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    CO-DIRECTORS OF THE

    ORDER OF CHRIST SOPHIA

    Mother Clare Watts

    Father Peter Bowes

    DIRECTOR OF OUTREACH

    Rev. Margaret Laveda

    [email protected]

    414.248.7405

    DESIGN & LAYOUT

    Grace Tenner Design LLC

    DIRECTOR OF PHOTOGRAPHY

    Rev. Meira Leonard

    EDITORS

    Master Leora Bernard

    Sister Camille StikeleatherSister Linda Kayes

    COPYWRITER

    Rev. Timothy Lin

    The Light is published four times annually

    by the Order of Christ Sophia and is

    distributed through regional

    Centers of Light.

    For Information on Local

    Classes & Events

    at the Centers of Light:

    Ann Arbor: 743.864.2017

    Boston: 617.990.7411

    Charlotte: 704.526.8301

    Chicago: 312.623.4418

    Denver: 303.913.7053

    Dolores: 970.882.2123

    Durango: 970.882.2123

    Milwaukee: 414.248.7405

    Minneapolis: 612.205.5545

    New Haven: 203.785.9085

    Oakland: 510.207.6593

    Seattle: 206 525 8488

    Copyright 2012 by the Order of Christ

    Sophia. All rights reserved. Facsimile

    reproduction, including photocopy or

    xerographic reproduction, is strictly

    prohibited under copyright laws.

    CENTERS ofLIGHT

    You dont have to have a college degree to serve.You dont have to make your subject and your verb agree

    to serve. You dont have to know about Platoand Aristotle to serve. You dont have to know

    Einsteins theory of relativity to serve.You dont have to know the second theory of

    thermodynamics in physics to serve.You only need a heart full of grace.

    A soul generated by love.

    And you can be that servant.

    - Martin Luther King Jr.

    The Centers of Light are non-profit organizations that promote

    positive change and personal development.

    As an alternative school, we offer classes that help people

    understand themselves better and improve the emotional,

    spiritual, mental and physical aspects of their lives.

    CentersofLight.org

    LightLectureSeries.com

    InnerPeaceFestival.com

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    Throughoutthe ages, so much warand hatred has been promulgated inthe name of God. This fact has causedmany people to avoid all spiritualityand religion. This is a sad situationbecause God has actually never

    been the energy or force behind anyviolation of Gods own directives tolove each other as one loves oneself.If people misuse the name of God, isGod to be blamed and shunned forthis misrepresentation? Or should weinstead recognize that we will need toget to know God ourselves to find outwho God is, how God functions, andwhat is in the heart and mind of God?If I ask someone to tell me about you,I will only get that persons biases

    and opinions about you. To actuallyknow you, I would have to do what ittakes to come to know you first-hand. Irecommend taking this same approachwith God. Find out first-hand whoand how God is before making the

    judgment of not wanting to know God.

    So how can you come to know God foryourself? Mystics are people of anyreligion or spiritual path who chooseto come into relationship with God,not through reading and acceptingother peoples experiences but throughdoing whatever it takes to have theirown experience of God. The greatspiritual guides of all traditions havetold us to look within ourselves tofind God. There, at the center of ourbeing, is a perfect and whole cell ofGod Itself. It lies quietly near our heart,waiting for the day when we decide wewant to establish contact. Because we

    have free will, God will not force therelationship on us, but waits patientlyfor us to tire enough of all outeractivity and focus so that we will beginto go deeper.

    Christian teachings tell us that Godis love not God does love, but Godis love. This simple and yet extremelyprofound statement tells us reams ofinformation about God. Gods verynature then is love, and if God is love,

    how can God do anything other than

    love. And as children of God, shouldwe not also have at our core a naturethat is made of love and for love?Could that be why we crave so muchto give and receive love? In the bookof Genesis, it is written that we were

    made in Gods image. Would thatmean that we are created to be love, asGod is love?

    More often than not when we are inrelationship with another person,our love for them and from them istainted with neediness and powerissues. What would godly love be fromGod to us and from us to others? Thesimplest way of envisioning this is toacknowledge that there are basically

    only two kinds of feelings or emotions:Those related to love and those relatedto fear. Words and energies such ascourage, compassion, generous, kind,caring, hopeful, faithful, considerate,trusting, aware, attuned, flexible,harmonious, forgiving, understanding,giving these are all related to love.Feelings and states of mind that arerelated to fear are jealousy, envy,anxiety, worry, anger, selfishness,greed, hatred, violence, depression,

    despairing, distrustful, self-absorbed,resentful, inconsiderate and rigid,among others.

    When we allow the energies of God(which always relate to love) to movethrough us, we will feel open andthe energy will flow out from us in agiving and uplifting way. When weare caught up in the energies relatedto fear, we will pull inside ourselves,cut ourselves off from others and God,and be isolated and alone. Try on thedifferent feelings and notice how allthe cells of your body, heart and mindopen when inspired by love and closewhen inspired by fear. Now which stateof being do you aspire to? If it is a lifeof love, then it is a life of God.

    God created us to be in a loverelationship with God. We were madefor that kind of love and therefore will

    never truly feel fulfilled without it.

    Once we get a taste of the love thaawaits us when we open and deepeenough to experience God ourselvwe will most likely want to enter inmore and more of this kind of loveThis is available to anyone who wa

    it. You dont need to be educatedor sophisticated. You only need towant it enough to develop a deepand meaningful inner life that comabout through meditation, prayer aspiritual community with whom togrow.

    I invite you to dedicate yourself todeveloping such a deep and realrelationship with the greatest loveanyone could ever know. Decide to

    make it important. Establish a reguspiritual practice. Prepare to be liftup and have your consciousnessexpand into a love beyond what yohave known. May you be blessed ayou come to know God and Gods lso you never have to fear and doubagain.

    God is Love

    MOTHERCLAREWATTS.COM

    BY MOTHER CLARE WATTS

    MOTHER CLARE WATTS

    is a mystic, ordained Priest, Master Te

    and Co-Director of the Order of Chris

    Sophia. She has her Masters Degree in

    Counseling Psychology and practiced

    as a Jungian-trained psychotherapist.

    Continually drawing from her educati

    her experience, including 17 years wor

    as a professional midwife, Mother Cla

    has garnered a reputation for her clari

    of vision. She lectures internationally

    Mystical Christianity. She has four gr

    children and lives in Dolores, Colorad

    where she oversees the efforts to expa

    grow the Sophia Peace Center.

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    Clockwise from top left:

    Drum circle at Oakland Inner Peace Fes

    Free yoga class at Oakland Inner Peace

    Festival, Universal Love Band at Milwau

    Inner Peace Festival, Tulips in Seattle.

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    present experience, and thiscan be a limitation for whatwe can conceive or take inof the present moment. Wehave to open our minds andhearts to be willing to take inpeople, situations and energyin a fresh way not limited byour past. This takes practice. Italso stretches our senses andconcepts to be open to seeingin a different way.

    Try to practice seeing peoplein a whole new way. Observepeople without having to makethem be a particular way to

    suit you. Observe their energyand the way they move and feelin themselves. Look for whatmakes them tick, what rockstheir world, what motivatesthem. Do not want them tobe this or that, just watch andnotice what they care aboutand what they are drawn to.Observe the movement of lifein their eyes, their body, their

    thinking. Look without bias,without expectation, like youare watching something innature. Just see them for theball of energy that they areand make no conclusions justexperience them.

    Look at how they move theirfeet and legs, what energy they

    carry in their center. Observethe energy around their head,the light in the eyes, the flashesof thought that spark whenthey consider things they seeor feel. Open to let their energywash over you. Do not concernyourself with whether theyare noticing you. Stay out ofit when you are observing. Besimple. Watch the movement ofenergy around them and whateffect they might be having onthe environment. You mightnotice a withdrawing energyor a shining kind of effect oneveryone around. You might

    observe some insecurity orconfidence, but make nojudgment about it one way oranother. Just look and see whatyou see. For example, whensomeone you are observingsteps hard and determinedwith each step, dont thinkabout what that might mean,just see that they step that way.Making interpretations is a trap

    where you have to make senseof things you see in terms thatare comfortable to you. It is aform of bias where you haveto squeeze what you see intoyour own experience instead ofjust seeing what is happeningwithout contaminating thingswith your expectations.

    When you observe people and

    situations in this new way,you will not color the thingsyou see with what you want.In a very short time, you willappreciate life moving in oneof Gods creations and feel thepower and beauty in so manypossibilities of expression. Youwill clear your sight to opento true spiritual sight. Seeingthings clearly will free you to

    love people without expectingthem to please you, and that wimake our world a much morepeaceful place to live. How canyou be angry with people if youare appreciating who they areand what they are doing? Peaccomes with acceptance of othepeople.

    For thirty year

    FATHER PETER

    BOWES

    has devoted his

    in service to Go

    an ordained Pri

    and Master Tea

    As Co-Director

    the Order of Ch

    Sophia, he teaches the ministers and gui

    the Centers of Light around the country.Known for his sense of humor, Father Pet

    is also an accomplished musician and au

    who has composed twelve albums and fo

    books about Mystical Christian teaching

    holds a Masters and a Doctorate degree

    Educational Psychology. Father Peter liv

    the Center of Light, Chicago.

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    No matter where we are in life, there is always more

    to learn. While it is easy to find continuing education

    classes that can help you learn a foreign languageor a new hobby, there is little to no support available

    for those who are interested in moving beyond the

    realm of learning new skills and into the adventure

    of learning how to live life to its fullest. With that in

    mind, the Centers of Light will begin offering a new

    series of lectures called the Light Lecture Series.

    These classes are designed for those looking to gain

    the skills necessary to live happier, more fulfilling an

    productive lives.

    Each class will explore the principles that govern the

    topic and will provide practical instruction designed

    help you avoid frustration and disappointment, while

    working toward success and empowerment. There wi

    be ample time for questions. >>

    The Light Lecture SeriesA New Series of Lectures Providing Tools for Your Life

    Meditation: The Basics and Beyond

    Learn the basics of meditation stilling the mind,

    breathing, relaxation and then learn how to go

    into the realms of deeper meditation. This lecture

    teaches students how to ask questions and receive

    clear answers in meditation, and how to see aspects

    of themselves that they have not seen before. All

    experience levels are welcome. >>

    Spiritual Ways to Improve Your Work LifeIn this lecture, students gain specific tools to improve

    their career through simple spiritual practices such

    as prayer, meditation and visualization. Students

    who have used these techniques have seen dramatic

    shifts in their work situations, which can include

    gainful employment, salary raises and better working

    conditions. >>

    Tools for Healing Depression and Anxiety

    Major depression affects 15 million American adults each

    year, and about 40 million American adults suffer from

    anxiety. Modern medicine may treat these disorders but

    not cure them, but there is a way to completely heal. This

    lecture covers the root causes of depression and anxiety, a

    teaches students how to overcome them. >>

    The Secret to Healthy and Happy Relationships

    Its easy to fall into the same kinds of relationships overand over again. In this seminar, youll learn absolute must

    haves to a healthy relationship as well as the most commo

    mistakes people make in relationships. >>

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    Gaining Control of Negative Emotions

    This lecture helps students identify and understand

    negative emotions so they dont continue happening.

    These emotions include anger, worry, laziness, fear and

    sluggishness, as well as passive aggressive behaviors such

    as consistent tardiness or pouting when hard things are

    asked of you. >>

    Adding Spirituality to Your Yoga Practice

    Yoga is a Sanskrit word meaning union with God,and began as a Hindu discipline aimed at training the

    consciousness for a state of perfect spiritual insight and

    tranquility. As yoga became more mainstream, however, it

    has also deviated from these spiritual origins into simply

    a physical exercise. Students interested in the spiritual

    aspects of yoga learn practical, hands-on ways to put the

    spirituality back into a yoga practice. >>

    Overcoming Bad Habits and Addictions

    Addiction is one of the most common issues that peop

    deal with every day. In this lecture, students learn

    about the core reasons why addictions happen using

    a psychological, emotional and spiritual approach.

    Students then receive practical steps to overcome bad

    habits and addictions, as well as personal support for

    their own negative patterns. >>

    Attracting a Romantic Partner Who Shares YourSpirituality

    If you have a devoted spiritual life, how do you find a

    romantic partner? Isnt it hard enough just meeting

    someone who shares similar interests? Learn how to

    find someone who shares the same love for God and

    spirituality.

    These lectures will be offered on a weekly basis beginning Monday, April 2.

    Registration is now open! Cost is $8 per lecture.

    For more information and to register, visit www.LightLectureSeries.com.

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    MarchVisions of a Universal Humanity & Humanity Ascending

    Based on current scientific, social and spiritual realities and credible future probabilities, the optimismof VISIONS presents an alternative viewpoint to the doom and gloom Armageddon scenarios currentlycirculating. VISIONS is a movie that takes us beyond now, beyond 2012, into a future filled with infinitepossibilities.

    Humanity Ascending is a groundbreaking documentary series featuring author and futurist Barbara MarxHubbard. This transformational film presents vital elements to awaken the codes for our own consciousevolution and offers direction, meaning and a vision toward our birth as a new humanity.

    The donations accepted at this screening will support Sophia Peace Center (www.sophiapeacecenter.com), aspiritual retreat center dedicated to consciousness.

    AprilThrive: What on Earth Will it Take?THRIVE is an unconventional documentary that lifts the veil on whats REALLY going on in our world byfollowing the money upstream -- uncovering the global consolidation of power in nearly every aspect of ourlives. Weaving together breakthroughs in science, consciousness and activism, THRIVE offers real solutionsempowering us with unprecedented and bold strategies for reclaiming our lives and our future.

    The donations accepted at this screening will support Thrive: The Movement (www.thrivemovement.com),which is committed to assist humanity in thriving through the evolutionary challenges threatening our

    survival.

    MayThe Last MountainA coal mining corporation and a tiny community vie for the last great mountain in Appalachia in a battle forthe future of energy that affects us all.

    The donations accepted at this screening will support I Love Mountains (www.ilovemountains.org), a groupworking to end mountaintop removal coal mining and countering Big Coals efforts to destroy the mountainwe love.

    Conscious Movies at the Center of Light

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    How can we be moreaware of God in our every-day lives?

    CAMILLE, MILWAUKEE

    A way to keep your awareness on God

    is to remember that God is everywhere and in

    everything and everyone. When you look at

    nature, see God smiling through each tree, each

    sunset, each little creature. When you interact

    with people, see if you cant see, feel and hear

    God moving through them, even when they have

    no idea of this reality. And when you pray each

    day for specific situations and relationships to

    change, know that they will, and watch in joyful

    expectation of what will happen. This way you

    will be interacting with God all day, and will find

    yourself entering into a deeper and deeper love

    relationship with the One.

    Ask Mother ClareHow to be more aware of God during the day,

    how to actively transform and how to peacefully co-exist.

    How can we be active each day in our transformation sothat we can be more reliable? I know that tough times are

    coming and I wonder how can we stay focused on growing

    the strength that we will need?

    GLORIA, OAKLAND

    Mother Theresa said: Be faithful in little things

    because it is in them that your strength lies. She was so

    right about this! Take every opportunity each day to be

    faithful, reliable, hard-working in all the little events of each

    day. When the time comes to do greater things, you will be

    entirely in the habit of following through and being faithful

    You will have grown strong enough to handle much larger

    challenges, and this will bring you great satisfaction and joy

    What will help people of different spiritual or religious be-liefs to co-exist peacefully and respectfully?

    JONAH, MILWAUKEE

    The best thing people of different spiritual beliefs

    and religions can do to have peace between them is to ap-

    preciate what we have in common with each other. We can

    look at each others faith practices and learn enough about

    them to realize our common ground, and celebrate that com

    mon ground. And if we cannot find anything in common we

    can at least appreciate that we want the freedom to practice

    our own way, and therefore we recognize the importance an

    right for others to practice their spirituality their way. Then

    we can have peace on earth.

    Do you have questions? AskMotherClare.com

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    SERVICES

    Sunday Service

    Not your average Sunday Service!

    Experience spirit moving through

    songs, prayers, and powerful sermons

    that bring you into closer connection

    to God the God inside your heart,

    inside your soul, to the God within.

    Each Service begins with a silent

    meditation followed by a sermon

    relating directly to the spiritual needs

    of the community, finally culminatingin a transformative Communion and

    personal blessing.

    Daily Meditation &

    Communion

    The beauty of Gods grace can

    be experienced with meditation

    and Communion every morning

    of the week. We offer a 30 minute

    meditation followed by a readingand Communion service, which is a

    wonderful way to develop and deepen

    your meditation practice. There is no

    better way to start your day than to

    receive the love, light and peace of

    Jesus and Mary. All are welcome.

    Evening Prayers

    All are welcome to join us at the end

    of the day with evening prayers and

    songs. Community members from

    the Centers of Light come together

    to thank God, Jesus and Mary for the

    blessings of the day and offer songs

    of gratitude and thanksgiving. Join

    us in spreading light into the world

    with this form of joyful devotion.

    CLASSES

    Introduction To Meditation &

    Christian Mysticism

    Understanding the laws of the

    universe isnt easy, which is why the

    Centers of Light offer six sessions

    that explore the foundations of

    Christian Mysticism. Open to all,

    this class gives an overview of what

    Christian Mysticism is and what

    mystics do, and, most importantly,

    it offers participants a chance to

    experience the spiritual worldfirst-hand. There is no restriction

    on faith. You only have to believe

    that there is most likely a power

    and intelligence that is higher than

    human intelligence. No fee.

    Bible Contemplation

    It is a fairly common experience

    to read a passage from the New

    Testament and ask, I wonder what

    that means? Bible Contemplation at

    the Centers of Light helps unravel the

    deeper meaning in Jesus teachings

    by exploring our inner and outer life

    experiences and how they relate to

    the parables Jesus taught. As a result,

    class members discover how these

    teachings relate directly to their own

    lives and experiences. This class is

    open to graduates of Introduction to

    Meditation and Christian Mysticism.

    Tree of Life

    The Tree of Life lessons are written

    for the purpose of unfolding the soul

    alchemically and opening up spiritual

    consciousness to the wisdom of

    God. Topics such as What is light?,

    What is love?, or What is the

    Creator? are presented in a simple,

    practical way that allows students to

    understand, discuss, and contemplate

    their meaning. These ancientteachings are paired with powerful

    hands-on experiences, giving

    students a tangible way to connect

    to the reality of Gods spirit and

    power. This class is open to graduates

    of Introduction to Meditation and

    Christian Mysticism.

    SEMINARS

    Master Teacher Seminars

    Seminars from the Master Teachers

    of the Order of Christ Sophia are

    once-in-a-lifetime opportunities to

    receive spiritual teachings that can

    move mountains in your life. The

    old saying, one day with a Teacher

    is worth 200 years on your own

    applies to these enlightening and

    life-changing events. Experience it

    for yourself by checking the enclosed

    Schedule of Events or contacting a

    Priest at your local Center of Light.

    Offerings

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    Ghandi said, Be the change you want to see in the

    world. The founders of the Inner Peace Festivals took

    that to heart and said, Be the peace you want to see in

    the world. True world peace is only possible through

    inner peace because what is inside of us manifests

    itself on the outside. When people begin to take

    individual responsibility for their own peace, we make

    quick progress. In fact, research has shown that when

    the square root of one percent of a given population

    prays or meditates together, the crime rate in the

    surrounding area plummets way beyond a level that

    could be attributed to other factors. The Inner Peace

    Festivals, which take place around the country, have

    become an annual tradition of communities gathering

    together in a joint effort to bring peace into their

    cities.

    In todays world, peace is a word that cant be taken

    lightly. More than 10 wars that cause 1,000+ deaths p

    year are occurring right now. If you look around, you

    see angry drivers, short fuses and impatient workers

    sending that energy right out into the atmosphere. It

    there, whether you can see it or not. How can world

    peace be possible with so much that is not peaceful

    going on in the world both on a global level and in

    our very lives? To be part of the solution, the Inner

    Peace Festivals were born three years ago.

    Each peace festival has its own unique way of doing

    this, whether its through guided meditation, light

    walks, drum circles or concerts. Come join us in

    this utterly important celebration of peace. Visit

    innerpeacefestival.com to view locations and

    schedules.

    Inner Peace Festivals Be the Peace

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    No. 8When the sea-

    son of Lent and

    Easter arrives,

    participate by

    letting what isnegative die

    and what is

    positive and

    real in you rise

    up.

    No. 10

    Practice gratitude byappreciating all that you have

    been given and all the goodness

    that is yet to come.

    Ways to Participate in the Glory of Creation10We are entering a time of new beginnings. Nature is alive in a celebration of life. This year

    decide to be conscious of what you are ready to let go of and what you are ready to have

    blossom and come alive in you. Here are 10 ways you can be an active participant in thisseason.

    No. 1Choose a negative habit or

    pattern and replace it with

    something positive.

    No. 2Choose a virtue to embody, for

    instance generosity or patience,

    and practice it daily.

    No. 3Stop and smell

    the flowers,

    literally. Let

    the beauty of

    nature connect

    you to God, thesource of all

    beauty.

    No. 4Find a char-

    ity that you

    believe in and

    donate time or

    money to their

    cause every

    month.

    No. 5Look for opportunities to

    demonstrate kindness to

    neighbors, colleagues, friends

    and strangers.

    No. 6Meditate at least 10 minutes each

    morning or night. Tune into love,

    life and light that is poured out

    to all things and let this love, life

    and light fill you up.

    No. 7Pray for 5

    people or 5

    causes of peace

    in the world

    each day.

    No. 9During Lent, tune into Jesusgreat love that motivated the

    sacrifice he made with his death

    and resurrection. Let yourself

    really feel how much you are

    loved.

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    The Lentenseason is a season of cleansing andpurifying. It is a joyous and deep season in which we

    celebrate the heroic love of Jesus that has saved us

    from the sadness and heaviness of our separation from

    Gods love.

    We honor the gift of Jesus enormous love and sacrific

    with a presentation of love in return. When we connec

    to the hearts of our Masters, Jesus and Mary, we can

    feel how joyfully they give of themselves for our well-

    being. We have the opportunity in the Lenten season

    to practice this joy of giving as a reflection of their

    perfect gift to us. Our fasting and abstaining during

    this season is not a martyred deprivation, but rather a

    heartfelt offering of love and appreciation. In addition

    as we let go, clear out and prune the dead branches of

    our mental, emotional and spiritual life, weare preparing for the new life that comes a

    Easter.

    At the Centers of Light, we celebrate this

    season of Lent on a different schedule

    than other churches because we calculate

    the day of Easter based on the cycle of

    the sun rather than the moon. Our Easter

    celebration, calculated based on the placement of the

    Spring Equinox rather than Passover, brings forth the

    new life of spring after the death of winter.

    We invite you this Lent to participate in pruning away

    the old in order to fully experience the new life that

    comes with the resurrection of Jesus Christ and the

    new life he offers to everyone in this season.

    LentThe Holy Season ofDeath and Rebirth

    Our fasting and abstainingduring this season is not a

    martyred deprivation, but

    rather a heartfelt offering

    of love and appreciation.

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    A Third Chance

    WhenI first moved in to be anovice at the Center of Light inDolores, Colorado, my life was amajor mess. I moved in expectingothers to take care of me becausethat was what I thought lovewas. I had difficulty doing basichousehold tasks such as washingdishes or sweeping the floor. I wasnot interested in learning how tobe an adult. My teacher showedthis to me on several occasions

    and yet I refused to learn. I choseto be extremely passive aggressiveinstead. After five months of thisbehavior, it was decided that itwould be best for me to move outof the novice house. I was sadwhen I moved out. I felt God didntlove me and had abandoned me. Idid not understand why this washappening to me. Yet movingout was the best thing that everhappened to me.

    What moving out has taught me isthat God was there the entire timeand totally loving me. I got theopportunity to learn how to growup, which wasnt as scary as I hadthought. It was actually kind of fun.I learned how to be in relationshipwith God and my community. Themost important thing I learned and am still continuing to learn

    is how to speak from my heartinstead of my head.

    I did not feel judged by anyone inthe community, which surprisedme. I thought that I would beostracized from the communityafter all my passive aggressiveenergy. Yet that did not happen,

    either. I waited and waited andstill nothing. All I felt was love.How could this be? This reallybroke my heart open and mademe want to have a second chance.

    My second chance came and I wasinvited to be a novice again at theCenter of Light in Dolores. Eventhough it was what I wanted andprayed for, when I moved back in

    I realized that being a novice again

    was not something I wanted. WhatI wanted was a relationship witha guy I had been working with. Ifelt the right thing for me to dowas to move out. So after only aweek of being a novice, I movedout. I was relieved at first and wentright into dating this guy. I wanteda relationship because I felt thevoid inside of myself. I did not feelI had a close relationship to Godand so I thought that if I was in

    a relationship, the guy would beable to complete that longing Ihad and I would be happy. What Ifound was that this guy was not atall able to complete the lonelinessthat I felt inside. I wanted tokeep striving for a connectionto God and did not want to be ina relationship with him. I endedthings very quickly after it beganand then I started to ask, Whathave I done? I had made a huge

    mistake. How could I have notwanted to live in a house filledwith love? After speaking withmy teacher, I learned that makingmistakes was not a bad thing.That is how one learns. This wasthe most difficult thing for me tograsp. How can making mistakesbe a good thing?

    I had accepted the fact that I may

    not get another opportunity to at the house. I left it up to God Gods will. I was surprised to finthat God gave me another chanto be a novice again after all thhad occurred. This really brokeheart open even more and I waoverjoyed that God loved me somuch to give me another chanc

    Since I moved back into thenovice house, my life has changin many different ways. Thefirst thing is that I am beingan adult and taking on moreresponsibilities. I have realizedthe only way to heal my woundthat have haunted me my entirelife was to be vulnerable and shmy feelings with the communitI learned that when I am being

    real and vulnerable, sharing myfeelings comes naturally to me.I have felt the dishonesty withinmyself and have wanted to behonest one hundred percent ofthe time. When I am not honesgive myself consequences. I haopened myself up to be taught my teachers and allowed for theto love me. I am finding out whI really am as God created me tbe. I keep feeling how much Go

    loves me in order to give me thprecious gift of having another

    chance.

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    TERESA was born in Kiev,

    Ukraine. Her family immigrated

    to the United States in 1990.

    Teresa moved from Philadelphia

    PA. to be a novice at the Dolores

    Center of Light March of 2010.

    She has a B.A in Sociology andis currently getting her Masters

    Degree in Social Work from

    University of Denver and is

    expected to graduate June 2012.

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