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To My Dear Readers, Love, Friendship, Care are few emotions which cannot be sold. They are to be rather felt n lived. This book is an emotional journey of romance, love and friendship dipped in the pool of understanding for a better living, ……“Love, the strongest and deepest element in all life, the Harbinger of hope, of joy, of ecstasy; love, the defier of all laws, of all conventions; love, the freest, the most Powerful molder of human destiny...”To love and care for someone is an indication of nearing the essence and beauty of believing in non- materialistic things. This book is an attempt to let the reader decide or rather to teach him how to balance work and day to day life with the feeling of love. It is an attempt to break the myth that love is just a non –practical and imaginary emotion to live with. “Wait for the guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep, who will show you off to all his friends because he doesn't care, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who is constantly reminding you how much he cares for you, wait for the guy who will be willing to tell the whole world he loves you, not even caring who hears him"….Near and Far…wherever you are ….I believe that your heart does….GO ON….Once more you open the door….and you hear in my heart….MY HEART WILL GO ON!!It is LOVE and only LOVE that I want to hold on to….If I could ever make it stay….
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Love, Life andRelationship
Shradha Damani
Copyright page
Contents
AcknowledgementbyLifetotheAuthor
AbouttheAuthor
Acknowledgement
Introduction
1. Life
2. Love
3. LoveAwkwardly
4. LoveisnotLust
5. Friendship—TheUltimateLove
Conclusion
ACKNOWLEDGEMENT BY LIFE TO THE AUTHOR
It isnot aneasy task todescribeanauthorwhohasa
mindsetoftheageof44butisonlyofage22.Withalot
ofconstantpushbytheauthor,Iherebysubmitmyview
abouttheauthorandthebook.
Thebookdescribesus love, relationship,marriages,
livelihood,emotionsandLife.Iamconsidered‘life’by
theauthor.Itfeelsagreatsenseofsatisfactiontoread
theconceptofloveandthedefinitionaboutthewhole
emotionoflove,asIexperiencedthesamewhilecom‑
ingincontactwithher.Theauthorgivesrealmeaning&
definitionofthisbeautifulemotionandteachesushowa
personcanchange,mend,giveup,andliveinrealterms
for a person. I had always dreamt of a good partner/
friend for life who can give meaning to breathing for
life.Theauthortaughtmeandgavemeanexampleof
thesame.Shetaughtmelivingforothers,caringforall
andlovingthepersonforwhomtheheartsaysyes.
Ihadalwaysheard&readthatloveisjustanon‑existent
emotionintoday’slife,(exceptionexists),butknowing
this22yearoldgirlmakesmebelievetheunbelievable.
Beingamanandhavingthemindsetofruralthoughts,I
wasforcedtobelievethatunderstandingahumanbeing
isthebestthingthatapersoncandoforoneanother.The
authortouchesthedeepestpartofthereader’sheartand
moves it tobelieve that love isabeautifulemotion to
livewith;itisnotasintobecursed.Itmakesthereader
understandthateachindividualshouldtryandrespond
toitsimmediatefamilyandlearntoliveforothers.
Thislittlepersonalityhasmadeanattempttoprovethe
worldthatlovecanbegenuinelyfeltandshouldnotbe
lookedatwithanawefulfaceandmockedat.Describing
theauthor,Icanonlysaythatthiswonderful,loving,car‑
ing,joyful,intellectual,intelligentladyhassomeinborn
qualitieswhichmakeherdynamicbeautifulpragmatic,
andafantabulouspersontoknow.
Salutinghertalent&gracingtheoccasion,Itakethe
opportunity to wish her all the best for the upcoming
bookandforallthedaystocomeinherlife.
Name : LIFE
Contact : [email protected]
PhoneNo. : Call the author to know details
(91-9830128913)
Address : Living in the warmest place in this
world…. Heart of the author.
Kolkata, India, Asia.
Born on 20th September, 1986, she has completed her
schooling from LA MARTINIERE FOR GIRLS and
graduatedfromJ.D.BIRLAINSTITUTEinthefieldof
commerce. The author has been a very active student
allthroughouthereducationcareerbybeinganactive
memberofthestudent’scouncilandtheHEADGIRL
oftheCOMMERCEDEPARTMENTintheyear2007‑
2008.SheisalsoanITProfessionalandhascompleted
MANAGEMENT INFORMATION SYSTEM from
NIIT, MICROSOFT CERTIFICATIONS like MCP,
MCSDandhasalsocompletedORACLECERTIFICA‑
TION making her oracle certified professional (OCP)
andaSolutionsDeveloperbyMicrosoft.
ByProfessionsheiscurrentlyheadingherProprietor
shipconcernnamedSHREEJISOLUTIONSwhichpro‑
videssoftwareandhardwaresolutionstovariousorgani‑
zations–bothoutdoorandindoor.TheConcernhasalso
hada tie‑upwithMORPHEUSHUMANCONSULT‑
INGPVT.LTDwhichprovidesHumanCapitaltovari‑
ousorganizationsalloverIndia,wheretheauthoristhe
BRANCHHEADandanactivePARTNERandConsul‑
tantinKOLKATA.Inadditiontotheabove,shehasalso
completedtrainingwithNIITandSIDHMANGALAM
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
TRADERSinthefieldofMISandMarketResearchof
Equitiesrespectively.
According to theauthor,Writinghasalwaysbeena
passion and a way to take out all the emotions which
a person undergoes in day to day life. She has given
amplecontributionofshortessaysandpoetryinschool
magazinesandcollegemagazinesandhasalsocreated
herpersonalblogon lineat thewebsitewww.writing.
com where her public URL is: http://Writing.Com/
authors/shradha123.
Publicationofthisbookhasjusthappenedaspartof
destinywheretheauthorjustwantedtheoutsideworld
toknowthattherearecertainemotionswhichcannotbe
boughtandpaid,theyareratherfeltandlived.
ItseemsunbelievablethatIamfinallypenningdownmy
bookandmakingitintorealitybypublishingitforthe
worldoutside.LoveLifeandRelationship isaspecial
part ofmewhichhas been converted intowordswith
thehelpandmotivationofmany.FirstlyIwouldthank
“LIFE”forsteppingintomylifeandmakingitheavenly,
lovingandaworldofutopiaformesothatIcouldlivein
thefeelingofloveandunderstanditandfinallymateria‑
lizealltheemotionsinthisbook.Lifehasalwaysbeen
asupportsystemallthroughthejourneyofwritingthis
bookandIthankhimforbeingtherealways.Secondly,
I would like to thank my friends—PALASH, VIDIT,
VAIDYA.SUKHAMRIT,DEEKSHA,JEANELLEand
JEEVANwhohavealwaysansweredmystupidques‑
tions while writing the book and have eagerly waited
tillitmaterialized.ThirdlyIwouldthankmyfamilyfor
givingmeallthatIrequiredandtogivemeawonder‑
fulupbringingofvalues,culture,andemotion.Fourthly
tomyparentsandmylittlebrother‑LADDU—THANK
YOU for being my backbone and to act as my spinal
cordatalltimes.ThoughmyGRAND–MOMexpired
longbackbutIstillthinkthatshehasalwaysbeenapart
ofme,lookingatmeandhelpingmeinalltimesbyput‑
tinghermagicalshieldovermetoprotectmefromall
dangers.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENT
NotmanypeopleknowthisthatIhavebeenaweak
studentinthesubjectENGLISHandusedtotaketuitions
athomewithMRS.U.VENKATRAMANfromclass6
toclass12.TodaywhateverholdthatIhaveoverthelan‑
guageisherteachinganddedicationtomakemeover‑
comethephobiaoflearningEnglishLanguage.TodayI
takethisopportunitytodedicatethebooktoherteaching
andvaluesthatshehasgivenmetomakemeabeauti‑
ful person. Thank you MAAM for making me what I
amandtobeawonderfulfriend,philosopherandguide.
FinallyabigthankyoutoDEPOTPIBLICATIONSand
toMR.PARTHOROY(ChiefEDITOR)forproviding
methisplatformandbearingwithmyimpatienceforthe
bookrelease.
LastbutnottheleasttomyALMA‑MATER–“GOD”,
thankyoutogiftthisbeautifulfamily,friendsandhap‑
piness.Iwishthatallwhoreadthebookfallinloveand
start living in the world of UNDERSTANDING and
HAPPINESS.
Thisbookisaboutthethoughtsandemotionsthatgoon
inthemindofapersonwhoisdeeplyinloveandinflu‑
encedbyan individualwho is controlledemotionally,
physically, and spiritually and mentally by this love.
Afewnon‑sufferersoflovehaveaprettygoodmisun‑
derstandingaboutlove.Forsomeit’sjustaphaseoflife,
forothersloveis“LIFE”.
Thisbookisintendednotonlyforthosewhohave,or
thinktheyhave,falleninlove.Theysaythatjustmaking
aconsciousefforttoreallyunderstandafellowhuman
being,totrulyempathizewiththem,nomatterwhattheir
challengeisprobablythemostlovingthingyoucando
foranother.Iagree.Loverequiresalotofunderstanding
frombothsides.
IagreethatImightnotbeabletowriteathesisabout
love, lustandrelationships,ordefinegod‑sentcharac‑
ters,butthisisjustanattempttomakeothersbelievethat
trueloveexists.Wejustneedtothinkorlooktowards
thegoalofachievingit.
Thisbookattemptstoattractreadersofallagesand
sizes,familyandfriends.Let’sfaceit:anincreasedlevel
ofunderstandingcanonlyservetomakelifealittlemore
INTRODUCTION
Love Life and Relationship
10
enjoyable for everyone involved. What a tremendous
giftofloveitistoanyone—particularlysomeonewith
loveorfriendship—whenyoumakeanefforttounder‑
standthem!!!
Chapter 1
LIFE
RichardRobinson’sviewpointLifeHasNoPurpose(38)
arguesthat“thereisnogodtomakeupforthelimitations
ofourpower”(39),andthatmanmustlookafterhimself
andlivehislifeforhimself.AlthoughIdonotconsider
myselfanAtheist,Iagreewithhisviewpoint.Mylife’s
meaninghasevolvedfromthetimeofmychildhoodto
thatofanadulttodaybecauseofamajoreventinmylife
thatforcedmetorealizethattheonlypersonwhowas
goingtowatchovermewasme.
Peoplecomeintoyourlifeforareason,aseason,or
a lifetime.Whenyou figureoutwhich it isyouknow
exactlywhattodo.
When someone is inyour life for aREASON, it is
usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly
or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a
difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
toaidyouphysically,emotionally,orspiritually.They
mayseemlikeaGodsend,andtheyare.Theyarethere
forthereasonyouneedthemtobe.Then,withoutany
wrongdoingonyourpartorataninconvenienttime,this
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12
personwillsayordosomethingtobringtherelationship
to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk
away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to
takeastand.Whatwemustrealizeisthatourneedhas
beenmet,ourdesire fulfilled; theirwork isdone.The
prayeryousentuphasbeenansweredanditisnowtime
tomoveon.
Whenpeoplecomeintoyour lifeforaSEASON, it
isbecauseyourturnhascometoshare,grow,orlearn.
Theymaybringyouanexperienceofpeaceormakeyou
laugh.Theymayteachyousomethingyouhavenever
done.Theyusuallygiveyouanunbelievableamountof
joy.Believeit!Itisreal!But,onlyforaseason.
LIFETIMErelationships teachyou lifetime lessons;
thosethingsyoumustbuilduponinordertohaveasolid
emotionalfoundation.Yourjobistoacceptthelesson,
love the person/people (anyway); and put what you
havelearnedtouseinallotherrelationshipsandareas
ofyourlife.Itissaidthatloveisblindbutfriendshipis
clairvoyant.
Ihavebeenblessedbythealmightywithamentorand
guidewhohasalwaysbeenbesidemeinspiteofallmy
faultsandflaws.Mymentorhastaughtmetolovemyself
andtolovethesurroundingsthewaytheyare.Mymen‑
torhasgivenme thecapacity tounderstand theworld
aroundme.NowIhavethecourageandthestrengthto
Life
13
changemylifestyleby360degrees;tomenditaccording
totheneedofthehourandtoliveandletlive.
Lifehasmanytwistsandturns.Forsomedestinypre‑
vails,whilesometheymaketheirowndestiny.Godhas
gifted me with a loving family, a considerate amount
of money to earn a good livelihood, good education,
greatfriends.ButwhatIdidnotgetwasalovingchild‑
hood.Iwasseekinglovefrommycloseones;lovefrom
myparents;lovewhichwasdignified;lovewhichwas
unconventional.
I believe in GOD as the creator of nature and our
mother Earth. The Universe is the aggregate of all
humanity’s consciously apprehended and communi‑
catednon‑simultaneousandonlypartiallyoverlapping
experiences.
Aggregatemeansthesum‑totalbutnotunitarilycon‑
ceptualasofanyonemoment.Consciousnessmeansan
awarenessofotherness.Apprehensionmeans informa‑
tionfurnishedbythosewavefrequenciesintunewithin
man’slimitedsensorialspectrum.Communicatemeans
informing self or others. Non-simultaneous means not
occurringatthesametime.Overlappingisusedbecause
everyeventhasaduration,andtheirinitiatingandter‑
minating are most often of different duration. Neither
the set of all experiences nor the set of all the words
used todescribe themare instantlyneither reviewable
noraretheyofthesamelength.Experiencesareeither
Love Life and Relationship
14
involuntary(subjective)orvoluntary(objective),andall
experiences,bothphysicalandmetaphysical,arefinite
becauseeachbeginsandends.
Godistheloving,superhuman,non‑anthropomorphic,
intellectual integrityoperative in theUniverse.Loving
refers to the inter‑attractive and inter‑accommodative
nature of God’s integrity. Superhuman means beyond
any one human’s capabilities. Non-anthropomorphic
meansnothavinghumanformorqualities.Intellectual
refers to the facultyofperceivingexperiencesand the
relationships among them (such as the facts of life).
Integrity refers to the unity of the mutually inter‑
accommodative components in a system. Operative
meansparticipatingintheoperationofasystem.
TomeitispatentlyclearthattheGoddefinedabove
exists.EverydayIfindmyselfrelyingontheintegrity
of my understandings about how the Universe works.
Iconfidentlyrideescalators,airplanesandother“feats
oftechnology”knowingthattheprinciplesuponwhich
theyarebasedarequitereliable.TheUniversedoesseem
tohave an intellectual integritywhichwehumans are
abletoperceive(ifonlyinbitsandpieces).Manybooks
(especially those about Nature and Science) disclose
new insights into the nature of God. Finally, I’ll note
thatifUniversedidnothaveintegrity,logicandreason,
itwouldbedisorderlyandchaoticandunreliable.
Life
15
Godmeansmanydifferent things tomanydifferent
people.Therearealotofpeoplewhobelievethatthere
isnosuchthingasaGod.Therearepeoplewhobelieve
thatthereisnoGodbecausenoonehaseverseenhim.
Ipersonallybelievethat thereisaGodbecauseofmy
faith. I have faith in God and I feel that God is real.
IhavemanyreasonswhyIbelieveinGodandwhoGod
istome.ButIhavethreereasonsthatstandoutforme
aboutwhoGodistome.Theyarethefollowing:Godis
alwaysthereforme,Godismyfriend,andGodismy
creator.Thesearemythreemost important reasonsof
whoGodisandwhatGodmeanstome.
Godhasneverletmedowninmylife.SometimesIdo
feelthatGodhasletmedownorthatHedidnotanswer
myprayersintimesthatImostneededHim.ButIhave
torealizethateverythingthatGoddoesisforareason.
Godhastakenmygrandmother,whomIlovedthemost,
from thisEarthat averyyoungage. Ihaveprayed to
GodandaskedHimwhy?ButIhaveneverseemedto
fullyunderstandwhy.Ihavecometotheconclusionthat
Godworksinmysteriousways.Idonotthinkthatany‑
onecanfullyunderstandwhyGoddoeswhatHedoes.
Soforthis,IdonotfeelthatGodhaseverletmedown.
Hejustdoesthesethingsforareasonandifyoubelieve
inHim,Hewillneverletyoudowneither.
God is the longest lasting friend Ihaveeverhad in
mylife.HewasthereformebeforeIwasbornandHe
willbethereformeafterIleavethisEarth.Godisthe
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16
bestlisteneralso.IcantalktoGodanywhereatanytime.
EverytimeIwanttotalktoHimoraskHimaquestion,
Heisthereforme.Mostofmyotherfriendsareatleasta
phonecallaway,butnotGod.Hehasalwaysbeenthere
intimeofneed,eventhoughsometimesIfeel likeHe
isnot.EvenwhenIdosomethingwrong,Heisthereto
forgivemeandsetmestraight.
Lastly, God is my creator. God has created every‑
thingthatexistsinmylife.IbelievethatGodcreated
thisEarthandeverythingthatisinit.Ifeelthatwhen
Godcreatedeveryone,Hehadapurposeforeveryone
onthisEarth.Ifeelthatitisourgoaltofindoutwhat
isourpurposeonthisEarth.Iknowthattherearedif‑
ferentbeliefsabouthoweveryoneandeverythingwas
created,butIfeelthateveryoneshouldhavesomekind
ofbeliefonhowthisworldwascreated. Ipersonally
believe that God is my creator and everyone else’s
creator also. In conclusion, God means many differ‑
ent things tome.Iknowthateveryonehas theirown
perceptions of God, but I feel that these are my best
perceptionsofGod.Godissomebodywhowillalways
beinmylife.IfeelthateveryoneshouldhaveGodin
hisorherlivesalso.Ifeelthateveryoneshouldhave
faithandkeephisorherbeliefsinsomethingorsome‑
one.IhavefaithinGod.
GodisthesupremelygoodCreatorofgoodnatures,
andheisalsotheCreatorofevil.Godcausedthedevilto
beevil.Godforesawthegood,whichhehimselfwould
Life
17
bringoutofhisevil.Godsawthiswascomingwhenhe
createdhimtobegood,sowhenweturnedbadGodhad
arrangedofhimandhowhewouldbemakeuseofhim.
Godknewhoweverythingwasgoingtoturnout;heeven
sawman’sevil.Godknewthatmanwillonedaychange
andheforesawtheevil inhimbeforeithappened.He
createdmanandtheevilthatwascomingfromit.God
hadaplacereadyforthisalso.
NothingwouldhavebeenmadeifGoddidnotknow
itwasgoingtobegood.Godseeswhatisgood,heknew
whathewascreating,andonedayitwillbegood.Plato
said that when the universe was completed, God was
filledwithjoy.Godwasblessedbyhiscreation;hehad
approvedthestructureoftheuniverseandplaneditthis
way.Godcreatedtheuniverse,asitissaid,withoneword.
Godsaid,“Lettherebelight”,andlightappeared.After
Godhadcreatedthelight,hehadsaid,“Itisgood.”
The people who oppose His rule are called God’s
enemies.Theyarehisenemiesby theirwill tooppose
him; they are not able to hurt him. God is always
unchangeable;Heiswithoutanypainintheworld.They
peoplethatresistGod,andGod’swillareeviltothem‑
selves,theyarenoteviltoGod.ToGod,noevilisable
tohurtHim.Thepeoplethatdon’tbelievehim,arecrea‑
tingtroubleforthemselves,theyareescapingthetruth.
We are able to say that though vice cannot injure the
unchangeablegood,itcaninjurenothingbutgood.After
Love Life and Relationship
18
thisissaid,wearealsoabletosaythatvicecannotbein
thehighestgood,andcannotbebutinsomegood.
Things solely good can exist, but things that are
solelyevil,canneverexist.Forthosethingsthathave
an evil will, are in some way evil, but their natures
areinsomewaygood.TheevilthatiscreatedbyGod
hastohaveareasonbehindit.Hehadtocreatetheevil
tosomewhathelpthegood.
IbelievethatGodcreatedevilforareason.IfGoddid
notcreateevil,thenhowdidevilcometobe?Therehad
tobeareasonforevilinman.Godhadtohaveforeseen
whatwasgoingtohappentotheuniversewhenhecre‑
atedit.TheevilthatGodcreatedhadtobeforanother
goodreason.Therehas tobeareasonwhypeopleget
punishedandwhypeoplearehurt.Therealsohastobe
areasonforalltheotherevilsthatexistintheuniverse.
IfGodhadplannedtheuniversetobelikethewayitis,
thenhemusthavecreatedevilforsomereason.
IbelievethatGodhassentanewbloomingflowerin
mylifetonurturemeinabetterway,togivemelove
andtomakemeagoodhumanbeing, to teachmethe
waytoliveintheworldofloveandhappiness.
LOVE
Anindividualisanadultfromtheageof18,andlittle
doeshe/sheknowaboutthesurroundings.Beingagirl
andbelongingtoaMarwarifamily,marriageisahitlist
eventforeverygirl.Igrewupinahouseholdwheregirls
areboundtogetmarriedassoonastheypassoutfrom
schoolandtheylearnall thehouseholdactivitiesright
fromthebeginning.
Astimepassedby,theworldoutsidechanwgedand
modernizationchanged the rural thoughtsofmankind.
Thesamehappenedwithmyfamily.Thingswerediffer‑
entandIwasgiventheindependencetomakemyown
littleworldwhereIcouldmakeanameformyself.AsI
walkedoutofthelittleschoolgatesandenteredcollege,
Imetawholenewworldofstrangers.Somewherekind,
some really disgusting, some caring and some where
cooldudes.
I started to make my own world of people whom
Ithoughtwerecreaturesofmytype.ThenIrealizedthat
though the world outside has variety of people, there
weresomewhomovedmeandchangedme.Ipromised
Chapter 2
Love Life and Relationship
20
nottotakehisnameinthisbook,buttilldateIhavenever
metapersonwhocouldbesoinfluential.Hemadebe
thinkthateveryindividualhashis/herownpersonality,
andyouneedtograbwhatyoulikeandleavetherest.
Thisisbeingpractical.
Hetaughtmewhatloveisandwhatlivingforoth‑
ersmeans.Loveisthatfragileflowerofmostuncom‑
monbeauty;onewhichcanneverbefoundbypurpose
alonewhilewanderingthroughlife’sgardens.Butone
whosecolourandfragranceismostpureandmeaning‑
fulwhendiscoveredbyaccidentwhile tending to the
moremundanedutiesofthecommonman.Adiamond
foundlyingquietlyamongstthebrokenglassofchild‑
hood’sshatteredwindows.
Toloveanotheristhesupremesacrificeofself,for
we must give freely and completely of ourselves to
another, without reservations or conditions. To give
less serves only to hinder the growth of our evolu‑
tion from self sustaining isolation to a greater join‑
ing of universal awareness. As children we love by
instinctbut it isaselfishlove;onewhichresultsout
of necessity, born of helpless reliance on others for
survival. It is an innocent love, free of complicated
psychosocialencumbrancesorexpectations.But it is
ahungrylovewhichtakesmuchmorethanitgivesin
thebeginning.
Love
21
“...this idea that love overtakes you is nonsense. This is
but a polite manifestation of sex. To love another you
have to undertake some fragment of their destiny.”
Quentin Crisp, British author
“We love in another’s soul whatever of ourselves we can
deposit in it; the greater the deposit, the greater the love.”
Irving Layton, Canadian poet
Love defies generalizations. Poets, philosophers,
theologiansandcountlessothershaveascribedtheirown
theoriesandinterpretationsbutoftentheystillfallshort
ofthegoalofcapturingthetruenatureofthisunfatho‑
mableentity.Thestrengthof love lies in itsdiversity.
It possesses the unique ability to evolve, change and
permuteover thecourseofour lives. Justaswegrow
outwardlywemustalsogrow inwardly.Our thoughts,
realizationsandperceptionsaregivencredencebyour
individualexperiencesontheseparatepathswefollow
inourquestforlove.Andasloveisanintegralpartof
ourinnerselves,soitmustgrowandmatureaswell.It
possessestheabilitytoadapttoitsinternalaswellasits
externalenvironment.Itnotonlychangesaswechange
butitalsoebbsandflowsoutwardlydependentonthe
receptivityofthosetowhomitisdirected.
During certain periods of our lives love may seem
to fadeor evendisappear entirely fromour emotional
palette.Butonceconceiveditnevertrulyceasestoexist.
Love is the ultimate survivor. It has a will to live as
Love Life and Relationship
22
strongasthewillofitshumancontainer.Ifnecessary,
itmayhibernate;withdrawinglikeaturtleintoitsshell.
Whenitisrebuffedorrejectedbytheharshnessandcold
complacencywhichcanbesocommoninothers,itfolds
inonitselfuntilwhichtimeitfeelssafetoventureout
intoamorenurturingenvironment.Butitdoesnotdie.
We saywe fall in lovebut it is amisnomer.Wedo
notfallanywhere.Wesimplyopenourheartsandallow
theloveinsidetoprojectitsenergytowardstheheartof
another.Ifitiswellreceivedandproperlytended,itcre‑
ates a spiritualbondbetween the twohearts.However,
loveisanindividualizedemotion.Itisapartofwhoweare
andjustasnotwopeoplesharetheexactsameemotional
make‑up,neithercantheysharetotallyidenticalexpres‑
sionsoftheirloveforoneanother.Thebeautyofastrong
andviablerelationshipisseenwhentwosoulsmeetand
thecoloursoftheirlovecomplementeachother.
Weareinlovewhenwecanfindthatfragilestateof
beingwhereourindividuallovedemandsnomorethan
theotherpersoncangiveandwhenwecanprovidethe
necessaryenergiestoallowthemtobefulfilledaswell.
Lovecaresnothingforequalitybutitinsistsonbalance;
thatbalanceispossibleonlywhenbothpeoplearesatis‑
fiedthattheirownexpectationsandneedsinarelation‑
shiparebeingadequatelyprovidedfor.
Wearemerelypassengersonourshipofdestinyand
loveisthecompassthatguidesourjourneythroughlife.
Love
23
Whetheritisloveforanotherhumanbeing,acherished
goaloradesiretofindcompletenessandmeaningtoour
livesbearslittleconsequenceonthenecessityforfollow‑
ingthecoursethatlovecharts.Lovecannotlivecomfor‑
tablyinavacuum.Itmustbeallowedfreereignandbe
given the opportunity to explore beyond the confining
wallsofself‑protectionwhichweconstructasbarriersto
theravagesoflife.Itistheflagshipofoursoulandthe
purveyorofourmostcherisheddreamsofapurposeful
existence.Lovewehideorholdbackfromothersoutof
fearislovewasted.Itisofnovaluetouswhenheldinside
butcanincreaseinvalueahundredfoldwhensharedwith
anotherlike‑mindedindividualorwhendirectedtowards
agreateraspirationbeyondourownselfishneeds.
It has been often said, when attempting to offer an
explanationtowardsanotherwiseunlikelypairing,that
love is blind. In this context it is insinuated that love
is lacking in one of the physical senses and is unable
to discern the otherwise obvious imperfections which
maybeevidenttothosewhoproclaimtohaveaclearer
viewofreality.Whilethismaybearsometruthastothe
tendencyforlovetoignorecertainunseemlyattributes
whichmaybepresent inanother, itdoes little togive
credittothetruervisionofloveitself.Lovepossessesno
physicalsenseswhatsoever.Moreso,itisanextension
ofthephysicalsensesweareburdenedwithashuman
beings.Ourdistinctbut individualviewsofrealityare
basedontheinputwereceivefromthosephysicalsenses.
Andthosesensesareofteninfluencedbyfactorswhich
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24
liebeyondthereachofthesensesthemselves.Amotion
picturefoolsusintobelievingthatweareseeingaseam‑
less replay of events when in actuality we are seeing
nothingmorethanarapidseriesoffrozenmomentsin
timecapturedbytheeyeofthecamera.
Whenwegazeatabeautifulredroseweseeonlythe
narrow spectrum of colour which is reflected back at
usbut theentirespectrumofall theothercolours that
areabsorbedbyandcontainedwithinthatsameroseare
invisiblebutstillpresent.Askaman,blindfrombirth,
todescribearainboworadeafpersontosingalongtoa
songontheradio.Itisofcourseimpossibleforthemto
doso.However,askthosesamepeopletospeaktoyou
oftheirperceptionsofloveandyoumaybeamazedat
howcloselytheycoincidewithyourown.We,ashuman
beings,canneverfullycomprehendtherealityperceived
byanotherindividual.Thereforewemustbecarefulin
ourjudgmentsandintheconclusionswedrawbasedon
ourownperceptionsofreality.
Love’sreality,likebeauty,isheldsolelyintheeyes
ofthebeholder.Andlove’svision,ifwemusttranspose
aphysical senseuponanon‑physical entity, is crystal
clear.Itseeksthatwhichcoincidesappropriatelywithits
owndesires.Itisnotfoolproof,norisitalwaysaccurate
instrikingclosetotheheartofitstarget.Nevertheless,
itisanessentialcomponentofoursoul’srepertoireand
mustbegiventheautonomyitrequirestoseekoutthat
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whichholdspromisetoprovidetheneededsustenance
foritsowngrowth.
“Love, the strongest and deepest element in all life, the
harbinger of hope, of joy, of ecstasy; love, the defier of
all laws, of all conventions; love, the freest, the most
powerful molder of human destiny...”
Emma Goldman, US anarchist
And if perchance, on the emotional radar, our love
detectsthatlongsoughtcoherenceinthecountenanceof
anotherheart’sdesire;ourwillbecomesnothingmore
thanacandleinthewindofdestiny’sstorm.Love,enrap‑
turedbythecovenantofitsownreality,burstsforthwith
renewed direction and purpose. Senses overwhelmed,
ourmortallivesbecomenothingmorethanasuperficial
shellofawarenessaslovehasitswaywithourheart.To
denytheeventisfolly.Toquestionthesourceispoint‑
less.Toattempttocontaintheemotionissenseless.Itis
wewhoareblind;loveseesclearlyandmustfollowits
coursetotheend.Fortherecanbenogreaterachieve‑
mentinourlivesthantoallowtheessenceofourheartto
findmeaningandpurposeintheheartofanother.
“...And only in the end we’ll see,
Just what our lives were meant to be,
When all our childhood fantasies
Are lost within the mysteries
Of Time.”
Alan W. Goodson, American realist
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Loveisaffection.Loveissacrifice.Loveiscompro‑
mise.Loveisfaith.Loveisbelievableandunbelievable.
Loveisdestiny.Loveisstrength.Loveistrust.Loveis
adesirewithlust.Loveistheworld.Yeah,exactlywhat
islove?
Loveisallaboutshowingineffablefeelings,affections,
andsolicitudetowardapersonwhomyoucareabout.It
canalsobeexpressedinmanyways.Lovehassomany
definitionsanditisdefineddifferentlytoothersintheir
ownopinions.
Lovehasmanydifferentmeaningstodifferentpeople.
Forafour‑year‑old,loveismarryingherdaddywhenshe
growsup.Foranelementaryschoolkid,loveiswhathe
orshefeelsforhisorherbestfriend,whoalsoservesas
aboyfriendorgirlfriend.Toafifteen‑year‑oldboy,love
iswhatheshouldfeelforhisgirlfriendofthemoment;
onlybecauseshesayssheloveshim.Butaswegetolder
and “wiser”, love becomes more and more confusing.
Along with poets and philosophers, people have been
trying to answer that age‑old question for centuries:
What is love? One definition of love in the Merriam‑
Websterdictionaryis“attractionbasedonsexualdesire”
(439). Some people believe that love and sex are one
andthesame.Iftwopeopleareinlove,theyshouldbe
havingsex.
One of the greatest human fears is living, being,
anddyingalone;however, there issomething thatcan
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overcomethisfear,andthatislove.Whatislove?Can
yousee it?Doesone touch love,or is loveonly tobe
sensed?Doestrueloveexist,orisitjustacheapthrill
thatlastsforonenight?Doeslovehavesubstanceoris
itmerelyawordfabricatedasawaytojustifythemeans
ofpropagation?
What love is tousdependsonhowwedefine love,
andhowtheoneswelovedefinelove.Youcan’tchoose
whoyou“fallinlove”with,itjusthappens.Yourealize
oneday,thatapersonmeansmoretoyouthanyourown
life.Thatiswhenyouknowthatyouareinlove.Love
existsindifferentformsindifferentpeople’sminds.The
wordlove,anditsrelatedwords,hasbeencreatedover
aperiodoftime,butdoestruelovereallyexist?“True
love”isastateofmind,whichcomesandgoesinpeople.
Thetruthofloveisnearlyimpossibletofind,withthe
oddsbeingabout0.0000000001percentofeverfinding
it,andit’sgettingsmallereveryday.Itisn’ttangible,it
isn’temotional,butitcanbeacrutchfortheweak.
Theconceptof“truelove”isashelterforthosepeople
whobelieve thatwithout love, therewouldbenopoint
to life, no hope, no God, no anything. That life could
justexist,going forwardcontrary to theseprincipals. It
isobviousthatlovemeansmanydifferentthingstodif‑
ferent people and that to each it has a different value.
Becauseofthesedifferentvalues,somepeoplethrowthe
wordaroundmeaninglesslybecausetheyknowitiswhat
someonewantstohear.Theysaythattheylove,butwith
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nomeaningorsubstancetobackitup,itjustbecomesa
cheapthrill.Howisthatlove?Howcanpeopleusesuch
abeautifulmetaphortojustifytheseactions,unlessitwas
createdasanexcusetocommittheseactions?Thatisn’t
love.Theycanusethatasanexcuse,becausethat isn’t
reallylove.Theyusetheidea, thetheoriesandbasisof
loveas anexcusebecause theyareusing it inplaceof
whattheyarereallyfeeling.Thatlonelinessandthatbit‑
terlydependentfeelingfilltheirhearts,butthatisn’treally
love. Unfortunately in our world, shallowness and this
misuseofloveareapplaudedbythetroglodyticmasses.
Can love truly exist when there are people who
accept love at different values?Peopledon’t have to
agreeonthevalueandplaceofloveforittoexist,but
oneobjectcannotexistintwoplacesatonce,without
differentvalues.Bybeingperceivedasdifferentval‑
uesitcannotowneveryplaneandmind,meaningthat
some values are truer than others. Some people can
search all of their lives for lovenever to find it, and
otherscan livea lie thinking that theyhave found it.
Love is not what it is because people desire it to be
so,andloveisnotwhatitisbecauseofourday‑to‑day
human interactions.Love iswhat it isbecauseof the
differentwaysweimagineloveexists.Loveandemo‑
tionsareconstant,because theyareruledby instinct;
however love and emotions are opposites. They play
againsteachother,butcannottrulyexistwithouteach
other.Becauseofthisrelationship,lovecanhaveboth
alightandadarkside.Iflovewerethemostpowerful
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forceintheuniverse,thenitwouldhavethepowerto
killtheliving.
Whenyougiveyourhearttoaperson,thinkingthat
they would never hurt you, only to have them betray
you,youareleftwithanemptyfeeling,andinawayit
doeskillapartofyou.Thesideoflovewiththepower
tokillmakespeople,whowoulduseloveasanexcuse,
weak.Thesepeopleuseitasananchortoprotectthem‑
selvesfromemotions.Somepeoplewillevenuseitasan
excusetotaketheirownlife,tryingtoescapetheirpain.
This makes love weak, and in turn makes the people
wholoveweak.
This is the power of love, and yet people still take
it too lightly. Love has a serious power, which is too
oftentakenforgranted.Lovehashorridconsequencesif
youdonotrespectloveforwhatitistoothers.Itisnot
alwayswhatyouthinkitis,orwhatyouthinkitshould
be.Love can takemanydifferent forms and can even
bedeceptive.Onethingaboutloveisforsure;onceyou
findit,youneverwanttoloseit.Loveiseverywhereand
inmanydifferentformsallaroundus.Lovepermeates
ourthoughts,fillsourdreams,controlsouractions,but
itstillhasnodefinitevalue.Ofcourse,loveisdifferent
for everyone, and this is what love is to me. No one
cantellyouwhatlovemeanstoyou,becauseyouhave
to find it foryourself,anddefine it throughyourown
experiences.
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WE ARE FOREVER LOOKING FOR LOVE in
ourlives.Welookforasweetheartwhowill turninto
alovingspouse.Welookforlovefromourparentsand
respect from our children. We look for love from our
government,hopingourleaderswillbecompassionate
withusandourcountrymen.Butstrangely,weoftenget
intoourworstmesseswhenallwearedoingislooking
forlove.Amarriagemaysplitupduetooneofthepart‑
nerslookingelsewhereforlove.Ateenagermaywreck
hiscarandhisbodybydrivingtoofastinaquestfora
certainkindoflovefromhispeers.Desperateforlove,
people ruin theirmindswithdrugswhichgive thema
temporarysurgeofacounterfeitfeelingsimilartolove.
Doesanyoneeverfindlove?Ifso,whereisit?Obser‑
vationsuggeststhatlove,realasitis,cannotbefound
andisn’tanywhere.Whenyougolookingforit,youare
goingtofindsomethingelse.Whatyoufindmaykeep
you occupied for a while, even addicted, but it’s not
love.Loveisthemostpricelesstreasurethatlifeaffords
us.Religionsenshrineit,billboardsexploitit,professors
categorize itandnewspapersreportonitsperversions.
Butitisnowheretobefound.
Loveisasongthatthreadsitswaythroughourlives
frombeginning to end, butdidyouever try to find a
song?Youjustknowwhenyou’rehearingasong,and
you just know when you’re experiencing deep love,
butyoucan’tfindeitherone.Thesongisaprocess.It
weavesitswaythroughthevocalcordsandthroughthe
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air molecules, but neither the vibrations, nor the ears
thathearthemnorthevoicethatproducesthem,isthe
song.Youcanwritenotesonpapertosuggestasong,
butthenotesarenotthesong.Asongisaprocessthat
cannotbethesametwice.Evenifyouheararecorded
songtwiceinsuccession,therearetwodifferentsongs
because you yourself have changed slightly between
hearings. A song is a participatory, unrepeatable pro‑
cess.Andsoislove.
Loveandsongshideinthecracksoftheuniverse—not
onlybetween theatoms,butbetween thebetweens, in
therealmofquality,notquantity—inwhatisnotmani‑
fested(whichisnowhere).Loveandsongsmustanddo
expressthemselvesusingtimeandspace,buttheycan
beneitherfoundnorcapturedintimeandspace.
Ifnoonewerelookingforlove,ourworldwouldbein
sadshape,somemightsay.Butourworldalreadyisin
sadshapepreciselybecausesomanypeopleareonthis
questwhichseemssolaudableandreasonableuntilyou
examinetheresultsofit.Theproblemwithlookingfor
loveisthatitisthe“me”thatwantsit.The“me”wants
love in theformofpleasure,money,status, fame,and
anynumberofotherforms.Andifthe“me”wantsthese
thingsbadlyenough,the“me”willgetthem.Unfortu‑
nately,allthe“me”getsistheformsandnotthelove.
The“me”grabsforthebeautifulflameandgetsonlyhot
ashes.Loveeludesthe“me”always,becausethe“me”is
somewhere,andloveisnowhere—theycannevermeet.
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Istherenoway,then,tofindlove?Istherenosolution
tothisdilemma?Probablynot.However,itisasimple
fact that anyonecan love. It isoneofour inalienable
rightsashumanstoloveandtogive.Perhapslifecould
not even exist without this process. There is electric‑
itygeneratedintheactionoflovethatisasrealasthat
whichpowersatrainorlightsareadinglamp.Aswith
electricity,noonereallyknowswhatloveisnorwhere
it comes from, but we do know we can channel both
electricity and love through conduits. Properly chan‑
nelled electricity can transform our environment, and
properly channelled love can transform thequalityof
ourlives.
Itseemsthatloveismostvibrantinuswhenweforget
ourselves. Self‑forgetfulness is recommended by most
religionsasawaytopeaceandenlightenment.Knowing
this,spiritualaspirantstrytoforgetthemselves,hoping
peaceandenlightenmentwillcome.Catchnumberone
here is that theycannot forget that theyare forgetting
themselves,sotheyarestillcaughtinthe“me”.Thereis
nocatchnumbertwo.
Whenwegrowwearyoflookingforloveandfinding
onlyitsashesanditsforms,wemaysuddenlygiveupthe
search.Whenwehavebeenbittenbyourgreedandhave
hadourveryhealthimpairedbyoursearchforlove,we
stopourhurriedquestonedayandlookwithin—notwithin
the“me”,butwithinthecracksoftheuniverse.Wemay
notseeanything,butwefeelsomething—wehearasong.
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Wefeelachange inourselves,anewperspective from
nowhere.Wehaven’taskedforit.Wejuststopsearching
andthereitis.Thatislove,sneakingintoourlivesfrom
thecracksbetween thebetweens.Wewereneveraway
fromlove,butwecouldneverfindit.Weworeourselves
outlikethemanwhoranaroundthestreetsofthevillage
searchingforsomeairtobreathe.Hewastedmuchairto
dohissearching,butheneverfoundair.
Listen to the silence if you would hear the song of
love.Lovemaycatchyoubetweenbitesofanappleor
whileyouarecleaningthetoilet.Youlivewithinlove
always, but you can never find it, capture it, preserve
it or explain it—youmight aswell try tobuild a rose
withahammerandnails.Justwait,andlisten,andwatch
andwork—andonedaywhenthe timeis right,a rose
appearsonthebush.Thisroseisrootedinthecracksof
theuniverse,andsoislove,andsoareyou.
LOVE AWKWARDLY
WhenIwassmall(Iguess14)Isawadream,adreamof
livingintruelove.Iyearntoloveandbeloved.YetIam
wholewithoutit.Becauseifyouallowyourselftobegov‑
ernedbylovetotheextentthateitheryouaredepressedby
itsabsence,ormoreseriously,you—theindividual—are
suppressedbyitspresenceinyourlife,itonlybringsmore
unhappinessthanthehappinessitcanoffer.
Youcan’townahumanbeingandthusyoucan’tlose
whatyoudon’town.
For instance, I don’t think Nafisa Joseph’s suicide
was about love. She hanged herself after her fiancé
calledofftheirmarriage.Itwasaresponsethatalludes
toalackofemotionalwell‑being.ThoughIdon’treally
claimtoknowwhatlovemeanstotheyouthoftoday,
in my private dictionary it is an emotion that is felt
ratherthanexpressed,dreamtratherthanlived.
Love is the power that changes one—makes and
mouldsoneintoabeautifulperson.Notonlybecausethe
peoplethemselveschange,butbecausetherelationship
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is the definition of one’s self. Love is also imperfect.
Perfectlovedoesnotexist.Takeitorleaveit.
ButIlivewithperfectlove—inmydreams—itisthe
songofmyheart,mydefinition,myrealself.Itislikethe
whiteclouds lingeringonto theclearbluesky.Love is
themostbeautifulemotiononearth,andreallydoesnot
needanyonetolove.Onecanjustlove...Justlikeme
ThesongIbegintosingremainsunsungtothisday
Thetimehaspassedoverme,whileplaying
Andnotplaying,stringingandunstringing
Myinstrumenttothetuneoflove.
Hecamebesideme,whenthenightwas
Still dark, leading to eternal nothingness and I was
alone.
Myeyeswokenot;Iwasdeepintomysleep
Enjoyingit—wasIcursed?
Aquestion,whichhadnoanswer
Oh!It’saterriblefeeling,butterfliesinmystomach,
Iamimmobile,shivering
Fromtoptobottom.
Afeelingtryingtooverpowerme,drivemealong,
Whiskingmeoff,makingmeflyonthewings
Ofawhitedove,envelopedinlove.
Hewastherewithopenarms,
Makingmydreamsplay,stringingtheTunesoflove.
Alas!Iamstilllost—why?
WillIalwaysfailtoseehimwhosebreath
Touchesmyheart,refreshesmysoul?
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Dawnisyettocome—Icouldfeelthewind
Rushingby,touchingmewithlovingcare
Waitingformetowakeup—asadifferentbeing,
Apreciousflower.
Ihaveyetnotseenhisface,butknowHeispleasingto
theeye,
Ihavenotheardhisvoice,butknow
Itisdeepandmelodious,
I have not seen his eyes, know not what colour they
are—butknowthat
Itisdeeperthananyocean.
Ihaveonlyheardhisfootsteps,comingtowardsme
Andmypulse—beatingwitheverystephetakes
Nowisimmortal,butlifeisnot
::iwtillthisdayinthehope—tomeethim
Butwhen?
Thetimehasnotcome;themusicisyettoStart
OnlythewishtomeethimremainsinmyHeart.
Hewillmeetoneday,surely
Themeetingwillbeashotandpious
Asthefire
Asinnocentasthelittledoveandthemorningdew,
Assweetasthenightingalessong,
Asvibrantas thesunsraysglitteringon theMountain
peaks...
Wewillmeetoneday!
Myeyesopened...
BythetimeImanagedtodistinguishbetweendream
and reality, to shake off the remnants of the beautiful
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feeling,theskyoutsidewasawashwithgreylight,the
cloudshanginglow.Asthepresentgraduallycameback
intofocus,Istooddazed.Itwassuchadifferentfeeling,a
wholenewworldofemotionsdevelopinginsideme.My
heartjumpedforjoy,Icouldfeeltheharshwind,could
feel the rain fall on me like an endless stream—each
dropseemedliketheveryepitomeofloveandaffection.
I feltas if theheavenwaspouringall itsblessingson
me.AndIrealizedthatIwasinlove,inlovewithmy
imagination,mydream—withthevoicethatisunheard,
eyesthatareunseen—thisisloveformewhichdefines
me:innocent,pure,andaperfectUtopia.
Irealizedthatthisisanon‑practicaldream,butthen,
ifdreamsprovidehappinessandhelptomouldyouinto
abetter person, thenwhatharm is there indreaming?
Andthattoo,iftheyareaboutlove?Iwouldlovetolive
withmydreams—myeyeswillopentothemorningsun
caressingmelovingly.Tillthenletmeremainimmersed
inmydreams,heartandsoul.
“Was it a vision, or a waking dream? Fled is that
music.DoIwakeorsleep?”—JohnKeats
I’minlove,butawkwardly.
WhenImetmylifewhomIcallmyloveandname
himas , I sawmydreamscoming true…I found the
music,Ifoundthewateryeyesandsodidmyhappiness
whichwasstolensomewhereintheworldaroundme.
LOVE IS NOT LUST
Itisironichowloveandlustaresomuchrelatedtoeach
otheryetverymuchdifferent.Wellforonethingthey
don’thavethesamepurpose.Apersoninlustmaygreed‑
ilyhungerforsensualorsexualpleasurewhileaperson
inloveseesbeyondthephysicalandsimplytakesitas
thepartof thepackage thatmakes theperson special.
Certainly,lovesoundssomuchmoredecentandconser‑
vative,butdoesn’tlovesometimesstartwithlust?You
get drawn to theperson’sphysical attributes inwhich
youstartcheckingoutwhatlovelyeyesorlegsshehas;
ormaybeyougettantalizedbyhishuskybedroomvoice
thatgivesyougoosefleshanyday,anytimeandhecan
talkyouintoanything.Thefeelofhisskin, thecaress
ofhissmile,thewayhisvoicecuddleslikeababyask‑
ing for a hug, this makes him absolutely irresistible.
Thiscatchesyou;yousimplycannotgothroughanhour
withoutrememberinglastnight’sconversationandhow
finehelookedashestareddeepintoyoureyes.
Asyoudoso,youslowlyseewhatfirstattractedhim
toyou.Youfindthissointerestinglysexy,untillittleby
littleyoustartfallinginlove.Sowhatislustandwhatis
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love?Isitsimplyastateofmind,justlikealltherestof
theemotions,feelingsandstatesinthisworld?Simply
intheeyeofthebeholder,determinedbyhowoneper‑
ceivestherelationshiptobe?Orisitinthedepthofthe
relationship taking the notion that lust means shallow
andlovemeansdeep?
Imightbeblabberingaboutnonsense,oryoumight
agreewithmewordforwordbutnoonecandenythat
lovingandlustingisveryreal.Butalso,asIhavesaid,
itsdefinitionisrelativeandcanvarydifferentlyfrom
how one sees it. But lust could mean a lot of differ‑
ent things. Infatuation can be a form of lust as well
asidolatry(inplainlanguage:worshipingamoviestar
or any gorgeous, famous or rich, unattainable piece
ofmeat)andevenaplainoldcrushcanbe.Youstart
yearningforaregulargettogether,nightlychatseven
ifsometimeschattingdoesnotmeanaconversationbut
simplyholdingthetelephoneandhearinghimbreathe.
Itisasrealasyouandmeandatsomepointandtimein
ourliveswewillencounteritandthenstartquestion‑
ingourselvesaboutit.Thenonedayyou’resuddenly
hooked. As your conversation deepens you realize
thatyourheateddiscussiononphilosophyandshared
interestonthesamekindofactivitylike,letssay,rock
climbing, proves to be as stimulating and spine‑tin‑
gling as your usual smooth talking tête‑à‑tête. Lust
mightendupwithlovethesamewaythatlovemight
turnouttobelust.
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Whatexactlyismypoint?Thepointisitissometimes
hardtodistinguishlovefromlust.
Lustmightsoundaverysinfulword,sinceitisagainst
manyreligionstofallpreytoit.
There is a great contrast between love and lust.
Lustismoreofasexualorgreedyfeeling,whilelove
ismoreofasecureandcontentfilledfeelingweget
fromgivingandreceiving.Lustdoesnothave tobe
somethingsexual,itcanbeagreedydesireformore
money and power. The world has a superficial and
selfish view of love, which has contaminated our
understandingofwhatREALLOVEis.Popularcul‑
ture believes that love is something that makes us
FEELgoodandthatit’sacceptabletosacrificemoral
principles to obtain such love. But in doing so this
cultureISNOTobtaining the lovecharacteristicbut
thelustfulones.
“Donotcommitadultery.ButItellyouthatanyone
wholooksatawomanlustfullyhasalreadycommitted
adulterywithherinhisheart.Ifyourrighthandcauses
youtosin,gouge itoutand throwitaway.It isbetter
foryoutoloseonepartofyourbodythanforyouwhole
body to be thrown into hell. And if your right hand
causesyoutosin,cutitoffandthrowitaway.Itisbetter
foryoutoloseonepartofyourbodythanforyourwhole
bodytogointohell.”
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Iwas talking to someone theotherdayandwehad
conservationaboutlustandlove.Shetoldmethatpeo‑
pledon’tfallinlovebecauseitwillneverbethatway.
It’s all based on lust because couples will never hurt
eachotherifit’slove.Ikindofagreewiththispersonat
thispoint.ItwashardenoughtoadmitthatbecauseI’m
afirmbelieverofloveatfirstsightandfindingasoul
mate.WhenIrealizedwhatthisshewastryingtosay,I
questionedherpastexperienceinrelationships.Ifyou’re
apsychologist(I’mnot),youknowthepastexperiences
canmouldaperson’spersonaorbehaviour.AsIques‑
tioned her past relationships, I noticed that she had it
verybad.Shedoesn’tbelieveinloveanymorebecause
herpastboyfriendstreatedherbadly.Shedoesn’twant
togethurtagain.Iwastryingtoconvinceherthatthere
areplentyoffishintheseaandthatsheshouldtakeit
asanexperiencesoshewon’tmake thesamemistake
again.
However,it’seasiersaidthandone,right?Thishap‑
penstopeoplewhotrytocompromisewhattheyhave
withtheirpartners.Theygiveeverythingtheyhavejust
toseeitcrumpledtotheground.
Eventhoughpeoplelikeherhadbadexperiencesin
relationships,theyshouldnevergiveuponlove.Donot
leta“darkcloud”gooveryourheart.Thatdarkcloud
willjustblockeveryopportunitytobeloved.Ifyoufeel
thisway,don’tbeafraidoflove.
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Broad‑mindedthoughwetakeourselvestobe,lustgets
abadpress.Itistheflyintheointment,theblacksheep
of thefamily, the ill‑bred, trashycousinofupstanding
memberslikeloveandfriendship.Itlivesonthewrong
sideofthetracks,lumbersaroundelbowingitswayinto
toomuchofourlives,andblusheswhenitcomesinto
company.
Some people like things a little on the trashy side,
butnotmostofusmostofthetime.Wesmileatlovers
holdinghandsinthepark,butwrinkleournosesifwe
find themactingout their lustunder thebushes.Love
receivestheworld’sapplause.Lustisfurtive,ashamed,
embarrassed.Lovepursues thegoodof theotherwith
self‑control,reasonandpatience.Lustpursuesitsown
gratification,headlong,impatientofanycontrol,immune
toreason.Lovethrivesoncandlelightandconversation.
Lustisequallyhappyinadoorwayorinataxi,andits
conversationismadeofanimalgruntsandcries.Love
isindividual:thereisonlytheuniqueother.Lusttakes
what comes. Lovers gaze into each other’s eyes. Lust
lookssideways,inventingdeceit,stratagemsandseduc‑
tions,sizingupopportunities.Lovegrowswithknowl‑
edgeandtime,courtship,truthandtrust.Lustisatrail
ofclothinginthehallway,thecollisionoftwofootball
packs.Lovelasts,lustcloys.
Thelandscapeofhumanlustandhumanthinkingis
huge. People have devoted lifetimes to charting small
partsofit.Evenasyouread,neurologistsareplottingit,
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pharmacistsaredesigningdrugstomodifyit,doctorsare
tinkeringwithitsmalfunctions,socialpsychologistsare
setting questionnaires about it, evolutionary psycholo‑
gistsaredreamingup theoriesof itsorigins,postmod‑
ernistsaredeconstructingit,andfeministsareworrying
about it. And a large part of the world’s literature is
devotedtoit,ortoitscloserelative,eroticlove.
Anotherpersonalopinionisthatlustcanbebeautified
if it isdipped in thepoolof love.Lust is just another
form of love which should be made soft and silky to
makeabeautifulrelationship.
FRIENDSHIP—THE ULTIMATE LOVE
Sofirst,Imustaskmyselfaquestion....Whatisreal
friendship? I hear about friendship a lot...there are
all sorts of TV shows depicting supposed friends
interacting with each other...people call each other
friend easily and quickly. But is all of that really
friendship?
Not tome.Througha lotof trialanderror, through
alotofpainfulinteraction,Ihavecometoasharpened
awarenessofwhatafriendreallyis.AndalotofwhatI
hearcalled“beingfriends”simplydoesnotfitintomy
definitionof“friendship”.
“Okay,fine,”’youmaysay.“Thenwhat,Beth,isyour
definitionoffriendship?”
Well, first I’d like toweedout the things I seeget‑
ting confused for friendship, but that aren’t it. I see
a continuum of various levels of social closeness:
Acquaintanceship, Companionship, Comradeship, and
then...finally...Friendship.
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It’sratherstrangehowweautomaticallybegincalling
a new acquaintance a friend, just because they act
friendly.Beingfriendly,asthewordisused,reallyhas
verylittlewiththecore,thedepthofbeingafriend.It
is really nothing more than a happy, welcoming style
ofpoliteness.Sure, friendsareusuallywarmandwel‑
coming,too,butpeoplemakethisautomaticjumpfrom
pleasantnesstofriendshipwithoutcheckingtoseeifthat
iswhatitreallyis.
Or inotherwords, justbecauseyouare treatingme
nicelyandIhappentoknowyournamedoesnotmake
meyourfriend.ItmeansIhavethebeginningofanidea
ofwhoyouare,butnotenoughtosaythatIaremore
thananacquaintance.
But let’s say we do more than acknowledge each
other’sexistenceinapleasantmanner.Wegettotalk‑
ingandfindoutwesharesomethingsincommon.Per‑
haps we even met in the first place because we share
acommon interest andarebothmembersof the same
club or interest‑related group. While we’re there, we
likehangingoutwitheachother...Welikeeachother’s
company,eventhoughwestillreallydon’tknowmuch
moreabouteachotherthanwhatweseeonthesurface.
Wehavereachedthestatusofhang‑outbuddies,weare
sharingcompanionship.
Similar, but I think generally deeper; there is the
comradeship that develops between people who are
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working towards a common goal or for a common
cause.Comrades‑in‑arms,whetherpartofthemilitary,
co‑workersinamanufacturingplantorsupportstafffor
MRgrouphomes,oftenshareabondingduetothespe‑
cificstressesoftheworkthattheyarebothundergoing
atthesametime.Becausetheyunderstandthestresses
ofthejoband/orsituationthattheyareunder,theyare
abletoclearlyunderstandthosestressesthattheother
person is also under. Even so, that connection is not
friendship.Itislimitedanddoesnotmeanyouhavean
understandingoftheotherpersonasawhole.Youonly
understandoneaspect.
Understandingisakeyconcepthere.Inallmyobser‑
vations, in all my ponderings, it consistently appears
thattherecannotbeatruefriendshipwithoutfirstbuild‑
ingunderstanding.Youwillundoubtedlyhaveamuch
harder time caring about something (and someone) if
youcannotunderstandit/thematall.
Ironically, however, it also appears that the clos‑
est friendships can be between people who are very,
very different. For example, Alex and I have a very
strong friendship, but I think in completely different
waysthanshedoes.Hermindassessesthingsusinga
muchmoremathematicaltypeofapproach,whilemy
ownapproachtendstobemoreofasynthesis...which
inturnsappearstometoberelatedtovisualinterpreta‑
tionsofdata.
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Thereisagreatdealofunderstandingbetweenus...
we have shared many similar experiences as well
as literally sharing experiences (having done things
together).Wehavealsohelpedeachotherunderstand
eachother,sothatalthoughwedonotprimarilythink
liketheotherdoes,wecan(usually)followeachother
in our thoughts. In this respect, having the dissimilar
aswellasthesimilarhelpskeepthingsinteresting.We
canbothunderstandandbecompletelymystifiedatthe
sametime...orsoitsometimesseems,(LOL).
And sowe finally come tomydefinitionof friend‑
ship—deep,genuinecaring,concernandawillingnessto
acttothebenefitofthefriendevenwithoutanyobvious
rewardsorreturns.Becauseoftheseprerequisites,there
will also be a subsequent amount of thought given to
your friend...you will take them and their own wants,
needs,andpreferencesas well as your ownintoaccount
whenever both of you are involved. You will, by the
natureoffriendship,beconsiderateofthem.
Thisiswhatitmeanstobeafriend.Eventhoughthere
isdifference,thereisalsoharmony.Theremaybedif‑
ferencesinstylesofthoughtandbeing,butthelinesof
themelody,sotospeak,willbetravellinginthesame
directionandshowasimilarityinchoices.Inmoralfibre,
perhapswouldbeonewaytosayit.Therewillbe,for
all the differences, very distinct similarities in values,
worldviews,andpersonaldevelopmentgoals.
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Ondefiningfriendshipascaring,concernandawill‑
ingnesstoactonbehalfofone’sfriendhasanothercon‑
textaswell. In thiscontext,beingone’sownfriendis
thoroughlyhealthyandinmyopinionanecessity.Ifyou
cannotbeafriendtoyourselffirst,youcannottrulybe
afriend toanyoneelse.This isespecially truesince it
takes understanding in order to care. This means you
must understand your own self in order to care about
yourself...thatfirstimportantsteptowardsrealfriendship.
Youcannotjumpthattasktobeatruefriendtoanother,
whoyouwillalmostcertainlyunderstandevenlessthan
youunderstandyourself.
Irespectfullysubmit thatbeingafriend,whetheror
notanotherpersoniseverafriendback,isoneofthose
importantmilestonesontheroadoflivingasuccessful
and rich life. Trying to earn another person’s friend‑
shipisnotthewaytogo.Itisnotasimportanttohave
friends...itisimportanttobeafriend.
Beafriendtoyourselffirst;theotherswillfindyou
astheyareready.
Whatissogreatasfriendship,letuscarrywithwhat
grandeurofspiritwecan.Letusbesilent—sowemay
hearthewhisperofthegods.Letusnotinterfere.Who
setyoutocastaboutwhatyoushouldsaytotheselect
souls,orhowtosayanythingtosuch?Nomatterhow
ingenious,nomatterhowgracefulandbland.Thereare
innumerabledegreesoffollyandwisdom,andforyou
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tosayaughtistobefrivolous.Waitandthyheartshall
speak. Wait until the necessary and everlasting over‑
powersyou,untildayandnightavailthemselvesofyour
lips.Theonlyrewardofvirtueisvirtue:theonlywayto
haveafriendistobeone.Youshallnotcomenearera
manbygetting intohishouse. Ifunlike,hissoulonly
flees the faster fromyou, andyou shall never catch a
trueglanceofhis eye.We see thenoble afaroff, and
theyrepelus;whyshouldweintrude?Late—verylate—
weperceive thatnoarrangements,no introductionsor
habitsofsociety,wouldbeofanyavailtoestablishus
insuchrelationswiththemaswedesire—butsolelythe
upriseofnatureinustothesamedegreeitisinthem:
thenshallwemeetaswaterwithwater:andifweshould
notmeetthemthen,weshallnotwantthem,forweare
alreadythey.Inthelastanalysis,loveisonlythereflec‑
tionofaman’sownworthiness fromothermen.Men
havesometimesexchangednameswiththeirfriends,as
iftheywouldsignifythatintheirfriendeachlovedhis
ownsoul.
The higher the style we demand of friendship, of
coursethelesseasytoestablishitwithfleshandblood.
Wewalkaloneintheworld.Friends,suchaswedesire,
aredreamsandfables.Butasublimehopecheersever
thefaithfulheart,thatelsewhere,inotherregionsofthe
universal power; souls are now acting, enduring, and
daring,whichcanloveus,andwhichwecanlove.We
maycongratulateourselvesthattheperiodofnonage,of
follies,ofblunders,andofshame,ispassedinsolitude,
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and when we are finished men, we shall grasp heroic
handsinheroichands.Onlybeadmonishedbywhatyou
alreadysee,nottostrikeleaguesoffriendshipwithcheap
persons, where no friendship can be. Our impatience
betraysusintorashandfoolishallianceswhichnoGod
attends.Bypersisting inyourpath, thoughyou forfeit
thelittle,yougainthegreat.Youdemonstrateyourself,
soastoputyourselfoutofthereachoffalserelations,
andyoudrawtoyouthefirst‑bornoftheworld—those
rarepilgrimswhereofonlyoneortwowanderinnature
atonce,andbeforewhomthevulgargreat,showasspec‑
tresandshadowsmerely.
Itisfoolishtobeafraidofmakingourtiestoospiri‑
tual;asifsowecouldloseanygenuinelove.Whatever
correctionofourpopularviewswemakefrominsight,
naturewillbesuretobearusoutin,andthoughitseem
torobusofsomejoy,willrepayuswithagreater.Let
us feel, ifwewill, theabsolute insulationofman.We
aresurethatwehaveallinus.WegotoEurope,orwe
pursuepersons,orwereadbooks,intheinstinctivefaith
thatthesewillcallitoutandrevealustoourselves.Beg‑
garsall.Thepersonsaresuchaswe;theEurope,anold
fadedgarmentofdeadpersons;thebooks,theirghosts.
Letusdrop this idolatry.Letusgiveover thismendi‑
cancy.Letusevenbidourdearestfriendsfarewell,and
defythem,saying,“Whoareyou?Unhandme:Iwillbe
dependentnomore.’Ah!seestthounot,Obrother,that
thuswepart only tomeet againon ahigherplatform,
andonlybemoreeachother’s,becausewearemoreour
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own?”AfriendisJanus‑faced:helookstothepastand
thefuture.Heisthechildofallmyforegoinghours,the
prophetofthosetocome,andtheharbingerofagreater
friend.
Ido thenwithmyfriendsas Idowithmybooks. I
wouldhave themwhereIcanfind them,butIseldom
usethem.Wemusthavesocietyonourownterms,and
admitorexcludeitontheslightestcause.Icannotafford
tospeakmuchwithmyfriend.Ifheisgreat,hemakesme
sogreatthatIcannotdescendtoconverse.Inthegreat
days,presentimentshoverbeforemeinthefirmament.I
oughtthentodedicatemyselftothem.IgointhatImay
seizethem;IgooutthatImayseizethem.Ifearonlythat
Imaylosethemrecedingintotheskyinwhichnowthey
areonlyapatchofbrighterlight.Then,thoughIprize
myfriends,Icannotaffordtotalkwiththemandstudy
theirvisions, lestI losemyown.Itwouldindeedgive
meacertainhouseholdjoytoquitthisloftyseeking,this
spiritualastronomy,orsearchofstars,andcomedown
towarmsympathieswithyou;but then Iknowwell I
shallmournalways thevanishingofmymightygods.
Itistrue,nextweekIshallhavelanguidmoods,when
Icanwellaffordtooccupymyselfwithforeignobjects
andthenIshallregret thelost literatureofyourmind,
andwishyouwerebymysideagain.Butifyoucome,
perhapsyouwillfillmymindonlywithnewvisions,not
withyourselfbutwithyourlustre,andIshallnotbeable
anymorethannowtoconversewithyou.SoIwillowe
tomyfriendsthisevanescentintercourse.Iwillreceive
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fromthemnotwhattheyhave,butwhattheyare.They
shallgivemethatwhichproperlytheycannotgive,but
whichemanatesfromthem.Buttheyshallnotholdme
byanyrelationslesssubtleandpure.Wewillmeetas
thoughwemetnot,andpartasthoughwepartednot.
IthasseemedtomelatelymorepossiblethanIknew,
tocarrya friendshipgreatly,ononeside,withoutdue
correspondence on the other. Why should I cumber
myselfwithregretsthatthereceiverisnotcapacious?It
nevertroublesthesunthatsomeofhisraysfallwideand
vainintoungratefulspaceandonlyasmallpartonthe
reflectingplanet.Letyourgreatnesseducate thecrude
andcoldcompanion.Ifheisunequal,hewillpresently
passaway;butthouartenlargedbythyownshiningand,
nolongeramateforfrogsandworms,dostsoarandburn
withthegodsoftheempyrean.Itisthoughtadisgraceto
loveunrequited.Butthegreatwillseethattruelovecan‑
not be unrequited. True love transcends the unworthy
object,anddwellsandbroodsontheeternal,andwhen
the poor, interposed mask crumbles, it is not sad, but
feelsridofsomuchearth,andfeelsitsindependencythe
surer.Yetthesethingsmayhardlybesaidwithoutasort
of treachery to the relation. The essence of friendship
isentireness,atotalmagnanimityandtrust.Itmustnot
surmiseorprovideforinfirmity.Ittreatsitsobjectasa
god,thatitmaydeifyboth.
Chapter 1
I would conclude by saying that all emotions centre
aroundthenameoflove.Thedifferenceisthatweneed
tomendourselvestoearnhappinessoutofsadness,joy
inplaceofsorrow,softnessinsteadofhardnessandso
on.Onehastoknowoneselftobejudged.
SIMILARLYKNOWMETOJUDGEME!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’velearntthat
Ifamanwantsyou,nothingcankeephimaway.
If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him
stay...
Stopmakingexcusesforamanandhisbehaviour.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from
heartache.
Stoptryingtochangeyourselvesforarelationship
that’snotmeanttobe.Slowerisbetter.Neverlive
yourlifeforamanbeforeyoufindwhatmakesyou
trulyhappy.Ifarelationshipendsbecausetheman
wasnottreatingyouasyoudeservethenheckno,
youcan’t“befriends”.Afriendwouldn’tmistreat
afriend.Don’tsettle.Ifyoufeellikeheisstringing
youalong,thenheprobablyis.
CONCLUSION
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Don’t stay because you think “it will get better”.
You’ll bemad at yourself a year later for staying
whenthingsarenotbetter.
Theonlypersonyoucancontrolinarelationshipis
you.
Never let a man know everything, he will use it
againstyou!!!!
I’velearnedthatyoucannotmakesomeoneloveyou.
Allyoucando isbe someonewhocanbe loved.The
restisuptothem.I’velearnedthatnomatterhowmuch
I care, some people just don’t care back. I’ve learned
thatittakesyearstobuilduptrustandonlysecondsto
destroy it. I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in
yourlive,butwhoyouhaveinyourlifethatcounts.
I’ve learned thatyou shouldn’t compareyourself to
thebestotherscando,buttothebestyoucando.I’ve
learned that it’snotwhathappens topeople, it’swhat
theydo about it. I’ve learned that nomatter how thin
yousliceit,therearealwaystwosides.I’velearnedthat
youshouldalwaysleavelovedoneswithlovingwords.
Itmaybethelasttimeyou’llseethem.I’velearnedthat
youcankeepgoinglongafteryouthinkyoucan’t.
I’velearnedthatheroesarethepeoplewhodowhat
hastobedonewhenitneedstobedone,regardlessof
the consequences. I’ve learned that there are people,
wholoveyoudearly,butjustdon’tknowhowtoshow
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it. I’ve learned thatsometimeswhenI’mangryIhave
therighttobeangrybutthatdoesn’tgivemetherightto
becruel.I’velearnedthatTRUEfriendshipcontinuesto
growevenoverthelongestdistance;thesamegoesfor
TRUElove.
I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and
youmustforgivethemforthat.I’velearnedthatitisn’t
alwaysenoughtobeforgivenbyothers,sometimesyou
havetolearntoforgiveyourself.I’velearnedthatno
matterhowbadyourheartisbroken,theworlddoesn’t
stopforyourgrief.I’velearnedthatjustbecausetwo
people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each
otherandjustbecausetheydon’targue,itdoesn’tmean
theydo.
I’velearnedthatsometimesyouhavetoputtheindi‑
vidualaheadoftheiractions.I’velearnedthattwopeo‑
plecanlookattheexactsamethingandseesomething
totallydifferent.I’velearnedthatnomattertheconse‑
quences,thosewhoarehonestwiththemselvesgetfar‑
therinlife.I’velearnedthatyourlifecanbechangedin
amatterofhours.
I’ve learned that thepeopleyoucaremost about in
lifeare takenfromyoutoosoon.I’ve learned that it’s
hardtodeterminewheretodrawthelinebetweenbeing
niceandnothurtingpeople’sfeelingsandstandingup
forwhatyoubelieve.I’velearnedtoloveandbeloved.
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I’velearnedthatthere’snooneinthisworldIlikebetter
oramcloser to thanmyMomandDad...Theyare the
oneswhowillstandwithyouallthetime.
Istandupformyselfandmybeliefs...Istandupfor
thoseIlove...Ispeakmymind,thinkmyownthoughts
anddothingsmyway.Iwon’tcompromisewithwhat’s
in my heart, I live my life MY way. I won’t allow
anyone to step on me, I refuse to tolerate injustice. It
meansIhavethecourageandstrengthtoallowmyself
tobeme.Sotrytostomponme,dousemyinnerflame,
squasheveryounceofbeautyIholdwithin—youwon’t
succeed.And if thatmakesmeaSUPERWOMAN, I
embracemytitleandIamproudtobeone!
Thereisnorealconclusiontolife,loveandrelation‑
ship.Therealconclusionliesintheflowofthoughtsand
measurestoimplementthelove.Therearemanytimes
when love doesn’t respond the way we want to, or it
doesn’tdothingstomakeyoufeelontopoftheheaven.
Whatweneedtounderstandisthatloveneverdiesand
nevergoesaway. It remainssilent forever irrespective
ofanymaterialistic thingshappeningornot. It ishard
tobelieveandevenhard to implement, but this is the
truth.
SPREADTHEMESSAGEFORABETTERFUTURE
…BETTERLIVING
…ANDHENCEABETTERLIFE!!!!