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7/31/2019 Thinking Not Thinking
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Youre cool, you were
reading something.
Just let me type and you are shouting about videos.
Just let me go and my hearts shouting about you.
You you you
We are all the same I think,
We are all looking for similar things here.
I dont really know what I would say I was looking for
We like to feel
the same ways
I think
Except I am tired of feeling ..
some guy pacing the room staring at me
-your absence
I couldnt stand next to you
Anymore
after
things you said to her
while you were next to me?
And so she really doesnt want
you are you really
half heartedly
holding onto
me?
Lol,
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yes.
There is nowhere to go really,
the internet is here.
and in coffee shops
so thats where Ive been.
I dont really want any of this.
Do not use the words
homie or homeslice .
when talking to me
home is the
last thing on my mind,
except when I am crying.
I dont want to be crying
and then
hear the word home
out of your mouth
when
this
is gone.
Everyone is gone now .
even the cat
meowing
he has realized his relevance
somewhere else.
The cat will remember
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outside
and call again
at the door to be opened.
I dont know how long things take.
I dont know how long your being gone will take away from me.
I dont know how long I really wanted to take myself away from you.
I dont know how long I slept last night
nor do I know how long I will sleep tonight.
When I get sleepy- I sleep.
I do not have a lot of dreams
Except now
I am dreaming of a small space I can climb into while thinking about you.
This guy has an alien guidebook,
I do not want to be taken away.
He is shouting at me
and I think
thats just what he does
anytime I look at him
or I am doing something wrong being quiet.
I want to sit on a rock on a beach
Staring at the waves, not thinking about aliens.
I want cotton candy and you at the carnival
I want you spinning next to me still.
I dont need sonnets or someones mom telling me
Im inferior due to a history of a shorter length of time.
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I dont know what youre all talking about
I dont want to take your cat outside
I dont want to watch a movie with you
I dont want to be alone, thats all
I dont want you to be talking or touching me
Someone is tapping at the window and the sun only glares through the curtain and hurts my eyes now when I look in that direction.
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I do take lifeseriously
I just dont
have a job.Im serious about a lot of things
including coffee and quiet mornings
I enjoy sitting outside and staring up at theskyWhen I really start to think too much. Then I just think
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Nobody should ever date me
ever
You come in and grab me bye
It would be a great story
but maybe Im sort of
getting tired of feeling
inferior to some girl, this one or that.
You are not some prize I get for being good
as youd have me be.
You are just some guy I liked to be around
but I can even be around nobody
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if thats the way I want now.
I dont want to be touched by anybody ever.
I dont think fondly of romantic situations at this point. All I really want is to go
somewhere warm-
this place in my head
where the sun is warm
and colors bright.
I can sit alone and watch the ducks for five hours like I did on a family camping
trip. I wasnt sad then and Im not sad now. I dont want for a significant other.
I want solitude.
If I seem absorbed
That doesnt mean
You should be sad
It means I am seeing.
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Something else,
Somewhere else