your own

personal hell

a zine by andrew ramirez

your own personal hell is a zine on the past year or so of my life which dealt with a lot of negative feelings due to losing lots of friendships and connections w/ ppl whom i was very close with leading to a downward spiral filled with self destructive vices.

ultimately this is a zine about separating yourself from your past rejecting bitterness + growing in various ways forming new friendships + relationships + learning to appreciate the world around you. at times it can be contradictory but feelings don’t always have rationality.

dedicated to:din mrini aka @trashnymphjonathan desousa @lucifervibestommy iacono @tmicnjason bard @jasonbardhttp://theshadesofcool.bandcamp.com/every dog in the worldthat guy on grindr who called me vaporwavefull communism + myself

thank you all

only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.only in your absence did i ever feel your presence.

i’ve felt more welcome in abandoned homes than i ever did in your company

i’ve felt more welcome in abandoned homes than i ever did in your company

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RITSUKO AKAGI WAS ONE OF THE MOST UNDERRATED CHARACTERS IN EVANGELION

the way you manipulate people is so fucking funnyi want to watch you burn

the way you manipulate people is so fucking funnyi want to watch you burn

hahahahaha haha i am so deepwow

artwork by tmicn @tmicn on instagram

abandoned buildingsthe concept of breathing

i’m not herei’m not herei’m not here

your last dying wishif it doesn’t hurt it’s not realromanticizing anything is stupida list of things you don’t understandeventually it becomes rambling

crying doesn’t solve anything but i feel more human with tears in my eyes

i’m not herei’m not herei’m not here

do you hate me? do you want to use your hate to kill me?

stab me and i’ll push the knife in deeperthen i’ll stab you

you’ve overstayed your welcomeyou can die now

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yeah lol. :-P until you’re seen as the toxic person.

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tw?? lol

they’re rebuilding this house. i guess you can’t s t a y in the past forever. the world moves on.

i will move on too.

they’re rebuilding this house. i guess you can’t s t a y in the past forever. the world moves on.

i will move on too.

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nothing is really safe.i’m so happy i finally found myself.

i used 2 tell myself that i’d probably never let this go.

+ forgive me if i tend 2 romanticize the past, but if i’m being honest, i’m probably in a better place right now.

we’re not going to do our best today

the sun sets and you go home.

we’re not going to do our best today

+ everything comes full circle

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