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(Commemorative(Commemorative(Commemorative(Commemorative 2nd2nd2nd2ndEdition)Edition)Edition)Edition)

A BiographyA BiographyA BiographyA Biography

TheVenerable Acara Suvanno TheVenerable Acara Suvanno TheVenerable Acara Suvanno TheVenerable Acara Suvanno MahatheraMahatheraMahatheraMahathera (1920(1920(1920(1920----2007)2007)2007)2007)

A jinavamsa CollectionA jinavamsa CollectionA jinavamsa CollectionA jinavamsa Collection

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Published by Leong Yok Kee

E2L4A Selesa Hillhomes

Bukit Tinggi

28750 Bentong

Pahang

Email: [email protected]

Copyright by Leong Yok Kee

Any part of this publication may be reproduced in any form or

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Title: Striving to be a Nobody

A Commemorative 2nd Edition

Author: Leong Yok Kee

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Buddhism - doctrines

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CONTENTS

DEDICATION 5

PROLOGUE 6

Four Noble Truths 6

Noble Eightfold Path 8

FOREWORD 11

PREFACE 13

INTRODUCTION 15

CHAPTER 1: Early Years 22

Our Story Begins 23

Sweet is Life 28

CHAPTER 2: Formative Years 39

CHAPTER 3: Better Times 56

CHAPTER 4: RENUNCIATION 66

Bhante Suvanno on Renunciation 79

CHAPTER 5: THE MONK’S LIFE 89

CHAPTER 6: MI TOR SEE 95

CHAPTER 7: THE WORK OF BHANTE 102

His Daily Routine 104

To Forgive is Divine 109

Kalam Sutta 115

The Four Foundations of Mindfulness 124

CHAPTER 8: STORIES 133

EPILOGUE 143

The Final Curtain 146

The Obituary 156

An Eulogy 158

Sharing of Merits 169

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“BHANTE”

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DEDICATION Sabbadanam Dhammadanam Jinati

The Gift of Truth Excels All Other Gifts

This Dhamma literature is dedicated

IN MEMORIAM of a most revered teacher:

The Venerable Acara Suvanno Mahathera

Gratefully sponsored by Lim Kok Chai and Family

The support of mother and father Cherishing of wife and children

and peaceful occupations, Generosity and righteous conduct,

Helping of relatives and blameless actions,

These are the Supreme Blessings May all beings share

in the merits of this Dhammadana May all be well and happy.

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

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PROLOGUE

(A Foreword to this Commemorative Edition)

WORDS OF THE BUDDHA

The essence of the Buddha's Teachings

is twinned together as a unique practice

in the Four Noble Truths and the

Noble Eightfold Path. In the Former,

the last of the Four Noble Truths, the

Truth of the Way, is the Noble

Eightfold Path; while the First Factor of

the Later, Right View, is the

understanding of the Four Noble

Truths. Thus, the two teachings are

symbiotic and dovetail neatly together;

the formula of the Four Noble Truths

absorbing the Eightfold Path and the

Noble Eightfold Path sliding within the

Four Truths.

They form the twin canopy that Bhante Suvanno took refuge in

during his lay life and more so in the days of his renunciation.

Together with Hiri and Ottappa, Bhante Suvanno’s way of life

is the embodiment of this quartet of the Blessed One’s

Teachings.

THE FOUR NOBLE TRUTHS

The Cornerstone of the Blessed One’s Teaching lies with the

Four Noble Truths. It was after total realisation of the Four

Noble Truths did the Blessed One declared Himself completely

Enlightened.

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THE Blessed One: “It is through not understanding, n“It is through not understanding, n“It is through not understanding, n“It is through not understanding, not ot ot ot penetrating Four Tpenetrating Four Tpenetrating Four Tpenetrating Four Things, that I, monks, as wehings, that I, monks, as wehings, that I, monks, as wehings, that I, monks, as well as you, have ll as you, have ll as you, have ll as you, have wandered so long through the long round of rebirths. wandered so long through the long round of rebirths. wandered so long through the long round of rebirths. wandered so long through the long round of rebirths.

What FourWhat FourWhat FourWhat Four???? SufferinSufferinSufferinSuffering, the Cause of Sg, the Cause of Sg, the Cause of Sg, the Cause of Suffering, tuffering, tuffering, tuffering, the he he he CCCCessatiessatiessatiessation of Son of Son of Son of Suffering, auffering, auffering, auffering, and the Pnd the Pnd the Pnd the Path leading toath leading toath leading toath leading to the the the the Cessation of SCessation of SCessation of SCessation of Suffering.uffering.uffering.uffering.

The Blessed One has defined the Four Noble Truths:

"This,"This,"This,"This, monks, is the Noble Truth monks, is the Noble Truth monks, is the Noble Truth monks, is the Noble Truth of Suffering: birth, of Suffering: birth, of Suffering: birth, of Suffering: birth, ageing, disease, death is suffering;ageing, disease, death is suffering;ageing, disease, death is suffering;ageing, disease, death is suffering; associatio associatio associatio association with the n with the n with the n with the unloved is suffering;unloved is suffering;unloved is suffering;unloved is suffering; separati separati separati separation from the loved is suffering; on from the loved is suffering; on from the loved is suffering; on from the loved is suffering; not gettnot gettnot gettnot getting what one wants is suffering; in brief,ing what one wants is suffering; in brief,ing what one wants is suffering; in brief,ing what one wants is suffering; in brief, the five the five the five the five aggregates of grasping are saggregates of grasping are saggregates of grasping are saggregates of grasping are suffering." uffering." uffering." uffering." "This, monks, is the "This, monks, is the "This, monks, is the "This, monks, is the Noble TruthNoble TruthNoble TruthNoble Truth of the Cause of of the Cause of of the Cause of of the Cause of Suffering: this craving that leads to repeated becoming, Suffering: this craving that leads to repeated becoming, Suffering: this craving that leads to repeated becoming, Suffering: this craving that leads to repeated becoming, taking delight now here, now there, namely: craving for taking delight now here, now there, namely: craving for taking delight now here, now there, namely: craving for taking delight now here, now there, namely: craving for sensual pleasures, craving for existence, and craving for sensual pleasures, craving for existence, and craving for sensual pleasures, craving for existence, and craving for sensual pleasures, craving for existence, and craving for nonnonnonnon----existence." existence." existence." existence." "This"This"This"This, monks, is the , monks, is the , monks, is the , monks, is the Noble TruthNoble TruthNoble TruthNoble Truth of t of t of t of the Cessation of he Cessation of he Cessation of he Cessation of Suffering: the Cessation of CSuffering: the Cessation of CSuffering: the Cessation of CSuffering: the Cessation of Craving without any raving without any raving without any raving without any remainder, giving it up, renouncing it, and complete freedom remainder, giving it up, renouncing it, and complete freedom remainder, giving it up, renouncing it, and complete freedom remainder, giving it up, renouncing it, and complete freedom from it." from it." from it." from it."

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"This, monks, is the "This, monks, is the "This, monks, is the "This, monks, is the Noble TruthNoble TruthNoble TruthNoble Truth of the Way Leading to of the Way Leading to of the Way Leading to of the Way Leading to the Cessation of suffering: this the Cessation of suffering: this the Cessation of suffering: this the Cessation of suffering: this Noble Eightfold Path Noble Eightfold Path Noble Eightfold Path Noble Eightfold Path itself, namely: right view, right thought, right speech, right itself, namely: right view, right thought, right speech, right itself, namely: right view, right thought, right speech, right itself, namely: right view, right thought, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness, and action, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness, and action, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness, and action, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness, and right concentration." right concentration." right concentration." right concentration."

THE NOBLE EIGHTFOLD PATH

Monks, what is The Noble Eightfold Path? Monks, what is The Noble Eightfold Path? Monks, what is The Noble Eightfold Path? Monks, what is The Noble Eightfold Path? Right View (or unRight View (or unRight View (or unRight View (or understanding), Right Thought, Right derstanding), Right Thought, Right derstanding), Right Thought, Right derstanding), Right Thought, Right Speech, Right Action, Right Livelihood, Right Effort, Speech, Right Action, Right Livelihood, Right Effort, Speech, Right Action, Right Livelihood, Right Effort, Speech, Right Action, Right Livelihood, Right Effort, Right Mindfulness, Right Concentration. Right Mindfulness, Right Concentration. Right Mindfulness, Right Concentration. Right Mindfulness, Right Concentration. And what is right view? Knowledge with regard to suffering, And what is right view? Knowledge with regard to suffering, And what is right view? Knowledge with regard to suffering, And what is right view? Knowledge with regard to suffering, knowledge with regard to the origination of suffering, knowledge with regard to the origination of suffering, knowledge with regard to the origination of suffering, knowledge with regard to the origination of suffering, knowledge knowledge knowledge knowledge with regard to the cessation of suffering, with regard to the cessation of suffering, with regard to the cessation of suffering, with regard to the cessation of suffering, knowledge with regard to the way of practice leading to the knowledge with regard to the way of practice leading to the knowledge with regard to the way of practice leading to the knowledge with regard to the way of practice leading to the cessation of suffering: This is called right view.cessation of suffering: This is called right view.cessation of suffering: This is called right view.cessation of suffering: This is called right view. And what is right thought? Being thoughts on renunciation, And what is right thought? Being thoughts on renunciation, And what is right thought? Being thoughts on renunciation, And what is right thought? Being thoughts on renunciation, on freedom from ill will, on harmlessness:on freedom from ill will, on harmlessness:on freedom from ill will, on harmlessness:on freedom from ill will, on harmlessness: This is called right This is called right This is called right This is called right thought.thought.thought.thought.

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And what is right speech? Abstaining from lying, from And what is right speech? Abstaining from lying, from And what is right speech? Abstaining from lying, from And what is right speech? Abstaining from lying, from divisive speech, from abusive speech, and from idle chatter: divisive speech, from abusive speech, and from idle chatter: divisive speech, from abusive speech, and from idle chatter: divisive speech, from abusive speech, and from idle chatter: This is called right speech.This is called right speech.This is called right speech.This is called right speech. And what is right action? Abstaining from taking life, from And what is right action? Abstaining from taking life, from And what is right action? Abstaining from taking life, from And what is right action? Abstaining from taking life, from stealing, and from stealing, and from stealing, and from stealing, and from sexual intercourse: This is called right sexual intercourse: This is called right sexual intercourse: This is called right sexual intercourse: This is called right action.action.action.action. And what is right livelihood? There is the case where a And what is right livelihood? There is the case where a And what is right livelihood? There is the case where a And what is right livelihood? There is the case where a noble disciple, having abandoned dishonest livelihood, noble disciple, having abandoned dishonest livelihood, noble disciple, having abandoned dishonest livelihood, noble disciple, having abandoned dishonest livelihood, keeps his life going with right livelihood. This is called right keeps his life going with right livelihood. This is called right keeps his life going with right livelihood. This is called right keeps his life going with right livelihood. This is called right livelihood.livelihood.livelihood.livelihood. And what is rightAnd what is rightAnd what is rightAnd what is right effort? There is the case where a monk effort? There is the case where a monk effort? There is the case where a monk effort? There is the case where a monk generates desire, endeavors, arouses persistence, upholds generates desire, endeavors, arouses persistence, upholds generates desire, endeavors, arouses persistence, upholds generates desire, endeavors, arouses persistence, upholds and exerts his intent for the sake of the nonand exerts his intent for the sake of the nonand exerts his intent for the sake of the nonand exerts his intent for the sake of the non----arising of evil, arising of evil, arising of evil, arising of evil, unskillful qualities that have not yet arisen...for the sake of unskillful qualities that have not yet arisen...for the sake of unskillful qualities that have not yet arisen...for the sake of unskillful qualities that have not yet arisen...for the sake of the abandoning of evil, unskillthe abandoning of evil, unskillthe abandoning of evil, unskillthe abandoning of evil, unskillful qualities that have ful qualities that have ful qualities that have ful qualities that have arisen...for the sake of the arising of skillful qualities that arisen...for the sake of the arising of skillful qualities that arisen...for the sake of the arising of skillful qualities that arisen...for the sake of the arising of skillful qualities that have not yet arisen...(and) for the maintenance, nonhave not yet arisen...(and) for the maintenance, nonhave not yet arisen...(and) for the maintenance, nonhave not yet arisen...(and) for the maintenance, non----confusion, increase, plenitude, development, and confusion, increase, plenitude, development, and confusion, increase, plenitude, development, and confusion, increase, plenitude, development, and culmination of skillful qualities that have arisen. This is culmination of skillful qualities that have arisen. This is culmination of skillful qualities that have arisen. This is culmination of skillful qualities that have arisen. This is calledcalledcalledcalled right effort. right effort. right effort. right effort.

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And what is right mindfulness? There is the case where a And what is right mindfulness? There is the case where a And what is right mindfulness? There is the case where a And what is right mindfulness? There is the case where a monk remains focused on the body in and of itselfmonk remains focused on the body in and of itselfmonk remains focused on the body in and of itselfmonk remains focused on the body in and of itself----ardent, ardent, ardent, ardent, alert, and mindfulalert, and mindfulalert, and mindfulalert, and mindful----putting aside greed and distress with putting aside greed and distress with putting aside greed and distress with putting aside greed and distress with reference to the world. He remains focused on feelings in reference to the world. He remains focused on feelings in reference to the world. He remains focused on feelings in reference to the world. He remains focused on feelings in and of thand of thand of thand of themselves...the mind in and of itself...mental qualities emselves...the mind in and of itself...mental qualities emselves...the mind in and of itself...mental qualities emselves...the mind in and of itself...mental qualities in and of themselvesin and of themselvesin and of themselvesin and of themselves----ardent, alert, and mindfulardent, alert, and mindfulardent, alert, and mindfulardent, alert, and mindful----putting aside putting aside putting aside putting aside greed and distress with reference to the world. This is greed and distress with reference to the world. This is greed and distress with reference to the world. This is greed and distress with reference to the world. This is called right mindfulness.called right mindfulness.called right mindfulness.called right mindfulness. And what is right concentration? There is the case wherAnd what is right concentration? There is the case wherAnd what is right concentration? There is the case wherAnd what is right concentration? There is the case where a e a e a e a monkmonkmonkmonk----quite withdrawn from sensuality, withdrawn from quite withdrawn from sensuality, withdrawn from quite withdrawn from sensuality, withdrawn from quite withdrawn from sensuality, withdrawn from unskillful mental qualities applies concentration in the unskillful mental qualities applies concentration in the unskillful mental qualities applies concentration in the unskillful mental qualities applies concentration in the realisation of the impermanence of existence, the suffering realisation of the impermanence of existence, the suffering realisation of the impermanence of existence, the suffering realisation of the impermanence of existence, the suffering of existence, the realisation of the nonof existence, the realisation of the nonof existence, the realisation of the nonof existence, the realisation of the non----self nature of self nature of self nature of self nature of existence. This is right cexistence. This is right cexistence. This is right cexistence. This is right concentration.oncentration.oncentration.oncentration.

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FOREWORD

Dear Friends,

It is now the year 2010 and it was in the year 2000 October

that the original story was written. At that time, Leong Yok Kee

aka Jinavamsa, yours sincerely, had just completed a long stint

of training in The Hermitage at Lunas, Kedah.

His teacher was the Venerable Acara Suvanno who was then

age 70 years and with 20 vassas (an indication of the number of

years as an ordained bhikkhu) to his credit, which length of

time recognises him to be known as a Mahathera, a senior

bhikkhu.

Experiencing his qualities as a truly well practised bhikkhu, and

well impressed with his other qualities of compassion, patience,

humility and specially loving kindness, Jinavamsa, seek

voluntarily to be his attendant. As he attended to the needs of

his teacher, Jinavamsa was truly tutored in the ways of a

Theravada bhikkhu, for Bhante Suvanno, was a strict adherent

to the rules as enshrined within the code of ethics, known as

the Vinaya.

Being impressed with such a dedicated life in the way of the

Blessed One in these modern times, Jinavamsa felt he should

post Bhante Suvanno’s passage through this world so that

posterity would have the knowledge that such a way of life can

be practical and the fruits of achievement as advised by the

Blessed One is achievable by one who truly dedicate his whole

mind to it.

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This story is told in a narrative form which hopefully, would

render this more readable and place a personal flavour to the

telling. The details of the story had been gathered through

many interviews and discussion with his teacher, even late or

early into the next morning. Most of the time, the sitting had

been in the little building depicted here, a kuti, where Bhante

Suvanno has his living quarters.

The original version has been

updated to this present

volume with the addition of

a few new facts, such as

Bhante Suvanno’s passing in

the year 2007.

May the merits thus accrued

be shared by all living beings

and be instrumental in their walking the Noble Path.

SADHU, SADHU, SADHU!

Jinavamsa [email protected]

E2L4A Selesa Hillhomes

Bukit Tinggi, Bentong

Pahang

2010

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Namo Namo Namo Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato SammaTassa Bhagavato Arahato SammaTassa Bhagavato Arahato SammaTassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma SSSSamamamambuddhabuddhabuddhabuddhassassassassa

SSSSTTTTRRRRIVIIVIIVIIVINNNNGGGG TO TO TO TO BEBEBEBE A NOA NOA NOA NOBODYBODYBODYBODY

PREFACE

BHANTE (In the kuti whereof are

displayed some images of the Blessed

One and some scriptural books):

Today, sitting among these icons of the

Blessed One’s Teachings, I reflect on the

traumatic upheavals of my early life; and

as I do, there arises in me a compelling

urge for deliverance, a deliverance from

all pains, suffering, hunger and thirst.

“Deliverance is born of Knowledge”, said

a wise thinker and only in the Blessed One’s teachings is found

this liberating knowledge. The Blessed One expressly says:

THE Blessed One: “Profound is this doctrine, hard to Profound is this doctrine, hard to Profound is this doctrine, hard to Profound is this doctrine, hard to understand, diunderstand, diunderstand, diunderstand, difficult to perceive, tranquil, sublime, beyond fficult to perceive, tranquil, sublime, beyond fficult to perceive, tranquil, sublime, beyond fficult to perceive, tranquil, sublime, beyond the realm of logic; to be known only by the wisethe realm of logic; to be known only by the wisethe realm of logic; to be known only by the wisethe realm of logic; to be known only by the wise”.

BHANTE: You’ll hardly understand it without patience,

guidance, practice and effort. As the Brahma Sahampati

entreated of the Blessed One: “There are those whose eyes are

only a little covered by dust; who, not hearing the Truth, will be

lost”. It is those with little dust in their eyes who will

understand and realise the Dhamma.

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I do not say that I alone have suffered much, for there are

uncountable number of beings in more wretched conditions.

Right now I understand through personal experience that the

whole world is a mass of suffering. Reflecting deep and long, I

realised that our entire existence is conditioned and not within

our control. All things arise and pass away in due course; they

do not last, even for a split moment; impermanence is the

character of all conditioned things, and such being the case, all

conditioned things are of a suffering nature. Existence is

suffering.

Across the whole spectrum of suffering in my early years, I

cannot pin-point a single moment, I can truly say that I could

demand a change and make it happen as I would wish. Thus,

the realisation strikes me that there is not within me any

substantial controlling self that can change the situation of my

suffering. I could not find a “self” that could be relied on.

Among these three related characteristics of existence, the most

tangible one, suffering, has been singled out, fully stated and

defined in the First Noble Truth of Suffering; its Cause in the

Second; its Cessation in the Third and the Practical Path of

Deliverance in the Fourth.

Those who have “eyes” will perceive these things. The wise ones

understand and practise the Noble Eightfold Path; others, alas,

will be assailed by suffering.

A.A.A.A. Suvanno Suvanno Suvanno Suvanno

October in the year 2000

Buddhist Hermitage Lunas

Kedah, Malaysia

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INTRODUCTION INTRODUCTION INTRODUCTION INTRODUCTION

“Everybody wants to be a somebody.“Everybody wants to be a somebody.“Everybody wants to be a somebody.“Everybody wants to be a somebody. Nobody wants to be a nobody.Nobody wants to be a nobody.Nobody wants to be a nobody.Nobody wants to be a nobody. If ever there is a “somebody”If ever there is a “somebody”If ever there is a “somebody”If ever there is a “somebody”

Who knows how to be a nobody,Who knows how to be a nobody,Who knows how to be a nobody,Who knows how to be a nobody,

Then thatThen thatThen thatThen that nobody is a real somebody! nobody is a real somebody! nobody is a real somebody! nobody is a real somebody!

If you ever want to be a nobodyIf you ever want to be a nobodyIf you ever want to be a nobodyIf you ever want to be a nobody Then follow that somebodyThen follow that somebodyThen follow that somebodyThen follow that somebody Who really is a “nobody”Who really is a “nobody”Who really is a “nobody”Who really is a “nobody”

(Later) let go of everybody,(Later) let go of everybody,(Later) let go of everybody,(Later) let go of everybody, Even that somebody who already is a nobody;Even that somebody who already is a nobody;Even that somebody who already is a nobody;Even that somebody who already is a nobody;

Eventually you will be a real nobody”.Eventually you will be a real nobody”.Eventually you will be a real nobody”.Eventually you will be a real nobody”.

A. Suvanno A. Suvanno A. Suvanno A. Suvanno

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PLACE: Bhante is sitting under a tree by the side of his kuti at

evening and is resting after his usual routine of sweeping the

compound; with him in discussion is Jinavamsa.

BHANTE: Everybody wants to be a somebody; I want to be a

nobody. Theravada monks are guardians of the Blessed One’s

original Teachings; the Teachings of the Elders; as it was since

His First Discourse on attaining Enlightenment more than two

thousand five hundred years ago.

It is difficult to comprehend the Teachings in the beginning,

for the Truth of the Teachings is not only to be understood and

comprehended intellectually but essentially to be experienced

and realised and seen with clear insight by oneself. Difficult

because most humans are conditioned to have eyes that are

‘cloaked with dust’; generally ‘dust’ of greed, hatred and

delusion. The film of defilement enveloping their minds’ ‘eye’

has become gross and impenetrable as the greed for the

acquisition of material possessions to enhance the supposedly

‘quality’ of their lives become more intense and destructive.

The competition to achieve and the need for self-glorification is

deadly and never-ending!

This never ending elusive quest for material achievement has so

consumed all of humanities’ energy that they are reluctant to

expand further effort to delve into the recesses of their minds.

Thus, many have lost the pristine ability to understand the

Truth of existence in this present life. Rare are the human

beings contented with their basic needs and possessions.

Whatever joy these possessions bring is momentary, short lived

and unsatisfactorily, so the craving to possess goes on even

through many lifetimes ad infinitum.

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They are beset with greed, anger and delusion as the true goal

of existence eludes these seekers of the sensuous material world.

JV: The monk spoke not to impress. He believed and lived in

the essence of those words and that very essence disciplines his

life. Daily, in his simple robes,

barefooted, broom in hand,

bending low, slowly and

mindfully he will be sweeping

the fallen leaves around the

compound of the Hermitage.

Slowly and mindfully he

sweeps so as not to injure any

minute beings under the

weight of the sweeping broom.

Sweep, sweep, sweep.

‘Sweeping is a form of

meditation; you must do it

slowly and mindfully’. Softly

and gently murmuring as he

continues sweeping.

The years of sweeping have given his posture a definite stoop.

Past eighty years of age and as clear of mind and bright of eyes

as a young man; just as strong bodily and mentally; utter

simplicity of life is depicted in the motions of the monk! ‘A

simple monk am I’ the picture whispers. The time will also be

given to Vipassana meditation, the utmost priority will be given

to this practice, as the sole goal of renunciation is to achieve the

state of the Noble Ones, the Arahants; and the Blessed One has

affirmed many a times that:

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“This“This“This“This is is is is the the the the only one way, bhikkhus, only one way, bhikkhus, only one way, bhikkhus, only one way, bhikkhus, for the purificationfor the purificationfor the purificationfor the purification of beings, of beings, of beings, of beings,

for the overcoming of sorrow and lamentation, for the overcoming of sorrow and lamentation, for the overcoming of sorrow and lamentation, for the overcoming of sorrow and lamentation, for the disappearance of pain and grief, for the disappearance of pain and grief, for the disappearance of pain and grief, for the disappearance of pain and grief,

for reaching the Noble for reaching the Noble for reaching the Noble for reaching the Noble Path, Path, Path, Path, for the realisation of Nibbana, namely; for the realisation of Nibbana, namely; for the realisation of Nibbana, namely; for the realisation of Nibbana, namely; the Four Foundations of Mindfulness.”the Four Foundations of Mindfulness.”the Four Foundations of Mindfulness.”the Four Foundations of Mindfulness.”

In the midst of these flitting mind pictures the solitary, frail-

looking monk stands out as a ray of light in the gloom; a tiny

oasis of refreshing reality in the arid desert of delusion; a

singular, noble holy icon plodding steadily and firmly, every

step leading out of the morass of human sufferings!

Such is the Venerable Suvanno Mahathera, known as Bhante

Suvanno or more affectionately as just “Bhante”, by his

devotees; the Monk of Beautiful Discipline who practises the

Noble Path of the Elders and who has found the true meaning

of existence in the purity of the Blessed One’s Dhamma.

Who is the Venerable Acara Suvanno Mahathera?

JV: Before we attempt to answer this question, let us shed a

little light onto the world of Buddhism in Malaya, now

Malaysia. Theravada Buddhism had existed in Malaya for

centuries among the Thai ethnic community that lived along

the Peninsula’s northern border with Thailand. A vigorous

community, the Thai bhikkhu sangha had a benevolent

influence on the other races especially the Chinese in the

northern states.

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However, because of language and cultural differences, few

Chinese ordained into the Thai bhikkhu sangha. Theravada

Buddhism only began to have a significant impact on the

Malayan Chinese community early in this century as a result of

a combination of causes.

The first Theradvada society in Malaysia was the Sasana

Abhiwurdhi Wardhana Society which was registered at the end

of the 19th century. In December 1951, the then 32 year old

bhikkhu, Venerable K. Sri Dhammananda, stepped onto the

shores of Malaya. He established many programmes for the

propagation of Buddhism. (In the course of time and as will all

beings, he passed away in 2007). Early dhammaduta work was

also initiated by such persons as the Venerable Sumangalo,

born as Robert Clifton in America who in 1957 set up many

youth groups and centres in Malaya. In Penang, the Burmese

temple and some of the Thai temples had a significant effect on

the Chinese population. However, not many Malayan Chinese

monks pursue the path of meditative practice, but one of the

earliest monks is the Venerable Sujivo. Others include the

Venerable Suvanno who ordained late in life after retiring from

his job as a hospital assistant.

The Venerable Suvanno is a charismatic speaker, fluent in

English as well as the Hokkien dialect, widely used in Northern

Malaya. His lectures would draw large crowds and he is equally

at ease speaking on the deeper suttas to the intellectuals or the

basic tenets to those new to the teachings. He established the

Buddhist Hermitage in the northern Malayan village of Lunas,

one of the first monasteries to be set up by a Malayan bhikkhu.

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JV continues: In compiling this biography of the Venerable

Suvanno Mahathera, authenticity and originality have been our

main criteria. This story is not about a saint, rather it is about a

very ordinary person inspired by the truth in the Blessed One’s

teachings, who late in life, passing through many crossroads

and long, lonely journeys, with great courage and

determination, practised the Blessed One’s Teachings,

mindfully aware of the shame of doing evil and unwholesome

deeds and the deep fear of the results of evil and unwholesome

deeds.

The wisdom gained in his many years of practising the

Dhamma in all its aspects has demonstrated to him that this is

the True Path to the ending of suffering and rebirth in this

samsaric cycle of existence. This has been his lonely path. Not

all his actions have been lauded; many obstacles were in the way

of the Path that he took; sometimes he had lost his way here

and there, but faith and the correct view has guided him back

on track to the way expounded by the Blessed One.

It is our sincere wish that the discerning readers in their

evaluation of this biography will glean from it what is of value

to them and gloss over the many errors for which we the

compilers extend our deep and sincere apologies; for though we

are extremely happy to have been honoured with this task of

recording the life of this truly holy monk for posterity, we are

also aware of the onerous duty of presenting a true and

readable account. Words alone cannot adequately describe the

natural wholesome aura around Bhante Suvanno and his

actions. Thus, we beg the readers’ indulgence and hope that

they too, will share with us the Bhante’s view:

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BHANTE: The struggle to attain enlightenment is the most

glorious achievement once, one has left home, leaving all the

good relatives behind. It should be with the expressed

purpose of cutting away greed, hatred and delusion. One will

be wasting time if one were to enjoy visiting this temple, that

temple. One will surely miss the boat.

As for me, I renounced at sixty and it was my single minded

goal that I attain that supra-mundane consciousness which is

what the Blessed One advises us to do. That is what I did; to

renounce the world to do what I can for myself. If you have the

desire to improve yourself morally, I hope that you take the

opportunity to listen to my lectures and thereby gain some

benefits from my experiences. In my own case, I have no

regrets; I see a lot of progress even as I have suffered much. As I

look back to all the passing years, I can smile because I have

progressed. I have achieved what I set out to do.

JV: If reading this example of a dedicated holy life have brought

you, the reader nearer to experiencing the Truth, we have

achieved our objective. In that we are thankful and we share the

merits that we have gained in this with all the readers and

contributors to this work.

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

jinavamsa

July 2010

Selesa Hillhomes

Bukit Tinggi

28750 Bentong, Pahang

[email protected]

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Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma SamSamSamSambuddhabuddhabuddhabuddhassassassassa

CHAPTER l

THE EARLY YEARS

Reflecting deeply upon the fact

that the entire existence,

being conditioned,

is bound up with impermanence;

sabbe sankhara aniccati.

A. Suvanno A. Suvanno A. Suvanno A. Suvanno

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OUR STORY BEGINS in this little meditation hut, where

jinavamsa then spending time in solitary retreat, heard and

wrote the details of this Biography as he hears them from

Bhante Suvanno.

The kuti of jinavamsa

JV begins (as related by Bhante Suvanno): An infant is

unsteadily crawling and dragging itself along the edge of a large,

smelly monsoon drain that had been crudely dug out to release

flood waters that would otherwise accumulate during a heavy

rainfall.

At this moment, being a scourging dry period, the drain is

empty but deep. One can easily fall into it and break a leg or

neck if one is not careful, especially on pitch dark nights.

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However, the baby was safe from being drowned at this

moment but a fall would

end its very short

presence on this earth. It

was scrawny and

emaciated, about four

months old. As it picked

up some substance from

the floor, it clumsily

stuffed the scrap into its mouth. The substance could not have

been palatable or the infant could have been sick; as soon it

threw up. Along with the vomit, long wriggly things could be

seen spewing out. On closer inspection those wriggly things

were worms.

Long strings of thick, greenish mucus could be seen dangling

from its nostrils; signs of lung infection, cough or cold. The

infant was swaddled in oversized old cotton singlets used by

coolies hauling bags of rice and sugar along the river banks.

They were dirty and torn, unwashed for many days. The baby’s

faeces were sticking in patches on the swaddling cloth. The

dogs too were scrambling around the baby, competing with it in

scavenging for scraps of food, with the baby losing out in the

scramble!

The cats were better off, obviously some preferred cats to dogs

and babies, as food had been left for them in a dish on top of a

long wooden bench, over which they were now fighting. The

dogs came around, sniffed at the baby’s vomit disdainfully and

moved off in search of better fare. The noise of the dogs and

cats fighting over the scraps and the infant’s vomiting and

wailing irritated an old, dried-up looking woman.

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She broke away from the mahjong game she was involved in

with three others around a square table, came over, screamed:

“Ai-yah” and cuffed the infant on the head. Then she picked up

a piece of dirty rag from the floor and wiped off the infant’s

vomit. Next she took the screaming and struggling infant and

dumped it at another corner of the gambling den and went

back to her seat to continue her gambling, grumbling all the

time. The baby screamed and crawled around, scavenging for

food, picking up whatever scraps it could get off the unwashed

floor! Tears, dirty scraps and mucus all went into its hungry

mouth.

Who could have imagined that this was the beginning of life of

the person that would be the Bhante Suvanno, much loved and

respected abbot of the Buddhist Hermitage, Lunas; an icon of

the true teachings of the Blessed One, who has brought the

knowledge of the Blessed One’s Teachings to many worldly

beings who would otherwise be ignorant of the Dhamma.

JV continues: The Venerable Suvanno Mahathera was born,

Khoo Eng Kim, in the year 1920 in the month of June; and by

Chinese reckoning on the 15th day of the 5th month, son of a

migrant father married to a local girl. His grandfather and

father were migrants of Fukkien ancestry from China. They

came to Malaya at the turn of the 20th century for a new start in

life, in the rich rubber, tin and gold-producing country known

as Malaya.

They made their way from Penang to Nibong Tebal and arrived

at a place known as Lubok Buntar, a town of a few hundred

families, where they decided to stay.

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Numerous immigrants from China came over at that time.

They came and were engaged in different forms of livelihood.

Some learnt to tap for latex, working in the rubber estates that

served as collection centres, processing the rubber sheets that

would eventually be sold to the big British companies for

export overseas. Some set up their own small holdings to

cultivate rubber planting; others offered different forms of

services to serve the rubber and other industries that were then

fast developing in Malaya; all were making their livelihood from

the rubber plantations in the surrounding areas.

It was at this time and place that

Khoo Eng Kim was born. Less than a

month old (the Hokkien calls it muar

guet, full moon) his natural mother

left his father. She had been very

much abused and with the baby born,

she wanted to be free from further

abuses. The child was born into a

family where wife abuse prevailed.

Prior to the child’s birth, the mother

had been constantly abused by the

husband, who appeared to be unable to cope with the

uprooting of his life from the farms of Fukkien Province to the

rubber plantations of the new land the father had brought

them to. [Eng Kim’s old house where he drew up as a boy, pic]

She left with what meagre belongings she could take away

without attracting attention. Quietly, afraid to look back lest

she should lose courage to do what she wanted to and wiping

away the tears from her weary eyes, the poor abused young

mother left the house as quickly as she could.

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The future Venerable Bhante Suvanno’s Dhamma lectures put

much emphasis on good family life and the virtuous quality

that husbands and wives should maintain in their relationship.

He himself believed that husbands and wives shared a very

special bond; that their being together was not accidental and

that each should appreciate this unique opportunity in this

present life to devote to each other’s spiritual development.

JV: During Dhamma lectures, Bhante Suvanno would often

elaborate on The Blessed One’s classification of the four types

of homes: 1. Home where a male ghost lives with a female ghost.

2. Home where a male ghost lives with a goddess

3. Home where a god lives with a female ghost

4. Home where a god lives with a goddess.

The first home is where both the husband and wife break the

Five Precepts, often quarrel, lose tempers often and use harsh

and acrimonious words to each other. They are both wicked

and narrow-minded, not understanding each other’s problems,

whims and fancies and they do not forgive and forget each

other’s mistakes.

The second home is where the husband has all the vices

mentioned but the wife refrains from them. She is tolerant,

patient, kind and understanding, wise, broad-minded and

observes the Five Precepts. She loves her husband and children,

forgiving and forgetting their shortcomings.

The third home is where the husband does all the good deeds

mentioned while his wife has all the vices.

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A home where both partners do all the good deeds belong to

the fourth category; the ideal home. It is where members live

according to correct principles such that it generates an

atmosphere of happiness, love, peace and harmony.

Sweet is Life in using Dear Pleasant Words One to Another

He further illustrates the idealistic quality of a pure virtuous

husband-and-wife relationship by the following story:

JV: The Blessed One had

taught that husband and wife

should live as god and goddess

in every land where His

Dhamma shines. Home is

heaven on earth.

Pure, like lilies, in ecstatic

unity lived Nakula-pita and

his wife, Nakula-mata. One morning when The Blessed One visited

their home, they received Him with full reverence, spread Him a royal

seat and sat at His feet.

Said the father of Nakula, “Lord, ever since a mere lad, I brought the

mother of Nakula home to me as a bride, she who was so tenderly

young. I transgressed not against her in thought, much less in person.

Lord, we love to see each other in this life. We love to live together in

the next life, too, eyeing each other with love”. Nakula-mata, too made

the same assertion to the The Blessed One. And the Lord said to them:

“They that are matched in faith, in virtue, in wisdom, they always

behold each other in this life, and in the next life, too”.

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On that occasion, the Lord further said: “If both, full of faith and

charity, lived according to the Dhamma, self-controlled and using dear

pleasant words one unto another, many are the blessings that come to

them. The same sweet virtue unites them and dejected, their enemies

become”.

“Thus, living the righteous life in this world, both in virtue matched, in

the heavenly would they rejoice, having won the bliss they desired”.

Tender, too, is the tale of their old age. Nakula-pita was very old and

gravely ill. He was nearing death and become sorrowful for his children

and Nakula-mata, the holy wife standing by the bedside, consoling him

saying:

“Be not anxious, my lord. Be not unhappy, my lord. Lust not for

anything. Death with lust is not praised by The Blessed One.

Therefore, be peaceful, lord”.

“Think not, dear lord, that I will not be able to feed the children when

you are gone. Think not so, dear husband, for I am deft at spinning

cotton and at carding the matted wool”.

“Be comforted, dear husband! Even when you are gone I will earn my

living and feed the children, too. Be comforted, dear husband! When

you are gone I shall not seek other men. Wherever we are, lord, we will

forever be united in mind”.

“Lord, you know how we, ever since we met the Blessed One, have

lived the holy life even in this very house”.

“Husband dear! You know that we live the holy life for full sixteen

years”.

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“Or, husband dear, you may think thus: ‘The dear lady, when I am

gone, will have no love to see The Blessed One, no desire to minister to

the Saintly Brethren’”.

“Think not so, husband dear! Be comforted! Even when you are gone, I

shall love to see The Blessed One, I shall love to minister to the Holy

Brethren”.

“Or, husband dear, you may think: ‘The dear lady, when I am gone,

will not grow in sanctity’”.

“But think not so, husband dear! Be comforted! For, as long as The

Blessed One will have white-robed women lay disciples who are sacredly

virtuous, I too will be one of them”.

“Husband dear! Be full of peace. If any shall doubt the truths I

confided to thee, let him go to the very The Blessed One, The Lord, The

Awakened One. He is now residing at Bhagga”.

When he had heard these words, Nakula-pita became whole and rising

from his sick-bed, he hastened to Lord, the Blessed One, leaning on a

staff. And after saluting The Blessed One, he sat down on one side and

confided to Him marvelous things that Nakula-mata had said.

And the Blessed One said to Nakula-pita: “It has been to your gain, O

householder; it has been to your great gain, O householder, that you

possess Nakula-mata, so full of compassion, so full of love and desiring

your weal, as a counselor, as a teacher”. When he had heard these

words Nakula-pita became very happy and after paying The Blessed

One homage, returned home full of health and peace.

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JV continues: Forty years later, Khoo Eng Kim was contacted

by a person who claimed to be his half brother! He had come

all the way from Singapore, specifically looking for him, at the

only address known to his runaway mother.

Unfortunately, Eng Kim was not able to meet him due to work

commitment at the hospital where he was then working as a

hospital assistant. Due to their experience and down-to-earth

relationship with patients, they were much loved and respected.

They were in reality more sought after than doctors. He had to

forgo meeting his half brother; however, before leaving, the

disappointed half brother left an address where his mother was

then residing.

Eng Kim was unable to do anything to make an attempt to see

his mother. However, during the whole year that he was busy

attending to his duties, he spent time happily planning to visit

his mother at the address given. In preparation he bought a

new car, a few gifts and saved a large sum of money. It was in

his mind as a good filial son to honour his mother the way the

Blessed One taught.

When he was ready, Eng Kim took leave and drove to

Singapore in his new car to seek out the address left behind by

the half brother.

He had great expectation and happiness, for this was the first

time that he will be seeing his own mother whom he had

missed all the while, pined for, and dreamed of in his lonely

days. In his thoughts, he had always wondered how his mother

looked like and the eagerness was there to see the actual person

in flesh.

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He wanted to ask her forgiveness that he had not been able to

see her and care for her, and now that he was in good financial

situation he wanted her to be proud of him.

Sadly, time had taken its toll as the people living at that address

had moved away with no forwarding address. It was a terrible

blow to his dreams and hopes. Tears of disappointment and

frustration welled up in his heart. So close and yet unreachable!

KHOO ENG KIM: Have I really done so many unwholesome

deeds in my past existences that I am not able to see the only

person in my life that I truly want to know and love? When will

my kammic debt be finally accounted for?

JV: Deeply saddened and disappointed, he wept and lamented.

In his disappointment, Eng Kim did not wish to pursue the

matter further even though some well-meaning friends

suggested that he advertised to seek his mother as they are

reasonably sure that she was in Singapore. The journey home

was a long, lonely journey!

After the mother left, Eng Kim’s fortune deteriorated. The

father never cared for the infant’s well-being. It was left to the

grandfather to take care of the boy.

When it was discovered that the mother was missing, he and

auntie next door searched all over the little town to find her

whereabouts. They checked with the immediate neighbours,

enquired at the market place, went to the river side, searched

along the streets, all to no avail. They could only conclude that

she had probably run away.

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The auntie later confirmed the boy’s mother had constantly

complained about her husband’s bad treatment of her. The

grandfather too remembered that she had recently mentioned

about being contented that she had given him a male child to

take care of him in his old age. That was her duty as a daughter-

in-law.

After several days had lapsed, they finally accepted the fact that

she had run away. Help had to be sought for the care of the

little motherless Eng Kim. The grandfather turned to a woman

whom he knew well. This woman ran a gambling house to

which he had often frequented. He knew she also had a little

grandson to look after. It would be good if she could at the

same time care for little Eng Kim. After all she would have the

experience and probably be less expensive.

Eng Kim’s grandfather was a thrifty man. He counted every

penny. Used to living a hard life in their native homeland, the

migrants were usually thrifty to the extent of being miserly.

That also accounted for their ability to save their wealth. Thus,

the first generation new-comers were well-known to spend very

little of their hard-earned wealth.

So it was arranged that the woman should look after the

month-old infant. She was paid a certain sum of money as well

as a tin of condensed milk every alternate day. In the year 1920,

powdered milk was not available as yet. Only a popular brand

condensed milk served as a diet for babies that were not breast

fed. Most babies were breast fed at that time. It was probably

more convenient, as no baby food was available, unlike what we

can get from hyper-markets today.

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The only sources of baby food were mother’s milk, porridge,

soft rice and condensed milk. In Eng Kim’s situation,

condensed milk appeared to be ideal. The gambling auntie

would definitely not have time to make elaborate meals for the

infant! The worst of it is that Eng Kim had to share his tin of

condensed milk with the other baby in the house!

Of course the other baby had the lion share and poor Eng Kim

had to do with a pale white liquid as his staple diet! The effect

of such malnutrition was so bad that in his adult years, Bhante

Suvanno was reluctant to consume any liquid that is white in

colour!

At bed time, baby Eng Kim, neglected by the minder, would

crawl to any corner of the gambling den and fall asleep. When

he had whooping cough, it was left to cure by itself. In most

cases the baby-minder would let nature take its course. The days

were miserable for baby Eng Kim. The nights were worse. There

was no mother’s warmth to keep away the chill of the night.

There was no warm milk to settle in for bed time, not even a

clean wash did the baby get. Unknowing to the baby it was a

daily battle to keep alive. Dirt and diseases were his constant

companions, and stray cats and dogs his only playmates. When

Bhante Suvanno feeds the monastery cats in Lunas there is

always a faraway look in his eyes. Reminiscing the companions

of his baby days?

JV continues: One can imagine the amount of food that the

infant Eng Kim would get after the other baby had his share. In

the course of time, due to constant hunger, the infant, now a

year old and learning to walk, picked up anything he can find

on the floor and would hungrily shove it into his mouth.

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That included left-overs, food droppings on the floor and even

food thrown into the waste containers, as he fought with the

cat for scraps.

These filthy living conditions led, naturally to the infestation of

worms. He coughed up worms; worms were pulled out from his

nostrils, he even threw up worms and passed out all sorts of

worms. He had an extended belly infested with worms. Worms

and parasites made his body their home! Eventually a kind-

hearted person de-wormed the one-year old little boy.

Hundreds of disgusting worms were dispelled from the under-

nourished baby.

Worms were not the only problem. On occasions, his

grandfather would come by in the evenings to bring Eng Kim

some biscuits and check on his progress. One such evening,

while extending a biscuit to the crawling baby, he noticed that

the baby was groping about and was not able to see the biscuit

and so discovered that the little baby had night blindness!

The father never showed up to enquire about Eng Kim. Old

grandfather was the only living being showing some concern for

his welfare. Grandfather however was too busy in his business

to really care much. It was more like a duty to ensure that the

family name had a chance to survive! Throughout Eng Kim’s

young life, the grandfatherly concern for him was the only kind

thing he experienced.

We are aware that most criminals, child abusers, drug addicts,

all undesirable human dregs have their beginnings under the

conditions and environment Eng Kim was born into.

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With such a background it would hardly be surprising for him

to have taken to a life of crime and thus come to a sad end.

Against all these odds, he became the Venerable Suvanno

Mahathera!

The sufferings and hardships of his juvenile years have instilled

in him the paramount aspiration to bring the Dhamma to all

beings. He is comparable to the lotus that rose above the rest in

the lotus pond. Strong yet pliant, a monk of beautiful

discipline! Through the many difficult times, his deep reverence

for the Blessed One, the Dhamma and the Sangha had been his

strength and light. He has never wavered from the correct path,

the path of the elders, the Theravada way.

Through two tumultuous years, often beset with illness,

abandoned and ridden with worms and uncared for, Eng Kim

was then brought home to stay with his father. His troubles

became magnified!

Grandfather remarried, and the woman he married had a

grown-up daughter from a previous marriage. This daughter

eventually became Eng Kim’s stepmother. During meal times,

grandfather ate first and only after he had had his full was Eng

Kim allowed the leftovers. Grandfather left the running of the

house to grandmother. Eng Kim had to be constantly on his

best behaviour. Should he talk loudly he would be rewarded

with a rude shout and a slap on the mouth. When he talked

softly he would get a scolding and another slap. The father

often thrashed him at the slightest excuse. In his father’s house,

he was under constant threat of abuse. In those days coal was

used as an essential fuel for cooking and it usually came packed

in jute bags large enough to put a little boy in.

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The bags are often used and re-used and were dirty and black.

At any instance when the elders were feeling wicked they would

threaten poor Eng Kim that they would “put him into the bag

and send him away by post”. The idea was very fearful and

grandmother knew he was fearful of the threat and they used it

quite a lot to scare the poor little thing! Whenever they

threatened him with the bag, he would imagine being tied up

in the blackness and bundled to know not where! He would

actually tremble with fear.

Grandmother too, did her share of “Eng Kim bashing”. Among

others, one particular instance that the now Bhante

remembered was the time when the grandmother, using the

fingers of both hands, pinched very hard on Eng Kim’s cheeks.

It was a long and painful pinch! Afterwards both cheeks were

swollen for days. The strain on the grandmother’s fingers too

were severely felt. She had used great pressure to execute the

pinch! As she could not use her fingers to continue the

punishment she bent both arms and using the back of the palm

without harming the fingers bashed Eng Kim on the head

repeatedly, at the same time complaining and blaming him for

inflicting pain on her fingers! Poor Eng Kim of course was

again punished by the father for hurting poor grandma!

That particular day, he ended up with bruised and swollen

cheeks, a thrashed buttock and of course a headache! On top of

that he crawled to his sleeping corner with no food. At best,

almost everyone, probably with the exception of grandfather,

considered Eng Kim an unwanted person: a baggage to be

tolerated and made use of when the occasion demands which

were many and often. He was not treated as a little growing

human person.

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At that early age, Eng Kim saw the wretchedness of existence;

there was no one that he could run to and cry his heart out, to

share the pain of his physical and mental anguish. There was

no one to salve the bodily and mental wounds heaped on him

in regular doses. Mother’s love and care were never his solace.

He asked himself countless times: “Why me?”

As an impressionable growing young boy negative values were

the only standards set for him. Young people learn from the

elders’ examples. The young Eng Kim never learned his elders’

ways!

Bhante Suvanno confided that after understanding the

workings of kamma, he never felt any grudge against anybody.

He understood clearly that the people who acted

unwholesomely towards him were the agents of his kamma

vipaka. Hence he reasoned that his sufferings were due to that

and thus nobody but he was the cause of his sufferings! At one

stage of his life, while stumbling over a small obstacle, he

sustained a broken bone which had to be replaced. He mildly

stated that in his past existence he could have been a horse or

an animal of some sort and could have kicked and broken

someone’s leg.

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NamoNamoNamoNamo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma SSSSamamamambbbbuddhauddhauddhauddhassassassassa

CHAPTER 2

FORMATIVE YEARS

“It is certain that “It is certain that “It is certain that “It is certain that the sun the sun the sun the sun will rise,will rise,will rise,will rise,

wwwwhen the darkness hen the darkness hen the darkness hen the darkness of night fades away.of night fades away.of night fades away.of night fades away. So too the words So too the words So too the words So too the words ofofofof The Blessed The Blessed The Blessed The Blessed OneOneOneOne a a a are always re always re always re always certain and certain and certain and certain and reliable.”reliable.”reliable.”reliable.”

BHANTE: So it was that every day one or another of my elders

and even younger step siblings would be abusing, bullying or

caning me, so much so that I realised life was suffering. Even

with being very careful I was still thrashed everyday. Everyone

was just making one excuse or another to see that I was the one

needing to be punished.

One day I was in school the whole day and I escaped thrashing.

When I came home I ran upstairs to the tiny, unused room that

was my sleeping place and I prayed to Tien Kong. “Aiyah, Tien

Kong ah, everyday I am thrashed. Please, lah… make me a good

man so that I will not undergo all this thrashing lah”.

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While all these tortures were going on it was also expected that

I should get first, second or third position in the school where I

was studying, the Anglo-Chinese School, Nibong Tebal. Why

did they want it? It was because books would be given free by

the school based on the students’ performance. So it was

necessary that I had to struggle very hard to achieve good

results.

BHANTE continues: One day after food and after all my

chores were done, I went up as usual to my room to keep away

from the elders and be by myself. There I discovered the paint

from the wall was peeling off. Somehow I was attracted to it. I

peeled off a flake and tasted it! It was so good that I ate it! I

became very thirsty. From then onwards after every meal I

would go upstairs, tear a flake of the lime wall and eat it. On

hindsight I believe my body was lacking in calcium and thus I

was attracted to eat this substance that had it. This went on for

months after which I had a disgust for this lime, probably

because I had sufficient calcium in my body. So I stopped

eating the little pieces of the wall of my room!

At this time of my schooling, strict rules were specially made for

me by my grandmother. During every school holiday, usually in

December, she would say to me, “get a piece of paper” and then

she would dictate a long schedule of work that I alone would

have to accomplish:

At seven o’clock in the morning I must sweep the house, seven-

thirty I must scrub the courtyard and then on I had to separate

the rubber sheets and dry them in the sun. There were usually

fifty to sixty sheets a day.

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My grandfather was making money from his rubber business. I

was the one doing all the work, scrubbing, cleaning and all sorts

of things daily. This schedule would end only after all my

chores in her list were done, usually around ten or eleven at

night. She saw to it that it was a very tight schedule so that

there was no time for me to get out and mix with other

children of my age.

In between the work of the schedule there were errands to run.

It was always “where is Eng Kim” and I would always have to be

available. If I was not, there would be thrashing. This went on

until I was in standard four.

The next year in 1932, I had to go to the Bukit Mertajam (BM)

High School as the previous school did not cater for standard

five. In the examinations we achieved very good results. Thirty

of us went and eleven of us had double promotion. I happened

to be the second boy! I was very pleased with myself.

After the fleeting happiness that my scholastic achievements

brought me, I felt empty and aimless. I did not feel a sense of

belonging. Seeing others with caring parents made me realise

that I lacked and missed parental love especially mother’s. How

does it feel to have parents’ love?

My father couldn’t care less about happened to me. He never

gave me a cent. He was always keeping watch to see that I was

doing my work. Although he did not know a word of English,

he used to make me learn my lessons by heart and he would

compare word for word. The slightest mistake would be

sufficient excuse for thrashing me.

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My grandfather was the only person who ever gave me pocket

money. In a way I was his “pet”. However, he was a very thrifty

person, so he only gave me sufficient money to buy a plate of

rice and a cup of iced water. He was always busy and had not

much time for me. He was the only person that did not lay a

finger on me. But should he shout I would be very afraid. I had

never asked for money from any of my relatives.

My grandfather became quite rich. He had three pieces of good

rubber estates and he was making money. My father ran a small

shop down there and of course he did not make much money

as my grandfather controlled everything.

Habitually, during school days, I studied from seven to nine in

the evening, After nine in the evening, I was allowed to go out

for half an hour or so. I used to walk across the road where

there was a gospel hall. In that gospel hall the pastor used to

preach in Teochew (a local Chinese dialect). This was in

Nibong Tebal and I enjoyed listening to this sort of thing.

This pastor always arrived in a car which had horns like

trumpet. When pressed it went beee borrr beee borrr beee

borrr. Such cars being very few, it was natural that curious

children would try and press the trumpet like horn; beee borrr,

beee borrr.

In one particular instance, as I was listening to the pastor

explaining the Christian religion, the pastor’s daughter came

out to find out the cause of the din. Of course all the children

ran away. On seeing me alone, though away from the car, she

started to shout at me. I told her politely that it was not I that

had pressed on the horn. She shouted, “I saw you doing it”.

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At that moment my father passed by. On hearing the pastor’s

daughter shouting at me and without asking for an explanation,

he dragged me by my collar straight to the house, opened the

door and called “ Everyone come and see. This is the way I

teach my children”. He thrashed me until I was bleeding from

my buttocks. He thrashed me again and again until the feather

duster broke into two. For days I was unable to sit without the

pants sticking to the wounds on my buttocks. I dared not

complain or ask for medication. It was extreme suffering. The

indignation and humiliation I felt at the injustice was so

overwhelming that the tears could not come. I took the

punishment but the hurt lasted for some time.

I was at this time in Junior Cambridge. For the first time I saw

clearly that not only was I tortured in this house but also that I

had no freedom to talk. I had said it was not that I had done

the mischief and that I was listening. My father did not believe

me but dragged me home and thrashed me in front of the

neighbours and everyone on the street. Since that day I was very

cool towards my father. When he passed away at age fifty-seven,

I did everything for him but there were no tears.

JV: Not only was he thrashed by his father, the grandmother

too was a mean and fierce woman and used to threaten him

right before a meal. “Just you wait. After this meal you will get

the hiding of your life”. This was no idle threat. She would

actually cane him after the meal without a reason! Eng Kim

remembered that with the threat hanging over his head, he

would definitely have lost his appetite and become so nervous

that at times he peed in his pants, agonising over the beating he

would get after the meal!

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Grandmother was a very avaricious person and to make extra

money would prepare fruits and cakes for sale. Eng Kim would

be conscripted to hawk these fruits and cakes. Every cent would

be brought home to grandmother. Eng Kim would take the

fruits and cakes to school and sell these to the other students.

Young Eng Kim had to endure a very heavy work schedule

without any appreciation or reward. School work too had to be

done in order to get good results to qualify for free books! The

threat of abuses was always hanging over him. There was no

knowing when a smack would suddenly land on him!

Additional to these chores, he had added work to look after a

nine and three quarter pound new-born baby!

His step grandmother arranged for Eng Kim’s father to take her

own daughter to be his wife, thus ensuring that whatever wealth

there was in the family remained within her control! The

marriage produced three children, thus Eng Kim had three step

brother and sisters. It was also Eng Kim’s chores to mind the

baby in his spare time!

As a scrawny, nervous little boy suffering from inadequate

nutrition, he had to do the house chores, mind a great big baby

and meantime trying to do his school work! When the step

siblings saw the mean measures meted out to Eng Kim, they too

did the same to him, following the examples set by the elders.

There was not a single day that he had the luxury of not

suffering any form of abuses. Everyday was to awake to a day of

fear and uncertainty. He was weary of mind and body, weary of

life itself.

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JV continues: Life went on suffering from day to day. Wearing

apparel was also an item of suffering. At age seven and eight,

the only daily wear was the school uniform, tattered and worn.

It was to his credit that at any time he went from the house, he

would dress as smartly as he could with whatever clothes that

he could find. He recounted that most times he had to pick

clothes from the leftovers and unwanted clothing left heaped

up in a corner at the back of the house. Most times, all he

could find were large old pants that were worn and thrown

away by his father. He remembered that he could easily get into

a single leg of a pair of trousers from his father.

A lady from next door took pity on him and suggested that

should he need to do anything outside of the house, to inform

her so that she could run the errands for him! This freed him

of the need to wear his father’s leftover clothes.

At this time, whenever he had the opportunity, he would read

any Buddhist literature he could find. This was the only form

of consolation to his abuse-fatigued mind. He started to take his

precepts at this young age!

He was deliberately kept so poverty-stricken so that he could

not buy any extra books needed. He used to walk to a friend’s

house nearly four kilometers aways to borrow books to study.

He used to earn a few cents on the quiet by selling kerosene

tins of dried rubber seed shells which he picked up on his own.

These were popular as fuel in the kitchen. With the money he

used to buy broken pieces of cakes from the factory nearby, for

his own snacks.

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When he reached home after walking from school, there would

be sufficient food left for him but there would be many dirty

plates and cooking utensils for him to clean up! There would be

rarely any sort of fruits left for him. Should he be lucky there

would be probably be one or two pieces of mango left on a

plate for him, not so much to treat him but ensure that he

washed the dishes!

He had only one pair of shoes at any one time. When they were

wet, he used to dry them over a fire of burnt old exercise books.

During a rare leisure moment while playing leap frog, he had

the misfortune to fall which caused a greenstick fracture in one

of his arms. Knowing that he would be thrashed if he were to

inform his father the reason for the fall, he bore the pain and

compressed the fracture back into position. The whole night

was a torture of pain till the next morning, where at school he

has the fracture properly attended to and came home to say

that he had a fall while at school.

In spite of all these hardship, he did very well in his scholastic

work. All his suffering taught him to be dependent only on

himself. In times of extreme suffering he frequently reminded

himself that the Blessed One said: ‘take refuge only in yourself’.

During examination times, he would study till early of the next

morning and would be up before day-break.

He failed his Junior Cambridge once. This of course brought

along with it a thrashing from father. All these accumulated

sufferings and emotional pain drove him to consider suicide.

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On one such occasion, after deep reflection, he decided against

it and was on the brink of running away from home. He had

his belongings packed in readiness. However this too did not

happen. As he later said, he did not have the courage to follow

his desires to die or to run away.

He took his Junior Cambridge a second time and passed with

good results. Later he too did very well in his Senior Cambridge

Examination. Bhante has a special interest in the welfare of

young people originating presumably from the intense painful

experience in a family environment of abusive elders, parents

and siblings. Knowing that such hardships do happen, he

viewed young people and their families with compassion and

loving-kindness.

His usual question of enquiry on meeting a young person was,

“Who is the person you love most in your life?” He would like

the answer to be ‘Mother’. In the Blessed One’s Teachings,

Mother is the most loving and caring person; there is no other

love greater than a mother’s love especially in looking after her

sick child. She will make many sacrifices for her child to get

well. A mother’s love have no condition. This was the view held

by Bhante Suvanno throughout his life as a monk.

In their turn children should love and look after their parents

when they are unable to fend for themselves. Children should

thank their parents for the love and care the parents have

lavished on them.

On an occasion when he was in a devotee’s house he gave a

piece of chocolate to the thirteen-year-old boy. The young boy

very politely thanked Bhante. He then asked the boy:

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BHANTE: Tell me, son, how long have your father and

mother looked after you, fed you, cared for you and seen to it

that you are always well?

PUZZLED BOY: Since I was born.

BHANTE: Is that not a very long time for them to do so? Tell

me, son, do you say “Thank you” to them every morning for all

those daily care, just as you have said to me when I gave you a

little bar of chocolate?

JV continues: At a party when he was five, he was given a gift.

Poor and with an uncaring father, he never had the luxury of

receiving any gifts at all. Therefore he really wanted to keep this

one. However, he realised that in reaching home, step-mother

would surely take it away from him. He understood well that

possessing or feeling attached to a gift would not bring him any

permanent happiness but suffering. Thus at a young age, he

realised that sensual pleasures were only temporary and gave

rise to attachment which caused suffering.

Thus, his realisation of the Dhamma began at this young age

where he contemplated on the implications of possession of a

simple gift. Any child at this age would probably grab the gift

and run away to play with it. The great degree of suffering that

had been inflicted on the young Eng Kim had conditioned him

to reflect constantly on the sort of punishment that would be

meted out to him if he were to enjoy just a few moments of

possession! Eng Kim had never experience the security and joy

of a closed family, a father’s and mother’s love and care which

is so important to a growing young person.

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His total life experiences told him that everything around him

was a huge mass of suffering, mentally and physically. Every

experience in his young life had been so conditioned. The

realisation of the First Noble Truth, dukkha (unsatisfactory

condition or suffering) in existence had been forcibly drummed

into him at this early age.

It was in his teens that he developed tuberculosis, a disease of

the lungs. However he was not aware that he had this, then

dreaded disease. It was many years later as a hospital assistance

that he understood that the night sweating that he had

experienced for many months, when he was a teenager were

symptoms of the disease.

The squalor that he lived in, the poor hygiene, staying in a

small poorly ventilated room meant for storing, suffering from

malnutrition for many years, ultimately brought on this

dreaded disease.

He discovered that he had heavy sweating during the night

accompanied by a dry hacking cough. He could actually wring

the sweat from his sleeping wear. He had had this for quite

some time. However, without medical care or medication, the

symptoms disappeared and he was well again.

It was not so fortunate for the baby that “shared” little Eng

Kim’s milk. At a comparatively early age, he passed away due to

tuberculosis!

Dhamma was his constant guide. It was the light of his young

existence. At age twelve he took a further step into deeper

Dhamma. He said:

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BHANTE: Earlier, when I was in Standard Four, my sixth year

of schooling, there was a Mr. Liew who had become a monk.

Unable to accept this, the wife had constantly wept and cried.

Eventually he had to leave monkhood. When he left

monkhood he came back to Nibong Tebal. He saw that I was

interested in Buddhism and volunteered to teach me. He

taught me pure Theravada Buddhism and the basics of samatha

meditation. I practised very diligently.

My teacher, however, practised so intensely that he became

mentally unbalanced. Probably he was not well trained. So

when I was in Standard Four I thought it over deeply. I did not

want to be practising the wrong type of meditation; I was very

cautious. It was quite timely for at this time I was to be

transferred to BM High School for my Standard Five. This was

the time when eleven of us gained double promotion to enter

the new school.

BHANTE continues: When the school examination was

finished and I was promoted, I became very active in my

Buddhist studies. I even wrote to Kandy, Sri Lanka, requesting

for Dhamma books. They sent me the books. This enhanced

my knowledge of Buddhism. Before this my knowledge and

understanding of Buddhism was very general. Now I became

especially attracted to the practice of Theravada Buddhism.

I joined the Penang Buddhist Association later and started to

compare other forms of Buddhism. I became very convinced of

the purity of the Blessed One’s Teachings as taught and

practised in the Theravada tradition.

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I learnt to meditate when I was twelve years old. I became very

keen to go on with my practice. I practised in the evenings and

late at night I read my books by candlelight. The knowledge

gained from reading the Blessed One’s Teachings from the

books sent to me from Sri Lanka gave me so much faith and

understanding of my life that I had the urge to renounce

straight away. I was prepared to renounce the world after

reading the first book that was sent to me from Sri Lanka; I

recall the book was titled ‘Words of the Buddha’.

In that book, it started off with the Blessed One explaining that

it is through not understanding four things that we are reborn

again and again, repeatedly, until all the tears that we have shed

from our previous lives are greater than all the waters of the

oceans in the world.

As I read that, tears welled from my eyes. I saw the horror of my

existence. I began to understand why I was going through my

sufferings. I realised that the results of my actions in my

previous existences were the cause of my present situation. I

understood that I was suffering the effects of past causes. I held

no grudges against the instigators of my sufferings. They are

only the tools in my kamma. Since then I have been very

careful not to violate my precepts. In my teens I became very

well versed in the Four Noble Truths and the Noble Eightfold

Path.

JV: Five years later, his enthusiasm for the Blessed One’s

teachings was even more so. With this continuing fervour for

the realisation of the Truth and influenced by the many

volumes of Dhamma that he had read, Eng Kim was very keen

to enter monkhood at the young age of nineteen years.

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He approached the late Venerable K. Gunaratana, abbot of

Mahindarma Temple, to request for ordination. He was refused

as he was not able to produce an approval letter from his

parents. However, he was not about to give up so easily. He

even suggested that they sent him to Sri Lanka. This too was

refused! He was frustrated with not being able to renounce; he

could not understand why they needed a letter of approval

from his parents.

Today Bhante Suvanno himself requests that a young man

below the age of twenty must have a sincere and genuine

approval by parents and he tells why.

BHANTE: During the time of the Blessed One, there was a very rich

old couple and they had an only son. Together with them there were

twenty slaves in the house. One day, after returning from listening to a

discourse by the Blessed One, the son approached the parents and

requested permission to renounce the world and become a monk. The

father and mother said, ‘You are our only son, we have acquired a

huge fortune for you. Wait till you are in possession of the fortune.

Then you can enjoy yourself, do dana and then renounce and be a

monk’.

However, the boy was so desirous of practising the Dhamma, he

insisted that he must renounce. He lay himself down on the floor and

said, ‘I will die here until you give me permission’.

The parents requested the help of his friends to persuade the boy not to

renounce as yet. Try as they might, they were not able to change his

mind. So they advised the parents to acquiesce to his request. ‘Allow

him to go and when he becomes an arahant, he might come back’. So

the parents reluctantly gave their permission.

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After renouncing and knowing from the Blessed One of a group of

monk going to a forest retreat one hundred and forty miles away, he

volunteered to be in that group. After five years he was not able to

progress in his development, not even after the tenth year was he able to

achieve anything at all. This was because the perfection was not pure

as he had left his parents against their will.

Back home, in the meantime, the twenty slaves robbed the old couple of

all their wealth, leaving them only the house to stay in. Unfortunately,

the old couple were afflicted with cataract and were nearly blind. Not

having a means to feed themselves, they had to resort to begging from

the doorway of their house. So the old couple who were once very rich

became nearly blind beggars, begging for food in front of their house.

One day, a newly-ordained monk from the same village as the old

couple, coincidentally arrived at the same forest retreat that the young

son came ten years ago. They met each other and following a

conversation, the young son, now grown up, was brought to tears to

hear that his aged parents had been robbed of all their wealth and not

only that but they were nearly blind and unable to support themselves,

thus having to beg in front of their house.

Realising that his anxiety to renounce against his parents’ wish had

brought in this ill fortune, he was determined to return to help as best

as he could. Quietly the same night, he walked the one hundred and

forty miles back to his home town.

On arriving at the junction where one lead to his home and the other

to the abode where the Blessed One was staying and after pondering a

while, his pious nature took over and he went first to pay his respects to

the Blessed One. After that he went straight to his parents’ home. On

arriving at the front door, he stood quietly and waited.

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The parents were sitting outside. After a while the father, sensing and

dimly seeing a monk at the door, said to his wife, ‘My dear wife, there

is a monk standing at the front door. Please tell him that we have

nothing to give.’ So the mother being also partly blind, went up to the

monk and said, ‘Venerable sir, please go to some other house. We are

so very poor that we have nothing to give you’.

When he saw his mother walking to him, obviously blind, he was so

overwhelmed with compassion for his mother, he could not move. The

mother approached and told him the second time. Yet he was not able

to say or do anything. So deep was the remorse that came over him.

‘Have you spoken to him that we have nothing to give?’

‘Yes I have’.

The third time the mother went up to the monk and said, ‘Venerable

monk, we have nothing to give you, please forgive us’.

Still he stood and was unable to move or say anything! The father

began to suspect; walking slowly near to the monk, the father said:

‘Can it be that you are our son?’

Father and mother on approaching nearer, recognised that this was

indeed their son! The reunion was so tinged with happiness and sadness

that tears flowed freely. The three hugged one another.

‘Do not worry, my dear father and mother. I will go out and support

you with food’. And so he went out daily, begging for food. On

returning he would let his parents have the food and went out to beg

again for a second round which was usually too late. He therefore had

to go without food most of the time.

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On a visit to a local temple, his fellow monks saw that he was losing

weight and reported the matter to the Blessed One. The Blessed One

then sent for him.

On receiving the message that the Blessed One had sent for him, he

was prepared to accept some sort of censure as he realised that begging

for food was for oneself and not for others.

On explaining his actions to the Blessed One, he was overwhelmed by

the Blessed One’s words: ‘Well done, my son, sadhu, sadhu, sadhu.

You have done what I myself did when I was a Bodhisatta’. On

hearing the Blessed One’s words, he immediately attained the stage of

sotapatti!

JV: All this while, Eng Kim’s spiritual development appeared

subconsciously to be heading towards the life of a ‘homeless

one’. Once, when he was about 14 years old, he was seen sleep-

walking towards the market-place, holding in his hands a big

soup bowl, as though he was on alms round. This happened

more than once, so much so that if he was found missing, the

family members would check out the bowl and finding that

missing too, would look for him in the market-place by the

riverside. Invariably he would be found dazed, holding onto the

bowl! He explained that probably in one of his previous lives he

must have been a monk.

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NamoNamoNamoNamo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato SammaTassa Bhagavato Arahato SammaTassa Bhagavato Arahato SammaTassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma SSSSambuddhassaambuddhassaambuddhassaambuddhassa

CHAPTER 3

BETTER TIMES

JV: Bhante was passionate about family relationship and family

value was always topmost in

his Dhamma lectures. This is

definitely a direct result of

his need for real family

togetherness which was

totally lacking in his

childhood days. He had

always lamented on never

having an opportunity where mother and father were icons for

true family warmth and closeness.

BHANTE on Family Values: The Blessed One taught that

parents have the duty to educate their children, to bring them

up properly and to steer them away from wrong, to guide them

towards what is right. Children too have the duty to respect

their parents and to attend to their needs.

THE BLESSED ONE says: "There are two people "There are two people "There are two people "There are two people in your in your in your in your life that you can never repay; your mother andlife that you can never repay; your mother andlife that you can never repay; your mother andlife that you can never repay; your mother and father. They father. They father. They father. They give birth to you, nourish you, bring you up, teach yougive birth to you, nourish you, bring you up, teach yougive birth to you, nourish you, bring you up, teach yougive birth to you, nourish you, bring you up, teach you and and and and educate you. Yeducate you. Yeducate you. Yeducate you. You can never repay them even if you ou can never repay them even if you ou can never repay them even if you ou can never repay them even if you were to were to were to were to carry them on your shoulder for the rest of carry them on your shoulder for the rest of carry them on your shoulder for the rest of carry them on your shoulder for the rest of their livestheir livestheir livestheir lives." ." ." ."

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THE BLESSED ONE continued: "There is "There is "There is "There is only only only only one way to one way to one way to one way to repay your repay your repay your repay your mother and father. If they do notmother and father. If they do notmother and father. If they do notmother and father. If they do not have faith in have faith in have faith in have faith in Dhamma, establish themDhamma, establish themDhamma, establish themDhamma, establish them in in in in faith; if they do notfaith; if they do notfaith; if they do notfaith; if they do not observe the observe the observe the observe the precprecprecprecepts, teach them the precepts; if they do not do danaepts, teach them the precepts; if they do not do danaepts, teach them the precepts; if they do not do danaepts, teach them the precepts; if they do not do dana, , , , teach them to be generous. If they are deluded and lack teach them to be generous. If they are deluded and lack teach them to be generous. If they are deluded and lack teach them to be generous. If they are deluded and lack wisdom, help them to develop their wisdom. This way you wisdom, help them to develop their wisdom. This way you wisdom, help them to develop their wisdom. This way you wisdom, help them to develop their wisdom. This way you can repay your parents."can repay your parents."can repay your parents."can repay your parents."

JV: The set back of not being able to renounce at a young age

had not discouraged Eng Kim from his aspiration to be a

monk. However, his zeal took

a back seat for many years till

he retired from his working

life. In the meantime he

concentrated on bringing up

a family (pic).

Eng Kim’s working life was a

very busy one, running

between his job, family and

the propagation of the

Dhamma. Guiding all these

activities was his earnestness

in applying the Dhamma to

every situation in daily life.

By such daily practice of the

Dhamma, he found that it

was not difficult to walk

within the confines of the Path. Forming the habit was

important.

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Having passed the Senior Cambridge Examinations, it was easy

for him to get a job in the local hospital. He worked as a

hospital assistant in the Kulim Hospital. At this phase of his life

he managed to lay the foundation for a host of good

relationships that gave him lavish support when he eventually

became a monk.

The sense of compassion realised through personal sufferings

became a guiding hand in his constantly helping his fellow

workers and patients who came into contact with him. When

the need was there, he would extend help even to allowing the

use of his personal car, as was the case during the time when

one of the hospital chauffeur’s wife was giving birth in another

town some distance away.

Sometimes out of town relations of patients undergoing

operations in the hospital could not afford the expenses to stay

in a hotel. Khoo Eng Kim often took the initiative to invite

them to stay in his own house which was the hospital staff

living quarters. Sometimes quite a number of strangers would

be staying in his house for quite a number of days after which

they of course bought presents of chicken and other food to

thank him. There were many such incidents where his kindness

was repaid in kind rather then in cash. It was his usual reaction

to take the live animals and release them. He felt self-conscious

releasing the live presents, thus he always passed them to

friends or colleagues to do so.

All and sundry had his ears when they needed any form of

help. He was very active and started many groups to investigate

and study the Buddha’s Dhamma.

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This also gave him the opportunities to provide medical

assistance to those in need and who could not afford to pay for

them. At this stage he had gained acceptance as a Dhamma

speaker. He continued to practise and to teach Dhamma. It had

become a way of life. He was always keen to organise outings

where he would have the opportunity to share Dhamma. He

had a great passion for propagating the Dhamma.

With so much on his

hands he still found

time to be engaged in

union work to better the

lot of his fellow workers.

He was always forefront

in any negotiations with

the authorities for better

terms of employment or

settling grievances. Fellow workers and others who had

benefitted from these voluntary services became a great source

of support for him when he became a monk.

Eng Kim and his fiancée had just been engaged to be married

when war broke out. These were very bad times as the Japanese

soldiers committed many acts of cruelty and crimes against the

people during their occupation of the country. Males were

conscripted to work on roads and other communication

projects for the Japanese army. Many of them died due to

cruelty and deprivation. Women were also ‘conscripted’ for

sexual services for the Japanese soldiers. They were badly

treated. Tortures and beheadings by the Japanese military were

the order of the day.

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Eng Kim was assigned as an ambulance driver when he applied

to join the British army. The Japanese invading forces were

powerful and ferocious. They practised wholesale killings and

slaughter. Their objective was to instill fear into the population.

Fear was everywhere. Families were dislocated. The British lost

ground and retreated into Singapore. Eng Kim, with thousands

of others, retreated with the British forces, leaving behind his

newly engaged fiancée.

The road to Singapore was strewn with broken down vehicles,

military as well as civilians. After a while of frantic driving, Eng

Kim’s ambulance too broke down.

Fortunately, he was able to hitch a ride and finally reached

Singapore where he rejoined the retreating British forces.

Singapore was in turmoil. There was not enough water to

drink. Food was hard to come by. Bombs were falling

everywhere, gun shots could be heard often.

Eventually Eng Kim and a few colleagues managed to locate an

empty house where they found some civilian clothing which

they exchanged for their military uniforms. Attired in civilian

clothing Eng Kim managed to find his way back to Kedah and

rejoined his fiancée.

In the midst of the war in April of 1942 they were married; he

was then 22 years of age. They held their wedding reception in

the residence of the District Officer, Tunku Abdul Rahman,

who was to become Malaysia’s first Prime Minister. The Tunku

also provided them with the use of his own car for the occasion.

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At that time his wife-to-be was a teacher of embroidery, working

for the Singer Sewing Machine Company. She later took up her

own business and became a hairdresser in Kulim. Eng Kim was

a very happily married person and they had three daughters.

This period of his life was a totally new experience for him. He

had someone to care for, who in turn cared for him. It would

appear as if he had stepped out of the darkness into the light of

day. On top of that he was earning his own keep and so was his

wife. The children also brought new feelings and emotions. So

it was an ideal family that Eng Kim found himself now. And

the most rewarding was the fact that he could teach and

practise the Dhamma.

Comparing both situations of his life, he came to the

conclusion that both are unsatisfactory! When suffering one

had too many aversions and pain; when in good situation one

wants more thus greed and attachment arise. Both situations

lead to unwholesome mental formations. Here again the

conclusion is to practise equanimity of life as advocated by the

Blessed One.

Bhante Talks of his Marriage

BHANTE: It so happened that Janet had a brother who was

also a Hospital Assistant working in Alor Star and I was

working in Kulim. He was a very close friend and one day he

called, requesting that I passed something to his sister at their

house. I did that and of course being a well-bred girl, she

offered me a packet of chocolate. I can remember that it was

called “black magic” and as she had given me a gift of a drink, I

felt I should return her a gift.

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It also happened that she had taken up an appointment to train

a Mrs. Sinnathuray in the art of embroidery. I was a good

friend of Dr. Sinnathuray who was preparing for his MRCP,

Specialist examination. He used to take me home to do his

training with him. He would repeat his notes aloud and I

would write them down for him in shorthand. I, too, learnt a

lot of medical practice this way. So, coincidentally, we both

were at the Sinnathurays’ house most of the time.

We became friends. I was attracted to her. She was the first

person in my life that showed concern and actually cared for

the well being of Khoo Eng Kim. When that happened I lost

my idea of renouncing for some time. We were married when I

was 22 years of age. When we started our family we were very

happy. We were a very independent family.

BHANTE: My grandfather had passed away at this time, aged

sixty-seven and had left all his property to grandmother. She

swept away everything for herself. Neither my father nor I ever

enjoyed any of my grandfather’s wealth. She later squandered

away everything. She became blind in later years and had to stay

with a female relative who took care of her. Unfortunately the

husband of the relative was not an honest person and the

couple had ulterior motives in caring for the poor woman. They

were out to relieve her of her last few precious belongings.

The husband was a temple medium; a person who was

supposedly able to communicate with the departed. By their

wiles and guiles, they managed to rob her of all her remaining

wealth and she died a poor woman.

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So it was fortunate that I had never depended on them and had

managed to save up and bought some properties. One such

property was opposite the Kulim Rest House which I later sold

for a very good price when I was preparing to renounce. I was

also very fortunate in my investment in shares and eventually

all these were sold at good profits and together with my

monthly pension was sufficient for the support of my wife in

Canada.

JV continues: After some years at work he could afford to own

decent wearing apparel and with accumulated savings was able

to buy his own little car! He was a free man, looking after his

own family! He had a job that exposed him to many

opportunities to exercise his compassionate nature. During the

war, he was in charge of the wounded and he tended to them

with care and compassion. Mutilated and lifeless bodies were

frequently brought to the hospital. He found himself in the

centre of all the suffering that humankind wreaked on

themselves in their greed, anger and delusion.

He also had the opportunity to show kindness and compassion

to victims of the war, people who had lost their families,

orphans and the elderly displaced by the war. He went out of

his way to render assistance and ensure that the hungry got fed

and the sick and wounded were attended to. Children were

never neglected. Remembering his own upbringing he was

always kind to the little ones. It was painful for Eng Kim to see

that there were so much suffering and pain everywhere. It

reminded him very much of his own pain. The aversion for

sufferings took deep roots. He was aversed to seeing all these

sufferings. He was adamant to find a way out.

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He was convinced that following the Blessed One’s Teachings

was the only way to the end of suffering, not only for himself

but for all beings that he came in contact with. The sense of

urgency became intense, climaxing in his renunciation.

On a more mundane note, Khoo Eng Kim was on the board of

governors of the Bukit Mertajam Convent School where his

three daughters were educated. The school, a Christian

missionary school, managed to convert his daughters to

Christianity. As a father, he was not against their becoming

Christians. He had one advice for them, “if you want to be a

Christian, be a good Christian.”

In 1956 he was diagnosed with intestinal cancer, and thinking

that this may end his life soon, he decided to make a pilgrimage

to India. So in 1960, taking two months leave from his job at

the hospital and at age forty he took a boat to India. The

journey by sea took many days and during this journey he

witnessed death and burial at sea. In India he spent the entire

two months travelling to all the places that were significant in

the life of the Budhha. In the end the cancer did not end his

life. The pilgrimage had a profound impact and caused to

strengthen his already firm belief and knowledge of the Blessed

One, Dhamma and the Sangha. In no small way was this one of

the significant sign posts to the final renunciation twenty years

later.

Most of the early years, he had been keenly practising samatha

meditation. However, this was to change when he met up with

Luang Poh in 1967 and began learning Vipassana Meditation

guided by Luang Poh.

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He showed great compassion to all animal life. In one instance,

on passing a hawker selling crabs, Bhante was so moved to see

the crabs all bundled up and ready to be sold that he bought all

the crabs and took them to the riverside, released their bundled

up bodies and let them loose into the river. Many were the

snakes that were caught by friends, bought from markets, found

around houses, etc., that he took the trouble to release into the

jungles, sometimes travelling long distances just to achieve that

purpose.

As a monk and whilst on retreat in one of the forests, often a

big rat gnawed at the edges of his mosquito netting so that the

fringes became large enough to let in mosquitoes. Bhante

Suvanno decided to trap the rat and eventually caught it.

Getting on his hands and knees and looking at the huge rat, he

said to the rat: “I’m just as poor as you are, please go to another

place to get your living.” After that he released the rat a short

distance away. The rat got out of the trap, ambled a short

distance away, looked back and then scurried away, never to

return!

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Namo Namo Namo Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma SamSamSamSambuddhabuddhabuddhabuddhassassassassa

CHAPTER 4

THE RENUNCIATION

“After being married for thirty-

eight years,

I cannot find a better woman

than you

All good things in this world

never last.

It has always been this way.

When I die you will cry for me

and when you die

I will cry for you.

This constant crying

for one another is all wrong.”

Your husband Khoo Eng Kim suddenly passed away (heart attack).

(I have renounced the world).

JV: Bhante Suvanno recalls his renunciation, to be a “homeless

one”. Having acquired permanent residency in Canada, his wife

had already planned the date of leaving the country; tickets had

already been bought. However, Khoo Eng Kim had no

intention of leaving. He had quietly arranged and paid for a

female friend of his wife to accompany her to Canada. She was

to ensure that his “ex-wife” arrived safely in Canada and that

their daughter pick her up at the airport.

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The night before the departure, he waited till he was sure that

his wife was asleep. Glancing at the clock, he noted that it was

already 6:30 a.m. and the date was 19th July, 1980. He had to be

there at the appointed time. Taking the necessary belongings,

he crept out of the house, threw the keys back and prepared to

walk out of the gate. But to his consternation, the gate was

locked! Unable to go through he tried to climb over. However,

his surprised neighbour, who was a policeman, saw him and

enquired the matter! Eng Kim told the neighbour that he was

going to Jitra and did not wish to disturb his sleeping wife. The

neighbour helped him over the gate.

As he walked quickly down the road to catch a taxi, a myriad of

thoughts criss-crossed his mind! Irritated with his own

forgetfulness in not unlocking the gate before throwing the keys

back, he reasoned probably subconsciously he had not wanted

to go. It was a great temptation to remain to enjoy the rewards

of their lives together.

Why not? Both had worked very had in building the family

wealth and this was the time to enjoy the fruits of their labour.

In thirty eight years of marriage they have many things to share.

She was a very good wife and it would be a luxury to have her

love and her care for his welfare. The best part of their lives was

still ahead of them. It would be a shame to forego all that. This

and many thoughts of uncertainty and doubts crossed his

mind. On the other side of the scale, the horror of sufferings in

the rounds of samsara was very real! He has had many such

experiences! The horrors of uncertain rebirth were too risky to

take a chance. It would be better to go on the correct path and

help save many others, too!

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BHANTE: Who knows I may be able to help my wife out of

samsara, too!

JV: As he walked to find a taxi, conflicting emotions swirled

around like a raging storm in his mind; feelings were chasing

one another; worries and fears, doubts and uncertainties.

BHANTE: Did I do the right thing? If not, what shall I do?

Shall I turn back? The Blessed One went away on his noble

horse, I shall have to get a taxi. I had to tell a lie to my wife.

Who will look after her if she falls sick?

JV: Finally, enough! The mind started to settle down. The deed

has been done! There can be no other choice! Under any

circumstances, renunciation to practise the Blessed One’s

Teachings is the only way to ensure the eventual non-returning

to this samsara of suffering!

A year prior to renouncing, Eng Kim had made all financial

arrangements to settle his wife comfortably so that she would be

self sufficient in material needs. He had sold most of his

properties accumulated through thrift and hard-work and had

seen to it that all the proceeds were passed on to his wife. Their

daughters had secured permanent resident status in Canada for

them; the wife had already planned all the travelling necessities.

So the selling of the properties was not unusual to her as they

were planning to retire to Canada to join one of their

daughters already residing there. Unbeknownst to her though,

Eng Kim had renunciation on his mind. His plans were kept to

himself.

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However, he suspected that his wife had suspicions of his

intentions as she kept his identification card and passport.

Being very concerned about the hard life of a forest monk, he

had made various adjustments to his life whilst still a married

person. He ate only cold food, and only one meal a day, having

light snacks to satisfy his hunger. Sleeping on the cold floor and

not using a blanket, not switching on the television and radio;

these were some of the severities he practised in readiness for a

monk’s life.

BHANTE: Yes, I had carefully planned for my renouncing the

world. I had even shown her how to sell and realise profits from

the shares I had in my possession but I dare not tell her that I

was planning to renounce. I told her that I was going to Jitra. I

purposely took a few clothes which I did not plan to use

anymore. Jitra, being very far away, I told her that I would not

be coming home that night as I would be talking from eight to

nine-thirty after which I would be staying there until the next

day. [Khoo Eng Kim began his Dhamma lectures even before

he was ordained as a monk].

I had prepared everything in readiness for renouncing and this

was my last day as a lay person. There was even a farewell

dinner by friends and relatives for our going away to Canada. I

had requested my wife to attend as I would be away in Jitra. I

had planned not to attend the going away celebration. On

reaching Gurun, I took a taxi to Jeniang from where I entered

the forest. It was a virgin forest and here I met up with Bhante

Sujivo who had helped arranged my renunciation. Phra

Chamriang was also present and he had requested a Chao

Khun Bau from Jitra to ordain me as a novice. Phra Chamriang

was quite surprised and amused that a sixty year-old man would

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choose to renounce a life of ease. He had to reassure himself by

clarifying with me that that was actually what I came for.

He realised that I was very serious in my resolve not to waste

further time in taking up the practice to prepare for my

spiritual future. I told him that I had always wanted to

renounce and become a homeless monk since young and that I

had been practising meditation since twelve years old. He was

convinced of my sincerity and so I was ordained as a novice in

the Jeniang forest. I then spent three months there meditating

sixteen hours a day.

On the day of his renunciation Eng Kim reflected: ‘At last I

have discarded all my toys; meaning that he had finally left all

his sensual desires behind him. His “toys” were his wife,

children and possessions; all that were reminders of his worldly

life. He had finally cut off all that clinging and craving that

would lead him back to the rounds of samsara. He was

convinced that he was on the right path to ensuring the non

returning to the sufferings in samsara. A great sense of

achievement came over him. He recalled the event when at five

years old he was given a toy at a party, he had reflected at that

moment thus:

BHANTE: This thing gives me joy. Nobody has ever given

anything to me at all. Now I just stretch out my hand and the

toy is there. I find joy in this toy. If I lose this, I will suffer’.

JV: He quickly realised the futility and impermanence of

sensuous cravings. In renouncing, he has finally discarded all

the ‘toys’ of sensuous desires and attachments.

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In one of his Dhamma lectures in later years, Khoo Eng Kim

said that renunciation had been a very difficult decision as he

cared for his wife very much. (In this connection it may be said

that renunciation by old married people is more difficult than

that by younger persons, as the ties of attachment are much

stronger over time). It was excruciatingly painful that he had to

make the decision to separate from a partner who had been

good, faithful and supportive for thirty eight years. She had

always been with him in his Dhamma activities. They had done

many virtuous things together and had brought up their

children well. So it was that while in the forest, he sat down

one day and penned a farewell letter to the wife that he had to

leave behind. Tears flowed uncontrollably; memories of their

good life together flooded his mind, as he wrote:

BHANTE wrote: After being married for thirty-eight years, I

cannot find a better woman than you. All good things in this

world never last. It has been this way. When I die you will cry

for me and when you die I will cry for you. This constant

crying for one another is all wrong.

Your husband Khoo Eng Kim suddenly passed away (heart attack). (I

have renounced the world).

JV: Memories of their children growing up and the early days of

their lives came to him. The love and care he had lavished on

his children to bring them up, the concern when they were not

well and the worries when they were in their teens. Such

memories, sweet and sad, pursued and invaded his mind. These

desires and clingings were of the mundane world and are the

causes of the rounds of rebirth. These are only transient

shadows, flitting across the mind in countless lives.

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A ‘wayang kulit’ show that would be played and replayed; a

never ending process spawned from aeons past and for aeons to

come. It is our desire to finish our ‘unfinished business’ that

gives birth to new lives. Do we want to end these unsatisfactory

continuous existences? That is a question all of us have to

answer for ourselves.

Eng Kim’s childhood circumstances had conditioned him to

ponder on this question on countless occasions. Time and life

experiences had unraveled that solution and now was the time

that he walked the Path.

Only one can walk the lonely path oneself. The Blessed One

cannot walk on one’s behalf. He can only show the way. Eng

Kim had chosen this path as he said: “It has always been in my

mind to reach the stage of non-retrogression (sotapanna) in this

life. Every act of merit that I have performed has been done

with the hope that I will cross the yonder shore as quickly as

possible for I am fearful of the consequences otherwise.”

However, his concern not to re-enter the rounds of samsara was

his main reason to renounce the world. It was a case of not that

he loved his wife less but that the horrors of the rounds of

samsara horrified him more than all the pleasures and

happiness he could have in this or future existences.

In his later-day Dhamma lectures, Bhante repeatedly and

vehemently tells his audience that for the elderly it is late in the

day and they should make all haste to practise in order not to

re-enter samsara. “The world is a booby trap”. At least the

elderly should observe the eight precepts on a permanent basis

and perform dana when the opportunity presents itself.

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Eng Kim’s ordination was by one Chao Khun Bau of Jitra. It

was a Phra Chamriang who introduced Eng Kim to Chao Khun

Bau who eventually joined them in the forest and ordained

him.

It was a simple ceremony. He was carried for a short while

straddled across the hands of two Thai persons to simulate a

chariot and there were some chanting. Everybody seemed very

happy. Eng Kim had the conscious hope that devas were

watching the simple ceremony and witnessing his renunciation.

Friends who knew came, some were from Kuala Lumpur and

they witnessed the ordination. He requested them to deliver his

letter to his wife. The crowd was quite large and Eng Kim was

constantly uneasy that his wife would be among the visitors and

that she would make a scene. Fortunately she did not show up.

EXCERP FROM A WRITE UP: The ceremony was quick and

touching. A few drops of tears rolled down Uncle’s cheek. In

the emotion he had forgotten all that he has so laboriously

memorised. But having put on the saffron robe, his fears

vanished. Triumphant, Uncle (now Venerable who “desires for

meaning”) delivered a lecture to the small crowd.

NEWLY ORDAINED BHANTE: Rare is it to be born a

human, like one tiny speck of dust among all the dirt on

earth; it is also rare to meet with the teachings of an

Enlightened One. You are very foolish indeed if you miss this

rare opportunity to perform meritorious and charitable

deeds; develop virtue and practise meditation to cross the sea

of suffering; to be free from the fires of greed, hatred and

delusion.

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JV: As he spoke, he did so more confidently than ever before.

Although he had had his head shaven and donned on the

ochre robes before, this time it was for real.

Eng Kim had thus

become a novice

monk. For three

months he stayed in

the forest dwelling,

living in a hut that

measured five feet by

six feet.

BHANTE continues: In the first few days of my practice, there

was a lot of joy that I was able to cast off the mundane mould

and free myself from my attachments, that is; my family life,

and I had sufficient courage to enter monkhood which had

been a life long aspiration. Yet it was not easy, as the moment I

close my eyes to meditate, clinging thoughts of the family,

especially my wife, relations and friends, filled my mind and set

the tears to well in my eyes.

All these are probably my subconscious mind acknowledging

that it is a very tragic thing that I have left my wife behind but

my consolation was that I seek my salvation so that I can help

others; also that I have left sufficient revenue for her. I have

actually written down a letter advising her that if “you keep all

these things well and don’t distribute them to your children

you will never suffer for want of anything.”

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Since then she has progressed very well so much so that now

she is not dependent on any one for her keep. She has even

bought some property in the country she has emigrated to,

Canada. Thus, everything seems to have worked out well and I

am contented in that respect.

Relatives and friends had since asked why it was that I had not

consulted my wife regarding my intention. I had actually given

that matter a great deal of thought way before the actual

renunciation, and I decided against telling her after

contemplating on the action of the Blessed One as he stood at

the door on the verge of saying farewell to his sleeping wife and

new born child when he was firm in his intention to leave

home. He decided then that he would just go away quietly

without saying a word as he was aware of the tears and crying

that would ensue from a wife who had loved well and true. I

too, felt that there would be crying and entreaties, and it would

be very painful for all concerned. So it was that Siddhatta

Gotama went away on his great charger with his charioteer and

here was Eng Kim lying and sneaking away quietly in the night

in a taxi!

For a few days after the ordination and while alone in the forest

meditating there were doubtful thoughts and prolonged bouts

of depressions clouding the mind. Tears arose constantly.

I realised that attachment to all that I was familiar with was

wreaking great havoc within my mind. There was dissatisfaction

concerning whether I had done enough for my wife’s upkeep

for her future life without me. I knew that I was doing the right

thing but this could not take away the pain of separation of one

so dear. However, after the first few days, with great

concentration my meditation progressed.

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JV: There was a happy ending to the concerns regarding his

wife. After a while his now his ex-wife, visited him at Bukit

Perak where he was meditating and presented him with four

robes. She also returned his passport and identity card.

When Bhante accepted the robes, he felt really contented and

at peace as he knew that by her action, she had come to terms

with her self and was conveying her silent acceptance of his

renunciation. He need not be concerned anymore with her

physical needs or her mental state of mind. This was very

important to him as he had on numerous occasions in his

Dhamma lectures mentioned his “leaving a very good wife

behind” and the fact of his selling his properties and leaving his

pension intact demonstrated his concern for her welfare.

Later, news of his ex-wife taking up meditation practices must

surely confirm his conviction that he had chosen the correct

path. In Bhante’s own words: “Wonderful, lah!”]

BHANTE continues: A couple of weeks later there were no

more tears or feelings of attachment. My mind was very

concentrated. As I watched my mind, I could see hunger

coming to the forefront. Normally, as a lay person, I took three,

sometimes four meals a day. Here I was taking only one meal a

day. It was just watching the mind. The mind was so calm that

when walking I could feel the neck making a cricking sound. It

was so calm there was no thought. The calmness and the

quietness was so intensed that when I swallowed I could hear

the saliva making a very horrible sound; plop. So I was reluctant

to do that till finally I swallowed with such a force that I felt

very self conscious. Plop!

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In the forest there were no modern toilet facilities and I had to

make do with nature’s resources; bathing and personal hygiene

was by the stream or rainwater when available. It was amazing

how body wastes were organically disposed of by nature.

There were various sorts of insects and smaller creatures, birds

and all manner of flying-life around. Days and nights were filled

with sounds of nature interweaving the different life forms. I

saw scorpions as big as my palm and underneath my hut some

were even double the size. I saw leeches all along the road. And

of course there were many other things that I saw and these

told me that I was really with nature.

This was my first forest experience and I managed to stay there

for three months. These three months made a different person

out of me. During this time, many of my friends knew I was in

the forest in Jeniang and there were numerous visitors coming

to see me. Some were friends from as far as Kuala Lumpur.

Nearing the end of my retreat in the forest, quite a number of

devotees came to offer dana. As food was put into my alms

bowl I noticed one particular set of beautiful fingers with a very

large diamond; obviously the fingers belonged to a woman. The

urge to look at the face of this lady was very great; “look lah,

such a beautiful lady”. Then another mind said; “don’t look, if

you look you are not practising well”.

This conflict was going on and I actually sweated, happily I did

not turn my face to look at her.

Suddenly there was an itch around my neck and this time the

mind said: “scratch”, and the reply came; “don’t scratch”.

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Further mind conversation ensued; “why not scratch?” then the

mind answered; “if you scratch you have to lift up your head

then only can you scratch.” I realised that this was a trick of the

mind trying to persuade me to violate my precepts and I really

did not scratch. At this point in time my mind was constantly

in conflict.

JV: With the ordination as a monk, we see a changed person.

He is full of compassion and loving-kindness, concerned mostly

with bringing the Dhamma to the people around him. Not only

does meditation produce calm and peace in him but also helps

develop a physically and mentally healthy person with

extraordinary good memories and an alert mind. There are not

many monks of his age who are still going on solitary retreats in

the tradition of the forest monks.

Quite often, Bhante Suvanno will disappear for between one to

three months at a stretch on his solitary retreats. Whenever one

meets with Bhante Suvanno, one will be inspired to see his

calm and serene demeanour, constantly smiling and ever ready

to discuss Dhamma. He appears to be full of boundless energy

and brimful of enthusiasm. One does not see a decrepit and

senile old man of eighty weighed down with sadness and

disappointments compounded with aches and pains.

On many occasions, when devotees come and recount stories of

setbacks and anger, disappointment and losses, etc, he will

always counsel them not to think and get upset with

circumstances and situations that have already passed and not

to dwell too much on events expected to come about. The most

important events are what is happening now, from moment to

moment.

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Bhante Suvanno On Renunciation

A Discourse to Jinavamsa

After three months in the forest

he decided to go to Thailand to be

fully ordained. There in the Wat

Mahaphap, he was fully ordained

and given the name Suvanno;

beautiful discipline; ’the monk of

beautiful discipline’. After a short

stay here, he again decided to

further his practice in Myanmar

and thus ended up in the Mahasi

Meditation Centre, Myanmar and

subsequently returned to Malaysia.

BHANTE: The Blessed One’s teaching is a teaching of

renunciation. We have to know what is renounced and why.

The Blessed One said: "What I teach is suffering and its

cessation." What is renounced, then, is unsatisfactoriness and

suffering.

JV: Bhante, how would you describe unsatisfactoriness and

suffering with regards to the Dhamma?

BHANTE: The Blessed One said that birth is suffering; old age

and decay are suffering; death is suffering; sorrow, lamentation,

pain, grief and despair are suffering; not to get what one wants

is suffering. In short, the five groups that are the object of

clinging are suffering. These "five groups", taken together,

constitute the totality of what we call a "being", and what that

being conceives to be “it-self".

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JV: What are these five groups, Bhante?

BHANTE: Let me explain; the Blessed One is a super human

and he sees things in its reality. Looking at things as it actually

is of no difficulty to him. We humans however cannot see

further than what our five senses tell us; our mind then process

messages from them and we come up with a conventional

understanding of what we believe is the correct thing. For

example: we see each other as “I” and “You”; entities we call

human and we are satisfied that what we see is that what

appears in front of us; however this is seeing on the

conventional level.

Again as an example, when you ride in a car; you know you are

in a car, but the manufacturer of the car don’t see it as such; he

sees it as the group of parts that make up that vehicle, which for

identification sake, is call a car and he keeps track of the

different parts. So the truth of the car is that it is a group of

many parts combined into a thing call a car.

So “car” is the conventional term for the vehicle and the

“different parts” are the ultimate essence of the vehicle.

The Blessed One has taught us to perceive humans as the sum

of its parts so that we can understand what we are made up of.

So, in terms of conventional understanding, humans are man

or woman. But the “man” is only the end product of a series of

groups. Basically these groups are five. All humans are:

compounded forms or matter, feelings, perceptions, mental

activities or formations and consciousness. These then, are

what in reality “I” and “you”; a grouping of five elements.

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Because all humans find renewed existence due to ignorance;

they cling to so many things; these groups are called groups of

clinging. It is oneself, then, that is the source of suffering, and it

is this “self” that must be renounced if one would be free from

suffering.

This concept of a “self” is encouraged and developed in

almost all religions; only in the Blessed One’s teaching is it to

be renounced as a source of suffering.

The feeling of "self", the deep-rooted sense of "I-ness", involves

the desire for the continued existence of self. It generates greed

and attachment, both for the self and also for those things

which enhance the existence of the self and make it feel secure,

such things as sense-pleasures, possessions, kinship with others,

and so on. It also generates hatred for or aversion from what is

anti-self, that is, from those things which threaten the

continued existence or the happiness of the self by attacking it

(or whatever it identifies itself with) or by frustrating it in any way.

Thus, the self can never be really happy, for it is continually

agitated by desires and fears which bind it tightly to the world,

and cause the "suffering" for which the Blessed One has

diagnosed and prescribed the cure.

JV: Bhante, It would appear from your brief discourse here,

that the self and the world are interdependent, our emotional

responses to the world strengthening our sense of self, and our

sense of self causing the illusory appearance of a permanent and

substantial world with objective qualities of desirability and

undesirability.

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BHANTE: Yes, Jinavamsa; therefore, renunciation of the world

and the renunciation of the self are but two aspects of the same

thing, and what we see as the world may, on deeper analysis, be

found present within ourselves.

The Blessed One had said and I quote; "In this one fathom

long body (six feet), with its sense-impressions, its thoughts and

ideas... is the world, the origin of the world, the cessation of the

world, and the Way that leads to the cessation of the world.

The Three Stages of Renunciation

JV: Bhante, how does renunciation relate to a moral life?

BHANTE: Morality is the backbone of renunciation; without a

pure mind; thoughts, speech and deeds will originate from

bases of greed, anger and delusion; in which case renunciation

will not be successful.

In the practice of renunciation, three stages may be

distinguished. Let me share with you the basics of renunciation.

First Stage of Renunciation

First of all, there is Outward Renunciation, as when a man or

woman leaves the household life, shaves their heads and don

on robes to become a bhikkhu or a nun. These are the just the

requisites of outward renunciation.

Outward renunciation has no intrinsic value, and may

theoretically be dispensed with, but there is no doubt that it

makes true renunciation very much easier.

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THE BLESSED ONE: A householder, or aA householder, or aA householder, or aA householder, or a householder's householder's householder's householder's son, or one born ison, or one born ison, or one born ison, or one born into some good family, hears thento some good family, hears thento some good family, hears thento some good family, hears the Dhamma. Dhamma. Dhamma. Dhamma. Having heard it, he comes to feel faith in the Perfect One. Having heard it, he comes to feel faith in the Perfect One. Having heard it, he comes to feel faith in the Perfect One. Having heard it, he comes to feel faith in the Perfect One. Possessed of this faith, he reflects thus: 'The household Possessed of this faith, he reflects thus: 'The household Possessed of this faith, he reflects thus: 'The household Possessed of this faith, he reflects thus: 'The household life is cramped. It is a path choked with dust. To leave it is life is cramped. It is a path choked with dust. To leave it is life is cramped. It is a path choked with dust. To leave it is life is cramped. It is a path choked with dust. To leave it is to to to to come out into the open air. It is not easy for one who lives at come out into the open air. It is not easy for one who lives at come out into the open air. It is not easy for one who lives at come out into the open air. It is not easy for one who lives at home to lead the holy life in all its perfect fullness and purity, home to lead the holy life in all its perfect fullness and purity, home to lead the holy life in all its perfect fullness and purity, home to lead the holy life in all its perfect fullness and purity, bright as motherbright as motherbright as motherbright as mother----ofofofof----pearl. Surely I should now shave off my pearl. Surely I should now shave off my pearl. Surely I should now shave off my pearl. Surely I should now shave off my hair and beard, go forth into the homeless life’. hair and beard, go forth into the homeless life’. hair and beard, go forth into the homeless life’. hair and beard, go forth into the homeless life’. In In In In the the the the cocococourse of time, he gives up his possessions, be they urse of time, he gives up his possessions, be they urse of time, he gives up his possessions, be they urse of time, he gives up his possessions, be they many or few, and his circle of kinsmen, be it small or large, many or few, and his circle of kinsmen, be it small or large, many or few, and his circle of kinsmen, be it small or large, many or few, and his circle of kinsmen, be it small or large, shaves off his hair and beard, puts on the yellow robe, and shaves off his hair and beard, puts on the yellow robe, and shaves off his hair and beard, puts on the yellow robe, and shaves off his hair and beard, puts on the yellow robe, and leaving his home, goleaving his home, goleaving his home, goleaving his home, goes forth into the homeless lifees forth into the homeless lifees forth into the homeless lifees forth into the homeless life. . . .

BHANTE: So far, this is mere outward renunciation.

Second Stage of Renunciation

BHANTE continues: Now the new bhikkhu must turn his

attention to the world within.

To do this, the first thing is to free his mind from the

domination by unwholesome emotions and sense-desires, and

to this end he begins to discipline himself by strict observance

of morality.

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So he lives the homeless life, observing self-restraint according

to the rules of the Order, possessed of good conduct, seeing

danger in the slightest offence, accepting and training himself

in the precepts. To lead the holy life he has many precepts to

upkeep. Then the bhikkhu, being thus complete in morality,

sees no reason for fear on any side, as far as self-restraint in his

conduct is concerned. And, possessed of these noble moralities,

he experiences unalloyed happiness within himself.

BHANTE continues: So far, the bhikkhu has progressed

through two stages of renunciation.

First, he has publicly renounced the world and left the

household life.

Secondly, by strict self-discipline, he has ensured that no moral

lapse on his part will cause him to become entangled once

again in the life that he has left behind, and his success in this

self-discipline has given him a confidence and a happiness that

he never had before. Thus, he has made his initial, outward

renunciation secure.

Third Stage of Renunciation

However, True Renunciation is a matter of the mind rather

than the body. It is renunciation of the world of desires and

aversions within, rather than of the world of "objects" without.

Thus, there is the Ultimate Renunciation, which is the

renunciation of one's "self" in its entirety and the consequent

destruction of all suffering in this present lifetime and may

even have potentials to develop and mature the destruction of

accumulated suffering in future existences.

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Now he is free to turn his attention to renunciation of the

other, inner world, of the psycho-physical life which is his "self."

He begins by endeavouring to become detached from the

activities of his senses, and of his mind and body, by the

practice of mindfulness.

He will now observe the things which impinge on his senses,

watching to see that he does not react to them in an

unwholesome or "unskillful" manner; his thoughts, speech and

deeds are morally originated.

Then, when sense-impressions are no longer capable of

agitating his mind unduly, he learns to become aware of his

bodily actions as he performs them, contemplating his body

disinterestedly, as though it were not his; he is guarded as to

sensations that impinges on his mind and body.

The senses are considered metaphorically as there are so many

doors through which impressions enter the mind. Having

perceived a form with his eye, he does not fasten on its general

appearance, or on its secondary characteristics. In other words,

he does not allow himself to become fascinated by it, or by any

aspect of it, or to feel that it is "mine." He simply watches with

equanimity as phenomena come and go.

As long as he lived with his faculty of sight unrestrained, he

falls prey to craving and unhappiness, to evil and unskilled

states of mind. So he undertakes restraint, watching over his

faculty of sight and restraining it. And similarly with the other

faculties: hearing, smelling, tasting, touching, and cognising

things with the mind.

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The bhikkhu, possessed of this noble restraint of the faculties,

experiences unalloyed happiness within himself.

JV: Bhante: And how is the bhikkhu mindful and aware?

BHANTE: The bhikkhu, in going about, is clearly aware of his

action. So also when looking ahead or looking around, when

bending his arm in or stretching it out, when wearing his robe

or carrying his alms bowl, when eating, drinking, chewing or

tasting, when defecating or urinating, when walking, standing,

sitting, sleeping, waking, speaking or keeping silent; in all this

he is clearly aware of what he is doing. Thus is the bhikkhu,

mindful and aware.

The bhikkhu has now shaken off most of his worldly desires,

and has gained a considerable degree of detachment from

himself. As a consequence, he is perfectly content with his lot

and with his few necessary possessions, which are; I will quote

the Blessed One:

THE BLESSED ONE: He is contented with the robes that He is contented with the robes that He is contented with the robes that He is contented with the robes that protect his body and the alms food that protects his bellprotect his body and the alms food that protects his bellprotect his body and the alms food that protects his bellprotect his body and the alms food that protects his belly... y... y... y... Just as a bird carries its wings with it wherever it flies, so the Just as a bird carries its wings with it wherever it flies, so the Just as a bird carries its wings with it wherever it flies, so the Just as a bird carries its wings with it wherever it flies, so the bhikkhu is contented with the robes that protect his body bhikkhu is contented with the robes that protect his body bhikkhu is contented with the robes that protect his body bhikkhu is contented with the robes that protect his body and the alms food that protect his belly, and he has only and the alms food that protect his belly, and he has only and the alms food that protect his belly, and he has only and the alms food that protect his belly, and he has only these with him wherever he goes. Thus he is content.these with him wherever he goes. Thus he is content.these with him wherever he goes. Thus he is content.these with him wherever he goes. Thus he is content.

BHANTE: Now, having surrendered attachment both to the

world and to his own body, the bhikkhu can concentrate all his

effort on the true source of unsatisfactoriness and suffering,

which is his mind.

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Sitting in a quiet spot, he strives to cleanse his mind of what are

known as the "five hindrances". The text describes the process

as follows:

1. "Having given up covetousness for the world, he

remains with his mind free from and cleansed of

covetousness.

2. Having given up ill will and hatred, he remains with

his mind free from ill will and hatred. Friendly and

compassionate to all living things, he is free of them.

3. Mindful and fully aware, he cleanses his mind of sloth

and torpor.

4. Having given up restlessness and worry, he remains

free of them. Inwardly calm, he cleanses his mind of

restlessness and worry.

5. Having given up doubt, he remains having passed

beyond doubt. No longer uncertain of what is skillful

(or wholesome), he cleanses his mind of doubt".

Having brought about a stilling of the five hindrances, he is

filled with an exhilarating sense of freedom. The Blessed One

compares his feelings of relief and happiness to those of a man

who has just discharged a debt, or recovered from a painful

illness, or been freed from prison, or released from slavery, or

who has safely crossed a dangerous wilderness. [An excerpt from

T.Prince Bodhi Leaves No: 36]

This stilling of the five hindrances, and the ensuing calmness

and happiness of the mind and body, makes it possible for the

bhikkhus to attain what is called “access concentration or

momentary concentration", a result of Vipassana practice.

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This makes the mind an instrument of knowledge that can

transcend the limitations of the senses. Thus renunciation is

the preliminary to further insights and eventual nibbanic entry.

JV: Bhante: How would the age factor influence renunciation

BHANTE: In a complete renunciation as described, the age

factor is controversial and can be of great help and also of

hindrance. In certain countries, where the Blessed One’s

Teachings are generally practised, the outward renunciation is a

prerequisite to maturity and adulthood, especially with the

male population.

However, in anyone’s life, to give up a family life at the ripe old

age of sixty years is a most difficult thing to do. At this age,

almost any one would have their life’s energy drained; and

almost any one would settle for a life of resting on whatever

laurels one have gathered thus far; to enjoy the fruits of one’s

labour, such as properties, family and all other creature

comfort, a good home with loving family members surrounding

them and being loved and cared for. This is a situation most

would aspire to be in; thus to renounce a household life and

settle for a disciplined, cloistered and solitary life is a very

difficult thing to do. All living beings tend to resist change and

have great desires to remain at their comfort zones.

JV: But then, Bhante Suvanno has seen so much suffering in

his earlier life that he knew that all the fineries in the world

were just “booby traps”, and it was his determined resolution to

“run away” [bhor jhow see – a favourite vernacular hokkien meaning

to run away from the sufferings of Samsara].

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Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma SamSamSamSambuddhabuddhabuddhabuddhassassassassa

CHAPTER 5

THE MONK’S LIFE

JV: After completing the forest

retreat, Bhante Suvanno took

stock of his position. Now that

the ordination had been

completed, the solitary retreat

that he desired had been

accomplished, what then should

he now do? Where would he

spend his days in the practice of

the Dhamma? What would be

the theme of his practice?

After due reflection, he realised

that his own goals were two: to

lead the holy life so as to be rid

of the horrors of rebirth; and to

ensure that others, especially

family members and friends

know of this Path to freedom.

Looking at the possible places he could begin his quest of the

Dhamma; he realised that he did not have much choice; the

idea of beginning his practice in Penang centred on the

Malaysian Buddhist Meditation Centre (MBMC).

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The MBMC had an international reputation and he felt that

that being so, he would have the opportunity to conduct

Dhamma discussions to a much larger population.

Thus, this was where he decided to begin his mission. He was

accepted on arrival and most evenings he would discuss and

share Dhamma with devotees; and most times, after the

Dhamma session, devotees would gather round his room and

continue to discuss Dhamma with him. He became very sought

after and was popular. However, all good things must end and

after a while he wanted to do more and thus decided to leave

for elsewhere. It was not a difficult decision as he had prepared

for this way of living when he decided to renounce. With his

robes and bowl, he began his journey, contemplating where he

should go. As it was getting dark and with no where to go, he

stopped at a rambutan tree growing next to a Chinese temple.

Night was falling and so he decided to spend the night under

the tree.

Early the next morning, after a cold and uncomfortable night,

he awoke and began to plan his day. With no cash and only the

requisite allowed for a monk; robes, belt, an alms bowl, thread

and needle and a water strainer. He pondered for a while and

then decided that he would go on an alms round, as did the

Blessed One during His days.

He decided that this was a good time to practise going on alms

round. In an alms round, the bhikkhu takes his bowl and goes

from house to house or he can find a suitable place in the

marketplace where he could stand and accept devotees’ offering

of food. He will have to accept whatever food that is offered to

him; for the criteria for food offering is:

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“This meal is the labour of countless

beings, let me accept this offering with

gratitude. The meal is taken to enable me

to strengthen my exertions, let me accept

this offering with humility. This meal is

taken to nourish and sustain my practice,

let me be moderate in eating. This meal is

taken to help all beings to attain the

Blessed One’s way, let me practise

wholeheartedly”.

JV continues: During the first few days there was absolutely no

favourable response from the public. In fact, the newly

ordained bhikkhu endured hardships and ridicule. People had

the superstitious belief that seeing a monk with a bald head

would always bring bad luck.

He was spat at, set on by dogs, chased away with a broomstick,

etc. he was so discouraged and lonely that the tears rolled down

his cheeks. He was terribly hungry, as he had not eaten for a

while. He was also wet from the rain and dew in the morning,

and he had not taken a bath for days. He felt miserable and

depressed.

Days later, some friends who understood the practice of

pindapata, got together and went about improving Bhante’s

plight. Well meaning friends turned devotees began to bring

offerings to him on his alms round. Others in the area then

followed suit.

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After that the situation improved. He decided to give lectures

in the evenings. Among other topics, he took the opportunity

to explain the reasons for the practice of pindapata and the

benefits accrued to devotees. He further explained that during

the time of the Blessed One, the Blessed One Himself went out

daily on his alms round.

Many of the nights that Bhante gave a discourse on the

Dhamma, he paid special emphasis on the benefits of alms

giving (pindapata). The situation further developed positively

and devotees even began to invite him to partake of food in

their houses. Teaching the practice of alms giving was one of

the high point of success in the monkhood of Bhante.

It was a great learning experience for him and also for devotees.

Not until he started pindapata when staying underneath the

rambutan tree did he had the opportunity to teach the

Teachings of the Blessed One.

This rambutan tree was in a populated housing area in Kwan

Imm Kook opposite a Chinese temple. After a short while,

some devotees actually tore or cut out material from a discarded

toilet room of an old building and built him a ramshackle

shack, resembling a small bathroom.

After a few days due to the dampness of the earth a lot of

centipedes were also found living underneath the shack. This

was the living quarters he shared with the centipedes and other

insects. He was grateful to these devotees for building a

residence where he was able to practise and teach Dhamma.

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This was the beginning of his practice of the Dhamma as taught

by the Great Teacher more than 2500 years ago. Devotees were

aware of the practice of pindapata as a way of life in sustaining

the requirements of the Sangha, the community of monks.

The duties of monks were to devote to a life of abstention and

seclusion. They were to spend their time solely in the

cultivation of the Dhamma. They were to be spiritual guides to

the laity. The Blessed One is likened to a doctor prescribing

curative medicine, the Dhamma, to cure the ills of patients, the

laity. The members of the Sangha were the nurses

administrating the Dhamma medicine to the patients. As such

the bhikkhus were worthy of offerings from the patients, the

laity.

Thus, from the Blessed One’s time the bhikkhus were offered

their requisites by the laity. When the laity knew where he was,

quite a number of them came to hear his lectures.

After Bhante Suvanno had been there for about four months, it

was getting near to Vassa (rain retreat) and he wanted to keep

his *vassa well.

[*The Vassa, a three-month rains retreat, instituted by the Blessed One

and made obligatory for all fully ordained bhikkhus. The retreat

extends over a period corresponding to the rainy season, from the day

following the full moon of July until the full-moon day of October.]

On the first day of the retreat the monks have to formally declare that

they will dwell in that manner in the selected monastery or dwelling.

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The rains residence was to prevent bhikkhus from travelling during the

Rainy Season and so damaging the crops, and living creatures which

are abundant then. No doubt he considered their health as well when

he laid down that bhikkhus must spend the rains with four walls round

them and a roof over their heads.

This is a period when bhikkhus must reside in one place and cannot

wander, though they may undertake all their usual duties provided that

they do not take them away from their monasteries overnight. In

special circumstances they can be absent from the monastery or

residence where they have vowed to keep the Rains not longer than

seven days. They are expected to spend this time in meditation.]

JV continues: Assessing the situation, he decided to see a

person he knew had a piece of land which was left unused. He

requested for the use of this land on which he would like to

build a small hut to pass his vassa for three months. The person

gave his permission with the condition that Suvanno remove all

that he had put up when he left. Suvanno felt happy that at

least he had a place to pass his vassa.

It was in quite a quiet area in what is today Taman Cantek and

devotees again built him a shelter near a flowing stream. He

lacked only regular support of meals and this was quickly made

available when devotees knew he was in this area. He could

continue his practice of pindapata and regular Dhamma

lectures.

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Namo Namo Namo Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma SSSSambuddhaambuddhaambuddhaambuddhassassassassa

CHAPTER 6

MI TOR SEE

The Shelter the Devotees Re-Built

“On Hearing The Teaching,

The Wise Become Perfectly Purified,

Like a Lake;

Deep, Clear and Still.”

JV: Shortly after staying in the little hut under the rambutan

tree for about three months, Bhante realised that the number

of devotees keen to hear his lectures was growing quickly. Every

night more came along to hear and to offer dana. He realised

that there was a need for a central place to propagate the True

Dhamma; a centre where the devotees could also practise the

Dhamma.

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During the three months stay in the little hut under the

rambutan tree, a few devotees approached him and acquainted

him with the news of an abandoned old temple a short distance

away. This dilapidated temple was at the foot of the Penang

Hill Railways Station and could be seen when one was

approaching the Hill Station. It was a very small run down

structure, long uninhabited and badly damaged and was in

disuse for some years.

Quite a number of devotees had gathered round to support

Bhante Suvanno at that time. Most were touched by his

complete devotion to the Teachings of the Blessed One.

Nightly they had come to hear his lectures on Dhamma and

Vipassana meditation; they were impressed by his delivery of

the lectures in the Hokkien dialect.

More and more devotees were beginning to understand the

Blessed One’s Teaching for the first time. They were eager to

have a centre where Bhante Suvanno could perform his duties

regularly and where devotees can practise dana and Vipassana

meditation.

Thus, the idea of a using the old temple was very opportune; so

with Bhante’s approval, the devotees formed a body to collect

donations to renovate the old temple structure fit for

occupation by Bhante Suvanno.

BHANTE: I remember they managed to collect twenty-six

thousand ringgit in a very short time. Money was hard to come

by and the sum that the devotees collected was a very princely

sum by the value in those days.

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The devotees re-built Mi Tor See, tore up the ramshackle hut I

was staying in and moved me to the new Mi Tor See. At last

there was a place donated by the laity where I would have the

opportunity to establish the Teachings of the Blessed One.

BHANTE continues: Mi Tor See became the centre in my

efforts to propagate the Dhamma. The situation was ideal for

me. I became very

enthusiastic and active. I

was invited by many to

travel to different parts

of Malaysia to give

lectures and to teach

Vipassana meditation. I

was very keen to go and

everywhere that I went

there would be crowds

because I speak the local

dialect well.

JV: Devotees recorded his lectures in CDs and passed them on

and soon there were great demand for the audios. Every day

became a very busy day for him. The schedule for dana and

Dhamma was very tight; not a day passed by that he was not

deluged with requests to do one or the other. Most of the time

these were held in Mi Tor See but invitations to devotees’

houses became regular affairs; his mission was well underway.

The message of pindapata was so well received that often on a

short alms round in the market places of the various small

townships, he was able to collect literally van loads of supplies.

The devotees were more than happy to give to such a well

practised monk.

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Mi Tor See became a very busy centre and there was sometimes

pressure of too many duties to perform. To escape these

pressures Bhante Suvanno used to go on long solitary retreats

which helped him tremendously in his meditation practice and

also relieved him of the pressures of his duties. He would

always return refreshed and ready to carry on the noble work.

BHANTE: Presently, after so many years in the practice, I

realised that greed is nearly gone. Absence of greed enables one

to act correctly. I prefer to give. Emotions of hatred and

delusion have diminished greatly. Without delusion my mind is

not confused.

Mindfulness in every day life is constantly with me so that when

speaking, only sweet and pleasant words are used. From the

wisdom of Vipassana meditation I realise that our lives need

not be about material wealth. Such acquisitions do not interest

me.

Meditation enables me to see that life is really simple if one

effects changes from within. I am aware of changes taking place

within me. I can see greed, hatred, delusion gradually

decreasing and I hope that I can attain that final cessation. That

is my goal.

Since 1980, after my renunciation and even when I was at the

age of 12 practising meditation, aiming towards the goal of

Nibbana has been my total preoccupation. Through different

stages of my life the practice of meditation has been my guiding

light. It is my aspiration to find my way out of this stream of

samsara as quickly as possible. I believe that I will achieve my

goal.

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This year marks my twenty vassas (1980-2000). In the first year I

was in the forest as a novice and not a fully ordained bhikku as

yet. I was first ordained as a samanera. Being a novice, it was

just solely training and now I have completed my twentieth year

as a full-fledged bhikkhu.

While in the forest there are sometimes happenings which are

most unusual. In one instance, I was alone in the forest

practising samatha meditation. I was in deep concentration for

some time and after a while I began to arise from my

meditation. At this time the mind is still clear and pure and as I

opened my eyes the figure of a hungry ghost (peta) was facing

and looking at me. As it realise that I was looking at it; it began

to move away, slowly backing off. Probably it was as frightened

of me as I was of it.

BHANTE continues: At another occasion I was meditating

under the shade of a huge bamboo grove in a deep, quiet forest

area. I became aware of some noise nearby and on looking

around I saw a huge king cobra about 12 feet away.

A king cobra can strike at a

speed of sixty miles per

hour and is very quick to

attack. I believe that I must

be near a nest of cobras.

This particular king cobra

raised its head high up to

four feet and charged

towards me.

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Immediately I recalled the Blessed One’s words and the

thought came to me: “At one time you could have been my

father or mother or my son or daughter. Today you have

neglected yourself and you are now born as a snake. As for me I

am changing, I find everything changing, please wake up and

follow me.

At a distance of two feet it abruptly halted, lowered its hood

and as I continued radiating loving kindness the king cobra

blinked its eyes very frequently as if to say it understood what I

was thinking. It turned its head slowly and slowly moved away.

As it moved I was still radiating this thought of loving kindness.

The king cobra turned back and looked at me. Since then every

time I was around there it would come and go without any ill-

will towards me.

BHANTE continues: Yet another time I was in the forest that

was sixty miles away from the Hermitage in Lunas. I had

discovered a good meditation place by a waterfall. It was a very

big waterfall in a very isolated area near Taiping. Most of the

time nobody would be around; occasionally a few boys would

be there camping and swimming in the pool made by the

waterfall. It was indeed a very ideal spot for my solitary retreat.

I stayed there for nearly two months. During the last week of

my stay, I went to the edge of the pool and made a wish.

‘According to the Dhamma books there would be a Naga

residing in this sort of environment. If there is a Naga please

show yourself to me. I want to know that you really exist’; after

saying that I went to a nearby spot, sat down and meditate.

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A short while later there was a loud sound: Quaack! Quaack!

Quaack! I went back to the edge of the pool and there I saw this

snake completely yellow in colour. As I went near to about two

feet of it, it raised its head and looked at me. It continued

making the sound “Quaack, Quaack, Quaack”. I understood.

There was no fear in me. I said to it: “You are the one I wish to

see. When I come again I will look you up’. But I was in the

habit of going from place to place; seldom visiting a place twice

and thus have not been back to this particular spot at all.

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NamoNamoNamoNamo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma SSSSamamamambuddhabuddhabuddhabuddhassassassassa

CHAPTER 7

THE WORK OF BHANTE

Bhante Suvanno on alms round

JV: It is not difficult to understand Bhante Suvanno: A monk

of simple ways following the footstep of his Teacher, the

Perfectly self Enlightened, the Blessed One, the Buddha.

The only reason for his existence is to resist and cease all

unwholesome thoughts and deeds and instead strive to seek

and do those deeds that are wholesome, and all the while

seeking to purify the mind. He constantly remind his devotees

that: “Everybody wants to be a somebody, I want to be a

nobody.” These are the keys to his way of life.

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He was a ‘nobody’ at his young age. He was a ‘nobody’ that his

parents did not want. His mother abandoned him, for whatever

reasons; his father did not want to know about him; his

grandfather regarded the care for him as a duty to ensure the

family lineage and to be tolerated, hoping for the best. The

people who were paid to look after him regarded him as a meal

ticket for themselves and their baby.

Only the intestinal worms thought he was good enough to be

attached to. He, however, survived all the deprivations and

tribulations against all odds. His demise at that time would not

have surprised anyone. His whole childhood had been one

mass of suffering. His teenage days were only a little bit

improved.

Abused and living in totally unhealthy surroundings, there was

just one little ray of sunshine in his life; his grandfather, who in

his own sort of caring way, came to visit him once in a while.

His abandonment, his uncaring father, the filth of his infant

days, the abuses in his teenage days and all the ignominious

happenings, these memories and impressions became the

training ground for the long journey towards the goal of

ultimate peace. He did not wish to behave in like manner of his

tormentors.

It would appear on hindsight that the suffering he had

undergone was to prepare him for the great work ahead of him.

This was his test in the crucible of life in preparation for his

role as the “homeless one”.

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The purpose is all clear. It was to realise the true nature of

existence and find deathlessness away from the revolving

rounds of samsara, and to bring along with him as many beings

as have the desire to be with him; as he said in jest: “When I

am in the celestial abode I want to be able to recognise friends

from all over Malaysia”!

Thus, his work was built around the theme; to attain Nibbana

and to help others to attain Nibbana, too. For this he has

tirelessly, even to an advanced age, worked daily to practise and

propagate the Dhamma, in particular Vipassana Bhavana.

His Daily Routine

Buddhist Hermitage, Lunas Mi Tor See, Ayer Itam

JV continues: As a monk, the Venerable Suvanno keeps

himself occupied with various activities at the Hermitage, Lunas

and also at Mi Tor See, Penang. He would move from

Hermitage to Mi Tor See as and when he decides to. It became

his habit to spend a couple of weeks in the Hermitage and the

same in Mi Tor See. In both centres are found many of his

devotees. The two centres are half an hour apart.

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He gets up at 4am to meditate, until it is time for breakfast at

6.30am. After breakfast he tidies his kuti (hut) and clears the

compound of the Hermitage. Often, he can be seen weeding,

sweeping, litter picking or watering the plants and flowers. He

cleans himself and walks mindfully to the Dhammasala Hall (all

purpose hall where devotees gather for lectures and where

meals are served to the bhikkhus) at 9.30am to meet those

devotees who wish to see him.

He delivers lectures on Sundays before lunch offerings.

Devotees will congregate around him for advice, questions or to

clear doubts about the Dhamma after his lunch. It may last for

half an hour or more depending on the crowd.

He will usually take a rest or short nap before he does his daily

readings on the Dhamma. Despite his seniority in age, Bhante

reads either to prepare for lectures or to improve his

knowledge.

Such is the hallmark of the elder monk, for he is never too old

to study, never too old to learn. He continues with his garden

chores in the evening, helping around with the gardeners. He

takes his bath before the commencement of the metta (loving

kindness) chanting in the Meditation Hall at 8.15pm.

When there is a large group of devotees or university students

on retreats, Bhante lectures or clarifies on many aspects of

meditation or the Dhamma. Before he retires for bed for the

day, he either reads or meditates again, an ideal way to wrap up

the day.

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“I have accomplished what I set out to do”, is the calm and

simple statement coming forth from the lips of Bhante

Suvanno Mahathera, a gentle smile accentuating the wrinkles

on his face, showing off a set of teeth still in reasonably good

condition in his advanced age. What was it that he set out to

do? His accomplishments can be categorised as:

Practice of Dana:

JV: The Pali Text Society Dictionary defines dana as ‘giving,

gifts, alms-giving, liberality; especially a charitable gift to a

bhikkhu or to the community of bhikkhus, the sangha. As

such, it constitutes a meritorious act’. In fact, dana heads the

list of meritorious acts.

Bhante Suvanno recommends that devotees perform dana as

often as there are opportunities; especially the older folks who

are not practising vipassana meditation. This is for them to

gather as much merits as possible in this life-time.

He has been extremely successful in educating the devotees who

are uncertain of the manner and the value of performing dana.

Bhante will demonstrate and enumerate all the benefits

regarding the offering of dana. Everywhere that Bhante goes to,

the performance of dana will be done well and in abundance.

Pindapata

JV: Alms gathering in an alms bowl by a bhikkhu. In this all

monk in Malaysia should say thank you to Bhante Suvanno for

the work he has done in this duty of a bhikkhu. Market places,

public halls and busy side streets; he will be there or he will

excourage young novice monks to go on alms round.

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His efforts at pindapata has been very successful to the extend

that the northern part of Malaysia, where Bhante has influence,

is well known for pindapata.

However, there arose quite a number of unscrupulous people

imitating monks and standing by crowded streets and market

places with alms bowl collecting money from ignorant people

who do not understand the concept of pindapata. Should

Bhante be aware of such a malpractice, he will personally go to

the place, stand near the bogus monk and explain to devotees

that the alms bowl is meant for the collection of food only and

monks of the Theravada tradition do not accept money of any

kind, whether gold or silver. He would then explain the

significance of pindapata to all.

Dhamma Lectures

JV: Without doubt, this aspect of Bhante’s work is the most

successful of all. Whenever the laity knows that Bhante is

talking they will gather, regardless of where in Malaysia.

A great feature of success in his lectures is his enthusiasm and

energy which seems limitless. Another aspect is his familiarity

with the English language and the Chinese dialects used locally.

He will elaborate appropriately to the elderly folks in the

Chinese dialects and speak English to the younger of his

devotees. Most times he will intersperse pertinent languages in

his Dhamma lectures. The elderly loved his lectures, they were

deeply interested in his discourses of the Thirty-One Planes of

Existence; the stories told in Hokkien, adapted from the

Blessed One’s Jataka Tales and the suttas. They would listen

very attentively whenever Bhante renders Dhamma lectures.

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Bhante had a knack of talking to them seemingly on a personal

level. He understood their fears, their concern for the after life.

They needed to be consoled that they would have an

opportunity to go to a better place. They needed to know how

to do so.

All these Bhante supplied in a consoling manner that gave

them hope. Bhante would dispel their ignorance and acquaint

then with the correct way to live their lives and what to do to

get back to the human plane if they had strayed. No one would

go away from Bhante’s lectures unaffected. No one would go

away without hope of a better rebirth.

His devotees grew in ever increasing numbers since the days he

started to practise. The younger generation was as deeply

interested as their parents. He would talk about the duties of

being a filial child, he would suggest the correct livelihood, he

would always say: “Whatever you do, you must first get a good

education and then you will be able to look after yourself.” He

advised that the young must always show gratitude to their

parents, while the parents were well and still alive.

The devotees had great faith in Bhante. They would bring their

troubles to him seeking solutions. Bhante never failed them.

He would always be ready with words of consolation and

comfort. There are many instances we hear of children leaving

their parents who are not well. We do hear of people leaving

their parents in homes for the destitute when the parents are

unable to look after themselves. According to the Blessed

One’s teachings this is a very unfilial action.

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Many are the theme stories Bhante applies in his Dhamma

lectures to the younger generation to advise them to show

gratitude and compassion to the older generations. The older

generation has had many similar experiences happen to them

which they cannot accept. They began to question themselves,

what did I do to deserve this fate?

When they understand the workings of kamma from Bhante’s

lectures, they feel that ah! I now understand; I must do good

deeds to have the opportunity for a better rebirth. One can

only reap the fruits from the seeds that one sows. They are at

peace, understanding the good or bad things that are

happening to them and are grateful that the Bhante has shown

a way, a Path leading to the cessation of their suffering. He tells

them this story:

To Forgive Is Divine

Padmavati bore King Asoka a beautiful son. His eyes emitted

rays that vied with the beams of the morning sun. They were

fairer than those of the aerial enchantress of India, the

Kunala bird. And they named him Kunala.

When the Prince was in the bloom of his youth, Asoka

appointed Tishya-Rakshita, that bewitching beauty, as Chief

Queen. And it came to pass that she became enamoured of

her stepson, who was as virtuous as she was vain. Her looks

lured him not. Her charms charmed him not. He showed her

the reverence due to a mother and the kindness due to a

daughter. Removing the curtains of shame Tishya-Rakshita

begged love of Kunala but was rebuked and turned off.

Enraged at this she harboured evil thoughts against Kunala.

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At that time Kunala was sent by the Emperor to conquer

Taxila. He succeeded and there he remained as viceroy. He

ruled as a father ruled his home in the family. They loved

him.

It came to pass that the Emperor fell ill and on the physician’s

failure to cure him, Tishya-Rakshita herself treated the

Emperor and cured him. Then the Emperor wanted to grant

his Empress a boon. She prayed for the kingdom for seven

days. Her wish was granted.

Having the royal prerogative, Tishya-Rakshita sent a royal

letter to Kunjarkana of Taxila asking him to uproot the eyes

of Kunala.

“Not only these eyes but this life too is my father’s,” said the

Prince, “If he has need for them I will gladly give.” But no

one had the heart to pluck out those innocent eyes that

looked with love on all the world.

At last the Prince proclaimed by beat of drum: “If there is any

friend who will pluck out my eyes, that friend will I honour

with a royal award.” And a man came, repulsive to look at.

He drew out one eye and the multitude wept. When the

second eye too was torn out, the noble Prince said: “My

father has forsaken me but I rejoice that I am the son of the

Blessed One, the King of Truth.” But the ministers soon

understood that this was an act of the treacherous queen.

They told him so. Hearing which Kunala blessed her with the

words: “May she long enjoy happiness and power, she who

helped me practise.”

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Though Kunala lost his eyes, his mouth still made music like

a lark. And secretly leaving his mansion, he wandered along

with his wife, earning a living by singing to the lute. Coming

to the capital he passed the palace, piping his reed sweetly and

singing. The music delighted the Emperor’s ears.

“That is Kunala’s voice,” said the Emperor, “Behold! At last

my long lost son has come. Bring him immediately to me.”

The Emperor was expecting a beautiful Prince, but they

brought him a blind beggar and his rustic wife, both in rags.

“He is not my son.”

Kunala sighed. The truth was soon known.

“Kill that villainous woman!” commanded the enraged

Emperor. But Kunala, ever calm pleaded saying: “it is not

worthy of you, father, to kill her. It befits your grace to

pardon her, for great kings are ever compassionate towards

the weak. Benevolence is the best virtue. Father, has not our

Lord commanded us sweet sufferance?”

Thus saying, he fell at his father’s feet. “I knew no anger

when my eyes were gouged out. I bear no hatred towards the

queen. I revere her as your queen and love her as my mother.

If these words be true, may my eyes return to me.”

Immediately the room was filled with radiance that was

brighter than that of the moon and the Emperor wept for joy.

“Divine Forgiver” they called Kunala.

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JV continues: Over the years that he was a bhikkhu, Bhante

Suvanno had been giving countless Dhamma lectures all over

the country, including Sabah and Sarawak. His lectures are so

well loved that devotees tape them and replay them to friends

and relatives. Many are the tapes on his Dhamma lectures,

copied into many more thousands being proliferatedly

distributed free. His lectures in the local dialect are unique and

will always remain a mark of the Venerable Acara Suvanno

Mahathera. It has helped reach many who would otherwise be

unable to get a chance to know the Blessed One’s Teaching;

people who have the need to know and be comforted that there

is a way to salvation through the Noble Eightfold Path.

Without Bhante’s ‘liang liang eh hwa’ (cool, cool speech in

Teochew, another of Bhante’s specialities) the non English

speaking population will still be holding their deluded views

and beliefs. He has brought the Dhamma to countless illiterate

people who otherwise will never hear the Dhamma. This is due

to his proficiency in the Hokkien dialect.

A most admirable characteristic of Bhante is his ability to talk

off the cuff. Sometimes not knowing the nature of the listeners,

he will on the spot assess their stage of knowledge of the

Blessed One’s teaching and give an appropriate Dhamma

lecture according to his assessment of the listeners’ ability to

understand the subject.

Meditation

In his lectures, Bhante will without fail advise devotees to

practise Vipassana meditation as the Blessed One says that the

only way to achieve the stage of Nibbana is through Vipassana

meditation.

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As far as possible everyone should spend time in practising

Vipassana meditation for in his maiden speech on his

ordination he had said:

“Rare it is to be born a human; rare as finding a gem among

all the dirt on this earth. Similarly it is rare to be born as a

human. It is also rare to meet with the Teachings of an

Enlightened One. You are very foolish if you miss this chance

to gain merits by charity, virtue and meditation which will

help you to cross the sea of suffering, to be free from the fires

of greed, hatred and delusion.”

Setting Up of New Centres

Another aspect of the untiring effort of Bhante to spread the

Dhamma was his encouragement and assisting, financially even

in the setting up of Theravada Meditation Centres, dedicated

to the Mahasi method of Vipassana Meditation.

Wherever devotees were inspired to set up a centre; Teluk

Intan, Malacca, Johor or anywhere; he would be called to help.

He would willingly be there to lead and assist in the starting of

the new centre. He would be there to help raise funds and

render moral support. He is known to have solicited large sums

of money from his devotees, to new centres to encourage them.

On many occasions he has sent generous funds to assist the

Mahasi Centre in Yangon, Myanmar.

Of particular interest is the development of the Bukit Mertajam

Buddhist Meditation Centre. It was the first Theravada

tradition Centre in Northern Malaysia that Bhante Suvanno

played a very big part in its inception.

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Without his participation, there would not be the Centre as it

is today; for that matter, if not for the propagation work of

Bhante Suvanno, Theravada tradition will not be what it is

today in Malaysia. Most of the influence of Theravada began in

Northern Malaya and Bhante Suvanno played a very key and

vocal role in its growth.

At this time, in the seventies and eighties, other forms of

Buddhism had already established strong roots with the

predominately Chinese population in Northern Malaya and

Penang. There were some dissatisfaction with the mode of

practice and the conduct of some nuns and monks.

The laity in the northern part of Malaya were skeptical about

the form of Buddhism as

practised in non-Theravada

traditions of the Blessed

One’s Teaching. They were

not able to ascertain the

truth of the Dhamma as

taught by other traditional

teachers. The practice of the

Dhamma by others, were

ritualistic, vague and very

general.

The rites and rituals were confusing and some required

expensive items and procedures.

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The devotees were not able to get correct answers as to whether

those expensive rites and rituals truly lead to Nibbana,

especially when they were told that more bead-counting and

chanting would be necessary to enter the heavenly planes.

Then in 1984 along came Bhante into the midst of all these

confusing teachings of the different Buddhism tradition. There

is a parallel to this situation in the time of the Blessed One:

Kalama Sutta

(Anguttara Nikaya Sutta No. 65)

Thus I have heard. Once the Blessed One, while walking in

the Kosala country with a large community of bhikkhus,

entered a town of the Kalama people called Kesaputta.

The Kalamas said: "Reverend Gotama, the monk, the son of

the Sakiyans, has, while wandering in the Kosala country,

entered Kesaputta. The good repute of the Reverend Gotama

has been spread in this way:

"Indeed, the Blessed One is thus consummate, fully

enlightened, endowed with knowledge and practice, sublime,

knower of the worlds, peerless, guide of tameable men,

teacher of divine and human beings, which he by himself has

through direct knowledge understood clearly.

He set forth the Dhamma, good in the beginning, good in the

middle, good in the end, possessed of meaning and the letter,

and complete in everything; and he proclaims the holy life

that is perfectly pure. Seeing such consummate ones is good

indeed."

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Then the Kalamas went to where the Blessed One was. On

arriving there some paid homage to him and sat down on one

side; some exchanged greetings with him and after the ending

of cordial talk, sat down on one side; some saluted him raising

their joined palms and sat down on one side; some

announced their name and family and sat down on one side;

some without speaking, sat down on one side.

The Kalamas sitting on one side said to the Blessed One:

"There are some monks and brahmins, venerable sir, who visit

Kesaputta. They expound and explain only their own

doctrines; the doctrines of others they despise, revile, and pull

to pieces. Some other monks and brahmins too, venerable sir,

come to Kesaputta. They also expound and explain only their

own doctrines; the doctrines of others they despise, revile,

and pull to pieces. Venerable sir, there is doubt, there is

uncertainty in us concerning them. Which of these reverend

monks and brahmins spoke the truth and which falsehood?"

JV: Just as in the days of the Blessed One, so in the time of

Bhante Suvanno, who came in the midst of the confused

teachings in Northern Malaya. He taught a different form of

Buddhism and best of all gave details of what he taught. This

was not any airy fairy teachings; he could quote stories and

sutta spoken by the Blessed One to back up his lectures; for the

first time the laity could question and receive proper, factual

replies based on the suttas. Bhante’s replies were orderly,

factual, simple and easy to understand. The laity was able to

relate to the answers he gave. The drift towards Theravada

tradition commenced at this time. The people of Northern

Malaya saw the truth as did the Kalamas during the time of the

Blessed One.

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The laity invited him to give Dhamma lectures in the temples,

usually a non Theravada temple. This was rather inconvenient

and devotees began to seek a proper centre for Bhante

Suvanno. The Bukit Mertajam Centre initially took a rented

premise to initiate this aspect of Bhante’s Dhamma work. On

this rented premises, the devotees built a kuti (hut) and invited

Bhante to be the religious teacher. They then formed a group to

call on householders and talked Dhamma to them. They did

“cold calls” on the people living in the more rural areas and

were very successful in such a form of propagation.

Bhante was at this time in Mi Tor See. The Bukit Mertajam

Centre members took the trouble to bring interested devotees

to see him at Mi Tor See for him to conduct meditation

training and to answer questions that they themselves was not

able to answer. The enthusiasm grew and more devotes spent

their time in Dhamma work. They even went as far as to

Singapore to spread the Dhamma when local devotees had

interested parties over in those places.

When Buddhist Hermitage in Lunas was mooted, the devotees

in Bukit Mertajam Centre helped to raise funds for the

construction of the Hermitage. When the Hermitage was ready,

there were great discussions as to whether to close the Bukit

Mertajam Centre or link it with the Hermitage in Lunas. It was

Bhante’s advice that it would be a better idea to remain

separate and thus have two centres.

It was Bhante, too who in time helped to purchase a property

for the Bukit Mertajam Centre to finally have a place of their

very own.

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Bhante Suvanno thus helped give birth to and then nurtured

Theravada Buddhism in the North. By many other such

activities he managed to create awareness of the Theravada

tradition here in North Malaya and then see it spread to other

centres in Malaysia.

Inviting Sayadaws to Teach and Conduct Workshops

JV: On many occasions knowledgeable Burmese teachers

(Sayadaws) of meditation were invited to conduct courses on

specific topics for the benefit of devotees. One such course was

a workshop on Abhidhamma by the Venerable Sayadaw U

Silananda. There is always a resident Sayadaw regularly at the

Hermitage all year round to instruct on meditation. Devotees

are encouraged to attend retreats at any time suitable to

themselves.

Chanting On Occasions

JV: On special occasions, Bhante Suvanno and a few monks

will be called upon to chant at happy occasions or for the

benefit of a sick person. On happy occasions such as birthdays,

anniversaries, birth of new babies and others, devotees will go

to either of the two centres after ascertaining that Bhante is at

the centre, in order to request his attendance to chant for the

well being of the people involved in such occasions.

In certain situations where superstitious devotees arrive to

request that he bless the statute of the Blessed One, he will

always refuse the request, saying that as the Blessed One was his

teacher, he Suvanno, will not be so disrespectful as to assume to

have the authority to bless his Teacher. Bhante will take any

appropriate opportunity to educate the devotees in the

correctness of their views and deeds.

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Marriage Ceremonies

JV: Many married couples, old and new, specifically request

Bhante to sort out their marriage problem. Bhante enjoys

attending pre-nuptial ceremonies where he will always deliver a

Dhamma lecture. The usual content of his marriage lectures is

that:

• Couples must always respect each other,

• Feel right to say sorry when such is necessary,

• Speak and act lovingly and towards each other,

• Take up the 5 precepts.

True Life Experiences

Bhante’s conduct of himself is a strict adherence to the rules of

conduct of bhikkhus (Vinaya) set up by the Blessed One 2600

years ago. In no way does he compromise on these rules. Even

his own personal comforts are of no importance.

In their good intentions to give him the best of everything,

devotees will check with him on his preferences for this and

that; his stock reply is always the same: “Never mind lah, no

need, lah.”

Devotee: Bhante, what would you like for lunch?

BHANTE: never mind lah, no need lah.

Another devotee: Bhante, would you like bird’s nest soup for

breakfast?

BHANTE: never mind lah, no need lah, anything will do lah,

don’t trouble lah.

Yet another devotee: Bhante, I have brought you some fantastic

super multi-vitamins that will give you super long life.

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BHANTE: never mind lah, no need lah, no need to have so

long life lah.

One more devotee: Bhante, I will take you to see this very

special specialist, he cures every sort of sickness.

BHANTE: no need lah, die die lah.

That is Bhante; a simple monk with simple needs. Basic needs

and simplicity, that best describes him. He is comfortable not

wearing even slippers anytime of the day. A simple man is he. A

man without needs is a happy man! He is the Dhamma!

Eating

JV: When eating, he prefers to take his meal in the true

bhikkhu manner from the alms bowl, unless of course it

becomes inconvenient as when visiting a devotee’s house. In

that case any ordinary utensils will do. He at no time will

inconvenience the devotees. There is no request for special

food. Request for food is against the rules of conduct in the

bhikkhus’ rules (Vinaya). A bhikkhus’s training is in getting rid

of greed, anger and delusion; thus, any request for material

items or gains is against the training. Even when he is sick from

diarrhoea, he will eat what is placed before him; not even under

the pretext of sickness will Bhante request for special food; he

believes this is just to justify the greed for food.

Medical Care

JV: With Bhante, there is no need for medical care. Any

sickness will naturally take care of itself. Though he had been in

the medical profession for many years he does not believe in

taking too many medication. There is no need for a monk to

be afraid of sickness and pain; these phenomena are part and

parcel of a conditioned being.

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If one does not believe and internalise the Teachings of the

Blessed One, then, one will surely be unduly concerned of the

consequences of sickness but all things are impermanent, even

sickness. It either kills us or we get better. If it kills us, so be it;

that is probably the vipaka of kamma, the result of

unwholesome deeds of the past.

We may get well, so why worry; the trip to see the doctor would

then be unnecessary. If one is convinced that one is on the path

of virtue and is keeping our precepts well one should be

confident that these impermanent phenomena will go away.

Others will come, and if we were practising vipassana

meditation well, we will be able to note their arising and

passing away; realising that they are impermanent.

We should be able to observe all phenomena arising and

contemplate on their impermanence and suffering nature, thus,

gaining realisation into the non-selfness of existence. Sickness

and pain in this respect is our teacher. In the time of the

Blessed One, He recommended drinking fermented cow’s urine

as a cure all for all diseases.

Being eighty years of age and still as good physically as a

younger person, one can believe that what he preaches is the

truth. The machinery, that is his material body, is still intact,

though there are signs that it is quietly breaking up. No doctor

is able to stop that. Should the need arises that he actually has

to get medical assistance it will be to relieve the temporary

uneasiness, after which the doctor’s medicine will be left

untouched, left on the small table in his kuti.

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In any phase of his life and in any situation he finds himself in,

Bhante will always set an exemplary manner according to the

Teachings of the Blessed One. The Dhamma is his guide in life

and the Vinaya its law. He is not ostentatious in the observance

of the rules; he does not chant them daily, but you will know by

his body language that the rules and conduct has been inducted

into the fibres of his mind and body.

He is the rule; he is the vinaya; he walks them. He will never

deviate even a wee bit from them. Such is the man, a rare breed

of monks. The Master has set the rules, it has been internalise

within his mind and body and they are his guide to the Path of

Freedom, Liberation from samsara.

BHANTE: I have accomplished what I set out to do.

JV: Yes, assuredly he has. The end of the road is near. There is

however no fear or reluctance when Bhante lectures about it.

There is no reluctance to mention the thought of passing on.

All things are impermanent in nature, all conditioned things

are subject to decay and death, said the Blessed One.

Bhante Suvanno is looking forward to the next adventure and

in the short duration that he returns to develop his other

perfections. At any time that he considers his passing away, he

would surely remind anyone within earshot that his funeral

should be a simple one. If at all “put my remains in that carton

box over there and just burn it up. The carton will make a good

burning catalyst.”

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Bhante as he was then

JV: Year 2000; Bhante Suvanno enters his 80th year, and into

the 20th vassa (years) as a bhikkhu; he is thus regarded as “a

great elder”; a Mahathera. Despite his age, Bhante maintains a

good memory where Dhamma is concerned.

However, there is no doubt that his health is gradually limiting

him from engaging in active Dhamma work. As abbot of Mi

Tor See and Buddhist Hermitage, Lunas, Bhante is currently

assisted by the Venerables Sayadaw U Aggadhamma and

Sayadaw U Summana of Myanmar. In residence too is a local

bhikkhu, Bhikkhu Kondanna.

He regularly receives visitors at the two centres. He was the

spiritual advisor of the Bukit Mertajam Buddhist Meditation

Centre since 1985 and trustee of the Mahindarama (Sri Lanka)

Buddhist Temple in Penang.

Sometimes he would question devotees on how much they have

benefitted from the Dhamma. He used to wonder how many of

his audience had truly practised the teachings of the Great

teacher. Let us resolve to be good followers of the Blessed One

and walk the Path as shown by Bhante Suvanno, following in

the footsteps of the Great Teacher.

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Bhante on The Four Foundations of Mindfulness

JV: Many a time, especially during the years of 1990 into the

year 2000, there were a few meditation sayadaws and

practitioners who came out with pronouncements of new

methods of Vipassana meditation, and flocks of people would

abandon the Mahasi method of Vipassana meditation to take

up training in the new methods. Some even claim that so and

so sayadaw has a new method that is a short-cut to realisation;

others will have simplified the method and gain fast and better

results. Many of Bhante’s devotees would excitedly approach

Bhante and inform him of the new methods of training in

Vipassana. Even in today’s Vipassana meditation training, there

are also such statements made; thus some are confused as to the

reality of Mahasi’s method in reference to the new methods.

Bhante will have one stock answer to all the new teachings.

BHANTE: If there was a better way, the Buddha would have

taught the better way, but He taught only the Four Foundations

of Mindfulness, in other words Satipatthana Vipassana;

Mindfulness of the Four Foundations with each in and out

breath (ref: Anapanasati Mindfulness of Breathing by

Buddhadasa Bhikkhu); which means mindful of feelings, of the

body, of the mind and of the Dhamma.

Now in the case of the Mahasi method, the practice is noting

the rising phenomena from the six sense doors while observing

the rising and falling of the abdomen as the primary object of

meditation; the rising and falling as equivalent to the in and

out breathing technique. The rational being that the

movements of the abdomen is easier to observe as it is gross

and very apparent; while the in out breath is finer and more

difficult to observe. The name may give the impression that it

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was a method invented by Mahasi Sayadaw; that in reality is not

the case; it was just the method inspired by him as he

discovered that the method employed of observing the rising

and falling of the abdomen was capable of attaining momentary

concentration, necessary for the contemplation of the

characteristics of existence; impermanence, suffering and non-

self leading into the stream of Nibbana.

In fact, the method he applied was not his own invention, but

learnt from another teacher; the Venerable Mingun Jetavan

Sayadaw (1869-1954). Mingun Jetavan Sayadaw learnt the

practice directly from the Suttas backed by the Commentaries

and sub-commentaries over a hundred years ago.

The phrase “Mahasi method” is just a nomenclature to identify

an orthodox practice of the Four Foundations of Mindfulness

as taught by the Blessed One Himself according to the Sutta

and Commentaries and sub-commentaries; the authority of the

Buddha’s Dhamma-Vinaya. It was so named by practitioners

who found the method, popularised by Mahasi Sayadaw,

brought in the desired results of attaining Vipassana insights in

a graduated manner.

Historical Facts from Myanmar

In 1931 the young monk known as Ashin Sobana (Mahasi

Sayadaw) together with another fellow monk left for the town

of Thaton. He was seeking a teacher to learn the method of

Vipassana meditation. At this time the practice of Vipassana

was not popular as not many teachers were available, so it was

quite fortunate for Ashin Sobana to have found a teacher of

some fame to begin his Vipassana training.

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This Sayadaw was the venerable Mingun Jetavan Sayadaw, who

had learnt his basic practice from a well known sayadaw of that

era, Aletawya Sayadawgi who in his turn had learnt the method

from another sayadaw known as Thee-Lon Sayadawgi thirty

years ago. These teachers or masters popularly known as

sayadawgi are well known historical teachers of satipatthana

meditation in Burma.

Thus, the lineage of the “Mahasi” method has a pedigree of

over a hundred years. It has stood the test of time as many

students had attained to higher levels of achievement in the

training. (Ref. Biography of the Most Venerable Mahasi

Sayadaw)

Today in Myanmar alone there are more than 400 centres

teaching this method of Vipassana Meditation. It is also well

know internationally and brought to the United States of

America, where there are also numerous such centres.

The number of centres worldwide would vouch for the efficacy

of the method.

Stated simply, when the yogi is noting the rise and fall of the

abdomen, he is also mindful of the feelings where the body is

concerned; that is mindfulness of the body and feelings. As he

is aware of thoughts and sensations he is also aware of the

arising and falling process in his mind; that is in simple term;

mindfulness of the mind; as he goes on observing and

developing concentration; the purity of the mind is achieved as

he is taking the precepts and is practising the eightfold path.

Thus all four foundations are involved.

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JV: The problem arises when practitioners are unable to rid

themselves of the hindrances in their practice as herein stated.

Let us see what the Blessed One has to say in regards to this.

Avarana Sutta: Obstacles (Hindrances)

(anguttara nikaya 5.51)

Nyanaponika Thera

On one occasion the Blessed One was staying at Savatthi, in

Jeta's Grove, Anathapindika's Monastery. There he addressed

the bhikkhus, "Bhikkhus!"

"Yes, Lord," the bhikkhus replied.

THE BLESSED ONE: There are five impediments and

hindrances, overgrowths of the mind that stultify insight. What

five?

Sensual desire is an impediment and hindrance, an overgrowth

of the mind that stultifies insight.

Ill-will...

Sloth and torpor...

Restlessness and remorse...

Sceptical doubt, are further impediments and hindrances,

overgrowths of the mind that stultify insight. Without having

overcome these five, it is impossible for a monk whose insight

thus lacks strength and power, to know his own true good, the

good of others, and the good of both; nor will he be capable of

realising that superhuman state of distinctive achievement, the

knowledge and vision enabling the attainment of sanctity.

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But if a monk has overcome these five impediments and

hindrances, these overgrowths of the mind that stultify insight,

then it is possible that, with his strong insight, he can know his

own true good, the good of others, and the good of both; and

he will be capable of realising that superhuman state of

distinctive achievement, the knowledge and vision enabling the

attainment of sanctity.

One whose heart is overwhelmed by unrestrained covetousness

will do what he should not do and neglect what he ought to do.

And through that, his good name and his happiness will come

to ruin.

One whose heart is overwhelmed by ill-will... by sloth and

torpor... by restlessness and remorse... by sceptical doubt will do

what he should not do and neglect what he ought to do. And

through that, his good name and his happiness will come to

ruin.

But if a noble disciple has seen these five as defilements of the

mind, he will give them up. And doing so, he is regarded as one

of great wisdom, of abundant wisdom, clear-visioned, well

endowed with wisdom. This is called "endowment with

wisdom." (anguttara 4:61

Suppose there were a river, flowing down from the mountains;

going far, its current swift, carrying everything with it; and a

man would open channels leading away from it on both sides,

so that the current in the middle of the river would be

dispersed, diffused, and dissipated; it wouldn't go far, its

current wouldn't be swift, and it wouldn't carry everything

along with it.

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In the same way, when a monk has not abandoned these five

obstacles, hindrances that overwhelm awareness and weaken

discernment, when he is without strength and weak in

discernment for him to understand what is for his own benefit,

to understand what is for the benefit of others, to understand

what is for the benefit of both, to realise a superior human

state, a truly noble distinction in knowledge and vision: that is

impossible.

Suppose there were a river, flowing down from the mountains;

going far, its current swift, carrying everything with it; and a

man would close the channels leading away from it on both

sides, so that the current in the middle of the river would be

undispersed, undiffused, and undissipated; it would go far, its

current swift, carrying everything with it.

In the same way, when a monk has abandoned these five

obstacles, hindrances that overwhelm awareness and weaken

discernment, when he is strong in discernment: for him to

understand what is for his own benefit, to understand what is

for the benefit of others, to understand what is for the benefit

of both, to realise a superior human state, a truly noble

distinction in knowledge and vision: that is possible.

Nourishment of Doubt

There are things causing doubt; frequently giving unwise

attention to them; that is the nourishment for the arising of

doubt that has not yet arisen, and for the increase and

strengthening of doubt that has already arisen. SN 46:51

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Six things are conducive to the abandonment of doubt:

1. Knowledge of the Doctrine and Discipline,

2. Asking questions about them (investigation of the

Dhamma),

3. Familiarity with the Vinaya (the Code of Monastic

Discipline, and for lay followers, with the principles of

moral conduct);

4. Association with those mature in age and experience,

who possess dignity, restraint and calm; firm

conviction concerning the Buddha, Dhamma and

Sangha.

5. Noble friendship;

6. Suitable conversation.

Simile Sceptical Doubt

A man traveling through a desert, aware that travelers may be

plundered or killed by robbers, will, at the mere sound of a twig

or a bird, become anxious and fearful, thinking: "The robbers

have come!" He will go a few steps, and then out of fear, he will

stop, and continue in such a manner all the way; or he may

even turn back. Stopping more frequently than walking, only

with toil and difficulty will he reach a place of safety, or he may

not even reach it.

It is similar with one in whom doubt has arisen in regard to

one of the eight objects of doubt. They are, doubt in regard to

the Buddha, the Dhamma, the Sangha, the threefold training,

sila, samadhi, panna; (which amounts to the noble eightfold

path) the past, the future, both past and future, and the

conditionality of phenomena dependently arisen.

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Doubting whether the Master is an Enlightened One or not, he

cannot accept it in confidence, as a matter of trust. Unable to

do so, he does not attain to the paths and fruits of sanctity.

Thus, as the traveler in the desert is uncertain whether robbers

are there or not, he produces in his mind, again and again, a

state of wavering and vacillation, a lack of decision, a state of

anxiety; and thus he creates in himself an obstacle for reaching

the safe ground of sanctity. In that way, sceptical doubt is like

traveling in a desert.

5. The Abandonment of Sceptical Doubt

There is a strong man who, with his luggage in hand and well

armed, travels through a wilderness in company. If robbers see

him even from afar, they will take flight. Crossing safely the

wilderness and reaching a place of safety, he will rejoice in his

safe arrival. Similarly a monk, seeing that sceptical doubt is a

cause of great harm, cultivates the six things that are its

antidote, and gives up doubt. Just as that strong man, armed

and in company, taking as little account of the robbers as of the

grass on the ground, will safely come out of the wilderness to a

safe place; similarly a monk, having crossed the wilderness of

evil conduct, will finally reach the state of highest security, the

deathless realm of Nibbana.

Therefore the Blessed One compared the abandonment of

sceptical doubt to reaching a place of safety.

Doubt is eliminated on the first stage, the path of stream-entry

(sotapatti-magga). Sensual desire, ill will and remorse are

eliminated on the third stage, the path of non-returner

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(anagami-magga) Sloth and torpor and restlessness are eradicated

on the path of Arahantship (arahatta-magga).

Thus, it is when practitioners are unable to rid themselves of

the hindrances that they become dissatisfied with their present

method of practice. They do not see their shortcomings and put

the failure of their meditation on the method of practice rather

than admit their own inadequacy; they fail to look within to

assess the problem. Thus, they will continue to seek what they

believe is the correct method...but alas...having too much dust

in their eyes they do not see the problem within. They are not

applying the teaching of Vipassana on themselves. Seek first

within yourself; that is the message of Vipassana.

Bhante used to demonstrate with his fingers as he applies the

index finger to punctuate others’ fault. When the index finger

is pointing; the thumb is raised and the other three fingers are

closed; thus the tree fingers are directed to oneself. He

elaborates: when you are accusing someone with one finger;

three other fingers are pointing to yourself.

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Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma SaSaSaSammmmbuddhabuddhabuddhabuddhassassassassa

CHAPTER 8

STORIES FROM BHANTE

“When a man, after a long absence,

returns home safe from afar,

Relatives, friends and well wishers

welcome him on arrival.

Likewise, having done good deeds,

When one goes from this world to the next,

Good deeds will welcome one,

As relatives welcome a dear one on arrival.”

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JV: Bhante Suvanno is fond of using stories in his lectures. This

really helps put his message across more meaningfully. Animals

have various characteristics and tendencies and Bhante applies

these characteristics in his stories. As an example, snakes are

supposed to have inherent deceptive natures. Let us hear a story

from Bhante Suvanno regarding this.

The Concrete Jungle

A snake was quietly waiting by the side of a pond surveying the

area as he was hungry and looking for a juicy meal. It spied a

frog on the other side of the pool and began to make a noise

emulating a male frog doing a mating call (here Bhante will

purse up his lips and imitate a bull frog’s mating call and this

usually have the audience in stitches of laughter). “I’m here”

(Bhante interprets the call); female frog: “where”; snake, “I’m

here”; and the female frog hopped nearer to the sound, asking

“where”; the snake croaks again, “I’m here”; and the female

frog croaks as she hopped near to the hidden snake; asking

“Where”; by and by as she comes within striking range of the

snake, the frog is gobbled up with a quick snap.

Thus, Bhante likened a cunning person to the snake, conning

innocent victims, represented by the gullible frog.

Bhante’s Coffin

One day Bhante was riding pillion up the hill to visit another

bhikkhu residing on a nearby hillslope. This particular centre

was not accessible by car and the only means of ascending the

hill was either by riding up on a two wheeled scooter or to take

a long hike up through a steep slippery path.

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Unfortunately, as the rider of the scooter stopped to let Bhante

off, the calf of his left leg grazed the extremely hot exhaust pipe

of the scooter and was badly burnt. On returning to Mi Tor

See, a devotee offered some ointment to dress the burn.

Thinking that it was not a serious burn, Bhante left it and as

was his wont, did not have a doctor attend to the burn. The

burn festered for few days and as he went about his daily duties

of sweeping the compound of Mi Tor See, he stepped on a

sharp splinter which pierced the sole of his right foot.

So it was that, when devotees visited him, they found him with

both feet not functioning! One foot was due to the severe burn

on his calf which was turning septic, with the wound going

deep into the fleshy calf and the surrounding area was very

angrily red and sore; the other foot was swollen at the point

where the splinter pierced the sole. The head of the splinter

could be seen buried deep inside and was pus-filled.

There he was sitting down, with one leg slightly raised resting

on the large toe and the other bent and resting on the sole,

carrying on a conversation, oblivious to the seriousness of his

wounds. At this time the burn was already seven days old, but

Bhante had not deemed it serious enough to have a doctor

dress the burn. This was usual with him as he had never taken

any serious concern with his own bodily needs. After some

persuasion he consented to visit a nearby clinic. The doctor

cleaned the burn, cutting away about two inches in diameter of

the dead flesh which had turned grey in colour, going deep into

the calf. The doctor explained that the heat of the exhaust burn

was probably in the region of 400˚C, much, much hotter than

boiling water and would definitely have cooked all the flesh to a

depth near the bone.

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The splinter was taken out from the other foot. Both were

dressed and bandaged with instructions to change the bandages

every two or three days. It took a couple of weeks dressing

before the burn was finally healed. Bhante explained that these

wounds to both his feet were results of some bad kamma in a

previous existence. He then told the story of the Blessed One’s

passing away and His sickness on the way to Parinibbana, he

further went on to relate how the Blessed One’s two chief

disciples passed away even before the Blessed One Himself and

also their passing away was also attended by remnants of results

of kamma of previous existence.

A few days after the visit to the doctor, a couple of devotees

paid a visit to enquire about Bhante regarding his wounds. The

visit found Bhante in a rather reflective mood and the

conversation went round to death ceremonies and so forth. It

then centred on how Bhante would want to have his body

disposed of after death. He particularly desired that the

devotees purchase a cheap coffin and have it brought to Mi Tor

See right away, to lie there in readiness for his death.

The coffin should be as simple as possible and inexpensive. His

body should be laid inside at death and be cremated at the

soonest possible time, without letting too many people know

about his passing away.

After cremation, the ashes should be strewn around the foot of

trees to serve as fertiliser. Only then should his family be

informed. If asked, the whereabouts of his ashes should not be

revealed to anyone, preventing any speculative search for bone

remnants.

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On Mediums

BHANTE: When I was a teenager, I was with a friend who was

a medium in a temple. A medium is a person who purportedly

is able to communicate with the dead or the devas. When the

deity or deva has possessed the medium, he goes into a trance. I

was curious and wished to experience this trance. However

hard I tried, I was not able to emulate this state of mind. This

shows that a person who has a strong mind can never be

“possessed” and enter this trance state.

On Dying Moments

BHANTE: When I was a hospital assistant, I witnessed many

cases of dying moments of people, how they behaved, their

supposedly eccentricities, etc. According to the Blessed One’s

Teachings, people who are at their death moments, experience

some form of augury of their future rebirths. I witnessed some

of the abnormal behaviour of these dying persons and I could

imagine what would be their destinies in their next life.

The physical and mental condition of a dying man is so weak

that the volitional control by the mind at the moment of dying

lacks the power to choose its own thoughts. This being so, the

memory of some powerfully impressive and important event of

the dying man’s present existence (or his past existence) will

force itself upon the threshold of his mind, the forcible entry of

which thought he is powerless to resist. This thought which is

known as the thought that precedes the terminal thought can

be one of these three types.

Firstly, it can be the thought of some powerfully impressive act

done (kamma) which the dying man now recalls to mind.

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Secondly, the powerfully impressive act of the past can be

recalled by way of a symbol of that act (kamma nimatta) as, for

instance, if he had stolen money from a safe, he may see a safe.

Thirdly, the powerfully impressive act of the past may be

recalled by way of a sign or indication of the place where he is

destined to be reborn by reason of such an act, say for instance

when a man who has done a great charitable act hears beautiful

divine music. This is called gati nimittas or the sign of

destination. It is symbolic of his place of rebirth.

These three types of thought-objects that he cannot consciously

choose for himself are known as death signs and any one of

them as the case may be, will very strongly and vividly appear to

the consciousness of the dying man.

I was at one time working in the old peoples’ division of the

Tanjong Rambutan Mental Hospital (a hospital for the

chronically insane), where I saw this old man who went to the

spittoon next to his bed. He started stirring the contents of

faeces and urine in the spittoon. He was holding a cup

containing milo, which he threw away and began to scoop up

the mixture with relish, licking his lips in obvious enjoyment!

This is the sign to show that the dying person is experiencing

his next realm of existence where faeces is his food.

Another instance which I have mentioned many times in my

Dhamma lectures concerned a man who, in a delirious state,

would scratch and pull his neck till it bruised. Upon seeing

this, the nurse in attendance tied up his hands to prevent him

from further injuring himself. In the report the nurse wrote

“delirious”.

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When I approached him and enquired about his actions, he

replied that there was a chain, which he was trying to remove

from around his neck.

There were many such incidents, like the dying man who was

munching away all the time but his mouth was empty of food. I

used to sit with these odd cases and tried to engage them in

conversation.

There was a time that a devotee came to listen to my Dhamma

lecture. He was about 43 years of age and at that point in time

he was suffering from cancer. Realising he had to do good, he

performed many dana but he was not able to keep his precepts.

It was his habit to send his son to do the dana on his behalf.

One day a year later, his condition deteriorated. He sent his

daughter to invite me to the house. When I arrived I gave a

Dhamma lecture and did some chanting and left him a tape of

chanting with the advice to continue listening till the last

moment.

On the final day he was still listening to the tape. However

during the night, he asked his children to switch off the tape.

When he was reminded that it was my special instruction to

them to keep the tape on, he shouted angrily that he wanted

the tape to be switched off. The children had no choice but to

do as told.

He then further instructed his children to open the main door

of the house. His children, not wishing to do that, made a

pretence of noisily opening the door, thinking that that should

appease him as he was not in a position to see the door itself.

But somehow he knew that the door was not opened.

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He shouted angrily, “do you think I am stupid? You think I do

not know? Go and open the door”, having no choice again, the

children opened the door. When the door was open, he started

mumbling and calling the names of his departed relatives and

inviting them to come into the house, as though inviting

friends to come for a visit. Shortly after that he passed away.

I like to emphasise that these real life experiences are

frightening and eerie but these are in accordance with the

teachings of the Blessed One in which he said that dying

persons will experience kamma, kamma nimitta or gati nimitta

at the death proximate moment. Therefore I keep encouraging

people to practise the teachings of the Blessed One which is

nothing but:

Do not do evil, Do good and Purify the mind

Doing Good

Even when I was young, I had the intention of doing good.

There was a nun, a strict vegetarian, who lived a few houses

away. One day I visited her to ask how a person should do good

deeds. I was told by her that if I wanted to do good deeds, I

should start by killing as many lizards as I could in her temple

as these lizards were defecating on the head of the “hut chor

ma” (Hokkien for the Goddess of Mercy) image on the temple’s

altar. She further told me that the merits for killing one lizard

were equivalent to the merits acquired by one being a

vegetarian for a whole year. So I started killing the lizards with a

rubber band. I was gullible and naïve when I was young as I did

not have the opportunity to listen to the true Dhamma. I was

taught wrong things.

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Getting On to the Right Train

Bhante constantly likened his position now as getting on to the

right train which will eventually reach its destination. If one is

not careful, one can easily get onto the wrong train, in which

event not only will one not reach one’s destination, but having

discovered that one is on the wrong train, one has to find a way

to get off!

To get off one has to retrieve all of one’s travelling gear, find

one’s way back to the original starting point and look for the

right train. A waste of time and effort!

Vegetarian Food

In certain religious sects, the belief is that a purely vegetarian

diet promotes purity and good health. However, they should

also consider that as such food are made to look as replicas of

certain meat dishes when taken as such, there is the tendency to

compare the taste of the artificial variety.

Herein lies the source of greed and craving. There is the

unconscious or even conscious comparison, thus these

sensuous sensations cause the rise of likes and aversion.

Another factor to bear in mind too, is the fact that killing of

living beings are also unavoidable in the planting process of the

vegetarian origin.

With the introduction of chemical fertilisers and pesticides to

encourage plant growth, the concept of pure vegetarian origin is

also a fallacy. When chemicals are introduced into the

atmosphere, the sources of unknown diseases are also

introduced.

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Whereas, in mindful consumption of food that is offered by

devotees, in the Theravada tradition, regardless of meat or

vegetarian sources, without choice or recognition of the food;

there is no sensuous sensation to cause the liking or aversion of

the food consumed. There is no craving or attachment to

certain types of food.

Those that consume food for enjoyment have craving and

attachment in them, whilst those that mindfully consume food

solely as sustenance for the practice of Dhamma will not be

troubled by craving and attachment. So it is not the consuming

of vegetarian or meat dish that counts, it is that we eat

mindfully. Eating mindfully causes no craving, thus no greed

arises.

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Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma SamSamSamSambuddhabuddhabuddhabuddhassassassassa

EPILOGUE

JV: In the uncertainties and suffering of his childhood days,

when his heart had cried out for

love and understanding of the

meaninglessness of life as he saw

it then and when no solace was

forthcoming, Khoo Eng Kim had

no inkling as to what would be

his fate as painful days follow

each other.

By kammic intervention, realised

only through hindsight, drops of

fresh, pure Dhamma gem, albeit

raw knowledge of suffering, began

to shape his mind. This would

eventually guide him to the Path

he was to tread as an adult. When

this matured in time, every single thought, speech and act

paralleled the teachings of the Greatest Teacher of all times.

His whole life had been moulded by a painful childhood which

pain had forcibly channelled his very thoughts, speech and

actions to the path of purity, just as would the raging flood

waters characterise the river and help to shape the eventual

course of the river itself.

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Mindfulness of thought, speech and deed and ensuring that

they are in accordance with his knowledge of the Dhamma, had

been the fount of his gathering wisdom. The purity of the two

great protectors of mankind was his constant companion.

These were his right and left hand guardians. What two? Hiri

and Ottappa were their names. These two wise guardians of his

path to purity had never left him for a single moment alone,

since they had taken him over as their favourite child.

Hiri, whose power springs from the shame of doing evil deeds;

Ottappa, whose wisdom matured through the fear of the results

of evil deeds. These were the twin tutors constantly weeding out

little unwholesomeness about to arise in him, tempering and

moulding him as would fire and water temper and mould a

blade of steel.

As wisdom and understanding gradually lightened up his

confused and troubled mind, it dawned on him that all his

suffering had been the results of actions of past existences

coming to roost in this present time. Realising thus, the quality

of his present thoughts, speech and deeds became of great

significance in his daily moments. They became of great

importance to him. He laid no blame on anyone or anything

for his pain and suffering. He knew and understood the results

of kamma. Thus understanding, and having firm faith in the

workings of kamma, he began to strive heedfully with great

energy to follow the only Path that leads to a stage of purity of

thoughts, speech and deeds, so much so that it has become a

habit, a daily ritual to ensure that each thought and speech that

precedes volitional action had been vetted by his two great

guardians, Hiri and Ottappa.

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Today as in many years before at the dawn of his knowledge of

the Dhamma, his very life is a stage show played out more and

more within the pure confines of the script of the Dhamma,

following every single word of the Great Director of life’s

drama, the Blessed One, the Buddha:

Such, indeed, is the Exalted One: Worthy, Perfectly Self

Enlightened, Endowed with knowledge and conduct, Well-

gone, Knower of the worlds, Supreme Trainer of people to be

tamed, Enlightened and Exalted.

Thus, his needs are few and simple, only sufficient for the

moment, he lays no store for the future. His understanding of

the Dhamma has brought wisdom that tells him life is but a

flitting moment; to lay store for the morrow is to increase the

greed in him. There will never be an end; for he further said, to

have lived a reasonably long healthy life is a blessing, any each

day after the age of 70 is bonus time and he is grateful for that;

live each minute then as your last because you never know

when the kammic time is at its end.

Unselfishly and with great compassion, caring only for the

salvation of human beings, he has spent more than twenty

seven years of his later life in the propagation of the true

Dhamma in a sea of doubtful so called dhammas. In this, he

brooked no interferences from any quarters.

Tirelessly, he works out his aspiration of spreading the

Dhamma. The tide of Dhamma carries him onwards to the goal

that he seeks and till his last breath he will be out there, as he

says; “cari makan lah”.

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THE FINAL CURTAIN

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Venerable Suvanno After Year 2000 (edited)

Contribution (part) by Bro. KC Liew

Bhante Suvanno continued to spend his days at Mi Tor See

even though Buddhist Hermitage Lunas was the newly

registered Buddhist meditation centre. When the Executive

Committee of the Hermitage requested the venerable abbot to

spend more time in Lunas, he replied that the Venerable

Sayadaws were already doing their good jobs there, so he was

happy to put up at Mi Tor See.

Bhante Suvanno was happy to continue serving the regular

devotees in Penang, who had attended to him faithfully all the

years. Further, he was truly grateful to the pioneer devotees who

had raised the sum of RM26,000 to repair and renovate Mi Tor

See into a reasonable dwelling place from the initially

ramshackle temple.

It was his way to demonstrate his gratitude for their kindness,

for he was a monk full of compassion and gratitude.

It was also his way to demonstrate the way of the true Dhamma

and Vinaya, that monks need not necessary be housed in great

big temples and centres. Any abode presented by the devotees is

acceptable; just a shelter so that mosquitoes and insects do not

give discomfort to the bhikkhus in their practice of Vipassana

meditation, the true calling of well behaved bhikkhus.

For he recalls that the Blessed One has said:

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The Five Future Dangers

1. Monks desirous of fine robes, will neglect the practice of

wearing cast-off cloth; will neglect isolated forest and

wilderness dwellings; will move to towns, cities and royal

capitals, taking up residence there. For the sake of robes

they will do many kinds of unseemly, inappropriate

deeds.

2. Monks desirous of fine food, will neglect the practice of

going for alms; will neglect isolated forest and wilderness

dwellings; will move to towns, cities and royal capitals,

taking up residence there and searching out the tip-top

tastes with the tip of the tongue. For the sake of food they

will do many kinds of unseemly, inappropriate things.

3. Monks desirous of fine lodgings, will neglect the practice

of living in the wilds; will neglect isolated forest and

wilderness dwellings; will move to towns, cities and royal

capitals, taking up residence there. For the sake of fine

lodgings they will do many kinds of unseemly,

inappropriate things.

4. Furthermore, in the course of the future there will be

monks who will live in close association with nuns,

female probationers and female novices. As they interact

with nuns, female probationers and female novices, they

can be expected either to lead the holy life dissatisfied or

to fall into one of the grosser offences, leaving the

training, returning to a lower way of life.

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5. Furthermore, in the course of the future there will be

monks who will live in close association with monastery

attendants and novices. As they interact with monastery

attendants and novices, they can be expected to live

intent on storing up all kinds of possessions and to stake

out crops and fields.

Bhante has always been mindful that he does not stray into

those categories of bhikkhus.

As to robes, he personally wears one set and gives away those

gifted by devotees. When he was able and well, Bhante will

wash and dry his own robes.

As to food, it was his habit to eat only from his bowl, mixed

together and without choice. He used to tell the story of a time

when after he had finished his bowl of food, a devotee rushed

in and asks whether he had consumed all the food in his bowl

and Bhante replies: yes I did; and the poor guilty looking

devotees then said: Bhante I am sorry but we had by mistake

given you some chang (dumpling) that was to be thrown away.

Bhante said: I did not see what was in the bowl; I only

mindfully chewed and yes there was some sourish tasting food;

so I noted sour, sour, sour. Never mind it is alright, there was

no bad intention on your part. The grateful devotee then asked

for forgiveness and departed; Bhante was not the least

disturbed.

And also fulfilling the Vinaya rules, Bhante will always bring

along his bowl to wherever he goes when invited by

householders.

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As to the other dangers, he is always careful that he lives in

solitude and keeps away from idolatrous devotee, male or

female. Thus, Mi Tor See was ideal for his practice. However,

from time to time, Bhante Suvanno would visit the Hermitage,

especially when there was an occasion, such as the Kathina

ceremony, Wesak day ceremony (in honour of the Blessed

One’s birth, enlightenment and parinibbana) or just a casual

visit to meet his devotees on the mainland.

Janet Lim (Bhante’s wife before his renunciation) had settled

comfortably in Alberta, Canada, after Bhante’s ordination.

Every two years it was her routine to return to Malaysia with

her eldest daughter, Jenny Doyle from England to visit Bhante

wherever he may be. In the early days after Bhante's

renunciation, Janet or her daughters would write to him in Mi

Tor See. As Bhante was resolute to leave samsara and he

understood the word 'renunciation' well, he did not reply to

them.

There were times, when he was feeling uneasy receiving those

letters, so he requested Uncle Teoh Lim of Mi Tor See to reply

on his behalf. Bhante said, "I am now a monk and have cut

away ties with my family. Attachment will lead to more

suffering. As I have learnt to let go, they too, will have to learn

to let go of attachment".

The Buddhist Hermitage in Lunas, is a well known place where

meditators from all over Malaysia and even internationally

would come to learn and practise Vipassana meditation. It is

complete with teachers, suitable practise halls and

accommodation for males and females.

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Bhante Suvanno was keen that Buddhist Hermitage Lunas

acquire a consecrated hall, called a Sima Hall, (a specially

designated area for formal meetings of the community of

monks) for the purpose of ordination of new monks.

The hall was meant for the members of the Sangha to conduct

their patimokkha sessions (recitation of the 227 precepts on

new and full moon days), ordination ceremonies or to conduct

the pavarana (a ceremony for the community of monks held at

the end of the rains retreat).

A plot of land adjacent to the Hermitage was found suitable

and purchased from a neighbour of the centre. The Ground-

Breaking Ceremony was held on 11th April 2004. A few guest

monks and many devotees were present to witness the

ceremony.

In July 2004, the Hermitage marked an important mile stone

with the arrival of Sayadaw U Sunanda of the Mahasi

Meditation Centre taking over Venerable Sayadaw U Sumana

who was to leave for Myanmar for a visit. In September, the

Sima Demarcation Ceremony was conducted by invited Thai

monks, and later another chanting session for the consecration

ceremony by visiting Myanmar monks.

Bhante Suvanno was unable to participate in the chanting

sessions even though he was present, due to his poor health. In

fact, he was hospitalised in Penang on a few occasions, besides

his routine check-up and treatment for diabetes. The

construction of the Sima was completed and the opening

ceremony was held on 25th December 2005 to coincide with the

15th Anniversary of the centre.

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It was named Varada Abhaya Suvanna Sima. Thus, Bhante's

aspiration of having a Sima had been realised.

It was at this time too that Bhante Suvanno made the decision

to close the activities in Mi Tor See and return the ownership

of the temple to its original owners.

The year also saw Bhante losing the use of some physical

faculties, especially the right hand fingers, which had become

stiff and as a result he was unable to write or even to sign his

famous signature; A. Suvanno.

On 25th December 2005, the opening ceremony of the Varada

Abhaya Suvanna Sima was conducted. Bhante Suvanno

delivered his speech before officiating the opening of the Hall.

Many guest monks were present and later, Bhante joined them

to perform the consecration ceremony of the main Buddha

image as well as the four miniature ones in the Sima. Since

leaving Mi Tor See, Bhante spent his days at the Bukit

Mertajam Buddhist Meditation Centre (B.M.B.M.C.).

In mid 2006, the executive committee of the Hermitage invited

Bhante Suvanno to be the Patron of the Hermitage and return

to reside in Lunas. They also proposed that a new

accommodation suitable for his disability be built for him.

Bhante Suvanno obliged and construction work for the new

accommodation started on 20th September 2006. The

proposed living quarters was expected to take between two to

three months to complete.

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During the construction of the building, Bhante Suvanno used

to visit the Hermitage to view its progress and even had the

opportunity to take a nap in the quarters named the 'Patron's

Residential Building' for a few hours during one of his visits.

The executive committee felt that something significant should

be done to honour Bhante Suvanno for his numerous

contributions to Theravada Buddhism. A few members led by

Ms. Soon Choon Lean visited Bhante at the B.M.B.M.C., to

request for Bhante's foot prints to be cast in white cement for

posterity. The committee was happy that Bhante complied with

the request. The footprints were then placed on the first floor

of the residential building.

The Patron's Residential Building was completed on 7th,

December 2006. The committee was eager to invite the abbot

back to the Hermitage but unfortunately, Bhante was admitted

into the Lam Wah Ee Specialist Hospital on 31st December of

the same year and was diagnosed with a growth in the left lung,

which had caused him to have serious phlegm problem and

vomiting spasms. Monks and devotees visited Bhante on the

following months. Members of the B.M.B.M.C. and other

devotees also continuously took turns to care for him at night.

Bhante's health did not improve and relatives in Penang

contacted Janet Lim and Mrs. Jenny Doyle.

Mrs. Jenny Doyle and Mdm. Choon Benedict, the youngest

daughter flew to Penang to see their former father. As Bhante's

health became more stable later, the daughters flew back home

but promised to be back later.

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In the meantime, Bhante continued to receive treatment at the

Lam Wah Ee Hospital and some concerned devotees suggested

that Bhante be discharged since there were no improvement to

his condition. When Mrs. Jenny Doyle and Mdm. Choon

Benedict came back for the second trip with Janet Lim, the

committee decided to bring Bhante back to Lunas.

But that was not to be and it was as if Bhante Suvanno could

sense the difficulty to others in caring for him, especially at

night, that he finally breathed his last on 11th March (22nd day

of the Chinese first moon) 2007 at 6.30 a.m.

He died peacefully in his sleep. Janet and daughters as well as

some devotees were at the bedside.

During the months in the hospital, Bhante's mind was alert,

although at times he appeared delirious. He was aware of the

happenings around him. He was aware of the pain sensation

when the nurses came to attend to him. Bhante was happy

when members of the Sangha came to visit him. He could even

join their chanting in his soft voice. That is the wonderful

nature of the mind of a Vipassana meditator as can be seen in

Bhante Suvanno.

The Patron of Buddhist Hermitage Lunas, was 86 years, 8

months and 5 days old when he passed away.

During his healthier days, when devotees would gather around

him after lunch dana to hear his lectures and when asked about

his last days, Bhante would advise them that he would prefer a

simple funeral.

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He said: "Just get a few pieces of plywood and nail them into a

box, big enough to put the body in. If I die in the morning,

then cremate me in the evening on the same day. That should

be good enough"; he would laughingly say this, but knowing

him we believe that he is serious in his request, as he had

mentioned this subject many a time. His last message to all

devotees is:

“Take the opportunity to develop yourselves. Cut away “Take the opportunity to develop yourselves. Cut away “Take the opportunity to develop yourselves. Cut away “Take the opportunity to develop yourselves. Cut away greed, hagreed, hagreed, hagreed, hatred, delusion and lead a very calm life, so calm and tred, delusion and lead a very calm life, so calm and tred, delusion and lead a very calm life, so calm and tred, delusion and lead a very calm life, so calm and so tranquil until you really see that you have already so tranquil until you really see that you have already so tranquil until you really see that you have already so tranquil until you really see that you have already escaped from birth, old age, sickness and death, and never escaped from birth, old age, sickness and death, and never escaped from birth, old age, sickness and death, and never escaped from birth, old age, sickness and death, and never to find rebirth; attained Nibbana".to find rebirth; attained Nibbana".to find rebirth; attained Nibbana".to find rebirth; attained Nibbana".

The laying in state was held for three days and the body was

cremated at the Berapit Crematorium in Bukit Mertajam. Ms.

Soon and members went to the crematorium the following

morning to collect the bones and ashes. Members with Janet

and daughters drove across to Penang, hired two boats and

scatter the ashes into the open sea.

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OBITUARY

CHIEF MONK SUVANNO DIES AT 86

(Star News Nation Monday March 12, 2007)

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(The Dhammapada - verse 148)

PENANG: Ven Acara Suvanno Maha Thero (pic), well known

as the monk instrumental in reviving Theravada Buddhism in

the northern states, has died at the age of 86.

The Buddhist Hermitage Lunas chief monk, known as Bhante

Suvanno among the community, died in his sleep at the Lam

Wah Ee Hospital here at 6.30am yesterday.

Hermitage secretary C.S. Liew said Suvanno was suffering from

lung cancer and had been warded since Dec 31 (2006).

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"The doctor said surgery was not advisable because of his age,

and Bhante Suvanno declined chemotherapy. He had problems

with phlegm because of the growth in his lungs," Liew said.

The cortege will leave the Hermitage (phone number: 04-484

4027) in Kampung Seberang Sungai, Lunas, Kedah, for

cremation at the Berapit Crematorium in Bukit Mertajam,

Central Seberang Prai, at 2pm on Tuesday.

Thus, he came uninvited and goes alone to a destination no

one knows where. Came as a nobody and go on to be a nobody.

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Khoo Eng Kim was an ordinary man but he began life with less

worth than any ordinary child; he suffered great deprivation at

the hands of family relatives…he passed into nibbana in the

early morning (6.30am) of Sunday March 11 in the year 2007;

calmly and quietly, without fuss or fanfare just as he had lived

his life as the Blessed One’s true disciple.

“Ven Acara Suvanno Maha Thera, well known as the monk

instrumental in breathing life to Theravada Buddhism in the

northern states of Malaya [at that time], has died at the age of

86”.

“Chief Monk” was not the epithet he would have used on

himself, nor would he want to be known by such an honorific

title; he preferred a quiet, solitary life staying in an out-of-the

way old derelict temple, recovered for his use when all he had

over his head was a roof of rambutan branches and leaves! He

had never wished for any recognition of his work or even for

himself, his only concern and care was for all those who came

to him seeking the road to non suffering; that they should

practise the Path taught by the Blessed One.

He had only desired that his friends would “jhow” [hokkien

dialect meaning to run away] and join him in nibbana; as he often

remarked at his Dhamma lectures: “then I would look around

and see all my friends around me and I will happily say: ‘ah

good, you are also here!’

Many were the times he was invited to receive honours at the

hands of famous monks and meditation institutions from

Myanmar; in particular from the Mahasi Meditation Centre,

Yangon, in recognition of his exemplary dhammaduta work.

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In all cases he would quietly decline without making any

comments. His well known Hokkien phrase being: “Um mai

lah…bei ewe kin lah…[translation: not necessary…never mind…] ”

said with a calm quiet smile, full of compassion and humility.

He never desired any of the adulations and accolades heaped

onto him by his devotees; as usual a smile and a quiet walk

away: “bei ewe kin lah…” would be his only acknowledgement

of the praises and honours render him.

Even in the centre in Lunas, organised “for him” by devotees,

he was not at all affected by the adulations of devotees and it

was his wont to “escape” into the forest to be by himself when

situations were a bit stressed due to factional squabbles in the

centre.

In particular, he had this great desire to be away for solitary

meditation far away from his base of Penang. We headed

faraway to the south of the country and stayed at a big quiet

house in the town of Kulai for a while till the death of his very

good friend and kappiya, Uncle Teoh Lim forced him to return

to Penang.

In particular, memory recalls a visit to his favoured destination;

Yangon…this time [planning for his own demise in the near future as

he thought] to give away financial subsidies from his devotees to

numerous temples and meditation centres there. At every

centre and temple visited…his manner was a noble silence just

to hand over the cash subsidies and humbly walk away. His

only acknowledgement of gratitude from the recipients were

through companions accompanying him; he would seldom say

a word at all…requesting to inform the recipients that this was a

parting gift to them on behalf of his many devotees in Malaysia.

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When the turn to visit Sayadaw Shwe Oo Min came..he again

requested that I should say the same statement to the Sayadaw.

Sayadaw’s reply have always stayed in my memory: He smiled

gently, glanced knowingly at Bhante Suvanno then looked

towards my direction and said: “Tell your teacher this is not his

last visit here...he will come many times more”; and sure

enough over the following few years he had to visit Yangon a

few times to attend to the sickness and funeral of a great friend

Sayadaw Aggadhamma who passed away there.

In the end, almost all recognised that he was not an ordinary

man. In the course of his later life he dedicated it to the quest

for the Deathless as his Great Teacher; the Buddha had taught

him.

His whole life was dedicated to bringing to the world his

interpretation and preaching of the Dhamma; twenty four

hours a day for seven days a week, he will be at his chosen

course of expounding the Dhamma. At age 12 he became

passionately enamoured of the Dhamma; the passion of

wanting to realise the Dhamma carried him onto the stream of

insights that eventually ordained him to the Sangha, where he

found his true home.

The life of a renunciate suited him to a T; he was the vanguard

of the Dhamma; he was a Dhamma General and he carried the

Dhamma Banner exceedingly well.

He was known far and wide, where there is the true Dhamma,

there the name “Bhante Suvanno” would have been a

catchword. “Bhante Suvanno”, just the name will bring forth

grateful looks and gentle mien from laities of all walks of life

and both gender love him as such; “Bhante Suvanno”.

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Even those who have not seen him in person would have heard

of “Bhante Suvanno” at some time or other and those who had

never seen him, would make an aspiration to see him at least

once in their lives. To see him and receive the Dhamma from

him in person was indeed a pilgrimage in itself to many. “I have

seen Bhante already!” was mostly an exclamation of great pride!

To the uninitiated: “Bhante” was synonymous with “Suvanno”

because they have known no other Bhantes in their Dhamma

lives.

The name would attract generous donations and requisites that

few would ever receive. Rich and poor, young and old would

flock to the Dhamma halls anywhere when the word goes out

that; “Bhante lai loh…Bhante lai loh…Bhante lai kong keng

loh”! [Bhante is here to give Dhamma lectures”]; especially so, in

the northern states of West Malaysia.

The older generation; “aunties” and “uncles” would be at the

forefront of any occasions where Bhante Suvanno was around.

Everyone adored “Bhante”!

In accordance with Dependent Origination, an era of the

Dhamma has just ended with the passing away of this great

renunciate.

From an obscure past, he has, rising through the vast soiled

lotus pond of human foibles, succeeded to be the non-person

he aspired to be:

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Everybody wants to be a somebody

Nobody knows how to be a nobody

If ever there is a somebody

Who knows how to be a nobody

Then that nobody is a real somebody !

If you ever want to be a nobody

Then follow that somebody

Who really is a "nobody"

(Later) Let go of everybody

even that somebody who already is a nobody

eventually you will be a real “nobody.”

A . Su vann o

1981

(somebody who wants to be a nobody

for the benefit of everybody)

Such veneration and adulation of “Bhante” cannot be difficult

to understand when one listens to his Dhamma lectures on

tapes and CDs; one will surely sense the sincere earnestness and

truthfulness of his exhortations and be convinced to practise

the Dhamma in the way the Great Teacher taught it in its

original form.

Bhante’s discourses of the Buddha’s Teachings, mostly in the

Hokkien dialect, sometimes in English, were couched in

simple, yet meaningful words, easy to listen to and appealing to

all ages. Quite a few books too, have been written by his

devotees from transcribes of these Dhamma lectures and

published for the reading public.

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In his lifetime; “The Legend” of Bhante Suvanno and the

charisma of his way of teaching have reached out to many and

many have made the journey to see in person the “Monk of

Beautiful Discipline” – Suvanno; as he was fondly known by his

devotees.

They must get to know and see how a “legendary” monk looks

like; and invariably they were gratified and astounded to see a

venerable monk, friendly and approachable; ready to share the

Dhamma and always with a great smile on his warm face, albeit

a few missing teeth; still looking radiant!

Such a different and refreshing image of a true disciple of the

Great Teacher! Different, as most perceive monks as stern faced

with unapproachable mien; refreshing, because he talked to

them face on and on equal footing, frank and friendly.

He neither put on “airs” to impress nor did he showed

impatience at “silly” questions. He quickly allied himself with

crowds and felt at home when surrounded by questioning eager

beavers “letting fly” with their queries. He understood their

anxieties and problems and he was ever ready to share the

Dhamma with the rich or poor, young or old, Buddhist or non-

Buddhist. He held no biases against anyone or anything. His

only stipulation was: “If you want to be…(whatever you want to

be)..be good at… (whatever you want to be)”, as he himself

“Strives to be a Nobody”.

Many have contributed physical and personal attention, advice,

counseling, medical care and expenses to his dietary and bodily

needs during his final suffering years.

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Special note must be made of those who took his care into

great concern and have stayed by his side to feed him and to

care for his pertinent medical and dietary needs. These are the

people who have clear sights into his needs and sincerely

worked towards them regardless of fear or favour of the voices

of dissenters of those who can only voice but fail to act in real

earnest or have the conviction or the time to do so.

Many too are those who have silently and profoundly showered

sincere metta in their aspirations that “their” Bhante be well

and happy and that all his mental and physical suffering be no

more. Their silent good wishes too have contributed to his

unusual ups when he was down.

Many good wishes have come by proxy and many too have

come personally from afar to ask after his health and to wish

him well. An old friend arrived one day and one could see

Bhante’s face lighting up at the sight of such good friends. It is

neither attachment nor clinging that lit up his face; rather that

seeing another that has struggled together as they had in days

that seemed so long ago.

Many have gone on, one at a time and few are those who

practised together who are there to wish each other: “Bhor

jhow see” [hokkien: not to run away is to die – not running away

from samsara is to stay and suffer].

Happiness to see that they are still in practise; as many are those

who have succumbed to the inevitable. He himself too had

enjoyed the “bonus” (as he calls his already passed average life

span) of winter days.

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To reminisce of days of the struggle and the various milestones

chalking off the years into the Dhamma; the ups and the

downs, the sorrows and the joys; those that still are and those

that have gone by; these bring back to memory the good

wholesome deeds done and the unwholesomeness that has

been stripped away, notching the long journey in samsara. The

satisfaction that one has really progressed; that is contentment.

Only those who have the wisdom to see the dangers of

existence and the strength of conviction to want to get rid of

them will realise such contentment.

Bhante has always said, get rid of: “seh, lowr, bae, see” [hokkien:

to be born, to get old, to be sick and to die], “be insured” against

booby traps in samsara; to “ai pehnr bharu aesai” [hokkien: to

struggle; meaning to meditate, get rid of birth, age, sickness and death

and be insured against them by earnest practise of the Dhamma and

vipassana meditation; only this will do].

Many have understood his simple message: To practise

Vipassana meditation and at least get rid of the wrong view of

self; develop unshakeable faith in the Buddha and be done with

rites and rituals; the doors leading to the Noble Path will be

pried open enabling entry to the stream leading to bliss and

peace.

Thus, in line with Dependent Origination, ends an era that will

never be again with us. Those of us who had been with him

should count ourselves conditioned with like kamma to strive

together with the now “NOBODY”.

Thus do I wish you:

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MAY YOU “SOMEBODIES” PRACTISE TO BE “NOBODIES” AND

ATTAIN NIBBANA IN THIS LIFE TIME.

Bhavatu Sabba Mangalam Rakkhantu Sabba Devata,

Sabba Buddhanu-Dhammanu-Sanghanu-Bhavena

Sada Sotthi Bhaventu-Te

Fare Thee Well Most Be-Loved And Respected

Teacher… May You Take Our Hands And Lead Us Across To The Other Shore

Thru’ To Nibbana’s Awaiting Doors… May You Find Just Repose

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

your respectful devotees

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Together, joining in the aspiration to be in Nibbana with

Bhante Suvanno are the following devotees who have made this

Commemorative Edition possible:

Lim Kok Chai & Family, Mooi Seng & Chu, Doris, Sister Tan

Teck Beng & Family, The Dhamma Family KL, Fong Weng

Meng & Family.

Janice Ong & MC Tan, Sally Lam Kwee Fah, SK Chan, Loh

Soon Boon, Gary Tan.

Sister Sam Kau Ling, Ong Chen Seah & Family, Tan Yoon

Hua & Family, Lee Tien Kheh & Family, Lim York Ying &

Family, Lew Tzyy Hwang & Family, Lim Hock Ling & Family,

Yong Su Lian & Family, Wong Rui Xia, Ng Siew Hoon, Loh

Miow Kiang, IMO of Wong Tek Lee & Hoe Yoke Len.

IMO Saw Chu Eong, IMO Soo Luan Keow, IMO Lim Guek

Choo, Irene Teoh & Family, Wong Kok Bu, IMO Woon Chew

Moi @ Woon Ah Moi.

Not forgetting the talent of Bro. Freddy Wee for the drawings

found within the Biography.

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SHARING OF MERITS

IDAM ME ŇATINAM HOTU

SUKHITA HONTU ŇATAYO [I share these merits with past relatives.

May they be happy]

IMAM NO PUŇŇA BHĀGAM

SABBA SATTĀNAM DEMA

[I share these merits with all beings. May all beings be well and happy]

ETTĀVATA CA AMHEHI

SAMBHATAM PUŇŇA SAMBHATAM SABBE DEVĀ, SABBE BHUTĀ, SABBE SATTĀ ANUMODANTU SABBA SAMPATI SIDDHIYĀ

[May all devas, all beings, visible or invisible share and rejoice in the merits which we have acquired,

may they acquire all kinds of happiness]

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The Light of Dhamma

Here endeth what I write Who love the Bhante for his love of us.

A little knowing, little have I told

Touching the Teacher and the Ways of Peace,

in ways I have been told

evam me suttam…ekam samayam…

A Verse from The Light of Asia

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As wisdom and understanding gradually lightened up his As wisdom and understanding gradually lightened up his As wisdom and understanding gradually lightened up his As wisdom and understanding gradually lightened up his

confused and troubled mind, it dawned on him that all his confused and troubled mind, it dawned on him that all his confused and troubled mind, it dawned on him that all his confused and troubled mind, it dawned on him that all his

suffering had been the results of actions of past existences suffering had been the results of actions of past existences suffering had been the results of actions of past existences suffering had been the results of actions of past existences

coming to roost in this present time. Realising thus, the quality coming to roost in this present time. Realising thus, the quality coming to roost in this present time. Realising thus, the quality coming to roost in this present time. Realising thus, the quality

of his present of his present of his present of his present thoughts, speech and deeds became of great thoughts, speech and deeds became of great thoughts, speech and deeds became of great thoughts, speech and deeds became of great

significance in his daily moments. They became of great significance in his daily moments. They became of great significance in his daily moments. They became of great significance in his daily moments. They became of great

importance to him. He laid no blame on anyone or anything for importance to him. He laid no blame on anyone or anything for importance to him. He laid no blame on anyone or anything for importance to him. He laid no blame on anyone or anything for

his pain and suffering. He knew and understood the results of his pain and suffering. He knew and understood the results of his pain and suffering. He knew and understood the results of his pain and suffering. He knew and understood the results of

kamma. Thus understanding, and hakamma. Thus understanding, and hakamma. Thus understanding, and hakamma. Thus understanding, and having firm faith in the ving firm faith in the ving firm faith in the ving firm faith in the

workings of kamma, he began to strive heedfully with great workings of kamma, he began to strive heedfully with great workings of kamma, he began to strive heedfully with great workings of kamma, he began to strive heedfully with great

energy to follow the only Path that leads to a stage of purity energy to follow the only Path that leads to a stage of purity energy to follow the only Path that leads to a stage of purity energy to follow the only Path that leads to a stage of purity

of thoughts, speech and deeds, so much so that it has become of thoughts, speech and deeds, so much so that it has become of thoughts, speech and deeds, so much so that it has become of thoughts, speech and deeds, so much so that it has become

a habit, a daily ritual to ensure that each thougha habit, a daily ritual to ensure that each thougha habit, a daily ritual to ensure that each thougha habit, a daily ritual to ensure that each thought and speech t and speech t and speech t and speech

that precedes volitional action had been vetted by his two that precedes volitional action had been vetted by his two that precedes volitional action had been vetted by his two that precedes volitional action had been vetted by his two

great guardians, Hiri and Ottappa.great guardians, Hiri and Ottappa.great guardians, Hiri and Ottappa.great guardians, Hiri and Ottappa.

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