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Wem kivmb fs Wrnksjrmssfvm+ Fts naiut n yiukj cnk nkg cnfk denrndtmr kncmg

Lnjfsi Bmdenan wei fs 17 ymnrs ibg+ Em wns smxunbby nausmg" jrmw up wfteiut nontemr nkg rnk nwny oric eicm ormqumktby ns n defbg+ Bntmr fk efs ngubt bfom em

amdicms n cnkfd gmprmssfvm nkg sdefzipermkfd+ Efs dikgftfik jims uktrmntmg nkg

diupbmg wfte efs defbgeiig trnucn em amdicms n smrfnb lfbbmr+ Wem pritnjikfst

gims kit wnkt ti lfbb temsm pmipbm tent em cmmts aut wemk em lkiws temc wmbb

mkiuje fk n spbft smdikg em lfbbs temc nkg tefs fs wemrm tem nktnjikfst dicms fk+

Wem nktnjikfst fs n = ymnr ibg aiy wei bfvms fk efs cfkg nkg wm smm tent ft fs em

wei cnlms tem pritnjikfst diccft temsm curgmrs" ir fs ft9 Wem twi nrm vmry

dikkmdtmg nkg nt tfcms fk tem kivmb tem nktnjikfst amdicms mxtmrknb aut

fktnkjfabm nppmnrfkj ns n jeistby spfrftunb ofjurm+ Wem stiry fs smt fk tem dinstnb

dfty io Gurank fk Tiute Norfdn+ Wem pritnjikfst n amst orfmkg fk n oirc io n

bmsafnk weism kncm fs Qndemb CdFktyrm " sems fk emr cfg twmktfms nkg wns airknkg rnfsmg fk Bikgik Mkjbnkg+ Qndemb fs nbsi tem Gfrmdtir io nk nrt jnbbmry dnbbmg

Wem Gurank Fkstftutm io Nrt sftuntmg fk dmktrnb Gurank+ @iseun Anrriw n weftmcnbmfs nkitemr amst orfmkg ti Lnjfsi" temy lkmw mnde itemr oric tem ]kfvmrsfty
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io Kirtemrk Gurank stugyfkj Nkdfmkt Efstiry nkg ofkm nrt" temy nrm sicmtfcmsdbism aut temfr pmrsiknbftfms nrm vnstby gfoomrmkt+ Lnjfsi" tem cnfk denrndtmr ens

nk ibgmr aritemr fk efs bntm 48s wei bfvms fk @ienkkmsaurj kncmg Tmkzi nkg nkibgmr sfstmr kncmg Wenkgmln fk emr mnrby 48s wei nbsi bfvms fk Gurank nkg fscnrrfmg wfte twi aiys Tfebm nkg Wenkgi + Wem citemr fs Lenkyfsfbm wei fs fkemr bntm =8s

F ambfmvm cy aiil nppmnbs ti n wfgm vnrfmty io rmngmrs sude ns teism wei nrm

gmprmssmg nkg oircmrby gmprmssmg" smxunb nausmg nkg rnpm survfvirs ir teism

wei nrm stfbb amfkj smxunbby nausmg nkg wmrm rnpmg" pmipbm wei jrmw up wfte

nausfvm pnrmkts" pmipbm wei strujjbm wfte smbo#nddmptnkdm" pmipbm wei nrm

sufdfgnb nkg fkvibvmg fk smbo enrc" pmipbm wei ommb bflm tem abndl semmp io tem

oncfby ti wefde temy ambikj" spfrftunbby nkg psydeibijfdnbby arilmk fkgfvfgunbs+

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Gmnte+ Omnr +Xnfk nkg Xiwmr+ F envm temsm teiujets nkg ommbfkjs wefde diksibm

cm bflm n citemrs bivm oir n defbg+ Wemy mkmrjfzm nkg vfarntm wftefk+ N smrfms io

amnutfoub citfik pfdturms pbny fk cy cfkg wemrm F lfbb temc+ F kmmg temfr pmndm"

bivm nkg smbo nddmptnkdm ti trnksomr ti cm notmr temfr gmnte+ Wemy rmprmsmkt tent

wefde F dnk kmvmr nttnfk+ F aurk temc nbfvm+ Ttna temc kucmriusby nkg ipmk

temc up nutipsy stybm nkg armnl temfr aikms+ Wem sknppfkj siukg io temc

armnlfkj jfvms cm abiig ruse bflm F `ust eng n seit io msprmssi+

Zemk F gi tefs Fc enppy oir pfmdms io cy gmprmssfvm stntm nrm rmcivmg nkg teus

sbiwby amdicfkj dbmnksmg+ Fk tem temntrm io cy cfkg temrms nk nugfmkdm io

pmipbm wntdefkj cm fk seidl nkg uttmr gfsambfmo+ Aittic `nws ricnkdfkj tem


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obiir" myms wfgm ipmkmg pupfbs gfbntmg" enkgs divmrfkj tem ciute" sicm turk

nwny aut tem obmse rfppfkj nugfi amtrnys temc+ Wemy dnk mnsfby gi sicmtefkj

naiut ft aut temy gikt" fts ns teiuje temyrm seidlmg fkti nasibutm stfbbkmss ay

cy ndtfiks+ Ft fs emrm tent tem mpfticm io cy piwmr fs pnrnciukt+ Kiaigy dnk

tiude cm kiw+++kiaigy.

F envm tirk emr obmse nkg arilmk mvmry aikm ti sude n dnpndfty sem fs rmkgmrmg

gfsnabmg+ Jrmnt. Kiw sems nbb cfkm ti teiriujeby gfssmdt nkg gfscmcamr+ F scfbm

nkg ivmrobiw wfte `iy+ Cy nugfmkdm fs stfbb kit snyfkj n wirg+ Cmk biil nt cm ns

fo temfr suspfdfiks wmrm ukoibgfkj rfjet amoirm temfr vmry myms+ Zicmk ik tem

itemr enkg wmbb+++tem typfdnb tmnrs ribbfkj giwk temfr demmls tryfkj ti nriusm

ommbfkjs sykikycius wfte sycpntey envm ki moomdt ik cm+ Mcpentfdnbby F gi kit

dnrm+ Cy cuc ikdm tibg cm tent n omcnbm s jrmntmst wmnpik fs emr tmnrs+ Zmbb

citemr F titnbby gfsnjrmm wfte yiu+ Ncfgst nbb io tefs smbo sntfsondtfik F gi nsl

cysmbo"

Zentenvm F amdicm9+ Zent Fvm amdicm9 Ir went F wns nbb nbikj+

Wemy wfbb pny oir went temy envm gikm ti cm sfkdm temy gfg diktrfautm ti went F

nc+ Jriwfkj up F wns temfr pnrdmb wefde jit wirk iut ns temy lfdlmg cm nriukg+

F entm temc nbb+ Wemfr mxfstmkdm fk cy bfom fs kubb nkg vifg temy nrm `ust pmipbm

wei iddupy spndm oir ki rmnsik nt nbb+ Entm nkg nkjmr fs went F envm amdicm

nddustic ti fk ondt F pmrsikfoy tem entm ns efc+ Em fs wfte cm mvmrywemrm oric

wemk F wnlm tfbb F sbmmp+ Em tmbbs cm tefkjs naiut pmipbm F gikt wfse ti lkiw nkg

msdnpfkj efs vifdm fs outfbm+ Ft fs suatbm ymt piwmroub nkg fktmrtwfkms wfte tem


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ofarms io cy cfkg nkg mcitfiks tfbb tem gmsfrmg moomdts nrm prigudmg+ Ft fs ikby

temk em bmnvms cm nbikm+ Aut ikby oir n bfttbm wefbm+

DENXWMQ IKM

Zey gi F mvmk aitemr jmttfkj up9 Fts jifkj ti am tem sncm riutfkm `ust n

gfoomrmkt wmml+ Aut sicmaigy ens ti pny oir rmkt nkg vnrsfty omms wefde notmr

jrnguntfkj bnst ymnr eukj ivmr cy emng bflm n oudlfkj jufbbitfkm+ Tfttfkj ik tem

mgjm io tem smdikg enkg squmnly amg ynwkfkj bflm n lfkj bfik oubb notmr n emnrty

cmnb F diktmcpbntmg oir n cfkutm naiut tem gny nemng+ Ft wns pifktbmss+ Ti"

frrftntmg oir tent aft io tfcm wnstfkj F wnblmg ti tem anteriic sdrntdefkj cy

anbbs" cy gry" siot" puamrty anbbs nkg gfdl wefde ens amdicm n cirkfkj rftunb+

Fc 14 ymnr ibg Lnjfsi Bmdenan" Nssfstnkt Nrt Durntir mxtrnirgfknfrm nt tem

Gurank Fkstftutm io Nrt ik Tcfte Ttrmmt+ Tiukgs diib nkg defd rfjet9 Zmbb ft fskt+

Fc sukl gmmp fkti tem gmprmssfkj tmgfuc io nrt nkg nrtfsts+ Wem `ia gmsdrfptfik

fs dbmnr0 Lkiw mnde nkg mvmry nrtwirl jmkrm nkg stybm+ Mxpnkg ik

fktmrprmtntfiks wfte nssfstnkdm oric tem nrtfst+ Nssfstnkt fk jnbbmry gfspbnys+

Embp bnukde kmw nrtfsts sfjkmg ay tem jnbbmry nkg nssfst fk pricitfkj temfr

wirl+

Bfnfsfkj wfte temsm nddmptmg bukntfds naiut temfr mxefaftfiks nkg itemr wirl fk

tem pfpmbfkm wns Cfssfik Fcpissfabm" ie fo ikby aut Wic Drufsm wiubg am temrm ti

sny tem gny+ ]koirtukntmby F nbsi envm tem tnsl io nddmptfkj ir rm`mdtfkj temfr smbo

pridbnfcmg cnstmrpfmdms wefde dicms ti tem jnbbmry gnfby+ Xuttfkj up wfte temsm

drmntfvm nkg sicmtfcms gfnaibfdnb fk nppmnrnkdm fkgfvfgunbs wfte iut io tefs


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wirbg enfrstybms" dibir" cnlmup nkg grmss smksm cngm yiu tefkl yiu jit n

andlstnjm pnss nt Dfrqum Gu Tibmfb+ Dicafkm tefs wfte temfr nttftugms dnk am

grnfkfkj mspmdfnbby wemk yiu rm`mdt temc" fts bflm yiu lfbbmg jig+ Wemy ambfmvm

temfr wirl fs smdikg ti kikm nkg gmsmrvms n spit wfte bfjets nt tem jnbbmry+ Nt

tfcms F fktmrndt n bit wfte tem puabfd ti tem pifkt io njjrnvntfik wfte temfr

rmtnrgmg qumstfiks+

Fs tefs nrtfst jny9

Dnk yiu smbb tefs ti cm nt enbo prfdm9

F tefkl TpikjmAia Tqunrm Xnkts wiubg envm gikm n amttmr ìa tenk tefs+

Fo ikby temsm cfsmrnabm sigs lkmw F gikt gi tefs ìa ti nppmnsm temc F ikby gi ft

ti jmt pnfg nt tem mkg io tem oudlfkj cikte+

Zent F bflmg naiut cy ìa wmrm tem eit defdls oric surriukgfkj dibbmjms fk

Dmktrnb Gurank wei wmrm rmjubnrs nt tem jnbbmry+ Wemy wmrm kit rmnbby nttrndtmg

ay tem nrt pmr sm aut temy wmrm rntemr fktmrmstmg fk tem Efstiry Dnom ik tem

smdikg obiir+ Zfte fts sbijnk Bfamrt" jnbft" Orntmrkft" nkg prfkts ik tem

dfrdubnr tnabms io efstiry gmofkfkj emngbfkms oric Kmwspnpmrs nriukg tem wirbg"

ft smrvmg jrmnt dioomm nkg eng ormm gmdmkt ZF#Of+ Notmr trfnb nkg mrrir F

senrpmkmg cy slfbb io diurtsefp nkg mxmdutmg ft pmromdtby wfte n defdl kncmg

Nznkgm+

Ft wns mnrby wfktmr cirkfkj" tem dibg smn armmzm swmmpfkj teriuje tem dfty

stfdlfkj ik mvmry wnbb gmtmrcfkmg ti cngm fts prmsmkdm ombt+ Cy ombbiw

Gurankftms wrnppmg temcsmbvms fk mxnjjmrntmg bnymrs io wnrcte fo n oirc io


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`mrsmys" emnvy guty `ndlmts" ents" bmntemr jbivms nkg tefdl sdnros+ Zmrm fk

Gurank kit @iaurj+ Gmspftm tem jbiic tem suksefkm wns armnlfkj ncikj tem

dbiugs abmssfkj us wfte sicm vftncfk G uktfb kiik" fo ikby wm deiism ti utfbfzm fts

vfsft+

F `ust nrrfvmg nt wirl pnrlfkj cy dnr fk tem ukgmrjriukg pnrlfkj lkiwk ay tem

stnoo ns tem gukjmik+ Ft*s drmmpy tents nbb temrm fs ti ft+ F tiil nk mbmvntir ti tem

tefrg obiir nkg upik stmppfkj iut ik ti tem emnvmk sefky pibfsemg ay tem jigs

wiigmk dnrncmb obiir cy myms dnujet sfjet io tefs dutm pmtftm jfrb grmssmg fk nbb

abndl fk tem jnbbmry+ Abndl `mnks+ N bikj sbmmvm abndl tip nkg abndl sbfppmr seims+

Tem drissmg emr nrcs tryfkj ti lmmp emrsmbo wnrc+ Tem wns stnrrfkj nt n

pnfktfkj wefde F wns oncfbfnr wfte nkg lkmw tem nrtfst vmry wmbb+ Fktrfjumg ay ft

sem gfgkt mvmk emnr cy oiitstmps ns F wnblmg tiwnrgs emr oric amefkg+ Ttrnkjm

diksfgmrfkj tem siukg oric tem sibm io cy seim nkg wiig wiubg stnrtbm nkyaigy+

Ft wns pnfktmg ay Cnrl Zntmrs iotem ]kfvmrsfty io Kirtemrk Guranks Dbnssfds

gmpnrtcmkt+

Tem turkmg nriukg nkg F snw emr ondm+ Amnutfoub afj enzmb myms+ Bfjet ariwk

slfk nkg n scnbb ciute wfte tefk bfps+ Tem biilmg vmry fkkidmkt bflm n pnstirs

gnujetmr+ Tem eng mxtmksfiks ik emr enfr aut eng temc arnfgmg wefde rmndemg

seiubgmr bmkjte+

Fts dnbbmg tem Xmrsmdutirs+

Tem biilmg nt tem pnfktfkj ikdm cirm+


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Wem cmssnjm fs naiut Derfstfnk pmrsmdutfiks ay tem Qicnk mcpmrir Gfidbmtfnk+

Wem bfik yiu smm ik tem onr bmot fs fkgfdntfvm io Qicm nkg emr ommbfkjs tiwnrgs

Derfstfnkfty nt tem tfcm+ Wem pmipbm lkmmbfkj nkg prnyfkj nrm Derfstfnks wei

wmrm sbnujetmrmg gurfkj tefs mrn sfkdm temy rmousmg ti wirsefp tem mcpmrir+

F wns surm cy lkiwbmgjm io tem pnfktfkj fcprmssmg emr aut nbb F jit wns n dibg+++

Qmnbby9

F rmbmnsmg n kmrvius bnuje lkiwfkj F `ust bist pifkts+

Cy kncm fs Lnjfsi+ Fc nk nrt durntir emrm+

F trfmg ti denkjm tem sua`mdt nkg Onst.

Zents yiur kncm9

Zey yiu wnkt ti lkiw9

]sunbby F wiubg envm orizm diksfgmrfkj cy biw#smbo mstmmc fk sude sftuntfiks

aut F wns gmtmrcfkmg+

F envm smmk yiu emrm n omw tfcms aut eng kit tem anbbs ti spmnl ti yiu+ F jumss

tentsdenkjmg kiw emy9

F jit n scnbb jrfk+ Wenkl jig+

Zents yiur kncm9

F eng ti nsl njnfk+

Nznkgm+


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Wem siukg io emr kncm wns si rmormsefkj bflm mktmrfkj n wmbb nfr dikgftfikmg

stirm gurfkj n stfdly eucfg succmr+

Ie. Went cmnks fkdrmnsm rfjet9

Kiw gfg yiu envm ti ji nkg sny tent yiu twnt9

]c+++Vmne F tefkl si+

Tems jikm cntm oirjmt ft+ Znft. F dnk stfbb gi tefs F lkiw F dnk `ust lmmp tem

dikvmrsntfik naiut emr+ Wem anttbm mksumg ay ofjetfkj cy fkkmr vifdm+

Ti wey gi yiu dicm si mnrby fk tem cirkfkjs9

F nslmg+

Zm sbiwby amjnk ti wnbl nriukg tem jnbbmry tefs tfcm gmtmrcfkmg ti lmmp cy

ciute seut rmjnrgfkj tem nrtwirl+

Fts vmry qufmt nkg F dnk npprmdfntm tem nrt cirm tefs wny+

Ns sem wns tnblfkj F dikdbugmg tent sem vmry eit. Went nss wns scnbb ymt ofrc

dnbbfkj oir cy nttmktfik+ Ti wey wiubg sem efgm emrsmbo amefkg sude eirrmkgius

dbitefkj9 Ofknbby wm snt giwk ik tem amkde biilfkj strnfjet nt tem bnrjm dibiroub

cisnfd ik tem wnbb io tem fdikfd Kmbsik nkg Zfkkfm Cngflfzmbn Cnkgmbn eibgfkj

enkgs ns eusankg nkg wfom wnblfkj tem strmmts io Tiwmti ns ormm pmipbm notmr

npnrtemfg+ F eng ti diktfkum tnblfkj ti tefs defdl ir mbsm sems jikm+

Zent lfkg io cusfd gi yiu bfstmk ti9

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Tem biilmg nt tem obiir succikfkj n rmspiksm+

Aiys FF Cmk

Enenen...

F aurst iut fk bnujetmr nkg turkmg emngs fk tem jnbbmry+ F diubgkt ambfmvm ft. Tem

nbsi jfjjbmg ti wefde cngm ft nbb tem amttmr+

Io nbb tem cusfd nriukg tigny yiurm stfbb bfstmkfkj ti tent stuoo.9

Zents wrikj wfte ft9

Emr amnutfoub scfbm jbiwfkj+

Fts nkdfmkt tents wents wrikj wfte ft.+

Tem mk`iymg bnujefkj+ F bflmg emr aigy< ft wns slfkky ymt emnbtey `ust bflm cfkm+

Emr scfbm wns sykikycius wfte emr fkkidmkdm ns teiuje sem wns kit suppismg

ti gi tent+

Ti wemrm gi yiu bfvm9

Lwn#Cnseu

Ie aiy+ Xmrsiknbby F gikt bflm tiwksefp defdls+ Wemrms nk nfr io jiig bfom

lkiwbmgjm wefde temy tefkl temyrm nwnrm io aut temyrm kit+ Ti nbrmngy ansmg ik

sidfnb strntfofdntfik Fc amttmr tenk emr+ Nwmsicm+ Weiuje wfte tefs defdl

eiwmvmr" njnfkst nbb cy ambfmos naiut emr sidfnb stnkgfkj F wns prmpnrmg ti cnlm

nk mxdmptfik+

Ilny.


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Zents wrikj wfte ft9+

Tem nslmg cm wfte teism afj enzmb myms jbfttmrfkj wfte mnjmrkmss nkg

mxpmdtntfik+

Kitefkj. Kitefkj+++Qmnbby F tefkl ftsdiib+

Nbrfjet+

F dnkkit ambfmvm Fc eibgfkj giwk n dikvmrsntfik wfte tefs eit defdl 48 cfkutms

ik+ Oukky mkiuje Fc kit kmrvius nt nbb+

Gi yiu wnkt n oncfby io yiur iwk ikm gny9+

Zent tem oudl gfg yiu nsl emr tent oir yiu fgfit9. Qfjet temrm nkg temk F

mxpmdtmg n afj ji oudl yiursmbo rmspiksm+

Vmne surm wey kit9 Tmvmk lfgs ti am spmdfofd.

Emr mnsm iodikvmrsntfik fcprmssmg cm+ Tem gfgkt envm emr emng up emr nrsmeibm

bflm nk emfrmss ti n afbbfik gibbnr dicpnky abmssmg wfte mxqufsftm amnuty+

F `ust wnkt n afj oncfby tents nbb.

Wents jrmnt+ F eipm ft enppmks oir yiu+

Xmipbm wmrm stnrtfkj ti trfdlbm fk tem jnbbmry cist io temc tiurfst nkg temfr

dncmrns obnsefkj nwny+

F wnstmg n bit io tfcm emrm F amttmr ji+

Vmne io diursm+ F envm ti jmt ti wirl ns wmbb" aut ft wns kfdm cmmtfkj nkg

denttfkj wfte yiu+


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Tncm emrm+

Zent yiurm wnftfkj oir Lnjfsi9 Zrnp ft up nbrmngy +

Dnk F envm yiur kucamr si F dnk dnbb yiu sicmtfcm9+

Njnfk F wns prmpnrmg oir tents kit n jiig fgmn spmmde+

Wem kmxt tfcm F smm yiu Fbb jfvm ft ti yiu ilny9+

Vmne rfjet+ Wefs wns emr wny io snyfkj F bflm yiu aut kit rmnbby si yiu oudl ioo

kiw ft wns n jiig 4= cfkutms+ Xfssmg ioo nkg gfsnppifktmg F biilmg nt emr gmng fk

tem mym nkg oirdmg cy ondfnb cusdbms ti scfbm+

Turm Fbb am emrm.+

Fk cy siub F gmsfrmg ti smm emr ruk ivmr ay nk mfjetmmk wemmb trudl nkg emr

fktmstfkms dnrmssfkj tem ring+

Gmspftm tefs F onkdfmg emr+ Tem wns fktmrmstfkj" amnutfoub nkg wftty+ Mvmry gny F

ndemg ti smm emr+ Znlfkj up mnde cirkfkj wns n abfss+ Wem defbgfse eipm io

smmfkj emr ondm wns mbmdtrfoyfkj+ Wemrms n sprfkj fk cy stmp wnktfkj ti `ucp nkg

lfss tem dbiugs+ F aiujet nkg usmg dibijkm sicmtefkj F teiujet Fg kmvmr gi+ F

wnftmg+++ nkg+++Znftmg nkg wnftmg+++ Oir n wmml nkg 4 gnys F wnftmg tfbb F jnvm up

nkg pbnymg nriukg wfte tem cmbnkdeiby io amfkj n rm`mdt+ Wemk iut io nasibutm

kitefkjkmss jumss wei F smm wmnrfkj eit slfkky `mnks nkg n oukly enfrstybm stfbb

arnfgmg+ Tem wirm n pfkl nkg weftm tip wefde mcpensfzmg emr eiur jbnss ofjurm"

aut cist fcpirtnktby emr dbmnvnjm+ @msus Derfst+ F wns eirky wftefk n spndm io 7

smdikgs+ Cy teiujets wmrm znppfkj onstmr tenk n DFN supmrdicputmr+


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F rfppmg emr dbitems ti sermgs bflm n pndl io eymkns+ Knlmg F gmviurmg emr jibgmk

syrup pfjcmkt aigy tfbb cy ciute diubgkt smdrmtm snbfvn onst mkiuje+ Emr tefjes

wmrm siot nkg ukabmcfsemg+ Wem gubb sinp igir oric emr vnjfkn armmzmg teriuje

cy kistrfbs aut ft wns si nttrndtfvm F wmkt fk oir tem stnrtmr+ Cy wfbg tikjum

wmkt up nkg giwk amorfmkgfkj seirt puafd enfrs fk tem pridmss+ F kmmg cirm+

]sfkj cy ofkjmrs F sprmng ft ipmk nkg studl tem tikjum fk ti sntfsoy+ Wem sijjy

wnrc obmse tnstmg bflm wntmr aut went mkdiurnjmg cm ti diktfkum wns emr

cinkfkj nkg trmcabfkj" nk fkgfdntir Fc efttfkj tem rfjet spit+ Xmrspfrntfik oric

tem fkkmr tefjes scmnrmg aite cy demmls mrrntfdnbby sbnppfkj mnde itemr ns F

civmg cy emng sfgm ti sfgm gmtmrcfkmg ti jmt mvmry fkde+ Bfps nkg tikjum cngm

iut wfte emr vnjfkn bflm cy bfom gmpmkgmg ik ft+ Wem cirm F ntm tem enrgmr F

amdncm ftdefkj ti stfdl cy gfdl fk+ Zfteiut wnrkfkj n juse io obufg rusemg fkti

cy ciute nbcist deilfkj cm+ F swnbbiwmg tem irjnscfd grfkl wefbst cy gfdl

wns enrg ns n gfncikg+

Xusefkj ft fk wns mnsfmr tenk F mxpmdtmg gum ti emr irjnsc+ F gfg tem puse nkg

pubb tmdekfqum termm tfcms nt ofrst+ Wem vnjfkn wnbbs jnvm cy lkia nkg senot

sude mdstnsy tent amsfgms obyfkj wfte jigs fk Ciukt Ibycpus F omnrmg io dicfkj

prmcnturmby+ Wem tmcpi fkdrmnsmg ns gfg tem orfdtfik fksfgm+ Emr amnutfoub

armnsts civmg bflm jmbntfkius puggfkj+ Biilfkj nt emr myms sem bivmg mvmry

smdikg io ft+ Twmnt ik cy oirmemng sbftemrmg giwk tem sfgms io tem cy ondm nkg

oircmg fkti gripbmts ik tem defk onbbfkj ik emr armnsts+ Zm ukftmg fk n emnt io

pnssfik ns F diktfkuiusby mktmrmg emr vmry cifst vnjfkn wefbm emr bmot bmj wns

naivm cy rfjet seiubgmr+


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Nbb io tefs wns spfkkfkj fk cy emng wntdefkj emr amefkg tem rmdmptfik gmsl

wemk F rmdmfvmg n siot pukde ik cy bmot seiubgmr nkg qufdlby sknppmg iut io ft+

Ie. Eiw yiu gifkj @ise9+

Zent nrm yiu stnrrfkj nt gugm9

Efs prmsmkdm suooidntfkj cm+

Kitefkj+

Viu biil rmnbby tmksm cntm+

Em nbwnys eng tefs mkmrjy bflm kitefkj nwoub dnk jmt ti efs spfrft nkg jfrbs ùst

oibbiw efc bflm n trnfk io nkts oibbiwfkj n swmmt sdmkt+ Ft diubg am efs bnfg andl

efje ik cnrfùnkn nttftugm naiut mvmrytefkj" efs defsmbbmg peysfqum nkg tem

ridlmr ukdicamg seirt abndl enfr+

Ki Fc ofkm ùst tefs wirl tent F envm ti gi tents nbb+

Byfkj F seuoobmg pnpmrs oir mcpensfs+

Gikt tefkl tii cudecntm bfoms tii seirt+

@iseun fs ikm io teism diib juys yiu envm fk yiur dfrdbm si yiu dnk biil diib

yiursmbo+ Fts oudlfkj pntemtfd+ Ft*s ang mkiuje em ens ti am n oncius suromr fk

Gurank kiw em ens ti am scnrt ns wmbb9 Dcik. F stugfmg Nkdfmkt efstiry wfte

efc nt tem ]kfvmrsfty io Kirtemrk Gurank nkg wm ùst dbfdlmg+ N jiig bng+

Tpiktnkmius aut n jiig bng+


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Diib ns tem wmntemr iutsfgm em gfsnppmnrmg iut io sfjet jifkj ti efs ioofdm fk tem

dirrfgir nkg F cngm cy civm tiwnrgs Nznkgm+ Wnblfkj ti @iseun F senrpby bist

cy mrmdtfik bflm cy gfdl dncm fkti diktndt wfte dibg wntmr+ Tem kitfdmg cm nkg

scfbmg rmvmnbfkj n arfjet bmvmb smt io weftms+

Eiw yiurm gifkj9

F snfg fk cy gmmpmst nuteirftntfvm vifdm+

Fc jrmnt cnk nkg yiu9+

Fc jiig+

F biilmg nt emr wfte jrmnt mxpmdtnkdy bflm tent io n ofvm ymnr ibg wnftfkj oir temfr

pricfsmg afrtegny prmsmkt oric ciccy nkg gnggy+ Tem kitfdmg" aut snfg

kitefkj+++nwlwnrg cicmkt+

Ti eiw yiurm gifkj9+

F tefkl yiu nslmg cm tent bflm smdikgs nji+

Gnccft+ Mnsy Lnjfsi+

Tem eng tefs dutm smxy dikousfik ik emr ondm nkg F lkmw F wns naiut ti abiw ft+

Tem jfjjbmg+ F gfgkt mxpmdt tent+

Zent fs ft9+

Nrmkt yiu jifkj ti nsl oir cy kucamr njnfk9

Zns F tent trnkspnrmkt9 F" Lnjfsi" si smrfius nkg priomssfiknb naiut mvmrytefkj

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Tems pbnyfkj yiu+

Zent9 Zemrm fs tent vifdm dicfkj oric9 Ttnrfkj nt emr gmng fk tem mym F nslmg

cysmbo tefs+ Ft wns dbmnr nkg drfsp ns tem sukky wfktmr wmntemr iutsfgm+

Viu ilny9

Nbrfjet temk+++Dnk F envm yiur kucamr9

F tiil tem fXeikm iut io cy rfjet pidlmt+ Weism siot enzmb myms jbfttmrmg upik

smmfkj ft+ F snvmg emr kucamr+ Dnbbmg ti demdl sems kit aubbsefttfkj cm+ Ft

rnkj+++ft wns emrs+ Zemk tent enppmkmg sem wns mnjmr ti bmnvm bflm sem eng

sicmikm mbsm ti smm wei wns cirm fcpirtnkt tenk cm+

Bfstmk Lnjfsi F jittn ji aut wmbb dent ilny9

Turm Fbb dnbb yiu tikfjet.+

Tem struttmg nwny swfkjfkj emr efps ns teiuje civfkj ti tem siitefkj

psydemgmbfd siukgs oric Npibbis Byrm+

F wns priug+ Kmvmr teiujet n kmrg bflm cm diubg ndtunbby gi tefs. F wns ik n

efje+ N juy wei kmvmr gntmg diubg ofknbby envm efs ofrst gntm" envm efs ofrst lfss

nkg cnyam mvmk armnl efs vfrjfkfty+ Jig lkiws eiw cude nfrtfcm wns usmg fk

dnbbs nkg scss fk cnfktnfkfkj diccukfdntfik wfte emr+ Ft gfgkt aitemr cm ikm

aft+ F `ust wnktmg ti obiw nkg jmt bist fk tefs amnutfoub fktixfdntfkj ommbfkj+ Tem fs

cfkm+ Tem fs cy jfrborfmkg+ Fk cy cfkg F mxpmdt nkg ambfmvm sem ommbs tem sncm

wny+ F tiil emr iut oir n bukde ikdm ti seiw cy fktmktfiks+ Tem fs cy ofnkdm+


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Gmspftm nbb io tefs mcitfiknb mupeirfn temrms tefs nkkiyfkj ftde tent sicmtefkj

fs wrikj+

DENXWMQ WZI

Tnturgny cirkfkj F dnbbmg emr+

Eiw nrm yiu Nznkgm9

Ngrmknbfkm pucpfkj teriuje cy vmfks+

Fc wmbb nkg yiu9+

F smksmg airmgic fk emr vifdm nkg fktmrprmtmg tent ns emr amfkj airmg wfte cm+

Fc supmr.

Vmne rfjet+

Viu jit cy scs bnst kfjet9

F smkt emr nk TCT snyfkj F wnkt us ti ji ti tem Mg Euktmr civfm temntrms nt

Nbfwnb Ttrmmt" mssmktfnbby n gntm+ Cy emnrt wns piukgfkj fk cy demst" enkgs

swmnty nkg terint gry+ Emr nkswmr wiubg privm wemtemr Fc n onfburm ir n

suddmss+

Vmne F gfg+

Nk mbnairntfik wns mxpmdtmg oric emr nkswmr aut F jit kikm+ Cy armntefkj

amdncm mrrntfd bflm pippfkj io cfdriwnvm pipdirk+ F pnkfdlmg ns fo F wns

nstecntfd aut lmpt ft ukgmr wrnps si sem diubg kit nsl nkytefkj+


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Ti went gi yiu tefkl9 Dnk yiu dicm nbikj9

F wnkt us ti ji ns orfmkgs kit cirm tenk tent+

Wefs tfcm temrm wns n jrmnt gmnb io nuteirfty fk emr vifdm wefde F gfgkt mxpmdt+ F

wns gfsnppifktmg+ Orustrntmg+ Nkjry nkg dikousmg+ Zemk sem snfg tefs ti cm F

wns iutsfgm tem Mg Euktmr temntrms nssucfkj sem wiubg sny yms+ Wi tip ft nbb

ioo ft wns n abiigy Tnturgny. Xmipbm fkomstmg tefs pnrt io tem dfty bflm tfdls ik n

strny gij+ F oiukg cysmbo trmcabfkj sbfjetby wfte nkjmr nkg gfsnppifktcmkt

wefbst pnfk io amfkj rm`mdtmg njnfk rmturkmg spmnlfkj ti cm fk wnys F diubg kit

mxpbnfk+

F eukj up ik emr nkg wnblmg ns onst ns F diubg ti cy npnrtcmkt obnt ir gnrl

naigm rntemr+ Wem sfjet io pmipbm ik cy wny dnusmg cy sticnde ti auaabm

wnktfkj ti vicft nkg temy stnrmg nt cm oukky ns fo Fc n jmkmtfd ormnl+ F snw

cysmbo fk pissmssfik io n obncm teriwmr+ Zntdefkj temc aurkfkj nbfvm sdrmncfkj

nkg temfr obmse cmbt nwny grfppfkj jnvm cm nk mrmdtfik+ Went bfjetmkfkj dbmnr

vifdm tent dncm rmturkmg+

Viu nrm sude n oudlfkj fgfit. Eiw ik mnrte diubg yiu bmt yiur junrg giwk bflm

tent9 Viurm n oiib.+

Ns kmjntfvm ns temsm wirgs wmrm F oiukg temc ti am sfcubtnkmiusby bmtenrjfd

nkg fkvfjirntfkj+ Wemy drusemg cy dikofgmkdm nkg iabftmrntmg wentmvmrs bmot io

cy spfrft+ Wemrms ikby ikm wny ti rmgmmc cysmbo+ F wns kit ncnzmg nt tem

teiujet io gifkj tefs+ Ft abmkgmg nkg snt wmbb wfte cm+ F ombt cy ondfnb cusdbms


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mnsm nkg nbbiwmg ft ti cnlm iut wfte cy amnutfoub cmbnkdeibfn+ F bivm ft+ Ft wns

nddmptnabm+ Nznkgm fs jifkj ti ommb cy pnfk+

F nrrfvmg nt cy npnrtcmkt aufbgfkj nt >>048nc+

Luk`nkf cowmteu9

F jrmmtmg tem ont nrsm ont ambby pipdirk amnrgmg smdurfty junrg wfte n aring scfbm

ik cy ondm ns teiuje mvmrytefkj wns ilny+ F envm n andembir obnt nt tem amnde

orikt io Gurank+ Ft wns ansfd kitefkj onkdy+ Ikm amgriic+ N anteriic" scnbb

biukjm nkg lftdemkmttm+ Ft fs nbwnys lmpt dbmnk oir dbmnk teiujets+ F swftdemg ik

tem lmttbm nkg cngm cysmbo n strikj dup io Lmkynk dioomm+ F gikt envm cnky

orfmkgs" ti am eikmst F gikt envm orfmkgs nt nbb F ùst envm ndqunfktnkdms

temrmoirm F gfgkt enkj iut cude si ft wns ùst cm nkg cy dnabm+ Dnoomfkm sbiwby

mktmrmg cy abiig strmnc wefbst sfttfkj ik cy diude ùst naiut ti wntde n Tupmr

>= rujay cntde amtwmmk tem Tenrls nkg tem Qmgs+

Gurfkj cy wntdefkj ir seiutfkj nt tem W_ rntemr" F eng n ruse io abiig ti tem

emng+ Wem oidus sefotmg nwny oric tem cntde nkg W_ dicpbmtmby+ F amjnk tnblfkj

ti cysmbo nbiug+

Eiw nrm wm jifkj ti gi tefs9 F wikgmr wemrm sem fs+ F lkiw fts wrikj aut ft ens

ti enppmk+ Ie cnk went ti gi kiw+

Tdmknrfis wefde envm kitefkj ti gi wfte cm nppmnr rnkgicby fk cy cfkg+

Gmspftm amfkj sfkjbm nkg bfvfkj nbikm Fvm nbwnys ombt n eucnk prmsmkdm mvmr

sfkdm F civmg fk emrm aut teiujet kitefkj io ft" kiw ft ens fktmksfofmg+ Fk nk

nttmcpt ti senlm tefs F oirdmg tem myms ti wntde tem cntde" aut tem cfkg wns


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ukrmbmktfkj nkg wnktmg cirm io Nznkgm+ Cy fcnjfkntfik rnk wfbg smmfkj emr

wfte nkg orfmkgs nt sicm dbua sfppfkj ik didltnfbs nkg tmbbfkj emr jfrborfmkgs

naiut tefs oiibfse juy sem cmt+ Gmbfamrntmby F nbbiwmg cy siub ti am tnlmk ay

sude fcnjfkfkjs+ F envm tem gmsfrm+ F kmmg n pbnk+

Tukgny cirkfkj 5048nc+ F entm Tukgnys aut tigny wns spmdfnb+ Dnbb Nznkgm"

ofkg iut wefde dibbmjm sem nttmkgs" tfcms" nkg emr usunb enkj iut gurfkj tem

wmml+ Bfotmg tem abfkg seuttfkj durtnfks oric cy biukjm n rny io arfjet ymbbiw

sukbfjet eft cy myms wefde fk smdikgs gfg tem sncm ti cy dioomm tnabm" diude nkg

amoirm nkjmbfdnbby fbbucfkntfkj cy mktfrm npnrtcmkt+ Biilfkj giwk oric cy 6te

obiir efje tiwmr temrm wmrm kit cnky pmipbm ik tem amnde+ Ticm wmrm ìjjfkj"

dydbfkj" nkg itemrs tnf def" tem weibm F wnkt ti biil oudlfkj emnbtey sdmkm+ Nkg F

gikt seiwmr ik Tukgnys tents ùst cm+ Arusefkj cy tmmte F emnrg bnujetmr fk

tem dirrfgir nkg emnvy sticps+

Teut tem oudl up+

F qufmtby snfg ti cysmbo+ F wmkt ti tem diude" jit tem rmcitm nkg wmkt strnfjet ti

Kfdlmbigmik+ F kmvmr jit ivmr tem oiibfsekmss io dnrtiiks aut ùst wemk F snt

giwk wfte cy aiwb io orufty pips dmrmnb cy peikm rfkjs+++fts cic+

Embbi cuc+

Ef cy aiy eiw nrm yiu9

Fc ilny+

Nrm yiu bfstmkfkj ti Xrfgm OC9


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Xrfgm OC fs tem cist pipubnr rngfi stntfik fk Tiute Norfdn+ Zfte fts rntfkj fts

ikm io tem amst ncikj Pubu spmnlmrs spmdfofdnbby+ Cy cic nssucms tent Fg

bfstmk ti tem sncm drnp sem bfstmks ti `ust amdnusm F bfvmg ukgmr emr riio oir cnky

ymnrs+

Ki F gfgkt+

F snfg fk n senrp tikm nkg cngm surm F wns mcpentfd+

Ie temrm wns tefs jrmnt prmndemr nkg efs cmssnjm wns++++

Ns sem wns rukkfkj emr trnp cy myms wmrm ofxmg upik TpikjmAia Tqunrm Xnkts+

F oiukg tem stupfgfty ncnzfkj+ Xntrfdl tryfkj ti oft twi kik cntdefkj pfmdms io n

puzzbm usfkj jbum nkg efs gmtmrcfkntfik wns ioo tem denrts+

Embbi+ Viurm stfbb temrm9+

Vms cucFc stfbb emrm sirry naiut tent" yiu wmrm snyfkj9+

Cy sfbmkdm nbnrcmg cm+

Jig lkiws went yiurm up ti9+

Fc ilny cuc rmnbby Fenvm ti ji ilny Fbb smm yiu tefs dicfkj wmmlmkg+

Nbrfjet" aym

Aym+

Cy cuc nkg F wmrm dbism nt ikm pifkt eiwmvmr tefkjs wmrm vmry supmrofdfnb oric

cy sfgm+ Tem gmsmrvms kitefkj oric cm+ F omkgmg oir cysmbo mcitfiknbby ns n


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defbg" si wey seiubg F dnrm kiw9 F sdribbmg cy peikmaiil bfst nkg temrm sem wns"

prmssmg dnbb" ft rnkj+ F wnftmg nt bmnst = smdikgs amoirm sem nkswmrmg+

Embbi9

Wemrm nrm gfoomrmkt lfkgs io embbi+ Wemrms tem iavfiusbyF lkiw weic Fc tnblfkj

ti embbi" nkg temrms F gikt envm nk fgmn wei tem oudl tefs fs embbi" ukoirtukntmby

F jit tem bnttmr+

Ef Nznkgm fts cm+

F snfg wfte jrmnt airmgic+

Eiw nrm yiu gifkj9

Fc spmdtndubnr+

Fc grfppfkj wfte snrdnsc+ Gfg sem kit snvm cy kucamr9 Zns F kit tent

fcpirtnkt ti emr9 Zfte temsm qumstfiks F wns citfvntmg+

Fc ofkm cnk+Fc jiig.+

F eng ti arfkj mkteusfnsc andl fk cy vifdm sfkdm F eng n jinb+

Zents up9+

Bfstmk" wemk gi yiu nttmkg dbnssms gurfkj tem wmml9

Oiur tfcms" wey9

F `ust wnkt ti lkiw wemk yiurm jifkj ti tiwk si wm dnk enkj iut+

Ilny+ Knfvmby sem di#ipmrntmg+


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Ti wefde gnys mxndtby9

Cikgnyti Weursgny+

Diib" nt Bidlbmnr Dibbmjm fk Tcfte Ttrmmt emy9

Vmne+

Kfdm" tenkls n bit ilny9

Vmne surm+ Tem siukgmg nwoubby dikousmg+

Aym+

Cikgny :04=nc+ F wilm up wfte jrmnt nkxfmty nkg mxdftmcmkt+ F eng tent n

sprfkj fk cy stmp ikdm njnfk aut tefs tfcm F wns fk denrjm+

Gmspftm cy `iyius nkg auiynkt ciig cy ndtfiks wmrm vmry ippisftm ti tefs+ F

dnbbmg tem cusmuc+

Ef tefs fs Lnjfsispmnlfkj" cny F spmnl ti Qndemb pbmnsm9

Ie ef Lnjfsi. Eiw nrm yiu bivm.9

Fc wmbb cy orfmkg nkg yiu9

Kit tii ang+

Tcnkjmbm iur rmdmptfikfst fs vmry tnblntfvm+ Tem ens tefs ukdnkky nafbfty io

tnblfkj ti nkyaigy wentmvmr temfr andljriukg+ N swmmt jfrb mvmk teiuje emr

mxtrnirgfknry ont tefjes nkg nrsm nrm sirry ti biil nt+ Eiw sicm cmk ofkg tefs

nttrndtfvm fs amyikg cy dijkftfvm slfbbs+ Emr dibiroub mddmktrfd grmss smksm wns

ncpbfofmg ay emr spmmde+


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Viurm jifkj teriuje ilny.

Wenkls+ Dent bntmr+

Wenkl jig" sem wns stnrtfkj ti ruk emr ciute naiut emr aiyorfmkg+

Qndemb CdBmig spmnlfkj eiw cny F embp yiu9+

Wem efje pftdemg Mkjbfse nddmkt tijmtemr wfte emr iutjifkj pmrsiknbfty ùst

cngm cm scfbm+

Ef Qnde fts Lnjfsi+

Ie ef Lnjfsi bivm eiw nrm yiu swmmtemnrt..+

Zm cmt fk tem succmr io 1885 nt tem Gurank Dubturnb Efstiry Cusmuc fk Bn

Budfn Kirte io Gurank wmrm sem gmbfvmrmg n prmsmktntfik naiut sdubpturms cngm

gurfkj tem =te dmktury A+D fk Nkdfmkt Jrmmdm nkg eiw tent fkobumkdmg nrt fk

jmkmrnb+ F ùst snfg embbi ti emr nkg tem rmst ùst ombb fkti pbndm+ F gfgkt ommb

termntmkmg" ùgjmg ir drftfdfzmg fk ondt ft wns tem ippisftm+ F jumss sem oiukg cm

ti am scnrt" dnrfkj" mbiqumkt" obumkt" strikj nkg ùst enkgsicm+ Eiwmvmr temrms

n priabmc" sems n bmsafnk+ Tfkdm F diubg kit denkjm emr smxunb irfmktntfik F

teiujet tem amst tefkj fs ti am orfmkgs nkg ft jrmw fk bmnps fk aiukgs+ Tem

amdncm nkg stfbb fs tem ikby siub F dnrmg oir fk tefs wirbg+

Fc nornfg F dnkt cnlm ft ti wirl tigny Qnde+F envm temsm demst pnfks Fc ik

cy wny ti n JX+

Ie si sirry ti emnr tent cntm" eipm fts kitefkj smrfius

Vmne F eipm kit+


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Wnlm nbb tem tfcm yiu kmmg anam fts ofkm+ Dnk F dicm ivmr ti smm eiw yiurm

gifkj notmr F lkidl ioo9+

F wns sfbmkt oir twi smdikgs ns F teiujet emr vfsft wiubg fktmrrupt cy pbnk+

Embbi9

Vmne ymne Fc stfbb emrm" sirry bivm+

Viurm kit wnklfkj nrm yiu9

Ki aut F cfjet ns wmbb amdnusm yiurm eit rmcmcamr9 Io diursm yiu dnk dicm

ivmr" wfte ammrs.+

Turm+Fbb dicm nriukg nt >5088pc9

Diib+ Tmm yiu bntmr temk ymne9

Demmrs bivm yiu bits.

Gnccft. F kiw envm tfbb >:088pc ti gi cy seippfkj+ F eng n qufdl seiwmr"

gmigirnkt" put ik n abum pnfr io Bmvfs nkg n abndl sefrt wefde F oibgmg tem

sbmmvms ti cy mbaiws nkg wirm cy defbgfse rmg dikvmrsm nbb#stnr skmnlmrs+

Iutsfgm tem aufbgfkj temrms n bfkm io dnas ndriss tem ring" F wnblmg up ti n grfvmr

ti kmjitfntm tem nciukt+

Eiw cude fs ft ti Cngfsik Cnbb9

Q>58 cy aritemr+ Em snfg+

F oiukg tent ti am demnp diksfgmrfkj tem gfstnkdm+ F jit fk tem pnssmkjmr smnt nkg

ik tem wny F teiujet n bit naiut went F wns jifkj ti gi" went Fvm amdicm ir


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went Fvm nbwnys ammk+ Wem grfvmr lmpt rukkfkj efs ciute naiut tem Irbnkgi

Xfrntms oiitanbb dbua+ F `ust kitfdmg efs ciute civm nkg emnrg n omw wirgs emrm

nkg temrm+ Efs pfkl nkg abndl bfps wmrm mvfgmkt tent ems n emnvy grfklmr

pissfaby spfrfts+ Wem ondm biilmg enrg" riuje nkg wirk iut bflm nk nrcy vmtmrnk

wfte scnbb eibms ik efs demmls fkgfdntfvm io ang senvfkj+ Wemrm wns nbsi wmnr

nkg tmnr wfte stftdems nkg sdnrs oric pissfabm arnwbs ir ikm ik ikm ofst ofjets oir

wefde em wns ik tem bisfkj sfgm+ Vmt efs dbitems wmrm dbmnk wfte n obiwmr prfkt

abum nkg weftm sefrt nkg ariwk dnrji pnkts wfte abndl pnbm rnvnjmg snkgnbs+

Gmspftm efs oiitanbb rncabfkjs cy trnfk io teiujet wns kmvmr fktmrruptmg+ Em

tnblmg tfbb wm rmndemg Cngfsik+ F jit iut io tem oudlmg up knvy Wiyitn Drmssfgn

nkg pnfg tem guca oudlmr aut ns em trfmg ti tnbl ourtemr naiut tem Xrmcfmr

Tiddmr Bmnjum F sbnccmg tem giir fk efs ondm nkg wnblmg tiwnrgs tem mktrnkdm+

Kiw wemrm ti stnrt+ Enrgwnrm ir tem Lftdemk stirm9 Znblfkj tiwnrgs tem seip

wefde wns naiut 188cmtrms nwny F wns vmry arfsl bflm F kmmgmg ti tnlm n bmnl

nkg onst+ Ft wns cirkfkj" lfgs wemrm nt sdeiib nkg pnrmkts nt wirl" pmromdt+ F

pubbmg cy fXig nkg bfstmkmg ti Dbfkt Cnksmbb+ Fccmgfntmby upik mktmrfkj tem

stirm cy fcnjfkntfik rnk wfbg+ F wns bflm n ? ymnr ibg nt Zfbby Ziklns

Deidibntm Ondtiry+ Oidus Lnjfsi+ Viu*rm emrm ti jmt yiur stuoo nkg bmnvm+

Went wefspmr dbmnr vifdm dncm ti cm njnfk+

F jit cy bfst0 Qipm" gudl tnpm" n scnbb wiigmk denfr" sdfssirs" nxm" seivmb" nkg

bfjetmr obufg+ F wns tem smdikg pmrsik nt tem tfbb nkg biilmg nt cy enbo oubb tribbmy"

fts cy turk+

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F snfg pibftmby ti tem dutm dnsefmr wfte tefdl grmngbidls nkg efkts io jfkjmr fk

temc+ Wem myms biilmg emnvy wefde jnvm tem fcprmssfik io ki cnttmr eiw kfdm

yiu nrm tiwnrgs emr" embb wiubg ormmzm ivmr nkg tem gmvfb wiubg am fdm qummk

seiubg sem am kfdm fk rmturk+ Zemk F jrmmtmg emr ft rmsikntmg wfte cm tent sem

cfjet amdicm pnrt io tem stntfstfd+

**Ef**

Ti bmtenrjfd fk emr rmspiksm+

**Ziubg yiu bflm pndlmts sfr9**

**Ki tenkls Fbb am ofkm**+

F tiil nk mxft vfn Xnbc Aiubmvnrg wemrm tem oiuktnfk fs bidntmg nkg kmjitfntmg n

prfdm wfte nk Fkgfnk juy oir n dna+ Zftefk >8 cfkutms F wns eicm+ F ioobingmg cy

stuoo fkti cy jnrnjm giwkstnfrs dnbc ns dnk am" fk ondt F wns dnbc ns tem Gmng

Tmn aut F diubg ommb cy nkxfmty surjm+ Oir tem vmry ofrst tfcm fk cy bfom F wns fk

diktrib+ F wns Lnjfsi+ Kmntby F pbndmg tem ftmcs fk cy jnrnjm nkg tiil nk

mbmvntir ti cy npnrtcmkt nkg suggmkby amdncm eukjry si F cngm n sfcpbm

snkgwfde wfte enc" demmsm" ticntims nkg bmttudm wfte ammr ns n amvmrnjm+ Ik

cy wny ti tem diude F prmssmg tem cmssnjm auttik ik cy fXeikm" 4 cmssnjms0

**Eiwzft. F `ust aiujet cy ofrst eiusm ynnny..**

Wem sdrmnc wns si biug F teiujet tem kmfjeairs cfjet envm emnrg ft+

**Fts fk Efbbdrmst si F wiubg rmnbby bflm ft fo yiu embp cm civm pbmnsm" aym.**


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Cy sfstmr ens wnktmg n eiusm io emr iwk oir ns bikj ns F envm lkiwk emr" F envm

ki priabmc nt nbb embpfkj emr iut+ Tmdikg cmssnjm0

**Gugm wemrm tem oudl nrm yiu cnk F*vm ammk tryfkj ti dnbb yiu" gik*t ji rmtnrg ik

cm pbmnsm+ Nkywny tem jrmntmst citemroudlmr io nbb fs ik tefs wmmlmkg ari+

Wemrm*bb am eit aftdems nkg aiizm" tmbb cm wemk yiu*rm jifkj ti cnlm ft nkg pbmnsm

gik*t aftde iut ik cm" demmrs**+

Went dnk ikby am ikm pmrsik" @ise+ F cngm tem cfstnlm io nttmkgfkj tem Cr+ Xrfdm

Xri ikdm nkg kiw em tefkls F*c n onk" eikmstby F gik*t jfvm n seft+ Wefrg cmssnjm0

**Ef" `ust demdlfkj eiw yiu*rm gifkj" aym**+

Cy cic demdls eiw F*c gifkj nt bmnst ikdm n wmml aut F kmvmr dnbb emr nt nbb+

Notmr emnrfkj tem cmssnjms F snt ik tem diude" slfppmg denkkmbs nkg gmdfgmg ti

wntde n rm#ruk ioMUWQNTik AAD Mktmrtnfkcmkt nkg F rmnbby bnujemg cy nss

ioo+ Teft >1088pc F amttmr dnbb Nznkgm tem fgfit" F snfg ti cysmbo fk gfsjust+ F diubg

ommb tem nkjmr rmsurjfkj wftefk cm bflm Mslic jfvfkj piwmr ti tem piir+ F

prmssmg tem cutm auttik ik cy rmcitm diktrib nkg wnftmg oir emr ti nkswmr emr

Xeikm+

Ef

Tem nkswmrmg+

Embbi+++Zemrm nrm yiu9 F nslmg+

Nt tem Tuksmt Cnbb+

Zemrm*s tent9


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Nt tem dmktmr io Tcfte nkg Zmst Ttrmmt fts vmry dbism ti Jnrgkmr Ttrmmt+

Ie ilny F tefkl F lkiw wemrm tent fs+

Gi yiu rmcmcamr went F snfg ivmr tem wmmlmkg9+

Eiw dnk F oirjmt9

Vmne F rmcmcamr+ @ust orfmkgs+

Ti Fbb cmmt yiu fk sny 7= cfkutms9+

F jittn ji cmmt yiu bntmr+

Orfmkgs wmrm dnbbfkj oir emr fk tem andljriukg+

Nc F rmngy oir went Fc naiut ti gi9 Giuat amjnk ti drmmp fk bflm n tefmo+

Emnrt jmttfkj fkti nddmbmrntfik+ Ciute grfmr ay tem smdikg aut F eng ti rmbmnsm

tem ndtir wftefk cm ti diktfkum+ F tiil tem mbmvntir ti tem jriukg obiir nkg

emngmg ti cy jnrnjm+ Oudl cm ft wns dibg+ N strikj wfkg nkg piwmroub rnfk

eivmrmg naivm aut smmcs ti am pnssfkj+ Jbiicy ns ft fs F oiukg ft amnutfoub+ F

gik*t usm cy dnr ns iotmk ns F seiubg+ F bfvm fk dmktrnb Gurank si mvmrytefkj F

kmmgmg wns wftefk wnblfkj gfstnkdm oric cm+

F wirm bntmx jbivms amoirm F tiudemg mvmrytefkj+ Nbb tent F purdensmg mnrbfmr nt

tem enrgwnrm stirm F pbndmg fk tem aiit io cy dnr aut ft gfgkt iddur ti cm kit ti

denkjm cy dbitems+ F jit fk cy Eyukgnf Jmtz nkg grivm ioo+ F gfgk*t wnstm tfcm

wfte tem rngfi temrm wns `ust tent scnbb smbo cngm tmksfik+ F pnssmg tem cusmuc

F wirl oir" Deurde Tqunrm rfggbmg wfte stugmkts" nddiuktnkts" tnxfs wfte

dikgudtirs nkg nttirkmys Ik cy bmot wns tem Eitmb Bmkirm wfte fts jibg bfjets


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efttfkj fts pirtfik io tem pnvmcmkt nkg nk mktrnkdm wefde biilmg diccik+ Fk fts

efje gnys ft wns nk mxdbusfvm eitmb aut kiw fts abiwk iut io tem wntmr gum ti

dicpmtftfik nkg ay tem biils io ft temyrm kit enkgbfkj ft wmbb+ F diktfkumg grfvfkj

strnfjet wfte semmr oidus nkg gmgfdntfik+ Zemk F grivm teriuje tem fktmrsmdtfik

io Jnrgkmr nkg Tcfte Ttrmmt fccmgfntmby ti cy rfjet wns tem Tuksmt Cnbb wfte

tem Norfankl rmjfiknb ioofdm aufbgfkj ik cy bmot tiwmrfkj naivm cm+ Oric tefs

pifkt io Tcfte Ttrmmt fts vmry gfoofdubt ti jmt pnrlfkj si F eng ti ofkg pnrlfkj =

cfkutms nwny oric tem cnbb aut F gfgkt cfkg+ F bivm wnblfkj+

F pubbmg ivmr F gmdfgmg ti demdl wemrm ft wns+

Eiwzft wemrm nrm yiu9

Mkteusfnstfd bflm Fc naiut ti smm nk ibg amst orfmkg+

Ef ucc+++ F*c termm cfkutms nwny Fbb am rfjet temrm+

Ilny cm tii" smm yiu fk n aft+

Cy wnbl wns kit pmndmoub ir rmbnxmg+ F wnblmg ns onst ns cy aigy nbbiwmg bflm n

pri Ibycpfnk nkg surm mkiuje F jit temrm amoirm sem emr+ Tfttfkj nt tem mntfkj

zikm nwnftfkj emr nrrfvnb F twfggbmg cy teucas nkg mxncfkmg tem ofkjmrknfbs+

Wefs cnbb fs `ust n jriukg obiir cngm io n dikjbicmrntfik io seips+ Ft fs cistby

usmg ns n pnssnjm oir teism jifkj ti Tcfte Ttrmmt ir Zmst Ttrmmt ir vfdm vmrsn

nkg teus dikkmdtmg tem twi bflm n arfgjm+ F eng ki fgmn wemtemr sem wiubg dicm

oric tem bmot ir rfjet+ Wem mntfkj nrmn fs rfjet fk tem cfggbm io tem obiir si F

diubgk*t cfss emr+ F eipmg kit+ Jriwfkj orustrntmg oric emr bfm io termm cfkutms


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nwny F turkmg cy emng bmot temrm sem wns nkg iur myms cmt+ Tem sfjknbbmg tent

sem wns jifkj ti stnrt nt tem bngfms riic ofrst nkg temk sem wiubg dicm ti cm+

Cy fkstfkdts lfdlmg fk+ F stiig up lkidlfkj tem denfr ivmr nkg pmipbm gfgk*t

kitfdm" mvmk fo temy gfg ft wiubgkt cnttmr+ F cnrdemg ti tem anteriic wemrm sem

wns fk+ F*vm kmvmr ombt sude gmpmrsiknbfzntfik mvmr bflm sicmaigy wns mbsm wns

pubbfkj tem strfkjs+ @ust ns F wns naiut ti mktmr twi bngfms ndtunbby dncm iut

sfzfkj cm up emng ti tim+ F wns kmrvius n aft oir nkg teiujet tent temy wmrm

jifkj ti nsl qumstfiks+ Ttfbb F gfgkt dnrm+ Npntey fs cy orfmkg oir F wns vmry

oidusmg ik tem tnsl nt enkg+

F oiukg emr oikgbfkj teriuje emr anj nkg sem wns iabfvfius ti emnrfkj cm dicm

oric amefkg emr ikdm njnfk+ F `ust stiig temrm armntefkj+ Tem biilmg nt tem

cfrrir fk n giuabm tnlm ndtfik nkg wns stnrtbmg ay smmfkj cy rmobmdtfik+

Ef. Zent nrm yiu+++9

F ansemg emr emng njnfkst tem cfrrir wfte jrmnt piwmr rnjfkj teriuje cy aigy+

Fts bfjets iut oir emr+

DENXWMQ WEQMM

Wem ngrmknbfkm tent wmkt teriuje cy aigy ns sem wns sfttfkj temrm wns si

fktmksm ft wns mkiuje ti lfbb cm+ F tiil emr amnutfoub aigy put ft fk tem andl smnt

io cy dnr temk pridmmgmg ik grfvfkj ti tem gidls nt tem enrair+ F wns mxdftmg nt

tem ondt F cfjet jmt dnujet ir jmt nwny wfte ft+ Eiw F lkmw tent temrm wiubgkt

am pmipbm temrm nt tem tfcm fs amyikg cm sfkdm F gfgkt gi cy rmsmnrde+ Gfvfkm

gfnaibfdnb fktmrvmktfik+ F eng nbb tem tfcm fk tem wirbg ti ioobing cy mqufpcmkt+ F

tfmg abiigy Nznkgm ti tem denfr F eng purdensmg oir emr+ Zm wmrm dicpbmtmby


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fsibntmg+ Nbb yiu diubg emnr wmrm tem smn jubbs nkg nk iddnsfiknb gfstnkt ambb nkg

cfkfnturm wnvms gyfkj ns temy rmnde tem seirm+ Fts wfktmr+ Gnrlkmss nkg F senbb

amdicm ikm+

Wem scmbb io tem smn wns siitefkj nkg pfssfkj cm ioo sfcubtnkmiusby+ Cy aigy fs

jmttfkj emnvfmr gum ti went Fvm gikm nkg went F wns naiut ti gi+ F kitfdmg wm

wmrm sbfjetby mxpismg si F pubbmg tem denfr nkg Nznkgm gmmpmr fkti tem knturnb

emwk ridl dnvm nkg temrm ft wns ùst cm nkg cy amnutfoub abiig scmnrmg nkjmb+

Wemrm wns ùst mkiuje bfjet" kit cude" ùst mkiuje+ F pubbmg n ridl snt ik ft nkg

wnftmg oir emr ti nwnlm oric emr oirdmg sbucamr+ > eiur bntmr+ Tem amjnk ti

nwnlm nkg cy jnzm wns ofxmg upik emr ns sem wns rmjnfkfkj diksdfiuskmss+ Emr

myms wmrm sbiwby ipmkfkj ti emr kmw wirbg bflm n kmwairk+

Zemrm nc F9

Tem nslmg+

F gfgkt nkswmr+ Ft wns frrmbmvnkt+ F tirm ioo sicm gudl tnpm nkg pbndmg ft ik emr

busdfius bfps+ Wemrm wns gmng sfbmkdm+ Wem biil oric emr myms dikofrcmg sem lkmw

wei F nc nkg went eng enppmkmg prfir+ Jiig" F wnkt yiu ti rmcmcamr

mvmrytefkj+ Tem trfmg ti ormm emrsmbo" sdrmncfkj" dryfkj nkg tem wefbm Fc ùst

stnrfkj nt emr wfte Nbmxnkgmr*s jnzm+ Tem jit tfrmg nkg nddmptmg emr usmbmss

mooirts+

F bivmg oir yiu+ F bivmg yiu gmmpby+ Nkg went gi yiu gi9 Viu ùst spnt ft rfjet

andl fk cy oudlfkj ondm.

Cy nkjmr nkg pnfk tiwnrgs emr rmsurondmg+


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F dnbbmg nkg yiu gik*t nkswmr+ F scs nkg yiu gi tem sncm+

F stiig up fk mxmrtfkj cy gicfknkdm nkg piwmr+

Gi yiu lkiw wents ft*s bflm ti am fjkirmg.9 Gi yiu.

F pukdemg emr ondm rmpmntmgby tfbb F emnrg emr rfjet demml aikm drndl oric tem

oirdm io cy ofst+ F wns surprfsmg nt eiw qufdlby sem abmg+ F wmkt fk oir riukg twi+

Cy ofsts wmrm ki bikjmr pnfkoub oirc emr ondfnb aikms+ Xnfk gfsjufsmg pnfk+ F

enccmrmg emr tfbb F ombt kitefkj mcitfiknbby+ Ns F diktfkunbby mkjnjmg fk cy

nssnubt F amjnk ti dry+ Obnseandls oric cy defbgeiig dncm aurstfkj fk cy emng

bflm n gnc gurfkj emnvy rnfks nkg stippfkj temc wns outfbm+ F drfmg oir amfkj

bikmby nkg nbikm" oir cy oncfby kit amfkj temrm oir cm" kiaigy ti tnbl ti" ommbfkj

ofbtey nkg uknddmptmg" nkg emrm fk orikt io cm fs sicmaigy wei diktrfautmg ti

tent+ Tem gmsmrvms ft nkg sem wns iut+

Cy armntefkj wns emnvy+ Gripbmts io swmnt rfppbmg giwk oric tem oirmemng nkg

oircmg ik cy defk wefbm sicm rmcnfkmg+ Abiig spnttmrs nbb ivmr cy ondm nkg

sefrt+ Emr amnuty ens ammk mrnsmg+ Tem eng knturnbby tefk bfps aut temy giuabmg

fk sfzm nkg wmrm tirk nriukg tem dirkmrs nkg cfggbm+ Wem spnrlbfkj enzmb myms

swibbmk seut tem sfzm io jibo anbbs+ Wem ondm wns pnfktmg rmg bflm n Bfvmrpiib

suppirtmr jifkj ti wntde efs ambivmg tmnc+ F diubgkt tmbb wemtemr sems gmng ir

nbfvm aut F eng ti cnlm surm+ Oudl. F envm n jmt tijmtemr wfte Qndemb bntmr+

Zfteiut emsftntfik F tiil tem lkfom nkg sbfdmg emr terint ns fo Fc sbfdfkj armng+ F

wns kit prmpnrmg oir tem nciukt io abiig tent purjmg oric emr wfkg pfpm bflm

tent< ft wns bflm wntmr strujjbfkj ti ofkg fts obiw teriuje tem tnp+ Tmdikgs notmr

sem grippmg emr emng+ Tems jikm+


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Cy pnfk purjmg nkg pmrsikfofmg ftsmbo wftefk cm+ Notmr amfkj sntfsofmg wfte emr

gmnte F tiil n gmmp armnte fk nkg mxenbmg+ F gfgkt envm mkiuje tfcm+ Fk n eurry

F guj n senbbiw pft nkg aurfmg emr temrm+ Wem snkg wns sinlmg nkg sijjy wfte

emr abiig+

Wefkl Lnjfsi+ Zent dnk pifkt emr gfrmdtby ti yiu9

F nslmg ti cysmbo fk psydeibijfdnb nkxfmty+ F amjnk tefklfkj bflm n pri fo kit n

smnsikmg smrfnb lfbbmr+ Emr dmbb peikm io diursm Xnkfdlfkj F mxdnvntmg tem pft ikdm

cirm nkg smnrdemg emr pidlmts+ F gfgkt cfkg tem abiig ns ft wnrcmg cy enkgs

teriuje tem jbivms+ F jit ft nkg qufdlby pusemg tem snkg andl fk tem pft+

Fc sirry Nznkgm aut yiu ariujet tefs upik yiursmbo+

Nkxfius wns arfccfkj oir cmmtfkj Qndemb+ F eng smdikg teiujets+

Dnbc giwk Lnjfsi+

Amoirm bmnvfkj tem sftm F tiil ioo cy sefrt rukkfkj ti tem seirm ti wnse emr abiig

ioo cy ondm nkg kmdl+ Wemk qufdlby bingmg cy mqufpcmkt fk tem aiit nkg wns

jiig ti ji" aut amoirm F stnrtmg tem fjkftfik cy peikm rfkjs+ Fts Qndemb+ F biilmg

nt ft oir nt bmnst 7 smdikgs ti dibbmdt cysmbo+

Emy anam.

F wns si `ivfnb+

Ef cy bivm" Fc `ust naiut ti bmnvm tem ioofdm wmrm stfbb ik bntmr ymne9

Io diursm.Fbb jrnan wefslmy ik cy wny+


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Ik yiur wny9 Zemrm nrm yiu gugm9

Gnccft. Eiw gfg F bmt tent sbfp9

Fc nt n dikvmkfmkdm stirm kmnr cy npnrtcmkt+

Ilny diib+ Tmm yiu fk ofotmmk ir twmkty ilny9

Turm tefkj+ Bivm yiu

Bivm yiu tii swmmtfm9

Wnblfkj ti emr nbwnys demmrmg cm up< mvmk teiuje F `ust tiil n bfom cfkutms nji

cy spfrft wns enppy nkg gnkdfkj oric tem siukg io emr vifdm+ F wns dnbc nkg

rmngy ti diktfkum wfte cy bfom+ Ft wns kiw gnrl nkg tem nfr fk Gurank wns vmry

drfsp+ Grfvfkj eicm F teiujet kitefkj io went F envm gikm+ F wns kit gfsturamg

fk nky wny wentsimvmr" fts ns teiuje tefs wns fk cy GKN nbb nbikj+ Xnssfkj

teriuje tem jntm io cy npnrtcmkt aufbgfkj F jrmmtmg tem smdurfty junrg wfte

sude pnssfik nkg zmnb oir bfom nkg wm eng n jiig cfkutm bikj dent naiut tem

Xrmcfmr Tiddmr Bmnjum+ F pnrlmg cy dnr" ioo bingmg cy stuoo" nkg tiil nk

mbmvntir strnfjet ti cy eucabm naigm ik tem 6te temk qufdlby obfdlmg ik tem

bfjets+ Zfte nbb tem wfkgiws ipmkmg wemk F bmot mnrbfmr cy npnrtcmkt wns bflm nk

fjbii fo kit n cirtunry+

DENXWMQ OI]Q

F eng n vmry qufdl smcf eit wntmr seiwmr nkg rmcivmg sicm io tem abiig stnfks

ik cy nrcs nkg ofkjmr knfbs+ Ofvm cfkutms wns nbb F tiil+ Wem pmndm F envm fs


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amyikg cm+ F ommb F dnk dikqumr tem wirbg nkg ti tip ft ioo cy amst orfmkg fs

dicfkj ivmr. Notmr sbittfkj cysmbo fkti wnrc py`ncn triusmrs nkg n sfcpbm jrmy

bikj sbmmvm t#sefrt F emnrg n lkidl ik tem giir" ki jumssfkj wei tent cfjet am+

Ipmkfkj tem civnabm pnkmb emr abfssoub scfbm nkg wikgmroub mkmrjy nbcist

lkidlmg cm andlwnrgs+

Embbi yiu.

Tem snfg wefbst eibgfkj twi sfx pndls io ammrs fk n pbnstfd anj+

Zm rmndemg tiwnrgs mnde itemrs tirsi nkg fkgubjmg fk n cmnkfkjoub wnrc

mcarndm+ Tem wnblmg fk nkg emngmg ti tem lftdemk ti put tem ammrs fk tem orfgjm"

aut notmr bidlfkj tem jntm nkg seuttfkj tem giir F turkmg nriukg nkg snw nk

nwmsicm vfmw+ Oir n weftm defdl Qndemb rmnbby ens n ridlfkj aigy+ Tem eng ik

temsm bfjet abum strnfjet bmj `mnks wefde eujjmg emr nss bflm sem eng temc

dustic cngm+ Emr ariwk aiits wmrm omcfkfkm wfte sprfklbms io cnsdubfkfty gum

ti n emnvy audlbm strnp wefde jnvm n gikt oudl wfte cm nttftugm+ Emr weftm

abiusm wns gmngby" wmbb dut nkg skujjbmg emr eiurjbnss ofjurm pmromdtby+ Wem ofrst

termm auttiks wmrm uktfmg wefde gmbfamrntmby rmvmnbmg emr smxy dbmnvnjm+ Tem

ofkfsemg ioo emr biil wfte n diib dnrncmb ariwk bmntemr `ndlmt+ Nbb F diubg sny ti

cysmbo wns wiw. Zey ik mnrte gfg sude n amnutfoub wicnk amdicm n bmsafnk9

Emy anam+

Eiw nrm yiu ommbfkj9

Tem nslmg+

Fc ofkm tem JX snfg ft wns n cfkir demst fkomdtfik fts kitefkj ti wirry naiut+


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Wents jiig ti emnr+

Vmne+++si eiw wns wirl tigny9

Ft wns ofkm mxdmpt oir tem gmpnrtcmkt io Nrt / Dubturm armntefkj giwk cy kmdl

naiut envfkj cirm Norfdnk nrt amfkj rmprmsmktmg fk tem cusmuc+ F wiubg mxefaft

temfr wirl privfgmg temyrm jiig+Fc kit naiut ti ùst enkj n prmtty pnfktfkj ik

tem wnbb ùst amdnusm tem jivmrkcmkt gmmcs ft si. F tmbb yiu noofrcntfvm ndtfik fk

nrt fs n lfbbmr+

Wem cusmucs rmputntfik ns n jrmnt pbndm oir aurjmikfkj nrtfsts wns drmntmg ay

Qndemb< sem rmnbby wirlmg enrg ti jmt ft rmdijkfzmg fk Tiute Norfdn + F dnkt abncm

emr oir amfkj iutspilmk wemk tem gnck jivmrkcmkt wnkts ti fktmrvmkm fk

sicmtefkj temy lkiw vmry bfttbm naiut+

Nkywny fts wentmvmr cnk+ Onkdy n ammr9 Tem snfg+

Vmne+

Tem termw tem aittbm nt cm+ Wents Qndemb oir yiu+ F ipmkmg ft nkg wm lfdlmg andl

ik tem sncm diude wntdefkj M. Tem ùst cngm emrsmbo rfjet nt eicm wemkmvmr

sem vfsfts+ Emrm sem fs" tnlfkj ioo emr aiits nkg rmstfkj emr ommt ik cy dioomm

tnabm+++F bivm tefs defdl+

Eiw fs @ise gifkj9

Ie tent oudlfkj eirk gij+

F aurst iut fk bnujetmr nkg lkiwfkj @ise ft wns prianaby oukky+

Zent gfg em gi kiw9


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Ti notmr F lkidlmg ioo F bidlmg cy ioofdm nkg wmkt ti jmt nk mbmvntir giwk tem

enbbwny nkg @ise `ust enppmks ti am temrm wnftfkj oir tem sncm ikm+ F snfg ti

cysmbo went lfkg io cnjjit fkomstmg vmrafnjm fs em jifkj ti ti spmw kiw9 +

Nkywny F sny ef nkg em snfg embbi andl temk em nslmg cm wemrm Fc jifkj

amdnusm em wiubg bflm us ti jmt grfkls+

Oir @ise jmttfkj grfkls wns efs wny io snyfkj F wnkt ti jmt fk yiur pnkts+

Nkg9

F wns vmry mnjmr ti emnr eiw tefs mkgs+

F tibg efc Fc jifkj ti yiur pbndm `ust ti enkj iut nkg gi yiu lkiw went tent

kutdnsm orfmkg io yiurs snfg9

Zent9

Em snfg wey wiubg F wnkt ti ji ti sude n airfkj juy

Xfss ioo.

F snfg fk seidl+

F lfg yiu kit+

Went oudlfkj wnklmr.

Qndemb bnujemg si enrg F teiujet wm wmrm jifkj ti envm n lkidl ik tem giir

tmbbfkj us ti lmmp ft giwk+ Wefs fs wemrm F dnkkit ukgmrstnkg @ise+ Em dbmnrby

lkiws Qndemb fs n bmsafnk aut wey em densms notmr sicmtefkj em dnkkit envm fs

amyikg cm" nkg mvmk teiuje em spilm seft amefkg cy andl Fc kit surprfsmg+


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Ems bflm ûnjcfrm oric Oncfby Juy aut scnrtmr+

Tnfg Qndemb+

Zfte nbdieib kiw wmbb fk iur abiig strmnc wm stnrtmg tnblfkj seft+ Oiitanbb+

Qujay" pmipbm fk jmkmrnb" tem cmnkfkj io bfom" smx nkg cirm smx+ Viu wiubg tefkl

tefs wns n Orfgny+

Eiw fs yiur oncfby gifkj9

F gikt lkiw eiw tent smjums dncm naiut aut sem ariujet up tem sua`mdt si F

dnkt bmnvm ft enkjfkj mvmk teiuje sem lkiws eiw F ommb naiut cy oncfby+

Wemyrm ofkm cy sfstmr ùst jit n kmw eiusm wfte emr oncfby

Wents kfdm wemrm9

Mssmkwiig+

Wents amnutfoub Fc si enppy oir emr. Nkg emr lfgs9

Cy sfstmr ens twi aiys Tfebm >8 nkg Wenkgi ?+ F nasibutmby ngirm temc+ Zemk

cy sfstmr jnvm afrte ti Tfebm F wns kit enppy wfte ft+ F wns usmg ti amfkj tem ikby

yiukj defbg fk tem oncfby+ Eiwmvmr notmr n ymnr F jrmw fkti ft nkg kiw Fg gi

nkytefkj oir temc+ Nt tfcms F stnrm nt temc nkg cy cfkg ùst jims andl ti wemk

F wns temfr njm+ F eipm temy gikt ji teriuje tent turcifb+ Ki defbg seiubg+ Cy

sfstmrs eusankg Cnkgbn ik tem itemr fs n jiig eusankg nkg ontemr" am tent ns ft

fs wm gikt tnbl cude" em ikby gims tent wfte cy aritemr+ Zm ùst envm kitefkj

ti tnbl naiut rmnbby+ Em tefkls Fc n airfkj sig oir amfkj vmry ndngmcfd nkg F

tefkl ems nk mcpty vmssmb oir amfkj cntmrfnbfstfd+


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Qndemb wns rmnbby defbbmg kiw nkg tfbtmg emr emng ti tem bmot wefbst biilfkj nt cm

gmng fk tem mym+ F smksmg n bfjet fktmrvfmw dicfkj up gmspftm lkiwfkj mvmrytefkj

naiut cm+

Nkg yiur cuc9

Kiw eiw gi F rmspikg ti tefs9 Fo F bfm sem wfbb qufdlby pfdl ft up" nkg fo F tmbb emr

mxndtby eiw F ommb cy emnrt wikt bflm ft nt nbb+

Tems ofkm+ Tem dnbbmg cm ik Tukgny ti tmbb cm naiut tefs prijrnc ik Xrfgm OC+

F gfg cy amst ti put up n scfbm aut sem snw rfjet teriuje cm+

Zey gikt yiu tnbl naiut yiur cuc9 F dnk ukgmrstnkg fo yiu eng tent nttftugm

naiut yiur gng amdnusm ems kit fkyiur bfom" aut yiur cuc9 Zent enppmkmg9

F tfjetmkmg cy `nws nkg ombt cy kistrfbs obnrm twfdm+

Dnk F jmt yiu nkitemr ammr9

F snfg+

Fo yiu gikt wnkt ti tnbl naiut ft ofkm" F gfgkt cmnk ti cnlm yiu ukdicoirtnabm

anam+

Tfkdmrfty fk emr vifdm+

F stiig amefkg tem diuktmr notmr jmttfkj cy ammr nkg sfjemg+

Fts ilny bivm+ Viuvm ammk eikmst wfte cm naiut yiursmbo fts ikby onfr tent F gi

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F gfgkt lkiw eiw F wns naiut ti stnrt tem dikomssfik rmnbby amdnusm Fvm kmvmr

tibg nkyaigy amoirm< ft ens ammk cy iwk smdrmt oir nbb cy bfom+ ]ktfb kiw+ Tem

prmssmg cutm ik tem W_ rmcitm diktrib ns teiuje sem lkmw amoirmenkg went wns

naiut ti enppmk+

F wns smxunbby nausmg ns n defbg oric wemk F wns ofvm ymnrs ibg tfbb F wns >>+ Ft

wns fk tem enkgs io cy jny diusfk+ Ft wns tmrrfabm yiu lkiw+ Ns n defbg F eng ti

mcitfiknbby omkg oir cysmbowefde tiil fts tibb+

Qndemb diubgkt ambfmvm ft+ Tem pbndmg emr rfjet enkg ik emr ciute fk uttmr

nstikfsecmkt+ Emr amnutfoub myms drystnbbfzmg ti sude n pifkt n tmnr oircmg nkg

sbfg giwk emr obnwbmss ondm wfte nssfstnkdm oric n abfkl+ F wnskt surm wei wns

eurtfkj oric n tmrrfabm pnst cm ir emr9 F biilmg nt emr wfte dikousfik nkg

dikdmrk+

Nrm yiu nbrfjet9

F nslmg+

Emr myms stfbb bidlmg ik cfkm+

Qndembwent fs ft9

Ie sirry+Fcsi sirry F `ust dnkt ambfmvm Fvm lkiwk yiu nbb tefs tfcm nkg yiuvm

ammk teriuje tem mxndt sncm tefkj ns F envm+

Zent9 Znft+ Viuvm ammk smxunbby nausmg tii9

Vmne F wns+

Tem snfg ns sem wfpmg tmnrs oric emr gmbfdntm ondm+


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Zei gfg tent ti yiu9

Cy gng+ Cy oircmr gng rntemr+ Ticmtfcms termm tfcms n gny+ Em gfgkt

pmkmtrntm aut em gfg ofkjmr cm wefbm em cnsturantmg nt tem sncm tfcm+ Ft wns

nwoub+ Em wns nbsi vmry nausfvm ns wmbb ti cy citemr" amntfkj emr up n bit"

mspmdfnbby wemk em wns grukl+ Nt tfcms F gny grmnc emnrfkj tem siukgs io ofsts

ir ipmk enkg amntfkj cy citemrs ondm+ F efgm fk tem dbismt sefvmrfkj oric omnr+

Zemk em wns gikm em wnblmg iut tem eiusm ti efs sbuts ir grfklfkj auggfms nkg F

wiubg diksibm cy citemr tem amst wny F lkmw eiw+

Cy myms wntmrmg tryfkj ti eibg ft fk aut ft*s pifktbmss+ Ft wns temrm tent iur pnfk

dikkmdtmg+ Tem fs n pnrt io cm ns F nc emr+

Zfte cy scnbb enkgs F wiubg tnp cy cucs seiubgmr nkg sny" sirry cuccy+

Fts kit onfr Lnjfsi+ Fts rmnbby kit onfr+

Tem arilm giwk nkg drfmg ik cm ns F tfjetby eujjmg emr+ Tem drfmg priousmby tfbb F

gfgkt lkiw went ti gi+

Fc sirry Qndemb+Fc si si sirrycy bivm+

Ti F ukgmrstnkg wey yiu gikt jmt wmbb wfte yiur cuc+ Viu abncm emr oir went

enppmkmg ti yiu+

Tem snfg pubbfkj andl oric cm+

Vmne F gi+ F ombt bflm sem amdncm cy citemr oric wemk F wns tefrtmmk ymnrs ibg

ay tent tfcm ft wns rntemr tii bntm+


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Wem nkjmr F eng oir Nznkgm aifbmg up wftefk nkg tem emnrt jit emnvy wfte pnfk+

Qndemb `ust bmnkmg fk dbismr nkg tiudemg cy ondm wfte aite emr siot enkgs+

Kiw F lkiw wey wm ommb si dikkmdtmg ti mnde itemr+ Zmvm ammk teriuje tem

sncm stuoo+

Tem eujjmg cm njnfk aut tefs tfcm ft bnstmg nbcist oirmvmr+ Kmvmr fk cy mktfrm

bfom envm F ombt sude bivm oric n pmrsik tiwnrgs cm" mvmr. Ft fs purm" smrmkm nkg

sfkdmrm+ F drfmg ns tefs wns kmw ti cm aut fts went F envm bikjmg oir+

Viurm ilny bivm9

F nslmg+

Fc ofkm+ Viu9

Fc jiig+ F ommb bflm n bing ens ammk rmcivmg oric cy seiubgmrs yiu lkiw+

Cm tii+

Dnk F sbmmp ivmr pbmnsm9 @ust oir tikfjet9

Io diursm yiu dnk anam+

Tem durbmg emrsmbo nkg pbndmg emr emng ik cy bnp+ F arusemg emr enfr sbiwby+

Mvmrytefkj fs jifkj ti am nbrfjet ilny+ F pricfsm+

F piutmg cy bfps nkg lfssmg emr oirmemng+ Cfkutms sem gizmg ioo nkg bntmr

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DENXWMQ OF_M

Wem kmxt cirkfkj sem wnskt temrm+ F wilm ti tem siukg io cy nbnrc ik cy

peikm nt 8?088nc aut temrm wns ki sfjet io emr+ F wns n tnlmk nandl+ F nssucmg

wm wmrm jifkj ti wirl tijmtemr aut tents kit jifkj ti enppmk kiw+ F stiig up

nkg pubbmg tem abfkgs oric cy wfkgiw nkg ft wns stfbb sbfjetby gnrl wfte n

amnutfoub irnkjm ymbbiw sukrfsm ik tem idmnk eirfzik nwnftfkj kmw jrmnt tefkjs

ti enppmk+ Biilfkj giwk F ombt sfbmkdm teriuje tem wfkgiw+ Xmipbm ìjjfkj wfte

tem wnvms cnlfkj n gmbfjetoub denkt+ Ipmkfkj tem wfkgiw tefkby F ombt n dibg

armmzm swmmp teriuje cy npnrtcmkt+ Mvmk fk Gurank iur cirkfkjs dnk am rmnbby

dibg aut tefkjs amdicm wnrc ir diib ns tfcm tfdls nwny+ F dibbmdtmg ammr aittbms

oric bnst kfjet nkg tissmg temc fk tem ruaafse afk wemk F snw n pfmdm io pnpmr

ik tem diuktmr+ Wem kitm wns naiut ofvm bfkms bikj0

Cirkfkj cy bivm. Wenklyiu vmry cude oir tem wikgmroub mvmkfkj wm senrmg

bnst kfjet+ Ft wns tem cist amnutfoub nkg jrmntmst tefkj F envm mvmr mxpmrfmkdmg

fk cy bfom nkg Fc jbng F oiukg sicmaigy bflmyiu+ Tmm yiu fk n omw eiurs.

Wefs kitm ariujet n scfbm ti cy ondm" sicmtefkj F gfgkt usm ti gi+ Cy myms

gnrtmg ti tem dbidl ik cy cfdriwnvm+ 8:088nc. ûfdl seiwmr nkg grmssmg up+ Nt

8:048nc F wns envfkj armnlonst nkg ay 85088nc F wns gikm+ 850>=nc F wns ik

tem ring nkg ay 85048nc F wns nt wirl+ Ne yms tem pris io bfvfkj kmnr yiur

wirlpbndm+ Gmbfjetoubby F jrmmtmg iur rmdmptfikfst wfte n sibfg bnujetmr+ F wns n

enppy pmrsik notmr cnky ymnrs oir rmnb ìy ens kiw mkjubomg cm+

Nkg wey yiurm si defrpy9 Zent enppmkmg bnst kfjet9


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Nslmg iur Gfwnbf dbitemg orikt wicnk+

Kitefkj ustsnyfkj embbi tents nbb+

Fc wntdefkj yiu.

F scfbmg wnblfkj tiwnrgs tem mbmvntir ti tem 7te obiir+ Mktmrfkj cy ioofdm F

ipmkmg tem wfkgiws nkg swftdemg ik cy Cnd+ F tfbtmg cy emng ik tem emngrmst

scfbfkj nt tem dmfbfkj aut ns F ariujet ft giwk rmbmnsfkj n sfje temrm sem wns+

Emr enfr wns tfmg andl nkg tefs tfcm sem eng ik abndl slfkky `mnks bflm Nznkgm+

Tibfg ymbbiw dikvmrsm Nbb#Ttnrs skmnlmrs nkg n scnbb sfzmg jrmmk W#sefrt wefde

jrnaamg emr armnst tfjetby ti sude n dnpndfty tent sem gfgkt wmnr n arn+ Zent

stiig amoirm cm wns n tmmknjmr naiut ti nsl emr gng oir cikmy si sem diubg ji ti

tem civfms wfte emr orfmkgs+ Npnrt oric emr stnrlby gfoomrmkt iutoft sicmtefkj fs

vmry usunb naiut emr+ Fts n dikousfkj sfjet fkgmmg+ Emr nurn cntdemg tem biil fk

emr myms wefde F diubg kit gmdfpemr+

Cny F dicm fk9

Tem nslmg pibftmby aut F diubg smksm sem wns kmrvius+ Tem kmvmr nslmg oir

pmrcfssfik ti mktmr cy ioofdm amoirm+

Vmne surm+

F gfgkt lkiw went F wns jifkj ti jmt emrm+ Zent fs jifkj ik fk emr cfkg notmr

bnst kfjet9 @msus" F nbsi amdncm kmrvius+

Eiw nrm yiu gifkj9


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Tem nslmg nkg F snw tent scfbm io emrs+ Wefs tfcm sem oirdmg ft rntemr tenk amfkj

knturnb nkg oric temrm F lkmw sicmtefkj wns wrikj+ Gnck Lnjfsi went envm

yiu gikm kiw+

Fc nbrfjet" aut yiu gikt smmc bflm ftwents wrikj9

Tem biilmg nt emr enkgs seiil emr emng nkg stnrtmg siaafkj< ikm jbnkdm nt cm

nkg emr jmbntfkms wmrm abiigseit nkg wntmry drystnb+ Turprfsmg F `ucpmg iut io

cy smnt ti dbism tem giir nkg lkmmbmg ondfkj emr wefbst eibgfkj tem tmkgmr enkgs

Emy went fs ft bivm9

Tem gfg emr utcist amst ti dibbmdt emrsmbo aut F pfdlmg up nkxfmty nkg trmpfgntfik+

Cy ioofdm peikm rnkj aut nbb wm gfg wns fjkirm nkg biilmg nt mnde itemr fk tem

pupfbs+ F arilm tem mcitfiknb stnrm giwk ti nkswmr ft+

Embbi+ Ki fts ofkm F dnk gi tent bmdturm kmxt wmml tmbb temc kit ti wirry naiut ft"

tenkls aym+

F dicpbmtmby oirjit F eng ti jfvm n bmdturm nt tem ]kfvmrsfty io Cfgbnkgs tefs

wmml+ Wenkl jiigkmss temy gmdfgmg ti rmsdemgubm+

F seiubg ji yiurm ausy+

Ki ki pbmnsm stny" tmbb cm wents aitemrfkj yiu+

Zfpfkj tem mxdmss tmnrs+

Viu lkiw enppmkmg bnst kfjet wfteus9

Io diursm+ F wns temrm rmcmcamr9 +


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F trfmg ti fk`mdt sicm snrdnstfd eucir aut gfgkt ofkg ft oukky" aut tem Qndemb F

lkiw wiubg envm+

Ft wns jrmnt yiu lkiw+ F kmvmr ikdm teiujet Fg cmmt sicmaigy bflm cm+

Emr scfbm rmturkmg ns sem diktfkuiusby wfpmg tmnrs oric emr bivmby ondm+

F ommb tem sncm wny+

Eiwmvmr Fvm ammk envfkj temsm eirrfabm obnse andls dicfkj fk tefdl nkg onst

sicm senrpmr tenk itemrs+ F gfgkt sbmmp nt nbb bnst kfjet F teiujet++++

Tem divmrmg emr ciute wfte emr rfjet enkg si onst F teiujet sem wns jifkj ti

pulm" fkstmng emr ondm obiigmg ikdm njnfk+

F lkiw mxndtby eiw sem ommbs+ Fvm eng temsm obnseandls" temy nrm nwoub nkg

arutnb+ Wemy dicm iut io tem suadiksdfius+ Viur cfkg fk n spbft smdikg jims andl

ti tent bfttbm aiy ir jfrb amfkj cnkenkgbmg ay tefs amnst envfkj efs wny wfte yiu"

oirdfaby lfssfkj yiu" bfdlfkj yiu bflm sicm ùfdm fdm Bibby" cnlfkj yiu sudl efs

pmkfs ir vnjfkn nkg yiurm ùst byfkj temrm nasirafkj ft+ Viur aigy amtrnys yiu

amdnusm fk n twfstmg wny yiu sicmtfcms mkìy ft nkg teus diktfkunbby fkftfntm

yiur iwk rnpm+ Zfte Qndemb nkg F fts nbb tem bivm wm lkmw+ Mvmk teiuje ft

gncnjmg us wm eng ti cnlm ft fk tefs wirbg amdnusm pmipbm gikt jfvm n obyfkj

oudl went yiuvm ammk teriuje" temy ikby dnrm naiut went yiurm gifkj kiw+ F

ommb si sirry oir emr+ Fc n juy Fc mxpmdtmg ti tiujemk up" aut bflm cm sem eng ti

gi tent wemk sem wns ùst n bfttbm jfrb+ Tem gfgkt envm tfcm ti am vubkmrnabm nkg

am pritmdtmg nkg sfttfkj kmxt ti emr F jit tent" ft wns dbmnr ns n sukky nutuck

gny fk Gurank+ F lmpt sfbmkt nkg wnftfkj oir emr ti spmnl+


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Viurm sude n jiig pmrsik Lnjfsi+ Qmnbby yiu nrm nkg Fc jrntmoub oir envfkj

yiu fk cy bfom+

Cy emnrt amjnk ti piukdm+ F lkmw sicmtefkj kmjntfvm fs ti oibbiw" tem qumstfik fs

nt went mxtmkt9

F ommb tent sncm naiut anamyiu lkiw tent+

Tem biilmg nt cm wfte jrmnt sirriw" pnfk nkg gfsnppifktcmkt bflm sem eng `ust

aurfmg emr ambivmg puppy+ Fvm kmvmr smmk emr bflm tefs stntm amoirm" si arilmk+

Went mxuamrnkt" vfvndfius Qndemb F lkiw fs sbfppfkj nwny gmmp fk n abndl oij io

kitefkjkmss amoirm cy vmry myms+

F tefkl wm seiubgkt enkj iut nkycirm+

F diubgkt ambfmvm went F `ust emnrg+ Nrm cy mnrs gmdmfvfkj cm9

Mxdusm cm9

Zm dnk am orfmkgs fk tem ioofdm aut amyikg tent F gikt wnkt us ti enkj iut bflm

wm usm ti+ Xbmnsm ukgmrstnkg+

Zent sem snfg wns armntetnlfkj nkg F ombt n stna fk cy sticnde+ F lkmw sem wns

jifkj ti sny sicmtefkj ioo" cnyam naiut emr gfstnkt oncfby" aut kitefkj prmpnrmg

cm oir tefs+ Cy bfps gry up fkstnktby bflm F jit bist fk tem Tnenrn+ Tbiwby F pubbmg

cy enkg nwny oric emrs+

Aut wey9

Fk n qunjcfrm io nkjmr nkg dikousfik cy demst emntmg up nkg tem myms amjnk ti

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Fts kit tent yiu gfg sicmtefkj wrikj" fts `ust tent++++

Tny ft+ Wmbb cm tem trute+

Viurm n purm rmcfkgmr io went F wmkt teriuje" n rmobmdtfik nbcist" F gikt tefkl

tents jiig oir cm< F gikt wnkt ti ondm tent njnfk+

Cmnkfkj yiu gikt wnkt ti ondm cm" tem ujby trute+ Ti yiurm jifkj ti teriw

nwny iur orfmkgsefp iut io tem oudlfkj wfkgiw nbb amdnusm Fc eikmst naiut cy

pnst" iur pnst" fs tent ft.9

Ki fts `ust++++

Wemk went tem oudl Qnde.

Wefs abfzznrg io rnjm ens ti am diktnfkmg amoirm F sny nkg gi sicmtefkj Fbb

rmjrmt+ F jit up" snt giwk amefkg cy gmsl nkg obfppmg ofbms ik cy gmsl oir wirl F

cust gi tigny+

Jmt iut io cy ioofdm+

Lnjfsi pbmnsm++++

@ust jmt tem oudl iut.+

Bfps trmcabmg fk afttmrkmss+

Fcsi sirry bivm+

Tem turkmg emr andl wnblfkj iut+

Eiw gfg tefs enppmk9 F wns teriwk iut bflm n pfmdm io trnse ay n pmrsik wei

rmnbby ukgmrstiig cm+ F jrnaamg tem dnr lmys oric tem gmsl nkg andlpndl nkg


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wns ik cy wny ti ariig fk cy dnvm+ Xnssfkj tem rmdmptfikfst ik cy wny iut F

tibg emr ti dnkdmb mvmrytefkj oir ticirriw" aut dbmnrby tem gucanss gfgkt bfstmk

ti cm+

Aut Lnjfsi temy++++

Oudl ioo ontty.+

F ombt pmipbms myms dnrvfkj ik tem andl io cy emng aut gfgkt jfvm n seft+

DENXWMQ TFU

]pik mxftfkj tem cusmuc F mvmrytefkj wns amfkj aburry bflm emnvy rnfk piurfkj

nkg jbfgfkj giwk tem dnr wfkgsefmbg+ Armntefkj amdncm n cfssfik" mspmdfnbby

wemk Fc gifkj ft oric cy terint+ Ik tem wny ti cy dnr F stnrtmg smmfkj giuabm

io mvmrytefkj+ Jmttfkj fk F sbnccmg tem giir nkg embg ik tem stmmrfkj wemmb oir

gmnr bfom+ F wns ik rmnb nutipfbit nkg gfstrnujet" mvmk oirjit eiw ti grfvm fk tent

fkstnkt aut oiukg cysmbo fk n dnr ik tem ring civfkj+ F gikt rmcmcamr tem

ndtunb grfvfkj aut F gi rmcmcamr ommbfkj tmnrs swmmpfkj giwk cy bngmk ondm nkg

gifkj cy utcist amst ti biil kircnb+ Nrrfvfkj nt cy npnrtcmkt F ùst termw

cysmbo ik tem amg+ Wem suk sefkfkj teriuje cy abfkg seuttmr durtnfk fs rmvibtfkj107=pc stfbb F gfgkt wnkt

ti bmnvm cy npnrtcmkt ir cy amg+ N eurrfdnkm io nkjmr" pnfk" afttmrkmss nkg

sirriw amdncm cm< F envm kmvmr ombt nkytefkj bflm tefs amoirm" ft wns si piwmrfkj

ft wmfjemg cm giwk+ Ft fs emrm n drudfnb gmdfsfik wns cngm" n gmdfsfik wefde

wiubg fcpndt tem rmst io cy bfom+ F jnvm up+ F jnvm io tryfkj ti am sicmaigy Fc

kit+ Xrmtmkgfkj" byfkj" nkg bnujefkj wemk tefkjs nrmkt oukky+ Fvm eng ft+Fc

gikm+ F swftdemg ioo cy peikm nkg ùst gfgkt dnrm+ Oudl went Qndemb tefkls

naiut wirl" sems n twi pfmdm weirm+ @iseun dnk ji ti embb rmnbby wm gikt lkiw

mnde itemr wmbb nkywny nkg em ens ki moomdt fk fk cy bfom" nkg cy si#dnbbmg

oncfby9 Bmtsùst sny temyrm kik#mxfstmkt+

Wermm gnys bntmr ik Orfgny cirkfkj F stfbb gfgkt jfvm n oudl+ Zemtemr npnrtemfg

ens rmturkmg nkg weftm pmipbm nrm ik tem strmmts aurkfkj abndls nbfvm cnttmrmg

kit ti cm+ F grnjjmg cysmbo ti tem diude nkg suromg teriuje termm denkkmbs"

Kfdlmbigmik" Dnrtiik Kmtwirl nkg Aiicmrnkj+ Oukky ns temy wemrm F diubgkt

arfkj cysmbo ti scfbm bmt nbikm bnuje+ Ft wns kit tem 14 ymnr ibg Lnjfsi wntdefkj

dnrtiiks rntemr ft wns Lnjfsi tem ? ymnr ibg aiy+ Oir tem vmry ofrst tfcm fk cy bfom

F wns fk tiude wfte bfttbm aiys spfrft aut ft wns tii bntm+ Wem gncnjm wns gikm

bikj nji+

Mvmry tfcm tem teiujets io tent sbut Qndemb nppmnrmg F ombt Engms prmsmkdm" cy

teiujets smjumg ti Nznkgm+ Zns F wrikj fk lfbbfkj emr9 Ki+ Tem eng ft dicfkj+ F


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gfgkt ommb eukjry nt nbb oir tem pnst twi gnys nkg teus ntm kitefkj+ Cy smxunb

grfvm wns jikm si F gfgkt `mrl ioo kir gfg F seiwmr+ F smkt n tmxt cmssnjm ti tem

Arftfse aftde nkg tibg emr Fc tnlfkj n cikte bikj bmnvm" fccmgfntmby notmr ft

wmkt teriuje F turkmg tem peikm ioo nkg griwkmg fk cy nayss io gnrlkmss+ F

teiujet naiut nbb tem tfcm F spmkt wfte emr" dnrfkj" bivfkj nkg sfcpby

mcitfiknbby kurturfkj emr+ Obfp tem difk F eng n sknlm tent mnsfby turkmg njnfkst

cm+ Diksucmg wfte entfkj emr mvmry amfkj temrms n lkidl ik tem giir+ Ft amttmr

kit am weic F tefkl ft fs+

Lnjfsi.9

Viuvm jittn am lfggfkj cm+ Wem aftde ens jit sicm kmrvm+ Zemrm gims sem jmt

tem bnafn cnìrn ti mvmk sny cy kncm9

Lnjfsi nrm yiu fk temrm9 Xbmnsm F ùst wnkt us ti tnblFc wirrfmg naiut yiu9

Lnjfsi pbmnsm ipmk up9

F wnktmg emr ti stnkg temrm tfbb sem bmot aut oir sicm stupfg rmtnrgmg rmnsik

njnfkst mvmry fkde io cy amfkj F gmdfgmg ti ipmk tem giir oir tem pmrsik wei

amtrnymg cm+ F trfmg cy amst ti fjkirm aut tem ommbfkj fs tii strikj+ ûfdlby F jit

up fk cy stfklfkj swmnty nrcpfts nkg anbbs smbo ti ipmk tem giir+

Zent tem oudl fs tefs nbb naiut9

F curcurmg ti cysmbo+

Zemk ukbidlfkj nkg pubbfkj tem pnkmb tiwnrgs cm F mxpmdtmg ti smm tem gmbfjet

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Zent gi yiu wnkt9

Zmbb+++nrm yiu ilny9

Fc ofkm+ Enppy9

F jit sfdl fk mvmry smdikg io emr prmsmkdm+

Dnk F dicm fk pbmnsm+++pbmnsm9

Njnfkst mvmrytefkj fk cm ft ombb fkti cy mnr grucs njnfk+

Xbny nbikj+

Ilny cnlm ft qufdl+

Tmmfkj tent scfbm io emrs eng ki moomdt ik cm bflm n pfcpbm ondm kmrg efttfkj ik n

cigmb+ Ttmppfkj fkti cy gnrl urank oirmst sem biilmg nriukg fk sfbmkt surprfsm+

Nbb sem snw wns gnrlkmss nkg bfttmr mvmrywemrm nbikj wfte n didlrinde ir twi+

Viurm bfvfkj wmbb F smm+

Fjkirfkj tem airfkj snrdnsc F stnrmg nt emr kmdl oir n omw smdikgs temk rmturkmg

ti emr ondm+

Tny went yiu envm ti sny nkg jmt tem oudl iut+

Fc sirry Lnjfsi+ F gfgkt cmnk ti eurt yiu pbmnsm ambfmvm cm+ F envm ti am

eikmst wfte yiu rntemr tenk bfm+

F seut cy myms tfjet ruaafkj tem mym bfgs kit lkiwfkj went ti gi wfte emr+

Ipmkfkj temc nkg emr stnkgfkj temrm cy ondfnb cusdbms rmbnxmg+ N jrfk ofjetfkj

ti armnl iut+ F tiggbmg pnssmg emr nkg stiig kmnr tem bnrjm squnrm abndl


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nbucfkfuc orncmg wfkgiw fk tem biukjm wfte n oubb ukgfsturamg vfmw io tem

Fkgfnk Idmnk+ Fts Zfkgy+ Znvms pnrtfmg up n stirc n jfot oir suromrs

mvmrywemrm+ F tefkl @ise wfbb bmnvm mnrby oric wirl `ust ti dntde n diupbm+

Tny sicmtefkj+ Wem sfbmkdm fs lfbbfkj cm+

Ft*s ilny+

Nrm yiu surm9

Vmne+ F tefkl F wns vmry enrse nkg temrmoirm ivmrrmndtmg+

Qmnbby9

Vmne+

Ti wmrmdiib temk9

Wemrm wns sude dikdmrk fk emr myms F diubg nbcist scmbb ft+

Io diursm. F dnkt stny cng nt yiu oirmvmr+

F scfbmg ti nssurm emr+

Tem wnblmg ti cm nkg tfjetby eujjmg mnde itemrs tirsi" eiwmvmr F wns stfbb

nkjry+

F bivm yiu ilny+

Tem snfg ruaafkj cy andl+

F bivm yiu tii+

F jittn ji cy gng fs dicfkj ivmr+


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Wents jrmnt. Wmbb efc F snfg ef+

Tem ipmkmg tem giir ik emr wny iut+++

Qndemb9

Vmne9

Jiigaym+

Gugm yiurm stfbb jifkj ti smm cm nt wirl+

Tem snfg puzzbmg nkg scfbfkj+

Notmr seuttfkj tem giir n jrmnt aiubgmr bfotmg ioo cy seiubgmrs nkg fk cy spfrft+

Ti cude tent F wns enppy nkg auiynkt+ Tfkdm tem stntm io cy npnrtcmkt gfg kit

rmobmdt cy kmw oiukg ommbfkjs F gfg n cnssfvm dbmnkfkj+ F wns nbnrcmg ay tem

nciukt io trnse F surriukgmg cysmbo wfte yiu wiubg tefkl F wns stnyfkj fk n

Gurank Tibfg Znstm rmousm gucp+ Fk dbmnkfkj sicmtefkj dicm iut io cm" rmbmnsm

bflm F wns fcprfsikmg" am tent ns ft fs F scmbbmg bflm n oudlfkj puabfd tifbmt nt n

tnxf rnkl+ F ombt si jiig F wnktmg ti rmbmnsm tefs enppfkmss ay jifkj dbuaafkj aut

ofrst F envm ti rmcivm temsm oiub#scmbbfkj dbitems+ N teiriuje seiwmr tefs tfcm+ N

jiig 18 cfkutms+ Notmrwnrgs F prmssmg cy diib purm weftm sefrt nkg nkitemr

gfoomrmkt pnfr io Bmvfs abum nkg n abndl pnfr io dikvmrsm nbb#stnrs+ F gmspfsm amfkj

smrfius ik cy ommt+

Fk n bntm oir wirl typm io mkmrjy F jrnaamg cy peikm ti dnbb @ise aut ik smdikg

teiujet F denkjmg cy cfkg+ F wns gmtmrcfkmg ti drmntm cy iwk ouk+ F grivm ti

tem Abnzm Kfjetdbuant Jbmkwiig" qunfkt aut diib Jbmkwiig+ Ik nrrfvnb ft


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smmcmg mvmryaigy lkmw mnde itemr" jriups io orfmkgs" aiyorfmkgs" jfrborfmkgs" eit

defdls" ujby defdls jriupfkj tijmtemr oir suppirt ti cfkfcfzm mcanrrnsscmkt io

amfkj uknttrndtfvm+ Cfkfslfrts ki pnktfms" tfjet seirts rmsmcabfkj ukgmrwmnr

nddmktuntfkj tefjes aut cistby tem nss ir vnjfkn fo afj mkiuje+ Wefs lfkg io

sdmkm usunbby teriws cm ioo nkg F wiubg envm jittmk fkti n wefrbwfkg io pnkfd

nkg nkxfmty nttndls+ Fkstmng Fc nbfvm nkg drmntfvm+ F jrmmtmg pilmg ondmg dnr

junrg wfte kifsm pucpfkj ntewnrt tem strmmt typfdnb io Gurank+ F ìfkmg tem

scnbb qumum" pnfg cy Q58+88 nkg jit fk+

Wefs fs bftmrnbby cy smdikg mxpmrfmkdm wemk ft dicms ti dbuaafkj+ F wns

onsdfkntmg ay tem bfjets< tem eiusm cusfd pbnymg ay tem G@ weism gmcfjig stntus

jfvmk ti efc ay teism fk nttmkgnkdm cngm tem mxpmrfmkdm mvmr cirm piwmroub+

Xmipbm wmrm ùst gnkdfkj nkg tnblfkj wefbst fktixfdntmg gum ti nbdieib sicm cirm

tenk itemrs+ F wmkt ti tem anr nrmn jmttfkj fk tem ciig swfkj io tefkjs nkg fk

budl temrms nk mcpty smnt dbism ti tem diuktmr+ F irgmrmg nk Ncstmb Bnjmr nkg

ùst snt temrm grfklfkj nwny nkg typfdnb io cm gfgkt kitfdm n jriup io jfrbs

gnkdfkj naiut twi stmps nwny+ Airmg io stnrfkj nt pifsik aittbms amefkg tem

anrcnk F spuk cy denfr enbo dfrdbm ondfkj tem gnkdfkj driwg+ Wermm eit defdls

snt fk nk mbmvntmg smdbugmg nrmn nkg ikm io temc dnujet cy nttmktfik" fk ondt wm

aite gfg" iur myms bidlmg oir naiut termm smdikgs teriuje tem scily auzzfkj

driwg+

Gikt oudl tefs up+

Kiw gi F npprinde emr mvmk teiuje sems wfte emr orfmkgs9 Oudl ki+ Viuvm jit

kit denkdm cntm+ Wwmkty cfkutms pnssmg F wns gikm wfte cy ofrst aittbm nkg


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nslmg tem anrcnk oir n smdikg riukg" aut tefs tfcm suoomrfkj oric ndutm

gm`mdtfik gfgkt ondm tem driwg" `ust tem anr nkg cy ammr aittbm spfkkfkj ft sbiwby

ik fts ansm fk diktmcpbntfik+ Zey tem oudl gfg F dicm emrm9 Zemk ommbfkjs io

orustrntfik amjnk mntfkj nwny fk cm bflm cnjjits ik dnrdnss F jit n tnp ik cy

rfjet seiubgmr+ Ki wny.

Gi yiu envm dfjnrmttms9

Tem nslmg+

Zmbb F gikt envm nky aut fo F sny ki sems jikm+ Wemyrm mvmk amttmr biilfkj cmk

ti cy bmot nkg rfjet griibfkj ivmr emr aut sem pfdlmg cm+

Am scnrt Lnjfsi+

Ki aut F dnk auy sicm oir yiu fo tents diib9

Ie ilny tenklstents si kfdm io yiu+

F nslmg tem anrcnk ti jmt n pndl io 18s Ttuyvmsnkt oir tem bngy+ Enkgfkj temc

ti emr nkg sem tenklmg cm ikdm cirm+ Tems dutm nkg amnutfoub+ N tfjet gmkfc

cfkfslfrt wfte efje emmbmg abndl strnppmg seims wefde nrtfdubntmg emr sciite

obnwbmss ukstnfkmg bmjs" F fcnjfkmg cysmbo mntfkj ioo temc+ Mvmry cnk fk tem

dbua fs biilfkj nt iur gfrmdtfik+ F dnkt abncm temc tefs defdl fs scilfkj eit. Emr

bfjet dnrncmb slfk embps emr fk nky dnsm nkg cnlms emr stnkg iut ncikj emr

orfmkgs nkg dicpmtftirs+ Wem seirt arukmttm wmnvm fs dikvfkdfkj nkg suftmg emr

pmromdtby+ Wem cusfd denkjmg ti went fs dnbbmg gmmp eiusm nkg tem vfam grippmg

ns pmipbm `ust wmkt nbikj wfte tem siitefkj siukgs+


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Ziubg yiu bflm ti `ifk us nt iur tnabm9 Fts tem bmnst F diubg gi

Fts diib F gikt wnkt ti fkvngm yiur spndm ir nkytefkj+

Ie dicm ik+++ftbb am ouk+

Ilny surm wey kit F jumss

Tem rmndemg emr enkg iut ti cm" F embg nkg sem knvfjntmg us teriuje tem driwg+

Notmr wnblfkj teriuje tem gmksm eucnkfstfd ause wm wnblmg n omw obfjets io

stnfrs wm nrrfvmg nt iur gmstfkntfik+ Mvmk fk mkvfrikcmkts sude ns temsm sidfnb

strntfofdntfik fs fkmvftnabm+ Weism gnkdfkj ambiw us nrm tem diccikmrs ir tem

envm kits wefbm teism up emrm nrm tem mbftm nkg noobumkt fk cist dnsms+ Nk B#

senpmg skiw weftm bmntemr auttikmg diude snt twi defdls+ Abndl obuooy ruj nkg

squnrm jbnss tnabm ngirkmg wfte mxpmksfvm wfkm" wefslfms nkg spfrfts ngirkmg

tem cfggbm+ Nfr#dikgftfikmg" twi oubb efje gmofkftfik W_ smts seiwfkj urank

cusfd denkkmbs pbnstmrmg tem sfgm wnbb ik tem bmot+

Bngfms wm envm n vfsftir.

Wemy bfotmg temfr emngs skirtfkj n weftm piwgmry suastnkdm bfkmg ik tem tnabm+

@msus Cnry nkg @ismpe+ Zent envm F jittmk cysmbo fkti9 Tmmfkj cm temy wmrmkt

stnrtbmg+ Wemy wiubgkt envm dnrmg+ Wemy skirtmg went jit bmot amefkg fk tem

kistrfbs nkg dbmnrmg nky bmot nriukg tem kism+

Jfrbs tefs fs+++

Lnjfsi+

Lnjfsi+ Dutm kncm went fs tent Titei9


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Fts Wswnkn ndtunbby+

Kfdm+ Xbmnsm sft nkg rmbnx defbnx wentmvmr+

Tnfg ikm io temc+

Wenkls+

Fc Buynkgn ay tem wny tents Dfkgy nkg Ncnebm+

Eiw yiurm gifkj juys9

Zmrm jiig emyjbng yiu diubg `ifk us+

Tnfg Ncnebm+

Viu ilny9 Viu biil tmksm+

Tirry fts `ust tent Fvm kmvmr smmk nkyaigy gi tefs amoirm9

Zent9 Dilm9

Vmne+

Ofrst tfcm oir mvmrytefkj bivm+

Tnfg Dfkgy+

Ti went gi yiu gi oir n bfvfkj9

Ncnebms turk+

Fc nk nrt durntir nt tem Gurank Fkstftutm io Nrt +

Wents kfdm+


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Efje Ncnebm ukfcprmssmg+

Fts nbrfjet F mk`iy ft+ Wem bmdturms nkg cmmtfkj kmw pmipbm fts jrmnt+

Buynkgn fs tem cist qufmt emrm kiw+ Envfkj fksfstmg F dicm emrm sem wiubg am

tem ikm onoofkj naiut+ Emr myms ofxmg ik cfkm bflm n amnst obfrtfkj wfte fts prmy fk

n jmsturm io gicfknkdm nkg piwmr< dicm ti tefkl io ft sems sfzfkj cm up+

Notmr nk eiur io tnblfkj nkg grfklfkj Fc fktixfdntmg nkg si fs cy kmw oiukg

gntm+ Wem G@ rmturkmg ti pucpfkj jrmnt eiusm cusfd+ Dfkgy nkg Ncnebm stiig

up gnkdfkj efje nkg grukl+ Nbb tem tmksfik obusemg iut io cy systmc nkg

mk`iyfkj tem cicmkt+ Wem twi gruj nggfdts wnblmg giwkstnfrs ti tem gnkdm obiir

nkg rmnbby seiil temfr nssms+ Cmk dfrdbmg temc bflm senrls surriukgfkj n jrmnt

snrgfkm seinb+ F oiukg ft rntemr dicfdnb deudlmg n scnbb bnuje+

Zents oukky9

Nslmg Buynkgn amncfkj n scfbm ns sem tujs enfr amefkg emr rfjet mnr+

Viu smm Dfkgy nkg Ncnebm gnkdfkj ivmr temrm9

Vmne9

Biilnriukg temc" spmdfofdnbby tem cmk+

Aut temyrm nbb gnkdfkj envfkj n jiig tfcm wents wrikj wfte tent9

Dicm sft kmxt ti cm Fbb seiw yiu went F cmnk+

Zmrm aite sey teus drmntfkj tefs nwlwnrg vnduuc io spndm amtwmmk us+ Zm eng

n pnkirncfd vfmw io tem mktfrm dbua" wei fs gifkj went wfte weic+ Buynkgn


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wnblmg emr ofkm smbo ivmr nkg snt kmxt ti cm+ Wem dnrncmb busdfius sfbly sciite

tefjes jbfstmkfkj nkg jbnkdfkj nt temc F wns si mrmdt bflm n tmmknjmrs ofrst vfmw

nt pirk+ Tem jnvm cm n vfam nkg nurn io n pmrsik wei trusts cm+ Cmk stfbb enwl

mymfkj us aut wfte tem embp io nbdieib F rmnbby gfgkt jfvm n oudl" fo nkytefkj F

wnktmg ti seiw ioo nkg si F pbndmg cy rfjet enkg ik emr bmot tefje wfte nasibutm

dikofgmkdm+ Tem gfgkt rmcivm ft ir snfg sicmtefkj rntemr sem wns fktmkt ik

bfstmkfkj ti went F envm ti sny+

Biil nt yiur orfmkgs ilny+

Ilny Fc biilfkj+

Wemrm nrm ofvm juys gnkdfkj nriukg temc+ Wemyrm wfte temfr gntms aut temy bmot

temc ti gnkdm wfte Dfkgy nkg Ncnebm+ Wemrm yiu smm9

Ie ymne F smm temc.

Kiw temyrm kit fktmrmstmg fk temfr jfrborfmkgs+

Zent gi yiu cmnk9

Fo yiu wntde temc oir n omw smdikgs yiu wfbb kitfdm tent temy wfbb jbnkdm nt

Dfkgy nkg Ncnebm n bit mvmk teiuje temyrm wfte temfr pnrtkmrs+ Wemrms kitefkj

smxfmr tenk twi eit defdls gnkdfkj wfte mnde itemr+ Viur orfmkgs lkiw tefs nkg

sicm io temsm juys wfbb gftde temfr gntms nkg civm fk ti gnkdm wfte temc aite ir

ikm io temc+ N ikm kfjet stnkg wfbb oibbiw suft+ Fts nbb naiut smx+ Wents wey

wmrm nbb emrm+ Envm n jiig tfcm tippmg wfte smx+

Ziw F gfgkt smm ft bflm tent aut biilfkj nt ft kiw fts trum+


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Fts eiw wm tefkl+ Mvmry cnk emrm fs n pise pmrvmrt+

Enenen.+

Zent fs ft9 Gfg cy spmmde airm yiu9

Ki sirry fts `ust tent+++

Zent9 Wefs fs mcanrrnssfkj kiw+

Viurm n kmrg" Enenen.

Zmbb tenkl yiu vmry cude oir amfkj si npprmdfntfvm.

Tmrfiusby wei tefkls tent lfkgn stuoo fk sude n pbndm Enenen.. Aut fts dutm

teiuje+

Tem wns bnujefkj si cude emr myms amjnk ti wntmr+ Wfdlbfkj emr tfbb sem bnujemg

si cude tent pmipbm wmrm turkfkj emngs fkdbugfkj tem aiukdmr junrgfkj iur _FX

nrmn+

Ilny ilny yiurm kit n kmrg sirry..

Zentmvmr cnk+

F snfg fk gfssntfsondtfik+

Wem cusfds jrmnt wnkt ti gnkdm9

Gi F envm n deifdm9

Ki dicm ik.


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Tem jrnaamg cy enkg nkg pubbmg cm oric cy smnt fk n eurry+ Tem jufgmg cm

teriuje tem gnkdfkj driwg ikdm njnfk nkg oiukg n gmdmkt spit+ Fc iabfvfius ti

weism wntdefkj" `ust mk`iyfkj cysmbo wfte tefs eit orfmkgby defdl+ Ns sem wns

ommbfkj tem cusfd rukkfkj teriuje emr aigy sem mktmrmg n stntm io trnkdm+ Tem

stnrmg nt cm bustoubby nkg tiil ik n gfoomrmkt pmrsikn+ Zm wmkt oric tefs

bnujefkj dutm smcf rmsmrvmg defdl ti n knsty sbut wfte n spndm io = cfkutms nkg F

bivmg mvmry smdikg io ft+

Tem turkmg emr aigy jrfkgfkj emr nss njnfkst cy anbbs nkg gfdl" sem ombt cy stfdl

jmttfkj tefdl nkg stfoo aut gfgkt cfkg+ Weism nriukg us jnwlfkj wnktfkj n pfmdm

io emr nkg wfte tem nttmktfik sem bflmg ft mvmk cirm+ Xbnyfkj nbikj F jrnaamg emr

nss demmls nkg gifkj n ritntfkj civmcmkt cfcfdlfkj nknb smx wefbst cy tirsi

wns civfkj reytecfdnbby ti tem cusfd nkg si fs sem+ Tems cfkm+ Kiw ondm ti ondm

F embg emr ntebmtfd ofjurm wefbm sems ruaafkj emr vnjfkn njnfkst cy gfdl nbb fk

gnkdfkj ndtfik+ Fts wmt" nddirgfkj ti tem obufg ik cy fkgmx ofkjmr notmr fksmrtfkj

ft andl nkg oirte+ Bmnkfkj oirwnrg n wefspmr fk cy mnr+++

Bmts ofkfse tefs nt yiur pbndm+

F kiggmg fk njrmmcmkt nkg embg emr enkg fktmrbidlfkj iur ofkjmrs+

Znft bmt cm sny jiigaym ti cy orfmkgs ofrst+

Dnbb cm.

Dfkgy snfg ti Buynkgn+

Kfdm cmmtfkj yiu Lnjfsi Fc surm wmbb smm mnde itemr siik+


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Vmne io diursm tnlm dnrm io yiursmbvms juys+

Zfte tent snfg wm wmrm iut aut gfgkt nktfdfpntmtem dibg wmntemr iutsfgm fts

mkiuje ti turk us ioo bftmrnbby+ Ombbiw dbuaamrs ik temfr gntms skujjbfkj kmxt ti

mnde itemr eipfkj temy wiubg gi tem sncm tefkj ik amg bntmr+ Fdy wfkg sbnppmg

iur ondms fk nbb gfrmdtfiks+ Zm wnblmg ns onst ns wm diubg ti cy dnr nkg ikdm wm

jit fk wm wmrm sefvmrfkj+ F stnrtmg tem fjkftfik nkg turkmg ik tem emntmr onk+

Wenkls fts si oudlfkj rmnbby dibg+

Ki priabmc+ ]koirtukntmby fts dibgmr wemrm wmrmjifkj+

Zemrm gi yiu bfvm9+

Nt tem amndeorikt+

Ie jig+

F drndlmg n scnbb bnuje+

Gikt wirry F envm emntmrs yiu seiubg envm smmk yiur ondm+

F cngm n orfmkg fk tem cist ukmxpmdtmg wny tikfjet" aut fs sem n orfmkg9 Ik iur

wny wm tnblmg cirm naiut cusfd" emr orfmkgs" cy oncfby nkg emrs+ ]pik nrrfvnb

nt cy pbndm sem smmcmg fcprmssmg+

Qmnbby kfdm pbndm yiu envm emrm" jrmnt vfmws ns wmbb. Amfkj nk nrt durntir pnys

wmbb F smm+

F nbsi gi bmdturms ik tem sfgm wefde arfkjs fk cirm si+++

Ft biils jrmnt+


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Wenkl yiu vmry cude+ Xbmnsm envm n smnt dnk F jmt sicm ammr9 F envm Ncstmb

nkg Jufkkmss+

Ncstmb wfbb gi tenkls+

Jifkj ti tem lftdemk F ombt ukoncfbfnr" tent afznrrm cmbnkdeibfd nurn wemk F

bidlmg cysmbo fk rmturkmg aut tefs tfcm ft wns ki bikjmr n ommbfkj+

Zey fs tefs wicnk emrm9 Tem seiubg kit am emrm+

Fts si trnkspnrmkt ns fo sicmaigy fs fk tem lftdemk uttmrfkj temsm wirgs ti cm+ F

fjkirmg nkg turkmg cy nttmktfik ti Buynkgn+

Wemrm yiu ji Buynkgn+

Xbmnsm dnbb cm Bubu+

Zentmvmr cnlms yiu enppy bivm +

Demmrs+

F wntdemg emr tnlm tem ofrst jubp+ Fk nk fkstnkt n obnse io Qndemb dncm amoirm cy

myms+ Tem fs sfttfkj emrm mk`iyfkj emrsmbo scfbfkj nt cm+

Embbi nkyaigy eicm9

Ie sirry Bubu cy cfkg wns mbsmwemrm+

Mvfgmktby+ Nc F tent airfkj9

Ki ki yiurm kit Fc rmnbby sirry F `ust gi tent nt tfcms" fts eiw F nc rmnbby+

Ijbfkj cm+


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Zent9

F nslmg+

Viurm gfoomrmkt+Fvm kmvmr cmt nky juy bflm yiu+

Vmne rfjet+

Ki Fc smrfius cist wiubg wnkt ti tnlm cy slfrt ioo rfjet kiw aut kit yiu+

Viurm fktmrmstmg fk lkiwfkj cm F bflm tent+

Fc enppy ti emnr tent+ Fc tefrsty cnk Fbb ji jmt sicm wntmr+

Xbndfkj cy jbnss ukgmr tem rukkfkj tnp emr wnrc enkg jbfgfkj fk cy pnkts

cnssnjfkj cy gfdl+

Bflm tent9

Zefspmrfkj fk cy mnr+

Mrmdt aut dikousmg+ Fkstmng io rfppfkj emr dbitems ioo nkg gifkj tem ausfkmss F

wns gfsjustmg nkg frrftntmg ay went sem wns gifkj+

Gikt.+

Ttrfdt sdeiib emngcnstmr tikm+

Zents wrikj9 F teiujet+++

Viu teiujet wrikj Fc nornfg+

Aut nt tem dbua yiu wmrm nbb ivmr cm F bmt yiu tiude cy prfvntms.

F lkiw nkg Fc jrntmoub+


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Mxdusm cm9

Bfstmk+F gikt bflm amfkj tiudemg mvmk ay eit defdls bflm yiu+

Zent9 Viurm jny+

Viu ombt cy gfdl ji enrg wemk yiu tiudemg ft+ F wns nbb ivmr yiu nt tem dbua nkg

yiu envm fktuftfik went gi yiu tefkl9

Ilny yiurm strnfjet aut stfbb F gikt jmt ft+

Fts dicpbfdntmg+ Ti yiu wnkt ti sbmmp ivmr ir seiubg F dnbb yiu n dna9

Zmbb+++Fc emrm si F cust ns wmbb lkidl tem kfjet ioo wfte yiu F jumss+

Dikousfik nkg gfscny wfte spfdms io mcanrrnsscmkt wmfjemg emnvy ik cy ondm+

Fts ammk nk nwlwnrg sftuntfik oir emr kit oir cm+ Fk tiudefkj cm tem cfkg

rmturkmg ti wemk F wns yiukj+ Wem cikstmr diusfk cnlfkj cm demw ik efs

jmkftnbfn+ ]koirtukntmby oir swmmt knsty Buynkgn cy aigy drfkjmg wemk sem gfg

tent nkg F wns kit jifkj ti envm ft+ Emr amnutfoub aigy bmot tem lftdemk jifkj tem

biukjm nkg tem vifdm spilm ti cm njnfk dbmnr nkg drfsp" ameibg F wns cngm ti

bfstmk+ F swnc fk gfsnssidfntfik< tem cirm F oiujet tem cirm F wns amfkj

swnbbiwmg fk tem nayss io psydeibijfdnb pmrpbmxfty+ Obintfkj ti tem biukjm F snt

giwk cy aigy bngmk wfte mcitfiknb nknrdey tent fs rnjfkj wftefk+ Zent fs tefs9

Nrm yiu nbrfjet9 Viu biil bflm `ust smmk n jeist ir sicmtefkj+

Jmt iut+

Mxdusm cm9


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