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While the doctor is just realizing he has a resuscitation case on hand, when taken full whip from a quiet evening with his woman. It is our daughter on the examination table. The young physician arrogance hard at melting down. The resuscitation equipment which gradually lets him down, he grows to faces a fatality at his hands. Look up escaping to his desk and familiar consulting corner to meet the twelve year-old boy of a brother paying eyes speaking to the man who till then didn't understand the oat by which he swore to save lives. All points to a bad spell thrown on our daughter, as nothing the doctor touched is fluid as the sand in the hour glass running out. He chucks out everything he learned, and engages in a mouth to mouth suction clearing the baby's airways before giving her oxygen,
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Myshouldersatanobtuseangleandbendoverthelimplittlefigureofmyeighteenmontholddaughter.Memorizedearlierfreeingmylefthandclearingunderneathherlittlelegfallinglikeawetragtostretchontheexaminationtablevirtuallyspineless.Astrangesilence,sincethatfirstmomentafterherbirthsheunveiledherspirit,nowhergenieonastrangeescapade,leftherwithouttheslightestresistance.Then,Iwasdistractedtoasilentblindcall,andturnedtowardthedirectivebysightovermyleftshoulderinthedistancemeetingtheFlemishwoman.Inaglitchoftimesheswappedplaceswiththedoctor,andsuchasanefficientsecretary,sherufflesthroughpapersacrosstheLshapeddesk.Hermannerismunveilsthesearchforanemergencycontact,whichthedoctorbeforehercouldn'tfind.Foiledtohisregret,leftperhapsathandnearthetelephoneapparatusforsuchanoccasion.
Atthenextcallingnotion,Iglanceoverthearchofmyrightarmtothehandthatremainedaspillowformydaughter'slittlehead.Caught,shifty,thephysician'swomanindiagonalacrossthewhitetiledfloor.Underneaththe"Private"signtothedoorwaywithfewrisersthatdogleggedright,sheisvirtuallyabsorbedinthebrightnesstotheapartmentupstairs.Nosoonerdidshereappearedservingrightandwrigglinguptothedoctor.Angelicrisingontoesandoverhisshoulderuttering
briefwordshencealogictiming,readingthesceneofacomplicity,TheambulanceisonitswayShebackeddownpausingheelstoaswiftwithdrawal.
Bentoverfromeithersidearmsvaultingababygirl'swinterbluecoat,Ibrushedbysightherlittlepaleface,whenIspottedtheFlemishwomanposturedinaswapofplaceearlierwiththephysician.Deepinsidetheajardoorsofthemysteriousjunkofstock.Contrarytothedoctorbeforeher,shestrugglesinserenityhandlingthewrappingsinanattemptatcorrelatingmaleandfemaleendsforaresuscitationmask.Shewithdrawsinaswirl,andlikeaneffectivenursemoveuptheaislealongthewallofsatinateddoors,placesabunchofventilationtubesontheledgenexttomylittlegirl'shead.Thedoctor'sfingerstakesafirsttube,triestopressthemountingofanozzlefirminhisleftpalm.Interchangesthetransparenttube,sootheshisangerbythemismatchandchucksitbacksaying,[Dutch]Wrongsizes!
Butthen,therearenoothers,repliedthewomaninacalmvoice.
Asthedoctorturnsawayinfrontofme,Iintroducedmyselfsaying,[Dutch]CanIbeofanyhelp?InlongignoringstrideshebacktracksinthewakeoftheFlemishwomanearlier,andhisownstepsbefore.Aphysician'sarrogancefoiledinhisinfalliblemedicalmilieu.Moreso,feelingdeprivedofequipment,thesourceofamountingheat.Scorching,andturninghisbeingmeltlikewax.Shyingawayfromansweringme,haunup,andinahesitantreflection,saystohimself,Hecanbecomeuseful.
Onthedoctor'sreturnsquaringuptothebabywithtransparenttubes,tactlessattemptsassemblingtheillsuitedtubeconstrainedbythenozzled.
Instinctive,bysightafteranactivenotionoverthearchofmyarm,appearsinthediagonalpracticalpassageway,theshiftypresenceontheopenfloor,likeafiremanhandlinganextinguisher,theFlemishwomanhustlingwithastubbornbluecap.
Whilefranticnimblyfingerschangestoanothertubeandapplyinganincreaseforce.Thedoctorglimpsesoverfollowinghiswoman'sprogress.Withamountingfrustrationbuttingendslackingelasticitytoslipoverthegadgetofridicule.
Thedoctor'scallingglimpsesbringstheFlemishwomanadvancingbyhustlinghandsandcuddlinginherarmsthemetallicbottle.Aroundthetableshestepsuptothedoctorwiththeleadingbluepointer,sayinginitself,It'snotcomingoff!Thedoctorinabrisksweepofmovementsswirlsofftograbthebottle.Sparingafacetofacemomenthishandswrenchthetopoff,thebluepartreturned,exposingthetransitbottletohispoiseinturn.
Resolute,withanoxygenbottleheldovermybabyfigure,thedoctorturnedthevalvegashingoxygenthroughtheair.Playingthehissingpressurevalvewiththeregulatorhebrushedtheoutletacrossherlittleface,whichplacedmeinviewofavirtualcircuscomediantoaspectacleatrisingacrowdinaburstwithlaughter.Whentechniqueminded,theinvisibleoxygencloudspreadsintheatmosphere,thecrispywaftfarfromherlittlenostrils,atalimentingthewindpipeandarouselungsabsorption.
Thevirtualquicksandofsophistication,takingthedoctorbeyondhimself,toforgeideasingradualretrievesongoingfromanassaultatthesceneofourearlierarrival,compromisingapreconceivedailmentdiagnosis.Arousingdithery,hisfingersfumbledthetransparenttubesearlierdiscardedonacornerofthetable.Throughasweepofmovements,heasked,"Liftherupandtiltherheadback."Hesparedrighthandfingerspartingherlittlesoftlips,whileintroducinghisindexpressingdownhertongue.Hishandceedingthetasktotheleft,andfreeapparentfromadoctorandnursekitforchildrenthefingersintroducedaslenderplastictube,toimaginedabradingdownmybaby'sthroat.Delicate,andthreadinghandmovementsdistinctiveofaslippingtubefurtheranddeeperdownherwindpipe.Uponreleasingthetube,hereachesoutfortheoxygenbottleofftheassortmentoftubes.Liftingthebottleandtorquingthewheelvalve.Alerttoanescapinghissing,hisfaceclosingin,lipssqueezingovertheoutlet,tospareamomentabsorbingoxygen.
TheFlemishdoctorreleaseshislipsfromtheregulatingvalve,straighteningheadandshoulders,whileIwaitedforasigntomaneuverandturnofftheregulatorvalve,atleastholdthebottle.Instead,hegoesonplacingnexttomylittlegirl'sheadthebottle,transitsoxygeninbodyducts.Intheprocesspincheshernostrilscloseandpressesherchinupsealingherlips.Bysoftpoutedlipshediveforanapparentdrinkingstraw,sealsthetubeandensueswithaslightcheekmuscularpuffing.
Thewomanwhisperedatoneofcaution,saying,"[Dutch]It'sthelastofthree."Understanding,Oxygentanksinstock.
Timeandagainanascenthissingbroughtthedoctortoswallowamouthfulofoxygen.Theevanescentsoundraisedmyquestioning,Whereisstoredtheoxygenintransit?Onceagainthedoctorheldhisbreathwithoutpuffingouthischest,histiltedheadmovingdownvirtuallyeclipsinghersoftmoonexpressivecomplexion.Anintimatemomentwithhisthoughts,andafterthesefewtrialswithoutattainherbreathing,thedoctorhandedmeovertheoxygenbottle.
Withthejittersofbodyandsoul,inanimminenttoneofvoice,andhardexpressionofconcerned,thedoctorordered,Herclothsoff!Withmyfreehand,Iliftedherlittlearm,slippingacoatsleeveoffandgrabbedtheother.Afterwhich,toomanyhandsforafewlittlelamelimbs.Iletthecoupleacrossthetableafreedomofmovement.Seeing,toofrailapairoffemalefingersthroughscissorsholes,aftersheunbuttonedthecoatandmomentarymyvirtualhand,thebladesstuckinthethickgreenfullbodysuitfromsnippingthroughthecartoonsnowmanandunderwear.Abandoningforatwofistfightedhandgrabasweatercollarandpulling.Upagainstclothesthatdidn'ttearapart,readingherthoughts,Rushingisn'tadvancingmemuch?Sheresortedtohercalmbeing,scissorssnippingthrougheachlayeratthesleevesandontotheneck.Asthewoman'shandspeeledoffclothinglayers,thedoctor'speedymovementstakesoverhurryingrockingandrollingthelittlebodystrippinganddiscardingclothesinthehandsofthewoman.Inviewofmylittlegirlexposureofshame,mountinganintrusivesensationbytheeyesofauniversestealingherintimacy,thewomanstucktheclothesinaplasticshoppingbag.HelplessIsplitathoughts,Theycan'tbethinkingofthrowingthoseourbaby'sclothesfortrash?
Bentlopsidedoverthenakedfigureofmybaby,myrightarmlowsupportingherhead.Idelvedintoherlargeblackextinctpupils.Windowofhervolitioninthetenebrousuniversethrobbingbiorhythmicwavescuddlingitsbirthorgans.Sendingaheadadiagnosticdamagereports.Bythe
translucentgeometriccoloredshapedconcreteslab,Likeadriverabandonsanexplosivevehicle.Fromheightsherspiritinthelightofconscioushoversoverthescene.throughthethreearchingfiguresovertheexaminationtableherconsciousspiritonthescene,followsadynamicofbusyworkshopmechanicsfortherecuperationofherorganicvehicle.
Insilenceandrapidlikeravagingforestfires,theemergentillpreparedresuscitationendeavorwhichmymindgrabbedbyitsunbelievableglowatsightthroughfardistancemountains.Tolerantandunfortunatecarriedbythewinds.UntilIheardMartine'simpertinentandanxioustimbreofvoicecallingout[Dutch]What'sthematterDoc?"Arousedbyanegatingsensoryperception,indeathshemasteredthatchildinher,Alikeconvolutedsmoketrailsfromthefireofherexistencebyanemergenttheatricalrebirth.Inrevengethatsevenyearoldgirlonaworldlystageseekingindeathanemotionalrevivalofthecruelunbearableaftermathofherfather'sdeath.Inoutrageatthewetragdroppedonthefloor.Infuriating,atthethought,She'sbetteroffcommunicationwiththedoctorthanI.Theglowoffireflaringinmychestatthethought,Sheisneglectingherdyingdaughter.Onthealert,Iglancedawayovermyshoulder,meetingherbysightinthedistance,andaffirmative,Isaidtomyself,ThereshesitsonthefloorfingerspluggedinthemouthHowcanshedothatHowcanshejustsitthere?
That'ssoabsurd,Ithought.Thedoctorseemedconclusivetoo,passingacrossthebottleofoxygenboggeddownlikeavehicleonamuddyforestroadinviewofatimeglassvirtuallyrunemptydenigrativetoamanofsciencefrowningtheimprobableofhissophisticatedmilieu.
Seeingmylittlegirl'stummy,bringsbackaschildrenthemovingimagesduringthefamilyfarmingperiod.Thesceneofourmischiefpet,andgrowingcalfrepeatingawittybreakinthefodderstorageandeatchickenmeal.Savedbyaveterinarian,andhalfayearlaterhewasn'tthatlucky,hisstomachburstanddied.
Thedoctordesignatedtohimselfbywideningeyesherbloatedtranslucentbelly,shookhishypnoticmindontheloose,andcatchhisthoughts,Nooxygengoestothelungs!Hefretsturningbehindhim,andbringsbackfromwithinthecupboardaplasticrevolver.Pointingthebarreltoglowalightinmybaby'sear,whichIperceiveasgadgetofmoderntimesinmymindplaysthatlaserbeamexperimentingwiththefirstlasertapethatflawsthegivenmeasurementsonroughmasonry.ThedoctorreadsthethermostaticgivendatathatIfailedtohearhimexclaim,fortyone!Hegrabbedhisneckpendulum,andplugthestethoscopeearpiecesendsinhisears,bendsovermylittlegirlandonherimpressedlittleribcagedabbedherlittlechestthinkingoutloud,"[Dutch]Theheartisstillbeating...Ithink?"
Byahandflickthedoctordropsdowntheearpiecestoanecklace.Returnsbendingovermybaby'sbody,loweringhisheadtoanapparentgirlishplayplaydrinkingstraw.Afteralipclasp,hischeekshollowedout.Thenhisscalpofhairraisesfromherface.Hestraightensslippingthesuctiontubefromhermouth.Handsleadingaswingoverforthebarewhitefootofthetabletop,bringingthetubeenddownonthepaperanddrawinguptowipeclean,leavesavirtualsnailslimetrailacrossthepaper,withoutclearingthevisiblestickyandslimyfoodparticlesinthetube.Thedoctorbringshismouthcloser,andblowsinthetube.Hegoesonresortingtoafingerspinchandwipes
thelengthdown.Failingtosqueezethetubeclean,hesitanthedropsathoughttohimself,Getacleantube,movingacrossbytheswingoverofhishandsforthetablehead.
Byanexchangethroughnimblefingers,anewtubeisintroducinginmybaby'smouth,speediousandcarefulthedoctorthreadsitdownherthroat.Hisheadlowersherfaceintohiding,hesiphons,andraiseshistuftofhairclear.byasidestepshortensthedistancetoawhitepaperledgebyherlittlegirl'sfeet.Heblowsthroughthetube.Spewsonthespotthestickymucktastefromthetipofhistongue.Flipsastickyfinger.Wipesoffhislipsbyabackhand,andsmearsafingersoffonthepaper,toareturnstanceanddropsathoughttohimself,Searchesforalargertube.
Inconceivable,speedinguphissuccessiveattempts,tospewonthefloor,thedoctorlosthisdrive,constrainedbyaslimyandstickysyphoningmechanismboundtofailclearingababy'sairways.Bailing,thoughtlessliftinghiseyesfrommylittlegirlandstraighteninghisfigureincapitulation,eyesightpassingmebyasoaringlookintospace.Thedoctorwakesupfromanephemeralhypnosis,acrosstheroomimpededbythetwelveyearoldboystandingbyhisfamiliarfurnishedconsultingcornertoavacantdeskchair.Cowardly,thedoctoruttered,"[Dutch]Thisvomitcomesfromherlungs.Sheprobablyinhaledandcloggedtheairways."
Whileeveryinstantapartofaninstance,hardupatcatchingamomenttothinkback,henceI'llsparereflectivemoments,Howmuchtimehadlapsed,thedegradationofoxygensupplyfromthoselittlelungssuffocatingherbrain?Fiddlingnumbfingersbetweenhershoulderblades,unconscientiousthenofherremotevolitionpuppeteeringorganwithbiorhythmicwavesinherapparentjellyfigureasshelaidontheexaminationtable.
ThedoctorreadAlexandre'sprayinggaze,Savemybabysister,doctorYouaretheonlyonewhocanmakehercomeback!Thedoctorimmersedbyaconscious,systematichiseyesightdrewinretrieve,bringinghiseyestorolldownandfixingthenaivepoiseofaneighteenmontholdbaby.Hebendsforwardhisfacemetamorphosingintoatuftofhaircomingdownandenshroudmybaby'sface.Holdingherchinup,hissubtledeterminationinaprolongedpause,prominentjawboneshollowedandholdingout.Hisheadjerksbackswingingrightaside.Overtheedgeofthetablebreaksareigningsilencewithawildbeastgutturalroar,Thetwistedfigurespewsandcoughstothefloor.Hisfigurenosoonerunwound,streakyrunshungfromhisbottomlip,hiswomanturnedopenandofferedtheoutletvalveoftheoxygenbottlewhileherhandmovedinandrushedtowipehismouthclean.Inashrewdshrugthedoctorfacedivesandplugsthelittleface.Timestandsstill,untilhishead'ssuddenriseandbodytwistoverandthrowingupanothermouthfulofvomit.
Afteranotherresiduesclearingfromherairways,thedoctorturnedtowardthehissingnozzle,anddrewabodyofoxygeninhisaircavities.Inanacceleratedrhythmatcatchingupearlierlostprecioussplitseconds.Faceboltingdownandswoopingupaslowmotionsmackinglips.Byagradualpressureblowingawhiffofoxygen.Amesmericeyefixationonherchestshiftedlikeahandonherbloatedtummy.Perceivingdownherwindpipe,afilteringofherfragilepronetotearingupbabylungsceasedcravingforoxygen.
Whenahustleandbustlebrokesilenttimeonholdthroughoutthebrightwhiteheavenlylightoftheroom,apassagewayhollowsouttoasurgeofdistantandapproachingvoices.ThePhysician's
womanleftthedoctor'side,meetingupwithaclosinginarmyactivityinrelaytakingoverthevoices.Inmyblindangleofsightsquealingbootsbreakingintotheroom,andcaughtbythecuriousactivityovermyleftshoulder.IlaysightonthebackofafluorescentjacketofafigurekneeledinfrontoftheLshapeddeskunwrappinganapparentmedicalkit,whichpushedAlexandreasideandlefthimglancingdown.Coweringsurrogatesisterinretrieve,thechild'sashlongblondlankyhair,theplasticdollofaningeniousDutchmothercontainedthelittlemindshakeninpartofthemysteriousagitationwhichbefellonherlife.
Asetofbootsstompedacontourbehindme,andwithbrokenhissesoftheallweatherrescueclothing,aparamedicappearovermyrightarmandstallattheheadoftheexaminationtablenosooneraccompaniedbythedoctor'swoman.