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THIS MOMENT, FRIEND, THIS MOMENT

This is for anyone who is going through a crisis, big or small

Frien!, I "now that sometimes it feels li"e e#erything$s falling a%art, an! e#en the most

beautiful s%iritual wor!s soun! li"e bullshit, meaningless, flowery, new&age !ri#el 'e

lose e#erything we thought !efine! us, or ma!e us ha%%y, e#erything that seeme! tomatter to us, an! it feels li"e we will ne#er reco#er 'e are left in total !es%air,

!isa%%ointment, !isillusionment It seems li"e $the en!$, with no ho%e of reco#ery

(et in life, there are no true en!ings, only transformations, new beginnings emergingfrom rubble Ol! !reams !ying, the false falling away, which can be e)cruciatingly

%ainful, of course, of course* Destruction, brea"!owns, !isru%tions, shoc"s an! losses,

often feel li"e enemies, but always contain see!s of the new, an! sometimes it +ust ta"estime to reco#er This !e#astation you are going through, this crucifi)ion of !reams you

feel, is an o%%ortunity to let go of EER( SIN-.E IDE/ you$#e e#er ha! of how your

life was 0su%%ose! to be0, all those cherishe! !reams that were sim%ly false, yet beautifulan! useful at the same time

The in#itation to!ay is to be %resent to your life, to wa"e u% to it, to turn towar!s thisimme!iacy, to !ignify what is actually ha%%ening where you are If there is loneliness

#isiting you here an! now, !o not turn away If there is fear, !o not %ush it away or try to

esca%e If there is frustration, an)iety, or +ust a 1uiet sense of ho%elessness mo#ing in

you, !o not re+ect these energies They +ust want to be felt, now They are not wrongThey are your lost chil!ren, or%hans of awa"ening, an! +ust want to mo#e an! be felt

Sometimes life brings us to our "nees so that we will FEE. e#erything we$#e been

running away from all our li#es /n! yes, the $meeting$ may hurt 2ut %erha%s feeling thehurt is the beginning of healing, not the en!ing of it

/n! watch the min! How it constantly s%ins, rewin!s an! fast&forwar!s, constantlylea#es the %resent scene of your life, here an! now Thought is constantly running away

from the %resent moment It goes into memory & of how goo! things were before, of howwon!erful your life use! to be /n! it longs to return there /n! it feels unable to /n!

!es%air results Regret .onging Homesic"ness /n! it fast&forwar!s into the future,imagining all "in!s of future scenarios, many !ar" an! scary It ta"es you into regions

way beyon! your control /n! both mo#ements into %ast an! future !isconnect you from

where you are NO', which is all there is They ta"e you away from your only %oint of%ower & this moment

2ut this moment is all there is This breath These sensations 3resent soun!s, smells3resent beating of the heart, the feeling of your butt on the chair / little bir! singing on

the tree outsi!e The bu44 of the tele#ision o#er there / feeling of contraction in the

chest, ten!erness in the throat This is a call to ra!ical, ra!ical sim%licity To honouringthe not&"nowing To a!mitting humility in the face of life 'ithout the story of %ast an!

future, can you really "now that your life has $gone wrong$5 For that is the belief at the

core of e#erything, isn$t it5 That your life has $gone wrong$ That the $me$ has faile!

somehow That the uni#erse is cruel an! somehow against you It$s an intelligentconclusion to ma"e, yes I won$t +u!ge you for it 2ut %erha%s it$s not the truth 3erha%s

the min! !oesn$t "now

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My frien!, your !isillusionment, your inability to belie#e all those s%iritual teachingsnow, inclu!ing my own, is not a mista"e & it is %ure intelligence at wor"* (our

!isillusionment is %art of wa"ing u%, not the en! of wa"ing u%* This is all an in#itation to

a !ee%er awa"ening than you e#er thought %ossible (ou are being force! to 1uestione#erything & e#erything & inclu!ing all those cherishe! s%iritual teachings that once hel!

so much #alue (ou are being calle! to fin! your own authority, to let go of all those

bullshit i!eas about what $a goo! life$ means (ou are being in#ite! to let go of e#erythingsecon!&han!, e#erything ol!, e#erything recei#e! & from %arents, teachers, gurus &

e#erything in memory, an! be %resent to life, raw an! na"e!

Sometimes we ha#e to lose e#erything to remember our total humility, to remember thatwe are not in control, an! that each moment is full of won!er an! thrilling uncertainty

(ou are on a %ath of !e#astation now & it was e)actly what 6esus was teaching This is not

the en! for you & it is the beginning of a new an! !ifferent life, a new way of mo#ing inthe worl!, howe#er har! that is to see It is a time of renewal, of slowing&!own, of

!isco#ering the abun!ance containe! within the nothingness / time to be "in!er to

yourself There is so much %otential for you, frien!, e#en if you cannot belie#e that

There ha#e been many times in my own life when I felt unable to go on, unable to stan!

I felt that I ha! lost e#erything, that nothing was %ossible, that the #oi! was the only life2ut I +ust !i!n$t "now what the uni#erse ha! in store

E#en though you feel lonely an! aban!one!, frightene! an! angry, frien!, "now that

many others are wal"ing with you, an! many others un!erstan! (ou will write your ownboo" of transformation one !ay

This moment, frien! THIS moment

& 6eff Foster