+act y "hat they "anted to 'no". Afterthat I don$t remem#er any more )rides*. I remem#er getting in the car in front of thedorm, and then I remem#er getting out of the car in front of the a# ;the faci ity<. Ithin' they fina y got smart and !rogrammed my mind someho" so that "hen theysaid the "ord )s ee!* or some simi ar command, I "ou d instant y ay on the seatand "ou d #e out i'e a ight unti they decided to re-a"a'e me, #ecause after thatthere "as no more )ride* on y getting in of the car and getting out of the car.

At the #ig a# is "here the torture continued #ut the more so!histicated e+!erimentstoo' ! ace. he head of the !ro ect "as Ado !h. e "as no ordinary agent or %IAman, he is a (a i. im and his !artisans ust had the ) oo'* of some (a i genetice+!eriment. he !sychotic eyes, the )Arian* face and features such as the straight # ond hair. After I had 'i ed t"o of his )#oys* in the sma a# "ith the #ase#a #athe 'e!t trying to te me that he "as my )father*, and he seemed o#sessed "ith thisidea. e had simi ar a#i ities of his o"n, #ut I "as more !o"erfu . I 'no" this

#ecause the first fe" times I tang ed "ith him he thre" me, #ut once I figured outho" he "as sim! y misdirecting my force into another direction, I then cou d ta'ehim. e 'ne" this and after I thre" him a fe" times he no onger "ou d try and ste!in and sto! me if I got oose, he "ou d et a of the )hired hands* try and sto! me.e "as the one "ho in my mind cou d sto! me, someho" he im! anted in my mindthat I cou d not harm him. I didn$t fear him, I "ou d ust avoid him if I "as ma'ingan esca!e. As in my mind he "as the most !o"erfu one out of the grou!. e "asa so the one "ho did a of the )coaching* or )directing* if you "i . (one of theother guys rea y said much to me. hey most y ta 'ed off to the side amongst

themse ves, and "hen ca ed u!on to he ! out they never said a "ord un ess it "asto ans"er a /uestion as'ed #y Ado !h, never a "ord direct y to me. &emem#er, atthis !oint they had a ready had AL contro over me, and I mean AL contro .





"ith no "eight at a , and then instructed me to starting s/uatting. I "ou d then #egin e+ercising unti they to d me to sto!. It "as very strange #ecause I cou d hearthe )c ang* the "eight ! ates ma'e "hen you have four or five stac'ed on each sideand you are s/uatting. In testing at &ochester I s/uatted CKC !ounds as my

ma+imum, "hen I "as s/uatting in the a# I thin' I "as doing seven KC !ound ! ateson each side ;"hich is QJC !ounds for as many re!s as they "anted<. I "ou d uststart )s/uatting* and I "ou d not sto! unti they to d me to. et it fe t i'e there "asno "eight !ressing on my shou ders at a . It "as in rea ity )as ight as a feather*, usti'e doing sim! e dee! 'nee #ends.

Another favorite "as to sit me do"n in a chair and te me to envision my arm not asan arm #ut as a huge ro#otic hydrau ic vice. his vice had un imited !o"er, andA( I( they ! aced in my hand I cou d crush, ust i'e s/uee ing an )egg.*hey then "ou d !roceed to ! ace various o# ects in my hand, and I "ou d crush iti'e a egg. In my mind I "asn$t s/uee ing an uno!ened can of %o'e. I "as s/uee ingan egg, and I "ou d crush it according y. I remem#er they !ut some 'ind of gauge inmy hand to see "hat the !ounds !er s/uare inch "as that I "as !roducing. It "asi'e one of those o d hand e+ercisers you "ou d s/uee e. he first time I s/uee ed it,I #ro'e it, and they got a e+cited. hey had to )reca i#rate* another one for me, andagain I #uried the need e on their gauge, and this astounded them. hey made mefee )good* a#out #eing a# e to do these things, and I "as sort of )!roud* of my se f.As my confidence gre", my a#i ities gre". It "as a i'e a game to me. hey "ou dset u! some 'ind of test, something that I shou d not #e a# e to do, and I "ou d iveto !rove them "rong.

hey to d me to "a ' around "ith my chest stuc' out and head he d high #ecause I"as )the #iggest, #adest, meanest motherf>c'ering stud on the ! anet and if youF>% "ith me I "i 'i you.* his !articu ar suggestion caused some very serious!ro# ems ater on.

hey said "e need a name to ca you #y. his name is something very s!ecia , it isthe name that (L 3E may ca you #y, it is your code name and you shou d

s!end some time thin'ing a#out it #ecause it is very im!ortant. I ans"ered a mostimmediate y )I "ant to #e ca ed E & I( * I said. I had chosen this name #ecause it "as a name I "anted as my )nic'name* on my high schoo foot#a team.o"ever in high schoo the nic'name "as a ready given to another ! ayer so I cou dnot have it, #ut for some reason I a "ays thought it "as rea y )% L*, and no"that I cou d choose any name I "anted, I chose )the &hino* and that$s "hy I chose)the rhino* as my ne" name. At first the man "ith the "hite hair and # ac' eathercoat as "e as the other guys aughed at the name, #ut after a "hi e it gre" on themand they i'ed it. he man "ith the "hite hair and # ac' eather coat "ou d #ar' out

)& I( * get over here, and it "ou d come running i'e a !u!!y and then he rea ystarted to i'e it.





ended u! going to the to! ste! ;it "as no #ig dea in terms of height, #ut it "as in mymind a #ig dea in terms of things you shou d do and things you shou d not do<. 0o Is!ecifica y remem#er that. (e+t it "as u! a adder to a ! atform they had in the )BigLa#*, may#e DC- feet. hen it "as off the side of the #ig a# outside ;the to! of the

#ui ding<. 3e "ou d then !rogress to um! off o# ects that "ere higher and higher.

3hat they "ou d do is #ring me to a certain s!ot ;"hether it "as a #ridge or a c iff<and sim! y say )7um!*, "e "i meet you at the #ottom. And I "ou d sim! y say) * "a ' to the rai ing and um! over. I "ou dn$t oo' first and then #ac' u! andthen um!. I "ou d ust, um!, &I E&. I "ou d and i'e a cat, #ounce in theair from the re ease of the stored energy in the com!acted stee s!rings that "ere myegs, do a shou der ro as I anded the second time from the )#ounce*, stand u!, and"ait for them. It "as ust i'e um!ing off a footstoo and it "as ust as easy.

he ne+t day or so, I "ou d find my se f "andering #ac' to the same s!ot duringschoo hours, "hat ever it "as ;a #ridge, a c iff, "hat ever< and as I retraced myste!s, "hen I got to the um!ing !oint I "ou d oo' over the edge A(4 M EA&3 :L4 4& P I( M 0 MA% . I remem#er saying to myse f )this is "rong,it "as not this high* #ecause to me the night #efore the um! "as nothing ) i'e afootstoo * no" I$m oo'ing at it and saying )( F>% I( 3A I0 I0 &I ,( F>% I( 3A *. hese things are not !hysica y !ossi# e. I #ecame very scared,and I #ecame even more confused.

I remem#er one night "a 'ing through this chain in' gate, and I #egan c im#ing u!this "hite adder "ith a round cage a around it. I$m c im#ing and I$m c im#ing, itseemed to go on for ever. I reach some 'ind of a ! atform "hich is made of some'ind of meta grating. here is a man standing there and he te s me to c im# further,unti I reached the ne+t ! atform. I did notice he "as "earing a safety harness and"as c i!!ed on to the structure "ith a ro!e. I had no fear at a a#out "here I "as or"hat I "as doing. he adder had changed to a K inch !o e "ith the rungs no""e ded on the outside. Li'e a adder you "ou d see at the circus. 3hen I reach theto!, the ! atform is on y a#out feet #y K feet. I remem#er a of a sudden #eing

a most # inded #y red, and then it "ou d go a"ay, red and it "ou d go a"ay. 0o Iturn my #ac' to it. I oo' do"n and the man on the o"er ! atform ye s to me to um!. I sim! y um!ed off "ithout fear and "ith out hesitation. I remem#er free ingi'e a cat in the air for a s! it second, and then hitting the ground. I hit the groundfair y hard and my an' e fe t a s ight t"inge of !ain, as I #ounced I AL3A 0 'e!tmy eyes focused on the ground, on the e+act s!ot of anding. I did my shou der ro ,and stood u!, my an' e hurt some "hat #ut I "as fine. his did not seem i'e um!ing off a footstoo , it "as more i'e um!ing off a si+ foot adder. 0ti no!ro# em at a , I "a 'ed off the !ain in my foot and didn$t thin' t"ice a#out it. I

"a 'ed over to the grou! #y the car and ust stood there. here "ere three or fourdar' figures ta 'ing amongst themse ves. hey "ere in a grou! and off to the side ofthe car, it "as dar' and a I remem#er is there shado"s.



I "atched as a sma # ac' figure "as c im#ing do"n the structure. e oo'ed i'e anant on your 'itchen "a . e gets to the #ottom, ta'es off his gear and starts runningover to us. e is a e+cited. It$s Ado !h. e is screaming "ith e+citement and heruns u! to me and hugs me and !ats me on the #ac' as he ta 's to the figures #ehind

me. I remem#er standing there and saying to myse f )are these guys idiot$s, or ustf>c'ing retarded. 3hat is the #ig f>c'ing dea a#out um!ing off a dam sma adderi'e thatG And "hy the ELL am I out here in the midd e of the night to do this

stu!id shit any"ayG* I didn$t understand any of it #ut I remem#er #eing veryannoyed at them for "asting my time "ith such sim! e tas's.

he ne+t morning I "o'e u! and I remem#ered this strange dream I had. I remem#erc im#ing and c im#ing a "hite adder. Li'e I "as on the Eiffe to"er, and the gate.3hen I reached the to! I oo'ed for a second at the magnificent vie", and then I "ason the ground again. his dream "as rea y "eird #ecause most dreams youremem#er for a#out 1 minutes or so, #ut I "as thin'ing a#out this ALL day forsome reason. As the day goes #y I !eace together that this is ha!!ening in &ochester,and I thin' I remem#er and mar's i'e the J-11 and I thin' I 'no" ho" to get there.Fina y after dinner I decided to get in my ee! and try and )fee * my "ay to this! ace. 3ithout any mista'es I turn right here, drive for a "hi e and turn eft there. Ifind myse f turning onto this grass fie d and a dirt !ath. I drive to the tree ine andthere is a chain in' fence so I must sto!. I eave my head ights on and "a ' to thefence. I$m standing in front of the )gate* in my dreams. I see something #eyond itand as I focus there is a fie d, and in the midd e of it is a #unch of ights and somety!e of structure #ehind it. I cannot ma'e it out c ear y #ecause of the shado"s fromthe ights. 0o I stoo! do"n to one 'nee and oo' u!. I cou d #ar ey see #ecause thetrees "ere overhanging my vie". It "as a huge micro"ave radio to"er. his didn$tma'e any sense, so I !ut my face so it "as a most touching the ground and I oo'edu! and sa" the red f ashing ight ALL E 3A A E P. 3hen I sa" the redf ashing ight my head instant y started to s!in and I thre" u! severa times rightthere. I don$t 'no" ho" ong I "as there, #ut I remem#er driving home and I "as!rofuse y s"eating. Li'e s"eating after you thro" u! from a hang over. I fina y gethome, and i'e my mother Brian is as'ing me "here I$ve #een. 0o I te him the story

a#out the dream and for some reason he seem very annoyed a#out this, #ut I don$t'no" "hy. I go to #ed sti s"eating and sha'ing. he ne+t morning I remem#er"a'ing u! and fee ing a#so ute y terrific.

his event must have occurred soon AF E& than'sgiving of 1988, #ecause during thethan'sgiving #rea' freshman year is "hen I #ought the 19J9-three s!eed ee! %7-C,and then too' it u! to schoo . he thing is after I to d Brian "here I had #een they! aced a trac'ing device under the rear "hee "e of my ee! on the !assenger side;inside the fender on the rear "hee !assenger side<. I remem#er this #ecause I "as

going to my ee! one evening and I noticed a #ig roc' stuc' in my tire and I tried to!ry it out #ut I cou dn$t so I "ent and got my tire iron to !ry it oose from the dee!tread ;that$s the 'ind of guy I am, if I see something "rong on my car I can$t ust



eave it #ecause it "ou d #other me unti I 'ne" it "asn$t there<. 0o any"ay I !ry itout of the dee! tread ;they "ere #rand ne" + 1D.C + 1C f otation tires "ith ne"tread< and as I !ry it out the tire iron and the roc' f y u! into the "hee "e and theroc', the tire iron and this itt e # ac' magnetic #o+ come out. It "as the same si e

and sha!e of one of those ) ide a 'ey* #o+es, as a matter of fact that$s "hat Ithought it "as. But it "ou dn$t o!en, it "as ust a #o+ "ith a magnet and a "irestic'ing out of it. At that instant I #ecame scared #ecause I didn$t e+act y 'no" "hatit "as #ut from some"here inside me I had my sus!icions ;since I never !ut it there<.I had !ar'ed right ne+t to the #us sto!, and as I am ho ding this itt e # ac' #o+ a #us!u s u! and is going to et some !eo! e out, so I said to my se f )"hy the f>c' not*so I ran over to the #us and stuc' this itt e # ac' #o+ under the "hee "e of the #usand it !u ed a"ay. And "ith in minutes I had forgotten a a#out it.

3e "ere having a !arty at my fraternity that night and as a ! edge "ith a car the #rothers of the house had sent me out for cigarettes #efore the !arty started. I "entout and got the cigarettes and had to !ar' in a different s!ot "hen I came #ac' #ecause mine "as ta'en. I got e+treme y drun' at the !arty and ended u! crashingon one of the many couches in one of the rooms at the fraternity house for a "hi e. 0othey didn$t 'no" "here I "as. hey #eing a #ranch of the (a i underground "ho isusing the :niversity of &ochester , oda' , and Bausch and Lom# , ;to name a veryfe"< as covers for their genetic and mind contro !rograms in order to mani!u atethe chi dren of America.

) hey* thought is "as ma'ing a )run for it* as the #us "as driving a around&ochester, and I didn$t come home that night. 3hen I got #ac' to my room at a#outCR in the afternoon Brian is there, !issed off as he at me as'ing me )3here the f>c'have you #eenH... 3hat did you do ast nightH* I te him to go )F>c' himse f* and Ihead for the sho"er and then I am going to ta'e a ong na!. 3hen I get #ac' fromthe sho"er, Brian is gone #ut the man "ith the "hite hair )Ado !h* is in my rooma ong "ith Mr. reen and a#out four other guys. hey s am the door shut as soon asI "a ' in, "hen I rea i e they are in my room I try to run, #ut Ado !h says a fe""ords and I cannot move. I stand there i'e I am in a trance ust i'e I do "hen I am

#ac' at the a#. e starts to che" my ass out, and a I cou d do is stand there andsmi e. I guess they had s!ent the "ho e night fo o"ing the #us around, then theyfina y sto!!ed it and searched it and found that I "asn$t on the #us and then theyfound the trac'ing device in the "hee "e and then cou dn$t find me, and I didn$tcome home. hey "ere very !issed off at me. I ust stood there and smi ed. It "asone of the !roudest moments of my ifeG hey to d me to get in the god d>mn #edand to go to f>c'ing s ee!. 0o I !ut a #ig che" of to#acco in my mouth and ! ayed(entendo for a fe" hours, #efore fina y going to #ed. his is an e+am! e of ho"even though I "as tota y under their contro , they cou d not tota y destroy )Andy*

and someho" I found a "ay to come out. hen even though they had instructed meto go to #ed I some ho" fought the order off and "ent to #ed "hen I "anted to.

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At some !oint came the )#ig um!* ;as if um!ing off the huge to"er "asn$t #igenough<. I don$t remem#er e+act y "hen it "as, #ut I c ear y remem#er the event. Aa ong, the main !oint of s!ending so much time on a of these um!s "as to see if Icou d ma'e the )#ig um!* and survive. he theory #ehind a of this "as that once

the #ody reaches a certain s!eed ; Dfeet sec?sec< you cannot go any faster, you havereached ma+imum ve ocity. 0o, in theory if I cou d um! off an o# ect and reach Dfeet sec?sec and some ho" survive, then it didn$t matter ho" high I "as um!ingfrom. In other "ords if I um!ed off the to"er ;a um! of a fe" hundred feet< and Ireached ma+imum ve ocity then I cou d a so um! from C feet, 1 feet, or 1 ,feet. It didn$t matter ho" high #ecause I cou dn$t go any faster. Imagine the !otentiaof a so dier or covert o!erations team "ho cou d um! out of a ! ane and didn$t need!arachutes. hin' a#out itG A o" f ying ! ane going over a strategic target, theenemy "ou d !ro#a# y dismiss it as a reconnaissance ! ane. he team cou d

iterate y fa from the s'y and and !ractica y right on to! of the target and no one"ou d 'no" anything a#out it unti months after it "as over. his is "hat they areafter, the u timate so ider, the u timate 'i ing machine.

I don$t remem#er anything a#out ho" I got there, #ut I remem#er sitting in a smasing e engine !ro!e er ! ane ; i'e a s'y diving ! ane<, I remem#er ear ier havingreceived instructions on ho" to form the )arch* during )free fa * #ut that$s a#out it.hey had me in some 'ind of #e t a!!aratus in a hanger of a s'y diving schoo

sho"ing me the !osition. Bac' in the ! ane the guy te s me to come over to the doorand to !ut my foot out on the "hee . I remem#er ye ing at him )I 4 ($ A E MPA&A% : EG* e then ye s in my ear )0 A E&E I$LL E I .* I amstanding at the o!en door "ith #oth of my hands firm y gras!ing the sides of the! ane, I oo' #ac' to see "hat the man is doing. e is u! #y the !i ot on the radio.

e starts to "a ' #ac' to me and he gra#s a !arachute from #eneath a #ungi s!ider"e# that is stic'ing to the side of the ! ane. he !arachute is t"o #ig s/uaresattached to each other #y t"o seat #e t i'e stra!s and then there are many otherstra!s, c i!s and hoo's coming off the t"o stra!s as "e as the t"o s/uares. I see himcoming to"ard me and he goes to say something in my ear. I ean #ac' to isten. e

says to me )LE F E PLA(E, 3E A E P: :& PA&A% : E(.* he second I et go of the ! ane he !ushes me out. I am a disoriented for a fe"seconds #ut then get my se f into the )arch*. I remem#er I had no fear as I "asfa ing, I "as not afraid. I remem#er focusing on the ground, focusing, focusing,focusing, and got !re!ared for the im!act #oth menta y and !hysica y. As theground came c oser I envisioned my egs as )stee s!rings*, and got my #ody ready.nees #ent, tighten the #utt and thighs, a "ays, a "ays, a "ays 'ee! the 'nees

s ight y #ent. It "as i'e a fee ing of doing a reverse s/uat if you "i , the on ydifference #eing that instead of having the "eight a ready on your shou ders and

then e+! oding u!"ards, you are sim! e menta y !re!ared as the "eight #ecomesyour o"n #ody "eight mu ti! ied times the acce eration rate you are trave ing. Iremem#er hitting the ground "ith such force I cannot rea y e+! ain the fee ing, it



"as ust i'e )BA-B M*. I hit so hard that after"ords they to d me that I must have)#ounced* at east C feet in the air. his ma'es sense #ecause I had no fear duringthe "ho e thing #ut I #ecame scared the second after I hit the ground "hen I sa"ho" high I "as sti in the air. I sim! y had never )#ounced* that high #efore. hen I

hit and )#ounced* for the second time ;I had #ounced so high the first time that Icou d not do my shou der ro for the anding, I had to )#ounce* again and then dothe shou der ro < and on the second )#ounce* I "as disoriented #ecause I never had)#ounced* t"ice #efore and I t"isted my 'nee on the anding. I remem#er it "as daytime it "as co d and I had anded in a fie d. I "as ost in the ta grass. I said to myse f ) E :PG E :P : 0 ( F A BI % .* And I managed to stand u! and Isa" men running to"ards me, I tried to "a ' #ut I co a!sed right there. hey comeover to me and Mr. reen starts ye ing at me )0 A(4 :PG E :PG I 0AI4 0 A(4:PG* I ye #ac' at him )I$M & I( * and as hard as I tried I cou d not get my egs

under me. 0ome of the men !u ed me to my feet and tried to he ! me "a ', #ut the"ho e e+!erience had eft me tota y e+hausted. I mean I fe t i'e I "as drained ofevery ounce of strength that I cou d !ossi# e gather together. I #egged them te ingthem )I$m a right, ust ! ease et me rest for a minute.*

Fina y they aid me do"n in the fie d and I !assed out. I don$t 'no" ho" ong I "asout for #ut they had to "a'e me u! #ecause it "as getting to #e dus'. I cou d "a 'no" #ut on y "ith he !, they !ut me in the #ac' seat and I fe right to s ee!. I "o'eu! in front of the dorm again and they he !ed me to my room and then !ut me to #ed. I don$t remem#er ho" ong I "as as ee! for #ut it "as for a ong "hi e.



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#he /un+*ng

hen came a night I "i not soon forget. It "as the same situation as "hen theythre" me out of the ! ane. n y this time it "as dus'. I remem#er a man thro"ingme out of the ! ane. I am fa ing, I don$t 'no" "here I am, I can$t see the ground.Everything goes # ac'. I f ash into )my room* in my mind I am hurt very #ad y. Myegs are not "or'ing, I cannot ma'e it into the !oo . It is hard to #reath. 0ome ho" Imanage to !u my se f into the !oo . I am hurt very #ad y. I reach for the )su!er to!secret green formu a* "hich is duc' ta!!ed to the !oster #oard. If I #rea' it the

hea ing !oo "i #ecome one hundred mi ion times more !o"erfu then it a readyis. I gra# it "ith a most my ast #reath and #rea' it o!en. he !oo instant y turnsfrom ye o" to green and starts to #u## e vio ent y. ea , hea , hea , I te myse f.Everything goes # ac'. I see my #ody, I am f oating u!"ards a#ove it. My eyes andmouth are o!en and e+!ression ess. My #ac' is t"isted i'e a /uestion mar'.)( * I scream. Everything is # ac' again. I hear voices, they are saying )I0A3 IM M E* then another voice says )4on$t #e ridicu ous he is as dead as theycome.* hen the first voice again )I$M ELLI( : I 0A3 IM M E.* A is/uiet and # ac' for a ong "hi e.

I o!en my eyes, every thing is # ac', #ut not /uite as # ac' as #efore. 0ome ight iscoming from the sides. 0omething is on to! of me, and it is very co d. 3ith my eftarm I try and move this thing that is on to! of me. I gra# it, it is made of ! astic. Iremem#er the te+ture of the ! astic as it has #ecome semi-ridged from the co dtem!erature. It is a thin ! astic yet it "as not fragi e. It "as made of a dar' ! astic.hey had aid some 'ind of #ody #ag on to! of me, to cover me. I !ush it aside "ithease. I cannot move #ut I am oo'ing u! to"ard the s'y. I remem#er it "as a crystac ear night and the stars oo'ed magnificent. hen I tried to move, I managed to roover on to my eft side. hen I !ut my right hand on the ground and tried to !ush myse f u!. A A M ME( I EA&4 A(4 FEL E E& B (E I( M BA%A(4 B 4 %&A% A(4 P P LI E A % I& PP&A% & A4 7:0 4 (E A) AL* B 4 A47:0 ME( ALL I( (E 0 . After the crac'ing and!o!!ing had sto!!ed I !aused for a moment in the !osition that I "as in. hatmoment seemed to ast forever, and it fe t i'e a )cross roads* in my ife. I remem#erthin'ing ) E :PG 7:0 E :P : PIE%E F 0 I G. 0 A(4 :PG* and I stoodu!. I "as a right, I "as someho" a right, I have no idea ho" or "hy #ut I "as aright.

I oo'ed around, it "as night. I "as in the midd e of a fie d, ust i'e the one I had um!ed into #efore during the day. I am standing #ut my vision is very ha y. It is



very difficu t to ma'e out o# ects. A to my right and u! a s ight inc ine is a grou! ofmen. A I can see is their shado"s as they are standing in a circ e and there is aantern in the midd e of them. I "ou d estimate 1 to 1C men in a . I start "a 'ingto"ards the grou!. In the dar' I !ass t"o men "a 'ing a"ay from the grou!. As I

!ass them I casua y say )3hat$s u!* and they ac'no" edge me "ith a simi arres!onse. 3hen I get to the grou! I stand a#out a foot and a ha f #ehind and in #et"een t"o men. Li'e a curious 'id I am stic'ing my head in trying to isten in. Isee Ado !h getting his ass che"ed out #y another man "ho I had never seen #efore.his guy "as dressed im! aca# y in a good suit and overcoat.

e is screaming at the man "ith Ado !h ) : %ALL I0 A 4EM (0 &A I (G: 4&A ME : E&E 3A % : % MMI M:&4E& ( A

% LLE E I4G. A&E : : F :& F>% I( MI(4H* and he "as going onand on. 7ust at that !oint the man direct y to my eft oo's at me. is face turns as"hite as a ghost. is mouth is o!en "ith a cigarette stuc' to his i!. I am oo'ing athim and I as' )3hatSs going onH* e in turn hits the man to his eft. he man to hiseft is ignoring him, so he hits him again. Fina y he gets his attention and he turns tothe man "ho is hitting him and says )3 A * and the first man !oints to me. hesecond man sees me and his face turns as "hite as a ghost. he second man thenye s to Ado !h, and he re!eats himse f unti he gets his attention. he second manthen !oints to me. Ado !h then turns as "hite as a ghost. By no" every one isoo'ing at me and a conversation has sto!!ed. Everyone is oo'ing at me so I turnaround to see "hat they are oo'ing at, #ut a I can see is dar'ness. 0o I turn aroundand say )3hat the f>c' is every #ody oo'ing atH* he Ado !h comes over to me andgra#s the antern on his "ay over. e s!ins me around to e+amine my #ac'. e seesthat I am a right and he as's me )3hat ha!!ened* and I say "ith a sincerity )I$LLELL : 3 A APPE(E4G 0 ME A00- LE 7:0 P:0 E4 ME : F AF>% I( PLA(E.* My tone then so#ers and I say )I cou dn$t see the ground, and I"rec'ed, I a most didn$t ma'e it. At that !oint the t"o men "ho I had !assed in thedar' come #ac' to the circ e and start ye ing )ALL &I 3 A0 BEE(F>% I( A& :(4 3I E B 4 .* hey then see me and their mouths dro!"ide o!en. Ado !h te s me he "ants to introduce me to someone. e #rings me over

to the "e dressed man and i'e a !roud father introduces me. he man "as either asenator or a congressmen, I can$t #e for certain #ut I$m a#out 9 U sure he "as a0enator. I "as introduced #ut I cannot remem#er his name. It$s i'e on the ti! of mytongue, #ut for the ife of me I ust can$t remem#er his name. Any"ay, he turns toAdo !h and as's )3as this a !art of the demonstrationH* and Ado !h sha'es hishead no. he 0enator then said )If I didnSt see it "ith my o"n eyes I "ou dn$t have #e ieved it. ( F>% I( 3A GGGG 7E0:0 % &I0 that "as f>c'ing un#e ieva# eGGGG Iste! in and inter ect and say )I 'no" it$s not my ! ace #ut do you thin' "e cou d getsome of that night vision shitH I cou dn$t see the ground and it a most 'i ed meG* and

a chorus of nervous aughter eru!ts. he "e dressed man !uts his arm on myshou der and says )Anything you need from me you f>c'ing got it.* My guess is



"hat ust ha!!ened "as they ust got un imited funding. An o!en chec' #oo', this is"hen things dramatica y changed.

As "e "ere !ac'ing u! to eave, one of the men as's me )&hino, "hat do you "antH

you name it and you got it.* I say ) .. I "ant an ice cream.* e nervous y starts toaugh )you "ant an ice creamH* he as's. ) es, I "ant an ice cream*, and he says)you f>c'ing got it*. 3e get in the car and drive #ac' to to"n, I 'no" it "as ate #ecause a the stores "ere c osed. But #y god he "as going to get me my ice cream.e ends u! #y-!assing the a arm and #rea'ing into a )Bas'in &o#inSs 1 f avors* icecream store. And he says )"hat f avor do you "ant*. I said )choco ate*. e got!issed off at this #ecause he cou d have gone to the oca food store in stead of #rea'ing in, #ut I said )than' you* and ate my ice cream, they too' me home, and I"ent to #ed.

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(o" at the #ig a# is "hen things "ere different. his is "hen the mi itary direct ygot invo ved and this is "hat ha!!ened.

First off, the #ig a# used to #e a !retty #arren ! ace ;it "as a huge room inside some'ind of faci ity<. 3ith a fe" things in there ;the s/uat rac' etc..<. B: ( 3, there isa 'inds of stuff, a huge "ater tan', this e ectronic !unching s/uare, and ALL 'indsof e ectronic shoc' e/ui!ment. It "as i'e a different ! ace. It "as fu .

I$m standing there and I hear arguing going on. I see Mr. reen ;the man in the armyuniform<, he is arguing "ith the man "ith the "hite hair ;Ado !h, the erman (a i<.From "hat I cou d !ut together it "as a#out "ho no" had contro of this !ro ect. heMr. reen is saying that this is a )Mi itary matter no"* and Ado !h is te ing him to) F>% IM0ELF*, and that they ust cannot come in here and !ush him out.3hat ended u! ha!!ening I thin' "as the Mi itary ) fficia y* too' over the !ro ectat that !oint, #ut as it turns out they needed Ado !h #ecause he "as the on y one"ho cou d contro me as he "as the one "ho had done the initia !rogramming ofme ;I remem#er him as far #ac' as age C "hen I ived in Munich "ith my fami y<. e'ne" a of the trigger "ords, and ho" my mind "as !rogrammed. As a resu t ofthis the Mi itary named him as )the director* of the !ro ect. 0o, he "as invo ved andsti had some !o"er ;or at east he thought he did<.

ere is "hat ha!!ened, the Mi itary #rings in it$s o"n grou! of a# doctors. hey"ere a !ac' of C or Q men ;a men< a "earing these #a#y # ue a# coats. he headinstructor ;it "as a fair assum!tion to assume he "as the head instructor #y hismannerisms and attitude to"ards a the others< instructs me to )stri! do"n to myunder"ear*, I do not move. e ye s it at me again )do it, ( 3*, again I don$tmove. e #ecomes very !issed off and starts ranting on and on a#out )"hat the f>c'is going on around here ..etc..etc..* Ado !h comes over and te s me to )stri!,* and I



immediate y do it. his rea y !isses of the head a# coat man, and at the same timerea y ! eases Ado !h. As this not on y 'ee!s Ado !h )in the oo!* #ut it ma'es hima very intricate !art of the !ro ect ;the man in the # ue a# coat tried severa times to)undo* this !art of my !rogramming and the man "ith the "hite hair found out

a#out it and a most 'i ed him<.

Any"ay, this is "hat ha!!ened ne+t. I remem#er stri!!ing do"n to my under"ear,and then I s!o'e. his shoc'ed everyone #ecause I never s!o'e un ess s!o'en to. Isaid )I have to 'ee! my ! edge !in on me at a times, even in the sho"er, I musthave it on the to"e *. I "as very u!set a#out this. I "as ! edging the fraternity 4e taa!!a E!si on and as a ! edge you M:0 AL3A 0 have your ! edge !in on. It "asa triang e !in and the three sides "ere co ored red, # ue and go d. Again, the headman in the # ue a# coat starts ye ing at the man "ith the "hite hair and # ac'eather coat )"hat 'ind of sho" are you running here, I thought you said he "asthorough y !re!ared etc..etc..*. Mean"hi e one of the other a# guys !ic's u! myc oths and starts to "a ' a"ay "ith them. e gets three or four ste!s a"ay and i'e atiger I !ounce on him. I gra# him #y his throat "ith my right hand and ri! my shirta"ay from him "ith my eft.

A of a sudden C or Q guys ea! on the #oth of us and they !ry his nec' from myhand. he man "ith the "hite hair immediate y um!s in and te s me to stand u!and not to f>c'ing move. hey start arguing again, a of a sudden one of the men"ith the "hite haired man from the origina grou! from the #ac' ye s ) L4 I *and he "a 's over, !ic's u! my shirt, ta'es the !in off of my shirt and !ins it on thee astic #and of my under"ear. )( 3 A&E : APP * he says to me. )( * I say.3hy he as'sH )I $0 ( &I * I say. )3 A $0 3& ( * he as's. I oo' do"n tothe !in on my hi!, and I turn it so the go d side is f at on to!. ) E&E* I say.)3 A 3A0 A H* e as's. )I AL3A 0 A0 BE 0:(( 0I4E :PG* Ians"er. )Are you ha!!y no"* he as's. )I$M E& APP ( 3* I ans"er, as achorus of aughter eru!ts as I stood there and cou d not move.

hey then had me !erform some sim! e strength tests ;s/uee ing things, the s/uat

rac' etc<. hat "as my first visit to the a# "ith the mi itary doctors there. I assumeda a ong that they "ere mi itary )doctors* ;and I use the term )doctor* very oose y #ecause a )4octor* of "hat these guys "ere I have no idea<.

I cou d see out of the corner of my eye the conversations that "ere going on. Fromthe tones and mannerisms I cou d te that the head a# instructor "as the manrunning the sho", the e+!ert in the fie d. Ado !h turned out to #e my )coach* if you"i . But it "as very a!!arent that the man in green "as the authority in the room.e "ou d sort of stand off to the side "ith Ado !h a the time. But "hen something"ent "rong or he "anted something re!eated, I cou d not see him, #ut I "ou d hearhis voice come from some "here in the room. And "hen he s!o'e everyone reacted.





a you "ant to do is get a"ay. I head for the door as fast as I can. 3hich turns out to #e not very fast as I am trying to "a ' #ut cannot, it "as more of a cra" . I ma'e it tothe door, and turn do"n the ha "ay, "ithin moments they are a around me.Astonished that I$m first of a a ive and second y that I have moved at a , i'e I am

even ess than a a# rat, they stand around and start discussing me, as I$m trying tocra" "ith every ounce of strength I have. I am co a!sed in a #a on the f oor "ithmy face stuc' in the crac' "here the "a meets the f oor. And as I hear them ta 'ingI cannot he ! my se f and I start to cry uncontro a# y )PLEA0EG PLEA0EG 7:0LEA E ME AL (E* I #eg. And the #astard in the # ue a# coat says )get him #ac'in the a# no"G* And they !ic' me u! and #ring me #ac', and stra! me #ac' onto theta# e. But I don$t remem#er anything after that.

Another time they !ut me in a tan' of "ater and sea ed the to!, to see if I cou d #reath under "ater. he first fe" times I managed to esca!e #efore I dro"ned todeath. But then they fina y got a tan' that I cou d not #rea' and had a sea ed to!. Iremem#er vio ent y trying to get out #ut cou d not. I dro"ned and I # ac' out, I seemy #ody again, as I am f oating a#ove it again. his time they are !um!ing my chesttrying to get the "ater out of my ungs. I see my face, my eyes and my mouth areo!en. And again I f ash to the hea ing !oo and f o! myse f in ;at some !oint I don$t'no" e+act y "hen I had added a itt e )handica!!ed* ram! to the !oo so I"ou dn$t have as much trou# e "hen I had to enter the !oo < #ut again "hen Io!ened my eyes I am oo'ing at the cei ing again.

I "ou d a "ays try to get u! and try to run do"n the ha and they "ou d a "aystac' e me #efore I cou d esca!e. he dimensions of ho" far I "as actua y going "erevery unc ear. ery # urry and ha y around the edges. It seemed to ta'e forever to getany"here, and they seemed to move much faster than I cou d. But each time I got aitt e further do"n the ha and I "as a itt e stronger "hen I came out of it.

I remem#er this ha!!ening severa times. 3ith #oth the "ater tan' and thee ectroshoc' e+!eriments. he dying and coming #ac' to ife. 7ust i'e "ith air! aneto get the funding. 0eeing my #ody and then automatica y going right to the hea ing

!oo . And the hea ing !oo "ou d a "ays someho" #ring me #ac'.

hey "ere trying to see "hat I "as ca!a# e of doing. hey "ere o#sessed "ithas'ing me if I cou d move o# ect "ith my mind. If I cou d f oat in the air. If I cou dma'e o# ects f oat in the air. 3hat they "ere trying to do "as to ! ace a suggestion inmy su#conscious and then see if I cou d do it. 0ee if I rea y #e ieved that I cou d doit. Li'e te ing me that I cou d #reath under"ater and then oc'ing me in a tan' untiI dro"ned and then revive me again. e ing me that I cou d f y, and then !ush meoff a edge. hings i'e that. ere is the imitation as to "hat I cou d do and "hat Icou dn$t do as #est as I can figure out. ou see I had a ready earned as a chi d thathumans !hysica y cannot #reath under "ater, and humans !hysica y cannot f y. Ia ready 'ne" this and it "as em#edded too far in my thought !rocess to #e



removed. 0o even "ith their hy!nosis and conditioning some"here dee! do"ninside me I 'ne" that I cou d not do these things. 0o natura y I cou d not do them"hen they as'ed me to. o"ever "hat they cou d do is )foo * my mind. e ing methings i'e I had an egg in my hand and to crush it "hen in rea ity it "ou d #e a

tennis #a or a can of soda. Foo ing my mind into thin'ing that everything I um!edoff of "as on y as high as a footstoo . Foo ing my mind into #e ieving that I cou d runas fast as a cheetah and #e as agi e as a ga e e. Foo ing my mind into #e ieving that"hen I shot a gun I "as a com!uteri ed ro#ot that shot "ith !in !oint accuracy.

It is more difficu t for an adu t to earn a foreign anguage than it is for a chi d #ecause the adu t mind is a ready )structured* in may "ays. Adu ts a ready seem'no" the imits of their ca!a#i ities and !otentia , and most (E E& strive to #eanything more that "hat the !arameters of the society in "hich they #e ong to andhave gro" u! in #ind to them. a'e for e+am! e inner city # ac's, most tru y #e ievethat they "i never esca!e the gras! of the getto, so most acce!t this as a fact anddon$t even try to esca!e through some other avenue. 0uch as trying to do "e inhigh schoo and trying someho" to get into co ege, or #y earning a trade or high!aying s'i , or #y some other ) ega * avenue. hey sim! y enter into a gang "herethe odds of then #eing shot and 'i ed is vast y higher that any"here e se. hey dothis #ecause they &:L BELIE E this is their fate. If you as' the average K or Cyear o d adu t if they have achieved their goa s in ife and "hat they dreamed of #ecoming as a chi d, 9C !ercent "ou d say )no*. And then you as' them )"hy notHH3hat$s sto!!ing youH* Most "ou d give some economic reason or they "ou d say)I$m too o d*.. or )I missed my chanceG* )3 %A($ : AF E& :&4&EAMG.. 3 0A 0.. A : %A(( 4 I G : A&E (E E& L4A(4 I I0 (E E& LA EG* I say and I #e ieve. Life a #oi $s do"n to fear, and"hether or not you rea y have the courage to find out "hat you are rea y made ofGhat$s "hy most adu ts find themse ves in a o# they rea y aren$t ha!!y "ith and yetthey don$t diverse into anything e se, or they stay in an unha!!y marriage for yearsand years. 3hyH Because of fearG he fear of #eing a one, fear of ma'ing changes,fear of ta'ing ris's, fear of fai ing. Ear ier I had ta 'ed a#out ho" the coaches to d methat I "asn$t running as fast as the K times indicated, and after a "hi e I started to

#e ieve them, and as a resu t I unconscious y s o"ed do"n. his is "hat I mean. Bythe time someone #ecomes an adu t they have a ready stated to )s o" do"n*.0ociety has a ready set u! the !arameters of their fate, and they have menta yacce!ted it. But as chi dren, none of these restrictive !arameters a!! y. A youngmind is i'e a dam! s!onge ready to a#sor# any information you dro! on it. I hada ready a#sor#ed the fact that I cou d not #reath under "ater, and this fact cou d not #e )undone*, therefore "hen they !ut me in the tan' and sea ed the id, I dro"ned.It "ou d ho"ever #e a very interesting e+!eriment to see "hat "ou d ha!!en if youtoo' a chi d as a #a#y and raised them in a "or d "here they did not ever earn the

)!arameters* of this "or d. he restrictions and the a"s of !hysics. o" "ou dthey turn outH his is #asica y "hat they are doing, "ith the sma oversight that



they are doing it "ith the youth of America, 3I the "ritten consent of the :nited0tates Mi itary? overnment.

After each shoc' e!isode "hen I regained consciousness, I "ou d try to esca!e. Each

time I "ou d get a itt e farther do"n the ha , and after each time I seemed to #e aitt e stronger. ne time as men are gra##ing me I thre" a fe" of them off me andAdo !h gra#s me. I cou d not #rea' his gras!, and "e fe to the ground. As he isho ding me he said )&hino, it$s me, your safe, &hino ISm your fatherG* I s!ecifica yremem#er I said ) our not my father, my father ives in %onnecticut and get yourhands off me you f>c'ing assho e* and I s!it right in his eft eye. As "e "erestrugg ing, someone stuc' me in the ass "ith a syringe and I # ac'ed out.

ne time I remem#er "a'ing u! and no" in the a# are severa men. I get off theta# e and I am standing. hey try and force me to the ground. )( * I scream and aof a sudden it "as i'e I had the strength of ten men. I thre" those t"o to the groundand then three more gra# me and I am "rest ing "ith them three more gra##ed me.0ome around my "aist some around my #ody and they are trying too get me to theground. I am frea'ing out and fighting #ac' "ith a my might. I "ou d thro" themoff me i'e they "ere the si e of C year o ds #ut i'e ants they 'e!t s"arming on meand no matter ho" many I thre" off more "ere a "ays on me. here "ere at east si+guys on me and they thought I "as s!ent, #ut I had !aused for that e+act reason.hen in one #urst I "as driving "ith a my might to"ards the man in the # ue a#coat. I got to on y a fe" feet a"ay "hen they "rest ed me to the ground and stuc'me in the ass again "ith the syringe. 7ust #efore they stuc' me, and then after #ut #efore I # ac'ed out again. I remem#er the men screaming )hurry u!.. and ust stic'him any"here*. hen as the drugs disa# ed me to move I cou d sti hear them for aminute or t"o. It "as # ac' #ut I cou d sti hear then ta 'ing and one guy said)7esusG that "as i'e trying to "rest e a #u for %hrist sa'e* and the other guy says )Idon$t 'no" a#out a #u #ut ho" a#out a &hino.*

And they a #egan aughing at me. he ne+t time, as I "as coming to they stuc' me"ithin C seconds of me o!ening my eyes they stuc' me "ith the need e #ut sti I

managed to over !o"er three or for guys inc uding thro"ing Mr. reen himse f intothe ha "ay "a . I got to the ha "ay and ran for the door. hey tac' ed me a#out Dyards from the door to the outside and then !i ed on me unti they cou d administeranother shot to me.

ne time instead of trying to run do"n the ha I decided to hide instead. I managedto ! ace a chair on to! of the ta# e and then 'noc' the cei ing !ane out of it$s ! ace. Imanaged to gra# ho d of the )I* #eam and I !u ed my se f u! and I "ra!!ed my se faround some of the su!!orts. Everything "as covered "ith a#out an inch of dust, #ut I didn$t care, I he d on in the fi th "ith a I had. I heard the a arm go off and asthey cou d not find me. Fina y, after a ong "hi e and "hen they cou d not find me,they revie"ed the video ta!e #ecause the camera "as a "ays "atching me. n the



fi m they sa" me c im#ing u! into the cei ing and they came and got me. I #eganscreaming )( M &EG PLEA0E ( M &E* and they hoo'ed me #ac' u! to thee ectrodes and gave me more uice and more torture.

he ne+t time I a"o'e there "ere si+ guys ho ding me do"n a ready and the need e"as a ready in my arm. I frea'ed out i'e never #efore and again managed to get offthe ta# e and then the 1 man !i e u! commenced and they stuc' me again.

Fina y they got smart and after a their resuscitation efforts fai ed they "ou d re-stra! me to the ta# e #ecause they 'ne" I "ou d come #ac' sooner or ater. 3hen Ia"o'e and I had these )stra!s* on me and I "as frea'ing out. A I remem#er is the #right cei ing ights and then shado"s "ou d come over me and I "ou d # ac' outagain.

I don$t 'no" ho" many times this ha!!ened if it "as a in the same night or if it "asduring different nights. As I #ecame stronger and stronger, fina y I ri!!ed free of thestra!s. I didn$t ri! the thic' eather stra!s themse ves, I ri!!ed them off from "herethey "ere connected to the ta# e. hen "hen I had my eft arm free I un#uc' ed myright and then undid my egs. I "as off the ta# e, the a# is em!ty e+ce!t for that sonof a #itch in the #a#y # ue a# coat and his assistant. is #ac' is turned to me and I"a ' very /uiet y over to him. I "ant to see the oo' on his face "hen he sees mefree. I "a ' u! #ehind him, and "hen the son of a #itch turns around and sees me ahe says "ith no change in his facia e+!ression is )3hat do you "antH* I instant y

gra# him #y his throat "ith my eft hand and "ith my arm that is i'e a ) ydrau icvice* I crush his throat as easi y and "ith as much effort as it ta'es to crush an em!ty #eer can. hen I et him go. e f o!s around for a "hi e i'e a fish out of "atergas!ing for air ho ding his throat. 3ith in seconds he sto!s moving. I turn to myright and oo' at the a# assistant. e sees me oo'ing at him and dro!s hisc i!#oard. he oo' of fear in his eyes is unforgetta# e. e has short #ro"n hair, and #ro"n eyes. e is a#out C$-9* "ith a thin #ui d. I start to "a ' over to him. e is #ac'ing u! as far and as fast as he can go, "hen he reaches the "a he oo's a"ayfrom me as he is !ressing his #ody as f at as it can go. e starts screaming )( G

PLEA0E ( * and I gra# him #y the shirt. e !asses out and I ust dro! him to thef oor as I had nothing against him !ersona y for he "as ust the assistant, and I ethim ive. I head for the door, and turn right into the ha "ay. I start running for theouter doors and I am a#out ha f "ay do"n the ha "ay "hen a#out si+ or seven guysea! out of no "here from a connecting ha "ay and tac' e me. I am "rest ing "iththem, I thro" some off and some more um! on the !i e. hey stic' me "ith theneed e again, and then again, and then again unti I am su#dued.

3hen I "a'e u! I am standing in front of the #ody. he man "ith the "hite hair isye ing at me. I fe t i'e a !u!!y "ho had ust gone to the #athroom on the good rugfor the first time. )3 A I0 I0H* he ye s. )3 A 4I4 : 4 H L A3 A : A E 4 (EG* As he "as ye ing at me I didn$t fee #ad a#out it, and I



fe t no shame. A I cou d thin' a#out "as ) our ne+t you !iece of shit and if I cou dmove I "ou d 'i you right here you f>c'ing ass-ho e*. hey "ere contro ing my #ody, #ut someho" inside my mind sti tried to fight on. Even though I cou dn$tmove my #ody )Andy* "as sti inside some"here.

#he 0lectr*c ence

As the e ectric shoc', torture, and the #eatings continued, once I got a"ay. I "o'e u!after seeing my #ody and )f ashing* into the green hea ing !oo in my mind. I!retended to #e in ured ; i'e a ame duc'< as I entered into the ha "ay. he men acame running at first #ut then "hen they sa" me cra" ing they s o"ed to a "a '.3hen they "ere a most on to! of me, "ith one #urst of a the energy I had, Ie+! oded into them 'noc'ing a fe" of them do"n and I #ro'e free and I "as #ythem. I ran in my under"ear for the door to the outside. I got outside and I #eganrunning around the faci ity oo'ing for a "ay out. I 'ne" it "as very co d outside #ecause I cou d see my #reath. It "as sno"ing and there "ere arge !atches of sno"a ready on the ground. As I circ ed the com! e+ there "as a arge fence a around theoutside "ith arge meta signs every 1C yards or so "ith the s'u and cross #ones onit and the "ords )3arning E ectric fence*. I "as tra!!ed, the fence "as in front ofme and to my #ac', as I turned around, "ere a#out 1 men in a semi-circ e c osing inon me. I #ac' a"ay from the fence and I am going to try and um! it. Ado !h is in themidd e of the semi-circ e and ye s )&hinoG ( G 4 ($ 4 I G* But I "as notistening as I "as i'e a cornered anima not thin'ing ust oo'ing for a "ay out. 0o I

#ac'ed u! and ran at the fence. I hear the man "ith the "hite hair ye )( G 4 ($4 I G* #ut I ea! for the fence any"ay. he on y !art of my #ody that touched thefence "as the !a ms of my hands as I had ea!ed u! and gra##ed the very to! of thefence ;the to! ro" of #ar#ed "ire< and did sort of a f i! over the fence. But that "asenough as I "as instant y e ectrocuted. I remem#er aying in the sno" for a "hi e,"ith smo'e or steam coming off my #ody and the sme of #urnt hair in the air. I hear #ehind me the men ye ing )F>% G 3 4I4 E A E 4 A *, they "ereactua y e+!ressing some grief that I "as dead. I hear them ta 'ing and I oo' aheadof me. here is nothing #ut o!en "oods ahead. 0omething inside me says ) E :PG

E :P : F>% I( 0 ( F A BI % A(4 &:(, E :& A00 :P A(4&:(G &:( : PIE%E F 0 I GGG* I MA(A E4 E :P #ut then I fe right #ac' on my face. he men #ehind the fence sa" me move and no" "ith ne"!uissance ran around the #ui ding and "ere heading for the gate. I "as not a#out to"ait for them. I managed to get my se f u! and I ran "ith a my might for the"oods. I heard them #ehind me #ut not for very ong. he ne+t thing I remem#er isrunning on the outer edges of the cam!us. I have no idea ho" I got there, ho" I'ne" "here I "as going, or ho" ong I "as running in my under"ear in the sno".A I remem#er is running and saying to my se f ) ou can ma'e itG a most homeG you

can ma'e it*. I remem#er !eo! e "ere oo'ing at me as I "as no" running across thecam!us. I had and mar's, I 'ne" "here I "as, a most home. I ma'e it #ac' to thedorm room. I get to the e evator and a #unch of gir s are getting on "ith me. hey



start aughing at me and I co a!se in the corner of the e evator. I said )P easeG P ease ust !ush K for me.* I manage to get out at the K th f oor and run for my room. Myroom is of course a the "ay at the end of the ha "ay. he ne+t to ast room ocated #y the one-"ay fire door "hich eads to the stairs. I$m !raying that Brian is there and

the door is o!en. he door hand e turns and I itera y fa into the room. Brian is onthe !hone, as I fa in front of him he says ) e$s here ca me #ac'* and hangs u! the!hone.

Brian ta'es one oo' at me and gra#s the comforter off his #ed and "ra!s it aroundme as my s'in is #right red and I am sha'ing vio ent y from the co d. e gets off myunder"ear and !uts my #athro#e on my shou ders and "a 's me to the sho"ers. e!uts me in the sho"er and turns the hot "ater on. I can see the steam rising from thehot "ater #ut I cannot fee anything on my s'in. )4 ($ F>% I( M E F& MA 0 ALL* he ye s at me, and he eaves. I must have stood in that sho"er for

hours, unti fina y I got some fee ing #ac' in my s'in and my fingers "ere getting!uny. I am sti in some sort of shoc' as I !ut my ro#e on and try and head for myroom. 3hen I get to my door I hear arguing going on inside. I hear Brian ye ing)3 A E F>% 4I4 : 4 IM* and then I hear Mr. reen$s voiceans"er ) A $0 ( (E F : B:0I(E00* and I o!en the door and see Brian, Mr.reen, Ado !h, and a fe" other guys a in my room, and I ust # ac' out.

I "a'e u! and I am in my #un' #ed, I oo' over the side and Brian is at the doorta 'ing to Mr. reen, he sees me and ye s at me to ) o #ac' to s ee!G his is a a #addream*, he then says a more fe" "ords to Mr. reen and c oses the door. I am stioo'ing at him and he ye s again )I 0AI4 BA% F>% I( 0LEEPG I0 I0ALL A BA4 4&EAMG* I fa as ee! and "a'e u! the ne+t morning having had ahorrific nightmare. But I can hard y move as I have a very #ad co d. F u i'esym!toms #ut #y that night they "ere gone again and I fe t fine.

.ac *n the +or!

Mean"hi e "hat is ha!!ening #ac' in the dorm room and during schoo "hi e a

this is going onH I remem#er strange things ha!!ening in my norma ife duringschoo . My high schoo s"eet heart )4a"n* had gone to a different co ege so I "asnot that interested in meeting different gir s any"ay as I "as oya to her and hera one. But a the gir s as "e as most of the !eo! e I 'ne" thought I "as the #iggestass-ho e #ecause I didn$t ta ' much to anyone. 4uring c asses, in the ha "ays, at!arties or any"here. he on y !eo! e I had s!o'en to "ere the foot#a ! ayers andthe coaches. his "as my )"or d* as far as "a 'ing to and from c asses I a "ays hadmy 3a 'man on. Peo! e made o'es that they thought it "as )g ued* to my head.

n the foot#a team, I earned a starting s!ot on the #est team &ochester had had intheir 1 years of having a foot#a team. As sudden y as I had earned the startings!ot, the ne+t "ee' the coaches to d me that I "as no onger going to #e the starter



and I "as #enched. I go in as to as' "hy, and then my coach, coach Mar te s methat there are )other forces at "or'* and he has this g a ed oo' in his eyes i'e he"ants to te me something #ut he cannot. Loo'ing #ac' I thin' they "anted to 'ee!me as /uite as !ossi# e. In other "ords, the ast thing they "anted me to do is go off

and #e a great foot#a star, "ith ne"s !a!ers and the media. 0o I thin' they "ent tothe coaches and to d them not to ! ay me, to #ench me #ecause they cou d not ta'ethe chance of my face getting on the ne"s.

4uring !arents "ee'end freshmen year my father came u! for the event. 4uring oneof the evenings the schoo had hired a )0tage y!notist* for a sho" after dinner. Inthe main cafeteria they had set u! chairs !ro#a# y over to D seats. he hy!notistas's for vo unteers to #e in the sho" and he starts !ic'ing !eo! e out of the audienceto come u! and #e hy!noti ed. I am "aving my hand i'e cra y and the guy !ic'ssome !eo! e "ho are right near me and !asses me #y. I say )fuc' this I$m going u!there any"ay* #ecause I rea y "anted to do this for some reason.

0o I oin the !ac' of !eo! e that are heading u! to"ard the stage ;#ecause he isse ecting a#out !eo! e to go u!<. I get a the "ay u! to the stage and sit in one ofthe fo d out chairs they have on stage. e then is a#out to start the sho" "hen a manin a reen army uniform then comes over to the side of the stage and te the stagehy!notist that I cannot !artici!ate. And the guy te s me that I must go #ac' to myseat. I remem#er #eing humi iated as I had to "a ' a the "ay #ac' to my seat infront of the cro"d. As I "as "a 'ing #ac' I start ye ing ) E 4 ($ 3A( ME.*I say. 4uring the "ho e sho" I$m very !issed off. After the sho" I remem#er goingu! to the !erformer and te ing him that )I am a victim of a government hy!nosismind contro e+!eriment and can he he ! meH* My father is right there for a of this.he hy!notist then as's me )3ho is doing this to youH* and I !oint to the t"o meneaning u! against the "a ;it$s Mr. reen and the man "ith the "hite hair, Ado !h<,then he did something, either #rought out his "atch on a string or said something tome and a! I am under his s!e . I remem#er introducing my father to #oth Ado !hand Mr. reen, "e "ere right there in the cafeteria against the "a then they madeus fo o" them into a more /uite ! ace. here I thin' they made my father forget the

"ho e incident and made me shut the he u!. o this day "hen I as' my fathera#out the stage hy!notist at !arents "ee'end freshmen year he vague y remem#ersthe event, #eing there, #ut that$s it. (othing a#out meeting the men against the "aand nothing a#out going to a more secure ! ace to erase his memory.

I remem#er "a 'ing #ac' to my room from !ractice one day and a 'id, a s'inny 'id;a#out 18 !ounds<, comes u! to me in front of my dorm room and says ) our AndyPero rightH* and I say ) es*. hen he says ) ou ive "ith Brian VVVVVV fromirondi/uite rightH* and I say ) E0*. hen he says )I 4 ($ ( 3 3 E

ELL :& & MA E I0 B: I$M B&IA( VVVVVV F& M I& (4IT:I EG* I say)don$t #e ridicu es you don$t oo' anything i'e Brian VVVVVV from Irondi/uite.* Igo inside and te my roommate Brian ) ey Brian some 'id out in the !ar'ing ot



says he is you* and I start aughing. e says "hat 'id, and I !oint at him through the"indo". My roommate runs out the door and goes out to ta ' to the 'id. I never sa"that 'id again.

I remem#er Mrs. Purri o and the "oman "ith the # ac' hair coming u! to&ochester severa times and "anting me to ta'e her and her friend to a hote room. Ito d her that I cou d not #ecause I a ready had a gir friend, and that it "ou dn$t #eright and #ecause I "ou dn$t "ant it done to me. 0he said that I "as more addictivethen !ure cocaine, and she is addicted. 0he must have me. Again I to d her no. erand her friend came u! or K times. I et them #uy me dinner once, #ut that "as it.nce after I had shot them do"n, they met some of the seniors on the foot#a teamout at a oca #ar and had made it "ith them, and I heard a#out it. hey gave me a otof shit a#out it #ecause I must have #een cra y #ecause these "omen "ere #eautifu .0o "hy did I shoot them do"nH hey 'e!t as'ing me and I "ou d ust te them thatit "as a ong story.

ne of the most distur#ing memories I have a#out schoo is I remem#er !eo! ecoming for"ard to try and he ! me. I remem#er a !hysics !rofessor coming u! to meand ta 'ing to me a#out "hat the "ere doing to me. o" he had figured out the um! in 3i son %ommons shou d have for a intents and !ur!oses 'i ed me. o" I"as going c ose to D feet sec?sec. And ho" the mi itary !ro#a# y "as having me um! off high things and out of ! anes. And he as'ed if he "as right. hen he to dme not to te anyone #ut they "ere organi ing a case against the government.

3hat Ado !h had done to me "as to instructed me that if A( (E started as'ingA( /uestions that I "ou d immediate y re!ort this #ac' to him "ith a the names,and detai s of the /uestions and "hat "as said during the "ho e conversation. Icou dn$t contro my se f. I cou dn$t ( te him, I had no contro . 0o everyone thattried to he ! me I turned them in, and ratted them out. I remem#er the !hysics!rofessor disa!!earing. I remem#er the dean and a fe" others trying to he ! me, andthen I ratted them out as "e .

I remem#er running across cam!us. As soon as I "ou d see them coming for me, I"ou d ust start running. I "ou d ust ta'e off and as I ran in #et"een !eo! e some"ou d ye )&:( A(4 &:(.* I remem#er um!ing over things and off edges asthey chased me. he thing is I "ou d a "ays run home, I "ou d run home to Brian.

0econd semester ;after %hristmas #rea' and after e "ee' in my fraternity< a#outmid Fe#ruary Brian starts me on 0teroids. e convinces me that it$s the #est thing forme and I go a ong "ith it "ithout any argument. e is a steroid guru and starts toe+! ain a the different o!tions I have. I te him that I didn$t 'no" that much a#outit, so he tries to e+! ain the different in ection o!tions. 3here you can ta'e straighttestosterone or "hat$s #etter is to ta'e a )coc'tai * of different drugs to havema+imum effect. I te him that I "ant ust the straight testosterone #ut he gets me the





#ac' to my room the man "ith the "hite hair "as there, I tried to run #ut he said the)magic* "ord and I "as he ! ess to move, and I forgot a a#out it for years.

I a so remem#er #eing in a tria , #eing on the "itness stand. I am ta 'ing #ut I don$t

'no" "hat is coming out of my mouth. Peo! e start screaming at me as I am ta 'ing #ut I don$t 'no" "hat I am saying. hey are ye ing )he is #rain"ashed*. It "as thetria of the gir "ho "as 'i ed "hen they "ere chasing me across cam!us. he ne+ttime on the stand a man stands u! a #y himse f and )"hac's* t"o # oc's of "oodtogether. I sna! out of it and the cro"d is going cra y. I #e ieved it "as the tria ofthe gir and they made me say that the gir "as 'i ed in the name of )nationasecurity*. 3hen the man "hac'ed the # oc's together the man "ith the "hite hair/uic' y gets me off the stand and gets me out of there. hat$s a I remem#er, the man"ith the t"o # oc's, and !eo! e starting to scream "hen they heard "hat "ascoming out of my mouth.

I thin' a of my friends as "e as the "ho e cam!us thought that I "as "or'ing forthe FBI or something.

#he .*g tan -

Bac' at the Big a# the e+!eriments that fo o"ed "ere on a much higher sca e ofso!histication com!ared to "hen "e first started. I #e ieve that this is a#out the timethey "ere giving me the massive steroid in ections. ne of the first things they did to

me "as they #rought me into another room. here is this huge tu# of "ater.A!!ro+imate y J feet dee! ;#ecause I cou d not touch< and a#out J feet across ; i'e ahuge s/uare<. hey #ring me u! to the ! atform, and the man "ith the "hite hairte s me I$m going to ta'e a s"im. e te s me to stri! do"n to my under"ear andthen instructs me that the "ater is the same tem!erature as )a nice "arm hot #ath.* Iget in and s!end hours s! ashing around and actua y en oying it. I 'no" it had to #ehours #ecause there "ere at east 1 !eo! e or so "atching me for the first fe"minutes or so. I$m a )!oo hound* to #egin "ith so natura y I$m hamming it u!,s! ashing around, doing some short a!s etc. Every time I gra##ed the side of the tu#

they got very u!set ;#y they I mean everyone "ho "as "atching me "ou d ye outa at once )4 ($ :% E 0I4E*<. I said. 3hyH I as'. )Because "e aretrying to see ho" ong you can tread "ater* they ans"ered. ) *, I ans"ered andcontinued to ! ay in the tu#, it "as i'e a game to me. After a "hi e the !eo! estarted to fi ter out, and after a very ong "hi e they "ere a gone e+ce!t one guy inthe #a#y # ue a# coat. e "as sitting a the "ay against the #ac' far "a eaning hischair u! against the "a . e says to me )I$ #e right #ac'.* )3here are you goingH*I as'. ) o get a sand"ich, I$ #e right #ac' and don$t you f>c'ing move.* e eavesand no" I am a one. (o" minutes seem i'e hours as I am a one treading "ater inthis huge stee )can* and I oo' at my hands and they are a )!runy* so I say to myse f )scre" this* and I get out of the tu#. I "a ' around the a# and nothing interestsme, so then I "a ' into the ha "ay. 0ome one sees me and screams at me )"hy are



you out of the tu#H* and a of a sudden !eo! e start running to"ards me fromevery"here. )I$m #ored, can you get me a raft of something* I as'. Ado !h starts ha fye ing and ha f aughing at me and I get #ac' in again. hey #ring me one of those)'ic' #oards* "hich you see at the M%A during s"im c ass "hich are in the sha!e

of a tom#stone. I as' for t"o and a foot#a .

hey as' me "hy and I te them )so I can sit on the #oards and have a catch "ithsomeone.* hey !roduce the second 'ic' #oard "ithin a fe" minutes. he foot#acame sometime ater ;"hich seemed to #e an eternity to me<. It "as one of thoseorange nerf foot#a s. I s!ecifica y remem#er this #ecause I "as having a catch "ithone of the men from the man "ith the "hite hair$s grou!. I$m #o##ing on the "ater"ith the t"o 'ic'ing #oards stac'ed, and s/uee ed #et"een my egs as I sit on them.o get more everage, I "ou d gra# the edge of the tu# "ith my right hand and

thro" "ith my eft as I am eft handed. After a "hi e I #ecame #ored again. 0o, as a o'e, I dun'ed the nerf #a in the nice "arm #ath "ater and I thre" it to the guy I"as having a catch "ith. e "as on y ten or fifteen yards a"ay #ut I thre" it as hardas I cou d. It "as a !erfect s!ira and I hit him right in the chest. he thing is, it'noc'ed him right onto his #ac' and the other men "ho "ere "atching a #eganaughing. he aughter continued for a fe" seconds #ut then "hen he didn$t get u!the aughter sto!!ed and they a "ent over to him. e eventua y got u!, #ut theother men #asica y had to carry him into the ha "ay. I cou d te that he "as goingto #e a right #ut he "as hurting. hat "as the end of the foot#a and the end of my'ic' #oards. I had to tread "ater for /uite a "hi e onger after that, the atmos!herehad gone from very festive to very serious.

he thing is "hen they fina y !u ed me out of the tu#, my s'in "as as red as a ri!etomato, and as they ru##ed me do"n "ith to"e s I cou dn$t fee them. I cou dn$t feeanything touching my s'in. My !enis had shrun' so much I had to chec' to ma'esure it "as sti there. I #e ieve that the "ater "as not hot #ut very co d and they"ere trying to see ho" ong my #ody cou d overcome hy!othermia using on y the!o"er of suggestion in the mind. I have no idea ho" co d the "ater actua y "as, orho" ong I "as actua y in the tu# #ut I can #e sure that it "as hours.

After they dried me off they made me do um!ing ac's and !ushu!s do"n on thef oor. As I$m doing my !ushu!s I hear a noise over my right shou der, one ofAdo !h$s men "as !ic'ing u! the to"e s they had ust dried me off "ith, andtri!!ed or s i!!ed on something and I "atched him fa in the tu# "ith my right eye.I heard every#ody running #ehind me. After a fe" seconds I hear the man "ith the"hite hair ye ing at me to get my ass u! there. I sto! doing my !ushu!s and hurryu! the adder. 3hen I get to the to!, I recogni ed the guy in the "ater, he "as one ofthe more i'a# e guys out of the origina grou!. 3hen I see it$s him, I start aughing

my ass off and I said something stu!id i'e )ho"$s the "ater* #ut everyone aroundme is E& serious and they are frantica y trying to get the man to gra# the end of a #room hand e. his guy "as a #ig and #ur y guy ;over Q$-D* and at east DC !ounds<.



et I "atched as he cou d #ar ey c ose his hand around the #room hand e. e "asfu y c othed and "as "earing a heavy dar' "oo overcoat. hey manage to get himover to the edge #ut there "as no footho d or everage to !u him in and they cou dnot get him out of the "ater. hey tried severa times, #ut the man cou d not move

his arms at a to he ! them. he man "ith the "hite hair no" um!s in and tries toift him out of the "ater "ith one hand "hi e ho ding onto the edge "ith the other tono avai . e ye s at me to um! in. 0o I do, I try and !u him u! as Ado !h is doingon the other side and again this doesn$t "or'. 0o I did the on y thing eft. I too' adee! #reath and "ent to the #ottom feet first and came u! under the guy "ho hadfe in. 3ith my 'nees #ent and my hands a#ove my head I gra# the guy$s #utt and!ush off the #ottom "ith my feet oc'ing my arms a#ove me. By doing this Imanaged to thro" him far enough out of the "ater to "here they gra##ed him and!u ed him out. I re!eated this "ith Ado !h, and then ust got out myse f ust i'e I

"as getting out of the dee! end of a s"imming !oo . I stood u! and "atched, #ut as I"atched I #ecame very confused as they frantica y cut the man in the over coat$sc othing off and they "ere "ra!!ing him in # an'ets as fast as they cou d get them.is face "as e+!ression ess, his eyes "ere "ide o!en #ut didn$t move, and his s'in"as very very !a e. hey had some trou# e getting him do"n the adder, #ut theymanaged and they !ut him right onto a stretcher and "hee ed him /uic' y out of theroom and into the ha "ay. he man "ith the "hite hair "ra!!ed a # an'et aroundhis shou ders and started ye ing at everyone. his a ha!!ened in under t"ominutes, the man "as in the "ater for !ro#a# y a#out one, may#e ess. I ust stoodthere and ho!ed he didn$t ye at me again ;I had a ready scre"ed u! t"ice, thefoot#a and getting out of the !oo "ithout !ermission<. Everyone starts to !at meon the #ac' and te s me "hat a great o# I did. But no" I "as even more confusedHo" come he cou dn$t get out of the !oo H 3hy did his face oo' i'e thatH 3hy ismy s'in red and his is "hiteH 3hat did I do that "as so goodH I ust !ushed him outof the !oo .

Loo'ing #ac' I don$t 'no" "hy I remem#er this event so c ear y. May#e it is #ecauseit has the east amount of !ain, or #ecause it "as ear y on in my deve o!ment, ormay#e it is #ecause after"ards they made me fee s!ecia for some reason. I don$t

'no", #ut that$s "hy I #e ieve that the "ater "as very co d and not the tem!eratureof a u'e "arm #ath.

Ma e a re+ +ot the $* e o a hal +ollar-

ne of the very ne+t things they did "as to instruct me in the art of shooting guns.3hen they #rought me from my dorm room I entered the a# #ut this time they #ringme to a different !art of the a#. o a ! ace I had never #een #efore. his ! ace is i'ea ong narro" "arehouse "ith the #ac' of the room ined "ith sand #ags a#out D?

of the "ay u! to the cei ing at the far end. I am standing #y my se f. here is a grou!of !eo! e standing off to my eft. Ado !h comes over to me and turns me to face him.)Listen to me very carefu y,* he says. ) his is very very im!ortantG 4o you



understandH* he as's. I thin' I nodded my head. )3e are going to "or' on yourshooting s'i s today* he said. ) ere is "hat you are going to do. Loo' at me andfocus. Are you focusedH* he says as his voice raises. ) es* I say. )3hen you shoot,you shoot to 'i G &e!eat itG* he said. And I re!eated it. )3hen you see a target, you

"i envision t"o round circ es each the si e of a ha f do ar. hey are g o"ing neonred. hese t"o circ es are going to a!!ear on every target. ne "i #e in the midd eof the targets forehead and the other "i #e right in the u!!er midd e of his chest.3 E( : FI&E, : 3ILL E( I0I ( I( :& MI(4, X MI( I( E0E A& E 0 LI E E 3 &L40 M 0 P 3E&F:L ELEP LE(0. I(:& MI(4 A LI LE &E4 L 3I( A& E 3ILL BE% ME E 0IXE

F A 0 P 0I (. ( MA E& 3 FA& A3A E A&E. I 3ILL AL3A 0BE A0 EA0 I E EVA% %E( E& F E A& E , 7:0 A0 IF :3E&E 0 I( A 0 P 0I ( 0 A(4I( 3 FEE I( F& ( F I . I(

:& MI(4, : 3ILL A47:0 F & 3I(4 A(4 4I0 A(%EA: MA I%ALL . 3 E( : 0 : 3ILL ( I( , : 3ILL 7:0 4 G 4 : :(4E&0 A(4G 4 : :(4E&0 A(4G 4 ::(4E&0 A(4G* he said. I 0AI4 ) E0 I :((4E&0 A(4*.

ne of the other a# guys "hom I had never ta 'ed to #efore then comes u! from #ehind me some"here and he is ho ding a case. e ! aces the case on this round"ooden ta# e and o!ens it. here are si+ different !isto s in it. e as'ed me to oo' athim and not the !isto s. e then as's me )if I had ever shot a gun #efore.* I said)once at s ee! a"ay cam! "hen I "as itt e* he as'ed me if I 'ne" the ca i#er and Isaid )yes, it "as a .DD ca i#er rif e* and I remem#er hearing aughter, it seemed to #efrom a over the room. e then said to )focus your eyes on me, a "ays your eyes areon me*. e then as'ed me if I had ever shot a !isto #efore and I re! ied )no*. ethen to d me that he "as going to instruct me ho" to hand e a gun, ho" to oad it,ho" to c ean it, ho" each one is different and "hat there different characteristics are,and he "ent on and on. At the end he said )you "i remem#er everything I say andit "i #ecome i'e second nature to you, you "i 'no" it i'e the #ac' of yourhand*. e then !ic'ed u! the first !isto and for the ne+t fe" hours ;I !resume it "ashours< he s!ent sho"ing me a the guns. a'ing a!art a the guns, and !utting them

#ac' together. o" to oad them. o" to c ean them. o" each one "as differentetc..etc.. I s!ecifica y remem#er this #ecause after I did it once, I 'ne" each gun i'ethe #ac' of my hand. hey on the other hand "ere /uite insistant that I disassem# eand then reassem# e every gun at LEA0 DC times. After a#out three or four)assem# ies* I s!o'e out and said )this is a "aste of time, "hen can I shootH* andthen i'e one voice every one in the room started ye ing at me. A #asica y sayingthe same thing, that your gun is your ife and that a this is very very veryim!ortant. I got the message and said )"e test me*. 0omeone, I thin' it "as Mr.reenS[$s voice says )a right, "e$ test you smart-ass* and they made me turn

around. I hear them "or'ing. 3hen I turn #ac' around a si+ guns are disassem# edand are in a #ig !i e in the midd e of the round ta# e. he man "ith the "hite hairsays to me you have e+act y something something minutes to reassem# e a the



"ea!ons. I rea y "asn$t istening to him. he moment I had turned around and sa"the !i e of !arts I 'ne" "hat they "anted me to do. I "as i'e a 'id in a candy store.E+cited at the ne" cha enge, and ready to sho" them ust "hat I cou d do, it "as ai'e a game to me. Me against them and they don$t thin' I can do it. As the man "ith

the "hite hair finished s!ea'ing the "ords I rea y "asn$t hearing. e said )ready*and I oo' at him and he has a sto! "atch, to the eft of him is Mr. reen standingthere "ith his arms crossed "ith this shit eating grin on his face. I remem#er thin'ingto my se f )"atch this you son of a #itch* and Ado !h says )go.* And I rush over tothe ta# e. Let me te you every !iece that I touched I instant y 'ne" EVA% L "hatgun it "ent to, ho" it "as used, "hat !ur!ose it served the "ea!on and ho" toc ean it. I instant y 'ne" everything and every "ord the instructor had to d me a#outthat !iece.

I have no idea ho" fast I assem# ed those si+ !isto s. I "as so focused on the tas' Ihad no idea a#out anything e se around me. o" much time had gone #y, "here I"as, nothing. I "as going very fast and "hen I finished and s ammed the ast !istoto the ta# e and ye ed )done*. As I oo'ed u! they a had this # an' stare andmouth o!en oo' to them. Mr. reen says )do it again* and I did it t"o more times.hen the man "ith the "hite hair and # ac' eather coat goes #ehind me and ta'esa!art one of the guns and ho ds it in front of me and instructs me to te in detai"hat gun this !art goes to and "hat it is used for. I "ou d then te every detai "ordfor "ord e+act y as the instructor in the # ue a# coat to d me. After three or four!arts Ado !h is no" strutting around i'e a !roud !eacoc'. e !raised me and mademe fee good a#out my se f, and I said "ith a very coc'y attitude )no" can I shoot*as I oo'ed at Mr. reen. Mr. reen #rea's a smi e and says )0hitGG et him shoot*.

he a# instructor gra#s a second case out of the ha . It$s # ac' oo' identica to theother case on y sma er. e o!ens it and it has #o+es of #u ets in it. e ! aces five orsi+ #u ets on this itt e s otted ! astic tray, gra#s one of the guns and !roceeds to"a ' do"n to the c osest shooting station. It "as a mova# e divider ty!e "a ; i'ethe 'ind you see in office cu#ic es< and had a sma edge a#out a foot "ide on it. 3e"ere on y a#out ten yards a"ay from this hanging !a!er target ;the 'ind "ith a

# ac' si houette on it<. he instructor then !roceeded to te me to do e+act y as heinstructs. e te s me to oad the c i!, insert the c i! into the !isto , enter a round intothe cham#er, ste! u! to the ine on the f oor, envision the )red dot* on the targetsforehead and chest, raise and stiffen my arm i'e a )stee #eam*, s o" y s/uee e thetrigger, re!eat unti a the rounds have #een discharged, ste! #ac', remove the c i!from the !isto , discharge the ast cartridge from the cham#er, ! ace the c i! and the!isto on the edge and then ta'e t"o ste!s #ac'. e says )do it no"*. I "a ' u! tothe edge, oad the c i!, insert it into the !isto , oad a round into the cham#er, ste!u! to the ine, raise my arm and fire a the shots at onceG.

BLAMGBLAMGBLAMGBLAMGBLAMG ste! #ac', remove the c i! from the !isto , c earthe ast round from the cham#er, ! ace #oth the c i! and the !isto #ac' on the edge



and ta'e t"o ste!s #ac'. his a too' ! ace in !ro#a# y under 1 seconds. I did athis ust i'e I had done it a thousand times #efore and i'e I 'ne" it i'e the #ac' ofmy hand. he instructor comes #y my side and starts ecturing me a#out s/uee ing)gent y* on the trigger and ho" to shoot my rounds )one at a time and in contro *. I

have tuned him out as I am on y focusing on the sma cro"d "hich has no"gathered around the target "ithin a matter of seconds, and there seem to #e mi+edrevie"s a#out my )!erformance* and a arge amount of discussion is going on. Itseems I had hit the target e+act y in the center of the head, #ut on y once. Fina y,Ado !h "a 's #ac' and stands in front of me. )&hino* he says, )3hy did you shootthe target once and then de i#erate y "aste the rest of your roundsH* he as's. )Ididn$t* I ans"ered. )&hino, there$s on y one ho e in the fuc'ing target, no" ans"erme, 3 4I4 : 4ELIBE&A EL MI00 3I E &E0 F :& & :(40*.)I didn$t* I ans"er, and at that !oint I remem#er a fee ing of such !ride, and such

arrogance. A fee ing that I had never fe t #efore. his fee ing over"he med me and Icou d not he ! #ut smi e, and as I stood there I stuc' out my chest and in the coc'iestdemeanor I cou d muster I ans"ered )L A AI(GGG*. Ado !h is oo'ing at me"ith this sort of !u ed oo' on his face and turns and "a 's #ac' to the target. emoves !eo! e aside and oo's at it, he turns and oo's #ac' at me, then oo's at the #ac' of the target. e ta'es three ste!s to"ards me )&hino, there$s on y one..*)L A AI(GG* I ye . e "a 's #ac' to the sand #ags and the grou! fo o"s.hey are oo'ing for the #u et ho es. I am "atching as a eyes are scanning the "aof sand #ags. I hear )here it is* and I see one of the a# instructors stic' his finger intoone of the sand #ags. here is sti !u ement and confusion amongst the grou!.hey can find on y one #u et ho e. Fina y, I see the man "ith the "hite hair !u outhis !oc'et 'nife and cuts into the sand #ag. I cannot see "hat is going on as thegrou! c oses around him, #ut a of a sodden I hear this & A& of a!!rova from thecro"d, and Ado !h emerges from the cro"d "ith his hand out stretched andsomething is on his !a m. e a!!roaches me and there is a sma !i e of #u ets in his!a m. ) ou shot a your rounds through the same ho e didnSt youH* ) f courseH It$s"hat you to d me to doH* I ans"er. And as I ans"er the & A& eru!ts again.

I remem#er standing there, fee ing very !roud of myse f, yet at the same time fee ing

very !u ed. )3hat are they so e+cited a#outH* I "as as'ing myse f. o me, it "asas easy as ta'ing the ca! off a #a !oint !en and !utting it #ac' on rea y fast fivetimes. 0im! e, a chi d cou d do it. 3hat "as a the hoo! a a#outH I had a#so ute y noc ue.

For the rest of the night I re!eated this from a !ossi# e distances, ang es, and firing!ositions. I "as so fast "ith the firing !rocedure they had five or si+ stations a setu! and I had to "ait for them to e+amine the resu ts and reset the targets etc... I"ou d oad it, fire it, remove the c i! or s!ent cartridges, ! ace everything #ac' onto

the she ves e+act y as I had the first time and move onto the ne+t s!ot. I "as inheaven, ever since the fifth or si+th grade I had #een rea y into a the )rea y coo *



stuff that you "eren$t su!!osed to have as an u!!er midd e c ass 'id ;in tota secrecyfrom my mother of course<.

%hinese martia arts "ea!ons, %hinese thro"ing stars, num#-chuc's, #rass 'nuc' es

"ith s!i'es etc.. My mother hated, and I mean hated guns. I "as not a o"ed to haveA( toy guns as a chi d "hat so ever, no #ee-#ee guns, no toy guns, not even any! astic guns. I "asn$t even a o"ed to ! ay i'e I "as shooting anyone ;co!s andro##ers, co"#oys and Indians< "hen I "as a chi d. 3hen Atari came out, my motherhated even the idea that I "as shooting something in a video game ;s!ace invaders<,as a resu t she sim! y "ou d not a o" me to ! ay certain games and she "ou d nota o" me to have them ;I "ou d ! ay them any"ay ust over at a friends house<.3hen I "as in high schoo and (entendo came out she "ou d not a o" me to #uythe ! astic gun "hich hoo'ed into the game so I cou d ! ay )duc' hunt* or some!o ice game. 3hen "e "ou d go to #uy games she sim! y said )it$s my money and I"i not #uy that game for you.* I "anted )the road "arrior* or something and she"anted me to get )tennis* or )#ass fishing* )you used to ove to go fishing* she"ou d say. 0he rea y "as something. 3ith my father coming #ac' from ietnam adifferent man and having severe menta anguish a#out "hat ha!!ened over thereand the "ho e e+!erience, and after "hat ha!!ened to Mr. 7ohnson I can$t rea y # ame her for her gun hysteria, I can on y try to understand. B: A( 3A , here I"as, a 19 year o d 'id and a of a sudden I got to fire a these these )rea y coo *guns, and they had a this )rea y coo * stuff i'e 'nives, 'i ing "ires, night visiongogg es, and a of these A4:L 0 "ere running around as fast as they cou d for ME.&unning around, changing targets for ME, getting ME a sand"ich or a drin' andthey a seemed so eager to do something for me, anything, anything I as'ed,anything I "anted they "ou d run and get for me. hey seemed so im!ressed "ith"hat I cou d do, I sensed they envied me, I a so sensed they feared me. I fe t i'e ace e#rity, and I fe t i'e a 'ing.

A of the shooting too' on y a#out an hour or so I "ou d estimate. After the firstround, they never to d me any of the resu ts. A I remem#er is the atmos!here had afee ing of e ation, eu!horia, e+u#erance, everyone had these : E smi es on there

faces, aughing, and admiration. onest y, as "e got further and further #ac', I don$teven 'no" if I "as hitting A( I( G A I remem#er is raising my arm and firingthe !isto . I % :L4($ I( , I % :L4 (L 4 . I "ou d ust fire the !isto atthe target, ste! #ac', and they "ere a "ays for some reason ha!!ier than !igs in shit.

he thing is they i'ed me. If the atmos!here seemed ) ight* I someho" foundmyse f sudden y s!ea'ing and ma'ing comments for no !articu ar reason. 3hen Is!o'e everyone "ou d free e and isten. I i'ed this fact, I i'ed it very much. I "ou dma'e comments i'e )0hou d "e #e "asting a these #u etsH here very e+!ensive

aren$t theyH* ;my mothers$ mother, the very fruga randma Angrstrom coming outof me<. And they "ou d a start aughing hysterica y.



I remem#er Mr. reen saying to me "ith a tear in his eye from aughing so hard)&hino, you can shoot as many god d>mn f>c'ing #u ets as you "ant. It$s on me andI$m #uying. 0hitG I$ get you #u ets #y the f8c'ing truc' oad if you "ant.* I said)&ea yH Are you sure cause that can rea y start to add u!G* and they a #urst out

aughing again.

After that comment is "hat I most remem#er s!ecifica y a#out this "ho e e!isode. Iremem#er "atching Mr. reen as he turned to someone in a ong dar' overcoat andsaying )I f>c'in i'e that 'id.. I f>c'in i'e himG I i'e ho" he thin'sG as a matter offact* and he turns and motions the man "ith the "hite hair and # ac' eather coatover to him and a fe" others oin him. he man "ith the "hite hair then says )&hino,come over here.* I "a ' over and he says )&hino, et me first te you that you did anoutstanding o#, and as a re"ard "e are going to send you home ear y tonight. I"ant you to go home and get a good nights rest, you$ve earned it.* I said )a"esome,than' you very much.* Mr. reen then !ats me on the #ac' and says )outstandingson, f>c'ing outstandingG* his "as the first time Mr. reen had !hysica y touchedme and I remem#er the )eerie* fee ing I got and the )chi s* that "ent do"n mys!ine as he removed his hand from my #ac'. I "a 'ed over to the "a and !ic'edmy coat off the f oor and fo o"ed the t"o men "ho a "ays drove me out to the car.hen I remem#er #eing in front of the dorm and I actua y said )good #y* to the t"oguys and "ent inside to #ed.

Most of a I remem#er the !roud fee ing of ama ing them "ith my shooting eventhough I don$t 'no" e+act y ho" I did it. I remem#er the fee ing of #eing )honored*"ith a re"ard #ecause I cou d someho" do things none of them cou d do. And mostof a I remem#er the )eerie* fee ing of Mr. reen touching me. e had a "ays #eenthere and I had seen him many times, #ut for some reason no" in my mind he fina yhad #ecome a too rea . If that ma'es any senseH

After that they then instructed me "ith rif es, more !isto s, #asica y every !racticathing that shot a #u et I "as instructed in ho" to use it, c ean it, shoot it, and 'i"ith it. And as soon as the instructor "as finished I instant y 'ne" it a i'e the #ac'

of my hand, i'e I had done it a thousand times #efore. I remem#er fee ing thedifferences #et"een the M-1Q and the A KJ as I shot them. 0hooting sma semi-automatic "ea!ons ; i'e an u i on y different<. hen as'ing me to remem#er "hich"ea!ons I !ersona y i'ed the most.

hey converted the ongest ha "ay into a target range since it "as the ongeststretch in the faci ity, #y ! acing sand #ags a the "ay at one end and # oc'ing off aother door "ays and ha "ays a ong the "ay. I "ou d estimate it "as a#out J yards\ or - ong. In doors this shot seemed very distant. hey a so had converted theorigina range to have these )!o!-u!* targets, as "e as moving ones "hich rana ong this miniature trac'. he targets "ou d come out of this tem!orary "a , goacross the ine of sight on the trac' and then disa!!ear into the other "a , and they



had trac's going at different distances, coming to and going a"ay etc. For the ne+t"hi e it seemed that a I did "as shoot. A the other e+!eriments seemed to have #een !ut on ho d. he e+ercising, the #rain games, the !u es, the !unching #ag,everything.

I cou d hit A( target sti or moving, at A( range, "ith A( of the guns in thee+act center every time. E+ce!t for some reason I remem#er having some trou# e"ith the semi-automatic ty!e stuff, #ecause the gun "as not designed for accuracy it"as designed for s!eed. 0o it "ou d fire so fast the distri#ution !attern ust "asn$taccurate enough. And #y not accurate enough I mean instead of having one #u etho e in "hich a the s!ent rounds "ou d !ass through in the e+act center of the reddot ;"hich the targets no" came "ith a ready !ainted on<. he semi-automatics"ou d #asica y ust e iminate the entire red dot "hich "as the si e of a ha f do ar ifI em!tied the c i! in one #urst. his "as #asica y sti an un#e ieva# e #u s-eye andsho" of mar'smanshi!, #ut it "as not "hat they "anted. hey "anted every #u etthrough the same ho e every time, a the time. In the e+act center of the red dot, noe+ce!tions, and no e+cuses. 0o they #ac'ed off using these guns for the time !eriod.

At c ose range I cou d do this "ithout any !ro# em I "ou d estimate under D yards.he further I #ac'ed a"ay the arger the sing e #u et ho e "ou d #ecome. As I

#ac'ed as far #ac' as I cou d go on the ong range ;Q or J yards<, the #u et ho ehad gone from #eing a#out the si e of a )dime* to #eing a#out the si e of a)/uarter*. I remem#er after I shot they "ou d gather around the target at the otherend and then ye for me. I "ou d run do"n, and see one ho e the si e of a /uarter inthe red dot on the head, and this )rush* of !ride "ou d run through my #ody. But"hen they s!o'e to me it "as not !raise, they "ere screaming at me "ith criticism.)3 A E F:% I0 I0, : %ALL A 0 I( , BA% A(4 4I A AI(, A(4 I 3A( 0EE (E LE E 0IXE F A 4IME ( E0IXE F A F:% I( LFBALL. 4 : :(4E&0 A(4.* I "ou d have to go #ac' and do it again. I remem#er some im!rovement #ut then I "ou d "orsen again.hey sent me home ear y any"ay to get some rest. hey "ere !ushing me and myimits. es I "as doing incredi# e things #ut they "anted to see ust ho" far I cou d

go and ust "hat I cou d do.



S E V E N

#he hel!et o no le+ge-

Everything "as going very "e "ith my conditioning and my training. Mr. reenand Ado !h seemed ! eased "ith my !rogress. :nti "e #egan shooting outside. Ita seemed different no". 3ith the co d air on my face I fe t more )a"a'e* and morea"are of "hat "as going on. he !isto no onger fe t i'e an e+tension of my o"nhand. It fe t co d and seemed to #e heavier no". 3hen I shot as the distances gotgreater and greater I #ecame "orse and "orse and #egan to miss. And #y miss Imean #eing on the edge of the red circ e not in the e+act midd e, hitting the # ac',

missing the # ac' #ut sti hitting the !a!er. My )automatic ad ustments* for "indand distance didn$t seem to "or' very "e if at a . ne night it "as very "indy andraining and I "as missing the red dot, and I even missed the target a together a fe"times. his is "ith a !isto ;I thin' it "as, or "as very simi ar to a Baretta<. hey #ring me #ac' inside and give me an )ass che"ing* a#out my very !oor!erformance. hey send me #ac' to the a# "here I do )sim! e things* for the rest ofthe evening. Li'e the s/uat rac', more #rain !u es, strength e+ercises etc.

he ne+t night as I$m "a 'ing into the a# Ado !h instructs me to fo o" and "e

!roceed to a room that I had never #een in #efore. It is i'e an em!ty c ass room,there are green # ac' #oards on the "a s u! at the front, one green # ac' #oard"hich can f i! around and is on "hee s off to the right and one student des' in themidd e of the room. hat is a . hey te me to sit and I do. I #ecome very nervous asI$m thin'ing they are going to test me or something and I haven$t studied. A man ina #a#y # ue a# coat "a 's to the front. I do not recogni e him. here is a nervoustone in his voice as he #egins.

I have no idea "hat is going to go on as this format is a ne" to me. e #eginsta 'ing a#out angu ar tra ectories, mu e ve ocities, and ho" air densities aremeasured verses a titude at sea eve and this then e/uates into a friction coefficiente/uations to measure the angu ar tra ectory of a !ro ecti eG And he goes on and on.) L4 I * I s!ea' out. )%an I have a !enci and some !a!er to ma'e some notesH* Ias'. For the ne+t "hi e I$m frantica y #ent over the des' and trying to "rite do"neverything he is saying and co!y the diagrams he is dra"ing on the #oard i'e I$m inc ass #ac' in schoo . After a "hi e Ado !h "a 's over to me and says )&hino, do youneed a #rea'H* ) E0 I need a f>c'ing #rea'* and I s am my !enci do"n and !ut myhead #et"een my hands. )Are you getting a of thisH* he as's me. )( * I ans"er,and I remem#er starting to cry )I$m trying, rea y I$m trying, #ut I 4 ($ A E AF>% I( %L:E AB : A( I( A E I0 AL I( AB : G*. 3e ta'e a #rea'. I$m very nervous a#out having to go #ac' into the room. I had gotten a )4* in



a ge#ra in high schoo and they are ta 'ing a#out stuff I had never even herd of #efore, and they "ant me to understand this stuff, there is no f>c'ing "ay ISmthin'ing to myse f.

hey ca me #ac' in and for the first time I fe t sort of )scared*. (ot over "here I"as, "ho I "as "ith, "hat they did to me in the a#. I "as scared a#out etting thendo"n. I "as scared #ecause I had convinced myse f that no matter "hat ha!!ened Icou d not do this. I "as never a good student in schoo and this stuff, forget it. here"as ust no "ayG

As I sit #ac' do"n I$m oo'ing for the man in the # ue a# coat and he is no ongerthere. It is on y the man "ith the "hite hair. e says a fe" "ords and I #ecomere a+ed and I c ose my eyes. I hear him. e te s me to ) ust re a+* and ) ust sit #ac'and a#sor# i'e a giant s!onge, ust a#sor# everything.* I hear the instructor #egins!ea'ing again and this goes on for a "hi e. I hear Ado !h as' me is any of thissin'ing inH* and I sha'e my head and ans"er )( * and o!en my eyes. As I o!en myeyes I oo' to my right and see the man "ith the "hite hair and Mr. reen s!ea'ingto each other in a fair y oud tone. (ot arguing #ut c ear y annoyed. I !ut my head inmy hands again and then stand out of my chair and ye ) L4 I , I have an ideaG* I"as so !roud of my se f. he man "ith the "hite hair comes over and as's )3hat$syour ideaH* "ith this cautious oo' on his face ;I remem#er his oo' of caution<. )ta'eme to my LE EL, ta'e me to my & M. I have an ideaG* )3hat are you going todoH* he as's. )PLEA0E, 7:0 A E ME M & M* I say. )&hino* he says )Ihave to 'no" "hat you are going to do.* )I$ e+! ain everything in a minuteG ust! ease ta'e me to my room, trust me, you$re gonna L E thisG* I said. 3hen Io!ened my eyes I e+! ained "hat I had done in my s!ecia room in my mind.

3hat I had done "as this. In the main room of my mind ;the #ig # ue room "ith theD foot cei ings< on the far "a "as the circuit #rea'er for my nerve endings ; i'e thefuse #o+ in your house<. his device a o"ed me to turn my nerves on and off at "imenta y ust #y f i!!ing the circuit "hen needed. (e+t to that "as the adrena ineva ve "hich a o"ed me to turn on and off my adrena ine f o" to my #ody. It "as

sim! y a thin co!!er !i!e "hich came out of the "a , came do"n and "ent #ac'into the "a again "ith a va ve in the midd e of it i'e the main "ater va ve in the #asement of your house "hich contro s the "ater f o" coming from the street intothe house ;the same thing on y I "as contro ing the f o" of adrena ine and not thef o" of "ater and it "as for contro of my #ody not for contro of the house<.A o"ing me to turn my adrena ine g and on and off at "i . (e+t to it "as the fears"itch. It "as this #ig o d fashioned circuit #rea'er ty!e s"itch "hich "as chained inthe )off* !osition "ith a )4 ( :% * sign on it. hey had AL&EA4conditioned me to insta these devices #ac' in )room 1 1* and this is ho" I had

configured them in my mind.



3hat I did "as ne+t to the fear s"itch I created this #ig meta #o+. It "as my o"n!ersona su!er com!uter "hich "as connected direct y to the root of my mind, theroot of my essence, and the root of my sou . Any information that "as entered intothis com!uter "ou d #ecome instant y !art of ME, and !art of my sou . he

com!uter had un imited memory and un imited s!eed. It "as the fastest and mostto! secret com!uter in the "or d. he information "i go direct y from the source tothe core of my essence, i'e "riting in stone #ut "ith a # an' s a#. My mind no" iso!en for a instruction and there is un imited s!ace. ) 3 4 3E E( E& EI(F &MA I (H* he man "ith the "hite hair, Ado !h as's. ) hat$s the #est !art*I say. And I !roceed to te them that "hat I have done is created my o"n a# in mymind. It is a ne" room ocated ne+t to the hea ing !oo . And in this room there isnothing #ut the #iggest and most comforta# e rec ining # ac' eather a y #oy thatcan #e made. (e+t to the a y #oy is a sma "ooden stand. n the "ooden stand is

the "onder of my creation, I ca it )the he met of 'no" edge*. It is a foot#a he met, #ut there is no facemas'. n the to! of the he met are "ires "hich run through thehe met and connect to itt e meta conductors "hich touch my s'u "hen I !ut thehe met on. here are a so gogg es ; i'e s'i gogg es< "hich have the meta !ro#esaround the tem! es and eyes. he "ires run from the to! of the he met and then are #und ed into this one inch thic' gray ]su!er conducting^ "ire. he "ire runs fromthe he met out the door"ay and #ac' into the main room. hen over to the "a andhoo's direct y into the front of the su!er com!uter. he information then istransferred into the su!er com!uter. he su!er com!uter then !rocesses it and sendsit out the #ac' "ire ;"hich is identica to the "ire from the he met<. he informationgoes out the #ac' "ire and goes direct y into the # ue "a , direct y into ME. )0EVA% L 3 4 3E E( E& E I(F &MA I (H* he man "ith the "hitehair as's again. )4on$t you get itG A I have to do is ay #ac' and re a+ in the chairand !ut )the he met of 'no" edge* on "ith the gogg es and A( I( you "antme to understand you ust have to s!ea' itG It$s i'e "riting com!uter code on my #rain, A(4 E BE0 PA& I0 ALL I A E 4 I0 LA BA% I( E LAXB BE% :0E I $0 ALL 4 (E A: MA I%ALL G..P&E F>% I( =% L$I0($ I GGGGG* he man "ith the "hite hair and Mr. reen ust oo' at each other andfrom the e+!ressions on there faces I 'ne" I had ust # o"n them a"ay. And i'e anidiot I sat there fee ing so f>c'ing !roud of myse f for thin'ing of the he met of'no" edge, and for "inning the game and outsmarting them again.

I had given them a "ay to insert A( I( they "anted 4I&E% L into the coreof my #rain. his cou d not #e undone and this cou d not #e changed, and this cou dnot #e diso#eyed. hey cou d no" "rite the code of my e+istence any"ay they"anted to, and they cou d no" te me to do anything and I had no choice #ut too#ey. his "as going #eyond hy!nosis, and com! e+ suggestions and conditioning.his "as giving them a # an' screen and a 'ey!ad to re"rite the core of my essence.

After e+! aining the he met of 'no" edge though I hadn$t to d them everything. (otout of fear of them or #ecause I "as trying to hid anything from them, it "as sim! y



#ecause they never as'ed. hey never as'ed a#out the #ac' u! system I had a soinsta ed in my mind. 3hat I did "as I had s! it the thic' gray "ire after it eft thehe met of 'no" edge and I rerouted the second "ire to the second su!er com!uter Ihad created. I "as thin'ing )I$ !ro#a# y scre" something u! sooner or ater* so I

made a #ac' u! co!y and the #ac' u! systems for ME to hide my scre" u!s fromthem, ust in case.

3hat I did "as I ! aced one of those fo d out unch ta# es direct y I( EEALI( P L ;I had to e+!and the room and the !oo for this #ut since this "asmy mind I cou d ma'e the rooms and the !oo s as #ig as I "anted so I gave my se f! enty of room "ithin the room "ithin my mind if you fo o"<. But any"ay, I then! aced the second com!uter ;the #ac' u!< on the ta# e "hich "as in the hea ing !oo ,and ran the "ire through the !oo and the "ater. In essence "hat I had done "ascreated a tota y se f sufficient inde!endent circuit for the #ac' u! system and I a sohoo'ed the other systems to the #ac' u! system ;the fear circuit, the hea ing circuit,the adrena ine circuit, and the !ain circuits< and ran those "ires through the !oo as"e . 0o if anything ha!!ened to the main room or the main com!uter I "ou dAL3A 0 have a )#ac' u!* co!y of everything.

Even if the main room "as someho" destroyed or damaged #eyond re!air the #ac'u! com!uter "ou d 'ic' in. A(4 if the #ac' u! com!uter #ecame damaged it "ou dfa off the ta# e and right into the hea ing !oo , thus automatica y regeneratingitse f, and thus automatica y regenerating the main room again as "e from theco!y stored in the #ac' u! com!uter "hich can never #e destroyed #ecause it$s overthe hea ing !oo , and if you try and destroy the hea ing !oo one if not #oth of thecom!uter$s "ou d regenerate it any"ay. he on y "ay to destroy everything "as todestroy #oth com!uters and the hea ing !oo at the same time, #ut since I didn$t teanyone a#out the #ac'u! they "ou d never 'no" to do this. f course, ust in case, Imade a door for the hea ing !oo room that "as indestructi# e and "ou dautomatica y c ose "ithin one mi ionth of a second if I !ushed the !anic a arm;"hich then of course had to #e "ired into every room a ong "ith the !anic #uttonsthemse ves< or the door "ou d c ose the mi isecond any damage occurred to the

main com!uter. here "as a so a su!er secret third com!uter "hich I hoo'ed u! tothe #ac' of the #ac' u! in the hea ing !oo room. I then instructed the # ue "a;"hich is the actua "a s of my mind, the "ho e room is my mind if that ma'es anysense< to reach out and a#sor# the third com!uter. o hide it some"here, and this"as ust #et"een me and him. And the # ue "a reached out i'e the # o# and too'the third com!uter and stuc' it some "here. I honest y rea y don$t 'no" "here it"ent. But I do thin' it$s !art of the reason I can sti remem#er these events today.

After I had e+! ained the he met of 'no" edge to Mr. reen and Ado !h they ! aced

me under again to try out the he met and the instructor #egins again. 3hen I o!enmy eyes the man "ith the "hite hair as's ho" I fee and my res!onse I thin' "assomething i'e )It$s a so sim! e, it$s a so c ear no"G*. hey immediate y ta'e me



out side to the range and I remem#er "a 'ing to the 1 yard mar'er, oading my!isto and firing the entire c i! in ra!id succession, un oad the c i! remove the astcartridge from the cham#er and ! aced them #oth on this itt e stand ne+t to themar'er. Mr. reen and Ado !h start "a 'ing to"ard the target and te me to fo o".

hey are "a 'ing so fast that I have to hurry as to not "a ' too far #ehind. As I oo'ahead there is a man in a #a#y # ue a# coat a ready u! there oo'ing at it. 3hen "eget there they sto! on front of the target and I cannot see "hat I had hit. hey !artand Mr. reen says ) hat$s #etter #ut I "ant that ho e the si e of a f>c'ing dimeG "hyisn$t that ho e the si e of a f>c'ing dimeH* and I oo' at the target and there is a ho eright in the midd e of the red dot on the forehead a itt e arger then the si e of a/uarter ;a most enve o!ing the entire red dot<. As I am oo'ing at the target I standta and stic' my chest out. I have no idea e+act y "hat I said #ut I ust seemed tof o" out of me "ith out me thin'ing a#out it. I said something i'e )a non uniformity

in the casing of the #u et of one thousandth of an inch in com#ination "ith as itt eas a thousandth of a gram of !o"der deviation !er cartridge resu ts in friction ossand deviance of mu e ve ocity and this "hen mu ti! ied over a distance of 1yards the resu t is a deviation of the !ro ecti es !ath of 1?8 of an inch u! to _ of aninch de!ending on air tem!erature and "ind ve ocity at the time of discharge, 0I&.*Again I have no idea "hat e+act y came out of my mouth #ut it "as the !hysicse/uations the man in the #a#y # ue a# coat "as trying to teach me in the c ass room.) o #ac' and get your gun* the man "ith the "hite hair instructed me. And as I am ogging #ac' to the mar'er I oo' #ac' over my shou der I see them ta 'ing. I feenervous, I get my gun and run #ac'. As I arrive I hear them aughing #ut as I getc oser the aughing sto!s. Mr. reen te s me I have sho"n im!rovement and hesends me home for the night. I can te he "as ! eased.

3hat I didn$t 'no" at the time "as the he met of 'no" edge turned out to #e ama or #rea'through. After that anything they "anted to !ut into my head they cou dno" do direct y into the core of my #rain "ith ease. hey even got me a # ac' eatherrec iner to ay in "hen I "as aying in the one in my mind using the he met of'no" edge.

un l* e a cheetah-

After they got me the chair, I "as a different !erson. It$s difficu t to e+! ain, #ut untithen, a the e+!eriments and a the training "as i'e "a 'ing in a dream. 3hat everthey to d me to do I "ou d ust not /uestioning it at a . (ot thin'ing, ust doing.(o" for some reason it "as i'e riding in someone e se$s #ody. If that ma'es anysenseH 0eeing "hat$s ha!!ening yet you cannot move. Being sort of a"are "hat$sha!!ening, yet having no contro to sto! it. 3hen they to d me to do something I"ou d o# ect #ut have no contro to do anything a#out it. n the inside someho" I

"ou d #e screaming )( , you #astards I "on$t do it* #ut cou dn$t sto! my se f. I"ou d raise my arm and fire the !isto any"ay, or crush the s'u of a cat "ith my #are hand that "as a hydrau ic vice "ith un imited !o"er. If that ma'es any sense.



I don$t 'no" e+act y "hat they did to me, #ut I remem#er sudden y #eing a# e to)run as fast as a cheetah*, as fast as I needed to run. Being a# e to ) ea! i'e aga e e* and easi y #eing a# e to traverse any o#stac e "ith ease. aving the fee ingof #eing a )!uma* as I sta 'ed my victim "ith !atience, stea th, and cat i'e ref e+es,

tota y camouf aged in the ta grass yet !atient y "aiting for the moment to !ounce.f course a so #eing a# e to )c im# i'e a mon'ey.* Any o# ect, no matter ho" ta orsmooth, I can figure a "ay to get u! there. 3ithout any hesitation and "ithout anyfear. hey insti ed these attri#utes direct y into my mind and into my !ersona ityusing the he met of 'no" edge. Anything these anima s cou d do, I cou d do, on y #etter, #ecause I "as )the &hino*, unsto!!a# e and undefeata# e. I cou dA( I( , A( I( they as'ed me to do, I cou d do, #ecause the !erfect'i ing machine "as ) E &hino*. And for some reason I "as very !roud of thisfact.

I remem#er riding in a car on a very one y road. here are fie ds and grou!s of treeson #oth sides of the road, it is night and there are no other cars or !eo! e to #e seenany"here. he car sto!s and they te me to get out and start ogging. As I #egan torun I remem#er the head ights coming u! from #ehind me and the sound of theengine sudden y #ursting for"ard "ith !o"er, as I hear the car coming to run meover. And then the )rush* "ou d 'ic' in again. hat fee ing of running for your ife.3hen your heart starts to !ound and the adrena ine starts to f o". 3hen the instinctta'es over and you don$t oo' #ac', you get tunne vision, and a you thin' a#out isfaster, faster, faster. I don$t 'no" ho" fast I "as running #ut I remem#er themye ing from the car )&un &hino, &un i'e a cheetah* and after "ords I hear their o'es a#out ho" they shou d !ut me in the ym!ics and #et money on me #ecause"hat I "as doing "as not ) uman y im!ossi# e*. Again I don$t 'no" ho" fast I "asrunning "hen they "ere running me do"n "ith the car, #ut "hen I "as #ac' on thesi+th grade soccer team at 1D years o d the 'ey to my success "as my s!eed. 3henthe coaches video ta!ed the games ;"ith a Beta camcorder< they to d me, and I sa"that I had a Q yard stride at 1D years o d. hen as a senior in high schoo "atchingfi m I had over a 9 yard stride. 3hen I tested in foot#a B senior year in highschoo and freshman year in co ege "hen I ran the K yard dash B times the

coaches made me run it again #ecause the times must #e "rong. 0omething must #e"rong #ecause that$s not right they "ou d say, that$s not !ossi# e. In high schoo thecoach thought I "as cheating and on y running C yards and he made me run it Ctimes. Even as the other 'ids ran in #et"een my runs "hen I got to the ine and ranmy time he "ou d run #ac' and accuse me of cheating and running from the "rongine. Even "ith the other 'ids s"earing that I "asn$t cheating he ca ed the "ho eteam a #unch of iars. Fina y on my si+th run, and after I had )fe t* my se f gettings o"er ;given u! menta y and after the most im!ortant thing in the "or d to you,the foot#a coaches a!!rova , te s you enough times that you cannot do something

you fina y #egin to #e ieve it<, he gave me a time of K.8C. A time "hich he "assatisfied that I cou d run and that "as the time he gave me ;he "as a rea ass-ho e<.





and everyone got out I remem#er them ta 'ing, and the gist of the conversations"ere )do you f>c'ing #e ieve thatH* and I remem#er Mr. reen !ersona y saying)that$s f>c'ing un#e ieva# eG* 3hich gave me great satisfaction. Again, ! aying thegame, I had "on again.

#he a$$a$$*n r* le-

It "as day time and they #ring me to this huge ong fie d and te me that "e aregoing to #e having )rif e !ractice.* I "as dead y, the M-1Q u! to K \ yards, and my!isto 1 \ yards. he ru e of thum# they gave me "as anything over 1 yards I "asto shoot "ith the rif e and aim for the chest, 1 yards and under I cou d use the!isto and aim for the head. For some reason I !referred going for the head "ith the!isto . hese t"o num#ers seem to stic' in my head as far as distances. Any"ay, theya "ays seemed disa!!ointed "ith my rif e shooting for some reason.

3hen "e get to the fie d, they o!en the trun' of the car and there are C or Q of these)cases* and as I stood there and "atched they o!en these )cases* and inside arethese huge rif es, and everyone starts assem# ing them e+ce!t me, I ust stood there. I'ne" "hat those things "ere used for. Assassinations "as the on y ans"er.0ome"here inside me I said )there gonna "ant me to 'i someone* and I 'ne" thatif I shot "e "hat other ans"er cou d there #e, and thin'ing to myse f )I "ant no!art of this you f>c'ing son$s of #itches*. A A M ME( I0 3 E( I0 ALL3A0 ( L ( E& A AME ME, I FI(ALL &EALIXE4 3 A EI&

I( E( I (0 3E&E. I #ecame fi ed "ith !anic and "anted to run a"ay #ut I cou dnot move. I "anted to scream #ut cou d not. he a# coat guy "ho instructed meinitia y in my "ea!ons esson, starts to e+! ain to me a#out these high !o"eredrif es. After a#out a ha f an hour they have me choose one and have a target setu!a#out 1D yards a"ay. I thin' they did some )!re!* "or' using the he met of'no" edge #ecause as soon as I sa" it I 'ne" "hat it "as and ho" to use it, the ha fan hour "as #asica y ust a revie". After a the !re! "or' I #egan shooting. I "ou dshou der the rif e, ine u! the cross hairs and fire the "ea!on. 3hen I shot the"ea!on I #egan missing, and #y missing I mean missing the target a together. Mr.

reen gets in my face and starts screaming to do #etter, I cannot do any #etter, andhe gets in my face again. I tried to e+! ain to him "hy I cou dn$t shoot the assassinrif e. I e+! ained to him that "hen I shot the !isto or a )regu ar rif e* that I didn$taim "ith the gun, yes I "ou d shou der the "ea!on #ut I aimed "ith my mind not"ith the gun sight. I had to see the target "ith my o"n eyes and then I shotautomatica y "ith out thin'ing. 3ith the assassin rif e the 'ey to it "as this hugesco!e, and "hen I oo'ed through it, it "as someho" different, and I said that I "assorry #ut I ust cou dn$t do itG o this day I have never seen a gro"n man thro" sucha tem!er tantrum, he "as a#so ute y ivid, and frea'ing out "ith rage. And he gets in

my face and #egins to scream at me again. )I$m sorry I ust can$t do itG* I ans"er.)3 A 4 : MEA( : %A($ , : %A($ I0 ( I( :&%AB:LA& G* he screams. I ust ste!!ed #ac' )I$m sorry I ust can$t do it, that$s





vision*. his "hen in com#ination "ith the army training and the hy!nosis is "hatmade it the dead y com#ination.

hey trained me in a the different ) and to and* 'i ing techni/ues, schoo ed me

in everything and I 'ne" it a the first time ) i'e the #ac' of my hand.* hey tried to"or' me into the )team* as one of the mem#ers. I remem#er training for a s!ecificmission. My ro e "as to get u! this 9 degree o#stac e to the fourth f oor #a cony andsecure a ro!e for the rest of the team to then c im# u!. I remem#er !racticing it overand over again. But "hen it came time to run the mission the army had #ui t theo#stac e out of Q* ogs, "hen "e got to the #ui ding it "as made of smooth # ac'mar# e. his gave me some trou# e #ut I got u! it eventua y. nce every one "as u!the ro!e then "e "ent inside. I don$t remem#er "hat "e "ere after #ut I doremem#er shooting a guard "hen I "asn$t su!!osed to. I sa" him coming c oser andI shot him. I guess I endangered the mission and the rest of the team. I % :L4 (I( , I % :L4 (L 4 .

After that I remem#er severa more times getting into the F-1Q and getting out, #utno tri! in the midd e on y getting in and getting out. I thin' they !ut me to s ee! orsomething after I had thro"n u! the first time. I remem#er it #eing night, co d andsno"ing in &ochester and "a'ing u! on an aircraft carrier in the midd e of the ocean"here it$s "arm and sunny. hen I #e ieve they "ou d sent me off on the missionand then have me #ac' #efore the "ee'end "as over. In actua ity they cou d havedone this at any time #ecause there is no attendance !o icy at the :niversity of&ochester ;at east the c asses I "as ta'ing at the time< and no one "ou d havemissed me if I had )disa!!eared* for a fe" days. It is actua y /uite c ever #ecausethey cou d have f o"n me, theoretica y, a most any"here in the "or d in 1D hours #y F-1Q, I "a'e u! fee ing )tota y refreshed* i'e I had s e!t for days, I go off forfour hours and do my 'i ing, and then they !ut me #ac' on a ! ane #ac' to&ochester and have me #ac' in hours.

After I had )scre"ed u!* the first mission, from then on they sent me in a one. Iremem#er s!ending count ess hours in the )he met of 'no" edge* going over and

over the mission. hey !ut every detai into my head.

I &EMEMBE& them te ing me that I "as to go and 'i this man. And I "ou d not doit. I said )"hat has this man done to me !ersona y, (othingG I "i not 'i himG*hey "ou d come #ac' and say that this man )'i s "omen and chi dren, that he

tortures young gir s to death and then ra!es them, he murders #a#ies and he #utchers grandmothers for funG ou must 'i this man to save the !eo! e that he is'i ingG e is evi , and must #e sto!!ed and on y you can save the !eo! e of hiscountry from him.* hat "as the on y "ay they cou d get me to 'i , "as to te methat this man "as a #utcher and ho" he did a"fu things to the !eo! e around him.After they to d me that, I had no choice, it "as i'e they made me fee i'e it "as myduty and the "ho e "or d "as de!ending on me to do it.



I remem#er com! eting severa assassination missions. I don$t 'no" "ho they "ere,ho" I got there, "here I "as or "hy s!ecifica y I "as doing it. I remem#er shootingsevera !eo! e in the head severa times, sto!!ing to re oad and shooting him somemore. hey had to d me to )terminate "ith e+treme hosti ity* and I did. he thing is

I % :L4 ( I( I % :L4 (L 4 , so a the ! anning and a !re!aration"or' "ou d go out the "indo" if something "ent "rong, if something didn$t goe+act y according to ! an then )a he "ou d #rea' oose*. For e+am! e if there "erefour guards at a certain !oint and there "ere on y su!!osed to #e t"o. r if an area"as su!!osed to #e dar' and it "as ight. 0ome ho" I "ou d )sna!* and ust startshooting everyone. Everyone #ecame the enemy and I had no "ay of distinguishing #et"een "ho "as foe and "ho "as friend y. I remem#er one time "hen myhe ico!ter came to get me, they had a s!ot ight on me and I started shooting at them.I thin' I 'i ed severa of my o"n !eo! e.

hey tried to fi+ this #y giving me a he met camera and an ear !iece #ut sti I frea'edout at some !oint on a my missions. I s!ecifica y remem#er as'ing them ) o"many missions do I have to run #efore you "i et me goH* he man "ith the "hitehair to d me )1 missions &hino, after you run 1 missions you then #ecome retiredand "e "i et you go.*

I can on y remem#er going on K missions s!ecifica y. ne of "hich as "e "eref ying a"ay in the he ico!ter after they had !ic'ed me u!, one of the men "ho hadvo unteered to #e the gun man on the he ico!ter "as shot and 'i ed from theground. e "as the man I had !ushed out of the tan' of "ater #ac' in the a#, andthe on y one "ho had #een )(ice* to me at a . hese )assassinations* "ere a done;I thin'< #et"een the years 1988 and 199D. he FBI is oo'ing current y for me #ut theI uminati have de!rogrammed me, )erased my memory* if you "i . As I s o" yregain the scra!s of my memories more and more of the !ieces fa onto ! ace.o"ever, as the story unfo ds I "i add most of the reverent detai s at the end as notto com! icate the t"o !ara e time ines.

I c ear y remem#er the com! e+es, the ty!es of uniform the men "ere "earing ;some

"ore #usiness suits, some had tur#ans on their heads, others had these funny hatson<, and of course I remem#er shooting many of the guards and severa of the)target* men in the head severa times and sto!!ing on y "hen they had no head eftto shoot. hen I "ou d ust get the )he out of there* shooting everything in sightthat moved. he !ro# em "as I didn$t 'no" "hen to sto!, "ho "as )friend y* and"ho "as not, #ecause I had my )tunne vision* on. I "as ust running, running formy ife. I cou d not thin' I cou d on y doG





the air!ort a ot. And getting in an F-1Q et and getting out some"here e se. 3hetherit #e the ) ther* faci ity in the 0outh 3est, or on an aircraft carrier I remem#ergetting out in these t"o different ! aces. I a so remem#er some friends as'ing me)"here the he have I #een the ast fe" days*. his /uestion came u! a ot that year.

I remem#er my friends (ic' and Bo# "ere te ing me )Andy, "ho is fuc'ing "ithyour mind. Andy, are you a right, te us "ho is messing "ith youH A&E : H*hen I remem#er "a 'ing into my fraternity house, and as soon as you "a ' in thereis a #ig room right to the right ;ca ed the 3i son room< and the "ho e fraternity isfacing me and the man "ith the "hite hair has a itt e shiny #a in a string and iss"inging it #ac' and forth right in front of them and they a have a # an' oo' ontheir faces. I sto! in the ha "ay the man "ith the "hite hair te s me to ust go u! tomy room, and I do. After that everyone seems norma and no one said a "ord a#outit.

I remem#er as'ing (ic' and Bo# if they remem#er the conversations "e had hada#out me and they didn$t remem#er a thing a#out it.

Dece!&er 1989-

I go home to (e" 7ersey during the %hristmas #rea'. I needed to earn some moneyso I am oo'ing through the oca !a!er and there is an add for a !ar'ing a et!aying W1 . - W1D. an hour. 4o"n at the o- o- us Inn. ;a C star restaurant

o"ned #y a grou! of oca 4octors<. he ad said to send of fa+ resume to 4r. Puri oand it gave a !hone and fa+ num#er. It immediate y had caught my eye ;the money<and then I sa" 4r. Purri o$s Oi.e. 7ose!h P. Pi urro$sH name and I thought that Icou d get the o#. I (E E& (%E thought a#out the steroid tria . It never evenentered my mind. I fa+ over my resume and a cover etter to 4r. Purri o. And a#outa day ater he ca s me. I as' him a#out the o# and in the s"eetest voice he says tome )0ure the o# is sti o!en Andy, come on in for an intervie", ho" a#outtomorro" a#out 1R . 4o you 'no" "here my office ( 3 isH* I said that I did not,so he gave me directions. he ne+t day at 1R I am in his office, his secretary ca s to

te him that I am here, and I go in to see him. I sit in the high #ac' eather chair anda of a sodden he e+! odes "ith anger.

)EI E& : A&E E 4:MBE0 M E&F>% E& ( E PLA(E , & :A E E BI E0 0E F BALL0 A I A E E E& 0EE(G* )3hat thehe are you ta 'ing a#outH* I ans"er. e says )4 : A E A( I4EA 3 A I3A( 4 :H : 0 & LL I( E&E LI E : A E ( FEA& FME A ALL 3 E( A&E F>% I( M 3IFE :P A A 0% L F:&0, A(4 E( BE%A:0E : A E &:I(4E4 M %A&EE&*, and he ifts

his hand from #ehind his des' and he has a gun in it. )4o to meH* I say, )For "hatH3hat did I doH* )4on$t even try and ! ay dum# "ith me, I$ve #een 'ic'ed off the #oard and I$m out of the hos!ita #ecause of youG* he says. And then I remem#ered



everything, I said )ho" do you # ame me for "hat you did, don$t you E E& forgetthat you came after me, I "as ust a 'id minding my o"n #usiness, and : "antedto oc' me u! and cut out my #rain ust #ecause I "ou dn$t admit to doing somethingthat I didn$t do. E( you 'idna! me and a most 'i me "ith your drugsG As for

f>c'ing your "ife, yes Mrs. Purri o sho"ed u! a fe" times, #ut I (E E& didanything "ith her, I turned her do"n every time. BE0I4E0 that ha!!ened a ongtime ago, and if anyone o"es anything it$s : o"ing me an a!o ogy and you canstart #y giving me a o#.* e dro!s the gun and !uts his hands on his head andshouts out ) his is f>c'ing un#e ieva# eG.. :& L I( G :& ELLI( ME A0 E 0 3E4 :P BE I( : F>% E& A(4 : :&(E4 E&4 3(G 0E E&AL IME0G A(4 I 4I4($ APPE( A L ( IME A .. I $0BEE( 18 M ( 0..A(4 G* I said ) hat$s correct, I never touched Mrs. Purri o at&ochester*. hen he said )3e$ find out "hat ha!!ened* and he !u s out a itt e

shiny #a on a string and starts to "aive it in front of me from #ehind his des' I getu! and say )are you 'idding me "ith this*. e !ec's u! the gun and te s me to sit #ac' do"n in the chair and to oo' at the #a . I am out "ithin seconds. I hear himye ing )I IM* )I IM*.

From "hat I can remem#er he then has me go over to his e+amining ta# e, and hestarts to /uestion me. I te him that I rea y didn$t s ee! "ith his "ife in co ege, andthat I 'no" "ho did. hen a of a sodden I remem#er frea'ing out and ye ing ):.0.

E&(ME( 0E%&E P& 7E% CJQCVVVV I LA I ( F I0 MI(4 %API0 P:(I0 ABLE B 4EA etc..etcG* 3hen I eave his office I am s"eating and thenurse is oo'ing at me i'e I have t"o heads on my shou ders. e ca s me t"o daysater and te s me that I got the o#. 0o for the rest of that #rea' I !ar'ed cars for 4r.Purri o at the - - us Inn.

After the #rea' the t"o guys "ho had s e!t "ith 4r. Purri o$s "ife and her friend,the "oman "ith the # ac' hair, sho" u! for ifting one day and they have had theiving shit #eaten out of them #y the Mafia

Apr*l 199"-

As the s!ring comes, Ado !h #rings me into a room. Mr. reen is there. e te s methat the )ru es have changed and that no" the ru e$s for retirement have changed. Imust no" do DC missions in order to retire not the 1 I "as !romised. I te him that)that$s utter #u shit and "e #oth 'no" it.* It "as an o#vious attem!t to get me to domore assassinations, #ut I "as fighting the !rogramming. I te him that I have runmy 1 missions and even if the ru es have changed I sti get the o d a" #ecause theoffer "as made at the time it a!! ied to me so I get ) rand fathered* in, and if hedoesn$t i'e it he can s!ea' to my a"yer. hen he as'ed me if I had a a"yer and Isaid )( * #ut I "ou d get one for this. And that there "as no "ay that I "as goingto do any more #ecause I "as retired. Mr. reen starts to frea' out and he te s methat if I don$t do it he "i 'i me right here and he !uts a gun to my head. A I said



"as s!ea' to my a"yer. 3hich !issed him off even more. hey tried every means of!ersuasion to get me to go another 1C missions. Every thing from a gun to my headto #eatings, to threatening to 'i my fami y. But I "ou d not #udge. (e+t came thecharacter test. hey had #een "atching me every day of my ife from a most the day

that I had arrived at the :niversity of &ochester ;actua y it "as since I "as age D<, #ut any"ay they "ere testing me "eather I 'ne" it or not. From the c ose /uarters"ith "en to "en "anting to have se+ "ith me. o me turning her do"n. o ho" Ireacted to this situation to ho" I reacted to that situation. hey #ring me into a dar'room, there are !eo! e a around me, #ut I cannot see them. A I can see is a smades' ight on the ta# e and a figure #ehind it. e starts to as' me /uestions a#out"hy I sto e Brian$s steroids. I 'ne" that I "as scre"ed if I ans"ered either "ay. If Ians"ered ) es* I sto e them and admitted to the "rong doing "ou d they see it as #eing honest or "ou d they see it as #eing a tatt e ta e, or if I said )( * and ied

a#out it even though I 'ne" they had video ta!e of me doing it "ou d they see me assomeone "ho cou d 'ee! their mouth shut under the !ressure or "ou d they see meas #eing a ier. 0o I did the on y thing I cou d in an attem!t to esca!e, my on y "ayout. I ans"ered B 3A 0. At first I said )( *, then I changed my ans"er to) E0* then #ac' to )( * again, and I "aff ed #ac' and forth severa times unti theyto d me to eave. he man "ith the "hite hair then ta'es me #ac' to my room. ehas a smir' on his face as I #e ieve he 'no"s "hat I have tried to do.

I thought I "as out, they cou dn$t trust me and they didn$t 'no" "hat to thin' of me,may#e, ust may#e they "ou d ust eave me a one. As it turns out, they ta'e me intothe "oods #y car ride. 3e get out of the car and the t"o men te me to go over andoo' over the edge of this huge ho e they had dug in the ground. I hear the one man)coc'* his !isto . 3ithout thin'ing or "ithout any thought I ea!ed #ac' at him i'e I"as a cheetah, gra##ed the gun and #ro'e his nec' "ith my hand #y crushing histhroat and "ind!i!e i'e it "as an em!ty #eer can. he other man starts to run a"ayand I ran him do"n "ithin a fe" feet and #ro'e his nec' too. I sat do"n right therene+t to the #odies and #egan to cry.

)3hy does everyone "ant to 'i me* I 'e!t saying to my se f )I ust "ant to #e eft

a one, I ust "ant to #e a 'id going to co ege*. I heard the !orta# e !hone ring a fe"times #ut I didn$t ans"er it. After a "hi e another car sho"ed u!, it$s the man "iththe "hite hair and he te s me to get in the car and "e drive off. I$m sitting in the #ac' seat and I oo' out the #ac' "indo" I see them e+amining the #odies as "edrive off. My rea ities "ere starting to # ur as my !rogramming #egan to comeundone. (o !a!er "or'- A day or so ater I am #ac' in the dar' room "ith the smaam!, this time they sit me do"n and discuss "ith me my o!tions. his time it$s adifferent Mr. reen. A man that I don$t ever remem#er seeing. e to d me that I caneither cor!orate and continue as an agent or they "i #e forced to 'i me as they can

never ust et me go. I remem#er ma'ing a o'e )I don$t su!!ose you "i et me goand "e "i forget the "ho e thing ever ha!!ened* I said. he man did not augh ata . I 'ne" they "ere serious. 0o I et him have it. )AgentG agent1 I$m not an agent,



and I$m not in the f>c'ing army, I$m a f>c'ing co ege 'id, "ho you have ta'enagainst my "i and done something, so you can go fu>c' your se f as far as ISmconcerned.*

By the oo' on his face I cou d te that this "as ne"s to him. e ma'es me eave andgo into the ha . I can hear intense arguing no" going on inside. )3 A E F>%4 : MEA( E (E E& 0I (E4 E PAPE& 3 & G :& ELLI( MEA I0 I4 A0 BEE( A( I( L:( A& 0:B7E% ALL AL ( G. :

F>% I( I4I 0, IF I0 E E& E 0 : * and he goes on and on. I actua ythought I had a chance no". hey ca me #ac' in. he ne" Mr. reen !uts a !iece of!a!er in front of me and te s me to sign it. I start to read it and he #ursts in and ye s)7:0 0I ( I 4 4>M( I *. I "as a "ays to d to read everything #efore yousign anything.

I am trying to read it #ut the "ords ust seem to come out i'e # urs. I can$t ma'e outone "ord. 0o I say ) et me have my !arents read over it and I$ mai it #ac' to youG"hat$s your addressH* hat "as the ast stra". he ne" Mr. reen starts to frea' outand he says )I$LL ELL : 3 A I 0A 0, I 0A 0 A : I E :0PE&MI00I ( ILL :G I &EALL 4 ($ I E A F>% IF : 0I ( I &( BE%A:0E 3E 3ILL 7:0 0I ( :& (AME I A( 3A G 0 0 :E F>% :P A(4 0I ( E 4AM( PAPE&*. I focus very had on the !a!er and

the first fe" "ords say some thing i'e I ````````````` am of free mind and #ody dohere #y free y consent.. B ahG B ah.. B ah. I said )this is "rong, I don$t free y consent*.e ri!s the !a!er out of my hands and hands it to someone off to my right. 3ithinmoments the !a!er is #ac' and my name is no" on the !a!er. he ne" Mr. reenthen gets a g ass of "ater and !uts some "hite !o"der in it, mi+es it u! and te s meto drin' it. I as' )"hat$s in it* and he !ounds his fist on the des' )7:0 F>% I(4&I( I *. Ado !h comes over my right shou der and te s me that it$s !oison andthat it "i 'i me and I 3ILL drin' it. At first I "ou dn$t #ut then fina y I drin' theg ass of "ater. A most instant y I )f ash* to the hea ing !oo and this time mystomach hurts me so #ad y I cannot stand it. But I ma'e it into the green "ater.

Everything is very dar' for a "hi e. I fee i'e I am moving. his goes on for a "hi eand then it fee s i'e "e have sto!!ed. A of a sodden there is a dim ight. I am in thetrun' of a car. he men go to !u me out and "hen I move on my o"n they itera y um! #ac' a#out three feet. I get out of the car and sim! y as' )"hat$s going onH*he one man immediate y gets on his !orta# e !hone and starts ye ing into it. )4oyou "ant to ta ' to him, here* and he hands me the !hone. he man$s voice on the!hone sounds fami iar. For some reason they te me to ay in the !ine #o+ at the #ottom of the ho e and to go to s ee!. I "a'e u! and it is # ac', and #y # ac' I mean a # ac'ness that you can on y a!!reciate if you have #een #uried a ive yourse f. I hear

dirt #eing thro"n on to! of me and I start to scream. I managed to #ench !ress theid on y a#out an inch or so, #ut it "as enough for me to get my egs and feet u! ontothe id. And I manage to eg !ress the id off and to the side a#out Q to 8 inches. And I



start to try and dig my se f out. his seemed to ta'e forever and I too' the dirt that Ihad ust dug a"ay and stuffed in the coffin #ehind me #y my feet and I in a frantic!anic !roceeded to dig my "ay u!. As I #rea' through the fina ayers the men are!ac'ing u! the shove s in the car and they are !utting their shirt #ac' on. As I !u

my se f out of the earth the oo' of fear on their faces "as evident. I cou d sme thefear in the air and they 'ne" they had done something terri# e and no" "erecaught. 3ithin moments I had #ro'en #oth of their nec's and again sat right #esidethe #odies and #egan to cry. his time "hen the !hone rang I ans"ered it.

) e oH*, I said. he voice art the other end said )3ho$s thisH* )3ho$s I0..* I said,then I said ) our friends are dead and ISm sti a ive* and thre" the !hone into the"oods. I "as covered in # ood and dirt, and I # ac' out.

he ne+t morning I "a'e u! in my #ed and I am a c eaned u!, e+ce!t there is atremendous amount of dirt under my fingernai s. hen there "as the meeting #et"een myse f and the man "ith the "hite hair. e says to me )Andy, in 0!ain"hen a #u enters into the #u ring he is facing certain death. here is no esca!e forhim. o"ever, every once in a "hi e there comes a #u that fights so va iant y thatthe anima is s!arred and he is !ut out to !asture to stud. 3e have decided to !utyou out to !asture, and retire you. And I said ) ou are going to !ut me out to!asture to gra e #ut yet I am sti fenced in*, and he oo'ed at me and ust aughed.

his is common !ractice as the )mind f>c'* if you "i is they te you that you are

out "hen that cou dnSt #e farther from the truth. It$s ust another ayer of!rogramming to erase your memory.

June-Augu$t 199"

3or'ing at dad$s.

'cto&er 1991-

idney stones.

/e&ruary 1991-

I am ta'ing #usiness a" 1 D, in the s!ring of so!homore year. 4uring the firstmonth of c asses from !rofessor 0hanahand ;the #usiness a" !rofessor in the 0imonschoo of #usiness< 4esert storm.

May 1992-

I graduate from co ege and move home to start oo'ing for a o#.



Dece!&er 1992-

I am "or'ing in (e"ar' for an air freight com!any ;near (e"ar' air!ort<. n my"ay to "or' I am istening to o"ard 0tern$s radio sho". e starts ta 'ing a#out

this video ta!e he has of a 'id "ho is !ut on tria for su!!osed y ta'ing steroids"hen he is in high schoo . e says that this ha!!ened years ago #ut he "ants this!erson to ca in. e "ants to ta ' to me. At that moment I instant y #rea' into a co ds"eat and my head starts s!inning as I$m driving on the garden state !ar'"ay. I getto "or' and o"ard is sti raving on a#out this. I don$t ca . he ne+t day he isca ing me a co"ard and a "ease for not coming for"ard #ecause he "ants to ma'eme into a hero or something ;I to d a ot of adu ts to )F>c' off,* itera y<. e finds out"ho I am from the ta!e, ca s me and te s me he is sending a imo for me. I ta'etomorro" off. In the morning, the imo arrives and I ust cannot get myse f to get in,and I send it a"ay. o"ard ca s and he is !issed and ca s me a 'inds of names. Inthe afternoon, he ca s me again and this time he is even more !issed. e is franticye ing at me a#out ho" the E&(ME( ust !ushed there "ay in here, too' theta!e, and said that if he said one more "ord a#out this that he is going to revo'etheir F%% icense.

e of course ta 's a#out it on the radio the ne+t day, #egging me to come for"ardand stand u! to them. I cannot, every time I even try to thin' a#out any of that stuffmy head itera y starts to s!in. hen I remem#er, Mr. reen and a grou! of mensho" u! at my house, and erase my memory again.

March 1993-

My father discusses my future "ith me and "hat I "ant to do. I to d him that I never"ant to ive u! north again. rying to he !, he ca s his (avy #uddy "ho o"ns a!rinting com!any do"n in At anta. I intervie" and get the o#. I move do"n toAt anta to start my ne" o# and su!!osed y my ne" ife.

July 1993-

In my a!artment com! e+, this guy unusua y comes u! to me and introduceshimse f at the a!artment com! e+ !oo . he guy$s name is Aaron and he is do"n0outh to get his masters degree in P0 % L . %oincidenta y he is a so from&ochester ( . And "ent to the :niversity of &ochester for 1 semester andsu!!osed y 'no"s some of my friends as he is a ) oca * &ochester #oy. e #ecomesmy #est friend after a "hi e and a#out a year goes #y. 3hen "e "ou d go outdrin'ing or #e at !arties Aaron "ou d #rag a#out #eing a# e to hy!noti e !eo! e"ithout them even 'no"ing it and ho" he cou d ust )f>c'* "ith !eo! e$s minds. Inever thought much a#out it. I had a#so ute y no memory of any of my co egehorrors and fran' y "as having the time of my ife in At anta. e "as a so one of my)#est friends* so I never even considered or gave anything e se a second thought.



July 1994-

he !rinting com!any didn$t e+!and in terms of future !otentia as I had ho!ed andI fina y had /uit after a#out a year and a ha f ;I thin'<. I "as unem! oyed for a "hi e

#ut then I got my first cor!orate #rea'. I get my first o# "ith a ma or cor!oration;the 4un o! tire cor!oration<. hree hundred and si+ty resumes for 1 s!ot and I gotthe o#. 0o natura y I "as very e+cited and to d a my friends. he o# invo vedtrave ing a around the 0outheast every "ee' ;#eing gone uesday through Friday,on the road, every "ee'<. he o# didn$t start unti ate August and it "as ear y 7u yso I had some time on my hands.

A#out t"o "ee's after I to d Aaron that I had gotten the o# he ca s me and as's meto come over. I get to his a!artment and "e #u shit for a#out an hour, he te s me outof the # ue that )some !eo! e are concerned a#out your ne" o#*. I "as shoc'ed andthis rea y came out of eft fie d so I said )"hat the f>c' are you ta 'ing a#out*. esaid )the fact that "e "on$t 'no" "here you are during the "ee'* and I "as ustutter y confused and #ecame e+treme y !issed off ;I sti had no memory of any ofthe events, the torture, the assassinations, the I uminati, nothing< and I said )3hatthe he are you ta 'ing a#outH 3ho is concernedH 3hat #usiness is it of theirsany"ayH 3hoH I don$t understandH*

e et it go. 3hat ha!!ened ne+t he did not et go. I had a this time on my handsand I "as very nervous #ecause I had to go to Buffa o for three "ee's of training. I

"as DK years o d and this "as my first )rea o#* "ith a com!any car, e+!enseaccount and everything. Ever since I came #ac' from Munich ermany "hen I "as Cyears o d I stuttered severe y "hen I s!o'e. he thing is I 'ne" it "as a in mymind, #ecause "hen I "as a one I cou d s!ea' very f uent y, #ut "hen I had to s!ea'to anyone, read a oud or, heaven for#id, s!ea' to a grou! of !eo! e my entire throat"ou d ust ) oc' u!* and I cou d not s!ea' "ord one. his "as a serious !ro# em forme and need ess to say I "as tormented as a chi d. But any"ay, I decided that this"as my first rea o# and if I "anted to get any"here in ife that I "i not et this sto!me and it must #e fi+ed and no" is the time.

I had never #een to a hy!nothera!ist #efore #ut for some reason I rea y #e ieved inthe !o"er of hy!notism, and I rea y thought that this a ong "ith my 0i va mindcontro cou d rea y he ! me. 0o I o!en the ye o" !ages and !ic' out ahy!notheri!est. In the ad the hy!notheri!est c aimed to #e a# e to cure manydifferent ai ments "ithin a fe" sessions, stuttering "as one of them so I ca ed andmade an a!!ointment.

I !roceed to go into the a!!ointment ta ' to the 4octor and e+! ain ho" I thin' my!ro# em is a in my mind. e states that my conc usions are )very interesting*, andhe !uts me under. 3hen I o!ened my eyes the doctor$s face "as "hite as a ghost andhe is s"eating #u ets, there are no" t"o assistants in the room and they have the



same horrific oo' on their faces. he doctor in a trem# ing voice as's me )4I4 :( 3 : A E 0 ME I(4 F A E&(ME( MEM & %AP I( :&MI(4H* I said )no, "hat are you ta 'ing a#outH* e is sti s"eating !rofuse y, and Ias' him )"hat is going on.* e "ou d not discuss it #ut he said he "anted to see me

tomorro". I go to !ay for the session in the o##y and I as' the assistant )"hatha!!ened in thereH* At first she "ou d not te me #ut I fina y got it out of her. 0hesaid that I a#so ute y F&EA E4 : and I "as a#so ute y screaming uncontro a# y.0he a so stated that in her 1C years "ith this doctor she had never seen anything i'eit. 0he said the doctor tried for 1C minutes to !ut the ca! #ac' on and I "ou d not ethim, they had to get three other !eo! e to ho d me do"n and fina y he got contro ofthe situation again.

his is on a uesday, the doctor "anted to see me the ne+t day #ut he "as #oo'edthrough Friday, the assistant made room for me to see him on hursday. I eave veryconfused, sti having no c ear memories as to "hat$s going on and no memories ofany of the government e+!eriments or the I uminati or the under ground #ases . hething is I go home and "hat do I do, I go right over to my #est friends a!artment;Aaron< and te him the "ho e story a#out "hat ha!!ened at the hy!notheri!estand the memory ca!. e starts to F&EA : , )you "ent to a hy!notheri!est,3 E(H* And et me te you he "as PI00E4G

I remem#er #eing very confused #ecause I sti didn$t ma'e the connection. Iremem#er going into his a!artment, te ing him "hat ha!!ened, he gets very angry, #ut after that there "as ) ost time.* It "as #et"een R and KR o$c oc' in theafternoon "hen I "ent over there. I remem#er this #ecause there "ere )soa!o!era$s* on the te evision "hen I "as initia y te ing him my story, "hen I eft)7eo!ardy* "as on and it "as #ecoming dus'. It "as a#out JR in the evening. Ieave his a!artment and go home, I found myse f sort of "ondering "hat ha!!enedHAt home I em!ty my !oc'ets on the ta# e ;change, 'eys etc..< and I have the recei!tfrom the hy!notheri!est. ) h yea* I say, I$m su!!osed to see him on hursday, #ut Icou dn$t remem#er anything e se.

I go #ac' hursday A(4 E 4 % & I0 ( L ( E& E&EG I MEA( I0(AME I0 0%&A% E4 FF E 4 & E I0 (E, A(I0 E4, I MEA( I3A0 LI E E A4 (E E& BEE( E&E. here "ere four or five doctors sharingthe same office and there "as sim! y a s!ace "here his name had #een. I go in andas' the rece!tionist "here is doctor so and so, as hard as I try right no" to this day I ust cannot remem#er his name, #ut I can find my "ay #ac' to "here his office "as.But any"ay, I A0 E &E0EP I (I0 3 A I0 I( ( A(4 0 E ELL0ME PLEA0E LEA E A(4 4 ( % ME BA% . I as' a#out the doctor, shec oses the rece!tionists "indo" turns her #ac' to me and "a 's a"ay.

I go home, even more confused, Aaron ca s me that night to come over, I go, againnot thin'ing anything a#out it. his is "here a he #rea's oose. I go to his

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a!artment and "e are sitting do"n ta 'ing as usua . From the #ac' #edroom si+ orseven men come outG Mr. reen and a grou! of men are right there and I startfrea'ing out. he other men "ere dressed in # ac'. he instant I sa" these men I #egan to remem#er, my instinct te s me to run #ut I "as ta'en tota y #y sur!rise.

he men in # ac' ea! over the couch, gra# and ho d me. hey !ined me against the #ac' of the couch, I had no everage to ! ant my feet and try to get u!. hey start toaugh and say things i'e )this guy isnSt so tough* and )that "as easy.* Mr. reensays )If you even had any idea ho" dangerous that guy is you "ou d not even #eho ding himG*

I remem#er oo'ing at Aaron "ith a oo' of #etraya , I thin' I started to cry, he cou dnot oo' at me. Mr. reen says )do you have any idea ho" much trou# e you$ve #een, "e shou d have 'i ed you a ong time ago.* I start ye ing )I$M I( F>% I( ILL :G*

e as's Aaron if I am going to remem#er any of this. Aaron ans"ers )no*. e then!roceeds to !unch me in the face and ca s me a )mother f>c'er* or something. I amstrugg ing to get u! #ut I ust cou d not move, Aaron then ta'es over.

Aaron then says the )magic "ord.* he first one didn$t "or'. It "as hi!!a..something or other. e tries another one Po y-!o!-er-enus , snarf-a- if-agus, "hen hefinds the right one instant y I cannot move. e te s me ho" re a+ed I fee , ho" "armand safe I fee , ho" I am in a )ha!!y ! ace*, to ) ay #ac', re a+, smi e.* As I$m sitting

there I cannot move, #ut I can hear them aughing at me. e starts te ing Mr. reenho" he didn$t 'no" "hat e+act "ord they used #ut once you find it )that$s it* he istota y under your contro .

his is "here things start getting a itt e cra y. 3hat he did to me someho", Iremem#er, is he someho" oc'ed me a"ay in my o"n mind, creating a mu ti! e!ersona ity over mine to ma'e me forget everything. I remem#er fighting him forcontro in my mind. e to d me that I "i do "hat ever he te s me to do. e said the"a s are c osing in on you and you cannot fight it, in my mind I of course !ictured

the "a s c osing in. n his instruction the "a s c osed in unti I "as inside a)vacuum sea ed stee coffin*, "hich conformed to the sha!e of my #ody ; i'e avacuum sea ed !roduce !ac'age on y it "as my #ody sea ed in a stee coffin "ithon y my face sho"ing<. I cou d not fight it and I cou d not move. e then said youare #eing sent to a ! ace in your mind "here you "i never #e found, at this !oint Istart screaming )no no no*.

After he sent me to a ! ace "here )no one "i ever find you*, he instructed that )astee ! ate the si e of ten foot#a fie ds and 1 feet thic' is crashing do"n u!on you*and he said )here it comes, and there is no esca!e*. I remem#er screaming again ashe says )#oooom*. ere comes another one, )#oooom*, and he !roceeded to do this



five or si+ more times. I am screaming during a of this. And I remem#er Mr. reenand the others aughing at me "hi e Aaron "as doing this.

he thing is, the one thing I do remem#er a#out the hy!nothera!ist$s first visit is@ I

remem#er #eing #ac' in my mind, )my safe ! ace* and off in the corner "ith these)stee ! ates* or i'e a heavy iron "ith some "eathering and rust around the edges.4ust "as a over them and they "ere #o ted to the "a on an ang e. I remem#erhearing horrific cries coming from #ehind it, i'e some 'ind of creature or monster.o investigate I imagined that the stee ! ates "ere made of tin foi and instant y Ihad the strength to #end them #ac' one #y one. I "as scared. As I got to the o"erayers I hear scratching, i'e a "i d anima c a"ing at a door to get out. he ast fe"ayers "ere #u## ed out i'e you can ma'e dents in a sheet of tin foi "ith your

finger ;on y much #igger<. 4o"n in the corner, there "as a itt e !iece that had #eenri!!ed aside, and you cou d see the # ac'ness #ehind it. I get on my hands and 'neesto get a c oser oo', ALL F A 0:44E( a hand of ha f rotted #one and f eshsudden y reaches out and gra#s my face. It "ou d not et go.

I FI(ALL E A3A F& M I , #ut no" the creature is sudden y energi ed and #egins to vio ent y scratch and c a" and "ith incredi# e force starts ri!!ing at theast ayers of the stee . Fina y, it made itse f enough of a s!ace to get out. From the

# ac'ness emerges a ha f rotted cor!se, on it$s arms, egs and eft shou der there "ason y #one, no f esh. An image of a #ody that had #een oc'ed in a c oset for years,ha f rotted and ha f a ready dead. n the verge of insanity from #eing tra!!ed in as!ace so sma you cannot move, yet you cannot die. I am no" s o" y #ac'ing a"ayfrom it.. It says )"hat are you afraid ofH* it as's. )3ho are youH* I as' it, IA(03E&0 )I AM :, 4 ($ : &E% (I0E :&0ELFG* 3ith a #urst ofs!eed it ea!s at me and gra#s ho d of me, i'e someone trying to em#race me. 3ithit$s ha f rotted arms around me I start screaming.

I #e ieve that this is "hen I started f i!!ing out in the doctors office. hehy!notheri!est "as then trying to )cover it #ac' u!* #ut the )se f* that they hadoc'ed a"ay "as #y no means going to go #ac' into that tiny s!ace /uiet y #y any

stretch of the imagination. hat$s "hy he had so much trou# e getting contro of thesituation again. he hy!notheri!est fina y !u s me out of it, and t"o days ater thehy!notheri!est has disa!!eared and Aaron had oc'ed the )monster* ;it is nomonster, it is my true )se f*< a"ay again, "ith ne" doors and in a ne" ! ace. hemonster "ho c aims to #e the rea me is even no" oc'ed a"ay some"here in mymindH his conce!t is very scary and confusing #ut these are my memories.



N I N E

Augu$t 1994 - June 1996-

After that I didn$t remem#er any of those events or any other events for that matterunti years ater "hen a sing e event )!unched* a ho e in the )a ternate rea ity*, the)a ternate !ersona ity* if you "i , and Aaron continued to #e my )#est friend* as he"as my assigned )contro er* or )hand er*. ver the ne+t t"o years or so I "ou d goover to Aaron$s a!artment, hang out a the time, and "e "ere #uddies. he thing is,odd things "ou d ha!!en sometimes #ut I "ou d ust dismiss them Because I had noreco ection of A( of the !ast events. For e+am! e, sometimes Aaron "ou d ust get

u! and oc' the door. &ight in the midd e of a movie or something. It$s on y the t"oof us and I am a#out Q foot ta and D !ounds "ith #ody#ui der !hysi/ues andAaron is a#out C$-1 * and a#out D1 !ounds "ith a very muscu ar #ui d, and he isiving in a very /uiet and secure a!artment com! e+. 0o I #egan to "onder a#outthese events and I "ou d as' him )"hy do you sometimes get u! and oc' the door*and he "ou d never ans"er me, and I "ou d never /uestion it.

I remem#er a ot of missing time at Aaron$s, "atching a movie and a of a sudden I"ou d #e "atching a different movie and it is DR in the morning. A of a sudden I

"ou d rea i e "hat time it "as and I "ou d say )3here the f>c' did the time go* andI "ou d ust get u! and eave. But thin'ing #ac' I can vague y remem#er a the!rogramming sessions he "ou d have. e "ou d 'ee! trying to tota y destroy the)Monster* if you "i , #ut he never cou d. I can remem#er count ess e!isodes of Mr.reen #eing there, as "e as others, studding me, trying to figure me out. But at thetime some things you rea y don$t thin' a#out unti ater.

3hat "as ha!!ening "as they "ere "atching a the time. I had no memories a#outanything u! to that !oint. My a!artment "as "ired for sound and video. Everymoment of my ife "as #eing "atched. ne odd thing a#out my ife is, ALL of mygir friends, at east a the "omen I "ou d consider ca ing my gir friend, have saidthe same thing to me at one !oint in time or another. hey a to d me that mya!artment "as a most i'e a )hote * room. I guess that "hen "omen first start datingsomeone they i'e to get to 'no" the !erson #y oo'ing at a their )stuff.* I hadsome of the nicest )stuff* money cou d #uy in terms of furniture and e ectronics ;avery nice furnished a!artment<. he thing is there is no )memora#i ia* at a , andthin'ing a#out it, they are rightG I have no !hotos at a G (one of my !arents, none ofmy fami y, none of A( co ege friends, ( I( G (o scra! #oo's, no !hotoa #ums, no souvenirs, no #oo's at a , nothing !ersona of any 'ind. I have a fu yfurnished a!artment "hich is nice y decorated, #ut there is no !ersona memora#i iaof any 'ind. (o memories and no !ast. ; eave it to the "omen to notice this<



Another funny thing is, Aaron too' a o# as a student counse or at Life %hiro!racticco ege in At anta. is favorite !astime "as to stea a of the co ege$s video ta!es"hich dea t "ith the human mind and re ating su# ects from the Life co ege i#rary.e must have had D different )sets* of ta!es. hese ranged from documentaries to

case studies of a the different menta diseases and theories of ho" the human mindfunctions and "hat e+act y occurs in each of them. In fact, the more I thin' a#out it,ALL "e used to do is sit around and discuss ho" the human mind functions. e"ou d say the )Magic "ord* and I "ou d sit there in my a tered state of rea ity andhe "ou d te me his vie" of the mind. o" the human mind functions ust i'e a #asic com!uter. 3ith every decision either #eing )yes* or )no* ans"er, i'e a s"itch"hich is either )on* or )off*, and "ou d discuss ho" every memory, function, andaction "e had or did is #asica y a string of yes or no res!onses. )Li'e a ongcom#ination oc' you must have the e+act code to get =In$ he said. 3e "ou d "atch

video after video. hen I "ou d te him ho" I thought the human "or'ed andfunctions. 3e "ou d s!end hours u!on hours discussing this.

ver the years the t"o of us "ou d sit and he ta ' a#out ) o" to mind f>c'*someone. he #asic conce!t is to #ui d a )P atform over your rea consciousness, andthat then #ecomes your rea consciousness.* And a a ong this "as a ready #eendone to me and I had no c ue a#out any of it. 3hich in itse f is a very scary conce!t.A fa'e rea ity if you "i . 0ort of i'e 3indo"s 9C. 3indo"s 9C is #asica y a)! atform* #ui t over the 4 0 !rogram to ma'e the P% a!! ications more ):serfriend y*, "here a the com!utations, and a the )essence* of the !rogram is "rittenin code using 4 0, #ut a you see on the screen is 3indo"s 9C ; i'e a ! atform #ui tover the essence of the com!uter<. It$s 'ind of funny, in a very sic' sort of "ay. ere"e I am sitting around discussing ho" to mind f>c' some#ody, for years, "ith my #est friend. 3hen a a ong, I$ve a ready #een )mind f>c'ed* #y him for years, anddon$t have a c ue a#out any of it. e discusses it "ith me ust i'e it$s normaconversationG (o" that$s a rea )mind f>c'* if you thin' a#out itG

3hat "as ha!!ening "as a during my time in At anta they "ere using me for asorts of different e+!eriments at the 4o##ins Air Force Base in At anta "here a

)ma or* !ro ect had #ecome active. I "as a so used in the Montau' chair for the timetrave e+!eriments at this time.

July 1996-

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he ne+t day I go #ac' to !ic' it u! and it$s not ready. I go #ac' the third day and it$ssti not ready. I ca on the forth day ;0aturday<, and they te me it "on$t #e readyunti Monday. )Loo'*, I said, )I used to #e in the car #usiness and I 'no" that yourservice de!artment can cran' out #et"een JC and D cars a day, "hy the f>c' is

mine ta'ing a "ee' "hen you to d me it "ou d on y ta'e one dayH* And he says )"ehad to order !arts and it "i #e ready MondayG* And rude y hangs the !hone u! onme. Monday comes and I go to !ic' u! the car. I get the #i and it$s gone fromW1,D . to W1,JC . . I$m furious, main y #ecause I didn$t 'no" if the credit card"as going to go through at W1,J . \, and I "ou d rea y #e stuc'. And et me teyou I get in the guys face and start frea'ing out, ) ou have the #a s to 'ee! my carfor a "ho e "ee' and then #i me WQ . over the estimate, "here is the manageretc..etc..* e re! ies )"e had to order some !arts* )3hat !arts* I say. e gets the!a!er "or', oo's through it and says )"e had to s!ecia order your radio antenna* I

say )s!ecia order the radio antenna, I $0 A F>% I( =9D A %AME& G ourte ing me that not one store in At anta had a !o"er antenna for a oyota %amrey fora "ho e "ee'G he entire city is so d out, that$s B:LL 0 I G* e then gets is my faceand says to me )I 'no" "ho you are, and "e don$t "ant your 'ind here. I$ ta'eW1 . off the #i , #ut don$t come #ac' #ecause "e don$t "ant your #usiness oryour )dirty* money hereG*

)3 A E F>% A&E : AL I( AB : H* I ans"er. )3e had a visit fromsome of your )friends* and they to d us a a#out you, you !iece of 0hit drug dea er*.)3 A E F>% A&E : AL I( AB : H* I say again. )I s!it on guys i'eyou, dea ing drugs to 'ids, I shou d 'ic' your ass right here and no". 4on$t "orryyou$ get yours someday, sooner than you thin'.* e says. I said ) oo' I have noidea "hat you are even ta 'ing a#outGH e says )!ay it, and get the F>% out of hereand don$t come #ac'.*

I !ay the W1,QC . , the credit card goes through. Pi ar says )"hat the he is heta 'ing a#outH* I said )I "ish I 'ne"*. 3e eave, she drives her car #ac' to "or', andI ride around for a "hi e. I$m sti !issed off. his is too frea'ing "eirdG A#out anhour into my )ride*, I have an ideaG I drive #ac' to the dea ershi! and !u into the

)Pe! Boys* auto !arts store ocated ne+t door to the oyota dea ershi! I had my carserviced at. I go in and as' the guy at the counter, "ho a so ha!!ens to #e themanager, if they do any #usiness "ith the oyota dea ershi! ne+t door. e says )areyou 'idding me, they are our argest account*. ) h*G I say. )I$m oo'ing for a !o"erantenna for my car* I say. e as's )"hat year, and "hat ma'eH* )$9D oyota%amrey* I te him. e !unches it u! on the com!uter. ) es* he says and starts #ac'to go get it. )0ir can you te me ho" many you have in stoc'* I as'. e oo's at thescreen )C * he ans"ers, )"hy* he as's. )I "as ust curious #ecause I "as in t"o daysago and the c er' to d me you "ere out of them.* ) hat$s im!ossi# e* he says. ) ou

see this itt e )>* ne+t to the !art num#er, it te s me that on this !articu ar !art "ese so many of them that, if "e ever go #e o" a do en in stoc' the com!uter in the



"arehouse automatica y shi!s us more and "e "ou d get them the ne+t day.*) han' you* I say, and eave.

0omeone, ;the I uminati, the (a i !arty, and :nited 0tates government are the

!eo! e res!onsi# e for a of this as "e as the torture at the :niversity of &ochester,as "e as the assassinations< to d the &os"e oyota dea ershi! of At anta eorgiathat I "as a drug dea er, so they cou d 'ee! my car an e+tra Q days to s!ecia orderme a ne" radio antennaHHHHHHHH his one # e" my mind for a ong time #ecause Isti had no idea "hat the he "as going onG

/e&ruary 1997-

Aaron informs me that he is going to have to eave At anta for at east a year and thata he can te me is that it$s )fami y re ated.* e says it "on$t ha!!en unti ate Mayor ear y 7une. I$m very sad to hear that my friend is going a"ay. e not on y is my #est friend #ut he is a so very invo ved in my #usiness and everything that I do. 3etry and "or' out something to "here he can sti #e invo ved and run things from hisfather$s house in &ochester. I 'ne" it "ou dn$t "or', he "as /uite insistant that it"ou d. e 'ee!s reassuring me not to "orry #ecause he 3ILL #e #ac' in a year. Aa ong I am as'ing him )3hat$s going onH* Fina y, "ith me s"earing under strictestconfidence that I "on$t te anyone, Aaron !roceeds to te me that "hat hasha!!ened is this@ is father used to "or' for a very arge cor!oration in &ochester,and years ago he gave his father the idea that he cou d sue this com!any for )menta

anguish* or that the stress of his o# caused him to someho" )sna!* causing him to #e menta y insane, and no" he is suing them. Aaron then te s me that "hat E did,"as to instruct his father e+act y ho" to ans"er a of the !hysio ogica tests and/uestions that they "ere going to as' him, and #asica y sho"ed him ho" to scamthousands of do ars out of the com!any in the a"suit. hree years ater, Aaron$sfather "on, and "as a"arded severa hundreds of thousands of do ars. But "hatha!!ened "as, the 7udge ru ed that Aaron$s father "as to receive the sett ement,ho"ever since he "as )menta y not a there* he "as not going to give contro of themoney to him as it had to ast him for the rest of his ife as he "as no onger a# e to

"or'. 0o the udge "as going to set u! some 'ind of )trust* account "here someoneother than Aaron$s father must act as the e+ecutor of the account and therefore #e theone "ho actua y distri#utes the funds since he "as )menta y inca!a# e*.

0o, since Aaron$s !arents are divorced, and no one e se in the fami y 'ne" that the"ho e a"suit "as a a ie, Aaron had to go home to act as the e+ecutor for his father.And it had to #e for at east a year #ecause the money "as su!!osed to ast his fatherfor the rest of his ife since he is no onger a# e to "or'.

0o they cou dn$t ust !u it a out at once #ecause the insurance com!any for sure"ou d #e "atching them. My gir friend, Pi ar, 'e!t "anting Aaron to hy!noti e herto see if he cou d c ear u! some of the !ast trauma she had e+!erienced "ith her +-

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hus#ands. e a "ays ta 'ed a#out ho" he cou d hy!noti e !eo! e "ithout themeven 'no"ing it, and she "anted him to do it to her, #ut (L if I "as there. 0hedidn$t trust him enough to do it on her o"n. For some reason he "ou dn$t do it. e"ou d say )I don$t thin' that$s a good idea* and "ou d a "ays !ut it off. But yet I

remem#er going to Aaron$s one night "ith Pi ar, and it "as one of those )missingtime* nights "here I remem#er ust staring off onto s!ace for a "hi e. he ne+t nightI go over again, this time #y my se f.

Aaron says something very strange to me. e says )man, you have nothing to "orrya#out "ith Pi ar, she a#so ute y ido i es you*, =trust me$ on this.* o" the he"ou d he 'no"H I as' myse f ater. Months ater, "hen I !ut it a together, I thin' hedid it to see if I had to d Pi ar a#out his father, good thing I didn$t.

ne Friday night I$m at home and Pi ar is coming over ater to "atch some movies.I$m fee ing very u! tight a#out my #usiness and ho" it$s not going as "e asantici!ated. A a ong and for as ong as I cou d remem#er I a "ays fe t i'e something "asn$t right "ith me. Li'e some thing "as )"rong* #ut I ust had no idea "hatit "as or "here this fee ing "as coming from. ALL F A 0:44E( I &EMEMBE&E4A I ( 3 0IL A MI(4 % ( & LG I had tota y forgotten a#out it. Li'e out

of the # ue it "as i'e a reve ation. I guess I ust hadn$t thought a#out it for years. 0o Ire a+, and go to my eve . I$m having a great session, fee ing tota y re a+ed andcomforta# e. I o!en my eyes and Pi ar is sitting on the f oor ne+t to me "ith this oo'on her face i'e she is seeing the devi !ossessing someone. I as' her ho" ong shehas #een thereH 0he says to me )3hat the he "ere you doingH* And I te her aa#out the 0i va method and a#out going to different )Leve s* of your mind. 0he saysto me )you never to d me you cou d do thatG*. )I F & I % :L4* I say. I as'edher if I oo'ed funny, and she te s me that she a most frea'ed out "hen she sa" me.)3hyH* I as'ed her. ) our eye #a s "ere f urrying eft and right at a mi ion mi esan hour. I thought you "ere !ossessed or something. hen I ca ed your name andyou "ou dn$t ans"er. 0o I sat do"n and "atched.* ) o" ong "ere you "atchingme* I as'. A#out 1C minutes she ans"ers. 3hat does she say ne+tH ) EA% ME*. 0oshe do"ns three g asses of "ine and "e s!end the rest of the night doing 0i va mind

contro . 3hat ha!!ened, ho"ever, is that the ne+t time "e "ent to Aaron$sa!artment, Pi ar, "anting to #e invo ved in some of the inte ectua conversationsAaron and I had, starts ta 'ing a#out ho" I taught her the 0i va method and ho" she"ent do"n to the different eve s of her mind and the "ho e thing. he ne+t day I goover to Aaron$s to "atch movies, I remem#er him getting u! and oc'ing the door.AF E& A 4A , A(4 I0 4A I %A(( M LE EL. I( MMI(4, I 7:0 %A(( PI% :&E A( ELE A & 0 AF I( M MI(4. I &A(4 I & B: I 7:0 %A(( 4 I F & 0 ME &EA0 (. I guess Aaron didn$ti'e the idea of me rom!ing around in my o"n mind and someho" )rigged it* so

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1997-

3 A 3A0 E )E E( * A &I E&E4 E &E%ALL F M MEM & HE&E I I0. Aaron is a C$-1 * muscu ar, #a ding Ita ian man, "ho, if he cou d, "ou d

s!end his entire ife "a 'ing around in his )f i! f o!s* "ith a short s eeve shirtun#uttoned do"n to his #e y #utton and in a #aggy !air of shorts hanging out at the!oo a day everyday. 3e "ou d sti do things i'e go to concerts, the home de!o,occasiona y a movie. hings i'e that #ut nothing that ever re/uired too much! anning or usua y too much !hysica effort ;e+ce!t "or'ing out<. ne rainy marchevening I get to Aaron$s, and he has a sudden #urst of energy and decides that he"ants to go B 3LI( . )Bo" ing* I say. As it turns out, Aaron is an avid #o" er. eeven has his o"n #a ;"hich he sto e form a #o" ing a y in &ochester ( <. (o #ag, ust the #a . e says he hasn$t #een in a ong time and he someho" got a )"i d hair

stuc' in his ass*. his "as a #ig venture for him #ecause Aaron actua y had to gointo his c oset and dig out his snea'ers and a !air of eans to go to the #o" ing a y.

3e go, "e "a ' in and get our ane and our shoes from the front des'. 3e turn to theeft and start "a 'ing to our ane. As "e "a ', the anes are on the right and the !rosho! and #ar is on the our eft. Aaron is ahead of me, a#out ste!s ;the fastest I haveever seen him "a ', I guess he "as e+cited to #e #o" ing or something<. As "e "a '"e !ass the door to the !ro sho! there is a ife si e cutout of a man in a rhinoceroussuite. e is standing there ho ding a #o" ing #a ;it "as a very e a#orate ife si e -dimentia mar'eting dis! ay "ith a rea #o" ing #a in the guys hands<. he dis! aysaid something i'e )Bo" "ith the #est, Bo" "ith "hat the !rofessiona s use, Bo""ith =& I( BALL0$.*

And as I "a ' #y I start aughing. )B 3L 3I & I( BALL0* I ye ahead of me.A(4 E( I 7:0 %AME : F M M : . I 4 ($ ( 3 3 , B: I0AI4 I ) E :0E4 %ALL ME = E & I( $ (%EG* and Aaron dro!s his #o" ing #a and IMME4IA EL A(4 I MEA( IMME4IA EL turns around,"a 's #ac' and gets right in my face and says )3 E( 4I4 E %ALL : = E& I( ^$, 3 E( 4I4 E %ALL : = E & I( $G 3 A ME 3A0 E

0AI4 I 3I%E. I "as caught off guard #y his actions and I # urted out )In highschoo * I said. hey used to ca me )the rhino* in high schoo , it "as my foot#anic'name. I "i never forget the oo' in his eye as he "as e+amining me, studyingme. he thing is I LIE4, they (E E& ca ed me )the &hino* in high schoo . ) he&hino* "as actua y a friend of mines )nic'name* and he "as on another team. My)nic' name* in high schoo "as )B A* for )Bad Ass*.

he moment after I said ) hey used to ca me ]the &hino.* 3hat )!o!!ed* into mymind "as not some high schoo foot#a game. 3hat )!o!!ed* into my mind "as

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it. Each of those memories "ere a#out C seconds ong and someho" I 'ne" there"as more #ut I ust cou dn$t !ut my finger on it. But I had !unched a ho e in their)a ternate rea ity* and some memories had dri!!ed through.

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I ied to Aaron not out of fear. It ust f e" out of my mouth. I didn$t even thin' a#outit. I ust to d the story a#out it #eing a high schoo )nic' name*. As "e #egan to #o" ,I cou d te Aaron "as not himse f, nervous, an+ious, and he as'ed me a#out )the&hino* again and again. )Are you sure that$s "hen they ca ed you )the &hinoH* eas's.

As I$m a#out to #o" I turn to him and say )Pretty f>c'en sure assho eG 3atch this,*and I !ictured myse f thro"ing a stri'e, I start on my a!!roach and I "hi ed that #a do"n the ane and I thre" a stri'e. I had ust ta'en a crash course in acting.Because I ied again. At that !oint "hat "as going through my mind "as the gir , the

man "ith the "ooden # oc's, the tria , Brian ta 'ing to Mr. reen, the a#. And as I$m #o" ing a these things are rushing into my mind. )Put it out of your mind* I say tomy se f. ) hin' a#out it ater* and I ! ayed it do"n. I got a"ay "ith it #ecause Ihadn$t made the )Aaron connection* yet so I "asn$t in the east #it nervous. Ihonest y ust "asn$t going to te my #est friend, out of the # ue, that the &hino "asthe term they used to ca me "hen I "as #ac' in co ege and invo ved "ith thegovernment, and mind contro e+!eriments, and ho" I "as a unsto!!a# e su!erassassin "ho !ossessed su!erhuman a#i itiesG hat "ou d f y over i'e a ead #a oon. 0o I 'e!t it to my se f.

3e #o" ed severa games and conse/uent y dran' severa !itchers of #eer. As "eeft and drove #ac' to Aaron$s he as'ed me to come in, severa times. I said )nahman, I$m #eat, I$ ca you in the morning.* e !ushed it to the !oint to "here I saidsomething a#out it. )3hat$s "rong "ith you manH I$ ca you in the f>c'ingmorning.* And I managed to ! ay it do"n again #ecause I "asnSt afraid of Aaron.hat night, I didn$t itera y s ee! at a ;and I rea y haven$t s e!t a sing e night sinceand it$s #een over a year<. As I sat on my couch and thought a#out the )&hino #a * Iremem#ered #eing on the roof again. hen I remem#ered the gir . I then #ac' trac'edto the !ar'ing ot, running u! the stairs, the gir , the roof, the um!. oing #ac' thatnight and seeing the men in ye o", going #ac' in the morning. Brian and thesteroids. im and "en, the a#, everythingG But the memories are a i'e a C second



f ash of a 1 minute movie a "ith no sense of time order. % ear #ut then sudden ysto!s and it$s a very confusing.

I$m even so c ue ess and ost in confusion that I as' Aaron )Aaron, did you ever have

any Army men over your a!artmentH* e of course "ant$s me to immediate y comeover. I go, "e hang out, I "atch some , I come home and go to #ed. As a mater offact )I have a very ! easant evening.* In the morning, as I sit on the couch on thecoffee ta# e there is a ega !ad "ith a 'inds of stuff "ritten on it in my hand"riting. he &hino, &ochester, 9 degree vertica c im#s, 4I4 AA& ( L % E4 &HHH 3 A EVA% L 4I4 : 4 A AA& ($0H %A( : &EMEMBE&HAt that moment is "hen it a came together, #ut sti it "as on y as c ear as a dream,on y it "as a #ad dream and I "as a"a'e.

I start thin'ing a#out co ege, and the thing is I cou dn$t remem#er co ege, I didn$tremem#er most of my ife no" that I thought a#out it. I remem#er #eing at the:niversity of &ochester, #ut the more I thought a#out it, I cou dn$t remem#eranything s!ecific. I don$t s ee! at a no", and more strange things start ha!!ening.

he ne+t night it is R in the morning and I$m u! thin'ing a#out a this. I see headights i uminating some of the !ar'ed cars in the !ar'ing ot, #ut after they "ere onfor a#out five minutes. 0o I go out onto my !orch to see "hat is going on. here is afu si e !uc' u! truc' !ar'ed in front of the Be 0outh !hone #o+ "hich is the main #oard for the "ho e com! e+ ;a #ig gray thing a#out K feet high and C feet "ide<. A

man has the #o+ PE( and is doing something "hi e the !ic' u! truc' is eftrunning. 3hat e+act y he is doing I have no idea, #ut the "ho e thing is ma'ing mee+treme y !aranoid. I thin' to my se f )for od$s sa'e Aaron has the 'ey to mya!artment.* 0o for the ne+t three months I "ou d ay my go f c u#s #et"een the frontdoor and the c oset door to act as a )"edge* so if anyone tried to get in "hi e I "ass ee!ing the front door "ou d on y o!en a#out three inches.

he ne+t day I decide to ca my father from a !ay !hone. And et me te you( I( is ever rea y rea , unti you te your !arents. I gather my courage and I

ca my father. I as' him )4ad, 4o you remem#er going to Anna!o isH*, and heans"ers ) n y "hen I$m a"a'eG 3hyH* )Because I don$t remem#er co ege I ans"er.)I have memories of attending the :niversity of &ochester, #ut I don$t remem#er #eing thereG* I then !roceed to te him the "ho e story a#out the mind controe+!eriments, the gir "ho "as run over, the a#, everything #ut it$s a in #its and!ieces. I said )either I have ust gone tota y insane or my entire ife since the Q th

grade has a #een a ie. Either "ay I need to get some serious !hysio ogica he !G* ehas #ecome /uite serious no" and says )I$m e+treme y g ad that : said thatG*

hrough a friend of a friend I get the name of a good !sycho ogist, he su#se/uent y"or's "ith a !sychiatrist, as it turns out I start seeing #oth of them.





"as not )chemica y im#a anced* and in s!ite of a of the drugs and attem!ts tosim! y ma'e these )memories* sim! y go a"ay he referred me to another doctor,and he "as vice a !resident of the !sycho ogy de!artment at Emory :niversityhos!ita in At anta. he third guy fina y had a good idea. e says to me "ith a very

egotistica demeanor )If you #e ieve that your !ro# em can a #e so ved usinghy!nosis "hy are you here in my officeH* I aughed and thought a#out it and said)you 'no", your 4 4>M( &I G* I got u! and "a 'ed out of his office.

A a ong, my !arents, es!ecia y my mother are very very concerned for my "e #eing. My mother es!ecia y seems to "ant to 'no" EVA% L "ho I am seeing, andEVA% L "hat medications they are !rescri#ing to me. And of course I te her asshe is threatening to come do"n and stay at my a!artment unti I get through this.

Augu$t 1997-

n the second, I had made arrangements to go and see a hy!notheri!est. For theinitia a!!ointment I had in/uired as to if he had ever heard of the 0i va mind contromethod, and he res!onded that he did and )"as even a"are of the techni/ue and"as f uent in it$s a!! ications.* I s!ecifica y did not mention anything a#out thegovernment or the e+!eriments. 3hen I "ent in "ith Pi ar, a I to d him "as that forsome reason, that I, no matter ho" hard I tried, cou d not go do"n to my eve usingthe 0i va method. I didnSt 'no" "hy #ut I thought it "as ust #ecause I "as under aot of !ressure at "or' or something. e tries to !ut me under and I 'ee! for some

reason coming out of it. e said )this is i'e trying to 'ee! a ru##er duc' at the #ottom of a tu# of "ater "hen a it "ants to do is 'ee! !o!!ing #ac' u! to thesurface.* e then gave me his !rofessiona o!inion. his is "hat he said )the mind isa funny thing, and "e are not even c ose to #egin to under stand it. f a thefunctions in the mind, 9CU of "hat occurs, occurs in the unconscious, and on y CU ofthe mind functions in the conscious. here is 4EFI(E L something # oc'ing you insome "ay. 3hat$s ha!!ening is this, your unconscious is "hat rea y contro Ss yourmind. I sus!ect that something ha!!ened in your !ast, something that is soagoni ing y !ainfu your unconscious 7:0 3ILL ( et it come to the surface.

Li'e a )c enched fist* it "i not et it go. At that !oint I 'ne" that he 'ne" I "asying a#out "hy I rea y came to see him. e "as a nice guy and I i'ed him, #ut Ihad a ready made my ! ans to move #ac' home, so I didn$t "ant to get started "itha ne" )thera!ist* and then have to start a over again "hen I moved, so I never"ent #ac' to see him. e didn$t even charge me for the session.

Augu$t 18 th-

My roommate from co ege and one of my #est friends is getting married in s"ego( . I f e" into (e"ar' (7 and drove u! to u!state (e" or'. s"ego is ocateda#out C mi es or so (orth of 0yracuse, "ith a this going on in my head I didn$tma'e a ! ane reservation unti the "ee' #efore. he air ines "anted W1,D . to f y



into 0yracuse direct y so I f e" from At anta to (e"ar' for W199. and #orro"ed mymothers car and drove u!. It "as good to see my friends and "e had a great time. nmy "ay home, since I "as a ready u! there I got on the (e" or' 0tate thru"ay and"ent to &ochester as o!!osed to coming direct y home, more s!ecifica y the

:niversity of &ochester. I "as on y going to one ! ace and one ! ace on y. he #ui ding "here I sca ed the "a and the gir "as 'i ed. he #ui ding "here Iremem#er seeing men in ye o" suits "or'ing at R in the morning )fi+ing*everything. he #ui ding "here I "ent #ac' in the morning and found the crac' inthe # oc', and "here the rai ing had #een re! aced "ith a )ne"* one #ut the cement"as a different co or. I get there and et me te you my heart "as !ounding. I go tothe #ui ding and oo' at the #ottom # oc' "here the car had hit the #ui ding. A(4LE ME ELL :, E %&A% I( E BL % I0 0 ILL E&E, A(4 E(E &AILI( I0 0 ILL BEI( EL4 I( PLA%E B 4IFFFE&E( % L &

%EME( 7:0 A0 I &EMEMBE&E4 I G'cto&er 3" th 1997-

I move #ac' home and start to oo' for !eo! e "ith simi ar e+!eriences or "ho Ithin' can rea y )he ! me*. I arrive in the afternoon ;as I had drove through thenight<, "e un oaded the truc' and I "ent to s ee!. he ne+t day my Mothers friendAstrid fo o"s me over to the oca u-hau faci ity, as's me ho" I fee , and I to d herthat I fee ]fine^ #ut than's for as'ing.

ver the ne+t month I am trying to !iece together the fragments of my memory. I gotto the igh schoo and start to as' /uestions. he coaches a of course remem#eredme #ut the strange thing is "hen I as'ed them a#out the steroid tria they a said theEVA% same ans"er. hey a seemed to get this g a ed oo' in their eyes and theya said "ord for "ord )I remem#er something a#out that, #ut I ust canSt !ut myfinger on itG* A the !eo! e "ho I 'no" "ere there a seemed to get the same funnyoo' in their eyes. I try and ta ' to my mother a#out "hat I am remem#ering and thething is everything and anything that I "ou d say her res!onse "ou d #e )A(4 ,A (E E& APPE(E4*. Even sim! e things i'e "hen I got into trou# e as a

'id "hen my !arents "ere going through their divorce, "here I "ent to schoo inermany, the fights my !arents used to get into "hen they going through their

divorce. )A(4 , A (E E& APPE(E4*. 0o I #egan to cross chec' events "ithmy father and the rest of my fami y and they remem#ered most of the events as I did.his did not ma'e A( sense. 0o I sto!!ed discussing it "ith my mother, and

sec uded my se f in the #asement of her house.

I "ent to see Father 7ac' and as'ed him a#out the steroid tria and his res!onse to me"as )Andy, that never ha!!ened. 3e "ou d never a o" that to ha!!en. I strong ysuggest that you donSt say another "ord to A( (E a#out A( of this and Istrong y suggest that you forget that you even thin' that it ha!!ened.* his rea y!issed me off, #ecause I 'no" that I am not cra y #ut "hat the he is going on



around here. 0o I te Father 7ac' that I am going to ca 4r. Purri o and as' hima#out and of course Father 7ac' tries his a#so ute #est to convince me not to ta ' toA( (E.

0o if course I ca 4r. Puri o and get his service at his office as he is on vacation in%a ifornia. 0o I te his nurse that I "ant to eave a message for Mrs. Purri o ;as she"as the one "ho "as caring out her se+ua fantasies on me "ith her friend #ac'"hen I "as in igh 0choo , and "as the one "ho "ou d come u! to visit me at&ochester and try and get me to s ee! "ith her< and if anyone "ou d remem#er it"ou d #e her.

he ne+t day Mrs. Purri o ca s me and I ust as' her if she remem#ers me and if sheremem#ers going to &ochester at a . 0he informs me that her memory ;convenient y<has gone since she has had a stimer se disease. But she remem#ers me from "henshe "ent to see her son ! ay foot#a against the :niversity of &ochester #ut that "asit. his "as im!ossi# e since I "asn$t ! aying foot#a "hen her son ;"ho "as! aying for %arginee Me on< ! ayed the :niversity of &ochester. he ne+t day I get aca from 4r. Purri o "ho is ca ing me from %a ifornia "hi e on his vacation. Andhe says to me ) his #etter #e good* and I started to as' him in a very nice and genti etone a#out the steroid tria and he starts to augh at me ca ing me insane and that Ineed to have my se f chec'ed into a menta c inic. 0o I as' him a#out "hen I "or'edat the o- o- us Inn for him !ar'ing cars and ho" he hy!noti ed me and !ut meon the ta# e to try and find out if I "as s ee!ing his "ife and to get revenge forruining him at the steroid tria . e stated aughing at me again ;and I cou d hear Mrs.Purri o and a fe" other !eo! e aughing in the #ac'ground< and he te s me that I(E E& "or'ed at the o- - us Inn.

0o I as' to s!ea' to Mrs. Purri o and he te s me that haven$t I !ut her throughenough and since she has a stimer se disease she has no memory, and that for god$ssa'e go and get some medication as I am a danger to society and hangs the !hone u!on me.

I am no" very confused, "ithin t"o hours 4r. Purri o$s o dest son ;"hom I havenever met never even 'ne" e+isted unti no"< ca s me out of the # ue to reassure methat there never "as a steroid tria and that he has a ist of !sycho ogist "ho "ou d #e more then g ad to he ! me. I te him in a very ca m voice that I "as ust havingthese strange memories and I "as "ondering if his father cou d he ! c arify them forme. h yea, I te him, I$m so sorry to hear a#out your mother, 3 L ( A00 E A4 AL0 IME&X0E 4I0EA0EH e started to augh and then he said )Mymother doesn$t have a stimer se diseaseG* )&ea y* I say, "e than' you very muchand have a nice day. 3ithin one hour the &amsey Po ice have ca ed my house ands!o'en to my mother stating that they got a ca from 4r. Purri o, and that herecommends that I #e sent to a menta institute immediate y and !ut on heavymedication for the safety of the communityG My Mother reassures the Po ice that I am



no threat to anyone #ut I am ust having a tough time right no". his on y confirmseverything to me that some thing is going on and I am not cra y. 0o I ca a # uff andca Father 7ac' at home and eave on his ans"ering machine something i'e )I havea co!y of the steroid tria you ying sac' of shit and you are on it as c ear as day, I

PE : A E A 4 LA3 E&* and I hang u!. he ne+t day Father 7ac'ca s my house and s!ea's to my mother. I had to d my mother "hat I "as doing and ust for my sa'e cou d you )P ease* ust ! ay a ong. f course "hen 0he ans"ers the!hone Father 7ac' informs her that he has contacted his a"yer and "ants to 'no""hat she 'no"s a#out this )tria * and "here is the ta!eH 3hat does my mother sayH,nothing other then )there rea y is no ta!e. Andy ust isn$t fee ing "e , he is ust =offhis roc'er$*. Father 7ac' then te s my mother that he doesn$t i'e #eing threatenedand that if I don$t shut u! he is going to have the Po ice come me oc' me a"ay ;thisis the oca !riest "ho interacts "ith a the chi dren<. My mother is of course no"

frantic and I #asica y oc'ed my se f a"ay in the #asement for the ne+t month anddidn$t say a "ord to anyone es!ecia y my mother a#out anymore of this, as she hasa ready #etrayed me once. But thin' a#out itH If there never "as any steroid tria , andthe "ho e thing is a figment of my imagination and it a never ha!!ened, then "hy"ou d a !riest ;if he is so innocent< contact his a"yer if there rea y cou d #e no!ossi#i ity of there ever #eing a ta!e to #egin "ith. I 'ne" that I "as right #ut the"ho e "or d is against me for some reasion and I had to find out "hat the he isgoing on. 0o I aid o" for a "hi e and tried to !iece together the scra!e of memories"hich I had as there "as sti no order.

Dece!&er 25 th 1997-

For the !revious fe" "ee's I have #een "riting do"n my thoughts to try and ma'esome sense of it a . My thin'ing is that if I organi e some 'ind of )time ine* I canorgani e my thoughts and get a #etter !icture. 3hat you are reading is o#vious y thetime ine. %hristmas eve I have no friends to ta ' to and no "here to go. his doesn$t #other me in the s ightest in terms of de!ression #ecause my memories are verys o" y starting to fa together and #ecome c ear. Pi ar ca s me %hristmas eve and "eta ' as she is in a simi ar situation. 3e #egin to ta ' a#out Aaron and the strange

things that I thought "ere going on at his a!artment. hen Pi ar #rea's in and te sme that her and my stories are identica and she ust never #rought it u! #ecause shethought that she might have #een imagining things or some ho" going cra y her se f.A#out ho" there "as ost time at Aaron$s. o" she remem#ers starring off intos!ace and seeing me ne+t to her as Aaron "as contro ing #oth of us. his "as a great!iece of reassurance and made a ot of other !ieces fa into ! ace as "e as a num#erof other memories come #ac'. he most im!ortant !iece to fa into ! ace and the one"hich had !u ed me for the ongest time "as thisH I 'ne" as I "as eaving At antathat they "eren$t ust going to et me go. hey must #e "atching me someho", #ut I

cou dn$t figure it out, ho" "ere they "atching meH A(4 E( I %AME MEi'e a shiver going through my sou . ere I "as safe in the #asement of my mothershouse "here no one cou d get to me #ecause I didn$t go out at a . After ta 'ing to me



I remem#ered that "hen I moved #ac' to (e" 7ersey from At anta, the first thing Idid "as #ring #ac' the truc'. 3hen I #rought it #ac' my mother$s E&MA( friendAstrid "as there to !ic' me u!. he first thing she said to me "as ) 3 4 :FEELH* and I said )I fee fine* then she said )A(4 E %&AXIE0 I( :&

EA4H* and I said )3hat cra ies in my headH* hen she said ) hat$s good*. henshe said )A(4 , 3 A 4 : I( AB : E B MEI( AMPFH*) it er$s #oo'H* I say, I don$t 'no" I never read itG 0he said that$s very good. it er$sBoo' )Mein am!f* is one of the 'ey "ords they use to contro me. Astrid is thecontro er "ho is in turn contro ing my mother to inform them of everything that Ido. It a started rushing #ac' to me. My mother com! aining of her tri! to ermanyto visit Astrid, and ho" she seemed to #e missing a fe" days and cou d notremem#er them. My grandmother ;on my mothers side< frea'ing out saying that shehad "a 'ed in and Astrid "as contro ing her in some "ay and my mothers res!onse

"as )don$t #e ridicu ous, Astrid is my #est friendG* I then remem#ered from "ay #ac' "hen I "as a chi d ;may#e 1 years I started frea'ing out ca ing Astrid a (AXIat one of my !arents dinner !arties and of course my mother a!o ogi ed !rofuse y.But I "ou d not give u! and I 'e!t screaming ) : MA A E EM F LE4B: : A E($ F LE4 ME. :& A (AXI, : (AXI, : (AXIG* and Iremem#er her ust sitting there and smi ing at me and I cou d te that she "as sayingto her se f )you are one smart itt e shit*. 0he had a so mani!u ated my father andhas had a se+ua re ationshi! "ith him over the years ;I don$t 'no" the s!ecificdetai s to this at a <. hese are a the #asic contro tactics that E use. At this!oint I remem#er going to Astrid$s once #efore "hen I regained my memory. I thin'it "as #et"een 199D and 199K #ut I rea y cannot #e sure<. I fo o"ed my mother overto Astrid$s and "atched as the main hy!notists as "e as Mr. reen, and the man"ith the "hite hair #eing there and mani!u ating my mother. As I tried to get ac oser oo' they had a man !atro ing outside and I "as seen and they chased medo"n, caught me and said the )Magic "ord* and my memory "as erased again. he'ey !oint here is that no" I 'no" ho" they are "atching me, and I 'no" "ho myne" contro er is. It is my o"n mother as they are mani!u ating her to 'ee! ta#s onme. I thought #ac' to "hat she 'no"s and to "hat I have to d her in regards toanything I am doing "ith my government mind contro e+!eriment memories. 0he'no"s nothing of any re evance as I have not said a "ord to her since the 4r.Purri o and Father 7ac' incidents as "e as the arguments "e had #ac' in cto#eras to "hat ha!!ened in my chi dhood and since she "ou d ust say )that neverha!!ened* to no matter "hat I said. I ust com! ete y sto!!ed ta 'ing to her a#out it.I have, "ithout even 'no"ing it, #een s!ecifica y giving her disinformation andhave #een mis eading her for months ;this is a E& uc'y #rea'<. (o" that I 'no"this, I am going to use it to my advantage. And as a matter of fact no" a thecomments she "ou d ma'e as to "hat I "as doing, ho" she "as very concerned asto "hat I am doing, everything no" ma'es more sense. But sti I can on y remem#er

a fraction of "hat ha!!ened and I am sti trying to !ut it a together. But I havesec uded myse f from everyone and no" I 'no" "hat to "atch out for, My motherand Astrid.



T E N

January 17 th 1998-

:sing the internet I order some #oo's dea ing "ith government mind controe+!eriments and covert o!erations ;as I sti am thin'ing that this is a governmente+!eriment #ecause I 'ee! on remem#ering #eing on (avy shi!s for theassassinations and I 'ee! seeing Mr. reen during the torture e+!eriments and theconditioning. At this !oint I sti have no reco ection a#out the I uminati or A(idea a#out "hat the #ig !icture rea y is<. ne of the #oo's I ordered "as ) he0earch for the Manchurian %andidateR he %IA and Mind %ontro * #y 7ohn Mar's. In

the #oo' he discusses the M :L &A !rograms and ho" L04 "as discovered, thenho" the %IA Bac' in the forties #egan e+!eriments to find a )truth serum* to ma'es!y$s ta '. ne of the first !ro ects "as "ith t"o (avy men and a man ca ed)3eint* ;my father no" has the #oo' and I am not sure of the s!e ing of his name<, #ut he "as the head of the Psycho ogy de!artment at the :niversity of &ochester.And he conducted his e+!eriments on the students at &ochester in his secreta#oratory in the attic of the i#rary at the :niversity of &ochester. 3hen I read Iitera y fe off the couch as a f ood of memories sudden y came rushing #ac' to me.E 0MALL LAB I ME( I ( EA&LIE& I0 E 0E%&E LAB I( E A I% F

E LIB&A& G ;and I have enc osed diagrams<. I remem#er this #ecause "hen they #rought me u! there the man "ith the "hite hair said to me )&hino, "hat do youthin' of this ! aceH his is a for youG* and I said )It$s a f>c'ing dum!* and he said)3e you have to give us some time to fi+ it u!, it hasn$t #een used in forty years.*hen I remem#er the #eatings and the e ectric shoc' they did to me. I remem#er

trying to esca!e and once "hen I got ose and had 'ic'ed the cra! out of a the a#guys I tried to um! out of the on y "indo". I o!ened the "indo" and "as ha f "ayout "hen I rea i ed that I "as at the to! of the i#rary and it "as at east a hundredand fifty foot dro! do"n to anything. At that !oint I 'ne" I "as scre"ed and I a so

'ne" "here I "as from the vie". I s!ecifica y remem#er thatG hen I remem#ergoing #ac' "ith the FBI once to raid the a# and "e #ro'e in and "as in the !rocessof sei ing everything "hen someone very high u! in the FBI "ho "as under thecontro of the I uminati & the (0A or "hich ever other government agency theyused to contro the situation ;"hich I didn$t !ut together unti ater<, ordered thecom! ete ha t of the raid and the "ho e thing "as covered u!. And once again theyerased my memory.

January 22 ND 1998-

I am sti "riting and trying to !iece a this together. My mother is a "oman "ho is a)Pac' rat* if you "i . 0he co ects and saves E E& I( es!ecia y !ertaining to

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her son. As I am "riting do"n my thoughts to ma'e sense of it a I go u! stairs andgo to the fi ing ca#inet to "here my mother 'ee!s everything. My fo der is gone.Everything that !ertained to my !ast, my high schoo foot#a c i!!ings, my o dre!ort cards, the !o ice re!orts of "hen I got in trou# e "hen I "as a 'id. hese "ere

the re!orts I used to shove in my mothers face "hen "e "ere having an argumentt"o months #efore "hen she "as insisting that I "as never a #ad 'id. It had amysterious y disa!!eared. My mother must have to d Astrid "hen she )re!orts* toher "ee' y as to "hat I am doing and Astrid must have to d her to get rid of the fi e,to get rid of anything that "ou d )s!ar'* any more memories. 0o no" my house has #een erased of any memories of my !ast. I have not said a "ord to my mother that I'no" that my fo der is missing, #ut et me te you I "as a serious shoc' to me aseverything #ecomes rea ity. But it on y adds to the !roof of my !ast. 0ti nomemories of the I uminati or any other intervention "ith the FBI at this !oint.

3hat scares me the most is not remem#ering a of these events, #ut forgetting themagainG ou see I 'no" for certain that I have my o"n )T:EE( F 4IAM (40* ifyou "i ;from the Manchurian candidate< oc'ed in my mind some"here. his is the!rogramming that they use to contro the (avy, the Army, he Air Force and most ofthe e ected officia s. I 'no" this #ecause I remem#er coming out of this #efore. Ivague y remem#er contacting the FBI, contacting the &ochester ne"s !a!er oo'ingfor artic es on the gir s death. Loo'ing for artic es a#out a tria during that time. Iremem#er s!ea'ing to someone a#out )the # ac' out tria .* I remem#er driving to ahouse in u! state (e" or' sometime after I graduated, ringing the #e , a "omanans"ers the door, oo's at my face and instant y starts screaming as she #ecomeshysterica . A man then comes to the door. e sees my face, and I see the fear in hiseyes as he #ecomes !ara y ed "ith terror. I have a #ig smi e on my face and I tethem ho" I 'no" I$m the ast !erson they "ant to see #ut I must s!ea' to them andmay I come in. hey very cautious y et me in. I remem#er #eing in their iving roomand ho" I to d them the story a#out "hat they did to me, and ho" I #egged the gir smother to ! ease forgive me for the things they made me do and the things theymade me say. I te them ho" I am going to fight them and #ring the "ho egovernment do"n. he father s!ea's, and te s ho" there is no case "ithout you,

ho" they have a video ta!e. I as' to see it, they oo' at each other "ith verye+as!erated faces, and !roduce a video cassette from #ehind the #oo' she f. Iremem#er, 3ith my #ig smi e on my face I ta ' a#out ho" "e are going to get )thosef>c'ing sons of #itches*. )My ega team must see the ta!e* I say and I ta'e it. hey #oth get u!set )that$s their on y evidence and the on y co!y.* I go to"ard the doorand "a ' do"n to the front stoo!. I turn around and 3ith my #ig smi e I say )4on$t"orry I$ #e #ac', and vengeance "i #e ours.* hen "ith the #iggest, ha!!iestvoice and smi e I can muster, I "ave #ye #yeG Li'e I had ust made t"o ne" #estfriends. 3ith them sti standing in the door"ay, I "a ' across the a"n to the street.

As I reach the street a car !u s u! "ith t"o men inside. I "a ' right u! to it. heman on the !assenger side as's me if I got the ta!e. ) f course I got the ta!e* I re! y.e says )give it to me* and I do. he man te s me that I did good, and don$t forget





o ma'e things easier and as not to try and !ut a the events #ac' in the ! aces"here they #e ong in the time ine ;as the story #ecomes very com! icated if you tryand "rite t"o !ara e time ines and t"o a ternate sets of rea ity at once<.

I no" remem#er that I have many many sons as I "as used in #reeding e+!erimentsas "e . ere is a summary of "hat I #e ieve ha!!ened and of the events as I canremem#er "hat ha!!ened at this time.

As my memory comes #ac' I discover that I "as not on y used as an assassin #ut thatI actua y "as one of the )Montau' #oys* as "e . his is in regards to the Montau'!ro ect as descri#ed #y Preston (icho s in his #oo' ) he Montau' Pro ect*. ALL theevents he descri#es in his #oo' are 1 U true. o"ever the fact that the !ro ect "assu!!osed y a#andoned at cam! ero in the year 198 cou d not #e farther from thetruth. As I "as a so there sometime #et"een the years 1988 and 199 H And the!ro ect is sti going strong. As far as I can !ut together at this !oint . {some sourcesindicate that a!ter the rebellion in the ranks and sabotage o! the pro'ect in )*+ , the pro'ect was re-initiated a couple years later. this is similar to the claims o! the ‘du ce "ars ’ in the new me ico dulcebase, leading to a severange o! ‘'oint-interaction’ between the u.s. government-illuminati andreptilian-grey controllers o! the lower base, however a!ter two years the collaboration was re-instated -branton(

I "as se ected at the age of D "hen my father "as in the (avy. In addition to this Ihave some very strange memories of "hen my fami y "ent to the cto#er fest in

ermany "hen "e "ere there. 0ome strange events "here they too' my father anddid something to him in the #athroom. 0omething "here they humi iated him insome "ay and I remem#er "atching and after "hen "e eft he "as so ashameda#out "hat they did to him that he made me !romise not to te anyone a#out "hatha!!ened.

Any"ay they "atched me deve o! a through my chi dhood and then "hen I "entto co ege they #rain"ashed my father into getting me to turn do"n a fu ride toPenn 0tate to ! ay foot#a , O#ut rather to go to the :niversity of &ochester.

3hen at &ochester they #egan their !rogramming of me to #ecome a )Manchurian%andidate* for them, the !erfect assassin. My roommate "as a contro er, my roomhad a video camera, the sho"er had a camera in it. Every moment of every day they"ere "atching me. hen at night they "ou d ta'e me to one of t"o a#s and do the!rogramming "ith e ectric shoc', drugs, and torture. ne of the a#s is ocated in theattic of the i#rary at the :niversity of &ochester. he other "as the much #igger onethat they gained after I gave a demonstration as to "hat I cou d do to some 0enator,and it #ecame a fu # o"n !ro ect.

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at &ochester they then ust too' the )s!ecia room* I a ready had in my mind andthen mani!u ated me according y.

he organi ation is (AXI BA0E4 and has it$s roots intert"ined "ith them. he

funding for this !ro ect is e+act y as (icho s states in his theory. hat the fundingfrom the Montau' !ro ect came from a 1 #i ion do ar (a i go d train "hich "assei ed #y the a ies in 19KK and "as sudden y ) ost* #y # o"ing u! in a tunne andsea ing it a"ay as the a ies "ere driving the ermans #ac' at the end of "or d "arII. his "as investigated #y enera eorge Patton as he cou d not understand ho" atrain cou d )disa!!ear* in a ied territory and ho" a the Is cou d have #een 'i ed.he go d sho"ed u! years ater at Montau' ;no" #eing "orth 18 #i ion< and"as #rought over #y the ru!! fami y ;"ho o"n the I cor!oration<, and that$s"here the (a i$s got the money.

Any"ay, I someho" have the s!ecia a#i ity to "here someho" "hen a suggestion isgiven to my su# conscious A( I( that is suggested I can someho" do inrea ity. I "as the untoucha# e su!erstar of the M :L &A !rogram. 0ome of thethings they "ou d do "ou d #e things i'e, they to d my su#conscious mind thatA( height I um!ed off of, ( MA E& 3 I , "as as easy as um!ing offof a footstoo in my mind, and I cou d do it. o" highH Eventua y they thre" meout of air! anes "ithout a !arachute ;#ecause once you reach termina ve ocity"hether it$s is um!ing from D feet and surviving or um!ing from D , feet youare not going any faster so it doesn$t matter "hat the height is as ong as you can)stic' the anding*<.

Imagine an assassin or covert grou! that cou d um! out of a o" f ying ! ane and hitthe ground running. he mission "ou d #e over #efore the target even 'ne" "hatha!!ened. And this is e+act y "hat I did. Bet"een 1988 and 199D there "ere severaassassinations around the "or d that "ere so !rofound and so un#e ieva# e that thecases are sti unso ved. he assassin "ou d shoot a the targets as "e as a of theguards surrounding these !rominent !eo! e "ith one shot to the head, so at thescene there "ou d #e a these #odies a "ith one #u et ho e in their heads. hen the

assassin "ou d do things i'e go in, shoot everyone once in the head "ith a !istothen um! off a t"enty story #ui ding "ith no !arachute hit the cement and get u!and run a"ay. I am that assassin, and the FBI is oo'ing for me ;I "i get into thatmore ater<.

0o I "as trained at the &ochester faci ity. he thing is that "hen they "ere creatingme, as !art of my deve o!ment they gave me a ]a to! secret government hea ing)formu a* to hea my se f if I #ecame in ured ;"hen I "as under hy!nosis they gavethe suggestion to my su# conscious< to add to the )hea ing !oo * I had in )my room*"hich I a ready had in my mind from the 0i va mind contro course. It "or'ed so"e that I cou d hea my se f from A( in ury "ith my mind in a matter of momentssim! y #y aying in the "ater and te ing my se f to )hea *. his "or'ed so "e that,

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fighting them. I must have 'i ed at east 1C of their men "ho "ou d try and sto! meonce I started. 3hen I "ou d frea' out no matter "here I "as, I "as getting the heout of "here I "as and if you tried to sto! me it "as not a good idea to get in the"ay. I a "ays "ou d end u! running #ac' to my dorm room ;"here my roommate

"as one of the contro ers< running #ac' to home "here I fe t )safe* and I "ou dsim! y go to s ee! or even stay u! a "hi e and "atch te evision #ut the memories of"hat ust ha!!ened seemed to disa!!ear as soon as I got )home*, it "as i'e mysu#conscious "ou d over ru e my conscious mind and tric' me into #e ieving thatthis )horror* "asn$t rea y ha!!ening ;I guess it "as a 'ind of denia if you "i ,"hether it "as a !rogrammed res!onse or not I don$t 'no"<. I remem#er "hen they"ou d have me under their contro the #est "ay to descri#e it "ou d #e i'e #eingoc'ed in a room "ith no doors and no "ay out and a there is are these t"o huge"indo"s in "hich you can see everything. Li'e riding in a giant ro#ot and seeing out

the eyes. ou can "a ' around the itt e room #ut there is nothing #ut #are smooth"a s and a you can do is "atch. ou can scream, 'ic', and #eat the "a s as hard asyou "ant. But a you can do is ride in the #ody and "atch "hat ha!!ens. But againsomeho" I "ou d manage to esca!e from the itt e room and that is "hen I "ou d)frea' out* as I "ou d regain contro of my #ody.

ne time they had me at a #ase some"here, I #e ieve in irginia, and after I esca!edthe faci ity someho" I "as #ac' in my room in &ochester (e" or' D minutes ater.Later, they came and got me and #rought me #ac' to the a#. hey had me secure ychained to a chair ; itera y< and they had said the )magic "ord* and I "as in somesort of trance or a tered state. I a so may have #een drugged #ut I don$t thin' so #ecause the thing is the drugs they "ere giving to me I eventua y #ui t u! a defenseto. hey "ou d no onger have any affect on me as the machine I had #ui t in mymind to counter any and a invasions of my #ody sim! y to d my su#conscious thatthese drugs "ou d no onger have any affect on me. 0u#se/uent y they "ou d giveme enough of "hat ever it "as they "ere giving me ;it "ou d #e enough to 'noc'out three e e!hants< #ut it "ou d have no effect on me and that$s "hy theyeventua y had to resort to itera y chaining every inch of my #ody to a so id steechair so I cou d not esca!e again. hey as'ed me ho" I did it, ho" I ended u! in my

room and I remem#er te ing them "ith a #ig smi e on my face as I "as !roud of"hat I did, )time trave *. I have no idea ho" I did it #ut some ho" I o!ened a !ortausing on y my mind, entered this # ac' ho e, "a 'ed around for a "hi e ;I seemedsomeho" to 'no" e+act y "here I "as going< and then e+ited through another oneand I "as standing in front of my dorm room. I remem#er !unching a ho e in thefa#ric of time and then !unching another one to get #ac'. hey re!eated y as'ed meho" I did it and I "ou d not te them. I remem#er te ing them that it "as much toodangerous #ecause I had a ready made t"o ho es in the fa#ric of time and if the ho essome ho" #egan to tear, and if the fa#ric of time actua y )tore off* and ri!!ed in

ha f com! ete y, ife as "e 'no" it "ou d #e over as rea ity "ou d go s!inning offinto infinity. 0o no matter "hat, I "as not going to te them ;I had a#so ute y no'no" edge of "hat !revious y ha!!ened and "hat they "ere doing at Montau',





huge monster a!!eared. Everyone started frea'ing out and running around and I"as sti tied to the chair. he monster had to #e 1D or 1 feet ta , it "as covered "ith #ro"n fur, had one eye and one horn. It oo'ed i'e a cross #et"een ing ong andthe monster from one of the %onan movies. he monster had #een created using the

Montau' chair from out of my imagination from some"here in my su#conscioususing the Montau' chair to am! ify my thoughts creating an actua !hysica #eing.he on y good ne"s "as that the creature "as either incredi# y stu!id or "as ustvery confused as to it$s sudden ne" surroundings #ecause it ust stood there for ateast a minute giving them time to untie me. hey "ere a ye ing at me to do

something ;since I "as the on y one "ho cou d have sto!!ed it, if you "i , of thegrou!< #ut I "as tied u!, so they fina y cut me oose and I 'i ed it #y um!ing on it$s #ac' from the u!!er eve of the stair, and strang ing it to death using a chain and astee rod i'e a truncate around itSs nec'. But not #efore it "rec'ed ha f of the a#.

Most of the chair antenna a!!aratus got "rec'ed and the right side of the timemachine antenna got "rec'ed and a #o+ of these mi ion do ar ight #u #s gotsmashed. But they a seemed ha!!y #ecause the contro s for the time machine "ereundamaged and they a 'e!t saying that it "asn$t near y as #ad as the ast timeHHHHHI didn$t understandHHHHH

0ome time ater ;I don$t 'no" ho" ong it "as< they #ring me #ac' in again and sitme do"n in the chair ;as no" everything is fi+ed<. his time they te me they "antme to thin' of on y !a ets of go d #ars. hey "ere out of money and "anted me tocreate #i ions of do ars using the )Montau' chair* since my menta energy "asstrong enough to create !hysica o# ects "hich "ere indeed rea and stayed rea inthis !hysica universe. I did it once and a !a et of go d a!!eared, they "ere ae+cited and they "ent off to test it to see if it rea y "as go d. (ot 'no"ing "hat I"as doing as I "as functioning in the a ternate rea ity they had created ;the rea ity in"hich they cou d contro me and su!!osed y they "ere my #est friends<. I, i'e anidiot, said )3hy go dH o d is a !ain in the ass, #ecause of it$s "eight and vo ume, ifyou need money "hy not ma'e some thing e seH* hen I said )ste! #ac'* and "ithin an instant a huge chest a!!eared and I said )o!en it*. I had created for them ahuge chest of !erfect y cut, f a" ess, "hite diamonds the si e ranging from

gra!efruits to go f#a s. ne "as even as #ig as a vo ey #a . his is "hat they areusing as financing today. his is "here they are getting the money to #ui d the ne"faci ity under the ne" 4enver air!ort , and "here they got the money to #ui d their #rand ne" )state of the art* ne" head /uarters faci ity in At anta. he chest ofdiamonds is !rice ess and I mean !rice ess, "orth itera y tri ions, an un imitedsource of funding. And it$s a my fau t. hey have named the #iggest diamond afterme ;the one the si e of the vo ey #a < they ca it ) he &hino diamond* and thesecond argest one is ca ed the star of 4avid ;named after my son in my honor<.After a of this I "as chosen to #e their )go den #oy*. I "as !ersona y chosen to

interact 4I&E% L "ith the I uminati. he I uminati is made u! of a grou! ofa#out t"enty men. A are Q$-D* or over, "hite and are of an indeterminate o der age;I "ou d say a#ove the age of J #ut I sus!ect that "ith the techno ogy they have

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avai a# e to them they in rea ity are much much o der<. hey convene in a #oardroom "ith a huge "ooden ta# e "hich is in the sha!e of a foot#a . Each chair has acontro !ane and a te evision screen comes out from inside the ta# e for each of thechairs. here is a huge screen ocated in the front of the room as "e . 4uring one of

the meetings a#out 1? of the men reached over to their #e ts and turned a 'no# on asma "hite #o+ they had on their #e t and their human image disso ved to reveathey "ere not human at a #ut these huge i ard ty!e creatures ;the re!ti ians<. AfterI finished co ege at the age of DD or D I s!ecifica y and re!eated y to d them that I"anted no !art of any of this #ut they "ere not going to et me go. hey a i'ed mevery much and a "ays "anted me to oin them ;the I uminati< for drin's and )hangout* "ith them in their !rivate recreation room and #e one of them. P ay #i iardsand cards "ith them ;things i'e that<. 0o they #rain"ashed me again ;reinforced thea ternate rea ity !rogram they had #een using a a ong< and made me the ins!ector

to a of the faci ities around the countries. hey erased the memory of my son andhis mother from me at the time. hey have ! ans for him as his IT - so I have heardfrom Aaron - is 1C . But any"ay, the ins!ector "as a high y im!ortant andinf uentia !osition to ho d, again I "as DD years o d and "as their )go den #oy*.hey gave me a ran' of KD nd eve in the masons secret society...

{{note: i have heard !rom a !riend o! mine that, according to certain sources, george bush also held the/0 nd degree... even though ‘o!!icially’ there are only degrees. it is very probable that bush has risenin the ranks since them. the and above degrees are not public knowledge since this is where theybegin dealing with the interplanetary secret societies, with alternative 0 underground and alternative

space scenarios involving both humans and aliens. the plan is to allow world war iii to break outbetween right-wing and le!t-wing political !actions - that were actually !inanced by the illuminati inmachevellian !ashion - and when the world is depopulated the cult o! the serpent - human and alienilluminists - plan to anne this planet to the main reptilian empire in alpha draconis, and turn thosehumans who remain on earth into electronically controlled sub'ects. the dracos are, according tocontactees, involved in an ancient war with human-like beings in the lyra sector. both the humans andreptilians reportedly once lived on earth in prehistoric times and le!t the planet as a result o! ancientearth changes1wars to !ound their respective con!ederations, and both desire to use earth and itsuni2ue chemical, mineral and genetic resources along with its human population, with its inbredwarrior instincts, as weapons to destroy the power-base o! the other side - branton((

o start ;I started at the #ottom of the to!<, accom!anied "ith this tit e came a ring; i'e my co ege ring< "ith the num#ers )KD nd* em#roidered on the e"e of the ringin red. I ins!ected severa faci ities inc uding the one in Paramus (7, the Montau'faci ity, the faci ity in &ochester, the faci ity in Miami "here the rays are ocatedand are doing their #reeding e+!eriments to form a s ave a#or race ;this is a ointtreaty "ith the :0 government$s 4e!artment of the (avy< {or thed.o.n. , which serves asthe ma'or c.i.a.1n.s.a. “mole” within naval intelligence - branton(.

he government is !roviding human "omen su# ects for the rays to do #reedinge+!eriments "ith, in e+change for a ien techno ogies ;"hat "e no" ca the stea thfighter and #om#er radar invisi#i ity techno ogy< and a non aggression !act against

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the rest of man 'ind. I !ersona y have seen this first hand and I remem#er the"omen and chi dren as I "a 'ed #y them 0%&EAMI( and PLEA4I( hysterica yfor me to he ! them. his memory is one of the most distur#ing and most frighteningthat I have reca ed. he fee ing I get no" is the same one I got then, one of utter

sic'ness as the thought of our government is giving a iens "omen and chi dren fortorture and #reading e+!eriments. E E& 3 &4 of this is unfortunate y a &:E.3hen I "as in Miami I "as ! aced do"n in front of the eadershi! counci of therays. I didn$t 'no" "hat the I uminati "anted me to do, they never gave me anys!ecific instructions or too much detai as to the intricate "or'ings of things #ecausethey "ere afraid that I "ou d frea' out again. At the meeting one of rays "astrying to gain access to my mind in order to contro me. e 'e!t trying to im! ant thesuggestion ) ou "i o#ey me, ou "i o#ey me*. I "arned him to sto! three times.e had no "ay of 'no"ing my a#i ities and after "arning him the third time I

crushed his throat "ith my mind and then hur ed him against the "a "ith suchforce that his head s! attered o!en i'e a ri!e me on. his "as a on y using the!o"er of my mind. his caused a severe !o itica confrontation as I didn$t 'no" "hohe "as. I didn$t even 'no" rea y "hy I "as there. he I uninati had sent me thereto im!ress the rays and I ended u! 'i ing one of their eaders.

{atta-boy andy3 time to stop all this groveling and kick some alien butt3 reminds me o! a legend i heardo! st. george the dragon-slayer. i don’t know i! there’s any truth to it but the symbolic truth itimportant. the story is o! a kingdom in the mideast or a!rica that was plagued by a dragon. the kingwould try to appease the beast with livestock tied up outside the city, but one day all o! the livestock

was gone... they merely ended up !eeding the beast’s appetite. so they took lots to sacri!ice a virginoutside the gates, and this went on !or sometime until the kings own daughter was chosen. the kingreluctantly let her be tied to the post outside the city walls, a!ter which the dragon approached. 'ustthen !rom out on the hori$on a knight in shining armor, with a lance in hand, riding a white horse,and wielding a shield embla$oned with a red christian cross on a white background, approached andwith remarkable speed sent the beast to dragon heaven, or dragon hell whichever the case may be. st. george according to the legend ended up marrying the princes. the moral o! the story is this...appeasement is the inevitable road to de!eat. consider british prime minister neville chamberlain whoessentially turned over ch$echoslovakio to adolph hitler in an e!!ort to appease him, but this only !edthe !4hrer’s ego, his disdain !or the allies, and his twisted con!idence, and he continued his military

campaign which eventually led to the deaths o! over 56 million people. star trek’s “scotty” once said itbest: “sometimes the best negotiator is a !ully loaded phaser bank333” - branton7.

I a most started a "ar #et"een the rays, the &e!ti ians, and the rest of man'ind.hat "as my first im!ression, "hat ha!!ened in rea ity "as I #e ieve that the

I uminati sent me to the grays to see if their mind contro techno ogy "ou d "or' onme. ne of the ma or o# ections I had "ith the "ho e situation "as the "ay in "hichthe I uminati "as a!!roaching forming the )(e" 3or d rder*. I !ersona y to dthe I uninati off, and that they "ere "rong and that if they attem!t to contro theminds of human #eings "e "i ose the essence of "ho "e are and "hat ma'es us sos!ecia . hat if they tried to contro the minds of human #eings they "ou d create a!o ice state such as the one in the former 0oviet :nion and the "or d "ou d end u!



"ith the same resu t, disaster. I to d them that I am in agreement that the future ofthe Earth and the future of humanity definite y needs and is heading to"ard a sing e"or d government...

{i would have to disagree here, i would suggest more o! a union o! sovereign republics... putting all o! your eggs in one basket is dangerous, !or instance i! an alien empire were to try to take over this planet it would be easier 'ust to “steal the basket” than to go on an “easter egg hunt” and try to gather all o! the eggs one by one... i would agree with interaction between countries on an intelligenceand military level in order to protect the mutual boundaries, but on an economic and political level itis best !or each sovereignty to be totally independent !rom he rest, and thus not repeat the disaster o!economic dependence that has resulted in the loss o! sovereignty o! most republics, i.e. dependence onthe international bankers who have loaned wealth to all nations, only to be s2uandered byirresponsible leaders, bringing those sovereignties under the control o! the bankers because o! the debtsthat may never be repayed since these countries can barely pay even the interest on the loans, andespecially with the collapsing economies we will see the illiminati’s international banking systemsdemand even more ‘collateral’ !rom these de!aulted countries, destroying even more o! theirsovereignty. a good idea might be !or each country to import no more than )1 rd o! their national produce to ensure that they are moving in the direction o! sel!-su!!iciency. stacking all o! yourdominos together is not a wise idea, as we can see now with the collapse o! the interconnected and co-dependent world stock markets which are essentially dragging each other down - branton(

...#ut the methods of ho" they are trying to achieve it can on y ead to disaster. hatit is the society in "hich "e ive in that must #e changed not the human #eings"hich ive in it. o" "e ive in a "or d "here society has #ecome so com! e+ that

the fundamenta s of right and "rong has #ecome defined #y ho" much money youhave. PE PLE (EE4 BE LE4, ( BE % ( & LLE4. Lead #y e+am! e. 3edon$t have any eaders in the "or d today, "e have !o iticians, and there is a #igdifference. 3e are i'e a !iece of c ay "ith the same un imited !otentia , it can #emo ded and sha!ed into anything that can #e imagined, ho"ever the harder you tryand s/uee e it the more s i!s through your fingers. My s!eech utter y shoc'ed theI uminati #ecause for god sa'e you don$t ta ' to them i'e that #ut I et them have it.It did ho"ever divided the I uminati, some "ere on my side and some "ere on theside of tota mind contro . he &e!ti ians "ere a so great y offended as in my s!eech

I dec ared that in "ho$s #est interest is )tota mind contro * rea y in. umanity, orthe a ien s!ecies that "ere trying to overta'e us. hey must ta'e the earth intact and"ithout a "ar for they "ant the ! anet for their o"n usage$s. A so, "hy do you thin'they 'no" they must contro us ( 3, #efore "e deve o! any further. 3e on y useQ-8U of our #rains, "hat$s going to ha!!en "hen "e use a of itG A(4 do you rea ythin' that if there "ere C #i ion human #eings on the ! anet that cou d do "hat I cando they "ou d #e ma'ing treaties "ith the government in e+change for "omen andchi dren su# ects to conduct horrific human #reeding e+!erimentsH f course not, if"e "ere advanced enough "e "ou d te them to go )F>c' them se ves*. ButPresident Eisenho"er 'ne" this #ac' in the forties so that$s "hy he agreed to theterms, to #uy time. But no" the de!artment of the (avy has #ecome so engrossed"ith the !ossi#i ities of the techno ogies that they are on y getting a g im!se into,



that they have ost sight of the fact that "e have made an a iance of horror. I mean Irea y et them have itG At this !oint I to d them again that I "anted no !art of any ofthis and I ust "anted to ive my ife. he nerve of them, after they tortured me foryears and then turn around and try and te me that they are my friends and that I

am no" one of them, I to d them to go f>c' them se ves right to their faces. heyho"ever had created their o"n "orst enemy, a man "ithout any fear "ho standsagainst them, and a man "ho cannot #e 'i ed, #ut "ho can destroy them. 0o theydid the on y thing they cou d, they erased my memory, and are 'ee!ing a very c oseeye one me, and every time I "ou d start to regain my memory they "ou d #e rightthere to ma'e sure they cou d !ut out the fire #efore it got out of contro . I$m i'e the # ac' shee! of their fami y, they "ant me so #ad y to em#race them #ut a I "ant todo is see them destroyed. And the on y card they can ho d over me is my son and hismotherG After I graduated I ived in the (e" or' area for a#out a year, and then

moved south to At anta. I recent y have gained 'no" edge that they have movedtheir ne" head/uarters to a ne" underground faci ity in At anta. I had no'no" edge of the fact that they had moved to At anta #ut "hen I found that out thata "ho e f ood of memories came #ac'. And es the reason they moved to At anta"as !ro#a# y s!ecifica y to "atch MEG I had no memory of any of this unti anothersing e event s!ar'ed a memory "hich !unched another ho e in their )di'e* and mymemory has #een coming #ac' ever since. ery s o" y. As far as I can !ut together"hat ha!!ened "as this, some time #et"een 199D and 199Q I regained a !ortion ofmy memory and "ent to the FBI. I had no memories of Montau' or the I uminati,on y of the torture at &ochester and the assassinations they made me do. I to d thema#out the e+!eriments going on at the :niversity of &ochester and ho" I havete e'inetic a#i ities. hey didn$t #e ieve me so to !rove it I stuc' t"o !enci s at arange of a#out 1C feet into a reinforced concrete "a using on y the !o"er of mymind. he thing is I a so to d them a#out ho" the &ochester faci ity "as using stagey!notists to #rain"ash the !u# ic. As "e as this ho" they "ere a so #rain"ashingthe Army. 3hen the ne" so diers "ere coming out of #oot cam! they "ou d #etreated to a stage hy!notist sho". hese guys "ere so good that they cou d then turnaround and hy!noti e the "ho e audience and E 3 :L4 0 A& P&AI0I(A4 LF I LE& A(4 E (AXI PA& . he FBI didn$t #e ieve me so I as'edthem to set a remote camera at one of the sho"s. And they did it and sure enoughthe ! ot "as e+!osed. I$M E : 3 IPPE4 FF E FBI 3 A E3E&E 4 I( A(4 E( 3E( ( E &AI4 ( E & % E0 E&FA%ILI . he thing is during the raid they a ready had so many of the FBI and theArmy !ersonne under their contro that "hen "e "ent to the faci ity and #ro'e in"e a most had them #ut then they said the magic "ord and the troo!s and the FBIagents turned against me, and "ere under their contro . hey don$t fight "ith guns,they fight "ith "ords {psionic war!are - branton(. It "as i'e a iving night mare. he raid"as covered u! and they made the "ho e situation )go A"ay*. Again the raid "as

covered u! #ecause they a ready had high government officia s as "e as the to!officia s in the FBI under their contro and they did their #est "ith damage contro .o"ever the damage "as a ready done and sometime after that the government



!assed a a" ma'ing it i ega to !erform stage hy!notism in the :nited 0tates. Ithin'H But as a resu t of this they erased my memory again and covered u! myidentity and made me disa!!ear. hey tried severa times to 'i me #ut they sim! ycannot. 0o no" ha f of the FBI is oo'ing for me and the other ha f is covering u! my

identity from the first ha f as they are the agents of the )(e" 3or d rder* and theI uninati and are 'ee!ing me from #ecoming 'no"n. But the FBI is sti oo'ing forthe man "ho stuc' the t"o !enci s in the "a at the FBI ffice. 3hich is me. I don$tremem#er "hich office it "as or the e+act date, #ut I 'no" that they are oo'ing forme. 3hi e iving in At anta my contro er "as my #est friend. his guy came u! tome at the !oo of my a!artment com! e+ and "e #ecame #est friends. e "as from,confident y enough, &ochester, ( and "as in At anta to get his masters inPhysio ogy at the university of eorgia. I had no c ue "hat "as going on and he"ou d #rag o!en y a#out ho" he cou d hy!noti e !eo! e "ithout them even

'no"ing it. I "ou d go over to his a!artment and hang out. his is "here theycontinua y 'e!t u! "ith my !rogramming and ma'ing sure that I "ou d not regainmy memory and get out of contro . here "as a ot of missing time and fre/uent y he"ou d get u! and oc' the door for no reason at a . I didn$t !ut it a together untiater, #ut I remem#er te ing him severa times )4ude, I thin' I "as the victim of

government mind contro e+!eriments "hen I "as a &ochester* remem#ering on y aminute fraction of anything. And he "as right there to cover it a u! again. Iremem#er doing this severa times ;coming out of it may#e 1C to D times< untifina y I figured out that he "as !art of it and I ust 'e!t my mouth shut. But the"ho e thing seemed so #i arre that it didn$t ma'e any sense. e s!ent years trying to!ermanent y # an' my memory #ut #ecause of the safety systems I had insta ed inmy mind "hen they first started !rogramming me and creating their )Manchurian%andidate* I s!ecifica y designed my o"n system so that the system "ou dautomatica y )re#oot* no matter "hat, and there "as no "ay to destroy it ;it is /uitec ever I must admit<. his !issed them off something fierce since they have no "ay ofdestroying me, they can on y try and contro me. 4uring one of the sessions hes i!!ed and to d me )4o you have any idea ho" much damage you have done to theorgani ationH* and I said )good you f>c'ing assho es*, #ut then he said that they"ere no" using the FBI !hysio ogists to gain the contro of a the FBI agents "henthey came in for their mandatory !hysic eva uations. hin' a#out itH 3ho "atchesthe FBI !hysio ogistsH 3hen I heard this I "as sti in their a tered state of rea ity andI "ou d go on my dai y ife everyday "ith no memories of "hat "as ha!!ening athis a!artment. 0omeho" I found my se f in the FBI office in At anta, and I "as thereto te them the story a#out "hat "as ha!!ening to the FBI during the !hysiceva uations. )3atch the !hysio ogists* I said and the director of the FBI office 'ne"e+act y "ho I "as, and he 'e!t on as'ing me )3ho are ou* )3ho are ou* ; e'ne" I "as the guy "ho stuc' the !enci s in the "a from #efore, and to d of thestage hy!notists< and he 'e!t on saying )4o you have Any idea ho" many !eo! e

are oo'ing for youH* and I 'e!t te ing them that I came in as soon as I regained mymemory. e said )ho" convent, they 'ee! erasing your memory*. e didn$t #e ieveme "hen I to d him that I have no memory a#out anything he is ta 'ing a#out. A



s!ecia ty team of FBI agents "ere on the "ay from 3ashington the moment that it"as discovered that I "as in At anta. But someho" I gave him the information andthen I disa!!eared and I "as #ac' in my a!artment. I don$t 'no" ho" I did it #utthat$s "hat ha!!ened. As it turns out the "ho e thing "as true and near y the entire

FBI "as under the contro of the I uminati, and "hen they "ou d say the )magic"ord* they "ou d a turn and say ) EIL I LE&*. After a fe" months the FBI gotcontro of the situation ;su!!osed y< and arrested a of the !hysio ogists invo ved,de!rogrammed a of the agents, a of the mi itary genera s, as "e as most of themem#ers of the 0enate I "ou d assume and %ongress, as "e as President % inton.My contro er ;Aaron< "hen the "ho e ! ot "as e+!osed said that he had to do somevery fast ta 'ing to save his ife and said to me )do you have any idea ho" muchdamage you$ve done, you$ve reduced the organi ation do"n to me #eing the ne"head mind contro er #ecause they arrested everyone*. 0evera mem#ers of the

I uminati "anted to 'i my son and his mother in retri#ution for "hat I had done, #ut Odid not since I had no memories of them ;and they thorough y detest me<. As!art of their contro over me they have se!arated me from my !o"ers someho". Icannot move anymore o# ects #ut it is very very s o" y coming #ac' to me. o"everI do remem#er um!ing off a C story !ar'ing garage in Buc'head ;the aff uent sing es #ar area in At anta< "hen the FBI "as chasing me ;I didn$t 'no" "ho they "ere< andI ust did it "ith out thin'ing, and sim! y ran a"ay. My !rogrammer ;no" a soAaron< sim! y erased my memory of the "ho e event. I didn$t 'no" that they "ereFBI agents at the time, a I 'ne" "as that they "ere )men* after me. oing "ay #ac' to the initia !rogramming a I "ou d do in situations I sim! y )run*, get a"ay.I thin' I a so "a 'ed into another FBI office at !oint in some time and I "as ha f "ayinside the door "hen I sudden y got this uneasy fee ing as I oo'ed at the FBI agent #ehind me, he "as a ta # ac' man and "hen he #egan s"eating #u ets my instinct ust too' over and I ran a"ay. o", "hen and "here that ha!!ened is sti a mysteryto me.

n July o 1997 , one of the Army officers ;Mr. reen< "ho had #een instrumenta inmy deve o!ment #ac' in &ochester and "ho I had s"ore if I ever got oose I "ou d'i , tried to 'i me. I remem#er #eing in Aaron$s a!artment and he !ut me into my

trance. 3hen I a"o'e again I "as itera y in chains from head to foot. It "as Mr.reen. e too' C , mi igrams of cyanide and mi+ed it into a sma g ass of co'eand forced me to drin' it. (othing ha!!ened. I ust #ur!ed as oud as I cou d andto d him to go f>c' himse f. e #ecame frantic and ca ing me a )son of a #itch* andhe then !u ed out his KC revo ver and shot me !oint # an' in the head. he im!act'noc'ed me unconscious #ut "hen I came to I sa" three she casings aying on thef oor. Aaron erased the "ho e event from my memory, and a#out a "ee' ater ;"henhe had me in my trance< to d me that the attac' "as ):nauthori ed* and that I noonger have to "orry a#out Mr. reen again. In fear for his ife, Aaron and I had a

fight and sto!!ed s!ea'ing to each other as he cou d not cover u! the memories anyonger and he 'ne" that I 'ne" that he 'ne" that I 'ne" 'ind of thing.



I move #ac' to (e" 7ersey in 'cto&er o 1997 and have since #een trying to !iece ita together. I 'no" "ho my ne" contro er is. For the ongest time I cou d not figureit out the fact that they "ou d not sim! y et me go and not have some one "atchingme, #ut no" I have figured it out, it is my mother, and they ho!efu y don$t 'no"

that I have figured it out. I have had my se f )de!rogrammed* #y one of the)Montau' Boys* and am going through my D1 day recovery !eriod, "hichcoincidenta y ends today. And that is "here I am at. (o" I have to figure out ho"to get my !o"ers #ac'. I must figure out some "ay to get in contact "ith the FBI andfigure out some sort of )! an*. In the mean time the information I have co ectedstates that no" the I uminati are attem!ting to contro the "or d through therecording #usiness and the media. Inserting su# imina messages through a thema or recording studios, they have no" gone to actua a!! ication "ith the #roadcasts of the KDCM mind contro ing fre/uencies "ith to"ers a over the

"or d ;the one in &ussia is targeting %a ifornia< and they are contro ing thete evision com!anies and are starting to insert hy!notic messages into everything "e"atch and read. I can on y do my !art to try and sto! them, I ho!e some other!eo! e "i he ! this time.

As more of my memory comes #ac' I "i add in more detai to the time ine. In themean time I am faced "ith one ma or /uestion in regards to a of this.

3ho am IH and is it rea y meH

March 1" th 1998-

*As "or d "ar II ended and as the de#ris of Ber in smo dered, the Americaninte igence =services$ /uiet y courted (a is and their Tuis ings in the 0ovietsate ites. 0ome C Euro!ean =anti-%ommunists,$ according to the 3ashington Postfor 7une 9, 198D, /uiet y emigrated to the :nited 0tates. In the ear y days ofte evision, young &ona d &eagan$s fund-raising acumen "as ta!!ed #y the =%rusadefor freedom,$ a %IA front. he then = i#era $ ce u oid cut-out and FBI informanta!!eared in a cameo s!ot to ta ' vie"ers out of their hard-earned do ars to fund the

migration of East Euro!ean =freedom fighters$ to the :nited 0tates - these !aragons"ere rea y diehard (a is. he %IA, Pentagon, and an army of (a i recruits havesince consummated as ideo ogica #ond that has he d in sic'ness and in stea th.*2FromR irtua overnment - %IA Mind %ontro o!erations in America. P 1C , #y A e+%onstantine



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his is not on y the truth a#out "hat the :nited 0tates government has a ready done, #ut these o!erations are not on y sti going on #ut have esca ated in their sca e andhave #ecome so integrated into today$s society, that the !u# ic is starting to #e ievethe ) ies* the government is !rotruding to )discredit* anyone "ho comes forth andstates that they have #een a )victim* of a government mind contro e+!eriment, orsome other sort of i ega horrific government #ased medica e+!eriment.

3hat the government is doing to )cover their trac's*, sim! y is they come u! "ith afictitious medica term to )e+! ain* "hat a these !eo! e are emem#ering. In thiscase they came u! "ith the )fa se memory syndrome*. he fact that a these !eo! eare sim! y )de usiona * or )cra y* and they ;convenient y< need medication. Itconvenient y e+! ains their )memories* of the "rong doings and government torturedone to them as a sim! y #eing )figments of their imagination* and )it a neverha!!ened*. It a so shuts them u! as they are no" heavi y sedated.

I 'no" this as to #e fact #ecause it ha!!ened to me "hen I attended the :niversity of

&ochester #et"een the years 1988-199D. he horrific e+!eriments "ere conducted atthe secret faci ity i ustrated in the ma! of &ochester (. a#ove.

hese are the individua s res!onsi# e for the 'idna!!ing, and most distur#ing of aare the torture, murder, and i ega horrific medica e+!eriments #eing done onAmerican chi dren 4A . hey actua y are the (AXI PA& "or'ing incon unction "ith different #ranches of the :nited 0tates government in order to findeffective "ay to contro your mind and to contro the minds of A the :nited 0tatesciti ens as "e as the rest of the "or d in order to form ) he (e" 3or d rder*. Asing e mi itary #ased "or d government "here free s!eech, free thought and free"i "i on y #e a memory of the !ast.

his is a so the 0ame grou! that "as hy!noti ing citi ens as "e as the :nited 0tatesArmy using stage hy!notists in the mid 199 Ys. he :nited 0tates government ; EPA& A 3A0 ( E :(4E& EI& % ( & L< eventua y !assed a a"ma'ing it i ega for stage hy!notism to #e !erformed in the :nited 0tates #ecause ofthis e+act grou!. heir secret ocation "as never revea ed unti no" as they have notyet #een !rosecuted. 3hyH Because the net"or' of government co a#oration #et"een the different #ranches of the government and the (a i !arty have #ecome

so intert"ined that it virtua y has #ecome im!ossi# e to sort out )3hom* is rea yres!onsi# e, #ecause the "ho e o!eration$s success is #ased u!on secrecy.



his is a so the same grou!, the certain individua s and grou!s "ithin the :nited0tates government and the diehard mem#ers of the (a i !arty "ho "ere #roughtover from Eastern Euro!e named as )the freedom fighters* "ith the money donated #y the American !eo! e "ho gave during &ona d &eagan$s fund- raising cam!aign.

3hich then "as c ever y ta!!ed #y the )%rusade for freedom,* ;A %IA fronto!eration<. his grou! of fanatics then attem!ted to overthro" the FBI #y ! antingtheir agents )!osing* as FBI !sycho ogists. he )agent* "ou d then hy!noti e;#rain"ash< the FBI agent during their )!sycho ogica eva uation* into giving theiroya ties to Adof it er and the (a i PartyG 0ound too outrageous to #e trueH Be ieveitG ou !ro#a# y never heard anything a#out this cons!iracy #ecause the FBI coveredu! this ! ot as not to e+!ose their o"n incom!etence as the grou! had a most theentire FBI under their contro unti the cons!iracy "as e+!osed ;I "ou d estimate itha!!ened sometime #et"een 199Q to 199J<. he FBI is sti oo'ing for "ho is

res!onsi# e for these ! ots, and here they areG At the &ochester ocation.0ecret Paramus faci ity ocated at 1K %entury &d. ;Located in Paramus (7<here are itera y )do ens* of these faci ities ocated across the country. Each onehas a different function and s!ecia ty. his is a )sister* faci ity of the one in &ochester( . he entrance to the underground faci ity is ocated in an office #ui ding inParamus (7., at 1K %entury &d. he #ui ding ne+t door ;1D %entury &d< is a soo"ned #y the same com!any "ho finances the !ro ect. he Paramus faci ity does nots!ecia i e in mind contro , it$s s!ecia ty is 0EV.

he Paramus faci ity uses "omen to gain government secrets, industria secrets,inte igence information. Basica y A( information they are assigned to gather these)se+ agents* then go and mani!u ate their )target*, not "ith guns, or threats, #utusing one of the most !o"erfu agents of mani!u ation, se+.

As stated a#ove, the )se+ agent* is one of the most !o"erfu means of e+tractinginformation. he gir s are either #rought in at a very young age or I "ou d imagine'idna!!ed and then are made into a )se+ua agent*. his is done through a set ofvery distur#ing !rogramming ste!s. his !rocess inc udes #rain"ashing and as you

can imagine EV &EME se+ua a#use. A !rocess "hich "as used fre/uent y used and!erfected #y the B as "e as attem!ted #y the %IA in their )0an Francisco house*.I$m not sure as to the actua !rocedures invo ved in ma'ing one of these )se+ agents*or "here the gir s come from. I can #et that 99U of these gir s are ( there on avo untary #asis.

ou don$t thin' that our o"n government "ou d #e insidious enough to use gir s toget information out of !o"erfu menH Are you that ignorantH But Any"ay here is"here the to! secret underground entrance ocation is. his ocation is "here thesecret societies of the "or d "or'. 0ometimes in con unction "ith the :nited 0tatesgovernment ;as "e as many other governments< and of course sometime for



themse ves. his is "here these )se+ agents* are !rogrammed and trained. At theParamus faci ity in (7 {or is it new 'ermany - branton(.

#he Secret locat*on o the , elocate+ Montau ro:ect Do&&*n$ A*r e$erve .a$e

*n Atlanta )Ahe Montau' !ro ect ;former y ocated at %am! ero in Montau' ( < "as first

made !u# ic #y Preston (icho s in his infamous #oo' ) he Montau' Pro ect*. heMontau' !ro ect is sim! y a continuation of the )Phi ade !hia E+!eriment* "hich"as then changed to )Pro ect &ain#o"* and ) he Phoeni+ Pro ect*, unti fina y it"as moved and renamed to )the Montau' Pro ect*. A these !ro ects had s ight ydifferent o# ectives, )time trave *, )"eather contro *, etc. hese !ro ects "ereeventua y #rought a under one roof "hich "as named ) he Montau' Pro ect*"hich "as ocated at %am! ero in Montau' Long Is and. he essence of the !ro ect"as )time trave *. Being a# e to create an )e ectromagnetic #ott e* if you "i aroundan o# ect, thus ena# ing the o# ect to #e a# e to )disa!!ear* or #ecome invisi# e. his"as a ready accom! ished #ac' in the 19K Ys "ith the :00 E dridge. here "ere!ro# ems ho"ever. ther than ri!!ing a huge ho e in the fa#ric of time ;"hich ana ien s!ecies ca ed )the rays* then used to #ring a huge s!aceshi! through andthere are an estimated 1 mi ion of them iving here on Earth right no"<, human #eings cou d not trave through time as their s!iritua as "e as !hysica ) ero !ointof reference* #ecomes ost. I am not an e+!ert on this su# ect, #ut as #est as I canunderstand it, this is "hat ha!!ens. 0o more "or' needed to #e done. 3hat "e no"ca our )stea th* techno ogy is actua y the ray a ien techno ogy given to us intrade #y the ray a ien s!ecies. 3hat ha!!ened "as the 4e!artment of the (avymade an agreement "ith the rays to e+change techno ogies for human "omen andchi dren su# ects to conduct horrific #reeding e+!eriments. he rays are "hat yousee "hen you oo' at most of the a ien dra"ings made #y a#ductees or !eo! e "hohave c aimed to have seen )a iens*. his is going on right no" do"n in Miami, FL.;Entrance to the secret underground faci ity "here the :.0. mi itary is conductinghorrific genetic e+!eriments on the !o!u ation of the :nited 0tates "hi e "or'ing incon unction "ith the gray a iens - Othe entrance is ocated ne+t to the % assic onda

dea ershi! in a #an' in the %ora a# es area of 3est Miami, to #e more s!ecific< as Ihave seen it first hand myse f. ver the years "e deve o!ed the techno ogy and canno" use it in !ractice a!! ications in our 0tea th fighters and #om#ers.

Another off shoot of the Montau' !ro ect ;"hich had to "or' "ith the time trave!rinci!a in order to give the s!irit and !hysica #ody a ) ero !oint of reference*<"as ca ed the )Montau' chair*. 3hat this essentia y did "as to se!arate the mindfrom the #ody. o #e a# e to se!arate the s!irit and sou from the #ody. Eventua y,"ith the he ! of the a ien techno ogy the essence of "ho "e are ;our s!irit and sou <

can #e se!arated from the #ody, transferred onto a com!uter, digiti ed, ;ma'e anychanges in "ho you are if they deemed necessary<, stored, and then !ut you #ac'into your #ody.





4e!artment of the (avy, a time ho e "as o!ened in front of the comet causing it to!ass direct y around ;or through< if you "i the Earth.

he !ur!ose of the comet "as indeed to "i!e out us, the humans, as "e as most of

the ife on Earth. 3ho "as in the a ien shi! "as not 'no"n to us or to any one of theha f a do en a ien s!ecies "hich are a ready here. he act "as definite y one ofaggression, as the a ien$s ;"ho ever they "ere< "ere trying to )teraform* the ! anetfor their o"n usage as the comet contained arge amounts of )methane*. his is "hatthe to! organi ation "ho actua y runs the ! anet Earth conc uded. An organi ationmade u! of a counse of ha f humans and the other ha f made u! of various a ienraces "ho$s name is so secret it has (E E& #een mentioned A( 3 E&E in !rint.0o they destroyed the a ien shi! using a to! secret Anti-matter #om# ;as some say<.

he mass suicide$s in &ancho 0anta Fe ;0an 4iego< "here 9 !eo! e 'i ed themse ves #ecause they #e ieved there "as a a ien shi! coming #ehind the a e-Bo!! comet"ere a#so ute y correct. hey "ere not correct, ho"ever, in #e ieving that the a iens"ere coming to #ring us to a )higher form of human e+istence*. hey "ere in factcoming to destroy usG

%am! ero is "here the 4e!artment of the (avy has reo!ened the Montau' faci ityand is current y "or'ing "ith a variety of different s!ecies of a iens on a variety ofcovert !ro ects ; ocated in Montau' Long Is and<.

As more and more of my memories come #ac' to me things #ecome more c ear.

March 16 th 1998

I remem#er that I "as a mem#er of the 4e!artment of the (avy$s u tra e ite )4e taForce*. he term )4e ta Force* is usua y associated "ith the Army and s!eciaforces units there in. It is genera y thought that the highest eve of covert o!erationsunits for the (avy is the )(avy 0ea s*. his is genera y true for a )earth #ased*o!erations. For inter-! anetary o!erations the )4e!artment of the (avy* has a grou!of )very s!ecia * so ders "hich can do the same ty!es of su!erhuman things I havereferred to #efore. For the )very s!ecia * !ro ects the secret societies of the "or d usethe )very s!ecia * commando forces of the de!artment of the (avy. A unit so secretthat on y a fe" !eo! e in the "or d 'no" of their e+istence and that force is ca ed) he 4e ta forceG* ;)the 4e ta Force for the 4e!artment of the (avy*<.

As I regain my memory, I remem#er that Mr. reen, the man "ho "as so terrified ofme, "as one of the men "ho ra!ed my mother in front of me "hi e they he d a gunto my fathers head "hen I "as a#out seven years o d. I remem#er Q men coming intoour house. "o of them !ut a gun to my fathers head and the other four "ent intothe #ac' room and had their "ay "ith my mother. I thin' I "as a#out seven yearso d. As the men eft they "ere aughing at my father and a#out "hat they had ustdone. My father ust sat in his chair and cried. I ran outside and s"ore to 'i these





he essence of their contro and of their tactics comes from the )s! itting* of themind. he )s! itting* of the mind entai s a !rocess of degradation and humi iation ofthe su# ect. he !rocess is different for each individua . But in essence "hat they dois go into your su#conscious and find out "hat the most !ersona as!ects of your are.

hen they use this against you to essentia y ri! your mind a!art. 3hat ha!!ens isthis, an individua #oy "ho !ossesses s!ecia menta a#i ities is se ected at a veryyoung age ;age C or Q<. he #oy is then su# ected to various )stagesH* of terror andhorror to #egin to se!arate himse f from himse f and his fami y.

hey do things i'e having severa men ra!e the #oys mother in front of him andma'e him "atch. hey !ut a gun to the fathers head and ma'e the J year o d #oy"atch his father sit there he ! ess y as his mother is ra!ed in front of him. Iremem#er this ha!!ening severa times, in my chi dhood.

My )conditioning* invo ved severa eve s of !hysica torture, and horrific se+uaa#use going #eyond any 'no"n descri!tive term. hey continue to drive )"edges*into the su# ects minds unti ho!efu y the mind "i )s! it* a!art as it cannot ta'eanymore. ne of these )"edges* they used to drive into my mind "as the Murder ifmy mothers future hus#and )Mr. 7ohnson*, #ac' "hen I "as e even years o d.

3hen my !arents "ere getting divorced, and my mothers one true chance atha!!iness, "as shattered in order to get to me, "hat they sim! y did "as to !rogram0a y 7ohnson to 'i her hus#and "hen he came over. his conc udes her defense

theory as she ! eaded tem!orary insanity. heoretica y this is true as she cou d nothe ! herse f and "as sim! y fo o"ing her instructions out as "ere !rogrammed intoher #y this grou!. his !articu ar ty!e or conditioning "as done as the ParamusFaci ity ;ma! enc osed<. his effective y drove my mother into a do"n"ard out ofcontro s!ira "hich caused enough discord in my ife to give them an avenue ofmani!u ation ;an avenue for them to try and )s! it me*<.

3hen a man has an e acu ation "hat actua y ha!!ens is this. 3hen the e acu ationoccurs the seman "hich is shot out of the #ody is the 4(A !ac'age containing the

# ue!rints for the #ody. 3hat is unseen is at the same time "hat is a so #eingtransferred is the sou or s!irit of the !erson. 3e are a creatures of energy, theenergy "hich f o"s through us is ca ed )'unda ini energy*. 3hen a man reaches anorgasmic state, during the e acu ation not on y is the 0emen sent out #ut the ma e!enis a so at the same time sends off the essence of the s!irit as "e during this!eriod. Both are shot out at the same time. If you ever too' the time to notice, thema e !enis is sha!ed i'e an ]antenna^. his is o#vious y done a for reason, and thereason is that the s!irit is a so sent out through the !enis during the e acu ation. hisis the reason "hy )test tu#e* #a#ies are #orn "ithout a so e. As they "ere on yconceived "ith the !art of us that ma'es u! the #ody, and as the insertion of thes!irit "as not !art of the conce!tion, this !erson is #orn "ithout a sou ;since there"as no !hysica transfer<. his one of the !rimary reasons "hy Men are used and not





modern man<. he o dest version of the time !orta is an o der system in "hich ahuge crysta "hich has #een here since the time of At antis is activated #y emittingsound fre/uencies "hi e over the crysta . here are su!!osed y 8 crysta s hiddenaround the "or d. n y one has #een ocated, and it is at the corner of "hat ma'es

u! one of the corners of the Bermuda riang e. Pro ect )0outhern %ross* "as used to"in "or d "ar II in the favor to the a ies. 3hat the :.0. government did "as usingthis o d time machine they effective y "ent #ac' in time and de ivered futuretechno ogies to the 19K $s to he ! us "in the "ar. 3e "ou d de iver communicationdevices, as "e as "ea!ons, made out of 19K !arts and techno ogies ;using #u #resistors etc.<. hese devices "ou d #e de ivered to the 19K $s a ong "ith a com! eteset of dra"ings on ho" to ma'e them out of 19K !arts. I too' !art in severa of these)de iveries*, as "e as ran many missions for the :.0. government, going #ac' intime and a tering the future. ne of the !eo! e "ho I ran these missions "ith "as

4uncan %ameron from the )Montau' Pro ect*.March 27 th-

As I "as iving in At anta I thought I "as out of the !rogram and iving a tota ynorma ife. As I regain my memory I remem#er these men coming into mygir friends a!artment and having C men ra!e my gir friend over a !eriod of timeH- #rantonNN. his inc uded anima s as "e as many other !erversions. I remem#erthem ra!ing my sister in front of me. I remem#er them ra!ing my mother in front ofme. (o" that I thin' a#out it I remem#er most of my gir friends #eing gang ra!ed infront of me. More ater a#out this. he Ba#y on C movie "hich came on a fe" monthsago contained a su#! ot a#out a human #eing from the !ast "hich came from the!ast into the future. hey are oo'ing for this #eing. I AM 3 E A&EL I( F &. 4uring some of my duties I "as sent through the time !orta intothe future, and actua y formed the Ba#y on !ro ect. he !roducers of the sho" havesent a message #ac' in time for me and I have received it. 3hen they s! it my mind,a si+ times, they had to e+!ose me to some horror. I remem#er a of "hat it too' tos! it my mind. hat$s a I$m going to say a#out it for no". % aims have #een madethat I "as #eing used u! unti MI4 7:L of 199J. his far e+ceeds "hat I thought.

For the entire time that I "as do"n in At anta, I thought I "as iving a norma ife.he rea ity "as that I "as #eing mani!u ated and having gang #ang !arties "ith mygir friend. 3hen I "ent to Ft. Lauderda e and s!ent 8 "ee's do"n there, I thought I"as having a great time, he rea ity is that I "as #eing #reeded #y the rays do"n inMiami "hi e I "as there. ne of the 4e-!rogrammers I have #een using, has sincetried to mani!u ate me and I "i no onger go to him. I rea i e no" that (MA E& 3 A I 4 , some one is going to try and mani!u ate me for their o"n!ur!oses.







feats. Basica y, they disconnect a of the norma human #rain im!u ses, emotionsand "hatever is norma y !resent, then re!rogram in ne" ones. hey do this toremove a fear, so that "hen they !rogram in ne" a#i ities, you "i not have theinstinctua , )#ut I can$t, I$m afraid...* res!onse. hey !rogram you to do, not thin'. In

essence, they treat and !rogram your mind as if it "as a com!uter.

0%R=ho are the people running these secret programs like the ;onarch and ;ontauk>ro'ects, and where do they conduct their activities

A R ur o"n government. ne of my hand ers-"ho tried to #rain"ash me into #e ieving that he "as my father2"as #asica y a (a i. I nic'named him Ado !h #ecause he is very Aryan oo'ing. After 33D many (a i scientists "ere #roughtover to the :0 through our o"n Inte igence community "ho former y "or'ed inmind contro research in the concentration cam!s. I #e ieve they are a remnant of the(a i !arty "or'ing in con unction "ith different #ranches of the :0 government andthe mi itary. Much of my training and torture sessions "ere done right at the:niversity of &ochester, ( . hey used to ta'e me to a !rivate room in the attic orto! f oor of the i#rary. he #ig a# "here I had most of the !rogramming done to me"as at the &ome (ationa Air Base in &ome, ( . I have a so #een used in theMontau' chair "hi e at %am! ero, Montau', L.I. and a so in a chair in At anta, Aat 4o##ins Air Force Base. he Montau' faci ity ocated in %am! ero, L.I. "asreo!ened #y the 4e!artment of the (avy and is active to this day. Basica y there areunderground #ases ocated across the country. Each one has a different function ands!ecia ty. here is a faci ity in &ochester, ( , Paramus, (7, 4o##ins Air Force Base inAt anta, A, %am! ero in Montau', L.I. and many others. In the Paramus, (7faci ity is "here they do the se+ !rogramming for many of the fema e agents. For themost !art, 99U of them are invo untary se+ agents and couriers "ho "ere raised invarious mind contro !ro ects.

0%R =hat were some o! the things the mind control programmers made you do

A R I remem#er my mother enro ing me in a 0i va Mind %ontro course "hen I "as

ten. It is a ty!e of se f-hy!nosis "here you earn to go to different eve s of your mindto do se f-hea ing, re a+ation, visua i ation, #ending s!oons "ith the !o"er of yourmind, things i'e that. his is a so the time "hen I sa" t"o !ecu iar mi itary men,"ho "ou d !eriodica y visit me throughout my chi dhood, es!ecia y s!ortingevents. I did e+ce!tiona y "e at 0i va Mind %ontro ;and s!orts<, so much so thatthe t"o mi itary men a!!roached me and said, )I hear you have some very s!eciaa#i ities. 0omeday you "i "or' for us.* At the time I didn$t understand, #ut aterthe t"o men figured !rominent y in a the training I had u! a the "ay through myco ege years. f course I didn$t rea i e this unti my memories came #ac'. I did very

"e at s!orts and demonstrated a genius IT, #ut I stuttered so #ad y unti I "as inmy t"enties, that everyone ust thought I "as a dum# oc'. he stuttering "as due toa the e ectroshoc' treatments. I reca #eing su# ected to e ectroshoc' numerous



times, #eing ! aced in an enc osed "ater tan' and to d to #reathe under"ater.%onse/uent y, I dro"ned severa times and "ou d revive #ecause of my se f-createdhea ing !oo in my mind. I earned to create my o"n menta a#oratory through 0i vaMind %ontro , re! ete "ith a su!er !o"erfu hea ing !oo that cou d hea any in ury.

I "as forced to endure suffering #eyond #e ief to accom! ish su!erhuman feats ofstrength and surviva .

0%R ?ell me more about the various superhuman abilities you discovered you had.

A R he trainers "ou d !ut me into a trance "here#y I$d #e to d I cou d um! off aadder of minima height. In my mind, I #e ieved that I "as on y um!ing off a

footstoo or a short edge. In actua ity, I "as !rogressive y ed to um! higher andhigher heights to the !oint of successfu y um!ing off #ui dings and even out of! anes "ithout a !arachute. 3hen under mind contro , I cou d do "hatever I "asinstructed to do as ong as I #e ieved them. I "ou d do D or more !ush u!s in!erfect form, sometimes as ong as a ha f hour straight, or unti I "as to d to sto!. I"eight ifted CKC #s.on a #ar#e and s/uats "hi e attending co ege and much more;C -1C #.< "hi e I "as under the mind contro in the training a#oratory not farfrom &ochester, ( . In my um!s, it "as as if I "as fa ing i'e a cat, ca m and coo"ith no fear, focusing i'e a aser on y on the anding.

0%R "re there others like yoursel! who have had similar training and e periences

A R I thin' there are thousands of other chi dren and !eo! e "ho are used and manyend u! missing. Many die in the !rocess. hey are considered e+!enda# e. he ones"ho can survive the most rigorous !rogramming ive on to #ecome "hat are 'no"nas the Montau' #oys. 4uncan %ameron is such a !erson. In genera , the #oys andyoung men are trained to #e couriers, assassins and su!er so diers and even !sychic'i ers. he "omen are most y used as se+ agents. %athy $ Brien$s story is ane+am! e.

0%R=hat kinds o! special missions or time travel e periments do you remember taking part

in

A R here "ere times I remem#er #eing at the sma &ochester air!ort, #eing !ic'edu! in an F-1Q fighter ! ane and ending u! in some south"estern desert terrain eitherfor s!ecia mi itary training and o#stac e courses or assassination missions. Iremem#er seeing other men in # ac' t-shirts and !ants on the same training course atone time. ther times I found myse f on some aircraft carrier out at sea. After themission they "ou d ta'e me #ac' and I "ou d return to co ege after a cou! e of daysor even hours not remem#ering "hat even ha!!ened. A of these missions "ere

done #et"een the time I "as 1C years o d and unti 1988-199D under dee! hy!notic!rogramming "ith the memories erased, unti of some of my memories started toreturn. I "as a so taught to hand e various ty!es of guns, oading, c eaning, s!ecia



characteristics of each mode and firing at e+act targets re!eated y and !erfect y"ithout thin'ing, ust doing.

0%R?ell me more about your involvement in the ;ontauk >ro'ect .

A R I "as invo ved in an off shoot of the Montau' Pro ect ca ed the Montau' chair.Basica y the Montau' chair "as deve o!ed to give the human and s!irit a ero !ointof reference to faci itate time trave . 3hat the chair essentia y does is se!arate themind from the #ody. he chair o!erator$s thoughts and vi#rationa energy is !ic'edu! #y um#re a oo'ing antennas a#ove the chair, sent to a com!uter, over to a!rocessor, then am! ified severa hundred times. he information is sent to anet"or' of free energy crysta s arranged in a circ e. hen "hatever thoughts "eream! ified, i.e., a time !eriod, a "ormho e "ou d o!en u! in the room. he "ormho e"as as arge as 1Q-18 feet across and even arge enough for a truc' to go through. In%am! ero, Montau', the ocation is the cross hairs of the earth$s #iorhythms and isthe !oint on earth "here time trave is most easi y accom! ished "hen earth is the!oint of origin. My !art of the Montau' chair !ro ect "as to use my focusedvisua i ation s'i s to thin' of s!ecific time !oints in history that "ere assigned tome. he chair is connected to a so!histicated com!uter system and thoughtam! ifier, such that "hen a thought or time !eriod is visua i ed, the com!utersimu ates a time !orta #ased on that !oint in time. A series of time !orta s are doneunti a i#rary of time !eriods and !orta s are accumu ated. he chair is a so used toam! ify e+treme y focused thoughts to create three-dimensiona materia i ations #ased on the o!erators thoughts. Preston (icho s "rote severa #oo's on theMontau' Pro ect and descri#es an incident in "hich 4uncan %ameron created amonster "hi e in the Montau' chair. ne such time trave mission "as ca ed Pro ect0outhern %ross. It "as used to "in 33D in favor of the a ies. 3hat the :0government did using time trave "as to go #ac' in time to the 19K $s to he ! us "inthe "ar. 3e "ou d de iver communication devices, "ea!ons and techno ogies madeout of 19K $s !arts. hese "ou d #e de ivered to the 19K $s a ong "ith a com! ete setof dra"ings on ho" to ma'e them out of 19K $s !arts. I too' !art in severa of thesede iveries, one time I "as sent to ermany and another time to Eng and. I "as not

a o"ed to s!ea' to anyone, other than de iver my !arce and /uic' y return #ac' toour time. And this "as a done under dee! hy!notic !rogramming, so I didn$t havea ot of freedom to e+! ore. I "as gone no onger than t"o hours for the de iveries.

0%R@ave you ever encountered any e traterrestrials or seen any aliens in any o! yourunderground base memories

A R From "hat I understand the 4e!artment of the (avy made an agreement "iththe a ien reys to e+change techno ogies for human "omen and chi dren to conducthorrific #reeding e+!eriments. his is "hat is going on right no" in an underground #ase not far from Miami, F orida. ne of my most distur#ing memories is #eingescorted do"n a ha "ay in this underground a# and seeing cages of chic'en"ire



fencing "ith "omen and chi dren screaming for he !. I have seen rey a iens ;the K-foot ta ones "ith arge # ac' eyes< and a so J-foot ta re!ti ian #eings in some of mye+!eriences. I have #een to d that I have many chi dren from a ien #reedinge+!eriments. I have had a#ductions "ith the reys a so. n one occasion I "as

introduced to a &e!ti ian #eing "hi e in an underground #ase sometime in 1989-9 .At first I sa" a J-foot ta human Ayran oo'ing man. e "a 's to"ards me and Inotice that his image !hases out as if something interfered "ith an energy fie d. edoes something to a device on his #e t and te s me, ) , I$ sho" you.* e then!ushes some #utton and then I see his image change into a J-foot ta i ard i'ecreature "ho oo'ed i'e he "eighed over K #. I "as introduced to a grou! of #eings that c aimed to #e a su# grou! of the I uminati. hey "ere made u! of agrou! of a#out K -C men, a Q$ D* or ta er, "hite, and of an indeterminate o der age,averaging J , #ut I sus!ect much o der considering the techno ogy they have access

to. hey convened in a #oardroom that I #e ieve "as in an underground #ase,!erha!s %am! ero, Montau'. hey sat around a arge foot#a sha!ed ta# e madeof "ood. Each high #ac'ed chair had a ight at the ti! and each sitting had a ty!eof screen and contro !ane that came out from the ta# e. here "as a huge screenocated in the front of the room as "e . I have reason to #e ieve that not a of theI uminati are human, #ut in actua ity are a ien #eings that a!!ear to oo' human.

0%R=ho or what groups do you think are running the show here in the AB or even on 9arth@ow do the aliens !it into all o! this

A R It is very com! icated, #ut #asica y there are four main versions or grou!s of the(e" 3or d rder, a "ith s ight y varying agendas. he first grou! com!rises the:0 and 3estern Euro!e ;i.e., Eng and, ermany, France and the :0<. he secondgrou! is Eastern Euro!e fused "ith 3estern Euro!e and the :0. he third grou! isthe countries of the rient, and the fourth is the Midd e Eastern-0audia Ara#iane ements and a the oi money. here are a so off "or d grou!s ;a iens and futurehuman (a i$s ty!es ca ed Xardanians, &e!ti ians, reys and 4racos< "ho a so havea hand in the (3 ! ans. For the time #eing, the o d money grou!s of Euro!e andEng and have teamed u! "ith die hard (a i factions, 7e"s and Americans forming

the grou! that has #een a "ays #een 'no"n as the I uminati and affi iated secretsocieties. his arge internationa grou! contro s the media, !o ice force, mi itary, etc.he I uminati is a so !art of the (3 ! an, "hich inc udes mem#ers such as eorgeBush, Prince %har es and other high ran'ing !eo! e.As for the a iens, I thin' most ofthe a ien reys are either under the authority of or in co a#oration "ith the&e!ti ians, 4racos and the I uminati, #ased on some of my e+!eriences andmemories that are sti returning to me. 0ome rey grou!s are in conf ict "ith the&e!ti ian?4raco agenda and are doing their o"n thing ;human?grey hy#ridi ation!rograms< so to s!ea'. heir agenda gets into heavy s!iritua matters having to do

"ith ac/uiring an emotiona #ody and an a#i ity to ascend to higher dimensions.hey are using humans to accom! ish this via the human?a ien hy#rids. umanshave the 'ey in terms of having a threefo d essence or unity of #eing, !hysica ,



emotiona and s!iritua . Cther aliens have lost this unity o! being Dbecause o! the !all !rom grace7, thus inhibiting them !rom ascending to higher dimensions, or evolving to higherlevels. his gets #ac' to the origina Luciferic re#e ion, fa en ange s and the variousconf icts #et"een s!ecies.

0%R=hen did you start remembering your memories @ow did or can you break the programming they install

A R 0ome of my first memories surfaced "hi e I "as iving "ith a roommate inAt anta, A #ac' in 199Q. 3e "ent to the #o" ing a ey and I sa" a arge sign in thesha!e of a man dressed i'e a &hino advertising, )Bo" "ith &hino #a s.* histriggered me into remem#ering that )&hino* is the name my (a i hand ers ca edme. My roommate overheard me say out oud, )I$m &hino-they ca ed me &hino.* egot e+cited and immediate y as'ed me, )3here did you hear thatH* e had a graveoo' of concern on his face and 'e!t /uestioning me. By his reaction, I rea i ed aterthat a a ong he "as one of my hired !rogrammers and hand ers. he initiatriggered memory that surfaced "as a f ash#ac' of me #eing e ectrocuted andshoc'ed and screaming in !ain in one of my numerous torture sessions. hen afterthat first memory, other memories started ea'ing through. It "as i'e my mind "asdammed u! and the su#conscious memories "ere starting to ea' through. My mindcontro er !rogrammers de i#erate y #ui t a "a around my memories so that I"ou dn$t remem#er. 3hen I started reca ing #its and !ieces, I$d "rite notes tomyse f and hide them. hen I$d find my notes, after I had forgotten everything #ecause my roommate "as catching on that I "as remem#ering. 0o he "ou dre!eated y !ut me in trances, erase my memories and I$d forget "hat I had ustremem#ered. But then everything came crashing do"n, #ecause I de i#erate y hidnotes and !retended that I didn$t 'no" to my roommate. I had thought he "as afriend and it turned out he "as ust hired to #e another contro er and hand er to'ee! me in the !rogram. I reca that in the !ast I did not even remem#er my dreamsfor ten years. But no" things are coming #ac'. I am "or'ing on !urifying the #odyto he ! c ear my mind and get my a#i ities #ac'.

0%R@ow do they keep control overall these people who have been and are still in mind control pro'ects

A R he essence of their contro tactics is of s! itting the mind at a young age. his entai s a!rocess of trauma, torture, degradation and humi iation of the su# ect. he !rocess isdifferent for each individua , #ut in essence they go to your su#conscious mind and find out"hat the most !ersona !arts of you are. hen they essentia y use this against you to #rea'you do"n and ri! your mind a!art. 3hat ha!!ens is thisR An individua "ho !ossessess!ecia menta a#i ities is se ected at a very young age. ; ery often they are from mi itaryfami ies or from mu tigenerationa 0atanic ritua a#use fami ies-EL< hen they are su# ected

to various stages of terror and horror to #egin to se!arate them from their o"n minds. It is a!rocess of !rogressive dissociation and com!artmenta i ation of the mind and !ersona ity.hey contro your mind through various com! icated hy!nosis techni/ues and commands



unti they create the !erfect Manchurian %andidate.;0ee he reen#aum 0!eech #y 4.%.ammond < hey !rogram you to do something, then erase the memory. Basica y they!rogram your mind as if it "ere a com!uter. nce they insta the magic "ord, a they haveto do is say it and you$re under their contro . his ha!!ens from an ear y age so it is easier tocontro them if they are conditioned and dissociated into severa !ersona ities. Anothermethod of contro is that they send in s!ecia !eo! e in your ives, hand ers and contro ers"ho !ose as friends, teachers, )de!rogrammers*, roommates, overs, etc. "ho are actua yo!eratives for the mind contro !ro ects. 0ome are s ee!er o!eratives "ho don$t even 'no"they are #eing used to a certain e+tent. It ma'es it hard to trust anyone at this !oint.

0%R&s there anything else you can say about these pro'ects or advice to others who have gonethrough similar e periences, like how they can be set !ree !rom its in!luence

A R For those "ho "ant to get out of the inf uence of the !rograms of mind contro , youmust have a strong fighting instinct to do "hat is right regard ess of "hat others are doing.our on y cage is the one you #ui d for yourse f. ou must connect "ith your highest se f to

#rea' the evi that is a around us, and not succum# to doing evi ust #ecause everyone e seis doing it. &etain your fundamenta sense of right and "rong. It a goes #ac' to the #asicconf ict #asic good and evi . It is i'e the dar' forces in !o"er of the ! anet at this time aretrying to cheat their "ay into heaven or higher dimensions.

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CLEAN ND JERK IN TRACK ND FIELD

allowed. Basically, the lifter-athlete gets it from the groundover his h ea d a ny w ay he can (the feeling being thcoaches pick u p o n the right technique in the futurebecause it is more efficient). You had to end up wiarms locked out and feet in an even position.

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conducted on the track infield in front of the footbableachers on the 50-yard line. The grass was used asplatform with t\ vo old 4 x 6 wrestling mats on eitheside. One referee (Bruce Klemens) was used.

A brief clinic was given (more time should be speon this but not too much time) before the event started.

During the warm-up period, we were only allowed

cuse one bar, however, three is preferable. In the warm

Q.)ups, they should use only a light weight (145 would

E good) and do 3 cleans and 3 presses or 3 jerks and thQ.)

come back and repeat 3 times. The competition its:2Q.) lasted about 30 minutes.u::l We emphasized to the participants that if they misseH

p : j the weight not to fight it but get rid of the bar (the cleand jerk is safer than the bench press).

The top six winners were:

Sixth Place - Mike TheuerkaufN.V.R.H.S. - Demarest football player and the t

shotputter in New Jersey who went out with 215.

Fifth Place - Roosevelt SmithDon Bosco football player; track; credited with 210; a

went out with 240.

Fourth Place - Chris Schneider Indian Hills football player, shotputter, discus; credited

with 215.

Third Place - John TuriPark Ridge; credited with 220, gave a nice try at 26

football player and outstanding discus and shotputter.

Second Place - Andy PeroRamsey; got 245 over his head; football player a

shotpu tter.

First Place - Dave PetrellaHackensack; squat cleaned 255 and split it over h

head. Dave is an outstanding student and played footb(all County Guard) and is a shotputter. He will pl

football at Columbia University this fall.uQ.) Hopefully coaches throughout the U.S. will give t::l

event their fair consideration. In doing so, they may sa p : j

an outstanding Olympic event, and they may also enhancand highlight an already successfrul sport in track anfield.

For information you may write or call:Ronald Panissidi

247 Camden Street Oradell, NJ 07649

The Gym: (201) 568-8538

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