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FirstBuild,ThenDemolish

Acollectionofpoems

By:NickFarago

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TableofContents

IntroductionI.Sex

II.Politics

III.ReligionIV.Economics

V.AndOtherObservations

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ThisbookisdedicatedtoMarvinJordan,whosawmethrough.

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Introduction

Mypoetryoriginatesinfree-writing,whichisjustanothernameforstream

ofconsciousnesswriting.Butreally,free-writingstreamsfromthesub-conscious.Mytechniqueistogointoakindofmeditationclosemyeyes,breathe,focusonthe

darkscreenofmyeyelids-andwrite.Whatresultscouldbecalledpoetic:abstract,ramblingdocuments,withwildimageryandsomethingpropheticaboutthem.Thepoemsinthiscollectionarenothingofthesort.Theyrefragmentsoffree-writes,a

productofediting:short,coherent(usually),inspiredbyafewlinesoraphrase,andmanipulatedslightly.Inmyopinion,editingiswherethepoetryhappens.The

deliriousbecomesdigestiblethesubconscious,relatable.

Iheardaninterviewtheotherday,withafictionwriter,whosaidthatthejoboftheartististofillinareasofsilence.Wherepeopledontspeakspeak.Ithink

free-writingfulfillsasimilarpurpose.Inthoseplacesweavoid,weleavebarren,wedontdareventure-free-writingspeaksloudest.Theresult,predictably,isntalways

pretty.Itcanbeprettyfuckedup.ButIdimaginetheintervieweewouldsay:well,

thatsjustpartofthejob. Idliketoprintapoemhere,intheintroduction,thatIcouldntfindaplace

forinthecollection.Ithinkitcomplimentsthefictionwritersinsight.Ithasnotitle;

itgoes:

asapoet,responsibilitiesinfocus:firstbuild,thendemolish

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I.Sex

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whatsripe

isright

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boyclingstobrevity,disaster

approachesofsin

livesinhallwaysbeforehim

thatdarkeyeshaventabandoned

forcesathand:statusofkissesflight,death,oldwomen

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eros

crass,overtsonsassholecoliseum

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oreo

doublestuffedchocolatetouch

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raised

agay

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toast

dread,butterfagspread

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feminist

looselips,Ilikeitlilrecklessbitch

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rape

dateboundducttape

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breakneckMollyBermen,drunkinapuddleoftears,notgettingup

mentalspillage,mydicksorescreaming,Getthefuckoffthefloor!

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playbook

forsure

pokeher

gaybook

dick!just

likeit!

coldbook

wellsee

addme

hobook

yo!thatbitch

likedmyshit!

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slave

pokeitout,stickitineat,sleep,doitagain

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head

decisionsvoidin

theolddelicious

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fliptonguecum

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notingthedepthofourcomments,theextremeofour

longtongues

rotating,makinganightofnotations,grindinginto

sleeplessfiction

wornout,pickedup,inthebedsoccultwhosewordswere-learned

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inbred

knucklesandendshungbeforemen

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murder

jealousyovertookme

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secret

nooneknowsbutthetownsfolk

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queen

dragmuttballstuckedup

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thatbeautifullovescene

whenallcollapses

astheyreabouttoleave

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II.Politics

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lesson

learnfromthedeadorburythem

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wisdom

hohum

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advice

youdontneedtounderstandanideatoactonitsbehalfexploitthat

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dontbeabitch

doit

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tyranny

leanbabylean

dontbeafraidtoidolizeme

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power

kinggazing

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disdick

doinjustice

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pig

lordspokesinroped

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pig-speak

"ListenupBud."

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therewere,sotospeak

manymodesofspeech

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rage

Motherfucker!Cocksucker!

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haggle

Lala.

Rara.

Gimme.

Gimme.

Lolli.

Pop.

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strategy

holdback,holdbackattack

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abombdrops

tosayhello

likeabreakingbranch

thedayexplodes

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oil

battleshipssuckingtit

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power

trainerwatchinemeatlionswatchinhimsleep

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change

toomuchbreakfasttummycanthandleit

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youth

slowly,slowly

sameoldstory

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lose,losechoose

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change

nodof

amob

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whatsjust?whodeserveswhat?

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thekitchenstaff

isblack

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pastime

dickshapedbatbigandblack

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partisan

distinguishedmass,tokenandrhymingheadinthewall,anddickrising

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III.Religion

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order

therewasdepththenGod,then

acircledrawn

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word,and

Manbegan

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seven

andGodrested

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Aservant,saidtheLord

andawifewasborn

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eve

careeningintoscratchfeelingfaith,virginity,fallreaching

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dust

tous

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fag

I'masonthatdeserves

todiewithoutflowers

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IdreamtIwasthrownintoapitinthewilderness,withnowaterinit

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whatcouldIdointhedroughtbutrape

whenthefoodwent,andthethirstcame?

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deardeath...

donttakemeyet

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martyr

Illsingasong

toanyone

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blooddepartedfromtheson

gazedhalfheartedly,sungmama,mama

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sunset

redclouds:godsheadblownout

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thehumorofbeingalive?

wereallgonnadie!

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ifIonlyhadmoretime

tobealive...

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time

longwaytogo

whenyourealone

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blessed

Imoneofthementowhomlightningflashes,abovetheirhead

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stompanigger

glory,hallelujah!

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after,wewalkedfarawayfrompeople

thetracksofourmemoriesinthe

ridgedsprucealongtheriver(itsbankslikethesedimentofourdenial)

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oncetherewasastormitrippedthroughthemeadow

nowtheresapoetshewalksthecitiedearth,andnooneknowsher

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limitation

astormobliviousinrage,blackedoutindestruction-peoplehide,andafterward,measurementsaretaken

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studiesshow:

wedontknow

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themdevils,themshrinks

themwhitiestryinastraightenmykinks!

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blessedtheluckofourfamily,blessedthesockswewear

blessedtheinnovationthathaskeptusfrommeasles,labor

thesmokeofwhips,thepopeinoureyes,blessedtheseambeneathus!(blessedthemaidthatcleansus,andblessedshestays

ifshewantsherpay)

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IV.Economics

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i

justalittleletter

justalittlebetter!

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whatdo

youdo?

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youhungry?

gotmoney?

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power

wantdinner?wedeliver

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itcostmoney,sothechildasked,Why?

wesaid,Because.sothechildfellquiet

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weekandweekends

takeyourmeds

weekandweekends

thenyouredead

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thekeywordin

thissentence:win

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excel

deathsentence,cellsdivestthefreefrompossessed

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RIP

DVD

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testimonyofsomemadtime:

westernfrontier,circa1880

amountainofbuffalohide

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invest

boughtlandinbedlam

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work

Igetpaid12bucksanhourtowatchinanimateobjects

watcheachother

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money

likelactatecivility

thetitweeps

hotmilkonacleanplateplease

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penniesslottedintome

likepenniesinaslotmachine

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timetomoveon

butmycardontrun

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fellinthegutter,noonearound

triedtogetup,butfellbackdown

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gunpoint

droppedtohisknees

sweatingprofusely

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scared?

Imheretokill,destroy,sethomesaflameyourchildrenareinside,andImanoname

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banks

bonds,bugs,flyandfloodtheriverloansriverragedandsweptuphomes

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(wasp)

Ineversawanythingsoh(aw)ribble

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twokindsofpeople:

thosewhotakeabooth

andthosewhotakeatable

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bornblack

imaginethat

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Idontknow

contentoverload

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daddyscreddy

swipe(aintitnice?)swipe,swipe

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mule

magicdividepoppedbelly:high

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fountain

penniesfliploveloungingaround

atthebottomofthepondweflipflipagain,andpenniesfloatdown

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V.Andotherobservations

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rumget

medumb

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life

1and2,beenaroundbeenthrough

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afterdying,mywritingswillbe

amemoryofme-ofhim,Imean

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grave

intheearththeremyolddog:Bear

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Cassius

barksfillthecovemydogloveshisechoes

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thisis:

afish

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Charliebird

besidewindowsbaiting

birdincheek,Charlie,hisscreams,thebirdsings

ironcreasing,betweenwindowsbirdsaresleepingthesunisrising,fishswimunharmedfrommoonlightfeeding

allswooshing,breaking,theirshardsunseen,glimmeringbutwesee,justoureyes,notjustme,thebirdsrising

ironcreased,Charliescreaming

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dirtyblunt:

yayandbud

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relapse

Iwasdocile,likepavementfeltdreary,thendripped

likecement:painless

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suicide

steakforbreakfast

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country

cowtippinburgerflippin

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chipotle

sit,eataslugshit,applaud

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justwasting

thedayaway

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smalltown

pinetrees,starshuffingpaintinparkedcars

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Mainewinter

stickyer'dickinchickenbrothandchewonbeefjerky

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blackhole

aclockburnedthroughthedustandmadeaholewherenothingwas

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likewax:melt

harden,crack

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story

madeafriendhestolemygirl

Ishothimdead

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imaginethelightandtheframe:

hisfacesoaked,heartpoundingstormcloudsandswingsofrain

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sailor

storms,needles,thefarshoreglorythatdontexistnomore

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tornado

womenweepoverphotosindebris