TABLE OF CONTENTSIssue 92, January 2018

FROM THE EDITOREditorial: January 2018

SCIENCE FICTIONThe Streets of BabelAdam-Troy Castro

Golubash, Or Wine-Blood-War-ElegyCatherynne M. ValenteThe Eyes of the FloodSusan Jane Bigelow

SomedayJames Patrick Kelly

FANTASYAuburn

Joanna RuoccoThe Substance of My Lives, the Accidents of Our Births

José Pablo Iriarte

Divine MadnessRoger Zelazny

The Court MagicianSarah Pinsker

NOVELLAA Thousand Nights Till Morning

Will McIntosh

EXCERPTSJonathan Moore | The Night Market

Jonathan Moore

NONFICTIONBook Reviews: January 2018

Christie Yant

Media Reviews: January 2018Christopher East

Interview: Fonda LeeChristian A. Coleman

AUTHOR SPOTLIGHTSAdam-Troy Castro

José Pablo IriarteSusan Jane Bigelow

Sarah Pinsker

MISCELLANYComing Attractions

Stay ConnectedSubscriptions and Ebooks

About the Lightspeed Team

Also Edited by John Joseph Adams

© 2017 Lightspeed MagazineCover by Alan Bao

www.lightspeedmagazine.com

Editorial: January 2018John Joseph Adams | 1540 words

Welcome to issue ninety-two of Lightspeed!Our cover art this month is by Alan Bao, illustrating a new science fiction

short by Adam-Troy Castro (“The Streets of Babel”). Susan Jane Bigelow gives usour other piece of original SF (“The Eyes of the Flood”). We also have with SFreprints by Catherynne M. Valente (“Golubash, or Wine-Blood-War-Elegy”) andJames Patrick Kelly (“Someday”).

Our fantasy originals are from José Pablo Iriarte (“The Substance of My Lives,The Accidents of Our Birth”) and Sarah Pinsker (“The Court Magician”). Ourfantasy reprints are by Joanna Ruocco (“Auburn”) and Roger Zelazny (“DivineMadness”).

All that, and of course we also have our usual assortment of author spotlights,along with our book and media review columns, and an interview with authorFonda Lee.

For our ebook readers, our exclusive novella is by Will McIntosh (“AThousand Nights Till Morning”). And of course we have a book excerpt just forour ebook readers, too—it’s a snippet from The Night Market, by JonathanMoore.

John Joseph Adams Books News for January 2017One new acquisition to report:

Micah Dean Hicks’s Break the Bodies, Haunt the Bones, a debutnovel in which dangerous machines and unnatural beastmenmysteriously arrive in a dying town already filled with ghosts, forcinga haunted brother and sister to figure out how to save their familybefore tortured spirits tear the town and the newcomers apart. (Spring2019)

Aside from new acquisitions, here’s a quick rundown what to expect fromJohn Joseph Adams Books in 2018:

In April, we have Bryan Camp’s The City of Lost Fortunes, about a magicianwith a talent for finding lost things who is forced into playing a high stakes gamewith the gods of New Orleans for the heart and soul of the city. Here’s some early

buzz for the book:

“Camp’s fantasy reads like jazz, with multiple chaotic-seeming threadsof deities, mortals, and destiny playing in harmony. This game ofsouls and fate is full of snarky dialogue, taut suspense, and characterswhose glitter hides sharp fangs. [. . .] Any reader who likes fantasywith a dash of the bizarre will enjoy this trip to the Crescent City.” —Publishers Weekly“Take a walk down wild card shark streets into a world of gods, lostsouls, murder, and deep, dark magic. You might not come back fromThe City of Lost Fortunes, but you’ll enjoy the trip.” —RichardKadrey, bestselling author of the Sandman Slim series“In The City of Lost Fortunes, Bryan Camp delivers a high-octane taleof myth and magic, serving up the best of Neil Gaiman and RichardKadrey. Here is New Orleans in all its gritty, grudging glory, the hauntof sinners and saints, gods and mischief-makers. Once you pay a visit,you won’t want to leave!” —Helen Marshall, World Fantasy Award-winning author of Gifts for the One Who Comes After“Bryan Camp’s debut novel The City of Lost Fortunes is like a blessedstay in a city both distinctly familiar and wonderfully strange, with anold friend who knows just the right spots to take you to–not tootouristy, and imbued with the weight of history and myth, populatedby local characters you’ll never forget. You’ll leave sated with thesights and sounds of a New Orleans that is not quite the real city, butbreathes like the real thing, a beautiful mimicry in prose that becomesits own version of reality in a way only a good story—or magic—can.You won’t regret the visit.” —Indra Das, author of The Devourers“With sharp prose and serious literary chops, Bryan Camp delivers amasterful work of contemporary fantasy in The City of Lost Fortunes.It reads like the New Orleans-born love child of Raymond Chandlerand Neil Gaiman, featuring a roguish hero you can’t help but root for.It’s funny, harrowing, thrilling—the pages keep turning. The City ofLost Fortunes establishes Bryan Camp as the best and brightest newvoice on fantasy literature’s top shelf.” —Nicholas Mainieri, author ofThe Infinite“Anyone who loves New Orleans will love this mystical adventurewhere gods, magicians, vampires, zombies, angels, and ghouls clash

in the only city where a story like this is actually possible. The City ofFortunes expertly blends the real and the surreal, capturing theessence of New Orleans in such a unique way. In this city, just as inthis story, the line between fact and fiction blurs, and your imaginationis set free.” —Candice Huber, Tubby and Coo’s Bookstore (NewOrleans, LA)“Myth and archetype combine with the gritty realism of modern post-Katrina New Orleans in this fast-paced novel. Throughout the twistsand turns of a clever, compelling plot, the soul of the city and strengthof its survivors shine through. As a southern Louisiana resident,Bryan Camp saw firsthand the devastation and impact on people’slives caused by Katrina, and the emotion of that experience fuels thepower of the story and its unique, well-crafted characters. If you likethe work of Neil Gaiman and Roger Zelazny, you’ll enjoy this book. Afun, engaging read. Highly recommended.” —Les Howle, director ofthe Clarion West Writers Workshop

In June, we have Todd McAulty’s The Robots of Gotham, a debut novel abouta future where the world is on the brink of total subjugation by machineintelligences when a man stumbles on a sinister conspiracy to exterminatehumanity and a group of human and machine misfits who might just be able toprevent it. Here’s what some early readers are saying about this one:

“When the robot apocalypse comes, I hope it’s this much fun. LikeThe Martian and Ready Player One, Robots of Gotham is set in ahigh-tech near-future where something has gone terribly wrong, andit’s navigated by a hero who’s quirky, resourceful, and as likable asthey come. Read it for the rock’em-sock’em-robot action—read it forthe deft world-building with its detailed taxonomy of intelligentmachines—read it for the sobering parallels to modern-day issues andthreats. Or just read it because it’s a helluva good ride.” —SharonShinn, author of the Elemental Blessings series“The Robots of Gotham is a crackling good adventure, stuffed withcool action sequences. It also features serious and intriguingspeculation about the potential of Artificial Intelligence, for good andbad. And it’s an engaging read, with absorbing characters, and, ofcourse, lots and lots of nifty robots.” —Rich Horton, editor of The

Year’s Best Science Fiction & Fantasy“Todd McAulty has imagined a fascinating geopolitical future, filled itwith some very cool technology, and thrown in healthy helpings ofintrigue and action. The result is a page-turner that kept me rivetedfrom the opening lines to the final chapter. Highly recommended!” —David B. Coe, author of The Case Files of Justis Fearsson“If Johnny 5 had a baby with the Terminator, the result would beRobots of Gotham: a book that explores the consequences of worlddomination by our Robot Overlords. (And, lest we forget thebadassiest of them, our Robot Overladies.) Drones, dinosaurs, anddoggies—with a plague thrown in for good measure!—the barter isbanter, and death is cheap. With man against machine, machineagainst machine, man against man, unlikely alliances must be forgedacross all species, rational or otherwise. For all its breakneck world-building, constant questing, and relentless wheeling and dealing,Robots of Gotham is deceptively deep-hearted: a novel about, of allthings, friendship.” —C.S.E. Cooney, author of World FantasyAward-winning Bone Swans: Stories“Soldiers, spies, diplomats—and that’s just the machines. Wait untilyou meet the wise-cracking hero and his dog. Wildly inventive,outrageous fun.” —Kay Kenyon, author of At the Table of Wolves andSerpent in the Heather“Adventure, mystery, action, sinister intrigue, clever heroics, androbots—what more do you need? I couldn’t put it down.” —HowardAndrew Jones, author of The Desert of Souls

Further out in 2018, we’ll have The Wild Dead—Carrie Vaughn’s sequel toBannerless—in July; Dale Bailey’s In the Night Wood in October; and then MollyTanzer’s Creatures of Want and Ruin in November. We’ll provide more detailsabout those as the publication dates draw nearer, but as always if you want moreinformation about these or any other John Joseph Adams Books titles, just visitjohnjosephadamsbooks.com.

That’s all the JJA Books news for now. More soon!

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Well, that’s all there is to report this month. Thanks for reading, and I hope

you enjoy the issue!

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

John Joseph Adams, in addition to serving as publisher and editor-in-chief of Lightspeed, isthe editor of John Joseph Adams Books, the SF/Fantasy imprint from Houghton Mifflin Harcourt.He is also the series editor of Best American Science Fiction & Fantasy, as well as the USAToday bestselling editor of many other anthologies, including The Mad Scientist’s Guide toWorld Domination, Robot Uprisings, Dead Man’s Hand, Armored, Brave New Worlds,Wastelands, and The Living Dead. Recent projects include: Cosmic Powers, What the #@&%Is That?, Operation Arcana, Loosed Upon the World, Wastelands 2, Press Start to Play, andThe Apocalypse Triptych: The End is Nigh, The End is Now, and The End Has Come. Called“the reigning king of the anthology world” by Barnes & Noble, John is a two-time winner of theHugo Award (for which he has been a finalist eleven times) and is a seven-time World FantasyAward finalist. John is also the editor and publisher of Nightmare Magazine and is a producerfor Wired.com’s The Geek’s Guide to the Galaxy podcast. Find him on Twitter@johnjosephadams.

The Streets of BabelAdam-Troy Castro | 6700 words

The city surrounded him while he slept. He had been fleeing it for four days.Long before its walls became visible, it was a grayish smudge on the horizon,beneath which the air shimmered in silent testimony of its radiant heat. It was oneof about ten living cities he knew of and he had avoided it for as long as hecould, staying out of their usual migratory paths, contenting himself with thecompany of the small tribes who had also managed to keep out of the reach of thecities, living on roots and the small animals that fell to his bow. For years he hadmanaged to go months at a time without even laying eyes on any of the cities, andhad even managed to pretend to himself that they didn’t exist, that it was possibleto live indefinitely without ever finding himself a resident of one.

When he saw the smudge in the distance, he just changed course and headedin the opposite direction, figuring that it hadn’t sensed him. But then it followed,extending its pseudopods of brick and steel and pavement into the grass in itspath, pulling itself out of the ruined landscape it left behind, its shifting skylinegradually becoming sharper and more visible as it literally gained ground, in adetermined pursuit that no barefoot man, no matter how tireless or swift of foot,

could possibly evade. After one day, he knew that it was after him; after two days,he knew that he was doomed to capture; after three, he gave up all stops for restor sustenance; after four, he breathed in ragged gasps, in terror of the hungrysounds that grew louder, ever louder, just behind him.

When he finally collapsed, his only hope was the forlorn one that it mightdecide that it did not want him after all. But as he slept, a pair of brick walls rosefrom the dirt on either side of him, forming an alley, and at the end of the alleythe grass withered to make room for the sidewalk, and just beyond the sidewalkthere came a street, and soon buildings, and finally, as the sun rose, people,fleeing whatever the city concocted to drive them wherever it wanted them to go;entire multitudes of them, already trapped and imprisoned and terrified andenslaved to its whims.

The sleep the city provided him was not enough to counter his exhaustion. Hedid not hear the brick wall rise behind him, turning his alley into a blind one, andhe did not register when that wall began to slide forward, nor even when it waspressing against his back.

When it began to shove him across the filthy, somehow already garbage-strewn concrete, he mumbled and muttered and attempted to hold on tounconsciousness a little while longer, but then it picked up speed and he felt theheat of that abrasive ground against his skin.

He scrambled to his feet, saw with fresh dismay that the worst had finallyhappened, that the city had him, and for a moment or two just stood before theadvancing surface with the paralysis of all those faced with the knowledge thatthey no longer belong to themselves. Then the wall jerked forward, striking himin the face in what amounted to a stern reminder that he was not in charge. Hisnose bled. He backed up, looked around for his bow, saw that it had been halfswallowed up by the wall, considered trying to retrieve it anyway and then gaveup, heading for the alley’s mouth, which started sealing up even as heapproached.

The city had no intention of crushing him between the wall advancing on himfrom behind and the one that was forming, brick by brick, ahead of him. Beforehe even had a chance to fear that fate, the wall to his left began to rise, grantingthe building on that side an extra two stories and not incidentally providing himwith a door that rose from the ground with it. Dented and grimy and shining ayellow light through its upper panel of fogged glass, it swung open at the lightesttouch, revealing a set of narrow stairs leading upward. He had just enough time toduck into the opening before the alleyway was swallowed up behind him. He

climbed the stairs just ahead of the advancing wall that ate up every riser at theinstant he no longer needed it, and reached a dim hallway to nowhere with onemore door at the midway point.

This he went through, to find a cramped little apartment with ugly wallpaperand a flickering lamp and a sooty window looking out at the city. Uponinvestigating the view, he found out that he was much higher up than he shouldhave been after climbing only one flight, but the floor was still ascending, and asit achieved an altitude higher than that of the surrounding buildings he was able tolook out upon the cityscape and confirm that he was now fully encircled, the gridof its streets extending for miles before the advancing membrane that was the city,claiming more territory for itself. He could just barely make out grasslands in thefar distance, but they were clearly lost to him. No man could head for theoutskirts of a city in the face of all the opposition the city would place in his pathand hope to exit unless it wanted him to go; not even if he ran like the wind.

Then a gleaming glass skyscraper erupted upward and erased his view,providing him instead with a mirror reflection of the building in which he wasnow imprisoned, a dull gray monstrosity with gargoyles and cornices and, there,his own naked and blurry form, standing at one window looking out: a man in abox that was just like all the other boxes around it, which were themselvescontained in a building that was a stack of boxes. He was not the only one lookingout, he saw; there were similarly forlorn figures in the windows above and belowhis, though it was possible to look past them to the patterned walls of thechambers in which they were trapped and see that those walls had advanced morecruelly than his own, effectively pinning them against the glass. He took from thisthe lesson that the city could always punish him for not hurrying in whateverdirection it wished to hustle him. It could make of him even more confined aprisoner than he was now.

He looked down at the streets and saw hundreds of people, heading in alldirections, their clothing differing from those that surrounded him in only theslightest details. Most were hurrying, and looked like they were used to hurrying,the sidewalks nipping at their heels with little bulging ripples that pursued themand drove them forward, on whatever errands the city found fitting for them.There were collisions: one rebounding against another, others colliding head-on,trying to avoid a direct confrontation whenever possible, except in those caseswhere, clearly, the city wanted them to fight. One man hesitated for some reasonknown only to him and the pavement reared up on all sides of him, forming anegg-shaped protrusion that sat undisturbed for a moment before it sank down into

the earth, taking that unfortunate pedestrian into the depths. Whether he’d justbeen devoured or was simply being shuffled to some other location at the city’sbehest was impossible to say. Either way, nobody around him had the time tonotice. They had their own errands, their own destinations, whether known tothem or not.

His window tilted sideways, becoming a parallelogram that blinked like an eyeand was gone. The wallpaper bubbled, lost its pattern, and became tile. A drainopened up in the floor, between his bare feet. Hot water showered down on him.He found soap in a dish that wasn’t there before, was gifted with the knowledgeof its purpose, and lathered up, turning his face toward the spray. It tasted bad. Itwas water and it was hot but it had a nasty, rusty quality, as if the city was nowsick in some way, and the sickness was carried by the very pipes. He still tookpleasure in cleaning himself. He was a man who had avoided the company ofother men for much of his life, a man who for months out of the year slatheredhimself with grease to protect himself from the insects that at some times coveredthe grasslands in swarms like black clouds, a man who only rarely had cause toconsider his own stench, but the city would not allow him to persist in suchunsanitary habits and had now afflicted him with the awareness that here he wasexpected to do better. So he washed, and the water puddling at his feet turned firstblack, then brown, then clear, before the water stopped without any input fromhim. He felt disappointed. It had been pleasurable.

He left the shower, instantly dry, and the room shifted again, becoming a closetwith many identical hanging outfits. After some trial and error, he figured outhow to put on the white shirt and the gray slacks, but the city grew impatient withhis dawdling and a red tie burst from a hanging rack of identical ties and wrappeditself around his neck, like a constricting snake. Further firm guidance providedhim with shoes, a jacket, and a brimmed hat, which adjusted itself for size beforethe apartment constricted and forced him back into the hallway, which itselfconstricted and forced him down the stairs to the street.

By the time he had joined the flow of humanity his neighborhood did not lookthe same as it had when he’d viewed it from the window. The buildings hadbecome squatter, the avenues narrower. The gleaming glass towers had becomesmaller buildings with storefronts, each identified with lettering in a language hewas disturbed to discover he could read. One place provided clothing of a sortsomewhat different than the outfit he wore, another produced music, a thirdintoxicating beverages, and a fourth hot food, which it occurred to him that hewanted; but when he hesitated at the enticing scent that came from that one open

doorway, the pavement at his feet pricked him with fangs of stone and he wasdriven onward, forced to ignore the stabbing pains in his feet.

He picked up the pace and saw that he was approaching a corpse lying half inand half out of the gutter, the upper half of his head flattened as if from theimpact of some falling object, but there was no object and the source of theunfortunate’s wound remained mysterious. Every impulse in his own bodyargued that he should slow down, kneel before this victim of the city’s arbitrarypace, and show the respect that such a tragedy deserved, but the little rippleguiding him onward would not have it, and so he found himself stepping over thebody, ignoring it, leaving it behind for someone else to deal with. Everybodyaround him did the same thing. He wanted to ask them whether it was always likethis, but he was not given enough time for such a conversation; he was just drivenon, down that street and left onto another and then right onto still another, thepace picking up, the sense of urgency growing.

After hours of this, which amounted to nothing more than walking in circles asfar as he could see, he was directed toward one of the storefronts and into a roomlined with shelves on which sat dusty glass jars bearing liquids of varying colors,which might have been balms or beverages or any other damned thing, not that itmattered, because he was no more than four steps into the room before the wallsswallowed the containers and the shelves became bare. The room darkened butfor a wedge of light leading to a brightly lit hallway in the back, and he headedthat way, hoping at least for some point to the long day of racing around like afool, but the hallway turned out to be almost the length of a city block itself, andhe had enough time to despair of any such conclusion before he emerged into aroom where many different men and women sat typing at workstations.

No sooner did he rest his weight on the unoccupied chair than cubicle wallssprung up, and up, and up, four of them, rising to the tiled ceiling and thusshutting him in with nothing to do but respond to the machine’s demands of him.It was a minor math problem. He was not a man who had ever had any real usefor numbers, had indeed been so primitive that he’d never had any need tounderstand any more than he could count on his fingers on toes, but now survivaldictated that he cooperate. So he did the problem, using the keys on the devicebefore him to make the same numbers appear on the glowing screen he’d beenprovided, complete with answer. Another problem appeared. He solved that one,and the one that came after that, and the one that came after that, hundreds, itseemed, in rapid succession, all pointless, all coming faster the better he becameat answering them.

Only gradually did he become aware that his hands were now shackledtogether and to the table surface and that he grew unpleasantly warm when heattempted to take a break for himself. Only a little while after that he found thathe needed to relieve himself and had no means of satisfying that need withoutdisgrace. He could only hold it in and continue what he was doing until the citydecided that it could afford him the privilege.

By the time the walls lowered around his workstation, his cramps werehorrific. He fled ahead of the city’s prodding and found the same room thateverybody else was fleeing for, where by heroic effort he managed to deny hispressing need until those in front of him were done. An empty space opened upfor him. He sat and did what he had to do, feeling a vast nostalgia for the free lifehe had lived up until a few days ago. He wanted to linger. But he was presentedwith the knowledge that he had to go back to his little cubicle and return toinputting his numbers, so he got up, washed his hands as per the city’s wishes,and went back to multiple hours trapped in an activity he found nonsensical andwithout merit, wondering if there would ever come a time when he could eat,when he could sleep, when he could scratch his ass without interference.

The answer, it turned out only when he had worked to a time that he couldonly think of as eventually, was “yes.” The glowing screen receded into hiscubicle wall and he prepared himself to be released, but it seemed that the city didnot want to him to exit on his own two feet, not at all. It would take care ofmoving him. His desk remained in place, but his chair descended through whatseemed like an endless vertical shaft, while he pounded at the walls. Then thechair tilted forward and deposited him into a chute, which he slid down atdizzying speed until he found himself on the sidewalk again, driven forward, everforward, through mobs of terrified others.

He had returned his thoughts to whether the city ever had any intention offeeding him when the pavement nipping at his heels steered him to his left into astorefront, which turned out to be a place for the distribution of food. The lightswere down lower than made sense. The little tables were all covered withtablecloths. There were people seated at the tables, two at each, all jittery. Therewere women with men, men with men, women with women, and one table wherea single woman sat, her eyes little circles in which smaller circles bounded about,as if searching for a means of escape. He was prodded to the other side of thattable. A chair popped out of the floor, jabbing at his thighs and demanding hisoccupancy. He collapsed into it with an audible whuff, whereupon a strapwhipped across his midsection, buckling him in.

The city spoke to him. “This is your wife.”This was the strangest thing of all, because while such pairings were not

unknown in the tribes that roamed the grasslands, it was normally expected thatmates were provided at least a little basic familiarity with one another before anyformal connection was declared. But the city didn’t have time to waste on suchfolderol. It needed him paired with her, just as it needed all these other peoplepaired with the other strangers sitting across from them, and it was not willing tobrook argument.

So he offered a little crooked half-smile as apology and she offered the same,though there was more resignation in her expression than he would have liked.She uttered a number of words in a language he didn’t know, that to him soundedlike she’d stuffed her mouth with pebbles and was gagging on them. He spoke toher in his own tongue, a businesslike dialect of few words and no appreciablepoetry that had always gotten right to the business of whether anybody in theimmediate vicinity knew how to make fire and where all the tastiest grubs were.She grimaced at the sounds coming out of his mouth. Whatever she said nextremained a mystery to him, but was clearly not very nice. Whatever calculus sheused to define the attractiveness of males, he clearly did not add up to very much.This was also a familiar situation to him, unfortunately. The sad thing was that byhis own matching calculus she really wasn’t all that bad, her specific allotment offacial features combining to convey what would have been an invitingimpression, if she wasn’t so scared and despairing and pissed off. But her hairwas ridiculous. It was all combed and shiny.

A pair of swinging doors slammed open in the rear of the chamber and aparade of men and women in identical outfits burst in at the hurried pace ofantelope being driven off the edge of a cliff. They were all carrying trays of food,which they dropped off at every table in the room before the floor ushered themall back out of an exit that sealed behind them. The meals appeared to be cookedmeat, covered with some kind of sauce. There were also vessels filled with water.His wife, ravenous, grabbed the slab of meat with both hands, jamming it into hermouth as if experience had taught her that taking any more time with it risked itsremoval before she’d had enough. He followed her example, digging into his owncourse, and discovering within his very first few bites that whatever the city did inorder to prepare food also robbed it of everything that made food pleasurable. Itwas like chewing on sand, and he almost choked on it before sternly advisinghimself that if he wanted to live he should take what was offered.

He ate four bites and he gulped a taste or two of the water before a bell rang

and the chairs belonging to every diner all swiveled on their axes and slid forwardon invisible tracks, forming a train that proceeded single-file through a freshopening in the wall, where they chugged along for a while until the couples beganto peel off into side passages. The ride was bumpy and the resulting motionsickness almost made him lose his meal, before the chairs tipped forward andejected him and his wife onto a bed large enough for the two of them.

If they were meant to mate now, the city needed a little refresher course inwhat put human beings in the mood, because his wife still wanted nothing to dowith him. She recoiled and hissed at the sight of him, retreating as far as shecould without leaving the mattress, not that she could because it was precisely thesame size as the surrounding chamber and there was no place for her to go exceptback up the chute, which closed too quickly for her to do such a thing. He did notpursue her. He was still too dazed from his first city to exercise any carnal urges,and indeed wanted nothing more than to pass out and sleep for however long thecity would permit unconsciousness.

But sleep was still not on the agenda, it seemed: not with the rectangular screendescending from the ceiling and positioning itself where he and his wife had nooption other than looking at it. The first projected images were of people, doingthings around the city; people of extraordinary health and charisma, rushing aboutat the same pace he had been rushed through his day, except out of what in theircase appeared to be personal volition. They had purpose and they had urgencyand they emoted the importance of it at all with an insistence that rendered theiractivities strangely compelling, even though he understood none of it. It was notjust that it all occurred in a language he did not speak, but that everything they didmade no sense to him. At one point, they sat around a round table and had somekind of frenetic argument. At another point, they simulated orgasm while eatingsemi-liquid glop out of cups. At a third point, they were replaced by other peoplewho rolled their eyes and shoved food in each other’s faces, while unseen otherpeople guffawed with delight. He turned toward his wife in search of anexplanation and was dumbfounded to see that she was not just fascinated by theseoccurrences but hypnotized by them, the light from the screen playing across herface and the dried food around her lips.

Maybe that was the whole point. Maybe this was the city’s last attempt atcommunication with him. Maybe if he could wring forth some understanding ofwhat it showed him now, he could finally understand what the city wanted fromhim, and how he could persuade it to treat him with more mercy. So he turned hisattention back to the projected people, who were now being depicted running

from a great conflagration.This lasted for hours, while his clothing and the woman’s gradually evaporated

and returned them to a state of nakedness. The activities on screen never stopped.Some random good-looking people ran about doing incomprehensible things,only to be replaced by some other random good-looking people doing otherincomprehensible things, and none of it seemed to make any sense, and there didnot seem to be any way to stop the images from coming. It was only after softfeminine snores began to rise from the other side of the mattress that heunderstood that the city intended the images as some form of narcotic, and thisappalled him, because they were having the opposite effect, keeping him awakedespite his state of total exhaustion. Maybe it was something he would get usedto.

As an experiment, he tried closing his eyes, but the wall grew a needle andjabbed him awake. Sleep, it seemed, was permitted for his wife but not for him.He groaned in dismay, hurled a few choice curses that would sear the ears fromanybody who understood the language, by trial and error found an altitude for hiseyelids that he could be permitted to maintain without further punishment, and inthat way dozed until gradually becoming aware that the lighting had changed. Hewoke and found a wall had descended and sliced the room in half, separating ifnot permanently divorcing him from his wife. The screen was now showing moresexual images, ones that happened to appeal to his preferences as a man of thegrasslands; there was darkness, there was a fire, there was a woman covered witha pleasing sheen of grease to repel blood-drinking insects, there was a familiarand welcoming look in her eyes, and there she was, kneeling on hands and kneesso that he, the observer implied by the image, could rut with her. He was erect atonce, with an intensity he hadn’t known since he was young and first discoveredthat the part of his body he used for urination could also do this wonderful thing.

He was about to use his hand to achieve release when he discovered that thecity took care of even this. A tube had extended from the wall, claimed his penisin a grip as tight as he could possibly desire, and fortunately no tighter, and begunto pump away. He almost succumbed to panic, because where he came from,things grabbing him there without permission were nothing to take pleasure in,but before he could offer much rebellion, it clarified that it knew exactly what itwas doing, and was as skilled at the task as it needed to be. It was also efficient,not allowing him to soften, much as the circumstances suggested just that. In amatter of minutes, he released and it did too, retreating into the wall with a totallack of concern for his dignity. Nor was dignity fast in returning. For five full

seconds, he was deluged with warm water, then with hot air. He was dried inseconds. Then the images on the screen stopped and the wall separating him fromhis wife rose back into the ceiling. Something was off about the timing of allthese actions, though, because just before the intervening wall completed itsretreat into the ceiling, he was able to catch a glimpse of something, someunknown thing, disappearing into the wall on his wife’s side of the bed. But if hehad been tired before, he was now even more so, too much to consider anythingthat had happened. He closed his eyes and was this time permitted sleep.

His wife was gone by the next morning, when his mattress tipped to roll himout of bed. Once again, the city coordinated his bathing and dressing. He was alittle slower at obeying its commands than he’d been yesterday, because by nowhe was really getting sick of this shit, and this time, when one of the city’s limbsprodded him in the small of the back, he whirled around and slapped it away,something that only resulted in it slapping him harder. He knew a curse-phrasefrom childhood, one that translated as a helpful suggestion that its target enjoysexual relations with itself, and he shouted it now, not caring that this could notpossibly help. A long object emerged from the wall and jabbed him once, causinga pain that impossibly involved not just the point of impact but seemingly everynerve in his body. He bit his tongue. It jabbed him again and this time heretreated, onto a platform that had come into being just that moment and whichcarried him downward and to the street.

The angry pavement drove him via a different route—and it had to be adifferent route, because the streets had a completely different layout than the onethey’d possessed when last he traveled them—to a room very much like the onewhere he’d been enslaved the day before, and this led to many more hours ofjabbing at his keyboard in response to prompts that gave him time to despairabout whether his life would now always be like this, being driven from place toplace in order to pursue these tasks that meant nothing to him. Why wouldanybody build a city if this was what they were like?

The force of that thought built up inside him until he was ready to explode,only to be forestalled when one of his fellow slaves beat him to it: a pale youngwoman a few cubicles over, who started shrieking in yet another unknownlanguage, words that probably translated as a plea to be either freed or put out ofher misery. The cries went on for almost a full minute before the ceiling camedown like a hammer and erased her with a wet splat. There were some gasps andcries of dismay from around the room, but within a very few seconds alarmswent off, and everybody returned to their assigned tasks lest the same end come

for them.An eternity later, the reprieve arrived, and he was transported through a series

of tubes and conveyer belts to the street, a brightly-lit place that no longer seemedto be a route to a definable destination but a means of keeping him in motion forhowever long the city wanted to delay his delivery to somewhere he might havebeen permitted to rest. It gave him food, something greasy and coagulated thatmade him gag on its way down, and a beverage, something intoxicating that lefthim reeling and unable to focus, but beyond that it permitted no refuge, not in theplaces where people were made to dance to drumbeats so loud that their earsbled, and not in the dark and cramped crawlspaces that he was forced to visit,where emaciated figures lay staring at the darkness with fogged eyes, while tubespumped colorful fluids into their arms.

He got what rest he could aboard a crowded vehicle that circled those streets injerks, finding what path it could through landmarks that changed with lightningspeed, making any thought of a defined route ridiculous. He felt compassion forthe man at the front of the vehicle, who gave the impression of being seated butcould have been an amputee as the lower half of him was firmly imbedded in themachinery. It was clear that this man was supposed to be controlling it somehow,but it was just as obviously controlling him, as his wrists were shackled to thewheel he held and its sudden movements tugged his arms along, prompting aseries of pained grunts. There was no way any man could have directed a vehiclethrough the constantly changing madness, but it was nevertheless work that wasdemanded of him, and so the captive driver sat, his eyes desperately fixed on theroad ahead.

In the morning, he was directed back to work, and spent another day indrudgery there, and from there was sent back out into the city streets, and fromthere to an apartment not quite his old one but similar to it in its utter lack ofcharacter, there to spend another night watching the images on the screen.

He realized that the city never stored anybody in the same place twice, that itinstead found whatever was convenient to its own needs, which made sense giventhat its constant shifting meant the destruction and reconstruction of all old placesonce they were no longer of use. But it also meant that no place was ever familiar,and that no place was ever home. It meant that he was unable to form friendshipsor alliances with anyone he met, never feel himself any more than a part of themachine, never know anything but the constant disorientation and exhaustion. Nowonder the faces he saw on his fellow cogs in the machine were always teeteringon the edge of madness! No wonder half of them mumbled to themselves, or,

given a few seconds of freedom, tore at their own flesh! No wonder that thesimple problems he daily faced at his workstation constantly grew more and moredifficult for him, why even the constant prodding of metal fingers could not stopthe time it took him to perform his simple tasks from elongating, until the day hewas unable to contribute at all, and that day the floor beneath him opened up andhe slid down a chute that eventually deposited him in a filthy alley very much likethe one from his first day here.

On that day, he found himself serving the city in yet another capacity: as abjectexample. For clothing, he was provided rags that appeared to have marinated inthe stench of unwashed human being; for food, he was provided whatevergarbage the mechanisms of the city deposited on the curb beside him; for activity,he was provided substances of various sorts that kept him stinking andunthinking. This was actually preferable to doing something more obviouslyuseful, because it slowed his thoughts down to a mere trickle and allowed forself-awareness only when his next dose of oblivion drew near. Oh, occasionallyhe became aware that he’d soiled himself again, or that somebody dressed almostas shabbily as himself was being directed by prods from the surroundingarchitecture to steal his shoes, but for the most part he lay wherever he wasplaced, heavy-lidded, staring up at the day or night sky, mutteringincomprehensibly whenever the fresher and more respectable citizens of the citywere driven to step over him or to recoil at the sight of him.

Even lying in his stupor, he knew exactly what was going through their headswhen they encountered him: that he was there as warning, as a vivid illustrationof what could happen to anybody who didn’t serve the city’s needs. He smiled upat them and said, in various levels of sobriety, that this honestly wasn’t too bad,compared to doing the problems in the cubicles. But his language was not theirlanguage and they heard what he said only as unintelligible muttering, which wasalso the point.

This, too, lasted for months.And then one day a metallic arm extruded itself from the wall, formed a noose

that circled him by the neck, and yanked him upward. Standing, steadied until hecould manage the balance on his own, he was then directed through an openingthat was first a shadowed alleyway like the one where he’d lived for so long andthen, the further he walked, more and more a respectable corridor with whitewalls and bright lights. He was forced into another room where his rags were tornfrom his body by more metal arms and then into a shower stall where theaccumulated filth of months was washed away. After a few more clarifying

substances were pumped into his veins, unwanted sanity returned, and he wantedto scream at the city for giving him a gift of such little use. But, as always, hisprotests were useless, and he endured being groomed, dressed, and propelledback into the corridor, where another trudge of what felt like multiple milesawaited.

What he eventually encountered was a long rectangular glass window breakingup the monotony of the wall to his right, and as he drew closer, the sight on theother side of that window: a vast room filled with dozens of cribs in whichdozens of tiny newborn infants lay sleeping or squirming or bawling their lungsout, while various metallic servitors tended to them.

For the second time, the city spoke to him. “These are your children.”For the first time in months, he thought of the woman he had known for one

day, and he stared through the clear glass at all the babies who he had fatheredand who would now be raised by the city to fulfill their places there. They wouldspend their whole lives being controlled at every moment, never knowing freewill at any moment, never getting to experience the satisfactions of a full life. Hebegan to pound on the glass, not having a plan, knowing only that this could notbe allowed. His first blow inflicted spidery cracks on the glass, and his secondmade those cracks worse, but then the window slid to his right, and he foundhimself pounding on the solid wall where none of his blows could do anydamage.

The city spoke again. “Your services are no longer required.” He turned hishead and saw the window sealing up as it receded up the corridor, and he beganto run, even as it picked up speed and began to recede faster than he couldpossibly follow, as desperately as he ran, as much as he punished legs grownweak from months of near-inactivity by forcing them to propel him on what healready knew to be a futile chase.

He was running for less than a minute before he felt a fresh and almostforgotten sensation against the soles of his feet: grass. He had not noticed whenhis shoes evaporated off his feet nor when the floor retreated in a semicirclewhere he stood, and now that he did, he understood that the city had gotten whatit wanted from him and now desired nothing more to do with him. From hisperspective, it was packing up, folding itself away, the walls sliding shut andreleasing more and more of the landscape it had usurped, now a few arm’s-lengths from him and now a distance farther than he could run in a sprint, thewalls churning and mixing and pulling away and abandoning. The white corridorwas buried now, separated from him by little bits and pieces he recognized as

roadway or dining room or mattress or workplace, by windows and brickface andalley and moving figures on screens, all fleeing him, as if he were an infectionthat it needed to escape as soon as possible.

The city-free hole he occupied grew in diameter no matter how hard he tried tocatch up with the churning maelstrom of grinding gears and building parts, until agap opened up behind him, revealing bare earth. The neighborhoods to his leftand right rushed past him with a speed he could not begin to match, until theywere just elements of that ever-changing, amorphous wall of activity now headinginto the far distance faster than any man could run.

In minutes, it was just an undifferentiated gray blob in the distance, onlyrecognizable as a city by the spires that rose and fell with every heartbeat; not longafter that, it was gone, driven by an urgency that must have made sense to itselfbut not to him or to anyone unlucky enough to be desired as a permanent citizen.

He ran until his lungs failed him, and then he walked, until he encountered theone thing other than himself that the city had left in its wake: his spear.

He picked it up. It weighed the same. The city had even repaired its soledefect, a chip that had formed when it had once struck ribs instead of soft flesh.That was, he decided, a considerate gesture, even if one not worth everything hehad been through.

Of what had happened to him in all that time, he understood almost nothing.Of what would happen now to his “wife” and to his children, he understood

even less, and it was with the practicality of a solitary man of the grasslands thathe shook his head and wrote them off as tragedies that he could not help, that ifhe wanted to survive from now on, he would now have to work on forgetting.

But now that the beast responsible for consuming so many months of his lifewas but a dot in the distance, he could only sum up the experience in one crystalepiphany, that he’d return to many times in the days to come.

He was not made for life in a big city.

©2018 by Adam-Troy Castro. | Art © 2018 by Alan Bao.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Adam-Troy Castro made his first non-fiction sale to SPY magazine in 1987. His 26 books todate include four Spider-Man novels, 3 novels about his profoundly damaged far-future murderinvestigator Andrea Cort, and 6 middle-grade novels about the dimension-spanning adventures

of young Gustav Gloom. The penultimate installment in the series, Gustav Gloom and the Inn ofShadows (Grosset and Dunlap) came out in August 2015. The finale appeared in August 2016.Adam’s darker short fiction for grownups is highlighted by his most recent collection, HerHusband’s Hands And Other Stories (Prime Books). Adam’s works have won the Philip K.Dick Award and the Seiun (Japan), and have been nominated for eight Nebulas, three Stokers,two Hugos, and, internationally, the Ignotus (Spain), the Grand Prix de l’Imaginaire (France),and the Kurd-Laßwitz Preis (Germany). He lives in Florida with his wife Judi and either threeor four cats, depending on what day you’re counting and whether Gilbert’s escaped this week.

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Golubash, Or Wine-Blood-War-ElegyCatherynne M. Valente | 4570 words

The difficulties of transporting wine over interstellar distances are manifold.Wine is, after all, like a child. It can bruise. It can suffer trauma—sometimes thepoor creature can recover; sometimes it must be locked up in a cellar until itlearns to behave itself. Sometimes it is irredeemable. I ask that you greet the sevenglasses before you tonight not as simple fermented grapes, but as the livingcreatures they are, well-brought up, indulged but not coddled, punished whennecessary, shyly seeking your approval with clasped hands and slicked hair. Afterall, they have come so very far for the chance to be loved.

Welcome to the first public tasting of Domaine Zhaba. My name is PhylloxeraNanut, and it is the fruit of my family’s vines that sits before you. Please forgiveour humble venue—surely we could have wished for something grander than ascorched pre-war orbital platform, but circumstances, and the constantsurveillance of Château Marubouzu-Débrouillard and their soldiers have drivenus to extremity. Mind the loose electrical panels and pull up a reactor husk—theyare inert, I assure you. Spit onto the floor—a few new stains will never benoticed. As every drop about to pass your lips is wholly, thoroughly,enthusiastically illegal, we shall not stand on ceremony. Shall we begin?

2583 Sud-Côtê-du-Golubash (New Danube)The colonial ship Quintessence of Dust first blazed across the skies of

Avalokitesvara two hundred years before I was born, under the red stare ofBarnard’s Star, our second solar benefactor. Her plasma sails streamed kilometerslong, like sheltering wings. Simone Nanut was on that ship. She, alongside athousand others, looked down on their new home from that great height, thesingle long, unfathomably wide river that circumscribed the globe, the goldenmountains prickled with cobalt alders, the deserts streaked with pink salt.

How I remember the southern coast of Golubash; I played there, and dreamedthere was a girl on the invisible opposite shore, and that her family, too, madewine and cowered like us in the shadow of the Asociación.

My friends, in your university days did you not study the manifests of the firstcolonials, did you not memorize their weight-limited cargo, verse after verse ofspinning wheels, bamboo seeds, lathes, vials of tailored bacteria, as holy writ?Then perhaps you will recall Simone Nanut and her folly: She used her pitiful

allotment of cargo to carry the clothes on her back and a tangle of ancient Mariborgrapevine, its roots tenderly wrapped and watered. Mad Slovak witch they allthought her, patting those tortured, battered vines into the gritty yellow soil of theGolubash basin. Even the Hyphens were sure the poor things would fail.

There were only four of them on all of Avalokitesvara, immensely tall, theirwatery triune faces catching the old red light of Barnard’s flares, theirinnumerable arms fanned out around their terribly thin torsos like peacocks’ tails.Not for nothing was the planet named for a Hindu god with eleven faces and athousand arms. The colonists called them Hyphens for their way of talking, andfor the thinness of their bodies. They did not understand then what you must allknow now, rolling your eyes behind your sleeves as your hostess relates ancienthistory, that each of the four Hyphens was a quarter of the world in a single body,that they were a mere outcropping of the vast intelligences which made up theecology of Avalokitesvara, like one of our thumbs or a pair of lips.

Golubash, I knew. To know more than one Hyphen in a lifetime is rare.Officially, the great river is still called New Danube, but eventually my familycame to understand, as all families did, that the river was the flesh and blood ofGolubash, the fish his-her-its thoughts, the seaweed his-her-its nerves, the banks akind of thoughtful skin.

Simone Nanut put vines down into the body of Golubash. He-She-It bentdown very low over Nanut’s hunched little form, arms akimbo, and said to her:“That will not work-take-thrive-bear fruit-last beyond your lifetime.”

Yet work-take-thrive they did. Was it a gift to her? Did Golubash make room,between what passes for his-her-its pancreas and what might be called a liver, forforeign vines to catch and hold? Did he, perhaps, love my ancestor in whateverway a Hyphen can love? It is impossible to know, but no other Hyphen has everallowed Earth-origin flora to flourish, not Heeminspr the high desert, not Julkathe archipelago, not Niflamen the soft-spoken polar waste. Not even the northerncoast of the river proved gentle to grape. Golubash was generous only toSimone’s farm, and only to the southern bank. The mad red flares of Barnard’sStar flashed often and strange, and the grapes pulsed to its cycles. The rest of thecolony contented themselves with the native root-vegetables, something likecrystalline rutabagas filled with custard, and the teeming rock-geese whose heartsin those barnacled chests tasted of beef and sugar.

• • • •

In your glass is an ’83 vintage of that hybrid vine, a year which should befamous, would be, if not for rampant fear and avarice. Born on Earth, matured inGolubash. It is 98% Cabernet, allowing for mineral compounds generated in thedigestive tract of the Golubash river. Note its rich, garnet-like color,the gravitas of its presence in the glass, the luscious, rolling flavors of blackberry,cherry, peppercorn, and chocolate, the subtle, airy notes of fresh straw and iron.At the back of your tongue, you will detect a last whisper of brine and clarygrass.

The will of Simone Nanut swirls in your glass, resolute-unbroken-unmoveable-stone.

2503 Abbaye de St. CIR, Tranquilité, Neuf-AbymesOf course, the 2683 vintage, along with all others originating on

Avalokitesvara, were immediately declared not only contraband but biohazard bythe Asociación de la Pureza del Vino, whose chairman was and is a scion of theMarubouzu clan. The Asociación has never peeked out of the pockets of thosefabled, hoary Hokkaido vineyards. When Château Débrouillard shocked the wineworld, then relatively small, by allowing their ancient vines to be grafted withJapanese stock a few years before the first of Salvatore Yuuhi’s gates went online,an entity was created whose tangled, ugly tendrils even a Hyphen would callgargantuan.

Nor were we alone in our ban. Even before the first colony on Avalokitesvara,the lunar city of St. Clair-in-Repose, a Catholic sanctuary, had been nourishing itsown strange vines for a century. In great glass domes, in a mist of temperatureand light control, a cloister of monks, led by Fratre Sebastién Perdue, rearedpriceless Pinot vines and heady Malbecs, their leaves unfurling green and glossyin the pale blue light of the planet that bore them. But monks are perverse, andnone more so than Perdue. In his youth, he was content with the classic vines,gloried in the precision of the wines he could coax from them. But in his middleage, he committed two sins. The first involved a young woman from Hipparchus,the second was to cut their orthodox grapes with Tsuki-Bellas, the odd, hard littleberries that sprang up from the lunar dust wherever our leashed bacteria had beenturned loose in order to make passable farmland as though they had been waiting,all that time, for a long drink of rhizomes. Their flavor is somewhere between ablueberry and a truffle, and since genetic sequencing proved it to be within thegrape family, the monks of St. Clair deemed it a radical source of heretoforeunknown wonders.

Hipparchus was a farming village where Tsuki-Bellas grew fierce and thick. Itdoes not do to dwell on Brother Sebastién’s motives.

What followed would be repeated in more varied and bloodier fashions twohundred years hence. Well do I know the song. For Château Marubouzu-Débrouillard and her pet Asociación had partnered with the Coquil-GrollëCorporation in order to transport their wines from Earth to orbiting cities andlunar clusters. Coquil-Grollë, now entirely swallowed by Château M-D, was at thetime a soda company with vast holdings in other foodstuffs, but the tremendousweight restrictions involved in transporting unaltered liquid over interlunar spacemade strange bedfellows. The precious M-D wines could not be dehydrated andreconstituted—no child can withstand such sadism. Therefore, foul papers weresigned with what was arguably the biggest business entity in existence, andthough it must have bruised the rarified egos of the children of Hokkaido andBurgundy, they allowed their shy, fragile wines to be shipped alongside Super-Cola-nade! and Bloo Bomb. The extraordinary tariffs they paid allowed Coquil-Grollë to deliver their confections throughout the bustling submundal sphere.

The Asociación writ stated that adulterated wines could, at best, be categorizedas fruit-wines, silly dessert concoctions that no vintner would take seriously, likeapple-melon-kiwi wine from a foil-sac. Not only that, but no tariffs had been paidon this wine, and therefore Abbé St. Clair could not export it, even to other lunarcities. It was granted that perhaps, if taxes of a certain (wildly illegal) percentagewere applied to the price of such wines, it might be possible to allow the monksto sell their vintages to those who came bodily to St. Clair, but transporting it toEarth was out of the question at any price, as foreign insects might be introducedinto the delicate home terroir. No competition with the house of Débrouillardcould be broached, on that world or any other.

Though in general, wine resides in that lofty category of goods which increasein demand as they increase in price, the lockdown of Abbé St. Clair effectivelyisolated the winery, and their products simply could not be had—whenever abottle was purchased, a new Asociación tax would be introduced, and soon therewas no possible path to profit for Perdue and his brothers. Past a certain point,economics became irrelevant—there was not enough money anywhere to buysuch a bottle.

Have these taxes been lifted? You know they have not, sirs. But DomaineZhaba seized the ruin of Abbé St. Clair in 2916, and their cellars, neglected, filthy,simultaneously worthless and beyond price, came into our tender possession.

What sparks red and black in the erratic light of the station status screens is the

last vintage personally crafted by Fratre Sebastién Perdue. It is 70% Pinot Noir,15% Malbec, and 15% forbidden, delicate Tsuki-Bella. To allow even a drop ofthis to pass your lips anywhere but under the Earthlit domes of St. Clair-in-Repose is a criminal act. I know you will keep this in mind as you savor the tasteof corporate sin.

It is lighter on its feet than the Côté-du-Golubash, sapphire sparking in thedepths of its dark color, a laughing, lascivious blend of raspberry, chestnut,tobacco, and clove. You can detect the criminal fruit—ah, there it is, madam, youhave it!—in the mid-range, the tartness of blueberry and the ashen loam ofmushroom. A clean, almost soapy waft of green coffee bean blows throughout. Iwould not insult it by calling it delicious—it is profound, unforgiving, andultimately, unforgiven.

2790 Domaine Zhaba, Clos du Saleeng-Carolz, Cuvée ChevalYou must forgive me, madam. My pour is not what it once was. If only it had

been my other arm I left on the ochre fields of Centauri B! I have never quiteadjusted to being suddenly and irrevocably left-handed. I was fond of that arm—Ibit my nails to the quick; it had three moles and a little round birthmark, like adrop of spilled syrah. Shall we toast to old friends? In the war they used tosay: Go, lose your arm. You can still pour. But if you let them take your tongue,you might as well die here.

By the time Simone Nanut and her brood, both human and grape, wereflourishing, the Yuuhi gates were already bustling with activity. Though the spacebetween gates was vast, it was not so vast as the spaces between stars. Everythingdepended on them, colonization, communication, and of course, shipping. Haveany of you seen a Yuuhi gate? I imagine not, they are considered obsolete now,and we took out so many of them during the war. They still hang in space likeindustrial mandalas, titanium and bone—in those days an organic component wasnecessary, if unsavory, and we never knew whose marrow slowly yellowed tocalcified husks in the vacuum. The pylons bristled with oblong steel cubes andarcs of golden filament shot across the tain like violin bows—all the gold of theworld commandeered by Salvatore Yuuhi and his grand plan. How many weddingrings hurled us all into the stars? I suppose one or two of them might still befunctional. I suppose one or two of them might still be used by poor souls forcedunderground, if they carried contraband, if they wished not to be seen.

The 2790 is a pre-war vintage, but only just. The Asociación de la Pureza del

Vino, little more than a paper sack Château Marubouzu-Debrouillard pulled overits head, had stationed . . . well, they never called them soldiers, nor warships, butthey were not there to sample the wine. Every wine-producing region from Lunato the hydroponic orbital agri-communes found itself graced with inspectors andcustoms officials who wore no uniform but the curling M-D seal on their breasts.Every Yuuhi gate was patrolled by armed ships bearing the APV crest.

It wasn’t really necessary.Virtually all shipping was conducted under the aegis of the Coquil-Grollë

Corporation, so fat and clotted with tariffs and taxes that it alone could afford tocarry whatever a heart might desire through empty space. There were outpostswhere chaplains used Super Cola-nade! in the Eucharist, so great was theirinfluence. Governments rented space in their holds to deliver diplomatic envoys,corn, rice, even mail, when soy-paper letters sent via Yuuhi became terriblyfashionable in the middle of the century. You simply could not get anything if C-Gdid not sell it to you, and the only wine they sold was Marubouzu-Débrouillard.

I am not a mean woman. I will grant that though they boasted an extraordinarymonopoly, the Debrouillard wines were and are of exceptional quality. Theirpedigrees will not allow them to be otherwise. But you must see it from where westand. I was born on Avalokitesvara and never saw Earth till the war. They wereforcing foreign, I daresay alien liquors onto us when all we wished to do was todrink from the land which bore us, from Golubash, who hovered over ourhouses like an old radio tower, fretting and wringing his-her-its hundred hands.

Saleeng-Carolz was a bunker. It looked like a pleasant cloister, with lovelyvines draping the walls and a pretty crystal dome over quaint refectories and huts.It had to. The Asociación inspectors would never let us set up barracks rightbefore their eyes. I say us, but truly I was not more than a child. I played withGolubash—with the quicksalmon and the riverweed that were no less him thanthe gargantuan thin man who watched Simone Nanut plant her vines threecenturies past and helped my uncles pile up the bricks of Saleeng-Carolz.Hyphens do not die, any more than continents do.

We made weapons and stored wine in our bunker. Bayonets at first, and simplerifles, later compressed-plasma engines and rumblers. Every other barrelcontained guns. We might have been caught so easily, but by then, everything onAvalokitesvara was problematic in the view of the Asociación. The grapes weretainted, not even entirely vegetable matter, grown in living Golubash. In someodd sense, they were not even grown, but birthed, springing from his-her-itsliving flesh. The barrels, too, were suspect, and none more so than the barrels of

Saleeng-Carolz.Until the APV inspectors arrived, we hewed to tradition. Our barrels were

solid cobalt alder, re-cedar, and oakberry. Strange to look at for an APV man,certainly, gleaming deep blue or striped red and black, or pure white. And ofcourse they were not really wood at all, but the fibrous musculature of Golubash,ersatz, loving wombs. They howled biohazard, but we smacked our lips in theflare-light, savoring the cords of smoke and apple and blood the barrels pushedthrough our wine. But in Saleeng-Carolz, my uncle, Grel Nanut, tried somethingnew.

What could be said to be Golubash’s liver was a vast flock of shaggy horses—not truly horses, but something four-legged and hoofed and tailed that wasreasonably like a horse—that ran and snorted on the open prairie beyond thetown of Nanut. They were essentially hollow, no organs to speak of, constantlytaking in grass and air and soil and fruit and fish and water and purifying it beforepassing it industriously back into the ecology of Golubash.

Uncle Grel was probably closer to Golubash than any of us. He spent daystalking with the tall, three-faced creature the APV still thought of as independentfrom the river. He even began to hyphenate his sentences, a source of greatamusement. We know now that he was learning. About horses, about spores anddiffusion, about the life-cycle of a Hyphen, but then we just thought Grel was inlove. Grel first thought of it, and secured permission from Golubash, who benthis ponderous head and gave his assent-blessing-encouragement-trepidation-confidence. He began to bring the horses within the walls of Saleeng-Carolz, andlet them drink the wine deep, instructing them to hold it close for years on end.

In this way, the rest of the barrels were left free for weapons.

• • • •

This is the first wine closed up inside the horses of Golubash: 60% Cabernet,20% Syrah, 15% Tempranillo, 5% Petit Verdot. It is specifically banned by everyplanet under APV control, and possession is punishable by death. The excuse?Intolerable biological contamination.

This is a wine that swallows light. Its color is deep and opaque, mysterious,almost black, the shadows of closed space. Revel in the dance of plum, almondskin, currant, pomegranate. The musty spike of nutmeg, the rich, butterybrightness of equine blood and the warm, obscene swell of leather. The last of thepre-war wines—your execution in a glass.

2795 Domaine Zhaba, White Tara, Bas-LequatOur only white of the evening, the Bas-Lequat is an unusual blend,

predominately Chardonnay with sprinklings of Tsuki-Bella and Riesling, pale asthe moon where it ripened.

White Tara is the second moon of Avalokitesvara, fully within the orbit ofenormous Green Tara. Marubouzu-Débrouillard chose it carefully for their firstattack. My mother died there, defending the alder barrels. My sister lost her legs.

Domaine Zhaba had committed the cardinal sin of becoming popular, and thatcould not be allowed. We were not poor monks on an isolated moon, orbitingplanet-bound plebeians. Avalokitesvara has four healthy moons and dwellscomfortably in a system of three habitable planets, huge new worlds thirsty forrich things, and nowhere else could wine grapes grow. For a while Barnardershad been eager to have wine from home, but as generations passed and homebecame Barnard’s System, the wines of Domaine Zhaba were in demand at everytable, and we needed no glittering Yuuhi gates to supply them. The APV couldand did tax exports, and so we skirted the law as best we could. For ten yearsbefore the war began, Domaine Zhaba wines were given out freely, as “personal”gifts, untaxable, untouchable. Then the inspectors descended, and stamped allproducts with their little Prohibido seal, and, well, one cannot give biohazards asbirthday presents.

The whole thing is preposterous. If anything, Earth-origin foodstuffs are thehazards in Barnard’s System. The Hyphens have always been hostile to them;offworld crops give them a kind of indigestion that manifests in earthquakes andthunderstorms. The Marubouzu corporals told us we could not eat or drink thethings that grew on our own land, because of possible alien contagion! We couldonly order approved substances from the benevolent, carbonated bosom ofCoquil-Grollë, which is Château Marubouzu-Débrouillard, which is theAsociación de la Pureza del Vino, and anything we liked would be delivered to usall the way from home, with a bow on it.

The lunar winery on White Tara exploded into the night sky at 3:17 a.m. on thefirst of Julka, 2795. My mother was testing the barrels—no wild ponies on WhiteTara. Her bones vaporized before she even understood the magnitude of what hadhappened. The aerial bombing, both lunar and terrestrial, continued past dawn. Ihuddled in the Bas-Lequat cellar, and even there I could hear the screaming ofGolubash, and Julka, and Heeminspr, and poor, gentle Niflamen, as the APVincinerated our world.

• • • •

Two weeks later, Uncle Grel’s rumblers ignited our first Yuuhi gate.

• • • •

The color is almost like water, isn’t it? Like tears. A ripple of red pear andbutterscotch slides over green herbs and honey-wax. In the low range, you candetect the delicate dust of blueberry pollen, and beneath that, the smallestsuggestion of crisp lunar snow, sweet, cold, and vanished.

2807 Domaine Zhaba, Grelport, Hul-NairobDid you know, almost a thousand years ago, the wineries in Old France were

nearly wiped out? A secret war of soil came close to annihilating the entireapparatus of wine-making in the grand, venerable valleys of the old world. But noblanketing fire was at fault, no shipping dispute. Only a tinyinsect: Daktulosphaira Vitifoliae Phylloxera. My namesake. I was named to bethe tiny thing that ate at the roots of the broken, ugly, ancient machinery ofMarubouzu. I have done my best.

For a while, the French believed that burying a live toad beneath the vineswould cure the blight. This was tragically silly, but hence Simone Nanut drew hertitle: zhaba, old Slovak for toad. We are the mites that brought down gods, andwe are the cure, warty and bruised though we may be.

When my uncle Grel was a boy, he went fishing in Golubash. Like a child in afairy tale, he caught a great green fish, with golden scales, and when he pulled itinto his little boat, it spoke to him.

Well, nothing so unusual about that. Golubash can speak as easily from hisfish-bodies as from his tall-body. The fish said: “I am lonely-worried-afraid-expectant-in-need-of-comfort-lost-searching-hungry. Help-hold-carry me.”

After the Bas-Lequat attack, Golubash boiled, the vines burned, evenGolubash’s tall-body was scorched and blistered—but not broken, not wholly.Vineyards take lifetimes to replace, but Golubash is gentle, and they will return,slowly, surely. So Julka, so Heeminspr, so kind Niflamen. The burnt world willflare gold again. Grel knew this, and he sorrowed that he would never see it. Myuncle took one of the great creature’s many hands. He made a promise—we couldnot hear him then, but you must all now know what he did, the vengeance ofDomaine Zhaba.

The Yuuhi gates went one after another. We became terribly inventive—I couldstill, with my one arm, assemble a rumbler from the junk of this very platform.We tried to avoid Barnard’s Gate; we did not want to cut ourselves off in our needto defend those worlds against marauding vintners with soda-labels on theirjumpsuits. But in the end, that, too, went blazing into the sky, gold filamentssizzling. We were alone. We didn’t win; we could never win. But we endedinterstellar travel for fifty years, until the new ships with internal Yuuhi-drivescircumvented the need for the lost gates. And much passes in fifty years, on adozen worlds, when the mail can’t be delivered. They are not defeated, but theyare . . . humbled.

An M-D cruiser trailed me here. I lost her when I used the last gate-pair, butnow my cousins will have to blow that gate, or else those soda-sipping bastardswill know our methods. No matter. It was worth it, to bring our wines to you, inthis place, in this time, finally, to open our stores as a real winery, free of them,free of all.

• • • •

This is a port-wine, the last of our tastings tonight. The vineyards that bore theSyrah and Grenache in your cups are wonderful, long streaks of soil on the edgesof a bridge that spans the Golubash, a thousand kilometers long. There is a city onthat bridge, and below it, where a chain of linked docks cross the water. Themaps call it Longbridge; we call it Grelport.

Uncle Grel will never come home. He went through Barnard’s Gate just beforewe detonated—a puff of sparkling red and he was gone. Home, to Earth, todeliver-safeguard-disseminate-help-hold-carry his cargo. A little spore, not muchmore than a few cells scraped off a blade of clarygrass on Golubash’s back. But itwas enough.

Note the luscious ruby-caramel color, the nose of walnut and roasted peach.This is pure Avalokitesvara, unregulated, stored in Golubash’s horses, grown inthe ports floating on his-her-its spinal fluid, rich with the flavors of home. Theyused to say wine was a living thing—but it was only a figure of speech, a way ofdescribing liquid with changeable qualities. This wine is truly alive, every drop, ithas a name, a history, brothers and sisters, blood and lymph. Do not draw away—this should not repulse you. Life, after all, is sweet; lift your glasses, taste theroving currents of sunshine and custard, salt skin and pecan, truffle andcaramelized onion. Imagine, with your fingers grazing these fragile stems, Simone

Nanut, standing at the threshold of her colonial ship, the Finnish desert stretchingout behind her, white and flat, strewn with debris. In her ample arms is thatgnarled vine, its roots wrapped with such love. Imagine Sebastién Perdue, tastinga Tsuki-Bella for the first time, on the tongue of his Hipparchan lady. Imagine myUncle Grel, speeding alone in the dark towards his ancestral home, with a fewbrief green cells in his hand. Wine is a story, every glass. A history, an elegy. Todrink is to hear the story, to spit is to consider it, to hold the bottle close to yourchest is to accept it, to let yourself become part of it. Thank you for becomingpart of my family’s story.

• • • •

I will leave you now. My assistant will complete any transactions you wish toinitiate. Even in these late days, it is vital to stay ahead of them, despite all. Theywill always have more money, more ships, more bile. Perhaps a day will comewhen we can toast you in the light, in a grand palace, with the flares of Barnard’sStar glittering in cut crystal goblets. For now, there is the light of the exit hatch,dusty glass tankards, and my wrinkled old hand to my heart.

A price list is posted in the med lab.

• • • •

And should any of you turn Earthwards in your lovely new ships, take a bottleto the extremely tall young lady-chap-entity living-growing-invading-devouring-putting down roots in the Loire Valley. I think he-she-it would enjoy a familyvisit.

©2010 by Catherynne M. Valente. Originally published in Ventriloquism, PS Publishing.Reprinted by permission of the author.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Catherynne M. Valente is the New York Times bestselling author of over two dozen works offiction and poetry, including Palimpsest, the Orphan’s Tales series, Deathless, Radiance, andthe crowdfunded phenomenon The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of Her OwnMaking. She is the winner of the Andre Norton, Tiptree, Mythopoeic, Rhysling, Lambda, Locus,and Hugo awards. She has been a finalist for the Nebula and World Fantasy Awards. She lives

on an island off the coast of Maine with a small but growing menagerie of beasts, some of whichare human.

The Eyes of the FloodSusan Jane Bigelow | 1830 words

The river’s in flood again, and it feels like a blessing from God. You emergefrom your home, built with wood and plastic scraps of ancient towns, and standon the green hill high above the rushing waters.

You remember from when you were young that the river would spill over itsbanks every year, submerging the low-lying land, turning fields that had lainfallow through the darkness and bitter cold of winter into lakes of rushing, wildwater. And then when the waters had drained away, the corn could be planted inthe deep sediments left behind. The river’s gift.

The first flood after the war had brought black water choked with bricks,scorched wood, crumpled cars, and corpses. You remember the smell of it allduring those rare days when the sun came out and the temperature rose and youcould venture hesitantly, like a mouse creeping out from under the sofa, from theconcrete bunker. You gagged and wept and sighed and raged, but your familybelow needed food and supplies, so you went to the bloody banks of the river toscavenge what you could. It hadn’t been much.

In the end the radiation and the plague killed them anyway, leaving you alone.

• • • •

You have canoes you’ve made by hollowing out the thick trunks of fallentrees, and you set your newest and sturdiest in the water. Today you will driftsouth to see what the floods might give you easy access to that you couldn’t reachbefore. You have your camping supplies—you can stay in the south for weeksuntil the floods recede. Then you’ll paddle north, against the current, back to yourhome.

As you set the canoe in the water and shove off, you feel the insistent tug ofthe far south. You once ventured down to the briny expanse of the Sound, andthen west to where the Sound narrowed and the great city began. You turned backat the sight of one of the bridges; it was somehow still intact, but now wrapped inclimbing vines. Gnarled trees rose from the roadbed, their branches twistingaround the cables.

But barely visible on one of the towers were two faded words painted in red—Go Back.

The words were old, the ones who had scrawled them there long dead, but it

had felt like a sign to you. You are careful; it’s why you’ve been alive for so, solong. Or so you believe.

So you turned back.And as you paddled away, delicate fingers grasped the rusted railings of the

bridge, and hungry eyes followed your slow, curving wake.

• • • •

You paddle softly out into the middle of the river, and you wonder about whatlies far to the south, in the lands you’ve never seen. Maybe the people there hadbeen better able to survive the winters, the years without sun, the blight, and thepoison water and sky. Maybe there or far to the west you might find pockets ofsurvivors like yourself.

That’s the marvel of the Earth, you think, your mind moving in slow, familiarpatterns: Life survives. Even now, the trees grow tall and birds sing as your canoeslips by. They are not the same trees, not the same birds. These trees have long,delicate leaves, almost like pine, and the birds are smaller and meaner. Thecreatures in the vast forest stretching from the ocean to the mountains aredifferent, too, in subtle and strange ways. You leave them alone, and they returnthe favor, but at night you can sometimes hear their high, eerie calls.

• • • •

The ruins of the small river city are just beyond the rapids. The feeder streamthere has finally burst free of the concrete that once encased it, and you paddle upuntil you find a patch of high ground to camp on for the night. You need littlefood, but still you build a fire and deliberately chew the bark of one of the trees.

When night comes, the sky is full of stars. You watch them, your thoughtsslowing to a crawl, and you train your gaze on the new, dazzlingly bright one thatappeared only three seasons ago. There was a time when you would havewondered what it was. But now you only accept it. It is. It is here.

Strange things happen in the heavens, they come and they go. They rarelyconcern you, though they make you feel small and grateful for your life. Once,your life ran with the phases of the moon, but the moon is rarely visible thesedays, and you stopped bleeding long ago.

You form a picture of God in your mind and you circle your arms above yourhead in prayer. Then, warmed by the fire, you drift away.

As you dream, you are watched.

• • • •

The flood has grown in the night, and by the time the morning dawns, grayand rainy, it has come halfway to your shelter. You are glad. You decide toventure further up the narrow lake made by the swollen stream, paddling silentlybetween the whip-thin trunks of the young trees.

Then, suddenly, you draw in your breath and ease your paddle out of thewater, all senses alert. There are long, narrow, parallel tracks in the mud by thewater.

The canoe drifts, just wood borne by the stream, as your mind spins. This isnew. You don’t recognize this.

But some part of you, some ancient memory combined with new insight, doesknow. A vehicle has been here.

You are not alone.You float on the water, paralyzed, and for the first time in many, many years,

you are afraid.

• • • •

The last time you were not alone was when the few remaining survivors fromthe eastern farm towns came to your shelter, their eyes hollow and hungry,begging for food. You gladly gave them what little you had; they tried to kill youanyway. You were impossibly alive, impossibly healthy. Your eyes shone withsomething they didn’t recognize, something they were afraid of.

They were easy to fool, and easy to outrun. They were half dead already. Theworld was extinguishing humanity’s light, a desperate act of self-preservation.

You have not seen anyone since, and you have been alive for a very, very longtime.

• • • •

You are careful. You want to flee, to let the current carry you back to the river,to hide and let the floodwaters rise and cover the bank.

But you cock your head, looking and listening. You see and hear nothing new,nothing moves in the distance, there is no sound of an engine or a voice. You dipyour paddle in the water and redirect the canoe ever so slightly in the direction of

the shore. The canoe runs aground, hitting the mud with a dull, scraping thunk.You take what you need, including a sharpened piece of rock, and follow the

tracks.

• • • •

You don’t know why you are still alive. Your husband, your children, andeveryone else died so long ago that their bones are dust. But instead of beingburned by acid rain, poisoned by the air and water, or rotted away by the fast,relentless, and pitiless plague, you remained yourself. You lived.

You know you’re different, that you somehow in the moments after the blastbecame something else, but you don’t know why or what. You used to spendlong days by the river staring at your reflection, wondering, as your jawlengthened, your hair receded, your eyes changed color, and your ears grewscaled and long.

It occurs to you that the person with the vehicle might know why. You are notcertain you want to know, though, after all this time has passed. You’re not happy,exactly, nor are you sad or worried. But you are calm, and you are balanced. Youhave few needs. You exist, and you will endure.

You are careful. You aren’t sure that you should risk what you have. Whatgood would knowing do, anyway?

Yet still you follow the tracks carved into the muddy ground as they lead intothe forest.

• • • •

The trees here grow thick; this is high ground and good soil, so they areancient. Some of them, the tallest with the thickest trunks, have been here nearlyas long as you. You place a fond hand on one as you pass. It is good to endure.

The tracks lead into a clearing ahead. You know there was no clearing therebefore, and you hide behind one of the huge, old trees to decide what to do next.To endure is good; to risk and perhaps be cut down is wasteful, wrong, and toolike the past.

Isn’t it?You listen. And then you hear a voice.

• • • •

You remember voices, and you remember language. You used to talk toyourself, endless streams of thought given voice, but you fell silent long ago. Youare not sure what your voice sounds like, or even if you can still use it. You thinknot in spoken or written language, but in grand pictures and emotions and scenes.To you, God is a flowing river, a bright sun, and life pushing up from beneath theonce-tainted ground. God is a bomb, a plague, a shower of rain that stings, abeach choked with bodies and rubble. God is fresh air and putrescence, a fish inthe water and the spear that pierces its scaly sides.

But God is not a voice. You listen. You do not know the sounds. You dare tolook, and you see movement.

You see the vehicle, narrow and silver and graceful. And beside it, you seeyourself.

• • • •

But this is not you.This is like you, but taller, more graceful, and, you think, older. This one has

scaled ears, a long jaw, a shining bald scalp, and wide eyes the color of sunset.They are beautiful.

They turn to where you are hiding, and speak.You want to run. You are careful! This is danger! You must be like the tree,

you must endure, you must get away.But something, some older impulse, some piece of you that existed before the

first bomb put the first city to the fire, keeps you rooted where you are.They walk toward you, and you are afraid.But you stand your ground. You finger the sharp rock you have.They hold out a webbed hand, so like your own. Your grip tightens on the

rock.They do not move. The trees blow in the breeze. Behind you, the river’s flood

begins to recede.You make a decision. You are not a tree, and you are not a bomb. You drop the

rock.Then you reach out, and at last, after so long, your hand closes on mine.

©2018 by Susan Jane Bigelow.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Susan Jane Bigelow is a writer, librarian, and political columnist from Connecticut. She isthe author of five science fiction novels from small press Candlemark & Gleam, including theExtrahumans and Grayline Sisters series. Her short fiction can be found in the magazinesStrange Horizons, The Toast, and Apex Magazine, and in the anthologies War Stories and theLambda Awards-winning The Collection: Short Fiction From the Transgender Vanguard. Herweekly column on Connecticut politics can be found at CTNewsJunkie.com. She lives innorthern Connecticut with her wife and a herd of very fuzzy cats, where she spends her dayswriting and playing video games.

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SomedayJames Patrick Kelly | 4950 words

Daya had been in no hurry to become a mother. In the two years since she’dreached childbearing age, she’d built a modular from parts she’d fabbed herself,thrown her boots into the volcano, and served as blood judge. The village eldersall said she was one of the quickest girls they had ever seen—except when it cameto choosing fathers for her firstborn. Maybe that was because she was too quickfor a sleepy village like Third Landing. When her mother, Tajana, had come ofage, she’d left for the blue city to find fathers for her baby. Everyone expectedTajana would stay in Halfway, but she had surprised them and returned home toraise Daya. So once Daya had grown up, everyone assumed that someday shewould leave for the city like her mother, especially after Tajana had been killed inthe avalanche last winter. What did Third Landing have to hold such a fierce andable woman? Daya could easily build a glittering new life in Halfway. Do greatthings for the colony.

But everything had changed after the scientists from space had landed on theold site across the river, and Daya had changed most of all. She kept her owncounsel and was often hard to find. That spring she had told the elders that shedidn’t need to travel to gather the right semen. Her village was happy andprosperous. The scientists had chosen it to study and they had attracted touristsfrom all over the colony. There were plenty of beautiful and convenient localfathers to take to bed. Daya had sampled the ones she considered best, but neveropened herself to blend their sperm. Now she would, here in the place where shehad been born.

She chose just three fathers for her baby. She wanted Ganth because he washer brother and because he loved her above all others. Latif because he was aleader and would say what was true when everyone else was afraid. And Baktibecause he was a master of stories and because she wanted him to tell herssomeday.

She informed each of her intentions to make a love feast, although she keptthe identities of the other fathers a secret, as was her right. Ganth demanded toknow, of course, but she refused him. She was not asking for a favor. It would beher baby, her responsibility. The three fathers, in turn, kept her request tothemselves, as was custom, in case she changed her mind about any or all ofthem. A real possibility—when she contemplated what she was about to do, she

felt separated from herself.That morning she climbed into the pen and spoke a kindness to her pig Bobo.

The glint of the knife made him grunt with pleasure and he rolled onto his back,exposing the tumors on his belly. She hadn’t harvested him in almost a week andso carved two fist-sized maroon swellings into the meat pail. She pressed strips ofsponge root onto the wounds to stanch the bleeding and when it was done, shethrew them into the pail as well. When she scratched under his jowls to dismisshim, Bobo squealed approval, rolled over, and trotted off for a mud bath.

She sliced the tumors thin, dipped the pieces in egg and dragged them througha mix of powdered opium, pepper, flour, and bread crumbs, then sautéed themuntil they were crisp. She arranged them on top of a casserole of snuro, parsnips,and sweet flag, layered with garlic and three cheeses. She harvested some of thepurple blooms from the petri dish on the windowsill and flicked them on top ofher love feast. The aphrodisiacs produced by the bacteria would give an erectionto a corpse. She slid the casserole into the oven to bake for an hour while shebathed and dressed for babymaking.

Daya had considered the order in which she would have sex with the fathers.Last was most important, followed by first. The genes of the middle father—orfathers, since some mothers made babies with six or seven for political reasons—were less reliably expressed. She thought starting with Ganth for his sunny natureand finishing with Latif for his looks and good judgment made sense. Eventhough Bakti was clever, he had bad posture.

Ganth sat in front of a fuzzy black and white screen with his back to her whenshe nudged the door to his house open with her hip. “It’s me. With a present.”

He did not glance away from his show—the colony’s daily news and gossipprogram about the scientists—but raised his forefinger in acknowledgment.

She carried the warming dish with oven mitts to the huge round table thatserved as his desk, kitchen counter, and sometime closet. She pushed aside somebooks, a belt, an empty bottle of blueberry kefir, and a Fill Jumphigher actionfigure to set her love feast down. Like her own house, Ganth’s was a single room,but his was larger, shabbier, and built of some knotty softwood.

Her brother took a deep breath, his face pale in the light of the screen. “Smellsdelicious.” He pressed the off button; the screen winked and went dark.

“What’s the occasion?” He turned to her, smiling. “Oh.” His eyes went widewhen he saw how she was dressed. “Tonight?”

“Tonight.” She grinned.Trying to cover his surprise, he pulled out the pocket watch he’d had from

their mother and then shook it as if it were broken. “Why, look at the time. Itotally forgot that we were grown up.”

“You like?” She weaved her arms and her ribbon robe fluttered.“I was wondering when you’d come. What if I had been out?”She nodded at the screen in front of him. “You never miss that show.”“Has anyone else seen you?” He sneaked to the window and peered out. A

knot of gawkers had gathered in the street. “What, did you parade acrossFounders’ Square dressed like that? You’ll give every father in town a hard on.”He pulled the blinds and came back to her. He surprised her by going down onone knee. “So which am I?”

“What do you think?” She lifted the cover from the casserole to show that itwas steaming and uncut.

“I’m honored.” He took her hand in his and kissed it. “Who else?” he said.“And you have to tell. Tomorrow everyone will know.”

“Bakti. Latif last.”“Three is all a baby really needs.” He rubbed his thumb across the inside of her

wrist. “Our mother would approve.”Of course, Ganth had no idea of what their mother had really thought of him.Tajana had once warned Daya that if she insisted on choosing Ganth to father

her baby, she should dilute his semen with that of the best men in the village. Asweet manner is fine, she’d said, but babies need brains and a spine.

“So, dear sister, it’s a sacrifice . . .,” he said, standing, “. . . but I’m prepared todo my duty.” He caught her in his arms.

Daya squawked in mock outrage.“You’re not surprising the others, are you?” He nuzzled her neck.“No, they expect me.”“Then we’d better hurry. I hear that Eldest Latif goes to bed early.” His whisper

filled her ear. “Carrying the weight of the world on his back tires him out.”“I’ll give him reason to wake up.”He slid a hand through the layers of ribbons until he found her skin. “Bakti, on

the other hand, stays up late, since his stories weigh nothing at all.” The flat of hishand against her belly made her shiver. “I didn’t realize you knew him that well.”

She tugged at the hair on the back of Ganth’s head to get his attention.“Feasting first,” she said, her voice husky. Daya hadn’t expected to be thisemotional. She opened her pack, removed the bottle of chardonnay, and pouredtwo glasses. They saluted each other and drank, then she used the spatula she hadbrought—since she knew her brother wouldn’t have one—to cut a square of her

love feast. He watched her scoop it onto a plate like a man uncertain of his luck.She forked a bite into her mouth. The cheese was still melty—maybe a bit toomuch sweet flag. She chewed once, twice, and then leaned forward to kiss him.His lips parted and she let the contents of her mouth fall into his. He groaned andswallowed. “Again.” His voice was thick. “Again and again and again.”

Afterward they lay entangled on his mattress on the floor. “I’m glad you’re notleaving us, Daya.” He blew on the ribbons at her breast and they trembled. “I’llstay home to watch your baby,” he said. “Whenever you need me. Make life soeasy, you’ll never want to go.”

It was the worst thing he could have said; until that moment she had been ableto keep from thinking that she might never see him again. He was her only family,except for the fathers her mother had kept from her. Had Tajana wanted to make iteasy for her to leave Third Landing? “What if I get restless here?” Daya’s voicecould have fit into a thimble. “You know me.”

“Okay, maybe someday you can leave.” He waved the idea away. “Someday.”She glanced down his lean body at the hole in his sock and dust strings

dangling from his bookshelf. He was a sweet boy and her brother, but he playedharder than he worked. Ganth was content to let the future happen to him; Dayaneeded to make choices, no matter how hard. “It’s getting late.” She pressed hercheek to his. “Do me a favor and check on Bobo in the morning? Who knowswhen I’ll get home.”

By the time she kissed Ganth goodbye, it was evening. An entourage of at leasttwenty would-be spectators trailed her to Old Town; word had spread that thevery eligible Daya was bringing a love feast to some lucky fathers. There waseven a scatter of tourists, delighted to witness Third Landing’s quaint matingritual. The locals told jokes, made ribald suggestions and called out names ofpotential fathers. She tried to ignore them; some people in this village were sonosy.

Bakti lived in one of the barn-like stone dormitories that the settlers had builttwo centuries ago across the river from their landing spot. Most of these buildingswere now divided into shops and apartments. When Daya finally revealed herchoice by stopping at Bakti’s door, the crowd buzzed. Winners of bets chirped,losers groaned. Bakti was slow to answer her knock, but when he saw thespectators, he seized her arm and drew her inside.

Ganth had been right: she and Bakti weren’t particularly close. She had neverbeen to his house, although he had visited her mother on occasion when she wasgrowing up. She could see that he was no better a housekeeper than her brother,

but at least his mess was all of a kind. The bones of his apartment had not muchchanged from the time the founders had used it as a dormitory; Bakti hadpreserved the two walls of wide shelves that they had used as bunks. Now,however, instead of sleeping refugees from Genome Crusades, they were filledwith books, row upon extravagant row. This was Bakti’s vice; not only did he buycheap paper from the village stalls, he had purchased hundreds of hardcovers onhis frequent trips to the blue city. They said he even owned a few print books thatthe founders had brought across space. There were books everywhere, open onchairs, chests, the couch, stacked in leaning towers on the floor.

“So you’ve come to rumple my bed?” He rearranged his worktable to makeroom for her love feast. “I must admit, I was surprised by your note. Have webeen intimate before, Daya?”

“Just once.” She set the dish down. “Don’t pretend that you don’t remember.”When she unslung the pack from her back, the remaining bottles of wine clinkedtogether.

“Don’t pretend?” He spread his hands. “I tell stories. That’s all I do.”“Glasses?” She extracted the zinfandel from her pack.He brought two that were works of art; crystal stems twisted like vines to flutes

as delicate as a skim of ice. “I recall a girl with a pansy tattooed on her back,” hesaid.

“You’re thinking of Pandi.” Daya poured the wine.“Do you sing to your lovers?”She sniffed the bouquet. “Never.”They saluted each other and drank.“Don’t rush me now,” he said. “I’m enjoying this little game.” He lifted the lid

of the dish and breathed in. “Your feast pleases the nose as much as you pleasethe eye. But I see that I am not your first stop. Who else have you seen thisnight?”

“Ganth.”“You chose a grasshopper to be a father of your child?”.“He’s my brother.”“Aha!” He snapped his fingers. “Now I have it. The garden at Tajana’s place? I

recall a very pleasant evening.”She had forgotten how big Bakti’s nose was. “As do I.” And his slouch was

worse than ever. Probably from carrying too many books.“I don’t mind being the middle, you know.” He took another drink of wine.

“Prefer it actually—less responsibility that way. I will do my duty as a father, but I

must tell you right now that I have no interest whatsoever in bringing up yourbaby. And her next father is?”

“Latif. Next and last.”“A man who takes fathering seriously. Good, he’ll balance out poor Ganth. I

will tell her stories, though. Your baby girl. That’s what you hope for, am I right?A girl?”

“Yes.” She hadn’t realized it until he said it. A girl would make things mucheasier.

He paused, as if he had just remembered something. “But you’re supposed toleave us, aren’t you? This village is too tight a fit for someone of your abilities.You’ll split seams, pop a button.”

Why did everyone keep saying these things to her? “You didn’t leave.”“No.” He shook his head. “I wasn’t as big as I thought I was. Besides, the

books keep me here. Do you know how much they weigh?”“It’s an amazing collection.” She bent to the nearest shelf and ran a finger

along the spines of the outermost row. “I’ve heard you have some from Earth.”“Is this about looking at books or making babies, Daya?” Bakti looked

crestfallen.She straightened, embarrassed. “The baby, of course.”“No, I get it.” He waved a finger at her. “I’m crooked and cranky and mothers

shut their eyes tight when we kiss.” He reached for the wine bottle. “Those arenovels.” He nodded at the shelf. “But no, nothing from Earth.”

They spent the better part of an hour browsing. Bakti said Daya could borrowsome if she wanted. He said reading helped pregnant mothers settle. Then he toldher the story from one of them. It was about a boy named Huckleberry Flynn,who left his village on Novy Praha to see his world but then came back again.“Just like your mother did,” he said. “Just like you could, if you wanted.Someday.”

“Then you could tell stories about me.”“About this night,” he agreed, “if I remember.” His grin was seductive. “Will

I?”“Have you gotten any books from them?” She glanced out the dark window

toward the river. “Maybe they’d want to trade with you?”“Them?” he said. “You mean our visitors? Some, but digital only. They haven’t

got time for nostalgia. To them, my books are as quaint as scrolls and clay tablets.They asked to scan the collection, but I think they were just being polite. Theirinterests seem to be more sociological than literary.” He smirked. “I understand

you have been spending time across the river.”She shrugged. “Do you think they are telling the truth?”“About what? Their biology? Their politics?” He gestured at his library. “I own

one thousand, two hundred and forty-three claims of truth. How would I knowwhich is right?” He slid the book about the boy Huckleberry back onto the shelf.“But look at the time! If you don’t mind, I’ve been putting off dinner until youarrived. And then we can make a baby and a memory, yes?”

By the time Daya left him snoring on his rumpled bed, the spectators had allgone home for the night. There was still half of the love feast left but the warmingdish was beginning to dry it out. She hurried down the Farview Hill to the river.

Many honors had come to Latif over the years and with them great wealth. Hehad first served as village eldest when he was still a young man, just thirty-twoyears old. In recent years, he mediated disputes for those who did not have thetime or the money to submit to the magistrates of the blue city. The fees hecharged had bought him this fine house of three rooms, one of which was theparlor where he received visitors. When she saw that all the windows were dark,she gave a cry of panic. It was nearly midnight and the house was nothing but ashadow against the silver waters.

On the shore beyond, the surreal bulk of the starship beckoned.Daya didn’t even bother with front door. She went around to the bedroom and

stood on tiptoes to knock on his window. Tap-tap.Nothing.“Latif.” Tap-tap-tap. “Wake up.”She heard a clatter within. “Shit!” A light came on and she stepped away as the

window banged open.”“Who’s there? Go away.”“It’s me, Daya.”“Do you know what time it is? Go away.”“But I have our love feast. You knew this was the night, I sent a message.”“And I waited, but you took too damn long.” He growled in frustration. “Can’t

you see I’m asleep? Go find some middle who’s awake.”“No, Latif. You’re my last.”He started with a shout. “You wake me in the middle of night . . .” Then he

continued in a low rasp. “Where’s your sense, Daya, your manners? You expectme to be your last? You should have said something. I take fathering seriously.”

Daya’s throat closed. Her eyes seemed to throb.“I told you to move to the city, didn’t I? Find fathers there.” Latif waited for

her to answer. When she didn’t, he stuck his head out the window to see herbetter. “So instead of taking my best advice, now you want my semen?” Hewaited again for a reply; she couldn’t speak. “I suppose you’re crying.”

The only reply she could make was a sniffle.“Come to the door then.”She reached for his arm as she entered the darkened parlor but he waved her

through to the center of the room. “You are rude and selfish, Daya.” He shut thedoor and leaned against it. “But that doesn’t mean you’re a bad person.”

He turned the lights on and for a moment they stood blinking at one another.Latif was barefoot, wearing pants but no shirt. He had a wrestler’s shoulders, longarms, hands big as dinner plates. Muscles bunched beneath his smooth, dark skin,as if he might spring at her. But if she read his eyes right, his anger was passing.

“I thought you’d be pleased.” She tried a grin. It bounced off him.“Honored, yes. Pleased, not at all. You think you can just issue commands and

we jump? You have the right to ask, and I have the right to refuse. Even at the lastminute.”

At fifty-three, Latif was still one of the handsomest men in the village. Dayahad often wondered if that was one reason why everyone trusted him. She lookedfor some place to put the warming dish down.

“No,” he said, “don’t you dare make yourself comfortable unless I tell you to.Why me?”

She didn’t have to think. “Because you have always been kind to me and mymother. Because you will tell the truth, even when it’s hard to hear. And because,despite your years, you are still the most beautiful man I know.” This time shetried a smile on him. It stuck. “All the children you’ve fathered are beautiful, andif my son gets nothing but looks from you, that will still be to his lifelongadvantage.” Daya knew that in the right circumstance, even men like Latif wouldsuccumb to flattery.

“You want me because I tell hard truths, but when I say you should moveaway, you ignore me. Does that make sense?”

“Not everything needs to make sense.” She extended her love feast to him.“Where should I put this?”

He glided across the parlor, kissed her forehead, and accepted the dish fromher. “Do you know how many have asked me to be last father?”

“No.” She followed him into the great room.“Twenty-three,” he said. “Every one spoke to me ahead of time. And of those,

how many I agreed to?”

“No idea.”“Four.” He set it on a round wooden table with a marble inset.“They should’ve tried my ambush strategy.” She shrugged out of her pack.

“I’ve got wine.” She handed him the bottle of Xino she had picked for him.“Which you’ve been drinking all night, I’m sure. You know where the glasses

are.” He pulled the stopper. “And who have you been drinking with?”“Ganth, first.”Latif tossed the stopper onto the table. “I’m one-fourth that boy’s father . . .”

He rapped on the tabletop. “. . . but I don’t see any part of me in him.”“He’s handsome.”“Oh, stop.” He poured each of them just a splash of the Xino and offered her a

glass. She raised an eyebrow at his stinginess.“It’s late and you’ve had enough,” he said. “It is affecting your judgment. Who

else?”“Bakti.”“You surprise me.” They saluted each other with their glasses. “Does he really

have Earth books?”“He says not.”“He makes too many stories up. But he’s sound—you should have started with

him. Ganth is a middle father at best.”Both of them ran out of things to say then. Latif was right. She had finished

the first two bottles with the other fathers, and had shared a love feast with them,and had made love. She was heavy with the weight of her decisions and herdesires. She felt like she was falling toward Latif. She pulled the cover off thewarming dish and cut a square of her love feast into bite-sized chunks.

“Just because I’m making a baby doesn’t mean I can’t go away,” she said.“And leave the fathers behind?”“That’s what my mother did.”“And did that make her happy? Do you think she had an easy life?” He shook

his head. “No, you are tying yourself to this village. This little, insignificant place.Why? Maybe you’re lazy. Or maybe you’re afraid. Here, you are a star. Whatwould you be in the blue city?”

She wanted to tell him that he had it exactly wrong. That he was talking abouthimself, not her. But that would have been cruel. This beautiful, foolish man wasgoing to be the last father of her baby. “You’re right,” Daya said. “It’s late.” Shepiled bits of the feast onto a plate and came around to where he was sitting. Sheperched on the edge of the table and gazed down at him.

He tugged at one of the ribbons of her sleeve and she felt the robe slip off hershoulder. “What is this costume anyway?” he said. “You’re wrapped up like somekind of present.”

She didn’t reply. Instead she pushed a bit of the feast across her plate until itslid onto her fork. They watched each other as she brought it to her open mouth,placed it on her tongue. The room shrank. Clocks stopped.

He shuddered. “Feed me, then.”Latif’s pants were still around his ankles when she rolled off him. The ribbon

robe dangled off the headboard of his bed. Daya gazed up at the ceiling, thinkingabout the tangling sperm inside her. She concentrated as her mother had taughther, and she thought she felt her cervix close and her uterus contract,concentrating the semen. At least, she hoped she did. The sperm of the threefathers would smash together furiously, breaching cell walls, exchangingplasmids. The strongest conjugate would find her eggs and then . . .

“What if I leave the baby behind?” she said.“With who?” He propped himself up on an elbow. “Your mother is dead and

no . . .”She laid a finger on his lips. “I know, Latif. But why not with a father? Ganth

might do it, I think. Definitely not Bakti. Maybe even you.”He went rigid. “This is an idea you get from the scientists? Is that the way they

have sex in space?”“They don’t live in space; they just travel through it.” She followed a crack in

the plaster of his ceiling with her eyes. “Nobody lives in space.” A water stain inthe corner looked like a face. A mouth. Sad eyes. “What should we do aboutthem?”

“Do? There is nothing to be done.” He fell back onto his pillow. “They’re theones the founders were trying to get away from.”

“Two hundred years ago. They say things are different.”“Maybe. Maybe these particular scientists are more tolerant, but they’re still

dangerous.”“Why? Why are you so afraid of them?”“Because they’re unnatural.” The hand at her side clenched into a fist. “We’re

the true humans, maybe the last. But they’ve taken charge of evolution now, orwhat passes for it. We have no say in the future. All we know for sure is that theyare large and still growing and we are very, very small. Maybe this lot won’t forceus to change. Or maybe someday they’ll just make us want to become like them.”

She knew this was true, even though she had spent the last few months trying

not to know it. The effort had made her weary. She rolled toward Latif. When shesnuggled against him, he relaxed into her embrace.

It was almost dawn when she left his house. Instead of climbing back upFarview Hill, she turned toward the river. Moments later, she stepped offMogallo’s Wharf into the skiff she had built when she was a teenager.

She had been so busy pretending that this wasn’t going to happen that she wassurprised to find herself gliding across the river. She could never have had sexwith the fathers if she had acknowledged to herself that she was going to gothrough with it. Certainly not with Ganth. And Latif would have guessed thatsomething was wrong. She had the odd feeling that there were two of her in theskiff, each facing in opposite directions. The one looking back at the village wasscreaming at the one watching the starship grow ever larger. But there is no otherDaya, she reminded herself. There is only me.

Her lover, Roberts, was waiting on the spun-carbon dock that the scientists hadfabbed for river traffic. Many of the magistrates from the blue city came by boatto negotiate with the offworlders. Roberts caught the rope that Daya threw herand took it expertly around one of the cleats. She extended a hand to hoist Dayaup, caught her in an embrace, and pressed her lips to Daya’s cheek.

“This kissing that you do,” said Roberts. “I like it. Very direct.” She wasn’tvery good at it, but she was learning. Like all the scientists, she could be stiff atfirst. They didn’t seem all that comfortable in their replaceable bodies. Robertswas small as a child, but with a woman’s face. Her blonde hair was cropped short,her eyes were clear and faceted. They reminded Daya of her mother’s crystal.

“It’s done,” said Daya.“Yes, but are you all right?“I think so.” She forced a grin. “We’ll find out.”“We will. Don’t worry, love, I am going to take good care of you. And your

baby.”“And I will take care of you.”“Yes.” She looked puzzled. “Of course.”Roberts was a cultural anthropologist. She had explained to Daya that all she

wanted was to preserve a record of an ancient way of life. A culture in whichthere was still sexual reproduction.

“May I see that?”Daya opened her pack and produced the leftover bit of the love feast. She had

sealed it in a baggie that Roberts had given her. It had somehow frozen solid.“Excellent. Now we should get you into the lab before it’s too late. Put you

under the scanner, take some samples.” This time she kissed Daya on the mouth.Her lips parted briefly and Daya felt Roberts’ tongue flick against her teeth. WhenDaya did not respond, she pulled back.

“I know this is hard now. You’re very brave to help us this way, Daya.” Thescientist took her hand and squeezed. “But someday they’ll thank you for whatyou’re doing.” She nodded toward the sleepy village across the river. “Somedaysoon.”

©2014 by James Patrick Kelly. Originally published in Asimov’s Science Fiction. Reprinted bypermission of the author.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

James Patrick Kelly has won the Hugo, Nebula and Locus awards. His most recentpublication is the novel Mother Go; a new collection, The Promise of Space, is forthcomingfrom Prime Books in 2018. In 2016, Centipede Press published a career retrospective in itsMasters of Science Fiction series entitled James Patrick Kelly. He has published over ahundred stories and his fiction has been translated into eighteen languages. With John Kessel heis co-editor of Digital Rapture: The Singularity Anthology, Kafkaesque: Stories Inspired byFranz Kafka, The Secret History Of Science Fiction, Feeling Very Strange: The SlipstreamAnthology, and Rewired: The Post Cyberpunk Anthology. He writes a column on the internet forAsimov’s Science Fiction Magazine and is on the faculty of the Stonecoast Creative WritingMFA Program at the University of Southern Maine. Jim’s website isjimkelly.net.

AuburnJoanna Ruocco | 6740 words

The unhappily married Lady Abergavenny sat alone at the banquet tablewaiting for her husband. Her husband, of course, was Lord Abergavenny. Thebig, brave, handsome Lord Abergavenny. The night was dark. Supper had gottena bad chill on the banquet table. The goose had goose bumps (this wasunsurprising), but so did the potatoes and the turnips and the hunks of dark, sourbread, the region’s specialty.

“Ghastly,” said Lady Abergavenny. It was a word she used often. She stood togaze out the window at the region. Somewhere in the thick, forested hills of theregion, Lord Abergavenny was striding bravely, leading a black horse loadeddown with nets and guns and jars of pickling liquors and cameras and tripods andastoundingly powerful truncheon-shaped gaslamps for which Lord Abergavennywas soon to apply for a patent.

Lord Abergavenny. Explorer. Inventor. Never back in time for supper.It was difficult for Lady Abergavenny to pronounce the name of the region.

The name sounded guttural and slightly wispy, like choking in the morning on theflakes of a scone. It was in the bleakest corner of the tsardom. In letters to hersister, the humble Mrs. Cottenham, Lady Abergavenny called the region “the Coldand Quaggy Waste and Woodland” and she called her situation there “that MostUnfortunate Circumstance” or “the Plight of Which You Know.” When shefinished a letter she blotted her tears on the paper and signed off thusly:

Fondest Love from your Too Wretched for Further Words Sister,The Unhappily Married Lady AbergavennyThe Abergavennys were newly arrived in the region. They had taken up

residence in the summer house of an Imperial officer in a village on the edge ofthe forest. The Imperial officer was dead. The house was drafty and dank. Thewind made it shudder and wheeze and filled the rooms with the sound of mutedsobbing. Lord Abergavenny had claimed the master bedroom as his study andhad taken the next largest room, the saber room, as his sleeping chamber. LadyAbergavenny slept in the attic, which wasn’t as moldy as the cellar.

Lady Abergavenny returned to the table, ate a few skinned potatoes and a drypiece of bread (the butter was too cold for spreading) and a mouthful of thelightest dark meat she could find on the goose. Then she took up the candle.

“I am quite finished,” said Lady Abergavenny to the footman. He was very

large for a footman, with long, dirty nails tipping his wide, hairy hands, butfootman he must be for every night he put the plates on the table and clearedthem when Lady Abergavenny retired. The evening jacket he wore was rather likea footman’s jacket and his hair was heavily powdered (although perhaps it wasfloured). He nodded his head and Lady Abergavenny left the dining hall andascended the winding stair. The guttering candle threw shadows up and down andall around.

“Ghastly,” she murmured as the shadows wheeled and swarmed. “Ghastly.”In the attic, she put the candle on the windowsill. She lit another candle on her

writing desk. The candles cast far more shadows than lights and the lights theycast were very wan indeed. When Lady Abergavenny counted her troubles(sometimes she called them her “Woes” or “Regrets”), she counted among themthe fact that Lord Abergavenny’s astoundingly powerful truncheon-shapedgaslamps were not for domestic use. This was a rule of Lord Abergavenny. Heused them in his research only, which is to say (as he did say), “in pursuit ofscience and in service to the crown.” Lady Abergavenny sat down in a ricketychair to perform her nightly labor. One hundred strokes with the boar-bristlebrush through her long and shining auburn hair. This too was a rule of LordAbergavenny.

Lady Abergavenny’s long and shining auburn hair was her one beauty. Hersole attraction. She had been born Malvina Potts, daughter of Dunston Potts, fruitand nut seller, and of Georgina Potts, wife of Dunston Potts, fruit and nut seller.The Pottses had many hard little nuts and many more hard little fruits (they didn’tsell as well as the nuts) but not very much in the way of money, living space, orgood countenance to split between them. Lady Abergavenny nee Potts hadcrooked teeth and a snub nose and hard, little eyes (this last she had inferred froma customer who compared her eyes to filberts) and she was rather freckled andshort in the bargain. She was not a lovely girl after any fashion, but she was afriendly, lively sort of girl, and she had always been a great favorite in theneighborhood. It was widely agreed, to her credit, that she never bagged a lightpound of nuts. No one ever expected her to marry below a coal-heaver. But thenno one expected her to marry above a clerk.

That she married Lord Abergavenny is still the talk of Market Street and of thewives of fruit and nut sellers everywhere.

Their courtship was brief. Lord Abergavenny stopped at the corner where thefuture Lady Abergavenny stood selling fruits and nuts and asked for a lock of herhair.

“Oh no, sir,” the future Lady Abergavenny had said. “It’s attached to mehead!” In those days, she was less refined in her speech.

“Very well,” replied Lord Abergavenny. “I’ll take the head as well.” And hemarried her straight off. The wedding was a happy event (the marriages of eventhe unhappily married often are) and even though Lady Abergavenny didn’tknow very much of her Lord, she knew he was big, brave, and handsome andthat was plenty. On the wedding night, Lord Abergavenny had handed LadyAbergavenny out of the carriage in front of his mansion in Belgravia (a rollingstop) and the carriage, with Lord Abergavenny inside of it, rattled away across thecobblestones. Lady Abergavenny had sat up waiting for him, eating wedding cakein the kitchen with Mrs. Howard, the housekeeper.

“I never expected my husband to carry me across the threshold,” said LadyAbergavenny as Mrs. Howard polished a set of silver eggcups. “But I did expectthat he’d cross the threshold himself and not disappear into the night as soon asthe vows were spoken without so much as a by your leave. Maybe I’m over-sensitive?”

Mrs. Howard frowned.“I’m not over-sensitive?” asked Lady Abergavenny.“That’s your fourth piece of cake, my lady,” said Mrs. Howard.“I have heard a lady should eat a like a bird,” said Lady Abergavenny

thoughtfully. “But I’ve also heard a lady should do what she wants. I’m not surehow to reconcile those two principles. Perhaps once I’ve been a lady forlonger . . .” She picked an icing flower from the top of her cake and popped it inher mouth.

“You might not be a lady for long,” said Mrs. Howard. She gave LadyAbergavenny a significant look. “But it’s not for me to say.” She dropped herpolish rag and stood, rattling her keys.

“You shouldn’t be downstairs,” she said. “I will take you to your chambers.”“There’s still more cake,” said Lady Abergavenny. “And if Lord Abergavenny

returns, I want to know right away.”“He won’t return,” said Mrs. Howard curtly. “Not tonight. He’s gone to his

country estate to set his affairs in order. He’ll meet you on the steamer tomorrowevening.”

“The steamer,” echoed Lady Abergavenny.“To America,” said Mrs. Howard, staring at her with something like pity. “You

do seem rather stout . . .”Lady Abergavenny snorted and cut another, even larger wedge of cake.

“Of heart,” continued Mrs. Howard. “You may last longer than I’d imagine.Longer than the previous Ladies Abergavenny.”

Lady Abergavenny examined her fork.“Longer than all of them?” she asked, licking the tines with a great show of

unconcern. “Surely not all of them.”“I said may,” said Mrs. Howard.“But there were quite of few of them?” prodded Lady Abergavenny. “Four?”“Nine,” said Mrs. Howard.“Oh yes, now I remember,” said Lady Abergavenny. “That’s what Lord

Abergavenny had told me.”“Well,” said Mrs. Howard. “I’ll see if your fire has been properly laid. Betty

will bring you up when you’re ready.”And so began the unhappy phase of Lady Abergavenny’s marriage. Betty

never came to fetch her and Lady Abergavenny slept at the kitchen table andfinished the wedding cake for breakfast. At eleven, the carriage arrived and shewas whisked away to the steamer and off to America.

Now, a year later, Lady Abergavenny had no idea whether or not she hadlasted longer than the other Ladies Abergavenny. Lord Abergavenny didn’tmention them, or much of anything else.

Ninety-nine, one hundred. Lady Abergavenny laid down the boar bristlebrush. She blew out the candle on the windowsill, changed out of her high-necked gown into an equally high-necked nightdress, and climbed into bed.Somewhere in the region, Lord Abergavenny was still striding. A wolf howled.Lady Abergavenny slept.

When she woke, the cold summer sun was sending pale rays through the atticwindow. She rose. She performed her morning labor. One hundred strokes withthe boar-bristle brush through her long and shining auburn hair. She changedfrom her high-necked nightdress into an equally high-necked gown, anddescended the stair to breakfast alone at the banquet table on goose croquettesand tea that tasted of smoke.

“It’s a fine day,” said Lady Abergavenny to the footman. He was standingexactly where he had been standing the night before. He had large, wet sea-greeneyes that he blinked at her as he scratched his beard with his long, dirty nails. Hisbeard was powdered white as his hair, which struck Lady Abergavenny asexcessively formal given his generally uncleanly and disheveled appearance.

“You never can tell what counts as propriety in foreign lands,” thought LadyAbergavenny. “In some places a footman’s livery includes beard powder, in other

places it really doesn’t do to have any beard at all.” The footman’s chest was verybroad and he must have once attempted to button his coat and so popped thebuttons off. His undershirt was white and looked puffed up like a freshly filleddown pillow.

“Sun,” said Lady Abergavenny. “The rays of the sun are so heartening, a boonto the soul in despond.” She smiled a non-desponding smile (unconvincing) atthe footman, but he was not looking at her. He never looked at her. He plucked alouse from his beard and crushed it beneath his boot. Lady Abergavenny sighed.When she counted her Woes, she counted “dearth of conversation” among them.As Malvina Potts, daughter of Dunston Potts, fruit and nut seller, she hadconversed on many topics of interest to the buyers of fruits and nuts, on thequalities and availabilities of various fruits and nuts certainly, but also on otherthings, horses, rakes, music hall stars, the weather, hair oils, steamships, crime,the Protestant succession, what have you. It had been so enjoyable.

She heard creaking above her head and knew that Lord Abergavenny waspacing in his study, dictating the findings from the previous night to his secretary,Mr. Middleton. It was Lord Abergavenny’s habit to dictate in his study beforeheading out again into the region to recommence his striding.

“I believe Lord Abergavenny suffers from the monomania,” said LadyAbergavenny to the footman. She usually reserved this type of commentary forher letters to her sister, the humble Mrs. Cottenham, but the footman was in closerproximity than her sister. Plus he never scolded her for complaining of life with alord.

“Pardon me, Malvina,” the humble Mrs. Cottenham had written in her lastletter. “But how you can go on and on about your Unfortunate Circumstance andyour Woes and the Bitter Draughts that Blast the Buds on the Nuptial Bower isquite beyond my humble powers of comprehension. You are married, let meremind you, to a PEER of the realm and though he has taken you beyond theboundaries of said realm you are nonetheless maintained in a state of LUXURYand INDOLENCE unimaginable to your poor relations who are, let me remindyou, working their fingers to the bones to make ends meet as this has been anIMPOSSIBLE YEAR FOR NUTS and your very own father has been reduced toselling ballads he writes himself about LURID EVENTS and your very ownmother his wife is dying of shame and Mr. Cottenham and James and Matilda andI are working downriver for the aniline dyers and our hands are a dreadfulPURPLE color that can’t be washed off and Matilda is always itching her face andher face is now SPOTTED WITH PURPLE. When you are sitting to your supper

at a great big table laid with turbots and turtles and lobsters and truffles andsauces and jellies and creams and pasties and clarets and coffees and everythingnice and Regretting this and Lamenting that remember if you can that you mightbe BREAKING YOUR TEETH on old nuts and that your face and hands are notpurple and remember your sister who bears her own WOES without so much as afiddle-dee-dee.”

The humble Mrs. Cottenham had written this letter in purple ink and encloseda ballad. The ballad was very lurid, about a woman in Newcastle who fell in lovewith a veal cutlet.

Moving on.“He is singularly focused on his research,” continued Lady Abergavenny to the

footman. “Even among naturalists, explorers, and inventors, I do believe suchdedication is uncommon. Before we arrived in this region, we spent two monthsin the Amazon jungles, and before that we spent two months in the Himalayas andbefore that two months in the North American forests. Lord Abergavenny issearching for a particular kind of bird, of course. The Boffin bird.”

Lady Abergavenny more or less believed this. Why not a Boffin bird?Monomaniacs could fixate on just about anything. Lord Abergavenny hadshipped several corrugated, perforated black metal crates back to London over thecourse of their travels and when she had once asked him, “My lord, what creaturebellows so horribly to find itself enclosed in that crate?” he had answeredimmediately, “The Boffin bird,” and gone striding off to attend to a windlass.Lady Abergavenny had never dared to press her eye to a perforation in the crate,but she gathered from the din that Boffin birds were very, very big. Big and nottoo pleased with the accommodations the big, brave, handsome LordAbergavenny had seen fit to provide.

The footman’s nose was slightly askew and he had a finger in his ear but theear without the finger inside of it was cocked in her direction. Lady Abergavennyfelt encouraged.

“The Boffin bird is of great value to science,” she said. “Lord Abergavennyhunts this bird on royal commission. Why, you ask?”

The footman had not asked. He never asked. He was the silent type. But LadyAbergavenny was warming to her theme. “Something about its wings is of theutmost importance.” She hooked her thumbs and flapped her fingers toemphasize the point. She was proud of the point, as it was entirely of her ownsurmise. “Examining the wings of live Boffin birds will enable humans to unlockthe mystery of flight.”

“Lady Abergavenny!” A deep baritone interrupted Lady Abergavenny’sspeech, the deep baritone that issued from the chest of Lord Abergavenny. He wasstanding in the doorway in his dun-colored research jacket and buff-coloredtrousers and kid-colored boots of soft kid. His black hair waved around hishandsome face and his blue eyes were narrowed. “It is half ten. You should be inthe clearing in the forest, not yammering to a Mongolian butler.”

Lady Abergavenny stood quickly and fell back into the chair with a cry. Tearsleapt to her eyes. She had been sitting on her long and shining auburn hair and ithad jerked her neck horribly.

“You were sitting on your hair,” observed Lord Abergavenny.“I wasn’t,” said Lady Abergavenny.“You were,” said Lord Abergavenny. “Did you loosen any strands?”“Not a one,” said Lady Abergavenny standing slowly with an odd torsion of

her hips. Her hair swung free behind her. Lord Abergavenny was still regardingher narrowly, his finely modeled lips pressed together.

“Perhaps you would like a croquette?” asked Lady Abergavenny. “And sometea? The footman,” she hesitated.

“Max,” she said. She rather thought his name would be something like Max.“Max our first footman could pour you some tea.”Lord Abergavenny now chose to curl his finely modeled lips. “I have a flagon

of tea and a tin of biscuits in my saddlebags. A man does not pursue science andserve the crown by taking tea in a drawing room and neither does a man’s wife.”He waved to the footman who was hanging his head, playing with the buttonholesin his jacket. “Clear these plates,” said Lord Abergavenny. “Lady Abergavenny isoff to the forest.” And he strode into the room, gripped her am, and steered herthrough the door. He released her in the front hall where she donned her greencloak and picked up The Foxes of Silicon Fen, a sentimental novel that kept hercompany throughout her long, dull hours in the forest.

Outside, Lord Abergavenny bowed abruptly.“Good day, Lady Abergavenny,” he said and mounted his horse and thundered

away down the road through the dark wooden houses of the village, toward themountains.

The day really was fine by the standards of the region. The sky was cloudlessand white and the wind was blunt and harmless and didn’t claw at the throat ofLady Abergavenny’s cloak.

“I am happily married,” thought Lady Abergavenny as she walked through thevillage, turning off on a footpath into the forest. “My hands are not purple and my

face is not purple and my husband is a peer of the realm. He loves me in his way,or at least he loves my hair, which is rather my crowning glory. While he stridesin search of the Boffin bird, I bask in luxury and indolence, which is preferable tostanding on cobbles shelling walnuts. I never eat mincemeat but instead exoticfoods such as geese and bison and fermented fish and creamy rice dishes richlyspiced. My husband requires me to sit each day for hours in a wooded place sothat my constitution is improved by the strengthening vapors of the forest. It is allperfectly lovely and I couldn’t be happier. I do rather miss green plums andalmonds and I do rather miss long chats with Minda Travers and Jill Baker onMarket Street and I do rather miss book shops and sweet shops and music hallsand the circus, but I am of course very grateful that I am peeress LadyAbergavenny and not plain Malvina Potts. I do rather miss Malvina Potts.”

This last thought struck Lady Abergavenny like a thunderbolt. It was true. Itwas ghastly. She missed Malvina Potts.

“No use crying over spilt milk,” said Lady Abergavenny aloud and pushed thethought away. She could be very practical when she needed to be. The trees beganto thin and Lady Abergavenny sat on a mossy log in a small clearing to breathethe strengthening vapors of the forest. The trees creaked. The pale rays of sunpoked through the dark canopy.

“O the feel of the veal,” hummed Lady Abergavenny. She opened her book,then put it down. She had read The Foxes of Silicon Fen a dozen times and thestory was wearing thin.

“It was more than a meal,” hummed Lady Abergavenny. The pale rays of thesun lit up green moss and yellow needles and wet, black bark. Suddenly, she sawit. Between two trees across the clearing. A flash of auburn. Deep, shining, red-gold, unmistakable auburn the same exact shade as Lady Abergavenny’s hair. Shecaught her breath.

This was not the first time she had seen it, the thing she called The Auburn.She had glimpsed The Auburn in the mountains of India, in the jungles of theAmazon, in the forests of North America. The Auburn peeking from behind a treeor rock or vine or frond. She would wait, holding her breath, for something moreto happen. The more that happened had never been much. She might see TheAuburn wink out of sight and reappear, yards away, another flash above a berm.She might hear rustling, snapping branches. She might hear, far off, an eeriebellowing. What did she expect to happen? The Auburn to come forward, to takeshape, to charge toward her . . .

She tried to remember another line of her father’s ballad. It was Lurid but not

without Literary Merits.“She had her way with the veal on a table of deal . . .” hummed Lady

Abergavenny. She picked up her book and pretended to read, peering at the treesover the top of the book. The Auburn had vanished. She heard rustling, snappingbranches. The pale rays of sun became paler and the clearing grew dark. Shedrew her cloak tightly about her. She saw something buff-colored and dun-colored and kid-colored leap between trees.

“My lord?” she called. Sometimes Lord Abergavenny came to check on herduring her hours in the forest. He always seemed annoyed when she spotted andhailed him. Perhaps he did not want her to know that he cared. Lords werenotoriously reticent with their Ladies about tender feelings. It was the mainproblem with Lords according to The Foxes of Silicon Fen. That and the pastimeof slaughtering foxes.

At that moment, Lord Abergavenny came crashing through the trees. He heldsomething similar to an astoundingly powerful truncheon-shaped gaslamp butinstead of shooting a ray of light it was shooting a snapping blue beam. His blackhair was standing on end.

“Lady Abergavenny,” he panted. He fumbled with the device in his hand. Thebeam vanished. His hair began to drift down around his aristocratic brow.

“Stay where you are,” he said as he backed away again into the trees. “It isonly half eleven. You have several more hours to inspire the sweet airs of theforest.”

When she was quite certain he was gone, Lady Abergavenny stood.“I would rather be married to a veal cutlet,” she said. “There are no two ways

about it.” She walked hastily back to the house. The staff did not expect her toreturn before the usual hour and so she opened the heavy door herself. The hallsmelled different than usual. She sniffed. The smell was faint and faintly familiar.What was it? Not one of the regular reeks. Not dark, sour bread and not goose.Not turnips, not beets, not fish, and not stew. It was different, not really even areek, but a hint of a reek. A light musk. She peeked into the dining room but Maxthe footman was not there. Instead, Mr. Urquhart, the tiger hunter, was seated atthe head of the table with Karthik, his Hindoo servant, standing at attentionbehind him. Mr. Urquhart was tucking into a goose while supporting his longmustache on a little silver platform attached to a slender silver handle (his owninvention, nothing to do with Lord Abergavenny).

“Mr. Urquhart,” cried Lady Abergavenny. “My word, what brings you to—”and she made a noise like choking in the morning on the flakes of a scone. Mr.

Urquhart was a childhood friend of Lord Abergavenny. They had stayed in hishunting villa at the foot of the Himalayas. He was most often out hunting tigers,and during the hours she had sat on a stool in the shrubby meadow strengtheningher constitution, she had spied him with her husband circling the area, stalkingtigers while Lord Abergavenny stalked Boffin birds, Karthik stalking behindthem.

“My dear Lady Abergavenny,” said Mr. Uquhart. “I had a run-in with a realman-eater and he did a bang-up job on me. I thought I’d take a break fromhunting for the season and ride the engine across the continent. Shouldn’t you beout in the forest? Is it a holiday? I suppose Lord Abergavenny will back soon aswell?”

Lady Abergavenny could not answer. Her mouth felt dry and her heartthudded in her chest. She took the glass Karthik handed her and gulped the water.It was a tall glass and she gulped for quite awhile. Finally she finished. Shegasped for air and wiped her mouth, staring at Mr. Urquhart. He put down hisfork and his mustache platform. His mustache lowered over his mouth like aVenetian blind.

“Karthik,” said Mr. Urquhart. “Help me with my leg.” The Hindoo servantpulled back Mr. Urquhart’s chair. Mr. Urquhart’s left leg stuck out at a straightangle.

“I hope you don’t mind Karthik’s serving luncheon,” said Mr. Urquhart asKarthik rolled up his trouser. “I dismissed your footman. He gave me the willies.There!” Mr. Urquhart rapped on his leg. “Sandalwood! Teak is stronger but thisone smelled so wonderful I couldn’t resist. Sniff it.”

Lady Abergavenny bent over and sniffed the wood.“Wonderful,” she agreed.“Mr. Urquhart . . .” she hesitated. “I’ve been married to Lord Abergevenny a

year now. Happily married,” she added. “What joy!”Mr. Urquhart winked at her. “Nothing brings the bloom to a lass’s cheek like

conjugal harmony.”Lady Abergavenny grinned in what she hoped was a blooming manner. “And I

want to do something special for my husband. He’s known such tragedy.”Mr. Urquhart nodded at Karthik, who rolled his trouser down and pushed him

back toward the goose.“Nothing steels a man’s resolve like tragedy,” he said and swept up his

mustache with the mustache platform so he could once again tuck into the goose.“Nine tragedies,” said Lady Abergavenny. “All those poor Ladies

Abergavenny.”“Hmmphh,” said Mr. Urquhart around his mouthful of goose.“Did you know them?” asked Lady Abergavenny in a rush.“I believe I met some of them,” said Mr. Urquhart, swallowing. “But one was

much like another.”“Oh,” said Lady Abergavenny.“All that shining auburn hair,” said Mr. Urquhart. “Spectacular.” Lady

Abergavenny raised a hand to her own shining auburn hair. She shuddered.“He adores auburn,” she whispered.She heard footsteps behind her and whirled around, heart hammering harder

than ever. It was only the footman passing by. In profile, his nose seemedstraighter than before, but much darker than the rest of his face. He had perhapsbeen drinking. Lady Abergavenny felt herself in need of a drink as well.Something with more of a kick than just water.

“I’m going to see the cook,” she said to Mr. Urquhart. “To let her know we’vea guest for dinner.” She hurried after the footman into the kitchen. He really wasuncommonly tall. He had to duck or his head would have struck the hanging pots.The kitchen door was open. The cook sat in the yard plucking a goose. Shelooked up and yelled something. It didn’t sound anything like “Max” but thefootman ducked out the kitchen door and trotted over to her. He grabbed a livegoose by the neck.

Lady Abergavenny turned quickly away. She rummaged through the kitchencupboards until she found what she was looking for. She poured a glass of potatowine and guzzled it. She sat down at the narrow table in front of the fire with theempty glass and the bottle in front of her. She took a pull from the bottle. Shelifted a lock of her hair and studied it in the firelight. It shone red-gold. It shonelike a hearth. Like a beacon. It had attracted a Lord. But what did he want with it?Why did he drag her from forest to jungle to mountain to woodland and waste?She returned the bottle to the cupboard and fixed herself a plate of gingerbreadcookies. The cookies were moist and rich and peppery sweet.

“I would most like to be married to a gingerbread cookie,” thought LadyAbergavenny. “Or to a lemon tart. Or to nothing at all.”

She was just stepping out of the kitchen, when the front door banged open andLord Abergavenny strode through the hall. She hid behind the doorframe. Soonbaritone shouts resounded.

“Urquhart!”“Abergavenny!”

She crept along the hall toward the voices. She had just reached the open doorwhen a tap on her shoulder made her whirl about. Karthik stood behind her. Hehad a fragrant leg of smoothed sandalwood on one shoulder, a rifle on the other,and a heavy leather valise in one hand.

“Mr. Urquhart’s things,” said Lady Abergavenny, recovering her composure.“You must put them in the spare bedroom.” There was no spare bedroom and soshe pondered this conundrum.

“On the second floor,” she said. “It’s really the library. The books have rottedin the damp, but there’s a chesterfield in quite good condition.”

Karthik was exactly her height and he met her eyes evenly.“Have you seen one?” he whispered.“Seen one what?” she whispered back, but even as she whispered she thought

of it, The Auburn, how it showed itself in flashes. She thought of The Auburnflashing in the fronds on the other side of the river and The Auburn flashinginside the cave mouth in the mountains and The Auburn flashing betweenquivering conifers in the forest and The Auburn she had seen just that morningflashing across the clearing. She thought of how her husband often appeared as itvanished. The Auburn peeked at her, but it fled from him.

“What is it?” she breathed, but Karthik gave a slight frown. A warning. LordAbergavenny poked his head into the hall.

“Lady Abergavenny,” he said. “By all means, join us at the table.” He grippedLady Abergavenny’s wrist and she was jerked into the room. He dragged her tothe banquet table and threw her into a chair. She hit the seat hard with her bumand yelped. She whipped her head around furiously and saw Karthik framed inthe doorway.

“Steady now,” Karthik’s look seemed to say as he turned to continue on downthe hall. Leaving her with Lord Abergavenny and Mr. Urquhart and the coldcarcass of a goose. Abandoning her to her Fate. She straightened and glanced ather husband.

“You’re not at the table,” she said. He wasn’t. He was leaning against the walllighting a cheroot.

“Would it kill you to sit to a meal with your wife?” she asked.“I like this one,” chuckled Mr. Urquhart. His teeth winked through a gray slat

of mustache. “She’s stout . . .”Lady Abergavenny glared.“Of heart,” he finished. “I would wager she doesn’t spook easily in the forest.

I wonder if the others ran. That might have been what did it. The running.”

“Enough,” said Lord Abergavenny. He had scratches across his highcheekbones and a tear in his dun-colored trousers. He drew back his chair and satdown facing Lady Abergavenny.

“Goose?” She hacked at the goose with the serving knife and tilted the platterso a hunk slid off onto a plate. She was not feeling very ladylike. She was feelinglike Malvina Potts. Lord Abergavenny blinked as she shoved the plate towardhim.

“Eat,” she said. He lifted a brow and folded his arms across his chest.“Eat,” she said. “Or I’m through with brushing my hair. I’m through with

sitting in the forest. I’m through with traveling from bleak to bleaker to bleakestregions.”

“What would you do instead?” asked Lord Abergavenny. He took a bite ofgoose. “Where would you go?”

“Home,” said Lady Abergavenny, although she knew she couldn’t go home.No one on Market Street would take kindly to a woman who left a Lord to sellfruits and nuts.

“Ahh,” said Lord Abergavenny. “Home.”“You could stay with me in Darjeeling,” offered Mr. Urquhart. “Except I’m not

there. My leg is there, buried in the garden under the mango tree. You could goand shed tears over the grave of my leg.” He laughed again, unpleasantly. “Thetiger is still prowling though. You’d have to be very stout indeed to face the tiger.”

“This is the first time we’ve eaten a meal together,” said Lady Abergavenny toher husband. She picked a glistening black strip of flesh from a bone and chewedit slowly. “It’s our first anniversary. Give or take a day.” It wasn’t easy to keeptrack of the days in the region. She leaned forward.

“Tell me, my Lord, have I lasted longer than the other Ladies Abergavenny?”Lord Abergavenny looked at Mr. Urquhart. “What have you been telling her?”Mr. Urquhart held up his hands. “Nothing, I swear it.”Lady Abergavenny shrugged. “Happy anniversary,” she said. “I hope you get

pecked in the eye by a Boffin bird.”“I doubt I will,” murmured Lord Abergavenny, looking at her speculatively.“I am beginning to doubt it as well,” said Lady Abergavenny. And left the

room. She almost banged into the footman in the hall. He blinked at her. His eyeswere larger and softer than hers but the sea-green shade was really very like.

“I’m sorry, Max,” she said. “I wasn’t looking.” He sketched a slight bow. Aflurry of white shook down from his hair. She sneezed. Definitely flour.

“I don’t think they’re ready to have the plates cleared away,” she said. “But if

you would clear them away I’d be greatly obliged.”As she hurried past him, she heard a low rumbling that sounded something

like a laugh.That night the wind sobbed in the attic and in the distance, mingling with the

wind, came howls and bellows and wails. Lady Abergavenny sat at her writingdesk. She looked at the quill and she looked at the comb. She could write to hersister, the humble Mrs. Cottenham. She could brush her hair, one hundred strokeswith the boar-bristle brush. She did neither. She picked up her candle and snuckdown the stairs and tiptoed to Lord Abergavenny’s study. The door was shut tight.The light that came through the crack below the door was strong and bright whiteand did not flicker. That could mean one thing only. He was using theastoundingly powerful truncheon-shaped gaslamp for domestic illumination.

“Hypocrite,” she muttered. She pressed her ear to the door.“. . . miracle she hasn’t been ripped limb from limb,” Mr. Urquhart was saying.

“She has lasted longer than your other ladies. Do you think it is because she’sstouter of heart? Purer of soul? Simpler? More childlike? I find her a nasty pieceof baggage, assuming and shrewish, but their standards are bound to bedifferent.”

“It’s convenient whatever the reason,” said Lord Abergavenny. “Bloody pain inthe arse finding replacements. The color has to be just right and they don’trespond to a wig on a gourd, more’s the pity. She’s working out marvelously.They come close enough for me to shock them and net them and ship them off.That’s what matters, isn’t it?”

“Wish a tiger had bitten my leg off,” said Mr. Urquhart. “I can’t tell you howawful . . . the bellowing, the twisting . . .”

“Have some more brandy.” Footsteps, clink of stopper in decanter.“Cheers.” A glugging sound.“It must have been awful for the nine of them,” said Mr. Urquhart. “Losing the

leg gives me a new appreciation. You’re a cool one, Abergavenny, to bait a trapwith your own wives.”

“I marry bait,” came the reply. “What else would I use?”Lady Abergavenny had had quite enough. She flew down the rest of the stairs

and into the kitchen for a knife and into the front hallway for her cloak and outthe front door as quickly as she could. The wind tore at the throat of her cloakand blew her long and shining auburn hair behind her like a flame. She duckedher head and ran into the wind. She ran through the village and turned off ontothe path through the forest, stumbling over rocks and branches until she half fell

into the clearing. She had no candle. She had no astoundingly powerfultruncheon-shaped gaslamp. She had no gun or blue shocker to protect her. Shehad a knife and she raised it high in the night with one hand and held taut a lockof her hair with the other. She struck and she sawed and in one hundred blowsshe had shorn herself of every auburn strand. Her scalp stung and the cold windfilled her ears like black water.

She gathered the masses of hair and scattered them through underbrush andovergrowth and hung them on thorns and she trampled and kicked at the earthand stamped on the briars until she was satisfied it looked as though her hair hadbeen ripped quite off her body and her body dragged with great violence awaythrough the woodlands and into the waste. Never to be seen again.

She wondered suddenly if the other Ladies Abergavenny had in fact met grislyends in the forest or if they too had struck and sawed themselves free and fledinto the hills. Maybe whatever creatures her husband hunted were gentle and hadnever hurt any woman at all. Maybe they only ripped the limbs from tiger-huntersand explorers and Lords and other enemies of the natural world. Maybe they onlybellowed when pursued or captured.

What were they? All she knew is they were auburn, like she was, and that wasplenty. Maybe they weren’t her friends, but they certainly weren’t her enemies.

She stood in the clearing peering about her but it was dark and no directionlooked better than any other. She took a step. Then another. She stopped. Sheheard a step. Then another. Not hers. She saw a light, a candlelight flickering. Thefootman was creeping toward her across the clearing. His nose was further askewthan ever and his sea-green eyes gleamed and so did his hair where the flour hadblown away in the wind. His hair gleamed auburn. Lady Abergavenny was stout(of heart) and did not run. She clutched her green cloak about her as heapproached. When he was right in front of her, she reached out her hand. Herhand trembled slightly but she reached with steadfast purpose. She ripped off hisnose. It was made of putty and tied to his face with thin string. Beneath the fakenose his real nose was flat. Two wide nostrils set in the slope of his face. It wasn’ta human nose. She was very glad, very glad to see it.

“Max,” she said. “You’re one of them.” And then, because, she wasn’t surewhat she meant by “them,” and she didn’t want to think of herself and any otheras an “us,” she said, “You? And me?”

He held out his wide, filthy, hairy hand and she took it.“Do you know where we can go?” she asked and he nodded. Flour flurried.

She sneezed. Smiled.

“Let’s go there then,” she said. She saw a glimmer of auburn, but it was only alock of her own hair sailing through the candlelight on the wind. Max started afterit and she followed, the two of them chasing after the flashing auburn with thewind at their backs. They left the clearing and the trees closed behind them. Thewind extinguished the candle. It was utterly dark, but Max was sure-footed andLady Abergavenny was, too, and they leaped over tussocks and hummocks andtraveled quickly through the woodlands. The village and Lord Abergavenny wereevery moment farther and farther behind them.

Lady Abergavenny supposed she wasn’t the unhappily married LadyAbergavenny any longer. But she wasn’t plain Malvina Potts again either. She wassomething different. She held tight to Max’s hand and they leaped faster andfaster. She wondered what lay ahead. She wondered who she would find.

©2015 by Joanna Ruocco. Originally published in Lady Churchill's Rosebud Wristlet.Reprinted by permission of the author.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Joanna Ruocco is the author of several books, including Dan (Dorothy, a publishing project),The Week (The Elephants of British Columbia), and Another Governess / The Least Blacksmith:A Diptych (FC2). She also works pseudonymously as Alessandra Shahbaz (Ghazal in theMoonlight, Midnight Flame), Toni Jones (No Secrets in Spandex), and Joanna Lowell (DarkSeason). She is an assistant professor in the English Department at Wake Forest University.

The Substance of My Lives, the Accidents of Our BirthsJosé Pablo Iriarte | 7540 words

I seem to make an outcast of myself every time I’m a teenager. Which is fine, Iguess. I’ll take one good dog and one good friend over being a phony and fittingin.

Alicia points. “There he is, Jamie!”A couple hundred feet away, our trailer park’s newest resident grabs a box

from the van parked in front of his single-wide. He’s gray-haired and buff, like ifThe Rock were an old man.

Alicia and I are sprawled on top of a wooden picnic table in the park’s rustedold playground.

She frowns, her eyebrows coming together to form a tiny crease above hernose. “I’ve never known anybody who killed someone before.”

I shrug.“I mean, maybe I have, I guess, but I’ve never known I’ve known them. Know

what I mean?”“No.”I don’t really care about the new guy, even if he did murder someone once.

I’m mostly just out here to not have to listen to old Mrs. Francis concern-trollingmy mom. When I was a kid who sometimes acted like a boy and sometimes like agirl, it was “just a phase.” Now that I’m sixteen, it’s “worrying” and “not safe forthe younger children” and something we should “talk to a therapist about.”

What Mrs. Francis doesn’t know is that I remember every life I’ve lived fornearly four hundred years—not in detail, but like a book I read once and have afew hazy recollections about. In over a dozen lifetimes I can recall, I’ve been maleand female enough times for those words to mean little more to me than aparticular shirt—not who I am.

My mom’s too polite to tell a neighbor what she can do with her un-asked-forparenting advice. Trailer walls are thin, though, and if I have to hear it too . . .well, Sabal Palms Trailer Park might end up with two murderers living in it.

Next to me, my dog Meetu nudges my hand with his head, asking for morescritches. He’s supposed to protect me from people who are as bothered by me asMrs. Francis is, but would rather use their fists to try and fix me. People likeConnor Haines, the biggest asshole in the eleventh grade. But the reality is thatMeetu is basically a teddy bear trapped in a pit bull’s body.

Alicia shifts on the table. “I can’t believe my mom let him rent here.” Hermother manages the park, so I guess she could have blocked him if she’d wantedto.

“Even ex-murderers gotta live somewhere.”She gives me her patented don’t-be-an-idiot combination eye roll and

headshake that I’ve never seen anybody else quite match. Even when it’s directedat me, I can’t help but grin.

“There’s no such thing as an ‘ex-murderer,’” she says. “Once you killsomeone, you’re a murderer.”

I brush my hair out of my face. “He went to jail. He did his time, right? Theylet him out, so where else is he gonna live?” We’ve certainly had other peoplewith checkered pasts here.

“They shouldn’t have let him out. You take somebody’s life, you ought to rotfor the rest of yours.”

Meetu shoves his giant head under my arm and rests it on my lap. Guess I’mnot going anywhere for a while.

“There’s no heaven,” Alicia declares. “The Jesus freaks are wrong about that.There’s nothing but this. If people realized that, they’d take this life moreseriously. You only get one.”

She’s wrong, but I can’t explain to her how I know, so I don’t bother trying.A woman about my mom’s age helps the man unpack, while a toddler

stumbles around the grassy area in front of the trailer. He seems kind of old tohave a little kid, but maybe he’s making up for lost time.

“I can’t understand what kind of woman would want to live with a killer,much less have a child with him.” She peers at the table beneath her and runs afingernail along a carved heart that’s older than we are. “Not that I get wanting tobe with any man.”

The new neighbor comes out for another load. He glances our way, and evenat this distance, our eyes lock, and a cold itch runs from the small of my back tothe top of my scalp.

I know him. I know him from before.I don’t mean I know his soul. I know him.Alicia gives me a little shove, and I realize she’s been talking at me for a while.“Are you okay?”I blink. Even Meetu looks concerned, his muscular head cocked.“I’m fine.”“Are you sure?”

I nod, but she doesn’t stop staring and looking worried, so I add, “You’reright. It’s weird living next to a murderer.”

Her face softens. “I didn’t hurt your feelings, did I? When I said . . . that? Iwasn’t talking about you.”

“Nah,” I say. “I know you weren’t.”The new guy goes back into his trailer.“What did you say his name was?” I ask.“Benjamin,” she answers softly. After a few quiet seconds, she adds, “You did

a really nice job on your nails.”I glance down at my newly red nails. She’s painted them for me a couple times

before, but this is the first time I’ve done them myself. I’m grateful that shedoesn’t qualify the compliment. Doesn’t add, for a guy. But of course shewouldn’t—that’s why I—that’s why she’s my best friend.

• • • •

I try to let it go. So I’ve got a neighbor that I knew in a past life. So he’s aconvict. The past is dead. Who cares.

Over the next couple days, though, my mind keeps returning to Benjamin. Ifeel like he was important for some reason. By the middle of the week, I admit tomyself that I’m not going to move on until I figure out what role he played in mylife.

I’m not quite sure how to do that, though. I could ask Alicia for help. She’sgot a laptop and internet. I don’t even have a smartphone. I don’t want to open upthe can of worms that is my past lives, though, so instead I decide to see what Ican find out at the library.

I feed Meetu an early dinner while Mom’s still at work, grab my backpack andbus pass, and head out.

Once I’m there, I have to face the fact that I don’t have the first idea how toresearch anything about this guy. I don’t even know his full name.

What’s B’s last name? I text Alicia.Avery. Why?What do I say that won’t make her ask a thousand questions I don’t want to

answer? Just wondering.UR totally gonna snoop arent you?I consider possible deflections. Lying to Alicia feels scuzzy, though, and

anyway, I can’t think of any lies to tell. maybe just a little

I stare at my tiny screen, worried that she’s going to offer to join me. After aminute her reply shows up, though, and it’s just haha well lmk what you dig up.

I sigh, feeling both relieved and ashamed of my relief.Even with his last name, I struggle. I don’t know how to weed out other

people named Benjamin, other people named Avery, other murderers. I don’teven know when he went to jail—how long is a sentence for murder, anyway?

Finally I stumble across what I’m looking for—a news archive from the 1970s,with a grainy black and white photo of a man that looks a lot younger, but that’sdefinitely him.

A Vietnam War veteran, possibly shell-shocked and deranged since comingback. A crime of passion—the victim, his best friend’s wife. A body dug up bythe shore of Peace Creek, not far away at all. Then I come across a photo of theformerly happy couple: Larry Dearborn and his wife Jamie.

Janie. Not Jamie. Janie. But the name doesn’t matter.It’s me.

• • • •

It’s raining when I stagger out of the library. On the bus ride home, I lean myhead against the window and watch the torrents sheeting down the glass.

Janie would be in her sixties, if she’d lived. I don’t remember ever being old. Ialways seem to die young. I don’t remember dying. End-of-life memories arehazy, same as beginning-of-life memories.

I glance away from the window and notice a little girl staring at me from theseat across the aisle. Her father sits next to her, but he’s focused on his phone.

“Are you a boy or a girl?” she asks.Before I can catch myself, my stock answer comes out. “No.”She tilts her head in confusion.I imagine how I must look to her. Rain-soaked long hair, purple V-neck, red

nails. Hell, she’s just a kid. “I’m a little of both,” I add.Her eyes widen. “Oh!”I turn back toward the window. Now that I’ve seen the photos and read the

articles, bits and pieces of that life are coming back to me.Benjamin looks like I imagine a murderer would—big and tough and unhappy.

The newspaper says he killed me.So why does that feel wrong?

• • • •

The next day, school drags on more than usual. I can’t focus on Henry Jamesor rational functions when my alleged murderer just moved into theneighborhood.

My walk home is the vulnerable spot in my routine, because Meetu’s not withme. So of course that’s when Connor Haines ambushes me.

He’s sitting on the concrete Sabal Palms sign outside the trailer park. Hissycophant friend Eddie stands by his side.

A spike of fear travels through my body.“What’s up, Jimmy,” he calls.I don’t bother correcting him. I was “Jimmy” when he met me—it was only

four years ago that I decided “Jamie” fit better. More importantly, Connor doesn’tcare.

I consider my options. I could turn around. Go inside the Steak ’n Shake oneblock down and wait him out. Or I could run and try to reach my trailer ahead ofhim, and hide out there. But if I wanted to hide, my hair would be shorter and mynails wouldn’t be red. It may cost me, but I won’t start running or hiding now.

They fall in step with me as I pass the sign.“Where’s your dress, Jimmy?” Eddie asks.Eddie is smaller than I am. I’m not a fighter, though, and he can be brave

knowing he’s got Connor backing his play.“It was too ugly for me, so I gave it to Connor’s mom.”I barely see Connor’s fist before it hits my face. I stagger sideways, tasting

blood.“Why you gotta be such a freak, Jimmy?” Connor asks. “I don’t care if you

like guys, but why you gotta act like a girl?”My clothes aren’t particularly girlish today: blue jeans and a teal polo. And I’m

neither a gay boy nor a trans girl. Trying to explain is a losing game, though, so Ijust try to push past.

Eddie’s fist lands in my stomach, driving the air out of me.Connor grabs my arm. “Don’t walk away when we’re talking to you, Jimmy.

It’s rude. A real lady would know better.”“What’s going on, fellas?”Benjamin’s standing a dozen feet away. His arms are crossed, his sleeves barely

making it halfway down his bulging biceps.“We’re just talking to our friend,” Connor says.

“You’ve talked enough. Unless you want me to talk too.”Connor releases my arm and backs away. “See you at school tomorrow,

Jimmy,” he sneers.“Yeah,” Eddie adds. “Don’t forget to wear your dress.”I watch them walk away. I understand what they’re saying—sooner or later

they’ll find me when I have nobody to protect me.“You’re bleeding,” Benjamin says. “Is your mom home?”“She’s at work.”I probably shouldn’t say that to the convicted murderer.“Why don’t you let me help you?”My instinct is to mumble some excuse, but I don’t believe he’s a murderer.

Anyway, I want to know how he fit into my old life and why everybody thoughthe killed me, so I follow him.

His trailer’s one of the first ones, and I see his windows are open. Probablyhow he noticed Connor and Eddie harassing me.

I’ve seen dumpier trailers, but not often.The previous tenant had been a hoarder. When she died in her trailer last year,

Alicia and her mom had to clean the place out, and I helped. The place had beenfull of arts and crafts junk and half-eaten containers of food. We’d worn masks,and no amount of vacuuming and Lysol had made it tolerable inside.

Just goes to show there’s always somebody desperate enough to settle foranything.

I don’t smell the death smell anymore—what I smell is about a half dozenPlug-Ins, all churning away at once. I guess that’s an improvement.

Benjamin and his family don’t have much furniture. A worn futon backs upagainst one wall of the living room, and a rickety table leans awkwardly under thekitchen light. A makeshift bookshelf sags with paperbacks and magazines. Iwonder if they’re his wife’s—girlfriend’s?—and then my face heats up. I’m thelast person who should be making assumptions.

His toddler lies in a playpen, her thumb in her mouth, snoring gently. I almostcomment on him leaving her unsupervised—then I remember that he did it tosave my judgmental ass from getting beaten even worse.

“I’ll grab some cotton and peroxide. They split your lip.”I follow him to the table and sit on the edge of a vinyl chair. I will myself to

keep still as he approaches, dripping cotton in hand. He’s a heavy breather, andhis thick fingers smell like peanut butter. Lucky I’m not allergic. This time.

My shoulder blades tingle as he sits across from me and begins dabbing at the

blood on my face. His fingers are rough but his touch is gentle.“Some people are just driven to destroy what they don’t understand,” he says.

He gets up and runs a washcloth under the tap. “Hold this against your lip untilthe bleeding stops.”

I feel silly having him take care of me; I can clean a cut for myself. It’s not likeI haven’t been beat up before.

“Anyway,” he adds, “I’m Benjamin.”“Yeah,” I blurt out. Crap.He glances up. “You know?”“Sorry. My best friend’s mom manages this place.”“What else do you know?”I swallow, and it’s all the confirmation he needs.He sighs.“I’m so sorry,” I say. “Please don’t tell? She wasn’t supposed to say anything

to me, but that’s the kind of thing that’s hard to keep to yourself.”Benjamin just grunts and sweeps up the bloody cotton balls.“Anyway,” I add, “I know you’re not guilty.”He raises his eyebrows. “You what now?”I study my fingers. “I can tell things about people.”He snorts.I shrug. “Anyway, I’m Jamie.”“Short for James?”“No. Short for Jamie.”“Well, I’m glad to meet you, Jamie.”I press the rag to my lip for a couple minutes, and then, to break the silence, I

ask, “Who did do it?”He frowns. “Not something I wanna go into, kid.”“Sorry.”“It’s funny though. You remind me of her. You look like you could be her kid.

I mean, if she’d ever had one.” Another awkward moment passes, and he clearshis throat. “So the landlady’s kid . . .”

“Yeah?”“I saw the two of you sitting together. The way you look at her. She your

girlfriend?”“We’re just friends.”“Ah.”“We can be friends, you know. You can just be friends with people you’re—

you can be friends with people without dating them.”“’Course you can.”I bite my lip, and flinch when I catch the split part. “Anyway, I don’t think she

sees me that way.”“Fair enough.”“Right.”“Right.” He gets up from the table and begins washing some dishes while I

continue putting pressure on my lip.My mind wanders, trying to stitch together the bits of my last life that I

remember. Being a little girl. Going to college. Dropping out to get married.And I remember my husband turning mean. I remember going to our best man

over and over again for advice—the only man Larry trusted me with. I rememberdeciding that I had to leave. I remember Larry—

Oh God. Larry did it. Larry was the killer.Benjamin knocks a glass off the counter. He’s not paying attention to the glass,

though. He’s staring at me, and he looks like he’s glanced into hell itself.Did I say that out loud?“How do you know about him?”Oops. Apparently I did. “Uh, lucky guess?”“Right.” He takes the rag from my hand, ignoring the still-running water.

“Well, the bleeding’s pretty much stopped now. It was good to meet you. You’dprobably best be getting on home now.”

He doesn’t seem to breathe at all as he talks, and before I fully realize whathappens I am escorted out the door.

“You take care, now,” he says, once I’m safely outside.“Thanks, Benjamin,” I say, but the door closes before the last syllable leaves

my mouth.Making my way home, I feel like I can hear all my past selves in my head, and

they’re all furious. That bastard Larry killed me, and he got away with it.I want to punch something. I want to scream. I want to take my notebook out

of my backpack and rip out every sheet of paper and crumple each one up. I wantto break some pencils. I want to scream.

I want to cry.What does it say about me if I was murdered and nobody cared enough to find

out who really did it? They just found the handiest fall guy to pin it on and wenton with their lives, and Larry Dearborn lived happily ever after.

I run through imaginary confrontations with Larry as I walk up to my trailer.

I’ve never been violent—not in any of the lives I can recall—but right now I wishI had the talent for it.

Meetu wants to play when I open up the door—Meetu always wants to play.“Not now,” I say, snapping the leash onto her collar. She understands lots ofthings, but “Not now” isn’t one of them. Still, she’s happy enough to go out forher walk.

I daydream about running into Connor and Eddie again while I’m out withMeetu. See how they like being threatened. Then I play out the rest of thatscenario in my head—Meetu’s fifty-eight pounds of love, but all anybody seeswhen they look at her is a scary, vicious killer dog. I imagine how people wouldreact to another story about a pit bull attack. I imagine them calling for her to bedestroyed.

No, if I do see those guys, I’ll keep a tight grip on Meetu’s leash, even ifthey’re messing with me, because I don’t want to lose her.

That’s what pisses me off—me and Janie and the other voices in my head. TheConnors and the Larrys of the world always get away with the things they do.

There must be some way to make Larry pay. He doesn’t know I exist. Has noidea that I know what he did. That I keep remembering more and more with eachstep I take.

He’ll never see me coming.“Watch your back, Larry,” I murmur. “I’m coming for you.”Meetu thumps my knees with her tail. She doesn’t know what I’m talking

about, but she’s game. She’s always game.

• • • •

“I’m telling you, he didn’t do it!”Alicia snorts. “You know this how? Because he told you?”We’re sitting on her bed. I avoid her eyes by focusing on her posters. Harley

Quinn. Black Widow. Imperator Furiosa.Alicia is into kick-ass women. I’m into her—something I’m better off keeping

to myself.“Listen,” I say, “I’m pretty good at reading people. I believe him. He’s already

done his time, so he has no real reason to lie.”“His reason is to get people like you to trust him. Jesus, you went into his

trailer?”“I was bleeding.”

“So?”I pull my legs under me and face her. “Listen, enough people think I’m a flake.

That both of us are. I’ve always had your back. Will you just go with me on this?”She chews her lip. After a moment she sighs and says, “I’m not sure what you

want me to do.”“You’ve got a computer. Do a search for this Dearborn guy. See what you can

find out about him.”“What for?”I smooth a wrinkle on her bedspread. Any answer would be impossible to

explain. “I don’t know yet.”She rolls her eyes, but she pulls her laptop off the nightstand and begins

clicking around. For several minutes she makes random frustrated sounds as sherepeats the same research I already did at the library. I don’t want to admit to howmuch I’ve already obsessed about this, so I let her retrace my steps.

Finally she chuckles ruefully. “Good luck.”“What?”“Larry Dearborn is the Dearborn in Dearborn Automotive. He owns that huge

car lot out on Auburndale Highway. The football stadium at Lakeside High isnamed after him. He’s loaded.”

I frown. So he’s rich, too. Must be nice to literally get away with murder.“Let’s go see him,” I say.She scowls. “And do what?”“We can pretend one of us is buying a car.”“Look, if you’re right, then Dearborn’s the dangerous one.”“He was dangerous forty years ago.”She shakes her head.I try a different tack. “You’re always saying you’re bored here, surrounded by

people who aren’t going anywhere. You always say you want to do somethingadventurous, like join the Air Force. Well fine: let’s have an adventure. I’m notsaying to confront him or anything. I just want to see my—I just want to see JanieDearborn’s killer with my own eyes. He won’t know that we know, so there’s noreason to be afraid of him.”

She narrows her eyes. Before she can raise an objection, I spit out, “Whatwould Furiosa do?”

She makes a face. “I’m not twelve, Jamie.”“Sorry.” I get up from her bed.“Where are you going?”

“I’ll go on my own,” I say. “I’ll take the bus.”“Don’t,” she says. “I think you’re nuts, but I’ll drive.”We tell her mom we’re going to the library and breeze out before she can

question us. Once on the road, we roll down the windows and turn north on stateroad seventeen. Alicia’s mom’s car is a beat up Saturn station wagon that’s almostold enough to go to bars. It’s sticky and hot and I almost think I should’ve goneby bus, except then I would have been alone.

The car salesmen close in like hyenas when we park, and immediately loseinterest when we step out. I guess without an adult with us, they figure we’re notcar shopping.

I lead the way into an over-cooled lobby and cast about until I find areceptionist’s desk.

“Hi,” I say to the lady on the other side. “Is Mr. Dearborn here by any chance?”She inclines her head. “And you are?”“We are, uh . . .”“We go to Lakeside High School,” Alicia blurts out. “And, uh, we’re on the

yearbook staff. And since Mr. Dearborn’s been so generous to our school in thepast, we were wondering if he maybe wanted to take out a page in this year’sedition.”

I fight the urge to stare at Alicia. We actually are in yearbook, but at PickensHigh, not at Lakeside. They’ve been leaning on us to sell advertising, and the lastthing I’ve wanted to do is cold call on a bunch of local businesses so they can alltreat me like some kind of freak. So here we are instead doing it for an entirelydifferent high school.

I have to give her credit, though—that was some quick thinking.The receptionist’s expression softens. “Ah, yes. Well, he doesn’t really come in

to the showroom anymore, but you’re right, he might want to sponsor a page.”She takes a random salesperson’s card from a holder on the counter, turns it over,and writes something on the back. “You can visit him here. I’m sure he’d bethrilled to have visitors from Lakeside.”

Something about the way she said that feels off to me, but I can’t quite figureit out until twenty minutes later, when Alicia pulls up in front of the address onthe card: Landmark Hospice.

“What’s a hospice?” Alicia asks. “Isn’t that like a cheap hotel forbackpackers?”

“No, it’s a place where people go to die.”“Oh.”

We park for several minutes under the shade of an oak tree, until Alicia asks,“Can we go home now?”

I nod dully, staring out the window.It’s all so unfair. Larry Dearborn killed his wife—killed me—and he’ll never

face judgment for it. Never spend a day in prison. He made a ton of money, livedout his life, and got to the end without any consequences. Even if I found someway to prove he did it, nobody would prosecute him. Why bother?

• • • •

The riverbed where the news said my body was discovered is just over a mileaway. I take Meetu out after school a couple days later and wander around. Meeturuns back and forth between the creek and me, getting all muddy and messy.

I guess I have this idea that Meetu might dig up some bit of evidence, or I’llremember something about how I died that would lead me to discover something.Meetu’s not that kind of dog, though, and anyway the police already went overthis area when they found the body. What could I hope to uncover all thesedecades later?

And what would I do with it if I found it?I don’t actually have any memories of this place. I was probably dead or

unconscious before Larry ever brought me here. I do remember more and moreabout our relationship. How his dark moods got darker and more frequent andhow even getting promotions at work only made him happy for a day before he’dbrood again. I remember the only place I felt safe being with his buddy Benjamin,and I remember Benjamin convincing me I needed to leave, and helping me pack.I remember taking my suitcases to his house one night, and trying to figure outwhere to go next.

I remember Larry showing up at Benjamin’s place, enraged, and that’s aboutall I remember. He must have killed me there, leaving plenty of evidence pointingat Benjamin.

Benjamin.In all of my fury at Larry killing me and getting to live out his life without ever

paying for his crime, I’ve hardly given thought to the man who did pay for it. I’vebeen so focused on the unfairness of my death that I haven’t thought about theunfairness of his life. I can’t do anything about Larry, but can I do something forBenjamin?

I call Meetu to me and we start to walk back home. About halfway there,

Alicia’s Saturn shows up and pulls off the road on the grassy shoulder.“I had a feeling you might have gone out this way. You’re obsessed, Jamie. I’m

worried about you.”She helps me get Meetu into the back of the station wagon. There’s one thing

to be said about having a piece of crap car—you don’t much care if it gets dirtyanymore.

“I think I have an idea for how to clear Benjamin’s record,” I say.She doesn’t take her eyes off the road. “Oh?”“Yeah. Can I borrow a dress?”

• • • •

Alicia doesn’t wear dresses much, and her fashion style is not quite what I’mlooking for. She is close to my size, though, and she’s willing to help, whichcounts for a lot.

She opens up her laptop and brings up a picture of Janie Dearborn—of herand Larry in better times. She’s wearing a long denim skirt and a turtleneck andthrowing her head back and laughing. I think I can remember that day.

“Freaky,” Alicia murmurs. “She could be your older sister.”“Do you have anything like what she’s wearing here?”“Janie seems like the wholesome type. That’s not me.”“Do you have anything that might be kind of close?”She frowns, then straightens. “Actually, I might.”She heads not for her closet, but for the chest at the foot of her bed. She digs

inside and tugs out a balled up wad of cloth.“It’s from my Aunt Hilda,” she says, as if that explains everything.She unrolls the bundle on her bed. It turns out to be a brown dress, with little

pink flowers and ivory accents. It’s nothing like the outfit in the news photo, but Iunderstand why Alicia picked it. It’s equal parts Brady Bunch and Sundaybrunch.

“My aunt doesn’t really get me,” she says.“No kidding.”“Mom made me wear it last time Aunt Hilda visited and then I dumped it here

and haven’t thought about it again.” She holds the dress up to my shoulders andcocks her head appraisingly.

I quirk my lip. “It’s . . . really ugly.”Alicia giggles. “You asked for a dress. You didn’t say it had to look good.”

I go to her bathroom to try it on. I stare at the mirror, trying to form my ownopinion before I ask Alicia for hers. I worried that the dress was going to bulgeand gap in the wrong places, but it’s a modest cut, so it pretty much works.

I remember looking like this before. It looks like me in the mirror. Just adifferent me.

I try to imagine how Connor Haines would react if he ran into me like this. Heand Eddie would probably go berserk.

Well, fuck them. They don’t get a vote.I pull the door open and cross the hall back into Alicia’s room. She paces all

the way around me, nodding slowly.“Now let’s add some makeup,” she says.When I’ve worn makeup before, I’ve always gone for subtle. Some

foundation, a touch of eyeliner. Not trying to look like I have makeup on. Aftersome false starts, Alicia and I manage to get a more blatantly feminine style thatI’m satisfied with.

“Stand up,” she says. “Let me see.”I stand by her dresser, suddenly self-conscious.She raises her eyebrows. “I still hate that dress, but damn, you—” She bites

her lip. “You’re really pretty.”My neck and face heat at that. I know she doesn’t mean . . . I know she’s just

trying to build me up. It’s nice to imagine that she’s serious, though.The moment is interrupted by her mom coming home. When I see her car

pulling into the gravel driveway outside, I want to grab my own clothes and hidein her bathroom until the danger passes. But I steel myself and stay right where Iam. I’ve always figured that once you start hiding, it’s hard to stop.

Alicia makes eye contact as the front door clicks unlocked, and I wonder ifwhat I’m thinking is plastered all over my face.

“I’m home,” her mom calls out, as if that weren’t obvious.A moment later she passes by the open door. “Oh, hey, I didn’t realize you had

somebody—” She blinks a couple times. “Oh. Hi, Jamie. Alicia, can I talk toyou?”

Alicia follows her to the master bedroom and closes the door. I pad out to thehallway in my bare feet. Sound carries pretty clearly through the thin walls of atrailer, and I don’t have to put my ear up to the door or anything to listen to theirconversation, even though her mom is obviously trying to keep it down.

“Honey, I know you like girls and not boys, and I know Jamie’s confusedabout his gender anyway, but I’m not comfortable with a boy playing dress-up in

your bedroom.”“Jamie’s not confused about a thing,” Alicia replies. “And anyway, they

changed in the bathroom.”I step back into her room and close the door behind me, because I really don’t

want to hear the rest. I don’t want to hear Alicia reassure her mom that shedoesn’t think of me “that way.” I don’t want to hear Alicia’s mom—who hasalways been cool to me—say something I won’t be able to forgive.

Some people have a hard time adjusting to me—I get that. I don’t care whattheir process of working things out looks like if in the end they treat me like aperson. But I don’t want to test that resolution by knowing too much.

Alicia doesn’t ask me to leave when she returns; she doesn’t talk about theconversation at all. I don’t either. I figure everything’s fine until somebody tellsme otherwise.

“We ought to buy you some shoes to go with that, instead of those flip-flops. Icould drive you to the mall in Sebring. It would be fun.”

I meet her eyes, wondering where she’s coming from. Alicia’s not usually intoshopping.

“It would,” I agree. “But I don’t think anybody’s going to be looking at myshoes where I’m going. Some other time?”

She smiles. “Definitely.” She raises both her eyebrows. “You gonna tell mewhat your plan is?”

If I did, I’d have to explain all sorts of things I’m not ready to. I shake myhead. “You might try to talk me out of it.”

She chews her lip; I can’t tell if she’s suspicious or hurt.“I really appreciate your help,” I say. When she doesn’t reply, I add, “I better

get on with this.”She finally meets my eye, and pulls me into a hug. “Be careful, whatever

you’re planning.”“I will,” I say, and then I head out the door.I should have asked for a ride—it would make things easier than taking public

transportation dressed like this. But riding the bus will give me time to get used tothe way I’m presenting.

All the way to Larry’s street, I keep waiting for somebody to say or dosomething either because they’ve clocked me or because they think I am a girl. Iwish I’d brought my ear buds, so I could block out the sounds of traffic andrandom conversation going on around me. That’s stupid, though—what it wouldactually do is make me less likely to hear trouble coming.

Somehow I manage both legs of the ride and the transfer between.Everybody’s too wrapped up in their own phones and music and worries tobother me.

At the hospice, I use the same story at the front desk that we used at thedealership. They give me directions to his room, and I walk past a courtyardgarden, a nurse’s station, and about a dozen doors with patient names written nextto them in dry-erase ink.

I almost pass the door with Larry’s name. I turn abruptly when I spot it, tryingto project confidence, like I’ve been here before. I quietly close the door as Ienter, and then blink as my eyes adjust to the darkness inside.

The curtains are drawn to block the low-hanging sun. Apart from the dim lightslipping around the edges, the only illumination comes from a flat-screentelevision on the wall, bathing the room in a blueish glow. Flowers on a dressercast sinister shadows that move with every flicker of the screen. In the center ofthe room, an oversized hospital bed dominates the space, undercutting thesemblance of ordinary life somebody went through a lot of effort to create withthe decor.

Larry lies on the bed, his head lolling to the side. I take in my first sight of himthis lifetime. In my memories, he is a giant, angry and frightening, out of control.He appears so weak and emaciated here that I can almost pity him—until I thinkabout the lives he’s destroyed. Mine. Benjamin’s. Who else? Somebody like Larryprobably didn’t stop at one victim.

I walk up to the edge of the bed. I could take my revenge right now; nobodycould stop me. I don’t think it would make me feel better, though, and it wouldn’tdo anything for Benjamin.

And I didn’t come here for revenge.A television remote and call device is tethered to his bedsheet with an alligator

clip. I loosen it, turn the sound down, and place it on the floor.“Larry,” I call out.He makes a gross snot-clearing sound, but doesn’t wake up.“Larry!”He blinks awake and looks at me, wild-eyed.“Who the hell are you?” he croaks, scratchy and barely intelligible. More

memories come flooding back—Larry suspicious, Larry dismissive, Larrybelligerent. I feel this weird contrast, like a double-exposed photograph. Part ofme remembers that I’m supposed to be scared when Larry’s voice takes thisdangerous tone, but he’s not scaring anyone anymore.

“You don’t remember me, Larry? I’m hurt. I remember you.”“I’ve never met you in my life,” he says, and starts patting around where his

controller used to be.“I remember that night at Peace Creek. You, me, and Benjamin. I bet he

remembers it, too.”He pauses in his search and stares at me again. Shaking his head, he gasps.

“You can’t be.”I stand over the bed. “Look at me.”“Janie,” he whispers. His gaze flicks between me and the edge of his bed.

Probably still looking for his call button. Then he reaches for something on theother side of him, which I hadn’t noticed before. For a moment I think it’s somekind of back-up call device and my heart seizes, but it doesn’t have a speaker oranything that appears to be a microphone.

I pluck the object out of his reach; it looks like some kind of self-dosingpainkiller.

“Nuh uh, Larry. I’m talking to you. It wouldn’t be very polite of you to checkout.”

“You’re dead,” he croaks.“That’s right. Soon you will be, too, and I’ll be waiting for you.”He stiffens, and I have this momentary worry that I will inadvertently cause a

fatal heart attack or something right here.I lean in a little closer. “I promise you it won’t be pleasant. You let an innocent

man pay the price for my death, but there’ll be nobody to pay for you in theafterlife.”

This seems to spark some fight back into him. “Benjamin wasn’t innocent! Hebetrayed me! He had an affair with you!”

“Benjamin and I never had an affair,” I say. I’m pretty sure that’s true. “Hetried to convince me to go back to you on the day you killed me.” That part’sdefinitely not true.

He clutches the bed railing. “What are you talking about?”“I hitched a ride to the Greyhound station in Winter Haven, because I was

afraid of you, Larry. Then I had second thoughts, so I called Benjamin from apayphone. He told me you were a good man, that you were just going through ahard time. He told me I should give you another chance, and he drove all the wayout there to bring me back.”

Larry sinks back in the bed and his face seems to cloud over.“Listen to me!” I command. Then I remember that there are all sorts of nurses

and other patients around, and lower my voice. “He wasn’t taking me away fromyou. He was bringing me back.”

Larry moans, his expression stricken.“He was your friend right up until the end, and you took his life for it, as

surely as you took mine. He deserved better, Larry. So did I.”He grips my wrist; his skin is soft as tissue paper, but his grip is hard and a

little painful. “You look so beautiful, Janie. Please don’t leave me again!”“I can’t stay. My time is past, and you can’t give me back what you took from

me.” I glare, and he tries to edge back from me. “But you can give Benjamin backsome of what you took from him. You can talk to the police and recant. Tell themBenjamin didn’t kill me. Tell them, Larry, or you’ll see me every night in hell. I’llmake you sorry. Believe me.”

He raises a hand in front of his face. “Stop! I’ll tell them! Please, Janie!”I take the phone from the bedside table and dial. As soon as I navigate my way

to a human being, I pass the handset over.“Don’t let me down,” I say, “I’m watching you.”He’s sobbing as I give it to him, but he’s coherent enough once he starts

talking. When he does, I make my way from the room before anybody can showup and start asking me awkward questions.

• • • •

I’m walking Meetu a week later when I pass Benjamin out in front of histrailer with his little girl, planting flowers, of all things. He waves, and I waveback before realizing he’s actually calling me over.

“Damnedest thing happened,” he says, getting up and brushing his hands onhis jeans. “I got a call from my parole officer today. Larry Dearborn recanted. Oneof those deathbed confession things. They say that’s how a lot of falseconvictions are overturned.”

I do my best to feign surprise. “That’s terrific!”Meetu’s tail thumps like Larry’s a long lost friend.“Yeah,” he says. He pets Meetu, but his eyes stay on me. Looking hard, like

he’s trying to peer into me.I’m not sure what to do, so I just shrug and say, “I’m glad you’re finally

getting some justice.” The words feel stupid as they leave my mouth. He alreadyserved the sentence for this crime, and nothing can give that back to him.

As if he’s read my mind, Benjamin says, “It’ll make it easier to find work. Lot

of people wouldn’t look beyond that one line on a job application, before. Oncepeople get a word for you—like convict—they think that word is all there is toknow.”

I nod.His little girl makes mud pies in the dirt, and I think about how clearing her

father’s name will affect her future.“I could watch her for you,” I blurt out. “While you look for work.” My face

heats up. He may treat me like a person, but that doesn’t mean he wants mewatching his kid.

“That would be great.”I scratch Meetu, trying to act like it’s no big deal.“So.” He nods toward Alicia’s trailer. “You gonna ask that girl out? Don’t tell

me you’re not interested.”“I’m . . . not uninterested.” I take a slow breath. “I guess I’m afraid.”“Afraid she sees you different from how you see yourself.”I sag. “Yes.”“I hear you,” he says. “But if you don’t take a chance on somebody

disappointing you, you never give them a chance to surprise you either.”When I don’t respond, he adds, “Will you stop being her friend if she says

no?”I shake my head.“Then there’s no sense wanting something and not at least trying.”I glance at the trailer. At the rainbow blinds that mark her bedroom window.

“Maybe I will.”He claps a hand on my shoulder. “Good luck.”It feels more like a command than anything else, and I take a couple automatic

steps toward her trailer. By the time my brain figures out what my feet have done,it seems more awkward to stop than to keep going.

Anyway, Benjamin’s right. He sees right through me, the same way I know thereal him.

The same way Alicia has always seen the real me, I realize. My pace picks up abit, and Meetu responds by bounding forward, dragging me along, likeeverybody’s figured out my destination before me.

She comes to the door as soon as I knock. “Hey,” she says.“You doing anything?”She shrugs. “Watching TV.”“Wanna come for a walk?”

“Sure,” she says, stepping out onto the deck. “Did something happen? Issomething wrong?”

“Nope,” I say, leading her down the steps. “Nothing’s wrong at all.”We head down the street, quiet, like we don’t need to babble to fill the space

between us. To anybody watching us, we probably look like we’re already acouple. Maybe by the time we come back, we will be. Maybe we won’t.

Either way, we’ll be okay.

©2018 by José Pablo Iriarte.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

José Pablo Iriarte is that rarest of all things–a native Floridian. He has worked as an editor, acomputer programmer, a government researcher, a tutor to the rich and/or famous, a pizzadelivery guy, a summer camp counselor, and as a teacher. His latest publication is from BookSmugglers Publishing: a short story called “Duck Duck God.” His website is Labyrinth Rat.

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Divine MadnessRoger Zelazny | 2200 words

“. . . I is this ?hearers wounded-wonder like stand them makes and starswandering the conjures sorrow of phrase Whose . . .”

• • • •

He blew smoke through the cigarette and it grew longer.He glanced at the clock and realized that its hands were moving backwards.The clock told him it was 10:33, going on 10:32 in the p.m.Then came the thing like despair, for he knew there was not a thing he could

do about it. He was trapped, moving in reverse through the sequence of actionspast. Somehow, he had missed the warning.

Usually, there was a prism-effect, a flash of pink static, a drowsiness, then amoment of heightened perception . . .

He turned the pages, from left to right, his eyes retracing their path back alongthe lines.

“?emphasis an such bears grief whose he is What”Helpless, there behind his eyes, he watched his body perform.The cigarette had reached its full length. He clicked on the lighter, which

sucked away its glowing point, and then he shook the cigarette back into the pack.He yawned in reverse: first an exhalation, then an inhalation.It wasn’t real—the doctor had told him. It was grief and epilepsy, meeting to

form an unusual syndrome.He’d already had the seizure. The dialantin wasn’t helping. This was a post-

traumatic locomotor hallucination, elicited by anxiety, precipitated by the attack.But he did not believe it, could not believe it—not after twenty minutes had

gone by, in the other direction—not after he had placed the book upon thereading stand, stood, walked backward across the room to his closet, hung up hisrobe, redressed himself in the same shirts and slacks he had worn all day, backedover to the bar and regurgitated a Martini, sip by cooling sip, until the glass wasfilled to the brim and not a drop spilled.

There was an impending taste of olive, and then everything was changedagain.

The second-hand was sweeping around his wrist-watch in the properdirection.

The time was 10:07.He felt free to move as he wished.He redrank his Martini.Now, if he would be true to the pattern, he would change into his robe and try

to read. Instead, he mixed another drink.Now the sequence would not occur.Now the things would not happen as he thought they had happened, and un-

happened.Now everything was different.All of which went to prove it had all been an hallucination.Even the notion that it had taken twenty-six minutes each way was an

attempted rationalization.Nothing had happened.. . . Shouldn’t be drinking, he decided. It might bring on a seizure.He laughed.Crazy, though, the whole thing . . .Remembering, he drank.

• • • •

In the morning, he skipped breakfast, as usual, noted that it would soon stopbeing morning, took two aspirins, a lukewarm shower, a cup of coffee, and awalk.

The park, the fountain, the children with their boats, the grass, the pond, hehated them; and the morning, and the sunlight, and the blue moats around thetowering clouds.

Hating, he sat there. And remembering.If he was on the verge of a crackup, he decided, then the thing he wanted most

was to plunge ahead into it, not to totter halfway out, halfway in.He remembered why.But it was clear, so clear, the morning, and everything crisp and distinct and

burning with the green fires of spring, there in the sign of the Ram, April.He watched the winds pile up the remains of winter against the far gray fence,

and he saw them push the boats across the pond, to come to rest in shallow mudthe children tracked.

The fountain jetted its cold umbrella above the green-tinged copper dolphins.The sun ignited it whenever he moved his head. The wind rumpled it.

Clustered on the concrete, birds pecked at part of a candy bar stuck to a redwrapper.

Kites swayed on their tails, nosed downward, rose again, as youngsters tuggedat invisible strings. Telephone lines were tangled with wooden frames and tornpaper, like broken G clefs and smeared glissandos.

He hated the telephone lines, the kites, the children, the birds.Most of all, though, he hated himself.

• • • •

How does a man undo that which has been done? He doesn’t. There is no wayunder the sun. He may suffer, remember, repeat, curse, or forget. Nothing else.The past, in this sense, is inevitable.

A woman walked past. He did not look up in time to see her face, but thedusky blonde fall of her hair to her collar and the swell of her sure, sheer-nettedlegs below the black hem of her coat and above the matching click of her heelsheigh-ho, stopped his breath behind his stomach and snared his eyes in thewizard-weft of her walking and her posture and some more, like a rhyme to thelast of his thoughts.

• • • •

He half-rose from the bench when the pink static struck his eyeballs, and thefountain became a volcano spouting rainbows.

The world was frozen and served up to him under a glass.. . . The woman passed back before him and he looked down too soon to see

her face.The hell was beginning once more, he realized, as the backward-flying birds

passed before.He gave himself up to it. Let it keep him until he broke, until he was all used

up and there was nothing left.He waited, there on the bench, watching the slivey toves be brillig, as the

fountain sucked its waters back within itself, drawing them up in a great arcabove the unmoving dolphins, and the boats raced backward over the pond, andthe fence divested itself of stray scraps of paper, as the birds replaced the candybar within the red wrapper, bit by crunchy bit.

His thoughts only were inviolate, his body belonged to the retreating tide.

Eventually, he rose and strolled backwards out of the park.On the street a boy backed past him, unwhistling snatches of a popular song.He backed up the stairs to his apartment, his hangover growing worse again,

undrank his coffee, unshowered, unswallowed his aspirins, and got into bed,feeling awful.

Let this be it, he decided.A faintly remembered nightmare ran in reverse though his mind, giving it an

undeserved happy ending.

• • • •

It was dark when he awakened.He was very drunk.He backed over to the bar and began spitting out his drinks, one by one into

the same glass he had used the night before, and pouring them from the glassback into the bottles again. Separating the gin and vermouth was no trick at all.The liquids leapt into the air as he held the uncorked bottles above the bar.

And he grew less and less drunk as this went on.Then he stood before an early Martini and it was 10:07 in the p.m.There, within the hallucination, he wondered about another hallucination.Would time loop-the-loop, forward and then backward again, through his

previous seizure?No.It was as though it had not happened, had never been.He continued on back through the evening, undoing things.He raised the telephone, said “good-bye,” untold Murray that he would not be

coming to work again tomorrow, listened a moment, recradled the phone, andlooked at it as it rang.

The sun came up in the west and people were backing their cars to work.He read the weather report and the headlines, folded the evening paper and

placed it out in the hall.It was the longest seizure he had ever had, but he did not really care.He settled himself down within it and watched as the day unwound itself back

to morning.His hangover returned as the day grew smaller, and it was terrible when he got

into bed again.

• • • •

When he awakened the previous evening the drunkenness was high upon himagain. Two of the bottles he refilled, recorked, resealed. He knew he would takethem to the liquor store soon and get his money back.

As he sat there that day, his mouth uncursing and undrinking and his eyesunreading, he knew that new cars were being shipped back to Detroit anddisassembled, that corpses were awakening into their death-throes, and thatpriests the world over were saying black mass, unknowing.

He wanted to chuckle, but he could not tell his mouth to do it.He unsmoked two and a half packs of cigarettes.Then came another hangover and he went to bed. Later, the sun set in the east.

• • • •

Time’s winged chariot fled before him as he opened the door and said “good-bye” to his comforters and they came in and sat down and told him not to grieveovermuch.

And he wept without tears as he realized what was to come.Despite his madness, he hurt.. . . Hurt, as the days rolled backward.. . . Backward, inexorably.. . . Inexorably, until he knew the time was near at hand.He gnashed the teeth of his mind.Great was his grief and his hate and his love.

• • • •

He was wearing his black suit and undrinking drink after drink, whilesomewhere the men were scraping the clay back onto the shovels which would beused to undig the grave.

He backed his car to the funeral parlor, parked it, and climbed into thelimousine.

They backed all the way to the graveyard.He stood among his friends and listened to the preacher.“.dust to dust; ashes to Ashes,” the man said, which is pretty much the same

whichever way you say it.The casket was taken back to the hearse and returned to the funeral parlor.

He sat through the service and went home and unshaved and unbrushed histeeth and went to bed.

He awakened and dressed again in black and returned to the parlor.The flowers were all back in place.Solemn-faced friends unsigned the Sympathy Book and unshook his hand.Then they went inside to sit awhile and stare at the closed casket. Then they

left, until he was alone with the funeral director.Then he was alone with himself.The tears ran up his cheeks.His shirt and suit were crisp and unwrinkled again.He backed home, undressed, uncombed his hair. The day collapsed around

him into morning, and he returned to bed to unsleep another night.

• • • •

The previous evening, when he awakened, he realized where he was headed.Twice, he exerted all of his will power in an attempt to interrupt the sequence

of events. He failed.He wanted to die. If he had killed himself that day, he would not be headed

back toward it now.There were tears within his mind as he realized the past which lay less than

twenty-four hours before him.The past stalked him that day as he unnegotiated the purchase of the casket,

the vault, the accessories.Then he headed home into the biggest hangover of all and slept until he was

awakened to undrink drink after drink and then return to the morgue and comeback in time to hang up the telephone on that call, that call which had come tobreak . . .

. . . The silence of his anger with its ringing.She was dead.She was lying somewhere in the fragments of her car on Interstate 90 now.As he paced, unsmoking, he knew she was lying there bleeding.. . . Then dying, after that crash at eighty miles an hour.. . . Then alive?Then re-formed, along with the car, and alive again, arisen? Even now backing

home at terrible speed, to re-slam the door on their final argument? To unscreamat him and to be unscreamed at?

He cried out within his mind. He wrung the hands of his spirit.It couldn’t stop at this point. No. Not now.All his grief and his love and his self-hate had brought him back this far, this

near to the moment . . .It couldn’t end now.After a time, he moved to the living room, his legs pacing, his lips cursing,

himself waiting.The door slammed open.She stared at him, her mascara smeared, tears upon her cheeks.“!hell to go Then,” he said.“!going I’m,” she said.She stepped back inside, closed the door.She hung her coat hurriedly in the hall closet.“.it about feel you way the that’s If,” he said shrugging.“!yourself but anybody about care don’t You,” she said.“!child a like behaving You’re,” he said.“!sorry you’re say least at could You”Her eyes flashed like emeralds through the pink static, and she was lovely and

alive again. In his mind, he was dancing.The change came.“You could at least say you’re sorry!”“I am,” he said, taking her hand in a grip that she could not break. “How

much, you’ll never know.”

• • • •

“Come here,” and she did.

©1966 by Roger Zelazny. Originally published in Magazine of Horror. Reprinted by permissionof the author.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Roger Joseph Zelazny (May 13, 1937 – June 14, 1995) was an American poet and writer offantasy and science fiction short stories and novels, best known for The Chronicles of Amber.He won the Nebula award three times (out of 14 nominations) and the Hugo award six times(also out of 14 nominations), including two Hugos for novels: the serialized novel …And Call

Me Conrad (1965), subsequently published under the title This Immortal (1966) and then thenovel Lord of Light (1967). — via Wikipedia

The Court MagicianSarah Pinsker | 3160 words

The Boy Who Will Become Court Magician

The boy who will become court magician this time is not a cruel child. Not likethe last one, or the one before her. He never stole money from Blind Carel’s cup,or thrashed a smaller child for sweets, or kicked a dog. This boy is a market rat,which sets him apart from the last several, all from highborn or merchantfamilies. This isn’t about lineage, or even talent.

He watches the street magicians every day, with a hunger in his eyes that sayshe knows he could do what they do. He contemplates the tawdry illusions of themarket square with more intensity than most, until he is marked for us by his owncuriosity. Even then, even when he wanders booth to booth and corner to cornerevery day for a month, begging to learn, we don’t take him.

At our behest, the Great Gretta takes him under her tutelage. She demonstratesthe first sleight of hand. If he’s disappointed to learn that her tricks aren’t magic atall, he hides it well. When he returns to her the next day, it is clear he haspracticed through the night. His eyes are marked by dark circles, his step lags, buthe can do the trick she taught him, can do it as smoothly as she can, thoughadmittedly she is not as Great as she once was.

He learns all her tricks, then begins to develop his own. He’s a smart child.Understands intuitively that the trick is not enough. That the illusion is in what issaid and what isn’t said, the patter, the posture, the distractions with which hedraws the mark’s attention from what he is actually doing. He gives himself aname for the first time, a magician’s name, because he sees how that, too, is partof the act.

When he leaves Gretta to set out on his own, the only space granted to him isnear the abattoir, a corner that had long gone unclaimed. Gretta’s crowd followshim despite the stench and screams. Most of his routine is composed of streetillusions, but there is one that seems impossible. He calls it the Sleeper’s Lament.It takes me five weeks to figure out what he is doing in the trick; that’s when weare sure he is the one.

“Would you like to learn real magic?” I send a palace guard to ask myquestion, dressed in her own clothes rather than her livery.

The boy snorts. “There’s no such thing.”

He has unraveled every illusion of every magician in the marketplace. None ofthem will speak with him because of it. He’s been beaten twice on his way to hisnewly rented room, and robbed neither time. He’s right to be suspicious.

She leans over and whispers the key to the boy’s own trick in his ear, as I badeher do. As she bends, she lets my old diary fall from her pocket, revealing aglimpse of a trick he has never seen before: the Gilded Hand. He hands it back toher, and she thanks him for its safe return.

By now he’s practiced at hiding his emotions, but I know what’s at war withinhim. He doesn’t believe my promise of real magic, but the Gilded Hand hasalready captivated him. He’s already working it out as he pockets the coins thathave accumulated in his dusty cap, places the cap upon his head, and follows herout of the marketplace.

“The palace?” he asks as we all near the servants’ gate. “I thought you werefrom the Guild.”

I whisper to my emissary, and she repeats my words. “The Guild is formagicians who feel the need to compete with each other. The Palace trainsmagicians who feel compelled to compete against themselves.”

It’s perhaps the truest thing I’ll ever tell him. He sees only the guard.

The Young Man Who Will Become Court Magician

Alone except for the visits of his new tutor, he masters the complex illusionshe is shown. He builds the Gilded Hand in our workshop, from only the glimpse Ihad let him see, then an entire Gilded Man of his own devising. Still tricks.

“I was promised real magic,” he complains.“You didn’t believe in it,” his tutor says.“Show me something that seems like real magic, then.”When he utters those words, when he proves his hunger again, he is rewarded.

His hands are bound in the Unbreakable Knot, and he is left to unbind them. Histutor demonstrates the Breath of Flowers, the Freestanding Bridge. He practicesthose until he figures out the illusions underpinning them.

“More trickery,” he says. “Is magic only a trick I haven’t figured out yet?”He has to ask seven times. That is the rule. Only when he has asked for the

seventh time. Only then is he told: If he is taught the true word, he has no choicebut this path. He will not likely return to the streets, nor make a life in the theaters,entertaining the gentle-born. Does he want this?

Others have walked away at this point. They choose the stage, the street, the

accolades they will get for performing tricks that are slightly more than tricks.This young man is hungry. The power is more valuable to him than the money orthe fame. He stays.

“There is a word,” his tutor tells him. “A word that you have the control toutter. It makes problems disappear.”

“Problems?”“The Regent’s problems. There is also a price, which you will pay personally.”“May I ask what it is?”“No.”He pauses, considers. Others have refused at this point. He does not.What is the difference between a court magician and a street or stage magician?

A court magician is a person who makes problems disappear. That is what he istaught.

There is no way to utter the word in practice. I leave it for him on paper, tellhim it is his alone to use now. Remind him again there is a cost. He studies theword for long hours, then tears the page into strips and eats them.

On the day he agrees to wield the word, the Regent touches scepter toshoulder, and personally shows him to his new chambers.

“All of this is yours now,” the Regent says. The Regent’s words are careful, butthe young court magician doesn’t understand why. His new chambers are nicerthan any place he has ever been. Later, when he sees how the Regent lives, he willunderstand that his own rooms are not opulent by the standards of those born toluxury, but at this moment, as he touches velvet for the first time, and silk; as helays his head on his first pillow, atop a feather bed; he thinks for a moment that heis lucky.

He is not.

The Young Man Who Is Court Magician

The first time he says the word, he loses a finger. The smallest finger of his lefthand. “Loses” because it is there, and then it is not. No blood, no pain. Sleight ofhand. His attention had been on the word he was uttering, on the intention behindit, and the problem the Regent had asked him to erase. The problem, as relayed tohim: A woman had taken to chanting names from beyond the castle wall, closeenough to be heard through the Regent’s window. The Court Magicianconcentrates only on erasing the chanting from existence, concentrates on silence,on an absence of litany. He closes his eyes and utters the word.

When he looks at his left hand again, he is surprised to see it has three fingersand a thumb, and smooth skin where the smallest finger should have been, as if ithad never existed.

He marches down to the subterranean room where he’d learned his craft. Thetutors are no longer there, so he asks his questions to the walls.

“Is this to be the cost every time? Is this what you meant? I only have so manyfingers.”

I don’t answer.He returns to his chambers disconcerted, perplexed. He replays the moment

again and again in his mind, unsure if he had made a mistake in his magic, oreven if it worked. He doesn’t sleep that night, running the fingers of his righthand again and again over his left.

The Regent is pleased. The court magician has done his job well.“The chanting has stopped?” the court magician asks, right hand touching left.

He instinctively knows not to tell the Regent the price he paid.“Our sleep was not disturbed last night.”“The woman is gone?”The Regent shrugs. “The problem is gone.”The young man mulls this over when he returns to his own chambers. As I

said, he had not been a cruel child. He is stricken now, unsure of whether hismagic has silenced the woman, or erased her entirely.

While he had tricks to puzzle over, he didn’t notice his isolation, but now hedoes.

“Who was the woman beyond the wall?” he asks the fleeing chambermaid.“What were the names she recited?” he asks the guards at the servants’ gate,

who do not answer. When he tries to walk past them, they let him. He makes itonly a few feet before he turns around again of his own accord.

He roams the palace and its grounds. Discovers hidden passageways,apothecaries, libraries. He spends hours pulling books from shelves, but findsnothing to explain his own situation.

He discovers a kitchen. “Am I a prisoner, then?”The cooks and sculleries stare at him stone-faced until he backs out of the

room.He sits alone in his chambers. Wonders, as all court magicians do after their

first act of true magic, if he should run away. I watch him closely as he goesthrough this motion. I’ve seen it before. He paces, talks to himself, weeps into hissilk pillow. Is this his life now? Is it so wrong to want this? Is the cost worth it?

What happened to the woman?And then, as most do, he decides to stay. He likes the silk pillow, the regular

meals. The woman was a nuisance. It was her fault for disturbing the Regent. Shebrought it on herself. In this way, he unburdens himself enough to sleep.

The Man Who Is Court Magician

By the time he has been at court for ten years, the court magician has lost threefingers, two toes, eight teeth, his favorite shoes, all memories of his mother exceptthe knowledge she existed, his cat, and his household maid. He understands nowwhy nobody in the kitchen would utter a word when he approached them.

The fingers are in some ways the worst part. Without them he struggles to dothe sleight of hand tricks that pass the time, and to wield the tools that allow himto create new illusions for his own amusement. He tries not to think about thehousehold maid, Tria, with whom he had fallen in love. She had known betterthan to speak with him, and he had thought she would be safe from him if hedidn’t advance on her. He was mistaken; the mere fact that he valued her wasenough. After that, he left his rooms when the maids came, and turned his face tothe corner when his meals were brought. The pages who summon him to theRegent’s court make their announcements from behind his closed door, and aregone by the time he opens it.

He considers himself lucky, still, in a way. The Regent is rarely frivolous.Months pass between the Regent’s requests. Years, sometimes. A difficult statute,a rebellious province, a potential usurper, all disappeared before they can causeproblems. There have been no wars in his lifetime; he tells himself his body bearsthe cost of peace so others are spared. For a while this serves to console him.

The size of the problem varies, but the word is the same. The size of theproblem varies, but the cost does not correspond. The cost is always someone orsomething important to the magician, a gap in his life that only he knows about.He recites them, sometimes, the things he has lost. A litany.

He begins to resent the Regent. Why sacrifice himself for the sake of a personwho would not do the same for him, who never remarks on the changes in hisappearance? The resentment itself is a curse. There is no risk of the Regentdisappearing. That is not the price. That is not how this magic works.

He takes a new tactic. He loves. He walks through his chambers floodinghimself with love for objects he never cared for before, hoping they’ll be takeninstead of his fingers. “How I adore this chair,” he tells himself. “This is the finest

chair I have ever sat in. Its cushion is the perfect shape.”Or “How have I never noticed this portrait before? The woman in this portrait

is surely the greatest beauty I have ever seen. And how fine an artist, to captureher likeness.”

His reasoning is good, but this is a double-edged sword. He convinces himselfof his love for the chair. When it disappears, he feels he will never have a properplace to sit again. When the portrait disappears, he weeps for three losses: theportrait, the woman, and the artist, though he doesn’t know who they are, or ifthey are yet living.

He thinks he may be going mad.And yet, he appears in the Regent’s court when called. He listens to the

description of the Regent’s latest vexation. He runs his tongue over the places histeeth had been, a new ritual to join the older ones. Touches the absences on hisleft hand with the absence on his right. Looks around his chambers to cataloguethe items that remain. Utters the word, the cursed word, the word that is morepowerful than any other, more demanding, more cruel. He keeps his eyes open,trying as always, to see the sleight of hand behind the power.

More than anything, he wants to understand how this works, to make it lessthan magic. He craves that moment where the trick behind the thing is revealed tohim, where it can be stripped of power and made ordinary.

He blinks, only a blink, but when he opens his eyes, his field of vision isaltered. He has lost his right eye. The mirror shows a smoothness where it hadbeen, no socket. As if it never existed. He doesn’t weep.

He tries to love the Regent as hard as he can. As hard as he loved his chair, hismaid, his eye, his teeth, his fingers, his toes, the memories he knows he has lost.He draws pictures of the Regent, masturbates over them, sends love letters that Iintercept. The magic isn’t fooled.

All of this has happened before. I watch his familiar descent. The fingers, thetoes, the hand, the arm, all unnecessary to his duty, though he does weep when hecan no longer perform a simple card trick. He loses the memory of how the trickis performed before the last fingers.

His hearing is still acute. No matter what else he loses, the magic will nevertake his ability to hear the Regent’s problem. It will never take his tongue, whichhe needs to utter the word, or the remaining teeth necessary to the utterance. Ifsomeone were to tell him these things, it would not be a reassurance.

For this one, the breaking point is not a person. Not some maid he has fixatedupon, not the memory of a childhood love, nor the sleights of hand. For this one,

the breaking point is the day he utters the word to disappear another womancalling up from beyond the wall.

“The names!” The regent says. “How am I supposed to sleep when she’sreciting names under my window?”

“Is it the same woman from years ago?” the magician asks. If she can return,perhaps the word is misdirection after all. If she can find her voice again, perhapsnothing is lost for good.

“How should I know? It’s a woman with a list and a grievance.”The magician tests his mouth, his remaining arm, with its two fingers and

thumb. He loses nothing, he thinks, but when he goes to bed that night he realizeshis pillow is gone.

It’s a little thing. He could request another pillow in the morning, but somehowthis matters. He feels sorry for himself. If he thinks about the people he hasdisappeared—the women outside the wall, the first woman, the entire populationof the northeastern mountain province—he would collapse into dust.

I can tell he’s done before he can. I’m watching him, as always, and I know, asI’ve known before. He cries himself out on his bed.

“Why?” he asks this time. He has always asked “how?” before.Then, because I know he will never utter the word again, I speak to him

directly for the first time. I whisper to him the secret: that it is powered by theunquenched desire to know what powers it, at whatever the cost. Only thesechildren, these hungry youths, can wield it, and we wield them, for the brief timethey allow us. This one longer than most. His desire to lay things bare wasexceptional, even if he stopped short of where I did. I, no more than a whisper ina willing ear.

I wait to see what he will do: return to the marketplace to join Blind Carel andGretta and the other, lesser magicians, the ones we pay to alert us when a newchild lingers to watch; ask to stay and teach his successor, as his tutor did. Hedoesn’t consider those options, and I remember again that I had once been struckby his lack of cruelty.

He leaves through the servants’ gate, taking nothing with him. I listen forweeks for him to take up the mourners’ litany, as some have done before him, butI should have known that wouldn’t be his path either; his list of names is tooshort. If I had to guess, I would say he went looking for the things he lost, thethings he banished, the pieces of himself he’d chipped off in service of someoneelse’s problems; the place to which teeth and fingers and problems and provincesand maids and mourners and pillows all disappear.

There was a trick, he thinks. There is always a trick.

©2018 by Sarah Pinsker.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Sarah Pinsker is the author of the novelette In Joy, Knowing the Abyss Behind, winner of the2014 Sturgeon Award and 2013 Nebula Award finalist, and 2014 Nebula finalist, A Stretch ofHighway Two Lanes Wide. Her fiction has appeared in Asimov’s, Strange Horizons, Fantasy &Science Fiction, and Lightspeed, and in anthologies including Long Hidden, Fierce Family,and The Future Embodied. She is also a singer/songwriter and has toured nationally behindthree albums; a fourth is forthcoming. In the best of all timelines, she lives with her wife and dogin Baltimore, Maryland. She can be found online at sarahpinsker.com and on Twitter@sarahpinsker.

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A Thousand Nights Till MorningWill McIntosh | 23730 words

Chapter 1

Shakia slid a thick folder across the table to Aiden while the rest of the colonyleadership sat hollow-eyed and silent.

“What is this?”No one answered.Aiden flipped the folder open, wishing he could have a shot of scotch—or

what passed for scotch on Mars colony—before he read it. He knew it must bebad, but with two plagues currently tearing through Earth’s population, killingbillions, he couldn’t imagine how things could get any worse.

He took a deep breath and leaned in toward the printout.They weren’t direct communications—they were intercepted radio

communication, both civilian and military. A buzzing numbness, like a full-bodyshot of Novocain, settled over Aiden as he flipped through the pages.

Transparent beings, releasing biological weapons that collapsed lungs,dissolved tissue, interrupted neurological function.

Two-legged, four-legged, eight-legged; insect-like, yet humanoid.Overwhelming force. Staggering losses.Attempts at surrender unsuccessful.No response from Moscow.No response from Shanghai.No response.No response.Aiden pushed the printout across the table and lurched to his feet. He’d just

been thinking about Chicago, pining for a slice of deep-dish pizza, missing hissister, his friends.

They were all gone. All dead. He had no home to return to. He was trapped inthese tunnels.

Commander Manes looked up at him. “You have to tell them.”“What? Who?”“Everyone who’s not in this room. You have to find a way to break this to

them that won’t send half the colony racing for the airlocks without pressuresuits.”

“I can’t do that.” No way. There was no way.Manes raised his chin until Aiden could see into his hairy, flaring nostrils.

“You’re the only mental health professional on this mission. You need to take careof the emotional side of things while we take care of everything else, includingfiguring out how we’re going to stay alive with a poisonous environment outsideand no one coming with fresh supplies.” Manes stood. “I’ve called an assembly.You have thirty minutes to figure out how to deliver this news.”

Chapter 2

Staring at himself in the bathroom mirror, shirt already damp under thearmpits, Aiden took another shot of scotch. He’d already taken a hundredmilligrams of Xanax, washed down with his first shot.

He’d prefer to face this feeling sharp-witted and clear-minded, but that was outof the question. There was no way he could do this in an unmedicated state.

Everyone was probably already in the common room, or one of the other twolargish rooms in this hellish habitrail, waiting for Aiden to perform a psychiatricmiracle. The thing was, depression and suicide were perfectly rational responsesto their situation. Everyone they’d ever known, everyone they’d ever loved, wasdead. His sister Eva, his godson Calvin, were dead.

Aiden unscrewed the top and took another shot of scotch, then rinsed withmouthwash.

The insane part of this was, objectively speaking, he’d been just as anxious onhis first date with Penelope Lassaly as he was at the thought of conducting thisintervention. His heart was always racing, his colon always cramping.

Even the despair of losing everyone he’d ever loved couldn’t drown out therelentless anxiety. It made his anxiety worse, in fact. Knowing he’d never again sitin Eva’s kitchen drinking coffee, laughing, drawing courage from each other . . .that made it much worse.

• • • •

The room was packed, yet utterly silent. Aiden’s footsteps were audible as heclimbed to the raised platform assembled in the corner of the common room andstood behind a folding table.

Aiden looked into the hollow-eyed faces of the surviving members of thehuman race. Gage and Shakia were at the front. He knew they thought seeing

friendly faces would help him get through this, but the truth was, having hisclosest friends watching only made his anxiety worse.

Heart racing, he cleared his throat. “Good morning. I’m not sure—” His mouthwas so dry he had to stop to take a drink. Only, when he lifted the glass, the waterin it sloshed so violently that he set it back down immediately. He would spill thewater all over himself if he tried to drink.

Licking his parched lips, he cleared his throat again. “I’ve been trying to thinkof how to say what I have to—”

Aiden unbuttoned the top button of his shirt. He couldn’t breathe. Therewasn’t enough oxygen in these tiny rooms.

“We’ve suffered a loss of such magnitude . . .”A bead of sweat dripped from his eyebrow onto the table. He looked at the

camera, which was transmitting this to the other two large rooms.Only they weren’t large rooms. There were no truly large rooms in the entire

settlement. He watched as the beige walls around him seemed to squeeze in, in,before releasing back to their original position, as if the room itself was strugglingto breathe.

Aiden bolted down the steps, jogged to the door.“Aiden?” Shakia called after him as he headed down the cramped hallway.When he got to his room he locked the door behind him, fell on his bed face-

first. He wanted to go home. He wanted to go home to Chicago.

Chapter 3

“There he is.”Aiden turned. Gage was heading toward him, eyes bright, arms swinging like

he didn’t have a care in the world.“Dinner? Assuming you have any appetite.”Aiden made a face. “I haven’t had an appetite since I got here.”Gage clapped him on the shoulder. “Hang in there, my friend. We’ll get

through this.”“There’s no getting through this.” Aiden winced at the whiny tone of his own

voice.A dozen people were milling around the cafeteria when they arrived, including

Shakia. The kitchen staff was missing. No dinner was prepared. Aiden wasn’tsurprised.

They foraged, grabbed a loaf of bread, olive oil, raw carrots, and a scoop of

vat meat.Shakia and Gage sat across the table from him, so close their shoulders were

almost touching. Aiden suspected their newfound friendship was of the “withbenefits” variety. It would be Gage’s second affair since leaving his wife and two-year-old daughter eight months earlier, although at this point it was no longerinfidelity, because his wife and daughter were dead. Still, the affair stung Aiden. Itwould be so much easier to get through this with someone to lean on, someone tohold, and Aiden had met Shakia first.

Gage bit into a Mars-grown carrot. “Well, thank God for this mission. If itwasn’t for TV-188—”

Aiden raised his fork. “Before you say it: I doubt there are anywhere nearenough people here to stave off the extinction of the human race.”

Gage stopped chewing. “What do you mean? Why not?”Shakia didn’t look surprised. She chewed slowly, and swallowing looked like

an effort. Setting down her fork, she said, “Less than three hundred people? We’dhave to be awfully lucky. One bad flu season, or a war, could wipe us out.” Shewas so obviously brilliant. A security expert who could converse about genetics,sociology, psychology. She was also beautiful. Her skin was incredibly, strikinglydark, her cheekbones sharp, her eyes catlike.

Gage looked skeptical. “A war?”“We weren’t far from a war a couple months ago, when the pub was getting

too crowded, and the scientists and meteor cowboys wanted to make itprofessionals only.” Aiden still got chills, remembering the first time he’d comeacross protest graffiti scrawled in black spray paint down the length of a hallway:No Fucking Country Club on Mars.

Graffiti. On a life-or-death mission to Mars. The sort of people willing to signon to four years in a hamster run weren’t necessarily the most highly functioningand psychologically healthy individuals.

“We’re trapped on a planet with a hostile environment,” Aiden went on. “Notexactly optimum conditions. On top of that, the risk of passing on geneticmutations skyrockets in such a tiny population.”

“Paula Peavy would be the one to ask about the numbers,” Shakia said.Aiden pointed his fork at Shakia. “That’s true.” Paula could come up with an

estimated range. Aiden would bet anything her magic number for species survivalwould be higher than three hundred under these conditions.

Gage looked like he was going to vomit. That made two of them. Three,probably.

“It’s still ironic, though. We volunteered to risk our lives, came all this way todeflect an asteroid so it wouldn’t wipe out the human race, and we’re the oneswho end up alive.” Gage covered his eyes. “And have you heard the cherry ontop yet?” He looked at Shakia. “Have you told him?”

“I haven’t gotten a chance yet.” Shakia turned to Aiden. “TV-188 is going tomiss Earth. At least, the odds of a hit plunged on the last assessment.”

Aiden barked a dry, bitter laugh. “So we came all this way for nothing. If therewas a human race to return to, we wouldn’t have returned as heroes, only as aninsurance policy that turned out to be unnecessary.” People would have startedgoing home now. Not everyone, but some. If not for the Nunki. That was the starsystem the invaders apparently came from, so that’s what people were callingthem.

“It’s a shame the asteroid is going to miss Earth, actually,” Aiden said. “Notthat I’d want to see nearly every plant and animal on the planet wiped out, but itwould sure ruin the Nunki’s day.” He raised a finger. “Wait, I know! We coulddeflect it into Earth, instead of away from it.” Aiden laughed, but Gage andShakia didn’t laugh along, so he stopped. Maybe the joke was in bad taste. He’dthought it was funny, if in a dark, gallows humor sort of way.

“That’s a marvelous idea,” Gage said.“I—wait, what?”Gage was staring at the ceiling, nodding ponderously. He looked at Shakia.

“Don’t you think?”Shakia, who was sitting very still, just stared down at her hands.Aiden leaned forward. “I was joking. If we did that, the Nunki would

immediately know we’re here. They’d come and kill us all.”“It would be worth it.” Gage leaned in, lowered his voice. “And maybe they

wouldn’t come after us. What if the impact brought them to their knees? I mean,they’d be in darkness, dealing with freezing temperatures, their food supplydrying up whether they eat animals or plants—”

“Maybe they eat dirt,” Shakia said.“Maybe they do. And if they do, they wipe us out.” He gestured at Aiden. “You

said it yourself: We’re going to die anyway. Let’s go out fighting.”“Our species is going to die. That doesn’t mean we won’t live another forty

years, and our children another sixty after that, and their children—”Gage folded his arms. “Sixty years? With no antibiotics? No aspirin?” He

shook his head. “Not a chance.”Gage was right about that, at least. They had seeds, could grow vat meat. Their

crops provided oxygen. But they’d quickly be living in painfully primitiveconditions. How would they make shoes, or toothbrushes?

Jesus. There’d be no more Xanax.Gage stood. “I’m going to suggest it to leadership.”“Go ahead,” Aiden said. “They’re not going to get behind something that

amounts to mass suicide.”

Chapter 4

Aiden knocked on the door to Commander Manes’ office.“Yep,” the commander called through the door.Aiden had to walk around Manes’ desk to see him. Manes was sitting on the

floor with a book, Zen Flesh, Zen Bones, open beside him. He was looking outthe window at gunmetal gray stones scattered across a rust-colored desert. Itlooked as if he hadn’t shaved in about three days, but as he turned, his eyes werealert. The unfocused stare and stunned, haunted look was gone.

“You’re not seriously going through with this,” Aiden said.Manes smiled. “From what I understand, it was your idea.”“I was joking.”“Well, some of the best ideas and the meanest insults come disguised as jokes.”Aiden leaned against the edge of Manes’ desk. “If you let them do this, it’s not

only us who’ll die. What about elephants, and dogs? Trees. Grasshoppers. We’regoing to wipe them all out, along with ourselves, for revenge?”

Manes picked up the book, opened it at random. “I found this in KaisaPuhakkah’s room, after we cut her down. It’s helped me make sense of things.”He thumbed through a few pages. “One thing it taught me is that nothing is not abad thing. Sometimes nothing is better than something.”

“No it isn’t. Art is better than a blank wall. Music is better than silence.” Aidenpointed at the book in Manes’ hands. “That philosophy you’re quoting isn’tnothing, it’s something.”

It was predictable for people to seek meaning when faced with despair. Maneswas simply finding a way to cope. But his coping mechanism was leading them alltoward oblivion. Of course, if he’d picked up a Bible instead of a Zen primer,he’d be saying everything was fine, because they were all going to heaven.

“The universe will survive without us.” Manes pointed at the Martianlandscape outside the window. “There’s art right out there.”

And poisonous air.

Aiden envied his peace. He wished he could find serenity in this stiflinghabitrail. He wasn’t capable of that degree of self-delusion, though.

“If you want something more concrete, let me offer you this: Even if I wantedto stop this, I couldn’t.”

That didn’t surprise Aiden. Alliances were forming; there were rumors thatsome of the asteroid cowboys wanted to take charge, and force every woman inthe colony to pair up with a man and discontinue birth control. Regardless of herwishes, or sexual orientation.

Maybe he should work on the scientists first. The asteroid wouldn’t pass Marsfor another two months. Still time to talk them out of it.

Chapter 5

The pub was packed. It was always packed. The floor was awash in spilledbeer, and people were sitting under and on top of tables. The stink of unwashedbodies in seldom-washed clothes was gag-inducing. Normally it would have beenimpossible for Aiden to tolerate such claustrophobic conditions, but because itwas a bar Aiden could compensate by drinking heavily, and thus dampen hisanxiety. Somewhat.

He took a swig of scotch and wondered how long it would be before theNunki came for them, after the asteroid hit. Twenty-four hours? Less? Somepeople thought the Nunki might not even notice the nuclear explosion that wouldnudge the asteroid’s path. That seemed wildly optimistic to Aiden. A speciescapable of interstellar travel would have noticed the asteroid and calculated itstrajectory to the inch. When it suddenly changed course and hit them, they’dnotice.

How would they be killed, Aiden wondered? Nunki technology was heavilybiological in nature. They’d engineered and released two separate plagues,allowing them to devastate the world’s population, bringing Earth to its kneesbefore humanity even knew they existed. Everyone had thought the plagues werethe work of some rogue nation or heavily financed terrorist group. But that hadnever made sense, really. The plagues were too perfect to be the work of humans.

If he was going to die, he so wished he could die on Earth, in Chicago. Hemissed his city, his friends, the smell of auto exhaust mingled with hot dogs andsoft pretzels from sidewalk vendors’ carts. But mostly he missed Eva, and hisgodson Calvin. Calvin had been more than a nephew to Aiden. More like a son.

Aiden looked across at Gage and Shakia, who were making out like teenagers.

If he wasn’t so drunk, he would be jealous, but all he felt now was a melancholyaffection for his two doomed friends.

“You know, Gage,” he shouted over the din, “I’ve never thanked you fortalking me into volunteering for this. If not for you I’d be dead right now.”

Gage raised an eyebrow, his head weaving drunkenly. “Don’t thank me, thankPenelope Lassaly.”

The name startled Aiden. “What are you talking about?”Gage looked at him as if he was an idiot. “In a million years I couldn’t have

talked you into signing up. You were dead-set against it until Penelope dumpedyou, then, suddenly, you had a change of heart.”

Shakia reached across the table, stroked Aiden’s head. “Aw. Did someonebreak your heart?”

Aiden jerked his head out of her reach. “You’re suggesting I signed up for afive-year mission, to Mars, because a woman dumped me? How neurotic andinsecure would I have to be to make that enormous a decision based onsomething so trivial?”

Gage burst out laughing. “Pretty damned neurotic and insecure.”Aiden stood, his chair bumping to a stop against someone standing behind it.

“Fuck you, Gage. Where did you get your psychiatry degree again?”Aiden turned to leave.“Aiden.” Gage jumped up, grabbed his shoulder. “Come on, don’t get mad.”

He spread his hands. “I’m drunk. I say dumb things when I’m drunk.”Aiden sat, mostly because he didn’t want to look like a giant baby in front of

Shakia. But he was still fuming. Of course it had been Gage. Gage had paintedsuch a glorious picture. He could still see Gage’s eyes shining with excitement,could hear the crack of emotion in his voice. Carpe diem, buddy. Let’s save theworld. They’ll carve our faces on Mount Rushmore. All three hundred and six ofus.

Gage hadn’t talked him into this? Bullshit. Gage had always been able to talkAiden into things, ever since they were kids.

They were best friends until seventh grade, when Gage became too cool forAiden. When just about everyone became too cool for Aiden. He didn’t speak toGage again until they were almost thirty, when they bumped into each other at thedentist’s office, of all places, and dusted off their atrophied friendship. Hard tobelieve that had been almost ten years ago.

“So who was this woman?” Shakia leaned forward, rested her chin on foldedhands.

“Oh, just one of many women who couldn’t handle my disorder.”“How do you know it was your disorder?” Gage asked. “Has it occurred to you

that some women may not be interested in you because you’re short and hairy?”“Oh, I know a lot of women aren’t interested in me because of my physical

appearance. But those are easily observable features, so if they’re the issue, awoman will reject me on the spot.”

Gage reached up, feigned wrapping his hands around Aiden’s throat. “Jeeze,would you lighten up? I’m joking. What I’m trying to say is, you have no ideawhy Penelope broke up with you.”

Either Gage was trying to make him feel better, or he was incredibly naïvewhen it came to human motivation. Probably a little of both.

Chapter 6

For some reason Aiden noticed how filthy the floors in the hallways were. Athick layer of dust lay along the edges, where people didn’t walk. He passed atray, dirty dishes and utensils strewn in a corner. Small things like cleanlinessunderstandably fell away when you were committing mass suicide by dropping aten-kilometer-wide rock on an aggressive, highly advanced species.

It would be a relief, in many ways, to be dead. He would be truly at peace forthe first time in his life, feeling not the slightest twinge of anxiety. What he wasmost afraid of was that dying would hurt. If the Nunki blasted a hole in theirhabitat, the air would rush out, and the moisture in Aiden’s eyes, mouth, and mostimportantly the alveoli of his lungs, would boil away. It would take one to twoexcruciating minutes for him to die.

If he could time it right, he could kill himself with the last of his Xanax beforethe Nunki got him. He’d need some warning that they were coming for that towork, though.

As he passed across Main Street—the central tunnel in the habitat—music andlaughter drifted down the tube from the pub. Another party, in celebration of adirect hit. In celebration of the death of their planet. Every night, a new party. Itseemed as if everyone had been drunk for the past eight days.

As Aiden passed the closed door to the Command Room, he heard talkinginside. Bursts of static accentuated the speaker’s S’s, as if it were a radiotransmission instead of a live person. There was no one to send radiotransmissions now, though. Unless the Nunki were sending a message to say theywere on their way.

The door was unlocked, the room dark except for the red and white lights onthe radio.

A woman’s voice was coming from the radio.“We’ve had no contact with the Nunki since the impact event. No idea how it’s

affecting them. All we know is, they’re no longer sending food in through thewall. The wall appears to be dying, in fact.”

“Before the impact we didn’t dare contact you. We didn’t want to give youaway, and anyway there wasn’t much point. But if anyone is still alive up there:There are survivors in Chicago—”

Aiden grasped the doorframe to keep from falling down.Chicago?He looked out the door as the transmission went on. A couple, arm-in-arm,

were weaving down the hall.“Hey.”They kept walking.He ran into the hall. “Hey!”The couple stopped, turned.“Get the commander, or Mahajan. Anyone you can. There’s a transmission

coming in from Earth.”The couple took off running. Aiden turned back to the transmission. He

should be recording it, but he didn’t know how to turn on the recorder. Hopefullywhoever had sent it was standing by for a reply.

“—some way, any way, to transport survivors there? Otherwise, I don’t thinkwe’ll live much longer.”

A rescue mission? That’s what they were hoping for? Aiden couldn’t imaginehow Mars colony could support more than a handful of additional people. If theydid send a mission down, though, Aiden was going. Eva and Calvin were inChicago. Plus, friends. Even if it hadn’t been Chicago, he would want to go. Hebore some responsibility for what they were going through.

Chapter 7

Even at age eight, Aiden’s godson Calvin had been an athlete, the star of hispeewee league baseball team. It had astonished Aiden to watch someone whoshared his genetic material excelling in a sport, because he, Eva, and their parentshad all been alarmingly uncoordinated. Once, when Calvin hit a triple down theline, Aiden had felt such a rush of exhilaration watching Calvin sprint around the

bases he’d begun to hyperventilate, and had to find a plastic bag. In a day or two,Aiden would know if that little athlete was still alive.

When Red Two touched down, Aiden unstrapped himself and hurried into thehall to a view screen. All he could see was the silhouette of a row of buildings inthe darkness. If they’d landed in Grant Park, on the edge of Lake Michigan asplanned, that would be South Michigan Avenue. As dark and uninformative asthe scene was, he preferred it to the views they’d been getting on their voyage, ofEarth as a hazy grayish beach ball, the swirling blue and white all but obscured bythe dust cloud.

How many Chicagoans had died since the asteroid strike, he wondered? Eachof those deaths was on his head, or, more accurately, on his big mouth.

“There he is.”Aiden turned. Gage was heading down the hall. “I’ve been looking for you.”

Gage clapped Aiden on the shoulder, considered the view screen. “Ready?”Would the survivors be grateful to Mars Colony for crashing an asteroid into

Earth, or hate them for it? The strike had snuffed out ninety-nine point ninepercent of life on Earth. Maybe they’d brought the Nunki to their knees, butthey’d also wiped out every tree, every flower, every turtle and giraffe andchipmunk, to say nothing of a large percentage of the surviving humanpopulation.

“You ready?” Gage repeated.“No.”Gage’s brow clenched. “Me, neither.”Somehow Aiden had forgotten for a moment. Gage’s family lived in Chicago.

Hiromi, and his daughter Lilly. During the year they were on Mars, Gage hadn’tacted as if he had a wife and child at home, but that didn’t mean he didn’t careabout them.

• • • •

Aiden had known there would be no stars or moon visible; what he hadn’texpected was how low the sky felt. It was as if they were in a freezing-cold cave,the roof just out of sight. It was so damned dark. If not for the spotlights, Aidenwould have to hold his arms in front of him to keep from walking into things. IfMark Adlerberg was right, daytime would be slightly better, but not much.

The silence was startling as well. No birds, no crickets, no distant whoosh oftraffic or hum of streetlights.

Someone turned a spotlight toward the tree line that bordered the snow-covered ball field they’d landed on. The ground was covered in a layer of blackdust, particulate matter kicked up by TV-188, settling to the ground. The treeswere branchless skeletons, knobby exclamation points. The sight made Aidensick.

Dead. Almost everything was dead. Their climatologists and biologistssuspected rats were hanging on, and small numbers of hay-eating animals thatcould dig through the snow to reach dead grass and vegetation, but not much else.It was going to take time to adjust to that reality.

“Captain?” Anatoly Belikovsy called.Captain Mahajan, who looked like she’d been in a trance, turned to Anatoly,

who was pointing toward South Michigan Avenue.Three people were approaching out of the darkness. They were gawking at the

ship, which always reminded Aiden of a giant red water bug.“You’re from the Mars colony?” a woman asked. She had long black hair,

brown skin.Dozens of crewmembers converged on the trio, everyone asking questions at

once. Captain Mahajan pushed her way through, calling for everyone to quietdown.

“We are, yes. Are we safe from the Nunki here?”“Do you have food?” the man asked. He had a thick gray beard, a pocked

nose.The Captain turned. “Someone get them food.” When no one moved, the

captain scanned the faces around her. “Joshua, get some rations, please.”Sighing audibly, Joshua headed toward the ship. When he was clear of the

crowd he began to jog. Aiden couldn’t blame him—no one wanted to miss thismoment. They were about to find out whether there was any chance the humanrace could survive.

“Come on, tell us what’s happening,” Gage called from the periphery.“The Nunki are a mess,” the dark haired woman said. “The wall is dead. All of

their buildings are dead—”“Hold on,” the Captain said in her clipped Indo-British accent. “What do you

mean, dead?” The original transmission had mentioned a dying wall as well. Noneof them had been sure what to make of that, and they hadn’t received any moretransmissions.

The woman pushed the end of the scarf she was wearing over her shoulder.“Dead. Everything they build is alive. The wall was alive, and now it’s not.”

Mahajan frowned, waited for her to go on.“A lot of the Nunki headed south where it’s a little warmer, but there are still

some around. Mostly they stay away from the city. When they catch peopleforaging out there, they kill them, as likely as not, or drag them off and do whoknows what to them, but there isn’t much food left inside the city, so what choicedo we have?”

Some of the crewmembers had peeled the other woman away and werespeaking with her in low voices a few yards from the main group. Aiden sidledover to listen.

“No. They killed everyone, except they left Chicago alone for some reason.”“Why Chicago?” Mark Adlerberg asked. He was standing closest to the

woman, looked to have initiated the splinter group.“I don’t know.” She was a tall, big-boned white woman. “Chicago was hit hard

by the first super-virus, but half or more of us were still alive before the asteroidhit.” She raised her eyebrows. “Some people thought you did it on purpose.”

“We did,” Aiden said. “Did it help, do you think?”The woman’s lips were cracked and pitted. “It didn’t make things any easier, if

that’s what you’re asking. It hurt the Nunkis bad, though. I guess it depends onyour point of view.” She looked up. “Is the sun ever coming out again?”

Mark nodded. “The debris should start clearing in another two to three years.”The woman inhaled raggedly, let her head sag. “I’d give anything to see the

sun. Just for an hour. I hate the dark.” As Aiden turned to return to the largergroup, she added, “I used to be such a carefree person. I used to joke and laughall the time.”

A hand rested on Aiden’s shoulder. It was Gage.“I’m going to look for Hiromi and Lilly. Come with me?”The idea startled Aiden. “Mahajan isn’t going to let us wander off. She’ll want

to organize teams.”“Fuck the teams.” Gage looked off into the blackness. “If my family is out

there, I want to reach them as soon as I can. There are plenty of rifles foreveryone.” He clapped Aiden’s shoulder. “Come with me. We’ll look for yoursister, too.”

He wanted to find Eva and Calvin as soon as he could, but the idea ofventuring into that freezing darkness with just him and Gage opened a pit ofdread in his stomach. There were aliens out there who, “as likely as not,” wouldkill him and Gage if they crossed paths.

Gage jerked a thumb toward the ship. “You think you’re safer here, hanging

around a ship that just landed on an alien-occupied planet? Or maybe you’drather join one of the larger exploration teams, which are bound to draw attentionif they encounter Nunki.”

Aiden eyed the survivor they’d been listening to. She was still alive after allthis time. Maybe appearing to be one of them was a better strategy than appearingto be part of the colony that knocked an asteroid into Earth.

A gust of wind kicked up, cutting right through Aiden as he nodded. “Okay.We find your family, then we find mine.” It was hard to form the words; hismouth was stiff from the cold.

“I’ll get some rifles and supplies. You tell the captain.”Aiden barked a laugh. “Oh, I tell the captain.”Although she’d never admit it, Captain Mahajan had treated Aiden with an

undercurrent of disdain since the day Aiden had fled the stage in the middle ofthat colony-wide intervention. Aiden flinched with embarrassment recalling it.

Mahajan was still talking with the dark-haired woman as a small crowdlistened. The woman was wolfing trail mix from a plastic container while shetalked.

“They do even worse in the cold than we do. Someone on the short wave saidit’s because everything they do is built around the sun, around solar. They don’tbuild nothing—they grow it. Their buildings and such need sun, and food andwater, so it all died.”

The words brought joy to Aiden’s heart. They’d hurt the fuckers. They’d reallyhurt the monsters responsible for wiping out seven billion souls. Good.

As he marinated in the moment, Aiden realized he still didn’t know what theNunki looked like. Maybe the captain had already asked? The transmissionsthey’d received before they stopped altogether said some were fifteen feet tall,others four, that some walked on two legs, some on ten. Also, you could seeinside them, and sometimes they glowed in the dark. None of that was terriblyhelpful in drawing a mental picture. Aiden wanted to be prepared for the sight ofthem, if he did in fact ever see one. Any concrete picture would be better than thenightmare images his imagination conjured in this dark, dead place.

“What sort of weapons do they have?” Captain Mahajan asked.The woman stuffed a handful of nuts and raisins into her mouth with

trembling fingers. “Most don’t have any. Those that do got rifles, mostly.”Exclamations of surprise rang out from the crowd.“Rifles?” the captain asked.The woman nodded. “They didn’t bring weapons; they brought diseases.

Flesh-eating bacteria. Spores that suffocate you. Shooting, they learned fromwatching us. They’re not very good at it.”

Aiden turned away. There was no way he could interrupt the captain to tell herhe and Gage were leaving, and while he needed to know everything he couldabout the Nunki if he was going to stay alive, hearing how everyone on Earth haddied was making him queasy. It conjured images of Eva and Calvin dyinghorribly.

Nunki technology was all biologically-based. They’d known some of it was,even most of it, but it had seemed inconceivable that they had no hard technologywhatsoever. What an incredible stroke of luck. The asteroid had completelyneutralized them.

He spotted Shakia, supervising people unloading supplies. He could tell Shakiawhere he and Gage were going, and she could tell the captain later. That wayAiden could avoid the inevitable confrontation with the captain.

Aiden called Shakia’s name.She headed over. “Welcome home.” She was wearing knee-high black boots, a

big black and white checkered scarf that reminded Aiden of the floor of a diner.How she’d fit her wardrobe into the draconian weight restrictions of the Marsmission baffled him.

Aiden jerked his thumb over his shoulder. “When you have a chance, can youtell the captain Gage and I went to look for his . . .” He choked on the last word,realizing what a dumb thing he’d just done, given Shakia’s relationship withGage.

“I’m coming with you.” Shakia turned. “Let me get some things.”“You want to come with us?” Aiden couldn’t keep the astonishment out of his

tone.Shakia turned back. “I want to take a look around anyway, why not go with

you and Gage?”Aiden shrugged. “Okay.” He was glad to have her company. Plus she’d shot a

rifle before. Aiden wished he could say the same.Not knowing what else to do, Aiden headed back toward one of the crowds

interrogating the survivors. The snow under the thin layer of soot was mostlyfrozen solid, so they were able to walk on top of it instead of slogging through it,but despite two pairs of socks and heavy lined boots, his toes were alreadyfreezing. What were they going to feel like after a few hours of hiking through thecity? He wondered if he should go back and change into new socks, maybe puton a third pair.

As he turned back, he spotted Gage heading toward him.“Give me a hand, will you?” He was carrying two huge packs.“What the hell did you put in there?” Aiden grabbed a pack from Gage, his

biceps flexing under the weight.“Food, cookware, first aid kit. I figure we can pilfer bedding—”“Bedding?” A surge of adrenaline shot through Aiden. “No. Absolutely not. I

can’t camp out. I hate camping out.” He’d learned from a young age that heabsolutely could not sleep outdoors. The outdoors just felt foreign at night. Therewere no familiar touchstones to draw comfort from.

Gage spread his open palms. “We’re not going to make much progress if wescurry back to the ship each night. And we won’t be camping out. There areplenty of empty houses.”

Aiden didn’t do well sleeping in unfamiliar environments of any sort. Hedidn’t do well sleeping, period, but away from his own bed it became all butimpossible.

“Ready?” Shakia came up behind them, a pack on her shoulders.Aiden panicked. He didn’t want to sleep in some poor dead family’s home, but

he also didn’t want to admit to Shakia that he was afraid. It shouldn’t havemattered what Shakia thought of him, but it did.

Aiden took a big, huffing breath. “I need to get some things first.”“What?” Gage patted his pack. “It’s all in here.”Except for Aiden’s medications, his alcohol, the ancient I-phone he used to

listen to big band music to calm him while he tried to sleep. His special tube-shaped pillow, extra underwear. “I just need to grab a few things.” Aiden took offbefore they could insist on specifics.

Chapter 8

Aiden’s toes ached with cold before they’d gone a mile. Cold mimicked thephysical symptoms of anxiety—clenched muscles, trembling, shortness of breath—and while consciously he knew it was the cold piling on those symptoms, thedarker corners of his mind were unimpressed by logic. So cold magnified hisanxiety.

A woman, hunched against the frigid wind, one hand pressed to her chest,passed on the other side of the street. She was carrying a makeshift torch—a two-by-four burning at one end. They’d seen a few people with flashlights, but mostlyit was torches. The woman didn’t give Aiden, Gage, and Shakia a second look.

There was nothing to mark them as Mars mission personnel. If the light wasbetter, or she came closer, she might notice how clean they were, how well-fed.

A high, yipping bark startled Aiden. He turned, watched the woman hurryaround a corner. “She must have a little dog in her coat.”

“Well, at least we know dogs aren’t extinct.” Gage sounded almost flip.Aiden studied his profile as they walked. “Don’t you feel at all guilty about

this?”Gage glanced at him, his face half-buried by scarves and the hood of his coat.

“Why should I feel guilty? We made the right decision.”“You should feel guilty because people died from that decision. We turned

Earth into a moon. Even if you think we did the right thing, it doesn’t absolveyou. You’re still responsible. In fact, you’re more responsible for this than I am.”

Gage shrugged. “I’m not asking to be absolved. I’ll gladly accept my share ofthe responsibility. I’m not going to wallow in guilt, though.”

Aiden looked at Shakia, waiting for her to weigh in, but she kept her eyes onthe ash-covered ground.

Maybe they’d done the right thing in deflecting that asteroid—it was a complexethical question with no simple answer—but even if they had, the cost had beenstaggering. It had been knee-buckling. Aiden felt like he was carrying the weightof every life that had blinked out because of their action, and that was how itshould be. Gage, on the other hand, didn’t look to be carrying any weight exceptthe pack on his back.

As they turned left on West Harrison Street, past the financial district, Shakia’swalkie-talkie beeped. She unhooked the silver slab from her belt. “Go ahead.”

It was the captain. “Where are you?”“Taking a walk with Gage and Aiden. Gage wants to find his family.”“I need you back here.”Shakia looked toward the sky. In the darkness Aiden couldn’t see her eyes roll,

but he didn’t have to. “Whatever it is, get Mark to do it.”“It’s not one thing. More survivors are showing up. They all want food, and if

we feed everyone, we won’t have enough for the return trip.”Gage put a hand on Shakia’s shoulder, whispered, “Let me talk to her.” She

handed him the walkie-talkie.“Look, Sangita, someone’s got to do some deep reconnaissance. It might as

well be us. We need at least one person with us who can shoot straight.”The captain argued, but really, her authority was limited. Since the quiet,

bloodless coup that ousted Manes as leader of the colony, orders had become

more advisory than compulsory. In the end, Mahajan relented rather than sufferthe embarrassment of having her order defied.

Once they crossed over to the Eisenhower Expressway, Gage picked up thepace. Aiden and Shakia struggled to keep up.

“Tell me you can’t hear them,” Shakia said.Shivering uncontrollably, Aiden lifted his face, strained to pick up some sound

beyond the crunch of their feet on the snow. “What?”Shakia sighed. “You’re so adept at tuning in to the thoughts of the living. You

could hear them, if you listened properly.”“Ah, the dead.” Aiden was fascinated by people who could so effortlessly

straddle the worlds of science and mysticism. He could never hold both viewssimultaneously. Somehow, though, he had no problem simultaneously admiringShakia’s tangled belief system and thinking her belief in the mystical wasnonsense.

“The air is thick with them.” She pressed her palm against the center of herchest. “You can hear them here.”

“I’m afraid I’m never going to hear them. You’ll have to tell me what they’resaying.” Although honestly, he didn’t want to know what they were saying.

• • • •

Aiden wondered what Gage must be feeling, minutes from knowing whetherhis family was alive or dead. Based on the number of people they’d seen, thefireplaces glowing through windows, Aiden guessed eighty or ninety percent ofthe population was dead. The odds were not in Gage’s favor. Or Aiden’s, for thatmatter.

He glanced at Shakia, wondered what she was feeling. Deep down, did shehope Gage’s wife was dead? Did she love Gage, or was he just convenientcompanionship?

Aiden would have walked right past Gage’s house, with the trees naked poles,all the ground a uniform gray-black.

Through the living room window, a soft red glow danced among the shadows.Gage took off running, his feet breaking through the frozen crust, sinking to

his shins with each step. “Hiromi? Lilly?”Aiden might have seen disappointment cross Shakia’s face, but it might have

been the shadows. She trotted after Gage, moving more slowly. Aiden trailedbehind her.

Angry shouts erupted inside. “Shit.” Aiden drew his pistol, rushed through theopen front door on Shakia’s heels.

“Chill. Right now. Chill,” a scraggy-looking kid with a patchy brown beardshouted at Gage, who couldn’t decide where to point his handgun, because six orseven people were pointing weapons at him. A few of those weapons now shiftedto point at Aiden. They had pistols, a nail gun. One held what looked like aflamethrower.

“What are you doing in my house?” Gage shouted.“I said, chill,” the scraggly kid said. “What the hell is wrong with you? It was

vacant. It had a fireplace. So we crashed.”“Gage, put it away.” Shakia put a hand on Gage’s extended arm. Gage lowered

his gun. The band of what Aiden could now see were all teenagers lowered theirweapons as well.

“Well. That was exciting,” a girl, maybe fifteen, said.Gage ignored the comment. “You said the house was vacant. Did you find a

note, maybe pinned to the front door? On the kitchen table?”The scraggly kid shook his head. “No note.”Holstering his handgun, Aiden stepped forward, offered the kid his hand.

“Aiden.”“Zeus.”They were beyond filthy, like a band of chimney sweeps. A tall, skinny, pimply

kid introduced himself as Monty. He was wearing a knitted cap that had two longtassels, like tails dangling at his ears.

The girl who’d made the wiseass remark, her bleached-blonde hair cut shortand uneven, was Beltane. Even before she offered her hand and he saw cutsalong her forearm, Aiden was instinctively thinking borderline personalitydisorder.

As Aiden studied her, Beltane turned to Gage. “So, if your wife and kid werehere, where’ve you been, Dad?”

“Mars.”A few of the kids chuckled.“Mars,” Gage repeated. He disappeared into another room, evidently to search

for a note from Hiromi.Aiden pulled his laminated colony ID card from his front pocket, showed it to

each of the kids in turn.“Holy shit,” Beltane said as he showed her the card. “Mind. Blown. You’re

seriously from the colony?”

“I can’t believe I’m here, either,” Aiden said.Gage reappeared. “I’m going to see if any of the neighbors are still around.

They might know where Hiromi is.”That was an optimistic way to put it.“Are you here to take us back to Mars?” Zeus asked.“At this point we’re trying to figure out what’s the best course of action,”

Shakia said. It would be impossible to transport thousands of refugees to Mars,and there wasn’t enough space in the colony anyway. Their plan was to cherry-pick people with valuable skills (plus Gage and Aiden’s relatives, if they were stillalive) and bring back crucial technology and supplies.

Shakia went to the fire, pulled off her gloves and held them toward the flames.“How are you surviving?”

“We’re not,” Zeus said. “There used to be sixteen of us.” Aiden counted seven.“I’m sorry,” Shakia said.Zeus nodded.Aiden joined Shakia by the fire. Heat had never felt so good; he wanted to

climb right into the flames.“We keep moving to find food,” a lanky Asian boy who’d introduced himself

as Good Boy said. “You have to do the scavenger thing, find new neighborhoodsoutside the wall, try to avoid the Nunkis.”

“What’s this wall?” This was the third time Aiden had heard it mentioned.“It’s not a wall any more, just a perimeter,” Good Boy said.“It used to run all the way around the city, forty feet high. It died after the

asteroid hit,” Zeus said.“How did you get food, if there was a wall around you?” Shakia asked.“The Nunkis sent it in. Every morning.”“They were feeding you?” Shakia said. Aiden recalled hearing that on the

transmission they’d received, so he wasn’t surprised.Zeus nodded. “The best anyone could figure, we were pets. They’d come and

watch us. Otherwise they left us alone.” He squinted. “You really are from Mars?”Before Aiden could answer, the front door banged open and Gage appeared,

looking shaken. “Aiden, Shakia, can I speak to you?”Aiden followed him into the kitchen, where the firelight provided only a deep

red gloom.“They’re alive. They left with some man named Warren about two months

ago.” He made the name Warren sound like a particularly pussy venereal disease.“Do you know where they went?” Shakia asked.

Gage shook his head. “Outside the city. Maybe north.” As Aiden digested this,he added, “I have to go after them.”

For a moment, Aiden thought he’d misunderstood. “Outside the city? That’swhere the Nunki are. Plus, the commander isn’t going to wait for us. Three days,tops, then we head back.”

“I know. I’m not asking either of you to come with me.”It was a terrible idea. How was he going to find three people in the dark when

all he knew was they’d headed north? Maybe more to the point, how would hestay alive out there, alone among the Nunki?

He wouldn’t. He’d be dead in a matter of days.“You said you’d help me find my sister after we went to your house—”Gage glared at him. “I said I’d help you after I found my family. I haven’t

found them yet.”“Jesus, Gage, they’ve been gone for two months.” Aiden paused, summoned

his calm, soothing therapist voice. “Take a breath. Think it through before you gocharging off.”

“It’s my family. I don’t need to think it through.”Gage seemed almost panicked. Some of that emotion was probably about

Hiromi going off with some man. That was understandable, if somewhat ironic.“If you go out there unprepared and get yourself killed, that’s not going to help

them.” Shakia sounded like someone who had no stake in the outcome.“Let’s do a little more reconnaissance, at least. Get the lay of the land,” Aiden

said. “You need to know what’s out there before you go.”Gage sighed through his nose. “Fine. I’ll leave tomorrow morning.” He looked

out the window, into the blackness. “Do you even call it morning any more?”In the living room, the kids watched as Aiden, Gage, and Shakia gathered their

packs.“We’re going to move on,” Gage said. “Aiden and I lived in Chicago before the

mission, and there are people we want to find.”Zeus hopped out of a stuffed chair. “We’re coming.”Gage did a double-take. “What? No, you can’t come with us.”“We can go wherever the hell we want,” Beltane said.Traveling with survivors seemed like a great idea to Aiden. They could learn

how to avoid making stupid blunders that might get them killed.“Why do you want to come with us?” Shakia asked.“You’re from Mars,” Zeus said. “You’re the closest thing to a rescue party

we’re going to see. Of course we want to stick close.”

Red Two was the cavalry. What a depressing thought.“So where are we headed?” Beltane asked.Gage looked at Aiden, eyebrows raised. “Where does your sister live again?”Everyone turned to look at Aiden. “West Madison.”Zeus nodded. “That’s inside the perimeter, at least. If it was outside, there’d be

no chance.”Aiden closed his eyes. A little good luck. Finally.

Chapter 9

Monty, the skinny kid, was walking beside Aiden. Despite being a clinicalpsychologist whose job purportedly included knowing how to put people at ease,Aiden had never been adept at initiating conversations with strangers. At the sametime, it felt awkward to walk beside this kid in silence.

“Is your name really Monty?” he ventured.The kid looked up. “We all picked new ones. Except Beltane, who had a good

one to begin with.”“Why Monty?”Monty shrugged. “I love The Holy Grail.”Aiden couldn’t argue with that. Monty Python and the Holy Grail had kept

him company through many sleepless nights.Up ahead, Zeus opened the door of a huge SUV and slipped into the driver’s

seat. He started it, rolled down the window as others climbed into the back. “It’sgoing to be a tight fit.”

Aiden had assumed they would walk. He was thrilled at the prospect ofavoiding a three- or four-mile slog through the cold dark. On the other hand, thevan was horribly crowded.

He ducked his head and climbed in. “Where do you get gas for this?”Beltane got out of her seat, patted it. “Here you go.”“Oh, I don’t want to take your seat.” He squatted between the two middle

seats, Shakia’s knees pressing his lower back.“You’re not taking it. We’re gonna share.” She took Aiden’s wrist, pulled him

into the seat, then sat in his lap. “You can still find gas if you go far enough awayfrom the city. Sucks getting it out of the storage tanks, though.”

A few of her companions chuckled at this.“Why does it suck?” Aiden cleared his throat. His voice was an octave too

high. He was getting an erection, could feel his face burning.

“You have to suck it out, a hoseful at a time.” Beltane wriggled in his lap, herbutt rubbing against his crotch. “You like that?”

One of the classic symptoms of borderline personality disorder was sexualpromiscuity, so Beltane’s behavior wasn’t surprising, but this wasn’t his officeand she wasn’t his client, so he was at a loss for how to respond. His heart wasracing with embarrassment, yet his erection hung on doggedly as they drove. Howmany times had he wanted to maintain an erection, only to have anxiety deflate it?

His bowels were roiling, a gastro-intestinal storm brewing. It was just a fewmiles; he only had to hold on for, what, ten minutes? Zeus was flying down thepitch-black road.

“Wait. Why don’t you have the headlights on?” Aiden tried not to soundbreathless. They were driving by the light of a flashlight Good Boy was pointingthrough the windshield.

“Headlights are a great way to attract Nunki. Make a note of that,” Zeus said.They passed signs for a strip mall: Office Depot, Wendy’s, Verizon. They were

on Desplaines Avenue, Aiden realized. Penelope had lived right around thecorner.

A pang of wistful sadness penetrated the metallic dread of his anxiety. He ranwith it, summoning images of Penelope. If he could get lost in his head until theride was over, he might stave off the panic attack.

She’d been exactly the kind of woman he’d always dreamed of meeting.Funky and free-spirited, but not so funky and free-spirited that she wasunemployed, heavily into illegal substances, or suffering from borderlinepersonality disorder. She’d worn bright outfits put together from thrift store finds,but still shaved her legs. She was an outlaw who behaved, just what Aidenaspired to be if he ever got his anxiety under control. Even her name was perfect.Penelope. Whimsical and musical, yet if you wanted to bring it down to Earth,temporarily remove some of the whimsy, just shorten it to Penny. They’d onlybeen seeing each other for a few months, but he’d fallen for her hard.

Aiden had thought things were going well, then the day after he’d had an epicpanic attack in her kitchen, he’d gotten the text. He still remembered her wordsverbatim.

I have to say goodbye. I’m having issues I need to sort out. I’m so sorry.Please don’t call.

Issues she needed to sort out. It was an ironic way to tell a clinicalpsychologist that he was way too fucked up for you.

Was she in her apartment at this very moment? It was hard to imagine

Penelope alive in this black world. Maybe he would have time to look for her,once he found Eva and Calvin. Would that be cruel, though? He only hadpermission to bring back his two blood relatives. He doubted there was room fornegotiation on that front.

“There’s what’s left of the fence,” Good Boy called from the front. He divertedthe flashlight to the right, at a towering, gargantuan white pillar that disappearedup into the darkness. The base was almost as wide around as the Wendy’srestaurant beside it.

“What is that?” Gage asked from the way back.“A bone,” Monty said. “That’s all that’s left of the wall. A ring of bones around

the city.”“Take the next left,” Good Boy said to Zeus. He had an old fold-out map in his

lap.Zeus barely slowed.“The transmission we received mentioned the Nunki laying down rules,”

Aiden said. “You’re able to communicate with them?”Beltane formed an L with her arms. “Sign language. Everyone was required to

learn it.”They pulled to a stop. “Here we are,” Zeus said.Aiden fumbled with the door handle, feeling as if every second in reaching

Eva was suddenly crucial.“Don’t get your hopes up,” Zeus called as Aiden climbed out. “If they’re alive,

chances are they moved.”He drew a flashlight from his pack. The front door to the complex was

unlocked, the expansive lobby dark. He found the stairwell leading up.“Aiden, wait for me,” Gage called as the door clicked shut behind Aiden. He

started climbing. He needed to do this himself, alone.Winded, he reached the seventh floor and jogged down the hall to Eva’s door.“Eva.” Aiden pounded on the door, than waited.Nothing.He pounded once more, then tried the door. It was unlocked.“Eva? Calvin?” There were dirty dishes in the sink, empty food wrappers and

boxes piled on the kitchen table.“Calvin?” It was difficult to shout, because he was breathless.Aiden shined the flashlight into Calvin’s bedroom, glimpsed two faces in the

bed, above a hill of blankets. He cried out, rushed toward them, hoping againsthope that they were only sleeping.

They weren’t sleeping.Of course they weren’t; his pounding on the door and shouting their names

would have waked them if they’d been sleeping. Their faces were ghostly whitein the flashlight’s harsh light.

Aiden pulled off his glove, touched Calvin’s cold forehead, still hoping hewould open his eyes, irrational as that hope was. They’d died after the cold set in.Otherwise there would be signs of decomposition.

He spotted a half-empty glass of bright purple liquid on the nightstand. Awhite film caked the frozen surface.

“Oh, no.” Aiden picked up the glass, studied the white film before pointing theflashlight into the adjoining bathroom. A prescription bottle sat open on thecounter, which was smeared with white powder. “I was coming for you. You justneeded to hold on a little longer.”

They’d made it through the plagues, the invasion. The asteroid had killedthem. Aiden’s stupid attempt at humor had killed them.

Aiden kissed Calvin’s cheek, then went around and kissed his sister’s cheek.“I’m sorry,” he whispered.

• • • •

Gage and Shakia were waiting in the lobby.“The Captain called. We have to get back to Grant Park right away,” Shakia

said. “People just keep coming. It’s getting tense.”Aiden nodded.When they climbed back into the van, Beltane took up her spot on Aiden’s lap,

and Zeus pulled out and hung a U-turn.“Hurry,” Shakia said.Beltane patted his knee. “Not there?”It took Aiden a moment to realize she was asking about Eva and Calvin.“They were there.”“Shit. Sorry.”All Aiden could manage was a nod, which was useless because it was dark,

and Beltane was facing the other way.“Good Boy, how about some music?” Beltane said. A moment later, the silence

was broken by a shrieking guitar. Aiden didn’t recognize the song, although theodds that these kids would possess any music Aiden might recognize wasminiscule.

He was glad to be heading back to Red Two, eager to be back among familiarfaces, away from these Lord of the Flies cast members. He knew thatcharacterization was wildly unfair, but he was tired, and stressed. He could stillfeel Calvin’s cold forehead on his fingertips.

“Look out,” Good Boy shouted.The brakes screeched.The van slammed into something. Aiden was hurled into the seat back in front

of him.

• • • •

When Aiden came back to the world, he was on the floor with his cheekpressed to the carpet. Someone was on top of him. With each ragged in-breath, itfelt as if knives were being shoved into his ribcage.

“Good Boy? Where’s Good Boy?” Beltane stepped on Aiden’s leg, climbedinto the front seat. Whoever was on top of him struggled to get up, slipped,landed on him again. Fresh, blinding pain lanced his ribcage.

Warm fluid was dribbling onto the back of his head. Blood.“What did we hit?” someone asked.The door rolled open; a blast of icy air and snow flurries hit Aiden. The

pressure on his back eased; Shakia rolled off of him, to one side. She groaned,semi-conscious.

Aiden got his knees under him.Beltane was in the front passenger seat staring through the wrecked, mostly

missing windshield. Good Boy had gone through it with the flashlight, which wascasting a tight beam of light across the road.

A deep, mournful, rolling bass filled the air. Aiden felt it as a vibration deep inhis belly.

Suddenly everyone was scrambling.“Nunki,” Zeus said. “Jesus, we hit a bus full of Nunki.”A bus of Nunki? Aiden grabbed Shakia’s shoulders and dragged her out of the

van. He fell backward, dropped to the road, grit his teeth to keep from crying out.He lifted Shakia as people rushed past.

Figures loomed in the periphery, outside the school bus they’d collided with.Aiden did not look at them.

A body landed a dozen feet away and lay motionless. Aiden couldn’t tell whoit was. He stumbled blindly into the darkness, carrying Shakia, his ribs in agony

as that terrible booming went on, a tuba from hell. The Nunki were making thesound; he had no doubt. He stumbled across a dozen yards of snow, then reacheda raised surface. Probably a sidewalk.

Behind him, someone screamed. It went on in sharp staccato bursts—thesound of someone in agony—as Aiden dropped off a curb and fell, landing onShakia, scraping his knees on the ice and sending a fresh stab into his ribs. Thedarkness was just about complete, the only light coming from the flashlight GoodBoy had taken through the windshield, now a hundred feet behind them.

He bumped into a smooth concrete wall. A building. Probably a store. Turning,he ran an elbow along the wall to guide him until he reached an open space. Hiselbow brushed the sharp edge of a broken-out store window. He ducked, steppedthrough, walked forward until Shakia bumped the counter of one of the registers.He ducked into the cashier’s station, laid Shakia on the floor and collapsed besideher.

The screaming had stopped. Only the deep metallic boom of the Nunki brokethe silence.

Orange light flashed outside, illuminating the street. Suddenly Aiden couldmake out the front of the store, the parking lot, abandoned vehicles . . .

The temperature seemed to drop twenty degrees as five Nunki carrying torchesstepped into view. Aiden clenched his teeth to stifle a moan.

They were so close together it was difficult to tell where one ended andanother began. They were angular, barbed; some of the firelight passed rightthrough, refracting, casting beams into the air. Some walked upright, others on allfours, or sixes. One seemed to have a dozen limbs. They wore haphazard layersof human clothes—coats, shirts, swatches of fabric draped across their narrowframes. Only their faces and limbs were similar from one to the next, with deep-set eyes and two long teeth like tusks, limbs that were mostly blade-shaped boneand rough skin.

The sight made the Nunki real to Aiden in a way they had not been before.Knowing they were all over the planet, while humans occupied this one tiny spot,filled him with such black despair that he wanted to put a gun to his head and endthis sickening story right then and there. If the handgun he’d been issued hadn’tbeen in his pack in the wrecked van, he would have done it, and fuck hisresponsibility to keep the human race going. The sooner they were all gone, thesooner this nightmare would end for them.

“Aiden.”He helped Shakia sit up. The blood on her forehead and ringing her mouth

looked black in the dim light. She’d broken her nose, had a deep gash above oneeye.

“What happened?” she asked, far too loud.Aiden shushed her. “We hit a bus full of Nunki.”Outside, the light grew suddenly brighter. Aiden rose just high enough to see

over the counter.A Nunki holding a torch passed in front of the store. Aiden froze as it turned

in their direction. The sleeve torn from a heavy winter parka covered the alien’sright arm, but its shoulder and part of its chest were bare. Aiden could see bloodvessels, a beating heart, three bones running horizontally under rough skin.

It moved on.The Nunki in the street were bent over something. Aiden squinted, trying to

make out what it was.One reached down and lifted a can, examining it. It was a can of fruit.

Peaches, or maybe apricots. They were opening it with a knife. Another wasrifling through a backpack, no doubt from the van. It pulled out a tube-shapedcellophane package. Ritz crackers.

“We have to get out of here,” Shakia said.Aiden nodded, transfixed by the scene. They were eating Ritz crackers and

fruit from a can. He even recognized the brand from the label. Del Monte. They’dbeen driving a school bus.

Shakia touched his shoulder. “Out the back.” Her voice was shaky, slurry, likesomeone drifting off to sleep.

He followed her, the two of them crawling down an aisle toward the back ofwhat looked to be a Walgreens or CVS drug store. His side screamed with eachforward slide of his right knee. They pushed through a door, into the totaldarkness of the employees-only area.

Shakia took his clammy hand. “Do you know the way back to Red Two?”“In theory.” It would be difficult to navigate in pitch dark.They felt their way along the wall to the exit, opened the fire door as quietly as

possible.The Nunki must still be having their meal; ambient light from their torches

allowed Aiden to make out a dumpster, and beyond it a paved lot that tilted androlled, because Aiden was suddenly dizzy.

He couldn’t catch his breath; his heart was racing. He dropped to his knees. “Ineed a minute. Just let me . . .”

Shakia touched his shoulder. “Are you hurt?”

“I think I broke some ribs.” If he took shallow breaths it hurt less, but rightnow taking shallow breaths made him feel like he was suffocating. He lay on hisside in the ash-covered snow, curled his knees up and hugged them.

“I’m sorry. Just give me a minute.”Shakia put her hand on his back. “We’re okay now. We’re safe.”Even if they’d really been safe, even if he were back in his room on Mars, it

wouldn’t matter.“A panic attack. Right?” Shakia asked. Her voice had grown clearer, less slurry.He looked up at her. It was hard to concentrate, hard to speak. “You sound like

you know them.”“My son used to get them. Acute anxiety disorder.”Aiden nodded. It went without saying that her son was dead.“Even as a child,” Shakia said. “Anxiety, all the time. It was so hard for him.”Aiden felt grateful for her words. It made him feel less foolish, less weak. “It’s

like crawling through broken glass, every moment of your life.”“You hide it well.”“Do I?” The attack was dissipating a bit, his chest loosening. “I think I’m okay

to walk now. Thanks for talking me through it.” He got unsteadily to his feet.“Thanks for pulling me out of that van. That’s how I got out, isn’t it? You

carried me?”“Yeah.”Aiden snapped a branch off a dead shrub on the edge of the parking lot, and

when it grew too dark to see, he tapped it in front of them the way people whowere blind used canes. He doubled back onto Desplaines a half mile beyond theNunki picnic.

“Do you have a headache?” he asked.“Big time.”“Dizziness? Nausea?”“A little.” Shakia said. “You’re thinking I have a concussion.”“I can evaluate you when we get back.”They leaned on each other like drunken buddies stumbling home from a bar.The silence of the world was startling. Between the darkness, the silence, the

limited palette of scents to pick up on the freezing wind, it was as if this worldhad closed down Aiden’s senses.

Would someone else have come up with the idea to divert TV-188 if he hadn’t?It would be nice to believe that. Maybe he’d just thought of it first.

“Did you see that?” Shakia asked.

Aiden scanned the wall of blackness surrounding them. “More of the dead?”Shakia swatted his forearm. “Don’t be smart. A light. Just a flash, straight

ahead.”Aiden didn’t see anything, but he picked up his pace.“How far ahead?”“Hard to say. Maybe a quarter of a mile?”Aiden squinted into the darkness, but there was nothing. It was possible the

flash Shakia had seen was a symptom of her head injury.“Why don’t you talk a little louder,” a voice to their left said. “I’m not sure the

Nunki can hear you.”White light flashed, revealing Beltane, Gage, and Monty. An instant later,

Beltane flicked off the flashlight she was pointing at the ground, and they were indarkness again.

Aiden felt a hand on him, then Gage was hugging him. “I thought you weredead.”

“So did I.” He raised his voice. “What about your companions?”“Good Boy and Magdalene are dead,” Monty said. “We don’t know about the

rest of them.”“They were driving a school bus,” Shakia said. “Why were they driving a

school bus?”“Because they had somewhere to go, I would imagine,” Beltane shot back.“They had mind-blowing technology—stuff from out of your nightmares,”

Monty said. “There used to be these tubes around, like big veins. The Nunkisqueezed right into them. There were no openings—they just pushed through likethey were stepping inside a soap bubble, and then they would shoot off.”

Veins as transportation. Aiden was so grateful he hadn’t been here to see it.“The wall was so bizarre,” Monty went on. “See-through, just like the Nunki;

the same barbs. Zeus thought all of their technology was based on their ownDNA.”

“We were surrounded by a wall of Nunki flesh and bone,” Beltane said. “Thatsounds about right.”

• • • •

As they crossed the bridge on West Lake and headed downtown, fireswarming people inside houses gave the darkness a softer hue, more gray thanblack. Aiden could make out silhouettes of buildings and light poles. The

occasional figure hurried past, hunched against the bitter cold.The ambient glow grew stronger as they approached Grant Park. Someone ran

past carrying a cardboard box.“What’s that smell?” Beltane asked as they headed down Lakeshore Drive

toward Grant Park.“Smoke,” Aiden said. The smoke had an undertone of something else.

Something bitter, acrid, like burned rubber.In the direction of the park, the air glowed dark red. A thick plume of black

smoke rose.“Oh, no.” Aiden had forgotten about the Captain’s call. Despite the pain, he

jogged, praying the smell was not coming from Red Two.Hundreds of people were milling around the park. Smoke poured from the

open main hatch of Red Two. Around it, the red carbon fiber hull was singedblack.

A man and woman standing with two children were watching nearby.“What happened?” Aiden asked.Scowling, the man gestured toward Red Two. “A bunch of idiots stormed the

ship to get the food in there. Something inside must have caught fire from theirtorches.” He stared at Red Two, his eyes flat. “Half an hour ago, flames were allup the sides of it.”

Bodies lay scattered around the main hatch, people Red Two security musthave shot trying to protect the ship, in the process bringing them all a few babysteps closer to extinction. Personnel were hurrying in and out, hauling salvagefrom Red Two.

Aiden limped toward the ship, following Gage and Shakia, wanting and notwanting to know the status of the ship.

Captain Mahajan was standing amid salvaged equipment. When she saw themher shoulders slumped and she started to turn away. Then Shakia’s bloodied faceregistered and she turned back.

“We were on our way,” Shakia said. “We were in an accident.”“What’s the ship’s status?” Gage asked.Captain Mahajan looked up at him. “The status is, it’s fucked.”

Chapter 10

Aiden nudged the charred skeleton of his suitcase with his foot. There was noneed to touch it; everything that had been inside was ash. Everything that had

been in his room was ash, including his supply of Xanax and Paxil. The wallswere singed charcoal gray, the smoke stench overwhelming, even through thetowel he was holding over his nose and mouth.

There were situations that reliably threw Aiden into a state of icy panic. Publicspeaking. First dates. Other situations were less predictable. Traveling.Performance evaluations. Aiden would have bet his life that becoming stranded ina perpetually dark city surrounded by hostile aliens with no pharmaceuticalsbelonged in the former category, but there he stood, his overriding emotiondespair rather than terror. Maybe he was in shock, and the real onslaught ofanxiety would come later.

Or maybe his adrenal glands had finally given up.He headed back outside.Half a dozen bonfires burned around the perimeter of Red Two, keeping the

darkness at bay, providing the illusion that this was an organized operation,distinct from the anarchy and starvation surrounding it. Aiden knew better. Theyhad no food, little energy. Soon they would be indistinguishable from thedesperate souls looking to them for salvation.

“Aiden.” Mark Adlerberg was coming toward him. “Someone was looking foryou.” Mark looked around, pointed out beyond the bonfires. “There she is.”

She was a frail-looking woman in jeans, a heavy blanket draped over hershoulders. Short hair, sharp cheekbones. It wasn’t until she spotted Aiden andsmiled that he recognized her.

“Penelope?”She rushed toward him. “Aiden? Oh my God, I can’t believe it.” Penelope

hugged him until his broken ribs shrieked. She took a step back and looked athim. “In a million years, I never would have guessed I’d see you again.”

She’d lost thirty pounds and an incisor, but her eyes were still bright,expressive, her smile a big, enthusiastic rectangle.

“Wow. I was beginning to think everyone I knew was dead.”Penelope raised her arms like she was showing off a new dress. “Here I am.

Can’t say it’s been a blast. Want to know what rat tastes like?”“Well, I’ll be re-opening my practice in a couple of days, if you want to make

an appointment.”She folded her arms, looked off into the dark. “No, I’ll be all right.”He put a hand on her shoulder. “Penny, I’m joking.”“No, you should go back to work. People can use your kind of help.”I can’t help these people, he wanted to say. The thought of sitting in an office

across from one of these survivors trying to process everything that had happenedmade him queasy. No one was going to ask him to do that, though. They were toofocused on finding enough to eat, gathering fuel for fires, to worry about theirbroken minds. No, Aiden was sure he was off the hook on that front. His dayswould be filled with healing people’s bodies, using what he could recall from hisdays in med school.

Over Penelope’s shoulder, Aiden spotted Shakia, head down, heading for him.The gash in her forehead had been stitched, an ice pack lashed over her brokennose.

She stepped close, kept her voice low, although there were far fewer people inthe park than there’d been a few hours earlier. “A reconnaissance team spottedNunki in vehicles heading this way.”

Penelope gasped. “They never come into the city.”“That’s what we keep hearing,” Shakia said. “We’re setting up a defense, in

case—”The squeal of brakes stopped her cold. On South Michigan, a school bus came

to a stop. Its doors folded open.A Nunki stepped out.Aiden, Penelope, and Shakia ran for Red Two.Two more buses followed, one a city bus. Aiden wondered if the school bus

they’d collided with had been heading for Red Two as well.The Nunki fanned out, disappearing into the darkness. Aiden couldn’t see

them, but he could hear them. Aiden and the rest of them were pinned, theirbacks to the frozen lake.

“What do we do? What do we do?” someone was shouting.“Set up a perimeter,” Captain Mahajan shouted. “Pile equipment every thirty

feet for cover. If you don’t have a firearm, get one.”They met Gage, with Monty and Beltane, while running to get weapons. The

six of them got to work piling electronics components until they had built a lowwall.

“They’re so hard to kill,” Monty said. “They have, like, six hearts, no vitalorgans except their heads. If you take off one of their limbs, the bleeding juststops after a couple of seconds.”

“I’ve never shot a gun.” Penelope stared down at the rifle in her hands.“I haven’t either,” Gage said. “Just do your best.”He was about to die. This moment, this was the moment of his death. The

relentless flurry of his thoughts and worries would stop spinning, and everything

would go black. He felt strangely ambivalent about it.“Someone should try to talk to them,” Beltane said. She stayed behind the

barricade. Talking to them would require standing clear, an easy target.The baritone bass rumble grew louder, a war cry, an obituary.Aiden guessed this was about revenge. The Nunki had to know the people

who’d arrived on Red Two were responsible for the asteroid. Why else wouldthey suddenly gather to attack the ship after leaving Chicago alone for so long?

Gage was staring at him, his teeth chattering despite the bonfires.“What?”Gage shook his head. “Nothing.”Beside him, Beltane was hopping from foot to foot like she needed to pee.The buses lurched forward, swung around and rolled across the frozen ground

toward Red Two, spreading as they approached. Aiden felt a dread thatsuperseded fear, drilling into his spine like black poison, freezing him solid.

“They’re using the buses for cover,” someone shouted. Aiden could seefootfalls behind the buses.

“Shoot the tires,” Gage shouted.Aiden closed one eye and opened fire as gunfire filled the air, the rattle of

automatic weapons accompanied by the crack of handguns. Windshields shatteredas some shot at the drivers, although Aiden didn’t see drivers.

The buses kept coming. Unless someone hit the tires and that actually stoppedthe buses, the Nunki would ram right through their pathetic cover.

Suddenly someone was running toward the buses. Beltane—it was Beltane inher jeans and filthy ski jacket. Aiden hadn’t seen her go, but she was in the open,her arms waving like a signaler directing a jet to its gate.

“Stop shooting,” Aiden screamed.Behind him, Mahajan was shouting, “Cease fire.”Beltane ran right at the closest bus, waving her arms in the same pattern over

and over.It looked as if the bus was going to run right over her; then it slowed, rolled to

a stop. Beltane went on signing. The pattern shifted to a new message.A lone Nunki appeared from behind the bus—a big one with six limbs,

holding what looked like a human-made RPG. The Nunki waved its free limbs.Monty muttered under his breath. “Ship. Ice.”“What?” Aiden looked at Monty. “What’s it saying?”Monty shook his head violently, signaling Aiden to shut up as he went on

mumbling. “Leave. Ice.” Monty inhaled sharply, shouted, “They want the ship. All

they want is the ship.” He stepped into the open. “If we walk away, out onto theice and away, they say they won’t kill us.”

The ship? The ship was scrap.How would the Nunki know that, though? They must have seen it land, and

the smoke had stopped billowing from it three or four hours ago. They probablydidn’t know about the fire.

Aiden chuckled to himself. They wanted off this frozen rock as badly as he.Though even operational, Red Two wouldn’t get them out of the neighborhood.Maybe they thought they could improve it.

“Tell them we agree,” Mahajan called to Beltane. “Tell them we’ll leave.”Beltane waved her arms. The Nunki signaled back.“They want two people to stay behind to show them how to operate it,” Monty

called to the captain.“Shit,” Gage hissed.The Captain glanced around. “Welch. Will you stay behind with me?”After a long pause, Welch called, “No. I’m sorry, no.” Allen Welch was their

chief engineer, so he made sense. Aiden couldn’t blame him for balking, though.Who wanted to tell these Nunki they’d taken possession of junk?

Beltane looked back at the Captain, hands on her hips. “Get a clue, lady. Youneed someone who knows how to talk to them.” She signed something to theNunki, took a few steps back. “I’ll stay.”

People began breaking ranks, jogging toward the frozen lake. Shakia steppedout from behind their makeshift wall. “I’ll be the second. You go on, Captain.”

Startled, Aiden said, “You’re not an engineer.”“What’s to know?” Shakia looked the ship up and down. “It doesn’t work.”

She turned to the captain. “Get everyone out of here before they change theirminds.”

Mahajan nodded. “Thank you, Shakia.” She raised her voice. “Let’s go.” Halfthe crew were already a hundred yards out on the lake and heading along theshoreline.

Aiden watched people hurry past. He desperately wanted to join them, but hisfeet wouldn’t budge.

What would he say to Shakia as he left? Bye. Good luck. I’m out of here?No one would be surprised. At one time or another, they’d all seen him curled

in the fetal position, shaking. Certainly Penelope wouldn’t be surprised.He turned to Penelope, who was looking at him expectantly, and put a hand on

her shoulder. “You go on. I’m going to stay.” His own words shocked him.

Maybe unconsciously he really did want to die, to escape this hellish place. Ormaybe he thought he deserved to die, for the part he played in making it this way.

Penelope opened her mouth to say something, but Aiden nudged her. “Go on.Get out of here.”

He watched her for a second, to make sure she went. Gage was standing, riflein hand, halfway between Red Two and the lake, looking uncertain. Aiden wavedfor him to go, then turned to catch up to Shakia, who was walking through thewell-trampled snow, out to where Beltane waited.

Aiden wasn’t sure he could make it. His legs were rubbery, and he needed abathroom.

Four Nunki came out from behind the buses, three more clambered outthrough the doors. No wonder they’d agreed to the armistice so quickly. It wasn’tmuch of a force.

Their black, sclera-less eyes were ringed by a ridge of bone or muscle thatmade them appear deeply inset. One turned at just the right angle, and Aidencaught a glimpse of red flames from the bonfire, right through the center of itschest.

As they led the Nunki toward the ship, Beltane began signing.“What are you saying?” Shakia asked.“I’m telling them about the ship.” She went on signing.“What exactly are you saying,” Shakia said.Beltane cursed. “Ship burned.” Her words dripped impatience, contempt.

“Hungry people. Torches. Accident. Now let me do this. They’ll kill us in asecond if I upset them. They’ll probably kill us anyway once they realize wefucked them over.”

The big Nunki replied.“They want to see for themselves,” Beltane said.As they stepped into the dark, burned-out interior, one of the smaller Nunki

began to glow. Aiden watched their faces by the Nunki’s bluish light. The thickmuscles around their eyes stretched into a ridge, but he had no idea what thatmeant. They could be sad, or furious; it could even be a means ofcommunication.

They walked the Nunki through the bridge and the propulsion room.The big Nunki signed again.“Big rock sky,” Beltane translated.Somehow, Aiden’s heart found a higher gear.More signing from the Nunki.

“You pushed big rock.”“Tell it, we were trying to deflect it away, but weren’t able to,” Shakia said.Beltane gave her a poisonous glare. “I have a couple hundred really basic

words to work with.” She took a deep, whooshing breath. “Should I tell them,no? Just, no?”

“Tell them yes,” Aiden said.Shakia and Beltane turned.“They’re not stupid. They made the same calculations we did and figured out it

was going to miss. By the time we deflected it, it was too late for them to react,but they know what happened.”

“I didn’t do it, though,” Beltane said. “You did. Only, I don’t know how to tellthem that, so they’re going to kill me, too.”

“How do I sign ‘me’?” Aiden asked. “‘I did it’?”Beltane’s mouth fell open. “You just make an ‘L’ with your forearms for ’me’.”“Hang on,” Shakia said, grasping Aiden’s upper arm. “You didn’t do it.”Aiden turned to the Nunki and made an L. Then he shit his pants. If anyone

noticed, they didn’t say anything.The Nunki stared at the L, then raised its eyes to meet Aiden’s. Aiden kept his

arms in position, waited for it to raise the rifle clutched in one of its seven- oreight-fingered limbs.

It signed something.“What did it say?” Aiden asked.“Bad,” Beltane said.Aiden wiped sweat from his eyes with the back of his hand. “What’s the sign

for ‘yes’?”“Press your fists together.”Aiden pressed his fists together and held them there. There were a lot of other

things he’d like to add—that it had been bad of the Nunki to slaughter humanity,for instance—but given the constraints of this system of communication, ‘yes’seemed sufficient.

The Nunki signed again.“Give me food,” Beltane translated.“Christ, does anyone have any food?” Shakia asked, patting her pockets.“Here.” Aiden dug into a pocket of his coat, pulled out a bag.“It’s not meat, is it?” Beltane asked. “They get angry if you try to give them

meat.”“Trail mix.” Aiden approached the Nunki, set the bag in its open hand.

“No more,” Beltane said as she signed.The Nunki with the trail mix headed for the door. Its companions followed.Aiden, Shakia, and Beltane stood perfectly still. The glow of the Nunki

receded until they were standing in darkness. The cabin reeked from Aiden’s shit,but for once Aiden was beyond embarrassment. All he felt was relief.

Nunki were pragmatic. Aiden thought he could conclude that much. Theyweren’t interested in revenge, only survival. They’d avoided a fight when offeredthe opportunity. Even with their enemy right in front of them, they’d walked awaybecause there was nothing to gain from killing them.

Of course, all of that could be completely wrong. They had, after all, killedpeople after the bus crash.

“Come on.” Shakia took Aiden’s hand. Aiden reached out and foundBeltane’s. Slowly, carefully, they inched their way outside, where the fires hadbecome embers and the darkness was pushing down from above.

“Aiden.” It was Penelope, her low call coming from the direction of the lake.Aiden followed her voice, stepping gingerly because of the crap in his pants.

He raised a hand when he spotted her coming out of the darkness. As she drewclose she stopped, folded her arms and considered him. “Wow. Never in a millionyears would I have pegged you as the hero type.”

Maybe she meant it purely as a compliment, but there was a backhanded insultembedded in her praise. “Penelope, I have a disorder. A disease. It cranks up thevolume on my fear. Sometimes that volume is so loud I can’t hear myself think,but that doesn’t mean I don’t have a spine.”

Penelope looked surprised. “Where did that come from? Who said you had nospine?”

“You called it off between us after I had a panic attack in your apartment. Youdidn’t have to say it.”

Penelope threw back her head and shrieked with laughter, startling Aiden.“What?” Aiden could feel his face turning red. “What part of that is funny to

you?”She covered her mouth, crippled with laughter, a tear trailing down her cheek.

The others, who’d moved away to give them some privacy, looked back, unusedto the sound of laughter.

“I don’t understand what’s so funny.”Penelope struggled to control herself. She straightened to face him. “I have

cancer. I dumped you when I found out. We’d only known each other a fewweeks, and I didn’t have the energy for someone new. I wanted to be with my

friends and family.”Aiden’s pounding heart felt as if it suddenly stopped beating altogether. He put

a hand over his mouth, feeling like such a jackass, like a self-centered, self-absorbed, narcissistic jackass.

“Are you all right now?” he asked.Penelope folded her arms, looked at the ground. “No, Aiden, I’m not all right.

I was supposed to get all of these fancy treatments, stem-cell this and chemo that,and then the Nunki came and that was that.” She shrugged, lifting her shouldersnearly to her ears before letting them drop. It was one of her little mannerismsAiden had so cherished during their brief time together.

“I’m so sorry.”“Yeah, well, odds are the Nunki will get me before the cancer does. Or the

cold, or starvation.” She gave him a deadpan look. “I may outlive you, given yourpenchant for heroics.”

This time the words made him flush. His penchant for heroics. The phrase wasthe sweetest music coming from Penelope. That goodbye text from her really hadbeen a tipping point, he realized. It had been the last straw, the indignation thatpushed him over the edge. He’d built her up as some sort of in-absentia arbiter ofhis worth as a human being.

She’d been the reason he volunteered to go to Mars, wasn’t she? He wanted toprove to her, and consequently himself, that he wasn’t a coward. Gage had said asmuch.

How had he not seen it before?“What?” Penelope was watching his face.“I’m just now realizing that I volunteered to go to Mars to prove to you I

wasn’t a coward. I signed up for a mission to outer space, all because of my owninsecure, neurotic interpretation of why you ended our very brief relationship.How fucked up is that?”

Penny nodded. “That’s pretty fucked up. Although whatever the reason, youwere lucky to get out of here. You have no idea.”

Aiden considered. It was possible his anxiety had saved his life. That seemedstrangely appropriate. It owed him.

Penny looked up at the dark sky. “Do you know how long it’s going to bebefore the sun comes out?”

“Two or three more years. Figure a thousand days.” Right now that seemed aneternity, like a thousand-foot-high wall Aiden would have to scale if he was goingto survive. When had his life not felt that way, though?

Chapter 11

Penelope was buried under so many blankets it was difficult to tell for certainthat she was breathing. Not that Aiden thought she was at risk of respiratoryfailure or cardiac arrest at this point; it just seemed if you went to check onsomeone, you should make sure she was breathing.

Penelope rolled to face him. He pointed the little flashlight away so it wouldn’thurt her eyes.

“Hey.” Her voice was blurry with sleep.“Just checking on you.”“You’re sweet. I’m okay. Just tired.”She’d been sleeping for twelve hours straight. Every day she seemed more

fatigued. Aiden wasn’t an oncologist, but without treatment he didn’t think shehad more than a few months.

“You need more water?” He lifted her cup; it was almost empty.“My guardian angel. What an idiot I was for breaking up with you. Worst

mistake of my life.”The words felt good. He’d never had someone to take care of before, unless

you counted Wilhelm, the Basset Hound he owned in his twenties. It took thefocus off his own fear, to worry about Penelope.

By the time he refilled the water cup on her night table from the pitcher, shewas asleep again. He closed the door behind him as gently as he could.

In the living room the fire was roaring, rendering the room toasty-warm.Aiden sat on the floor in front of the fire while Beltane talked about beingassaulted by Nunki before the invasion began. Aiden had heard the condensedversion a couple of days earlier: the Nunki had grabbed her in the woods whenshe snuck out of a drug rehab facility to get drunk, took blood and tissue samples,then released her. No one believed her outlandish story until the invasion began.

“I found seven other people online who had the same thing happen to them,”Beltane was saying. “No one believed them, either.”

The Nunki had obviously used the blood and tissue samples to create theplagues they released—one viral, the other prion-based, both efficient enough tokill billions. The Nunki were centuries ahead of humans in terms ofbiotechnology. They could probably cure Penelope in a few minutes if theywanted.

Aiden inhaled sharply. They could, couldn’t they? They could restore her tothe spark plug she’d been when he first met her at Gage’s party.

They wouldn’t, though. They’d wiped out ninety-nine point nine percent ofthe human race; why would they make the slightest effort to save one person?

Gage settled on the floor next to him. It was amazing how well-groomed helooked—clean-shaven, hair combed. Hell, his hair looked freshly trimmed.

“I’m leaving tomorrow, seven a.m. Shakia’s coming with. We could use yourhelp—”

“With what? Fighting off Nunki?” Aiden pointed at Beltane. “It’s her help youneed.”

“I’m going to ask her next, but right now I’m asking you.” Gage shifted so hewas facing Aiden more directly. “The thing is, I want to see my daughter again. Idon’t know if you can truly understand what it feels like, to know my little girl isout there in the dark. I have to find her.”

Aiden stood. Yes, how could he possibly understand what it felt like to lovesomeone? “Well, good luck.” He went into the library that adjoined the livingroom. He studied book spines on the built-in bookshelf by the orange lightfiltering in from the living room, pulled a book at random, took it to a leatherchair, and opened it.

He kept reading the first sentence over and over, unable to make it stick. Hecouldn’t shake the idea that the Nunki could cure Penelope, if they chose.

A hand settled on the armrest. Aiden looked up to find Shakia standing overhim.

“How is Penelope?”Aiden considered how best to answer. “I’d say she’s a month or two away

from becoming very sick, when she’ll need morphine, assuming there’s any to befound.”

Shakia pressed her hand to his cheek. “Are you in love with her?”The question startled Aiden. “I don’t know her well enough to know if I’m in

love with her or not. I’m caring for her because I’m a doctor, and she needs mycare.”

Shakia gave him an impatient look. “Of course you know. Do you love her, ordon’t you?”

Aiden shook his head. “I’m not going to let myself go there. Falling in lovewith her would only make it harder to lose—”

Shakia smacked him in the side of the head, just above his ear.“Ow.” He pressed his hand over the spot. “That hurt.”“You’re tied up in knots. Your heart is so good, but you’re tied up in knots. Do

you love her? Yes or no.”

“Yes.” The word burst out without Aiden knowing it was coming, but it feltright. He loved her. Yes. Fine. That was accurate, or at least as accurate asemotions got.

“Say it.”It was hard to get the words out. He felt oddly ashamed forming them, letting

them reach his lips. Why was that? If he felt it, why did he feel ashamed to say italoud?

Because he felt unworthy. Not just unworthy of Penelope’s love, but unworthyto love her, whether she loved him back or not. He felt unworthy to lovesomeone.

Aiden closed his eyes, and forced the words out. “I love her. I love Penelope.”Shakia nodded. “Good. I know she’s dying, and I know you believe there

won’t be anything left of her after she dies, but love her while you can. That’s agift you can give her. And yourself.”

Aiden’s chest hitched, his throat clenched. She was right. Of course she wasright.

Shakia pointed at his nose and, more gently, said, “And let those tears come ifthey want to. You’re all tied up in knots.”

As his tears flowed, Shakia held him. He thought he could feel just a few ofthe knots untangling.

He should be taking notes, he thought. Shakia was a better psychiatrist than hewas.

Chapter 12

As soon as he closed his eyes, images of Nunki loomed. He never wanted tosee one again. He wanted to stay by this fire and eat canned pork and beans untilthe sun came out.

If he did, though, Penny would die. She had one chance, and that involvedAiden walking up to one of those monsters and asking for help.

Why would they help him, though? Could he offer a trade? Food in exchangefor healing her? He didn’t know for sure they could heal her in their current post-apocalyptic state, didn’t know if they were so advanced that any one of themwould know what to do, or if he needed to find the Nunki equivalent of an MD.Or a vet.

Nunki loomed in the corners of his vision. He saw them tearing Beltane andMonty’s friends apart after the bus accident, heard the thud of a body landing in

the black snow.He was exhausted from thinking about this, but the train of thought was locked

in now; he couldn’t stop it. There was a chance he could save Penelope, but itinvolved doing something he could not, in a million years, do. It was the ultimateapproach-avoidance conflict, and it had him paralyzed.

Penelope appeared in her doorway, looking pale but rested.Aiden’s heart fluttered. The feeling was familiar in a nostalgic way, from a

thousand unrequited teenage crushes. It had been so long since he’d allowedhimself to feel such unfettered love for another human being.

He loved her. He did. She didn’t have to love him back; he didn’t even have totell her, but he was allowed to feel it.

“How are you?” he asked as she sank onto the couch beside him.“Better. Normal, almost.” Her eyes grew comically wide. “Want to go dancing?

I know this great club.”Aiden laughed. “I’ve got a better idea. You up for a road trip?”Penelope tilted her head. “Where to?” She thought he was joking, like her.“Straight to hell, actually.”He explained his idea, the words rushing out in panicked breaths as he realized

he was giving himself no chance to back out.

Chapter 13

Aiden kept his eyes on the tight tunnel of light cutting through the blackness.He was clutching the armrest in a death grip as the road flew by. Who in God’sname had decided Beltane should take a turn driving?

Beside him, Penelope was leaning her head back on the headrest, her eyesclosed. She wasn’t well; the last time he’d checked she had a fever of onehundred point five. He was worried she might have developed an infection in hercompromised state.

“I’ve been thinking about this movie I saw when I was a kid,” Beltane said,one hand on the wheel. “I don’t remember the name. Billy Bob Thornton was init. He played a guy who built his own rocket ship from scrap metal and flew tothe moon.”

“I saw that,” Penelope said without opening her eyes. “I don’t remember thename, either. The government tried to stop him.”

“That’s the one. So, I get that the ship you guys flew in is fucked. What I don’tget is why you can’t build another.”

Gage chuckled from the back. “Because this ain’t a movie.”“No, but in the movie one guy did it, and we have a hundred. And we

wouldn’t have to pay for anything. We can take what we want. We can’t makeone rocket out of everything in Chicago?”

Aiden couldn’t see anything out the side window. It was a solid wall of black.“I guess theoretically you could do it, but without a trillion dollars’ worth of

quality control and technical support, you’re going to make a dozen mistakes. Itwould just be a matter of which killed you first.”

“So what you’re saying is, better to sit tight and wait till the sun comes out andthe Nunki rebuild the wall,” Beltane said.

“You heard the population estimate from the census team, didn’t you?” Shakiasaid. “Four to five thousand. That’s a lot of ships, unless we’re only looking tosave ourselves.”

“Hell, yes, I’m looking to save myself,” Beltane shot back.Four to five thousand. Even if they combined the surviving population on

Earth with the population on Mars, it was barely enough to have an outsidechance at saving the human species, based on Paula Peavy’s analysis. And dozensof people were dying in Chicago every day.

He glanced at Penelope. It wasn’t only about the species, though; individualsmattered, too.

Penelope noticed him looking at her. She reached over, laced her fingers withhis and squeezed. Aiden squeezed back. A warm shiver ran through him. It wasthe first sign Penny had given that there was something between them, thatperhaps she loved him, too.

The van slowed. Beltane leaned forward, peered into the darkness. “We needto find gas pretty soon.”

Monty pointed the flashlight to one side, painting light across apartmentbuildings set on a snow-covered rise.

They found a station a few miles on. Monty got the hose and ice pick out ofthe back and got to work filling the tank.

Aiden watched as he chipped away frozen snow, exposing the circular hatchleading to the underground tank. He began feeding the hose into the tank. Once itwas in place he’d have to suck the gasoline up the hose.

A moment later he was reeling the hose back out, double-time. He hurriedback to the van.

“Flashes of blue light up the street. Nunki.”It was the opportunity Aiden had been waiting for, but the news made him feel

as if was falling into a black pit. He squeezed Penelope’s hand, then let it go andopened the door. “Here we go.”

“Guys, I know you’re sick of hearing me say this, but this is a terrible idea,”Gage said. “These are monsters. They’re not going to play doctor, they’re going tocut you both down in your tracks.”

“I agree with Gage,” Shakia said. “Bad, bad idea. Just get in. We’ll make a runfor it.”

Head down, Aiden went around and swung open the rear hatch. “Somebodyhelp me with this, please.”

Sighing, Gage helped him lift down the laundry basket filled with food. Itseemed like a meager offering in exchange for someone’s life, but it was all theycould afford.

As they set it down, Penny strained to lift it. “I told you: You don’t have tocome. Either they’ll help or they won’t; there’s no point in you risking your life aswell.”

Aiden pulled his pack out of the back, shrugged it on. “You ready?”Shakia gave him a fierce hug, then Gage offered a hand. “We’ll swing back

around tomorrow.” He pointed into the dark. “There’s a Holiday Inn over there.Try to find that, and wait inside.”

If they made it. That went without saying.Monty handed Aiden a flashlight. They set off toward the approaching sound

of Nunki, each carrying one handle of the basket. Aiden aimed the flashlight high,creating a beacon the Nunki couldn’t miss. His heart was racing, his stomach asick knot.

The mournful bellow of a Nunki was met by a second, joining almost inharmony.

“I’m so scared,” Penny said.Aiden spotted a diffuse blue glow ahead and to their left.“There they are. I’ll carry the basket, you sign ‘food’ and ‘sick.’”As Penelope handed over the basket and began signing, the blue glow was

joined by two others—one to their right, the other straight ahead. They’d fannedout.

A Nunki appeared from behind a Ruby Tuesday restaurant, moving on all fourof its limbs, half a thrift-shop’s worth of clothes hanging from it. At one momentit seemed to Aiden like a giant insect, the next it appeared startlingly humanoid. Itraised up on its hind legs and signed. Penny and Monty had taught Aiden a fewhundred signs, but his mind was a blank.

“It says to stop,” Penelope said.Aiden set the basket down and raised his hands.He managed not to cry out when the crunch of footsteps in the snow was

suddenly right behind them. He turned, arms still raised.A huge Nunki—ten feet tall at least—loomed over him. It lashed out with one

of its eight limbs, grabbed Aiden by the forearm and lifted him into the air. Itgrabbed Penny as well, then carried them off.

Even if Aiden could remember a single sign, he only had one free hand, so hegrit his teeth against the lancing pain radiating from his forearm and waited. Ithadn’t killed them on the spot. That seemed a good sign. It made little sense for itto carry them away just to kill them somewhere else.

It took them to the Ruby Tuesday’s, entered through a broken-out section ofthe front windows, and set them down among upended tables and chairs, wherethree more Nunki waited.

As soon as her arms were free, Penelope began signing.Sick, Aiden recognized. Then another word, then me. Help— the second word

was help.The smallest Nunki responded, the ridge around its eyes flexing as it did so.

Aiden couldn’t follow; he looked to Penny.“‘Fix machines?’ It wants to know if we know how to fix machines.” Penny

signed, No.It signed again.“‘Question mark.’ I think it wants to know what we can do. Like, ‘What good

are you? Tell us why we shouldn’t kill you.’” She signed again. “I’m telling themI do ‘computer talk.’ Though, I don’t know what good that is to them.”

With trembling hands, Aiden tried to sign himself. Fix people.The Nunki signed at him. He looked at Penny. “What did it say?”“‘You fix people?’”Aiden signed, Yes. No fix her. You fix her?Go vehicle, it signed.The big one grasped his arm, turned him around and led him toward a

Hummer parked beside the restaurant. They directed Aiden to the driver’s seat,and Penelope into the back. A four-limbed Nunki climbed into the passenger seat,a six-legged one squeezed into the back, crowding Penny into a corner of her seat.Their limbs were bony, with hooked spurs at the joints that looked sharp. Flaps ofparchment-like skin stretched between their limbs and torsos like webbing.

“They want you to drive,” Penny said. “Turn left out of the parking lot.”

Aiden started the Hummer, put it in drive. He could barely feel his fingers,partly because of the cold but mostly because he was terrified. He was in a vehiclewith Nunki; it felt like being in a vehicle full of spiders and snakes.

As he turned, he risked the slightest glance at the Nunki in the passenger seat.It didn’t look comfortable—both sets of joints in its lower limbs bent the oppositeway, so it couldn’t sit and have what passed for its legs on the floor at the sametime.

He’d driven about a mile before he mustered the courage to turn on the heat.

Chapter 14

At first Aiden thought he might be hallucinating the glow of light in thedistance. He felt like he’d been driving for days, although based on the ebb andflow from gray skies to black it had been more like twenty-four hours. As theycleared a rise, streetlights shone white in a vast, empty parking lot surrounding along, modern-looking orange-brown building.

“Turn right.” Penny sounded exhausted. She’d slept some, but sleeping uprightin an SUV was hardly the kind of rest a cancer patient needed, especially one whohad a secondary infection. And she did. Aiden hoped it was just a cold, orsomething else innocuous.

They came to an open gate, passed a sign that drew Aiden fully alert.J. Craig Venter Institute for Genomic Research.Finally, he knew where they’d been heading, although he still didn’t

understand why.Unless. His flagging hopes soared. Unless they needed instruments here to heal

Penelope? Would they go to all this trouble to help a human? Aiden had no idea.They were led inside, through dark hallways, up a flight of steps, to a clean,

well-lit lab where wheeled stools had been stacked in a corner and Nunki of allshapes and sizes moved about with purpose.

Aiden spotted a human—a woman in her sixties or seventies wearing a whitelab coat, bent over a printout.

“Hello,” Aiden called.The woman flinched in surprise.Her name was Valerie Hearst—she’d been a physiologist at the University of

Chicago. As she shook Aiden’s hand, she looked from Aiden to Penelope, whowas feverish, her forehead damp. “Are either of you geneticists?”

“No. I’m an MD. A psychiatrist. Penelope is a web designer. She has cancer—

late-stage non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma.”“I’m sorry to hear it.”Aiden looked around. “What’s going on here?”Valerie followed his gaze. “I’ll tell you what I know, or what I think I know.

The Nunki aren’t exactly chatty.” She gave him a tight, humorless smile. “I thinkthey were struggling to survive in this environment even before the asteroid hit.I’m not sure if it’s the temperature alone, the composition of our atmosphere, orwhat. They were working on incorporating human DNA into their physiology.That’s why they let everyone in Chicago live—to serve as a gene pool. Then theasteroid hit, and killed off most of their technology. It knocked them back athousand years. They have the knowledge, but not the equipment to adaptthemselves. So now they’re trying to adapt human technology.”

“They’d introduce an alien race’s DNA into their own bodies?” Aiden tried toimagine how he’d react if someone suggested introducing Nunki DNA into hisgenome. Nothing was more him than his DNA.

“They alter their DNA routinely.” She gestured toward the Nunki hard at workaround the lab. “That’s why they’re all so different from one other. Their childrenchoose their own morphology when they reach a certain age, as a rite of passage.At least they did until the asteroid hit.”

They altered their own structure at the DNA level. It was remarkable, andrepulsive.

He glanced at Penelope. Her eyes were glassy. Whatever she had, it was gettingworse. “If they can do all that, surely they can help Penelope.”

Aiden’s words seemed to startle Valerie. “How exactly did you end up here?They took you from Chicago, right? Someone told the Nunki you were a doctor?”

Aiden shook his head. “We went to them. They’re Penny’s only chance.”Valerie raised one eyebrow. “You’ve got iron balls, doctor. I’ll give you that.

As far as I can tell, the Nunki aren’t in the healing business.” She shrugged. “Butyou can ask.”

Aiden looked around. “Who would I ask?”She chuckled dryly. “I’ve been here for three months and I still have no idea

who’s in charge.”Swallowing, Aiden chose a Nunki at random, walked up to it, pointed at

Penelope and signed, Her sick. You fix?The Nunki signed, No.Who fix? He signed back.The Nunki came toward him. Aiden raised his hands defensively, sure it was

going to attack, but it brushed past and went to Valerie, signing furiously. Aidencouldn’t follow it.

“It wants me to give you work to do. You’re going to have to get up to speedon sign language, then you’ll be translating journal articles and locating medicalequipment.”

“What about Penny?”Valerie fixed him with a hard stare. “It said no. Don’t ask again, at least for a

few days. They will kill you if you get under their skin. Believe me. They killedmy husband.”

• • • •

By the next morning, Penelope’s breathing was labored, her fever high. Aidenand Valerie had set her up on a couch in an administrative office, and Aidenfound IV bags in one of the unused labs and set one up. Valerie offered a packetof Amoxicillin; he gave Penelope two tablets.

Then he went to work, learning Nunki sign language. Valerie taught him whilesimultaneously working on her primary project, whatever it was. Aiden didn’treally care.

He watched the Nunki out of the corner of his eye, trying to figure out whichseemed to know what was going on, and which were workers taking directions.The problem was, he didn’t even know how they communicated. His guess was ithad to do with those ridges around their eyes.

They moved around a great deal, but most of them, regardless of their size orthe number of limbs they possessed, seemed to have one lab station they keptreturning to. Except one, who seemed to spend a more or less equal amount oftime at each station. It was large, with eight limbs. Aiden figured it must be eitherhigher status than the others, or lower.

It took Aiden about an hour to muster the courage to approach it.When the Nunki moved close to his station, Aiden went up to it and signed,

Person sick. Will die soon. You fix person? He’d learned a few new key wordsfrom Valerie.

The Nunki turned away. Heart pounding, Aiden followed. He positionedhimself in the Nunki’s field of vision and repeated the message.

No, it signed.Aiden had learned another crucial word from Valerie. He signed it now.Why?

Fix Nunki, the Nunki signed back, and turned away.“Aiden,” Valerie called. She waved him over emphatically. “It won’t give you

any warning. You see the barb on its limb, between the wrist and the elbow?”Aiden nodded.“It will shove that barb into your throat, as casually as you would pick a

daisy.”Aiden watched the Nunki, hope draining from him, like his blood would if he

persisted.Fix Nunki. Those two words spoke volumes to Aiden.“I’m going to check on Penelope.”“Don’t be long.” As Aiden turned away, she added, “I’m sorry, Aiden.”Penelope was awake. Her breathing was labored, her temperature over 103.

She wasn’t responding to the antibiotics.“Am I dying?” she asked as he checked her pulse.“It’s just a respiratory infection.” He fiddled with her IV line, although it was

working perfectly.Penelope reached out, took his hand and drew it to her. He stopped fiddling.“I do want the truth. You know, in case you’re being kind.”Aiden nodded. If she wanted the truth, she had the right to hear it. “You could

still beat this, but . . .”She nodded, her eyes shining with tears. “But I probably won’t. That’s what I

figured.”“I’m working on the Nunki. I’m going to ask again as soon as I leave here.

They could still come through.”Penelope reached up and pressed her hand to Aiden’s cheek. “Just stay with

me, as much as you can. That’s all I want. I feel so much better when you’re here.Almost not afraid at all.”

Aiden wiped tears from his cheek with the back of his sleeve. “Let me try oncemore. I’ll be right back, and I’ll stay unless they drag me away.”

He ran down the hallway, up the stairs to the lab, spotted the eight-limbedNunki by the bank of windows. Aiden stepped right in front of him, signed, Fixperson.

No.If there was a sign for “please,” Aiden didn’t know it, so he kept signing, Fix

person, Fix person, Fix person—The Nunki clubbed Aiden in the side of the head, knocking him into a table.

His legs buckled and he dropped to the floor.

Aiden tried to climb to his hands and knees, but his arms kept giving out. Hisears were ringing, and blood was dripping onto the white tile floor.

The ringing in his ears receded. Aiden managed to rise to his hands and kneesand crawl away, leaving a trail of blood.

“Are you all right?”Aiden crawled right past Valerie, into the hall. A Nunki passed him without a

glance.When it was gone, Aiden struggled to his feet, using the wall for support. He

touched the side of his head, found a deep gash above his ear, a few inches long.In the medical supply room, where he’d found the IV bags, he located

pressure bandages. After washing the cut in a basin of dishwater left in the hall,he bandaged the wound.

When he got back to the room Penelope was either sleeping or unconscious.Her breathing was shallow, ragged. He wondered if there was a respirator in thebuilding somewhere. This was a research facility, though, not a hospital.

When he dabbed her forehead with a damp hand towel, her eyes flutteredopen.

“Good,” she whispered. She reached up, took his hand.Aiden expected a Nunki to show up at the door any moment, but he stayed.She had to pause every few words when she spoke. “I overheard you talking

about big band music. That’s why I came up and introduced myself. In case youwere wondering.”

It took Aiden a moment to follow what she was talking about. Gage’s party,where they’d met. Penelope had come up to him out of the blue.

“You don’t like big band music, though. Do you?”Penelope shook her head. “But I knew you’d be interesting. Different. A guy

your age, going on about Brazilian big band and Marlene Dietrich.”“Most people don’t see those interests as a plus.”“Yeah, well, most people are dufuses.” She closed her eyes. “I’m going to

sleep now. Love you.”“I love you, too,” he said, but Penelope was already asleep, and Aiden wasn’t

sure if she heard him.Her breathing grew shallow, more labored.Aiden watched her sleep. She sank to a point where Aiden knew if he tried to

wake her, he wouldn’t be able to. He dabbed her face with the towel, spoke to hersoftly so she’d know he was still there.

She took one last breath, big and full like a gasp, then exhaled slowly and was

still. Aiden held her hand as numbness enveloped him.What was there left to worry about? He’d lost Eva and Calvin. Now Penelope.

Chicago’s population had dwindled well below the threshold where there was anyhope of the species surviving, so even his personal survival meant nothing in theend. So what was there now?

He kissed Penelope’s cheek and drew the sheet over her head.

Chapter 15

The eight-legged Nunki signed to him:Centrifuge broken. We find another.Which meant Aiden find another, while OctoNunki watch him. Aiden didn’t

understand why the Nunki didn’t send a lackey to guard Aiden when he left thepremises to locate equipment. Maybe his buddy Octo wanted to learn how tosalvage without relying on Aiden.

Aiden signed Yes, and followed the Nunki into the parking lot, trying to thinkof the nearest hospital that would have a full-sized centrifuge, whilesimultaneously seething with hatred for this creature. For this creature inparticular, who’d had the power to save Penelope’s life.

It was an effort to climb down the three flights of steps, even more of an effortto think about centrifuges. For the first time in his life, his anxiety had seriouscompetition: depression. It was as if the darkness of the world had poured in andfilled his heart and soul.

He burned with guilt for helping Nunki survive in exchange for his own life.The Nunki would solve their own problems and bask in the sun’s return, whilethe human race died out.

The Nunki stowed a duffel bag of tools in the back seat as it squeezed into theHummer’s passenger seat. Aiden was certain the Nunki had the knowledge tosave humanity from extinction even now, past their natural population tippingpoint, if they chose. Aiden’s eight-legged chaperone might know enough to do itsinglehandedly. But it wouldn’t. Fix Nunki. That was all that mattered to them. Ifthey’d placed any value on human life, they wouldn’t have invaded in the firstplace.

They could rewrite their own genome, add limbs and hearts, make themselvesluminescent, and not just in the womb but after. It was astonishing. If humanscould do the same, they could engineer their physiology to survive in Mars’atmosphere and be free of those damned suffocating habitrails. Now that would

increase their chances of survival. Hell, theoretically they could engineerthemselves to photosynthesize sunlight rather than eat.

What if Aiden could somehow get a message back to Gage and Shakia, andconvince them to muster a small force and attack the Venter Institute? They couldtake hostages back to Chicago and force them to help humans, just as the Nunkiwere forcing Aiden to help them. They could send tutorials up to Mars. Ofcourse, the Mars Mission wouldn’t have the equipment necessary to carry outsuch incredibly advanced genetic engineering. Maybe they could ship equipmentto Mars on a small, unmanned ship.

He tried to imagine a handful of humans storming the Venter Institute andoverpowering the Nunki. It felt like a fantasy, something out of a Hollywood film.And it rested on the assumption that Aiden could somehow contact his friends inChicago. As far as he knew there was no short-wave radio at the Venter Institute,and he was never allowed to leave without a chaperone.

Aiden glanced at the Nunki, crammed into the space beside him. The onlyvaguely realistic plan would be for Aiden to bring a Nunki genetic engineer toChicago himself. And how realistic was that? He tried to imagine overpoweringthis creature looming beside him.

Maybe he could inject it with an elephant-sized dose of Haloperidol? If hecould locate Haloperidol. If a syringe could penetrate the Nunki’s thick skin.

This line of thought got Aiden’s heart pumping, giving his anxiety an edge inits wrestling match with his depression. He preferred anxiety. It was familiar, andit energized rather than sapped energy, if in a sickening way.

He tried to calm himself by acknowledging that he would never actually carryout such a plan. Despite what Penelope thought, he was no hero. He wasn’t acoward either, but there was a lot of space between a coward and hero. He fitneatly into that middle ground.

As they passed under an overpass, Aiden eyed the massive concrete pillarssupporting the road above. Could he drive the right side of the Hummer into oneof those, slamming it into the Nunki, while leaving himself relatively unharmed?He’d buckled his seatbelt out of habit, while it wouldn’t have been possible forthe Nunki to do so even if it wanted to. Of course the Nunki was a genetically-engineered biological super-species. The thing would probably walk away fromthe impact.

After filleting Aiden, of course.Another way to look at it was that this was humanity’s last chance for survival.

All the centuries of history, from ancient Mesopotamia to the Roman Empire, the

Renaissance to the industrial revolution, all the art, music, literature that washumanity, funneled down to this one moment in time, to whether one short, hairy,anxious man had the guts to steer his vehicle into a concrete pillar.

Aiden wasn’t sure he liked looking at it from that perspective. Placing theweight of human history on his shoulders did nothing to help his nerves. It couldlead right into a panic attack.

He nudged the accelerator, picking up speed.Was he really contemplating this?Evidently he was. But if he thought about it too carefully, he’d lose his nerve.If he did it, he’d have to accelerate quickly, in the last few hundred yards, so

the Nunki didn’t have time to stab him in the throat with that transparent barb onwhat passed for its forearm. It was telling, that a species creating their ownappearance would put barbs all over themselves.

An overpass appeared a quarter of a mile ahead, just visible in their headlights.Heart hammering wildly, Aiden nudged the accelerator up to forty, wondering ifhe could gain enough speed, driving in snow.

Was he really going to do this?It felt as if someone else was clutching the steering wheel, and he was

watching to see what those hands would do. Aiden eased the Hummer toward theshoulder. Snow mixed with black dust pelted the windshield.

The Nunki signed something as they picked up speed. Aiden stared straightahead, as if he didn’t see it.

The Hummer barreled toward the overpass.Was he really going to do this? Suddenly he felt violently nauseous. He was

going to vomit.He floored the Hummer, aiming to shear it in half.Yes, evidently he was really going to do this.The Nunki grabbed the steering wheel. Aiden struggled to steady it.

• • • •

He was in Penny’s apartment, eating shepherd’s pie with lamb and a glass ofPinot. Penny was wearing a brightly colored shift with ruffles that had a Mexicanor South American flair. Her eyes were bright, and she was speaking betweenbites, but Aiden couldn’t hear what she was saying. Her words were drowned outby a deafening hum. Aiden wanted to hear what she was saying, because eventhough she was here with him, he knew she was dead, so it was important that he

hear these words no matter how trivial they might be. The humming drowned outeverything, though. Even the pain.

Aiden opened his eyes. The white balloon of the airbag partially blocked hisvision. To his right was the concrete pillar, close enough that he could touch it.

Gradually he became aware of pain radiating from his nose and mouth. Whenhe lifted his head, the world tilted wildly before settling down. He was tempted totouch his nose to see how bad it was, but wasn’t sure he wanted to know.Exploring with his tongue, he discovered one of his front teeth was loose.

The Nunki stirred, back and to his right. It was still alive. Slowly, carefully,Aiden turned.

It was jammed between the concrete piling and the passenger seat, which wasnow more like a back seat. It was straining to free itself.

He tried to remember what his plan had been, to restrain the Nunki so he couldtake it prisoner and bring it to Chicago. Bind its limbs? Had he even had a plan?He couldn’t remember.

Aiden so wished he could go back to that dinner with Penelope. It was coldand dark here, so warm and bright in Penelope’s apartment. Plus there was amonster here.

It was going to free itself soon. He wondered if he should kill it and go back toChicago alone.

Yes. Kill it.Except he had no weapon. He looked around for something sharp or heavy,

maybe a piece of shrapnel from the wrecked Hummer.He spotted the duffel bag. The Nunki’s tools. There was a fire axe in that bag,

which the Nunki used to break through locked doors. As Aiden reached for it,agony shot through his hip. He grit his teeth, which triggered shooting pain in hismouth. Dragging the duffel to him, he reached inside. His fingers brushed thehandle of the axe.

Aiden couldn’t see the Nunki’s face, but based on its redoubled efforts tobreak free, it could see that he had an axe. Only, the thought of hacking the Nunkito death had him hyperventilating. The Nunki deserved it, but how could Aidenpossibly carry out such a grisly act?

The Nunki jerked partially free. Now Aiden could see its face. He knelt on hisseat facing backward, lifted the axe to the ceiling, aimed to bring it down in thecenter of the Nunki’s torso. Monty had said it was hard to kill a Nunki, because ithad duplicates of vital organs, and could staunch its own bleeding at will—

He hesitated.

Could it survive the amputation of its limbs? If it had no limbs, it wasn’t athreat. He could take it back to Chicago alive.

The thought horrified Aiden. It would be bad enough to kill it, but hacking itslimbs off? He was so close, though. If he backed off now, he’d never forgivehimself. Humanity would never forgive him.

The Nunki redoubled its efforts to break free as Aiden raised the axe. His eyessqueezed almost shut, Aiden brought the axe down on the nearest limb.

The Nunki let out a deep, deafening foghorn bellow.Aiden pulled the axe free. He chopped again. The limb bent at a horrible angle;

thick blood poured from the wound. In the dim light it looked greenish-black.Suddenly, the bleeding stopped, as abruptly as a shut faucet.The Nunki lashed out, speared Aiden’s forearm, digging deep. Shouting in

pain, Aiden swung the axe awkwardly with his other hand, drove the limb againstthe concrete piling, leaving a deep wound in it. He hit it again. The limb cracked,bent at a sharp angle as the Nunki bellowed. Aiden shifted his attention toanother, swinging the axe frantically.

• • • •

He could reach only five limbs. At that point he had no choice but to gooutside and try to cut the Nunki free of the Hummer using the axe and a crowbar.The steel toward the rear of the Hummer was mostly intact, and Aiden was able toslowly hack and pry the rear door out of the frame. His hip was in agony; bloodfrom the wound in his left forearm soaked his sleeve from wrist to shoulder.

Once the door was out, he worked on the roof, taking care not to hit theNunki, who was tensing and relaxing the stumps of its severed limbs, maybe inthe Nunki version of shock.

He cut through a section of the steel roof support. The Nunki came rolling outso abruptly Aiden had to jump out of the way.

The Nunki scrambled, raised itself onto two of its three remaining limbs. Itlunged at Aiden, slashed him across his stomach with the barbs on its free limb,shredding his shirt.

Aiden swung the axe wildly, striking the free limb down low, opening a deepwound just below its fingers. Before it could recover, Aiden hit the limb fartherup. He kept swinging, hitting it again and again, slashing the limb open in half adozen places. Finally the Nunki couldn’t hold the limb up any more and it saggedto the snow. Aiden stomped on the end and hacked it off with four swings of the

axe.The Nunki collapsed, its two remaining limbs splayed. Aiden eyed those limbs.

It would be easy to remove them now, but without them the Nunki couldn’tcommunicate with him.

Breathless, puffs of mist spewing from his mouth, Aiden looked around, triedto get his bearings. He needed transportation.

He opened the Hummer’s rear hatch, pulled out the portable battery charger theNunki kept back there in case of a breakdown, retrieved a flashlight from theduffel bag, and limped up the steep incline that led to the road above.

Once there, he shone the flashlight on the Nunki. It was writhing in the snow,in obvious pain. It wasn’t going anywhere on two limbs. There were no vehiclesin sight, so Aiden set out walking.

He was fairly sure his hip was fractured. His entire face was throbbing, and thegouge in his forearm was deep and wide, like a second mouth. He thought hecould see bone, and looked away.

He limped along, head down, one hand clamped on the neck of his coat tokeep the wind out.

After what seemed an eternity of walking, he spotted a house with an SUV inthe driveway. The SUV was unlocked. While the battery was charging he brokeinto the house using the axe, and found a ring of keys lying on the kitchencounter. He also found matches, and a needle and thread.

The Nunki watched from the ground as Aiden pulled the SUV behind thewrecked Hummer. Doubled over, Aiden approached the creature, shone theflashlight at its face.

Why? it signed with its remaining limbs.Fix humans, Aiden signed back. He turned away before the Nunki could

answer, if it intended to, and backed the SUV as close to it as he could.Aiden opened the hatch, then backed away.Get in, he signed. No way was he going near the thing.While the Nunki dragged itself into the back, Aiden stitched the wound in his

forearm. He hadn’t stitched a wound since med school, and had never stitchedwith one hand while dealing with the pain of being stitched without anesthesia.He was exhausted. His mind roiled with worries of the Nunki attacking him whilehe drove, of getting lost, of breaking down.

As he drove, he watched the rear view mirror more than the road, but eitherthe Nunki was too incapacitated to reach him, or it was wary of the axe proppedagainst the passenger seat.

• • • •

The SUV idling in the middle of I-90, Aiden tossed a bag of Snyder’ssourdough pretzels into the back. The Nunki retrieved them, opened the bag, andbegan to eat them one at a time.

His head pounding, wounds throbbing, Aiden signed to the Nunki. Sun comesout. Nunki go to— Aiden paused. There’s was no sign for Mars. —Not Earth, killhumans?

Why? The Nunki replied.There was also no sign for revenge. We pushed big rock.The Nunki didn’t reply.Aiden repeated the question.No, the Nunki signed.It was possible it was lying, but it was also possible they had a different way of

reasoning than humans. If revenge was part of their psyche, they would havekilled Aiden in Red Two, when he admitted to diverting the asteroid.

Sleep picture bad, the Nunki signed.Aiden didn’t understand. Sleep picture?Then, with a jolt, he got it. Sleep picture. Dream. The Nunki had had a

nightmare. Not surprising, given the trauma it had experienced.Aiden wasn’t sure how to respond. The Nunki deserved nightmares, after what

it and its kind had done. Yet Aiden couldn’t help feeling sympathy for it, becauseof what Aiden had done to it. If it were a human client, he would ask it todescribe the dream, and Aiden would help peel back the layers, to understand themessage behind the dream.

What sleep picture? he signed.Darkness.The universal boogeyman. Only, darkness was probably more terrifying to

Nunki than to humans, because Nunki relied on the sun for everything.By the light of his flashlight, Aiden could see two of the Nunki’s hearts,

beating away. Were they racing faster than usual? Did it feel alone, and afraid?

Chapter 16

When his headlights painted their house in Chicago with light, Aiden cried outin relief. He slumped across the steering wheel, his chest sounding the SUV’shorn in one continuous, deafening honk.

Seconds later, Shakia opened his door. “Oh my God. Aiden.” She raised hervoice. “Hurry. It’s Aiden. He’s a mess.”

She tried to ease him out of the SUV. Aiden clutched her hand. “There’s aNunki in the back. Whatever you do, don’t let anyone hurt it.”

Eyes wide, Shakia lifted her head, peered into the back of the SUV.“It’s incapacitated,” Aiden whispered.“Whatever you say.” She brushed Aiden’s face with her fingertips. “You look

like you’ve been through a war.”“Oh, jeeze.” Gage reached across Shakia and rested a hand on Aiden’s

shoulder. “I got him.”Shakia stepped aside. Gage slid one hand under Aiden’s knees, the other

behind his back, and lifted him out.As they headed toward the house, Aiden heard Shakia call out, “I need help

here. There’s a live Nunki back here.” Then she gasped. Aiden guessed she’d justnoticed the amputated limbs.

Chapter 17

The fireplace was heaven. The warmth on his face, his fingertips, his baretoes, was ecstasy.

Gage appeared holding a steaming bowl. “Soup. Chicken noodle. Progresso—not that weak-ass Campbell’s crap.”

Aiden sat up, accepted the bowl.“How you feeling today?” Gage asked. Aiden was fairly sure it had been day

three since his return, but it was easy to get confused with all the darkness. Plushe’d been high on OxyContin and sleeping most of the time.

“Better. I may try laying some groundwork with the Nunki in a while.”“I’m still trying to wrap my head around what you’re suggesting,” Gage said.

“You’re proposing we let a Nunki turn us into Martians?”“That’s exactly what I’m proposing.” Turn some of them into Martians,

anyway, and not all at once, but Aiden wasn’t in the mood to equivocate. “Ifwe’re going to survive, we have to adapt.”

Gage looked skeptical. It wasn’t going to be up to Gage, though, so let him beskeptical.

“Has anyone communicated with the Nunki? Does it seem at all open tocooperating?” Aiden asked. The alternative would be to torture it, and it seemedunlikely they could torture it into providing the elaborate tutorial they needed.

Gage nodded. “They’re pragmatic bastards, I’ll give them that. Unless it’slying, it’s willing to help in exchange for food and a decent quality of life. It saidhelping people live on Mars won’t hurt Nunki on Earth.”

That was encouraging. Aiden wanted to get started right away, but it could waituntil he finished his soup.

“You think you can handle more good news?” Gage asked. “It’s been so longsince we’ve had any, I don’t want you to overdose.”

“No, I’m definitely suffering from a good news deficiency.” He thought ofPenelope. “Go ahead, shoot.”

Gage grinned. “Remember Beltane’s idea, to build a ship from scratch?”Aiden nodded. That seemed like a hundred years ago.Gage waited a beat. “We have three under construction.”Aiden nearly dumped his soup. If even one was functional, they could take the

Nunki to Mars, along with the necessary equipment. Assuming the Nunki reallywould cooperate. It was a chance, though.

“We haven’t been sitting around on our asses while you were out playingBatman.”

“That’s great news. Fantastic.”As Aiden ate his soup, Gage studied Aiden’s face, frowning in concentration.

Aiden realized it was the same look Gage had given him in Grant Park as theNunki were bearing down on Red Two.

Aiden paused, spoon hovering halfway between bowl and mouth. “What?”Gage sat on the arm of the couch. “You crap your pants when you have to

speak in front of eight people. You can’t sleep without your big band recordingsto settle your nerves, even when all you’ve got to worry about is absolutelynothing. How the hell did you hold it together and do what you did out there?”

Aiden shook his head. “You still don’t get me. I didn’t hold it together. Most ofthe time I felt like I was having a heart attack. But I’m used to being terrified atthe prospect of doing something, then plowing ahead and doing it anyway. It’s theonly way I can ever do anything.” He could have added that death was far downthe list of things he feared. Death had an upside. Living terrified him much morethan dying.

Gage nodded, still studying him. “I guess I get what you’re saying. A little,anyway.” He squeezed Aiden’s shoulder before heading off.

Aiden wondered if the trauma of the past few days might recalibrate what hisbrain considered terrifying. Maybe speaking in front of eight people would nolonger set off his anxiety now that he’d vanquished a monster with nothing but an

SUV and an axe. He doubted it, but it was nice to dream. More likely he’d goback to dosing himself with Xanax and booze to get through the days.

Shakia joined him on the couch, examined his face as a doctor might beforenodding, satisfied. Shakia and Gage were keeping their distance from each othersince their unsuccessful journey in search of Gage’s family. Maybe Beltane wasthe one to ask, if he wanted to find out what had happened out there.

Her gaze on the flickering flames, Shakia patted Aiden’s knee. “You’re aremarkable man, Aiden. You’re still all tied up in knots, but you’re remarkable.”

“That means a lot coming from you.” And it did, it truly did.

Chapter 18

Gage followed the arc of the bottle of Highland Park Islay scotch as Aidentook a swig, then set it back down beside his reclined, cushioned liftoff chair.

“What?” Aiden had trouble forming the word, because he was soused.“Let me have some of that.”Aiden walked the bottle over to Gage. The other eight people in the ship’s

cabin—and even the Nunki—watched as Gage, who was about to pilot theirhomemade ship to Mars, took a long pull from the bottle.

Letting out a satisfied gasp, Gage handed the bottle back to Aiden. “We mightas well strap in and get on the road. Man, are we gonna be sick of each other bythe time we get there.”

As Aiden strapped in, he reminded himself that the first two ships hadlaunched successfully and were on their way. If a ship was going to fail, oddswere it would be the first, not the third. Yet as Gage went through preflightchecks, Aiden’s bowels were roiling.

“You all right?” Shakia asked.“Of course not. When am I ever all right?”Shakia gave him a reassuring smile. “We’ll be fine.”Aiden watched the Nunki as it strapped itself into its custom-made seat with its

two remaining appendages. They still had a long way to go, but maybe theywould be fine, after all.

Aiden took one more swig from the bottle to calm his bitter enemy, his oldfriend.

© 2015 by Will McIntosh. Originally published in Asimov’s Science Fiction. Reprinted by

permission of the author.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Will McIntosh is a Hugo award winner and finalist for the Nebula and eleven other awards.His most recent novel is Burning Midnight (Penguin Random House). His previous bookDefenders (Orbit Books) was optioned by Warner Brothers for a feature film, while Love MinusEighty was named the best science fiction book of 2013 by the American Library Association.Along with six novels, Will has published around fifty short stories in Asimov’s Science Fiction(where he won Reader’s Awards in 2010 and 2013), Lightspeed, Science Fiction and Fantasy:Best of the Year, and elsewhere. Up next is Faller, a wild SF adventure novel to be published byTor Books. Will lives in Williamsburg, Virginia with his wife Alison and twins Hannah andMiles. He left his position as a psychology professor in Southeast Georgia to write full time, andstill teaches as an adjunct, at the College of William and Mary. Will is represented by SethFishman at The Gernert Company. Learn more at his website.

EXCERPT: The Night Market (Houghton Mifflin Harcourt)Jonathan Moore | 1963 words

From an author who consistently gives us “suspense that never stops” (JamesPatterson), a near-future thriller that makes your most paranoid fantasies seemlike child’s play.

It’s late Thursday night, and Inspector Ross Carver is at a crime scene in oneof the city’s last luxury homes. The dead man on the floor is covered by anunknown substance that’s eating through his skin. Before Carver can identify it,six FBI agents burst in and remove him from the premises. He’s pushed into adisinfectant trailer, forced to drink a liquid that sends him into seizures, and thenis shocked unconscious.

On Sunday he wakes in his bed to find his neighbor, Mia—who he’s barelyever spoken to—reading aloud to him. He can’t remember the crime scene or howhe got home; he has no idea two days have passed. Mia says she saw him beingcarried into their building by plainclothes police officers, who told her he’d beenpoisoned. Carver doesn’t really know this woman and has no way of disprovingher, but his gut says to keep her close.

A mind-bending, masterfully plotted thriller that will captivate fans of BlakeCrouch, China Miéville, and Lauren Beukes, The Night Market follows Carver ashe works to find out what happened, soon realizing he’s entangled in a web ofconspiracy that spans the nation. And that Mia may know a lot more than she letson.

Forthcoming from Houghton Mifflin Harcourt on January 16, 2018.

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Carver pulled to the curb behind the chassis of a burned-out car.Across the intersection was the billboard, six spotlights along the bottom. They

shined upward, lighting the sign, throwing its shadow across the vacant buildingbehind it. The rest of the neighborhood was dead. A moonscape of abandonedwarehouses, everything picked over twice. Walls punched in with crowbars, wiresand plumbing stripped out. Even the streetlights were gone; in Bay View and

Hunter’s Point, copper was worth more than light. Kids were creeping in from theedges to steal bricks now. They could take them by the bucketload to the salvageyards south of town and trade them for day-old bread. He knew about that fromlast night.

But no one had touched the sign. Maybe it made them feel better, having it lit.He turned on the windshield wipers so he could see it clearly. He thought aboutgetting out of the car. He’d be able to see all of it if he walked to the middle of theintersection. He’d almost done that last night, too, when he’d been lost in thedark, driving back from the scene. Shaking still, from the gunfire. Tonight he’ddriven this way just to see it again. He didn’t have any business here. No one did.

The sign was brand new, but he couldn’t imagine who would have put it here.A place like this? They might as well have buried it in the desert.

It was selling perfume, a fragrance called Black Aria. The woman in the adwas an actress. He knew her face but not her name. His grandfather might haveknown. Elizabeth something? Or Audrey, maybe. She lay on her stomach, herchin propped in her hands. Her knees were bent so that her bare toes pointedstraight up. She was surely nude underneath the black sheet that was draped overher, covering no more than it had to. Sheet or not, every curve was there, definedin bare skin or beneath the indents and contours of satin.

It was all digitized, of course. Just another seamless fake. The real Elizabeth, orAudrey, wouldn’t have posed like this. Not back then, whenever she was alive,and not to sell perfume. People used to have standards. But those were gone nowand they weren’t coming back. Like the burned-out car, like the whole ofHunter’s Point. The bottle hovered above her bare shoulder blades, the crystalvial so thick it looked like ice. The liquid inside was the color of old blood.

The warmth started while he was looking at the sign. It began somewhere nearthe base of his skull and followed along his spine until it had spread through himentirely. Then the feeling inverted and his skin went cold. The hair on his armsstood straight out. It was thrilling, ranking right up there with the rush he’d feltlast night after the shooting had stopped and he’d realized he hadn’t been hit. Ifanything, it was better.

It was so quiet that he could hear the low hum coming from the billboard’sspotlights. Six slightly different tones combining into a curious chord. It mighthave been engineered to draw him closer.

He remembered television advertisements he’d seen as a kid. A Saturday-morning parade of things he’d wanted desperately and then forgotten about. Hedidn’t think he was going to forget about this. Of course, he had no use for

perfume. He didn’t wear it, and he had no woman to give it to. But that didn’tseem to matter, because what he was feeling was far beyond desire. It was thecrushing need a drowning man has for another breath.

He stepped out of the car and looked across the intersection. A flock of smallbirds, sparrows maybe, came swirling out of the darkness like a storm of leaves.They landed in unison on the roof of the scorched car, then turned toward him.He heard tiny claws tapping on the steel, felt a hundred pairs of black eyeswatching him.

He was standing in a neighborhood that was waiting for a wrecking ball.Bulldozers had been idle on its perimeter for months. When the lastcondemnation orders came, they’d lower their blades and roll. The demolitionteams meant to wipe away everything the thieves hadn’t already taken. Theywould knock down row houses and wire C-4 into century-old factories to makeway for the sparkling future. He’d seen the model in City Hall. White concrete andblack glass transforming the neighborhood into an autonomous shipping center.An unpopulated city from which driverless delivery trucks would glide north onpavement so smooth, their tires would barely whisper. Drones would humupward from rooftop landing pads, packages dangling beneath them as they spedover the blocks of unlit tenements and into San Francisco. In City Hall, he’d seenno plan in the models for the residents who would be displaced. Maybe they weresupposed to sell bricks.

He reached into the car and switched off the headlights, and then the street wasblackout dark. The ruins around him disappeared. There was just the sign.

Finally, he let himself walk out into the intersection. He stared up at the deadactress and the perfume she’d been enlisted to sell. It wasn’t just the woman,wasn’t just the suggestion of her naked body under the sheet. It was the bottle andthe lettering and the way the spotlights fell onto the black background, makingsomething so bright out of a void. As if he’d struck a match in a mineshaft, anddiamonds in the thousands came glittering back from the walls.

He couldn’t say where the peace came from, but he knew exactly what it wasdoing. It was cleansing him. Each swell took away a layer of darkness. In amoment he’d be bare; last night would be gone. He stood in the rain and savoredthat.

He only turned away when his phone rang.

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He answered it in the car, wanting to be out of the sign’s reach before he spoketo anyone.

“It’s me.”“You coming, or what?”It didn’t matter what Jenner was saying. He could be dictating a form over the

phone, or telling a kid to drop a gun. His voice never rose above dead calm. Thatmade Jenner the kind of man people usually listened to, but the kid last nighthadn’t. He hadn’t dropped his gun, either.

“I lose you, Carver?”“Sorry — on my way.”“Call came in and we’re up,” Jenner said. “You knew we were up again,

right?”“Sure.”“Where are you?”“Close to last night’s scene,” Carver said, after a pause. “There was something

I wanted to see again. The call, it came just now?”“Just now. I hung up, I called you.”“Be out front in five. We’ll go in my car.”“You were out there?” Jenner asked. “You got questions about last night?”“Not about you — you did just right. Plus there’s video,” Carver said. “So

don’t worry about it.”“Okay.”Carver could see the expressway ahead. No one had stolen the wiring up there 

— the commissioners and the mayor could ignore Hunter’s Point until theredevelopment was done, but not the new expressway. Its art deco streetlightsglowed in a curving run toward the city center, where there was enough midnightlight to make a false dawn beneath the fog.

“Tell it to me,” Carver said.“I talked to the lieutenant first. It started with 911. Some lady called from

Filbert Street. Said her neighbor’s screaming. Patrol comes, front door’s locked.”“Okay.”“When she tells me this, the lieutenant, she’s got the patrol guys on hold. So

she patches them in, and they tell me from there,” Jenner said. “I got it straightfrom them. They’d knocked on the door, shouted Police, the whole thing.”

“Nobody home?”“Nobody.”“What time was that, they knocked? We could establish —”

“Jesus, Ross, you told me to tell it. I’m telling it. You want to let me?”“Go ahead.”“You’re throwing me off,” Jenner said. “They knock just after midnight. How

do I know? They radio dispatch at 12:05. Say they’re getting out of the vehicle,going to the door. They make enough noise knocking and yelling, and after fiveminutes the neighbor lady comes out.”

Carver steered onto the entrance ramp. The pitted asphalt gave way to the newexpressway. It was like driving on a black mirror.

“The lady tells them she’s never heard anything like it,” Jenner said. “Thescreams, I mean. Said he was so loud, it was like he was in the room with her.”

“She know him?”“Ross, I don’t know. I’m telling it. I’m not leaving anything out,” Jenner said.

“So, he’s screaming. Like a madman, she says. Makes her blood go cold, all that.She goes to her window, peeks through the curtain. It’s dark over there, acrossthe street. But she sees someone in an upstairs window. He’s beating on the glass.Naked and bloody, and beating on the glass.”

“Just one guy? Not two?”“She just sees him, the one guy. So when patrol hears this, what she saw in the

window, they come off the porch and go back to the street. One of them gets thespotlight out of the vehicle, and asks her which window. She points, and theylight it up. Then they see it.”

For the second time that night, Carver felt his skin tighten, felt his hairs standup.

© 2018 by Jonathan Moore. Excerpted from The Night Market by Jonathan Moore. Published bypermission of the author and Houghton Mifflin Harcourt. All rights reserved. No part of this

excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the author.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Jonathan Moore is a Bram Stoker Award nominated author of five novels. His third novel,The Poison Artist, was a selection of the BBC Radio 2 Book Club. His novels have beentranslated into seven languages. Before graduating from law school in New Orleans, he lived inTaiwan for three years, guided whitewater raft trips on the Rio Grande, and worked as aninvestigator for a criminal defense attorney in Washington, D.C. He has also been an Englishteacher, a bar owner, a counselor at a wilderness camp for juvenile delinquents, and a textbookwriter.

Book Reviews: January 2018Christie Yant | 1613 words

Tor.com’s series of novellas is a breath of fresh air. These slender volumes arequickly becoming favorites of mine—the novella is an under-published form thatfor me perfectly hits the sweet spot between the satisfaction of finishing a bookfairly quickly and feeling that I got my time and money’s worth. Here I reviewthree of my favorites. I look forward to seeing more of these in the future.

Beneath the Sugar SkySeanan McGuire

Hardcover / EbookISBN: 978-0765393586

Tor.com, January 2018, 176 pages

“Children have always tumbled down rabbit holes, fallen through mirrors,been swept away by unseasonal floods or carried off by tornadoes,” begins thethird book in Seanan McGuire’s Wayward Children series. “Children have alwaystraveled, and because they are young and bright and full of contradictions, theyhaven’t always restricted their travel to the possible.”

Eleanor West’s Home for Wayward Children is part boarding school, part safe-house, and part half-way house for those unfortunate children who at some pointfound their looking glass or wardrobe door—and the life they were meant to livebehind it—and have now been pulled back into the mundane world, to wait forthe moment when their doorway returns again, or until they lose hope and decideto build whatever lives they can for themselves here. For a reader like myselfwhose most desperate pre-teen wish was to live in Narnia (preferably whilewielding a purple light-saber, an idea I didn’t find incongruent at the time), thispremise is everything I could want or hope for.

Our protagonist, Cora, is still readjusting to the mundane world and having adifficult time of it. In the watery world where she belongs, her physique makesher a formidable hero, a swimmer inured to the cold waters, sleek and strong, adestiny that her previous life on Earth hinted at as she excelled in enduranceswimming while enduring the pressures and ridicule of a world that demandedthat she take up less space. When the girl who drops from the sky into the pondbehind the Home turns out to the be the daughter of Sumi, a deceased formerresident of the Home, Cora finds herself a member of an inter-world search party

and forced to forge a reluctant trust with her new schoolmates.The search ultimately takes them to the world of Confection—a Candyland-

esque place that falls on the Nonsense axis of the rabbit-hole spectrum—wherethey must defeat the Queen of Cakes, find the final missing essence of Sumi, andreturn her to life so that her daughter can be born. Which is all exactly asdelightful as it sounds.

Apparently I’ve been living under a rock, because I actually didn’t realize thiswas part of a series until I was nearly done with it. McGuire merges hercharacters’ backstory so seamlessly into the immediate tale that it stood perfectlywell on its own, which is good news for anyone else who might want to jump inwith Beneath the Sugar Sky, and great news for me, because now I know there’smore!

Mandelbrot the MagnificentLiz Ziemska

Paperback / EbookISBN: 978-0765398055

Tor.com, November 2017, 128 pages

This imagined memoir of the discoverer of fractals sets the joy of discoveryagainst the horror and desperation of the Second World War. A prodigy born to aJewish family in Warsaw ghetto, Benoit Mandelbrot learns his love ofmathematics from an uncle who flees the war for an academic position in the US,leaving his family to walk the tightrope between being invaluable and beingconspicuous. While trying to build a new life in a France now under Germanoccupation, young Benoit pursues his passion for mathematics while resisting thedesire for any recognition from his teachers and classmates that might callattention to his family. When he risks a visit to the library—risky in that he issearching for books that are well beyond his expected level of mastery—hediscovers The Book of Monsters, a collection of mathematical wonders, and aquotation from his uncle’s favorite mathematician:

“These functions are an outrage against common sense, an arrogant distraction.But logic can sometimes make monsters, and it is the beginner that would have tobe set grappling with this teratologic museum. —Henri Poincaré, 1899.”

The puzzles presented therein—Cantor dust, the Koch snowflake, theSierpinski triangle—are finally enough to challenge him, and he devotes himselfto understanding their mysteries.

As the Gestapo’s net draws tighter around his neighborhood and his schoolrival grows bolder in his cruelty, Mandelbrot is introduced to another mystery thatreaches the very heart of his heritage as a Jew and as a natural pursuer ofunderlying truths: the serifot. His rabbi explains: “Serifot is Hebrew for‘emanations.’ According to the Kabbalah, it is the filter through which the Ein Sof,the Infinite, reveals Himself into the physical and metaphysical realm.” BetweenThe Book of Monsters and the serifot, Mandelbrot’s view of the world isfundamentally changed. As he begins to penetrate the truth of the endlesslyrepeating patterns that we have come to know as fractals, he finds himself able toinfluence the world around him in surprising ways—and hopes that he can usethis new power to protect his family.

Ziemska, born in Poland herself, brings a literary and scholarly quality to whatis inarguably a fantasy tale—or maybe it’s a fantastical quality to a scholarly tale.For all of my Googling, I couldn’t find a reference to a real mathematicalcollection called The Book of Monsters, but I was completely convinced of itsexistence during my reading of Mandelbrot the Magnificent. A grounding in thehard science of numbers, the immersion into a tragic history from the point ofview of the young man living it, and a twist into fantasy makes this an excellentread for both genre and literary readers alike.

The Murders of Molly SouthbourneTade Thompson

Paperback / EbookISBN: 978-0765397133

Tor.com, October 2017, 128 pages

Tade Thompson’s The Murders of Molly Southbourne is grim, ghoulish, andutterly gripping.

Molly’s Southbourne’s parents have made her memorize the rules. Some areeasy to follow; some are not.

If you see a girl who looks like you, run and fight.Don’t bleed.If you bleed, blot, burn, and bleach.If you find a hole, find your parents.A skinned knee, a paper cut, her first period—bad things happen when Molly

Southbourne bleeds, things her parents are desperate to protect her from. Thingsthat emerge from holes in the ground; things that look just like her.

The mollys are drawn to her, no matter where she is, and are always her ownage at the time they appear, whether she’s five or twenty-five. Some try to kill herright away, while others start out friendly, even needy—but eventually, they all gobad. If she’s particularly careless after some accident, there will be more than one.And as Molly grows up and craves independence, it will be up to her to eliminatethe mollys that will inevitably follow. Her parents prepare her well, teaching her ahundred ways to kill them and dispose of them. Only the real Molly may live.

This reader’s curiosity followed Molly’s own—what happens if she doesn’tkill them? Or if she makes one on purpose? What if she tells someone aboutthem? Her questions and experimentation change as she matures and tries toseparate herself from the sheltered life that her parents thought best and forgenew relationships. Her evolving relationship with the mollys carries her frommerely preventing and coping with them to trying to understand them. Are theyseparate from her, or part of her? Should she treat them with compassion? Wouldit matter if she didn’t?

If there is a weakness in the story, it’s around the why of Molly’s condition—not a lack of explanation, but rather the opposite: We get one, but I never reallyfelt I needed to know. I enjoyed the hints at her mother’s past, and her parents’talents for everything from butchery to forgery, and felt that the hints wereenough for me to build my own hypothesis. A science-y reason for someone likeMolly’s existence gave it a Firestarter/Stranger Things feel and gave us a peek atthe larger world beyond, but it came late in the story and had the effect of alsopiercing the hypnotic veil that Thompson had drawn around Molly and herpredicament.

That aside, I thoroughly enjoyed Molly and her many murders, and lookforward to more skin-crawling stories from Thompson in the future.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Christie Yant is a science fiction and fantasy writer, Associate Publisher for Lightspeed andNightmare, and guest editor of Lightspeed’s Women Destroy Science Fiction special issue. Herfiction has appeared in anthologies and magazines including Year’s Best Science Fiction &Fantasy 2011 (Horton), Armored, Analog Science Fiction & Fact, Beneath Ceaseless Skies,io9, Wired.com, and China’s Science Fiction World. Her work has received honorable mentionsin Year’s Best Science Fiction (Dozois) and Best Horror of the Year (Datlow), and has beenlong-listed for StorySouth’s Million Writers Award. She lives on the central coast of Californiawith two writers, an editor, and assorted four-legged nuisances. Follow her on Twitter

@christieyant.

Media Reviews: January 2018Christopher East | 1502 words

There’s always a risk of being critically dismissive of comedy. I think we’reconditioned react to it as a genre that favors style over substance, shallownessover depth. It’s perhaps even easier to be dismissive of comedy that combineswith science fiction and fantasy; the genres share, I think, a checkeredcollaborative history. But occasionally shows come along that effectively combinelaughter and unfettered imagination, to deliver not just humor and diversion, butinnovative worldbuilding, thought-provoking themes, and powerful emotionalcontent.

BoJack HorsemanCreated by Raphael Bob-Waksberg.

Produced by Tornante Company, ShadowMachineFirst season released August 2014.

Never has this been more true, I think, than with Netflix’s brilliant animatedcomedy BoJack Horseman, now four seasons deep and renewed for a fifth. Onfirst blush, BoJack may seem like an odd choice for a genre television review; it’snot a series that outwardly screams fantasy and science fiction. But I would arguethat with its fantastical worldbuilding and anything-goes sensibility, it landssolidly in the field’s inventive wheelhouse. In many ways a conventional sitcom,the show tells the story of former sitcom star BoJack Horseman (voiced perfectlyby Will Arnett), a washed-up has-been who found fame and fortune on thecritically reviled ratings monolith Horsin’ Around in the 1990s. For all the show’ssuccess, celebrity hasn’t been kind to BoJack. He may live in a posh mansion inthe Hollywood Hills on a pile of money, but he does so in relative obscurity,unfulfilled, with an appalling track record of ethical catastrophes littering hiscareer history. Twenty years out of the limelight, BoJack pushes through hislethargy in search of a comeback when his on-again, off-again girlfriend andagent Princess Carolyn (Amy Sedaris) negotiates the publication of his biography.Enter disaffected liberal ghost writer Diane Nguyen (Alison Brie), who startsshadowing BoJack with the goal of conveying his story of stardom to the world ina tell-all, bestselling bio. BoJack goes along with it in the hopes that it will reignitehis career, but the process of examining his past forces him to confront thedamage he left in his wake during a lifelong pursuit of external validation, and

eventually sets him on a slow, painstaking path toward redemption.Oh yeah, I forgot to mention: BoJack is an actual horse. And Princess Carolyn

is a cat. And BoJack’s celebrity rival, Mr. Peanutbutter (Paul F. Tompkins), is adog. Indeed, the colorful world of BoJack Horseman is rife withanthropomorphized animals, who casually intermingle with humans—Diane, forexample, or BoJack’s ne’er-do-well, unofficial housemate Todd (Aaron Paul)—ina manner that both comically plays up and ignores each character’s species. Thisleads, of course, to loads of animal puns and hilarious, species-specific sight gags.(In these ways, BoJack resonates strongly with the quirky, wordplay-addictedhistory of SF humor.) The surface is bright, fast-paced, silly, and diverting. Butthe show’s emotional core is, in fact, deeply serious, and the singular way BoJackplaces humans and animals on a level playing field has a peculiar, unexpectedpower, affording the show a unique method of commenting darkly on the humancondition.

Some may bemoan the fact that as a protagonist, BoJack is a clear descendantof the antiheroes of new golden age prestige drama: offensive, toxic, criminallyself-interested. But unlike, say, Walter White or Vic Mackey—misguided villainswho see themselves as the heroes of their own stories—BoJack is a self-awareprick, who occasionally sees through his own self-destructive bullshit and aspiresto be a better horse. As his comeback attempt progresses through severalunpredictable contortions over the years, he rarely makes a good decision, but hisproblematic personality does undergo painstaking, incremental transformation. Itis, perhaps, a more realistic version of character change than we usually see inTV, giving the series a sense of gradual, collective momentum—and leading tojust enough moments of insight and grace to make the (often surprisingly intense)darkness bearable. A similar cloud of artistic, emotional, and ethical strugglesurrounds the other major characters as well. Lightning-quick visual humor andbiting satire gives the show a flashy, bracing surface, but the viewer needs to keeptheir guard up, because the laughs are slippery, often disguising emotional gut-punches that really get at the heart of emotional and creative struggle. In short,there’s a lot more than meets the eye in BoJack Horseman, an uncommonlyaddictive show that can leave the viewer crying tears of laughter one moment andsadness the next. Not bad for a cartoon about a talking horse.

The Good PlaceCreated by Michael Schur.

Produced by Fremulon, 3 Arts Entertainment, and Universal Television.

First season released September 2016.

If you prefer genre comedies to be of the live-action variety, but still want tosee compelling characters striving for personal improvement, check out TheGood Place, now in the middle of its second season. Created by the ever-reliableMichael Schur, The Good Place is an afterlife fantasy that leverages the tools ofgenre to both comedic and surprisingly philosophical effect. A perfectly castKristen Bell stars as Eleanor Shellstrop, who awakens after her death in “the GoodPlace” to be greeted by the cheerful Michael (a spot-on Ted Danson), whowelcomes her to eternity. Hailed as one of Earth’s best-ever people, Eleanor isintroduced to her soul mate, an ethical philosophy professor named Chidi(William Jackson Harper), as well as neighboring couple Tahani (Jameela Jamil)and Jianyu (Manny Jacinto), and tries to get acclimated to the idea that she’s dead.But there’s another, bigger problem: Eleanor is in the wrong place. She was, infact, a terrible person during her life on Earth. Since owning up to her true naturemeans being sent to “the Bad Place,” she decides to live the lie of her owngoodness—a scheme she ropes her conflicted partner Chidi into abetting. But herattempts to put one over on the angels morph, unexpectedly, into a struggle toactually become a better person, and try to earn her place in Heaven.

Like BoJack, The Good Place presents as more comedy than fantasy. But thetechnicolor backdrop of this little corner of Heaven delivers plenty of skiffythought experiments and fantastical eyeball kicks, thanks to the anything-goespossibilities of its premise. As the “architect” of Eleanor’s neighborhood, forexample, Michael can shape reality with a snap of his fingers—even if Eleanor’smistaken presence, it seems, is causing his mysterious afterlife to go spectacularlyhaywire from time to time. There’s also Janet (D’Arcy Carden), something of acosmic artificial intelligence who can be summoned and dismissed at will todeliver comical infodumps to aid the characters as they confront dilemmas anddevelop schemes. The imaginative potential of the scenario is limitless, making ita show that regularly delivers the unexpected—and also isn’t afraid to fearlesslyreinvent itself. Considering Schur’s track record of creating cozy, comfortablefictional worlds—his CV boasts The Office, Parks and Recreation, and BrooklynNine-Nine—The Good Place is something of a departure in its restlesstransformations. Yet it also somehow retains Schur’s characteristic upbeatworldview, even if it’s presented through the eyes of Eleanor—that worldview’santithesis.

Which brings up another similarity to BoJack, which is The Good Place’s use

of a wildly imaginative setting to depict the struggles of living ethically andresponsibly in an ugly, unreasonable world. Like BoJack, Eleanor is a toxic tire-fire of a person, but The Good Place is not a celebration of her awfulness somuch as a hopeful speculation on the idea that even the worst of us can aspire tochange. Many great shows of the twenty-first century revel in the evil misdeeds oftheir lead characters, sometimes to the point of glorification, but The Good Placedoesn’t make that mistake. Constantly raising philosophical and ethical questions,the show possesses Schur’s progressive, positive worldview, even if its hero doesnot. Bonus: It may well be the fastest half-hour comedy in history, blazing past soquickly that the end credits often feel like an unwelcome act break.

With so many comedies wallowing in dubious messaging, merciless punchingdown, or pitting their characters against each other in mean-spirited competition,it’s refreshing to see shows that buck that trend to show people trying totranscend their worst tendencies, develop empathy, and improve as people.BoJack Horseman and The Good Place, two shows that might at first glance slipunder a genre fan’s radar, are comedies that both deliver consistent laughs and dothe interesting, creative work of genre fiction.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Christopher East is a writer, editor, reviewer, and avid consumer of science fiction, fantasy,and spy fiction. His stories have been published in Asimov’s Science Fiction, Cosmos,Interzone, Talebones, The Third Alternative, and a number of other speculative fictionpublications. He’s attended the Clarion and Taos Toolbox writing workshops, and served forseveral years as the fiction editor for the futurism, science, and technology blog Futurismic. Heblogs extensively about writing, fiction, film, television, music, comics, and more atwww.christopher-east.com. Currently he lives in Portland, Oregon, where he works for anoccupational and environmental health and safety consultancy.

Interview: Fonda LeeChristian A. Coleman | 2898 words

Fonda Lee is the award-winning author of the YA science fiction novelsZeroboxer and Exo. Born and raised in Canada, Lee is a black belt martial artist, aformer corporate strategist, and action movie aficionado who now lives inPortland, Oregon with her family. Jade City is her adult debut.

Jade City is the start of an epic gangster fantasy saga centered on a family ofGreen Bone warriors, the Kauls, and their involvement in a clan war overmagic jade that amplifies their fighting powers. All of this takes place on theisland of Kekon, a modern, Asia-inspired metropolis. How did the premisecome together for you?

In one of my old writing notebooks, there are a few lines that date to mid-2013when I was brainstorming ideas for what I would write as a submission piece tothe Viable Paradise writers workshop. I scribbled, “A city. Jade City.” And then Icalled it a “wuxia gangster saga” that “takes place in a modern world with gunsand cars, but where combat is hand-to-hand and power rests with those that havejade.” That was all I had: just a concept, no characters or plot. I ended up writinganother story as my submission piece and the premise for Jade City remained inmy notebook along with many other unused ideas. But I kept thinking about it offand on for another year. When an idea lodges in your mind and doesn’t go away,that’s when you know, as an author, that you really ought to pay attention. I had avision of what Jade City would be: a heady blend of gangster epic, family saga,and martial arts fantasy. An oft-quoted piece of writing advice is to write the bookyou can’t find but want to read. That was certainly the case for me.

Tell us about where your fondness for mafia and gangster stories comesfrom. What about them captured your imagination?

I can’t resist the mythos of the fictional gangster: a character who lives not inaccordance with the laws of ordinary society but by a harsh code of honor andbrotherhood. Almost every major organized crime society has a strongly enforcedculture of obedience, loyalty, and adopted kinship. It’s why the Sicilian mafia call

their leader “godfather,” why the Chinese Triads have ceremonies where theyswear oaths to their “brothers,” and why the Japanese yakuza cut off the tips oftheir little fingers if they cause shame to their superiors. It makes gangsters instories far more compelling and relatable than criminals motivated by simplegreed, and it offers up all sorts of opportunities for human drama—for storiesthat can encompass brutal violence yet also devotion and connection.

Were there any gangster stories that inspired you for this novel?

I’m a fan of mafia stories from both American and Asian cinema andtelevision: Goodfellas, The Untouchables, Once Upon a Time in America, andThe Sopranos are up there alongside Infernal Affairs, Election, The Killer, andBattles Without Honor and Humanity. The Godfather (the film and the novel)stands heads and shoulders above the others as an inspiration because it made mecare deeply about the family at the heart of the story—something that I wanted tocreate in my own fantasy take on the genre.

Jade City incorporates Eastern and Western influences. In your Powell’sessay about blending Eastern and Western story elements (bit.ly/2jNC43O),you write about the difference between borrowing another’s culturaltraditions for exploitative purposes in a work of art and cross-culturalinspiration. What’s your approach to bringing these influences together?

For me, it’s about thoughtfully combining things that I love. As a secondgeneration Asian American, that means finding inspiration from both Western andEastern stories. I grew up surrounded and engrossed by Western fiction—StarTrek, Star Wars, The Lord of the Rings, and so on—stories where there wererarely, if ever, any characters that looked like me and my family members. Only inearly adulthood did I start really seeking out fiction from Asian sources—kung fufilms, Hong Kong crime dramas, wuxia comic books. I found a lot to love, andthat cross-cultural pollination in my brain is a wonderful source of ideas for me.In that sense, I think Jade City is a very Asian-American work.

How did you choose jade to be the bedrock of Kekonese society? Not onlydoes it amplify the powers of the Green Bones, it also structures the social

hierarchy of the Kekonese and fuels their economy.

The idea of magical gemstones or ores is certainly not anything new in fantasyfiction. Usually, it’s gold or crystals or diamonds. But in Asia, especially China,jade is considered more precious than any of those. For thousands of years, theChinese have referred to jade as the “stone of heaven.” It was considered a linkbetween the earthly and divine realms and thus used in ceremonies and rites. Itwas associated with virtue and prized as a symbol of status and wealth. Jade wasalready figuratively magical in our world; I simply made it literally so in myfictional one.

The Green Bones that wield this magic jade enforce an elaborate chain ofcommand in their clans. How did you come up with the hierarchy and theterms that designate clan roles? I’m especially curious about the termsLantern Man, Weather Man (strategist and brains behind the scenes), andHorn (tactical warrior). The others—Pillar, Fist, Finger—are pretty self-explanatory.

I was inspired by the flowery, esoteric titles used by the Chinese Triads, whichhave title ranks such as “Incense Master,” “Straw Sandal,” “Red Pole” and“49er”—but of course I wanted to make up my own hierarchy and titles for theGreen Bone clans. From the start, I envisioned there being two sides to the clan—a military side and a business side—so I brainstormed lists of words that were notobvious titles but evoked a sense of the nature of the role. A “Pillar” isfoundational, central. I settled on “Horn” as a title that connotes strength—anatural weapon. “Weather Man” suggests a person whose job is to be perceptiveof the environment, to forecast the future. Fictional words and titles also reinforceworldbuilding; the “Lantern Men” are so named because of their historical role ascivilian collaborators who hung lanterns as secret signals of support andallegiance to the Green Bone warriors during the years of foreign occupation ageneration ago.

In the novel’s structure, I like how the three interspersed interludes tellshort creation myths and tales of Deitism, the religion that lays thefoundation for the Kekonese way of thought and warrior culture. They addyet another rich layer to the worldbuilding. How did you come up with these

passages?

I really enjoyed creating the Deitist mythology that’s interspersed as interludesin the novel. The first function they serve is to make the island of Kekon and theculture of the Kekonese people that much more real. Often in fantasy novels,we’re presented a fictional society as it is now, but not told how it got to be thatway. I wanted to give Kekon a sense of history. The short myths explain a greatdeal in a very economical way; they tie into sayings and attitudes and culturalreferences in the main story. The other thing they do is punctuate crucial momentsin the novel. In an early draft of Jade City, I wrote an extended and ramblingpassage of mythology as part of my worldbuilding work, but didn’t know if andwhere to include it in the book. Later, I figured out that I could turn it into theseshort interludes and use them strategically to reinforce the narrative.

This is your first novel written for adults. Your previous ones are for youngadult readers. In your experience, what has been a major differencebetween writing for adults and young adults? Some authors have talked andwritten about how YA novels make more allowances for violence whilekeeping out as much sexual content as possible.

I enjoy writing both young adult and adult novels, but I must say that I’mreveling in the sense of freedom I feel writing adult fiction. Not merely in termsof content (while there certainly is sexual content in young adult literature, mynovels are sold directly into schools, so my publisher is more stringent), butbecause, frankly, looking at YA shelves, you’d think that everything interesting inthe universe happens only to sixteen-year-olds. Obviously, that’s not true, andfurthermore, there’s only so much life history that a sixteen-year-old can have. Inmy adult fiction, I can have a cast of adult characters of different ages, each withtheir own history, relating in all sorts of interesting ways.

You said in a previous interview about your first novel Zeroboxer that youprefer young adult novels because they’re centered and grounded in thestruggles of one main protagonist. Jade City is a multi-narrative with severalintersecting character arcs. What made you change your mind aboutcentering the story on one main protagonist?

Part of it is my development as a writer—I simply couldn’t have successfullytackled a narrative with the complexity of Jade City earlier on in my career. I’mvery glad that I wrote young adult novels that trained me to tell tightly-paced,single protagonist stories; it helped me immensely to stay narratively focused in aproject like Jade City that might have sprawled out of control if I had been lessexperienced. In contrast to my previous novels, I knew from the outset that JadeCity would be about a family, and that demanded a different approach—a strongcast of characters as well as a leveling up in my writing.

I noticed that Jade City shares in common with your previous books, Exoand Cross Fire, the setting (and theme) of a peacetime era coming to an endwith the start of a war.

There’s even more to it than that; the other thing that both Jade City and Exohave in common is the legacy of a devastating prior war hanging over the society.The social scars and consequences of that have festered for a long time and arenow inciting the start of new conflicts. I’m very interested in creating worlds thatfeel as though they’ve been around for a long time and are now on the cusp ofanother chapter in history. I think it creates a lot of fertile ground to explore allsorts of analogs of in our own world—something that I love to do as a writer—and it also helps to give the story a propulsive momentum that is going to sweepup the characters whether they want it to or not.

Speaking of analogs, the action of the novel takes place a generation afterthe Many Nations War, the devastating prior war in which Kekon fought forindependence. Is there a historical reference point for it?

Yes, the Many Nations War is analogous to World War II in our world, whichis why the technology level in Jade City corresponds closely to that in the1960s-’70s.

Early in the novel, Hilo, one of the Kaul siblings and Horn of the No Peakclan, comments that the changes taking place in Kekon’s capital city ofJanloon are too fast. Is there a historical analog for Kekon’s growth?

Kekon’s growth was inspired by the rise of the four “Asian Tigers” of Taiwan,Hong Kong, Singapore, and South Korea in the latter half of the twentiethcentury. Times of economic development and social change are also times ofopportunity and prosperity for organized crime—think of the Chicago Mobduring the Roaring Twenties and the heyday of the Five Families of New Yorkduring the 1950s-’60s. Although the Green Bone clans are not technically crimegroups, I wanted to evoke a sense of increasing wealth in a city that’s on theascent, and the battles for turf and profit that invariably spring from that.

One of the themes I saw emerge in the novel was the illusion of choice. KaulLan, Pillar of the No Peak clan, tells his adopted cousin Anden that hedoesn’t have become a Green Bone after graduating from the trainingacademy if he doesn’t want to. When Lan’s sister, Shae, returns to Janloonafter spending years abroad in Espenia, he tells her she doesn’t have to getinvolved in clan politics if she doesn’t want to. But Lan’s rule of the clantakes place primarily during a period of peace. Then No Peak’s rival, theMountain clan, begins a war over jade with them. Do you think choice isonly possible during periods of peace?

One of my beta readers noticed that a common theme in Jade City ischaracters being forced to do what they don’t want to do. They want to believethey have a choice, but often that choice turns out to be an illusion when lifedoesn’t go as planned. I think this is true for all of us. For example, today I cansay, “I choose to make my living as an author instead of working a salaried job.”But what if, God forbid, my spouse fell sick and lost his job and needed medicalcare? To meet the needs of my family, I would do whatever I had to, includingthings I wouldn’t want to do. That’s what war does in Jade City—it forces thecharacters away from the options they have in peacetime, and into positions androles they don’t want to assume. But they do it because they feel they must.

The martial arts fighting in the war, as well as the other action sequences,have high emotional stakes for the characters. How do you strike a balancebetween choreography and characterization when fight scenes usually takeplace in a very short time span?

I don’t think of the fight scene as being just the physical action. I consider the

lead-up to the scene and the aftermath of the scene to be vital to making the fightitself work. A fight scene shouldn’t detour or pause character development; it ischaracter development. There are scenes of violence in Jade City where my hopeis that when they occur, they come as a surprise yet they feel entirely inevitablebecause by that point, the reader should know exactly what the stakes are for thecharacters and why this is happening.

The fight itself needs to have a tone. There’s one fight in the book that’s avicious, sudden ambush. Another that has the feel of a very formal and deliberateritual. And yet another that’s a planned act of war. I’m trying to evoke all that inthe fight itself. And then the consequences of those acts of violence reverberatethrough the rest of the story.

Jade City is the first book of the Green Bone Saga. When can we expect thesecond book to come out and what can you tell us about it?

The next book of the Green Bone Saga is scheduled to come out in 2019. I’mhard at work on it now. I normally write a book a year, but the Green Bone novelsare twice as long and about five times more complicated than my previous books,so readers will have to be a little patient. I can tell you that there will be newthreats to the No Peak clan and to the country of Kekon; you’ll get to see otherparts of the world impacted by jade; and there will be more scheming, betrayal,vengeance, and bloody jade-enhanced fights. The story will remain centered onthe Kaul family, however; that’s a very strong part of my vision for this trilogy:that it be, at its core, a story about this family.

What other projects are you working on that you can tell us about?

Cross Fire, my next YA science fiction novel and the sequel to Exo, will bereleased in June 2018. I’m excited to be continuing my alien occupation story. Ihave several ideas for future projects as well, but I’ll be focused on the GreenBone Saga for some time.

ABOUT THE INTERVIEWER

Christian A. Coleman is a 2013 graduate of the Clarion Science Fiction & Fantasy Writers’

Workshop. He lives and writes in the Boston area. He tweets at @coleman_II.

Author Spotlight: Adam-Troy CastroSandra Odell | 858 words

From the opening line, “The Streets of Babel” catapults the reader into thestory. What inspired this tale of sensory and social extremes?

I had the essential image, a metropolis as amoeba, extending pseudopods tolocomote across a landscape, while sucking up people to function as its citizenry.I have absolutely no memory of this image entering my head, but everything elsein the story proceeded from that genesis.

I find the story a surreal blend of a dystopian future and primitive huntergatherers: AM from Harlan Ellison’s “I Have No Mouth, and I MustScream”; the wedding scene in Ellison’s “A Boy and His Dog”; thelandscapes and struggles from Quest for Fire. Do you have any particularthoughts on blending genres? Are there elements from other genres thatyou feel would work well together?

Oh, I blend genres all the time. I have completed stories and sought out helpas to where they belong on the graph. Sometimes it’s not quite clear. One story Iwrote as science fiction, “In the Temple of Celestial Pleasures,” was meant forLightspeed but ended up at Nightmare, though I considered it an uneasy fit.Boxes are for things that fit easily on shelves.

There is no direct conflict in this story. Instead, “The Streets of Babel” peelsback layers of assumption to reveal certain societal pressures as seenthrough the eyes of the outsider: sexism; the nine-to-five work drive; thedifferences between the sexes; television; a sense of despair andpowerlessness. What is it about these everyday stressors that appeals togenre readers? The familiar amidst the unknown? A matter of presentation?

Sometimes it’s enough to just illustrate a situation. Another writer (andcertainly most moviemakers) would have resolved this particular story with ourprotagonist, the unnamed savage, leading a successful revolt against the churningmetropolis. I find that a lot less interesting than the diagnosis. Many genre readers

understand that at this length, at least, it can be as useful as what plot wouldprovide, a course of treatment. (And they like having their assumptions tested; atleast, those I court do.)

You regularly post on social media of your love of movies, often sharingAsian movies, most notably Korean and Japanese. Setting aside othercinematic styles, is there anything in particular about the various Asiancinemas that speaks to you as a viewer? As a writer?

One factor that makes Asian cinema, specifically Japanese, Hong Kong, andKorean cinema, feel so fresh to this viewer’s eyes is that these traditions have notcompletely internalized the rhythms and patterns which so many Americanmovies fall into, to the point where it is possible to watch many of our own filmswhile not fully paying attention: to wit, the strict three-act structure where you cansee the various story complications lining up according to page count, the final actwhere story reversals appear on cue, the return to status quo even when anytrauma experienced during the tale would render that unlikely.

One thing I appreciate as both an audience member and as a storyteller is thatthe best Korean films (in particular) play for keeps. They have little observablefealty to the way a story “should” go, will not pull back when the time comes tohorrify—even in non-horror films, will twist the knife at times when manyAmerican films would have would paused for a tension-relieving joke. You don’tknow, as you do with many homespun movies, that it’s safe to go to the popcornstand now, because something of importance just happened and that nothing elseof importance will happen for the approximately seven minutes that will take.

By contrast, too many American films are wholly consequence-free. Even ifthe characters go through absolute hell in a battle for survival, they will often belaughing and telling jokes to assure us, in the last five minutes, that we can goback out to the parking lot feeling good. I am not saying that this is a universalfailing; far from it. I am saying that one key way to make a story feel like itdoesn’t matter is to return the characters to their starting positions, without effect.(This may be an odd note to append to a story where that basically happens, butit’s okay for that to happen occasionally, less so for that to become defaultformula.)

To date I have seen extraordinary Korean films in the genres of Horror,Disaster Film, Science Fiction, Police Drama, Thriller, Western (or “Eastern,” I

suppose), and Romantic Comedy. Want a great recommendation? Check out theKorean romantic fantasy The Beauty Inside. See it with someone you love. OrCastaway On The Moon. Beyond beautiful.

When not writing, how do you rest and reconnect with the world? Whatdoes Adam-Troy Castro do to recharge his batteries?

I tell the cats to put that down, whatever “that” is, in context.

ABOUT THE INTERVIEWER

Sandra Odell is a 47-year old, happily married mother of two, an avid reader, compulsivewriter, and rabid chocoholic. Her work has appeared in such venues as Jim Baen’s UNIVERSE,Daily Science Fiction, Crosssed Genres, Pseudopod, and The Drabblecast. She is hard at workplotting her second novel or world domination. Whichever comes first.

Author Spotlight: José Pablo IriarteArley Sorg | 1390 words

I feel like Jamie’s resilience, an individual who is “different” from socio-cultural expectations/definitions, is beautifully portrayed here, in a layered,meaningful way. There’s this raw authenticity throughout the story. Whathelps you create moments and emotions that feel real?

I’m so pleased that Jamie came through this way for you! Jamie felt very realto me—not just Jamie, but Alicia, too. These are the first characters I’ve writtenwhere I thought afterward, I’m not done with these two. I want to write aboutthem again.

Beyond that, though, I wanted to write about somebody who was very muchnot taking any shit from the world around them. There are people who judgeJamie and don’t accept them, but I wanted this story to not be about those people,so they’re on the periphery. Jamie has people who love them and have their back.I wanted to show that, and I wanted to show a character living their life withoutfear.

There’s also a sense of darker possibilities at various turns in the plot. ButJamie’s decisions bring us around to hopeful/positive/empowered results,without being escapist (in other words, there are still things about life thatsuck—problems don’t magically vanish; and those problems take their toll.But Jamie makes the most of it). Was the choice to not go too darkdeliberate? Did you play with other possibilities?

Well, I definitely didn’t want to write anything tragic. I think in our world wealways know that tragedy is right around the corner and always a possibility, andso it looms over Jamie like it looms over us all. But there are enough tragediesabout transgender kids and adults, both in fiction and in reality. This didn’t needto be another one.

I also didn’t want to focus too much on Jamie getting vengeance for their ownsake, because that felt very linear to me. Jamie discovers their murderer living thegood life nearby and goes after him and . . . does what? That story could haveturned dark, but my main problem with it was it felt obvious. Jamie finding Larry

Dearborn too close to death to be worth getting even with—that felt bothsurprising and inevitable, given that it’s been decades since Janie’s murder.

You hear a lot about endings that surprise you but feel inevitable in hindsight.For me, I’ve found that an effective way to lead the reader to this place is to focuson a tangible character need but have a more emotionally resonant one hidingright underneath that. So when Jamie wants some sort of justice for themself butrealizes they can’t really get what they crave, I at least found it satisfying for Jamieto get some measure of justice for Benjamin.

You mentioned (in another conversation) that this is a very personal storyfor you. Can you talk a bit about what makes this personal—as much as youare comfortable sharing, in any case?

Yes. This story is personal for me because I am nonbinary. I don’t queergender in the way that Jamie does, but maybe if I’d grown up with the confidencethat being myself was an option, who knows? So maybe Jamie is some alternateuniverse braver version of me.

I’ve long had a fascination with gender and what was “allowed” and not forcertain people, and how utterly arbitrary these rules always felt to me. Anybodywho’s known me long enough should be able to see that in my writings andinteractions.

I’ve wanted to explore this in fiction for a long time, but it’s so hard to workpast the same tropes you see done over and over again—shapeshifting or aliens asa way to explore being transgender, or stories that are all about being closeted andcoming out, or all about being a victim. I had to grow a lot as a writer to be ableto tell this story, to avoid the obvious directions. Even once I wrote it, it was hardto trust myself to have gotten it right—even when writing about things I havepersonally felt!

What excited you and what challenged you most about writing this piece?What are the pitfalls of writing something that is deeply personal? Or ispersonal where your writing usually happens?

I think knowing that telling this story right was going to require an honesttouch, and that was going to require me to make myself vulnerable. Personalabsolutely is where my writing usually happens, but there are pitfalls. I’ve written

stories about experiences that I was too close to to be able to fictionalize well.When you bare yourself in your writing, there is always the possibility that peoplewill recoil from what they see, and when they do, it’s hard not to feel as thoughthey’re recoiling from you.

With this story, I’m extra afraid. I’m afraid because art is self-revelatory, and Iworry about having to explain or justify my truths. I’m also afraid that thecommunity I see myself in solidarity with will not see me as one of their own.

Identity and representation are big discussions in the publishing industry. Doyou feel like the industry is changing? Or are we only seeing change inspecific pockets and circles? Moreover, where do we need to go next, aswriters, publishers, and readers?

¿Porqué no los dos? I feel like the industry is changing slowly, but certainpockets are leading the change—maybe because they have less to lose. I see morediversity in short fiction and in young adult fiction. I see a lot of agents andeditors saying they seek diversity, but then you look at the statistics aboutpublishing, especially novel publishing, and wonder where the disconnect is.

On the other hand, I see five or six specific voices thrown out there as the go-to voices when somebody wants to show that they’ve heard of a Black writer, aLatino writer, a queer writer. And they’re good voices, don’t get me wrong, butit’s not really diversity yet.

Who are the writers that inspire you (or which stories/books)?

Young adult novelist A. S. King is the writer that inspires me most. She writesterrifically honest portrayals of teenagers who are smart and who are goingthrough genuine moral and emotional challenges—basically, she shows teenagersas real people. My favorites of hers are Ask the Passengers and Please IgnoreVera Dietz.

Among short story writers, Sam J. Miller (check out “57 Reasons for the SlateQuarry Suicide”), Sarah Pinsker (I think my favorite is “The TransdimensionalHorsemaster Rabbis of Mpumalanga Province”), Caroline Yoachim (give “FiveStages of Grief After the Alien Invasion” a read), Sandra McDonald (“The GhostGirls of Rumney Mill” is my favorite), Ken Liu (“The Paper Menagerie,” ofcourse), and Elizabeth Bear (check out “Tideline”) are the people I can always

count on to move me. That’s what I want more than anything else—stories thatwill give me a profound emotional experience.

On your website (labyrinthrat.com) you mention novel-length fiction . . .!There’s so much to appreciate and admire about this piece. Your new fansare wondering: What are you working on that they will get to sink theirteeth into?

Right now I’m working on a novel about a Cuban-American teenager whobegins having blackouts during which she flashes out of her own life and into herlong-deceased abuela’s body, forty years ago in Havana. She knows that hergrandmother died giving birth to her mother very shortly after immigrating to thiscountry; now she’s got to learn how to navigate life as a pregnant teenager in acommunist country decades ago. In order to keep her own timeline intact, she’llhave to get her pregnant grandmother to the United States during the Marielexodus, while also working to bring to justice a serial murderer from bothtimelines.

ABOUT THE INTERVIEWER

Arley Sorg grew up in England, Hawaii, and Colorado. He studied Asian Religions at PitzerCollege. He lives in Oakland, and usually writes in local coffee shops. A 2014 Odyssey WritingWorkshop graduate, he is an assistant editor at Locus Magazine. He’s soldering together anovel, has thrown a few short stories into orbit, and hopes to launch more.

Author Spotlight: Susan Jane BigelowJason Ridler | 673 words

I enjoyed the use of second person narration, which played with ourexpectations of the story and the feeling of loneliness. Why did you choosethis particular POV (feel free to drop spoilers!)?

This was actually my first attempt at creating a story with second personnarration. I was reading some of A. Merc Rustad’s work, I think it was “MonsterGirls Don’t Cry,” and they’re just brilliant in what they can do in second person. Ialso liked the feel of the work that second person helps to create, which isremoved, remote, and lonely—but also connected, in a way. The present tense ofthe story amplifies that feeling and makes it a little foggier, a little more surreal.The combination worked perfectly for this story, which is about someone wholives very much in the present, is quite alone, but is also at peace with that.

There seems to be a theme between solitary existence and being surroundedby life and watchers. I liked how solitude didn’t make “you” feel alone, butin fact, watched and connected (sometimes with nature, sometimes withthreats). I’m curious how you think of solitude as a value.

I love being alone, especially when I’m alone in the middle of nature. One ofmy favorite things to do is to get up early and go climb a nearby ridge, so I can siton top of the rocks overlooking the valley below, and be entirely alone. I’vealways liked going for long walks in the woods or wherever I might happen tobe. Being alone like this is, for me, very peaceful. My body sheds any sort ofsocial weight society puts on it, and becomes the machine I inhabit that moves meto where I want to be. When I do this, I feel connected to the world around me, tonature, and to my own physicality and consciousness.

I was once something of a chameleon; I would change based on who I wasinteracting with or who I was near. Being alone helped me understand who I amwhen no one is watching. I like that person: She climbs a lot of mountains andswears constantly.

Survivors’ stories tend to generate sympathy from the get-go, yet there’s

also the subtext of “why them?” which creates dread and curiosity. Do youhave any favorite stories of this type?

When I was a kid, I had this illustrated, for-kids version of Robinson Crusoethat came with a cassette tape with someone reading the story. I listened to it overand over. I’m pretty sure that’s where my interest in both survivor stories andstories about being alone in the wilderness come from. I realize that this isprobably not how I was supposed to interpret the story, but I thought being totallyalone on an island would be great. I wouldn’t even need to make a volleyballfriend like Tom Hanks!

How did your own views on the relationships between people and theenvironment shape your telling of the story?

Humans can obviously be connected to the environment and/or incrediblydestructive towards it. But even if humans stop existing, if we wipe ourselves out,are driven to extinction, or just up stakes and leave, the environment will go on. Itdoesn’t need us nearly as much as we need it.

I wrote this story in response to my own fears of nuclear war, which are aprimal thing for me. I grew up in the 1980s when the possibility of a nuclearexchange with the USSR was still quite real, so that has lurked in my own psychefor many, many years. After I wrote this story, though, I felt a lot better, in astrange sort of way. It’s comforting to know that even after we’re all gone, theplanet spins on.

ABOUT THE INTERVIEWER

Jason S. Ridler is a writer, improv actor, and historian. He is the author of A Triumph forSakura, Blood and Sawdust, the Spar Battersea thrillers and has published more than sixtystories in such magazines and anthologies as The Big Click, Beneath Ceaseless Skies, Out ofthe Gutter, and more. He also writes the column FXXK WRITING! for Flash Fiction Online. Aformer punk rock musician and cemetery groundskeeper, Mr. Ridler holds a Ph.D. in War Studiesfrom the Royal Military College of Canada. He lives in Richmond, CA.

Author Spotlight: Sarah PinskerGordon B. White | 1102 words

“The Court Magician” feels like a rediscovered fable. Although closeattention reveals this story’s layers, on the surface it reads like astraightforward fantasy narrative that culminates in a distinct moral lesson.What was the initial inspiration behind this story? Were there any explicitsources or other works that you intended to draw from or play against?

I wasn’t playing with any specific works. I wanted a title that was more fable-like than contemporary story, especially since the title of the piece refers not justto the boy at the center of the story, but to other people who have filled the samerole and made different choices. I wanted the characters to mostly be nameless,the town and the ruler and the country to all be nameless. I started writing this inJanuary 2017, and the political origins are probably pretty obvious.

The story tells readers that, in magic, “the trick is not enough,” but that“the illusion is in what is said and what isn’t said, the patter, the posture, thedistractions.” “The Court Magician” operates much the same way—itpresents a seemingly simple story, but under that guise, it is introducing andexploring deeper themes. Do you see similarities between writing and stagemagic, such as both forms’ reliance on the audience to suspend disbelief, butto also still be curious enough to try to work out what’s really going on? Didthe concepts of magic and misdirection influence the story’s structure or thechoice to use unembellished prose?

I’m fascinated by stage magic. There’s definitely a similarity between stagemagic and fiction, not just in the reliance on the audience to suspend disbelief, butalso in the power of misdirection. Writers choose what readers see, and whenthey see it. What’s background or set, what detail will be important to the story?We control the timing of what is revealed when, and if we do it right, we rewardthe careful reader. Style is just one of the tools.

One theme that seems nestled within the story is a very timely examinationof the cost of complicity. Here, the Regent decides which problems he wants

to “disappear,” and although the court magician has no decision-makingrole and takes no direct physical action, his uttering of a single word enablesall these problems to “go away.” The reader is never privy to that magicword, which could be as esoteric “Abracadabra” or as simple as “Okay.”Although the magician never sees the direct aftermath and never feelsphysical pain, after every instance of acquiescence he loses a piece of himself(often literally), his comfort, or something that he loves, until he is mangledand isolated. What is it about this theme that interests you, and what madethis story the right venue to explore that?

The cost of complicity—and the willingness to be complicit—were the germsof the story. I started writing this last January, when it became obvious that theguy in the White House was going to surround himself with the worst humanspossible, and people were saying, “Oh, at least ___ will humanize him.” “___ willmitigate his tendencies,” all of which was wishful thinking. And then a fewmonths later, people were asking “Was ___ bad to begin with, or was it the jobthat made him bad?” And I’m not sure it matters, given what they’re doing. Doesit matter if you were evil or just ambitious if the result is the same? Does it matterif you signed on with a corrupt regime to be the voice of reason if you end updoing unreasonable things? Are you redeemable? Do you deserve redemption ifyour remorse is based on a personal connection (“As a father of daughters . . .”)as opposed to an actual rejection of the system? Does it matter if one personresigns in personal protest if the system is still in place? I’m leaving blanks insome of those sentences because they apply to so many people. The beauty ofSFF is in the way we can make these things literal.

We’re also always told that there has to be a cost to magic, so I enjoyed makingthe cost of magic so literal.

When readers first meet the boy who will become the court magician, whatsets him apart from everyone else isn’t his lineage or innate talent, butrather his drive to understand how things work. As he ascends the ranks ofthe market magicians and then under the palace magicians’ tutelage, hisaccomplishments are like symptoms of this hunger. He turns at the end,however, when he thinks back to all the problems he has made disappearand all that he has lost, to asking “Why?” rather than “How?” Even theplatitude that his “body bears the cost of peace” is no longer enough. What

do you see as the relationship between power and understanding? Is themagician’s hunger for knowledge dangerous within itself, or only because hewas used as a tool for the Regent?

I don’t think hunger for knowledge is dangerous; I think hunger for anythingis dangerous when it allows you to be manipulated. And of course, what mattersmore than knowledge is what you do with it once you’ve acquired it.

In the end, our protagonist abandons his position as court magician andrefuses to participate in recruiting or training the next generation of courtmagicians (although it appears unlikely that his mere absence will have anylasting effect). Instead, our protagonist goes off into the unknown, seeminglystill looking for the answer to the trick. Even if he finds the answer, is therehope for him? What about for the rest of that society?

I’m going to leave those questions unanswered, though I’ll say that thenarrator is still narrating.

Finally, what can readers anticipate seeing from you next? In addition toconcrete projects and releases, are there any new and nebulous ideas thatyou’re just starting to explore?

I’ve got a novelette in the Twelve Tomorrows project from MIT Press, out inMay, and a story in the Catalysts, Explorers & Secret Keepers: Women of ScienceFiction anthology, which just came out. I’ve got some other big projects I’mexcited to announce, too, but I can’t quite talk about them yet.

ABOUT THE INTERVIEWER

Gordon B. White has lived in North Carolina, New York, and the Pacific Northwest. He is a2017 graduate of the Clarion West Writing Workshop, and his fiction has appeared or isforthcoming in venues such as Daily Science Fiction, A Breath from the Sky: Unusual Storiesof Possession, Nightscript Vol. 2, and the Bram Stoker Award® winning anthology Borderlands6. Gordon is also an Assistant Editor with Kraken Press and conducts reviews and interviewsfor various outlets. You can find him online at gordonbwhite.com or on Twitter at@GordonBWhite.

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Plus, we have original fantasy by Cassandra Khaw (“The Quiet Like aHomecoming,” with a cover by Sam Schechter) and Rahul Kanakia (“A Coward’sDeath”), and fantasy reprints by Jeffrey Ford (“The Seventh Expression of theRobot General”) and Malinda Lo (“One True Love”).

All that, and of course we also have our usual assortment of author spotlights,along with our book and media review columns.

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