My PoetryBy: Jennifer Pelletier

It's Never Me, It's Always Her....

I can have everything in the world,But I'd still have nothing on you, I had him here in my arms our hands together,but his heart wasn't here it was in your hands where he left it. I'm hurt?

To say the least I wanted to make you feel the pain I felt and the anger all the physical emotions that ruined my body and soul. I had him at my home....

In my arms we were so close! Yet he was so distant the only person he thinks of is you.. He held me close,but he wasn't seeing me..

He was seeing you it breaks my heart and soul every little piece slips to the ground and shatters that much more..

It hurts is all I can say, Love him? Yes I do,but would I tell you? Haha no that sweetie I cannot do, Since it isn't right to tell someone you love them when you already have someone....

All I can say is I've tried over the years to make you jealous and to hurt you,but I've realized that I can't ever fully have you..

Even if your lips were on mine your heart wouldn't be in it oh no it wouldn't if we were hand in hand lip to lip chest to chest my heart would beat like crazy and my blood would run so much faster I would love to be so close in such A loving way..

But you wouldn't be thinking of me no no it would be her, It always has been and I can't change that I realize now that I will never fully have you like I really want to =( But I'm never gonna say that I really do love you..

On My Own

On my own in this world,Just trying to get by,One day at a time,On my own wanting more, Praying,Dreaming,Wishing,On my own as my heart breaks,On my ownas my world crashes to the ground,On my own till you come,On my own till the end of time,On my own till I die,On my own on this night,On my own as I sit and cry,On my own as I wish to see your face,On my own till you arrive,On my own till you bring me home,On my own as I cry,On my own till I die,On my own all alone.

Wishing

As I wait wishing for the day you arrive,Wishing for your love back,Wishing you were home,Wishing you cared,Wishing you knew,Wishing I told,Wishing for you to hold,Wishing in my head for my world to end,Wishing for you,Wishing for love,Wishing and wishing.

On My Roof

As I sit and think,I wonder how he feels,I wonder why I hide,I wonder why I care,I wonder why I call,I wonder as I cry here under the moon,I wonder where you are,And as I wonder I call him,as he answers I luv his voice,Hello he says,And as I say I love you & I shall die for you,I hang up,As I take my blade and start to cut,I hear a voice,That I fear the most,I hear my name,from my one,And as I fade,I wonder why her why not me?,And as I awake to see i'm not dead,I look to see the one I love fast asleep,And as he runs to me,And says it culdn't be,I hear her the voice i dread,The one he says he loves,as I get chills he says goodbye and forgive me please,And he is gone,And he leaves me in pain,I sit painfully as I wallow,And I scream and as I dream of a beautiful world where it is only you and I,Happily at last,Or so is the last thing I see before I fade from the pain,Still wishing it didn't happen,On My Roof!!!

As My Heart Breaks

As I sit,As I wait,As my heart breaks,As my love leaves,As im left,As I sing,As I burn,As I lie,As they say,As I wonder,As I pray,As you say,"I Love You" As you watch,As u see,As I breakdown,As im on my knees begging god please,As I cry,As ppl see,As my heart breaks,As they laugh I bleed,As they sing I bled,As they smile I frown,As they love I lose,As they live I die,As they feel I go numb,As they show I hide,As they give I forbid,As they believe I bring truth,As I pain they ask Will she ever love again As my heart breaks.:(

Bleeding

As I bleed they see,They see the way you made me,As I cry They wind,But as they say,Pain shall heal,Time shall show,They don't feel as I feel,As I bleed and wait for thee,As I die you live,As I gave,You said you loved,As I thought,You bought,As you loved,I fought,As I bleed they see,As I bleed,:(

Let Me Live My Life!

Why do you come around, just when I thought you were gone,you pop back up,old memories flow threw my head,The old times,The fun days,O how I miss them,It seems no matter how hard I try to get you off my mind,But nothing seems to ever work,When I think of you it's hard to breath,My heart skips a beat,Every time I see you all the memories come back and tears form fast,Almsot crying I turn away afraid of what you'll say,Some days even wishing for one day for you to come back to me,Some nights I scream your name but never getting an answer,Makes me wonder why I try just please i'm begging you let me live my life,Trying to let go of everything we had every memory won't lleave me alone, my heart so sore from crying for you wanting you to leave me be but sadly you will always haunt me,Why is it that no matter what I will love you,Why may I never get over you,but question do you love me too as much as I love you,sadly I care for you trying my hardest to just let go but nothing seems to work but every night and day I will beg and beg for you to just let me live.

Let Me Live My Life!

Why do you come around, just when I thought you were gone,you pop back up,old memories flow threw my head,The old times,The fun days,O how I miss them,It seems no matter how hard I try to get you off my mind,But nothing seems to ever work,When I think of you it's hard to breath,My heart skips a beat,Every time I see you all the memories come back and tears form fast,Almsot crying I turn away afraid of what you'll say,Some days even wishing for one day for you to come back to me,Some nights I scream your name but never getting an answer,Makes me wonder why I try just please i'm begging you let me live my life,Trying to let go of everything we had every memory won't lleave me alone, my heart so sore from crying for you wanting you to leave me be but sadly you will always haunt me,Why is it that no matter what I will love you,Why may I never get over you,but question do you love me too as much as I love you,sadly I care for you trying my hardest to just let go but nothing seems to work but every night and day I will beg and beg for you to just let me live.

All You Wanted

All You Wanted Was Someone Special,Someone To Love And Care For,Someone To Show The World,To Carry On Your Wedding Day,All You Wanted Was Me,And I Turned My Face,Now I See I Made A Mistake,One To Never Be Fixed,A Love Mistake,All You Wanted Was To Show Me The World,To Carry Me On Our Wedding Day,All You Wanted Was To Care For Me,And I Turned Away,All You Wanted.

Throw Me Down

Throw me downYou let me fall to many times,Even though you always shut me down,That was never enough!You threw me around.Don't throw me down anymore,I have no tears left to cry,You stabbed me in the heart,And not to my surprise you left that night.I tried to say I Love You,But all you did was turn your back to me,You said i'll never understand,You said that I don't see.Though to my surprise,I am happier here,Even after the mess you made,Cause now Everything is clear.

Forgotten

Thrown into the deep end,Having trouble breathing,How you tossed me aside,And how you said nevermind.Whats trouble did I cause you?To make you wanna leave!You forgot about me,only to find her,I don't understand.

I feel forgotten, so unforgiven,How misunderstanding,Could you possibly be?,How could you forget about me....So EASILY?I'm so forgotten, So miserable,Though still completley,Heart stoppingly forgotten.

Glad We Are Friends

After everything we have been through,Ever since middle school,Once we had been best friends,But sadly one day that all had to end!I lost everyone that I was close to,But who ment the most was....YOU,We had been friends for years,From beginning to end.

But everything changed and came to an end,But now we are sophmores,And to this day,Our friendship has faded away.But now we are friends again,Thankfully and Hopefully,From beginning to end,I wanted to show you my friend....,Friendship is everything when it's ours on the line!

The Truth

Ask me if I care what you think, And ill say no,But on the inside I really do,Ask me if I love you, And I'll burry my face in my hands and say,I never could even though it'd be a lie you would believe it,Ask me if I ever think of you, And I'll say never,when I really always do,Ask me if I ever wanted to kiss you, I'll say no,But I've dreamt about it, Ask me if I ever wanted you to hold me, I'll say no,But I feel cold without your arms around me,Ask me if I miss you when you leave, I'll say no, Even though I feel lonely until you come back, Ask me if I remenis on the good old days, I'll say no,But at least once everyday you pop into my mind and the way things use to be,Ask me if I ever fell out of love with you, I'll say yes,Even if its a lie,Ask me if I ever forgot you 10 yrs from now,I'll say yeah,But I really never did,Ask me to be honest, And I'll tell you this....I have always cared what you thought,I have always loved you,I always think of you,I've always wanted to kiss you I've dreamt about it,I feel cold when you don't hold me,I miss you whenever your gone even if its not for long, Yes I always think about the past and what use to be, No I never fell out of love with you,I would never forget you not in 10 yrs not even in a million, And now I am being honest with you.

Gone So Young (Written For My Friend Whom Passed Away)

You left the world just days ago,And I'm waiting for it to sink in,I've seen so many tears and sad faces,Some that I share,You were only 18 to young to leave this world,I watched your family and friends weep,Even the teachers cried,All seeing the pictures of the good times,It doesn't seem real,You looked asleep,I wanted that to be true....But far from that,I saw the girl you love,She's beautiful and sad now,A day and it all had gone down,You left so mnay behind,I wish I could ask you why?You were to young to go,To loved to leave,So why were you taken from those whom love you?Why is life so cruel that it had to break so many hearts?And caused so many tears,Why only 18,You barley got to live! You had so much ahead of you!And now it's dissapeared!

I Can't Understand

I can't understand why they would do this to me,Tell me not to worry then break me down,Say its all okay,yet everything is falling apart,How could I have ever called them my parents,Knowing they really aren't,They sworeThey'd be different,but why are they allthe same, I can't seem to grasp a reason,Why they would do this to me,The love of my life is drifting away,Because they don't see him as good enough,But who I am with is not up to them,It hasn't been for years,So the words I say is I will never leave his side,Like he has never left mine even on my worst days,When I would scream and cry, Now it's your turn to listen,If you make me choose my choice is clear,I will go with him and in your fear I will be wed,And you will never see me again,Then you can think back and look at the reasons why,This was my last goodbye,I can't understand your reasons,when he's been nothingbut nice,So now I'll tear away from you and show you, your mistakeI'll prove we can do good,and that I don't need your help,Your not the mom and dad who raised me so give up on stopping me,My final words I say,This my final goodbye,I won't see you later.

I Know Now

I'm not sure what to say,I do this everyday,I try to find the right words to say,But it always come out the same,I babble about how I feel,I make up excuses as to why I won't let go,But it's about time I realize,things will never be the same,So now I know what to say,I'm sorry for bugging you everyday,It seems my wish may never come true,And I really would hate yo Forget you,But I think it's time I let go,But always know I Love You,GoodBye

How To Let Go? (About My Gramma Whom Passed)

How can I let go of someone I held so closeHow can I deal with the fact that I will never see you againOr that god had to take you away so soonI don't know why you didn't tell us soonerThat you would be leaving I don'tUnderstand why I couldn't spend more time with youBefore you had to leave we all had to mournBut it still doesn't feel right living without you by my sideYou pretty much raised me cause mom and dad had to workI told you everything and you always had answersYou helped me with life and everything that came with itBut now since you are gone I feel helplessI have no one left to go toIt still doesn't feel like you've left usIt feels like i could go to your home and see you sitting on your chairWatching tv like the old days.....But i can't anymore I tried to the other dayThen I remembered you weren't there...How do I deal with the fact that I dont have my grammaAnymore? How do I move on and stop feeling so helplessWith you gone? You had every answer I ever neededAnd now I have so many questionsBut no one to go to.....How can I let go?

Blissful Innocence

The way things once wereAre a thing of the pastI'm not sure where to go from hereOr how to tell you the truthSomething has changedAnd I now see that it was something in youWhere is that sweet boy I fell in love with?The songs and poems don't mean anything anymoreThey aren't what made me love youThe bliss i once felt when i'd hear your voiceEven over the phone I never wanted to hang upYou left my heart soaring and now....I don't know what to sayWe haven't talked in years and I still don'tThink i'm over you So how do I tell youI think I still love youThe blissful innocence has been taken awayBy the love of another,but everytime I see your faceIt's like our past rushes into my soul againforcingthe words from my lipsThe ones I had hoped never to admitI Love You.....

An Angel Without Wings

This once beautiful girl,the one who stole his heart,is now so torn apart,he sits back and weeps in pain everytime she sees his face,she whispers to her self that everything will soon be okay,but we all know the truth shes lying to herself knowing nothing will ever be the same,shes an angel with no wings burned down to the tips,her once tender heart has finally been ripped,she breaks out crying when she sees him with her,she was once his angel,once his world,but now shes nothing in this world,she frowns upon herself thinking she did something wrong,though she loves him he shows nuthing not a point of love,shes an angel with no wings just trying to hold on tight,she has nuthing left since he has left,if not for her he may have left the world for good,but now he has no use for her or so it seems and if he can tell her different please do before she finally leaves crying herself to sleep wishing to just touch his face and to kiss him one last time wishing she was still the angel he needs,but she knows the truth she means nthing to her once far lover and wishes him the best as she has tried to let go tried to move on,but she must finally give up and give in she loves him and him only needing him to hold or to live not at all..shes an angel without wings wings....

Hidden Inside (Written 4 Years Ago)

I hide my feelings even when i wanna cry,They all think i am over you,but boy are they are ever so wrong,I still cry in my sleep,I dream of you every night,I push away all my tears even through the next years,I hide it away acting strong,They all think i have finally moved on,But they are still so wrong,My heart still bleeds for your love,My brain still thinks of you even over time,I try to push my thoughts away,but nothing ever works,I could die and you would still be on my mind,I am hidden inside my own pain i don't know who i am anymore,ever since i lost your love my heart has been totally torn apart,Hidden inside is all i can say all i know all my world,Everything i ever knew all the feelings i ever felt come out at night,I still call your name with no answer i question my feelings,Hidden inside until the day I die,no one will ever know that i still truly love you deep inside,Hidden inside falling apart my tears are falling every where i go,My mind is breaking apart,My mask is finally falling off,My heart is finally breaking and every one can see it,My feelings will be blown and soon enough they will all know the pain i keep inside,Throughout time my mind has taken in to much for even a strong heart to take,My life has been hidden for so long,Things are finally being let lose,They will all know how i feel even when I say it is all a lie,They will finally know the truth about why I cry,Only cause I still really miss you,Without your love my heart is empty,but no one really sees,Though it is all coming out no one knows not just yet,They still don't see my fake smiles and all the lies I have told,They will finally see that I really cry and why that is,They all think something new,but they now nothing at all,I am still hidden from them,but this mask will only last for so much longer,It is all coming undone.

How Come?

How come every time i try to get close you just push me away,Why do i bother trying to love you when i know it will never be possible,How come you keep me hanging on and through me away when i get close,How come the truth hurts,but i never get the truth from you,Why do you mislead me and break my heart into pieces every time i try,How come you stand there when I'm all alone in the rain and laugh,How come you are all i think about even when i sleep,How come you tell me you love me,but tell them all different,How come you let me cry when you break my heart again,Why are you such an ass when they are around,Why are you so sweet you steal my heart with every word you say,How come you take my heart and never give it back,How come I can't see you and not wanna cry,How come you still break my heart with just one smile,How come you keep getting me back even when I try to run,How come my heart is still bleeding from the last time,How come I always let you back in with no trouble at all,How come you are not trust worthy as you were when I first met you,How come you still won't let me in no matter how hard I try,How come i treat you so good, and you treat me so horrible and get away with it,How come I never give up and always try to make it back with you,How come when I don't get back you go to her,How come you use me when you need someone by your side,How come no one helps me when I cry,How come you still kill me inside,How come no one cares when I die from your love being taken back,How come I bite my lip trying not to fight back,How come I can never stay mad when ever I try even my best,How come I die when ever I see you cry,How come!!

I Can't Bare!

I can't bare any longer,The memories of me and you floating through my head,This is the end my last words to you hoping your happy cause this life is at an end,I can't bare much more pain it will drive me crazy and kill me so much more,I hope you smile when i cry i hope you laugh when i die,cause every face i ever seeI see you in everyones eyes,My pain makes you smile my death makes you laugh,Why don't you care in every way that i do, I can't stand ur smile,ur laugh or ur gaze,I cannot take anything much longer,cause me heart is breaking apart ever so much more,I can't bare anymore the way you make me feel cause it hurts so so much more,My pain is nothing to you as you move on to some other girl,But none of them could ever love you as much as i always have,I was the best you ever had and you let me go to many times and you had ur last chance,so i hope you are ready to say your final goodbye,I may now look you in the eyes cause my tears have faded away as everything I have ever felt for you is now gone,Your love no longer phases me or kills me,My life is in my own hands,I own myself,I own my heart,No one gets me or they will just tear me apart,I can't bare it so I am done,My feelings with you are nothing more you are nothing but a memory lost in bliss of a once bad lie!!

Not Me

I mean the one who used to love me and be there when I needed help as I was for him the one who use to call me his angel the one who cared for me so much,but that one is gone and never talks to me even when he knows he is the only one who can ever make me smile again I was always there for you,but now your gone and never coming back and no matter what i do or try you stand alone and forget everything about me even my name so let me refresh ur memory I am the angel sent from above watching over you and everything you do,I am the little girl that you will one day save,I am that puppy that was once hit by a car,I am the one person who was there for you no matter what it was I am the one you forgot everything about,I am the one you now hate,I am the one who wishes you could never stay away,I am the one who you once loved,and now know nothing about,I was the girl you wanted to hold,not I am nothing at all

How Could You Lie?

How could you lie,but say its the truth,How could you lie and run away without feeling any pain,How could u lie and let me lose control,When you said you loved me and said you ment it i believed you,btu now i learned my lesson,Love if a lie just like you,You are a fake and nothing else,I will bo longer miss no longer want to kiss you i will no longer feel the pain you set upon me,Run away Run with her give me a break and go away,Let me leave this crazy place you haev driven me insane,It kills me to remember ever being with you As i sit her typing the sadnes inside i'll tell you truth just like you always wanted,I hate you now and forever more you ran off with my cuzin and i took that to heart you told me you would never hurt me well isnt that a lie and a half,You dumped me the day jsut a day b4 it killed me badly like a knife threw the heart bleeding so badly is how it all comes apart,One quick death would it matter to the world one quick heartbreak and heartace,lost in this place,The darknes now shadows my world the pain you brought upon my once bright world has left all light to lay in the dust,You left me there you left me to bleed,You killed me strait out with all the pain,Nothing more to do with you i have nothing left to give you,You left me to die and now i want nothing to do with you i dont care if you leave or how you feel,You left me alone and left me there i can't help,but notice you left my side and you had to lie,You wanted the truth and that's all i asked for,but u continued to lie and now ur donefor.There is no truth left in your eyes it ahs all run dry,You were very truthful in the beginning that was,yet that was all a lie,just one big lie you want to be with her,fine go away go run away and take her with you there is no room left here for you it's your turn to leave,you act all innocent bullsh** thats all a lie there is nothing left for you here take ur bags and ur bi*** and go home!

You're Pain

You said you were in pain,you said you were unhappy,You said you fell in love and she hurt you,You said a lot of things,but never said what i wanted to hear,You never said the one you love was me,You never told me the things i wanted to hear,You told her she was your world and made evrything better,You said she ment evrything to you and you knew you wanted to be with her forever,You said you would never fall in love again,I could only hope that was a lie,Maybe someday your pain will dissapear and you will see teh girl standing there looking out for you wanting you to come back,She hopes one day you will look back and see her face and tell her she is your world your evrything and more,She hopes you will see a future with her that you will love her,She hopes to be strong and hope to hold on,All she has till that day is memories of you and her,Not much to remember always the best of friends you told her evrything,But then again you told her nothing,She has no memories that she wants she will throw them all away and try a new start,She tried to move on for so long,Yet she had no chance of getting over you,It's hard for her to say leave and don't come back we are on a different track,Your killing me by staying,but your killing me by leaving,I can't say i hate you without loving you,But i can't tell you the truth that i want to be with you,Hold onto me and don't let go hold tightly and let the love show we are ment to be or so i hope my feelings will never change i love you.do you love me too?

I'm Sorry I'm Not Perfect

As i sit and write this sitting sadly in school,I just can't help but wonder is he the same,But as I see his face I know he changed,So sadly as I say "I'm sorry I'm not perfect",I really wish I was better but only for you love,People may think love is no match for money,But they never knew how rong they were,It's not true at all,Love is worth way more,If u find find love,You have it all, you have the world,It is the greatest feeling ever,Once you find it try to never lose it,I did once and my heart still isn't fixed,That one simple love who had you floating,Who held your heart in his hand,If you lose that love you lose your heart,And u feel like you aree drowning in your tears,Listen say I miss you so don't you know,You've had my heart since the day we met,But now your gone ans this i fear you hold my heart,You never let go the day left the day we grow my heart torn, broken and stomped on listen as I say "I'm sorry i'm not perfect",But one thing is true I do love you.

Memorial Day

I made this one for my friend Danny who's in the war actually I dated him,but we are really good friends hes like my older brother and I always worry about him out there I love him with all of my hear! come home soon Danny!

Memorial is for the best,To show respect,So many gone,Some many hurt,All just so save us,So much pain in peoples lives,If not for them all we may be gone,So many people don't care,So many being mean,They just don't understand how much pain and suffering they all went threw,Yet people are still so cruel ,Celebrate memorial day with me Celebrate and pray for all lost pray for all families who lost ones they love,So much pain we should show some some honor and respect to the people,Who saved us and helped us stay free,They helped us threw everything if not for them then we may be dead,They saved us so the least we could do is honor them and celebrate all they have done for us,Help Celebrate Memorial Day.^^

Love Is Like

Love is like jumping out of an airplane,No matter how you land you're gonna get hurt, Some things are highly unstoppable,And Breaking your heart is something no one can stop from happening,Love is like a rocky mountain, The steeps never seem to get smaller, only bigger as time goes on, Sometimes you trip or miss a rock and fall, Sometimes the fall breaks more then your bones,Love is like a persons favorite color, No matter how many times it changes the first one will always matter most simply because it was their first choice which makes it a special one, Even if it doesn't stay number one forever it is never forgotten,Love is like a movie its a romantic comedy or a tragic love tale you never know how itstrulygoing to end or even begin, It could be a surprise lover or a long time friend, It could be a total stranger or someone who knows you better then you know yourself,Love is like a song you can listen to it everyday and learn the lyrics or you can hear it once and never remember the name,but the words are stuck in your head and don't seem to ever wanna leave, don't lie to yourself you don't want them to,Love is crying for lost lovers Love is holding hands and kissing early morning and night, Love is never judging someone because of how they dress or the way they talk, Love is heartbreaking,Love is death and birth, Love is never ending yet never really begins, Love is hard to find,yet right in front of you, Love is confusing,but sets your mind straight,Love is getting hurt and hurting others, Love is bad relationships and Good,Love is never regretting the things you've done because at one point they were things you wanted, Love is forgiving,but not forgetful,Love is passion,not lustful, Love is remembering,Love is touching,Feeling,Being, Love is hard to explain yet easy to feel, Love is weak or strong, Love is for woman and men for children and babies for teens and elder people, Love comes in all kinds of packages some small some very big some subtle and unseen, Others bright and eye catching, Love is a mystery,yet we all know what it is, Love is painful,yet healing,Love is so much sometimes that its overwhelming,Love is understanding,Love is listening and crying along with your lover, Love is being there to just hold someone tight when they need it the most, Love is forgiving old feuds and making new friendships, Love is remembering the past,but living for the future,Love is harsh,but kind, Love is pressure,Love is not abuse,Love is not physically painful,Love is heartbreaking,but not blood lusting, Love is being strong for those who are weak,It's loving those who don't love you,It's loving even when people tell you not to, It's telling the truth even if it means someone gets hurt,because lying could cause more pain then admitting, Love is forgetful,

Love is hugging and kissing, Love is holding each other, Love is giving her your jacket when she's cold, Love is laying your head on his chest when he places his arm around your shoulder,Love is patient and kind it is gentle, Love is not rushing,but slow easing into things,Love is loving their company and not what is under their clothes, Love is loving them no matter what others think,Love is never giving up on your hopes and dreams and helping others reach theirs,Love is everything it is our everyday life, Love is a smile or a wave one simple thing could make someones day, And you wouldn't even know it,So Smile through your tears the sun will be out tomorrow, Smile at a stranger they might need it,Give a small wave to an old friend or even an enemy, Forgive the little mistakes people have made and mend old feuds, Small fights aren't worth a long time of love,Smile and forgive those who have hurt you because if they hadn't you wouldn't be the amazing person you are today, You make someones day just by getting up in the morning, Even by smiling there is someone in this world who waits to see your smile to see your eyes, You light up someones day like someone lights up yours, Forgive old problems forgive old friends or loved ones, Hold on tight to the ones you love because you never know just how quickly life really does fade, Love as much as you can, Laugh through the pain, Smile even when you wanna cry because someone is watching for that smile to lighten up their day, You mean the world to someone and you'll never know if you give up will ya? So keep fighting through the rough days and Love everyone, The best way to fend off enemies is to kill with kindness, If you need to cry never hold it back cause someone will always be there to hold you, There is someone somewhere in this world that feels your pain that cries when you cry, Just remember you are never alone and there is someone looking out for you someone who waits and would even be late to work or school or an appointment just to watch you walk by with that dearing smile on your face that one that lets them know everything is going to be okay, Love as much as you can never give up and always move on, Don't live in what happened back then or in the 'What Ifs' Lives in the here and now for the people who need you the ones who love you, As alone as you may sometimes feel just remember someone counts on your smile to get through the day and if yours fades then their day is grey ^.^ So smile and watch for the one who brightens your day you never know yours just might brighten theres too [= Love is love and that is all there is to it, Love is many things and many people,Love is the smallest touch or the smallest hint, Love honestly Just is [= Never forget that you are always surrounded by love.

Wrapped In A Box

The wind wrapped me in A cold blanket,As I watched you walk away,You took many things with you when you left,My heart was wrapped in a gift box and sent to your new home,

I'd hoped you'd send it back...But 2 years later theres A hole where my heart once was...I'd thought you had a heart, But no such luck... But now you have one,But it's not yours...It's Stolen!You added it to your collection, An old box you stored away when you left for her....

I wondered if my pain was finally over...,But that's all I feel, Each and every day I'd see your face I couldn't even sleep, Because every time I close my eyes it replays, The words you said, The tears I've cried, It's never ended and I fear It Never Will,The mean words, All the bruises I thought it ended the day you left... But it didn't the bruises faded, But my life was drained, I tried to find my heart in that rather large box, But there were so many...I just had to let them all free, But even then it was nowhere in sight,That's when you walked in A smirk on your face... And my heart in your hand... That evil gleam in your eye... I was trapped! My fate had been sealed! My life already gone! My eternity in your hell!...

So Much To So

Theres so much I could say, But nothing will come out!:The world around me is clear, But I can't see anything, I love you..But I hate you! You make me feel weak, But I am strong! You make me feel stupid, but I know you are wrong!:

If I'm not mistaken it's time to say goodbye, I'll be on my way, I know I will find someone better someday, This world is a big place and I have more people to meet and more memories to make, Even if they don't include you!:

There is a dream laid out before me and it is mine to hold! This dream is so close,Yet so far.... And your the only thing in my way, So I say goodbye today! My goal I will reach! There is a big world And I will find my home in it, Even if it's not with you!:

I know today it might hurt.... But forever varies, And sometimes the Fairy Tales Go away.... Even without you, I will find my way.. I will Stride and Break the Wave! I am who I am! And I am never going to change, So even without you...My world will Not turn Grey!:

Your My...

Your my star shinning in the nightLighten the world in the darkest nightLead the way when I don't wanna strayFix my heart in the seconds of timeShow me the beauty even in the rubble from the firePick me the prettiest flower and say it doesn't compairHold my hand and show me your nearEven when your farKiss me softly,Kiss me roughly just show me you love meGive me your sweater to drive away the coldHold me through the winter and through the summers fireBreak me of this spell show me that everything will end wellPromise me the world even if you are my worldGive me the stars that shine so bright in your eyesKiss my nose in A playful toneGive me your strength, Give me your love your heart and soulTo keep me from drowining in the misery of the true world give me your shoulder be my rock be my baby father of my life give me some light judge me now prove me right bless me now and forever on this earth, Block the pebbles and cover the puddles grow me something small,but sweet brush the hair from my face and cradle me in your arms kiss away my tears and these burning fears show me the world that you see the beauty that ravishes the pain show me everything I need to be strong lead the way I'll follow beside and we'll be A team A wonderful team the team to make this world the most beautiful place anyone has ever seenLet's be A team and see who we can bring Oh let's be A team

Your Eyes

Your eyes shine like the sun,And glow every night like the moon,Your smile drives me crazy,Your beauty goes forever,

Your an angel in my eyes,And you have saved my life,Your eyes show the world,And how lucky I really am,

My love for you will never end,To see your face glow in the day,To see your smile always brightens my day,Such beauty grows within you,

Your eyes are so beautiful,Just one look and I am forever yours,The luminous beauty within your life,You make the world the best place to live,

Your eyes show your love,Even when your lips are closed,Your smile burns into my heart,And lives there for days,You stole my heart the day we met.

Forget False Fairy Tales

Every little girl wants A prince charming,Every girl wants true love,Someone to hold and love forever,Someone to sweep her off her feet,

To treat her right,And make love to her..Not fight,But for all little girls....Find another dream,Cause prince charming is A frog that just won't change,And for every girl....You can love over & over again,

But forever Just won't come true,Because love fades..And if you stay?Nothing good will happen, It will all float away,And even in love you will fight more then make love...

These stories..Feed you lies,Your prince charming...Is A normal boy..Who may seem amazing,But in the end? He is just another frog that will never change.

Twilight Poem

When will I grow out of this phase?It's nothing,but A stupid game..One that will change more everyday,So why not skip to the point?

What lesson am I meant to learn?To watch people drift by..To feel lost in every way,Never really knowing what to say..

You age everyday,But my life has come to A stop,Now you wish I put this curse on you?Now that will deffenitly not do..So turn your face the other way,

There is nothing more to say,I will not drag you through..My retched grave!So as I told you..Good-ByeBecause like the others...

You always die..So look away..And change your mind..Maybe in some other lifetime..

Why Is It?

Why is it every time I see you...I feel the urge to kiss you..Just to remember what your lips felt like?Why won't you leave my mind?!

You are almost the same...We have so much in common..I really had forgotten..It had been so long since your name rolled off my tongue..

And now it won't stop,I don't want you to leave..But you seeYour friend is my Fiance..And he confuses me everyday..

I am unsure of what he feels for me..I feel myself drifting when you are near..And that's when he pulls me closer..He won't let go..Even when I want him to..

I feel..Incomplete?There is so much I wanted to do..So much I wanted to say..I remember why I left and why I wouldn't run back again..

It had bee years since I've see you,Do you wonder the same thing I do?Maybe we had bee meant to be?And we just had to find out,But now?

I am questioning everything again..I had to let go of you..And I am unsure if I can do it again..I don't want to make it work because I know the ending,

And I know I can't do it all over again..What should I say to you?I have no idea..But I will figure it out on my own..

I just need my time to think things through..My time to figure out what's right?My time.

Memory Of Us?

I've locked myself in the memory of 'us',But now is my breakthrough,My time to forget you..Like you forgot me,

It's my turn to move on,Just like you did..My heart may still ache..But I know the pain will slowly fade,

Just like the image of your face,Glued into my mind...To hidden to be found,The memory of 'us' will slowly fadeAd hopefully one day we'll both grow up and realize just how silly we had been..

But as many times as I say 'Sorry'You just won't truly forgive me..But I will no longer let it bug me..Because I know that one day you'll accept it

And if by the I am six feet under ground..You will be the one who will ache and question yourself..Like 'What If?' I had accepted it earlier..It may have worked better..

But now? I know not to hold on forever..When it's easier to forget

Dragging Me Down

Your dragging me through the dirtWhere do we stand?Your breaking me down and throwing me aroundThose icy eyes that cold stareShivers through my body with my last taken breath

ChorusYou drive me up the wallDown into the dirtI dig my own grave And wait to rotYou drive me insaneDrag me to hell and backYou drive me crazy End Chorus

My knees are bloody and weakMy head spinning and fuzzyYou've got me locked up in this unknown placeThe torture the painIt's beginning to get to meI can't hold on foreverMy life is slowly slipping My sane mind is driven awayYou are making me crazy

ChorusYou drive me up the wallDown into the dirtI dig my own grave And wait to rotYou drive me insaneDrag me to hell and backYou drive me crazy End Chorus

Nobody is perfectMy graze has been dugYou'll never be perfectYou abuse meI swear I've lost my mindYet I continue to stayYour running me dryKilling me slowlyBut here I amPretending to be happyBy your side once againMy life is driftingI am no longer sane

I hope you enjoyed reading my poetry. It is an honor to have people doing so. I love to write and hope that someday my work will be noticed and the world could read my work