[Notebook Completed] The Nerdy Rebound Girl Special Book It's Maico's POV.Nayi's Note: READ "THE NERDY REBOUND GIRL" FIRST BEFORE READING THIS. HINDI PO KASI KAYO MAKAKA-RELATE OK? Hindi po ito talaga bagong story. Ito lang po yung laman ng notebook na binigay ni Maico kay Jacky noong naghiwalay sila. Meaning, it;s Maico's POV. Since hinahanap niyo ang POV ni Maico sa TNRG ito na po. After nito is yung sequel na ng TNRG =) Thanks! CLICK THE EXTERNAL LINK TO READ THE NERDY REBOUND GIRL ORTYPE IN: http://www.wattpad.com/story/3260305purplenayis note: BASAHIN NIYO 'TO. U-T-A-N-G-N-A-L-O-O-B Hindi ko po kayo pinipilit na basahin ang mga stories ko. Kung hindi niyo nagustuhan, tigilan niyo ang pagbabasa. Simple di ba? Hindi niyo na kailangang ipagkaduldulan sa akin na nawalan ka ng ganang basahin. Open naman ako sa criticism eh. May iba nang gumawa niyan. Pinasalamatan ko pa. Pero sana sa maayos na paraan hane? Hindi yung kung makapagsalita eh akala mo nakapatay na ako. Alam kong OVERRATED ako dito at ang mga stories ko pero kasalanan ko ba? Namilit ba akong basahin niyo ang gawa ko? Kailan? Tsss. Nakikibasa ka lang. Wag kang peste.Nagsusulat ako dito ng walang bayad. Hindi niyo po ako palamon. Oo, nagiging masaya ako na naibabahagi ko ang mga istoryang naiisip ko pero sumasama rin ang loob ko sa ibang mambabasa rito. Kaya kung hindi mo ma-appreciate ang effort ko, JUST.SHUT.THE.FUCK.UP. manahimik ka na lang. Hindi ka po nakakatulong. Ang mas nakakainis pa nga, kung sino yung silent reader sila pa yung demanding. Sila pa yung may ganang magsalita ng masama. Kapal lang ng mukha.Isinulat ang authors note para basahin. Para maintindihan niyo ang nangyayari. Para hindi paulit-ulit. Pero ano bang nangyayari? Marami pa rin tanong ng tanong. Nakakabanas na po. Basa-basa rin pag may time ha? Minsan lang kasi ako nasa mood na sumagot ng maayos eh. Madalas may topak ako.Baka may magsabi na naman jan na ang drama ko o ang arte ko. Pakialam mo ba? Wag kang epal ok? Page ko 'to. Kung gusto mo, magdrama ka rin sa page mo. Hindi yung magtatanong ka pa kung bakit ang da-drama namin ha? Lakas mong makasabi ng epal eh ikaw 'tong malaking epal.Ok tama na. Siguradong may magp-PM na naman sa akin na ang sama ng ugali ko. whahahahh!! leche.K. Vroooom Vroooom! Alam kong nasaktan kita ng sobra-sobra. Pero hindi ko inakalang isusuko mo na lang ako basta. We can be happy you know? Ang mahalaga lang naman talaga eh magkasama tayo di ba? Pero bakit ganun? Mas ginusto mong lumayo at ipagtabuyan ako sa isang babaeng hindi ko naman mahal? Ang unfair lang Jacky. Pero kahit ganito ang nangyari hindi pa rin ako susuko. Alam ko sa puso ko na ikaw lang ang mamahalin ko at panghabambuhay na ito. Wherever you are, always remember how much I love you. Maybe this is not the time for us but I promise you, we'll be together... someday. I love you so much, Jacky... -MaicoSaturday, 01/12/2013 Bakit ba napaka-clumsy mo? Alam mo ba kung gaano mo ako tinakot kanina? Akala ko malulunod ka na ng tuluyan! At bakit ba ako ngasusulat ng ganito sa notebook na 'to? Well, narito na rin naman ito ipagpapatuloy ko na. Gusto ko lang ng mapaglalabasan nito. Hindi ka nagdadahan-dahan kaya naiinis akong kasama ka. Pero kahit ganun parang may kulang naman sa akin pag hindi kita kasama. Alam mo ba kung gaano ka-frustrating yung pakiramdam na yun? At kanina? Noong nadulas ka at nahulog sa pool to think na hindi ka marunong lumangoy? Pakiramdam ko ako yung nalulunod. Hindi ako makahinga. Alam mo bang ngayon ko lang nararanasan ang ganito? Kahit kay Lana hindi ko 'to naramdaman! Hindi ko man maamin sa sarili ko pero sa tingin ko nagugustuhan na kita. Tsk! Oo na ang corny ko na, pero yun ang totoo! Simula noong gabing yun nagkaganito na ako. Lasing ako, oo pero alam ko ang nangyari. Bawat detalye noon naaalala ko. Gabi-gabi akong hindi pinapatulog ng pangyayaring yun. Marami na akong naikama pero hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ikaw ang hindi mawala sa isip ko. Hindi naman sa sinasabi kong pangit ka. Hindi ka lang talaga marunong mag-ayos. Unique ka, gaya ng sabi ko sayo. Saka mabait, maaruga, mapagmahal... tama na nga! Nagiging mais na ako! Itatapon ko na lang siguro itong notebook na ito. -1-Monday, 02/04/2013 Ang sabi ko itatapon ko na ito pero di ko pa pala nagagawa. Anyway, wag na nga lang. Mukhang kakailanganin ko pa 'to eh. Maybe you're wondering why I can't look you in the eye these past few days. You keep asking me what's happening and I keep telling you nothing. Well, it's because I really feel guilty. Hindi naman tayo pero sobrang bigat ng nararamdaman ko. Hindi ko naman alam kung ano talagang nangyari. Sobrang nalasing lang talaga ako. I met this girl, Elaine. Mabait siya at sobrang friendly. Magkakasama pa kaming naginuman para sa last day ng pagi-stay ko roon sa resort ng pamilya niya. Then I woke up beside her, naked. I swear to God I don't remember anything! I don't even remember getting into bed, much more with her. Every time I see you, there is this feeling that I couldn't explain. Para bang kapag pinatagal ko pang magkasama tayo palagi eh masasaktan lang kita. I like you, I know that now. But I think I will never change. I'm a cheat, it runs in my blood. Maybe, I should end this. Wait, what is there to end? Hindi naman tayo eh. Lalayo na lang ako. It's for your own sake. I know how you feel about me and I cannot do anything about that. Marami dyang mas deserving sa isang katulad mo. I guess this is goodbye. -2-Sunday, 04/28/2013 Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Hoy Jackelyn Gervacio! Ilang bote ng gayuma ba ang pinainom mo sa akin at hindi kita maalis-alis sa sistema ko? God damn it! I'm already losing my mind! It's been what, 3 months? 3 months na simula noong layuan kita pero ano? Paikot-ikot ka pa rin dito sa isip ko! Alam mo ba yung nangyari kanina? Nasampal lang naman ako. Bakit? Kasi tinawag ko yung pangalan mo in the middle of having sex. What's more frustrating is that it already happens for so many times now. Other women don't mind but the one earlier? She'd just slapped me awake from my illusion that you're the one I'm having sex with! I can't take this anymore! Mababaliw na talaga ako pag lumipas pa ang ilang araw na hindi kita nakakasama. Ugh! I hate this feeling! I really hate this! Uuwi na ako ng Pilipinas. Siguro naman pag nakasama na kita magsasawa rin ako pagtagal. This is not me. Definitely not THE Maico Buenaventura who can have any girl he wants. I'll give us some time and maybe in time mawawala ka rin sa sistema ko. Just wait, Jacky. I'm coming back. -3-Saturday, 05/04/2013 At last, we meet again. Nahawakan, nahalikan at nayakap kita ulit. Hindi mo lang alam kung gaano ako kasaya kanina. Ilang araw na rin kitang sinusundan. You know, baka kasi nakakita ka bigla ng ipapalit sa akin eh kailangan kong maghanda sa laban. But like Ive expected, you still didnt have the heart to let go of me. Boastful as I am but its true right? Alam mo bang buong araw kita sinundan kanina? Mula pa noong magpunta ka kina Lana hanggang sa pagpunta mo sa mall nakabuntot ako. Tawa pa nga ako ng tawa nung nakipagsagutan ka dun sa dalawang babae eh. Actually kasi nakita nila ako nung mga oras na yun nagtago lang ako. At alam mo ba? Na-touch ako noong sinabi mong unique ka. Bakit? Im the one who told you that. It only means that youre still thinking about me. Hindi mo lang alam kung gaano ako napasaya nun. Oo nga pala, pagpasensyahan mo na yung inasal ko kanina. I just cant help it. The moment I saw you, I just felt like kissing you, crashing you in my arms and make love to you on the very spot where were standing. Leche lang kasing telepono yan tumunog pa. Nabitin tuloy ako. But dont get me wrong. Its not what I want from you. Well, yeah its one of the reasons but there is a more reasonable thing that I want... its your heart. I may sound corny to you but its true. When I came here I only want to be free from my misery. But the moment I held you in my arms, I just know. Ok lang kahit hindi ka umoo kanina. Alam ko naman na bukas makalawa eh bibigay ka rin. Patay na patay ka kaya sakin! hahaha! Bukas babalik ako at papatunayan ko yan. Sasabihin mo sakin na Oo Maico, pumapayag akong maging girlfriend mo. Makikita mo Jacky, bukas na bukas akin ka na. -4-Sunday, 05/05/2013 Where the hell are you? It's almost midnight pero di ka pa rin umuuwi! God, Jacky! Kanina pa ako nag-aalala. I've been here for twelve hours now! You're not even answering my calls! I was excited when I came here but I realized you're not home, I was disappointed. So ayun, ipinagluto na lang kita para sa hapunan pero di ka naman umuwi kaya mas lalo pa akong na-disappoint. Minsan lang ako magluto tapos hindi mo man lang nakain kaya tinapon ko na lang. Tsk! Nasaan ka na ba kasi? Hindi mo man lang naisip na may boyfriend kang nag-aalala dito oh! Wait, what am I saying? You never acknowledged being my girl. Kasi naman eh! Umuwi ka na please? O sagutin mo man lang yung tawag ko. Pagpatak ng alas doce at hindi ka pa dumarating magre-report na ako sa pulis! Shit! Sana maayos ka. Mababliw na ako dito. Umuwi ka na ohh. Kita mo, paulit-ulit na ako. Uwi ka na. Please? -5-]Monday, 05/06/2013 Buti natawagan ko si Lana kanina at nalaman kong nasa probinsiya ka kaya hindi na ako nag-alala. Pagpasensyahan mo na lang yung mga kalat ko. Kilala mo naman ako di ba? Hahaha! Gusto ko kasi pag dumating ka madadatnan mo ako kaya hindi na ako umalis. Nakakatuwa ka talaga. Nakita mo kung paano kita napasunod sa simpleng halik ko lang? Grabe! Sorry talaga pero na-miss ko lang naman yung luto mo eh kaya kinulit kita. Sinadya ko ring alisin yung shirt ko kanina habang kumakain. Gusto ko kasing nakikita kang pinagnanasahan ang katawan ko eh! Uy, joke lang ha! Kahit na pinagnanasahan mo naman talaga ako! Haha! Uhaw na uhaw ka na kanina 'no? Pasensya naman kung hindi kita napagbigyan! Gutom eh! Youre so lonely earlier. At dahil malungkot ka pakiramdam ko mas malungkot ako. There is only one thing that I thought when I saw you crying, a live show. Hindi ko makalimutan yung mga ngiti mo habang pinapanood mo ako. You just dont know how proud I am when you started laughing! Naisip ko, gusto ko ako lang ang nakakapagpangiti sa iyo ng ganun. Ako lang ang makapagpapatawa sayo pag nalulungkot ka. And I succeeded earlier. My efforts are worth it! I meant what Ive said. Im happy just seeing you happy with me. And Ill do anything to keep that smile on your face. -6-Saturday, 05/11/2013 Yes! Sa wakas sinabi mo na rin! Hindi mo lang alam kung gaano mo ako pinasaya nung sinabi mong Ma-swerte nga ako kasi ikaw ang boyfriend ko. Grabe parang gusto yatang kumawala ng puso ko kanina sa sobrang saya eh! Now I know how many problems you are facing. Your family depends on you. Its a shame that your older brother doesnt have that courage you have to face lifes difficulties. Puro sayo lang siya nakaasa. Hindi ko naman siya ma-kwestyon kung bakit hindi siya maghanap ng magandang trabaho tutal malakas naman siya. Iniisip ko pa lang na halos ikaw ang nagpapakahirap para mabuhay sila lalo na akong humahanga sayo. It made me love you more. At natutuwa ako kasi hinayaan mo akong tulungan ka. Napag-desisyunan kong akuin na lang ang pagpapa-aral kay Gelai. Tutal nagustuhan ko na rin naman ang bata eh. I know you wouldnt agree but Ill still insist. Kawawa naman kasi ang bata kung hindi man lang mapapa-aral ng maayos. Im also happy that youre proud to introduce me as your boyfriend to your family. Though Im one of a hell gorgeous guy whom anyone should be proud of having, it still pleased me. Ok, now Im boasting around (again) but its true! Haha! Dont hate me please. Im just telling the truth! This will be a long night for me. Katabi kita rito pero hindi naman tayo nagUgh! Ayoko namang gisingin ka dahil nakikita kong pagod na pagod ka. Magsha-shower na nga lang ako! Tsk! -7-Monday, 05/13/2013 Seriously, Jacky I was bothered by your question earlier. Hindi ko talaga kasi maintindihan kung bakit mo itinatanong kung hanggang kailang kita girlfriend eh. Do you like that Anthony guy? He's good looking and I can't help but be jealous of him. I can see that he likes you, you know? The way he looks at you, the way he motions around you... it's so obvious that he's into you. I know it's futility to say that our relationship as girlfriend/boyfriend will only end if we get married but it's the only thing I know. Break up is never in my list and never will be. You're the only thing in my life that I can't afford to lose. You've been a part of me since that unfortunate night that we first shared. Unfortunate it is, but I cherish every second of it. Speak of marriage. Do you know that I vowed never to be tied with that sacred ceremony? Sa tuwing naaalala ko kasi yung nangyari noon sa mga magulang ko eh naduduwag ako. Pakiramdam ko hindi magiging successful ang mariage life ko. Na tulad ni Papa, magloloko rin ako. Like I've said before, being a cheat runs in my blood. Ugh! I don't know what to think anymore! We can be together without marriage, can we? But it will be unfair to you. Eff! I'm starting to hate myself. -8-Wednesday, 05/15/2013 Habang hinihintay kita ngayon napapa-isip ako. Parang nagiging selfish na ata ako at ayaw na kitang i-share sa iba. Naka-ilang tawag at text na nga ba ako? Hindi ko na rin mabilang eh. Kanina galit na galit na ako. Ayaw kasi talaga kitang payagan na sumama jan sa Rica, Nica o kung ano mang pangalan niyang kasama mo. Basta gusto ko ako lang ang kasama mo. Pero naisip ko na hindi nga pala sa akin umiikot ang mundo mo. Kailangan mo ring makisama sa iba. Naalala ko tuloy kahapon nung hinatid ka ng bago mong kaibigan na yan. Inis na inis talaga ako. Akala ko kasi si Anthony yung naghatid sayo eh. Tsss. Oo na ang OA ko na. Pero natuwa talaga ako nung nalaman kong babae yun. Tawanan mo na ako pero ganun talaga eh. Ayoko lang naman na nakikita kang may kasamang iba. Gusto ko sanang makasama ka ng mas matagal ngayon kasi dalawang araw din akong mawawala. Ngayon pa nga lang nami-miss na kita eh. Iniisip ko pa lang na dalawang araw tayong hindi magkikita parang may kulang na agad. Alam mo yun? Nasasanay na kasi ako na nanjan ka palagi sa tabi ko eh. Sige na. Parating ka na rin siguro. Sana lang hindi ka nagalit sa pinaggagagawa ko. Tsk! -9-Saturday, 05/18/2013 I don't know why you have to change yourself. I mean, I like you the way you are. Yeah, you look more beautiful now but still, I want the old you-- the nerdy girl who captured my heart. Ok, enough of that. Wala naman na akong magagawa eh. Ang mahalaga, we're together. Kanina nung tinitignan ko si Lana naiisip kita. Ano kayang hitsura mo 'pag pinagbubuntis mo na ang anak natin? Iniimagine ko rin na si Lana ikaw at malaki yun tiyan mo. Tapossisigawan mo ako para manghingi ng kung anu-ano. Naisip ko nga rin na tumaba ka eh. Natatawa na talaga ako kanina. Pero bakit parang ayaw mo naman? Hindi mo ba gustong magka-anak tayo? Nagtataka lang kasi ako sa mga reaksyon mo tuwing binabanggit ko ang pagkakaroon natin ng anak. I am just excited you know? I want us to have our own child, our own family. I was surprised that you and Ella (my sister) whom you're calling as Mica hangs out. Like, seriously? Small world isn't it? To think, pinagselosan ko pa siya. Saka, you're older than her. She's only nineteen. Tsk! But I'm starting to hate that little brat. She's ruining our night! We could have--- ugh! I've took a shower but I still can't get over it for goodness sake! -10-Saturday, 05/25/2013 I've missed you. Ilang araw din akong naging busy. Tapos isu-surprise mo pa pala sana ako kagabi kaso sinundo ko si Mommy sa airport. But still, I was surprised to see you in my bed early in the morning. I felt like all my tiredness was washed away. You even cooked for me and all. Pakiramdam ko tuloy asawa na kita. But--- anyway, hindi na talaga ako nakapagpigil kanina kaya yun... Hindi ko talaga mapigilang matawa kapag naaalala ko yung pagkahuli sa atin ni Mommy. It's not that I don't respect you but if you saw her face? You'll laugh like hell! Gulat na gulat siya. Hindi siya siguro inexpect na ganung eksena ang madaratnan niya. Masaya akong nagustuhan ka ni Mommy. Masyado kasing mapili yun. She always matches me to her friend's daughters and I hate it. I dated them yes, but I never liked any of them. I just did it to indulge her whims. To think that you're not even my mother's type made me wonder if she sees what I see in you. You're a gem, one of a kind. -11-Wednesday, 05/29/2013 I know you're a bit angry with me. I'm so sorry I wasn't able to call you. I just panicked when I received the call from Lana. She needs my help and I'm sure you'll understand. But still, I should've called or texted you so I'm sorry. I told you to stay away from that Anthony guy didn't I? But still, you're befriending him. You even let him take you home. Do you know how frustrating that is? Yeah, I know it's somehow my fault. I wasn't able to fetch you. Maybe it's really that hard to commute so you ended up hitching with him. But I can't help but be jealous! He likes you, you know that! You could have gone with another guy just not that Anthony! But anyway, you see Lana's child? She's cute isn't she? She looks like Jace! I'm wondering if our child would look like me too. It makes me feel more excited. When will you give me a son or a daughter perhaps? -12-Wednesday, 06/13/2013 Kamusta ka na kaya? Anong ginagawa mo? Kasama mo ba siya? Ugh! Bakit ba kasi kailangang si Anthony pa ang makasama mo jan? Alam mo ba kung gaano ako nag-aalala ngayon? May tiwala ako sa'yo, oo pero sa lalaking yan? Tsk! Hanggang kahapon gusto kitang pigilan. Isang linggo din akong gulong-gulo dahil jan. I dont want that guy to be near you. Alam ko namang susundin mo ang bilin kong layuan mo siya pero yang lalaking yan? I doubt if hell let you do that. Hell follow you anywhere. Hes crazy about you dammit! I can see it in him! Kausap mo kaya siya ngayon? Sabay kayon kumakain? Hinahatid ka pa niya sa tapat ng kwarto mo? Ugh! Hindi ko na 'to kakayanin. I cant focus here knowing that youre out there alone with another guy. Tomorrow, Ill fetch you there myself. -13-Friday, 06/14/2013 Until now I cant forget what I saw. He kissed you for Petes sake! Alam mo ba kung ano yung pakiramdam ko kahappon? Para akong sinuntok. I went there to surprise you pero mukhang ako pa ang na-sorpresa. Malinaw naman yun sinabi ko di ba? Stay.away.from.him. Pero hinayaan mo pa rin siyang makalapit sayo. You even let him kiss you. Do you know how hurt I am? I almost lose my mind thinking that youre cheating on me! I love you so much. Cant you see that? Ang sakit sakit lang kasi. Ni hindi ako tumitingin sa ibang babae simula nung naging tayo tapos ganito lang ang mapapala ko? Im sorry that Ive hurt you. Nadala lang ako. Sobrang sakit na kasi. Siguro kung ikaw din naman ang nasa kalagayan ko ganun din ang magiging reaksyon mo. Naisara ko ang isip ko. Kung anu-anong nasabi kong masama sayo. Pero kahit na ganun, I didnt mean it. Its just a spur of the moment. Pero masakit pa rin yung sinabi mo. Mas magaling siya? Mas napapaligaya ka niya sa kama? What the fuck Jacky? I know you didnt mean it. I know youre not sleeping with him but still, it hurts me hearing that from you. Physically, Ive hurt you. And I regret it. Hindi ko sinasadya. Nadala lang talaga ako ng galit ko. Pagkatapos nun, gusto kong suntukin ang sarili ko. I cant believe what Ive done. Its not right. And what hurts me the most? When you embraced me even after what Ive done. I felt so loved by you that I thought Im not worthy even a bit of your heart. How can you be so indulgent? Thats when I thought of the contract. Maybe if we set some rules, no one will get hurt again, neither one of us. Im guessing this will be the best thing. I hope you consider. -14-Friday, 06/14/2013 Ok, this is it. Ive been here for an hour pero di ka pa rin dumarating. Kanina pa ako nae-excite eh. Gusto kong makita yung magiging reaksyon mo pag nabasa mo yung kontratang sinasabi ko. I asked Atty. Delgado earlier to make us some sort of contract having terms in our relationship. It was just a simple no dating other guy/girl, make time for each other... mga simpleng bagay lang na normal sa isang relasyon. She even laughed at me and said that those things dont really need to be written but I still insist. As the hours gone by I realized something, why not make it a lifetime contract? I guess Im ready if its you whom Ill share my life with. So I immediately called Atty. Delgado to cancel the contract and replace it with a marriage contract instead. My proposal is onset now. I wrote some kid of pledge in the paper that I will give you. Kinuntsaba ko pa yung matandang lalaki na may-ari ng unit sa kabilang building na katapat ng unit mo. There is this banner saying WILL YOU MARRY ME? hanging in front of his window. The old man finds it so romantic that he even gave me an old coin (that he said was given to him by his late wife) for a good luck charm. Your engagement ring is here at my pocket. See? Im well prepared for a man who had just decided that he wants to get tied with the woman he loves! I hope Ill get a yes. And I know I will! -15-Saturday, 06/15/2013 What happened? I thought you said you love me, only me. I heard you. But why are you doing this to us? I've tried telling you I love you but you kept on pushing me away. You didn't even bother to read what's on the folder I've given you. Ugh! Why are you so hardheaded? All my efforts were wasted tonight. We should have been engaged by this time and working on our wedding plans. But it's okay, baka naguguluhan ka lang. We can work this out. I'm not going to give up on you. And that is why I'm here. In this noisy comedy bar you're in with your girlfriends. I've been following you since you went out of your unit. I don't know but I feel obligated to do so. I thought you'll be seeing that Anthony guy but when I saw Genna ang Aya, I was relieved. t not anymore, since you've had more alcohol in your system than necessary. Seriously, Jacky? You're allergic to alcohol for Christ sake! -16- Saturday, 06/22/2013 Hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko. I've been following you around for the past week. I was there all night when you're having a good time with your office mates. Masaya ako nun knowing that you're stepping out of your shell. I know you've never gone out with others except your friends, kaya hindi ako lumapit kahit na magdamag kayong magkatabi ni Anthony. Sobrang uminit ang ulo ko nang makita kong nakaakbay siya sa'yo. I know he's drunk but I can't help myself. I'm too jealous for Christ sake! So I didn't stop myself and punched him! Good for that bastard. He's been hooking you up even though he knows that you're mine. Do you know that I've talk to him? He just looked at me and smile. Wala siyang balak na sukuan ka. Huh! As if I'll let him steal you from me. But that was last night. When I thought you love me. Do you know how hurt I am when you said you're not interested in the contract? It means you don't want to be with me. You don't love me. So here I am, drinking myself to death. I need to be away from you, if it's the only way to make you happy. I love you. -17-Friday, 06/28/2013 I've been here in our resort for the whole week. You're in my mind every second of it. Bakit ba ang hirap mong kalimutan? Kahit yata uminom ako ng sanlibong bote ng alak, hindi kita makakalimutan. Well, ngayon wala na siguro akong dahilan para kalimutan ka. The receptionist told me that my girlfriend, Jacky is coming. My heart pumped so hard when I heard your name and because you're coming. Hindi mo ako natiis. Meaning mahal mo rin ako di ba? I've been fixing myself for the past hour. I want you to see me irresistible so you'll sure be coming back to me. I won't lock the door for a dramatic effect. Haha! I can't wait. -18- Saturday, 06/29/2013 I know I've been ignoring you this morning. I just wanted to see you jealous. But God Jacky! I've never expected you to wear that piece of cloth! Nagiinit talaga ang ulo ko lalo na nung lapitan ka pa nung lalaki at alukin kang lagyan ng lotion sa likod-- which you accepted willingly. Ugh! I could have broken that guy's neck! I was so frustrated that I wanted you to be jealous and it turned out I was the one fuming with jealousy! I was just waiting for the right time. Inaayos pa kasi ng staffs yung kwarto para sa proposal ko. But ugh! I really can't believe you did that! Yes, you have a great body and all butI want it for my eyes only ok? But this day is really great. See, you accepted my proposal! Though I know you will, I still had this feeling that I could not explain. You made me so happy Jacky, my future wife. -19-Monday, 07/15/2013 I don't know what to do. The girl I was telling you, Elaine, she's just came here in my office. And she is pregnant with my child. Kahapon lan kami namanhikan sa inyo tapos may gaitong problema akong biglang malalaman. Ugh! I don't know how to tell you this. I don't want to lose you. Which I know I will once you found out about this. Like I've said, I don't really remember what happened. Pero hindi si Elaine yung tipo na manloloko ng tao. She's well off; she doesn't really need my wealth. Kaya naman alam kong anak ko talaga ang dinadala niya. I hope you still marry me when you found out. -20-Saturday, 08/03/2013 I can't take away the smile on my face. Did you really say that I'm going to be a father? Well, yeah there's Elaine but knowing that I'll have my child with you is really mind blowing! But still, how will I tell you about Elaine? It's been almost a week and I can't think of a way to tell you. It's driving me crazy. Like I've said earlier after we watched that movie, "bakit sila nagpakasal kung hindi naman nila mahal ang isa't-isa?" hindi ko kayang pakasalan si Elaine dahil lang buntis siya. And besides, you're pregnant too. That's what gave me hope that we're still going to be together in spite of me having a child with Elaine. I talked to her and she agreed to let us raise the child. I know you'll understand. I'll be telling you when I get back there. But for the meantime, I'm going to help my crazy, spoiled brat sister unpack. -21-Sunday, 08/04/2013 It's killing me seeing you like that. Masakit din sa akin na nawala ang anak natin. Gustong-gusto kong patayin ang Kuya mo sa ginawa niya pero hindi ko yun gagawin. Hindi nun masosolusyunan yung problema. Pero habang tinitignan kita at kung paano ka umiyak kanina, ang sakit sa dibdib ko na gustong-gusto kong sugurin ang Kuya mo. Hindi man lang pinatagal yung kasiyahan natin. I really want to have a child with you. But I guess it's not the right time. We can make one again right? Pero sa nakikita ko sayo, mukhang dinamdam mo ng sobra ang nangyari. The doctor said it's normal to be depressed for someone who'd just have a miscarriage. Lalo pa sa naging paraan ng pagkalaglag ng anak natin. I won't give up on you, you know that. Please be strong for me Jacky. We can make it through this. I promise I'll never give up. -22-Sunday, 08/18/2013 It goes out so well, I can't believe it. Akala ko mawawala ka na talaga sa akin. Alam kong masasaktan o magagalit ka 'pag nalaman mo ang tungkol kay Elaine kaya hindi ko yun masabi sa'yo. Pero masyado nang nagiging komplikado ang sitwasyon at ayoko namang malaman mo pa ang tungkol dito mula sa ibang tao kaya napagdesisyunan kong sabihin na sa'yo. I know you'll be a good mother to my child in the future though he's not your own. Kilala kita, mabuti ang puso mo kaya panatag ako sa'yo. Isa rin yun sa mga dahilan kung kaya mahal na mahal ko ang isang tulad mo. At maswerte ako dahil mahal mo rin ako. Salamat sa lahat Jacky. Kahit marami nang pasakit ang dinala ko sayo ay tinatanggap mo pa rin ako ng paulit-ulit. I love you always. -23-Saturday, 10//05/2013 I thought we're okay. I thought you're fine with it. But why did you do that? You let Elaine get away from me with MY CHILD! Di ako makapaniwalang nagawa mo yun. Masaya pa tayo noong mga nakaraan dahil sa wakas malapit nang lumabas ang anak ko ah? You even said that you're excited to be a mom. What has changed? Bakit bigla-bigla na lang ganito? I should hate but I don't. I love you, you know that. Siguro nga mahirap para sa'yo ang nangyayari. Iintindihin ko na lang wag ka lang mawala sa akin. Hindi ko na yun kakayanin. I'm so sorry for hurting you. For always making you cry. -24-Sunday, 10/20/2013 No! No! No! You're not leaving me! Please why are you doing this? Anong bang sinasabi mong hindi tayo magiging masaya? Na hindi ka magiging masaya? Mahal mo naman ako di ba? I'll do anything to make you happy, wag lang ganito. Baka hindi ko na kayaning mawala ka. Please Jacky, don't leave me. I don't believe in fate Jacky, I only believe in love. It exists. It's in the two of us. Sa'yo lang ako magiging masaya. Hindi sa iba. Wag mo naman akong ipagtabuyan dahil hindi ko kaya. Ikaw ang buhay ko, sayo na umiikot ang mundo ko. Bakit ba hindi mo makita yun?Jacky, I'm not giving up. Kahit paulit-ulit mo pa akong itaboy hindi ako susuko. Mali ka, sapat na ang pagmamahal para lumigaya tayo. Patutunayan ko yan sayo. -25-Wednesday, 11/27/2013 Hanggang sa huli hindi ako sumusuko. Ilang beses na nga ba akong natulog sa harap ng pintuan mo para lang tanggapin mo ako ulit? Hindi ko na mabilang. Ilang beses na rin ba akong naghintay sa labas ng opisina niyo para lang kausapin ka? Hindi ko na rin mabilang. At ilang tawag na nga ba ang ginawa ko para lang makausap ka? I guess youre really decided to end what we have and I should let you go. Bukas na ang alis mo papuntang States. I hope youll be happy with your decision. Kahit sa huling sandali pupuntahan kita. Makita man lang kita kahit sa huling pagkakataon. Pero naniniwala ako, darating yung araw na magkikita tayong muli. Maaring iba na ang mga buhay natin at iba na rin ang nararamdaman pero ito ang sinisiguro ko. Youll always be in my heart. No matter how far you are, nandito ka lang sa puso ko. I wont say goodbye to you. Its not the proper words to say. You wont really be away from me for youll stay in my mind, my heart and in my dreams. I love you. Ill see you soon. -Last Page-Nayi's Note: Salamat po sa patuloy na sumubaybay. Posted na po ang Book 2 ng TNRG. Book 2: Still Into YouIto po yung address: http://www.wattpad.com/24999509Or Click niyo yung external link. Salamat! -purplenayi