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AGENCY AND SOCIAL IDENTITY: RESISTANCE AMONG PAKEHA
NEW ZEALAND MOTHERS
Carol Harrington
Department of Political Science, Central European University, Nador u. 9, H-1051, Budapest, Hungary
Synopsis — This paper is based in analysis of texts of interviews with 21 urban Pakeha mothers of youngchildren. It argues that the Pakeha mother identity, understood as the point of suture between subjectivityand social processes of representation [Hall, Stuart (1996a). Who needs identity? In: Stuart Hall & Paul duGay (Eds.), Questions of cultural identity (pp. 1–17). London: Sage], is formed in processes of mastery,discourses of difference and self-surveillance. The author argues that the interplay of identity and reg-ulation is internally contradictory because identification and reflexive guilt are simultaneous processes andreflexivity introduces the possibility of resistance. She analyses the resistant talk of the respondents andshows that in the texts of their interviews, they both redefine and resist the category of Pakeha mother.Guilt is a persistent theme in resistant talk, and while guilt is a mechanism of self-surveillance, its verynature is reflexive, thus creating a certain distance from the identity category and creating space forsubjective resistance. D 2002 Elsevier Science Ltd. All rights reserved.
The aim of this paper is to explore processes of iden-
tification and resistance based in my analysis of texts
of interviews with 21 urban Pakeha (New Zealand
white) mothers. I will argue that these texts show the
construction of amother identity occurring in: mastery,
discourses of difference and self-surveillance. How-
ever, the interplay between identity and regulation was
internally contradictory since reflexive processes of
resistancemade it possible for these women to redefine
some of the content of the category mother. Before
turning to this analysis, I introduce the concept of
reflexivity as simultaneous with identification and as
allowing us to avoid an individual/social binary that
may lead to a conception of motherhood as an ‘im-
posed identity’ that women must liberate their ‘true
selves’ from. But firstly, I will clarify my use of the
term ‘identity’ in relation to the ‘category of mother’.
Identity is a concept that is used in various ways in
academic discourse and everyday speech. For the
purposes of this paper I will draw a distinction between
two closely related relevant meanings and explain my
concern with one of these meanings in particular. The
first meaning I want to draw attention to is the way
identity can be looked at as the abstract form of a
symbolically constructed group; for example, ‘les-
bians’, ‘mothers’, ‘men’, ‘the Irish’, ‘the Jews’ and
so forth. Such categories are symbolically defined as
including people who share certain properties and
excluding people who lack certain properties. For
example, one cannot be a man and a mother, but one
can be Irish and amother or Jewish and amother, while
to be lesbian and a mother would be disputed by some
and argued for by others. According to this meaning of
identity, we are not concerned with actual people
identifying with these categories or not, but with the
categories some of us might identify with if we agree
that we share those properties.
But my concern in this paper is not to describe the
processes by which the category of mother is symboli-
cally constructed in the New Zealand context. Rather,
my concern is to analyse some of the ways in which
women identify with this category. This brings us to a
second meaning of identity, which is employed by
Hall (1996a). Identity, for Hall is not the abstract
category but a property of people, which is formed
by their identification with social categories. He
describes identity as the point of ‘suture’ between
the subjective and social processes of representation.
the meeting point, the point of suture, between on
the one hand the discourses and practices which
attempt to ‘interpellate’, speak to us or hail us into
place as social subjects of particular discourses, and
on the other hand, the processes which produce
subjectivities, which construct us as subjects which
can be ‘spoken’. Identities are thus points of tem-
porary attachment to the subject positions which
discursive practices construct for us . . .. They are
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the result of a successful articulation or ‘chaining’
of the subject into the flow of discourse. (Hall,
1996a, pp. 5–6)
In this conceptualisation identity is a process
rather than singular (people may identify with several
categories) or fixed (identifications can change).
The strength of this use of the concept is that it
allows us to talk about the interface of subjective
experience and symbolic construction, which is my
interest in analysing the texts of the interviews
discussed in this paper. This interface is important
for women’s/gender/feminist scholarship because it
brings into focus the ways in which feminine sub-
jectivity is formed within social processes of gender
identity construction which socially advantage males
and oppress females. The problem with it is that the
emphasis upon the social construction of identity, in
this sense, begs the question of where to locate the
resistant parts of subjectivity—the self that resists
the social. This is a particularly fraught question for
scholars working within the field of gender analysis
given the inspiration it has taken from women’s
political activism as and for women. Much of the
recent heated theoretical debate within feminist
scholarship has been because of this concern that
the subject as active agent is entirely dissolved by a
radically constructionist stance, and with it the log-
ical basis for any feminist, or ‘identity’, politics (see
Benhabib, Butler, Cornell, & Fraser, 1995) for an ex-
cellent representation of the various positions within
this debate).
It is important to be clear that identity, as I use the
concept here, does not completely determine subjec-
tivity, as it is understood in this paper. Remembering
that identities are neither singular nor static such an
understanding would make no sense. I use the term
subjectivity to refer to the internal world of each person
including various identifications, and emotional and
intellectual processes. But what are the nonidentified
parts of subjectivity? If identities bind people to sym-
bolically created forms,which represent existingpower
relations, then are the nonidentified aspects of subject-
ivity the fountain of resistance? My argument is that
such an identified/nonidentified conceptual split is
unable to capture the subtleties of resistance.
We must tread carefully around the question of
resistant agency to avoid invoking the individual/
social binary, well deconstructed by Hall (1996b).
Concepts such as socialisation, internalised norms or
ideology depend upon this binary since they invoke
a pre-existing subject upon which ‘society’ acts
(Hall, 1996b, p. 597). Because this core self or ‘real
me’ is seen as apart from society, it has been the
imagined agent of resistance to the invasion of the
subjective by the social. Identity, as understood in this
paper, is not conceptualised as overlaying a ‘core self’
but nor is it understood as completely determining
of subjectivity.
The concept of reflexivity, as developed by Butler
(1997), can help us to transcend the either/or of these
two options. Reflexivity introduces the possibility of
resistance to, and possible redefinitions of, identity
positions while not falling back on such an imagined
‘core self’. Two of Butler’s insights with regard to the
process of identification and reflexivity are important
to understand. Firstly, that subjects desire recognition
to escape the terror of not-being, and secondly, that
recognition and reflexivity are simultaneous.
To elaborate on the first insight, I will summarise
Butler’s (1997) interpretation of Althusser’s (1971)
story of the subject being hailed by the police in the
street as an identity. In this story, the subject is hailed
‘hey you there’ and turns toward that call and thus is
‘interpellated’ as a worker, a boss or a soldier as if
they were hailed: ‘it really is me, I am here, a worker,
a boss, a soldier!’ (Althusser, 1971, p. 171). In that
moment, self-recognition and social recognition be-
come one; in other words, the subject identifies with
the social category. Butler emphasises that it is the
policeman who does the hailing in this story; she
makes the point that it as social authority calls us that
we come to understand ourselves.
She goes on to ask, why does the subject turn
toward the call rather than keep walking? Her answer
is that recognition by authority is essential to social
existence. This means that the subject has a vulner-
ability to the law—that there is a prior desire for
recognition by the law, since to not be recognised is
not have an existence, to face the terror of not-being
(Butler, 1997, p. 112). Butler discusses this as ‘the
psychic life of power’ (the name of the book). I un-
derstand it as an analysis of the process of identifi-
cation and thus identity formation as understood by
Hall (1996a). It explains how it is that the external
socially defined categories become internally ‘really
me’. Butler’s discussion of the importance of recog-
nition explains why there is pleasure in living out an
authoritatively recognised identity. It is the pleasure
of being somebody and of escaping not-being. When
a woman experiences a well-ordered domestic envi-
ronment and caring for her children as expressing
her womanliness, this expression of womanliness is
a source of pleasure because it confers her with an
identity. In acting in ways that are recognised in
authoritative discourses as appropriate for her gender,
she is expressing and affirming who she is in socially
recognisable terms.
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But recognition by authority triggers guilt and it is
this that Butler argues is the origin of reflexivity, the
second important point. Guilt is reflexive since it is a
reflection by the self upon the self as a separate object
to be brought into line (or, potentially, not). In turning
to the call of authority, according to Butler, we regard
ourselves in fear that we do not, but should, meet the
required standards of authority. As the law regards
us, so we regard ourselves—and so in gaining rec-
ognition, reflexivity is born. But guilt, this sense of
conscience, does not imply the ready-made subject
restricting the self:
Conscience cannot be conceptualised as a self-
restriction, if that relation is construed as a pre-
given reflexivity, a turning back upon itself
performed by a ready-made subject. Instead, it
designates a kind of turning back—a reflexivity
which constitutes the condition of possibility for the
subject to form. Reflexivity is constituted through
this moment of conscience, this turning back upon
oneself, which is simultaneous with a turning
toward the law. (Butler, 1997, pp. 114– 115)
Thus Butler gets over the individual/social binary by
analysing the production of the subjective experience
of recognition as being a reflexive moment. I under-
stand this subjective experience of being authorita-
tively recognised as a category as formative of identity
and that this is simultaneous with the production
of reflexivity.
Thus in reading the texts of the interviews, I
reject the concept of a core self distorted by ‘ideo-
logical’ statements or ‘socialisation’ processes in
preference for this framework of identification and
reflexivity as inseparable processes. In my analysis,
I was interested in how the abstract category of
mother and the meanings this carries with it be-
comes an identity for women when they have young
children. The authoritative discourses of motherhood
in New Zealand are that mothers should make caring
for their children and doing domestic work their
primary responsibility, and not do paid work while
their children are small. Changes within discourses
of motherhood, and the continuity of this core
theme, have been well analysed in McKinlay
(1983), while Fleming (1997) notes that in spite of
changes in household forms, the male-breadwinner,
female home-maker model still has a hold on
Pakeha family norms. Such norms have an impact
on but are not identified with by Pacific Island and
Maori families, as documented in Fleming’s book.
Thus I will refer to the ‘Pakeha mother identity’ in
this paper since it seems clear that some significant
cultural groups in New Zealand involve family
patterns based in alternative identities. ‘Pakeha’
was the name used of the white colonists by Maori.
White New Zealanders who feel no strong connec-
tion to any other land or ethnic identity now usually
accept the label. It may seem easier to non-New
Zealand readers to use the term ‘white’ but there are
white people living in New Zealand it would not fit,
for example, Serbians or Hungarians.
I will discuss other aspects of the content of the
Pakeha motherhood category, which construct full-
time devotion to children as a womanly quality,
during the analysis. I took identification with the
category of Pakeha mother as speaking of caring
for children and doing housework as specifically
womanly gifts and responsibilities and invoking the
gender binary to describe their experience of full-time
motherhood as a fulfilment or expression of their
womanliness. Mothering in this way undeniably
places limitations on women in terms of their auto-
nomy, perhaps the most crucial component of this
being the lack of an independent income. Therefore
feminists have regarded constructions of woman-
liness as necessitating economic dependence and
domestic fulfilment with suspicion.
What I found was that many of these respondents
regarded themselves with suspicion when saying such
things. While these women embraced the Pakeha
mother identity, they also resisted it in places and in
aspects, so their accounts were reflexive and, often,
contradictory. Responses to my research findings fre-
quently include the comment that these women must
be unusual in some way and surely my sample some-
how included too many intellectual feminists who are
very different from ‘ordinary’ Pakeha women. My
respondents were not selected on the basis of identi-
fication with feminism, and only one mentioned fem-
inist sympathies. I would be cautious about attributing
too much of the reflexivity I discuss here to feminism,
although since feminist discourses have seeped into the
mainstreammedia, this would be an almost impossible
question to assess. How would one isolate feminism
and measure its impact? Are any discourses critical of
gender categories by definition ‘feminist’?
Rather, I would suggest that intellectual feminists
do not generate all resistance in relation to gender
categories, and that the dichotomy of ‘intellectual
feminists’ and ‘ordinary women’ is part of a discourse
that views most women as passive in relation to ‘patri-
archal ideology’. Wearing, in reconsidering her anal-
ysis in the Ideology ofMotherhood (1984), commented
that resistance was present in those interviews in ways
she had not seen because she had focused upon the
oppressive effects of ideology (Wearing, 1990, p. 37).
Agency and Identity 111
This suggests that finding resistance in some forms
should not be so surprising when we shift our focus
from the ability of a system of power relations to
integrate people into acquiescence.
The women I interviewed were well educated, in
relation to the population as a whole, but not to such a
great degree in relation to the Pakeha population. In
1990, 45% of the New Zealand population had some
form of postsecondary qualification, 15 of my 21
respondents had such a qualification (Ministry of
Education, 1999, p. 2). However, since Maori and
Pacific Island people make up approximately 20% of
the population, but are much less likely to attain a
postsecondary qualification (Ministry of Education,
1999, p. 2), it seems that the education level of these
womenwas not unusual for Pakeha women as a whole.
Only one had left high school after her fifth form year
with school certificate, this is the most basic high
school qualification in New Zealand and would have
meant leaving school at the age of 15. The remaining
20 had stayed in high school and gained a higher
leaving qualification. Eight had then gone on and
gained a university degree, seven had done postsecon-
dary training for nursing, journalism, or teaching.
The primary occupation of all respondents at the
time of the interview was caring for their child or
children. One, the only single mother, received a state
benefit, supplemented by doing paid childcare in her
own home (she was in a committed relationship with
her child’s father, but he spent only two nights a week
with her). The remainder were financially supported
by male partners, who were all, except in one case,
biological fathers of the women’s children. These men
were mainly in professional, technical or managerial/
administrative occupations, two were in production
occupations. Five women were engaged in, or about to
begin, paid work outside of their homes for less than
15 h a week. A sixth attended university part-time.
The majority lived in households with an annual
income of between NZ$25,000 and NZ$40,000. The
lowest annual household income was NZ$20,000,
which meant this household (a couple and one child)
struggled tomeet basic needs for food and utilities, and
could afford few luxuries. The highest was NZ$55,000
(earned by three households), which meant they could
afford a better than average but not luxurious lifestyle.
Surviving primarily on one income meant that all but
two households (one of the highest income households
supported four children and helped out the partner’s
mother financially) expressed feeling under financial
strain at the time of the interview. The median income
for all two parent families in 1991 was NZ$45,000.
Taking into account that Maori and Pacific Island two
parent families have average household incomes
NZ$10,000 and NZ$15,000 less than the median for
all, then the expected median income for Pakeha
families must be higher (Fleming, 1997). Thus these
households were poorer than most Pakeha two parent
families, but this is probably a life-cycle effect; they
were young and dependent on one income.
Fifteen of the women were aged between 30 and
35, two were in their early 20s, one was 28 and three
were in their mid- to late 30s. Six had one child, nine
had two children, four had three children and two had
four children. Four were pregnant when I interviewed
them, three of these had one child and one had three
children. Before having children, eight had been in the
lower paid female-dominated professions (e.g., teach-
ing, nursing), two had been in higher status, higher
paid male-dominated professions (e.g., medicine).
One had been a photographer, one a musician. The
other nine had had a variety of jobs in female-domi-
nated sectors, doing clerical work, shop work, working
as a waitress or as a cleaner. Two lived in rental
accommodation, the rest lived in houses under mort-
gage, as has been most common for the majority of
New Zealand families. All lived in an urban area, one
of the main cities of New Zealand with a population of
about 500,000.
My analysis followed the distinction which the
majority of my respondents made between house-
work and child rearing. Although these activities are
intertwined in daily domestic practice, and in the
constitution of the Pakeha mother identity, there were
differences in the degree to which respondents accep-
ted or resisted responsibility for housework and
responsibility for child rearing. Many resisted the Pa-
keha mother identity as meaning responsibility for
housework in favour of a reconstructed mother iden-
tity. Thus in what follows, I discuss housework and
mothering separately, I analyse identification with
motherhood as happening in three processes: mastery,
discourses of gender difference, and surveillance. I
consider how these processes work in the case of both
housework activity and childcare activity, and how
these processes were resisted in both cases, high-
lighting the importance of reflexivity in the process
of resistance.
THE PAKEHA MOTHER IDENTITY:MASTERY AND BODILY DESIRE
Housework
Mastery and embodiment of the rules
Both the concepts of mastery and embodiment are
relevant in understanding the construction of identity
here. According to Butler’s (1997) interpretation of
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Althusser, the more a practice is mastered, the more
fully subjection is achieved because the person
embodies certain skills necessary to reproduce the
conditions of their subjection. My interpretation of
this is that subjection works through instilling skills
that become part of a person’s identity. Mastery of
such skills entails embodiment in so far as they be-
come automatic sequences of movement and action,
‘programmed responses’.
To master a set of skills is not simply to accept a
set of skills, but to reproduce them in and as one’s
own activity. This is not simply to act according to
a set of rules, but to embody rules in the course of
action and to reproduce those rules in embodied
rituals of action. (Butler, 1997, p. 119)
Submission does not mean yielding to a stronger
power but rather involves embodiment of the skills
and practices associated with a subordinate identity.
The discipline of housework standards and rou-
tines instilled such subordination through mastery for
my respondents. Mastery over housework could only
be achieved with a sense of success; however, the
very nature of housework makes this difficult since
there is no completion, it is simply an on-going pro-
cess. I analysed self-imposed standards and routines
as providing a sense of completion and thus mastery.
All the respondents had self-policing domestic rou-
tines to do with meeting their standards at particu-
lar points in time. These standards that defined an
acceptable state of the house varied from woman
to woman:
Washing the dishes, washing the clothes, and
getting the beds made, and then after that probably
the bathroom. (Kath)
I prefer having clean surfaces, and it doesn’t really
matter whether it’s—well when I think clean I
think uncluttered. Like there’s probably things that
are absolutely filthy but as long as I don’t have to
look at them it doesn’t really matter. (Helen)
Meeting standards by self-imposed deadlines, for
example, having the washing folded and put away
and the floors clear before the evening meal, signified
that ‘the housework is done’ and a sense of mastery
could be achieved.
Thus routines were integral to standards as the
organisation of daily activity to ensure the standards
are met (e.g., the kitchen surfaces must be clear before
the children are in bed). Within the structurelessness
of housework, standards and routines allowed sym-
bolic moments of completion, which provided the
satisfaction of success: the kitchen surfaces cannot
always be clear but must be at particular points in
time. Both standards and routines provide the struc-
ture and rhythm, which is vital to a sense of mastery
and in this is revealed the intimate relation between
discipline, mastery and identity.
Thus mastery was embodied through routinised
actions that made housework into programmed
unthinking activity. For some, the routine was flexible
and centred on the mornings and evenings: the daily
necessity to get children up, dressed, fed, bathed, into
pyjamas and bed again. But others had more elaborate
routines. Some respondents assigned particular tasks
to particular days of the week.
I even have lists of what I do. Like on Mondays I,
you know, do the bath, the toilet, Tuesdays I dust
and polish, Wednesday it’s cleaning the micro-
wave and stove, Thursdays is vacuuming and
washing and Fridays is ironing and cleaning the
kitchen floor. I make lists . . . Get up, fill the sinkwith hot water, throw the dishes in, make the beds,
take the dishes out, put the washing on, hang it
out, go and get Liam off to kindy—yeah, I—it’s
sort of like being in the army really, isn’t it?
(laughter) (Joanna)
Joanna’s description illustrates how the routinisation
of standards become automatic sequences of bodily
movements and thus how housework skills become
embodied through the discipline of routine as
automatic functioning. Domestic routines (fill the
sink, dishes in, make beds, dishes out, . . .) become
programmed into bodily rhythms.
The discipline of standards and routines is essen-
tial to the identity-giving pleasurable reward of mas-
tery over domestic management. In line with this
analysis, Ann Oakley (who wrote about British
women) observed that it was the women she inter-
viewed with the strictest routines who most strongly
identified with the ‘housewife role’ (Oakley, 1974,
p. 104). In Oakley’s research and in mine, the specif-
ics of these standards and the routines were created
by the women themselves, and so in this sense were
subjective. However, they tended to take on an objec-
tive quality in the women’s lives—to become extern-
alised forms of which they felt compelled to meet
the demands.
Discourses of difference
Mastery of domestic skills signified femaleness
in a positive and pleasurable sense. Doing house-
work was said to involve a constant awareness of
Agency and Identity 113
the household’s rhythms and needs and this was
talked about as a special feminine way of thinking.
In this talk, the gender binary was mobilised in the
sense that being competent domestically was femi-
nised through a lot of—sometimes affectionate,
sometimes frustrated—patronising talk about men’s
domestic incompetence.
Respondents’ sense of their domestic abilities as a
feminine strength seemed to be based in a perception
that ‘men in general’ (although some saw their own
partners as exceptions) lacked awareness of the need
for housework tasks to be done. Boulton mentioned
similar discourses in her research about British moth-
ers (Boulton, 1983, pp. 154– 162). I analysed this
talk about men’s domestic incompetence as contribu-
ting to the construction of a positive sense of femi-
nine identity as involving the mastery of complex and
difficult household management. A number of res-
pondents stressed that there was an important dis-
tinction to be made between doing housework tasks,
which men could learn, and the mental work of
overall household management, which they felt
responsible for as women. For example, Jackie com-
mented that her husband could do particular tasks but
could never manage the whole because:
every day some things have to be done—and if you
don’t do some things within a week, or a month—
the place will start to deteriorate. . . . That—you’ve
got to think of keeping the house going not just for
one day, not just the things you have to do in one
day—you’ve got to think of the whole month, or
even the whole year in some ways. (Jackie)
One woman said with laughter that if her husband
were to stay home with the children, she would have
to leave him a list of housework tasks to do. There
was much laughter coming from a clear sense of
superiority when these women engaged in this
discourse of male domestic incompetence.
The standards and routines that established and
expressed mastery were closely related to the issue of
overall control of housework and discourses of her
way being superior. A number of women said that
they did not want their partner, or anybody else, in-
terfering with their routines or doing household tasks
because they might do it the ‘wrong way’. In general,
husbands and partners were not regarded as the
authority on domestic matters, although some recog-
nition and appreciation of her work might be looked
for from him. This was not a question of some
absolute standard of doing a good job, but of doing
things according to the woman’s overall conception
of adequacy. The following contrasting statements
about husbands doing vacuuming ‘the wrong way’
illustrate the idiosyncratic way women defined doing
a housework task appropriately:
my priority for instance when vacuuming is to get
the most amount done in the shortest amount of
time—because that’s how it works. And—so, I
don’t make a show of—like I wouldn’t pick
everything up off the floor and do underneath
everything, unless I was—really, as it were—
indulging myself—I wouldn’t do that as often. So
I try to get ’round as fast as I can, and the same
thing—if my husband does it—he wants to do it
perfectly, which means getting everything off the
floor, and doing under everything—but—which
takes far to long, so in the grand scheme of things
that is irritating too, because it employs one per-
son for far too great a length of time. (Ruth)
Whenever he does the vacuuming he’ll say ‘oh I’ll
just give the floor a quick lick’ you know as if that
would be all he’d ever do . . . and just sort of do thebare essentials. And that would always be the way
I think. And I think it’s just he’s not as ‘thorough’ I
s’pose is the word I’m trying to find. (Jackie)
My analysis of these statements is that they are less
concerned with the best way to vacuum and more
concerned with constructing gendered difference
around housework mastery: ‘he does not have my
skill and knowledge and so he vacuums in the wrong
way’. Most wanted some participation in housework
from their partners, but this was a complex matter
because it came into conflict with investment in do-
mestic work and the need to control how it was done.
Often when a respondent’s partner did housework
tasks, it was under her direction, or he had specific
jobs assigned to him while she had overall control.
I complain that he doesn’t do stuff, but I like him to
do it my way, and if he does stuff—I go on about
how he should do it. But yeah I tell him what he
has to do, if he does something spontaneously he
probably won’t do it right, so now we have jobs
that he does and I do the rest. (Miriam)
Desire to control how the housework was done was
based in the belief that their systems were more
efficient. Ruth talked in detail about her system for
putting out the washing:
Well—for instance I—I figure out where the
sun’s coming from, and then I try and hang
clothes so that the maximum amount of sun gets
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to the maximum amount of clothing (laughs)—so
for instance all the small things would go in front
and the bigger things would go behind, and—if
it’s very very windy then I would, instead of—for
instance long ways, I’d hang them cross ways—
so I would go cross ways in a particular kind’ve a
wind, so they don’t all blow off the line and
disappear. And depending on the item of clothing,
for instance—rather than another peg—for
instance I use those wooden clip pegs with
woollen things, and with things that are quite
bulky, but those other thin things I use with—just
cotton type things . . . So I even get to the point
where—sometimes my husband will help me by
putting the washing out, but he completely screws
up my system. You know, he just hangs them up
any old how—and that really irritates me. (Ruth)
Because her husband does not have the daily
responsibility of providing the household with clean
clothes, he had not developed such intimate knowl-
edge of how the weather and positioning on the line
affected drying time. Nor could he appreciate the
importance of getting the maximum possible drying
time out of the weather.
Some respondents accepted what they regarded as
an unfair amount of responsibility for housework
rather than putting stress on their relationship and
on themselves by fighting for what they really wan-
ted. An unfair situation was taken to be something
women had to put up with as a normal part of life
because of male domestic incompetence. Discussing
her husband’s domestic incompetence, Lynne told
this story:
like he always leaves the bathroom, even after the
kids have had a bath—and the towels. I mean if I
bath the kids then . . . I normally would swish
’round the bath quickly, pick up the wet towels
and hang them up, and pick up the bath mat and
hang it over the bath, just—you know, leave it
looking reasonable and pick up their dirty clothes
and bring them down and put them in the laundry.
But no—they’re all just left there for the cleaning
fairy to come along and do it, you know. And
that’s annoying. And that’s another nail in the
coffin—you know, there’s so many things that
you have to do. But I think there’s a limit to what
you can sort of hassle your partner about. (Lynne)
Here the intersection of mastery, embodiment, self-
surveillance (see below) and discipline is evident.
Lynne simply cannot ignore the wet towels, dirty
clothes, and bath mat on the floor or the grime on the
bath. To deal with these things is an automatic
response for her after the children bathe, part of the
sequence of activity to be gone through without
thought. In observing with frustration that her
husband does not have this programmed response,
she attributes it to his maleness and her own actions
to her femaleness, and this helps her to be (not
entirely happily) resigned to it.
Self-surveillance
In the case of domestic work mastery expressed
through standards and routines was closely inter-
twined with self-surveillance. Many reported an
unhappy feeling of compulsion in relation to house-
work tasks. They said that they could not do things
they valued, for example, doing study or reading a
book, unless their house met their standards.
if the house is not tidy I feel as if I’m going under
. . . Like I’ll rush ’round tidying up even if I’m
tired, it’ll make me feel better. . . . I mean I do do a
bit of photographic work, I do photos for other
people’s friends and things, and I might have
something like that to do, you know, that I’ll have
in my mind either a work thing, or a thing for me,
and I wouldn’t do any of those things until—
basically the housework is done, and I feel that
my brain’s clear. (Miriam)
Almost all these women talked about feeling upset,
depressed or anxious if their housework standards
were not met, or their routines were interrupted. Many
spoke of having a sense of the housework piling up as
creating a constant and mounting sense of pressure
that affected their mood. Jackie says:
I like to be organised. Sometimes I get depressed if
I feel it all gets on top of me. I’d rather do a little
bit everyday, than amassive spring clean. (Barbara)
Given the identity investment in domestic mastery, it is
hardly surprising that evidence of a failure to display
such mastery was accompanied by emotional distress.
Self-surveillance was mingled with the perception
of surveillance by others. In New Zealand, surveil-
lance of domestic standards is maintained in some
official ways, through public health and social wel-
fare programs. There are laws setting definitions
of ‘child neglect’ as not providing adequate food,
sanitation and so forth, welfare authorities can le-
gally intervene if some minimal standards are not
met. There is also the ‘Plunket Society’, which
monitors individual child development, provides
mothers with information about caring for babies
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and children and sends ‘Plunket’ nurses (who have
special training) to visit homes in the period follow-
ing a birth.
State surveillance was not a concern of these
women with regard to their housework and childcare
standards. Partners, as the other adult most fre-
quently in the house, had only minimal surveillance
significance in that their regular arrival acted as a
marker in the day, a deadline to meet certain stand-
ards by. Many of these women want to establish
some order at the time of their partners’ arrival home
from work. This begs the question of how much the
housework is being done ‘for’ the husband. There
was only one case where it was clear that something
bad would happen if the husband walked into an
untidy house:
if he comes home and there’s a mess, he starts
throwing things around, and getting really—
(laughs) no—he just—he can’t stand it. I mean
I’m like that when I come home during the day—I
can sort’ve understand it, he doesn’t want to come
home to a messy house, but I can’t relax because
of that. If he wasn’t there I probably wouldn’t care
so much. I wouldn’t worry about it—but I have to
get it done, you know, it’s gotta be done. (Sue)
The laugh which comes here after talking about
him ‘throwing things around and getting really . . .’marks an absence to be imagined, something which
cannot be spoken. Because of this, my imagination
filled the gap with verbal abuse and possible physical
violence. It seemed to me that Sue was afraid of
her husband.
However, none of the other women spoke of their
husbands as acting as ‘police’ of their housework
standards in this way. Some talked about having the
house tidy before husbands got home as something
they wanted to do to have a sense of order before the
evening meal so they could relax after it. For most,
their husbands were not a big source of anxiety so far
as surveillance of housework went, and many were
completely relaxed about their arrival so far as how
chaotic the house could be at that point.
Many of these women simultaneously believed
men lacked the ability to do or notice domestic work
and that they should share equal responsibility for it.
Both of these beliefs could mean that they were not
especially bothered if he ‘walked into a mess’, since
on the one hand he might not even notice it, on the
other, if he did then, he should clean it up. In those
cases where his arrival was used as a deadline for
meeting a specific standard, apart from the case of
Sue, it seemed that the husband’s arrival was expe-
rienced as similar to that of other adults who came
into the house.
The possible or expected arrival of other people
was given as an important reason for maintaining
housework standards. Not only did these women
judge themselves according to their housework stand-
ards, most believed that other people would judge
them as well. This meant that they were very sensi-
tive about how their house appeared to others. Many
used as an example that they had tidied up before I
came, and apologised to me about the messiness of
their house. It was true that in almost every case, a
few words of apology were given for the disorder of
the house when I arrived.
For most of the women in this study, the sense of
surveillance came from other women in their social
network. Other mothers, particularly their own
mother and their partner’s mother, were the people
perceived as most likely to make critical negative
judgements about domestic standards. This is not
surprising since these women talked about domestic
expertise as a feminine quality. It was the arrival of
older, more experienced women that caused the most
anxiety about the state of their house. For example,
Michelle spoke of always being conscious that her
mother might ‘pop in’ unannounced, because she was
in the habit of doing so, and that this meant she had a
lurking sense that she needed the house to be fit for
her mother to walk into.
‘Peace’ was the word most frequently used when
these women described how it felt when the house
met her standards, that is, when she had demon-
strated mastery over her domestic environment. One
reason for this was that it meant that she felt safe
from the judgements of others. Michelle, after talk-
ing about her mother, made the following general-
ised comment:
I also like to have the beds made before we go
out in the morning—but that’s more for my
sense of—peace, and if somebody was to drop
around unexpectedly. (Michelle)
But the peace was not only in the freedom from
anxiety about being judged by others. It was an
internal peace, expressed with some humour by Ruth
as having a cosmic quality to it:
Basically that everything’s in it’s place, every-
thing, you know—the universe is at rest now
(laughs) That—that things are as they should be,
and that makes me feel as though I’ve achieved
something, and that—I feel at rest with my
environment, is the best way of putting it. (Ruth)
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When the housework is ‘done’—meaning it meets
her personal definition of being done—all is well
with the world. It seems that cleanliness and order in
the house are experienced as personal to her, within
her personal boundaries, while disorder in the house
is a disorder of the self. This is the special kind of
thinking which these women identified as necessary
to run a household, a specifically feminine capacity,
which was experienced as involuntary. This sub-
jective experience of anxiety or peace in relation to
the state of the house seemed to be a mechanism of
self-surveillance in that it provided subjective rewards
and punishments.
Motherhood
Mastery
There cannot be mastery without a standard to
master. The standard for mothering was less idiosyn-
cratic than for housework, and less focused upon
things to be done than on emotional capacities. These
women all had a similar ideal of the good mother. She
was described as someone who was capable of
complete emotional control, she did not lose her
temper but could respond to her children consistently
in an appropriate way. Lynne summed it up concisely
saying her image was of:
The caring mother who talks to her children
always, and interacts well, and explains things.
(Lynne)
The good mother was described as always patient,
tolerant and calm and provided her children with a
sense of stability and with constant and unfailing love.
She was always available for her children and had
time and energy for them.
The discourse of the good mother put priority on
spending time with children above taking time to do
housework, ‘the good mother’ was said to provide her
children with stimulating activities and to allow them
to play creatively, in spite of the mess and disorder that
may result. This contradiction between keeping a tidy
house and allowing freedom and creative play, in line
with modern expert child-rearing advice, has been
discussed in other literature (Richardson, 1993; Boul-
ton, 1983; McKinlay, 1983; Oakley, 1974). While
responsibility for housework and children are col-
lapsed into the Pakeha mother identity in the male-
breadwinner/female-homemaker model of family
household, that identity has developed in such a way
that these two areas are in conflict with one another.
Staying at home full-time was associated with this
feeling that mothers should be constantly available to
their children. This belief was identified by Wearing
(1984) as a crucial aspect of the ideology of mother-
hood. Ruth says:
For instance when Emily was born I knew that I
would have to be with her a lot ’cause that’s what
babies were like. But I actually realise that I felt
quite guilty and sad as well that I couldn’t spend
as much time with Jacob [three year old boy] as I
had been up until that point. (Ruth)
Ruth’s comments reveal the impossibility of a mother
being constantly available to one child, much more so
a number of children. However, most of the respond-
ents put themselves under a great deal of pressure to
live up to such ideal standards but, as I will discuss
further under the heading of resistance, failure to
meet these standards did not seem to cause such
unhappiness as in the case of housework.
The respondents agreed that mastery of the moth-
ering standard was out of the question for mere
mortals. This raises the question of how can there be
any sense of mastery if there is no possibility of
success? My analysis was that the sense of mastery
was constructed through a discourse of how impos-
sible the demands of mothering are, on the one hand,
and what special people mothers are to endure these
demands, on the other. Intense and at times impossible
demands were spoken about as part of the territory for
mothers. In this context, women were talked about as
generally being extremely capable and strong because
of their maternal responsibilities. Some said these
special qualities developed from caring for children,
others that women cared for children because they
innately possessed the required qualities. In either
case, there was agreement that domestic responsibility
entailed unique strengths. Helen says:
I think you learn things about yourself that you just
would never—you’d never come across if you
were just in a—in an ordinary job and doing a paid
job . . . I think I’ve learned to— to— I don’t know
just really give of myself I think . . . I think I’ve
learned to communicate better with—with wom-
en—and men too I guess, but I come into contact
more with women. . . . you learn to deal with your
own emotions a lot better and to be able to
communicate that to women—other women
friends who become really good friends because
you talk on the level that’s real and not just a whole
lot of crap, you know. (Helen)
Since the standards for motherhood involved a high
level of emotional discipline and capacity for res-
ponsiveness, these women interpreted their own
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interaction with these standards as a positive contri-
bution to their self-understanding and emotional
development. In this respect, they considered them-
selves, and women in general, different from and
superior to men.
Difference and bodily desire
These women experienced their feelings for their
children as expressive of their womanliness, and as
grounded in their female body. Most commented on
the unique relationship mothers have with babies and
small children. Some said this might arise from being
the parent at home full-time, whereas others said that it
was part of their physical connection to their children.
the fact that you bear them too, the fact that you
carry them for nine months inside you, and you
give birth to that child too—I think affects the
way you feel towards them, and function. (Robyn)
Around a third stated outright that they saw it as
exceptional for a man to be suitable as the main
caregiver for a small child. Most others, although not
so categorical, were sceptical about this possibility,
saying that it would have to be an exceptional man.
One of the main concerns was whether men would be
adequately conscious of children’s safety:
one of the things I find funny about men, I don’t
know whether it’s a genetic thing, or something
they’ve learned to do, but all the men I know do it.
It’s this ability they have to absolutely cut off the
world, they’re watching something on TV, or—
the children could be dying in front of them and
they don’t even see them. Absolute ability to
block things out, which I don’t believe women
have, maybe some women do—I’ve not yet met a
mother who can do that. And it was one of the
things that did worry me when I went away [a trip
for a few days] and left him with the kids. (Lynne)
Many shared this perception that men were unable
to notice what was happening around them, in terms
of both the activities of children and the state of
the house.
The ‘staying at home’ aspect of the standard for
motherhood was described in terms of bodily desire.
All these women described having a strong desire to
stay at home with their children after they were born.
Phillipa described this experience as feeling like a
physical urge:
I’d say that it’s largely hormonal actually. Just this
strong feeling that you have for the child, for a
baby. And I s’pose also that you’re doing things for
it. And just the feeding thing is such a strong bond.
No when I had both of them I would not have liked
to have been anywhere else but with them at home.
It was very strong. (Phillipa)
Phillipa describes similar intense physical feelings as
being behind her decision to have children:
Oh when I met Mark I just got a strong maternal
urge (laughs). I used to follow women with
children. I just got absolutely crazy over it. It was
just amazingly strong. It absolutely cracked me.
. . . I’d be thinking of children’s names—I’d get
weepy, I’d sort of—just want children. (Phillipa)
Others spoke similarly of being overcomewith ‘‘cluck-
iness’’ (a word meaning the desire to get pregnant
and have a baby) before they became pregnant.
Self-surveillance
There were few clear statements about perception
of surveillance of mothering practices. Mothers of
their own generation were looked to as authorities on
up-to-date methods of childcare and it did seem to me
that there was some sense of surveillance from peers.
This would be in contrast to housework where older
women were seen as more authoritative; however,
many women commented that some aspects of stand-
ards for mothering had advanced since their mothers’
time. Karen discussed the criteria for judgment in her
network of peers openly:
We judge each other by how well we get on with
our children. How well adjusted the children are,
that sort of thing. How much you do with your
kids, that’s really important, extra-curricula activ-
ities get to be a real treadmill, that. Some people I
know—the kids have got something on everyday
after school sort of thing, and you know having
the most well-rounded child possible seems to be
the goal. (laughter) I don’t really measure up in
that regard. Those sorts of things I think are what
people are judged by. (Karen)
But, for the most part, there was little talk about
judging others or anxiety about being judged so far as
mothering was concerned.
My analysis was that this could not be read as
indicating an absence of perceived surveillance. Karen
did not seem overly anxious, paranoid or judgmental
herself and her text rang true to me and to other
mothers in my own ‘mothering networks’. My inter-
pretation of the absence of talk about judging and
being judged by other mothers was that such speech
was taboo given the much stronger discourse of the
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impossibility of the mothering standard. My observa-
tion of talk among mothers is that statements such as
‘Linda is such a good mother, she is so patient with
her children’, or ‘Isn’t Mel amazing, she takes all her
kids to sports practice four afternoons a week!’
operate to set standards and create an awareness that
one’s mothering practice is being observed. This
analysis would be consistent with Australian research
about mothers’ social networks. For example, Wear-
ing (1984) argued that her respondent’s networks of
other mothers acted to transmit ‘the ideology of
motherhood’. Everingham (1994) reported that infor-
mal networks of mothers transmitted ‘norms of nur-
turing practice’ (which varied in detail within her
three groups) within a shared framework of the ideal
of a mother’s primary responsibility for her children.
Measuring themselves against the unreachable
standard of ‘the good mother’ was a significant mech-
anism of self-surveillance in relation to their mothering
practice. Because the standard was unreachable, there
was talk of a constant nagging guilt that she was doing
things wrong,
I think it [guilt] comes with the birth, it comes out
with the placenta, but unfortunately the placenta
gets thrown away or dug into the garden, but the
guilt hangs in there constantly, yeah, you spend a
lot of time being guilty, . . . [examples]— ‘I’m not
spending enough time with him; I shouldn’t have
smacked him; I shouldn’t have done that; I
shouldn’t have spoken sharply; I’m not as good
as so—and—so’. (Alison)
But, as we will see below, this feeling of guilt was
talked about exclusively in the context of the need to
ignore it. As the phrase ‘it comes out with the
placenta’ indicates, the guilt, like the impossible
standard, was wryly accepted as an inevitable con-
sequence of having children, and that dealing with it
built strength and self-confidence.
The self-surveillance in relation to caring for chil-
dren did not operate in the same way as in relation to
housework peace from anxiety were never fully
achieved just as perfect motherhood was never
achieved. The reward of motherhood was not an
escape from anxiety but a sense of feminine fulfilment.
I feel pleased to be a woman because of having
children . . . I think it is a good thing. I think that,
you know—it sort of expresses—being a woman,
being a female. (Mary)
Boulton described motherhood as satisfying for some
of her respondents, not because they enjoyed the day-
to-day work, but because it provided their lives with a
sense of meaning and purpose (Boulton, 1983). This
was true for my respondents. Helen struggles to
express this in the following passage.
I feel that it’s really—being a mother is really
basic—like it’s just—simple, but not in the way
of stupid, but just something that’s really—like—
I don’t know, . . . the basic thing in life—to be able
to see these little children, and to be able to have
them and look after them. (pause) . . . I’ve been
really lucky been able to have such simple
pregnancies and home births, and healthy children,
. . . I mean it’s part of life—like it is life. (Helen)
For the respondents in this study, having children,
families and the relationships between people were
considered ‘real’ things—the most important things
in life, they found pleasure and reward in caring for
people. Women were talked about as closer to these
important values.
RESISTANCE AND REFLEXIVITY
As I explained above my understanding of resistance
is not in terms of a ‘non-social’ or ‘non-constructed’
true self opposed to the impact of ‘society’ on
subjectivity. I understand resistance as based in
reflexivity, which Butler (1997) explains as simulta-
neous with the process of identification. This reflex-
ivity arises from an experience of guilt. Guilt is self-
surveillance, the subject examines itself in fear of not
fitting the category it is recognised as. But guilt
simultaneously introduces distance from the identity
because the subject fears/knows the identity is not
‘really me’ and thus it opens up space for resistance.
Guilt was a persistent theme in the resistant talk of
these respondents. Guilt was not spoken about when
the values associated with the Pakeha mother identity
was the basis for challenging some of its terms, for
example, in imagining alternative family arrange-
ments that were envisaged as better for the children.
Mothers’ sense of their unique value also provided
the basis for asserting the importance of taking care
of their needs for ‘time to myself’ without guilt. Thus
an identity as a Pakeha mother allowed women to
speak authoritatively about what is good for mothers
and children. Again, I will first discuss housework
and then mothering.
HouseworkAlongside the theme of competence at housework
as a feminine attribute was a theme of rejection of the
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norm of female responsibility for housework. It was
in talk about housework that the most dissatisfaction,
distress and sense of internal struggle was evident.
Respondents were uneasy about an identity which
incorporated doing housework as an expression of
femininity at the same time as they expressed pleas-
ure in their feminine mastery of domestic manage-
ment. On the one hand, domestic competence was a
pleasurable experience of femininity; on the other,
respondents recoiled from being defined as ‘tradi-
tional women’. Such an identity was resisted through
their choice of self-description, through struggling
against their impulses to take all the responsibility for
housework and to control how it was done, and
through ignoring their ‘self-surveillance’.
Self-description
Most of these women signalled their rejection of
housework responsibility by their choice of self-
description. In New Zealand, the term ‘housewife’
was commonplace at least until the 1970s, but seems
to have become less so in the final decades of the
20th century. The responses of the women I inter-
viewed indicated that it has become outdated because
of the meanings it carries. Only three said they were
happy with being called a housewife, while two
others said they preferred to be called homemakers.
The majority said they rejected the term ‘housewife’
because for them it meant a focus on doing house-
work and accepting responsibility for it.
I wouldn’t be at home in the house if I wasn’t a
mother, if I didn’t have children I wouldn’t be at
home. I’d be out working, or doing something if
I wasn’t being paid to work. I don’t think I’d
ever call myself a housewife because I can’t
stand housework. (Lynne)
Lynne and most others commented that while they
may in fact do most of the housework, they felt there
were much more important aspects to what they did
at home and to who they were. Most said they
preferred to be called a mother because they saw
their children as the reason they were at home. Thus
the rejection of the label ‘housewife’ was a rejection
of responsibility for housework and being in a
servicing role to a husband. It was not a rejection
of motherhood but of the definition of motherhood
which includes housework responsibility.
Sharing housework
Most respondents expected their partner to do
some portion of the housework. Some were happy
for their partners to be ‘helpers’, which meant that
they were given specific jobs to do regularly, as well
as doing some other tasks if they were asked to. Others
emphasised that since looking after children was a
full-time job in itself, the housework should be shared:
When one person is at home, and one is full time
in paid work, it gets tricky as to whether the
person at home should do all the housework or
not. And I tend to think not—you know, because
often—looking after a child is a pretty full time
occupation, and if you fit in housework, then oh
well that’s great, but if you can’t—then it’s just
something that’s done—shared out at the week-
end or something. (Mary)
Those who took this attitude emphasised that the
responsibility for housework should be a shared
thing; regardless of the actual division of tasks, it
was important to them that their partner did not
consider it more her responsibility than his.
The ability of a respondent to share housework
with her partner was dependent on his willingness to
co-operate and on her willingness to introduce conflict
into her relationship when he did not want to co-
operate. Housework could become a source for ten-
sion and fights between respondents and their partners
when the respondents decided not to accept the status
quo but to struggle to get their partners to do more.
I’m not the passive good wife that gets on with it
all when he’s not around, he sees me doing it. I say
‘look the dishes haven’t been done yet, and you
said you’d do them’. ‘oh well I will’. You know,
he’ll start to do them at one o’clock in the
morning, and then you crawl into bed—and you
feel really guilty, whereas if he’d just done them at
six o’clock—he gets waylaid with other things,
making it a real big chore to do them, and we
haven’t got much to do, we’ve got a dishwasher—
but no-one else ever unpacks it, things like that—
and it’s quite a lot, like it adds up. (Barbara)
In this case, Barbara’s mention of her guilt suggests
she is ignoring an impulse to do the dishes herself,
she not only has to struggle with herself but with her
husband to have him do a simple domestic task.
Reflexivity involving guilt is evident here as the basis
for resistance, in that Barbara is standing apart from
comfortable identity patterns for herself and her
husband, rejecting her guilt, and from that position
attempting to change their division of housework.
However, Barbara is still controlling housework
standards and routines. She has decided it is impor-
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tant for the dishwasher to be unpacked before bed-
time, doubtless because this is necessary for her
overall system of housework management.
Ignoring self-surveillance
The struggle to share housework was not only a
question of getting partners to do it but of fighting
guilt feelings about telling them that they should be
doing it. This meant that it also involved an internal
struggle. Mary and Kath both talked about finding it
difficult to not take over their partner’s ironing:
I don’t agree—but it is a feeling that I have, that
women should do it [housework]. Just as an ex-
ample, I remember before I married Bill, he—on
Sunday nights he always used to iron a big pile
of shirts and I used to sit and watch TVwhile he did
it, and I used to feel really guilty and think well—
you know, I feel really guilty, I should be doing
that. (Mary)
Well last night he ironed for about three quarters
of an hour, and—at first that really upset me, I felt
I should be doing it—you know, it really was—
it’s not kind of in my head, it’s in my gut. (Kath)
Both of these women talk about their impulse to iron
for their partners as against their actual beliefs, and as
something they had to work to resist.
Confronting such feelings, in some cases, led to a
deeper level of reflexivity as a basis for resistance in
so far as they began to critically examine and reject
their ‘internal messages’ and the discipline of their
standards and routines. While most respondents dis-
played some kinds of resistance, only about a third
demonstrated this level of reflexivity. These women
talked about having to ‘force themselves’ to leave
housework for their partners to do in their own way.
Alison had recently recovered from a period of de-
pression at the time I interviewed her; as part of her
recovery, she was making an effort to involve her
partner in some of the domestic work.
Before it was sort of ‘my domain’, it was very
important that I had it . . . I didn’t want him to do
it because I didn’t feel that he did it properly, i.e.
he didn’t do it the way I did it, so it was wrong,
therefore it just wasn’t good enough. (laughter)
But now, yeah I can actually watch him folding
the nappies without wincing (laughter). (Alison)
Alison’s use of the term ‘wincing’ reflects that it took
a lot of self-control to relinquish domestic control to
her partner. However, some of these women were
willing to do this, and identified in their own desire for
control an aspect of their subjectivity, which they
wanted to overcome. Gordon’s (1990) research into
the experiences of feminist mothers reported similar
findings. Many of her respondents said that their
partners had much lower housework standards than
themselves and that they did not attach as much
importance to the state of the house. This led these
women either to become very frustrated with their
partners, or to reassess their own standards and re-
actions to housework.
This struggle to overcome self-surveillance mech-
anisms in relation to domestic work did not only arise
in relation to attempts to share housework with
partners, but in terms of attempting to prioritise other
activities above housework. I have pointed to mastery
of domestic tasks as constitutive of social identity for
Pakeha mothers, and that perceived failure to master
the requirements of the domestic sphere may lead to
intense distress. Many respondents reported such
distress, but many also reported making a conscious
effort to not be controlled by such feelings, which
they considered to be oppressive or limiting. Com-
ments about ‘letting go of standards’ were more
common in the context of doing so because of other
values than in the context of sharing housework.
Many, like Raewyn, said they had decided that for
the sake of their own health and happiness, they
would have to live with more mess than they would
ideally have liked, and fight the ambivalence and
guilt involved.
Oh—see the place! I’ve given up dusting, I was
brought up to dust, and dust right down to the
skirting boards, and cobwebs, everything. . . . I’vedecided that’s not important. You know, so I’ve
actually lowered my standards—when I didn’t
lower my standards I was very unhappy because I
couldn’t keep up with the standards (laughs).
(Raewyn)
Letting go of their housework standards also entailed
confronting worries about the judgements of others
concerning their domestic standards and deciding not
to be controlled by these.
I guess it’s something I’ve had to work quite hard
at, not worrying about being judged by the state of
the house. (Karen)
Karen and Raewyn both identified their internal
urges to meet a certain housework standard, but
reflect upon those urges and decide not to submit
to them.
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For two respondents, the power of their house-
work standards was too strong to resist. These women
did not lower their housework standards, but avoided
the stress of finding them difficult to maintain by
employing a cleaner for a few hours, once a week, to
do housework. They both said they believed that
people would judge them as lazy for paying for
cleaning when they were at home full-time and so
hid this from most others. Helen, explaining why she
did not tell her husband’s family about the cleaner,
comments on the way in which contact with people
who hold such views reinforced her subjective feel-
ings that she should do the housework herself:
Like if my mother-in-law comes—or my sister-in-
law, . . . Because I know that they are quite
judgmental people, and they judge me, depending
on what the house looks like, and how my children
are doing from what their behaviour is like . . . it’sa constant thing that I have to work at—that—not
to be affected by that. . . . A friend of mine, she has
a woman that comes in and does a bit of cleaning
for her. And she says she calls it her ‘mental
health’—when she puts aside the money her
‘mental health money’ is to pay this woman to
come and do her housework. You know—I just
know exactly what she means—like yes—you
know—this is for me and I’ve earnt it! So that’s
what I really know inside, but sometimes it’s hard
to—you know—when you see a lot of them [her
husband’s family]—I try not to, because I don’t
want to be affected by that. (Helen)
Thus the decision to employ a cleaner was not simply
a matter of whether or not they could afford to pay
someone, it involved overcoming feelings of guilt
relating to responsibility for doing housework. In this
case, Helen is very conscious of the surveillance of her
domestic skills by others. Because she cannot fully
avoid her guilt in relation to this surveillance, she
practices deception by having a secret cleaner.
Mothering
Talk about mothering, even of the most traditional
kind, easily flowed into resistant talk in that it was the
basis for a sense of self-value, and strength. As I noted
above, mother was the preferred self-definition of
almost all of the respondents. Identifying as a mother
seemed to provide an authoritative voice, at least so far
as matters that affected their children were concerned.
Well I found—since becoming a Mum, like you
have to have confidence. Like—if you were my
sister and you came into my house and said ‘—the
way you fold that nappy, I don’t like it’ you have to
be able to say ‘Look, it’s my child, what I do with
her is my business’ And I think that’s where you
get it from, because you have to learn to say ‘Look
this is my child, and what I do is my business’. I
mean if it’s not beating her or anything—I mean if
I’m beating her then that’s somebody else’s
business as far as I’m concerned, but if I’m a
good Mum, then it’s my business. (Vicki)
As mothers, many respondents spoke strongly and
confidently in opposition to the arrangements of paid
work, which they saw as the main barrier to greater
input into parenting from fathers. Almost all based
claims to better living conditions for themselves,
especially more leisure, in their special work as moth-
ers. Thus identifying as a mother provided a self-
confidence that enabled some of the oppressive aspects
of mothering practices (e.g., endless availability, sole
responsibility for caring work) to be dismissed.
How much was this kind of resistance based in
reflexivity in regard to the Pakeha mother identity?
The answer is complex since so much of the resist-
ance talk about motherhood was based very firmly in
values traditionally associated with Pakeha mothers.
Yet simultaneously there was reflexivity about this
identity so far as norms of childcare were concerned,
spoken from the authoritative position of mother who
knows best what is good for children. Thus the
processes of self-identification and reflexivity are
clearly inseparable here. I have grouped the resistant
statements about mothering into three themes: Imag-
ining or trying different patterns of parenting, taking
‘time for myself’, and ignoring surveillance.
Imagining or trying different patterns of parenting
All of the respondents were the primary carers for
their children while their partners were in full-time
paid work (there was one woman who did not live
with her partner). Most said that they were more
involved than their partner in most aspects of the care
of their children. They commented that because they
were at home with the children full-time, it was
inevitable that they would be more aware of their
needs and abilities and so would best know how to
deal with them. However, most did not consider this
situation satisfactory and a number commented that
they would prefer the responsibility for the children
to be shared equally.
I would prefer that he were an equal partner in
housework and child rearing—making all the
decisions. But he still sees himself as a helper, and
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uses terms like ‘baby-sitting’ the children if I’m
going out somewhere. . . . so he sees that as—my
job, that he will help out, you know, if I want to
go out. (Jackie)
As in the case of housework, many emphasised that
parenting responsibility was shared with their partner
even though as the parent at home they spentmore time
caring for them. They spoke of making an effort to
include their partner in the day-to-day care of the
children and of discussing how to deal with the
children with him before making any decisions.
The limited contact their partners had with their
children worried many. Ten said they did not consider
the current division of domestic and paid work they
had with their partner the best way for their families
to live. The alternative to full-time motherhood
mentioned by these women was for both to do part-
time paid work and be part-time at home with the
children. But to most, this seemed an unrealisable
ideal because the chances of finding well-paid part-
time work were known to be slim, the majority of
employers demand 40 h a week or more commitment
from workers and part-time work is usually not well
paid. Janine talked about her frustration about the
constraints of the paid working world:
I was in the situation when I took maternity leave
that to go back to work after maternity leave I had
to go back to full-time employment—which I
didn’t want. I was still breast-feeding and didn’t
want to go back full-time. . . . And so I resigned
and—we’ve talked about when the next one is six
or twelve months old—if it’s financially viable—
to both work part-time—both be part-time care-
givers. Because . . . often she wasn’t waking until
after he’d gone to work in the morning, and then
she’d be tired and be going to bed a couple of
hours after he got home in the evening . . .And thatdidn’t feel comfortable. . . . But also it’s the
financial thing that both of us working part-time
probably couldn’t earn as much as he can working
full-time—and it’s really a difficult situation,
we’ve got commitments with the mortgage and
different things. It’s really—you feel like you’re
caught—you’re trapped in a situation that we
don’t really want at the moment. (Janine)
Janine felt trapped by social arrangements based on the
assumption of a mother who will care full-time for her
children and be financially dependent on her husband.
She and her husband would like to parent in a different
way but their way does not fit with the structure of the
paid working world. This example shows that while
reflexivity can provide a basis for imagined resistance,
there are entrenched social patterns that work against
this. Changing such patterns begins with alternative
imaginings but requires such imaginings to be col-
lective, rather than individual.
The demands of the paid working week made the
division between one full-time worker and one at-
home parent seem practical to many. There were some
that thought about changing places with their partner
for a period of time, so that he would become closer to
the children and she would be able to have the rewards
of paid work. But for most, this was not realistic, since
their partners’ earnings were higher than their own.
Again the limits that the organisation of paid work put
upon parents decisions about how to care for their
children are evident. Once a woman has a child (and
most do), then prime responsibility for day-to-day
care, and carrying that out according to normative
practices, is extraordinarily difficult to avoid.
Of those women who could earn enough to
support their partner and children, one had tried this
arrangement briefly in the past, and another was
considering it as a possibility in the near future.
The one who had supported her family while her
husband was a full-time caregiver pointed out that
this division was still unbalanced for both parents.
I have my reservations about it being that good for
anyone to stay home long term full-time. I actually
think you need a bit more of a balance in your
life. (Karen)
Those respondents with part-time work, part-time
parenting ideals echoed Karen in saying full-time
domestic work was not an ideal way of life for any
person, male or female, while full-time paid work was
not ideal for someone who wanted to be an engaged
parent. Karen had hated working full-time because it
gave her such limited time with her children. At the
same time, her husband had felt socially isolated, he
did not have the mothering networks which she had
developed in her time at home, and social taboos
meant that at-home mothers were careful not to
become too close to him. Thus for both of them, it
was better to go back to the traditional pattern, in spite
of their reservations about it. Again this demonstrates
the difficulty of living out resistant imaginings.
Imagining that a man could be the full-time parent
calls into question the discourse of the special bond
between mother and child. In considering this possi-
bility, some questioned the naturalness of such a bond:
Well yeah—because when he (her eldest son) was
about four or five months old I began to realise—
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it dawned on me that I was actually in love with
him—that I really loved him, and appreciated
him. And since that time it has been much easier
for me. . . . that’s why I think men could do it too
you see. I mean—if the so called natural mother
love that wasn’t at all natural to me, you know—a
woman, a mother and all this, then there’s no
reason why—given the situation, you couldn’t
actually work to get to that point. (Ruth)
While more than two thirds made definite statements
about the particular suitability of women as primary
carers for young children, most of these, at other
points in the interview, questioned whether this was
in fact the case.
None of the respondents had considered the pos-
sibility of both parents doing full-time work. Priority
was given by all to the importance of a parent being
with their children for most of the time while they
were small. Full-time childcare for small children,
and even school-age children (who would require
after-school and holiday care), was regarded as irre-
sponsible and selfish. Joanna’s response was typical
when I asked if they had thought about this option:
We decided to have a baby, one of us ought to be
home to look after it. Otherwise what’s the point
in having them? I mean it’s all very fine, but I can
remember the odd time I’d get home from school,
my mother wasn’t there—you know, it’s not nice
going—coming home to an empty house, you
know. I think that basically if you have a baby and
you leave it with somebody all day, somebody
else is literally bringing up your child. (Joanna)
The ideal of children spending most of their time
being cared for by parents is very strong in New
Zealand. While the gendered aspect of full-time
parenting may have loosened over recent deca-
des—most of my respondents accepted in principle
that a father could be the main carer—the aversion to
having children in school and/or childcare for most of
the working week was very strong.
‘Time to myself’
No matter how much they identified as mothers,
none wanted this to be the full story of who they
were. Having time, activities and interests separate
from their domestic world was talked about as
valuable because this represented that they were not
‘only mothers’. Wearing argued that claiming ‘time to
myself’ for the Australian mothers she interviewed
was a form of resistance, often based in the individu-
alist assertion that ‘mothers are people, and people
have a right to time and space for themselves’ (Wear-
ing, 1990, p. 50). The assertion of being an individual
with needs and diverse interests is one way to resist
being seen as a mother only. The experience of ‘loss
of identity’ in mothering, meaning that the mother
identity seems to become all there is to her, has been
documented by many researchers (e.g., Boulton,
1983; Oakley, 1979; Rossiter, 1988). This feeling of
being subsumed by motherhood was mentioned by a
number of respondents in this study in terms of their
efforts to resist it.
But this form of resistance was most frequently
talked about as crucial to being a good mother! In
response to the question ‘what makes a good mother?’
a number of the respondents said that it was impor-
tant for a mother to have time, activities and interests
apart from motherhood.
I also think that it’s important to look after
yourself at the same time. I don’t mean you should
devote yourself entirely to your children, but I
think it’s possible to also have activities just for
yourself alone. So that you can come—when
you’re mothering you can be refreshed. (Michelle)
I think you need something to keep your own
person, because we don’t provide it naturally in
the home. (Raewyn)
Even those who were most firmly committed to
the importance of full-time mothering, such as Rae-
wyn who was adamant that men and women had
different divinely ordered relationships to their chil-
dren, asserted that this should not absorb all of a
woman’s time and energy. These women included
themselves as subjects with needs that could not be
satisfied only through their families in their talk about
good mothering.
‘Time to myself’ could only be achieved when
women deliberately defined child-free time as such.
There were some who spoke of making a conscious
effort to use their child-free time for relaxation.
some evenings I’ll be really conscientious and do
all the mending and that sort’ve stuff, but then the
next few nights I make sure that I just relax and
maybe read a book. . . . You know, because you
have to make—you have to make your own time
out, and if you don’t get it nobody’s going to
say—oh it’s lunch time now, you’ve got a free
hour. (Helen)
Thus a belief in the unique importance of full-time
mothers can form a basis for women claiming better
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conditions for themselves. There is a movement from
focusing on what a ‘good mother’ should do, to
focusing on what conditions enable women to be
good mothers. For example, Raewyn’s belief in the
importance of mothers to family life gave her a sense
of her own value and the significance of her happi-
ness and well being.
I think if you’ve got an unhappy mother you’ve
got an unhappy family, basically. I think it affects
the husband, it affects the kids, —and when I’m
happy, everyone else is happy. (Raewyn)
Many of the other respondents also commented that
in order to be a good mother, they needed to take care
of their own needs for relaxation.
Ignoring self-surveillance
As was observed above, guilt was part of the
experience of motherhood for all of the respondents.
Guilt was usually associated with not being com-
pletely available or accessible to their children all of
the time, with putting their own needs before those of
their children, and with losing their temper with their
children. These were also the most common reasons
for guilt reported by Wearing’s respondents (Wearing,
1984, p. 53). In this study, the respondents’ talk about
the guilt they felt as mothers indicated some of the
contradictions involved in the process of resistance.
Guilt was almost always talked about in the context
of the need to ignore it, Phillipa says [she experi-
enced guilt]:
When I deal with situations badly. If I shout at
Sarah, and then I think I shouldn’t have done that, I
should’ve done something different. Yes, oh
yes—I think guilt’s quite a large part of being a
mother actually. Because you always have an ideal
of what you want to be—and I don’t think you
ever measure up to that. And you can’t be. You’re
just a person too, you’ve got the same—I mean, if
I do things there’s a reason why I’m doing it. And
that might be because I’m having my period the
next day—all sorts of things. (Phillipa)
While respondents’ feelings of guilt are evidence of
the impact of the Pakeha mother identity and may
have led them to try to conform to such ideals, a
number fought against their guilt feelings. Guilt
created some distance from the identity and thus
introduced the possibility of resistance.
For those respondents who struggled against their
guilt feelings, their own experience of caring for
children had led them to reject the standards of
idealised motherhood, while at the same time, they
measured themselves against that standard.
Lots of times I feel all I’ve done all day, or felt
like it, is snapped at the child, or yell at him or
scream at him, or something. And I think—oh,
I’ve been horrible—but he deserves it really, he
can just be so aggravating . . . yeah, I feel guiltysometimes, I think why can’t I be like— you
know always good . . . it’s unrealistic to think that
I’m gonna be perfect, and he’s going to be perfect
as well—because neither of us are. Sometimes I
feel guilty. (Joanna)
The assertion that ‘mothers are fallible human beings’
bridged the gap between ideal and experience, while
the ideal still provided a standard against which they
could not avoid measuring themselves. Thus guilt as
a mechanism of self-surveillance and as introducing
reflexivity was highly contradictory in terms of its
regulatory effect. By its very nature, it introduced
distance between the subject and the identity which
opened up the possibility for her to question the
content of that identity as well as to measure herself
against it.
CONCLUSION
This paper presented my analysis of texts of inter-
views with 21 urban Pakeha mothers in terms of their
identification with motherhood. I argued that such
identification worked through processes of mastery,
discourses of difference and self-surveillance. I also
analysed resistant talk in these interviews, showing
that such talk could occur within the framework of
values associated with the Pakeha mother identity,
which conferred authority to define what good moth-
ering meant. For example, it was agreed being a good
mother required having ‘time to myself’ and for many,
it would have ideally involved shared parenting, to
allow their children to have more contact with their
fathers. Thus the identity was not static; speaking as
mothers, many of these women produced innovative
ideals about what good mothering could mean.
Guilt was a constant theme in resistant talk.
Butler’s (1997) analysis of guilt as occurring simul-
taneously with recognition and as introducing reflex-
ivity can help us to understand that guilt is an integral
part of resistance to the regulating effects of identity.
Guilt, while being a mechanism of self-surveillance,
introduces a subjective distance from the identity and
thus allows room for rejection of some of its content,
as when these women ‘allowed’ their partners to do
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housework or refused to be overcome by guilt when
they were impatient with their children.
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