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No Beginning, No EndRichard Rider


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Dedicated to LJ.

Copyright by Richard Rider 2009


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N O B E G N N N G , N O E N D

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August 2014

"ip #a$e% ear&y on the '(nday )orning, and *or a )o)ent he

can+t re)e)ber #here he i%. e+% $ic$ed a&& hi% co-er% do#n %o they+re

tang&ed aro(nd hi% &eg%. O&&y doe%n+t nor)a&&y &et hi) do that.

t *&ood% bac$ in a r(%h and he &ay% there %ti&& *or a )o)ent

&i%tening to the %o(nd% o* the )orning, bird% %inging and tree% r(%t&ing

gent&y &i$e a de*en%i-e )oat o* &ea-e% a&& aro(nd the ho(%e. i%ter Bo&&o i%

t(c$ed %a*e bet#een the pi&&o#% and "ip bring% hi) o(t care*(&&y, )ore

ner-o(% than e-er abo(t hand&ing hi) no#. e+% %t(pid&y, irrationa&&yparanoid, ha&*/con-inced that e-en lookingat hi) i% going to )a$e a&& hi%

&i)b% *a&& o**, b(t o* co(r%e it doe%n+t. he )on$ey *it% in hi% hand

per*ect&y. t aay% did. t+% %o %trange ho# hi% hand and the )on$ey+%

#oo&&en body ha-e aay% *e&t &i$e they be&onged, e1act&y the %a)e no# a%

it #a% #hen he #a% *o(r and hi% hand #a% tiny.

e co(&d *a&& bac$ a%&eep %o ea%i&y. e a&)o%t doe%, &(&&ed bythe h() o* -oice% %o)e#here in the ho(%e and the *a)i&iar, co)*ortab&e

%)e&& o* hi% o&d c(dd&y, b(t t#o thing% happen Dory co)e% r(nning into

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hi% roo) in her nightie, #i&d/haired *ro) %&eep, and hi% phone beep% a te1t

thro(gh.

45 '67' 86E 5" 6ND D6D '67' 7O5+RE L6:7;4%he %ho(t% at hi). e %tart% &a(ghing, (nti& %he &eap% on the bed and then

he+% too #inded to breathe. 486E 5" 86E 5" 86E 5";4

4 ain+t getting (p yet, it+% &i$e *i-e o+c&oc$;4 e get% her in a

head&oc$ and &et% her %tr(gg&e there, %hrie$ing and gigg&ing #hi&e he trie%

to *oc(% hi% eye% to pre%% the right b(tton% and read the )e%%age.

Can+t %tand #a$ing (p a&one.

8hen can #e )o-e yo(r thing% in< 1

"ip %)i&e% at that, he&p&e%% and goo*y &i$e he+% *i*teen, then he

t(rn% hi% phone o**. Lind%ay can %#eat. t+&& annoy hi), not getting a

re%pon%e. e+% bri&&iant #hen he+% annoyed b(t doe%n+t rea&&y )ean it, he

doe% that *ace. "ip can %ee it in hi% )ind %o c&ear&y, the #ay Lind%ay %et%

hi% =a# and the &ine o* hi% eyebro#% and c(r-e o* hi% &ip% #hen he+% pi%%ed

o** and a)(%ed and in &o-e a&& at the %a)e ti)e...

4LE E GO;4

4No #ay, yo( tre%pa%%ed on )y pri-ate property, yo(+re )ypri%oner no#.4

46% i* a);4

e %tart% tic$&ing her )erci&e%%&y and %he %crea)% the ho(%e

do#n, $ic$ing at hi) #ith her &itt&e *eet, b(t %he+% %ti&& gigg&ing %o it+% o$ay.

e aay% hated being tic$&ed, it+% &i$e tort(re. "eop&e aay% thin$ it+% %o

hi&ario(% tic$&ing %o)eone #ho doe%n+t #ant it, a% i* acting &i$e that i%n+t

ba%ica&&y rape. Dory+% hy%terica& #ith &a(ghter, tho(gh, &a(ghing %o hard

her eye% are %trea)ing. "ip gi-e% (p a*ter a partic(&ar&y -icio(% $ic$ in the

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rib% and *a$e% %(rrender, &aying *&at on hi% bac$ and &etting her %it on hi)

and p(nch the air &i$e %he+% =(%t %cored the #inner in the 8or&d C(p.

hi% i%n+t #or$ing, thi% ignoring/Lind%ay thing. "ip+% itching tot(rn hi% phone bac$ on and %end bac$ a giddy rep&y that+% a&& ?3 and

1o1o1o. e doe%n+t, he =(%t %@(int% at hi% c&oc$ on hi% bed%ide tab&e. A!.

5gh.

4Get o** )e, yo( %pa. need a %ho#er.4

47eah, co% yo( 'N;4

4o# co)e yo(+re being %o horrib&e to )e


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get% (p *or hi% %ho#er a% %oon a% %he+% o(t o* the roo) beca(%e he can+t

ca-e in and te1t Lind%ay bac$ i* he+% in the %ho#er.

e+% &i-ing bac$ at ho)e no#. ight a% #e&& )a$e hi)%e&*

(%e*(& and ta$e Dory to ba&&et, and any#ay it+% an e1c(%e to get o(t o* the

ho(%e and a-oid a&& the a#$#ard @(e%tion% abo(t #hy he+% there at a&&. 'he

)a$e% hi) ho&d her Bagp(%% bac$pac$ and gr(dging&y &et% hi) ho&d her

hand #hi&e %he pretend% to be a tightrope #a&$er on the $erb at the %ide o*

the e)pty road.

4 can do it on )y o#n,4 %he %ay% cro%%&y, and "ip ha% to

%tr(gg&e not to %)i&e at ho# )(ch %he &oo$% &i$e their dad #hen %he

*ro#n%. hat+% %o bac$#ard%, ho# %he &oo$% &i$e their dad and he &oo$% &i$e

their )().

47eah, $no#, b(t #hat+&&Ido i* yo( ain+t &oo$ing a*ter )e<

)ight &i$e *a&& o-er the pa-ing %tone% or %o)ething. Fa&& in the hedge,

%pi$e )y%e&* on %o)eone+% *ence, anything co(&d happen. t+% dangero(%

*or boy% to #ear hee&%, yo( $no#.4

'he &oo$% at hi) %(%picio(%&y a% i* %he $no#% he+% ta$ing the

pi%% b(t doe%n+t %ay anything e&%e. t+% a good co)*ortab&e %ort o* %i&ence,

ho&ding hand% and %$ipping thro(gh the dapp&ed %(n&ight (nder the tree%. t

%ee)% a %ha)e to brea$ it, b(t he+% b(r%ting to te&& someoneand %he+% a%

good a con*idante a% any.

4ey, yo( re)e)ber Lind%ay yo( )et the other day


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4Oh )y god, p&ea%e %ay that to hi% *ace.4

48hy


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4 loveO&&y,4 %he %ay%, &o(d and -ehe)ent #hich on&y )a$e% it

harder.

4e too, b(t don+t &o-e hi) &i$e )y boy*riend no )ore.4

4o# co)e


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4Did Dad te&& yo( that


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4Don+t yo( &i$e it


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4Do yo( &o-e )e


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46 bit.4 e+% doing that a#*(& thing again, %)i&ing &i$e a

co)p&ete dope #itho(t )eaning to and #itho(t being ab&e to %top once he+%

noticed.

4 $ind o* e1pected yo( to be a&& b&ac$ and b&(e by no#.4

4Not thi% ti)e. t #a% =(%t... nice. 8eird. 'ad. I(iet.4

4'ad


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hi% co#boy boot% to #here the three gir&% are ganging (p on 'a) and

Jo%eph and pe&ting the) #ith *ootba&&%. 4Gi-e% )e panic/ra%h =(%t thinking

abo(t the) gro#ing (p &i$e )e and yo( had to.4

48e t(rned o(t a&right.4

47eah, b(t it #a% a *(c$ing ba&&ache getting there.4

"ip+% phone i% in hi% *ront poc$et, digging (nco)*ortab&y into

hi% hipbone no# he+% %itting &i$e thi%, and he bring% it o(t and =(%t ho&d% it

in hi% pa&). e had a )e%%age #hen he t(rned it on to phone O&&y b(t he

)ade hi)%e&* &ea-e it a&one. e+% regretting it no#. t *ee&% &i$e it+% b(rning

a ho&e thro(gh hi% =ean%. aybe O&&y $no#%. e %o(nd% ca%(a& eno(gh

#hen he get% (p and br(%he% hi)%e&* o** and %ay% he+% going to re%c(e the

boy%, b(t )aybe he $no#%. "ip t(rn% the phone on @(ic$&y a% %oon a%

O&&y+% gone and trie% to #ipe that ridic(&o(% %)i&e o** again. Fo(r ne#

te1t%.

7o( &ay ba%tard, it+% ha&* pa%t eight. 8a$e (p and te&& )e

yo( &o-e )e.

$no# yo( can+t go )ore than %e-enteen %econd% #itho(t

&oo$ing at yo(r %t(pid phone. 6n%#er )e.

6re yo( #aiting *or )e to %ay &o-e yo( *ir%t0


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>.

a&entine phone% hi) the ne1t e-ening and doe%n+t e-en bother

%aying he&&o, he =(%t &a(nche% %traight in. 4 $no# +) probab&y )eant to

p&ay it coo& and )a$e yo( #ait and a&& that %hit b(t *(c$ the r(&e%, are yo(

b(%y to)orro#< Co% there+% thi% thing +) doing *or )y )ate+% birthday,

yo( don+t ha-e to co)e co% it ain+t rea&&y yo(r %cene b(t i* yo( #ant yo(

can, +d &o-e it i* yo( did.4

48hat thing


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4"ress nice,4 a&entine %ay% in a -oice *(&& o* %)ir$%, and hang%

(p. Dre%% nice. 8hat the he&& i% +dre%% nice+ %(ppo%ed to )ean0


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4o&d yo( +d )a$e yo( beg,4 a&entine %ay%. e+% on *ire #ith

happine%%, &a(ghing and breath&e%%. e )anage% to get a hand bet#een

the) to #rap aro(nd Lind%ay+% %training coc$ and bring% hi) o** in =(%t a

co(p&e o* %tro$e%, $i%%ing hi) hard and biting hi% &ip ra#, %#a&&o#ing

do#n hi% ga%p% and %#ear% &i$e #ater #hi&e Lind%ay =ac$$ni*e% on the bed

and doe%n+t e-en care i* he di%&ocate% hi% %ho(&der% #ith hi% hand% %ti&& in

the c(**%. e bare&y e-en rea&i%e% #hen a&entine co)e% a )in(te &ater.

e+% -ag(e&y a#are o* the roo) going @(iet H the on&y ti)e a&entine e-er

%h(t% (p in bed i% #hen he+% co)ing H b(t it+% &i$e a drea). t *ee&% &i$e hi%

entire &o#er ha&* i% %ti&& t#itching and %pa%)ing, da)p #ith %#eat and

ridd&ed #ith goo%eb()p%.

4"&ea%e,please god&et )e do thi% again,4 a&entine %ay% a*ter a

)o)ent #hen they+-e both %tarted to co)e do#n. i% *ace i% *&(%hed dar$,

high (p on hi% chee$bone%. t )a$e% hi) &oo$ -ery yo(ng, &i$e it

accent(ate% hi% ang&e% and t(rn% hi) bac$ into that pointy/*aced

be#itching idiotic teenager Lind%ay *ir%t $ne#.

4aybe,4 he )anage%. e can %ti&& ta%te cotton in hi% )o(th,

and the %harp tang o* b&ood #here a&entine bit hi% &ip, tho(gh it doe%n+t

*ee& &i$e it act(a&&y bro$e the %$in.

4aybe )y ar%e, yo( *(c$ing lovedit;4

4)... it+% &i$e choco&ate ca$e. Once in a #hi&e it+% nice, b(tho# %ic$ #o(&d yo( get i* yo( had it three ti)e% a day


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going to be in the )orning and $ind o* re&i%hing the tho(ght o* *ee&ing it a&&

day at #or$, e-ery ti)e he p(t% a boo$ bac$ on the %he&* re)e)bering ho#

it happened...

4Chri%t, +) t(rning into yo(,4 he )(r)(r%, t#i%ting the %econd

ha&* o* the %entence into an (n%toppab&e ya#n. a&entine =(%t &a(gh%,

thro#ing the c(**% onto the carpet and %ett&ing Lind%ay+% ar) aro(nd hi%

body.

4No )ore ta$ing the pi%% co% &i$e getting tied (p and

)o&e%ted.4 No# he+% ya#ning too, #ide and chi&di%h&y %&eepy again%t thebac$ o* hi% hand.

4Don+t go to %&eep in tho%e %t(pid boot%.4

47o( &o-e )y %t(pid boot%.4

4a$e the) o**.4

Lind%ay he&p%, p(&&ing a&entine+% right &eg into hi% &ap and

#or$ing on tho%e b(c$&e% #hi&e a&entine doe% the re%t. 6% %oon a% they+re

o**, a&entine di-e% acro%% the roo) to t(rn o** the &a)p in the corner then

get% bac$ (nder Lind%ay+% ar), %&iding hi% *inger% thro(gh the &(be %ti&&

poo&ed aro(nd hi% na-e& and %)eared acro%% hi% body. e+d a&)o%t

*orgotten a&& the )adne%% o* the night, (nti& a&entine+% -oice %(dden&y c(t%

thro(gh the dar$ne%% in a %earching, hope*(& #hi%per 4Lind%ay< 6re )e

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47o( $no# pi&&o#ta&$ )a$e% )e ho)icida&. Go to %&eep.4 e

hear% a&entine &a(gh @(iet&y, *ee&% a gent&e $i%% on hi% %ho(&der, and

re%pond% by br(%hing hi% *inger% again%t the p&ace he can aay% *ind in the

dar$, the ed#ig tattoo on a&entine+% hipbone.

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!0.

"ecember 2014

t+% hard to %ay #ho%e idea it #a% to ha-e a )a%%i-e *a)i&y

Chri%t)a% in their ho(%e thi% year. hey both %#ear b&ind it #a% the other

one.

4 hate Chri%t)a%,4 Lind%ay %ay%, trying not to %(&$ &i$e a

teenager. 4 #o(&d ne-er %(gge%t thi% circus.4

48e&&, I'dne-er %(gge%t p(tting yo( and )y dad in the %a)e

roo) #ith )i%t&etoe, #o(&d >


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a&entine+% cried &i$e a baby abo(t ha% re%o&-ed some prob&e)% b(t the

tho(ght i% %ti&& there, deep in%ide hi% brain &i$e a t()o(r hey *(c$ed each

other #hi&e thi% $id #a% %&eeping in the roo) abo-e, and they did it *or

years.

t+% %t(pid. t+% not 'a)+% *a(&t. Lind%ay %tart% #rapping the cab&e

o* hi% earphone% aro(nd hi% i"od and goe% to %tand #ith hi).

4Nice hat.4

4t+% #ar). 8hat+% (p


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4e+% #or%e than )y nan% and a(ntie% and )() and dad and

%i%ter% and their)() a&& p(t together. e need%... on a b&oody &ead &i$e a

dog. i) and )y dad do )y head in #hen they )a$e )e go %hopping, +d

rather &ie do#n in the road.4

4 $no# that *ee&ing. Not that +-e e-er had the p&ea%(re o* going

%hopping #ith yo(r dad.4

4L(c$y,4 'a) )(tter%. e doe%n+t %ay anything *or a #hi&e, =(%t

#atching the %$ater% on the ice rin$ do#n at the botto) o* the ca%t&e #a&&,

then he%itant&y he %ay%, 47o( don+t &i$e )y dad -ery )(ch, do yo(


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4Oh,4 he )anage% -ag(e&y. e goe% in hi% poc$et *or another

%)o$e b(t )a$e% hi)%e&* %top. Li$e O&&y need% another rea%on to hate hi),

i* he e-er *o(nd o(t Lind%ay #a% b&o#ing %)o$e in hi% $id+% *ace. hen

4Do yo( thin$ he #a% happier be*ore


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!!.

Lind%ay+% )() dri-e% her%e&* do#n *ro) 8a&e% on Chri%t)a%

E-e )orning, and in her (%(a& %ty&e %he get% %traight to b(%ine%% a% %oon a%

the h(g% and he&&o% and ho#/are/yo(% are o-er #ith and Lind%ay+% nipped

o(t to the %hop beca(%e %he+% *(%%y and doe%n+t &i$e hi% teabag%.

4 #ant to a%$ yo( %o)ething,4 %he %ay% to "ip.

47eah


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4Ready #hen yo( are. +-e been thin$ing abo(t it *or year%.4

t+% probab&y not -ery nice *or Lind%ay to co)e into hi% &i-ing

roo) and *ind hi% )other ha&*/%hirt&e%% on the co(ch and hi% boy*riend&oo)ing o-er her #ith a *e&t tip, b(t that+% hi% o#n *a(&t *or being %o

narro#/)inded. e doe%n+t e-en %ay anything, he =(%t %tare% at the)

b&an$&y *or a )o)ent then t(rn% right bac$ ro(nd and &ea-e%. hey hear

hi) %&a) e-ery door bet#een the) and the *ront one, then the %nar& o* hi%

car engine a% he e%cape%.

47o( $no# #hat, *or %o)eone %o good in bed he can be a right*(c$ing pr(de %o)eti)e%,4 "ip %ay% #itho(t thin$ing, then rea&i%e% and

&a)e&y add%, 4Oop%;4 b(t France% =(%t &a(gh%.

4e+% &i$e hi% dad.4

4Oh yeah, he #a% a bit o* a &o-e )achine too, #a% he


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4 can #a%h it o** and %tart o-er i* yo( #ant anything di**erent.4

4No, it+% per*ect. tr(%t yo(.4

46&right.4 e %h(t% (p *or a #hi&e, getting e-erything ready on

the top tray o* hi% #hee&ed %tand, &ining (p hi% &itt&e in$ c(p% and ta$ing the

&id o** hi% a%e&ine t(b. 4Ready


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po%%ib&y be annoyed< "ip+% ne-er %een her &oo$ thi% *&(%hed and thri&&ed

be*ore, and he+% been to a 'io(1%ie gig #ith her.

47o( %ho(&d te&& hi). e+d be happy *or yo(, bet he #o(&d.4

47eah, )aybe. 8e+&& %ee, he )ight ha-e a *ace &i$e the ar%e end

o* a co#, no point getting e1cited and %pi&&ing the ne#% (nti& %ee hi) in

the *&e%h.4 'he+% got her chin t(c$ed do#n, &oo$ing at the dar$ tattooed

&ine% on her che%t. 4t+% #onder*(&, &o-e it.4

48i&& be #hen it+% done. 7o( ready to go again


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4D(nno. J(%t aay% a). e and hi) ain+t got nothing in

co))on, #e %ho(&dn+t get on. =(%t %(dden&y re)e)ber %o)eti)e% and it+%

&i$e... oh yeah, he thin$% +) a&right, thi% i% a)aing.4

48e&&, ne-er tho(ght +d )arry a *ar)er t#ice )y age. 7o(

can+t choo%e thing% &i$e that. o# boring #o(&d it be i* yo( got to

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E&&ie phone% on Chri%t)a% a*ternoon. er na)e *&a%he% (p on

Lind%ay+% )obi&e #hen he+% not in the roo) and "ip+% not %(re #hat to do,

&ea-e it and &et it ring or ta$e it to *ind hi) or... thi% i% *(c$ing %t(pid, he

te&&% hi)%e&*, and an%#er% it =(%t be*ore the %i1th ring %end% it to

an%#erphone.

4ey, it+% "ip.4

here+% a &itt&e pa(%e be*ore %he rep&ie%. 4e&&o.4

4 thin$ Lind%ay+% ha-ing a poo or %o)ething, %ha&& get hi) to

ring yo( bac$


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at hi% de%$ #itho(t dropping the phone *ro) #here it+% t(c$ed bet#een hi%

ear and %ho(&der. 4o# are yo(


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tho(ght nothing #o(&d a&& #or$ o(t &i$e thi%, ne-er )eant to %tea& no

one+% boy*riend.4

47o( didn+t. e &e*t, he #ent and *o(nd yo(. 7o( didn+t *indhi).4

4'po%e.4

4 don+t #ant thing% to be a#$#ard.4

4No.4

4 don+t #ant to #a%te yo(r Chri%t)a%, %ho(&d go.4

47o( don+t ha-e to.4

4here+% a %no#)an to b(i&d.4

46&right.4

48i&& yo( te&& Lin phoned


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4Oh.4 Lind%ay c&o%e% the door behind hi)%e&*, co)e% right o-er

and cro(che% on the *&oorboard% in *ront o* the chair to %tart (nb(ttoning

hi% %tretched cardigan *ro) aro(nd "ip+% &eg%. 4% e-erything a&right


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Lind%ay+% #ar)th and %cent (nti& the gr()b&ing abo(t ho# hea-y and bony

he #a% #o$e hi) bac$ (p. Lind%ay aay% &et it happen, tho(gh, %o he

co(&dn+t ha-e )inded that )(ch. e+% %$i))ing hi% *inger% do#n "ip+%

bac$ no#, %&ipping (nder the &oo%e he) o* the open cardigan and (p to r(b

#ide circ&e% again%t the cotton o* hi% t/%hirt. 4Don+t be (p%et. t #on+t do

any good. 8hat happened happened and no# it+% %topped %o =(%t &et it go.4

4No# #ho+% being a pot< Or a $ett&e. 8hich one are yo(


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4Don+t get o**ended, b(t yo(+re rea&&y hea-y.4

4Char)ing.4 e rea&&y doe%n+t #ant to get (p. e trie% )o-ing

in%tead, %preading hi% #eight a bit )ore and %ett&ing bac$ again%t Lind%ay+%che%t, tipping hi% head bac$ again%t hi% %ho(&der %o he can %ti&& %ee hi). 4%

that any better


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4Loo$ ho# hard yo(+re getting. i&e &itt&e e1hibitioni%t, yo( &o-e

thi%.4

4 &o-eyou.4

4h()b,4 Lind%ay order%, and "ip p(t% it bac$ bet#een hi% teeth

and trie% not to )a$e any )ore %o(nd%, trie% not to thin$ abo(t a&& the

parent% and the &itt&e %i%ter p&aying card ga)e% do#n the ha&&. rie% to #i%h

the #ho&e #or&d a#ay, e%pecia&&y Canada.

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!3.

t+% probab&y not going to be too bad a*ter a&&. e can pa%%

r(dene%% o** a% being a *(%%y che* and not #anting anybody getting (nder

hi% *eet in the $itchen #hi&e he+% preparing dinner. e can hear %hrie$% and

th(d% (p%tair% in the &i-ing roo) and a&entine &a(ghing, ob-io(%&y

deter)ined to gi-e hi% %i%ter a good go on the B they bo(ght *or her

#hether it+% pi%%ing do#n rain o(t%ide or not. Lind%ay trie% not to thin$

abo(t chipped anti@(e *(rnit(re and %tic$y drin$% %pi&&ed on e1pen%i-e

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