Way of the Heart

BY COLLEEN DE WINTON

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The hidden face of love is held within the deep mystery of the feminine. She sits quietly, awaiting the knowledge of the divine masculine to free her from the limited awareness of the human illusion of separation. She is divine wisdom, Inana, the holy origin of creation, powerful in her receptive nature she longs for the truth of spirit to enter her internal endless spaciousness and fill her with divine purpose. She does not sleep, for her desire to extend love is boundless and can never be satiated. For love is the eternal dance of God and she a willing partner, giving birth to a new and ever changing reality that only serves to awaken the sleeping giant of potentiality within the great void of consciousness.

Her body of soft flesh harbours a mystery that has inspired and tortured seekers of truth since the very beginingness of time and space. In her own passionate search for expression she has travelled down path after path, led by those that believe they are wise, only to find that her soft folds have been hardened by the harsh penetration of ignorant force. The surface lust of those that wish to conquer her, those that believe that through her demise they shall own the power she wields. Numbed by desolate pain she slowly withdraws, hiding behind a wall of tidily stacked bricks of protection. She seeks the dark places that blanket the sound of her own tears.

For those that are willing to see she sends messages of her existence, a bright yellow blossom under the last stirrings of snow, the newborn lamb bracing itself against the cold, a mother holding a child to her breast giving life, giving comfort. So many signs yet so many are blind to her wisdom. We are created through the very act of love, born from her body, together we journey into the world of experience, alone, we die.

Simply, “to love one another”. To truly love one another what must we choose from moment to moment? What state of awareness, of remembrance is required to bring us into alignment with the depth of truth within our heart?

THE HIDDENFACE OF LOVE

(SEALED SECTION)

PART VI

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Recently I have been experiencing a deep

relaxation into love. It has happened through

many ways, and yet my conscious awareness

of this relaxation has began to appear through

the practise of conscious relationship and

the art of not doing while making love with

my beautiful partner John. We explored the

natural wisdom of our bodies, allowing the

pulse of energy to guide us, no forcing or

doing, no imagination or expectation, no

goal or outcome, just the simple practise of

breath and patience. We have been gently

encouraged by some deep inner wisdom

to move from habit to uncertainty, from

control to vulnerability, from expectation to

surrender. We are discovering many of the

subconscious places that we have created

within ourselves to hide from love. In this

discovery we are expanding into an intensity

of presence that unlocks the floodgates of

grief and joy in the remembrance of the deep

capacity we have to be love, and the many

times we have habitually chosen to ignore

the truth of our deepest desire, to share our

loving presence in holy unity.

As a woman, I am learning what it means

to fully receive another; to be so open and

vulnerable that I become an ocean of energy

that can embrace and transform, create

and expand into worlds within worlds. Yet

what is most profound in this relaxation, is

the powerful recognition that as woman,

I embody love. From this awareness the

desire for union is birthed and two, truly

become one. I do not disappear, but expand

to encompass the universal truth of potential

in presence.

As John and I journey together into a deeply

fulfilling connection, our capacity to be

sensitive, aware and diligent is increasing,

thus our ability to remain present with each

other in our everyday life is blossoming. This

is not an easy road, however, the rewards

are so bountiful. The practice of conscious

relating requires a very different perception

of every aspect of makinglove and the sacred

art of relating. I have learnt to re-discover

and re-sensitise my body, to become an

ecstatic orgasmic woman through opening

to receive pleasure, learning exactly what

my body desires and communicating this to

my partner with clarity and love. I see how

this body awareness has been a preparation

for the continuing opening and deepening

understanding of my purpose here.

For me this was a very necessary stage in my

spiritual development. I experienced many

profound and deeply spiritual experiences;

and through these experiences, I did at

times think that I had reached a peak of the

journey. I was very much mistaken. I had only

just begun.

The addiction to pleasure and bodily sensation

crept in quietly. I discovered that my mind

would already be planning the pleasure it

knew my body would feel well before it would

begin. I thought that this was wonderful

and yet my deeper knowing was beginning

to show herself in subtle ways. Perhaps a

feeling of loss or tiredness would follow the

ecstatic experience or I may have emotions

welling up that I did not have any idea about

their origin. I began to suspect the call of the

feminine was rising up in a new and rather

challenging way. Did I really have to let go

of this wonderful pleasure? My partner also

felt unsure about the movement away from

our normal pattern of lovemaking, after all,

we were having a passionate and delightful

time together.

The desire to understand this unusual

awareness that was birthing became very

strong, and we began to find some very

powerful material to validate our new desire

and experience. We experimented with some

simple yet powerful support activities, like

relaxing and letting our body’s wisdom lead

the way. It was very important that we

communicated what was happening for us

as often as possible. Another very helpful

aspect of this new discovery, was to let go

of any goal or outcome, surrendering any

ideas about climax, ejaculation, even simple

pleasurable experience. Our only focus was

to stay present within our own body and

experience. Through this we became aware

of how often we habitually used our old

experience to create the present experience.

It became obvious that this was very limiting.

Our new awareness calls us to not engage our

imagination or build our bodies excitement

level by stimulating our genitals. We held

each other in soft embrace, gently breathing

and waited to feel the pulse of life. To not

force or move energy. This may sound rather

simple, but the habits of mind developed in

past encounters of sexual intimacy, and our

past cultural conditioning created a rather

large obstacle – us!

The discovery that patience, stillness, breath,

communication and gentle humour offered

very strong support and basis for this new

experience. Our minds would often try to

break into the spaciousness and distract us;

sometimes resulted in physical excitement

and subtle tension in the body; or our

attention moved into what was happening

for the other and were they being satisfied;

or perhaps into the past or future and

sometimes out of the room altogether. We

found that if our focus stayed with our

internal experience and we communicated

this we could remain in the present moment

and be available to the natural flow of energy

and deep connective love that arose betwee

us. From this basis, the most incredibly

fulfilling and loving journey has erupted, and

it is like an eruption of embodied spiritual

love that can transform any difficulty. And

not only that, it expands to enfold others and

has the most profound effect.

Our mutual desire in sharing this small, but

tasty morsel, is to offer those that feel her

whispering within, an opportunity and heart

felt encouragement, to be brave explorers in

the realm of relationship, to go where none

have gone before and free her from her

waiting. She will only gift you with truth,

possibility and an extraordinary life. Could

yours be the heart that births her wonder?

Here are some simple tools that continue to

be very helpful and supportive for us on our

journey, we are sure you will discover many

of your own and we hope that what we offer

here will support you.

Revealing her beauty...…

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Way of the Heart

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Deepest Truth:Co-creating a now experience

Simple Presence: Opening your senses to loveSpend time every day sharing what is

arising for you in the moment. We find

that first thing in the morning is a very

good way to align our energy together,

it is also a time of less defence in the

mind.

For the speaking partner, focus on what

is occurring within you and be as clear

as you can. Bring in the phrase “and

my deepest truth is” as often as you

can, remembering to breath deeply

and take your time. As each partner

shares it is the sole responsibility of the

listening partner to hold the space and

not talk or interrupt. The listener is also

encouraged not to indicate by nodding

your head or other actions that you

agree or disagree. Simply be as present

as possible and when the speaker is

finished they say “I am complete” and

the listener says thank you. Then you

change over and repeat this cycle.

When both parties are complete you

may wish to clarify what you have

heard but try not to get into too

much discussion about it, unless it

is to grow together in your mutual

understanding. As you commit to this

daily practise, your ability to recognise

and express what you are feeling will

greatly improve, your body awareness

and sensitivity to each other will be

deeply enhanced, and your courage to

be honest will guide you to profound

self-understanding and deep abiding

trust.

We recommend this practise be done as often as

possible. Lay or sit facing each other with just a

small gap between you. Begin to breath slowly and

deeply while keeping soft eye contact with each

other. Notice what feelings, sensations and random

thoughts arise, then with single words or simple

phrases express this as often as you can. Keep it

short and try to just say one word when you can. Be

gentle and allow a little humour sometimes if you

feel this is too strong to begin with. Start with just a

few minutes and then build it to 5 then 10 minutes.

This practise will also develop your body awareness,

an essential quality in conscious relating, and can be

a wonderful way to connect before you make love.

However, don’t limit it to this, try it in other times, it

can be very helpful if you are feeling stressed, hurt

or out of harmony with each other.

What is her secret wisdom? A yearning for love, a love that embraces all and denies nothing, a love that only supports the growth and diversity of all peoples, a love that brings forth joyful surrender and compassionate openness, an innocent delight in the creation of life...

I have felt the seed of this love buried

deep within, buried under the call of

yearning that drives me always towards

truth. I have projected the idea of love

onto my parents, my lovers, my son,

society and God. I am always left empty

handed and hollow hearted. All of these

experiences, these gifts from my soul

self, have shown me in great detail what

it is that I don’t want, what a valuable

journey.

In truly seeing what I don’t want the

opportunity to create what I most desire

is ever present. Life brings the awareness

of this through my emotions and I

constantly feel the press of remembrance,

the remembrance of the truth of me and

what I am. Yet the words to speak this

desire are so often held captive upon

my tongue and never pass my lips. Like

a small child I withdraw into myself and

never divulge the embodied truth of who

I am and that I know is love. Until now.

Every experience whether seen as positive

or negative, brings me further into the

realisation that the “I AM”, Inana, is

fully born from love, and if I so choose

I can be the embodiment of this love

always. Yes, I forget often and the joy

of remembering is gifted to me over

and over again. The “I AM” that is me,

that is divinity, that is totally unique and

always here. My passion is to discover

how I am able to experience and live the

joy of this uniqueness in every moment?

To be a constant unfolding of curiosity

and wonder. Through the eyes of love I

experience all others including myself as

an elaborate adventure filled with delight

and challenges to explore and discover.

Colleen de WintonColleen de Winton is passionate in her service to the fundamental principles of truth. She has developed a unique ability in

bringing forth radical inquiry to enable deep long lasting transformation, Colleen is not afraid to ask the hard questions.

She combines her talent in Radical Inquiry with her knowledge of breath and creates a compassionate and powerful model

for awakening. Her study of the Aramaic language and teachings of Jeshua has had a profound affect and guided her to

create beautiful Aramaic chants that reintroduce the art of Sacred Chant to the practice of awakening.

For more information contact colleendewinton@yahoo.com.au or visit www.sacredchants.com.au

When I see a mother breast-feeding her

child my heart opens instantly to the

wonder of life and the depth of love that

radiates from both mother and child. A

woman’s breasts are so captivating, so

enticing is it any wonder men are so eager

to see, feel and touch these wondrous

mounds of soft sensitive flesh. The breasts

hold a key to a woman’s capacity to embody

and extend powerful love. They also allow

her to open to the deep penetration of the

masculine energy. Often in lovemaking the

breasts are ignored or the nipples are the

focal point of interest. It is time to broaden

this to encompass the fullness of each

breast and the surrounding area.

Create a loving and comfortable space,

lay your partner on her back and gently

place your hand on her heart, look into

each others eyes for a few minutes and

connect with the love you share. Men, be

very conscious of your attention being

fully within your own body, really feel your

hand, the pulse of your heart and your

presence. It is important for the woman to

relax and breath slowly and deeply. Men,

begin to gently and slowly massage the

breasts, use a light oil if you like. Feel the

fullness and aliveness in the movements

and ask your partner what she most likes

and what does not work so well for her. Let

her be your guide.

The emphasis is not to build sexual

excitement, but to relax and open to the

heart centres natural flow of energy as

it begins to move through the body. As

tempting as it may be to play with the

nipples, leave these for a bit later in the

massage. Move from gentle holding and

massaging to a more firm movement,

always being aware of what is good for

your partner, and back to gentle, even

light as feather touches. Make sure you

involve the whole breast and chest area,

also moving down to the solar plexus

and up to the neck area. Keep asking your

partner to communicate what feels good

to her and allow a minimum of 20mins

for this practise. Women, be aware of the

sensations that arise and keep relaxing into

your heart centre, don’t be surprised if deep

emotion unfolds and you may experience

your body moving in a very different way.

If you notice tension in your body breathe

into the area and relax as much as you can.

Men, this is not foreplay, it is for her. She

may desire to enter into lovemaking, but

this is not the goal. As her heart centre

opens a natural flow of loving and vital

energy moves through her body. Allow the

body’s natural wisdom to unfold in the

moment. Spend time afterwards to share

your experiences. It may take some time

to unlock this power centre as women

have to learn to protect themselves, so we

encourage you to be patient.

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Awakening the feminine power centre:

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These questions are designed to bring

attention to your hearts deepest

desire in relating. As you read them

allow the breath to deepen and give

yourself time to feel the truth of your

heart. Bear witness to your partner’s

answers with compassion and

support. Be gentle with each other. If

you are not currently in relationship

these questions may be helpful in

preparing and enriching the ground in

readiness for your new relationship.

You may wish to also share these

questions with a friend to help clarify

what you really desire. Take a few

minutes to breath and you may wish

to place one hand on your heart and

the other on your genitals and gently

open to your own natural pulse.

• Am I willing to let go of the habit

of doing during lovemaking?

• Am I willing to trust my body’s

innate wisdom?

• Am I willing to choose presence

in the moment and not let my

imagination take over?

• Am I willing to be guided by my

partner’s requests in lovemaking?

• Am I willing to surrender the goal

of climax and ejaculation?

• Am I willing to participate in

conscious love making often wether I

think I feel like it or not?

• Am I willing to set aside quality

time on a regular basis to explore

conscious relating?

• Am I willing to share my deepest

vulnerability with my partner?

• Am I willing to experience myself

as a sexual novice?

• Am I willing to abide in stillness

with my partner sensing the pulsation

of life energy?

One final point, remember this is not

a technique, not a doing, there is

nothing to “get right”, it is a being-

ness in love that will grow with

attention and presence. Your inner

being will guide you, your heart will

instruct you, your body will delight

you and true love will show her face

once more.

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