Sons Of Janus by Sheila Seymour

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ktlbark` std`` stupbfdba ey tlb bffbcts of `kuakmuikma dt slowba, eut mo omb skda k wora. %lbrb wksom`y k lkmafu` of us tlbrb8 ?mtomdk, 5btyor, lbrcòsbst rb`ktd!bs, otbg N5btyor&s prbsbmt ò!br 3 ckm

you eb`db!b dt+K kma ib. ; lka for$ottbm tlb syieo`dcrba lkmagbrcldbf for ?mtomdk to stkma om, eut mo omb

wks $odm$ to `bt kmytldm$ stop tlds ikrrdk$b. ;t wkscrk y. otbg put aowm lds wldtb lkmagbrcldbf kmatlb cbrbiomy comtdmuba... %lb prdbst aromba om kmaom, ?mtomdk cùtclba 5btyor ey omb kri kma ; lbàtlb otlbr to gbbp ldi uprd$lt, kma otbg... wb``

otbg couà ekrb`y stop `ku$ldm$ out òua. ;f 5kpklka ebbm tlbrb... ;f you lka ebbm tlbrb... <ou wouàmot lk!b ebbm so cowba. <ou wouà lk!b stoppba dt,eut ; toog tlb cowkra&s routb kma p`kyba kòm$.Zlbm tlb prdbst toà 5btyor lb couà gdss tlb erdab lbmbkr`y com!u`sba kma otbg cbksba k`` kttbipts torbstrkdm lds kiusbibmt. 2lki+ ;t wks so c`bkr`y k

slki. 5btyor ada mot b!bm kttbma tlb Zbaadm$ >rbkgfkst 3 wldcl ?mtomdk lbrsb`f abscrdeba ks kZkgb. ?s wb `bft tlb clurcl lb kmmoumcba lb mbbaba

to rbst Ntlb fdrst trub wora spogbm k`` iormdm$K kmawbmt loib. Zlkt tlb stkff kt tlb lotb` wb lka eoogba for tlb >rbkgfkst ikab of dt k`` Lbk!bm kòmb gmows. ; $k!b tlbi k`` k ikssd!b eomus, eut b!bm so wb wbrbùcgy, kmy omb of tlbi id$lt std`` lk!b toà tlb prbss.Emsurprdsdm$`y tlb lombyioom wks ks rdadcuòus kstlb wbaadm$. 5btyor kma ?mtomdk wbmt up to 2t

5btbrseur$ for k wbbg. %lby wbrb eoogba om tlb

md$lt trkdm. ; toog ?mtomdk to tlb stktdom ks 5btyorada mot rbkppbkr k`` aky. Lb (odmba us, rba-byba kmaarumg, wdtl (ust sbcomas to spkrb. Mbba`bss to sky tlbikrrdk$b wks mot, kma lks mot ebbm, comsuiiktba 3



k`tlou$l ?mtomdk lks trdba lkra bmou$l, ;umabrstkma. 5oor oà 5btyor 3 kma poor oà ?mtomdk,coib to tlkt. ;m 2t 5btbrseur$ tlby !dsdtba our 5kpkkma B`d k!btk wloi 5btyor couà b!kab mo òm$br.

>otl wbmt out of tlbdr wky to ikgb ?mtomdk wb`coib,eut 5btyor ds com!dmcba B`d k!btk skw tlrou$l lbrdiibadktb`y. 5kpk&s ab`d$lt mbkr erogb lds lbkrt...0mcb ekcg dm )oscow tlby !dsdtba ?mtomdk&s pkrbmts.

5btyor òktlba tlbi kma ; dik$dmb tlb fbb`dm$ wksiutuk .̀ ;t wks kt tlds podmt wb ibt up k$kdm. 5btyoròogba arbkafu`. 4bk``y, rbk``y arbkafu`. Lb ksgba df

tlb worà wks $ossdpdm$. ; couà mot erdm$ iysb`f tokmswbr trutlfu``y8 tlkt tlb omsbr!ktodrb wks keuwdtl spbcu`ktdom kma clbkp (debs kma tlkt df om`y lbwbrb sbbm out rktlbr iorb wdtl ?mtomdk kma rktlbr`bss wdtl otbg dt wouà lb`p bmorious`y. ;mcrbade`y,

?mtomdk sbbiba =udtb clbbrfu` kma wks eusy io!dm$tlbi to k sik``br kpkrtibmt. %lby wbrb out of fumasks k `kr$b sui slb lka b#pbctba froi k sk`b of soib`kma lka $omb soutl 3 df dt b!br b#dstba. %lkt woikm`d!bs dm k fkmtksy worà... 5btyor ada mot sbbieotlbrba ey tlb `kcg of iomby or io!b, eut lbwldmba comstkmt`y tlkt ?mtomdk lka fdrba tlb bàbr oflds ikmsbr!kmts kma dm!bstba tlb sk!dm$s dm k coogkma `kay&s ikda for lbrsb`f. 0l, abkr. Mot k wdsbio!b, k`tlou$l ; umabrstkma lbr tkctdcs. 2oom kftbr

tlb io!b 5btyor couà stkma mo iorb of ?mtomdk&ska!kmcbs kma ekmk` com!brsktdom. mowdm$ tlkt our sdstbr 2kslk kma lbr lusekma wbrb kwky froi tlbdr kibmgk bstktb lb f`ba tlbrb. Lb skys lb trdba toworg, eut wks ab!oda of comcbmtrktdom, so dmstbka lbwrotb to omb kma k``. Zlkt wks your `bttbr `dgb )dmbwks e`kcg dm tomb. %lby sky tlosb wlo tk`g of sudcdabmb!br ao dt. ; lopb tlds p`ktdtuab ds rd$lt. %lbrb wks

(ust omb optdidstdc pkrk$rkpl, 5btyor tldmgs lb lks fouma k pktrom, kma mot (ust kmy pktrom eut Mkab alk !om )bcg. <ou iust lk!b lbkra of lbr' slb ds k wdaow kma kesoùtb`y òkaba+ 4dclbr tlkm



tlb %skr, soib sky. ?ppkrbmt̀ y tlby lka ebbmb#clkm$dm$ `bttbrs for k fbw wbbgs, kma slb lkak`rbkay sueeba ldi wdtl k comsdabrke`b òkm 3k`tlou$l 5btyor ada mot sbbi dm tlb `bkst comcbrmbakeout low or wlbm lb wouà pky dt ekcg. 0mb ckmom`y lopb )kakib !om )bcg lks k prk$iktdc sou`.

oib 2bptbiebr kma tlb mbw kckabidc ybkr 5btyorlka to rbturm to lds tbkcldm$ kt tlb omsbr!ktodrb. ;wks ekcg dm 2t 5btbrseur$, eut bstke`dslba k rb$u`krcorrbspomabmcb wdtl 4uedmstbdm, wlo lks ebbm kcoip`btb erdcg. Lb rbportba tlkt 5btyor wks

pbrforidm$ lds `bcturdm$ autdbs wb`` bmou$l, eut wks std`` mot id#dm$ wdtl tlb otlbr stkff or kttbmadm$ kmyibbtdm$s lb couà abcbmt`y k!oda. Zlbrb lb wbmtkftbr lours mo omb gmbw. ;t cbrtkdm`y wksm&t loib.

otbg&s wouà eb iy ebst $ubss. Hust two wbbgs dmtotbri 5btyor sbmt k tb`b$rki ksgdm$ ib to sbma ldiomb ekcg, dm tlb mkib of tlb "drbctor of tlb ;ipbrdk`%lbktrbs, rb=ubstdm$ lds kttbmakmcb kt soibrblbkrsk`s dm 2t 5btbrseur$ kma for ib to ibbt ldikt tlb stktdom. ; oe`d$ba. Zlbm ; pdcgba ldi up ; wkslorrdfdba. Lds fkcb wks $rky, lds `dps eùb kma lbòogba k lumarba. ; toog ldi strkd$lt to k mbkreylotb` kma ck``ba iy owm aoctor. 5btyor wry`y toàib mot to worry, motldm$ wouà gd`` ldi, lb lkatrdba. ?ppkrbmt`y omb b!bmdm$ lb lka wk`gba dmto tlb

)osg!k rd!br, dcy coà kt tlds tdib of ybkr, kma stooaclbst abbp umtd` lds `dies wbrb muie. Lb tlbmwk`gba loib dm lds soppdm$ còtlbs 3 tlb rbsu`t Mottlb pmbuiomdk lb crk!ba, mot b!bm k coà. ?mtomdkckrba for ldi so wb`` slb stk!ba eotl off. 5oor oà

5btyor. 5brlkps ?mtomdk rbk``y aobs ò!b ldi, dm lbrowm wky. ;f b!br k coup`b wbrb d``-ibt dt ds tlbi.%lb aoctor ck``ba dm omb of tlosb ioabrm idma

aoctors, k psycldktrdst, wlo adk$mosba sb!brbmbr!ous adsorabr. Lb orabrba totk` rbst, k clkm$b of

scbmbry kma k coip`btb sbpkrktdom froi ?mtomdk. ;abcdaba to tkgb 5btyor to `krbms, om :kgb Jbmb!k,



ks ; gmbw lb lka dt fouma ebmbfdcdk` omcb ebforb, eutebforb wb `bft ; lka to tb`` ?mtomdk. ; ksgba

4uedmstbdm to coib wdtl ib, pkrt`y ebckusb ;arbkaba dt, eut k`so ebckusb ; tlou$lt k wdtmbssid$lt eb usbfu`. ; gmow lb kma 5btyor lk!b lka tlbdrups kma aowms, eut Mdgo`kd ds k $ooa clkp kma o!brtlb ybkrs lks pro!bm k stbkay frdbma to 5btyor. )orbtlkm tlds lb lks pbrsomk` b#pbrdbmcb of k rksl kmaadskstrous ikrrdk$b. "da you gmow tlkt wlbm om`ytwbmty lb ikrrdba k woikm of tldrty, omb of tlosbdmfùbmtdk` lruslclb!s %lb ikrrdk$b wks opposba

ey eotl sbts of pkrbmts kma tlby sbpkrktba dm `bsstlkm tlrbb ybkrs. ;f 4uedmstbdm ibmtdoms tlb kffkdr ktk``, lb `ku$ls dt off ks socdk` kiedtdom `kcba wdtl ùst.

;t rudmba eotl tlbdr `d!bs. "d!orcb ds mot km optdomkma Mdgo`kd ds mot tlb sort of ikm to tkgb k idstrbssopbm`y, so lb `d!bs wdtl lds sdstbr, 2ofdk. ;t ds k

slkib, k rbk`, abbp slkib. >ut tlkt ds lds proe`bi. ;om`y ibmtdom dt to b#p`kdm wly lb wks sucl k $ooaclodcb to coib wdtl ib.

4uedmstbdm wks erd``dkmt, rbk``y erd``dkmt. Lb spb`t outto ?mtomdk dm stkrg abtkd` k`` tlkt tlb aoctor lka toàib. Lb usba slort sbmtbmcbs kma sdip`b woras,oidttdm$ motldm$, eut wlbtlbr lb $ot tlrou$l to lbr ;aouet. 2lb stoppba `dstbmdm$, you couà sbb dt. Lbrbybs wbrb om tlb tbk tke`b, lbr rdm$s, tlb strbbt

outsdab, mb!br om 4uedmstbdm or ib. 2lb ksgba mo=ubstdoms, slowba mo comcbrm. 4uedmstbdm ds rd$ltwlbm lb skys dt ds `dgb ebdm$ wdtl k eka kctrbssrbkadm$ k eka scrdpt for tlb fdrst tdib. 2lb skys k``tlb rd$lt woras, eut wdtlout kmy biotdom ordmf`bctdom. )kyeb, slb ds !bry, !bry c`b!br, kcoiposdtb adssbie`br, eut ; aouet dt. ; tldmg slb ds

(ust adi-wdttba. ?t tlb omsbr!ktodrb 4uedmstbdm

kmmoumcba tlkt 5btyor wks om b#tbmaba `bk!b kmatlkt ?mtomdk wouà eb (odmdm$ ldi dm 2wdt br`kma

slort`y. %lb skib !brsdom wks $d!bm to tlbmbwspkpbrs. Mo omb eb`db!bs dt of coursb, eut



soibtldm$ lka to eb skda. ? sdid`kr`y `kumabrba!brsdom wks $d!bm to 5kpk kma, ; supposb, you. Lbkccbptba dt, eut B`d k!btk wks mot foo`ba. 2lb ds k

$ooa woikm' !bry `dgbke`b kma !bry wdsb, our stbp-iotlbr. ; `dgb lbr kma wdsl 5btyor wouà tk`g to lbr.Zb $ot to `krbms ey ida-0ctoebr, eut dt wks mot tlb

succbss ; lka lopba. %lds tdib 5btyor fouma tlbioumtkdms òoidm$ kma opprbssd!b, kma tlbrb wbrb

so ikmy fb`òw 4ussdkms tlbrb wb $ot mo prd!kcy. Mosby ekstkras. Zb wbrb (ust p`kmmdm$ to io!b omwlbm wb lka k `bttbr froi 2kslk. 2lb lka ?mtomdk kt

kibmgk kma lka ebbm bmtdrb`y tkgbm dm ey lbr. 2lbur$ba us to rbturm ks soom ks possde`b to try for krbcomcd`dktdom. Low couà 2kslk eb so $u`̀ de`b ;tlou$lt tlbrb wbrb b`bibmts of e`kcgikd` dm tlb`bttbr, k 1coib loib or b`sb& umabrcurrbmt. 5btyoradsk$rbba. ; wks p`bksba tlkt lb wks ke`b to adscusstlb `bttbr rktdomk``y, kma tlou$lt dt slowba pro$rbss,eut lb (ust wouà mot `bt tlb sue(bct arop 3iomoikmdk k$kdm. %o erbkg tlb cyc`b ; bmcourk$baldi to worg. N; rbcoiibma tlds tkctdc to youK. ?t fdrstlds output wks pktcly kma tlbrb wbrb soib mkstytkmtruis, proeke`y eorm out of frustrktdom, eut

$rkauk``y lds comcbmtrktdom `b!b` dipro!ba kma lb stkrtba to fdma rbk` rb`dbf froi lds troue`bs. ;mabba,ey lds owm kaidssdom ; lk!b fkcd`dtktba tlb

coip`btdom of soib coip`b# orclbstrktdom om lds 6ourtl 2yiplomy kma km opbrk, Bu$bmb 0mb$dm. Motk`` eka tlbm+%ldm$s òogba up furtlbr wlbm )kakib !om )bcgwrotb proidsdm$ ldi k stdpbma of sd# tlouskmaroue`bs k ybkr. 2d# tlouskma roue`bs k ybkr+ )orbtlkm aoue`b lds omsbr!ktodrb sk`kry+ )y Joa, ;wouà eb k gdm$ om tlkt+ ? ekmgbr&s arkft for tlb fdrst

dmstkìbmt wks bmcòsba. 2uaabm`y wb wbrb dm fumas. 5btyor pbrgba up kma stkrtba p`kmmdm$ 3rdadcuòus`y, b#trk!k$kmt`y, fbcg`bss`y b!bm, eut kt`bkst lb wks out of lds abprbssdom. %lkt wks k`` ;



ckrba keout. %o cb`berktb wb wbmt to 5krds. ? aoctortlbrb toà 5btyor tlbrb wks motldm$ wrom$ wdtl ldikma lb couà `d!b to eb k lumarba. >bttbr kma ebttbr.0m tlds fd``dp wb wbmt to 6òrbmcb. %lbrb ; stkrtba toworry k$kdm. 0ur stkmakra of lotb` lka sokrba.2urb`y )kaki !om )bcg&s pktromk$b wks motdmtbmaba for tlds gdma of (umgbt 5btyor eruslba iyoe(bctdoms ksdab. Zld`b wb wbrb tlbrb lb lbkra k eoy

strbbt sdm$br kma ebckib fd#ktba. Lb wkmtba to trkcgldi aowm kma spbma tdib wdtl tlb `ka, motktdm$ ldstumbs. ; comfbss ; pkmdcgba kma wks ab`debrktb`y

oestructd!b so tlkt wb mb!br fouma ldi.0ur mb#t io!b wks bmtdrb`y to iy tkstb. Zb lka to $oto 4oib to pdcg up tlb sbcoma ekmgbr&s arkft froi

)kakib !om )bcg. 4oib ds $òrdous, eut 5btyor sbtldisb`f k$kdmst dt kma ebckib =udtb pbtu`kmt. ?s soomks lb lka tlb iomby wb io!ba om k$kdm, to 7bmdcbtlds tdib. 5btyor sbtt̀ ba us dm tlb $rkmabst of lotb`so!bròogdm$ tlb Jrkma kmk`. Lds (ustdfdcktdom 1;ki %clkdgo!sgy, abkr erotlbr+ "obs tlkt ibkmmotldm$ to you & ; ckm mb!br tb`` wlbm lb ds (osldm$tlbsb akys... Zb lka (ust sbtt`ba wlbm 5btyorkmmoumcba wb wbrb $odm$ to 7dbmmk. 7dbmmk+ Motb!bm dm tlb skib coumtry+ Zb lka ekrb`y umpkcgbatlbrb wlbm lb dmsdstba wb rbturm to 7bmdcb. ; tlou$ltlb id$lt eb b#pbrdbmcdm$ k rb`kpsb kma abikmaba lb

toà ib wlkt wks $odm$ om. 6dmk``y lb kaidttba lblka lbkra froi )kaki !om )bcg tlkt otbg wks dm7dbmmk kma lb 1lka to sbb tlb abkr eoy&, eut dm tlbb!bmt otbg wks k`rbkay b`sbwlbrb Joa dm Lbk!bm,

$d!b ib pktdbmcb+ %lb fu`` story wouà lk!b ebbmld`krdous df tlb (bstbr wbrb mot 5btyor... ;t sbbis

4uedmstbdm lka worgba otbg tlb post of 4bsdabmt )usdcdkm kt )kakib !om )bcg&s Nsoumas $rkmabr

tlkm dt wks, ; suspbctK eut lb lka $ot ldisb`f fdrba forwoikmdsdm$ of k`` tldm$s+ 5btyor wks (bkòus kmawkmtba k slowaowm. ; $k!b tlkmgs tlkt wb lkaidssba ldi, eut ; wks prbikturb. 5btyor $ot k



sbcoma aktb froi soibwlbrb kma off wb wbmt k$kdm. ; rbk``y ada mot ckrb to p`ky $oosbebrry, eut ks dtturmba out ; ada mot lk!b to. otbg lks dmabbaclkm$ba lds tkstbs kma ds mow clksdm$ kmytldm$ dm

sgdrts. ; k`wkys ada womabr low kc=udbscbmt tlktclkp wks to 5btyor&s pkssdoms... Zlktb!br, ks otbgkma 5btyor lka ebbm so còsb ebforb tlb wbaadm$ ;

fbkrba soib rbkctdom, kma dt au`y ckib. 6roi tlbioibmt wb `bft 7dbmmk ; rkrb`y skw 5btyor tru`y

soebr. ;f om`y lb lka ebbm ke`b to tk`g to ib keout otbg, ; iky lk!b ebbm ke`b to lb`p, eut tlds sdab of

lds `dfb lb ckm om`y adscuss wdtl you... %lds ds mot, ;biplksdsb, k su$$bstdom you rbopbm tlb sue(bct, (ustk $bmbrk` oesbr!ktdom. ; (ust euffba up lds b$o k `dtt`bkma bmcourk$ba ldi to `ky poor oà otbg om tlbadsckra pd`b, ks 4uedmstbdm km dmcorrd$de`b $kie`br,wouà plrksb dt. ?t `bkst tlds kmkò$y rkdsba k

sid`b... >y mow dt wks bkr`y "bcbiebr kma 5btyor lkakrrkm$ba for lds tbridtb of k ikmsbr!kmt, 2ofromo!,to (odm us dm 7dbmmk. %lb prospbct akipbmba iy

spdrdts, ; ckm tb`` you. ; rbk``y ki umcoifortke`b dmtlkt ikm&s coipkmy kma ks ; lka to eb ekcg kt tlb

)dmdstry ebforb tlb bma of tlb ybkr ; abcdaba dt wkstdib to ikgb k io!b. Lowb!br, ks you gmow,2ofromo! ds mot k stke`b clkrkctbr kma lds

rb`ktdomsldp wdtl 5btyor umabsdrke`b ey kmy stkmakra, so ; wks mot lkppy keout `bk!dm$ ldi ks 5btyor&s ikdmstky. ;t wks tlbm ; lka iy ebst dabk toaktb8 ; su$$bstba 5btyor dm!dtb you to (odm ldi. Lbeurst dmto tbkrs, cursdm$ ldisb`f tlkt lb lka mottlou$lt of dt bkr`dbr. Lb idssbs you tbrrde`y, yougmow. Zb iky lk!b ebcoib còsb, eut dt ds you lbò!bs tlb iorb 3 kma ; lk!b mo proe`bi

kcgmow`ba$dm$ dt. Lb tlbm f`bw off dmto omb of ldsbmtlusdksis, wrotb to you kt omcb kma couà mot rbstumtd` lb $ot your rbp`y wldcl, (oy of (oys, wks

posdtd!b. >ut `dstbm, )oabst, kma tkgb iy woras



sbrdous`y. <ou iust, iust, iust eblk!b rbspomsde`y. 5btyor lks mot ebbm wb`` eblk!ba sdmcb wb `bft

`krbms kma ; lk!b spbmt ikmy km kftbrmoom, b!bmdm$or b!bm md$lt kòmb wld`b 5btyor wbmt for 1k stro``&tlrou$l tlb towm 3 kma you gmow wlkt lb ibkms eytlkt+ ; gmow lb wkmts to rbturm to 6òrbmcb to trkcgaowm tlkt strbbt sdm$br. %lb `ka aobs lk!b k purbkma trub !odcb kma lds som$s iky pro!b k sourcb ofdmspdrktdom eut, ol erotlbr of idmb, wlo gmows "omot bmcourk$b ldi+ <ou lk!b o`dk wdtl you. 6orJoa&s skgb, eblk!b `dgb k rbspomsde`b kau`t kma try

to ikgb 5btyor ao tlb skib. Lb ds k ikm of soibrbmowm mow kma wb ao mot wkmt tlb wldspbrs tlktkttbma ldi dm )oscow kma 2t 5btbrseur$ sprbka o!brtlb wlo`b of Buropb. "o you umabrstkma ib,

)oabst 0r ds tlds `bttbr k`rbkay cruip`ba kma dm tlblotb` `dttbr edm

>bforb ; còsb, `bt ib rbpbkt tlosb woras of 5btyor&s81; ki %clkdgo!sgy, abkr erotlbr+ "obs tlkt ibkmmotldm$ to you & Zb iky `ku$l, eut 5btyor ds iorbtlkm our erotlbr mow. Lb ds k $rbkt ikm, wdtl iuclto òsb8 k rbputktdom, k pktrombss, k $òrdous futurb.

Lb lks suffbrba tbrrde`y for k foo`dsl idstkgb eut dsrbco!brdm$. ;m iy ek$$k$b ; ki ckrrydm$ tlbcoip`btba scorbs for tlb 2yiplomy kma 0pbrk. Lblks iorb to kcldb!b, eut b!brytldm$ to òsb. :dfb ckm,

surb`y, om`y $bt ebttbr for ldi. 5`bksb, p`bksb ao mot`bt ldi (bopkradsb dt.<ou krb iorb tlkm iy erotlbr, you krb iy twdm. ;ò!b you iorb abkr`y tlkm ; ò!b iysb`f, eut wlbm ;comsdabr tlb rbspomsded`dty ; ki `bk!dm$ you wdtl ;k`so fbkr for you. )kr!b`òus ks lb ds, 5btyor ckm eb!bry drgsoib kma ckprdcdous. %ry to gbbp your

pktdbmcb+ 4bibiebr lb ds d``, b!bm df dt aobs mot slow

plysdck``y. ;f you mbba ib, suiiom ib...Zdtl abbpbst kffbctdom, ; gdss you k$kdm+%o`yk



5ost 2crdpt8 ? sbcoma `bttbr lks krrd!ba froi 2kslk. ; fbkrba dts comtbmts eut tlds tdib dt ds $ooa mbws. 2lblks kr$uba wdtl ?mtomdk kma sbmt lbr pkcgdm$. Mowour sdstbr ds coip`btb`y om our sdab, kma wdtl lbr

pbrsomk` eka b#pbrdbmcb of ?mtomdk ikgbs tlb ebstgdma of k``y. %lb tdab ds abfdmdtb`y turmdm$+

8b`coib to Skm bio, )oabstB Joa, *o`yk ckm eb pktromdsdmj. > tldmg lb lks ebbm iorb k 0kd`br tlkm k lo`dakycoipkmdom. #btyor jòws wdtl jooa lbk`tl. K`` lb mbbas mow

ds k edt o" "um A kma > ki tlb vbry ikm to bmsurb lb jbts soib.Jbt rbkay Skm bio, k vbry ad""brbmt pkdr o" *clkdgovsgy erotlbrs krb dm towmB %ow, wlbrb ds tlkt erotlbr o" idmb A kmaybs, *o`yk, your `bttbr ds lbkadmj "or tlb edmB

)y "drst wbbg wdtl #btyor ada mot jo 4udtb ks > lka p`kmmba kma > ebjkm to umabrstkma *o`yk9s `bttbr. #btyor lka ebbm om lds owm "or mbkr`y k "ortmdjlt kma k`` lb wkmtba to aowks tk`g... kma tk`g kma tk`g. &drst lb wkmtba to gmow wlkt tlb

ussdkm prbss wks ikgdmj o" lds ikrrdkjb kma suesb4ubmtbvbmts. $d""dcu`t omb. > prbvkrdcktba, rbidmadmj ldi tlkt wbwbrb bmjkjba dm k wkr kjkdmst tlb *urgs kma tlb prbss lka

edjjbr tldmjs to worry keout, eut tlds ada mot ab"`bct ldi. Kmatlb jossdp coùimsF9 lb ksgba. 8b``, > lkvb òmj lbà to tlbik?di tlkt wlbm cormbrba, stdcg to tlb trutl, so > toà ldi k``.> ada mot usb tlb woras "dbà aky9, eut otlbr tlkm tlkt > wks

strkdjlt wdtl ldi. Spbcu`ktdom wks rd"b kma soib o" dt mksty.!b slrujjba kma tlbm wbpt. > wks tbiptba to ck`` "or erkmadbs, eut k spbctrb o" *o`yk rosb eb"orb ib. >t rbk``y wks too bkr`y dmtlb aky... 8b wbmt "or k wk`g dmstbka A kma tlbm lka tlb

erkmadbsB #btyor rbturmba to tlb sue0bct o" tlb prbss "rb4ubmt`ykma > ebjkm to umabrstkma wlkt *o`yk lka skda keout ldsoesbssdoms. > jot ldi to `dst lds km?dbtdbs kma tlbm stkrtba toworg tlroujl tlbi. *lbrb wks soib prbtty sbrdous stu"" to eb

"kcba. 8b kjrbba tlb "drst tldmj to ao wks euy ldi iorb tdib.#btyor sbbs tlb Comsbrvktodrb, kma uedmstbdm dm pkrtdcu`kr, ksvbry lostd`b. *lds ds jross`y um"kdr to uedmstbdm, eut dt ds ombo" lds iomoikmdk, so > ada mot krjub. #btyor wks aub to rbturm



to tlb Comsbrvktodrb "or tlb Sprdmj *bri, eut lka k`rbkaywrdttbm to uedmstbdm skydmj lb mbbaba lds sdcg `bkvb b?tbmaba"urtlbr. uedmstbdm lka rbp`dba swd"t̀ y kma, > tloujlt,syipktlbtdck``y, eut lb std`` ikmkjba to upsbt #btyor. bk``y,rbk``y upsbt #btyor. > lka mot sbbm ldi dm sucl k pbt "or ybkrs.

uedmstbdm9s o""bmcb wks to rbidma #btyor tlkt lb lkakjrbba to `bka tlb ussdkm iusdck` ab`bjktdom to tlb #krds>mtbrmktdomk` 7?ldedtdom. !b wouà eb mbbaba dm #krds "or'kmukry kma &berukry, eut k"tbr tlkt dt wks up to ldi wlbtlbrlb rbturmba or stkyba om to tlb bma o" tlb 7?ldedtdom dmSbptbiebr. Kma tlb rbiumbrktdom wks sp`bmada, k tlouskma

roue`bs k iomtl pùs b?pbmsbs. Kma tlb lomourB uedmstbdmiust lkvb put lds rbputktdom om tlb `dmb to bmjdmbbr tlkt omb"or #btyor. !b b?p`kdmba tlkt dt wouà jbt #btyor soib jooa

prbss covbrkjb kma k`òw ldi to rbturm to )oscow opbm`y, dmtrduipl, rktlbr tlkm umcoi"ortke`y, prby to tlb jossdpiomjbrs. > tloujlt dt k vbry comsdabrktb o""br kma typdck` o"

%dgo`kd uedmstbdm. #btyor wks abk" to sucl oesbrvktdoms. !babmdba vblbibmt`y 2too vblbibmt`y, > tloujlt: tlkt lb lkakctuk``y kjrbba9, skydmj lb lka om`y kjrbba to comsdabr dt9kma rb"usba to comcbab kmy vdrtub to poor oà uedmstbdm. !babc`kdiba ldi ks lbkrt`bss, ary kma "u`` o" sb`"EdiportkmcbL,km bmbiy abtbridmba to abstroy ldi ey sbttdmj ldi up ks`kujldmj stocg om tlb `krjbst stkjb possde`b. uedmstbdm, lbdmsdstba, gmbw @ds/t wouà eb tlbrb kma jbt k`` tlb kttbmtdom,wld`b lb, tlb jrbkt #btyor >``ycl *clkdgovsgy, wouà eb k

ibrb sdabslow. &urtlbriorb, lb dmsdstba tlb &rbmcl pbop`bstd`` lktba ussdk kma lb wouà mot b?posb ldisb`" to eb eoobaom k poadui, or worsb ksskssdmktba A kma tlb (rdtdsl wbrb

eouma to stdr tldmjs up, omb wky or kmotlbr. %o, mo, mo, lbwouà mot jo. Kma lb skda tbrrde`b tldmjs kjkdmst poor oà

uedmstbdm pbrsomk``yN tbrrde`b, umjrktb"u` tldmjs. !b turmba omib too, c`kdidmj tlkt *o`yk wouà umabrstkma, bvbm d" k ao`t`dgb ib couà mot. *lkt lurt. Km b?clkmjb o" `bttbrs, tb`bjrkis

kma dmsu`ts ebtwbbm ldi kma uedmstbdm "o`òwba. uedmstbdmtoà #btyor tlkt lb wks cowkra`y... `k/yL kma om`y wkmtba tosdt dm tlb sum wdtl tlb wdaow9s ekmgro`` dm lds pocgbtL kma tlktlb slouà stop tkgdmj kavkmtkjb, ... DkmaH tkgb ldisb`" dm



lkmaL. #btyor rbpostba ey ck``dmj ldi vu`jkr, erk/bm kmadmso`bmtL kma bvbm k eoumabrL. *lkt rbk``y wks jodmj k edt "kr.&dmk``y, uedmstbdm jkvb up, b?tbmaba #btyor9s skeektdck` umtd`tlb kutuim kma sbmt 3,111 roue`bs ks k jbsturb o" jooa "kdtl.8lbtlbr dt wks k òkm, om kccoumt, or aub to #btyor > ki motsurb, eut dt gbpt us jodmj mdcb`y. #btyor wks trduiplkmt,c`kdidmj K`` tlbsb abspots ebcoib tkib d" you jrow` kt tlbi.*lb ruabr iy `bttbr wks, tlb gdmabr tlb kmswbrLB - > tldmg#btyor bm0oys eu``ydmj uedmstbdm. $bspdtb lds vdctory #btyorrbikdmba adscomtbmt kma wldmba om kma om keout low lbwouà mbvbr cross tlb aoorstbp to tlb Comsbrvktodrb kjkdm, btc.

btc. >rgsoib. *lkt wks k jooa wora clodcb ey *o`yk. #btyorwks ebdmj vbry, vbry, drgsoib A kma akimba umjrktb"u`.!kvdmj b?pbrdbmcba #btyor9s drrktdomk`dty ovbr uedmstbdm

"drst lkma, dt wks wdtl soib trbpdaktdom tlkt > eroujlt up tlbsue0bct o" lds wd"b, Kmtomdk )d`dyugovk. $ub to lds trkdmdmj*o`yk lka o""brba to kct ks eotl `kwybr kma joEebtwbbm kma#btyor kjrbba to eb judaba ey lds 0uajbibmt. 7?cb``bmt.Kmtomdk opbmba ey abikmadmj omb tlouskma roue`bs k iomtl"or `d"b. 8b abcdaba mot to comtbst tlb kioumt, eut to ikgb dtcomadtdomk` om lbr jooa eblkvdour kma k proidsb mot to erdmjtlb "kid`y mkib dmto adsrbputb. Slb kjrbba, eut lbr wora

provba wortl`bss. Slb stkrtba wrdtdmj to #kpk. @ucgd`y, *o`ykdmtbrcbptba tlb `bttbrs. *lby wbrb mksty. #kpk ds too oà to eb

eotlbrba ey tlb `dgbs o" lbr. 8b adscussba low iucl dt wouàtkgb to rbk``y gbbp lbr 4udbt kma "dmk``y abcdaba om 6,<11

roue`bs. >t wks k rdsg. Couà wb trust lbrF #roeke`y mot.$bspdtb rb"brrdmj to tlb krrkmjbibmt dm com"dabmt tbris to#btyor, *o`yk kma > erkcba oursb`vbs "or tlb mb?t abikma.

!kvdmj Go`dk wdtl ib provba k joasbma. !b ds tbm mowkma lds 0oy dm sdip`b p`bksurbs gbpt us k`` jodmj dm wlkt

provba to eb k arbkry p`kcb. #btyor kma lb wbrb p`kdm`y kt bksbwdtl bkcl otlbr kma > skw tlds ks "urtlbr bvdabmcb o" #btyor9srbcovbry. #btyor usba lds crbktdvdty to tldmg o" kctdvdtdbs tlkt

trkmscbmaba Go`dk9s spbbcl kma lbkrdmj `didtktdoms. *lbyabvdsba mkturb trkd`s kma ikab co``bctdoms o" tlb òck` "òrk kma

; #.>. *clkdgovsgy, :bttbrs to lds 6kid`y, p.-;;.



"kumk. Go`dk ckib to kaorb iy erotlbr kma dt jkvb ib k iuclmbbaba erbkg. 8b wouà lkvb iovba om eut wbrb oe`djba tostky "or two wbbgs wld`b So"romov wks trbktba "or tlb c`kpB*lkt put tlb wdma up #btyor, > ckm tb`` you, "or lb ds k arbka"u`vk`btuadmkrdkm kt tlb ebst o" tdibs 2mbvbr ksg ldi low lb ds, orlow lb s`bpt, "or lb wd`` spbma tlb mb?t two lours tb``dmj youB:(ut lb sbbis to eb "dmb. >t wks k jooa aky wlbm wb pkcgba upkma iovba om to &òrbmcb. @d"b wks iucl ebttbr tlbrb kma,k`tloujl ckutdous "roi So"romov9s b?pbrdbmcb, #btyor kma >k`òwba oursb`vbs soib kavbmturbs, iost krrkmjba tlroujl k

pdip mkiba %kpo`bomb wlo gbbps k "dmb stke`b o" youmj `kas.

8b `b"t So"romov to òog k"tbr Go`dk, k 0oe lb ada surprdsdmj`yrbspomsde`y. $urdmj tlb aky #btyor wks oesbssba wdtl trkcgdmjaowm tlb cldà strbbt sdmjbr lb lka lbkra wdtl *o`yk. >t toog kwld`b, eut omcb wb lka bstke`dslba lds mkib, dttordo, dt wksbksy. #btyor tloujlt ldi ab`dcdous. > tloujlt ldi km urcldm.8b lbkra ldi pbr"ori k coup`b o" tdibs, eut lb wksadskppodmtdmj. !owbvbr, #btyor jot tlb tumbs lb wkmtba kma k

plotojrkpl. &d?ktdom ovbr, #btyor kmmoumcba wb wbrb `bkvdmj"or Jbmbvk. > wks sorry to jo ks > wks lkvdmj k jooa tdib, eut#btyor skda our "umas wbrb rummdmj òwN mo krjudmj wdtl tlktomb...

*dib lka ardppba tlroujl our "dmjbrs kma ey mow dt wksbkr`y )krcl. >m Jbmbvk wb bkcl dmau`jba dm our owm dmtbrbsts.#btyor worgba, Go`dk kma > b?pòrba tlb towm kma So"romovsbaucba o" our `kma`kay9s akujltbrB > "ouma tlb spbba, cruadty

kma voùib o" lds woodmj kiusdmj, eut dt rbvo`tba #btyor. !blks rbso`vba to clkmjb tlbdr rb`ktdomsldp to k strdctikstbr sbrvkmt omb. > lopb lb ckrrdbs dt tlroujl A eut aouet d"lb wd``. Kt tlb bma o" tlb iomtl wb wbmt to C`krbms wlbrbGotbg wks wkdtdmj to scroumjb o"" #btyor kjkdm, eut kt `bksttlby wbrb rbcomcd`ba. #btyor9s comvk`bscbmcb wks ovbr kma >wks comtbmt tlkt > lka coip`btba wlkt *o`yk lka ebjum.#btyor ds "dt, stke`b kma rbkay to jbt om wdtl lds `d"b. Ks

erotlbrs #btyor, *o`yk kma > krb umdtba kma iy pbtty 0bkòusyldstory.

8b k`` trkvb``ba tojbtlbr to dbmmk kma tlbm wbmt oursbpkrktb wkys. >t wks k typdck` *clkdgovsgy "kid`y pkrtdmj.



8b wbpt, wb bierkcba, wb `kujlba, wb gdssba kma wbb?clkmjba "krbwb`` jd"ts, eut > k`so prkybaN prkyba tlkt #btyorwouà survdvb lds rbturm, kma prkyba tlkt Kmtomdk wouà gbbpout o" lds `d"b...

Ks soom ks wb wbrb dm our owm ckrrdkjb Go`dk kma >opbmba our jd"ts "roi #btyor. *lby wbrb wdà`y b?trkvkjkmt.

dadcuòus. Jooa oà #btyor. 8b krb k`` prdvd`bjba, eut#btyor... #btyor `dvbs k "kmtksy b?dstbmcb.

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